#they take care of eachother its nice to see healthy relationships

[pr80boy]

U DONT UNDERSTAND HOW WEAK I AM 4 THEM

kissing 2 basically fuck w/preston and the others im so weak

[furiousgoldfish]

Damn i was not expecting the "#tw extreme abuse", thank you very much for your words though

I might be able to help the person who asked about healthy relationships though, ive made a lot of good relationships despite my family:

Communication

•above all else, communicate. Tell them about yourself. Learn about them. Get to know eachother! Likes, dislikes. Boundaries especially! Check in on them. Just a quick hi once in a while can do wonders (lots of relationships fail due to lack of communication or miscommunication)

•listen to eachother

Arguements

•if something happens you can always walk away, make sure the other person understands that they can as well. Take time to collect yourselves and explain later why your upset

•be clear and ask for clarification where you need it

•fights can be scary but dont think that someone will leave you after one

•try to steer clear of insults/threats/blackmail if your angry, thats hard to repair after

Trust

•i know its hard to trust and you can take all the time you need to learn how, but making healthy relationships is a good way to learn trust.

•Dont lie to them or you will get caught up in trying to keep it under wraps (unless its to protect your safety, in that case maybe being around this person is not a good idea), not only will they not trust you but you wont give yourself the opportunity to trust them

Kindness

•be nice. Its simple. Good people, the people that will make for great friends/support/family will be kind back! Go out and meet people! Youll make friends! Just give yourself a chance!

•treat other how you deserve to be treated, with all the love and kindess you should have gotten! They will pay it back, they will love you!

Other notes

•express interest in their interests. You dont have to be a big fan, people will want to show you what they like when they like you. They're sharing something special to them. So ask about it! You dont have to engage much with it, but show them their interests have value. It will make them really happy, and they should be open to yours as well.

•do fun shit together! Something you both enjoy! If there isnt anything that overlaps you can do your own stuff in eachothers company. Just hanging out with them is enough.

•being able to love someone else, is to love yourself. You're filled with so much compassion and care for this person, and they will feel the same. They will be their to love you when life hits the fan.

•again take your time, it can be hard to get right. If it doesn't work out thats an experience you can carry into the next relationship, something to learn from.

Caution:

-make sure they actually make you happy and treat you well, not that theyre just the first person you could latch onto

-make sure you both have personal freedoms, your loyalty to eachother should not come at that cost

-keep yourself safe, safety comes first

Finding good people is a very important one as well, if anyone needs i could try explaining that too. Hope this helps.

Hey thank you for sending this manual!

Yeah your situation is extreme, I'm thinking about you and hoping that you get to experience freedom.

Your manual sounds really nice and is filled with common sense, and I've been following these types of guidelines for most of my life, but still had absolutely no luck. The thing is, this would work if you're surrounded with kind, understanding, non-abusive, friendly people who also just wanted to be friends with you and reciprocate and earn your trust and keep you in your life.

However a lot of people will see your friendly, kind, compassionate and communicative nature and decide to make use of it. It's been the hardest thing for me to realize when the other person is just pretending to be friendly back, in order to exploit me. It's really difficult to take distance from someone when they make you feel guilty for it and attack you for it, and it's hard to not feel guilty and betrayed when it happens. Manipulative people make great use of trust and communication you give them! Treating them with love and kindness will often get you in a situation where love and kindness will be expected, or demanded out of you, while you find yourself unable to ask even for some patience and space for yourself. And I'm worried that this is the situation for most abused people, we're often trying so hard to be kind, communicative, trusting, interested, loyal, patient, giving, caring, compassionate, and they zero in on that and eat it up, taking some time to make us let our guard down, before they start banking on us being in their service.

I have been trying to find good people all of my life, and fell unsuccessful, and I've tried hundreds of people, created a system of red flags that make me drop them, and had to drop pretty much everyone. And it's not as if this manual is generally bad, or I've just sucked so much at communicating and building boundaries, it's just, really difficult after abuse to feel okay around people, and to not be bothered by some of their manipulative nature - it hurts us more than it hurts others.

So even as I'm really bad with people, I can't recommend being very kind, trusting or communicative, of course it's nice if you can be that and not get hurt for it, but I absolutely cannot. It never happened once in my life, that someone returned the same kindness, love and care I gave them, and it often broke my heart. I would have to be very naive to still believe that I just haven't done it for the right person - hundreds of people reacted similarly, took what they could, then either turned on me, hurt me and pretended it was okay and I should stop being sensitive, or abandoned me altogether if I ever stood up to them.

This all is not your fault, and I can completely understand how you sent in these instructions with best of intentions, sincerely believing that this is the key to healthy relationships. It seemed like that to me too, when I was younger! I fully believed this would work, kind people would see me and return the kindness, it would be okay. The only thing I can recommend is the stuff you have under caution - if someone fails to reciprocate, or reciprocates at first and then stops reciprocating, get distance. If your freedom around this person is limited, get away, get distance. If they start treating you worse at any point, get distance. It's not worth ending up in another abusive, neglected or scary situation just for the hope of human connection. And it's also really difficult for an abused person tell when they're being neglected, treated badly or their kindness is not reciprocated, just because we've already been used to so much worse, so anyone not outright threatening to kill us seems like a nice enough person who deserves our whole heart. They often do not.

[queer-full-of-fear-18]

Ep6 y’all…I’m a little embarrassed to say I actually teared up during this ep…I’m as dramatic as Yi is this ep…

Segway to YiDiao this ep!!!. Is it just me or does Diao always look terrified/ anxious to talk to Yi? 😅Like no matter the situation, Diao looks like he’s shaking in his boots…protect this boii. That conversation about taking care of him felt so sincere, and Diao just saying he doesn't want anything except spend time with him just- omg crying rnn sweet boi😭😭😭

And Yi's dramatic ass goes off to get drunk💀 bc trauma or smth…chill… and yeah as he says he’s a heavy weight bc it looks like he drank like 6 full red wine bottles… that can’t be healthy. Drunk Yi is hilarious tho and gotta say Lian belong a good friend and bringing him home is a really nice gesture and shows how they have a great friendship- yes they bicker and laugh and tease over eachothers relationships (bc they both be doing stupid stuff tbh) but its clear from this and other past moments they do seem to have a really nice support for eachother and I love that - Yi drunkenly telling Kuea to not tell Dioa about this was the best bit😂

It seems from the preview that YiDiao will be finally opening up to each other next ep as Kuea and Lian have done this ep…But before we get to that

Let's talk about Nuea/Nuer (I’m still not sure what his name is lmao) *heavy sigh* y’all this ep was a full on attack on this man and I loved every second of it💀💀 - his actor (who’s name I believe is Tutor?) is doing an incredible job at portraying him bc….a bit like Kuea’s friends I have no goddamn clue what his goal is with flirting with Kuea - which is the central reason the squad (the dudes at least since they were present for the interaction on the football field in ep5) distrust his character in general; for which I agree. It seems Nuer is a bit dismissive and ‘fake’ towards the rest of the squad and really only acknowledges Kuea and this ep’s first part sees the development of a beef? I would say, between the squad and Nuer but 👀ESPECIALLY Syn who glares at this dude like he’s gonna kill him; which the other seems to reciprocate the feeling arbeit a bit more cockyly i guess? (is that word?...it is now) they obviously tolerate his existence bc Kuea is okay with it and he is a genius who gets to work on their project - which makes him even more arrogant which is simultaneously infuriating and hot af. 😔

Side note - I wanna mention the ep stars right where we left off to Nuer getting in between Kuea and his friends (who later apologize for their behavior which like get it kings) but tbh it wasn’t even that deep - ESPECIALLY bc Kuea has known these dudes since his 1st year (as seen in the flashback of him telling them he’s engaged: this has been his major since day one) - idk how the uni systems works there but since Kuea is in his final year that is AT LEAST 3-4 years of strong friendship and in comes this dude you just met between your friends??? Bro we met you like a month ago you dobn’t know their dynamics BACK THE FUCK OFF (i feel very strongly about this) 😠😠😠

Kuea giving him his jacket back is very…interesting and this is explored in the conversation/intervention with the squad.

First off love the comedic thing of it being like they legit kidnapped him and Kuea is more just annoyed that they dragged him out here more than anything - again showing their dynamic.

Kuea is aware of the fact he is being flirted with - but seems kinda neutral with all this? Like he returns the jacket to Nuer in a bit of a nice ‘thanks but no thanks’ sorta way but that seems to be the extent of his reactions to the ‘advancements’. This conversation was basically the squad telling Kuea they don’t fuck with Neur’s vibe, especially bc this dude is flirting ith him knowing he is ‘technically’ engaged - their just looking out for him and Kuea knows, even saying that they will back him up if something were to happen 😭

He then goes to say how he doesn't mind bc no ones ever flirted with him (Lian get your ass to work rn tffff) and sort of explains the whole engagement thing (I use explain lightly lol) - immediately the friends are like ‘ur fiance treat u wrong we gonna go beat his ass/chase him off’ - get u friends like Kuea’s man, I love these dudes😤😤😤. More reasons I love these dudes: Lian shows up and Kuea panics - he stutters when saying ex fiancee which is what I assume causes his friends sorta confusion when it came to Nuer: idk my friend of 3-4 years tells me he’s calling off his engagement with the dude he’s been in love with for like his entire life and know his personality enough to call bullshit 😩(evidence n1: Jay remarks in ep 4 about how he doesn't actually believe Kuea wants to call the engagement off)

(Bc well truly he doesn't he’s having a bit of midlife crisis or smth)

And his friends find a middle ground between what Kuea’s has been doing and what he should be doing - they go meet him but with the effort of showing a ‘proper’ image and fully fake being computer engineering majors…mind you I personally fully believe both Foei and Lian know what his major actually is - at least since he went to his second house but probably before that tbh.

And it was just so fucking funny I was screaming😂😂 - when Syn went in and asked for a donation and lost my shit - loved how Lian even offrerd them a ride. 10/10 scene I love them

Not gonna lie I was kinda hoping Neur would show up for the drama of it all 💀- I feel like Nuer and Syn could so get into a fight if syn weren’t such a pacifist …but dam imagine that transitioning into an angry make out scene like…enemies to lovers 5k slow burn right there

Interested to see how Nuers advancements may shift towards Syn in the future (since I believe it's the confirmed 3rd pairing right?)

Now onto the meat of this ep - Lian and Kuea. Oh boy I am down bad for these two😢- This ep was important for me bc after the events of ep4 and 5, I feel that if thse two didn’t have a semblance of a straight up conversertion I was gonna fucking lose it…but were gettinhg heade of our selves.

Personally, I've been a bit iffy on Lian’s approach about this whole thing - his intentions are good but without the clear distinction that everything he does is out of love for Kuea the message is completely lost from my poor boy’s POV.

A important opportunity arises regarding Kuea’s music carrer as Kirin something he is deeply pantionate about but because Lian told him to stay home he does (after seeing there is no way to sneak out - I was screaming at my screen bc literally Kuea just fucking talk ton him your not in a prison ir any– oh that’s right its not a prison but Kuea belives it so (at leats a bit) yikes💀

Side note 2: Lian’s comments about Kuea’s hair made me wanna combust bc get you a man that pays so much attention to you that he knows how you do your hair when even you go out are u serious????😤😳 I was both funny and wholesome seeing Kuea tryna cover his ass and highkey failing lmao.

The bit in the bedroom…first of hilarious but second off does Kuea officially have a vampire kink Lian has known about this entire time or😅?? It was also a bit cringe/awkward..in like the good storytelling way bc Lian wants skinship but it feels so foreign to Kuea he visibly shrinks, steps back, fights it off as teasing and GOD DAMMIT Lian just tell him u wanna smooch him and that this is literally role play for the love of g o d…bc without it it feels very awkward and unwanted…yikes once more

And from that I was just in personal denial as this mf walks back into his room and googles dating advice with the most smitten looks on his face (GOD DAMMIT ZEE STAP IT) but it gets better thankfully cuz i was gonna lose it like Kuea tynna convince himself he still wants to call this engagement off (my dude you are kidding yourself with that one💀)

The pool scene into the date scene was just - hit be like a brick seeing Kuea outright deny any sort of ‘fight’ between Lian, bc that's how he interprets it - and Lina just being like ‘tf what no that not what we're doing here’ the shock of ‘lefts do thing differently and get to know eachother was THE CONVERSATION for this to start happening and I lost my shit - more of this pleaseee😭😭😭

Nothing could have prepared me for that date…holy shit was it awkwards but so heartwarming… Lian making a effort for this to be different than their other dates and Kuea ever so slightly breaking out of his persona to ask why - and this stems from the core of why Kuea acts the way that he does: He doesn't see himself as worthy of Lian’s love and attention and is but aback by this entire thing. The waitress comment is funny as hell because it is relatable but a punch to the face to Lian as he sees his efforts to make this as ‘date-like’ as possible to be in vain.

And FINALLY my prayers have been answered Lian opens up, saying he’ll take them somewhere diffrent of a different date - and Kuea says something really profound here about not caring for the whole ‘date’ term, just appreciating the time they spend together - however it stems from his lack of self worth which slowly throughout ep4 to now has been a reflection of his actions towards Lian in terms of their relationship.

Sid enoten3 - Kuea and Diao are both the sweetest fucking kids that have been raised in comodity their entire lives and yet here they are standing infront of the people they love with self esteems of themselves on the floor, simply content with sprint time with the people they love even if they belive the feeling to be unreciprocated PROTECT THEM AT ALL COST DAMMIT. 😤😤😤

Continuing from after the date - Kuea finally says he didn’t fully mean to call off the engagement and acknowledges what Lian has found out, the entire point of breaking this date-rule they had going on: that kuea wanted to call of the engagement bc Lian doesn’t spend enough quality time with him - a very fair point Lain took to heart and is working towards

*screams in they finally are fucking communicating yall* i legit teared the fuck up during it, the dam fairy light didn’t help

And the buildup of Kuea’s entire goddamn character arc this entire time - the progression from episode 1’s argument. Lian reprimands him as he attempts to do something is self conscious about: cooking - and in recent light of their conversation the previous night just breaks - he cries out his insecurities and his pain and Lian comforts in horror he didn’t mean any of it in the way Kuea takes it - Kuea feels worthless and incapable and Lian just wants him to be okay - staring at the face of that who he love the most and has hurt multiple times with his words - something he seem to struggle with - he makes the fair conclusion of using something else to get his point across: his actions

Especially after Kuea drops this god dam bomb: (an incredble call back to ep1, bc guess what your actions/words have consequences lian)

“This is why you don’t love me” (and the entirety of the monologue before)

AND HOLY MOTHER FUCKING THAT WAS FULL 2 MIN AND 15 SECONDS OF PURE FUCKING L O V E 😭😭😭😭😪😪😤😤😤😭😲

The first kiss, into the second, the gentle pick up into the counter which felt so fucking ugh omg natural, the shouldr kiss to the enck - as if saying ‘all of you is perfect in my eyes, I love all of you’ - Kuea’s harms lifting his shirt from the back followed into another deeper kiss just holy shittttt😱😭😭😭😭😤😤😫😫😫😫😫

Now in terms of this ship, I 50/50 count the car kiss as a ’kiss’ in the traditional sense because Kuea was so stupidly drunk and this kiss in not acknowlgeed by both parties. In 12-13 episode series, when a couple is getting together (at least the main one) I cap episode 6 as the ‘they are finally gonna start getting together’ or as I like to call it ‘THE defining kiss’ - ep6 is a good middle ground in my opinion, before of after you risk dragging it out or rushing it in an satisfying way (tho it can be be done and has been just depends on the pacing)

I wondered if they would have it before since this relationship is technically pre established - such series like ‘Don’t say No’(amazing btw) have this defining kiss in ep 1, bc is about them being in a relationship, not getting into the relationship.

But the car kiss doesn’t count (for me) as this kiss since it doesn't do anything for the relationship: we as the viewers understand the nuance emotions behind it and I think it was a very necessary visceral wakeup call on all fronts for Lian; but ultimately the continue on their cat and mouse thing they've been doing after wards.

The after math of this ABSOLUTE FUKCKING BANGER of a make out scene (this ain a kiss anymore, they were a min away from a make out) , shown a bit by the preview is straight up progress in the way their relationship has been - no more secrets and Lian has finally realized he has to show Kuea his ‘world’ or the way he is in order for Kuea to in return do the same - instead of forcing it out of him. And as much as the roles could be reversed, I think it's important for Lian to be the one to open up first, because it shows Kuea the effort and desire Lian has, to do so for Kuea - who we know struggles with the idea of being loved and desired by him.

I’m so fucking happy this is how it progressed and can’t wait for the way their relationship can only really go uphill from here (unless Nuer does some shenannigans, which who knows👀)

Misc side note - I appreciate whatever writer or producer or whoever makes sure there is at least one scene with Jay (Perth) bc I do in fact need to see him every episode thank you for your service. 💅

Can’t wait for Kilian fluff, YiDiao angst, and squad shenanigans next ep this show is so incredible

(this is 2554 words btw jesus am i okay)

[incorrect-strq-quotes]

(not discourse) but the issue i have w/ the qrow dad theory is that it wipes away the fact that ruby and yang have such a healthy half-siblingship. in media (or the majority of) half-siblings (sharing only one biological parents if you didnt know) are always portrayed to have some kind of dislike/rivalry between eachother, so seeing yang and ruby love eachother and actively be *siblings*, its nice. i have an older half brother and we have a near identical relationship as ruby and yang have (siblingship- not the fighting grimm part) and its so heart warming to see such a healthy portrayal of this

also, i think qrow being an uncle really adds to the family value that both yang and ruby need. they HAVE a loving father, they had a loving mother, they have a loving uncle. despite both losing their mother (and raven walking out before yang knew her) they had a healthy childhood, they were loved and cared for. “but qrow basically raised ruby” likely because as she got older, tai saw more and more of her resemblance to summer and very likely felt guilty over the loss of his wife. of course he still loves ruby, but he probably never had enough time to mourn her. he had two young daughters to raise. qrow raising and teaching ruby was so tai could finally grieve. of course he still loves ruby as much as he loves yang, their his daughters for god sake. qrow being rubys (adoptive) uncle means he still gets a close relationship with her, and considering the circumstances, he became incredibly close with her, and they have an important bond that would be erased if he was her father

sorry for going off, i always like discussing my ideas of the qrow father theory!!

Gotta love the “not discourse, but” asks.

Nobody is trying to take away what the show’s canon is. Idk everyone is convinced that’s what we’re trying to do.

You know how multishippers have 163925294 different ships with the same character(s)? This is that, but with families.

I think that Tai being the girls’ father is neat.

I think that Qrow being ruby’s father is neat.

I think that Tai being the sperm donor for Raven and Summer is neat.

I think STRcrossed/polystrq is neat.

I have literally written fics for all of them. Nobody is erasing anything.

Sometimes I just want a different flavor of family.

[transterrence]

jarlo

JOHN X ARLO

i have several others but im doing this one first bc its ✨controversial✨

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CHEMISTRY

4/10

they mostly hate eachother idk what you want from me. arlo hates john- he thinks hes immature and stupid and irresponsible. john hates arlo- he thinks hes stuck up and a prick and a general bad person. they both hate each other, and have both severely hurt each other. arlo, because of his beliefs, pushed john into a situation that forced him to relapse into his [self]destructive tendencies. john proceeded to use, berate, and blame from that point on. they're characters with such different point of views and have both been severely hurt by the system, but neither of them refuse to acknowledge that the other has been hurt. while john blames himself for what hed become, he covers that up by blaming the system. on the other hand, arlo doesnt even recognize the fact that hes been affected by the hierachy [his obsession with order].

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POTENTIAL

9/10

TENSIONNNNN. mm we've seen that arlo is capable of being kind, or at least pretending to be kind, to john. from that point, that couldve developped into genuine affection for each other, much like a fake dating trope. and it would work, however, thats not the way story evolved. currently, they both hate each other. arlo's also shown to feel guilty about his actions, at least to some degree. they could both push each other to further goals and enlighten the other to different perspectives [much like john and sera's friendship]. a romantic relationship between the two would be very multi-faceted and interesting to see play out considering their backstories and previous interactions. [but itd be so cute for them to go soft on each other]. they could also grow as people which would be nice :>

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TOXICITY

10/10

BAD BAD BAD. TOXIC AS FUCK. they fucking hate each other. a relationship like theirs could go bad so fucking fast. everyone in unordinary has a track record of shit communication, and holy fuck these two are so bad at it. there'd be no trust or communication between these two. even if they did forgive each other to what happened, its not healthy to just move on from what they did. arlo fucked john over, and so did arlo. both of them, specifically arlo, are not in stable positions as of the moment. engaging in a relationship would be unhealthy and toxic. likely, one bad incident could set off a spiral for both since it could trigger john's ptsd and very distinctly remind him of what arlo did to him. of course, relationships are not certainly toxic or certainly healthy, its just these two have a high potential of turning sour.

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PERSONAL OPINION

8/10

i like it, personally. the appeal to me, i think, is the idea of them growing as people. character development is sexy. seeing them grow from who they were at the start, and actually take the time to care and understand of each other would be so satisfying. picturing them in a healthy relationship rn- its good !! theyd have nice banter and would challenge each other's opinions, but in a way that supports the relationship rather than break it down.

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IN CONCLUSION...

good chemistry. high potential and they could definitely have a good relationship, but that depends on if theyre genuinely going to put in the effort to grow as people and understand each other. however, can get toxic real fast especically with the tendency of them to hold grudges and their history. unlikely to ever be canon, but theyve got good tension :>

[sainadazai]

Hello, I hope u're doing well!! For the drabble promt, 55 with Dazai, please <33

I'm doing good thx bb I like this prompt sm for dazai yay

Bad Day

Dazai had been feeling off all day long, not seeing you at work was the first to set him off, but aside from that everything just seemed a bit strange.

The two of you had been in a fight last night, because after two years of sleeping with only eachother, going out to dinners with only eachother, and caring so deeply about only eachother, dazai still had the idea that you were just friends. Just coworkers.

You thought he was joking at first but he truly didn't think your relationship was any different after everything you've done. To the point he even brought up how you might as well be sleeping with kunikida and rompo, too. To say you were baffled would be an understatement.

You both slept alone that night, but you knew everything would be okay, after all, you had a cute little dazai inside you and your spirit couldn't be crushed from a dumb fight. However dazai stayed up all night. He was terrified because yes, he never established your relationship, but he loved it how it was. He didn't want it to end. Ever.

If you left him, he wasn't sure who he'd be. Knowing that before he met you, everything he did had no purpose, it was just for the sake of it, but ever since the first case you worked together, he knew that he was doing everything for you.

It's not a healthy way to live, he knows that, but how can he help it when you have litterally jumped off of bridges together. You were just his perfect kinda crazy, and he fucking loved you.

"Hey Dazai, do you know where y/n is? I was supposed to give this to her..." atsushi speaks in a quiet voice, as if the package he holds is a secret.

"No. Why would I know where y/n is, she doesn't belong to me." He sasses, but he says it like he truly wished you did belong to him.

"Well because you're her boyfri-"

"Does everyone think that!" He screams, attracting the attention of everyone in the room. He has to take a few breaths before noticing a paper a top the box in atsushi's hands. Something messily scribbled on it , but it's not any actuall words.

"Hey, atsushi, what that paper?"

The boy looks down to see a series of numbers and letters in no apparent order. It's the paper that made him feel secretive about this package, because it seemed as though somebody was sending coded messages to y/n. He wasn't sure what it said, so if dazai decrypted something...unpreferable, things might go downhill fast.

"Its a code." Rompo interrupts, already having figured out that the box is a gift from your parents. Inside would likely be all of your old baby clothes and a nice letter of congratulations. However, rompo knee you were pregnant because he was the first you told, and he just couldn't help messing with dazai a bit.

"I suppose it could be from one of her contacts back in the port mafia, wasn't there that man she dated, the one with the gravity ability." He spoke seriously, hoping to be convincing enough to get dazai angry.

However despite the fuming rage dazai held inside at the thought of you being in contact with chuuya, he maintained his natural additive on the outside.

"Oh, a rekindled love affair, how scandalous of her. You know if she is still in contact with the port mafia, we might be unable to trust her. ROMPO! DECODE THIS MESSAGE!" He yells, he himself believing that by playing dumb, he could get rompo to solve the whole thing and then go kick chuuua's ass.

Meanwhile, you were wandering the streets looking at all of the corner shops and occasionally buying some small things you might need for the baby.

See when Dazai got home tonight, you had a plan of how to tell him you were pregnant. It was a bit out there, but you thought it was funny.

The living room floor was covered in rose petals and in the center lay two knives. You would tell him that you could commit a Romeo and juliet suicide together but when he asks why there is two knives and the vile of poison, you could tell him it was a triple suicide. Then boom! "We are having a baby!"

You thought it would be funny. It was not.

After rompo lied saying that the massage was a letter about you and chuuya running away together, Dazai rushed home to find you. However he was met with rose petals and knives, you were going to commit suicide without him!?

Even worse, he found that all of the contents of the spare bedroom were dissaray, you were taking apart the furniture and throwing away the blankets, you were gonna leave him!

"Y/n! What are you doing, put the bed back, please just put everything back you don't have to leave. And don't kill yourself without me, I'm so much better than chuiya, I can show you i-"

"Huh?"

You noticed the man now on his knees, throwing a fit and although it was comical, it looked real. His eyes were beginning to water at the thought of life without you and the crazy adventures. He wanted you to be his forever.

"Please baby...I- I want you to be more than a friend and and- commit double suicides with me and have my babies but i- I can't do anything without you please y/n.." He was sobbing, pleading for you, while you were simply trying to move some things around and make room for a nursery.

"Osamu..."

His glossy eyes peered up at you, hands stilling in their prayer motion to hear you out.

"I think we need to talk you about the fact I'm in love with you, and also that I'm pregnant." You muttered, taking a moment to help him up from the floor while his face falls blank.

On the outside it appears he's got nothing going on in his big ol head, but inside he is going through his day to figure out when and where everything got so confusing. He doesn't even acknowledge what you mean by pregnant until you slap him across the face.

"Hey big guy, get excited I'm making dazai's over here." That's when his face comes to life again, eyes a little wider and a goofy smile on his face.

"That means. Another me!" His hands reach out to your tummy holding it delicately to feel the small bump forming.

"And me..." you roll your eyes at him.

"Y/n! Do you know what that means!" He yells, moving to pick you up and spin you around, despite the mess of a room you're in.

"Tripple suicide!!"

"We are gonna be mommy and daddy!"

Your face falls when you realize what he's said, but it warms your heart a bit that he really just wants to be a dad.

Until he kisses your forehead softly and mutters "we might need to work on that crazy head of your while your making my babies in here. Wouldn't want them to come out stupid. "

[foxie-roxie]

why rayllum is a MASTERPIECE part 3

*RUBS MY CLAWS TOGETHER* IT IS SEASON 3 TIME BITCHES AND H O L Y S H I T I LOVE THIS SEASON SO MUCH

i even rewatched it for this!

this time i’ll try to have SOME order, and go by episode. this will however still include unintelligible screaming

1. DAMN THESE FUCKERS BE PINING MORE THAN A PINE TREE FOREST!

first off, affectionate eye rolling, nose boop, and head bonk is the best thing.

second, IF SOMEONE SAYS THAT DURING WHEN CALLUM WAS HELPING RAYLA PUT ON HIS SCARF AND THEY J STARED AT EACHOTHER FOR A BIT BEFORE RAYLA TURNED AWAY THAT HE WAS N O T LOST IN HER EYES? they’re wrong. this is fact now.

third, their teamwork and decision making is excellent. they agree to try and sneak past sol regem, and when that fails try talking to him and then decide to simply trick his senses with the scarf. and instead of rayla shooting down callum’s “smelltriloquism” idea, she simply adds onto it! LOVE HEALTHY FRIENDSHIPS

“i think it’s good luck!” YES IT IS RAY THAT’S UR BOYFRIENDS SCARF

also, here you go. you’re welcome.

2. STILL PINING. GOD DAMN.

first, CALLUM BEING SO EXCITED BY ALL THE MAGIC IN XADIA IS S O CUTE! MY SON. this might turn into an overrall review of s3. o well

second. FLUSTERED RAYLA AND FLUSTERED CALLUM. Y E S

third, THE ADORABURR FIELD! their smiles were so fond and soft and A. they make me cry of joy. 

an overall look on it, i like how this episode really shows their feelings clearly. no “will they won’t they”, at least for rayla. it’s clear she has feelings.

3. AH FUCK. ANGST.

first i love how when rayla mentions that she’s excited and happy but also terrified, callum tries to comfort her. good boi. best boi.

second, elf callum. i love that scene so much even if the second-hand embarrassment kills me, and rayla is j like “why the fuck do i love you. im gonna kill him.”

third, DANCE! callum not being rude and saying her home is “modest” before rayla explains it’s an illusion, his BLUSH WHEN SHE HELPS HIM, and the softness in general. rayla’s excitement that she’s home and talks abt that she can show callum where she went to school, the best moonberry surprise place, until...

fourth, AH FUCK. A N G S T T I M E. rayla being crest-fallen before callum says that it must’ve been a mistake, and she realizes that ethari would probably understand!

and then CONFIRMED GAYS. YES.

rayla realizing ethari ghosted her too and then callum GOING O F F. he angy and when rayla runs out callum IMMEDIATELY FOLLOWS (like in a later episode) and comforts her again.

when ethari comes down and breaks the spell and says to callum “trees to meet you too” and rayla’s like “don’t encourage him”

also callum trying to get on the shadowpaw and ethari being Concerned is AMAZING. concerned dad content

i’ll talk more about ezran/ruthari/the dark magic trio in a later ted talk

4. H E R E W E G O

first, rayla clearly being sad and callum picking up on that quickly (he even seems to be almost falling on purpose, perhaps to make her smile?) and asking if she’s ok before being shot down by rayla insisting she is fine. GOD DAMN. THAT HURTS.

second, their interaction with nyx is so amazing. rayla being protective of zym and callum being a DORK is awesome, but also their decision making.

after rayla reluctantly decides that they can go see how nyx could get them across the desert so quickly, they see the ambler and then their reasoning is amazing.

“what do you think?”

“the dragon queen is dying.” and then i forget the rest of the exact quote but they give a subtle nod to eachother. they make their decisions TOGETHER. AS A TEAM. AND THAT’S ON HEALTHY FRIENDSHIPS X2!

third, callum continuing to gently press for rayla to express her emotions. he doesn’t pressure her, but seems to simply let her know that if she needs to talk (when she insists she’s fine), he is there. 

four, MORE FLUSTERED RAYLLUM. YES. TY NYX but also fuck u for taking zym but also ur hot- A N Y W A Y

five. OOOOOOH. MY FAVORITE SCENE.

rayla’s crying and callum tries to reassure her. nyx is plotting, while rayla runs away and callum follows. Y E S.

rayla talks about how there’s nobody left that cares about her and she lost everything.. and then the SPEECH. i have this speech memorized i’ve watched this scene so many times

"JUST SHUT UP, YOU'RE TALKING CRAZY. JUST, LISTEN TO ME. YOU'RE TOO GOOD TO FEEL THIS BAD ABOUT YOURSELF. I KNOW THAT, AND YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT. YOU HAVE TRUE COURAGE, AND A BIG HEART! I'VE SEEN YOU GET KNOCKED DOWN SO MANY TIMES AND EVERY. SINGLE. TIME. YOU GET UP AGAIN. THAT'S REAL STRENGTH. AND.. AND YOU'RE TEN TIMES FUNNIER THAN ANY HUMAN I KNOW! chuckle SEE? SEE YOU KNOW YOU'RE AMAZING. YOU'RE SMART AND FAST AND BEAUTIFUL. RAYLA YOU'RE THE MOST AMAZING PERSON I'VE EVER MET."

LOVE THEMMM

and then rayla kisses him and that’s all that happened. callum was not a dumbass. right? RIGHT???

5. MY FAVORITE EPISODE!

first, rayla saving callum from the soulfang serpents and callum helping her get up is AMAZING, LOVE THAT.

second, callum tryna get a good position and rayla j saying to hold onto her and callum GETTING FLUSTERED. BOY IS PINING also he didn’t have to hold her that close.

“I DON’T THINK OF HER THAT WAY” “YOU AND I DON’T HAVE THAT YET” LIAR.

three, THEM JUMPING OFF THE AMBLER AND. THAT WHOLE MOMENT? THE ROMANTIC TENSION IS KILLING ME

four. DAMN CALLUM RLLY DO BE HAVING HEART EYES @ RAYLA WHILE SHE KILLS LIKE 80 SOULFANGS HE IS PINING PART 2

five. THE SPEECH. THE SOFTNESS. THE KISSES. GOD DAMN. FAVORITE SCENE OUT OF THE ENTIRETY OF TDP. LOVE THEM.

also here you go again

what can i say except YOU’RE WELCOME

6. ANGST BUT ALSO FLUFF ALSO REUNION

once again won’t b talking abt ezran specifically but there’s some passing mentions of him from now on

first, rayla and callum reaching the stone thunder and callum asking “is it... a statue?” and rayla sadly saying “no. it’s not a statue” A. I CRI.

1.5 ayla and callum best dragon parents

i’ll get to an actual analysis later

second, THIS MOMENT IS UNDERRATED EVEN THO IT’S ONE OF MY FAVS why has nobody mentioned the lil tender moment where ezran is by phoe-phoe and rayla puts her hand on callum’s shoulder AND CALLUM PUTS HIS HAND ON HERS. SO SWEET.

third, OK I’LL STOP MOST OF MY UNINTELLIGIBLE SHRIEKS AND ACTUALLY ANALYZE THIS.

callum is upset because of thunder and rayla sympathizes immediately. this is similar to how callum lets rayla let out her own emotions, and rayla is doing the same. he explains how he feels angry, upset, confused, sad, and rayla quickly empathizes. he keeps on venting, not knowing whether to feel regretful, or glad, and how he’s confused because that’s sarai’s spear. he feels sorry that all this happened, but rayla reassures him that zym and ezran are going to break the cycle! that’s hope! and then they hold hands and i screech

AND THAT’S SO FUCKING HEALTHY AND I LOVE IT. THEY RLLY BREAK ALL BAD HET RELATIONSHIP STEREOTYPES (coughbutistillheadcanonthembothasbiandcallumistransilldieonthishillcough)

7. angst but not rayllum angst so its ok

first, they begin to go up the storm spire and i really love their banter. “and i’m guessing the dragon queen didn’t make her den at a nice, halfway kinda place?” “nope. tiptop!”

cuties.

second, ASSDHFNF THE FACT THEY M O C K THE IDEA OF A FORBIDDEN RELATIONSHIP. THEY’RE IN LOVE AND THE WORLD CAN DEAL WITH IT. LOVE THAT FOR THEM

third, RAYLA CATCHING CALLUM. IT’S. NOT RLLY BIG I JUST LIKE IT AND THINK IT’S CUTE HOW EVEN THOUGH SHE WAS ALSO OUT OF BREATH SHE RAN UP TO CATCH HIM. 

four, AHSDHGDHFG THEY DEADASS FORGOT EZRAN WAS THERE. more flustered rayllum i love that

8. FUCK IT’S RAYLLUM ANGST NOOOO

one, ibis is j a good boi. back to rayla and callum

two, rayla going in to see the dragon queen and when she runs out callum QUICKLY FOLLOWS to see if she’s ok. asks her if she’s ok, and she OPENS UP!! CHARACTER GROWTH BABY!!! and then they hold hands and i once again shriek

three, AH. HELLO ANGST.

before we go to the actual angst, can i say that THE LAUGH AFTER RAYLA SAID “STORM SNEEZE” IS SO CUTE. CALLUMS IN LOVE. MY SON.

oh no.

*bonks rayla on the head* nO SELF SACRIFICING!!

although their fight is super angsty and i hate it, it does provide some conflict and more plot because it gives callum a reason to want to find out the truth about rayla’s parents. and then he does! people argue that this fight was unnecessary or that callum was a jerk, but this was needed i think. he did let his worry become a bit of anger, and that was not a nice move, but he knows he fucked up and fixes it!

and then we get soft rayllum this is fine

9. AND YOU THOUGHT LAST EPISODE WAS BAD N O *CRYING*

there’s not much rayllum featured in this ep, but the amount we do get is 80 PERCENT ANGST AND I WASN’T OK WITH IT

first, the fluff! callum trying to do the wing spell and rayla teasing “did you pull a muscle in the middle of a jumping jack?” is so cute. i LOVE THEM. also they hold hands and i SH RIEK again. 

also soren how dare you interrupt callum he was abt to confess

second, callum when he’s explaining the battle plan and his ZAP HAND. rayla is j watching him like “yep. that is my dork.”

and CALLUM SEEMS SO FOND WHEN JANAI CALLS RAYLA THE LAST DRAGONGUARD. PERHAPS I SOB

skipping forward in time a bit for the angst oh no

third, callum going up to the storm spire after ez encouraging him to go to rayla. love that soft brotherly relationship. and we think “oh, soft rayllum, right?”

NO. VIREN’S UP THERE.

fourth, THEY DIDN’T NEED ME TO BE ROLLING ON THE FLOOR WTF. the fact that rayla’s blade went right in front of callum and he looks up and sees zym in danger, viren is there, and RAYLA is there, p a n i k.

and then rayla jumps and the entire rayllum fandom SC REAMS after callum’s “no!” before she jumps and “no, no, no, RAYLA!”

fifth, CALLUM NO WHY ARE YOU JUMPING TOO- oh wait its ok he did the wings and im still crying fuck

THAT CONFESSION THO- i cri tears of joy now. they’re in love

sixth, I J WANNA KNOW WHAT THEY WERE TALKING ABOUT BEFORE EZRAN SHOWED UP. like it’s clear that they’re talking or something, but abt what is the question. also yes they hug and raylas fond

seventh, THEY HOLD HANDS!! soft bbs,,,

AAAND IM DONE! this is. quite long so if you read all of this i hope u have a good day and thnx for listening to me ramble with some coherent thoughts

[jinxthequeergirl]

1-20 for Ash since he's your groovy boy.

I'M CRYING THE TERM "YOUR GROOVY BOY" MADE MY HEART MELT TO A PUDDLE (i've had a real shit day this is the only think keeping me sane) 

In other news i wasn't sure if you meant like 1 through 20 or like just 1 & 20 so i went with the first option just so i could talk about him more(1 through 19 cause two where pretty much the same) I also made sure to make sure this was as gender natural as possible so

Enjoy

1: Cuddling

Ahakakab

Ok firstly Ash?

Biggest cuddlier ever

He just loves the close contact

Spoon wise

He is the big spoon cause he feels like even when sleeping hes protecting you

He also likes two other ways

A: His head on your chest with your arms around him

Because lets face it he also deserves to feel safe and protected

B: facing you with yout limbs in a tangle

Cause he likes to look at/ admire you

You look so peaceful its one of his favorite sights

2: kissing + Favorite kiss

Ash can be a pretty rough kisser

Almost kinda like a "we might die and or never see eachother again so this is my last chance to do this" type of kiss

Sometimes you have to remind him slow down and that everything is ok and as it should be

When he remembers that hes a very passionate kisser

Like he kisses you slowly but just rough enough to be perfection

She said sighing wistfully

They can also be really playful

He'll dip you while kissing you

But also he peppers kisses all over your face while tickling you

his favorite kisses are french and neck kisses

3: Injured

He likes to make jokes about it

To lighten the mood

Just cause seeing you worried about him breaks his heart

But also to make himself feel better and help to not worry bout it to much

He secretly likes getting injured

You're always so sweet and gentel with him

And you give him special treatments ( ;) ya know what i mean?)

He also pretends he doesn't like it when you kiss his injuries cause its "childish"

But he loves it

When you are injured however its a completely diffrent story

Hes not as calm and collected as you can be

Hes angry, worried and very guilty

You can tell he blames himself because he doesn't crack any jokes like usual and hes always very quiet while he's trying to patch you up

"Kiss me better?" You ask

That makes him smile and he kisses your injuries softly just like you would

You don't blame him and you tell him that much

4:First Date

Ashely J. Williams is not

A fancy man

classy

Or a rich man

He's not one for flashy/fancy dinner dates

Your first date was some sort of take out

In his trailer

You actually really enjoyed it

Only because he made it enjoyable

After dinner the two of you kinda just laied on the floor and talked

Which was weird for ash cause he was more of a

Take someone on a date and get down to bussnies type of guy

But he actually felt connected enough to just sit and chat

5: First kiss

It happens on the hood of the delta on your second date

You where sitting there star gazing

Just talking again and when you looked over you saw him staring at you

"What?"

"Nothing...it's just...your so amazing.."

You only laugh at him

Before suddenly you felt his lips on yours stopping you

That was one of the first and only times hes ever taken his time kissing you

It was one of those gentel kisses that you just melted into

He cupped your cheek with his hand and his other pulled you closer

It was one where when he pulled away you chased after it not wanting it to end

*cheifs kiss* twas perfection

6:Training

Ash really did his best to keep you out of that part of his life

He didn't want any one else he cared about dying on him because of it

He loved you to much

But it came to a point where he decided it was better to be safe then sorry

He taught you how to use the boom stick

And you quickly became pretty handy with it

That along with teaching yourself how to use a series of other tools

Like knifes and axes

He found it really attractive to watch you work like that

7: akward moment

The first really akward moment between you was probably the use of "i love you" too soon

To be fair though everyone thought they where about to die

So when ash blurted "I love you!"

And found that you where still intact

It was slightly uncomfortable in the room for everyone when you responded with

"You've never said that to me before."

And nothing else

Not that you didn't love him back

You where just unprepared for it to happen like that

After avoiding eachother him mainly trying to play it off as if he didn't say that

And acting as if Ash williams never told prople he loved them

Once you finally git fed up enough with it you had to basically yell it back to him

He was very relieved and happy to hear it

8: Fighting

Fights can go one of two ways usually

One being no one gets anywhere ever in the argument

Your both so stuborn

And ash being ash who hates to admit when he's wrong and never owns up to his own actions

Just makes you more angry

Making the argument get heated further

This type of fight usually ends in an angry make out session where your both apologizing like crazy

The other way is again ash being ash

But instead making you cry

This ends the argument pretty quickly because the only thing that can make him own up to any thing is you crying

You tend to use this strategy a lot in order to keep him quite

But sometimes it can really make you cry

He always apologizes right away and pulls you in for a tight hug where he kisses the top of your head

And wipes away your tears

You both actually hate fighting and hate that it ever (though rarely) gets to that point

9:crying

Like I've mentioned before

Ash cannot stand the sight of his baby in pain of any type

Crying is one of the worst things hes ever had to deal with in his life

And hes delt with a lot

His only goal in life is to make sure you are happy, healthy and safe

He's also kinda shit when it comes to dealing with emotions

He won't ask whats wrong right away

Just kinda stand there awkwardly attempting to make you laugh

When and if that doesn't work he'll finally sit down next to you and put a protective arm around you and ask whats wrong

If you don't wanna talk?

Thats ok hes there when you're ready to

Hes not leaving any time soon until your happy again

He'll hold you close to him

Pulling you into his lap to hold you properly

And just lets you cry

When you do tell him whats the matter

Bet your ass that its taken care of right away

Cause anything that makes his perfect partner cry? Dosen't even get the right to exsist anymore

10: sleeping

You better believe ash has nightmares

And feels bad for waking you because of them

But you're very well aware it can be hard for him to sleep

So you are more than happy to stay awake with him for as long as it takes

Even if that means until the sun rises

Or you fall asleep in his lap hes ok with that its the thought that counted

Nights like that are nights when he likes to cuddle you with his head on your chest

You'll kiss his head, smooth his hair

And even sometimes talk or hum to him to calm him down

That usually does the trick of getting him back to sleep for a little while

Sometimes he'll wake up gently and find you peacefully asleep beside him

And he'll kiss your cheek, cover you up and lay back down

Cause knowing your still safe is enough to help him sleep too!

11: bathing/ showering

I don't think ash would get or understand the want and need for a bath

But if you can convince him to take at least one with you

Boom

Thats all he'll ever wanna do

Man has never once in his life had time to sit and relax

But this is something else

To have you with him to

Either sitting across him

Or laying against him makes it Much more enjoyable

Baths are very rare very special occasion things though

Showering is a more often occurance and also a spontaneous thing

And its a plus cause its not Always a sex thing with him

It can be a nice and romantic thing as well

Especially on rough days when he wants to relax in the shower but also talk

Your there to keep him company

12: First time

Honestly the first time was well into your relationship with each other

And it happened in the Delta

It wasn't like rough, extremely passionate or even a serious matter

It was More fun and... vanilla with lots of laughter

It was sweet

The purest form of sex honestly is when you can laugh and or talk during it

And you two being the two people you are

Plus car sex being a horrible idea to begin with

Made it all the funnier but better

I don't think ash ever knew you could actually have like legitamie fun doing it

Just another thing you helped him realize

His heart like seriously skipped a beat hearing you laugh the way you had that night

Yet another reason he knew he loved you

13: soft spot/ weakness

Ash's soft spots include

Tummy

Hips

Neck

Jaw

And that lil spot behind the ear but just under it

Kiss him there and hes Tapped out

Ashes weaknesses are

His partner just in general

If you've been with him this long

He warships you

Definitely an ass/leg guy though

Wear something reveling enough tonshow case both ass and leg

K.o.

14:Pregnancy/ Birth

You wouldn't ever have to worry about ash not wanti g to be a dad or not

So you'd tell him almost right away

Ash is gonna get teary eyed

He'll make some jokes

But he will get watery eyes

And you know how happy new dads get when they find out they are gonna be a dad?

That whole "I'm gonna be a dad!? I'M GONNA BE A DAD!"

Yea 100% ash

Hes lifting you off the floor and spinning you around cheering

About how theres gonna be a lilttle Ash jr. Running around

Hes definitely the kinda guy who likes to talk to the mommy tummy all the time

Bump or not

Everything is suddenly about the baby

Hes always on the look out for baby things

Buys everything

Hes probably the dad who wants to mix the parents names together and name the baby that

Which is kinda gid awful and you tell him that

If its a girl you agree to name her Cheryl after his sister

Which lowkey makes him teary eyes again

You agree to let him pick the boy name though

He jokes about picking names like...idk hulk or something

But you picked a meaningful name he wants to do the same

You can trust him with that much

When the baby is born

He almost refuses to let it go

Hes got that new dad worry/ slash haze

"Where are they taking them?"

"Are they ok!?"

Loses his shit when the baby does grabby hands and holds his prosthetic finger

Hes so proud of his new kick ass family

15:Touching

When ash touches you its usually soft, slow and gentle

No matter what

That’s it

He lets his fingers gently run across your skin

Mainly because 👏he 👏worships👏you👏

And you deserve to be treated like the holy entity he sees you as

He hold your hand firmly though as not to lose you

16 : Undressing:

Its either slowly piece by piece

Taking his time to do so

Or extremely fast

17 what “turns them on” :

ash is horny by nature 

do anything around him when hes in the right mood easy enough 

but other than that ash likes being in control of situations 

makes him feel powerful 

so give that man even the slightest bit of power and hes ready 

he also finds it supper attractive when you are in charge and calling all the shots 

18 domestic life 

once everything with deadits is finally over and is at peace 

the first thing ash does is marry you 

then moves you to Jacksonville Florida likes hes always wanted 

then thats where you would have your baby 

the both of you get good jobs 

send your kid(s) to good schools 

all of yours childrens friends love being around ash and hearing him tell stories 

19 farewell/ how they say goodbye 

he always gives you a good solid kiss 

before softly telling you to have a good day and to not miss him to much 

hes always extra careful to throw in one last quick peck on the lips or cheek before you leave 

[feysandfeels]

I can’t read ACOSF just yet because law school is kicking my ass all semester and I have no time 😭😭 I’ve read all the spoilers cause I have no willpower so I know what will happen (I’m still gonna read it when classes end anyway 😂) but I always really really wanted to see Nesta and Feyre improve the relationship because I do think there’s a strong bond there despite it being flawed. For me that’s one of the main things I want to see in this book and it would be so so great if you can give me a bit of an analysis? I know they have a confrontation and Nesta tells Feyre about her dying when she gives birth (I’m really shocked nobody tells her she has the right to know wtf Rhys mate for all your choice preaching???) anyway I agree that she should be told but apparently she does it hatefully and that makes me so sad! I love both these girls and I would love to see them mend fences, listen to eachother, understand eachother more and start spending more time together to fix their relationship (all the while ofc maintaining their separate lives too) So if u can give me abit of a rundown that would be great

Hii, sorry it took me a bit to reply, but better late than never huh?

First go you for doing law school! That’s very impressive! Hope you start spring break soon.

Now, lets get to business shall we? 

I think one of the things people have yet to mention about the Archerons that I deeply respect and I think is one of the most interesting aspects of the books is that they show you that you need to work on your relationships in order for them to be healthy and positive, specially familial ones. A lot has been said about how Nesta was abusive and also how Feyre has some mean moments/comments towards her sister, and those stand true. Nonetheless the important thing here is that by the end of the arc, or at least the point we are now, they are choosing each other and are choosing to build and nurture their relationship. In the Archerons you understand that a “family bond” means nothing unless you nourish it with the same care that you nourish those bonds that come through friendship or romance. 

When we leave them at the end of acosf you understand that they are choosing to create sisterhood, that they want to hold each other’s hand, but to do so they must be open to discuss what went wrong and to heal. The book concludes this arc by having them take that big step of “I want to work on this because I love you”. Which personally resonates a lot with me, because the best relationships I have had in my life are the ones where you choose to create something nice with another person and not just trust that “because you are family you understand each other and love each other from the get go”. To me, sjm is saying, no, you do not need to love your family just because they are blood relatives, you can love them because they are deserving of your love through their actions, and it something that has not been wildly discussed. At least in my culture, family is everything and you must love them regardless of whatever, which is problematic to say the least. So it’s nice to see a family dynamic that had the sisters choose to love each other and to know each other outside of the “obligation” of family ties. 

Now in the book Nesta does say some pretty rough things to/about Feyre one of which is to reveal the risk of her pregnancy. Now, even though they (Rhys &  co.) should have told Feyre this and not hide it from her, it was not Nesta’s place to reveal it, at least not in the way she did. When you read the scene (which will be soon.. just you wait, school responsibilities will be over before you know it) you know that Nesta is coming from a place of hurt and of “wanting to get even” so she says it to hurt Feyre because she feels hurt and betrayed and wants her sister to feel that too. Nonetheless, she is also exposing the fact that the IC are being hypocritical with their whole “you can always choose” ideology. So you see she is in the right in telling Feyre but the way she did it, the moment, and what fueled her to do so, make the whole thing rotten. As Margo says in To All The Boys “Her logic was off, but her heart was in the right place”. Even Nesta knows that she crossed the line and apologizes to Feyre... good intentions loose meaning and power when the context that allows them to be is full of resentment. 

Through the book you understand how Feyre and what she represents is so deeply tied to how Nesta feels about herself. The progression of her untangling her sister from her own failings (or what she feels are her failings) is a slow, but rewarding one. There lies to clue to understand what had happened to their relationship: Nesta was engaging with what Feyre represented in relation to her own life and expectations (which where heavily groomed by her toxic mother) and not with who Feyre was per-se... which also explains why she was so reluctant to talk about her sister or engage with her for the better part of the book. Nonetheless, the fact that they don’t interact face to face a lot lot, doesn’t mean that Nesta is not dealing with her feelings towards her youngest sister and the way she engaged with her before and what she wants for them in the future. 

Overall I think the way their relationship was written and explored was very satisfactory. With Sjm is about the subtle things too, not everything needs to happen explicitly for us to see it and understand its consequences, which is what happened in ACOSF. Nesta is not like “here I’m going to deal with Feyre and our relationship” but through her realization of her previous behavior and who she wants to be and to relate to those around her you get a really good picture of the way these two will mend and nurture their sisterhood.

I hope this gave you some insight into their relationship and how its handled in the narrative. 

Hope you get to read it soon so we might discuss even more :)

Ps: the book also shows that Feyre did not understand her sister all that well and end up pointing to them actually getting to know one and other.

Ps2: The book also states clearly that Feyre has loved Nesta for a long time and aches to have a relationship with her. 

[applekitty]

‘game dedede’ is not a good person to ship escargoon with and here’s why

im glad my escargoon analysis resonated with lots of people. i saw some comments on it, which i feel the need to reply to because they’re on my post. a small few comments have been about the main focus of this whole multi paragraph crazed yammering; game dedede

(content warning: i talk about the horror comic killing stalking for four paragraphs. wow i bet this content warning doesn’t give mood whiplash at all)

now, game dedede isn’t much of anything. he’s a non-character, as he has no discernible personality in the games that isn’t really much of anything more than a catalyst for people to project a personality onto. as are all the game characters, because kirby isn’t focused so much on plot and indepth character development as it is about the gameplay. nintendo’s always been good at gameplay,  so they have basically stuck to what they’ve known and sprinkled small plot bits around places and entirely discarded anything other than hints personalities so that way they have an excuse for pure gameplay and fun to occur. it’s the same way with mario, and zelda, and usually basically all of their properties. yes, even pokemon, though usually when pokemon gets too plot heavy we get games like sun and moon, which are basically just cutscenes upon cutsc- 

what was i talking about? oh, right, game dedede.

game dedede is usually seen by the fandom as a variety of things, but the main one is nice. and by nice i mean he is usually portrayed as someone who is typically valorous and is doing the right thing, not someone who is necessarily pleasant, though some like to make him pleasant or jolly. if you know me or have even been on my blog even once on pc you’ll notice the cool deviantart stamp i got from one of my friends. i fully agree with the things it entails; dedede not being your typical uwu ‘do nothing wrong’ monarch that he’s often now plastered as because he did the whole ‘i help this cat’ in rtdl or because he wanted to keep nightmare from coming out of the fountain in nightmare in dreamland and.. whatever the name was of the game that it was a remake of.

people usually want to be able to root for the protagonist, and since dedede was a protagonist and / or in the right in a few occasions, we want to see him as a good guy doing good guy things. and there’s plenty of different ways to take that, as there’s both evidence for and against him being a morally light character. but that’s not really the point of what i’m talking about here. regardless of your own personal opinion on how ‘game dedede’ morally is, he is not a good person for escargoon to be with. there’s a reason why i said someone should be shipping him with an oc rather than game dedede, and it’s precisely because ‘game dedede’, even if he somehow zapped into the anime verse, would not be good to ship with him.

and it’s not based on chemistry or because game dedede is secretly or openly evil or something like that. it’s purely because escargoon is still a victim of abuse. and if you’re someone with a few braincells you want him to get out of that abuse and go find a new husband who’ll love and care for him. for escargoon to get game dedede seems to make sense at first because escargoon is so devoted to the anime one, but when you look at it, it’s not healthy at all.

this is essentially taking escargoon’s old abuser, wiping away all the ‘sins’ of his character just to make it so escargoon can date him. just so he can date an idealized version of his abuser. this person is quite literally just his abuser but with a mental coat of paint. 

allow me to draw comparison.

i’m going to go off here about a comic that i warned about at the top of the post. i’m not going to go too indepth about it due to the sheer nausea i might cause people if i do. it is a rather extreme example sheerly due to the content of said comic, but i can’t think of another better one off the top of my head. there’s a comic named killing stalking which was a big note for socio-political talk i think a few years back. it was a horror comic about a killer and a stalker wherein the murderer takes the stalker in, breaks his legs, and keeps in his house. the stalker, who already had sexual interest in his kidnapper, is abused due to various here and there reasons, and then after a while the comic begins the two’s sexual-romantic yet still abusive relationship. here’s the thing. the two of the characters are both men, so the relationship is gay.

many took to tumblr and various other medias smacking the comic for the display that it created (the comic chock is full of fairly nauseating things that are worth calling disgusting, but are expected of a shock horror comic) and the association it made between gay men and murderers, as well as making gay men look predatory and dangerous. normally said comic wouldn’t have been much of a problem or very noteworthy if it were about a straight pair, but it was about this Evil Gay Murderer Pair, so it was a source of controversy like shit is an attractor of flies.

despite the controversy that the comic had gotten, and the treatment in-canon it had of its characters being very clearly evil and in the wrong and clear deservance of being detracted, something strange happened. not in the comic, but in the people who decided to support said comic. people decided to support it for a number of reasons, one being that ‘oh it’s a horror comic i like horror despite what controversy or effects it may have on people’. i remember seeing it once, on my dashboard, i think. or back in the day when i was trying to figure out what the fuck was going on with this comic that everyone on my dash was just going to town on. people were shipping the two main, gay characters with eachother. and they weren’t doing it in a way that was ‘oh the murderer is so hot look at him in all this blood’ sort of way. it was in a much more.. ‘cozy’ position. it was fluffy. it was shown as cute. at first i thought it was because people were fucking weirdos, but i remember this one caption that has been recalled in perfect paraphrased clarity to me.

‘some people make aus to make their ships more angsty, but i’m out here making mine healthy lol’

people were taking the murderer, the main person who was causing the problems in the comic, and turning him into a loving husband for the stalker (who was shown as very mentally ill and in desperate need of love and attention). people were making the pairing that the comic itself showed as horrifying and awful to be fluffy and cute and devoid of any problems. so that way the victim was no longer hurt. it was an au. the murderer had a new personality, he was a changed man who never hurt anyone, so he was perfect for the stalker. that way, the ship could be had but there would be no issue whatsoever.

and to be quite honest, that’s what we have here. we have an offshoot of that. though obviously the source material is much less dangerous in our case, we still have a victim in desperate need of love in an abusive relationship with someone who hurts them. then, we have people shipping said victim with a new version of that abuser just to wipe the slate clean. just to keep the ship going without anyone objecting to it, because it can all be explained away as an au or what have you. though, i’m sure the ship in killing stalking was very much bashed by people (at least, i hope it was), while this one isn’t.

i can hear my strawman in the replies already going ‘well thanks for the tangent. but ching, game dedede’s a different person. he is legitimately a different canon than anime dedede, meanwhile this is people making things up that the canon doesn’t support. if you dated a twin you won’t apply the sins of the twin on the other one, would you?’ and if this were a real life situation, you’d be correct. 

it’d be wrong to place the sins of one twin onto another sheerly because one was an abusive asshole. but since is a real life scenario, putting a victim of abuse back with someone who looks exactly like their abuser would most certainly create extreme fear and panic in that victim. it wouldn’t matter if one of the twins hasn’t done anything, the potential relationship would forever be ruined and it’d be out of their control. and no one, no self respecting person, should ever have a victim date them if they look exactly like said victim’s old abuser. that’s just asking for mental troubles and constant panic attacks.

but that’s if this were real. it’s not real. this is video games and cartoons. it doesn’t come down to that, it comes down to us and what we decide to do, and what we decide to ship. these are not real people. we are putting them together for our own amusement because you’d think they’d get along. and doing this with a ship like this with game dedede says, to me, "I do not care if it is abusive in canon, I want to ship it anyways without any problems or people calling me out, so I’ll make it so people can’t do that by stripping the abuser of their abusive characteristics and make it so this abusive ship is all sunshine and rainbows". this is especially poignant if escargoon is stripped of all his abuse as well, allowing for him to be shipped more easily. it is quite literally going ‘nope’ when one is confronted with the very real trauma of a character and discarding it. don’t get me wrong, some things in canon should be discarded in some sources of entertainment, but a character’s abuse being discarded entirely for the sake of shipping just does not sit well with me.

of course, people who ship it are absolutely not thinking this maliciously when they ship discountdesuka, but that’s what it is irregardless of what they are thinking.

‘game’ dedede / escargoon is a ‘what could’ve been’ situation. 

it is an idealized version of dedesuka, one which throws a key aspect of escargoon’s out the door purely for the fluff and the cute gay moments that could’ve been. and sadly enough, it’s probably what escargoon dreams and hopes could happen (which is arguable because escargoon gets suspicious whenever dedede is nice to him), but it never does.

i understand why people do it. i know they don’t have some secret plan to be evil by creating secret abusive content that has hidden messages in it so everyone will ship abusive ships or something ridiculous like that, and if you thought that i thought that you’re very wrong. 

in some’s cases (as shown by the tags on my escargoon post), they want to reclaim a relationship which was blatantly homophobic in execution and turn it into something better. others just want a cute ship because their version of ‘game’ dedede is morally better than his anime counterpart, and wouldn’t hurt escargoon. they want to make wholesome content to drown out canon’s shows of abuse and negativity. which is understandable to want, but to show respect to the concepts the show puts out, isn’t something that should be embraced with ‘game’ dedede/escargoon. 

but there is no undoing what anime dedede/escargoon is in the show, and what it means to give escargoon over to ‘game’ dedede instead. ‘game’ dedede / escargoon is not abusive by any initial means, but it is still something that should not be shipped regardless.

it is disrespect to escargoon’s status as an abuse victim to  ship him with the same exact person who abused him and say it’s okay because ‘he has a different personality’. 

i am begging you. please ship escargoon with your oc or some other game character.

[yungfrieda]

10.26.19

also known as - things i’ve learned about myself and the world around me as this year comes to a close. 

first before i get into the #content i just want to say RIP to communities centered around long-form written content!! i really miss tumblr and the community around it, i suppose i could easily go to Reddit or something if i wanted to write long posts about my life but i really liked how everyone’s blog was their own platform to curate and didn’t have to be hyper glossy & filtered imgs of a curated idealistic life. (can you tell i’m not a big fan of instagram?)

ok moving on. this year threw me for a loop. in this one year of 2019 i’ve had 3 different jobs. spent a month just straight up unemployed with nothing to do. tried to break into concert production and kinda fell on my face for circumstances out of my control. this year taught me that if you don’t have a backup plan.... you gotta be quick enough on your feet to come up w one because things can get bad very quickly. 

but i learned so many other things that don’t have to do with survival and disaster planning mode and i’d like to share at least 5 of them.

1. i learned how to really sit down and take an audit of my emotions. this is really all thanks to working with my therapist Emily who i am quite certain i would not still be here without. days are really, really tough sometimes and in moments where i have a lot going on, i tend to shove my emotions and needs into a dark corner of my brain so i can stay productive. 

this is only sustainable for a verrrry short amount of time and the consequences are usually a breakdown. i’ve been telling people that my emotions are like toddlers. toddlers cannot and should not be abandoned for long periods of time and do deserve to have their needs met by the person who is supposed to care for them. and we all know caring for a toddler is a lot of fuckin work. but the results are that the toddler grows up healthy and ends up thanking their parents in the long run. i want to be able to thank myself for taking care of me, so i’ve gotta put in the work. 

2. i’ve learned that a lot of my relationships are not reciprocal. this was a hard one. i find myself soooo frustrated with a lot of my most favorite people because the boundaries that i’ve set in our relationship are either extremely flimsy or non-existent. i’m happy i’m realizing this now because its a sign of growth. I’m beginning to question the structures in my life and the roles people play, wondering what sparks joy like an emotional Marie Kondo. it’s badass, but the hard part comes in when i’ve got to put some action behind these new observations and change things. i’m not super good at this just yet but working with my therapist has really helped me turn my relationship with my boyfriend around so i’m confident i’ll figure it out. 

3. i’ve learned just how shitty lifestyle creep can be. in a way that isn’t really my fault! the one big purchase i’ve made since getting this new job is purchasing a nintendo switch for myself. other than that, i’ve been booked for a month straight for some intensive dental work, booked doctor’s appointments, and have been spending a lot more on transportation due to work. my money has been fucked up since i started making a higher salary, one that i consider “liveable”. i really hope that certain changes will make it easier to adjust and safe, make budgets for the shit i actually want to be spending on, and all around just being smarter with my money.

4. i’ve learned that my career just ain’t gonna get easier. this is another tough one to accept. i’m a person who really likes to be challenged, and unfortunately i’ve found that a bit of those “go-getter” and scrappy characteristics i’ve loved about myself have been damaged because of some uncomfortable work environments. i’m learning how to restore those entrepreneurial values that i had where i’d make a way if i couldn’t easily find one and would be so happy to roll up my sleeves and make shit happen without a second thought. 

BUT what i’m trying to say is, the more i pursue roles that take me out of my comfort zone, challenge me to grow, and give me more responsibility, the harder it’s going to get to find shit like “work/life balance” and days where i can just coast under the radar. those days are long gone, unfortunately (and fortunately!) because there’s a way to mediate the bullshit while i’m making my way to the top. i just have to actively enforce boundaries for balance. i’m saying it like it’s so easy, but i know that’s the key to keeping my sanity while also keeping a challenging job. i’m sure there are days where i’ll have to work extra long hours or put my brain’s petal to the metal, but it can’t be the norm or else i’m going to ultimately set myself up for burnout. 

no matter who is uncomfortable with it, i’ve got to make the space and time to take care of myself - no questions asked. because no one is gonna do it for me. 

5. i’ve been reminded that love is not glossy and glamorous. not that i’ve ever been that type of person anyway. it’s been a long time since Ian and I have been in “sweep you off your feet” mode and that’s ok. i’m more of a “steady-state” type of partner anyway where i can really be supportive on a day-to-day level instead of blowing someone away with grand gestures that can only be done once in a blue moon. but what i want to say with this is that i think a lot of people hope to find their soulmate who will make their life complete, rid them of all of their problems, and then they can ride off into the sunset together.

that’s not how it happens. ian and i will never be that to each other and it’s ok. we make a good couple by way of being super understanding with each other and truly being invested in one-another’s happiness and needs which is something i’m grateful for. he’s really the most reliable person i’ve got in my life and i hope to be the same way for him. but we’ve gotten into some fights every now and again, or have both been cranky on the same day at the same time and been kind of venomous to each other. i learned in those times that it’s easier to unpack someone’s behavior and why his perceptions of priorities like communication are different than mine, instead of just throwing in the towel because we’re just too different. 

in another instance, we just had a weekend where neither of us even touched each other after a few months of not even being face-to-face for awhile and just sat next to eachother all day and night and played video games in our pajamas. i’ll admit, i sometimes fall victim to wanting us to make every moment count and when we’re together just sitting and doing nothing can kind of drive me nuts, but i knew we both needed to rest and it was nice to just pretend to be roommates for a few days. 

while i do like getting cute and spending days together with Ian when we hit the city and do some fun stuff, we just can’t do it all the time. he’s still a college student and i’m a walking dental construction site. we’ve got a lot going on that makes it hard to make every moment we see each other “stellar” but i love that and i love him and i wouldn’t want it any other way.

this post ended up a little longer than i wanted it to so i’ll leave you by saying i’m still sad. i hate the upcoming season so much and the lack of sunlight in the winter makes my brain very sad. but this year was a fruitful one. it’s been a lot of confusion, honestly. lots of things that i’m still a little fuzzy on but just like mentioned above, it’s all about having that plan b and not always about sticking around to pick up the pieces. when ya gotta move on, it’s time to move on.

i’m ready to move into 2020 hoping that all of the things i’ve learned in the past few years will start to pay off. i’ve got to remember and retain this info because it’s valuable and i KNOW i’m gonna need it again. it’s so much easier when you don’t have to re-learn shit because you kept the notes. 

i want to finish off this year strong and go into the next feeling confident.

[zayndrivesmeinvain]

First Meeting EachOther:

//

It’s been one hell of a week, finals have just ended and it’s finally starting to warm up. You have been through a lot this semester, from tests to almost failing a class but bringing yourself back up. Things at home haven’t been the best either though. Day in and day out you’d hear the smallest arguments between your parents turn into full blown screaming matches and it’s not healthy. Half way during the semester you decided that you’d start looking for an apartment somewhere reasonable because to hold onto the relationship you have with your parents you’d have to move out. You love your parents both equally but the childhood home you once loved became the house the you hate.

Since the time you started looking for an apartment your parents have begun to resolve their own issues but you are still stuck on the idea to move out and that’s what you were doing today.

It’s a chilly May morning and you’ve started to move some of your things in, the big things like furniture were already brought in by your father and your older brother. When you first told your parents you were moving out they instantly started to blame themselves, which they are part of the problem but you also wanted to live on your own and have some responsibility. Your parents were kind enough to help you out with this apartment for the first year, up until graduation but once you find a full time job it’s all up to you. You knew that this would be a big responsibility but you were up for it. You’re now moving in the smaller stuff such as rugs, clothes, make-up, etc. You were never really sure how you would arrange the space that you call yours now, you thought it would just come to you but it hasn’t yet, with that you decide to start on something small like your bathroom.

When you first looked at this space the bathroom was just all white all around, it looks quite hospital like which did not excite you but your landlord gave you permission to paint any walls as long as you painted them back white once your lease was up. With that being said you decided on a painting the walls a light grey color and decorating it some. You decided on a white and pale yellow accent which you thought complimented the light grey walls perfectly. When you were Target looking for the shower curtain you found the matching bathroom rug and hand towels so you decided to buy them all. Some may say it looks cheesy but you thought it was just practical. The one thing you really did enjoy about this bathroom though was that there was a window overlooking the city below you, at first you thought it was weird but you always liked people watching which you thought would be good while brushing your teeth in the morning. Another added extra you actually really enjoyed was the already inserted medicine cabinet in the wall so that way your stuff had a place in it and you didn’t have anything laid out, you actually hated having anything on your bathroom sink because all you could think about is bacteria and germs getting on your toothbrush.

Walking back out into the open space you call your living you begin to look around at the furniture randomly placed and try to make sense of it all. The reason the place stole your heart is because all how open it is and there aren’t too many walls breaking things apart. When you first walk in from the hallway into the front door you’re met with a smaller hallway where there’s a shelf for shoes and a little coat rack you installed yourself and then 10 feet later your met with all this open space. The living and kitchen are open to each other which is something you always dreamed of. You love not feeling trapped in and being able to see everything, especially when you have company you’re able to cook while entertaining. The bedroom is passed the kitchen into another short hallway which is where your bathroom and laundry cabinet is. This apartment is perfect for you and you couldn’t be happier.

//

After a few hours you notice that your living room space is coming together. You kept the walls neutral with a light beige which complimented the already there wood flooring. Your big comfy couch placed in the middle of the room to create a square shape with the love seat. Your TV is mounted on the wall with the TV stand underneath which you have hooked up your cable box and gaming system too, you brought some of your favorite movies with you that you had back home just to fill the empty space.  The kitchen area was quite easy to set up as the oven and fridge were already here, so all that had to be put away were the new dishes you bought along with all the plates, cups, and silverware. You look at the time on your phone and notice that it’s a little past 9 o’clock and you haven’t eaten an actual meal today, you’ve just been snacking on some chips and soda while you’ve been unpacking.

You don’t have anything spectacular on, just some nike running shorts and an oversized College T-shirt. Your bare face showing through and a bun on top of your head. You love to frequently do your makeup but you don’t have the energy to do so and nor did you really care at this point. Quite Frankly it’s been a very long day for you and you don’t care what you look like at the moment.

//

You’re almost happy you waited so late to come food shopping because there’s barely anyone here besides a few elderly sipping on their coffee with what it looks like their friends in Starbucks and a few mothers who seemed to have a break from their crying children. You decide not to grab a cart because you were only planning on getting a few things and you know you can handle it all. You’ve grabbed a frozen pizza out from the freezer and make your way down the ice-cream isle. You turn down a few isles and then down some again when you finally make it to your destination until you’re not the only one in that isle.

There’s this handsome of a man just standing in the ice-cream isle reading one of the labels. You take quick notice that he has these grey sweatpants on with a white shirt and a pair of sunglasses in his hair despite the fact that it’s night time. His face is sporting a cute smile as he’s laughing to himself. You try to make your way down to where your select brand of ice-cream is without disturbing him mostly so you don’t put any focus on yourself. You weren’t ashamed of how you looked per say but you weren’t ecstatic about it. However, he did notice you.

“ Am I in the way, love?” His voice was even nicer than you expected. That voice sounded quite familiar though, it took a few seconds but you actually recognized this man, he was famous but you couldn’t let him know that. “ You’re good, thanks.” was all could get out.

You didn’t know it yet but he thought you were gorgeous. He liked the way you looked effortless to him, and how your reading glasses frames your face and how that one peice of hair escaped from your bun and was laying on its on on your back. Most of the girls he surrounds himself with just seem plastic and almost too good to be true but now, he thought you were too good to be true. He admired how you had no shame holding a box of frozen pizza, a six pack of beer and tub of ice-cream on a Friday night. He could tell you were a college student by your shirt and he thought most college students get dressed up and get drunk but she obviously didn’t do that. He was curious about this girl and he wanted to know more.

“ I’m Harry by the way” You giggled at his introduction. You put out your free hand out for a shake, “ I’m Y/N, pleasure to meet ya.” You flashed him a friendly smile, you knew he was harmless but you were also so starstruck. You wondered to yourself what someone like him was doing in such an open and public place, don’t celebrities have assistants that go shopping for them?

“ That’s a lovely name” and that’s all he could get out. He’s been around plenty of beautiful women but for some reason this one has him in a loss for words. “ I like your name too” you couldn’t help to chuckle as you closed the door to the freezer as you grab out the item you were looking for. You begin to walk away but out from the corner of your eye you see him following you. “ I’m sorry, I just think you’re really beautiful and I’m honestly at a lost for words. I’m usually not like this” you can tell he was being genuine because you notice his eyes start to wander and his nose scrunched up. You were a little taken back, a super star like him thinks your name is lovely and also thinks you’re beautiful. You’ve never been one for the boys, you’re not a prude but you also don’t go out every night with a different guy. “ I think you’re funny, but thank you.” You flashed him a polite smile as you make your way to the self checkout line.  You swipe your first few items but when you go to grab your ice-cream the tall man standing awkwardly next to you is holding it in his hands. “ Let me pay for this” you think his offer is nice but you can’t let him do that, he owes you nothing, “ You really don’t have to!”.

After a few exchanges and trying to negotiate you finally give in. You pay for your items that you have left and move over making some room for him. You quickly look around to see if there’s any cameras around because you almost feel as though this is all a prank. Why would someone like him be talking to you? He literally could have any girl he wanted but here he was around 10 PM at a local Target paying for your things. After he pays for your ice-cream along with his own he hands you the bag with yours placed in it, he even double bagged in because in his words, the bags are reliable and ice-cream is way to priceless to fall and lose. You thank him again and he even offers to walk you to the car. Normally you wouldn’t find it necessary but to be honest you did park a little far and it was late and dark out, you almost wanted him to walk you to the car. Most of the short walk was in silence, he watched as you placed your shopping bags in the backseat of your car and when you finally thanked him again you got in your car and you watched him walk away. You thought that was the end and this would just be a secret to yourself because who else would believe such a thing, until you notice him jogging back and you roll your window down.

“ You lost, need some directions?” He flashed a bright smile even though it was dark. Did he forget something? Accidently give you the wrong ice-cream?

“ No silly.” He runs his fingers through his hair almost knocking his sunglasses down but quickly catches them from falling. “ If it’s not a bother I would like to give you my number if that’s okay? Maybe we could hangout sometime and eat ice-cream together?” You’re almost shocked at the gesture but there you were handing your phone onto him without even thinking, “ Yeah, I would like that but let me pay this time” You hopped he found that funny and you felt relieved when he flashed you a smile yet again. “ Good, now drive home safely and let me know when you get home, if that’s okay?” You appreciate the small gesture and leave him with a simple nod.

You hoped to meet up with him and really understand who this handsome man really was and what he’s about. He seemed mysterious but yet so simple.

A.N.//: I hope you guys liked this!! I’m going away for a week so I won’t be posting but I’ll be on the app! Please like & reblog if you guys enjoyed and my ask/messages are always open! Thanks so much for the support, I really love and appreciate you all.

[succulentmangos]

to the men and women who have ruled over my heart at one point or another

liam- the love i had for you was pure, a crush that turned into a lifelong memory. you were so sweet and innocent, we both were. just trying to do what we both thought was right. i miss you sometimes.

grace- my first love and it was oh, so painful. you were my goddess, my muse. i couldnt live unless you were in proximity. slowly we poisoned eachother. to be fair, im not sure there is such thing as a healthy relationship of which it is unreciprocated love. i tried to kill myself to get your attention, i lived for your smile. you were god in my eyes. i was so naive, i still am.

joseph- i think i fell in love with love, and i needed a person to embody that for me, im so sorry that that person was you. that being said you did some really fucked up things to me and those things still haunt me. now you wanna be friends but i dont know how. i know we both were at fault for the downfall of our relationship but i spent so long romanticizing it and now i can see it how it truly was, which is not pretty.

belle- i fell for the attention and care that you gave me, i fell hard. i got so attatched so quick, it was like a tsunami. i cried so much over you but now i realise i just had so much sadness inside and i needed it to be let out, im sorry you got caught up in all that.

jon- i have spent so much time on you, crying, punching, writing, and now i laugh, you were not worth all of that. you needed someone to hump and i was so easily emotionally manipulated. you called me pretty names and held me close and it was perfect until it wasnt. once you realised that i over feel and have way too many emotions, you ran. you broke it off over text like a coward. you broke my heart, it tooks me months to move past you. i told you i was a rollercoaster and you told me that you loved that, but you got sick and pumped the brakes. im so glad im finally over you.

brayden- you were not a good person to me, all you wanted was nudes and i delivered like a lovesick puppy, its shitty that you said you wouldnt date me but pursued me sexually for months and every so often i still get texts from you. its pathetic.

ella- you were so nice and considerate to me, i care so deeply for you. it hurt when you werent sure ab me, but im so glad we moved past that. i love you.

maisie- i care about you so much but we never should have dated. i was just lonely and im sorry i mistook my platonic feelings for romantic feelings. you continue to be an amazing friend.

anthony- you were so manipulative in getting me to suck your dick and its something i highly regret. your tongue was like a slug in my mouth and your hands burnt my skin. i wish i could take what we did back.

justin- when i think about you my heart wants to puke. you put up such an amazing Nice Guy front but i saw how you truly acted. i still dont know why i nodded when you asked if it was okay. i mean thats the only reason why what you did to me doesnt account as rape, but god i was sobbing and what did you not fucking notice, or not want to notice? i still cringe at the fact that i was willing to look past that and have a relationship with you, im glad you are no longer in my life.

matthew- i cant believe you said those things to me. i cant believe you did those things to me. your anger terrifies me.

mike- everything about you excites me, i feel you coursing thru my veins. u r the most beautiful person in the world and i love you. i know we are soulmates and i wouldnt trade u for anything. i give myself to u completely.

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Hey I'm right back at it. The 5th yaoi I will be talking about is Cherry Blossoms after Winter by Bamwoo. This one is very long, but I have now read all of it as it is completed so beware that there are spoilers for the entire story.

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So, overall I will give this story a 8.5/10. I loved the art and almost all of the character were very likable and it was overall just a very sweet story which can be rare for yaoi unfortunately. I loved how the story went through their different era's of their lives together from getting together in highschool to getting their own places and college life and then adult life with their first jobs and how their relationship developed over the years. I always wish I could see more of those stories to see how healthy couples grow over time. Taesung(8) was a very sweet seme and I like him alot. As most seme's do he is clingy and overprotective, but I don't think it is all that bad and isn't too much like other seme's tend to be. He is patient with Haebom(9.5) and respectful and we love a respectful king. Haebom was such a delight. He was sweet and cute and just so caring to everyone and I love his character so much. I loved the slow burn of them getting together and getting through their misunderstandings. Them in college was probably around my favorite portion of the manhwa. I liked their friend group as they were all enjoyable and felt very realistic and nice. Everyone was so supportive of them when they would come out as a couple and I loved that. Jia(8) and Yonghee(8) were definitely my faves and I did think they would have been cute as a couple as well lol. I also like the realistic portrayal of coming out to family. I think a lot of times it is a process for family to accept as it is a change from their expectations. I was happy that they did eventually come around to it as they cared most about them being happy. The mom(8) was great and while she made mistakes , I loved watching her grow and actually try to rectify those mistakes from the past. Now one gripe I did have with the manhwa is there were somethings that I felt were a bit rushed and wished could have been handled a bit better. One of which was when the series turned sexual. As it is a slow burn and everything it takes a while for the series to get sexual which is perfectly fine, but my issue was how rushed of a transition that it felt. It turns sexual around chapter 63-65 I believe after them dating for over a year. But, I expected that when it was finally going to happen it would have been a bit more dramatic and romantic as this is their first sexual experience with not only eachother, but anyone at all. So, it is was odd that what did it was that Taesung found condoms in Haebom's bag and so he was just like "can we use them now?" And then they just do and start having sex. That was so odd to me and a bit rushed for my taste, but that could just be me. The other part that was odd was the final chapter of this manhwa. In the very end it shows them getting married (YAY) and owning a bakery together which is so adorable by the way. It then shows that there are people who come to the bakery that are straight up crushing on Taesung (understandable) and one guy who liked Haebom. This led to Taesung becoming jealous and a long sex scene between the two where Taesung was much more rough than usual. He then afterwards was very ashamed of his actions and almost felt like he r@ped Haebom until he reassures him and then the manhwa just kinda ended? That was such an odd choice to have as the last chapter and felt like maybe they didn't know how to end the series which I understand but was still weird. Though overall I still very much loved the series and will recommend it if you love just a sweet story with way healthier relationship dynamic which I appreciate. I still have a lot more to talk about with the series (don't even get me started on Dowan(0) lol), but its getting pretty long so please comment your thoughts on anything I missed or if you agreed or disagreed with my opinions on this. :)

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SNSD Reacts: S/O is a Scorpio

Requested:  a Red Velvet, SNSD, 2NE1 and 4M reacting to their s/o being a scorpio? (if it's too many groups or you don't write for some of them then you don't have too) btw, you guys are great and i wish you happiness and healthiness 💕❤️

Admin: Mirae

Taeyeon-Pisces

If you want to know the definition of an ideal combination than look at Pisces and Scorpio. These two signs are a match made in heaven. What one lacks the other perfects, its amazing really. The only thing that would be a problem would be trust. Scorpios can be clingy and overprotective when it comes to pisces. While pisces can overthink everything and second guess themselves. As you can tell this would result in problems. However, the emotional connection between these 2 signs in extraordinary. Pisces is the sign who is best at understanding with Scorpio being the 2nd. Scorpios would be able to easily tell if something was wrong with their s/o while Pisces would be able to handle the emotional rollercoaster that is a Scorpio. When it comes to their sex life, Scorpio is the sign that represents sexual intimacy while Pisces is the sign that represents orgasms. Their sex would be very emotional and sweet but sometimes kinky since they both are considered very kinky signs.

Taeyeon is someone who needs to feel your reassurance and needs to feel loved. She needs your attention and she craves it. So she would probably like it when you were slightly clingy and protective. 

Sunny-Taurus

Another amazing and perfect match for a scorpio is a taurus. These two are almost a better match than pisces and scorpio. These two are very opposite of one another, but that’s when the saying “Opposites attract,” comes in handy. These two may be so different but they go together so well. Their relationship has a high emotional connection, high communication, and high trust. Taurus are very closed off, they don’t really share their emotions that easily but with scorpios high persistence and their practices nature they would probably get taurus to open up to them. Their sex is more about emotions. While scorpio is more of a rough and powerful partner full of kinks, taurus is more emotional and laid back, they don’t want to do anything rough or hard. They would come to a mutual agreement when it comes to their sex life

You two would go very well together. It would be a very supportive and loving relationship built on trust and communication. If you two did argue or fight you would later make up because like I said earlier, communication is important

Hyoyeon-Virgo

Virgo’s tend to be talkative but they tend to show a much more quiet and reserved side around people. WIth Scorpio they wouldn't be afraid to talk and show the side that they keep hidden. Scorpio wouldn't mind their talkative Virgo, in fact they would probably love it. These two would be able to share many deep and emotional talk but also talk for hours about something random and small. Scorpio would also be the sign that reaches into the depths of Virgos soul and discover their hidden sides and truths. These two signs would value each other so much, they would just love everything about each other. Sometimes these two would have a hard time separating from each other. Sex would be very emotional and happy for them. They are broth signs that tend to lead more on the sexual side of things.

Hyoyeon and you loved each other so much. It would be clear to everyone with the way you acted. You two spent a lot of time together, you wouldn't have to be talking, just being together made you happy.Hyoyeon loved everything about you

Yuri-Sagittarius 

Sagittarius and Scorpio have a high communication unlike a lot of others. They are often able to speak up about things that they would normally keep quiet. The biggest problem in their relationship would be their trust. Scorpio tends to want to hold their partner down while Sagittarius tend to want to be free. That may cause some major problems but Sagittarius would get used to it and they would be able to convince their Scorpio partner to calm down a little bit.They will enjoy eachothers company as long as their emotional and expectational disagreements stay out of the way.

At first she was bugged by your clinginess but she would either get used to it or confront you. More and likely the latter. Yuri and you would be able to be apart for awhile and when you meet back up act like nothing had ever changed.

Yoona-Gemini

Gemini and Scorpio aren't that compatible at all. They tend to have too many problems in their relationship. There are way too many complications for these two signs. Scorpios tend to trust someone until they hurt them, then there trust goes out the wall. Gemini would try to play into this and see how far they could push them. Geminis are good at communicating they would probably be able to talk to Scorpio easily. When it comes to emotions they tend to be on opposite sides of the spectrum. They both express and hold their emotions differently so this would definitely make them clash. But if you guys really loved each other than you could pull through

Yoona and you struggled for a little bit, you both thought that no matter how hard you tried your relationship wouldn't work. However you guys really did love eachother so you would work things out. It would take some time but it was all worth it because what came out would be a beautiful and amazing relationship with an amazing woman 

Tiffany-Leo

When a Leo and Scorpio start to form a relationship, there is no way to tell how it is going to go. They both tend to be stubborn and like to keep their opinions. When it comes to emotions, these two probably have the worst emotional connection in the entire zodiac. However these signs would have an amazing trust,They are both open with their issues. Together they can form and beautiful relationship full of trust.

The bond between Tiffany and you would be incredibly strong and indestructible. You too would love each other so much and it would be obvious to everyone around you!

Sooyoung-Aquarius 

Aquarius and Scoripio aren't that compatible, They both tend to be hot headed and want things to go their way.You guys would butt heads when it came to decision making, and it would eventually lead to fight. But if you two cld get past your differences you would discover an amazing relationship full of opportunity and new possibilities. You two would have such amazing and fun dates. Both of you tend to be risk takers so except you two to go on adventurous dates leading to exciting and new things. These signs together represent sexual freedom so sex would be a new and experimental thing

Sooyoung wouldn't care about these things. If you truly love someone then you will do anything for them and she believed that. If you guys truly loved each other than you would change certain thing about yourself without fully changing yourself

Seohyun-Cancer

The relationship between a Cancer and a Scorpio can be a rollercoaster. They are good together and work out well but when things get hectic, they get really hectic and wild. They tend to have similar interests and likes. When it comes to emotions, Cancer likes to burry them away and keep them to themself, this would irritate Scorpio a little bit. If they can get passed that their relationship would be fine!

Seohyun loved you. You two would such a passion and devotion for your relationship that any kinks and flaws that would arise would go away in no time

Jessica-Aries 

Scorpio and Aries are an ideal relationship until you look at the communication and emotions part. Scorpios love tot lak and they tend to notice a lot of thing in the word. They can go on and on for hours about those thing and Aries get rather inpatient. Aries and Scorpios try to be strong and put on a tough image but they are both emotional deep inside. They have a hard time expressing ones emotions to each other. Once you get passed the problems with communication and emotions then you have a wonderful and passionate relationship. The amount of trust that Aries and Scorpio would have for each other is amazing, you’d think with their emotional problems that they wouldn’t trust each other but its the opposite. Aries and Scorpios trust easily, they tend to try and see the good in people. Both Aries and Scorpios have high sexual needs. They would be able to keep up with eachothers wants and desire sperfectly, leading to an amazing and powerful sex life

Jessica and you would be a nice couple in everyone's eyes. No one could see a single flaw in your relationship but that's because you both were so good at hiding everything. Behind closed doors you would be able to see what really happens, you two be struggled to express yourself and be open. You two would still stay together as you are both determined and true love can conquer anything. 

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Hello lovely! Your secret santa again!!! Here to ask you what you like about bughead? What do you love about Jughead's character? Bettys? Veronica's? Archie's? Look, I am going to throw Reggie in there because I feel like he would be the master of a BBQ/want to play some Aussie rules. Tell me what you'd like to see in the character dynamics! x x x

oh dear thats a loaded question 😅 heres a little essay with some salt because im a bitter soul

to put it simply my love for bughead and what made me so into them was just this mutual understanding they have, obviously on the show that shall not be named they were on the same wave length the same morals and values even some of the same fears, two very different people that are so insync and comfortable around each other i find it so odd people on that show in that universe can think they can be as comfortable with themselves as they are with eachother with other partners no other person has that understanding they have between each other, veronica alice archie fp all have their views on betty and jughead as people and they all seem to have these altered views on them e super negitive or underestimating or limiting them to a version of them they feel comfortable with where as betty and jughead dont have false views on each other jughead does think betty has hung the moon and stars but he aknowledges and accepts the bad parts of her, and vice versa for betty with jug she equally adores him！ and as i explored outside the show into the comics i was pleased to find mostly this translates to those！ not the fears jug isnt exactly complaining about boy trouble but the mutual understanding of each other stays even platonically, their characters just have always overlapped somehow more so in the newer story based stuff but a lot of the time in oneshots too im finding and i think that is pretty cool, this obviously is my interpretation and i havent read every archie comic out there but what i see is two people who come together to be open and honest together in this safe bubble they create

what i loved about jughead is his drama and angst i love characters like that, he is annoying but thats why i love him non ironically one of my fav lines of his on the show from my fav ep was the im weird speech, it was honestly the most realistic shit that show has done he is an annoying broody kid ranting，i love that literally nearly every version out there of jughead adores betty its ingrained into his character to stick up for her usually from archie, i also love that he is a nerd and sometimes takes shit too far its just chaotic energy lol he is just so annoying but also right most of the time thats why he is so smug！, my favs jugs are the hungers rd specifically s3 and the archie 2015 series but he basically turned in rd jug with the recent add ons 😅

for betty i just love this bitch like she just tries her best ya know？she isnt perfect shes got many flaws but at her core she does everything for the people she loves sometimes without caring about her own wellbeing, girls way too hard on herself, she also has cute clothes and is generally adorable, for her with the other characters obviously in love with jug is key, i want in my b and v a good healthy friendship not an “archie comics friendship” centered around a guy 😑 and for that said guy mr andrews obviously its a very touchy place atm and literally for the past 80yrs lmao, i liked her having a childish crush forced on her by expectations set by everyone around her but her realising he aint shit and being bros instead（is it that hard canon？！）i like her confident and focused being the badass bitch she is, which naturally is why the hungers betty is my favourite 😉 anything thats not her moping around over a guy and being a person with feelings is pleasing to me really...and beheading werewolves...

miss lodge, love her shes the one i feel most like myself whoch i guess is why i dont like her a lot of the time, i see her as bisexual theres no way that woman does not love women（on that note i dont think any of the crew are straight if that helps lol） i love her fashion her pets names for people I LOVE jughead and veronica bromances even if they still mutually hate each other i want them to be lowkey friends, just any jug v interactions perfection best duo ever, i dont ship varchie im a veggie gal i pretty much ship veronica with everyone but archie i think （that also applies to betty）cheronica beronica veggie platonic jeronica vilton all good, my fav version of her is vampironica （i kinda hate her on rd and most digest stuff but thats bad writing she genuinely is a good character like betty but dome so poorly because she isnt written right）

archie...i dont think theres a single version of him i like he is such an empty character clearly a self insert for the sexist writers，just make him a himbo please all fo the archies suck so a likeable guy would be nice！that respects women not got washboard abs maybe a little bulk but i see him as a dork and not a sex symbol, actually you know what i like about archie his relationship with valarie in the comics and the show thats peak archie imo

im a big reggie fan. he is what archie wishes he was, i like beggie and veggie romantically but platonically as well tbh, and bffs with jughead too love their dynamic！i love his dog vader i love his look i love the charm i love the constant flirting with everyone, reggie is god tier, i like my archies and reggies as himbos for veronica， he also is definately not straight

basically if its canon take it out back and shoot it with some love and care for characterisation , unless its cute like hand kissing my fav scene in tv ever i guess i should mention that！...or the hunger because that comic is perfect

im sorry you had to read all that its late here and i get really into stuff after 10pm i find 😅