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what's making me tear my hair out is how in the end they gave up their lives for each other both metaphorically & literally. wilson sacrificed time and money and energy to be with house and to help him in anyway he could over and over again. he never had a lasting marriage or family or a longterm meaningful romantic relationship. all because house was his best friend. and house gives back in his own fucked up little indirect way too. in return house ruins his life so he can be together with wilson in his final months. just insanity
#the heart#house md#hilson#they're not ever gonna be healthy but they'll be so so happy#they're meant for each other down to the blood type#type O universal donor and type AB universal recipient...#okay comfortable nap now. bye#ive made like so many edits to this actually this is humiliating i just realized i did not word everything right.....
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dad!matt and dad!chris is all i want in life
A Day with Dad - Chris Sturniolo
Summary: Chris is left at home with his two daughters
TW!: none really
Requested?: yes
A/N: feedback, interaction, and requests are appreciated! ( im also very sorry if this sucks i don't read a lot of dad!chris or matt fics😭)
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You and Chris have finally started building the family you've dreamed of for so long. You have two daughters: Avery who has just turned 4, and Scarlet who is 1 year old. You and Chris couldn't be happier living this life, but Chris noticed you've started to become more tired and tense, so during summer break, when the kids were home. He planned a day out full of activities for you and your friends.
It was 8:30 in the morning and you were leaving the house to get to the Breakfast place Chris put in a reservation for. "I'll see you soon," you say as you grab your house keys. "Have fun baby" Chris says as he grabs your chin and kisses you. "I'm gonna miss my girls," You say thinking of their cute chubby little faces. "They'll be with the fun parent, they won't miss you one bit," Chris says with a sense of pride. You roll you're eyes and laugh. "Whatever, Chris, I love you." "I love you more baby", and with that, you're stepping into the car and driving off. Chris waits outside until the car has fully left his sight before heading back inside.
As soon as he steps inside, he hears crying. "Scarlet" He mutters under his breath before running up the stairs and into the girls' room. He turns on the light and lifts Scarlet out of her crib. As soon as she's in his arms, she quiets down.
"Good morning sunshine, how are you?" Chris' presence wakes up his second daughter Avery. "Daddy!" Avery squeaks, wrapping her arms around Chris's leg. "Hey, bunny. You're pretty happy today!" He says, setting Scarlet back down in her crib. "Ok girls, Mommy went out today so guess what? You're gonna be spending the day with the best dad in the world," He says pointing both his fingers towards him. The girls cheer and Chris laughs. "Let's start by making some chocolate chip pancakes!"
It didn't go as planned. Chris ended up burning the pancakes. So now the 3 of them sit in the Mc. Donald's drive-thru picking out items from the breakfast menu. "I can't believe we are having Mc. Donalds for breakfast, this is the best day ever!" Avery says, waving her arms in the air. "Technically, they're breakfast foods so it's healthy. Also please don't tell your mother" Avery laughs as Chris picks up the food from the window and drives back home.
It's 4:40 in the afternoon. Chris got Scarlet to take her nap, and somehow he ended up sitting in front of Avery while she braids his hair into pigtails. "Done!" she says, grinning ear to ear as she hands Chris a mirror. "Wow sunshine, I look amazing," Chris says holding back a laugh.
"Now tell me, what would you like for dinner?" Chris asks handing her back the mirror. "Pizza, pizza, pizza!" Avery says jumping around. Chris sighs, "You sure you don't want something healthier sweetie?" Chris asks. "Healthy food sucks," Avery says crossing her arms. Chris lets out a chuckle. "How bout' we get pasta instead, huh sweetie. We've had a little too much fast food don't you think?" "with meatballs?" Avery asked. "With as many meatballs as you like princess," Chris says as he tickles Avery. Almost right after, Chris hears Scarlet cry again.
It's 11:30 and Chris and Avery have fallen asleep on the couch. Scarlet is in her crib, and Moana still playing on the TV. Keys jangle at the door before it finally unlocks. You walk into the living room and see Chris and and Avery snuggled up on the couch asleep, you smile and pull out your phone to take a picture. You tap Chris on the shoulder and he jolts up, then falls back down when he realizes it's just you. "hey baby, you're back" he says, flashing you a tired smile. "I am. How'd it go" "Let's just say i'm the favourite now" You laugh before taking a closer look at him. "What the hell happened to your hair?"
#chris sturniolo#chris sturniolo fanfic#chris sturniolo smut#chris sturniolo x you#chris sturniolo x reader#dad!chris#sturniolo triplets#matt sturniolo#nick sturniolo#sturn#the sturniolo triplets#christopher sturniolo#matthew sturniolo#matt sturniolo imagine#matt sturniolo smut#matt sturniolo x reader#nicholas sturniolo
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Meant To Stay The Worst
Pt. 1
Alastor x Reader
(friendship, slowbuild romance)
Pt. 2 ->
Note: This is gonna be a series. Reader and Alastor will be friends and fall in love and marry and meet each other again in hell and rule there as overlords...
Sounds nice and simple. And although all that is true, there will be a lot of emotional drama still. First, because of Alastor's trust issues, but also because they don't have a 'lovey-dovey' nice relationship. There will be fluff, and they'll love each other, yes. But the concept of their relationship is basically supporting each other in making each other worse. Like, they're in hell for a reason and want to stay there... They do morally corrupt things and even when they don't agree with each other they support each other.
I don't think this is dark enough to be considered a dark fic at all, it's more canon typically dark. But just to say this isn't meant to portray a healthy relationship or morals.
Warnings: Fem!Reader, use of Y/N (kill me for it) , Alastor AND reader are on the ace spectrum but don't know , alcohol use, idk tell me if there's smth else
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There was cake and tea, lovely flowers and lovely dresses. If you'd have been alone this may have been relaxing. But every time you tried to let your mind drift off to something nice - like a scenario of a book you read, the obnoxious voice of your cousin snapped you back to reality.
"Then he told me our offspring would be genetically superior!" She giggled.
"How romantic." You sighed in boredom and tried focusing on something else. Being forced to drink tea with your lovely cousin who tormented you ever since childhood, just so she could please her own sadistic desires was something you had to do as a representing lady of your house.
God being a woman in the 1930s was exhausting.
Your cousin Maria rolled her eyes at you. "Does it make you happy to be so negative all the time? You know you're gonna die alone if you don't fix this attitude of yours, right? You act like you're better than me, but at least men like me." She gave you a smug grin.
"Yeah, congratulations. I'm actually not really interested in the constant humiliation of being treated like a lesser human being, nor the year-long physical abuse I'd have to endure until I'd finally finish slowly poisoning my husband's tea."
Maria narrowed her eyes at your audacity to speak your opinion. Then she cleared her throat and smirked at you again - this was the look she always had as a child when she was about to torture you. "Speaking of which... I actually have someone you may be interested in meeting this time."
You just stared at her blankly without a response. You were forced to go on dates with different men all the time.
You were 21 and still not married, which was just a scandal for your family. But, you always managed to successfully scare these men away on your dates. Because you're a woman, your opinion of whether or not they'd be a good spouse obviously didn't matter, so you had to think of creative ways to make them not want to choose you.
After noticing your lack of response to her statement, Maria simply continued, "See there is this radio broadcast I've been listening to and this broadcaster... he just had such a hot voice! And he talked about some stuff... I don't know what, I didn't really listen, but he seemed proper, so I asked my dad to use his power to arrange a date for me! But, when I researched him further... I think he's a little poor actually, he wore this fake brand... also he doesn't really look like how I expected him to look, so... since you're all for this equality stuff I thought it'd be perfect. My dad is mad at me since he already paid for the date, so you're perfect!" She finished, giving you a fake smile.
"Hmm... this actually sounds like your problem, not mine." You gave her a fake smile back.
The girl just gave you an angry look and finished drinking her tea in silence.
Oh, you were so sure she was going to try to find a way to punish you for this.
And right you were. Your dad informed you the same day that you were going to go on that date. And you should definitely look out to not fuck this one up again.
Your father even acted like he cared about you for a second, explaining how this is what you must do in this world. Even if it's not perfect. You just went to your room in silence, trying not to cry in front of him.
This world was cruel. Your brother followed society's expectations and was fine. Your cousin followed society's expectations and was fine. You didn't and were unhappy. So was this truly the answer?
The next day you made yourself ready - skipping breakfast.
You'd just scare off this man like the others. Maybe you'd have to marry someone mediocre one day. Or maybe you were gonna run away someday. You weren't sure yet.
Arriving at the restaurant you recognized the cheesy interior suiting the style of your cousin and her father immediately.
The polite waiter recognized your face and showed you your table.
This supposed date of yours already sat there. When he saw you walking towards him, he immediately stood up and politely extended his hand to you. You took it and he planted a short kiss on your knuckles. The waiter handed you the menus and excused himself.
The man had a polite and big smile on his face and pulled your seat back, waiting for you to sit down until he sat down himself giving you a small bow. "My name is Alastor! It's a pleasure to be meeting you my dear, quite a pleasure."
He was definitely polite. But you did see what your cousin meant by saying he was probably not from a rich family. His moves seemed too much like he memorized them from a book only a short while ago, and not from real experience. His clothes seemed expensive for someone from a lower class but not higher. He also looked more dark-skinned than people in your family would probably find great.
"My name is Y/N. It's a pleasure to be meeting you, too." You tried giving him an honest smile back. He was probably gonna turn out to be an asshole, too, like all the guys, but for now, he hasn't done anything wrong.
The two of you exchanged light small talk before ordering your meals. You were surprised to see him ordering a heavy meal with a lot of meat and strongly seasoned. You of course didn't care what he was gonna eat and ordered your favorite meal, too, whatever his opinion may be, but you were used to everyone ordering the same boring and light stuff to seem healthy and well-mannered.
The conversation seemed superficial and boring but not too bad. He had at least not shown any extremely radical opinions or behavior yet.
His smile remained on his face throughout the whole conversation and after a while, he cleared his throat and explained kindly to you: "Look, you seem like a really beautiful and lovely woman, any man would be lucky to have you. This is why I have to be honest with you and tell you: I'm actually not interested in any romantic relationship or anything similar. But I am flattered by the letter you sent me and I do enjoy your company..." his smile didn't falter as he tried to politely let you down. It did though, when he saw your unusual reaction to his rejection.
Your always neutral-looking face until now, was slowly forming a smile and your eyes lit up. You were offended he actually thought your cousin's (probably vile) letter was written by you, but all in all you were glad, because this man didn't actually expect to sleep with you or even continue meeting.
You let out a relieved laugh. After seeing his confused face you quickly apologized, "I'm sorry, I just- my father forces me to go on these dates when I'm not actually looking for a relationship. I was already prepared to try to make up some story to scare you off, too, like I always do. But it seems like I may actually be able to enjoy a dinner for once without pretensions or expectations."
Though scaring men away can be entertaining in itself, too.
Your truly relieved smile, while picking up your food made Alastor smile again, too.
"Well if that's the case, I am happy we're on the same page, then. Though I am surprised about this... letter of yours then." He smiled gently, though his eyebrows scrunched a little in irritation when he said the word letter.
You then explained the existence of your cousin with a roll of your eyes and an embarrassed smile.
From that point on your conversation was much lighter and actually enjoyable. You both shared your annoyance at everyone's expectation to have to marry to have a life worth living. You then shared your struggle specifically as a woman. Marrying a man basically meant selling yourself to another man after you belonged to your father. It's like being an object.
Surprisingly, he actually agreed and talked about feminism and how much he appreciated women, especially his mother who solely cared for him since he was little.
He then explained how he definitely didn't want to meet the person who wrote that letter and expected an awful evening, but his mother encouraged him to at least try to meet a girl for once. This then ended in you talking shit about your cousin and him laughing about it.
It's the first time you talked to someone who actually shared your opinion. Of course, you knew those people existed, there was a wave of feminist women nowadays, calling themselves 'flappers' and even some men supported it. But you were never able to meet any of them, the only people you met were the same old, sheltered relatives of yours or their acquaintances.
You did have a thirst for knowledge though, which was the reason you knew about all of this in the first place, even when you were supposed to only associate yourself with a certain circle of people.
But you loved to read books you weren't supposed to and you loved to express yourself through art, when you weren't supposed to.
You tried learning basic self-defense too, but it wasn't easy through words alone and nobody wanted to teach you, because it was 'unlady-like'.
Alastor listened to you talking with a smile and nodded. He then explained how he hung around Jazz bars pretty often and got to know many beautiful feminist women there. You listened attentively. You heard about these places and wanted to go there for some time... Alastor noticed your interest and invited you to show you around one of these bars sometime.
You agreed with a genuine happy smile. This meeting was so unexpectedly nice. And you probably even made an actual friend for once.
"I do have to ask... you said you scare men away usually?" He asked and you nodded with a grin.
"So, how do you do that exactly?" He asked with a smirk while eating his steak.
"I usually just pretend to be a witch, a cannibal or a serial killer. Always works." You shrugged. Convincing men of these things over one date was actually easier than you'd think. And it did make sure they would never want to contact you again.
"Oh? But you're not, right?" He asked, his smile not wavering.
"Hmmm..." You obviously assumed his question to be a joke or rhetorical and answered, "No, I'm sadly not that interesting." You grinned and he gave you a weird grin back.
After the date, he walked you back to your house like a proper gentleman and kissed the back of your hand again when saying goodbye. He was a proper gentleman, not condescending or expectant of anything. This was definitely nice.
When you arrived back home you seemed surprisingly happier than your father or your brother expected you to be. They asked you how it went and you just said it went well and returned to your room.
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One week later you met Alastor again in front of a local Jazz Bar. He politely offered to intertwine his arm with yours before entering the place.
Inside you were immediately greeted with...
"Alastor!!!" A small blonde girl hugged him with huge enthusiasm. He awkwardly patted her back.
"Aww!! Who is this sweet doll you brought with you?" The girl grinned at you.
"This is Y/N. A new friend of mine." Alastor introduced you to the short, chubby girl. You gave her a shy wave with your hand.
She immediately took your hand and dragged you into the club. "Well, Alastor's friends are my friends! You're pretty! Can you do the Charleston?" You blinked at her in confusion, looking around you, trying to find Alastor. You weren't used to people touching you or dragging you around this much... was this gonna go bad?
"Mimzy! How about you leave this lovely, little fellow to me, hm? She's still quite new to the scene." Alastor grinned at the girl and took your hand to guide you to him again. You sighed in relief. This girl seemed nice, but you didn't know her.
"Hmmm..." The girl glanced between you and Alastor with a thoughtful expression. "Alright! Does the new girl at least want some alc?" She grinned.
You politely told her the drink you wanted and Alastor just said 'the usual' with a dismissive wave of his hand and a smile. Mimzy nodded and left the two of you.
Alastor now led you to a private boot. You felt awkward. You were usually not too shy, but this situation was so unfamiliar.
"Hey..." You felt a hand on top of yours. "Relax." Alastor smiled at you. You nodded with a sigh.
Later Mimzy came back with a glass of your drink and a bottle of whiskey for her and Alastor. They ended up sharing the bottle with you after.
Mimzy smoked a cigar and encouraged you to try it, too - you did and though it was nice, you had to cough a lot.
Mimzy just giggled, calling you cute. Later she and Alastor showed you how to dance the Charleston. At first, you were embarrassed to try it, but after a couple of drinks, you were convinced.
After dancing for a while you sat back in the corner of the booth, Alastor smiling at you and pouring you another drink. "I'm grateful, but I think this is gonna be the last one." You tried not to slur your words too much and smiled at him, still out of breath and blushing from the dancing and the alcohol.
He nodded. "I'll walk you back home, of course." You smiled at him in gratitude.
This was probably one of the most enjoyable night you've had in a while. Though it probably was just a regular one for Alastor and his friend. You wondered if she was his girlfriend, she was pretty and he said he wasn't interested in romancing you.
Later when Alastor walked you home he gave you a small kiss on the cheek, despite this not being labeled as an actual date.
Alastor grinned at your face flushing in embarrassment and he asked you if you'd want to repeat the night. You enthusiastically agreed.
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This fic is my offering to the Helluva/Hazbin God to finally grace us with Helluva Boss s2 ep8 🙏🙏🙏 (I know I'm pushing my luck here, but also please let Blitzo and Stolas fix their relationship- okay now I'm getting delusional)
If you want to know how girlie scared off men, I just had 'Red Flags' by Tom Cardy in mind lmao.
Anyway, I've planned way more parts for this one, including when they are both married and in hell, so stay tuned!
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The psychology behind Lumini
Would Lunar and Gemini be a healthy couple? I don't fucking know, I've never read or consumed anything to do with psychology in my life, I have no idea what the fuck I'm talking about here, I genuinely don't know shit about mental health, BUT I'M GONNA TRY ANYWAYS! So if my takes here suck then sorry.
Lunar:
Lunar idolizes Gemini WAY too much. And that's absolutely going to set their relationship back. It's good to admire your romantic partner, but you need to realize they aren't perfect. YOU aren't perfect, so if you view your partner as a perfect person, you're going to end up feeling like you'll never be enough for them.
You have to realize that you and your partner both have flaws, and recognize that you can work through them together as a team. Gemini, despite how much I love them, has flaws. Lunar is going to have to realize that eventually, but I don't think that'll completely get rid of the issue.
Lunar is just a guy. He got thrown into all this star power stuff randomly. and Gemini is his TEACHER. It's okay, because they're both adults so it's not creepy, but even then, you should never EVER be in a relationship with your boss/educator. Gemini's job is to make sure he's progressing steadily with his star power abilities. And since the astrals are so impatient, they kinda have to hurry him along with his learning. Having your partner teaching you something is stressful, because you want to impress them and do well for their sake. It's even worse because for Lunar and Gemini, it's not "I have a hobby i think you'd enjoy, how about I teach you?" For them it's "You NEED to learn this quickly and without struggling or else my brother is going to fucking KILL YOU." Star power is a life or death thing. Lunar having feelings for Gemini is definitely going to make learning harder for him, not because he'll be distracted by them instead of learning. but because Star power is his entire life purpose now and if he doesn't learn how to control it, the consequences could be very grave for him.
On top of that, he doesn't know Gemini very well. Which is fine, people get crushes of course, but they'll need to take things slow with each other if they want to get to know each other better and work through their other issues.
Gemini:
Gemini needs to be more understanding of Lunar's emotions. It's clear that they care for Lunar, but they're very tough on him, and I don't think they understand the mental effects of that.
Gemini feels things differently than any regular earthling. Their feelings are clearly more rooted in logic. They can feel angry and sad and happy, but it's different than how we would. For example, when they rejected Lunar, they gave him a logical explanation as to why they didn't want to pursue a relationship with him, then didn't understand why he was so sad. They thought explaining it logically would help him feel better, but that's not how feelings work. Sometimes people feel sad or happy or scared or angry for no reason, and that's okay. You don't have to justify your feelings or have a logical reason behind them for them to be valid, but I don't think Gemini understands that, and that's okay, but it's something they'll need to work on. Right now, they seem to think Lunar is immature or over emotional, but that's not true. He's been through a lot, and they really need to begin to understand that.
Now. The elephant in the room. When Lunar killed Eclipse, Gemini got pretty mad at him. Which is reasonable, he did kill a guy. I don't really think either of them were in the wrong in that situation though. I've seen some people say Gemini was downright abusive in their reaction, and I've seen some people say that they should've been harder on Lunar, but I wanna see things from both of their points of view. When Lunar saw Eclipse, he was scared. Seeing an abuser again is terrifying, I don't know what I would've done in his shoes. With the way Lunar's mind works, he could've just lost control of himself, he could've regressed from the stress of the situation and not known what to do, and with the way Eclipse was taunting and threatening him, it makes sense that he'd have a violent reaction. It doesn't justify what he did, but it does explain it. Gemini had every right to lash out at him though, because they trusted him and they spent a lot of time training him so he wouldn't do something like that again and he still did. And maybe, for the first time in a while, maybe they couldn't control their emotions either. Maybe they let their anger get the better of them.
Now, I think it actually shows how strong they are, because they were able to recover from what happened. Lunar apologized for what he did, and they've started to rekindle their friendship and build up trust again, and that's good! Because it shows that they can have arguments and still get over it. I've just got one issue with how their arc is going. I wish Gemini apologized too. I know Lunar did kill a man, but they really, REALLY hurt him. I wish they said sorry. But generally speaking, I'm glad that they're becoming friends again.
Another thing about Gemini is their upbringing. They don't talk about the other astrals very much, and I wonder what their life has been like so far. The other astrals seem more like coworkers to them than siblings, and I wonder if anyone other than Lunar has shown them affection before. Did Aries ever play games with them? Did Libra ever comfort them when they were feeling sad? Did Taurus ever show them how to use their powers? Or did they have to learn everything on their own? Sadly, we don't know. But based on how they talk about the other astrals, I'd wager not. And if that's the case, being in a relationship might be a challenge for them. They don't know how to respond to affection, they don't know HOW to be in a relationship. And in all fairness, neither does Lunar. They would be each other's first lovers, which is even more stressful, because neither of them know what the hell they're doing. If they want their relationship to last, they'd have to be perseverant as HELL.
Anyways. I just spent 45 minutes writing that....
Again, I'm not a psychologist! I'm just some random person! I have never studied mental health in my LIFE! Not to mention, I was gaslit A LOT as a kid. I have some pretty sucky parents, so I don't know what a healthy relationship really looks like either! That being said, if I said anything so unbelievably, ungodly incorrect, please correct me! I need to learn more about mental health so maybe then I can ALSO start feeling better.
I have been shipping Lumini since the episode where they went to Paris together, and I was NOT expecting the shows to actually explore the possibility further. I would LOVE for them to get together in canon, because they both need some love and affection. I think it's good that they have these flaws, because they can grow together and progress as characters, and I'm glad they aren't just some cookie cutter automatically healthy no issues whatsoever relationship. I really do hope things end up working out for them.
#tsams#sun and moon show#sams#laes#the lunar and earth show#lunar x gemini#lunar x pollux#lunar x castor#lumini#laes pollux#laes castor#laes gemini#laes lunar#tsams lunar#I DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT MENTAL HEAlTH#please correct me if i'm wrong#please.
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chain-gang all-stars.
dialogue prompts from chain-gang all-stars by nana kwame adjei-brenyah.
make them love a version of you.
if you can gather enough people into one voice, you can do anything.
ask for permission and you're giving them power.
everybody's looking for the same thing in a lot of different ways.
how do you feel right now? what's it like?
stoic as ever.
how'd you get into so much trouble?
you beautiful, heartless bitch.
talkative as always.
it's hard to forget the things that hurt you. you don't often forget the shape of your cage.
a good shave is a kind of love.
we all get good at crying quiet.
there's always more wicked, if you dig deep enough.
you'd be destroyed looking in the mirror, if you weren't already dead on the inside.
i hate what i am, but i love what i can do.
being near you makes me feel safe.
suck my dick, america.
if i go there tonight, i don't know if i'll come back.
christ still loves you, i'm sure.
the horror you make is yours forever.
who told you to go and do that?
you're too good ever to have any kind of worry.
why didn't you tell me when it happened?
i'm asking you to trust me.
i worry because someone has to.
i'm going away. i don't think i'm coming back.
i need some things to be for me and only me.
you're scared of what's new. you're scared of hidden intentions. you're scared of surprises.
it's not like you to be sloppy.
few things bring people closer together than killing as a pair.
i've been silent, but i've never been blind.
i didn't even vote for you.
i've died so many times now, i must be unkillable.
i went to hell and became an artist.
there is always, always a bottom you can't imagine.
it would be funny, if there weren't so much blood everywhere.
you're my emergency contact on everything.
i won't let them touch a hair on your head.
i don't care about you. i love you.
organization is life.
i didn't want to die, but i didn't want to be there.
if you remember your name, i think you'll be okay.
whoever holds the rod is always right.
don't be sorry. make ____ sorry.
everything seems slower than before.
don't hold back your hurt for me.
pain can disappear people.
what are you punishing yourself for?
use your personality. they'll love you.
do you think i'm a person that can be in the world? like, actually?
in a sick world, healthy is strange.
what were you dreaming about?
i don't guess. i know.
sometimes being a leader means carrying things alone.
if you don't have a code, you have nothing.
i didn't make the rules. they made me.
if not now, when?
don't tell me to relax.
be careful who you give your name to. you don't know how they're gonna use it.
what is said about you has power.
how's it feel to be home?
i've been angry for such a long time.
the thing we fear is already here. it's wrong not to try to do better.
literally everyone knows you're a lactose-free pescatarian.
breathe through it. you'll be okay.
i'm a talker. i always have been.
i did it because i could.
i wanted you to see who i was.
what i want for you is to see what you've done and forgive yourself.
forgive yourself. then you can start working on everybody else.
i tell you, and i can't un-tell you. you understand?
what do i have to be for you to trust me?
i thought being back would make me feel something, and it does, but not like i thought.
i feel like this place isn't my home.
if my mother were here, i would tell her to go to hell.
you've been very kind to me.
try to look at yourself and say 'i love you'. then see what happens.
you understand how i feel about you, right?
i don't know what this life is for, but i know it isn't nothing.
i'm happy i got to be part of your story.
it hurts, but it's still mine.
sometimes what hurts you is also what you need.
the bad news is, i forgive you. the good news is, i forgive you.
i know it hurts. see the hurt. feel the hurt. then move.
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If you feel up to it, I'd really like to hear more of your thoughts/takes on HinaKoma. I recall you saying that they make the most sense as love interests (aside from Chiaki, R.I.P. class rep) but you also seem to also have very different view about them than what I'm used to seeing. Your opinions and thoughts regarding the cast in general tend to be very interesting and kinda deeper? more detailed? than the people I tend to interact with, and I love reading all of them.
Ok so what I mean is basically;
Reading the narrative as a story, it makes sense that Hajimes primary love interest was Chiaki, as the game sets the two up as an investigation duo from the start, and there's definitely some intent there. The narrative sets Nagito up as this weird friends-to-enemies-to-respect-to-maybelovers, which is interesting, and I think the narrative definitely keeps the idea of Nagito and Hajime as love interests completely open (to the standard of the game in general). They're foils, they're a pro-deuter-antagonist knot, they have an interesting dynamic, a long way to go, and the story generally seems to support that, no matter what, they are Involved with one another, to a degree that really exposes how much interest they have in each other. Like they're a bit a LOT interested and it's like, inevitable, that they'd have a massive influence on each other's lives, even when it's not in the most healthy way. I think they are sort of inevitable together, and they gotta find a way to bridge that crevice and make it work, because its GONNA happen no matter how stubborn they are. And making it work is gonna be HARD, it takes so much effort and reflecting and growing and understanding, lots of heartbreak and breakthroughs, but by the end they're much more realized people and they Get It Now and can make it happen healthily.
(If they fail and get unhealthy with it, they'll be a really toxic and bad relationship that nonetheless cannot seem to fade away, and they keep trying to simultaneously understand and condemn one another to their own detriment.)
If they try and succeed, it was always gonna happen but they made it into a happy happening with a lot of effort and growth, and can have a fully realized relationship that could probably withstand most anything.
That's how I consider them Love Interests, it makes the most story sense and is definitely supported by the narrative (as much as any queer elements ever are, I guess), I just think it would be a LOT of work and almost unwilling effort.
(It's rotten work, he says.
Yeah, I say, it really fuckin is, especially to me, especially when it's you. I mean I'll do it of course, but Christ alive.)
It's just still not what I'm most interested in, even if it's the most narratively satisfying and I consider it an intentional hint at a subplot. I just like to draw what I'm interested in.
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urgent wuestion: mom bought me a sharpedo ive never trained pokemon before what do i do
Wait wait wait, time out. She...bought you a Sharpedo? As your first pokemon??? Has- has SHE ever had a pokemon before? Have you ever expressed interest in raising a Sharpedo? Where the hell did she go where they were just SELLING SHARPEDO???? I have so. So many questions. Anon, if she didn't get this pokemon from a certified breeder or a shelter, PLEASE look into the legality of wherever she got it from, there are VERY FEW places that will just sell fully-grown pokemon to someone, much less one as care-intensive as a Sharpedo.
That being said, it sounds like you want to make sure this pokemon is happy and healthy regardless, which is a good thing to want! There's a few basic standards of care to establish first- food, habitat, and trust.
Luckily, food is by far the easiest part of caring for a Sharpedo. Sharpedo, unlike their juvenile pre-evos, are obligate carnivores- which means they NEED to eat a diet of primarily meat in order to live. Outside of this requirement, though, they're some of the least picky eaters I know. You should keep them primarily on a seafood diet, and you can feed them any fish you want. There's standard water-type carnivore food they sell at the Pokemart, if you're able to get them fresh fish you can feed them almost anything, but in my experience their favorites are Lanturn, Veluza, Lumineon, Squirtle, and Wishiwashi fry- you don't even need to get stuff from an aquarist, you can just buy some fish at the store. Any seafood that's safe for a human is more than safe for a Pokemon. You can also feed them land meat, but most kinds tends to have much higher fat content than their natural diet of fish. Keep burgers and fried Combusken for occasional treats, rather than their main diet. Try not to let them eat wild pokemon, either. It may be tempting to let them just act on their instincts, but you cannot possibly know if that wild Lanturn it just ate had parasites or a communicable disease. If it eats one anyway, get it to a pokemon center asap to be screened.
For their habitat, you'll ideally want access to the ocean. If you're worried about them swimming off- don't be, they can go really fast, but only in short bursts. You should be able to keep up with them on foot. If that's not an option and they don't have a ball, consider getting them one, it'll make it a lot easier to train them. If you don't have access to the ocean, you will at LEAST need access to a clean body of water large enough for them to go full speed for a while- a quarter to a half mile long in either direction. They can zoom around on land too, but vastly prefer the water. That's just for enrichment, you won't be keeping them there while you're at home. If you have them in a ball there's a lot of habitat building you can gloss over, but as a matter of good husbandry you'll still need a saltwater tank for them to rest in. If they only swim in freshwater, they can swell up and get sick, if you keep them on land for more than 8 hours a day they'll shrivel up and get sick from dehydration. You'll need, minimally, a 500 gallon saltwater tank. Remember, this is a pokemon roughly the size of a grown adult, even if a lot of the height and width is just fins. You could maaaaaybe get away with 400 gallons, but it's gonna be tight. At the very least you won't need to worry about tank decoration. Aside from substrate/sand/gravel, you at least won't need to worry about decorating the tank. Sharpedo isn't that concerned with having hides or rock, they're more content to just swim around aimlessly. If you don't have the room or access to a tank like this, a lot of aquarists and aquariums have spaces for people to let their friends recharge in the water- but this is usually for people who are travelling and are away from their usual tank, not for people who live in the area and don't have a tank.
The hardest part, more difficult than finding the space for your Sharpedo, is building trust. The most common way trainers will build trust with their Sharpedo is by raising them from a Carvanha, but you unfortunately don't have that kind of luxury. And depending on where your mom got this pokemon, you could be at an even worse disadvantage, potentially having received a pokemon that has already learned to be wary of people. The first thing you'll need is a lot of patience. It takes a lot of time for even a wild Sharpedo to trust a human, but once you have that bond they're fiercely loyal. Despite their reputation as fearsome violent killers, they're generally a lot more curious or energetic than they are malicious. At the very least, their 'bloodlust' tends to be pretty well sated after a filling meal. I don't know how your Sharpedo will react to you, but here's my advice for getting it to trust you. Firstly: Don't touch it. I mean it, do not touch this pokemon unless you ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO, and if you DO have to, wear gloves, and do it fast. Sharpedo skin will absolutely tear your palms to shreds if you aren't wearing any protective gear, and getting your hands in biting range of an already-stressed predator is a very good way to lose your fingers. Actually building that trust is going to depend a lot on what your Sharpedo's personality is. More energetic and aggressive natures will want to spend a lot of time doing things- battle training, agility courses, learning tricks, whatever. The more quiet and contemplative ones will just need time, there's not much you can do there except calmly spend time in their vicinity, feed them, and regularly bring them places where they can zoom around in the water to their heart's content. My own Sharpedo didn't really see me as someone worth trusting until after I had already won two badges with them- not all Sharpedo will be like that, but most of the stories I've heard from other trainers have had that similar thread of taking a looooot of time and effort until they truly trust you enough to exhibit that loyalty and comfort.
I just dumped like eight paragraphs worth of advice here, but I'm barely scratching the surface. For sure take this Sharpedo to the pokemon center to make sure they're up to date on their innoculations and see if there's any medical issues to be aware of, bring your new friend to a local aquarist to get a one-on-one professional opinion, spend time with your Sharpedo as an individual and pay attention to their likes and dislikes. They're far from mindless killing machines, they're complex, intelligent creatures with a discerning eye and sharply honed instincts. If you find yourself unable to care for your Sharpedo and are unable to find a friend or trainer able and willing to care for it in your stead, make sure whatever shelter you bring it to IS prepared to care for it- though I do still encourage you to try caring for it, anywhere that will just...sell pokemon FOR MONEY without any real vetting process will probably not leave their pokemon with strong senses of trust or very good mental health. Please care for this Sharpedo as best you can, and see what in arceus' name your mom was THINKING when she picked this up, holy hell.
#pokemon#irl pokemon#pokemon irl#pkmn#pkmn irl#irl pkmn#sharpedo#asks#water pokemon#anon if you're in hoenn and your mom didn't get this from a lisenced breeder or shelter#PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE report whoever sold her this sharpedo to the regional humane society
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I'll change the conversation a little if you don't mind?
What do you think of mama's boys? I think some skz members are
i want to preface this by saying that these are just MY opinions. i love women & i love being a woman, but a lot of the time, "mama's boys" are 100% created to be like that by their mothers themselves.
okay "mama's boys," let's do this:
1) think there is a HEALTHY LEVEL to which a guy can be a "mama's boy"... sort of. the problem is, i'd argue the vast majority aren't in this category 😭 there are some really fucking rad moms out there who are just super fun & close to their kids, OR maybe they have a son who was always just not really into the "typical masc" things or didn't get along with their father, OR maybe the son didn't have a dad in his life so he was close to his mom. in any regard, none of these are inherently bad things. as long as he was raised by a mother who was NORMAL, i think it could actually be a benefit and he could possibly come to understand women a lot better. a lotttttt of the time though, that mama is NOT normal 😭
2) the majority of mama's boys i've met have been made that way by their mothers. it's usually been from moms who were either overprotective and/or emotionally unsupported at home. i think some of it stems from women not always feeling loved or wanted by their male partner, so in turn, they try and "invest" more into their son, show him a lot of love, so that he won't turn out the same way. they think that if they teach their son to have this personal connection with them & give them unconditional love, then they'll be a good man in the future and know how to value a woman... at least, that's what their brain tells them. it can start with good intentions, but over time, i think a lot of these moms end up depending on their sons for emotional support & love. kind of seeing them as a "project" that they've created, that they now can't let go of. they start to see them as perfect & like they're really too good to move on from them... so when these mama's boys DO grow up, it's really fucking hard for them to see this person that they've basically "trained up" to be the perfect partner leave and go find someone for themself.... leaving them along again.
it's honestly so fucked up for the mom to feel that way, but now the son has that psychological shit going on too. he's been babied and mothered and shown unconditional love his entire life. in his eyes, he probably doesn't think he can do any wrong. and now he ALSO probably expects anyone he's with going forward to behave just like his mother. and if you don't... well he's probably not gonna be with you. or if he does, he'll have his mom in his ear the entire time telling him you aren't the one. i swear in these relationships, the only time the mom is EVER happy is when her son chooses someone who looks like her, acts like her, and lets her be 100% involved in their lives. and the whole time, in this guys head, this is all completely normal.
do i get "the ick" from the vasssssttt majority of mama's boys? yes. but do i also kinda feel bad for them sometimes because a lot of them have simply been groomed this way for their entire lives? also yes.
as horrible as it sounds, i just don't really see a way to have a good relationship with an extreme mama's boy if he doesn't recognize that she's problematic. if he's putting you first & fighting for you every time, then sure, whatever & you can work on it. but if he's taking her side all the time? well then, he's made his pick. and that's sad and no one deserves to have to go through that. no one will ever live up to the stabdards his mother has set.
that's some hardcore stockholm syndrome shit right there let me tell you.
so nowwwww, i NEED to know who you think could be a mama's boy in skz?!?! i'm so curious 🤭
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i saw someone on twitter seriously have a go bc snc were focusing more on their social life than their professional life. like what? thats insane. they’ve worked 24/7 for the last 10 years. they deserve to enjoy themselves for a while.
and i have to laugh. people saying theyre going to stop watching snc and laugh as their careers fumble? babes, if they depended solely on yt views for income they’d be uploading far more frequently. besides, they have 12 million followers and easily bag a million views on a video in the first 24 hours. a few dozen fans boycotting them is not going to make even an ounce of difference. but hey, if it makes you feel better, all power to you. (“you” being those fans ofc). not to mention they have investments and other business endeavours outside of youtube. your online hissy fit will do jack shit. (again, “you/your” being those fans)
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i think that's the thing i find so funny about this fandom. first off almost 99% of the drama is started by twitter. or at the very least they're the loudest at all times. they also think a lot of us feel the same way as them just bc it's an echo chamber over there. so when they all start calling snc out on something or think that that everyone feels the same way, they feel like they are making an impact by saying they'll leave or stop supporting if snc don't meet their demands.
and babes, if you really aren't enjoying your time here, you can go. it's fine. no one is holding a gun to your head and telling you to stay. but don't expect snc to do everything you want them to do. it's just not gonna happen.
sometimes i don't get this fandom. bc look, when i was here back in 2020/21, i got some of the backlash that the boys were facing. i understood parts of it, for sure. but there was a lot, and i do mean a lot, of extra shit that went on that made it much worse. and that side of the fandom… they cried wolf too many times. you don't get to do that repeatedly and then think that snc are gonna stick around to actually hear what you gotta say.
and especially rn, what exactly are ppl pissed off about?? bc look, you wanna say you miss when they were posting a lot more, sure. i get that. i miss them posting more often too. but you gotta also realize maybe WHY they aren't posting so much. and blaming their new gfs isn't one of those reasons.
they have explained that they basically had little to no personal life at one point, that all they were doing is working. that they didn't get to spend time with their friends or gfs bc they were working so much. sam, the man that never addresses drama, is asking fans to cool it. he full on said that he was miserable a year or so ago bc of all the stress he was under. and then colby, the man that doesn't cry ever, had a full on break down in 2022. and didn't even admit it until midway thru 2023. he doesn't read comments anymore bc they get so bad sometimes. or how about that colby even stated that he didn't even want to tell this fandom that he had cancer bc he knew how everyone would react if he went bald………. what does that tell you???? that we aren't trustworthy. that snc feel the need to pull back bc we are all toxic.
at what point do we turn the mirror on ourselves and realize hey, maybe i've taken things too far??
and reality is, a LOT of this only popped up once they both got gfs. a lot of fans say those two aren't to blame or they're not upset or they don't actually want to date snc, but at the end of the day them finding someone to love was the straw that broke the camels back. and you gotta sit back and wonder why does seeing snc happy make me upset and want to leave?? (if someone reading this is one of those fans)
bc rn, i'm more into snc than i have been in a while. i want to see them happy and healthy and enjoying life. sure, colby being in his feels (or sam even) was a fun time, sure. i love me some balcony tweets. but at the end of the day, i don't want him jaded and unable to find love again. why the fuck would i wish that on someone i love dearly??? same with sam. sure. i can joke about kat and how i want her new song to tear him a new one, but i still want him to be happy. i want him to be able to move on from his relationship with her. and that's not a cut at her. no one should be stuck feeling like shit. take it from the person that has been like that for years and still really is in one way or another: i wouldn't wish heartache on my worst enemy. so why would i do that to someone i say i care about??
but back to your ask lol
yeah, the twitter fandom thinks it's all high and mighty but it lost that spark by 2022. their words mean nothing, snc have pulled back bc that side of the fandom sucks (but also bc they want a break), and now they are facing the consequences of their actions and don't like it. womp womp. there's still almost 12 million of us babes. a couple 100 of you leaving ain't gonna do shit.
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Just had a thought about potential future romantic storylines for both Eddie and Buck, and how honestly? The writers have kind of shot themselves in the foot. Let me explain. A bit of a rant incoming, so I'll tag accordingly.
Okay, so we have 8x6 poorly handling a break up between Buck and Tommy, which came out of nowhere after only being shown a happy and healthy relationship since season 7, and people like Tim Minear using "romcom" and boosting up both Tommy and Buck/Tommy in interviews. Then add on not only Eddie saying he's straight, but I'm positive both Ryan and Oliver have more than once now referred to Eddie as straight in interviews.
With this in mind, how are we the audience supposed to ever care about any future romantic interest for either Buck or Eddie? Why should we feel motivated to even try to feel invested in whatever happens in their romantic lives, especially for Buck, if solid relationships like Buck/Tommy can just be tossed away seemingly on a whim? (i've seen rumblings of higher up interferences? we'll never know)
I'm gonna be honest, while I'm a multishipper, I have very little hope that the show is ever going to go down the Buddie route. Not with Eddie's canon statement that he's straight, and not with both Ryan and Oliver calling Eddie straight. To be fair, a lot of the interviews have been Weird this season in particular, so it's hard to take that stuff seriously, maybe for lack of a better word. But for canon, and the show itself? Again, I have little hope right now they'll later have Eddie say "oh, I guess I'm not straight after all."
For Buck? We've spent 8 seasons now watching him either sleeping around (in season 1 and in part of season 2), or going from one relationship to the next. Over and over with the relationships. It's canon that Buck wants a forever partner, and to have is happy ending. Well Tommy sure as hell felt like a real possibility for that happy ending, but it's just been tossed to the side and, unfortunately, feels pretty final.
So if we're (most likely) not getting Buddie, why should we care who Buck ends up with next? Who's to say Buck will even last with the next person? The show just showed us that they'll, for whatever reason, toss aside a Good Thing for Buck, and just... I don't know. We're supposed to get over it and be excited to see who Buck will be with next and watch them last half a season, maybe a full season, before he's once again onto the next? I'm repeating myself, but again, if the show can just dump a solid relationship Buck was in, who's to say they won't do this again?
For me, these writers have knocked down a lot of my trust in them on so many fronts. This isn't the first time, and at this point I know it won't be the last.
I said it before in a different post that I was never apposed to Buck and Tommy breaking up, because I never fully expected them to last forever. I would have loved it of course, but I wasn't necessarily expecting them to last. Nevertheless, I sure as hell was expecting a breakup that made an ounce of sense, and was handled with care and respect. This did not and was not, and frankly, how it's been talked about in interviews by, as far as I can tell, Tim Minear and Oliver Stark, has not been... great. They both fumbled it.
*sighs* As for Eddie, well. I genuinely have no clue what they're going to do with him. I have zero interest anyway in his love life until he actually gets some help and actively works on himself. One dance session in his underwear does not solve 30 something years of issues and trauma. Eddie said he's straight, so fine. They're (probably) going to later set him up with another woman? Okay, I sincerely hope the writers actually put some fucking effort into it this time.
I'm sorry to be harsh, but we've had to deal with Eddie being stuck on Shannon and a relationship that he continues to look at with rose tinted glasses for over 5 seasons now. It's stagnant and boring at this point. We've seen Eddie in a relationship with two other women, neither of which were ever much of a character. His relationship with Ana was bland and boring, and his relationship with Marisol nolastname was such a nothing burger that went nowhere and did nothing for Eddie.
Eddie says he's straight, fine. Then actually prove to me that he wants to even be with a woman, because thus far this show has done such a piss poor job at making me believe it.
I can absolutely change my mind for the better later, as I'm allowed to, but this is how I feel right now.
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About Boston ending, it’s not the fact that he ends up all by himself, without the group and single. I knew one couple was not going to have an happy ending and felt that it was going to be Bostonick for sure. It’s the way it all ended for him. He never got an apology back while he made sure to apologize to everyone, Mew was in his right to not want to be friends with him anymore (even if they barely were friends) but the way of saying it was so condescending and the last scene of them where he told him he forced himself to stay cordial with him for the party at cheum demand was so cruel. Nick and Boston not ending together is logical as they don’t want the same thing in a relationship but it’s the way once again it unfolded. Boston who was the only character that state exactly what is expected of him, forgot to mention that he wanted an open relationship. In every single scene of the final episode, he ended up humiliated and ostracised and that was painful.
But he's gonna go be happy in America. I swear it. Boston is going to leave this behind and find a new group of people and he's going to build a new, much brighter, future of people who care about him and won't judge him and will care about him for who he is and if they're assholes, they'll apologize just like he will and he'll grow into a healthy, open relationship and it'll all be great.
And none of his friends in Thailand ever need to know.
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It's time to up-pot, move and save some little seedlings!
Most of my plants haven't grown big enough to out-grow their pots, but I've been noticing some problems caused by me, and caused by weather, so I figured I should fix it. I prepared a big bucket of soil, lots of cups and little pots, and it's a nice day out, so I get to do the messy work on my balcony.
This plant you see on the picture, is a dwarf tomato. They're a balcony variety, she won't ever be planted outside, and, she's just about to outgrow her pot. I don't want her roots to start circling this cup, so I'm moving her before she gets too big. I grew these for several years and the bigger container they have, the more tomatoes they produce. They give produce as early as late May, which I love about them. So! I'm up-potting her to this big plastic bucket:
This plastic cup is very pliable, so I'm taking the plant out by pushing with my finger on the bottom, and flipping it upside down, so the gravity helps me get the plant out. This plant is so small and vulnerable, it would be easy to cause damage if I were to pull on it, this way she is safe. As soon as she's out, I flip her around and place her in the bucket, already half-filled with soil. Then I just bury her roots in more soil, water her, and she's done!
So now I've taken this tomato out, I have a little cup, free for another plant! Next thing to tackle is this problem:
See this little plant container with 12 spaces? That thing is horrible, it was my first time using it, and I'm never gonna do it again. it's atrocious. Since the spaces with the soil are so small, it dries up insanely fast, and it's impossible to keep it watered. I found it completely dry several times, and some of the plants just died in it. The soil inside also gets super packed and plants have trouble pushing their roots in, look at this:
Even though it's such small amount of soil, the plant managed to overtake only half of it. SAD! But, it's going to be all good now, because I'm taking all of these plants out, and putting them in proper cups, where they'll be happy and healthy. You can see on the picture I'm putting these plants on the balcony floor, and the little tomato is now being bottom-watered. Bottom watering means you have a container with holes on the bottom, and you put it in a bigger container, full of water. That plastic food container is filled with water, and the soil and the roots are able to draw this water in, making the plant watered just the correct amount. I'll keep adding plants in there.
The next project is this kale that needs to be saved. What happened to it is this: I planted it early January, and then it was just, very cloudy, rainy and dark outside, for the entire week. This means the poor fella didn't manage to get enough sunlight to grow a good stem, and instead it grew leggy. Leggy plants are those end up arching too much and growing too long in order to get some sunlight, and as the result, the stem is weak, flimsy, breaks easily, and cannot hold the plant. That's exactly what this kale is doing:
See the first picture? Cannot hold the leaves up. I've seen several people save seedlings like that by planting them a little deeper, and having soil hold up the stem. I'm not sure if it will work with kale – it might, it might not, because stem isn't exactly supposed to be underground, it can grow sick. But it's worth trying out, I believe in you kale.
And now, for my own mistake – this container of tomatoes has been planted too shallow! I love shallow planting because it means the plants push their way out of the soil fast, but it can also mean that they can't gather enough purchase with their roots underground, and they end up falling over. This entire container fell over. Luckily, you can transplant a tomato as deep as you want. Tomatoes are special in this way; their stems will grow roots if in the contact with the soil. So If I plant them deeper, I will push them to create a better root system. This isn't applicable to other plants! Only tomato family does this. They're going to have a better time growing with only their leaves over the ground, like in the picture:
If you look at the second picture, you can see that I'm just compiling these plants on the floor, and I kept putting down new ones until I had about 20, at which point I have had to make another bucket of soil to keep going. I also ended up not having enough space in the kitchen for all of them, but I found a solution to it.
I have more light on the balcony currently, and some of these plants can withstand a freeze – kale, broccoli, cabbage. They'll be alright even if I leave them outside overnight. So I did a little moving around, and this is my current kitchen plant situation:
This picture is taken the next day, and all of the up-potted plants here have recovered from the ordeal, and are doing great :).
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the way you write lando and max is so viscerally them that it gives me butterflies every time please don’t ever stop pressing keys on a keyboard thank you
heh i cannot. actually process praise because i am very mentally unwell but thank u anon here is a ficlet of them being hungover
Obviously, it was a terrible idea to get drunk at the F1 Arcade party. Firstly because everyone knows who they are and secondly because Max gets the worst hangover anxiety known to man and they're in a hotel and now he's agitating while Lando's trying, like any reasonable person, to become one with the mattress in the hope it will somehow stop his head hurting.
"Stop, look-" he grabs for Max, blindly. "C'mere."
Taking advantage of being bigger than Max these days to pull him down into the pillows probably is a little bit unfair but Lando can't deal with the way he's frantic-scrolling his phone. "No one's gonna have taken pictures of you checking my arse out or whatever, it was dark. And anyway, you do that normally, why are you worrying about-"
"Because," Max looks a bit tearful, from the way they're pressed very close, faces almost touching. "I can't remember what I did or how we got back and that's - fuck, I need to sort myself out."
Oh. Oh. It's not anxiety, not really or at least if it is it's about bigger things than Lando ordering them an Uber. It's that every brush with racing stuff reminds Max he isn't a driver anymore, lets him pick at himself and see every bit of his body and mind that's changed as a problem, not a success. Turns Max Fewtrell, happy and healthy on a sabbatical into a negative compared to Max Fewtrell, lost and spiralling in racing. Puts himself back in the place where it was his fault, where there's another reality he could go back to and prod and poke at it until something else happened.
Lando opens his arms, pulls Max close, lets him snuggle in. It's weird, that their size difference is the other way now and Max is so tiny, tucked against Lando's chest with his face in the crook of Lando's neck.
"Do you want avocado toast or, like, proper greasy breakfast?" Lando's trying to get his body as moulded to Max as possible, which he could justify as being like, Max's weighted blanket or something but is mostly just because there's never going to be a time when being in bed with Max, in just their boxers, isn't going to be exciting to him.
Max makes a humming noise. "Probably the avocado. It's your off-season though, you pick."
There's just enough movement between them that Lando manages to get a hand on Max's arse, so he can get their hips in line for some not-exactly-rutting but like. Just knowing their dicks are in the same place, reassuring more than horny.
"We're getting McDonalds," Lando decides. The hotel probably does Deliveroo and if not, they'll eat it sitting on Max's car's bonnet because he hates the smell getting in the seats.
Formalities over, he gets back to the real task of tracing circuit maps on Max's lower back and sucking his earlobe and pushing his leg between Max's until Lando can roll them over, be on top of Max while he's gently, like, ravishing him or some shit.
Max lets it happen, moans and arches his back when Lando sucks his nipple, bites at the chest hair he's kind of jealous of. By the time he pulls Max's boxers down he's basically all the way hard and a few seconds of Lando mouthing at the tip of his dick gets him the rest of the way there.
It's salty, velvety, nice. Max has a pretty dick, pink and easy for Lando to swirl his tongue around, hold in his mouth more than sucking, heavy on his tongue. He always ends up having to use quite a lot of hand but that's ok because Max likes it and it's not long before his balls are tight, under Lando's palm and then Max comes in his mouth and lets him keep going, basically making out with Max's dick as it softens.
By the time he's satisfied, wriggles back up the bed to drape himself on Max, he's kinda but not very surprised that Max is crying. Not a lot, just enough to say it was intense for him and sometimes Max doesn't have the words for whatever he's feeling. Doesn't matter, they'll work it out together, once Lando's head feels less like it's in a bear trap.
"Thanks, Bob." Max kisses him on the forehead and it's almost as good as paracetamol. "I'll get you back when we get home, yeah? Blowie in the streaming chair."
That's the best suggestion Lando's heard all morning, so he just unlocks his phone and shoves it in Max's hand, Deliveroo open. "I wanna double sausage muffin."
"Sure you do, buddy," Max says while squeezing his arse and. Ok, yeah. He does.
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romance & relationship headcanons / accepting ♡! from @ofgentleresolve , who asked for 17, 18, & 20 for Taiquinn , ( ft. @uroborosymphony )
( how does your muse feel about marriage? would they ever want to get married ? ) omg this is gonna be a long one . . . I'll try not to let it get too long ksjasjk but there's a LOT to say. to start, Taiyang's parents had a unhealthy marriage, and bearing witness to that (among other things) during his formative years deeply affected him. he developed very complicated feelings toward the topic of love: he simultaneously longed for it, longed to belong somewhere, to feel wanted ( because he didn't feel any of that growing up ) . . . while on the other hand, he also harbored a deep fear and mistrust of the very idea. being treated with open affection and warmth felt highly unnatural to him, first of all: and secondly, some part of him always saw it as doomed. because in his experience, love usually didn't end well. (either it didn't last, or it killed you.) so love & attachment resurfaces a lot of fear and anxiety for him. yes, he fears getting hurt; but much more than that, he fears hurting the people he loves. he fears letting them down, or not being good enough for them, or letting something bad happen to them ( not protecting them ) . . . so honestly, romantic love is not something he daydreams about or idealizes. he is not the type to be in a rush to find lifelong romantic love or marry. ( that applies to all verses. ) but. . . when he meets Ara, I think his feelings on the topic would begin to shift. yes, he still fears all of the things I mentioned . . . but his love for her is stronger than fear. he would decide he is not going to run away out of fear of what might happen; he would instead fight very hard to make sure none of it happens . . . growing up, seeing people being cavalier with their love, or giving up on the people they claimed to 'love'... it never sat right with him, as a kid who desperately wanted love but could never seem to grasp it. so, he takes commitment very seriously, and marriage is of course no exception. he wouldn't rush into anything, but when he decides to commit to someone, it's forever. it's for life-- if they'll have him that long. . . and that is definitely how he feels about Ara !!!! so, tl;dr: YES YES he wants to marry her!!! THAT'S HIS CRIME WIFE !!!!! wifey forever asjajja ( how does your muse feel about public displays of affection? would they engage in them ? ) hehe, I know some people hate PDA, and Tai also makes fun of people who do it around him . . . but honestly?? that’s just because he’s a freaking troll ajsjaj; he actually thinks PDA is harmless, and can be perfectly healthy. he resents the idea that it is cringey to show affection to someone you love, and he also hates being told what to do... so if someone implies to him that he should refrain from PDA because it makes them uncomfortable . . . well, unfortunately for that person, that information will do nothing to stop him asjajj he tends to engage in ‘casual’ PDA very frequently– constantly, even, lmao. he almost always has an arm around Quinn when they’re together; hands on her waist or around her shoulders, or she’s in his lap if they're just chilling and sitting with a group— things like that. and if he wants to kiss her, he’s going to, and if they end up making out in public . . . well, so be it. akjsa no but he would behave if there’s young, innocent eyes around, though. but other adults?? he's just like :shrug:, 'look away if you don’t like it'. he doesn't care if it bothers other people; he loves Quinn, loves being around her, loves touching her and being near her and cuddled up to her, and he has a lot of nice things to say about her. he's really happy to have her in his life and although he has done things he's not proud of -- he is proud of what he and quinn can accomplish together. he's proud of her, and the family they've made out of black fang . . . and he doesn't see any reason why he shouldn't be open about that. he's a pretty straight-forward, sincere person when it comes to that, so . . . yea. sorry PDA dislikers, but he does engage in it: that's just how he is jkasjj
#meta.#ughhhhahhe tumblr is giving me error messages again unless i delete some text... so i'll answer the last q in another post#roLLING EYES EMOJI.
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Maybe it’s cause tour is starting soon and I’m just baffled by all of it so I’m sorry for ranting. But I genuinely don’t understand how paramore thinks all of us fans are just gonna ignore and move on with the fact that they’ve been silent about a genocide when a lot of aspects of their concerts have speeches about the state of the world and the second song of the setlist is literally called “the news” which they wrote about the Ukraine war. I’m sorry but their silence is so cowardly and embarrassing like imagine spending a whole album cycle saying shit like “very comfortable at talking politics” and promoting different congressmen and us representatives and now there’s an ethnic cleansing funded by US taxes and you’re gonna promote an interview?? promote a podcast?? like do they not realize how every single one of their past activism just seems so performative now?
I love the band and I’m gonna be at the NZ show but it’s crazy that this political and environmentally conscious band is just not gonna call out the government for playing a part in one of the worst crimes ever committed in human history. They’re gonna donate portions of their concert money to KiwiHarvest so I know they care about feeding people and making sure it’s all healthy so where’s the outrage for Palestinians who don’t have clean water and are all eating very little cause the bakeries got bomb. Where’s their cry for the environmental damages that Palestinians are going through with the white phosphorus bomb and fires all around sacred olive trees?
I hope they know that thousands marched for Palestine here in NZ and I know many people from the protest are also going to the paramore concert. I really hope the band don’t pull those “we just want peace and Israel has the right to defend itself” type of shit cause we booed a member of the NZ parliament off stage for saying something like that and as much as I admire this band, I will not hesitate to do it for them too
hi anon <3 don't worry you can rant if you want!
their silence have been extremely disappointing and have honestly turned me off them a little. maybe it would be better if they were completely silent between tours – completely on social media hiatus – but when we see them promote stuff and be active it just makes it worse. they're actively not saying anything. if they're going to be political this era they can't pick and choose which causes makes them look the best.
in the dolly parton interview hayley just did also made me more disappointed:
her saying that her speaking out and trying to make a difference doesn’t do much in the way of action. her saying this is very confusing to me especially after making a statement like “very comfortable with talking politics”, and them supporting different organizations like support + feed, and kiwiharvest. it's crazy to think that them speaking out or supporting these organizations doesn't make a difference. it does. it would make a difference if they spoke out about the genocides happening right now. they have the power.
i'm happy for you being able to attend the NZ show and i hope you have a great time. my guess is they'll keep their mouths shut and not say anything at all before they would show support for isreal (if that's what their beliefs are).
#as always i don't know if what i'm saying makes any sense#stole the screenshots from ivie (paramoreisrare) btw#it's just so crazy to me for her to say this and then later in the interview talk about all the good dolly har done#with the imagination library and the funding she did for the covid vaccine#dolly made chance happen. she made a difference#paramore have the same power#ask#anon
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attacking you based off of your favourite evermore song <3
willow
how does it feel to be the therapist friend? how does it feel to want to reach out but none of ur friends know ur in the lowest moment of your life? stop acting like you only need yourself!!!
champagne problems
stop projecting ur emotions to things that will NEVER help you. listening to music isn't gonna make you forget all ur problems, eating or sleeping is not a good replacement for ACTUALLY letting all the anger and tears out. the repression is honestly just sad now. i hope you get better soon.
gold rush
the moment someone shows you a hint of care and affection, you get attached. then the moment they walk out of your life, you think it was your fault.
NEWS FLASH! it was NOT ur fault. u just hate to think about them in a bad way because ur so blinded by love.
'tis the damn season
you hold grudges. you don't make it obvious, but you do. you make sure that the amount of attention they give you is the same amount of attention you give to them. you try so hard to balance everything it just ends up hurting you.
happiness
you literally trust NO ONE. you've been betrayed and hurt too many times. when you do find someone who makes you happy, who gives you every idea that they will never do anything to hurt you, you run away, because you think when you get too close, they'll break ur trust (how can something so frail ever be whole).
no body, no crime
how's it feel to be touch deprived? you so badly want someone to hug you but even just a poke on the arm scares you. you hate touch but the idea of it brings you comfort.
dorothea
you so badly want reinvention. you wish to become someone else, someone who you're not. you wish for everyone to just forget you and you could live the life you so desperately want. you want a new identity and just run away and forget everything in the past. it really is cold tonight, and all your friends really are 3 years away.
closure
you're a damn spy. you're always checking in on people even if they're not in your life anymore. you always want to see if they're doing well, and that upsets you if they are. it upsets you that they're happy without you. because you're miserable without them.
cowboy like me
no one truly knows you. your family thinks of you differently, your friends don't know ur deep secrets. ur secretive. you don't like telling people things about you, because you feel like there's always ill intention behind it. that may be a good way not to hurt. but it's a hard way to live bestie.
coney island
you hate social interaction and you hate meeting new people. but you have no trouble doing that online. that's why you're so stuck on the internet because the people you meet through the internet makes you so much happier than the people around you physically.
long story short
you rush to do things, time bothers you, and you always wish you could do so much more. you feel like there should be no limit. you overwork yourself, you want to reach your goal quickly, you feel like anything could happen, so u focus on getting things done. a serial procrastinator my beloved.
ivy
every time you were so close to finding love, it didn't work out. that's why you believe you'll never find it, because at every opportunity it never worked. you want to love someone so bad, but you haven't - couldn't - found the person who deserves you.
marjorie
people tend to take advantage of you. it's hard for you to say no to people. you please people, intentionally or unintentionally, you find it difficult to get rid of toxic people, so you wait and wait for the world to do it for you.
evermore
it's not healthy to constantly run away from your problems. look hey, maybe it gets better, maybe it doesn't. but you have got to stop PRETENDING that it has nothing to with you. you are NOT the product of all the things that have happened to you. you are you. whatever you want that to be. just stop running. please.
it's time to go
you've been gaslighted in a friendship or a relationship. it's hard for you to never feel guilty for things even if it has nothing to do with you. you sometimes unintentionally guilt trip others, and the moment you realize, you drown in guilt yourself, guiltfest. I wish I could tell you it gets better. perhaps.
right where you left me
you're still so stuck in the same damn time. you've perceived life to be still in the time where u were happy. you don't want to move on. you don't let go of the past as it's keeping you back. u hold on to it because it's the only thing that makes u happy. you can cling onto the past as much as you like my love, but that familiarity gets old (ironically). remember that no matter how tightly you hold on, it's already gone <3
#evermore#taylor swift#cardigan#sally rooney#hand holding#wlw#seven#i love you#folklore#red taylors version#taylor swift 1989#taylornation#taylors version
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