#they make eachother so SO worse........ they are SO bad for eachother its amazing

[triglycercule]

horror having crazy irrational thoughts about food,,,,, like bro thinks there's poison in the cupcakes. someone snuck razor blades into the bread and once he takes a bit it'll cut him up. somehow there's mold growing inside the bananas and when he eats it the mold colony is gonna start growing on HIM and then he'll become a moldy skeleton and oh god and oh god and he is paranoid but hes so hungry.... BUT WHAY ABOUT BUGS IN THR FOOD,,,, BUT HES HUNGRY.... a struggle it truly is

probably doesnt help that dust and killer could feed into it. killer could make off hand remarks on how he snuck razor blades into the meat horror's attempting to eat (to fuck around with horror. just some eeeever so slight psychological anguish. and also because killer would just be the type of casually carry those around. what for you may ask well decide for yourself) and then immediately horror's mood drops and he storms out of the dining room. dust and horror go on a sweet little picnic in a beautiful field and its all beautiful and inconspicuous but dust made the food and horror knows that look in his eyes. horror knows dust was muttering something about chemicals a day or 2 ago. the food is poisoned isnt it??? and dust just smiles and motions for horror to eat it

[nimomo-mo]

Vent

[docterrrolal]

i ran out of room in the tags. oh well.

i have SO many opinions on bro and mom. i think about the bromom sketch hussie made every day. no they arent romantically involved obviously but theyre like. soulmates. shitty shitty soulmates. they will always feel so strongly about each other, the only reason why they didnt interact in the comic is because the vibes emanating from them would be so intense that it would have just distracted from everything else going on. god i hope they commit murder suicide.

[the-massive-simp]

I've been thinking about fem/gn reader losing their virginity to kaeya, venti and kaveh... But maybe they accidentally get hurt and have to stop? I wanna know how they'd act when something like that happens (:

a/n: I love this kind of prompt <3 here you go anon! I'm slowly trying to fight writer's block so its only headcanons and not drabbles but I tried my best. sadly there's no venti because i dont really feel comfortable writing suggestive or nsfw things with him (i know i got your request before changing my rules so you did nothing wrong. sorry for the inconvenience). and remember everyone: a yes can turn into a no at any moment, and that's completely fine. consent is key. also I think that my love for kaveh shows in this one because his part is twice kaeya's one

warnings: it's not graphic smut but sex is mentioned so don't read if you're uncomfortable with that. no mentions of protections (make sure use them irl)

♡Kaeya♡

I imagine Kaeya being a super sex positive person, like for him sex is not a big deal as long as there's respect for the other person

so he was probably ready to have sex with you since you started dating 💀

but of course he didn't push you, he waited for you to be ready to have your first time with him

one time you have dinner at his place and an heated make up sessions evolves in discarding eachother clothes

he asks for your consent like 100 times while you two move to the bedroom

he knows how important foreplay is, so he makes sure to prepare you for the main act

then he slowly pushes himself in, an heavy breath leaving his lips as he hides his face in your neck, his arms supporting him so he doesn’t put all of his weight on you

you immediately feel uncomfortable

the stretch feels too much and its almost painful

at first you think it's normal but it doesn't go away even after he begins to gently trust in you

if anything, it gets worse, but he fails to notice tour discomfort

tears start to spill from your eyes as you put your hands on kaeya chest and tell him to stop

he immediately freezes, concern and guilt flooding his face

"Can I pull out?"

you nod and he backs away from your body, opting to sit back to give you some space

"Did it hurt? Did I do something wrong? Should I go get you anything?"

he listens to you as you try to explain him how you felt

he goes getting a warm cloth to gently clean you up before embracing you in his arms

he feels really bad for not having noticed your discomfort sooner

you tell him that's its fine, you thought you were ready but maybe you were too nervous

you two keep talking about it for a while until you fall asleep

after that for a while he's a bit reluctant to try again because he doesn't want to hurt you

but when you tell him that you really want to take this step with him, he finally agrees

expect 3 hours of foreplay

♡Kaveh♡

now now

sweet kaveh loves to spoil you, taking you out to have dinner and go shopping

however his wallet does not enjoy it as much as he does

so you often have dates where you just go for a walk together or have a picnic

it's during one of those dates that he casually mentions the subject of sex

now, he doesn’t want to force you but he loves you so much and the idea of you two doing that together looks amazing to him

the conversation its not meant to push you, but rather to offer you an occasion to talk about it together and see if you feel the same about him

when you tell him you're ready (be it that same date or after years) he gets so excited

he can't believe you're going to share the magic moment of your first time with him of all people

he probably asks you if you two can go at your place since he doesn't want alhaitham around

once you two get down to business, he's the sweetest guy ever

he kisses every single inch of your body, basically worshipping you

makes sure to keep eye contact with you most of the time so he can notice if anything is wrong

after the foreplay, he lets you get on top of him, straddling his lap while his back is propped up by some pillows

he wants you to be the one in charge so you can choose the pace of events

the moment you lower yourself on him, he knows something is wrong

yes, he does feel a lot of pleasure from finally being inside of you, but he doesn't miss the face you make

when after a few seconds he sees tears pooling in your eyes he has the confirmation of his suspects

he immediately grabs your hips and pulls you up, making you sit on his thighs before comfortly rubbing your arms and shoulders

"What's wrong baby?"

he's so gentle with you, holding you close while you sniffle in his neck, hands resting on his chest

he strokes your hair and reassures you that you don't have to do anything if you're not ready, that he'd wait a thousand years for you, that he loves you as much as before, that sex is not the important thing in your relationship

he waits for you to calm down before asking you what exactly you think went wrong

if you tell him you want to try again he's completely fine with it, but he becomes even more attentive and gentle, making sure that this time you'll be able to enjoy it

[chiara-hotel]

ADA Men with an S/O with Social anxiety (BSD)

Characters: Dazai, Ranpo, Kunikida, Atsushi

PM!& Maybe DOA version will come later

Dazai:

- …Good Luck

- Not that he’s bad with helping you out although he’ll try to push you out of your comfort zone a lot

- He’ll do that by introducing him to his coworkers/friends and try to get you in more situations to help you

- But he’ll also still be his usual self and tease you in public + PDA (though hes trying his best not to go overboard)

- If you ever get nervous/nauseous before meeting with someone he’ll be there to comfort you with cuddles and kisses

- If you ever cancel on him because your social anxiety he will get sad and mention it “bella, why’d you have to cancel on meee”

- Whenever you guys make plans he also makes sure to schedule a few days in advance so you can prepare for the outing

Ranpo:

- The best and worse in this case

- Ranpo won’t really know how to help you out whenever your nervous/nauseous for an outing… But he tries might give you some sweets

- Also he definitely knew you had social anxiety the moment he laid eyes on you

- He also wouldn’t understand how you have social anxiety much but hes not going to pry deep into that topic

- If you ever cancel on him he might cry (which would be worse then anything your brain can think of so don’t cancel on him)

- He’ll also expect an apology cuddle session at the agency (if you don’t work there that doesn’t matter, you’ll be there anyway)

Kunikida:

- Will be worried about it/be careful not to cross important boundaries

- He wouldn’t know much to do, unless you talk with him about it

- Might give you some space when your anxious, but if you vomit he’ll be there to help you

- Always plans on his schedule at least 10 minutes before an outing to help you calm down a bit

- He will get annoyed at you if you ruin his perfect schedule (which might start an argument)

- Overall… He can be the best sometimes but also not great at all

Atsushi:

- He’s also a bit anxious of social situations so he understands a bit where you come from

- He’ll try his hardest to comfort you but he might not be the best at it (he’s trying his hardest though)

- Also will introduce you to the people at the agency unless you work there, then you guys get to go on assignments together!

- If your feeling unwell/nauseous he will be there with you to rub your back (also to hold your hair if its long)

- You guys will probably both be hugging eachother go prepare for new situations

- He will also whisper praises in your ear before & after telling you “I’m proud of you” and “you did well today”

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Thats all for this post! PM version of this will come later. This hc is mostly because I have social anxiety so I hope those with anxiety feel comforted aswell by our amazing ada men.

[akutasoda]

Hello! Its the person who requested the avpd hcs a good while ago, i was wonder if you could follow up with Tecchou, Nikolai, Poe, and Mushitarou? (Maybe fyodor if mushi is too hard to write for in this scenario)

Thank you so much!

please talk to me p2

synopsis - you are everything to your lover, but you just couldn't see why

includes - nikolai, poe, mushitaro, tecchou

warnings - gn!reader, fluff, slight angst, feelings of insecurity, social anxiety, wc - 1.2k

a/n: hello again!

nikolai gogol ★↷

you had most likely met nikolai as being a fellow member of the doa. you never intended this to be your affiliation but when approached to join you felt compelled to in fear of letting them down, even if they may be one of the worst groups you could've joined.

you two were stark contrasts. he was very open and outgoing while you were closed off and very socially anxious. however they do say opposites attract so that must be why nikolai tried so hard to befriend you after taking intrest. but you never ket people in that easily. it also didn't help you held no trust toward any colleague.

after you befriended him you would've still been asked out by him as you were too scared to ruin what you had managed to obtain so far by confessing and potentially getting rejected, especially after how much you had to try and trust him. he did find your shyness quite endearing up until it affected you day to day.

definitely make sure to compliment you more often, although somehe gets carried away and bombards you whichh makes it worse. he acknowledges this and tries his hardest not to. but he thought it was ridiculous you couldn't see why he loved you so much!

so through the whole time he would try and fail to subtly build up your self-esteem. his attraction to you was because of who you were and seeing you constantly doubt yourself and be so self isolated made his heart break. how could you think so lowly of yourself? you were amazing!

edgar allan poe ★↷

similarly, you most likely were offered a place in the guild and being too afraid to disappoint or anger them you agreed. thus meeting poe. the guild was quite a larger group than you expected but you felt too bad to turn around and leave now, especially because you didn't want them to criticise you for backing out.

however you unusually felt naturally attracted to him and despite your obvious adversion to becoming close with people. perhaps it was because he was naturally as quiet as you so you never felt as if he would test your social anxiety. but sometimes you felt you only annoyed him by naturally gravitating him.

when he picked up on this he did quickly stomp out that idea and said he did enjoy your silent company. this still brought little calmness in your thoughts but you both knew that couldn't be helped. eventually, maybe painfully slowly, you two wpuld come to terms with feelings no matter how awkward both of you were.

he still would have to make the first move however. mainly because you had feared constantly that one of the first friendships you had would turn to nothing if you tried to advance it. and you were still very unsure whether he didn't want to see you or not.

due to both of you being rather awkward in such situations, you both would try your hardest to make it work and help eachother. but it would be very slow but full of affirmation and nothing but positive compliments and comments.

would take it slow with you, for yours and his. but wouldn't stand you constantly feeling bad about yourself, you were the greatest thing in the world to him and he wanted you to see why.

mushitaro oguri ★↷

meeting mushitaro was most likely through yokomizo. yokomizo always would push you to try and atleast overcome some social anxiety and offered you to meet his friend as a starting point, too afraid to disappoint yokomizo since he tried so hard for you, you met mushitaro very reluctantly.

you always tried to avoid being criticized and or disappoint those around you, so naturally mushitaro's attitude was definitely a put you off at first. you cared very much about first impressions and you didn't like that he always seemed so judgemental, making you assume the worst.

now mushitaro would be lying if he said he loved your anxious, shy state. he did find it slightly annoying but you were friends with yokomizo and he could tell he definitely dragged you into this. garnering a bit of sympathy but then he realised how difficult it could be for you in things he could do with ease.

would probably take a very long time for you to actually start a relationship let alone a friendship with him and he most likely had to be the one to ask you out. you had feared constantly that one of the first friendships you had would turn to nothing if you tried to advance it. especially because it took you so long to understand him.

but through the whole time he would try and subtly build up your self-esteem, afterall he did have very high self esteem. he obviously was attracted to you because of who you truly were and seeing you constantly doubt yourself and be so self isolated made him break.

but he knew if he pressed to much it would make it worse so that's why he would do it subtly although sometimes he couldn't help it. hoping to eventually bring you out of your little habits, even if he was a little forward at times.

tecchou suehiro ★↷

similarly to jouno, you probably met tecchou as a hunting dog. you constantly needed to do your best as to avoid disappointment in others, soon leading you to becoming of such a high position. he would notice your lack of interaction with fellow hunting dogs, only talking when absolutely necessary, but never commenting on it.

however he did feel naturally attracted to you and despite your obvious adversion to becoming close with people, but in honesty he was somewhat the same. sure he may of been a bit more social than you but he never got thag close to people and rather kept most at just being acquaintances.

he would've made the first move due to you would've been too scared to ruin what you had managed to obtain so far by confessing and potentially getting rejected. he did find your shyness quite endearing up but heavily disliked how it stopped you from doing things as he wanted to show you how special you truly were.

he would definitely make sure to compliment you often and if he noticed you feeling particularly bad ine day would make sure you stopped thinking and would try and take your mind of whatever was troubling you. although he kind of becomes hopeless to help you as he isn't that emotionally intelligent.

you both chose to take it slow with because as said before his lack of emotional intelligence sometime would do little to soothe your worries. so you both would need to find time to find your footings. but wouldn't stand you constantly feeling bad about yourself, that would always be a no go.

[al6nst]

do you have any mugi headcanons?

uhuh, nsfw and sfw if thats what yer askin!

☆ hcs with tsumugi aoba

sketch info, nsfw + sfw, dom/sub hcs, romance, semi cringe/bad writing, character hcs, personal tsumugi/modern mugi, relationship hcs, gn reader/both genders mentioned, no pronouns used

SFW SECTION !

the first time the two of you met was at a small party between groups of friends. and you thought he was an asshole because of the way he spoke, but you later found out through natsume it's just him speaking his mind. "ah, you look horrible.." was the first thing he said, but it was true. honestly, you couldnt even be offended with how blunt he was, it was funny even..

dates usually consist of eating or watching movies, but at first, it was awkward. accidentally looking into eachothers eyes and looking away at the speed of light, eye contact wasnt really his thing at first. "we really are dating?.." your first kisses together were even more awkward, him staring into your eyes nervously, averting your gaze. and then it happens, your lips touch. and he tastes like sweets, its unbelievable. hes literally almost panicking.

gifts and going on dates are also in the picture if you suggest them, hes a good listener when he needs to be, and when you ask him to open up, he kinda, shuts down at first but i know hes gonna put in the effort in trying to make you feel better. trust is key to a healthy relationship. His honesty is also upped to a hundred, which is kind of worse, but it's nice to see how he feels about you and others. his self-depricating talks also bring up a bit of a concern, and you take it not with a grain of salt and end up talking to him about it and helping him feel less that way.

i know he would introduce you to his roomates and other acquaintances as well!

body hcs too, twinky tsumugi is for me, but its kind of a turn off in some ways!!!!! :/, hes got a decent amount of muscle, not too much, not too little. his legs are muscular though, like.. woah. step on me or sumn

ive got no more ideas for this section, soz!

mdni forr thus sectoons ahshgs

NSFW AHEAD, sex.. sex? yeah

i think he would choose to sub at first cause, yes, he's very pent up. i think he would sub automatically if you asked, fem or not. back to the first time, its extremely romantic and kind of heated, hes very touchy and gets into teasing you. also very vanilla the first few times unless either of you bring it up.

kissing, yes yes alot of that. he enjoys being on the receiving end of it, but will not disappoint if you wanna be kissed too. his dick is pretty big. it's pretty long and not too thick. his cum his salty, but has a sweet taste to it like everything else. hes very sensitive and his nipples get so swollen really fast its kind of concerning. i think tsumugi would lactate if he could, and thats where gnc afab mugi comes in!!! his chest as a guy is pretty large cause its mostly muscle, but afab mugis boobs are... yknow, huge. squishy and soft, and when he does end up pregnant or some unknown being comes and gives him the ability to lactate it is amazing, not just for you, for him too.

his milk is even sweeter. thats all ive got to say, dont wanna get too in depth about my love for boobs. Hes okay with somno and sensory deprivation, biting is also up there. his huge turn offs are cnc, and extremely public settings. hes okay with semi public, like under his desk getting support when hes playing games or getting work done, and hes good with his mouth when you need it too. and being tied up is one of the things thatll make him lose his mind.

subby mugi is the best, he whines alot, whispering in desperation, and exaustion. overstimulation turns him into a, yknow, slut? i dont know if thats the right word, but he goes crazy after cumming a few times. he even starts begging, literally pleading with tears in his eyes for more. hes a bit freaky and moves alot, explanation on the freaky part, i think spanking is one of the things he would try further in the relationship

dom tsumugi is even better, hes not exactly ruthless, but he knows how to do it well. like completing the hardest game on the first try without tutorials. again, hes very touchy and finds your sweet spots with extra care, focusing on your expressions and noises. he likes giving and taking backshots, but more romantic positions like spooning, if your a girl, closed missionary would be his go to choice when youre both tired, if your a guy, he gets more risky with double blindfolding and holds you even closer, his hands roaming everywhere that theey can reach.

dont know what else to add, again, soz..

an : this seems lazy and doesnt feel in character to me, i havent read most of the story cause im jp only, so sorry if this feels weird if i mischaracterized him, made sure not to get too freaky incase you didnt want it... i finished this at 1:15

[polyamorouspunk]

hii taking you up on your advice offer 😭 ur poly so maybe u have more experience with this than me, how would i break up with my longterm partner?

we’ve been dating for 2 years, it really has seemed perfect but lately idk its just felt wrong. we’ve kinda planned our lives around eachother and moving in together once we graduate, but i cant make myself want to kiss them or be romantic anymore, i dont want to respond to their texts, i get annoyed at them for no reason. they havent done anything wrong theyre wonderful its a “its not you its me” situation to a T.

all of our friends are mutual friends, but most of them were technically my friends first (all the people they used to hang out with sucked) so im scared if we break up they wont have anyone to talk to about it. i really dont want to hurt them.

i honestly might realize this is just me being dumb and all of this will pass and ill want to be with them still once it does, but since i have no clue how id break it off i feel so trapped. i want to know i have a way out if things dont get better, i want to stay with them because i truly changed my mind not because i didnt have a choice.

Not in a poly sense but just a “have had a few relationships” sense I guess I can offer advice.

So I’ve never actually broken up with anyone before, except for the last guy I was messing around with (Catboy) just because as much as I had sooo much feelings for him it was like the most unhealthy “relationship” for me. Like I finally realized like “oh I’m actually NOT better off seeing him, my mental health is ACTUALLY worse” because of his shenanigans.

However, I did have a long term partner who I dated for 6 years who we had plans to move in together and get married etc. same kind of deal, all their friends were my friends. And they dumped me, and yeah, it was really fucking hard even though I knew everyone was going to take my side. And the one person who didn’t I ended up not speaking to anymore because I was like if you’re not going to realize that I’m the only one whose going to keep talking to you because my ex doesn’t give a shit about keeping in contact with people, then that’s on you.

I was devestated. This was like 3 years ago at this point and pretty much right up until about this year I felt like I was somehow “living in the wrong timeline” and like my entire life’s trajectory had been pulled out from underneath me. Not from the breakup so much as them just deciding they never wanted to speak to me again, that I was bad for their mental health, etc. which I always told them if I’m ever bad for your mental health then break up with me, and I meant it and stand by that and their decision, but it still fucking hurt.

Like if that’s what they had to do that’s what they had to do. If that’s what you have to do then that’s what you have to do. While I am of course resentful to my ex, and I hope they get hit by a car or something sometimes, I do stand by their decision that if I wasn’t good for them then I’m happy they left me behind. I don’t know if other people are going to have that same view upon being dumped. I mean like I said I still hate them. But to say that they should have stayed with me for my sake is hypocritical.

Not only that, but an issue of intimacy was occurring between us during the lead-up to the breakup. And as soon as I wasn’t with them anymore and I was able to be with Catboy instead I got a taste of what I had been missing and GOD it felt so good. For the first time ever I felt like someone actually wanted to be intimate with me. It was an amazing feeling. My ex dumping me opened up the door for me to have things I was missing in that relationship. So it wasn’t all bad, for sure.

You have to do what you have to do for yourself. You come first. If you need to break up with your partner, or take space, or whatever, you just have to go for it if you really think it’s what’s best for you.

[klaustheclock]

Ok I'm sorry to like the 1 person reading this at the moment but-

Why do people think being the favorite and golden child is a good thing?

Because I'm sorry but its the worst thing ever.

Ok I'm sorry I not trying to sound rude or inconsiderate or selfish but it's really bad and I just need to rant my heart out.

Also my situation is a little different because I got really old parents(I'm talking in their 50s).

Ok so let's start with being the "favorite child". Also I'm sorry to all the people who had to deal with worst favoritism and being the unloved child. Ok so I know being the favorite sounds amazing on surface value but it's not. I'm the youngest and you probably expect me to be a spoiled brat who gets everything and narcissistic because I'm the "favorite". But that's far from the truth. I don't get everything I want, I have extremely low self esteem and I'm not a spoiled brat. I honestly used to this that all the stereo types about favored and gifted children were true but now I realize that for me and some others it's not. I used to beat myself up for these things and tbh I still do even though I've come to terms with the fact that there not true.

This is probably due to my siblings. I have two older sisters, both of which are in high school. Because my parents favor me more I have a strained relationship with them(if you can even call it that). There both incredibly bitchy to me and shit. There rude and they criticize my every more. They beat me down whenever they get a chance, even if I'm already at rock bottom. This is probably because they think they have to make me suffer because of our parents. Which isn't fair at all. I can’t even talk to them about my feelings because they'll use it against me or they just call me sensitive and won't give two fucks. They talk to eachother about there feelings and experiences all the time and just disclude me. They also talk about me behind my back and even to our parents. At first when I was younger I thought it was just them joking around with me but I realized when I got older that it wasn't. However my parents "favor" isn't even really big. Our parents still buy then what they want despite saying they wouldn’t. So they beg and get a lot of things but the moment I ask for a book or something there mad at me and calling me a spoiled brat. Which leads me to my next point.

Being the golden/gifted child

If I had a dollar for everytime I had a mental breakdown because of my grades I'd be a million air.

So I have something called academic validation. Meaning that my self worth is solely dependent on my grades. I was always a nerd but this is just to much. My oldest sister used to be in the same role but the pressure was lighter. So when she got into high school she said fuck school and started skipping classes and shit. This was bad but it didn't help that my brother who is 21 now did the same thing but worse. It started with my brother so our parents started to put pressure on my oldest sister and me, the youngest. They said the the middle child grades were fine even though they were lower the both of ours. We were always straight A students but then my sister decided she didn't care anymore that left all the pressure on me. I was only in 5th grade at the time so it was a lot on me. When I talked to my sister about it all she said was "don't care, deal with it". And so I did.

All my middle school years was just academics. I went to a Ib league school so the work was harder than your average American school. I sill managed to keep all A's but I wasn't happy at all. I never got anything for my academics anyway. My parents just brushed it off and said, "Your smart you should get these grades anyway. We shouldn't have to be expected to give you something." All I asked for was a good job or something like that. That night I broke down completely. Then I finally realized that no matter what I do ill never be good enough for anybody. I had no good traits about me. I hear no talent, I wasn't pretty, and I wasn't really a fun person to be around. I over thought everything I did so whenever we played games I couldn't deal with the pressure. Once one of my friends told me "your the only person who I know can make the game hangman unfun." It was supposed to be a joke and we laughed it off but that made me want to cry. That day i realized from another friend that we kinda grew up to fast. Looking at it now I didn’t really have a child hood. I was always fored to play catch up with my older siblings. I always had to be on par with them to even be looked at as a human being.

I was always the one people looked for help to with was good(I love helping people) but it kinda became overwhelming. I kinda just hide it with jokes about myself. I'm the therapist friend but yet I can't tell people my feelings. I can’t talk to my parents, my sisters, my friends, and I don't have a lover. They'll either just brush it off or not care at all. It hurts a lot. This leads me to often be confined and left alone with my emotions.

Which leads to me today. The me currently writing this long ass Ted talk. I have terrible anxiety and zero self worth and I feel the need to be validated with my grades and by the people around me. But even with all this I still feel empty. Like it's just hard. I turn to books and history to try and distract me but that can only take you so far. Also I find myself comparing myself to my friends because my parents always compared me to my siblings. I feel the emine pressure to fit into the mold my teachers, friends, and parents think I am and want. I work as hard as I can but it feels like I always come short.

I apologize sincerely if this comes off as selfish or narcissistic.

I wanna try and over come this and gain confidence in myself but it seems impossible. I'm still only in the 8th grade so maybe it'll finally dawn on me. It's just wherever I try to reach out for help I feel so selfish and entitled. It's like a voice in the back of your mind telling you "People deal with so much worse than this and you have the audacity to cry at these things? You shouldn't feel this way just suck it up. Your just weak, nothings wrong with you."

Thank you for listening to my rant, I apologize for wasting your time.

[adidegmez]

the umbrella academy s4 spoilers

well the last season

ep 1

five is a CIA agent. it is so cool. ben tricked them. im glad they got their Powers back but they didnt want their Powers most of them at least. theyll be so mad at him. tom holland!

ep 2

im scared. i cant believe five didnt see what ben did. theyre so funny. I avoided spoilers, I have no idea what will happen next. why did she trust ben. they are all amazing. What does Jean and Gene want with jennifer? they almost killed them.

ep 3

im glad klaus is alive. it was a tragic accident… :') i like abigail. I hope she is what she seems. in previous seasons i didnt like the team except five. i mean i loved them at first but the decisions they made make me not liking them. but now it has been a long time i even forgot most of it. i really miss seeing them. this is the last season and i am starting to love them again. i hope they all get a happy ending.

ep 4

reginald killed ben!!!!!! ben and jennifer It scares me what they can do and I haven't seen any spoilers yet and the uncertainty scares me even more. five and lila working together i love them. well World is ending, again. but its probably okay because five will save the World.

ep 5

six years five months two days. they spent so much time there. not five and lila please. Diego and lila was good. five wouldnt do that to Diego. abigail!

ep 6

I thought there would be 8 episodes. How will they end everything now? They won't have happy endings, right? this season didnt make sense. five and lila spent so much time together but I wish they hadn't told the family. What did the writers do this season? this can't be happening. everything is going bad right now. The love trilogy was so unnecessary, I wish they hadn't done such a thing. At least they would be on good terms with each other. everyone is trying to save the World Diego and five is just fighting with eachother. five left his family. old five wouldnt do that. he would do anything to save his family just like he did in the other seasons. what did she make right? abigail ended the World. and thats why i loved five the first time. his family ended the World and he didi everything in his power to save it. but he never succeeded. but he tried. again and again. and now they want me to believe five would upset his brother. he wouldnt do that. he would focus on saving the World and his family again. i dont know if the end makes sense it kinda does but couldn't there be another way? i thought they would have a happy ending or something like that. Could they have lived if Ben hadn't given them marigold? or are they the problem not the marigold. this wasnt a happy ending, it was the opposite. Everyone lived except the people I cared about. I wanted the Umbrella Academy to get the ending they deserved but instead they are dead. why? Couldn't there really be another ending?

some stories just dont have happy endings, right? and this was one of them at least for me, yeah the World is okay. They put up a video where everyone is happy, but it's not a happy ending for me. i dont like this. I wish they had done something much different.

This story ended for better or worse. Sometimes I laughed and sometimes I cried. I'm happy to witness their adventures no matter what. and lastly, I'll probably watch the first 3 seasons again(because i need to, i need to see five and the others the way they used to be), but I'm not sure if I'll watch fourth season.

[kietakunai]

I cracked and caught up with the english translation of wet sand and I have so many conflicting feelings about it... going to slap a read more on this to not word vomit all over your dash 🤠

Even though I originally dropped it rather early on bcs the love triangle angle was too painful for me, I could not get them out of my head so I've been sort of keeping tabs on the story out of the corner of my eye to see if it would be safe coming back.

What broke me out of my self-imposed safety prison was largely twt discussions regarding translation errors + spoilers from upcoming chapters and skjdgakhgsdhksa-- I'll just be forever sad that the english translation is missing a lot of important context and nuance and the knowledge that unless you either speak korean or look up fandom analysis/discussion, you might never know what you're missing out on. I think particularly TJ suffers from mischaracterisation since he comes off as a lot meaner than he actually is when they drop all his endearments and they choose the worst literal translation of what YW says to/about him... No wonder so many eng-speaking fans think TJ is horrible and Jo is the greenest flag (but what will they think about the things that come afterrrrr ch 52 I can't wait to seeeee aaaaahhhhh) NVM the official english print release that was just announced is retranslated and Doyak looked it over to make sure 🥺 I feel bad for her having to deal with this fandom tbh but I'm also so grateful 😭

I'm such a sucker for characters that display deep, unwavering devotion and the more they reveal of TJ and YW's past the worse it gets 😭 It's so unfair many people will just take it at face value as "generic bl with toxic ml/mc/green flag ml with nice art & smut but shallow characters" bcs of translation!!! The way the author touches on things like trauma and its effect on people, the many different shapes of love, the difficulty of overcoming yourself.... I love it so much 🥺💕

Doyak's visual storytelling is amazing (I'm not that good at picking out themes, parallels etc but I love reading other people's analysis), and the more I read the more I realise this story is so much deeper than I initially thought. It's really a shame it will be deemed a niche work since it's a BL series, but it would also not be possible to tell this sort of story if it wasn't a BL series.

Some spoilers: I originally said I came back because I regained faith in TJ/YW but there are still obstacles to be overcome if that point is to be reached. Still, after ch 52, I am almost certain it can't be Jo. TJ has sacrificed everything for YW and has shaped his entire life around him. It's a mutually codependent and complicated love born from their circumstances back then/over time, but I think Jo as the catalyst for them breaking out of their toxic loop is the answer... They have both done things to eachother they shouldn't have, but there was never any actual malicious intentions and I genuinely believe they can heal from it together if they would just talk about it 😭 I know many people brush off Jo's sa of YW in ch 52 "it was consensual until YW passed out" (🤢🤢🤢), but from the way Doyak is telling the story, I don't think a character who does this to the mc can end up with him (even though YW has no knowledge of what happened, bcs, well, he was unconscious :))). I have difficulty seeing any way of Jo recovering from this (actually I'm rather more interested in seeing his obsession with YW sending him into spiral).

The biggest problem rn is that, as people have pointed out, it might not be correctly tagged as a tragedy until it's over as to not spoil possible endings....... and if death is a possibility, my favourites usually die. Send help, I am scared 😭

[imbadatnamesss]

I've seen a bunch of posts criticizing and defending movie Adrien and like I feel like I can't fully agree with either of them.

In the beginning I LOVED movie Adrien. I liked how as Adrien he had much more personality than just "a nice kid" and his interactions cat noir with ladybug during their first fight were amazing. After that, though, it immediately started falling apart.

One of my biggest issues with the movie for both Adrien and Matinette is how fast they fall in love with their respective counterparts. Adrien bothered me a lot more though. They meet once and fight together and he's immediately so in love he needs to sing a (all be honest very cute) song about how much he love her??? It just felt so abrupt and irritating. Especially since it was kinda refreshing to see a cat noir not being obsessed with ladybug for once.

The next few Adrien scenes after this are cute but just fell kinda flat for me since cat noirs song reallt took away the feeling that these two were getting to know eachother and falling in love, since he had already decided ladybug was the one for him seconds after they met.

This all builds up to where movie Adrien is completely ruined for me, the ending. My biggest gripe with show Adrien is that he constantly places drama with ladybug and his love life over litteraly saving people in need. His reason for being a superhero shifts from the goodness of his heart and enjoying the freedom to just being about seeing ladybug and it makes his so much more unlikable.

When Paris is litteraly on fire and ladybug is fighting hawkmoth solo its so infuriating to watch Adrien just mope around cause "he's a sad rejected boy." Whats worse is when he finally realizes he should do his damn job he had the nerve to be a dick to ladybug who's been solo protecting the city while he has his little pity party. I thought he'd get down there and see how bad things were and feel awful that he ignored ladybugs call but no.

I don't need Adrien to be a perfect character. Flaws are what make characters interesting and relatable but in the show and now the movie, they writers seem determined to never have Adrien deal with the consequences of his actions and pettiness. I'm sick of it.

[donnietheterrapin]

my rant (and tmnt hcs) about having tourettes

tourettes grgrgrrggrgrgrggr (tmnt hcs after the cut) i fucking hate having tourettes like my tics arent that severe most of the time but sometimes its fucking debilitating and painful like right now I've hit my head with my wrist so many times my ear hurts and I feel like I'm going to pass out (which I felt like anyways, but now its worse) and I have a headache on top of that so yippiieeeeeeeee I feel so great so good so amazing mhm yep I'm doing SO SO GOOD!!!! /s

ok so headcanons they all have tourettes because I say so Donnie's tics include: shaking his right hand, hitting oneself in the head involuntarily with his palm, clicking his tongue, rolling his eyes back and falling for a second, repeated head and shoulder jerks, and gargled crunchy munchy screams

Mikey's are mainly verbal, and he has really bad echolalia on top of that, so you get a lot of "Yippie!"s and small "fuck!"s. He also has a spitting/blowing out air tic that he absolutely hates

Leo's tics are really minor, but they can get super prevalent during hallucinations. This includes giggling/laughing, tilting her head, and contorting her body to the right (like pulling her hip up, and head down to the right)

Raph has swears for sure. Also punching tics. He also makes "pow"s and funnily enough, fart noises. He's so embarrassed by it that sometimes he will just stay in his room during really bad tic attacks just so his siblings don't hear the "ptbhhbybrbvvv"s of shame

Before any of the turts told Casey they had tics, April was talking about funny stories with the turts, and she started to talk about one time when raph screamed "fuck" so loud that a mom and her kid started looking through the sewer grate into the dojo to see where it had come from, while simultainiously setting off Donnie and Mikey's tics, which also set of Leo's and they just sat in the pit for a few hours, just ticcing and trying to talk to eachother about nonsense to distract them.

Of course, casey didnt know though, so April started to tell the story, but stopped before realizing she couldn't tell Casey the rest without outing the turts as tourettes havers.

Casey was very confused, because april's exact diolog was "And this one time, Raph… uh… nevermind, I can't tell you that one." Casey was curious as always, and tried whining and moping until april would tell him. After she refused a few times, he went to Raph.

"So, april was telling me a story and-" He and raph heard a loud clatter coming from Donnie's room. They were both concerned, and walked into Donnie's room, to see him bent over, grabbing a trash lid he had dropped, repeatedly jerking his head to his left and making a clicking noise with his tongue.

Casey was worried Donnie was having some kind of seizure, and rushed over to check on him. Raph just stood back and went "You g-good don?" (Donnie's tics were starting to effect raph's tic suppression, causing a stutter.) Donnie was like "Yea- click -ah."

Casey was confused, and Donnie, only now processing that Casey was there and was reasonably confused and worried, began to slowly explain what tourettes was to casey.

Casey was confused, never hearing of the disorder in detail before, only online snippets, but was glad that Donnie was ok. He put his hand on top of Donnie's, and thanked him for telling "Casey Jones".

Donnie was confused, but nodded. "Yeah, no problem. Not dying yet!"

Raph butt in, still standing in the doorway, "Oh yeah, Me, Mikey, and Leo have it too." They all have different suppression tactics too.

Donnie takes deep breaths.

Raph stomps and runs in place, shaking his hands near his plastron to "get the tics out".

Mikey shakes his right arm as far away from him as possible.

Leo just wills it away. She takes deep breaths, but she just mentally pushes it away and it helps her a lot.

Donnie was the one who diagnosed them all at 14. Donnie had already had tics for a while but had never researched it, choosing to hide it instead for fear of being seen as "broken" or "uncontrollable", until Leo and Raph started having uncontrollable tic attacks. Donnie then decided that he would research it, and found a wiki article on Tourettes Syndrome that matched up with most if not all of their symptoms. Mikey later developed tics as well, but he developed slightly later in life, Leo and Raph's tics triggering his own. And those are my hcs :)

[faysgeekystuff]

I honestly think that people forget that Snape gave as good as he got. This was not a one sided thing, but two people who hated eachother attacking one another. Snape is not an innocent victim in this. We see Snapes worst memory in the movie but very little of anything else from the books. This leads tons of movie only watchers to praise Severus Snape and hate James Potter. I'm not excusing either one of them because they are both complex charcters who have good traits and bad traits. And neither are innocent in their attacking one another. But there is a HUGE forgiveness from the HP fandom for Snape and a massive crucifixion towards James, mainly caused by the movies.

One thing I don't think people realize is that Snape is a legitimate bully to children in the books. He's an adult and he spends time tormenting the children of the people he hated in school, and anyone else he thought was below him. A 30 year old man who bullied the children in his care so bad that he is one of those childs biggest fear. That's not inconsequential. He is also the inventor of multiple dangerous spells, such as Levicorpus and Sectumsempra, spells meant to hurt others. How do you think James learned levicorpus in Snape's memory? Not to mention he willingly joined an organization whose goal was to kill certain group of people because of they way they were born.

None of this is to disregard what he did later in life. He was beyond brave when he switched sides and spied for Dumbledore, constantly in danger of death if discovered. And he was key in the defeat of Voldemort and a massively important part of the whole Harry Potter series. But he is not some paragon of good. In general he's actually a pretty terrible guy. He is a complex character and Alan Rickmans portrayal of him caused many people who would hate him in the books to love him in the movies.

I'm not forgetting that James was a bully and did bully other kids, hexing anyone he felt like. That's also terrible, and could cause lifelong effects depending on the severity. We can see that in Snape. But we were told by multiple charcters that he grew to realize it was wrong and stopped it. The only one who he didn't stop hexing was Snape who was actively hexing him as well. That is also something to consider. He grew to realize he was wrong, admitted it, and went on to change himself. Admitting you were wrong and doing things to change it takes a lot of bravery. Much like Snape when he decided to switch sides when he realized he was wrong. One of these is more extreme than the other but both are admirable.

James was not just a bully, he was a loyal friend who was extremely generous to others. Giving out money, a place to live to someone who needed it, risking his life to save the life of the person be hated, fought in a war to help as many people as he could when he was just 18 years old, defying a man who has murdered hundreds of people on three occasions, and sacrificing his life to try and save his wife and child. That sounds like he is an amazing person when its put like that but that does not disregard the fact that he was a bully. At the same time him being a bully does not mean he didn't do tons of brave and GOOD things.

It may look like I was only defending James with this but I want to heavily emphasize that neither of these characters were 100% good or 100% bad. They are intricate, complex characters who have done both good and bad things. Some bad things worse than the other. We shouldn't define either by one single scene that was not even explained in the movies. That disrespects both of their characters. I don't hate or love either one of them, but I do see a large discrepancy between forgiveness of two characters who regularly attacked one another.

Bullying is a complex issue with multiple grey areas. It is not just bully = bad person for the rest of their life. That leads down a slippery slope that could eventually lead to anytime someone makes a mistake or does something bad it means that they are 100% a bad person. Now there are certain things that are unforgivable in my opinion r*pe or murder being my first thoughts, but what is unforgivable depends largely on your morals and your thoughts. Is an 11 year old calling a classmate a terrible name for a couple years forgivable? Is an adult berating a child constantly for no reason other than disliking them forgivable? Is an 8 year old mocking a special needs kid for a couple of months forgivable? Is a 6 year old pushing the same kid down at recess every day forgivable? Is a 15 year old stealing things and harassing a classmate everyday forgivable? Are two 16 year olds physically attacking one another forgivable? Are they all terrible people for the rest of their lives? These are all examples of bullying and I'm sure there is no one correct answer to these. You might say this is forgivable but that one is not while someone else might say the reverse.

The Snape Potter debate is a long standing debate in the HP Fandom but it is largely what you find forgivable. Many people are willing to forgive characters they like far more than the characters that they hate. Even more so if the character the hate hurt a character they love. They'll make the actions of the hated character exponentially worse because they feel protective of the character they love. People will forgive Snape for being an active participant as a Death Eater because he put his life on the line to be a spy. People will forgive James for being a bully because he put his life on the line to fight against genocide. People will not forgive Snape for bullying children as an adult because he hurt Neville, Harry, Hermione, etc. People will not forgive James because he attacked Snape 4 on 1 in one of Snapes most traumatizing memories. We all have different opinions on the matter but it is not as black and white as a single memory makes it out to be.

A study into fandom hate of James Potter.

[rinwellisathing]

It's A Thankless Job: Part 7

The restful days spent in the park and relaxing with time off from work had done well for Jaina. She was on a rare streak of good days rather than bad and for that, she was grateful. Karlach was out leading a physical therapy session at the gym and Scratch and Nibble were sleeping soundly in the living room, giving her and Wyll some time to themselves. Her hands explored his sculpted chest eagerly, enjoying the feeling of the muscles beneath his smooth flesh. His body was so warm, not quite as warm as Karlach's, but far warmer than her own, and the slickness of his sweat added a surprisingly pleasant sensation. Her legs were currently wrapped around his hips as his smooth, gentle thrusts pistoned deep into her tight slit. Her tail entwined lovingly with his as she leaned up, pressing their foreheads together with a blissful smile. “I love you” She breathed, before pressing her lips to his. He smiled into the kiss, arms wrapped protectively around her shoulders, cradling her body to his as his pace quicked. “I love you too.” He replied before kissing her again, deeply, hungrily, as he buried his cock inside her fully, feeling her clench around him as they released together. They laid there a while, cuddled close together, curled up protectively around eachother, eyes drifting closed as sleep claimed them on their lazy afternoon together. By the time Karlach returned, smiling fondly and chuckling as she pulled a blanket up over them, they were fast asleep. It didn't bother her when they spent time alone together, after all, she had the same opportunities with each of them and then there were the times all three of them spent together. She had to admit to herself, however, that she felt she'd been a little unfair to Jaina since her illness had gotten worse. She thought back to when they were first together, when she and Jaina had time together while Wyll was at work or simply not in the mood and excused himself to watch something in the other room or go for a walk, the sex had been wild, intense, eager and playful. The doublesided toy the two fondly referred to as 'The Narwhal Horn' with its spiraling pattern came to mind. But lately, she'd been nervous, cautious, always afraid to go too hard and cause Jaina to faint or worsen her symptoms. She knew the other woman was disappointed that things had changed and she knew Jaina hated to be treated like a fragile doll, but she was so afraid of hurting her. The partners before Jaina and Wyll haunted her, the ones from before she'd gotten help after the medical trial...She could remember the burning flesh, the cries of pain, she never wanted to hurt Jaina or Wyll like that.

She was pulled from those thoughts by a pair of cool, smooth hands pressing over her eyes and a sweet little kiss on her neck. “Guess who?” Karlach grinned and took Jaina's hand in hers, bringing it to her lips. “Hey, you. Had fun while I was out?” “I did.” She replied. “But, with all the rest and recuperation so to speak, I could be ready for more.” Her tone was hopeful, coy and playful. Karlach smiled sadly, squeezing her lover's hand gently. “Yeah, I'm just not in the mood right now, y'know? Still a bit sore from the class and all. Wanna watch a movie instead?” To Jaina's credit, she hid her disappointment well and simply smiled and nodded. “Yeah. So...are we thinking horror? Rom Com? There's that new super hero one too...Or, you know me, I'm always up for anything with pirates!” “If only there were a rom com about zombie pirates, then we wouldn't need to choose, right?” Karlach chuckled with a somewhat cheesy grin. “That's an amazing idea, we should be making movies.” Jaina shoved her shoulder playfully with a little laugh.

The two cuddled on the couch, Jaina's arms around Karlach's waist, while Karlach draped her arm over Jaina's shoulder. Jaina's pale head rested against Karlach's chest, purring like a contented kitten as she enjoyed the warmth and the gentle glow. --- The next day, Jaina and Karlach both returned to work, but Wyll still had some time off the chief had insisted he take. The old man was very strict about the matter, one couldn't save lives while suffering from burnout and caring for others started with caring for one's self. But with that said, Wyll wasn't sure what to do with himself with this much time on his hands. He preferred to be busy. After his walk with Nibbles and Scratch, he laid back on the couch, a re-run of Tavern Terrors on in the background, the stocky halfling monologuing to the camera about the state of the walk in freezer at some gaudy place in Neverwinter. He was only half listening as he noticed a card on the coffee table, picking it up and looking it over. Kroger's number greeted him from the other side and he wondered briefly if he should give it a try, turning the card between his fingers as he thought. Finally, he took out his phone and made the call, waiting anxiously as it rang. After about three rings, a voice picked up.

“Ghustil Kroger here.” “Hey, ah...this is Wyll Ravengard, we met doing that safety assembly at the school and then you helped my partner?” Wyll smiled. “Oh, yes. It's good to hear from you. Has Miss Thalassia been well since her visit?” Kroger asked, his voice even and calm. “She has. Thank you for your help. I think the rest has been good for her.” Wyll replied, his tone warm and grateful. “Listen, I was actually calling to see if you had some free time today, maybe you'd like to grab a coffee or something?” Kroger was quiet a moment as though taken aback. “A social call?” He was quiet again, but his tone didn't sound displeased, rather more surprised. Finally he responded, a hint of shyness in his otherwise unflinching tone. “Yes, that would be...nice. Around noon?” “Sounds great.” Wyll beamed. --- When Wyll walked into the coffee shop, he found Kroger already sitting at a table with two comfortable chairs in a pleasantly lit spot near the window. A mug of black coffee with just a bit of cream and sugar sat in front of him and Wyll noticed there was also a mug in front of the empty seat, as he sat down, the smell of caramel and espresso filled his nose. “I told the barista I was waiting for you, he knew your order automatically. He also refused payment.” Kroger remarked with a small smile. “So, we spoke already about Miss Thalassia, but how are you doing? Being a caregiver can be trying even for someone you love.” “I'm alright all things considered.” Wyll shrugged, taking a sip of his drink. The temperature was perfect. How could Kroger have been certain enough he'd arrive on time to be confident putting in the order. The Githyanki nodded, eyes closing gently for a moment as he savored a slow sip of his coffee. “Mm...So my assessment of you is fairly accurate. Punctual, considerate of others to a fault, and a pillar of the community. Good. I was afraid my ability to read people would be useless outside of a Creche.” “That's what your people call their compounds, right?” Wyll asked, looking the other man over curiously. He felt his face flush a little, was he really so easy to read? Then was Kroger already aware of his attraction to him?

“Yes, exactly. The one my sisters and I came from was fairly typical, which is to say firmly under the thumb of our religious leader. I have to admit, I like your societies better. What Istik lack in a sense of structure, you make up for with variety and, surprisingly enough, the way your people care for eachother.” He mused, looking around with a small, appreciative smile on his thin lips. “It might not seem that way all the time, but the simple fact I was able to set up my clinic and garner the support I have is proof enough to me that maybe you all have the right idea.” Wyll nodded his approval. “I think you're right, that's why I love this city...By and large it is full of good people who will do the right thing when it comes down to it, I truly believe that.”

Kroger inclined his head and took another sip of his coffee before looking up to gaze appreciatively at the other man. Handsome, good-hearted, and likely in need of some care himself. The Githyanki hesitated for just a moment and then, he dared to bring up the topic he had wanted to since they'd agreed to meet today. “You know, what you and your partners have is such a special thing. You all genuinely seem to care for each other. It seems like a wonderful thing to experience.” Wyll cocked his head curiously. “You're not in a relationship yourself, Kroger?” It was surprising, the man was a doctor and looked more like one who had stepped out of a soap opera with his well styled dusty blonde hair and those impossible to ignore green eyes. “No, I'm afraid not. I had....trouble...connecting with others back at the Creche and when my sisters and I came here, I was very focused on my work, there just wasn't any time.” Kroger admitted, stirring absently at his coffee as he looked out the window a moment. Wyll cleared his throat and took a quick sip of his drink before responding. “Well, I mean if it isn't too forward of me to offer, we could certainly meet up again, and this time for an actual date if you like. I just have to clear it with Jaina and Karlach, but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't interested.”

Kroger's eyes widened and his smile brightened, sharp, perfectly white teeth glinting in the light of the coffee shop, it was an awkward smile, but a genuine one. “Really? Well, of course I understand we would need their permission first, but yes, I would like that.” He beamed. --- “The doctor? He was pretty handsome.” Jaina giggled when Wyll brought up the subject at dinner the following night. “Not to mention, he seemed nice.” “Well, I certainly don't have any objections. He seems like a good guy to have around and if you get along well, who knows?” Karlach nodded. “Besides, it's not like he doesn't know about me and Jaina, so that's already a plus, no awkward explanations and judgments and all that.” “Thanks, you two.” Wyll smiled gratefully as he stood up to clear their plates. “Wonderful meal as always, Karlach.” “You know I save my best work for you guys.” She winked as she scraped some scraps of bacon and chicken onto two small plates and set them on the floor for Scratch and Nibbles. “So, it sounds like maybe we should plan a date too, Karlach, you know, so Wyll doesn't feel too bad about leaving us home.” Jaina gave a teasing little grin. “We could see that new monster movie and check out the book store.” She batted her eyelashes playfully. Karlach folded her arms across her chest and gave a mock-chastising look. “Jaina, NO! Bad! You have a backlog of books a mile long.” “Oh come on, reading is good for you. Wyll, back me up!” Jaina pouted, her stormy blue eyes shifting back and forth between her partners.

“I'm afraid I've got to agree with Karlach on this one, my love. If we have to buy one more bookshelf, they're going to start blocking windows and doors.” Wyll laughed as he scrubbed deftly at a plate before carefully placing it in the drying rack.

“Besides, you literally work in a library. You know you're also allowed to borrow the books, not just your customers, right?” Karlach added as though she'd only just thought of it. “Alright, alright, what if I promise not to buy anything but coffee....and maybe a scented candle.” Jaina offered. “Well, if that's...” Karlach trailed off as she looked at her phone for a moment, a small notification ping sounding. “.....Oh fuck...” Her expression soured, her grip on her phone tightening. “Karlach?” Jaina cocked her head to one side, concern crossing her face. “No fucking way...he can't....he wouldn't....” She was shaking a bit now. Wyll fully abandoned the dishes, walking over slowly and cautiously. He could see Karlach was distressed, something had gone beyond souring the mood and had sent her into a spiral, he could only guess it was something to do with her trauma, from the way it had immediately sent her into a panic. “Can you take a few deep breaths for me, love?” Jaina gently brushed her fingers across Karlach's hand, when Karlach didn't push her away, she gently gripped her hands in hers, fingertips massaging her wrists soothingly. She could feel the warmth of Karlach's skin growing.

“Look.” Karlach pulled one hand free of Jaina's and held up her phone. An image on a social media feed, Jaina and Wyll recognized it as some model Karlach liked, even to the point of moderating some of his pages sometimes. He was some edgy young guy, around Jaina's age probably, another tiefling. 'XxPreciousLittleBhaalBabexX: Glamming it up at some hoity toity gala nonsense. Look at me dating 'above my station' and all that!' The picture that accompanied the post was a tiefling boy in his early twenties with a pretty face marked with black tattoos and a burn scar across it. He was dressed in a finely tailored black suit with red skulls embroidered on the lapels, his silver hair slicked back and his eyes lined heavily with black makeup. He wore fine silver jewelry but what had set Karlach off was the man whose arm he was clinging to with the hand that he wasn't using to snap the selfie. He was in his 30's or 40's with light brown skin and dark tousled hair. He wore a fine black suit with gold filigree embroidered on it and his dark emerald, almost black eyes gazed smugly out at the viewer. Enver Gortash. “Oh shit....Karlach, I'm so sorry...” Jaina bit her lip, one hand going immediately to her mouth. “Maybe he doesn't know what that guy is really like?” Wyll offered. “I mean, nothing against his work, but models and influencers aren't generally very focused on politics.” “Yeah...maybe he doesn't...” Karlach breathed heavily, slowly lowering herself back into her chair, trying to keep herself calm. “But do I tell him? I'm not exactly close with the guy, just a big fan...He might get pissed at me...But fucking hell, how can I not, though? That guy ruined my fucking life and now he just gets to waltz around going to fancy fucking parties, running for office, and dating someone way out of his league. It's bullshit!” “If people knew what he was really like, all the garbage he has his hands in, they wouldn't vote for him.” Jaina pointed out. “Or if someone people could really trust were to run against him....” “But right now he's running unopposed....Ulder Ravengard just straight up stepped down.” Karlach sighed, resting her head on her palms and scowling.

“Well, people liked him, though I really can't fathom how considering his absolutely appalling treatment of his own family...” Jaina began. “Jaina, enough...We agreed not to talk about that...” Wyll tensed, looking away as his hand went to Scratch's ear, gently massaging the velvety soft fur for comfort as the dog gave an appreciative sigh and leaned into the touch. “Sorry....I just can't believe...” She stopped herself with a deep breath and a nod. “Okay, I'll drop it.”

The mood for the evening had taken a somber turn. Jaina excused herself to go and resume the book she'd been reading, fixing herself a cup of mint tea and cocooning herself in the ocean colored blanket her mother had crocheted for her last winter. She curled up on the couch, with a softly spoken cantrip, lit her scented candle, and disappeared into the world of her story. Karlach disappeared into the guest room where her workout equipment was after popping in her earbuds and opening a fairly loud playlist to drown out the world. Wyll could hear the shifting and clanging of weights as Karlach lost herself in her routine. Wyll looked back to the sink. The dishes could soak a bit longer, he needed some air. “Well, come on boys, looks like you'll get a bonus walk tonight.” He smiled softly at Scratch and Nibble, the dog jumping to attention, tail wagging in excitement. Nibble waddled over to the shelf by the door and collected the leashes in his beak, bringing them over and dropping them at Wyll's feet before plopping down in front of him and gazing up at him with those huge, luminous eyes.

[youngvolcanoes]

getting health related anxiety issues sucks so bad but do you know what's worse?? experiencing trauma, which often triggers chronic illnesses etc, and convincing yourself that This Is It every time your body starts doing strange inexplicable things lmaoooo