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sharkfish · 2 years ago

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Ace headcanons for cas are actually. Kind of bad because they’re rooted in ableism, he’s coded as autistic before any headcanons come into play and people just LOVE to make every autistic character asexual.

if you’re not autistic and coming onto an ace persons post about how they don’t like ace headcanons about a queer autistic character you’re not the hero you think you are

Sincerely an autistic ace person who hates the way neurotypical aces write ace cas and wish you’d stop because it’s clear y’all hate us 🫠

i'm a little stoned so bear with me while i try to arrange vaguely coherent sentences to think through this. edit: i'm so fucking sorry for the disaster that follows. my brain is working about as well as my electric fence is rn, whose charger is currently in the red and says "CHECK FENCE" (because i guess the dial in the red doesn't make it clear enough i've got a problem). despite that... i hope someone out there has some idea wtf i'm trying to say and can help me out here.

this is literally the first time i have ever heard anyone express something like this, and i've seen a whole lot of talk from autistic people, ace people, autistic ace people, etc, about how much cas (& their reading or hc of cas as autistic and/or ace) means to them.

—background info: i am neurodivergent, but not autistic. i'm also ace.

—sidenote: thank you for bringing the ace autistic stereotype to my attention. i'm legit not sure how honest this ask is in general, but thinking back on autistic characters i've seen in media, i can see that being a thing. there's a long history of seeing people with a variety of disabilities* (*i know there's some nuance and conversation around whether or not autism can/should be actually considered a disability) as uninterested (even undeserving!!!) in sex or romance, as if PWD aren't fully-fledged humans with rich interior lives just like everyone else. that's not ok!

—sidenote 2: i made a mistake in my OG reblog of that post by even bringing canon into it. it's like pointing out bible contradictions to christians in an attempt to deconvert them--it's irrelevant because the bible isn't a real story. i don't fuck with canon. the author is dead. etc. BUT that doesn't mean the way people interpret a character can't be Problematic (for lack of a better term) when we compare it to canon. i just shouldn't have brought canon into it because i don't actually care about those specifics.

so -- i'm not doubting the validity of a character being "-coded," because that has been the only way for many people to see themselves represented in media (see: hays code, etc). i think there might be a convo to be had here though about how we define "-coded." ugh i'm struggling to articulate what i mean, but i guess... when is it "-coded" and when is it "i see myself in this character, regardless of authorial intent" and when is it "i will make this character x thing because i damn well want to and not even god himself can stop me." smarter people than i have talked about this i'm sure. i'm just not sure the threshhold where a character is "-coded" (or "similar to" or whatever) where it is canon to the point where representing a character otherwise is erasing a marginalized identity.

i'm trying to suss through in my head.... ugh, something about cas being non-human without any understanding of human mannerisms, culture, etc, in-universe. i understand people seeing themselves there. i see myself there — i often feel like an outsider, like someone who can't show my true self to any of the people around me, even the ones i love, i often feel lost in a world with rules i don't understand or agree with (some of which are around sex!). but i guess as an allistic person, i would feel really uncomfortable declaring a character autistic when the mannerisms/etc that tend to lead autistic people to seeing themselves in him are literally caused by him being non-human. to me that feels like some sort of implication that autistic people are not quite human.

if i'm understanding what you're saying, it sounds like it would have to be clear to everyone that he is autistic, and representing him as anything else would be ableist (bc erasure). maybe i'm totally totally off-base here. but i guess i'm asking myself if making him allistic is erasure, or if deciding a not-human character is autistic because of their alienness is a little hinky in itself.

—it is worth nothing that the OG post that led to this ask did not say anything about cas being autistic. maybe you're OP and you just forgot to include the most important part of your "cas can't be ace" argument (i would tend to think "it's ableist" is a better argument than "he's horny"), or maybe we're just moving off on a tangent, or whatever.

as an autistic ace person, i imagine you know how little (respectful) rep there is out there for autistic people and ace people, much less autistic ace people. do you legitimately not want to see someone like you in stories? do you legitimately want to put a ban on ace autistic characters?

because you're certainly not alone as an ace autistic person, and other autistic ace people deserve to see themselves. art exists so we can see and be seen. (art is also discovery, which is another reason representation is so important!) and i have cried, actual wet tears on my face, from seeing characters who look like me. i cried the first time i heard a character identify themselves as ace in popular media. shit, i'm old enough that i still get emotional seeing queer couples in media and just existing out loud. that shit really, really matters, not just to reduce stigma but to tell people they aren't alone. (i also cry when someone leaves a comment on one of my ace stories or trans stories or stories with mentally ill characters saying it made them feel less alone.)

i have bipolar. the optics on bipolar are not good and there are a lot of fucked up representations of people with it. people fuck it up more often than not. but banning people from writing bipolar characters is moving in the wrong direction. we have to be thoughtful, and we have to examine ourselves and others, and we have to do it right. there's just no way to do it right if you can't do it at all.

ultimately i'm just not sure how it's fair to say a character can't be ace if they are also autistic(/adjacent). hell, you're going to have a hard time convincing me it's fair to say a character can't be ace for any reason.

—sidenote: is this like the anti thing where you have to declare your traumas and diagnonsensicals so everyone knows it's Acceptable for you to write a certain topic? like, if it turned out i was autistic, would it then be ok for me to write ace autistic characters? as mentioned before, the OG post didn't say anything about autism and neither did i. or did you 100% know i don't have autism because i think it's ok to hc cas as ace? anon, are you allowed to hc a character as ace and autistic?

honestly this came so out of left field. the idea of "i am both x and y, but it is Wrong for a character to be both x and y" is so strange. it brings to mind people who are like "GOD you WOKE IDIOT SNOWFLAKES, i'm so TIRED of you forcing diversity in my face, WHY is this character black AND a wheelchair user?!" and of course the answer is... because some people are black and use wheelchairs? i think this is one of those situations where we go so overboard trying to do the right thing (e.g., not create disrespectful representations of autistic people) that we end up with the same result as the people who want to do the wrong thing (e.g., no one is allowed to write characters with multiple marginalized identities).

sincerely, a person who is sincerely confused by an autistic ace person saying characters are not allowed to be both autistic and ace

ps: just for funsies i was looking to see if there was an autistic ace mash-up pride flag (saw one someone suggested on reddit but there doesn't appear to be one widely used) and learned a fun fact! a survey of 2400 autistic adults found they were 3-9x more likely to identify themselves as asexual, homosexual, or bisexual than the general population. the article mentions that folks who answered the survey were specifically 8x more likely to describe themselves as asexual than the general pop. this is completely irrelevant to the actual discussion in this post, just something to say when mom asks if you learned anything on tumblr dot com today.

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onlyhereforangst · 3 years ago

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WWR

Alright y’all a likely final WWR coming at you, you know 3 months late the day of the dreaded s19 premiere. This definitely gets ranty and emotional, if you’re a Gibbs stan scroll the fuck away & don’t send me hate anon. This is bittersweet and it hurts and I’ve been living in denial for months but I needed this little bit of closure before the writer’s absolutely fuck it up in less than 6 hours. I hope you enjoy my emotional ramblings & I’ve absolutely loved writing these for the past two years, i’ll miss it & your reactions to it dearly ❤️

Badass Ellie is allllllways a treat, and protective nick contrasted to her making albeit slightly reckless decisions is top tier. And then followed up by him being impressed as hell??? He’s like damn my girl just did that and I am not turned on, no way, we are working I am not turned on, nope. Nick sitting at Ellie’s desk in the beginning PLS. Feet kicked up feeling mighty comfortable for someone who hates sitting at a desk 👀 only ok with it when it’s Ellie’s, huh Nick? Also I love that he’s sticking with the nonchalant approach like he did when he found her looking up Eastern Europe locations. He knows if he pushes too hard it won’t go well, but he is still concerned for her well-being. Those pieces slowly clicking into place that something isn’t just off- it’s worrisome off. Because while yes he’s still nonchalant he’s a touch more serious this time, ignoring her attempt at a brush off and claiming “he wants answers.” It’s a subtle step up from 18x14, but it’s there. His spidey senses are tingling and he’s getting less and less able to hide his concern for her 🥺 even if he tries to play it off as flirty banter because yes he’s still gd impressed with her moves and even tells Vance as such essentially.

Flash forward to at the stash house and they find the files plus the mini debrief back in the bullpen…I truly am inclined to believe Ellie doesn’t know here. I mean sure she realizes that the timing fits to a certain extent—she was at NSA when this happened, but I don’t think she knows this is the beginning of her end. She’s like “oh they’re selling secrets too” and “my contacts are all gone” like…I just, she seems too casual and not at all on edge. Idk so far I’m just not getting that vibe. She even brushed off McGee with the whole that was ten years ago almost like she didn’t remember it? But then at the same time she did bring up the whole legal vs ethical- she hedged, but she did mention it. She was not super gung-ho about OMG THIS WAS SO UNETHICAL WTF HOW COULD THEY DO THIS so still……..idk lets continue haha

Ok her knowledge of guns is slightly concerning but also Nick finds it concerning AND hot, boy can’t help himself lets be honest. That “damn” that slips out please, so many sirens going off in that head but also you’re just like well fuck talk dirty to me some more babe. Aaaaand here we go, here’s why I know Ellie didn’t know that odette was going to plant that shit right now. “Whoever took them from the NSA’s code-level servers risked a lot more than their career” with a little like duh face from Ellie SCREAMS that she did not, would not, EVER do that. The leak was fabricated by Odette and the fact that it would be planted during this case was all Odette unbeknownst to Ellie. Or why the fuck would Ellie so casually and somewhat judgmentally be like “who TF would leak something like that, man they stupid, committing treason and whatnot.” And Ellie is SHOOK when Vance tells her it was her. Like shook as in, blinks several times, shifts her weight back, glances at McGee with a flash of surprise in her eyes. That body language screeeeeams being caught off guard. If she had leaked those documents and if she had known this was a plant, she wouldn’t be caught off guard. And no matter how well you can try and play the part, that body language is legit. She’s shocked someone would even think about that and oh man, Nick. Nick’s face hurts me (and I know this is just the beginning). Because a man who has always seen himself as the bad egg, the criminal so to speak, the one who would do something shady before any of the others. He is shook and angry that Vance could even consider accusing Ellie of this. And then there’s the genuine concern etched on his face (and I’d know, the screen is currently paused on his face staring at Ellie with a worried furrowed brow and pain clenched in his jaw) because he knows logical Ellie wouldn’t do this but also he knows he’s been seeing little puzzle pieces fall into place of suspicious behavior and this is just one more thing that doesn’t sit right with him- doesn’t fit the woman he’s come to know and love. And while I know he truly believes she didn’t leak the files, I would bet right here he’s concerned about what the fuck she’s gotten herself wrapped up in.

And she continues to be adamantly against this, like Eleanor Raye Bishop would NOT ever leak intel, not as a baby NSA analyst who believed she was doing the right thing always in her role. Never once bringing up questionable ethics, she thought it was the greater good, that little patriot. She’s so adamantly against it and then Vance asks if she was framed, and I think that’s the point where Ellie realizes this is Odette. The word framed all of a sudden clicks it all into place and she picks up it might be “go time” for her. Her glances over at Vance have changed, they’re more cautious, calculating. She hears they’ve been leaked over ten years ago and she knows that she didn’t do it 10 years ago so this very well may be the notice of eviction from Odette. The “we’re coming for you, Agent Bishop” and her little look, oooooh Ellie is fired up. Her switch flipped and she’s now gotta hunker down and defend herself until she can confirm with Odette. Vance doesn’t even let her get a word in to “fight” for her innocence. But the fact that she’s getting sent home pisses her off, she wants to be close to the investigation, know what’s happening, and I’m sure a part of her still resists being dubbed that traitor of the state. Who knows, Odette may have never told her how she would become a disgraced NCIS agent, and this may have pissed Ellie off because her integrity is something she prides herself on. Her line, “I’m not Gibbs […] I’m innocent line” is like a tiny bright spot to chuckle in during this dismal finale. Gibbs hate train right hereeeee

Love that Kasie is immediately on the Ellie defense side, not looking forward to her reaction to Ellie leaving IF they even decide to show us.

Gibbs telling Ellie “sometimes there’s nothing left to be said” when he fucking up and left the team without so much as a goodbye or sorry for committing police brutality like fuck outta here Gibbs. Ellie is CLEARLY vulnerable right now, she’s been accused of leaking classified documents aka committing treason, she’s suspended, she’s on the brink of going on some dumbass undercover op and is begging, pleading, for any sign from you- her boss and father figure- not to do it. That he shows remorse for leaving the team without a word, that he regrets his decision to just disappear on them, that he wishes he hadn’t or he had done it differently. ANY kind of sign to tell her not to go through with what she’s about to go through. Literally any sign, and instead Gibbs gets defensive and bites back that she’s picking the wrong time in her life (LIKE HELLO YOU JUST SAID IT RIGHT THERE IDIOT, SHE’S GOING THROUGH SHIT MAYBE YOU SHOULD FIGURE OUT WHAT IT IS BUT NO YOU’RE WRAPPED UP IN GIBBS LA-LA-LAND AND HAVE SAID FUCK YOU TO YOUR SUPPOSED KIDS), so now Ellie is even more pissed and gets defensive back telling him he doesn’t even know what’s going on in her life and if that’s not a desperate cry for help I don’t know what is. like she is begging you Gibbs to pick up on it and figure it out, begging you to do your job that’s you’re supposedly so good at and save her from going through with this stupid mission. And then Ellie realizes that he stopped caring about them. He’d gotten so wrapped up in what he was doing, he stopped caring about their lives, the problems they were facing, anything. Him *not* realizing something was happening??? This is Gibbs, this is the man that always knows what’s happening before you even know what’s happening. So the words “I’m starting to realize that” hit like a fucking dump truck. He’s too preoccupied with his own boat-making nonsense that he can’t be bothered to have even an inkling of an idea of what’s going on in their lives. And he doesn’t seem to care that he’s dropped them from his life. And that’s when it hits Ellie, he’s never coming back. He’s cut the team out of his life and he doesn’t care. He has no regrets, he can’t even be bothered to have a single regret. And I think that, right there, is when Ellie decides she’s all in. I think there was always a small part of her that was hesitant to go along with odette. Hesitant to just upend her career and her relationships (aka Nick, but we’ll get to this), all of it. But hearing that the man she looked up to even though he’d made some mistakes, the man she viewed as a father, the one person who’d taken a chance on the nerdy analyst long ago, the one constant through all the turmoil she’d had, just left? Just left without a goodbye, without remorse, without even a parting thought for her? That was it for her. Whatever brainwashing Odette had fed her that she’d pushed back against from fully taking over finally broke free. And with it, Ellie grieves, she’s tearing up from knowing what she’s about to lose. Lose the man she viewed as a father, the coworkers that were like a family, the partner she’d found herself loving like she’d never loved before.

Ugh poor hurt Nick, he’s willing to do all the grunt work that he abhors in order to free up McGee so he can save Ellie. Nick knows he doesn’t have the skills and I think that’s killing him even more so. He can’t just do it himself, he has to rely on someone else to clear her name (to which he bumped back to last name in a last ditch attempt to maintain distance and keep some semblance of emotions in check, which is failing miserably), and that is killing the doer we know and love. LOL “so you’re both wrong” this poor man I love him, I can’t wait for the tears that will come from me later 🥲 nick immediately taking Jessica’s help, I love it. He’s like I don’t give AF who will help us but I am clearing this woman’s name if it’s the last thing I do. And then she walks in and he’s frozen. All these emotions running through him and then she’s there?? And she ignores him??? Ignores all of them?? Rushes past and storms up to the director on a suicide mission??? Yeah this is why I said that conversation with Gibbs was her last nail in the coffin. She hadn’t decided to go through with it (hence why she hedged earlier with Vance) and then he went and was a piece of shit so she said the hell with it and went all in. She can’t even bring herself to speak at Nick, barely looks at him, because she knows, she knows if she speaks to him, if he gets a chance to try and talk her down in the heightened emotional state she’s in after talking to Gibbs, she won’t be able to hold it in. She won’t be able to deal with seeing emotionally charged and hurt Nick. So she ignores him and McGee and does what she thinks she has to do. How hard did it have to be for Ellie to tell Vance not to defend her, and that their intel was correct? 🥺🥺 it goes against everything she’s ever stood for and she just went and did it. She hates liars and yet she lied. She loves her country and yet she claimed she committed treason. Her body language once again screams uncomfortable but trying to play it off. She’d nodding and repeating it over and over because she needs to convince herself of the words. They leave a bitter taste in her mouth and she can’t stop it. All she can do is clench her jaw a little tighter and get it over with and convince herself.

Nick is in disbelief, obviously. McGee looks like he’s five seconds from breaking down because his little sister is supposedly a traitor??? Like he can’t believe it. He’s hurt she would do something like this even though he still knows in his gut that it can’t possibly be true. And oh FUCK the part where Nick’s voice cracks asking if Vance fired Ellie. Fuuuuuuuck me. This man’s heart is breaking for what’s happening to Ellie and being completely in the dark about it. Sure they weren’t really clear on what “they” were after The Talk but still. He thought she was open with him. Ever since the jail cell, things had shifted and he thought she’d been honest with him. He’d picked up on those little things, but maybe it was just training or something, NOT committing alleged treason and quitting the one career she loved. Not leaving him in the dark and vanishing without so much as a word. Not that. Because she KNOWS his past, she knows how much shit he’s been through with people in his life leaving without so much as a goodbye. And his voice continues to crack asking about what’s going on because he’s literally in shock. McGee is desperately trying to keep it together, keep some sort of figurehead for the team. Nick is in shambles ok, just like I’m in shambles. He’s adamant she didn’t do it because he KNOWS her. He knows she would never in a million years leak classified intel and now he’s just confused like a lost and kicked puppy. She didn’t DO IT, and she’s not answering her PHONE. He just wants to talk to her, he just wants to know she’s ok, wants to comfort her, wants to convince her to stop and it’ll be alright and he’ll take care of her and he’ll save her because that’s all he wants to do and always has, right? Save her. Save her from everything in this world that could hurt her. Protect her from life’s dangers. Protect her because he can’t bear the thought of losing her. And that all is crumbling down around him. All of it, crashing down like an avalanche, ready to bury him alive in grief and guilt and despair and anger. How am I supposed to TALK to her, he just wants to fucking be with her. He just wants to be there. With her. For the rest of their lives.

Ellie looking at the hat, please. That’s a lifetime of regret packed into one facial expression right there. She’s looking at that hat, the one she cherishes from the moment Gibbs hands it to her, and knows it’ll be the last time she ever sees it again. It’s not something she can take with her, and it’s full of fond memories—most happy, some sad, a few bittersweet—but memories that have made her life whole the past 8 years. And there’s officially no going back, she’s admitted to treason, there’s no way out of that. She’s having to say goodbye to all of her career without saying goodbye to any of them, all of that is wrapped up in that hat. A hat that’s so simple but signifies so much to her. She definitely was not expecting McGee to come out and so her rebuttals to him are exasperated and grasping at straws initially. She tries sarcasm and then she tries to brush it off “it doesn’t matter, it’s done […] I get that, I don’t want to talk about it” when McGee voices that he’s hurt over this and her reputation matters to him. Because he’s like another brother to you dammit Ellie. Yeah he’s grown since he said Ziva was like a sister to him and just stomped on your heart, he didn’t say it then but you’re like a sister to him too Ellie. I love that he fights her on it, and Ellie is like shit I have to come up with something. I don’t think she expected McGee of all people to fight her on this and I’m so glad he did. A little bit of growth because he is not going to see another person he views as family leave him again. And Ellie’s half assed excuses please, all of it is just such BULLSHIT because when they first debriefed she was just like “ethical? Hmmm” nothing more, nothing about being a vigilante and being up in arms over this like she claims she was. Bullshit Ellie, bullshit. And the PARALLELS TO FUCKING GIBBS. THIS IS WHAT YOU DID GIBBS, THIS IS YOU. LOOK WHERE YOU FUCKING PUSHED ELEANOR BISHOP TO STOOP TO. McGee begging her to regret it and Ellie pulls a Gibbs and is like NOPE. WONDER WHERE THE FUCK SHE LEARNED THAT FROM HUH. Gibbs you are singlehandedly responsible for this shit and how Ellie broke Nick’s heart and whatever happens to her on this stupid mission. I’m glad your dumb boat blew up, you deserve it.

“I don’t want protection” because I can’t have you all following me.

“It kills me that I lied to the people I was closest to” not about what you think I’m lying about but what I’ve been hiding. It kills me that I can’t tell you the real reason for this. It kills me.

“It wasn’t years ago for us” McGee rip my heart out please it will hurt less. And Ellie just playing into all of it. Knowing that she needs him and everyone else to hate her and not trust her. Her entire livelihood and backstory rely on them hating her and not following her, believing she’s the enemy and she’s hid these kinds of secrets for so long. Believing she’s a criminal and it was all a farce. She has to play into it. She has to. It’s the only way she will survive, they’ll survive. Odette likely fed her this shit, cut all ties, make sure no one follows, make sure no one is attached, burn all bridges.

Ah and we’re back to pissed Nick. Nick who doesn’t like to be left in the dark ever, let alone when it deals with Bishop. Getting his edgy self being rude to Kasie but Kasie doesn’t even bat an eyelash. She knows Nick is hurting and she reaches out to him, she doesn’t take his tone to heart because she knows. Nick saying he wouldn’t know how she’s doing is just like a knife to the heart. He wants to know, desperately. He once thought he was the person she would go to in times like these but now all he’s getting is radio silence, a cold shoulder, and screened phone calls. He’s in visceral pain from the thought of her going through this alone, pain from everything he once thought true and good being destroyed in a day’s time. And Kasie is shocked that Nick hasn’t spoken to her. If that doesn’t tell you she knows that they are a thing and the gravity of all this, I don’t know what will. Nick should have spoken to her, clearly he wants to, in every other situation he would have already. But Kasie (and Jessica) just realized Ellie is shutting Nick out and that is Not Good.

Back to Gibbs. Fucking asshole he is. McGee comes to you desperate to help his sister, Gibbs’ “daughter” and he goes “I think she’s at a crossroads” ???? Acting like he didn’t fucking encourage her at this so-called crossroads???? Like ???? The fuck???? Her crossroads was painfully obvious when she came to talk to you and YOU basically treated her like you couldn’t care less about her. That you had no clue what she was dealing with in her life and said as much. So yeah, she WAS at a fucking crossroads until you SHOVED her into oncoming traffic and said have a nice fucking life. AND THEN. McGee wants to help her and Gibbs tells him he can’t??? “Not this time” bitch this is YOUR FAULT. YOU COULD HAVE HELPED HER. COULD HAVE TALKED TO HER AT LEAST SOMEWHAT AND YOU DIDN’T. YOU SAID YOU DIDN’T REALIZE SHE WAS SPIRALING AND THAT YOU DIDN’T REGRET LEAVING YOUR SO-CALLED FOUND FAMILY IN THE DUST AND GUESS WHAT. SHE WENT AND PARROTED YOUR WORDS RIGHT BACK AT MCGEE SO FUCK YOU GIBBS.

Ooooh Nick looks lethal, love that look, hate why he has that look though. Lol Nick getting ready to go murder the dude in interrogation because he set up Ellie and he’s just ignoring the fact that she claims she committed treason because he already knows there is literally no way on earth that she did it. And Vance realizing that Nick needs to stand down like fiiiiiiinally someone realized it. Obviously he isn’t gonna listen and poor Nick, this boy has it bad and he’s truly just SO WORRIED for what Ellie is about to do. Because right there, the confirmation that the file was a plant, that was the final puzzle piece falling into its perfect place. Every single thing he questioned, every little moment he’d replayed in his head, it all made sense. And he was so very pissed she hadn’t come to him- and honestly I think part of him is trying to ignore the WHY that’s behind that because he truly wouldn’t be able to think straight if he went there. I think that would be his end, going into the why she didn’t trust him, why she lied, why it hurts him so much. It would be the end, and yet…we’re just beginning here. And of course he knows exactly who is manipulating Ellie, he hadn’t trusted that scum from the start. So of course he goes straight to Odette’s cabin and lays in wait, probably pouring over all the documents and things Ellie did or didn’t leave behind there.

Ellie pulling up in the truck and that heavy sigh? Yeah, she’s still not convinced this is a good idea. She’s running on emotions but that logical part of her (and deep down, her heart, knowing what she’s about to do- who she’s about to cut out of her life) is whispering of how very bad an idea this is. She still has to gather her willpower to get out of that car but when it’s Gibbs calling her? The same Gibbs that basically just kicked her out the door without so much as a wave goodbye? Yeah, the emotion just came rushing back, pushing the logic aside. She claims she can’t tell Nick because no shit if she has to look him in the face and lie and still say goodbye, it’ll kill her. She’s honestly not sure if she can go through with it.

OH we back to a Gibbs hate novel, hold on. “I’M REALLY PROUD OF YOU BISHOP” WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK. I’M REALLY PROUD YOU’RE THROWING EVERYTHING YOU EVER WORKED FOR AWAY, PUSHING THE ONES YOU LOVE THE MOST OUT OF YOUR LIFE, SACRIFICING YOUR ONE SHOT OF LOVE THAT YOU OF ALL PEOPLE DESERVE THE MOST. I’M SO PROUD OF YOU. Oh fuck OFF Gibbs. “Following your gut” oh shut UP. I just don’t understand this part. I don’t understand it, and I’m trying so hard for it to make sense, for it to be in character. Like does Gibbs have any clue?? I’m sure he recognizes the signs, I’m sure he has an inkling at this point. So how would he be proud? How the FUCK would he say he’s learned some stuff from her. Does he mistakenly trust Odette because of what she did for Ziva? Is he just so self-absorbed he doesn’t completely comprehend what Ellie is doing leaving Nick behind??? And Rule 91 is a load of shit. “When you decide to walk away, don’t look back” how FUCKING STUPID. Like Gibbs of all people, you should understand that is a SHIT rule. You’ve lost the people you loved dearly and you think she should just never look back? Like are you saying this so that Ellie has a clear head for the undercover op? Are you hoping she doesn’t get herself killed by being wrapped up in what she left behind??? What the actual fuck. Stupid ass rule honestly. It’s what you live by Gibbs and look how well that turned out for you. Look at the family you ditched. Nice fucking job.

“It’s done” and “what are you talking about I did everything you asked” ok she’s 100% being manipulated and almost blackmailed somehow. There’s no other explanation. Eleanor Raye Bishop wouldn’t do this shit. Not willingly, not if she knew how much Nick loved her and how much she loved him (which if her words in just a minute are any indication, yeah she had a fucking clue). Odette calling Nick a loose end just SCREAMS how she purposefully fucking chose the moment Ellie and Nick started to get close to decide it was time for Ellie to go undercover. I just KNOW it. She’s a manipulative bitch and there is no limit to the rock bottom she will stoop to.

Ellie knows who she’s talking about and the just look of fuck I have to actually tell him to his face. The doubt and grief and guilt and all of it, flashing across her face as she realizes she has to do this. She has to face this, she has to lie. She has to break his trust (not that she hasn’t already) something SHE made so painstakingly clear she needed from Nick. Nick is rightfully *pissed* I mean who can blame him. Ellie with her, “I have nothing to be sorry for.” I know Ellie is just doing her best to burn bridges, the hesitation and avoidance leading up to this lends itself to no other interpretation. She is going to say anything and everything to make sure Nick does not follow her. Make sure he stays as far away as possible from her. She can’t bear the thought of him getting hurt in some way from all this. Even though he may not get physically hurt, I don’t think she realizes the heart break is going to be worse. The painful part is Nick understands, he understands why she wants to do undercover. He had seen that glimmer in her eye when they were Charlie and Luis, he gets it, he’s been there. And he wishes so desperately he could impress every lesson he’s learned on her right then and there but at the same time he knows it won’t change a thing. He just wishes in vain that their love would change her mind, even if logic wouldn’t, their love surely could. I think Ellie starts to realize just how much Nick can see through her and that’s why she owns up to the fact that Odette planted the files, and also why I believe the leak was all an elaborate hack that Ellie didn’t know about.

Then we get to the even more painful part of Nick giving us a glimpse of his raw heart. The why now with a voice crack and Ellie’s hedge at now wasn’t her choice with her own voice cracking, just is so so so telling. She could lie, she could really work at burning this relationship in a blaze of glory but she doesn’t, she owns up to the fact that she didn’t purposefully choose now (aka right when they were starting to figure things out between them), she’s not pulling the strings. Nick coming back with so you had a choice is like the little 5 year old boy whose dad is walking out on him again and it just HURTS. And at the same time Ellie is also the young, insecure agent right now who just wants to prove herself. She wants to be viewed as “ready” and the man whose opinion she bases way too much of her self-worth in didn’t say he was proud of her until she was upending her career to go on some deep cover op where she ditches everyone important in her life.

“How long?” “Too long.” Yeah ok FUCK ME. They both know exactly what they’re talking about without even saying the actual words. Ellie’s voice cracks once again because of the emotion in Nick’s voice and what he’s implying. It pains her to leave him and what they’re becoming behind. It viscerally hurts her, you can see it on her face. She doesn’t want it to be too long, but she knows it will be. She can’t fathom that he’d stay or wait for her, she doesn’t think she even deserves that.

Tbh it’s so hard to put this all into words. To fully convey to you how angry and hurt I am over this shit. Ellie’s being manipulated and hurt that she has to burn this bridge and push Nick as far away from her as possible. She thinks its her only out and what should be expected of her based off her conversation with Gibbs because then she parrots his exact words back at Nick when he begs, literally begs her to say something after she was willing to leave without saying goodbye (which we know is because she didn’t think she was going to be able to look Nick in the eye and still go through with it all), “sometimes there’s nothing left to be said” like fuck you Gibbs for planting that in her head. There’s PLENTY left to be said. Clearly Nick was not pleased you blew him off Ellie, he wants you to say anything that would make this make sense (we all are tbh) and she says you know my *favorite* line, “I didn’t mean for us to happen.” Nick is all of us with his “something else” because WHAT THE FUCK. This is how I know Ellie was going full throttle with her strategy of pushing Nick away. This was the one thing she could say that would hit hardest for Nick. The man who is insecure about anyone truly loving him and him being a person deserving of a love that “stays” and for Ellie to say she didn’t mean to fall in love and even though they did she’s still going to leave because it was never in the plan, just damn, stab him in the back and twist that knife Ellie. And just like her body language this WHOLE TIME 💀💀💀 she’s just shaking her head because she doesn’t even believe her own words, she doesn’t want to confront this, she doesn’t want to end this. There’s tears in her eyes because everything she’s saying is a lie and it hurts it hurts so damn much but she has to. She’s been manipulated into believing she has to do this, has to say these things. And his body language too, I mean he is tight. He is standing so rigid, hands clasped behind his back because he’s trying to convey openness and vulnerability and it’s so much growth for Nick, so much growth and Ellie is still ripping his heart out and stomping on it. And when she chokes out that goodbye you can hear and feel how final she believes it to be. She doesn’t think he’ll stick around or even want to. In this vein I think she underestimates his love for her here. And if the show goes a different way with it, they’re little bitches. It is in character for Nick to do everything in his power and outside of the rules to find & save Ellie. I will riot if I don’t see unhinged Nick some point early in s19 (I say like I’m going to watch religiously), because that is the only logical reaction to her leaving like this.

The kiss. It’s a beautiful fucking kiss and it’s ruined by context. It’s an emotional kiss, Ellie throws her body behind it, gripping his face with both hands because she doesn’t want to let him go (even though she’s going to), she clutches to this memory like she clutches to his face. Nick’s clenched expression because he doesn’t want to open his heart up to more heartbreak but when he leans into the kiss and gives the kiss back you know he’s a goner. And maybe a part of him doesn’t care because this may be his last memory of her for a long time and he’s going to burn it into his memory too. It’s why he keeps his eyes shut after she’s left for so long, he doesn’t want to open them and the reality of her retreating back be the last thing he sees of Ellie. He wants the kiss to be the last thing, he doesn’t want to face his reality. His hands had even come out from behind his back, reaching out to her subconsciously willing her not to leave. Meanwhile, Ellie opens her eyes for that last kiss on the cheek to get one last long look at Nick, one last look that will hold her over for who knows how long. A look at his vulnerable face, a face she loves. A look that she hopes will keep her warm at night even though she knows she’ll never get it this close to her again because there’s no way in hell that Nick would entertain the thought of them together again after what she’s done. She doesn’t look back because she can’t. She can’t see Nick’s wounded face just standing there, broken or she won’t go. And Nick tries to stand resolute, the anger and pain flashing across his face before he grits his teeth together and *hopefully* resolves to find Odette and kill her I mean save Ellie I mean kill Odette 🙊

Anyways, there’s only a very specific way this entire finale makes sense. And I know Emily’s pregnancy threw it for a loop, but they can still SOMEWHAT fix this. Do I think they will? Hell fucking no. I have zero expectations, in fact negative expectations. I have a feeling what we were supposed to see is Nick going on an absolute swan rampage to find Ellie and clear her name throughout the first couple episodes of s19 and with Emily leaving the show, I’m not sure how they’ll twist this. I can see why they thought this was a fun cliffhanger because it would eventually be resolved and I do believe they would’ve eventually gotten ellick together after Nick found her. But unless Emily comes back at the end of the show, that won’t happen, at least not on screen. And with that I just 🥲 I’m still mad, I’m still broken inside but yeah. I’m a masochist before anything else apparently and so I made myself rewatch and write this out. A bittersweet pissed off adieu to the WWR. maybe one day i’ll find another ship & show that gets this level of meta out of me, but it’s been real ellick, it’s been really real ❤️

#ncis #ellick #wwr #anti gibbs #seriously do not read if you like gibbs #this is your warning and if you send me hate anon for my take after i warned you you're asking for it #6k of 3 months of emotions right here on the day of the premiere #truly bittersweet to say goodbye to the wwr in such a shitty way #if there's even people still reading/following along #thank you ❤️

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dani-luminae · 2 years ago

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The songs felt flat to me to so glade I’m not the only one lol. there were current parts where the harmonies were so good like in alien invasion the pre-chorus/chorus I thought was good. I also really liked ‘come on out’ but like you said the dancing ruined it. I enjoyed it when I was watching but I couldn’t stop laughing at the dancing it looked so out of place. I felt the same about the ‘someday’ reprise and couldn’t enjoy it cuz the only thing I thought was damn I can’t believe they’re milking this song even more! I was watching with my sister and she legit was like ‘wait how do all of these people know it was just between Addison and zed in the first movie?’

Yeah like Addison is a main character so it makes sense but like you said they keep doing that whole ‘I don’t know where I belong.’ Which at this point makes no sense because her whole town loves her! Those two cheerleaders who originally were so hateful (Stacy and I forgot the other name whoops) are now offended on Addison’s behalf when Aspen (I’m legit forgetting all of their names wtf I just watched this yesterday) says that they like zed. Honestly that scene was sooo adorable and I loved it. But anyway back to the point you’re so right. Like Addison is an imperfect person and I love her for all the things that you said. Her compassion was what helped others and what makes her so beautiful. She’s just so selfless and genuinely wants to help that like you said it also negates that. Another reason why it negates it I think is because they tell her that she lost her spark but like in the next few minutes she’s able to not only get her spark but master it that it seems like she’s able to control it. I know it’s a kid movie and I’m forgetting the run time now but why introduce her loosing her spark if in like 10-20 minutes she’s just going to have it again?

Also another thing is that it was honestly so predictable. Everyone was talking about it when they introduced aliens that Addison may be one. Also lol now that I’m typing it out all the aliens names started with an A and so does hers. Ohh I never thought of Addison being autistic-coded!! Thats soo interesting and cool!!

Yeah, the music and songs were just not on top for this movie and neither was the plot. Like there's a point where you think "this is too predictable and now boring" and they can't even do the twists right!

The "autistic coding" part is mostly sort of "Addison had a flaw that didn't really matter but was pressured to hide it to fit in and she felt unsurmountable pressure over it" which I, as an autistic person, really resonate with because I and a lot of other autistic people are pressured to mask (hide our autistic traits/tendencies) to fit in with non-autistic people. It's such a little thing that really doesn't hurt anyone, but we're pressured not to let anyone know. And most people definitely treat us different if we let it show, the way that so much of Seabrook treated Addison differently because of her white hair. But seeing Addison embrace her white hair and find a place to calls hers at the same time (character digression notwithstanding) is so cool. Or it was until they pulled... all of this.

I'm rambling, I'll stop now.

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darthkruge · 4 years ago

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How do you think Anakin would react to someone tripping the reader up/purposely bumping into them?

I would turn off anon but I’m too shy 😌

OKAYYYY

Okay so first off, if it happened when he was walking with you, they’d need to do it like super intentionally. Bc I really think that if you’re dating Anakin, he’s always gotta have you close. When you walk together, he’s the kind of guy to always be touching you, somehow.

It’d have to be a bit discreet touching y’know bc Jedi code and secret relationships and all that shit. But like an arm around your shoulder, holding your hand, just being close and occasionally brushing his arm up against yours, or that thing where he puts his hand on the small of your back and guides you?! That is his (and my) sHIT

So if someone comes up and hits into you, he has those fast reflexes and instinctively just steadies you right away. If he senses you starting to fall, Anakin’s arms are around you in a second. And then he’s looking in your eyes all concerned bc wtf just happened and it happened so fast so you’re also confused.

Also he’s dramatic and when you’re in that dipped position where you’re in his arms and he’s holding you up and you lowkey just fell into him he’d kinda love it lmao.

But then it all kinda pieces together and he looks at whoever fucking did that and that’s when protective!Anakin comes out in full force.

I legit think that he’d just glare at them and most people would scurry the fuck away bc he’s a big ass powerful Jedi. Mans is intimidating. Especially when he’s pissed. Like if that anger is channeled at you- run away.

But if they’re like laughing at you and refusing to back down and shit and he sees the little tears coming into your eyes, he’s like “no none of that.” I can see him going all up to them and being like “don’t ever do that shit again.” And if the person tried to play innocent he wouldn’t have any of it. I don’t think he’d like full on pummel them into the ground or anything, but he’d make damn sure it didn’t happen again.

And if this did become a recurring thing, let’s just say some ~aggressive negotiations~ would take place. Especially if it became to the point where you’d feel all uncomfortable walking around. Anakin just wants you to feel safe; you shouldn’t have to be looking over your shoulder all the time to ensure you don’t get fucking knocked over.

And if it happened when he wasn’t walking right with you, perhaps he’s across the Temple and he sees it, he’d catch you with the Force and run over to you as fast as he could. His reaction would be the same ofc. And he would then always wanna walk with you from them on. He knows you can take care of yourself and all, but he would be thinking “Fuck what if I hadn’t seen it?! What if I couldn’t catch them?!” so it would give him extra security knowing he was with you.

Also I think he’d just hold you super close to him afterward. Like you’d be pressed right into his side. If someone tried to trip or knock into you, you physically wouldn’t move bc he’s got his strong arms just locked around you. If it was empty enough that y’all wouldn’t get caught, he would literally just scoop you into his arms, regardless of the amount of times you say you’re fine.

Anakin also wouldn’t want you to feel embarrassed at all. Like yeah it’s just a trip but the fact that someone did it intentionally?! It might get to you, you know? He’d 100% just take you back to your shared apartment and hold you, if that’s what you wanted.

And if you were embarrassed and just wanted to never speak of it again, he’d also respect that. However, he would just keep a little extra close eye on you from then on.

I love Anakin’s protectiveness so much. Even something as “small” as an intentional trip/trying to knock you over he has no tolerance for. Anyone trying to harm you in any way, shape, or form is a hard-ass no.

Now you got me thinking of falling into Anakin’s arms... 🥰🥰

Also dw about having anon on, I’m really shy too so I get it 🥺. Anons are always welcome here!! That being said, if you ever do wanna come off anon, I got you!! My account is a 100% safe and nonjudgmental space. We all wanna be held, I wanted to make it like a mutual comfort and touch starved place for us all lmao. And if u wanna make yourself a little emoji anon, that’s also fine! And then I can tag it like “✌️ anon” or whatever emoji u want, y’know?

Whatever makes u comfortable babe <3 I’m really happy u sent me something!! I sometimes get all shy and nervous even when I send on anon so I appreciate it a lot. Here is some chocolate 🍫, I hope you like it! Thank you for allowing me to rant about Anakin I always be loving that shit 🥰✌️

#anakin fluff #soft anakin thoughts #protective anakin #megan’s inbox :)#anon

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scorpiohaq · 3 years ago

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at the risk of sounding like a bot acc i recently heard abt this app called fetch where u can scan ur receipts and earn points towards redeeming gift cards and it’s kinda cool bc you’re gonna buy stuff and have receipts for it anyway🤷🏻‍♀️ so u may as well get something out of it. anyways if u want to sign up u get extra points to start w if u use my referral code “K8PF52” literally love and light i’ve been trying to go on a #frugal girl journey and fetch, rakuten, topcashback, and the r/frugal and r/makeuprehab subreddits have been so awesome and i want to spread the knowledge…

if ur like wtf is rakuten or topcashback it’s like u save money bc let’s say u want to make an online purchase. rakuten or topcashback will have an offer where depending on the store you can get various amounts of cash back. like if u make a $30 purchase at a store offering 10% cash back you will get $3 added to your rakuten account that will be given back to you at the new pay period. i think rakuten gives u money back like every 3 months. i know they’re legit bc i already got my first check from them in december anyways i have

rakuten referral code - https://www.rakuten.com/r/LAWLIE48 if you sign up with this code and spend $30 through rakuten, you will get $30 back from them

and topcashback as well https://www.topcashback.com/ref/cdry991102 where it’s different bc this one you will get $10 back from then if you earn $10 in cash back over time shopping with them. they tend to have better offers for cash back than rakuten tbh but i find they’re a little scarier to use bc some of my purchases haven’t tracked, but it’s usually fine.

anyways full disclosure i wld get something out of these referral codes being used also but i figure if anyone wants to sign up after finding out abt them they may as well use my codes. i can’t believe i didn’t know abt this before it kinda pisses me off thinking abt all the money i could have gotten back on online purchases😐😐 sorry this is a long post but i wanted to inform the ppl bc it literally helps save saur much money

#long post #rakuten shows u the shopping trip successfully tracked a lot faster also which alleviates my anxiety #fetch can also be connected w ur email address and scan for digital receipts you’ve been emailed for online purchases #anyways nice to have thanks reddit ppl for informing me

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Hi there, just a question for you if you have the time ♡ I know that you allow people to convert your Cyberpunk items from TS3 to TS4 freely (you are amazing, you know that?). However since I have the game, do you have or know of a tutorial for exporting from my files? The one I found was very general, very not 'beginner friendly'. Else I will just bring some of your stuff over if it's not been done yet, miss having them in my game (and base game TS4 only is limited). Love you ♡

Hi! Yeah, feel free to convert whatever; I think CC TOU/policies are ridiculous, and perversely counterproductive to uploading content publicly on the internet anyway.

Just be warned that a lot of my CC's not that great, cuz C2077 uniquely does not use or include typical diffuse textures, so I had to make many of the textures myself (and that's never a good idea, LOL). Not to mention, I had to shave off 1/2 - 3/4 of the polys on most of the meshes, cuz they're just excessively high. Even after decimating the polys they're still too dang high. It's been a pain in the neck to do anything with this effing game, even when not actually playing it! (－‸ლ)

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Welcome to Murf’s School of Crap and Crap-Making!

School Motto: Prepare to be tortured! For Science!

Lesson #6B: MORE ON GAME EXTRACTING (PT2)

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Trust me: extracting from C2077 in general is not very beginner friendly--this is the hardest game I've ever converted from, next to all the Koei Warriors games. Because not only did I have to use EFFING COMMAND LINES again, but the way CDPR arranged the game files (particularly the textures--or lack thereof)--were just saturated in demonic energy.

Mind you, I extracted C2077 back in the EARLY days, within the first weeks of the game's release, way before the Toolkit updated and got a GUI and CDPR released its dev toolkits for modders, so it’s possible I’m giving you outdated information, as the process nowadays might be pretty different from how it was back when I did it. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I used the CP2077 Toolkit here, and followed the steps here.

To be fair, the steps themselves are actually very straightforward. I'm just a lazy, spoiled little ingrate who likes nice clean and simple GUI tools so i can click a button and see all the meshes & textures and go about my frikkin day. But no, instead i have to sit here with EFFING COMMAND LINES and try to figure out WTF these lines of code & text frikkin mean, with zero mesh preview tool to speak of. So I literally have no frikkin idea what anything looks like until I import it into Milkshape/Blender/3DS Max. GRAND. 🤬

(My horoscope told me I needed to get more sleep, and boy they weren't kidding, cuz I'm ornery AF today. 😩 )

But yeah, basically all you have to do is open the CP2077 toolkit .exe, and use the format the steps provide you with whatever the directory is where you installed the game.

As I've explained before in Pt1, all games bundle their files differently, so the trick with extracting is just to figure out what kind of bundle it is, what's in it, how to open it, and how to convert the mesh files into .obj format and the textures into .dds format.

For C2077, most of the files are in typical .bin files, with the meshes (.mesh files) & textures (.xbm files) in content\basegame_4_gamedata.archive | content\basegame_3_nightcity.archive |

So all you have to do is follow the steps and the formats they give you: copy/paste their extraction format code, and the "path to archive" is your installation directory: (e.g.: "archive -e -p "F:\Games\Cyberpunk2077\archive\pc\content\basegame_4_gamedata.archive" -w *.bin" to extract the .mesh files; or "archive -u --uext dds -p F:\Games\Cyberpunk2077\archive\pc\content\basegame_4_gamedata.archive -w *.bin" to extract the .dds files from the Gamedata bin archive).

Then just wait several HOURS (no exaggeration) for each archive to extract. I let mine run overnight for a a day or two--it took bloody frikkin forever.

Once you have all the meshes extracted, the good news is that converting them to .obj files The Sims can read is very easy, cuz all you have to do is use good ole NOESIS, THANK GOD~! ^0^ (Noesis can also open the .xbm texture files, BTW--it’s that clutch; I keep telling y’all.)

The issue with the textures is that C2077 just legit doesn't have many. 💀 It's a feature, not a bug--instead of using diffuse textures (like The Sims' overlay/multiplier diffuse), games like C2077 and Call of Duty instead use materials--kind of like the sample fabric swatches in a textiles shop or tailor, with dozens upon dozens of simple materials & microblends & patterns (a leather print, a metallic sheen, a paisley pattern, etc) shared between all meshes. It’s awful.

So you the extractor/porter/converter are now left with the sad task of patching all these materials together to make a lick of sense on a mesh that might very well use 100 different material files (no joke!) rather than 1 or 2 diffuse textures. And WOE BE UPON YOU if you’re trying to convert it for The Sims 3, where meshes can only use textures on ONE UV Map. The saving grace of TS3′s UV Mapping is that we have CASt, so often we can get away with having plain multipliers, so long as the RGBY Mask allows us to have recolorable channels that do a lot of that heavy lifting for us with patterns & color wheels. For TS2/TS4, however, I imagine more work would need to be done providing swatches, as nothing’s recolorable in those games.

So REJOICE at the pithy handful of actual diffuse textures (mostly decals & posters, etc) that CDPR bothered to grace us with in C2077--they're acts of mercy, I promise you. 🙏

And speaking of UV Maps--C2077′s are upside down. Which is absolutely frikkin lovely; who doesn’t love extra work, seriously. 😒

But yeah, that’s it for extracting, really.

Again, the method I used might be outdated by now, since I did all of mine in December 2020/January 2021, and I haven’t needed to stay up to date with the tools or anything since i already got what I needed out of them. :\

#sims 3 tutorial #sims 3 cyberpunk #murf is a derp #reenadelenyel

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wonderland-irwin · 3 years ago

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I’ve been trying to figure this out for years, and yesterday I cracked the freaking code.

I hate being asked why I “don’t drink.”

First of all, I do drink. Not every day. Not every weekend. When it’s like a celebration or something, sure. My family usually drinks wine, so I’ll choke down a glass (wine is such a strange taste wtf, but I like rosé). I like cranberry lemonade vodka drinks in the summer (they’re the best tbh).

I don’t want to get black-out drunk. I’m all for others doing it (you do you, boo ✌🏻) but I associate blacking-out with (I guess) trauma. I associate it with my little incident from October 2017 when I collapsed walking home from school. I remember how I felt and that scares the crap out of me. I don’t know my limit with alcohol, and I don’t want to find it.

I’m just saying this because this is a legit reason to not drinking heavily, and people seem to think I’m against drinking completely until I tell them I associate it with trauma.

This is valid.

#tw alochol #TW trauma

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moon-yeongjun · 3 years ago

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Louie Wishes You A Merry Christmas || Moon Fam + Louie

Summary: Louie inadvertently creates chaos on Christmas morning...

@moon-yeongtae @notmuchofatail @the-coolest-mallard

Louie Mallard

MERRY CHRISTMAS FAMILY THAT IS DEFINITELY MINE!!

and greg. merry xmas

Moon Yeong-tae

Oh my god lmfao

Star Moon

ew wtf

(leaves the chat)

Gregory Eeyore

omg merry Christmas

Sunny Moon

LOLOLOL

Louie Mallard

-adds star back in the chat- how dare you. without a merry xmas to me

your totally legit other brother

Star Moon

🤢

Moon Yeong-tae

um that's me but go off I guess

Louie Mallard

no no the third brother

i'm like kevin jonas

often forgotten but there

Star Moon

lmao self burn

Louie Mallard

and yet here you are. wish me a merry xmas sis

Sunny Moon

I don't think any of the Jonas brothers are cute /shrug

Louie Mallard

they share my curly hair vibes but yeah

Star Moon

yeah they r all old lololol

Louie Mallard

Lol

Moon Yeong-tae

don't let hyung hear u say that star

Louie Mallard

anyway where's jun? i swear i added him too

BIG BRO

Star Moon

he is ignoring you duh

Louie Mallard

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Star Moon

so is sky she hates big chats

Louie Mallard

if i spam up his phone he can't ignore me forever

Moon Yeong-tae

he actually can

Sky Moon

I'm not. Merry Christmas

Moon Yeong-tae

he's really good at it

Louie Mallard

but then i can threaten to actually visit the store or your house

Star Moon

the store is closed

Gregory Eeyore

I was about to say if anyone would it's him.

Louie Mallard

i have lockpicks

i shouldn't announce it proudly

Anywho

Moon Yeong-tae

that's breaking and entering lol

Gregory Eeyore

don't break and enter

Louie Mallard

well tell him to wish me merry xmas so i don't spend the holidays in jail! D=

Gregory Eeyore

Mr Moon says Happy Christmas Louie!

Louie Mallard

doesn't count. absolute falsehood

love you though greg

Gregory Eeyore

nope he definitely did.

for sure.

Louie Mallard

no he didn't

Gregory Eeyore

not believing is not very Christmas spirit of you

Louie Mallard

woooooooow

is it so wrong of me to want text evidence from the source?

Star Moon

He is in the kitchen rn he is not going to answer u

he's cooking

Louie Mallard

booo

ok then the only answer is obvious! we're tech kinda neighbors i'm coming over! withhhh xmas cookies

Gregory Eeyore

Moon Yeong-tae

HAHAHAHA

Louie Mallard

greg you're kinda the coolest

i know it's not legit but that's amazing

Star Moon

tae why are all ur friends so obnoxious

Moon Yeong-tae

idk it's just the luck of the draw I guess but they're all awesome

Louie Mallard

this chat will live forever until jun moon joins it

Moon Yeong-tae

technically he's in it

Louie Mallard

that's true

Sunny Moon

I told oppa you were waiting and he said ok tell him merry Christmas!!!!

Louie Mallard

tell him i'm going to hear it from him in person no worries! 😄

Star Moon

u can't just invite yourself over??????

Louie Mallard

tooo lateeee. i'm bringing cookies

Star Moon

we r literally cooking our christmas meal

see this is what I mean

Louie Mallard

also star, i bring gifts

Star Moon

Eomma will freak in ja

*js

Louie Mallard

the familiar feel. hey which cute boy is it you're into these days?

Star Moon

omg I can't say in here jun oppa is in it

Louie Mallard

oh yeah. text me alone lol

i got u

what are boys? we don't know them mr jun

Sunny Moon

it's bc she has someone special 🤭

Star Moon

SHUT UP

Sunny Moon

lol everyone knows but Eomma it's ok I bet Jun oppa knows

Star Moon

SHHH

Louie Mallard

shhhh

what happened to the girl code sunny?

for shame

Moon Yeong-tae

u have a boyfriend?

Star Moon

Sunny Moon

yeah no 👀

Star Moon

(leaves this chat)

Louie Mallard

you know that's valid of her

Sky Moon

u made her mad :/

Moon Yeong-tae

im gonna go find her

Louie Mallard

yeah hope she's aight

Sunny Moon

awww everyone does know tho!!!!!

I'm gonna have to apologize 😔

Louie Mallard

yeah you know if she's not ready to share it though sunny

it's not chill

Sunny Moon

no it's just cuz we aren't allowed haha

Louie Mallard

wait...?

really?

Sunny Moon

she'd totally brag about him I'd she could lol

um yeah? Duh

Moon Yeong-tae

also louie um before u show up I'm gonna just ask my eomma bc she really will freak out if no one asks her since she is like super busy cooking with hyung and stuff

Sunny Moon

she was grounded for like two months over the summer when she got her first bf

Louie Mallard

yah it's all good. i'm now trying to find cute boy pics for star so

for sure ask

Moon Yeong-tae

also yeah no boyfriends allowed in this house

Louie Mallard

that's just silly

didn't jun have a gf?

nothing makes sense

Sunny Moon

Eomma would die if tae got a girlfriend tho

⭐ double standards ⭐

Louie Mallard

wow

must be nice to be the oldest

sure me and my bros are like minutes apart but

Sunny Moon

must be nice to be a BOY lol

Louie Mallard

they count

oh suuure it's a good time

Sunny Moon

nah boys r gross our Eomma just is super traditional

Louie Mallard

ahhh

i won't take offense as some boys for sure are gross it true

Moon Yeong-tae

yeah it's so great to be me anyway I'm gonna go find star for real ill be back later

#text #moon fam #moon bros #jun is not in this but i spent all the time formatting it so

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shinymooncolor · 4 years ago

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@siriuslyqueer gave us goalies, pining and angst. @wxlfstxrx some much needed fluff. So I thought we’d do a bromance hat trick with a little sweater weather chat. Love ya all 🏒❣️

@lumosinlove created a well of wonderful oc’s and they’re all my new mvp’s. 🥰

Sweater weather chats #3

Nado is fuckboy extraordinaire. Kuny is mad. Olli is so done. Logan does not have a curfew. Or does he? Dumo grounds Nado. Walker worships Noelle. Remus chokes on his tea. Kasey ruins zucchinis for Dumo. Does cars have names? There’s a ritual burning. Everyone is up early on a Sunday.

——

Sunday 3.44 am

7 missed calls from Nado.

Nado:

kuny please pick up

I’m sorry. Fuck I messed up okay.

I’m so sorry okay. Fuck just call me back.

Wtf you took my Porsche? Over the line man.

Fuck you told Sergei. His wife just cAlled and yelled. She’s terrifying. I’m sorry

Kuny please come home.

Sorry.

Please

Kuny

Evgeni. Please I’m sorry okay

You’re my best fucking friend and you’re supposed to forgive me. I’m an idiot. Just come home. I’m not gonna stop texting. I will fucking not let you walk out on me man.

I said I was sorry. Please man. Sorry.

Please.

I’ll join some freakin cult and become a monk if it gets you to talk to me.

—-

Sunday 7.23 am

Nadotheman: guys has anyone heard from kuny yesterday or today? Please I need to speak to him

Sergei_81: give him some time. you did something bad and he’s mad. He will come home when he is ready

Nadotheman: he’s got my Porsche. Is he with you? Can I come over

Sergei_81: he’s not here. We got family visit. No time for your stupid fights

Prongstar: what did you do Nado? Ate his mom’s homemade cake again? Or did you forget to water his aloe Vera plant?

Ollibear: he’s here. Don’t call him.

Siriusly: what happened?

CarbO’Hara: Broke the fuckign code @nadotheman not cool

Prongstar: WHAT DID HE DO? @russiangod also how does finno know?

Ollibear: please stop texting him. I’m worried he might snap the remote or my PlayStation

LoganTremblayzzz: @nadotheman hope you got insurance. 911 turbo not looking good. Hahahaha

Prongstar: what. Happened?

Ollibear: he turned up here at 4 am, scaring the shit out of mrs. Williams next door. Woke up when she screamed. Apparently 6.4” Russian guy in a black hoodie is not what you expect to bang on your door at that hour. He’s been fuming in Russian ever since. And he ate all our Doritos. Stole nado’s Porsche. We gathered he’s mad at Nado but not sure why. Got him to at least talk to Sergei

Sergei_81: he’s got good reason to be mad. Nado can tell you what he did.

Timmyforrealz: what does this mean: он спал с моим двоюродным братом @sunnysideup @sergei_81

Sunnysideup: what?? Oh nado. This is bad.

Prongstar: I used google translate. @nadotheman you slept with his sister?!

Siriusly: !!!

Talkiewalkie: over the line bro. Damn.

Sunnysideup: wait he doesn’t have a sister? Does he?

Sergei_81: yes he means cousin.

DamnFoxy: wow. This is lowkey funny. Sorry but I’m laughing

Prongstar: spit my tea out

RussianGod left the conversation

Nadotheman: fuck look what you idiots did.

Siriusly: you did his cousin.

DamnFoxy: 😂😂😂

Talkiewalkie: uh not cool bro. Like. Fuck.

Timmyforrealz: you talkin about fucking sisters? Aren’t you putting the moves on Logan’s sister?

LoganTremblayzzz: @timmyforrealz 🤦🏽🙅🏼🙍🏾👎🏻🖕🏻

Talkiewalkie: I’m dating noelle. Not putting moves on her. I’m worshipping the very ground she walks on. She’s a goddess and I’m but a mortal man

Kaneyoudigit: can you just keep it in your pants for once, Nado…. jeez

Eliascookie: HAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHHHH. You’re never meeting my sister. Ever. Damn.

Newt-leo: shut up this isn’t about noelle. Nado wtf? Didn’t wanna believe Finn and lo. He’s texted finn but in Russian. Think it was meant for sergei. Did you really sleep with his cousin?

Krisvolley: wow. Anyone checking up on Kuny? Shit. Can’t leave the two of you alone.

LeWilliam: yeah, is Kuny alright @ollibear? Also, @nadotheman - you freaked when he kissed that waitress. Karma is a fuckin bitch 😏

Nadotheman: fuck off cubs.

EvanderBell: oi. No need to be mad at us. You messed up. You deserve this. Also if he totals Dolores it’s totally on you!

Nado the man: shut up. Everyone. I know I screwed up okay? Fucking hell. They look nothing alike and she didn’t tell me.

Sunnysideup: didn’t you meet her through kuny?

Nado the man: well yea. went out for a drink. Kuny was being boring and went home. Talked to her and we got along and well.

Bradygunz: did you at least pay for her drink? Also uncool bro

Nado the man: I paid. Fuck off.

Dumodad: I’m away for 1 day. 1 day boys. @nadotheman do I have to ground you? Adele is serving 2 weeks for lying about her homework and having a boy in her rooM after curfew.

Prongstar: dropped the ball with Logan then @dumodad, eh?

Sergei_81: I support grounding Nado.

LoganTremblayzzz: @prongstar like lily didn’t ground you when you came home sans shirt and with kasey’s jeans on backwards Also I never had girls in my room after curfew. Also don’t have curfew.

Dumodad: yes you did. Curfew at least.

Blizzard: holy fuck. Just woke from a nap. Wtf? Also @prongstar, @logantremblayzzz never had GIRLS in his room. Just had Leo and finn. Playing hide the zucchini.

Siriusly: @blizzard. Loops just choked on his tea.

Dumodad: I can never eat a zucchini again. Merde

BliZzard: just keeping it real boys. Also don’t be hard on @nadotheman he’s a man whore. One day he’ll grow up

Nadotheman: I’m older kasey and shut up

Ollibear: Nado you really have to apologize.

Timmyforrealz: @nadotheman this is serious. Olli just ate a box of moomin cookies. Nado please fix your relationship. Olli can’t handle his parents fighting. He’s legit green looking. He’s eating junk food. I’m scared.

Nadotheman: Olli tell them you were there. She came on to me. She never mentioned Kuny

Ollibear: I’m not getting involved. Also you owe me $432 for the champagne. And he introduced you before he left.

Prongstar: 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

Dumodad: @nadotheman you’re grounded. No clubbing or I will call your mom.

———

Sunday 7.56 am

Nado: Olli please is he with you guys? I need to speak to him.

Olli: I’m sorry he doesn’t wanna see you. Please give him some time.

Nado: 💔

—

Sunday 8.02 am

Nado: I’m not gonna leave. I’m parked outside and you’ve got to call the cops to get me to leave. You’re my best friend dammit and I’m sorry. Fuck please just talk to me!

Kuny: don’t want talk. Is hard. I’m smart in Russian. English stupid.

Nado: wait then get Olli or Timmy to type it. Just tell me how I can make it up to you.

Kuny: hi Nado. Olli here, I’m typing for him. Timmy is trying to salvage our remote.

I’m trying to type and understand ok? Kuny knows his cousin is (I’m paraphrasing here - I refuse to call a woman that) sociable and he’s mostly upset cause he’s worried about you. Okay he didn’t mean that - he means that he’s upset you slept with her but he’s also worried cause he says you fall in love too quickly. (You two are idiots - he’s trying to protect your feelings) he does not want me to type that. But he broke our remote. But he’s also mad you slept with her after he said not to. And he claims he did tell you. How much did you two drink? When I picked up the tab you’d only had a few bottles of champagne and you gave most of that to the hen party in the next booth. Also he’s mad you had sex - god, Nado - the living room, really? At least go into your bedroom. Apparently you had a deal you wouldn’t do that. Wow you need some self control buddy. Okay. Now he’s saying that he’s okay to talk to you. So you can come in. You better have showered!!!!

—-

Sunday, 8.27 am.

KrisVolley: @ollibear, what’s going on?

Ollibear: they’re fucking idiots. Stupid overgrown manbabies.

Timmyforrealz: well. Olli cursing is hilarious. It’s like Casper the friendly ghost saying fuck... 😂 Quite anti-climactic. Was anticipating a fist fight or at least a black eye. They just talked and @nadotheman cried. Ha. Long clingy chat short; Kuny was afraid his cousin was just using Nado - like he’d ever object? Nado admitted he was drunk and upset with Kuny over something else (they’re like my teenage twinsisters I swear) also Kuny was mad Nado fucked his cousin on the couch. So not classy @nadotheman... Jesus this soap opera is like the episode of friends where chandler is in a box.

Sergei_81: they ok?

Nadotheman added RussianGod to the chat

RussianGod: we good. But he has to do embarrassing thing now. I chose. Will think long before decide. Also he buy new couch

Prongstar: Kuny my dear friend - I will happily help think up evil revenge. Also burn the couch

Nadotheman: I didn’t fucking cry. He stinks. My eyes watered from the stench.

Blizzard: aw Nado its okay. We know you’re in an established bro-tionship.

Talkie-walkie: am I the only one worried about the Porsche? She does not deserve to suffer just because Nado is a slut.

RussianGod: dolores is fine. Love car too much. Only wanted to scare Jackie.

Nadotheman: stop calling me that kun(t)y. 😘

Ollibear: ffs you two just made up, just kiss and get the fuck out. I’m done being your therapist. Good night.

Timmyforrealz: they broke olli. He even kicked a chair and hurt his toe. Haha he’s cursing in Finnish. He also has hidden nado’s car keys. Dolores is ours now.

——

They did a ritual burning of the couch. Dumo did call Nado’s mother. She grounded him and gave Kuny a bunch of embarrassing photos of teenage Nado. We’re talking frosted tips and platform shoes.

#lumosinlove #sweaterweatherchats #sweaterweather #sweaterweatherchatsnr3 #hattrick #bromance

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cynthiaandsamus · 3 years ago

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Custom Toonami Block Week 83 Rundown

Code Geass: So everyone’s still kind of reeling from the fallout of the whole Nuking Tokyo thing and Lelouch being outed as Zero. Marianne takes control of Anya’s body because apparently she can just do that. C.C. meets up with her and gets her memory restored and Marianne’s like “wtf what about the whole Human Instrumentality getting you killed like you wanted plan” and C.C. doesn’t have an answer for her which is why she gave herself amnesia. Meanwhile Charles is still like “Yo I don’t wanna do war anymore, I wanna do Human Instrumentality” and Suzaku’s like “Well Schnizel if he doesn’t wanna be Emperor anymore you could do it yourself and then make me Knight of One for blowing up Tokyo for you.” And between Schnizel seizing power from Charles, Charles going into the Thought Elevator, and Lelouch hijacking a whole base’s worth of people to attack the flagship, everything’s in chaos. Suzaku’s gone off the deep end and gone to an ends justify the means attitude because he’s just tired of all the geass bullshit and Charles wanting to fuck over the whole human race but Bismarck points out that means that he’s abandoned kindness and empathy which were his reasons for doing it so his heart’s not in it anymore. C.C. and Marianne are following Lelouch and Lelouch of course has a suitably extra entrance including purple fire and a row of bowing knightmare frames that aren’t fighting in the very important battle for some reason. He follows Charles into the Hyperbolic Time Chamber and is like “Yo, I just blew up the entrance so unless you can scream open a dimension like Super Buu you’re fucked, repent motherfucker”.

Inuyasha: We’re still in the demon’s head filler and the new exorcist filler character can run right up to the paralysis demon because she legit just can’t feel her aura. I like the implication that this technique would work on normal humans so this exorcist is somehow MORE oblivious to demonic auras than the average human would be. Miroku dissolves the demon’s body with the exorcist’s salt, leaving just the head for Demon’s Head castle. Inuyasha figures out the demon he’s fighting is a decoy and save Kagome from the head. They corner the head and it tells them it came out of hiding because Naraku’s gone and isn’t keeping the lesser demons under his thumb anymore so everyone’s running amuck. I like this for a couple reasons, it really illustrates Naraku’s influence over the demon world which has only been implied before, like he can summon a horde of demons at random but we never really got how much other demons fear him. Also it sets up a nice power vacuum for the arc to come, like it’s an obvious stalling tactic to technically tie the upcoming filler arcs to the main story without needing to explain why there’s more filler demons out than normal but it shows Naraku’s influence on the world and that’s cool. Anyway the Wind Scar doesn’t work on the head because reasons but because Narkau’s not around that means no Poison Insects and the Wind Tunnel actually gets the kill for once, that’s nice. Like Miroku gets nerfed so often I actually kind of forgot he had the Wind Tunnel for a while.

Yu Yu Hakusho: So this is a pretty epic one, we get the Knife-Edge Deathmatch between Yusuke and Chu and half the time is just building tension while the committee decides to let them do it or not. I said this before but there’s something beautiful about the simplicity of this fight, like it’s basically the template for how big shonen grudgematches go. Yusuke and Chu fuck around with normal techniques for a bit, then use their big high-octane stuff, and it ends in a tired slugfest until one of them stays down. Keiko doesn’t get why they’re so needlessly brutal and Kuwabara gives the usual “it’s a man thing” speech and it’s just amusing that they end it with a literal test of who’s more hard-headed, it’s pretty fun. Also Toguro’s crow dude shows up and he looks just like One Piece’s Karasu of the same name so yeah that’s what I’m gonna be thinking of whenever I see him.

Fate Zero: Tokiomi spends this whole episode preparing to die and then dies at the end, that’s basically the episode. He wants a truce between himself and Iris but Iris is like “Fuck no, not if Kirei’s around” so Tokiomi’s like “Fine, no Kirei” and then Gilgamesh and Kirei spend a good amount of time talking about each other in hypotheticals and it’s needlessly homoerotic and there’s a lot of sexual tension and it’s like jesus Christ just fuck already you two. So yeah then Tokiomi goes and kisses his family goodbye, hands Kirei his will giving Kirei complete control of his sole heir and literally gives him the knife to stab him in the back with and then still acts surprised when Kirei jumps him and cucks him with the King of Heroes. Like he did everything except lubricate the knife for easy entry and getting a “stab here” tattoo on his back.

Konosuba: Kazuma spends all his new wealth on a new sword and a set of knight armor… except he’s clearly a Thief build and also a scrawny wimp so he can’t really use any of it so he swaps out for a shortsword that Megumin names the ultimately supreme name of Chunchunmaru. They spend the rest of the episode fighting the spitting lizards from Jurassic Park except the lizards kill Kazuma again and he plays the whole ‘nuh-uh, not going back’ card again until Megumin draws on his dick which I guess is fine, like it’s cute that that’s the most evil thing she could think of to yoink him back in and that she really wanted him to come back but everyone seems weirdly shocked when all she did was doodle on his stomach. It’s interesting though because judging by Aqua’s reaction Kazuma does not have a big dick but judging by the nickname Megumin gave it, she THINKS he does which I’m not sure what that says about her but I vaguely remember Megumin/Kazuma being canon in the light novels or something so this may be the start of that.

Sailor Moon Crystal: I’m getting a little sick of these “Dark Sister appears and kidnaps a Sailor Guardian out of nowhere” episodes, like the writing is getting better but the formula is obscenely obvious, good news is we only have one or two more before we’re out of Guardians to kidnap. This time it’s Makoto when the boy that has a crush on her catches onto their complete lack of discretion and figures out their secret. It’s a pretty sweet interaction and we get some more character development about Chibiusa bonding more with Usagi who’s a delightful gremlin and Mamoru who’s weirdly just kind of already in dad mode with her, like he’s ridiculously good at being a dad and it’s kind of cute. But yeah we have Makoto kidnapped and for the third sister in a row they’ve made absolutely no attempt to defend against the Moon Princess Halation so they just keep coming like a slaughterhouse conveyor belt. But we get the kidnapping so quick and sped up it’s kind of funny like it takes Rubeus less than 20 seconds to kidnap Makoto we kinda just yadda yadda over it since we’ve been here two times before.

Durarara!!: So things are coming to a head as the asshole faction of the Yellow Scarves close in on Anri but Mikado’s Reddit defenders of justice use social media to jump around town and keep her out of harm’s way in some pretty unique and fun ways, showcasing some characters we haven’t seen in a while. This doesn’t end up making much difference as Anri’s self-loathing slows her down enough that they catch up to her but everyone runs into Shizuo and he’s so pissed that his phone’s blowing up and doesn’t know how to handle an active news feed so he knocks the gang members into next week. Anri sticks with Celty for a while to stay safe but that doesn’t stop the gang members from beating up on random Dollars and making a full gang war. Mikado has forgotten his earlier epiphany and deletes the Dollars forum. Anri’s all “I have to keep Mikado out of this to keep him safe” and Celty’s like “Omg all three of you are saying that and you’re already the gang leaders fighting each other shut up”. So yeah, unless someone starts telling some truths Izaya’s gonna get his gang war and go to heaven with Celty’s head or whatever his plan was.

#ooc #Toonami #Custom Toonami Block #Code Geass #Inuyasha #Yu Yu Hakusho #Fate Zero #Konosuba #Sailor Moon Crystal #Durarara!!

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