#they rb a post that im assuming is abt me and like????

[sapphfairy]

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[pmpknsoup]

isat fake-posting but its just

🌌 melancholy-method-actor Follow

AITA for trapping myself in a prison of my own making?

I, (27, N-B) recently trapped myself and my family (25, M), (21, F) (45, F??) (10, N-B) in a seemingly endless timeloop brought on because i selfishly didnt want our time together to end. i had to die countless times to figure out what was trapping me in time, it sort of drove me insane, and i ended up seriously hurting my family's feelings. theyve all forgiven me, and all agree that while i was out of line, i was apparently "traumatized" and that it wasnt my fault that i lashed out at them.

i think theyre being too lenient with me, but i cant convince them!!

#aita #i mean im pretty sure i am #i just ... want an outside perspective #sorry for any bad grammar vaugardian isnt my first language

🎑 poterian-photography 🔁 from melancholy-method-actor

is it insensitive to say vaugardians are just. Like That?? LMAO

#sorry that happened op #i mean if this is real #im assuming it is because #after what happened to vaugarde #anythings possible

📝 daily-pierre-jauques-ernest 🔁 from poterian-photography

As someone who's half-Vaugardian, can confirm we're just Like That. I wouldn't be surprised if they managed to blame themselves, somehow

#not pierre #sorry for so many not pierre posts in a row but this unfreezing business is crazy and my dash is flooded #aita #nta #su speaks

🌫️ blacksmithingbaddie 🔁 from poterian-photography

Digging Vaugardians on what's clearly a vent post is crazy work actually!!!

#rb #tw self hatred talk #← (from ops post)

🖼️ the-meat-slicing-addict 🔁 from poterian-photography

yall isnt op one of the crabbing saviors

#WHY IS NO ONE COMMENTING ON THIS #I THINK THEYRE THE BLIND ONE

🌅 chronicallyfrozen 🔁 from the-meat-slicing-addict

"the blind one" ableism isnt cute...

#change its always tbmfiha series fans #get a personality your series sucks

🌌 melancholy-method-actor 🔁 from chronicallyfrozen

hwat

#i forgot abt this post #its been weeks can people stop reblogging this,

[evilrobertsmith]

Intro Post ☆

post limit? nuh uhhh

last updated 02/15/25

matching pfps w/ @princejustwinced and @imtakingdrowninglessons

About me:

im a minor so dont be weird

canadian

genderfluid usually masc leaning idc what pronouns

i can speak french but not perfectly

feel free to dm me or send me asks or tag me in stuff i love yapping

chronic reblogger + i post whatever random thoughts i have

i do use slurs im allowed to say and i have a bad habit of suicidal jokes and i probs swear a lot mostly habit so thats my bad im also lowk a freak so don't question some of the stuff i rb / post (on occasion)

i tend to like flirt w my friends so pls pls pls lmk if i make u uncomfy with that and also assume im not srs

@m4yday-m4yday is my handsome wife

@b0ngobill @bongo-bill-s @alg3bra @johnny-son are our children (im forgetting one)

our wedding post if ur curious

Main Interests:

my chemical romance

btvs (on s3)

garfield

Fav music:

tbh i listen to pretty much everything but here's some of my favs

artists/bands:

mcr, the cure, tfb, bauhaus, brokencyde, bratmobile, patd, lana del ray, green day, the smiths, the cramps, negative 25, duran duran, she wants revenge, garbage, nmh, cshr, ramones, dks, violent femmes, sublime + a lot more (visit my spotify if ur curious)

seen live:

Lana del ray (2023)

Brandon lake (2024 (i think?) at my moms request)

Seeing MCR (this summer 2025)

genres:

Punk / Emo / Goth / Riot grrl / Ska / Midwest emo / Crunk / Indie / Rock / Folk

Tag System? / Blog specifics

queue runs from 12-6 am PST (if there's anything in there)

#killiez rambles - yapping tag

#asks!! - asks duh

i dont really have any other tags at the moment but i'm working on it (be patient guys i'll get there one day)

Other socials:

tiktok is the same username as this blog

if we're friends feel free to ask for my ig or sc (unfortunately do not have dsc)

spotify

lmk if u want me to fllw u back on spotify + ur user bc i do nawt check often

letterboxd

PLS PLS PLS ADD ME ON LETTERBOXD I NEED MOOTS

divider is from @fawndollie idk abt the rest

[bearlyheartburst]

haii!!! u can call me Cora or bearly 🫶

i use she/him pronouns

im exactly 19 human years old everything it says on the soupcan, im a latino syshost, :P if u know me from somewhere else , wave wave wave haii

lowk vent blog!! mostly for kink/gore or general nsfw not mcyt focused but we post cubitos here

TAG LIST & NAV HELP ;

#bhb; yapping - rant/ramble tag

#bhb; rb - im reblogging 'ere

#bhb; fightclubcore - this one is for my friends!! things that remaind me of them or bits we do <3

#me fr - mostly memes & stuff i Get

#crush tag - tag for the newest boytoy im drooling over </3

#bhb; plurality - stuff about systemhood & nsfw might contain traumakink

#bhb; underyourskin - GORE TAG images or textposts too gory go here + cannibalism

#bhb; cute - cute gear / petplay adjecent stuff goes here

#bhb; toomuch - tag for extreme/hardcore bdsm may contain traumakink, torture, intox, abuse & stalking/kidnapping, weaponplay, fearplay

#bhb; but im not objectum - objectum tag.

#bhb; PNGS - explicit images liveaction & otherwise art

#bhb; touys - TOUYS. sex toys, lingere, gear, etc, independant tag because smtimes theyre just There

BOUNDARIES;

INT at your own discretion but if i dont fw or what you fw i use the block/softblock options freely

asks/dms open but do not assume things abt me i beg of u treat me like a writter!!

id prefer to be treated has a bear/dog animal, please do not speak to me like a pet or a puppy. I am not cute

do not give me / use nicknames for me if we are not mutuals u dont know my life for REAL

[originsofevil]

Intro <3 !

I go by Michelangelo or any variation of that

(usually michael/mikey but names dont mean much to me)

but i recently found out that i'm the host of a system so if any tags are signed off with a different name thats why

dont care too much abt pronouns but i typically use he/him, ve/vir, and xe/xir/xem. mix it up, get creative. typically dont use she/her but ynever know

body is 21, we're an aries if u wanna make any judgement off of that, autistic + adhd if that wasnt obvious

i do post occasional nfsw/suggestive content, never anything too crazy but if youre a minor id prefer if you didnt interact with those posts, i have no way of enforcing this as i dont check my notifs unless theres tags but i am a full adult, i do pay rent and bills and taxes. on that topic i probably wont follow you if youre under like. 16/17ish. no hard feelings i just am an adult and im not around kids very much as the 2nd youngest of 4 so. if youre under 16 dont do drugs stay in school all that good stuff. i love you, go to bed on time. i've been on this website since i was 11 and it shows. dont be me.

dms are always open ! i'm not amazing at holding a conversation unless its abt my current hyperfixation (rn its zelda/lu) but i love to yap. if you follow me and we're not mutuals dm/ask me and ill follow back! I don't rly pay attention to my followers so i typically don't follow ppl unless theyre consistently posting abt one of my interests and i remember to

I talk in the tags a LOT feel free to <- prev or rb addressing my tags but i typically assume no one will read them all the way through. i'm writing whole essays. im oversharing. call op a college admissions office bc I'm telling my whole life story. if my tags make you uncomfortable on your post please let me know and i will apologize/delete them if you wish. i dont have a concept of tmi and tend to misread/miss social cues/the vibes so i apologize if i misstep

please let me know if i reblog any stolen artwork/ai generated anything/ etc

‼️‼️i am not spoiler free for anything (even if i myself havent seen the content) i dont have any sort of tagging system ‼️

list of my active fandoms! old hyperfixations tend to creep up on me so this is not complete

- bungo stray dogs (bsd beast fans pls follow me i adore beast)

- legend of zelda (all games + lu/links meet aus)(legend fans pspspsp)

- the witcher (mainly the show but i got attached to a character thats not even actually in any of the games. aiden i love you.)

- cars (2006, 2011, 2017)(yes entirely unironically)

- Voltron legendary defender. (again. yes. unironically.)

- star wars (mainly the main series and animation since i havent read thr or played the games)

- jujutsu kaisen (2nd years stan)

- the magnus archives (gerry delano fans i love you)

- percy jackson (mainly the books and musical, i dont care for the show much but i adore the actors)

- gravity falls ! (i actually just got into this like, last month. binged the whole series in like a week at age 21.)

- my hero academia (my hs best friend made me watch s1 and i got attached to aizawa hawks and the todorokis sorry)(im convinced the todorokis were based on my family. im literally natsuo. dont ask abt dabi unless u think you're prepared)

- lord of the rings, long awaited addition to this list given i was raised on them (undiagnosed adhd child + 4 our long movies = not a good combination)

Non Fandom Interests

- I write ! once i start uploading ill link my ao3 here but its rough out here (microsoft word)

- I draw ! i mightve posted my art a few times but as i mentioned i dont have any tagging system so maybe I'll make one for art or link another social at some point

- this mostly falls under loz but i love video games :3 i MOSTLY play loz but animal crossing, minecraft, and random silly da games ive collected over the years are my pride and joy. i want to play the witcher games but i have assassins creed black flag and im really bad at it. (i only have nintendo consoles (ds, 3ds, switch) rn but i want a decent pc at some point. the sims calls to me.

- Politics! my politics are very important to me as a leftist so if you're right wing we will not get along. if i find out that youre racist/homophobic/transphobic/a zionist (i am jewish)/sexist/etc i will probably block you. id say no hard feelings but i dint mean that.

I will probably update this as needed/whenever i remember to <3 ty if u read this and i love you have a great day

[princemick]

I’m a max blog and had the same thing happen to me in reverse a few weeks ago (I posted something in favor of max but a bunch of LH fans thought it was a hate post and I ended up just deleted the post bc it got so bad) so I’m sorry your post got hijacked by rb fans. I didn’t reblog it but I definitely didn’t realize when it came across my dash that it was an rb hate post. Your user just says mick and I’m also a mick fan so I wouldn’t automatically assume that means you hate rb.

I’m sorry people are being weird and not backing off now that you’ve said it’s not a pro-max post. I obviously disagree with your dislike of rb but I know how bad it sucks to post something and suddenly have hundreds of people in your notifications taking it in completely the wrong direction. 🫤

oh shit im sorry that ur post got overtaken that shit can be so overwhelming and annoying, its hard to know when something is a pos or neg post if it isnt explicitely stated (also I'm hoping I didnt rb it myself n added to ur stress bc that sucks) n yea I gen dont mind people reblogging it and seeing it as a max positive blog I hate it when they started being annoying abt that specifically

like ur free to take whaver meaning from my post just dont be an asshole to me abt it???? it seems obvious but it appearntly isnt.

[meetthesoldier]

hi sorry this is outta nowhere but i would love to hear ur thoughts on harry (phone

SORRY ANON I LEGIT FORGOT ABT THIS ASK and im too lazy to draw her fr so heres some fanart i drew of her dying in a glue trap

this time i have a bit more thoughts on her as an actual character so ill start w that before the headcanon dump ... also, throughout this post ill be referring to her w she/her pronouns because of a personal headcanon im VERY attached to. all i ask is any rbs or further questions abt my specific vision of her use those same pronouns... in others posts i do not care obviously. also, this post is specifically abt her in the dsaf universe since shes far more substantial there.

firstly, i should say i ADORE harry. she is one of my biggest comfort characters in a series where almost everybody is one for me. so when i give any criticisms, know its out of love and a wish for some more expansive writing rather than any malice. being critical of media you love is important, etc etc.

my biggest issues with her character really boils down to the lack of acknowledgement abt her being physically disabled. she mentions having a "bad leg" during 3, but its ONLY mentioned that one time, during (i believe) missable dialogue. i understand her not using, like, mobility aids for it since it may be difficult to find suitable stock images (+ all the phonies in that game use the same photos for their bodies, and its totally possible its not something she feels she needs), but it probably shouldve been mentioned or expanded upon more.

i dont believe were given any explanation on how her leg ended up the way it is, or in what way it is. we dont know if she was born with her disability or aquired it later. we dont know if its paralyzed, we dont know if its because of a muscular dystrophy, or anything else. i just wish we were given more info, bcus as it is, it is REALLY easy to look over in favor of, say, her ptsd.

speaking of which, i have some mixed feelings on how her ptsd is portrayed. on one hand, the joke in the restaurant reviews abt her having flashbacks and a subsequent panic attack feels very distasteful, though thankfully this is (i believe) the only instance of this kind of joke at her expense. im glad elsewise it isnt some huge , controlling part of her character - however, again, it IS missable. while one can assume she has it when she discusses her past, i dont believe its explicitly stated UNTIL that review.

tldr; her disability feels poorly handled, mostly from lack of expansion and discussion.

thankfully, though, she is elsewise a very enjoyable character; shes got some really good and funny dialogue, the exposition we get from her about the original managers is really fucking good, and i really wish we heard more abt her experience working with rebecca (and presumably roger)... again, her biggest issues are just not having as much of a spotlight on her as she couldve, but considering the employees arent really the main focus of the game that may be fine actually...

(as an aside, i think about this post every day and cry audibly.)

thus ends the longform musings, onto the silly headcanons;

standard fare queer headcanon dump: trans woman + demisexual lesbian. also, polyamorous. fuck yeah baby steak (ref)

was in a queerplatonic relationship with joe while he was alive, and a romantic one with both tango/terrence (who has some gender fuckery going on as well) and rebecca because i am not immune to homemade lesbianism.

has ptsd in canon, but im adding a "c" in front of that cause aint no way she lived through all of her coworkers (and presumably FRIENDS) dying in such horrific ways and was only affected in the short-term.

autistic! specifically also has the thing i do where i need the time to be a multiple of 5 before i can start doing anything. also has generalized anxiety i think, with a tendency to catastrophize and compensates by insisting to herself everything is toootally fine. definitely NOT going to have a breakdown rn because shes not totally sure that that vending machine is 100% not going to fall on her specifically

probably didnt have many friends as a kid (L) so now she overcompensates by trying to be as charming and polite as possible. wether or not this works in her favor or makes her seem pretentious is a coinflip. (its certainly working on me though!)

has a real soft spot for random niche animals. probably a big salamander and gecko girl. her favorite is the marbled salamander because its cute as hell

slightly off topic everyday i think of how fucking horrific it mustve been for joe to come into work one morning and his best friend just has a phone for a head and extreme memory issues now . literally what the fuck. thats so fucked up

to do a tonal 180... if she was a pokemon trainer shed have a herdier or stoutland as a sort of service dog for walking shorter-medium distances when she rlly doesnt feel like whipping out the cane :.-)

shes so pale its actually ridiculous. bro looks like she hasnt seen the sun in 5 years ... jake pokes a bit of fun for it sometimes

thanks for asking, anon! i love getting excuses to talk about dsaf. i have a lot of thoughts, you know... dont ever friend me on discord my ass will randomly drop either the goofiest or angstiest headcanons at random intervals and i have no real control over whichor when it will be

[oh-katsuki]

Oh my god I am SOOOO down for demigod au!!!!! I have so many feelings!! In a similar vein, at one point I considered doing a God of War AU with Katsuki as Kratos and it still scratches a good itch in my little brain. Tbh it popped into my brain during a road trip so no real thoughts were had but something about him learning to be vulnerable enough to love and be loved but then having to put aside his humanity to fight and kill to protect his found family 🥲💕

YESSSS!!!!! I LOVE THIS BUT IT MAKES ME SO SAD!!!!!!!!

i love seeing katsuki as a child of a war god!!! big and strong and so so skilled in battle with a wide range of weapons. it's also surprising though that he is as sensitive as he is passionate. it's like the passion in him is directly tied to his divine lineage, but also to that sensitivity. n people assume he's got less feelings than other's bc of his parentage, but he loves all the same.. if not more and CERTAINLY more fiercely. imaging the way he instills confidence in his comrades on a battlefield.. like that fighting spirit is contagious....

but i am also so biased when it comes to him tho bc i actually see him (like someone said in their rb of my post) as more roman than greek!!! and i often think of him as a child of hestia (which doesn't work bc she is a maiden goddess)... or like... juno (once again would not have demigods bc she's the goddess of marriage) but like just imagine it for a moment.. think on it...

imagine for a moment that juno DID have demigods (i know this is so inaccurate for her... i feel the wrongness too)... juno represented the state as well as being the goddess of marriage. she was also a war goddess and was often thought to lend strength to roman generals during war..... now katsuki as one of her few demigod children. he's blessed with brilliant skills in battle, but he also has the ability to drive his comrades further. to instill in them the spirit of a warrior and keep their motivation up. where children of somnus (or hypnos) can lull people to sleep or take away the will to fight, katsuki can do the opposite. but he's also (after he gets older) becomes quite a strong leader and people end up looking to him the same way they did Juno in Rome.... he gains this confidence about him that could belong only to the child of the goddess of the state... im SICK...

sorry i got so distracted in this... i have so many thoughts abt him... but GOD a katsuki KRATOS au is SOOO AUGH!!! sad tho :((( i want him to have good things ;(( (side note: i LOVED that game when i was younger broooo)

[egotokill]

every time i see a post vaguely mentioning the i*****-p******** conflict i just know it will haunt me for at least an entire day 

[tenyall]

alright yall im going to bed but first here’s a rant in the tags yeehaw

[svnk1st]

help me see my bf for hannukah please?

art examples here

hi its me again, still taking commissions.

basically i need abt 80$, but 100$ would be nice (in case smthn comes up). i need commissions by (around) the 20th of november. for as little as 2$ you can get a halfbody sketch or a fullcolored emoji of anything you want. i talk more abt what medias ill do with the examples posted in the twitter thread.

its all pay what you want, meaning you pay whatever and i draw whatever you want.*

i take paypal.

*i reserve the right to not accept any commissions for any reason. im 17, so please keep your requests sfw.

tl;dr - im doing pwyw commissions so i can see my bf for the holidays. i reserve the right to turn away any requests, though.

reblogs over likes.

please rb.

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edit, oct 13:

i still domt have nearly enough to pay for the plane ticket and while i want to assume im gonna have enough in other presents, i dont think i will.

i also do venmo @/cakeron if anyone just wants to send a donation.

i have 40$ and my art can also be found here

40/200

(ive doubled the goal as the prices of things have gone up significantly, and im not going to have enough from other things)

please keep rbing!!

[squashfolded]

idk much abt rvb ships but im curious, is there’s a ship you Do like for wash! also i get your sunny opinions 100%, i’ll rb anything that’s even an ounce of charden/charmac but it takes a lot for a macden post to interest me. love the ship but they have to work hard to earn it lol

Oh yeah there’s a couple pairings with him I really like! Sargewash (warge??) Is great and hilarious, the token war hardened dilf of each team respectively plus Sarge calls Wash hot on multiple occasions lmaoo also ! my beloveds Washnut (aka nutwash aka nuttington they’re all terrible ship names I know) I won’t get into it too much bc spoilers but they have SUCH a great and wholesome dynamic in season 17 Wash finally gives Donut the respect and appreciation he deserves god dammit!! Also Donut says he wants to kiss wash (who doesn’t)

Also this one is kinda obscure because they almost never interact but Wash and Simmons ! (Washimmons/Dickwash) Like 99% of the content for this ship was made up by my friend @cyborgblood and it’s almost all entirely fanon and kinda a crack ship honestly but. It’s so cute.

And same tbh those two pairings are criminally underrated 😭 and charmacden ofc 💔 sunny polyam agenda 😤 when I first stated watching iasip and knew nothing about the fandom I looked up charmac on tiktok because I assumed it’d be the most popular and got mostly macden stuff anyway and even some posts hating on charmac shippers? Like what is this 2012 why are there shipping wars 😭

[mihai-florescu]

realizing now that my blog doesnt have literally any information abt me on it bc i havent looked at it in ages LMAOO how cringefail of me. u can tag me as jay tho thank u :0!!

i think u reblogged smth like "predict my blorbos" a bit ago n i remember thinking youd like lilia -- pretty sure i forgot to actually rb the post to tag tho oops. hes so funny he loves tomato juice n based on his voice lines it seems like others sometimes assume its blood. and he just lets at them <3 or laughs at em.

his whole dorm (diasomnia - specifically malleus. hes my meow meow my princess specialest guy in the world nobody understands him like i do etc etc) r my faves but since theyre the last dorm in the order they have the least storyline content so far 😔 its truly so hard being a diasomnia liker in this day and age 💔

OOF tho i am so sorry if i come into ur inbox w absolute nonsense if u liveblog more abt twst tho 👀👀 i am like a sleeper agent and it is my activation phrase it consumes my waking hours LFBSKFBKSDJ

Do not apologize, i love it when people talk to me about their favs!

Im obsessed with the fact that the dorm is called diasomnia since it sounds like it was made For Me. Dia (my name here) + somnia (somn means sleep in romanian) So sleepytired dorm. Love that

[frightgothcar]

Is it okay to ask for advice? Is it normal that I like .. when I see a character I feel their gender? like if I see a cute girl I’ll be like “I feel so much like a girl rn she/her are the best pronouns I’m so cute” but then I could easily turn around and see a boy and go “me I feel so he/they rn I feel like a boy and I’m happy abt it” like what does this mean... I’m rlly confused bc I feel like my pronouns and feeling on my gender change so much.. like I will feel really wlw at one time then mlm at the next and I want to embrace both but it won’t make sense to people... am I not rlly trans? obviously this isn’t the only reason I think I’m trans I’m just saying that this is rlly confusing me idk if anyone else experiences this.. it’s like I want to be all of these genders at once .. I feel like a different person! it doesn’t make any sense .. what is happening? it’s like I don’t have a solid grasp on my identity it just changes with these characters and I make these characters into my identity unconsciously and I can’t help it?? idk if that makes sense I will use a character as an icon and I’m like .. this is gender ... this is me... and it’s not that I relate to the characters at all I really feel different a different person and that it’s always changing so idk who I am?

Ofc you can ask for advice! Needless to say, gender is a complicated beast, but it isn't this whole concrete thing folks make it out to be.

To make that more clear, even in the trans community people tend to think of gender in boxes. Male, female, even if they're accepting of nonbinary people, it's just more familiar to add a third box rather than changing your perspective on gender as a whole. But, it really is more of a spectrum, and sometimes you might move around on that spectrum.

Personally I'm not nonbinary, or genderfluid in any sense, so I can't speak from experience here and I can't say that this speaks to everyone's, or even anyone's experiences, but from my understanding what you're describing sounds like genderfluid (or bigender, or a whole plethora of nonbinary identities). Our understanding of gender paints it as though it's some concrete thing, you sign up for something and you stick with it your whole life, and for some people that's right, but it isn't bad for your identity to grow and change as you do.

Relating to fictional characters was a really huge step for me early in my questioning days and early on. In order to understand myself and my identity I found it easier to go through a conduit, a lot of people do. It's normal to do that, it's healthy to use fiction to work through things, to try things out.

But all that aside, what you're going through is just plain questioning. It's normal, and you're gonna be just fine, you aren't "faking" anything you aren't "lying" to anyone, you're exploring your gender and it's confusing, as gender often is. The trick is to do whatever makes you feel most comfortable. You like she/her pronouns today, awesome, we'll use she/her! He/they right now? Easy peasy, let me correct myself real quick. Changing the words to how you identify does not invalidate you as trans. Who you are isn't really changing, how you understand yourself is, and that's a beautiful thing!

What will make this better for you is time, which I know is a really frustrating answer but bear with me here. It's normal to not understand your identity, especially as a teenager (I'm assuming cuz you're following me you're a teenager?? sorry if you're not lol), gender or otherwise. Try out different things! Don't be afraid to switch labels if one doesn't fit or stops fitting. You'll figure it out, you will!!

What you need to be a real trans person is to identify as trans, as in identify as a gender different from your gender assigned at birth. My advice is to take off everything. Don't think of yourself as cis or trans or your agab or a comfort character, try and think about just plain you. How do you feel outside of all that? Getting a better grasp on that will help you with your gender, it certainly helped me :)

And remember that no matter where you end up, if you decide you're nonbinary, bigender, agender, genderfluid, binary trans, or even cis, your experiences are valid. Maybe you're into doing gender more as a costume or performance, like when people do drag. Try it out!

Right now you are figuring out who you are. Don't sweat it, it will come to you over time. Nothing you're feeling or doing is abnormal or weird or bad, you're just growing, and you'll come out the other side better for it.

I hope this all makes sense, it's late and I'm tired and ramble-y and I'm not sure this all makes sense, I just want you to know anon, it's gonna be okay. Seriously, you're gonna be fine, the distress you're feeling now will go away, you just need time and whatnot. Feel free to send in another ask or dm me or whatever you need to do if you've got anything else to ask or to talk about, I'll do my best! Also in the morning I'll rb this post with the @s of some enby, genderfluid, just people who are much more well spoken and knowledgeable in this than I am so you can get some other perspectives and shit.

just wantecd to get this posted asap so again, sorry if this isnt clear or anything, i'll be happy to clarify however you need. i hope you have a good night/day/afternoon/evening whatever timezone youre in. im gonna go to bed now but i /should/ be back on early tomorrow morning. no real gurantee tho sorry haha. but i will answer your asks as soon as i can i prommy

[akumulullaby]

uuhhh kinda longy rant abt feelings im having that i never had even tho i had this blog for . 4 years 

basically i started this blog out in 2016 when i ran away from my old blog that was full of toxic ppl i followed. when ppl say tumblr is a “hellsite” they rly arent joking, its impressive how much this website can take a toll on someones mental health for a variety of reasons

it was a relief starting all over again, no more of the pointless and toxic discourses i would see all the time, ppl fighting all the time, the anti recovery mentality. this was just some place i would rb fanart and funny posts id find 

in that same year, 2016 was also the year i got into guro. i connected easily w that sort of content and art, drawing it was therapeutic in some way, yes i was an “edgy kid” but i had fun w all that. so i made this blog become a “guro blog”. its some sort of escape place where i can just rb art that i find cool and inspire me

and im not someone relevant nor i think i will, but i could always just rb art of whatever i wanted and i wouldnt feel afraid of being judged by it here. but lately i feel that has changed w how much callout culture and fiction=reality mentality has been spreading in fandoms, in a much larger scale than it was on 2015/6. 

i feel that i should only be allowed to enjoy guro thats “artistic” or “metaphorical” and that if i enjoy anything bearing more on the violent side ppl will think smth is wrong with me, that im a bad person or that i condone that sort of stuff. i feel like ppl will think im a “freak” or that i condone abuse and that sort of stuff bc of DRAWINGS 

being uncomfortable by anything is valid, im uncomfortable w some stuff in the guro meadows myself (cant stand teeth gore or trypo) but its wrong to assume someone is a bad person just bc of the content they enjoy imo ;; i dont wanna feel afraid of reblogging art in my own blog that ive been doing the same for 4yrs and never felt fear. now that im +18 and a lot of things have changed in fandom spaces i rly feel fear of being attacked or harassed even if im just a small blog here

it should be clear that i dont condone any sort of abuse irl, i cant stand irl gore involving ppl getting actually hurt, it makes me terribly anxious. all thats here is art and drawings. i wont ever post irl, nsfw or eroguro here (since tunglr banished them lol) and if u think im a bad person for the kind of content i enjoy, you can leave my blog ^_^

that being said, pls dont ever feel afraid of asking me to tag anything in specific that might make u uncomfy, even us into guro have things that make us uncomfy and can trigger us, we are still human. 

if u read this until the end congrats, i just wanted to get this out of my chest ;; 

[shinxolotl]

i feel kinda bad bc like,,,, im assuming yall followed me bc im a mlm/nblm blog yet like ? i dont rlly. rb posts abt that now. i mostly jus rb polygon stuff, positivity, n some memes. idk,,,,, kinda feelin like i shld change my url again