#they are saving that for a MOMENT tm
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I just learned something very shocking to me.
#twisted wonderland#twst#lilia vanrouge#twst silver#he never actually did it?!#lilia my guy get on that!#they are saving that for a MOMENT tm#i cant believe one of my favorite Lilia and Silver dialogues is a lie...#silver calls lilia Old Man (affectionate) tm VERBALLY RECIPROCATE PEEPAW!
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Die Alone: The Coruscant Guard Christmas Special
Allās calm and quiet on Coruscant, for once - the Senateās either gone home to celebrate the universally beloved Xeshmas with their closest, or is attending the annual festive bash at the Spakatomi Splaza buildings, sponsored by Chandrila. At 79ās, a horde of merry Commanders get together to bask in the Xeshmas spirit (red, green and white shots) and celebrate another year survived. But wait, Bacara groans into someoneās boots only thirty minute into their jolly bash, where the kriff is Fox? Ignored the invite again?
A strange feeling comes over Cody. He spent the entire day brooding, telling everyone who would listen that he has the strangest sensation of having forgotten something important and being told it canāt be that important if heās forgotten it (Wooley) or to quit being such a partypooper (Rex). Now, it dawns on him.
He never sent that comm to Fox.
To be entirely fair, Fox probably couldnāt have attended either way - stuck as he is as the singular vod on babysitting shift at the empty Senate building. Still, it wouldāve been nice to at least hear from some of the others, considering he saw them all loiter towards the clubbing district on security cams anyways. Now, here he sits and gathers dust - as a glorified secretary while his brothers are off partying or on security detail at Spakatomi Splaza.
Fox heaves a deep sigh and traces expletives in the thin film of dust on the reception desk. One positive of this whole thing - for once, heās safe from being accosted and having slurs thrown at him by uppity senate staff, or, Force forbid, being called on a special mission by the Chancellor. Heās safely in his Nubian mansion by now, thank the Galaxy.
Thire and Ballsy are heading the party security, which, most ridiculous kriffing thing heās had to assign troopers to in a long time. He wouldāve doomed himself to it, but the Chancellor specially requested he man the desks and empty Senate. Fox is, after all, the best of the best.
Kriffing Xeshmas parties. Mothma, whoās usually capable of critical thought, specially requested they be in softshell for this assignment - to make their guests feel more comfortable and off the clock, she told Fox with a completely straight face.
Imagine that. Off the clock. Hah.
Fox is so busy watching the imaginary off-time heās only heard of in dreams that he doesnāt even register the sudden plunge into darkness, until he starts to blink and his brain slowly comes back online.
Well, kriff.
With a heavy, internalized eyeroll, he flicks at his vambrace. Nothing. Taps for the light-controls. Nothing. Pokes at the screens of various pads.
Nothing.
ā¦double-kriff.
With a much more external sigh, Fox heaves himself to his feet and attempts to manually flick on his helmet lights, only to grunt out a string of curses when he realizes they shorted out along with everything else. He gropes at his belt and -
Yup, magpack on the blaster too. Great.
Fox trudges through the empty, darkened corridors with all the enthusiasm of the worldās saddest glorified customer service worker, mentally cursing all the great forces at work to create this extraordinarly shit day for him.
Mothma for throwing stupid kriffing Xeshmas parties and requesting an unreasonable amount of softshell (!) Guard for it.
Palpatine for ordering him to babysit the Galaxyās center of operations alone.
Cody and all the rest of them for not even kriffing pretending to invite him to anything anymore.
This stupid kriffing generator for deciding to kick it at the worst possible moment, and whoever was stupid enough to make the whole Senate power grid and comm access dependent on one single kriffing -
Fox freezes, all at once.
Voices. Plural. Outside.
Slowly, Fox creeps towards the slide doors leading outside. He pries them open gently, careful not to allow for a single creak or slip that could give him away. Itās more likely to be nothing than anything, but -
ā - enter from the trash chute, while Bossk takes the staff entrance on the other side and cover more ground that way. Bane, you will screw off the vent covers through the third floor exit and -ā
āI know what Iām doingā, a deep, gravelly voice interrupts that sends shivers down Foxā spine. Heād hoped heād never have to encounter it outside a criminal court recording again - triple kriff. āI donāt need your lectures, Sing.ā
āTouchy today, are we?ā, Aurra Sing says, snidely, and it begins to dawn on Fox exactly how kriffed he really is. āRelax, Bane. We know what weāre doing. The Chancellorās treasury doesnāt stand a chance in Sith-hell.ā
A low, vibrating hiss answers her, trembling with laughter. Fox has to force himself to hold his breath to keep in the expletives that want to slip free, hands cold and clammy in his gloves.
āAlright, everyone on position. We wait an hour for the commotion to really get started over at Spakatomi, and then -ā
Deciding heās heard enough, Fox carefully shifts the sliding doors back closed and inches back through the hallways with his heart hammering in his chest. Kriff, kriff and double-kriff this stupid kriffing holiday - first thing heās doing when he gets out of this alive is outlaw the very idea of Xeshmas for all acting GAR personnel, and then heās going to shove a Nabooian fir-tree up the ass of Jango Fettās kriffing ghost, because somehow, this too is his fault. Fox just knows it.
First, though, heāll have to keep three of the Galaxyās most infamous and deadly bounty hunters from stealing Republic secrets and treasures on his own.
(Somewhere, among the debris-littered ring of planetary satellites, a string of increasingly desperate comms waits to go through:
CC-4477: FOX
CC-4477: FOX HELP
CC-4477: FOOOOOOOX
CC-4477: THERE ARE SEPPIE TERRORISTS IN THE LOBBY THEY ARE BEATING UP ORGANA
CC-4477: I AMN HIDNG I TOLET
CC-4477: Sorry for that, Commander. The situation is back under control - I have acquired a bomb. Iām sure youāre right outside with the others setting up a perimeter - Iāll keep the hostages safe, oriāvod! :) -Thire)
#i had an outline to make a full fic out of this but i have barely enough spoons to brush my teeth on the daily so not happening LMAO#spakatomi splaza: space nakatomi plaza#mon mothma inviting the guard to a special party just for them: oh donāt worry! just come as you are without the work stress itāll be fun!#fox who is having an entirely different conversation in a very depressing dimension: everyday senators find new ways to test my will to live#cody screaming crying: WE FORGOT FOX#cue subplot of immense damage to public property as all command class clones on coruscant go on a highspeed chase through coruscant#they stop halfway bcs they turned their comms back on and got ordered to spakatomi splaza#where anakin is obviously having a menty b about padme being one of the hostages#thire aka close enough welcome back john mcclane has it all well under control though#especially once thorn and stone drive one of mas ameddaās private limo speeders through the side door and steal all the hostages#meanwhile aurra sing bossk and cad bane find themselves wishing for prison back#at least they wouldnāt be locked in with a feral fox and the senate broom closet supplies being used to commit unspeakable acts of terror#bossk gets nailed on the head by a boiling teakettle as well as five bricks#cad baneās hat gets burned off in a boobytrap and he remains stuck to an elevator shaft for an hour before todo frees him#and aurra sing electrocuted when she attempts to turn off ārockinā around the xeshmas treeā#i have this mental image of fox waving down at a screaming horde of bountyhunters before cutting the elevator cord cackling wildly#and yoda gets an emotional grandpa moment where the Force tm tells him to abandon the active terrorist threat at spakatomi and go off to#save fox instead#wipes tear from eye#and thatās how the corries saved xeshmas!#palpatine probably gets murdered by like a stray boobytrap fox forgot or something and gets the buzz end scream moment before imploding in#a black cloud of nasty lmao#sw tcw fic ideas#corrie guard#commander fox#commander thire
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madoka magica teaches us to never lose hope even in the face of absolute and definite failure bc there is nothing worse than succumbing to despair. it teaches us that there is always a way out and that the only way to truly overcome overwhelming fear is by continuing to shine through it. there is always a way out if you just keep believing that there is one
#homura was stuck in a time loop for who even knows how long with saving madoka as her only goal#and in the end#she may not have succeeded in the way she wanted to. but it wasn't for nothing!! her hope didnt amount to nothing!!#if it wasn't for homura's hope for saving madoka#then madoka would never have become as powerful as she did and she would never have had the power to make such a universe-shattering wish#she finally gave madoka what she really wanted: someone that loves her unconditionally and fully and truly SAW her. homura never thought#for a moment that madoka was useless or weak. she was a pillar of strength for homura in her darkest hours and that love changed the WORLD#LESBIANISM CHANGES THE WORLD MAN!!!#I'm getting sidetracked#we could not have had the ending we did if homura didn't hold out hope through all those loops. she is everything. she is THE character (tm)#the power of love and the power of hope can beat all odds#the moment we lose hope the oppressor wins.... madoka magica you..... yOUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!#madoka magica#madoka magica spoilers#homura akemi#madoka kaname
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Toddlers who say slurs
#eggs can art#persona 5#persona 5 royal#p5#p5r#Justine p5r#Caroline p5r#Justine p5#Caroline p5#I was gonna save these two for a slightly bigger post so they werenāt alone BUT SADLY my ego is too large I really like them#ngl theyāre some of my personal favs I love them#also my mom said the hats made her laugh to clearly Iām a comedic genius#I have a really really soft spot for when they keep each other in their blind spots#itās silly but I love seeing them hold each other in that kind of trust#when they work together like a unit I think thatās really neat#it never feels right when they stand with each other in their sights#it makes them come off as insecure or worried#like they need to make sure they can find each other easily at a moments notice#I unno the game tosses em around interchangeably as far as I can tell#I just have my preferred velvet room twin orientation tm
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Look, I think it's gonna be okay but I just want this on the record:
I am still highly salty over Captain Shaw dying in Picard S3. So if Rayner doesn't make it through Discovery S5? I am gonna be annoyed.
#there's no obvious warning signs per se#like with poor shaw I knew we were gonna be in trouble#in the episode no win scenario when shaw has that little growth arc while working with seven#but he still was calling her hansen by episode's end#so I was like ah man he's a goner#(because they were clearly saving up the moment he finally calls her seven to happen during his heroic death scene [tm])#(and we can talk some other time about my issues with his heroic death scene [tm])#so there isn't really anything like that going on with rayner's arc#(I mean I had a slight conniption during labyrinths with the whole - I'm gonna need all the time you can give me / you got it - exchange)#because that seemed ~ominous~#but then it was okay#so like yeah I don't see the signposts of a redemption by death arc#but it's always dangerous to be a one-season main character#so I am just saying#if Rayner dies I will be DISPLEASED#that is all#commander rayner#captain shaw#st picard#st discovery#discovery spoilers
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I hopeee this sortie doesn't fail because season ending yadda yadda but really.I would just love to see Rose River onscreen for Real and it's not just Veronique and Fealty who I love dearly but also the Sleep Detachment people. Talking about them one time Austin said
"Think about the sort of most melancholy moments of MorningāsĀ ObservationĀ during Twilight Mirage. Itās a whole crew of those folks trying to put together whatātrying to get back to a Tuesday."
I'm constantly thinking about that & it's killing meeee I want to see them. Also what's the dynamic there with Veronique and Fealty / their cult or whatever. How did Rose River start as a faction. Did the NEH squad land near New Oath? What are they currently researching!!! Also Partial Palisade is there how is he doing anyways
#'The sort of most melancholy moments of morning's observation.' Well those are my favourite!!!!#And that one time [TWILIGHT MIRAGE SPOILERS] he snapped & fell back on military training & killed a bunch of people to save grand.#and then started crying. banger scene!!!! What a good arc overall so important for grand too#Man I miss that guy.#ALSO WHAT ABOUT LONNY AND T from the godspeed glory episode descriptions. I would like to see them!!!#Palisade spoilers#People should really listen to tm if they haven't yet.#palisadeposting
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Took a DnD alignment quiz and got true neutral and my brother was like āhuh. I thought youād be chaotic good,ā and Iām like āsure, to YOU, but basically everyone else can go fuck themselves,ā and really, I think that demonstrates how accurate the test is.
#I think a lot of people who test as Good TM are liars lol#or naive#which also maybe proves the accuracy of the test#but I seriously I got this from a bunch of gamers who tested as Good#and I think the ability to save scum in games gives people false ideas of what theyāre capable of#like all this discourse about the emperor and him not letting himself be mercy-killed#as if he should have laid down and died and these people think they would have in his place#nah#self-preservation is such a base instinct people forget#I donāt think you really know yourself until youāve been in dire circumstances#and well honestly Iām glad a lot of people havenāt#but I think people will surprise themselves in the moment by how selfish they can be#maybe thatās why I judge myself so much lol#but I guess Iām proud of myself too bc while I may not sacrifice myself for a cause#I stood between my father and my brother far too often at the risk of my own safety#and between my ex and his kid#they were worth it#but the rest of the world?#thatās asking a lot Iām not willing to give#especially since I donāt live in high fantasy lmao#morning rambles#Iāve been thinking a lot about morality recently#no wonder I got obsessed w bg3 recently#its themes line up with my recent ruminations so well
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Bruce Wayne Headcanons
that I cannot reconcile with current/most/ALL of his comics characterization but I hold onto nevertheless
āBruce Wayne!! trains each of his Robins with the goal of them becoming better than him.
āBruce Wayne!! intends for the Robins to be his actual failsafe if he ever went off the deep end. (Fuck that weirdo robot lol.)
āBruce Wayne!! 1000% blames himself for Jason Toddās death I donāt care what the comics have had him say or what his dumbass inner-narrative has saidā¦*handwave handwave* all of that was just him desperately trying to cover the hole in his heart from failing his son so completely.
#Bruce Wayne headcanons#yes this IS a stealth rant about BvR and other things I hate.#the Jason Todd one in particularā¦likeā¦#FIRST OF ALLāwhat fucking parent blames their teen kid for being *murdered in cold blood by a serial killer*??? NOT ONE THAT I WANT TO KNOW!#SECOND OF ALLāBRUCE DIDNāT EVEN *KNOW* THAT JASON WAS FUCKING *THERE*!!!! LIKEā¦#HOW WOULD HE *NOT* LOOK BACK ON THAT AND GO āI should have been better for himā?????#and likeā¦as Iāve said beforeāI could buy him using The Story Of Jason Todd as like a Teachable Moment (tm)#to try to get SOMEthing of value out of Jasonās BRUTAL MURDER BY A NOTORIOUS SERIAL KILLERā#WHO THEN WENT ON TO TRY TO KILL THE ENTIRE UN BTW.#but likeā¦he *himself* thinking that Jason was to blame??? NO WAY. nuh uh#not Mr. Tortured By Being Unable To Save His Parents When *He* Was A Child. NO. DO NOT PASS GO.#man I feel like I had a third point but idk Iām too angyy lol.#idk WHY WOULD BRUCE NOT BLAME HIMSELF FOR LEAVING JASON ALONE IN THE FIRST PLACE?!?!#IT DOESNāT FUCKING ADD UP!!!#YOU CANāT TELL ME A DUDE IS ALL *HAUNTED BY HIS PAST* AND THEN THE THING THAT FUCKING WELL *SHOULD* HAUNT HIMā¦#HAVE HIM BE LIKE ālol sucks to suck.ā#YOU CANT EVEN SAY ITāS UNRELIABLE NARRATION BECAUSE IT IS NEVER CHALLENGED *WITHIN THE FUCKING* NARRATIVE!!!#LIKE SURE IF THE *GOAL* WAS TO HAVE BRUCE WAYNE BE A FULL-ON HUMBERT HUMBERT LEVEL BIG FUCKING LIAR THAT WOULD BE A GOOD WAY TO DO ITā#BUT THAT IS CLEARLY *NOT* WHAT IS HAPPENING!!! WE ARE CLEARLY SUPPOSED TO THINK āaw poor Bruce too bad Jason sucked so hard. :(ā#okay *deep breath exhales smoke from my nostrils* okay I think Iām done.
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Anyway.... Back to what I was pondering earlier today... It's been 4 months but I'm still as deeply obsessed with Exotic Creatures of the Deep as at the very start
#00s sparks albums save me#save me 00s sparks albums#the question of how it's been 4 months already aside#i have decided to name this album my official Mental Breakdown Album TM#so it's a good thing that it doesn't really bring me any unhappy associations. even though it could#because when i started listening to it in early march#it turned out to become one of my lowest periods in the mental well-being sense. like. ever.#it's gotten better though and later i discovered that whenever i got into that slump again#and nothing at all felt like an alluring thing to do and even most music couldn't cheer me up#i still felt like listening to ecotd at least#sometimes you get into specific albums or artists at the exact right moment and this was one of such times for sure#i have so many thoughts about this album but if i tried to write them down#it would probably all just be an illegible mess. one day i'll do it though. or at least try to#as for now i can at least say that the possibly most suffering-inducing (positive) songs for me are strange animal and likeable#i'll never forget the moment i first heard strange animal as part of the from the basement set#what a SONG!!! and that entire performance changed my brain chemistry forever#and. GODDDDDKJHKEFLJMKBELKPJ... LIKEABLE!!!#the connection i feel on some metaphysical level to that song the melody the instrumentation the lyrics#is way beyond what words can explain. or i'm just bad at putting these kind of things into words#it's soooo oooughhggahgh.....#also i don't know exactly how it happened#but i can't believe etc immediately became my most listened to song according to my last fm (which i made around then)#and it has stayed in that spot ever since#ok that's my sparks madness talk for today. i'll probably never be normal about them. not that i even want to#sparks am i right. goddddd#goosepost
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look, again, I'm not saying that clarke had planned to take the flame as soon as she turned herself into a nightblood (this would require clarke to be a person capable of foresight). what I am saying, is that murphy's rant reminded her that nightblood was synonym with power. and clarke's thirst for power was only matched by her inability to manage it.
#also thinking of the parallel with this + octavia actually managing to pull it off#and the series finale when clarke utterly fails to save The Human Race TM and then raven comes and... pulls it off#i will do a gifset of that too when the moment comes lol#stacked100#talking to the void#my thoughts#t100 thoughts#the 100#the 100 4x09#lol clarke#clarke griffin#the 100 4x08#john murphy
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Valentin & MitchĀ |Ā 559/?? | ā© 2077
Babies in love... but they don't know it yet š¤
#Cyberpunk 2077#Mitch Anderson#Valentin Da Silva#Aldecaldos#OTP: High Voltage#MLM#Screenshot#Virtual Photography#OUUGGGHHHH.... 2077 babies#šš since there's a lot of new people-- gonna re poop some Lore tm in there#its a sloooow buuuuuuurn#Mitch and Scorps are the one who saves Val's ass in the dump instead of Takemura#my canon differs from the game's events and they have a lot of bonding moment#where they keep saving each others asses in turn#and they grow feelings for one another#Val is the first one to fall and realising its Love#Mitchs feelings comes later when he saves Valentin from the Wraiths HQ during my ~edited~ Riders of the Storm event#and he's like hgfhh I cant lose that boy#so they pining and neither makes a move but everyone around them sees it#and fast forward to the Star Ending during Mikoshi where Valentin finally makes the first move as a first kiss last kiss kinda joint#kissing him just before he fucks off in the panzer hgfhhgf#oUUUUGGGGGGGGGGH#it's been 2 years and I still didn't put it all down somewhere HAHGFH#writing is so overwhelming for me so I just-- OUGH#but yeah it's all roting in MY HEAD
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climbing the walls over this
#tm#like....like!!!!#tbqh i didn't even remember that the first argument wasn't a real fight and now i'm --#i feel crazy because it's such a similar argument for her to make but it could also not possibly be more different#the first is a show; a performance; it's what red john - hell what most of the people who know jane - would expect from him#ego and pride and putting himself above the law - that argument could have been with almost anyone#but lisbon is the only one who could make the second argument (the ONLY one and i'll stand by that#even the others at the cbi who have seen his softer/quieter/sadder moments could not do it#not because they don't care about him - they CLEARLY do - but because they don't know him well enough#he doesn't LET them know him enough - at this point i don't think there's anyone but lisbon that he would say these things to#and say them sincerely; and mean them)#i think she's the only one who he's let in enough to know that he's not putting himself above anything;#he thinks so little of himself that he'd sacrifice himself without question if it meant getting red john#that's the argument (the plea) she's really making: care about yourself damnit. if not for you then for the people who need you#(for me)#and god it's comforting to know how this all ends up but this still hurts because he just....can't#(some things you just can't fix // you kept the pieces....i'm doing sosofine)#and then and then -- 'you'd be dead' 'but you'd have red john' [smash cut to him shooting his only lead to save her life] LIKE???#he'd sacrifice himself with no hesitation but he'd save her without thinking#let me relax#(but also do you think red john heard about that and was like 'it's a surprise tool that will help me later')
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#need to get this out#oh the ideas i am cooking#M would quit the OSI at the start of s6 bc she would be reassigned so she said fuck this .#<- really have been thinking on this SgH personality and whatnot would so fit w her better than like his total character change#like the parental advice . the overstepping . the everything she would own that .#JVS i think would become the new vd in that i think they would just put his head where the BM's head was#and he gets a new frame so hes back to his old self but its slightly taller than how he used to be#torn between idea of R is hired by the OSI to revive him similar to vstein but i like the idea of JVS taking over vd because of what#that adds to TM arching him#i think it would play out like JVS kills VD in that moment and billy as a dr has to choose to save him via replacing VD -> JVS is alive now#world if s6 and s7 had more eps and s6 didnt have to be finished in s7 and then tossed aside bc it really felt like they just had those eps#there to finish off s6#thing to think abt is the weirdness of JVS being alive again and how that affects the world i think the OSI would tell TV to keep it under#wraps for now so he is mostly kept inside the home and it pisses everyone off#my art#i almost feel like i need to tag my rewrite stuff sorry i love the women so much and also dont think brock is more boring than hatred so#im rewriting all that shit
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Magical girl Makoto is the adorable cheerful poster boy of the group who would never hurt a fly and cries out of pity for their enemies sake
Super magical hope girl Makoto can think of at least 17 different ways to kill you with just the items on your person and is currently deciding which he should use for maximum cathartic relief.
low confidence emotional support vs your life ends 7 seconds from now
#eggs can answer#eggs can art#firedemongaming#makoto naegi#the whole team has to be in on it for super magical hope girl naegi form to work if even one of them isnt on board the magic will fail#he'll start the transformation and a little flag on a stick will pop out of the magical girl gun tm that says āBANG!!ā#is it bad that I came up with a plot for this?? I love magical girl animes so much guys#im thinking like. when you hit a motivation breakthrough moment you get a magic accessory related to your talent that lets you transform#naegi got his when he accidentally saved a cat from getting hit by a bus or smth#he got home and went āoh thats a magic rock OH GOD THATS A GLOWING MAGIC ROCKā#he's roomates w/ gamigiri n in the following episodes tm they have character moments n transform n stuff#usami is a special magical girl sidekick mascot who tells naegi what hes gotta do then dips#his misson: Evil Magical Girl of Despair Junko is trying to resurrect the Dark Lord of Despair Izuru n Naegi has to stop her and her#legion of corrupted magical girls (the RoDs) also Hajime and Nanami are Magical Girls (Hajime is a weaker magical girl since he doesnt have#a talent but he makes up for it in hand to hand/physical combat) they're like the cool senior magical girl duo who are in it to save their#friends (the RoDs)
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i forsee something mentally ill occuring in my future.
#tfw you let your friend pull you into a game and you can already tell its going to have you in its grip for a while#lord save me i didnt want to be here but im already having a Moment tm#if y'all see me falling into the IDV pit dont.... dont worry about it#lvmb rambles#lvmb.exe
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trying soo hard to be normal and Good At Conversation this time
#i will make at lease One irl friend to hang out with regularly !!!#dont get me wrong taking time off work to do school was a great decision but like. i dont rly talk to anyone anymore#save for the two days per week i have class :/#and it sucks idk.#i havent had a Best Friend TM that i actually get to see more than once every 12 months in years#& im also struggling to control how i usually put more importance onto other people than they do me#like this week in particular im rly feeling the whole experience of labelling someone as a really good friend only to find out that i am#at Best just a pleasant acquaintance#which is fine yk not every relationship has to be something super deep#but still. sucks when it keeps happening.#like id rather the reaction to me almost just be actual disgust bc then thats pretty unambiguous#no room to get hopes up or create a narrative.#anyway i usually go with the strategy of just talking to someone like we're already friends bc ive heard thats the most effective#/least awkward way to get to know people. & im also only focusing on a couple people at a time so i dont get overwhelmed#bc last time I just. yeah it wasnāt the best moment#struggling in general with people and just pacing out of much of Myself is a tolerable dosage#recently I just feel like Iāve green falling onto the āover eager and annoyingā cycle :/#been*#I donāt want to be a Chore I guess.#I keep thinking about how nice it would be to not feel that way#like maybe Iām not the most exciting person ever and it takes me a minute to get used to someone but :/ idk I think Iām good company#(god knows I spend enough time around just myself lmao)#usually I can tell when Iām feeling like this again bc I start spending more money on hobbies and Stuff#just to fill time/give myself something to look forward to#but I canāt really do that rn lmao/donāt want to#Iām not rich I canāt just have retail therapy every time I start to feel lonely :/#itād be nice lmao but no not practical#man I just want to talk to people. have conversations. feel like people are actually Happy that Iām talking to them.#thatās it thatās all#they say never trust your brain after 9pm but what if youāve been sitting with it for weeks?
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