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According to NBC here in the US, the missing titanic sub has been found. As debris. Off the bow of the Titanic wreckage.
And it looks like the sub suffered what we all suspected, and what was undoubtedly the more merciful of the two options: a catastrophic implosion from the pressure.
Also, more info has come to light about the fishing trawler with the hundreds of migrants that sank cataclysmically off the coast of Greece, indicating that the greek coast guard knew about the vessel AND how much trouble the vessel was in, and were towing it at a speed that made it capsize, at which point they unhooked the tow line and watched the trawler sink without helping the passengers to safety. Despite a bunch of other ships trying to help as well throughout the whole ordeal.
So a lot of people are dead, all because of regulations (and the lack thereof) regarding sea-faring vessels and rescue protocols. People shouldnt be allowed to make a business charging a ton of money for a ride on an uncertified, unsafe, un-seaworthy ship going deep into the ocean with no distress beacon or tether to the mothership. People also shouldnt be allowed to enact laws that criminalize the ferrying of refugees, which then force the refugees to hitch rides on fishing trawlers, and which also prevent people from helping those fishing trawlers full of refugees due to fear of legal consequences.
Hopefully BOTH of these events spark changes on an international scale in terms of what is legally allowed to be sailed, who is legally allowed to be the passengers, and what the rescue protocols are in the event of disaster for any seafaring vessel, illegal or not. It shouldnt be just the global 1% who get 24/7 search parties and remote-operated submersibles helping rescue them.
#the question of 'what do we owe to each other' can be answered simply with 'the dignity of retrieving our remains when we die'#another answer is 'the dignity of thinking about each other fellow humans with similar motivations and feelings'#also 'stopping someones potentially self-destructive behaviors just because theyre rich and want to feel special'#also i feel like humans have been sailing the seas long enough that it should be guaranteed that people will survive sea voyages#im very mad about specifically mediterranean maritime disasters because we have ancient writing saying they made it safe#sailing from Egypt to Greece was so old hat and safe that people legit took the ancient equivalent of cruises back and forth#cleopatra habitually sailed from alexandria to rome with a ton of ships and was fine#Nero tried to have his mother drowned at sea by orchestrating a dramatic shipwreck while she was our sailing AND SHE SURVIVED#and then swam to shore got back to rome and whooped his ass#fuckin pliny the elder tried to evacuate people from pompeii and the surrounding coast villages when vesuvius erupted#and he actually WAS able to rescue people#but he himself had an asthma attack from the fumes which led to a heart attack and he died on the beach#there is legit no excuse for that trawler of migrant refugees to have wrecked#negligence all around#anyway#oceangate
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I recall saying this before, but it bears repeating:
There could be a billion trans people in the world and it still wouldn't be a bad thing because being trans is not a bad thing. Even if the rate of people discovering they are trans is "disproportionate" to trends from decades ago, that is not a bad thing. In fact, it's a natural consequence for there being more trans people being able to stay alive, and, overall, being able to live in a slightly more tolerant world. You'd only see that as a bad thing if you actively didn't want trans people to either live or live a life that facilitates wellness.
#trans#transgender#lgbt#lgbtq#ftm#mtf#nonbinary#like even with there being more OPEN AND OUT trans people there are still more cis people by volume#even in my high school with three trans girls and three trans guys (including me) and a few NB people...#...there were still a THOUSAND cis kids going to school with us. imagine complaining when cis people are still 'dominant'#i don't know what my secondary school's population is because it's a big campus so you can deal with high school stats lol#like thank gd we are beginning to live in a world where the trans population CAN grow#i want there to be more trans people. because trans people will continue to be trans#we will continue being trans no matter what laws you put into place. no matter how dangerous you make the world for us...#...we will continue to be trans whether or not you approve. and that's fucking beautiful. i want us to live. i want us to eat well.#i want us to not worry about anything in this world. and that's going to happen one day. it will happen just like the sun rises each morning#if that is a threat to you then that is your own fault - your own self-destructive and sad thoughts about people and our world#and that is not my burden to carry - i have my own.
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(guy who has never played cotl) haha au time
#this started as a design exercise bc i couldnt get sphinx/devon rex narinder out of my head#but the whole time i was thinking man imagine if the lamb brings him in as a follower but nobody knows he was actually. you know#and the followers are like haha wow our leader channels the power and wisdom of the one who waits almost as if they were them#would that be cool or what. anyway heres narinder reassuming his pre-bishop form and everything his flesh remembers before godhood#ok now im gonna ramble abt design notes#the singe marks were inspired by fallen angels like how some ppl say they burned while falling from heaven. i wanted smth like that when#the lamb is resurrected by nari.. their outfit is inspired by papal cloaks while narinders is based on crusader armor#the lambs name 'bellwether' is also a term used for sheep that wear a bell and lead the flock and i thought that was cool#idk what the thuribles do yet but i do have smth in mind where theyre linked together. and ofc the lamb has a shepherds staff#very proud of nari's little devil tail!! and it was hard to see bc its so dark but he has wrinkles around his forehead to conceal his#third eye. even he isnt aware of it (for now)#idk where im going with this au i just have a bunch of ideas?? basically the lamb is keeping nari's identity a secret from him so he doesnt#go down that path of powerhungry destruction. smth like trying to lead him down a better path but feels guilty lying to do that#also theyre in love with each other and theyre stupid pining idiots abt it. mwah#cult of the lamb#cotl#cotl lamb#cotl narinder#the one who waits#cotl the one who waits#narilamb#art#au#myart#my art#character design#cotl au#false prophet! au
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Transformers X Haso
I need more transformers x Humans are space orcs.
I need these smol, delicate humans the autobots have to protect to pull out Molotov cocktails and destroy decipticon joints.
I need a teacher to mix up a swimming pool size batch of oobleck and trap a cybertronian in it to protect his students.
I need humans using acid, or throwing rocks in joints, or otherwise inconveniencing decepticons while the autobots get more and more concerned.
I need Optimus or Ratchet to morosely bring up something that happened in the war, and a human to be like, "Oh that. Yeah, we made that illegal, it wasn't considered sporting." or "Wait, you guys have been fighting for how long, and that's the most extreme thing you did?"
I need a bot or a con to get curious and open a history book, and the next morning be traumatized by the shit humanity has done.
I need Humans that get tired of the whole, "Humanity is smol and fragile" shtick, and decide to go kill decipticons so they stop attacking the autobots.
I need Optimus to slowly realize we are not cute, fluffy little creatures, but agents of chaos and destruction. Beings who will destroy anyone and anything that threatens our family, and we consider the bots family.
#transformers#humans are space orcs#humans are weird#optimus prime#ratchet#war crimes#humans are cute and cuddly? only to our friends#humans are absolutely eldritch/uncanny to cybertronians#and they don't know why#they assume it's because we're organic#Surprise! we're descended from the literal primordial being of destruction!#humans and cybertronians are technically cousins#but distantly#Primus and Unicron were brothers#primus created cybertonians#we're descended from Unicron#humans start getting exposed to energon#become cybernetic life forms#proceed to wreck the decepticons#Optimus is just confused#Unicron is annoyed his children are helping a prime#Primus is concerned that the humans may be lying.#the humans just want to protect robo-friends.
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The God I know, who created asexual and aromantic people, who created polyamorous people and monogamous people, who created infinite diversity, is NOT a god who requires you to tie yourself to another person in order to have a stronger connection to Them. They are NOT a god who requires you to remain sealed to an abusive, neglectful, or narcissistic spouse in order to maintain a connection to the Divine.
Yes, marriage can be beautiful and wonderful and can teach people how to be better and grow closer to the Divine. But you can also learn that through friendships. Through community connections. Through family. Marriage for the sake of gaining access to the celestial kingdom (or for permission to have The Sex) is a recipe for failure. Connection to others, platonic or romantic, is what brings us into communication with the Divine. Stop limiting it to only heterosexual temple marriages (I would add monogamous but we all know the early church had different ideas about fidelity).
#ldsconf#that talk made me livid#im glad it validated some people#especially because he did bring up abuse and infidelity#but as someone who was in a mutually destructive relationship#sometimes the best thing to do is move on and try again#but i dont want to stay sealed to a guy that treated me like a burden for 7 years#just because our sealing apparently gives us special access to God
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AvA/M Criminal AU Ideas
Akin to an insane AU, but not completely - uhhhhh yeah
uhhhh so this was just me vomitting ideas for a bit on my Criminal AU I haven't fully finished the concept but I think it's worth sharing so, uh- TAKE. *yeets this at your face*
Our friendly stick figures are wanted criminals and live life on the edge in StickCity.
RocketCorp is still an elusive presence - run by Victim - but they’re working with the city’s police - run by Mango (Purple as a right-hand) - to apprehend Chosen and Dark (and, later, the CG as well).
Chosen & Dark and the CG are seen as different… uh… criminal groups (do different jobs, go out at different times, have different motifs, etc), but they’re in alliance and live close together (the CG became their own “criminal group” (help idk what to call it) after a while of living with Chosen and Dark - the two groups live near each other and visit often)
About a year and a half after the events of AvA 4 (the CG does discover the minecraft block and they get through S1 & 2 of their adventures BUT THEY NEVER MEET PURPLE), Alan’s computer has a major malfunction and begins shutting down itself and his accounts. He’s able to upload the CGs’ files to the cloud just before the PC breaks, saving them. Alan and the CG are unable to contact each other, even if he gets a different computer, because his program/account was the thing that broke. If he got a new program/account, it would be impossible to communicate which one let alone find him among the billions of others. (maybe Sec can have trauma flashbacks to Alan and them locking eyes, Alan smiling weakly, before the computer shuts down to help explain this)
The CG doesn’t have anywhere to go, and they eventually find Dark and Chosen. They get exhilaration and satisfaction in helping the hollowhead brothers with their crime sprees, so they join them.
Gold, instead of dying to minecraft, dies in a fire caused by Dark and Chosen. Mango blames them for Gold’s death, and vows to apprehend the two of them and/or get revenge (he wants them alive so he can have a chat with them first either way)
Purple was already working as the secretary to the chief of police (cause Navy used to work there and they wanted him to be happy that they were - it doesn’t work lmao but the people in the department realise how bright Purple is and they’re widely respected). Mango was the deputy chief until the former chief stepped down and he was promoted to chief of police. He was sought out by Victim (cause Vic heard about his determination on Cho and Dark), and they both agreed to work together trying to take down the two. He then spoke to the police commissioner/superintendent, and - with some assistance from Victim - got permission to direct the forces of his department entirely to catching the two criminals. Hearing about Purple’s capability, he hired them as a right-hand (assistant chief, ig?). (Purple does have the skills for being a police officer - along with them already being in the force for many years and being a natural leader, they learnt fighting from Navy and taught themselves admin & problem solving cause they had to run their own life for a while ;v;)
Mango is using Purple like he did in AvM, but gradually, subconsciously warms up to and cares about them. GRADUALLY. He tries to tell himself that he doesn’t think about them that way and that they’re just- idk, a tool- but his arc is eventually accepting them as a child figure and coming to peace with Gold’s death. (later in his arc, Mango notices Purple fell asleep at their desk, and puts a blanket over them :>)
Purple and Mango found out about the CG while the two were investigating Chosen and Dark. While their focus was still on the twins, Purple got more invested in finding out about their accomplices. Soon, they clashed regularly, and Purple told Mango they believed that capturing the colour gang could be the key to capturing Cho and Dark.
Uhhhh- I’m going to make some of them feminine or at least not masculine cause I don’t want Purple and Primal to be the only sticks that aren't boys. Also writing a group of people with the same pronouns sucks.
Blue is feminine, while Second, Dark and Victim are non-binary. There. (ahem side note in my aus stick figures don't have genitals and aren't born with a sex, but instead a gender- uhhhh there's more to explain ask me if you're curious)
This AU is primarily centred around the forbidden romance between Green and Purple (cough cough grapeduo based fic let's go), and I mainly imagine scenes where they're fighting and Green is just insane, elusive and enthusiastic while Purple is angry asf, serious and yet struggling because they're constrained by their oath and moral codes and cause they keep getting diStrActED
Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh CHARACTER EXPLANATION TIME (I've only done the colour gang + purple's at this point ;v;)
Name: Green Nickname: N/A Code name: Siren Pronouns: He/Him Sexuality: Bi Age: 16 Green fights with guns, close-combat or with weapons like swords, though prefers the guns option (he’s alright at archery but, again, prefers guns). His main gimmick is the use of music. He can cause distractions with it, break opponents’ eardrums in fights, calm down/inspire his friends… though he also likes just having fun with it and teasing opponents by dancing through the fight. He’s known for being almost concerningly loyal, and the others often have to stop him from getting himself killed/deeply wounded in the process of protecting them. He, Red and Dark are the cocky (Red less so) pranksters that keep the group lively. Oh yeah - also, he ADORES pets. Dog, cat, bird, fish, rabbit, lizard- fuckin- PTERODACTYL- he doesn’t care. Any and all pets in his sight will be patted to hell and back.
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“Eyes on the target, B! /t […] I SAID THE TARGET NOT MY FACE-” “Oh, dude, you’re on!” “We’re all here to support you, alright? Don’t ever forget that.” “Go! I’ll distract them. […] (rose in his mouth) You like jazz? /j ” “Sloppy… uncontrolled… slow… seriously, officer - it’s like you’re not even trying! /t ” “Nah, you love me~ /t ”
Name: Red Nickname: N/A Code name: Zookeeper Pronouns: He/Him Sexuality: Straight Age: 14 Red trains and can summon animals like tigers, falcons, etc and fights close-combat with giant metal claws (he’s alright with weapons like swords, and shit with long-range). He’s known for gaining allies in unusual places and is the go-to for emergency backup. He’s the youngest out of the whole cast, and sometimes uses that as a guilt-trip tactic both on his friends and enemies (he gets the “youngest sibling treatment” from Second lmao - can never get in trouble for anything). #Gremlin4Life - he and Ballista would vibe so much if they weren’t opponents >:D (they still do vibe but they see each other as like “aw hell yeah I get to fight this guy again” cause they’re both super hyper).
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“Wassup BITCHES-” “Aww~ Sec, look! Amber’s kitten is so adorable!” “But why can’t I ? /whine […] You’re no fun… (pout)” “HahA! Got you!! (Fortnite dances)” “Jail, huh? Gotta catch me first~” “(whistles) GET ‘EM, BOYS-”
Name: Blue Nickname: B (Bee) Code name: Artemis Pronouns: She/Her Sexuality: Straight Age: 15 Blue is - as always - the healer of the group, an alchemist and the long-range. While she can fight close-combat and with weapons like swords, she tends to avoid it since she’s much better at archery. Her potions are always in use - whether to heal or to damage - and she obsessively experiments with things like power ups, invincibility and other such things. It sometimes comes at drastic costs, but she takes them on herself nonetheless (think Moira or Swap!Blue). If someone interrupts her while she’s working, she can and will feed them to the wolves. She’s also known in the gang for having a seemingly magic inventory - always having exactly what’s needed at any given time, even if no one saw her packing it. She’s relied on as the medic, and constantly fusses over the others’ physical health - though not really in a motherly way, more like a big sister. And, yes - she is still addicted to netherwart.
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“How the fuck did you manage to get hurt taking out the laundry?” “Don’t go thinking you can bullshit me about these things - come on, spill.” “Right between the eyes~” “YELS STOP STEALING MY EQUIPMENT YOU’RE GOING TO BLOW UP THE LAB AGAIN-” “This one will work. {BOOM} The next one will work.” “If you don’t drink the potion, I will shove it down your throat - bottle and all.”
Name: Yellow Nickname: Yels Code name: Jigsaw Pronouns: He/They Sexuality: Straight Age: 15 Yellow is the engineer that makes equipment, elaborate traps and works with Dark as the group’s hackers (Dark’s usually on-site, he’s usually off). He’s a little mad-scientist-y (*cough cough* high-key insane), and constantly works with TNT and creates new machines to “extend the reach of science”. Blue is the only one that can calm them down, and even then, getting them to sleep at all would be a miracle. He doesn’t fight long-range or engage in swordfighting (he can but it’s like a last resort). While he can fight close-combat, he much prefers explosives, bludgeoning weapons and trickery. Think Jinx without the machine gun and abandonment issues, but with a hacker’s setup and 50 projects.
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“Fascinating - (pulls out notepad and paper) - and what about the combustion level? […] (scribbling something down) Alright, so up a few values, then…” “TALK TO THE TNT, SUCKER-” “Activate password cracker- oh, wait. […] 1234. How original.” “I don’t need sleep, I need answers .” “Too much coffee? I only drink 15 a day- […] Yes, from the same cafe. […] You call it overdosing on caffeine, I call it supporting small businesses.” “(perking up) Arson? […] (concerning maniacal laughter) ”
Full Name: The Second Coming Name: Second Nickname: Sec Code name: Whiskey Pronouns: They/Them (AMAB) Sexuality: Bi Age: 14 Second is the “ringleader” of the colour gang, despite being the second (heh) youngest (angry mum friend with sandal vibes). They primarily fight close-combat and sometimes with weapons like swords, but rarely long-range. They haven’t found out that their powers exist at all, but they still have the advantages of hollowheads (increased strength and pain tolerance, sharp teeth, almost second (heh) nature fighting abilities, etc). Oh, and they can draw anything into existence, and have a track record of accidentally destroying the base with their “helpers” (Green still swears he has no clue what happened to a particular one).
Quotes:
“HolyshitholyshitholyshITHOLYSHIT-” “Fuck you I was sleeping.” “Green! Keep. It. DOWN! […] GREEN I WILL BACKHAND YOU INTO THE INTERNET-” “Standby? […] Good. Forward!” “Cho, Cho! Look, I drew a firefox!” “(quantum-level snoring)”
Name: Purple Nickname: Purps Pronouns: They/Them (AFAB) Sexuality: Bi Age: 15 As the second(heh)-hand of Mango, Purple is always working. They don’t ruin their health over it, but they have ZERO free-time. Purple’s a bit socially awkward and doesn’t have any friends - aside from friendly relationships with the employees at the cafe they’re a regular at (mostly Teal (16F), who works there almost every day). They are fairly good at all fighting styles, though mostly close-combat, trickery, and their pistol. As the right-hand of the chief of police, though, they don’t get many 1v1 fights. They have a secret love of crochet and music, but these interests rarely shine due to their… well… entire lifestyle. They do LOVE their pets, though - mostly dogs. They are a dog person.
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“Sir, I’m going to need to see your ID- […] Um, no - it needs to have your picture- […] Sir- […] Sir, show me your ID or get the fuck out.” “(obsessing over a fluffy dog) Awww!~ Hi, there~” “Ugh, come on - DAMN YOU, SIREN!” “Sorry, I’m really busy tonight. […] No, then too- […] Also then- […] And then!- […] SORRY, I’LL CALL YOU WHEN I’M NOT-” “Don’t worry, Ma’am. We’ll find them.” “Huh? How long have I been out? […] sHIT-”
#lmk what you think and if you have any ideas!#I'm kinda struggling with Chosen's characterisation. I definitely don't want him to have his arc that he canonically does#but I don't want him to be eternally struggling / trap a hero character either#I'm thinking he's like... the only really sane one in the group#and enjoys using his powers for destruction but is a lot more stoic abt it? Maybe he's the strategiser...?#also Dark remains the same#love our batshit crazy boi :D#idk but lmk! :3#ALSO IF ANYONE WANTS TO WRITE/DRAW THIS THAT'D BE SO COOL ASK ME IF YOU WANT-
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the "strange place" could be a private wildlife collector? i know the buying and selling of wild animals as pets can be pretty bad in the uk (or at least it is w/ birds of prey? that's abt what i know)
OH that's a good idea, that's going to be one of my top choices for if I DO end up needing to change the "twoleg den" in the upcoming super edition. Private wildlife collectors are a HUGE problem because the laws on simply owning exotic animals (as long as they're not covered by the Dangerous Wild Animals Act) are suuuuper lax in the UK, and the Zoo Licensing Act only applies if you accept general admission.
(and even then, specifically, you can take admission a limited amount of times a year. James Wellington's Animal Welfare Nightmare Extravaganza, beloved winter tradition, £25 each, kiddies of edible height get in free)
Birds in particular are a huuuge issue because there's big oversights in the laws surrounding the keeping of birds of prey. You don't actually need a license to own any birds except ostriches and cassowaries, or one of the five destructive invasive birds. Your pet eagle just needs to be registered so they know you didn't snatch it from the wild. Licenses will only apply if you're breeding, selling, or using it for falconry.
Maybe I could even tie this hypothetical antagonist guy to Sharptooth/One Eye/The God of Summer's previous human incarnation, on some off-chance the series ends up using this villain again. That could be kinda neat.
#for a country that jabs at america for our birdsona a lot. brits suuuuure have some lax laws regarding eagle ownership#I love ragging on my country but we really went ham with the Migratory Bird Treaty Act#UK you want to enter the MBTA with the US Canada Mexico Russia and Japan. You want to do it sooooooo bad#also side note one of those Five Destructive Birds is a close relative of the Dreaded Australian Bin Chicken#Thing you do NOT need a license to own in England: an EAGLE#Thing you DO need a license to own: big-nose seagull#WELCOME BACK TO ANOTHER EPISODE OF THINGS YOU DIDN'T THINK YOUD LEARN FROM A CAT BLOG#Last time I taught you that we need to destroy sitka plantations to protect an unique and endangered biome#Today I teach you of eagle ownership#next time? who knows#bone babble#ecological updates
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They’re perfect for each other honestly (Patreon)
#Doodles#Adventure Time#Fionna and Cake#Simon Petrikov#Golbetty#It's not exactly Petrigrof but like - it's not Not that either lol#I'm really really happy that the show acknowledges that Simon was selfish in his and Betty's relationship - it's Very Good#And at the same time in it's small way Beth does give the concession of ''I guess that wasn't exactly [his] fault''#They're both called out! Betty's obsession with Simon caused her own self-destruction - and she takes responsibility for it#Simon is still shafted with the consequences but it's not like Betty doesn't get her own consequences#This whole journey is just more consequences of both of their actions! Of what Betty modeled she was willing to give up!#And Simon loves her. He respects her. He was selfish and self-driven but that didn't stop her from taking root and inspiring him in return#Her being self-sacrificing and then in her own selfish way not letting Simon make the same mistakes as her I just hhhhh#They're so lovely ♥#It's a bit matronizing of her haha but she Wants with her entire essence - she always has <3#It's her turn to be selfish Simon has had his turn - she won't let him throw away her gift as much as he wants to#They're just both so beautifully flawed ahhhhh <3 <3#''We made our choices. We could've made better ones but...I don't have any regrets.''#It's about breaking the cycle! Of him rejecting making the same mistakes! It's beautiful ;;#Also all the halo imagery drives me nuts ♥ Angel bf and his cosmic goddess gf
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RIP Charles Dickens, you would’ve loved Babylon 5’s season four opening credits
#who are queue? what do queue want?#for once it’s not an incorrect quote#babylon 5#b5#a tale of two cities#j michael straczynski#charles dickens#year of fire? ✅#year of destruction? ✅#year we took back what was ours? ✅#year of rebirth? ✅#year of great sadness? ✅#year of pain? ✅#year of joy? ✅#a new age? ✅#the end of history? ✅#the year everything changed? ✅✅✅#THE YEAR IS 2261. THE PLACE: BABYLON 5
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me when my entire life is kinda falling apart and all i want to do is to end my suffering and miserable life after 19 years trying and never got anything good that could help me but all i can do is stay here so my parents don't go crazy and k-word themselves too, and do everything my mom want and making my friends laugh about my shitty life because i am too guilty to vent and do a trauma bomb on them, and pretending that my older sister don't exist anymore because she left me here even tho she just went to live her own life.
#me when#bla bla bla#idk what im doing#i should kms lmao#vent post#i kinda want to die ngl#i want to go away#i should get my car and just go#i hate this#it shouldn't be like this#we all gonna die fr#money would solve all of our problems#coffee abuse#tw self destructive thoughts
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WOWWWW OMG I had a dream all about raising the Rowdyruff boys as OLDER kids!!!! 😭💖😭💖😭💖😭😭💖😭💖 They were about twelve or thirteen years old and they were actually not total little psycopaths (I think that was mostly thanks to me) and it was actually really fun being with them around the city and they clearly looked up to and respected me aaaaaaaah I LOVE THEM 🥺💖🥺💖🥺💖🥺💖🥺💖🥺💖
#funniest thing is i was actually taking them to. of all things. open a checking account 😂😂😂#cuz my parents did that for me when i was old enough#and they of course were dreading it cuz it was gonna be really boring and i was like. 'listen.'#'when you apply for this you can make a deal with this bank that they wont ever be robbed by you'#'unless something happens to the money that you deposit' and they were like aw hell yeah threatening people >:]#of course they haaaaated doing the application but i was overseeing and making sure they got everything right#boomer actually finished first which i was surprised by! but i was proud of him tho 💖#brick was trying to read over every single sentence and i had to tell him not too otherwise we were gonna be there all day 😭#and butch had to redo his application a few times cuz he kept writing too fast and misspelling things in PEN#but finally we got it done yayyyy and then we got pizza and went to the park. destroyed some stuff along the way#well they did the destruction i watched proudly 💖💖💖#we were enjoyin our pizza by a lake in the park when a gator-type monster popped out of th water and they disposed of it in like 10 seconds#they really wanted to get back to that pizza 😂 and i was all like 'yeah thats my boys!!' 😭💖💖💖💖💖💖#it was SUCH A FUN FUCKING DREAM AUOGH 😭😭😭😭#ruby rambles#dream dream dream#☠️.fmly
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the urge to like. just go off our meds is very strong tonight. but no
#i took them. I'm normal#pk;m jimmy🐑#i should rephrase: the urge to *self destruct* is very strong tonight#i want to do harm but not like. kill myself y'know.#not taking our meds for a few days feels about right
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At this point we might just well go to Christian’s office begging in our knees for him to hire Charles
I actually agree with Max that two number one drivers should not be on the same team... so I've always been anti Charles and Max as teammates.
But honestly at this point, I'm desperate and Ferrari is NOT the answer to anything but the punchline of every joke. I just can't bear the thought of Charles losing more of his prime years to that colossal joke of a team. My biggest fear is that he is going to let his loyalty to that team get in the way of getting the WDC that he deserves. He's talented enough to rival anyone, so yeah, fuck it:
#charles leclerc#scuderia ferrari (derogatory)#lestappen#i will accept lestappen becoming brocedes if it gets charles his wdc (it won't but that's a sacrifice i'm willing to make)#anon i cannot accurately express to you just how much i DESPISE that clown team#i want to laugh and dance as that team burns to the ground when he leaves them and wins a wdc somewhere else#my number one f1 wish is for charles to get a wdc#my number two f1 wish is to see the utter downfall and destruction of ferrari once our boy is free of them#elle.ask#anon
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I kinda really hate how I've been treated throughout my life
#Entire life of abuse and neglect and mistreatment only to always be told none of it happened. To the point where I really struggle with#thinking that I made it all up or that I'm overreacting or faking or playing the victim constantly#I honestly try my best to move forward and I want to be happy. I see absolutely zero point in wallowing. Others can if they wish‚ but I wan#to enjoy my life at some point. I think I've gotten better the past year- In great part of my dearly beloved- but it's still so#deeply difficult. Interactions so commonly feel like a trap and there is the perpetual sense of being watched and monitored#I often feel like a prey animal that is cornered and my only options are to take it in fear and die or to lash out and hurt the other party#I think I'm not as mean as others in this system though LMFAO. I'm not like Roxas who once compared a friend of ours to our parents during#an argument.#<- Not to say Roxas is a bad person. He's a severely hurt and traumatized kid who kinda only knows how to lash out to protect himself#Sighs. It's complicated. I do not wish to be someone angry like Roxas or Lexi. But they actually talk back and stand up for themselves. And#the system as a whole. Whereas I fawn and take it and then wonder why I always want to kill myself 24/7#I don't really know how to speak up for myself because it really feels like every single time I do (Or just voice an opinion confidently in#a group) it goes horribly wrong and people get upset and angry with me#And then people being angry at me causes major fucking spirals because it reminds me of my mother and then I start feeling like I'm going t#be fucking berated and have a metal crate thrown at me again 😭😭😭 Or get kicked out of the car or given the silent treatment etc etc etc#Which is a me problem I need to get over my fear of people being mad at me because it's an inevitable fact of life but. Hashtag severely#traumatized and still actively being traumatized by multiple parties#And also being in my own head and existing is very fucking harmful! Being in a mind that is so aggressive and destructive... It's difficult#to just 'get over' my issues‚ you know? So whenever they come up I try to just isolate so I don't cause any issues#<- Unless it's my histrionic stuff acting up. Then I'm complaining like hell because it feels actually fucking painful to not be receiving#attention during those breakdowns#Anyways! I kinda fucking suck and hate myself right now and want to kms. But that's how I am 24/7 so whatever#tw suicide#⛪️
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#ok ramble time#classic this feels too intimate to share with anyone so everyone gets it#essentially last week there was a suicide on campus#he was not one of my students or in our department#I'm pretty removed from it#ans i really didn't think it affected me#but i guess it has#bc like i thought i was over#✨this✨#Like ok i have had active plans in the past#one of those this is how this is when this is where#just waiting for the final straw#but i clearly never did#and that plan would no longer work due to changes in circumstances and living arrangements etc#which is honestly probably for the best#bc i refuse to make a new one bc i know i do not want to go there#but im just TIRED and ANXIOUS#its not even the depression its the anxiety of living#i stay up until 3-4 in the morning bc i cant stand the idea of going to sleep#and i secretly hope each sleep will be my last#bc im not going to DO anything bc that would not be it#too many ppl care about me (unfortunately)#and then ive stopped eating (again)#and it's like idek if its bc i dont want to or bc i forget#its like i see myself self destructing but cant make myself stop#and I have not done anything physically stupid in quite a long time but ive started biting to stim#and i dont even know im doing it half the time it just helps#and skin picking. which none or this is the same as true s/h but it does scare me to a degree bc i dont mean to i just do it#anyway i don't expect anyone to read all of this i just had to get it out ot my head
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She's the right hand woman of a crime boss and then the little guy is the agent trying to take down the organization and she's like "oh my what a good little boy!" and watches him practically wag his tail and is like ....... wild.
So then she later is talking to her boss and gets a call the agent is back and she's like OH LOVELY. And tells their henchmen not to engage with the agent AT ALL she wants to deal with him and then winks to her boss and says he needs to get lost. So then she hurries to the agent and is like "IT'S THE CUTIE!" and he again flinches and blushes and is like "m-m-ma'am! hello!" and once again she just. Is like ..... wild.
#my characters#funny little agent man is actually very good at his job and is actually causing a lot of problems#and big bad crime boss is getting very annoyed that this guy is so hard to defeat and toss to the side#but little agent is just a funny little guy ! he keeps popping up !#pretty woman is just this is very funny and i will gladly stall our destruction by complimenting the little fella#and then just outta nowhere asks the boss one day#hey rud do you think i could adopt the little agent bc i think hed make a good son#and the boss is like absolutely not and also dont bring it up again i dont like this topic and it makes me uncomfortable#she absolutely brings it up again but to the agent while she knows her boss is listening and she knows hes suffering#wildly only the boss has a name and i haven't posted him bc im still ... trying#to draw him ........ in the way i want him .... but its me attempting to draw someone a bit bulkier cause i only draw beanpoles#its not going well as you may imagine
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