#theyre pretty gay and theyre about to make it everyone’s problem

[meteooru]

Pt. 4 of the fake dating au

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[psychhound]

i ran a combat this weekend that went really well and one of my npcs got beat to shit but also got to revivify a pc and it was just really chewy and cinematic and not that she isnt always on my mind but shes been on my mind a lot more this week BUT

ive been reflecting a lot on her year in the game so far, and the reasons i made her gender conforming but visibly trans when i introduced her, versus how thats evolved with her relationships to the pcs and other npcs now

and i dont know. it makes me really emotional. i think theres no right way to do trans representation but there are certainly some wrong ways. i think making her the first binary trans woman introduced and also pretty clockable would rub a lot of people the wrong way. shes tall, shes buff, she has a deeper voice, she doesnt cover her adams apple. and as a trans man who passes pretty damn easily it means so much to me that she Doesnt and shes so like ... adored? and cherished?

she was introduced as a roadblock for the party and got adopted very quickly, soon becoming a staple of the game. my players are obsessed with her and adore her and talk about her all the time. anytime she does anything theyre like okay but shes our babygirl and we love her forever and also can we marry her. shes an autistic trans lesbian wolfgirl, and her being trans is a lore point because shes the angel of the female wolf god. shes dopey, shes awkward, shes a little stupid, shes very caring, she makes the puppy eyes emoji face just at all times

and shes not visibly gay but is visibly trans. shes not punk. she doesnt have a shaved head or tattoos. overall shes pretty cottagecore and has middle school girl handwriting. she really loves baking and sewing is her most "fun" hobby. shes very gender conforming and also its pretty easy to tell shes trans and everyone just. loves her? two pcs are very parental towards her, we're leaning towards a romance with another pc. despite being a big strong knight, when shes scared, she gets comforted and consoled. she got hurt during the fight and cried about it and got hugged

i dont know. this is a very long rambly post but. living in a very conservative bible belt state, i feel a lot of acceptance as a man and i feel its very very conditional on the average person not knowing im trans. my friends are great and my cohort is largely great and my professors have been supportive. dating has been,, mixed. but then i do wonder how review bombed i would get if my students knew. i wonder how much of how well people treat me is dependent on me appearing to be something im not

and florence cant hide that shes trans!! and people love her!! they think shes wonderful and loveable and hot and adoptable and also complicated when conflict happens. theres no reveal theres no coming out its just like. yep heres florence shes trans shes dorky and sweet and cute. because of the magic of this world, some people may have Questions of how she transitioned, but its not like ... her identity ever gets questioned. you know? its not hidden and also not a problem. its just florence. and shes been such a good character for me to play because of that

okay post over go support your local trans doggirl

[mofsblog]

Uh oh, I got reminded TFGraves exist and I'm mentally ill and going to make it YOUR problem!! (Translation: I'm going to gosh about them)

They just mean so much to me? And they just feel soo?? Special?? And unique on a meta level as well? It's already one thing that they are a canonised mlm pairing because historically those ones tend to be more controversial because it tends to make cishet dudes (aka leagues main demographic) more uncomfortable because cant fetishise it (also yes they're not Technically "together" but idc its explicitly canon they have feelings for eachother). It's another that both are surprisingly developed and nuanced charaters (could go on for hours about how theyre both self destructive and have abandonment issues and repress their feelings in very different ways) that are morally ambiguous and have a complex and multifaceted relationship with eachother and yeah i know league lore is subject to retcons and having differet writers but idk. i think its impressive we got two nuanced developed queer male characters WITH A COMPLICATED AND DEVELOPED RELATIONSHIP WITH EACHOTHER in a game known for its bigotted player base. Another thing i fucking love about this ship is how the riot writers were like "what if we subverted some tropes and made the more flamboyant one implied pan and we made the traditionally masculine one, who highkey has toxic masculinity, gay". BUT ALSO HIS TOXIC MASCULINITY HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH HIS QUEERNESS. like yes he cant express his feelings directly to save his life but the fact he's a gay man is completely not relevant to that and he's canonically had a bunch of ex boyfriends and is canonically a monsterfucker/hj. I'm not over how they took a pretty cishet masculine thing and made queer. Like the rough outlaw who hates talking about his feelings and is out for violent revenge on those who've wronged him..... except the guy who's "wronged" him is actually his best friend who he has mutual feelings for and also he fucks men. IDK THAT MAKES ME HAPPY. im insane.

moving on to other thing i like about them is that the sheer range this ship has??? Like yes there's gut wrenching fucked up dynamic that drives you crazy as you pyschoanalyse and unpack the layers of all of THAT. "that" being the fact a man thought he got abandoned by his best friend and got tortured and isolated in prison for 10 years and during those 10 years the only thing that kept him from killing himself was the sheer rage and want for vengence (towards someone he probably had repressed romantic feelings for) AND THEN WHEN HE GOT THE CHANCE TO KILL HIM, HE COULDNT BRING HIMSELF TO DO IT 💀 (im literally never going to be normal about that) and during those 10 years the other man actually got all of their mutual friends killed in an attempt to save him and the survivors guilt fucked him up so bad its implied he failed trying to drown himself so he changed his entire name and personhood instead to isolate himself from the soul crushing guilt of it. BUT DESPITE THAT ANGST, there's a surprising amount of domesticity and comfort with this ship??? No like you'd think these two would be friends to enemies to lovers BUT NO, theyre actually friends to enemies to friends to friends who are fucking pinning for eachother like crazy. Despite the angsty dynamic these two also have the best friends who have known eachother for ages and who everyone think is dating but both are oblivious or dont believe the other feels the same BUT THEY ALSO HAVE opposites attract bickering marriage couple who constantly tease and banter with eachother. like the range is crazy

No but I feel like something that makes me emotional about this is that they tried to kill eachother and badly hurt eachother unintentionally but like, instead of being homophobic about it and making them just hate eachother forever and never reconcicle (which like those ships are amazing and valid and also thats literally another league ship/hj), the writers made them make up???? AND LIKE? HEAL? KINDA? Like no they havent worked through everything and no neither of them like talking about their feelings but they're "partners" again and they have this really domestic understanding of eachother and theyre managing and theyre bantering like they used to and theyre literally so comfortable around eachother and look, graves isnt tormented by his time in prison as much anymore and hes just a genuinely goofy criminal dumbass who robs people and cracks jokes that irriate his partner AND IDK ITS SO DOMESTIC AND FUNNY? BUT IT DOESNT FEEL OUT OF CHARACTER. THESE TWO JUST ARE IN A GOOD PLACE DESPITE EVERYTHING AND IDK THAT MAKES ME HAPPY???? why did league of legends make compelling queer ship

[dreamsy990]

ace attorney sexuality headcanons nobody asked for in no particular order

phoenix: bi wife energy. hes your local bisexual icon. i think hed be that guy giving free dad hugs at pride parades

maya: either bi or straight but the worlds biggest ally

apollo: aro spec, more specifically either aroflux or demiromantic. hes not ace tho. he calls himself pan because its easier than explaining all of that

godot: straight, hes not necessarily homophobic but he doesnt understand gayness as a concept

manfred: straight, again not homophobic. he just thinks your choices are bad in general. an unsupportive ally

miles: demi and also gay. do i need to explain-

franziska: she's lesbian but a little bit homophobic. not internally tho. its very external shes making it everyone elses problem. "wow little brother i cant believe youd date a man, hes so disgusting too"

pearl: she doesnt know what gay people are

athena: bi with a slight preference for women. i think shes the type to talk about romance a lot. she and trucy headcanon everyones sexualities and theyre usually right.

klavier: gay and very smug about it

kristoph: gay, and somehow even more smug

trucy: she doesnt know yet, but she does know shes probably not straight

dahlia: aroace but nobody is quite sure how true that is

ema: aroace who says she's lesbian because she's tired of explaining it

larry: like pearl, he doesnt know what gay people are. but hes straight. hes an ally he just doesnt understand whats going on.

blackquil: nobody knows. hes been staring at the lgbt wiki for like 3 days and hasnt spoken since. hes not homophobic, at least, we're pretty sure hes not. his bird is, though

[pumpkinsy0]

Ive had a really bad day :( so anyway can i get some Papercut making each others bad day better.

im sorry anon, i hope ur day gets better!!!

•i think they both have a problem w downplaying their situations, they can take a beating emotionally, but when it comes to talking about them, theyre both like “no that is not normal actually!!” to each other, they both offer each other different perspectives

•as gay as this sounds, i think them just being together automatically makes their day a bit better, look at these gay greasers in the 60s, call that GG

•in curlys eyes, pony has a huge problem w just letting things slide, especially if its disrespect towards himself, and curly, not liking that, would just decide to go handle that without pony knowing, that was it solves the problem completely☝🏽

•when curlys upset, he makes it EVERYONES problem, but he doesnt do the same for pony, so pony tries telling jokes here and there and pulling him around places (by pulling i mean hes like “hey, y dont we go ____” that kinda thing), he also just in his own way apologizes for curly snapping at em, w his eyes

•iiiii think it would b cute if pony recognized that curlys pretty artistic and when hes upset, he vandalizes some place, so he gave curly something to draw in so he wouldnt get in trouble for vandalizing, but curly doesnt want anyone to see it so he hides it at home

•curly will not care if ponys probably in the wrong, hes gotta defend the guy, #1 shit talker this guy, he even lets pony in on little secrets he knows about the guy from angela to lift his spirits up to b like “he has no room to talk”

•them having a bad day, doesnt necessarily have to b about what someone else did, sometimes they get mad over something so stupid and the others like “THATS what ur mad over????” and that lifts the spirits a lil cause mannnn cmon, u and i both know thats dumb as hell

•pony cant exactly relate to some of curlys problems, but he tries to, and just the act of that makes curly chuckle, not in a condescending way but in a “u cant b serious” way, and then they start telling each other dumb stories

•curlys annoying charm could help pony feel better actually, curly will STILL tease him and pony will roll his eyes or suck his teeth or whatever, but curly would laugh and YES, its still annoying cause dude, shut up, but curlys laugh when hes around ppl he likes sounds nice enough that it makes u feel a certain way

•depending on the situation immmmm not saying that at least once pony would go to dally over something that happened to curly and tell him to tell tim but dont make it obvious that pony told him about it, but im not saying he WOULDNT

[blub-blub-bish]

Most of my thoughts while watching rise of red & my opinion on the whole movie

Spoilers under cut

-Opening-

I don’t know how to feel about them implying Carlos died…

WHAT CARLOS WOULD HAVE WANTED??? HES THE SON OF CRUELLA, WHAT DOES HE HAVE TO DO WITH WONDERLAND????

I’m a bit uncomfortable rn

-red with maddox-

Red has mental problems and mommy issues… that’s concerning

-queen of hearts intro-

Queen of hearts is girlbossing but in a bad way

-Bridget and Ella meeting each other-

ISTG THE SEXUAL TENSION BETWEEN CINDERELLA AND THE QUEEN OF HEARTS IS VERY THICK

-After they went back in time-

THEIR KIDS TOO????

Chloe’s hair is so pretty

The dance choreography is a bit….cringe

-meeting past Bridget and Ella-

Bridget is so sweeeeet

Also, did the prank made her British or smth?? Why is she not British as a kid???

Is this high school musical???

-villains intro-

The villains are so unnecessarily hot wtf

like HOOK???ULIANA??????MALEFICENT??!?!?

Maleficent and hades being a high school couple that got married right after highscool and get divorced a few years after makes so much sense

-Uliana fell into a pool-

Uliana is a fucking brat, I do NOT like her

-the whole homecoming thing-

BRIGET AND ELLA ARE SO GAY FOR EACH OTHER???? LIKE MOVE OVER CHARMING, THEYRE GAY

Charming’s hairstyle is so shit😭

-at Ella’s house-

Poor Ella

Ella talks so gayly about briget istg- JUST KISS ALREADY

Red instinctively tell her what to do to hide the broken vase makes me think she relates and idk how to feel about this…

-at Bridget’s dorm-

Past Bridget is so sweeeet aghdhehdbbdd

Bridget unconsciously helping red’s mommy issues is so fuckin funny

Red and briget’s hair turning straight in the bad future is telling something but idk what it is

-back to their own dorm-

Chloe keep rubbing red’s mommy issues- like, stop playing dirty girl😒

Ella’s shirt looks cute tho

-Merlin’s office-

Chloe and red gay????👀

Red realizing she’s not A bad person is so sweet and sad at the same Time

-coming back to the future-

Why don’t they check the mirror first tho???

I take the hair thing back.

New Bridget not knowing the time and place for stuff is a bit…annoying and kinda in character of her

-after thoughts-

Is it just me or the ending feels so… rushed?

Actually, the whole movie feels rushed

Songs are pretty good tho.

Also, did they just fuckin made up a whole, new, backstory for everyone?????

This makes everything complicated holy shit.

I’m so sad they didn’t show what happened in the homecoming thing, like, I want to knowwww

Overall, it’s a 6.5/10. It’s…okay ig? Some of the songs are pretty good, but the story line is very confusing and rushed,and the whole Carlos thing is kinda uncomfortable to me.

Could be 6/10, but the extra points is because the nostalgia of it I guess?? Idk

I would watch it again tho. Maybe I’ll understand it better

[heterophobicdyke]

We need to make sex a convo in lesbian spaces, yes!! Idk about the male gaze sex stuff but it sounds disturbing af! I mostly ran into asexual you’re-cute-but-let’s-be-friends types. And that made me feel weird personally about my own desires and that sucked as someone who had gotten over my internalized homophobia, “lesbians are predatory” issues. I wish this issue of de sexualizing lesbians was talked about more than fake lesbians (just saying). 

I agree that there are cases of trauma/dysphoria with some of these touch me not and pillow types. However, the “queers” are tryna to normalize this, giving pillow princesses their own queer flag, etc. I read a good think piece about it back in April I can link. I didn’t think it was that big of an issue, but people are tryna spin it into a good thing. I also don’t think not wanting to do certain sex acts or being uncomfortable with xyz is a problem it’s more of, we shouldn’t normalize sex where one person is not getting pleasure. It should go both ways where everyone is comfortable/happy and want to please their partner & vice versa. 

Honestly maybe I am letting the queer weirdos get to my head into thinking this is a bigger problem than it actually is??

ah yeah i have witnessed the let's be friends stuff for sure. i probably was like that before i was sexually mature enough tbh like i went on dates when i was 18-20 with girls my age and idk i just wasnt ready for sex enough to be fully confident about moving it to the next stage (sex). but also im into older women and was only dating these girls to try and be more normal lmao so i wasnt super into them enough to want sex

i think all flags besides the gilbert baker rainbow one (meaning gay and lesbian, not queer) are kinda redundant tbh so i agree w that. i dont use any lesbian-specific one either really. the labrys one is ok ig but feels a bit political (and feels connected to polilez like the lesbian feminism movement kinda is - like the flag is used in the lesbian feminism wiki page and the first sentence is pretty polilez).

i think stones and pillows make sense if they date each other (which i've seen they often do) because then both are getting pleasure because that's the sex they both want (one only giving one only receiving). i also think ppl can have fun/get pleasure in many ways we might not understand

but i definitely think you're within ur right to be sick of the million micro identities in the community, even if i dont personally see the issue with stone/pillows simply bc if i did have an issue w it then i feel like id be encouraging ppl to push their boundaries to prove their lesbianism.

i think where the distrust of pillow princesses come from is that there are so many non-lesbian women who holiday in the lesbian community when they're tired of men, and they don't care to take any active role in sex ever because they see lesbians as some mechanic servicing their car while they temporarily avoid men. like a masturbatory tool. and that's not on.

however i have interacted w actual lesbians (and i do trust they're lesbians) who are pillows, or who are with stones so have sex in a pillow way despite being fine with touching their partner otherwise, and yeah like i said i just dont feel comfy judging it bc regardless where it comes from (natural preference or trauma) it still is a hard sexual boundary that shaming it might make them have sex they dont want

i guess on the topic of whether they should be actual identities or not, i mean it makes sense for stones and pillows to find each other? which would be important bc they are rare preferences after all. i dont think it's so common that it needs to be a central part of the lesbian community or anything and i understand ur concern that creating flags and speaking as if theyre more common than they are might make esp young lesbians feel like they must fit into one or the other but ime they're not common enough to have major influence to the point that every lesbian will identify as either as stone or pillow. and if they did there would def be questions ab that

[stardustvalentine]

finally revamped my old kyouhaba playlist !!!

and because i’m a little deranged, here’s some explanation on the highlights:

when life hands you problems- really encapsulates the messy chaos of the kyouhaba dynamic to me

bad day- a LONG time ago i’m pretty sure i saw a kyouhaba animatic wip to this song??? but i can’t find it anymore??? i think it was one of the things that got me into the ship so hmu if anyone knows what i’m talking about 😔😔

jason- sports and internalized homophobia. enough said

hurry, hurry- THE kyoutani song to me!! especially “i’m the jerk who’s late again” (late to practice) & the overall rushing through life, tunnel vision, blowing past opportunities for connection w other ppl. go go GO no time to think about all that stuff!! i can just totally see kyoutani as the type of guy who’s always in a rush

i don’t dance- sports and homoeroticism. enough said

problems- the song that got me into mother mother cuz i found it on some random 8tracks kyouhaba playlist when i was 15 and didn’t have spotify. both of these guys have major problems but i see the song more from kyou’s view, seeing himself as a mess next to yahaba who at least APPEARS much more put together and perfect

difficult- “the best dysfunctional team that this world has ever seen” is the most perfect description for them ive ever heard. yes they fight yes they get irrationally angry over little things but yes theyre also the best most in love partners at the end of the day

in the wings- yahaba’s literally always on the bench but kyoutani’s the one who gets the opportunity to play. yk, essentially the crux of their fight, so song title fits. more importantly though, the song is about trying to be people you’re not, and yahaba is Very Obviously trying to be oikawa 2.0, so he’s essentially waiting on the bench/wings of his own mind (and we only see the real him come out in moments like the confrontation)

touch starved- i saw someone put two best friends by bb been on a kyouhaba playlist once but lets be real. the REAL bb bean kyouhaba song is touch starved !!!! “fever got me aching” on ao3 REALLY sold me on this cuz yeah it makes sense. we don’t really see people touch kyoutani. when yahaba does so fearlessly, that’s bound to do SOMETHING weird to his brain right?? from “wait i thought this guy was some shallow idiot” to “wait he’s not scared of me” to “wait he’s being as violent with me as i am with everyone” to “wait he’s actually TOUCHING me?????” it just makes sense.

rebel girl- THE gay punk song imo. looser connection here than the others but gay punks. cmon

anyway that’s only like a third of the playlist, so go listen to the rest!!!! and feel free to ask any questions abt the ones i didn’t explain 😚😚

[orviposition]

I saw someone talking about how with the scenes added in the ebook and with the scenes in the ongoing side story, with emphasis on that one scene where LHH talks about the heroine of ORV, DokSoo might become canon. And while they did mention that they read the side story, I thought that that particular scene pretty much sunk many ships?

oh boy ngl i was a bit reluctant answering this ask but imo this is just fans' wishful thinking rather than singshong walking through a doksoo route.

the doksoo scenes added to the ebook arent really so fundamental to the point that theyre the closest ship to become canon. in fact I'd say that the main reason to make them canon would be that it's a (well-developed) straight ship tbh. in the 1863rd turn, theres an added smoking-on-the-roof scene. kdj tries smoking and immediately has a coughing fit. hsy asks him if she did well in this round. this added scene is a direct parallel to kdj telling her that she did well during the enemy of the story arc

another scene is during kaizenix. yjh and kdj decide to try the romance route and bcs yuri was in love with ricardo, it's kdj who writes the letter "write a story that's for me and me alone" this is also a foreshadowing to what we learn in the epilogue lol. to expand more on kaizenix, we also have yjh telling kdj that his writing skills are terrible despite him reading so much, kdj tells him that with his face he certainly didnt have any problems with courting. yjh then goes on a thinking tangent about how he could not care less about the looks of someone he likes (and we know who is called ugly throughout the book)

as for the lhh part where he talks about orv's heroine (kdj's love interest in this context) he is 100% not referring to han sooyoung. he says that the character he had in mind didnt have as much screentime as the other leads. the main women in orv when it comes to screentime are hsy jhw uriel and ysa. going by lhh's logic and IF his words represent singshong's stance, then hsy is immediately ruled out. i also wouldn't consider jhw for the role either, not only bcs i didnt really see their scenes with a romantic undertone but also why would singshong write kdj's romantic interest love someone else (lhs) romantically?

with uriel, unless you consider kdj/uriel to be a direct parallel to 999yjh/999uriel then i dont think shes The candidate either. now for ysa, im a bit iffy when it comes to her bcs sure she doesnt have as much as screentime as lets say yoohankim but shes also not someone you would consider neglected (like lsh for example) also i genuinely think that romance would undermine doksang's bonds. i think theyre so good BECAUSE theyre platonic

singshong have told us in multiple ways that orv is not a story about a canon romance so you can interpret the ending however you want just dont mis-label the novel's genre (this includes both het and gay romance). plus i just dont think they would shoot themselves on the foot and risk "angering" the largest active part of the fandom (general statement). i dont want to sound arrogant but you cant deny that joongdok shippers are the backbone of orv fandom and joongdok artists have been the only ones to be recruited to promote orv. alter (the official artist before blackbox) is a danmei artist, blackbox is a joongdok shipper, haban (taiwanese release cover artist) has a danmei history, the artist of the simplified cn version release has jd porn on their twitter and so on. certainly singshong are aware that orv didn't get this big bcs some guy recommended it in solo leveling's comment sections

speaking of guys, not every dudebro out there ships doksoo anw, some like doksang, some dont ship anything. the same can be said about the female audience too. not everyone ships joongdok. some ship doksoo, some yoohankim, some nothing thats not canon. im not part of the latest group since i could not care less about a ship's canon status lol

this got WAY too long. if you want a TL;DR refer to the first paragraph

[boy-above]

What r ur ocs like!

OHHHHH boy the problem with my ocs is that the story i have for them is really big and unnecessarily complicated so it makes it hard to talk about them rip. ive actually been planning on trying to update their designs (since i haven't drawn most of them in years) and explain the story more yknow. i actually do have recent drawings of my two favorite ocs that i haven't shared yet though so i suppose now is the time to do it

this is wyatt! he is definitely my favorite oc. he's 25, saudi, and a cis gnc gay man. he's 5'2 and is incredibly cute. he's the epitome of the >:3 face and can be mean at times, but is very soft with his boyfriend. he has a tragique past with an abusive father and has some pretty gnarly ptsd. he died once (he's okay now though) by drowning so he's afraid of water. he can see dead people which is fun. his role in the story is a bit of reverse grim reaper, he has the power to bring people back to life, although maintains the reaper aesthetic. he has a big knife and if he pierces a dead person they'll be revived, but if it pierces a living person they'll dissolve into dust and not even their spirit remains. he has powers like being able to float, go through walls, teleport short distances etc. some danny phantom shit.

this is hayden, wyatt's boyfriend. he's a gay trans man, 26 years old, 6'0, indian. he's an engineer and kind of a genius, taught himself calculus kinda shit. he has electric-adjacent powers (purple lightning!) and his role is that of an electrical engineer, performing maintenance on the power structures to keep everyone's powers working. he's also an inventor and has a steampunk-esque workshop where he builds a bunch of cool shit. he used to have an identical twin sister but she kiiiinda died when they were 14 and he has conflicting feelings about it because she wasn't exactly the best person to him. everyone in this story can shapeshift (albeit slowly over time) so he had a nice easy time transitioning. he lifts weight to cope with depression (and so he can pick up his boyfriend, the most importantest reason)

he and wyatt met when they were 15 and 16 and theyre very much in love. maybe a little codependent but shhhhh it's okay the environment they're in kinda calls for it. when wyatt was young he would see the fairytales where a princess would be rescued by a knight or prince and he wished one would save him from his abuse as well (alongside wishing that boys could be princesses, his journey from growing up in an extremely toxically (is that a word even??) house to accepting that he's allowed to like boys and be feminine was a hard one) and hayden was kinda like that dream come true! it was also fun bc hayden was able to give wyatt all his girl stuff from before he transitioned to give it a spin. hayden also really enjoys having a boyfriend thats smaller and daintier than him, makes him feel more masculine. over all they are incredibly in love and i'm obsessed with them and they occupy my thoughts a lot. i'm so sad bc i don't have a recent drawing of them, the last finished drawing i have of them together is from 2019 wtf 😭

[bucketspammer4life]

☆ punch out sexuality headcanons ☆

im running out of funny things to say help me, also tw for mentions of homophobia & transphobia

Glass Joe

- aromantic asexual (sex neutral, romance positive) + trans, he/him

- Just because hes ace doesnt mean he doesnt make inappropriate jokes on a daily basis, if there was a ranking of who made the most sexual jokes he'd be at the top

- when he came out as trans to his parents they were suprisingly supportive even though they didnt understand much, it just went like: "mom, dad, im a boy and if you dont like that too bad" "we dont care as long as you dont murder anyone" And they were generally chill with him

- when he first binded he used bandages & cloth instead of a actual binder (before he came out) and due to that he almost wasnt able to get top surgery

- has faked a lot of crushes to fit in during his childhood, ended up dating 3-5 people he didnt even like

- thought his gender envy was attraction until he just asked himself "do i wanna be them or be with them" And boom, gender confusion

- fell down the "im not like other girls!" to "im not a girl." pipeline

Von Kaiser

- demiromantic, demisexual + bi with a preference for men, he/they

- when he didnt know the demi labels he just saw himself as a picky dater, when he saw the demi labels he was like "Wait thats me" And pretty much ascended on the spot

- thought everyone just liked both men & women until he said it out loud and got met with pure shock

- his first crush was a famous model he saw in a fashion magazine, also slipping down the "do i wanna be them or be with them" pipeline

- his dad wasnt really supportive but became a bit more open minded once he realized that his hatred distanced himself from his son even more

Disco Kid

- nonbinary,gay, he/she

- okay with both feminine & masculine terms

- somebody tried to call him "princess" to insult him when he was little, instead he took it as a compliment and saw them as a friend, still in contact with said person & theyre besties now, the princess thing has become a nickname for him

- when he first came out his parents were like "the closet was wide open" and were not suprised at all, they saw it coming 1000 miles away as soon as he started it out with the "i have to say something important"

- started doing make up & playing around with dresses thanks to a close friend of his (the childhood friend) , when he first put on a dress he was like "i think i realized something"

King Hippo

- #1 label hater + all pronouns

- if he were to use labels, he would count as gender apathetic and pan oriented aroace

- labels are for losers to him

- not out but his parents know that he doesnt give a shit about labels, they first found out when he didnt care about being called "queen" and liked it, they have no problem with it

Piston Hondo

- pan, cis (?) + he/him but likes to refer to himself with feminine pronouns in japanese

- not out to his parents but dropping hints, theyre struggling to pick up on it and hes going mad over it

- going through some major gender questioning™

- playing around with dresses & femininity and enjoying it

Great Tiger

- polysexual (prefs are enbies, men & genderqueer ppl), genderqueer + all pronouns

- closeted it but trying to make it clear hes not straight,its just flying over his parents head like "oh me oh my our son is sure close with his friends!! Such close bros"

- likes dresses not only for spinning skirts but also how comfy they are

Bear Hugger

- gay, bear (ITS IN THE NAME. COME ON THE CLOSET IS GLASS), trans + he/him but ok with they/them

- when he first came out there was a lot of crying, not in the "i wont accept this wahh" way but more in the "i cant believe you trusted me enough to tell me this" way

- didnt know he was trans until he said "yeah i like being called son, yeah i like being called manly, im a girl though" out loud and he was like "wait a minute"

- has had 2-3 boyfriends during his teen years and is still in touch with them since the break ups were done without any harsh feelings & grudges, hes the only person that can see his exes all chatting together and not die of a heart attack on the spot

Don Flamenco

- gay, trans + he/they

- got called gay way before he knew it since he kept calling his male friends handsome often, always passed it off like "cant a man call his friend handsome?"

- the only feminine terms he will accept is queen and aunt, refer to him as anything other than that and he will punch you to orbit

- cut off contact with his parents since they didnt accept him & kicked him out, the only person who took him in was his aunt, she helped him get t & bind safely before he got top surgery

Aran Ryan

- genderfluid, pomosexual + all pronouns

- label hater but still uses them because why not

- came out in the most casual way possible, was just chilling on the couch with his dad and he just said "i kinda like being called miss sometimes" from boredom just to see dad go "huh??"

- sometimes does drag when he feels fem

Soda Popinski

- gay, cis + he/him

- Rocky dating history, most break-ups of his were really sad since it was either forced by family members or over arguments

- exes with bald bull but they still get along & dont care about their past, they just had better platonic connection and decided together

- out but not, making it clear hes a bit fruity but not too much for it to snowball into "the rumour come out: does soda popinski is gay?"

Bald Bull

- Boyflux, gay + he/they

- flamboyantly gay and cannot hide it no matter how much he tries, the closet is not even present, show him someone he has a crush on and you'll hear the gayest squeal in your life before he evaporates into thin air and holds you at gunpoint

- has the Don Flamenco issue going for him, compliments his male friends and calls them handsome wayyy too often, this time its 99% more obvious

- either really bitter with his exes or close friends, no inbetween, if you tell him "yeah your exes asked about you, theyre there" theres a 50% chance its gonna have his soul physically exit him and another 50% chance hes gonna walk right over to them and say hi

- not out publicly since it would cause a shitstorm, only out to a few people he trusts, has issues trusting people to not say his secrets since a close friend of his outed him during his teen years

Super Macho Man

- bi (slight pref for women), cis + he/she

- didnt really come out, he just showed up to his parents door with his (now ex) bf and was like "heyy say hi to my boyfriend" and everyone just kinda accepted it

- thought the attraction to men was envy for a long time until he learned the fact that wanting to be lifted into the arms of a man and making out with said man is not really straight

Mr Sandman

- gendervoid, demiromantic, acespec, pan + all pronouns

- feels like he should be more masculine but cant bring himself to it,he cant force his behavior to act in a way that doesnt fit him

- out and about, hes not repressing himself for anyone

[no-more-rqs]

i know this is going to sound insane but hear me out: astrothetherian/remikzthetherian has done a very very good job of pointing out something about the wider endo/pro-endo community. (i am saying this as a pro-endo pwDID who does not like astro at all. im also very aware that none of this is the point xe's trying to make, i know xe's just saying this stuff to get people pissed off and using "transid" as an insult, but my point still stands)

claiming endos are faking being systems? people can handle that. claiming endos are faking being trans? people can handle that. claiming endos are transid? suddenly everyone is screaming crying throwing up shitting their pants because willogenic/tulpagenic systems are NOT transid its DIFFERENT how DARE you!!!!!!! to the point where every single other argument is ignored in favor of just yelling "IM NOT PRO-TRANSID STOP SAYING THAT!!!!!!!" to someone who is most likely a grifter/troll (not saying astro isnt genuinely anti-endo, just that ae's doing this as ragebait to get people upset. as it literally says in aer bio lmao)

the pro-endo community genuinely hates any and all transids SO much that anything that even implies that theyre similar to transids is an instant argument ender that causes them to immediately get pissed off and start screaming and crying about how much they HATE transids and would NEVER support transids because transids are EVIL and "making headmates" is VERY VERY different from "making headmates" because one of those is willogenic (good) and the other is transplural (evil) and if you choose the wrong word youre a HORRIBLE PERSON

in this case, you cant even make the argument of "its not transitioning so you cant use 'trans'" because... yes it is? what? do you know what "transition" means? the dictionary definition of "transition" is "changing from one state or condition to another". would you agree that being a singlet and then creating headmates to make yourself a system is changing from one state (singlet) to another (plural)? yes? then that is by definition a transition. and someone who is in the process of creating headmates would, by definition, be transitioning. why is "transition" such an evil, horrible concept to people? transitioning is something people do practically every day. you put your hair in a ponytail? thats transitioning from one condition to another. you took a shower? thats transitioning too. you ate food? guess what, thats also transitioning. "transition" is not a word owned by the trans community, it is not offensive to say "i just transitioned schools" or "im transitioning jobs right now" so why is it so horrible and disgusting to say "i transitioned from being a singlet to a system"? some transplural people make it seem like its the exact same as being transgender, but the term doesnt; the prefix "trans" isnt exclusive to trans people.

yes im aware that there are problems with transid communities, however, that doesnt mean the definition doesnt still fit. "transplural" is literally just "transitioning to be plural". as someone who was in radqueer communities, it was pretty well-established that "transplural" was very different from "transDID" or "transOSDD". while they have similarities, "transplural" is fundamentally different from them in the fact that it is only giving yourself headmates/desiring to have headmates, and doesnt mean you want a disorder. transDID and transOSDD transitioning often dont even involve giving yourself headmates as a primary aspect - it mostly involves giving yourself dissociation and memory loss. transplural is exclusively about giving yourself headmates, on the other hand. so, yes, willogenic systems dont want a CDD, but neither do most transplural folks.

obviously, the terms have completely different communities, and you can identify with one label and not a different one thats functionally the same. i identify as gay/veldian instead of cinthean or floric or toric etc etc, even though all of those mean basically the same thing. that doesnt mean i dont fit the definitions for those, though, and someone wouldnt be wrong if they said "thats also what cinthean means" or "you also fit under the definition of floric". fundamentally, the definitions for transplural and willogenic are extremely similar (especially considering the fact that you dont need dysphoria to be transplural).

also, please remember that regardless of whether or not you deny it, astro does not care. no trolls or anti-endos will care at all, because theyll just keep saying "youre transid!!!!!!!!" forever and ever and ever. maybe just stop engaging with trolls because theyre never going to change.

[expfcultragreen]

We've all spent money that could've saved lives if we'd donated it, some people just do it more often and with more money

Who owns the wall and how long is your list of who's against it? If the answer to who owns it is "the people" which means you and your friends, and the list is very long, youre going to get pretty much nowhere, youll always just be dickmeasuring about who has gotten into more and worse fights with cops, the mortal enemy of "the people" because theyre sellouts to "the system" which itself shouldnt be ever structurally addressed because mumble mumble antieducation antiacademia mumble anticommunication mumble mumble everyones on the list and that smashes the system mumble mumble germ warfare or something yeah great you have the same agenda as the rich go buy some windex and kfc, get some charmin, get some tims........copjacket the gays around you for not having your babies.......yyyyknowwwww, the usual

Brocialism �� occasionally oogles have politics and its this

"Plastic surgery is for rich people barbie" right because its expensive. Pizza is expensive too when you dont make it yourself, bootstrap bill...so is beer....so are kids

"Wah wah wah you love the system admit it" you should love it, youd be dead without it, you and your friends would have 0 kids between you because theyd all have starved, youre all on wellfare bro, your backup is panhandling....your problem is childhood trauma

[horselover107]

It’s been 24 hours and I’m still thinking about one particular bad post.

No Torchwood is not “copaganda” and no it’s not narratively punishing them for bisexuality Jesus ducking Christ.

On the first point. For Fuck’s sake watch up to season 3. There’s literally a scene where a cop takes off his vest and fights with lower/working class people against the government because at that moment he wants no association with the orders he was given anymore (they do flub his character arc by making him rejoin the force in s4 and in the audios, but also miracle day is…a beast of its own. For simplicity sake we’re looking at the first two seasons plus children of earth as those are the three seasons that had most of the same creative team). The villain of season 3 is literally the corrupt UK and world governments, it is literally textually about how the government would be willing to sacrifice children in a trolley problem scenario specifically because they’re poor. We are on the side of the families of the kids here. Jacks past “just following orders” and utilitarianism is treated as BAD. Something he needs to atone for.

Even if we change the parameters to just season one and two? Yes it’s a procedural but they never stop talking about how they’re “outside the police”. Torchwood as an institution is criticized for not stopping to think about the “little” people hurt along the way. Gwen has a specific skill set (good investigative instincts) because she’s an ex cop, yes. But the key here is the “ex” part, she’s left the police. She’s not a part of that system anymore.

I mean I guess there’s Jack’s whole “I’m really good at torture” brag and all the guns? But at the same time UNIT holding Toshiko without trial was a pretty strong critique of practices like that for something only six years off of 9/11. UNIT not giving her a trial and treating her as a terrorist without rights is again, treated as a bad thing. Children of Earth’s anti-government stance is still pretty radical by 2023 standards

As for the second point. Jesus Christ ok? This show was created by a queer man. “Historical context” (it pains me to call the 2000s historical but here we are) matters. And it was absolutely ground breaking for its queer rep at the time. Buffy, which RTD is pretty open about taking notes from, was forced to make their gay couple incredibly chaste and subtle on the onset. Not to reignite like 15 years of fandom discourse but RTD did not set out to punish these characters for being gay. He did it because he’s an edgelord that gets bored and defaults to “ok now let’s just kill the cast”. Important distinction

Point the third: ok jokes about RTD’s worst writing habits aside, yes this show is about how humanity is flawed. People make fucked up decisions. Not everyone can be saved. That’s kind of…spelled out multiple times. It’s not because these characters happen to bisexual it’s because theyre human. Jack is trying but this is fundamentally a story about what happens when the doctor isn’t there to swoop in and fix everything for us. It’s messy. People get hurt. Sometimes there’s no easy out.

And finally listen I know this show is also a camp mess the other half of the time, but for fuck’s sake if you’re going to make sweeping generalizations watch past mid season one. That’s kind of important. Watch past just the first season.

[yuukei-yikes]

ok ok first of all Really Really love your harutakas and your shinayas and your kidomomos and since im pretty sure you've been asked abt your hrtk and shinaya headcanons already i just wanna ask you about any kdmm headcanons you may have 🧐

i love kidomomo so fucking much ilove them

i think theyre stuck in a situationship for a long time. bc useless lesbians in silly harmless drama is always funny. thing is momo WANTS to say something but kido gets so flustered everytime she brings it up they fucking disappear. kido hearing momos confession after theyve faded wawawa and momo thinks kido maybe didnt hear and just sighs but KIDO HEARD bro... they heard u....

momo isnt sure if kido likes her back but she still wants to say it bc momo rly isnt the kind to stress abt waaaa but what if they dont like me back. shes like this is what i feel and im gonna tell everyone 💗 which also means everyone in the dan knows not only bc its fucking obvious but like momo told everyone😭 the only one surprised is shintaro. but for like a second bc hes like YOURE GAY??wait i just fucking heard myself of course youre gay

kido is like super fucking embarrassing abt the way they run from momo like kano and seto who know them rly well think they look like a clown bc of how flustered momo makes them but momo always receives it like wow kido is SOOOOO cool all cold and calculating :3 something something kidos self steem issues, cant believe someone would like them, especially someone so bubbly who could probably get anyone they want

if it goes for long enough momo would notice shes being avoided lol and shes like i just dont know what to do yknow and hibiyas like why are u telling Me this.

kano seto and mary. tease kido to hell and back. they are the most insufferable people ever. kano is annoying on purpose but seto and mary are more like omg u gotta be honest💗 omg let urself be happy 💗 kano and kido probably have a nasty fight abt kano telling kido theyre self sabotaging and kido being like looks whos fucking talking LOLLLL also momomary best friends forever bffs necklaces and matching phone backgrounds etc etc mary keeps accidentally creating tension and situations bc she keeps accidentally slipping up telling kido and momo something one said about the other.

its very much...a cute thing like a friend group where 2 friends like each other and everyone knows and is rooting for them but they keep prolonging it and its at most frustrating and at best entertaining. its cute, its rly one of those very normal teenage things they get to do after everything they go through. they end up together tho and in the future are the no kids double income aunts with the best presents etc etc u know how it goes

i think the only ones out of the loop who thought they were already together are haruka and shintaro. yuukei quartet is kinda out of it bc theyre a bit older and kinda didnt care for the little silly drama and have problems of their own LOL but ayano and takane were filled in bc as a big sister!!! ayano has to know whats going on!! (insane abt the idea of her and shintaros siblings dating. probably gives kido a lot of actually useful advice abt being honest and not run away from feelings) (sort of a takane talk 2.0) and takanes like.... gossip central this bitch knows everything about everyone not that they do anything with that info to help anyone.

once dating theyd have a lot of discussions about pda. momo is pda inc and kido wants to die whenever momo even presses their shoulders together in public. they make it work tho also once together the dan nearly throws a fucking party like FINALLY

[emet-selch-apologism]

Morose/Pelle: 2, 5, 17, 28

Void: 3, 8, 20, 31, 37

Nu/Vil: 1, 14, 26, 34, 38

dnd ask meme

i got up out of bed to answer this on my pc so dedicated am i to talking about my most special boys

going under read more because its gonna be long <3 ALSO adding images of everyone to hopefully make it easier to tell whos who

Morose/Pelle

left: pelle right: morose

2. What does saving a person involve?

morose and pelle are of one mind on this, that they cant really "save" a person unless they want to be saved. so their strategy would be less about them swooping in to save the day and more about being there to help the save-ee get out of a bad situation. this is MUCH more pelles purview than moroses though, hes more of a "provide resources and encouragement without being asked" kind of guy whereas morose is more of a "im not gonna push you but im here if you want to talk about it" kind of guy.

5. What is your PC’s idle animation?

for morose itd probably be him taking out his grimoire and taking notes in it. its a grimoire first and foremost, but he also uses the margins as a scientific journal if he doesnt have one of his dedicated notebooks on hand

pelle would keep it simple, probably just doing some small turns so his sleeves swish around. or probably any other gentle motion, like rocking or swaying

(the sleeves ^)

17. What are your PCs favorite fruits (not including gay people)

each other

morose likes apples. probably has something to do with how long he was a teacher for, his students DEFO would occasionally give him apples before or after class

pelle cant pick a favorite, hes so jazzed about all of the food that mortals produce and eat and cook. he loves all food

28. When your PCs want comfort, what do they seek out? 

each other

other than each other though

for morose, hed try to involve himself in his hobbies. this literally always means doing research and science and alchemy. hes been autistic about the arcane sciences for 200+ years and hes not gonna stop now

for pelle, who is very well adjusted, it usually means doing one of the hundreds of mortal hobbies he picked up in his retirement, or taking a walk and appreciating the worlds beauty, or talking to one of the zombie kids he takes care of, or meditating

generally speaking though when they need comfort both of them immediately turn to the other

Void

3. How would your PC describe themselves?

void is pretty difficult to get the gist of because their setting is so specific, but i will try my best

i dont think void knows how to describe themself. they basically just manifested into existence with full sapience and no identity. their entire character arc revolves around them trying to figure out who they are, wanting to be a person but convinced that they have no choice to be oasis (the dead god theyre the reincarnation of).

they dont even know that theyre a god yet.

since they have no sense of identity as a person, i dont think theyd try to describe themselves like one. theyd probably describe themselves as "the tear" (a rift in the sky between the material plane and a mysterious higher plane that no one has ever gone to, which is believed to be the source of all the Big Problems in the setting) or "the neverplane" (said Problem Plane). they might call themselves an etherbeing (a creature formed from the ether in the neverplane which consumes the ether of mortals on the material plane), but that wouldnt be totally accurate.

8. How decisive is your PC?

EXTREMELY indecisive. despite thinking its futile void wants nothing more than to fight their nature and just be a normal person, so any decision they have to make has to go through both their God Thoughts and then their Normal Person Thoughts. and, more often than not, these two sides are at odds with each other making it hard to decide pretty much anything. theyll freeze up if they think too long about any decision they have to make

20. What type of chocolate do they prefer? 

theyve never tried eating food before. i dont think they could even if they wanted to. but if they could i think theyd like white chocolate best

31. What’s your favorite part of playing your PC? 

I GET TO BE SOOO AUTISTIC. void is so autistic and i get to completely unmask and call it rp

actually though my favorite part of playing void isnt even rping as them at the table, its planning for future sessions and getting to go so deep into their psychology. the way ive set up godhood in the setting inherently poses a LOT of existential questions about the gods, and void is even more complicated because they want to fight against their godhood. theyre a lot of fun to explore mentally

37. What flower represents your PC?

so funny you ask this one for them because void is the only character of these five that has an actual in game lore related flower motif! glowing white dahlias! they spring up in significant places void has been to, they bloom out of the dust left behind by dead etherbeings, they can create them at will, etc.

Nuvia/Vilereth

(nuvia controls the left side, vilereth controls the right)

1. Does your PC believe it’s possible to save someone?

vilereth does. hes not usually inclined to do so (the only people hes tried to save is nuvia and nuvias sister elizabeth) but he thinks its possible to. he also probably thinks its a lot easier than it actually is. hes incredibly overconfident in his own abilities

nuvia is more of a tossup. i think usually he doesnt think its possible to save people (if he could have been saved then why didnt anyone save him from the cult who put a demon in his body). but if pushed hes still willing to try. but the list of people hed be willing to risk himself to save is very very short

14. How does your PC feel about white lies?

vilereth is lying all the time its his favorite thing to do. he loves to tell lies. he doesnt even do it maliciously (for the most part) he just thinks its funny. but he loves it he loooves lying

nuvia also doesnt care about lying. he doesnt go out of his way to do it the way vilereth does, but hes a very smooth liar (lots of practice) and he thinks that sometimes its just what has to be done so who cares? hes probably even a better liar than vilereth

26. How would your PC answer the trolley problem? 

neither of them would flip the switch.

vilereth wouldnt see it as his problem. he wouldnt really care and he wouldnt see himself as involved in the situation unless he flips the switch, and hed rather not get involved if he can help it.

nuvia has a similar outlook. hed at least be tempted to flip the switch so only one person gets killed, but ultimately agrees that hes not involved unless he does. if he did hed see himself as responsible for one persons death, and he already has more than enough stress to deal with.

34. Is your PC an effective communicator? What is their communication style? 

oh god no.

vilereth is always lying and making jokes to keep people at a safe distance. hes so averse to being vulnerable that he didnt even have a non antagonistic conversation with nuvia for 5 months after they were fused. even now that they get along (theyre gay btw) trying to get him to be open and honest is like pulling teeth

nuvia is also Not Good at communication. hes less afraid of vulnerability than vilereth is, but hes so completely conflict averse its insane. hed rather bottle up everything until he dies than have a slightly uncomfortable conversation even once.

38. How did you choose your PC’s name? 

they were initially just one guy who i named vilereth from a yafnag pull. then when i made them two people i did another yafnag pull and got nuvia