#they can go fuck themselves LMFAO

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

Hiii everyone, say, how do your Hawkes go go about sharing their estate? If they do it at all? Is everyone free to come and go or are they more private? Or do they only invite their LI to stay? I'm curious!! :)

[rapidhighway]

Too many members of my family are total pieces of shit and they looove sitting around together and talking about how cool they are, how much they like each other and how their kids don't want to talk to them anymore

[paperhats-and-evil-schemes]

Me: //brushing up on my old Paperhat fanfics to make sure I'm getting details right for the new one//

Me @ my past readers:

[ishikawayukis]

how hateful and evil do you have to be to literally wish someone would die over a "fanwar" that you started in the first place, and then have the guts to say "but if i wish that i would be the bad guy". yeah man of course you would be what the fuck? how miserable do you have to be to be constantly spreading straight up hate just because someone spoke "ill" about your faves, dedicating your whole life to constantly hunt people down and wish they would hurt themselves because what, a comment they made could be linked to your faves? because of possible critisism? it's just insane to me and i genuinely cannot wrap my head around going these kind of lengths for a fucking celebrity, for anyone really. it's just so fucking heartless and evil and for fucking what, some twisted satisfaction that you made someone as miserable as you are? fucking mind blowing

[echthr0s]

usually I reinteract with media when a new instalment in its franchise is about to come out (like I'll rewatch a movie if a sequel is coming out, that sort of thing) because my memory is jacked up but also because it's a fun way to reimmerse myself in the world and get proper hype for the new thing

however. the very idea of replaying DA:I. my god. kill me

[rowanisawriter]

satan: i hate to look upon the sun, to see its glorious beams and remember how glorious i also was once, before pride and worse ambition brought me to war against heaven and heaven’s king… in my misery which way shall i fly? infinite wrath, infinite despair, whichever way i fly is hell, myself is hell—

god watching satan (ugly crying) from his lofty golden Throne: None Of This Is My Fault

[jrueships]

You think lu bottoms

i don't think Anything, delightful little anon,

i Know .

[999-roses]

unpacking 'sinophone' and its sinophobic roots

so. it never occurred to me to just type "sino diaspora" into google before.

and google is like "oi!! you meant sinophone yeah? here's wikipedia on sinophone" and here's like the other top results

I'm squinting. What the hell do you academics have against diaspora using the term diaspora?? I click.

inb4 this whole rant: I have no qualms with using sinophone as a language-family-use descriptor (like sinophone media), but coming from academia or as an academic field unto itself. but. the literature about wanting to use it as a demographics thing & separate it from "chineseness". just. looook if anyone knows that they're no longer like this let me know. with what im seeing, im having a bad faith moment

so... this is the academic that's hard pushed the term for sinophone.

"crit on orientalism might be complicit for allowing Chinese intellectuals to call themselves victim under an 'unreflective' nationalism" & "but the flipside may be a new imperialism" yeah?? any more unsubstantiated claims???

What a joke!! Clearly only takes authority about Chinese history from western sources, like literally has the uncritical echo of "X country doesn't deserve territorial integrity" that literally fueled western imperialism, and not just of China. Treaty of Nanjing 1842 ringing no bells? Sigh. National sovereignty is the barest basis against overt imperialism where someone just comes over and declares where you live their colony!!! ... is this a test in how far can you stretch the definition of imperialism or colonization? lmfao, China invests in poverty-relieving measures like building houses and improving infrastructure out in Tibet, Guizhou, Xinjiang, and you have the audacity to call that colonizing?!? 我真无言了。

different article by the same person:

laughable to think that the Chinese state even bothers to think I exist, let alone talk to me about my diaspora status. (I was born in the US)

also, people are really out there saying 'diaspora has an end date' huh

here it is. here is the 'scholar' conflating American or western imperialism with things Big Bad Scary Red China does.

Clearly mixing up concepts of tributary system with colonialism, and acting like historically (other than Yuan era under Genghis) that ancient China/Chinese culture was expansionist, going around trying to conquer peoples and set up colonies. Admiral Zheng He would spit on you.

Comparing the spread of culture and language in Ancient China to the colonization and subjugation that the French/Belgium did in Africa, or the British Empire, or the Spanish and Portuguese in Latin America, is so blatantly dishonest. The indigenous people of Tibet, Inner Mongolia, and Xinjiang still speak their own languages and use their own scripts, and yes, they learn them in schools alongside the national language... which is Chinese!!! Yes the Hanyu writing system was adopted and adapted by many neighboring cultures in ancient times, but you literally don't examine WHY? The fluidity in its system: frequently non-Han peoples invented characters to suit their language, like there's even some Canto-specific characters that are in use today. Another reason that Chinese writing system was so popular was because two Sinitic language speakers who do not speak the same language could communicate through the same script. Yeah, Ancient Chinese scholars and dignitaries often had an insufferable elite-ness and superiority complex, but describing their attitude as subjugating and forcing other people to adopt their system? What a wildly malicious mischaracterisation!

just... mask off, gringo butt-licker.

Please. where is the "Chinese containment" policy? The white papers reaffirming what the international community agrees, what Taiwan historically agrees (tho Taiwan held that it was the true capital/head of all of China), that Taiwan is part of China?? I know this article was written back in 2010s but are you seriously comparing American weapons deals and boots on the ground with Chinese military exercises in Chinese territory that haven't harmed a single civilian? "critical" my ass!

gotta love the title of this one. yeah, I know it, I've seen it before. the Chinese or feminist binary, pick a side /s

but hey in this piece she admits she's ignorant and unobjective and out of her league sometimes?

edit: found this:

yeah that about seals it for me. anti"diaspora" sinophobe

[citriarchive]

mmm...wanna ramble about character villain arcs once my brain is a little more settled. all of my characters are fucked up but only one is fucked up and evil. hi sareash.

[mgsdelta]

being poor is literally so miserable

[kavehater]

Well now I just feel used ? 🧍‍♀️

[abyssalpriest]

From the Abyssal Heart: Bodies, 17/7/24

Channellings of points on the star, presuming the title Bodies can be put on this. Speaking of, all titles here are presumed, all details felt out and channelled, not specifically consciously translated into official forms

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(Hidden) Secret:

The unspoken, the core mystery.

The unknown driving, the scent of blood, the unspoken, intangible. The future tense of time.

Provides motivation, the expulsion of Time from and to the Black Hole, the driving force of recognition of Self and Other

Ideally knowingly placed above and below, both stood on and looked towards, both ignored and sought. Intelligent and purposeful seeking of the (Hidden) Secret requires understanding it as both grasped and never touched, and having it both ruling and inconsequentially overruled and ignored in life.

Community:

The collective soul, worship, support, communal thoughts and both giving and taking

The cohesion of the community, the communal bodies, the Leviathan as a collective of bodies

This goes beyond mere feelings, and is not found just in literal senses, instead being a tangible-intangible medium between

The collective, the external environment-body to be experienced and changed and lived in

Ideally supported, nourished, but sustained as both separate and unified. It is a creature of many different flavours of all things, including good and bad, and it will never be cohesive in conscious mind agreements. Ideally it should be understood like a body is - in that its vascular system and organs and such should be understood as things to be nurtured and that need nourishment, understanding the various ebbs and flows it experiences both beyond and containing conscious divisions.

Sacrifice:

Ritual, burden, portioning off that which is or could be had to be given to something else

What is done to sustain the community, to keep the collective body fed, as well as nourishing multiple parts of the self, environment, and community at once

Not necessarily about giving from the singular to feed the community, but what is done and given to perpetuate the community - including the individual. Includes sacrificing conscious peace of mind to accept what is needed.

This is the act of giving and letting go, as well as building, working, putting things from "unclassified" and "unused" into the category of "materials" and "used", as well as the harnessing of the things in use

Plays a key role in identities and roleplay, the sustaining of the community and the amplification of uses of resources through giving and taking in identity-based exchanges

Ideally consciously taken part in, as all these heading are. There is a time to give and a time to take, and those are paradoxically always. Feeding the community should feed the self, the self can be fed alongside the community, there are calls we all feel towards sustaining something(s) and those should be consciously interacted with and approached with openness. Sacrifice is the fire that keeps the village warm, and that nourishes the earth with ash.

(Revealed) Secrets:

Divine mystery/revelation, knowing innately

The knowledge that is lived, embodied, known by the self through both mind and matter - or transcending just conscious mind. The present and past sense of time.

Ideally sustained for power. This is a religion where canines forever circle around and with us, the nose is a sacred object just as the paws are, and they know the dirt better than our conscious minds. All types of knowing are knowing, and while the conscious mind is a tool and an innate part of the self not to be ignored, all minds, all knowledge, is valuable. Memory - including muscle memory - boundaries between self and past lives, self and other-than-human instincts, self and unconscious self, none of these barriers need to be barriers and can instead be individual eyes to see the world, and ideally the self should allow itself to encompass all parts of the self that enable and improve navigation through the world.

Self:

Identity, core self expression, the clothed body, the solar system around and including the sun

Not the True Self outside of and detached from Reality, but the living self. The individualised body, including tight-knit groups, it's the individual words in the dictionary as their own things with lives outside and inside the language.

The embodied self, the Mind and Matter dancing together, Ardhanarishvara, the self as a single thing even amongst multiplicity.

Ideally kept dancing, expressing, balanced with meditative being. There is no dichotomy between the soul and the body if one understands all as information, and there is no more real god between Consciousness and Matter. Both exist to know and be known, even if one seeks Consciousness above all else, existence in a body doesn't have to be perceived as a trap, instead ideally one should seek expression: Be Consciousness, express Matter, become Real.

Transformation:

Movement, surrender, metamorphosis

The surrender of states and selfhood and so on. If Sacrifice is using the ritual, this would be the ritual itself, the means, the candle that is burned in a spell.

The self in movement surrendered to the ritual, surrendered to change, but also wielding that change.

Ideally stepped into with bravery, understanding the time to ebb and flow conscious to subconscious to unconscious to un-self and back again. Understanding traversal, understanding the maps of existence, and using them to travel into the unknown, and in lieu of them using signs from both the environment and the True Self to navigate, is the ideal form of transformation

[girltomboy]

Mom texted me saying she took grandma to get x-rays and they told her she has her lungs filled with fluids and an enlarged heart... I got sad and worried and spent my entire day meditating on my experience with grief and mortality and especially trying to put myself in my grandma's shoes. Wondering if she's ever thought about death, if she's scared of it or something else. She sure has experience with loss but I don't think that can compare to facing your own mortality, or that it makes it any easier. To cope with that feeling or awareness. I've also been thinking about my mom and how she's probably feeling extremely overwhelmed. Idk what she's gonna do, she likely won't be able to stay with grandma for an extended period of time, but grandma will MOST likely not want to move in with her and my stepdad. And mom probably feels really alone too, she has all this stuff weighing down on her and no one is there for her to support her. I wish I could be there for her. I've been sad and thinking about her all day, and missing her. My heart breaks for her because she's totally dependent on my stepdad, if something happened to him she would have to move back home, and if something were to happen to grandma she would just be there alone. Her sister is institutionalised, no other siblings or family except some cousins. Idk I've just been thinking of all the logistics in my family and worst case scenarios. Mars is conjunct Chiron in my 8H so I'm a bit overwhelmed by a myriad of emotions.

[fantabulisticity]

Got my tax return back -- as a physical check with a passive aggressive slip of paper telling me to get a bank and use direct deposit. Even though I wrote down my routing and account number in the spaces provided so they COULD use direct deposit. They just chose not to, I guess 🙄

[reignbowarbiter]

i hate my dad… my mom is busy the whole day cleaning cooking and doing his chores and he comes home and acts so tired when he doesnt even do anything at his job except gossip and send emails and he still expects more from her

[kavehater]

YOOOO HIGH DISTINCTION IN PHARMACY NO FUCKING WAY