#theyre haunting my brain

[liuisi]

being plagued by visions. mariam and eli both have their dad's nose but mariam has tanner skin + darker curly hair (takes after their dad - egyptian) and eli has light skin + hair a pretty light brown (takes after their mom - syrian). olivia is WHITE ! (L) (joke) she has brown eyes and dark brown hair that has a bit of waviness to it that she always keeps it in a loose bun. doesn't have the patience to deal with it. lauren has blond hair and green eyes and wears those thin rectangular glasses without a frame and always keeps her hair tied back tight in a severe-looking ponytail. she has the start of wrinkles around her mouth and between her eyebrows.

[enderspawn]

these have been in my brain for literal months now please just get them out of here

[aroaceleovaldez]

if one more person says "Disability metaphor? It's not even a metaphor lol! They just explicitly have ADHD/dyslexia!" in the tags of that one post im gonna start biting.

1. If you read the word "metaphor" and presumed I was referring to something that is not a metaphor and that you are identifying is not a metaphor... perhaps you have assumed what I was talking about incorrectly. Perhaps when I said metaphor. I was referring. To actual metaphors.

2. If you think there are no disability metaphors in the PJO series outside of just all of the demigod characters explicitly having adhd/dyslexia, then a.) you dont know what a metaphor is and b.) you are the exact type of person I was making a joke about in that post.

anyways here's my post going into most of the major disability metaphors outside of just demigods being adhd/dyslexic.

[dea-thynote]

Death note au idea (that came to me from a dream) where literally after L dies, he wakes up and seemed to have time travelled. It would've been fine, better even for him, if it weren't for the fact he woke up as Light yagami.

What happened in my dream was that after L dies he literally just wakes up in light's body, from the first day that the yagami household is under survelliance. But he doesn't notice that first because he literally just died. He panics, puts a hand on his heart and feels it beating before sighing in relief. After calming down, he puts his knees to his chest and bites his nails, looking down, and numerous thoughts wonder to his head but there is one thing for certain.

He was right. Light yagami IS kira.

He needs to do something about this, and if he's still alive, he would be able to test the death note and put both kiras to prison but... he looks around and sees that he's no longer in HQ. The place is famili-- this is light's room. And then he just hears ryuk trying to communicate with him, and in shock falls down, before looking at ryuk again, his eyes twinkles. I just remember L in disbelief whispers '... another shinigami' that was totally audible to the wiretaps alright.

(But I never dreamt of what L, soichiro and watari'a reaction was. If I were to guess it would be similar with the response video by misa.)

He composes himself, and thinks, ryuk laughs at his reaction, but seemingly more amused with what's above his head with the way he had been staring at it. He looks down again and sees different clothing, it seemed right but also wrong. That's when he realizes, this is not his body. When Light (L) was about to ask ryuk questions, he shuts his mouth again. As he felt that he was being watched. A realisation dawns to him.

He's currently light yagami, and at the time the yagami household is under survelliance.

And now L has to struggle trying to act as light, which he does terribly, and avoid dying again, and as kira at that.

I don't remember much, I just remember like these snippets of him being scolded by sachiko everytime he slouched, puts his feet on the chair, or does his staring. That when he gets scolded his eyes down turns and if his face weren't emotionless, it would look like he's pouting.

The thing is, L is a great liar but not as much as an actor. Or when it comes to controlling his facial features, to make a comforting smile, an earnest chuckle or make a worried look. He often just defaults to blank. (This is a head Canon if I'm wrong lmfao I have to finished the anime help).

I dunno if he was able to actually pull it off, but what I DO remember is that HE FOUND OUT ABOUT THE POTATO CHIP.

That is all, thank you.

[star-felled]

if you dont like ingo at his bald you dont deserve him at his submas

[ratatatastic]

OH YEAH NO THATS GONNA HAUNT ME FOR AGES. MIKKSY SAYING PLAYBOYS AS HE PHONES INTO A FINNISH RADIO STATION COMPLETELY FUCKING PISSED

the whole exchange is so good (x)

[solargeist]

junebug and their big ole eyes

[bacchuschucklefuck]

i love your bard! riz au so much. he is so tragic as a character for all the reasons of what living in constant danger fear does to your mind. can i ask about his relationship with the other bad kids and the major differences vs canon?

hey I'm glad ur enjoying what's goin on here! I don't have a Lot of it clear in my mind yet bc it is a full class swap of the entire party so some stuff will just. not play out until they do yknow? it is how it is. but I think from the beginning riz's motivation is decently different so he'll just get into it on an entirely different path - he did Not start out a very kind kid. he would be extremely conflict avoidant, he's got the Actor feat, he's stocked up on Disguise Self, he's ready to disappear mid-conversation, anyone who looks like troubles he's steering Clear of. he goes to aguefort not because he wants to be an adventurer but because sklonda was like "this works for you?" and he was like "yeah 's all good :]" (he is about to throw up bc that's where penny went missing)

I'd say he runs into fabian (rogue) first very briefly and they'd mutually be like oh. a guy. and immediately forget each other once they get out of the same like locked classroom they accidentally both hid in. and then during the corn cutie fight fabian would see the way riz react and Not Like It (haha whoa. like looking in a mirror amirite) and go actually I'd rather be a hero (derogatory) than whatever that is that guy's got going on. great surprise for him when they got out and registration's closed and the mirror is now one of his partners in the career-long group project :]

kristen (sorcerer) would be an Insane encounter at first for riz like this is someone who is extremely powerful, not very controlled, and so fucking starved for people to be nice at. riz is cordial to her on the way and she is like Fuck Yeah Friend! please go do paperwork with me I don't know shit from fuck I haven't had proper paperwork since I was like twelve and gay. do you like candies? she then throws ragh through a window for trying to bully gorgug and netting her and gorgug the detention (riz is of course immediately someone else while this is happening) (he shows up again right after like haha sorry that was scary! resolutely not looking at how kristen's face falls at the idea of someone being scared of her again)

riz and gorgug (cleric) get on like house on fire at first in the sense that they're at that point both fake bitches and they know this about each other and acknowledge this with each other implicitly and they're like I'm not poking at what's going on with you if you don't poke at what's going on with me. and then gorgug dies and sees that the god he's been feeding his anger to isn't real (yet) and has his realization that he's been indoctrinated into a cult through the support group he's been to and starts on deprogramming and in that process he starts poking at riz's deal just by proxy of dealing with his own. riz gets vicious about this a bit into it but after the arcade he kinda comes around again. it helps that at the end of sophomore year gorgug becomes the saint of the Inbetween and riz is very much in need of that stop on his way right then

fig (barbarian) on the other hand does Not like riz off the bat (her whole thing is leaning into rage to live her truth without fear) but then being as perceptive as she is soon she's like ohhhh you're just scared. like Really scared and it's ruining your life. and after that she's like I'll just protect you then :] (this is her solution to most things her friends go through) this does not help at first bc riz has picked up the pattern that is if you're protective of him bad things will happen to you. he will have a breakdown about this in sophomore year but it'll get better from there

adaine (artificer) on the Other other hand just straight up doesn't like riz until after the arcade lol. he's on the prep side, he's not socially awkward and he doesn't use that power for anything but being a coward, he lets biz talk at him in the AV club and that means biz never stops fucking talking, and every time adaine raises a complaint all he does is being like "sorry :[" and changing nothing. it's fucked up between them riz tries to appease her by doing nice things but he doesn't address the things she actually complains about so she doesn't take it. she's the person who outright calls him out for not having the backbone to stand up for himself or his party. despite this she never thinks of throwing him out of the party and he does pick up on this. they get better after the arcade and riz apologizing and by junior year adaine's the one handling the tech end of riz's freelance publication

all of this is subjected to change of course I'm mostly keeping things mobile that's where all the fun is hehe. the world is constantly in motion etc but this is kinda how I'm coming into my art atm we'll simply see!

[itissadbutitsmy-artblog]

this is me btw

when youre being mean to me this is who youre being mean to

[szaryherbatnik]

You know what ive been saying that i dont have a favorite loa campaign but it has to be cos. What else would it be. Its been months (plural!) since i watched it and my heart still aches with so many emotions because of it. And i have actual fucking tears in my eyes whenever i think too much about it. It took so much not to cry at the cos references in eom. Even now in bdw i almost just dropped 4 kilos of weight on my chest because cough a certain surname was mentioned. Theres so much love and care shrouding cos from loa and the people who watched cos. Just. Fuck! I miss it i really do and it doesnt help that it haunts other campaigns.

[call-1-555-mystico]

playing the haunted carousel again and I almost forgot about one of my dearest echolalia:

🎶 SUSPECT LIIIST 🎶

[skitskatdacat63]

2009 Chinese Grand Prix - Parc Fermé - Sebastian Vettel & Mark Webber

[the-sunbee]

Tulipduo 💛🩵🌷

These are c!Bee and c!Laz. They met almost by coincidence on HauntSMP (ghosty’s sub SMP) and after some time became platonic partners in life. This is the moment c!Bee proposed to her.

[sidesteppostinghours]

guys i made a mistake.

[wave-man]

which mega man characters are most likely to yiik out

[wolkoshka]

watching shogun at long last and well,,,,im obsessed