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vaguely-concerned · 10 months ago

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there are a lot of daddy issues to go around on DS9 in general, but odo, bashir and garak are really in their own special little fucked up 'what am I but wrought in my father's image' club

#star trek #star trek ds9 #ds9 #odo #julian bashir #elim garak #(I personally think we should put their dads in a cage match and let them kill each other. tain would probably win #but we could just shoot him after he claimed that victory. I Would Like To See It)#the triumvirate of bad dads to karmically oppose the sheer power of good dad vibes benjamin sisko has #specifically dads who Cannot and Will Not allow the healthy individuation of their sons into whole separate people #apart from what their father's hands have shaped them into #where that is one of the first things sisko accepts and realizes he must allow jake to do right at the early seasons #the bad dad club boys seem more specifically forcibly held in place to serve as mirrors for their fathers #and have to find ways to break away from that in more or less graceful ways; breaking off more or less important parts of themselves #to do so #dr mora seems to have a 'oh fuck.' moment where he sort of realizes what he's done #but the sympathy that gains him from me is hm. neglible lmao at least tain is basically fully just a monster #what's your excuse mora #I haven't met bashir's dad properly yet but I've seen enough to suspect I'm not going to be very charitably inclined towards him either

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danthropologie · 3 months ago

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i was only half joking when i said it's time to redbullracinghateblogging but wow, they truly managed to reach a new low that even mclaren couldnt dream of

no i know this is truly just.....unfathomable. to me mclaren is still worse cause that was malicious over the space of months and months, while this.....this just feels like pure incompetence top to bottom. but that doesn't mean i'm not ready to torch the fucking factory just the same!!! lmao

#and the thing is i really DO think they don't have a decision yet and that's why it spiraled out the way it did #but truly what the fuck did they think would happen here. what did they expect.#they knew the narratives going into the weekend. it would have been SO EASY to just clarify that he will be here thru the end of the year #still leaving 2025 open to decide during the break #but they couldn't even fucking do that. instead they let the media tear him the fuck apart and make their decision for them.#fucking cowards. incompetent ass cowards.#silly season24 #singapore24 #answered #anonymous

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toddtakefive · 7 months ago

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thinking about todd and his resolve toward… not quite isolation, but being alone in a room full of people again. he goes along to the study room to sit on his own and do his homework, he sits at the poets table and follows along with what’s being said while keeping quiet, he goes to the meetings at all but doesn’t necessarily contribute (in fact, if you watch him when cameron is telling the story ‘from camp in sixth grade’, you can see that he recognizes it before any of the other poets but doesn’t voice it until they all have). he’s not alone, necessarily, if you want to get technical about it, he’s just lonely, and he’s generally okay with that. he doesn’t have friends and that’s fine, he doesn’t participate in class and that’s fine, he doesn’t have a relationship with his family and that’s fine—he could live without any real connection and he’d have been, more or less, fine.

the thing about when he says “i can take care of myself just fine!” is that he isn’t really wrong, you can infer that he’s been doing it his entire life anyway, it’s that ‘taking care of yourself’ isn’t the same thing as really living or being happy. todd’s an introvert, certainly, and even as he gets closer to the group he defaults to sitting quietly in the background, but he’s also denying himself community out of fear not introversion. todd isn’t friendless because he’s an introvert, although that definitely plays a part, he’s friendless because he pushes anyone that might want his company away. if anyone has every wanted for his attention in the first place. (neil’s unwavering interest in him is unique (even when it comes to the rest of the poets, who are fine with todd coming along and joining the group, but aren’t really hellbent on him being there in the beginning) and his refusal to accept it is a direct result of being so lonely growing up.)

there’s obviously something to be said about the implications of his parents neglect, and the more than likely fact that he grew up friendless, and how those both play a part in in him being so skilled at dodging social interaction/being so avoidant of it, but by the time we see him in the movie he’s all but accepted his fate as being alone his entire life. he’s already accepted being the family disappointment, and he’s already accepted he’ll never amount to anything, and he obviously doesn’t like it, but he’d have managed living with that knowledge without the confirmation that it was all wrong. would he have been miserable? almost certainly. but he’d have managed. he’d done it for that long already, anyhow.

#and like obviously it’s BAD in the long run and his isolation IS only making his life worse but… genuinely he’d have been alright #all things considered #it’s super interesting to me how it’s neil who starts the domino effect of todd’s life becoming Less Shit #both by beliving in him and putting faith in him that he’s never seen before and refusing to let him hide away #but it isn’t a savior moment on neil’s part #and i find it so odd when people frame it as one #todd is like… actively irritated at him in that scene 😭#neil is right that todd needs to get out of his shell and put himself out there and Believe in himself #but todd can’t accept it yet because he can’t see what neil sees in him yet and doesn’t believe it exists at all #and it frustrates him because unlike everyone else neil REFUSES to give up on him #and as far as todds concerned it’ll be for nothing #as far as todd’s concerned neil isn’t a savior or a hero in that scene he’s an annoyance #a necessary one in the grand scheme of things but an annoyance all the same #i think people forget that just because todd DOES want to break out of his shell (‘don’t you think you could be?’ / ‘no! i… i don’t know!’ +#‘come on you heard keating don’t you want to *do* something about it?’ / ‘*yes* but…’) doesn’t mean he knows how or believes he actually CAN #todds autonomy can be taken away from him a lot (ironic) and he can be twisted into someone with no opinions or thoughts or whims +#outside of neil but that isn’t really the case #and a part of that blame lands on the movie because todd doesn’t get explored a lot but there’s still evidence of him being his own person #he’s not a yesman and he tells neil when his ideas are stupid (keeping the audition from his father) or he just doesn’t personally agree +#(the entire ‘no’ scene) and he functions perfectly well when neil isn’t around and while they aren’t focuses +#there are short scenes where todds alone or scenes that start eith them apart that make it clear they aren’t attatched to each other +#in the way people can often write them to be (that is in the trenches if the other is missing)#this post and all these tags are my long winded way of saying FUCK the codependent anderperry thing some people subscribe to it makes me #mad #neil’s goal is to help todd grow into himself and become his own person and find his identity more than anything #and todd doesn’t need neil to hold his hand to do literally anything and everything he’s a normal guy with anxiety #come on guys #dps #dead poets society #todd anderson

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introspectivememories · 1 year ago

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roger who's nickname for buggy was "junebug" cause they found him in june and his hair is the same color.... buggy who hates it at first until he's climbing into his captain's bed at night bc of a nightmare and his captain says ever so softly, "oh junebug, c'mere"..... the nickname getting adopted by everyone on the crew until nobody calls him buggy anymore..... them meeting up with thr whitebeard pirates and getting irrationally jealous when the whitebeards use the nickname bc that's their nickname and who the fuck do these people think they are getting so close to their junebug.... rouge who has never met buggy calling him junebug in her head.... roger whose last words to buggy that fateful day before loguetown was "you shine like the sun, junebug. never stop"..... buggy who waits for years after the execution for a call from one of his former crew members, hoping every time the den-den one day it'll be rayleigh or seagull or gaban or sunbell on the other side with a familiar "hey junebug", except no one ever calls and the years go by and buggy slowly learns to stop waits, and gives on being the roger's junebug and learns how to be buggy the clown, buggy the genius jester, buggy the immortal, everything and anything other than junebug

#the thing about buggy is that he is always loved but never enough yknow?#and he'll never be his dad's junebug again and it kills him some days #he'll never argue with shanks again and have rayleigh come and break them apart with a 'junebug! shanks! enough you're both dumbasses'#toki-neesan will never let him curl up with momo and hiyori again #those days are over and yet somedays he looks in the mirror and he is still 14 wtching his captain's head hit the ground with a splat #he is still 12 watching his dad walk away from them and knowing in his heart that this was the end #he is still 8 and climbing onto his new home and when his captain asks for his name he says 'buggy sir' and capt laughs and says #'what an ordinary name for a boy like you!' as shanks look ready to well shank capt for the perceived slight against buggy #he is still 8 and sitting on captain's shoulders as his dad says 'do you see how beautiful she is junebug? you carry her with you'#he'll never be junebug again but by god he wants it so badly he thinks he'll die from the ache of it #(junebug is dead and has been dead for a long time but smtimes when he sits by shanks and they're sharing a drink as they carefully tiptoe #around certain topics; shanks'll just Look at him and for one soft gut-wrenching moment junebug is alive again #and then the moment passes and they're back to being buggy and shanks: two broken men desperately trying to make sense of the cards #gave them)#op buggy #buggy the clown #buggy one piece #gol d. roger #roger pirates #anyway how y'all doin?

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allmightyscroll-swag · 1 year ago

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SKEIFKISIWIEI THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!

as for the story Im gonna be real I'm like. so itching to just infodumb everything about it but on the other hand I like the air of mystery

What I'm gonna say though is, this original story of mine has major themes of psychological horror, fake realities, memory altercation and memory loss.

Akuji doesn't like talking about it, but Rey knows something is wrong. She just can't quite place why.

"Whaaat? Akuji, seriously, I'm fine."

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Warmup with my girl Rey <3 I'm sure she's fine and nothing bad happens to her ever

Bonus Akuji reaction:

Let's just say he's not convinced at all.

#and theres another point where Rey doesnt even know who Akuji is......#but thats later on.#in this #for now #things are not yet breaking apart

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uncanny-tranny · 2 years ago

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Life got more interesting when I learned that everything is an argument, everything is political, and everything is deeper than it seems. Everything is the product of something, and it's up to us to figure out what that "something" is. We are interesting as fuck! We are deeper than you think!

It might seem really tedious, but recognizing this has made me so much less incurious. I now want to learn about us as people. Everything is deeper than it seems.

#positivity #i see this as a positive #i was talking about modern art with my dad and i was realizing that we're pretty different in terms of philosophy...#...because i got excited thinking about the politics of art - he was baffled at what's considered 'art' and!!!#that's a deep conversation! modern art is so much deeper than 'lul this guy thinks a red canvas is art'#and people's REACTIONS about what is considered art is just as political as what we *call* art!#and he seemed baffled that i called it political but i don't think art exists in a vacuum - nothing truly does #once i realized everything is an argument i started actually paying more attention to other people #i know this line of thinking is easily overwhelming to others but i found that it was so helpful to me #because now there's yet *another* PURPOSE to actually pay close attention to every little thing #and that's something that's helped save me #you know maybe this is what they mean when they say autistics like to break things apart...?#i'm just putting this out there so maybe somebody can be like 'this is what i want to do too!“

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ecoustsaintmein · 29 days ago

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Thorsten's Love Language is 'Acts of Service'

#for a whole scene they did not talk to each other #and the only time thorsten spoke was to maja #AND YET #their actions spoke louder than words #AND THE EYE CONTACT #after this episode ended i literally had to stare at the wall for an hour #because that blurry backshot of thorsten carrying sebastian's trash by himself #was such a powerful image/metaphor #i mean the amount of times that thorsten came back to sebastian's apartment #to make sure that he's ok in this episode #he knows how much sebastian has done for him #and the crap he's going through #sebastian smooshed all of that inside of himself waiting to implode #and the apartment is an externalisation of that #how many times have we seen thorsten visit sebastian's apartment to help him fold clothes/paint walls/fix things throughout the years???#who and what is thorsten apart from being a KHK if he doesn't have sebastian?#he is a nowhere man and the blurred backshot while carrying the trash was probably a symbolism for that #sebastian doesn't readily talk to him most of the time but thorsten still carries some of sebastian's emotional baggage #and helps him to throw it away when it gets too much #i am still waiting for an episode where thorsten fully snaps and breaks down #we know that he suffered the loss of his family but it was never fully shown in screen #im gelobten land is the closest that we've ever seen him go through it (TM)#but he's still relatively very calm in that #basically -- i need more thorsten whump #thorsten lannert #sebastian bootz #tatort stuttgart

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dairyfreenugget · 8 months ago

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I could count the amount of original stories of mine that don't have horror elements on one hand and idk what that says about me

#thylacines can talk #actually i do know it says mmmmm making horror monster ocs is fun #outside of my fandom ocs my ocs and original stories arre dominated by horror elements and religious themes oopsie daisy #i might eventually post about them but the hk brainrot is going strong #but a friend of mine got a commission for me of my doomer human x monster yaoi so you'll see my Main Babygirls soon 🥰#hand in unlovable hand they're fucked and weird and it's an unhealthy relationship and it'll never work as everything is stacked against #them yet each other is all they have and if being together means their death then so be it. Peter should have probably ran. Should have left #would be better off for the majorth of the story had he never met it yet the two are so alike. it's the first thing that's ever unnderstood #him. it's the first 'person' that's ever truly cared for him. And even if it has flaws and his life was ruined by things beyond his #comprehension and he risks his life he's not willing to let go of the only person whos truly seen him and loved him. Who is willing to tear #its world apart and die for him. There are no happy endings here. They were doomed from the start. But at least they have each other.#also tfw your life and 'family' sucks so much that a literal monster who manipulated you and used your body to carry out ruthless murders is #nicer to you than your goddamn brother and friends. like damn dude.#I honestly think if Slaughter was born a human their relationship would be great for both of them they truly fit together like two puzzle #pieces. two outcasts who have so much in common and find comfort in one another. but because of the circumstances of Slaughter's nature and #what it was forced to be this is not a healthy situation or a relationship. Peter comes out better at the end and would be as good as dead #if not for meeting Slaughter so there's a silver lining in all of this but goddamn dude. the bullshit it took to get there.#The fact that his life was so bad literally getting possessed by a monster and almost being murdered numerous times and an insane amount of #trauma and bbeing a target for monsters for the rest of your life literally IMPROVED IT my guy truly cant catch a fucking break 😭😭

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herebecritters · 11 months ago

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Please understand that, more often than not, works of fiction are a fictional exploration of concepts and ideas rather than a declaration of morality

#there’s a difference between fiction that condones disgusting things and one that’s breaking them apart and analyzing them through fiction #reading comprehension and understanding context is important YALL #please I beg learn how to separate fiction from reality folks #every so often I’ll see people making WILD claims about a person because they wrote a complex and flawed character #most of the people I know who enjoy exploring dark and questionable themes in their work are the kindest and most selfless people I know #while the people who sit atop a pedestal and judge every aspect of a stranger that they don’t know turn out to be the most selfish and vile #i should not be scared to write a story about morally questionable characters finding humanity #but yet here we are #Ive seen this kinda stuff do more harm than good too many times #sorry to post a hot take #just good lord I’m old I’ve seen this shit too many times #stop eating each other #you will see conflict and dark themes in my stories #if you cant handle messy themes in fiction please feel free to unfollow or block me for your own mental well-being #I’m sure I’ll regret posting this later but just putting it out there #hate being reminded that as a creator strangers are staring at you and making horrifying assumptions about who you are as a person

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widevibratobitch · 5 months ago

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o-oh a bout of nostalgia alert

#logically i know i dont miss my parents being together cause. christ lol #but this sudden flash of sitting on the backseat while it's slowly getting dark and we're driving through the fields #my mom holding like an actual physical map because there's no such thing as a gps yet lol #damn i miss being a kid #like an actual pre-depression kid #i dont feel guilty for 'breaking this family apart' because god knows my mom deserved better and they really shouldnt have had a child #but there must have been a time when it all actually worked right

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throwawayasoiafaccount · 5 months ago

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hotd never fails to disappoint

#w h a t #t h e #f u c k #this fandom also really sucks :/#i’ll never understand how certain team green fans can claim to love alicent and helaena and yet unironically support the side of the war #that very much wants to continue perpetuating patriarchal violence and control #aka the very thing that’s made both these female characters so very miserable #why is it so difficult for people to understand that rhaenyra becoming queen and reigning in her own right for some good long years #would force an ideological shift and would open a discussion that had been closed for a long time in westeros #alicent has suffered from the patriarchy but she also continues the cycle w/ her treatment of her children #please just please understand that you do not have to like team black nor do you have to like team black characters #but trying to justify aegon usurping rhaenyra is nonsense and completely unjustifiable no matter how hard you try to twist the situation #and please don’t try to take some centrist ‘team smallfolk stance’ bc that stance is simply one ppl take to shift the topic away #from the patriarchy and how denying a woman her legal inheritance tore the realm apart #‘but andal tradition’ bleh ‘why should the targs be ruling’ bleh ‘the small folk suffer more’ bleh ‘the dragons are nukes’ bleh #these are all red herrings meant to divert away from the main topic & are usually used by ppl to justify their support of team green #supporting the team that wishes for the continuation of the cycle is wrong #i support team black bc this is a break in the cycle and opens a discussion that westeros has needed for thousands of years #the social change would be slow but at least there’d be change!#<-of course we know this discussion didn’t rly open bc rhaenyra didn’t have a peaceful transfer of power and later died way too early on #but even tho she died so early a character in the main books series is using the precedent she set to support her own claim! (arianne)#anti team green #asoiaf fandom critical #anti alicent stans #anti aegon ii stans #pro team black #pro rhaenyra targaryen #hotd #house of the dragon #anti hotd

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appalamutte · 22 days ago

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spending this sunday morning pondering how the long and convoluted network of decisions we make everyday leads us to the people and places we love now

#i love the people i’m surrounded by. i’ve never been happier and more myself before #but also #i was fully going to move out of this area when i graduated college last year #but i didn’t #well….haven’t yet is the better wording #i can’t see myself living in this town for forever #but if i did - where would i be now? who would i be??#would i like them? the people i’d have met and people i’d have gotten close to and the person i would’ve been?#would i be in some big faraway city with a cramped apartment or in some seaside town living above an ice cream parlour on main street?#would i still talk to my mom everyday? my best friends who i grew up with?#would i have missed what i have now? or would i have been happier??#it’s not exactly healthy to think about these things so much #but every once in a while is okay #and i think facing them with this easy gaze of sleep-riddled sunlight breaking through half-parted curtains makes it easier to understand #i also think i’ve sat here for too long now. i should shower and get ready for the day #sky says

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thereareeyesinsidethetrees · 8 months ago

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last post for the night i swear

the real tragic part about the whole science fair incident is that perpetual motion is impossible to achieve

ford’s machine would have never worked, regardless of whether or not stan had interacted with it

(warning i accidentally wrote an approximately 30-tag dive into ford’s character in the tags don’t click see more if you don’t want to read that)

anyway!! good night everyone ❤️‍🩹