#these two are fucked up and they know it

[modern-inheritance]

A ramble about Glen and Arya being more comfortable in the field with their PTSD and traumatic events.

I don't think I've ever explicitly stated it, and I will be the first to admit that I have zero basis for this in research or fact as far as I'm aware, but I've tried a bit to show that Glenwing and Arya have less reactions/nightmares/episodes while in the field as opposed to in Ellesmera.

Glen's got a bit of a better handle on his PTSD surrounding the ambush and the loss of his arm, but he's still strongly affected by it. He had nine months to grapple with his new reality. Arya's return was a significant gutshot, unraveling some of the healing he had done because again, reality had shifted.

Glen's normal was being in the field, under stress, fighting the fight and actively seeking out people to help and heal. He knows that, he knows his body and mind aren't supposed to be in that state constantly, and yet the absence of stress and activity makes him uneasy. He never totally settles, even over those nine months, always trying to get back out there to the Varden. He feels right when he's out in the field. It feels wrong to be sitting idle when he knows he can help. And its that uneasiness that can lead to his episodes.

Arya's a raw wound, but she doesn't give herself time to slow down and actually take stock and understand, truely, what happened to her. She can recount facts, crack jokes, utter the most out of the blue, unprompted snippets of times when she fought back or Durza acted a fool, but the bare fact of 'Oh. I was horrifically tortured, to the brink nearly daily and over it a few times, nearly SA'd, saw my best friend apparently die in front of me and the man I loved get shot in the heart before all that, and then I got out, nearly died from poison, got better, then nearly died trying to save Eragon, and now I'm back in the forest where I was ambushed and captured.'

In short, Arya's constant state of mind over it is thus:

But in Ellesmera, where there are no distractions, no warzone, no protection duty, no sabotage runs, no bullets coming out of the darkness, no explosions, nothing to occupy her, Arya spirals. It gives her too much time to think, and she's not fully ready or all that willing to confront her experiences. Glenwing helps. He can see when shes feeling up for it, try and guide her through it and support her for the inevitable breakdown that comes with the realizations and confronting the horrors for what they are.

They both try to be there for each other.

And at the same time, they both know that the surest way to make things calm, make things stop feeling so big and loud and there, is to go back out to the field. Out there, their jumpy reactions, hypervigilance, constant drain, their aggression and battle joy and near constant physical and mental pain...

It has physical, visible reason.

The War.

It's all expected. It's normal for soldiers in the field to feel these things. It's not questioned, not looked at with pity. Their choked out cries during night terrors and Recall are just another voice of a soldier reliving a battle long past. It happens. You don't have to talk about it out there. Everyone gets it. The hypervigilance is beneficial. The insomnia is useful for night patrols. The memories can be used to recall just what points are weak, bolster defenses, attack them in others. Scars and prosthetics are commonplace in the Varden, as are thousand yard stares.

And when there are moments of peace, long stretches of marching, that's when they take the time to think. When the discomfort of a heavy pack and long road displace the pain of their memories. They can talk to each other in hushed voices, talk with their hands, their minds. They don't have a choice of breaking down out there. They confront their demon of the day, butt heads with it, grapple the truth and the pain and the past out of it, feel the result...

and keep marching.

They don't have a choice. And that's how they prefer it. Glen and Arya know that if they survive the war, they'll probably hit a point where it all crashes down on them and they'll have to retreat from whatever project or cause they've dedicated themselves to in the interim to finally go through it all. If they can get through as much of it as they can while they don't have that option, then it might not be as difficult.

Somehow, it's easier when you don't have a choice but to keep going. Keep living, keep fighting, because you can't take the time to lose your mind and lay down and cry about it. Confront it, fight it, take it down, analyze it, dump its body in the dirt and move on. You've got other things to do and people are depending on you to do them.

[thatrandomblogsays]

Annabeth: I, a child, had to earn Thalia’s love, that’s how the world works! I have to earn my moms love. Love is transactional, you gotta be worthy of it first silly :)

Percy, listening to this on the train

[artkaninchenbau]

A h-heartfelt reunion..?

Bonus

[crows-home]

part of my nimona viewing experience. idk why but i got super emotional in the first five minutes.

ID by @peachygos

[ID: A comic juxtaposing screenshots from Nimona 2023 and drawings of a person watching the movie. The first screenshot is Ambrosius's introduction; he grins at the camera as the news anchors introduce him, his name in big print on the screen. The person watching thinks with a bored expression, "Ah. Ok. This guy is gonna be the jackass. Typical golden-boy stuck-up prince that thinks he's better than the underdog. I see where this is going.

The next screenshot is of Ambrosius and Ballister on the platform above the arena, Ambrosius doing his news anchor bit and saying, "Aaand will Ballister be broody on the biggest day of his life?" Ballister laughs at his antics. The person watching now has a small smile, as they think, "Huh! Aw, they're actually nice to each other and are friends! I wasn't expecting that, that's nice-"

The third and final screenshot is a shot from behind of Ballister leaning his head on Ambrosius's shoulder. The caption reads "the knighting ceremony is just moments away." The person watching now has a touched, soft expression, like they're holding back tears. They think "OH." as a partially transparent doodle behind them bends over crying and blubbering, with another doodle showing their heart shot through with an arrow. /end ID]

[squidsmeister]

dungeon meshi is my favorite road-trip comedy film

[havenshereagain]

DPxDC Idea

Danny working at Wayne Enterprises as some sort of engineer, uses the in-house app for all his blueprints and stuff

He starts getting notes from a coworker in-app, and assumes its this annoying older guy in his department who constantly undermines him because of his age, despite his education and past achievements (i feel like in this AU the Fentons react well to the reveal and they work together on a number of non-lethal ecto inventions that have Danny's name attached to them)

Except one day his coworker mentions never using the app, and Danny suddenly realizes there's only one other TD he could've been arguing with in the notes of the app

[egophiliac]

do skully have pokemon?

Pumpkaboo is the obvious one, but y'know, sometimes the obvious one is the right one! (we'll say SUPER SIZE Pumpkaboo, just for fun. big pumpkin for big skeleton boy.) and another person actually also suggested Greavard, which I somehow hadn't considered, but feels so perfect that I feel like I should have. dangit.

(they can also have little Nightmare Suit costumes :D)

[puppyeared]

these two are so interesting to me

characters belong to @canisalbus

[hussyknee]

my disabled ass, after (1)good day: "obviously I am cured. in fact it may have all been in my head. who can say? now to rejoin society!"

me, the next day: "it has come to my attention that i may be chronically ill."

[lucabyte]

"So what's the weirdest possible first (second) impression Loop could make on the party in postcanon?" "Yeah, that, probably."

+ Bonus

theyre just standing there in direct party order while this happens. normal tuesday.

[lotus-pear]

god i love skk sm i wish gay ppl were real :(

[allastoredeer]

Deer's shed the velvet on their antlers. Alastor is no exception.

Bonus! They also eat it and cannibal besties always share.

+Bonus: Bucks shed their velvet right before rutting season, so take from thar what you will

[uncanny-tranny]

I recently had to do a project in one of my psych classes, and man, I knew that CBT was used for every little thing, but seeing over and over, "do CBT! CBT is the best for every mental illness!" was so jarring. I'm absolutely biased because of my own experiences, but I just don't think it's as universal a treatment model as it's touted.

If you didn't benefit from CBT, it's not because you're lazy or didn't try hard enough or lacked intelligence or foresight into your own needs. Frankly, it's a therapy model that (I think) shouldn't be the only readily-accessible model and among the only therapy models covered by insurance. Some of us should not be treated in a CBT model and that's okay. It's not a sign of poor character or unreasonable demands, and if you don't think it's a model that works for you, then it's your right to express that!

[saintaviator]

something something gman tommy something something gordon in stasis. you know how it is.

[sheerakk]

[cozylittleartblog]

worst way to start my new year, thanks. i have a lot of things to say about these companies but i'm tired and just keeping it focused to the pin side of things for this one. do not ever buy pins from these companies, literally ALL of them are stolen from small artists like me. if you want to buy enamel pins, check out etsy, and artist's personal websites and shops! (though even Etsy has some bootleg pins that ship straight from china, so tread carefully…)

Every pin I've designed is, thus far, EXCLUSIVE to my etsy. if you find it anywhere else, it's been ripped off! and once these stupid bootlegs pop up, it's basically a never ending game of whack-a-mole trying to get them all taken down...