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do u believe in magic?
Do you believe in magic? It's something I've asked myself my whole life. The answer is always yes. How lifeless I would be without magic?
Well, when I was a teenager, I think I lost touch with it. I could never trust my own influence. I thought of myself so small, how could I impact the reality of anything around me, even myself? Feeling small makes you at the mercy of the changing tides around you. It doesn't make you powerless though. Which is dangerous, because if you are wielding power that you're unaware of, you are bound to do damage, and then blame everything besides yourself. How could I be the villain? I'm nothing, aren't I?
Who told you that? Do you trust them?
The thing about magic though, is that it's not good or bad. It's just the ability to alchemize what's happening within yourself, and turn it into material change. It's a want, a goal, and a journey. It's life. And sometimes, we don't know what we want. We don't know what to do, we don't know where to go. And the uncertainty of that can be difficult to trudge through. Why?
I think it's because this culture is so fast paced, and looks down on you for looking back. Why pause and look back when everything new is in front of you?
Well, it's the same reason we study history. To learn from our mistakes.
I think if we were allowed the time and grace to detangle our thoughts from our feelings, we would all be better equipped to carry more magic in our lives. Now it's just go go go, work work work, obey obey obey. Where is the time to cultivate a practice for yourself? There is none, and if you find it, you must be lazy. Not productive enough. Your worth is assigned to you based on how much you can contribute to society, don’t you remember?
Who told you that? Do you trust them?
I like to say that time is change, and change is time. And magic is our ability to influence that change through our own desires. We access it through the power of choice. We don't always get what we want. Nothing is truly certain in this world, but that means that everything can be pushed, one way or another. It only takes time to see that change come in. And there's a fine balance between being comfortable in the inherent uncertainty of any situation, and knowing what you want. Because that knowing is comforting, but if we get too attached to it, we will start to feel a dissonance between our actions, and the world around us. We have to stay grounded in the time we’re in to see the change we want. Otherwise, that change becomes an unattainable fantasy, uprooted from reality.
It goes deeper than that though. Because of the fast paced nature of this culture, it becomes very easy to skip past important truths, and lessons in order to keep up with everybody else. So when I say we must stay grounded in the time we are in to see the change we want, that doesn't always mean we are seeing the time we are in authentically. And if we aren't seeing our foundation, our ground, authentically, the change we want, will always be an unattainable fantasy.
So what is magic without truth? What is change without truth? What are you without truth? An unattainable fantasy. It's like trying to climb stairs but the steps are made of rotten wood. With every step you take, you will find more decay. And if you never look down, you will never get to where you want to be, no matter how hard you try.
What's worse, I think, is when people do look down, and decide they are more comfortable with the decay that they know, than trying to forge a new path. Its fear, I get it. But at a certain point we must reckon with the death around us, and ask if it's worth it. If this complacency and comfort in rotten wood is worth the damage. We should also ask ourselves, what made us think that we can determine the worth of anything outside of ourselves? Probably the same thing that made us think our worth is assigned to us based on what we contribute to society.
I think that's the lie that so many of us operate on. That we have to work to gain any sort of worth. That worth is assigned to us, not innate in our existence. Because working off of a lie, there is only so far we can go in seeing the change we want to see, regardless of the time it takes.
If you don't see the innate worth of yourself, you most definitely can't see it in other beings. What harm will you do when your focus is on attaining worthiness instead of seeing and valuing the inherent worth that is already abundant? What truths will you miss when you dismiss the time we’re in for the change you want? And what magic will you make if your power is inauthentic?
#fuck it#going to just start posting shit#text#writing#my writing#do you believe in magic#read me#please#first draft#my writings#personal essay#food for thought#these are just little pieces of an idea
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his guardian angel
#im sure that none of the vampires are after Daniel for writing a book and actively outing them on television#because Armand is always lurking somewhere around#another oil pastels on a cardboard piece!! i think im starting to understand it a little bit better (but honestly just a little bit lmao)#specifically love how Armand's hands turned out#i think i put the most effort in them lmao#everything else was just yaaay i don't have any idea what im doing#iwtv#interview with the vampire#amc iwtv#iwtv daniel#iwtv armand#iwtv fanart#daniel molloy#armand#armandaniel#vampire chronicles#amc interview with the vampire#devil's minion#my fanart
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People keep on asking for more Baby Robin and Papadile so here is more Baby Robin and Papadile. Now never ask anything from me ever again
#My art#One Piece#Long post#Sir Crocodile#Nico Robin#Alternatively panel 5 would've been a close up of Crocodile's face from Robin's POV where he looks like he's giving her a death glare#Not intentionally he's just a big scary bastard with a Resting Murder Face and Robin is a small traumatized child#But I wanted to focus on the silliness of the moment so you get the goofy version instead#IDK man there's just something very funny to me about the idea of Robin just randomly info-dumping about a subject she's read about#And Crocodile being like ''?????????????????????? The fuck you talking about??''#Robin leaves the ship's kitchen and Crocodile just stares at the tomato like ''...It's a fruit? Forreal?''#(Meanwhile Robin is sweating bullets like ''I called his favorite vegetable a FRUIT right in his FACE he's going to KILL ME'')#Robin grew extra feet from the bottom of her feet to reach the counter and that actually isn't me trying to explain bad art away#In the original Papadile comic there was a panel of Robin doing the dishes with extra feet to reach the sink but I cut it out#(It was a stress relief comic I did not feel like drawing a complicated background in detail) (BUT YES I THOUGHT OF IT)#Nico Robin Age 11 is *more* than capable of cooking Crocodile just does not trust her with his food. At least not yet#She did start doing the dishes unprompted and continues to do so (mostly out of fear). Croc told her she didn't have to but allows it#IDK a lot of people seem to headcanon Crocodile as incapable of cooking and like. Surely Mr ''I don't trust people'' knows how to cook#Like he doesn't have to be a master chef or anything but and maybe he enjoys not HAVING to cook (pain in the ass with one hand + knife/hook#But surely he can cook decent enough. SURELY#Botanists don't @ me I know the ''tomato is a fruit'' thing isn't fully accurate this is just a silly little haha comic
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you’ve changed (for the better)
for @where-does-the-heart-lie ‘s fighting game au I love ur designs I love them dearly
#og art#one piece#roronoa zoro#tony tony chopper#hhehehehe the pookiesssss#this was originally going to just be the bottom image but then I got too comfortable with the colors and wanted to explore#the idea of Zoro aka norm .l guy™️ ever being best buddies with the little guy that not only has ears but wings sprouting from his head#is everything I could’ve ever wanted#zoro’s main heart being on his elbows gives such nice contrast to chopper basically wearing it like a casual shirt to the store#being with people u care about and making new connections that inspire change in you bring out the best of you. something something#whery thank you for the food it was a delicious meal#now that I have clarity putting more hearts on zoro! was v fun it’s been a while since I drew glasses
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#idk. thinking about zoro being Hatted and what circumstances would need to arise before that could happen#this isn’t finished it’s not that polished I just threw some filters at it and now I’m running away#but the CONCEPT. man I will probably draw more like this#so many ideas. so little time#started reading one piece a month (??) ago and I’ve barely made a dent in it#SO LITTLE TIME#I will become so powerful this summer after exams are over#zolu#(?)#op#one piece#monkey d luffy#crowcraft#zoro#roronoa zoro#luffy#the colours on this one are a bit dark but it was more experimental than anything#I tried out some screen tone brushes and a heavier ink one that I used to use#and the colours aren’t as weird as I usually go for#it was an experiment! these guys are rapidly becoming my new test subjects for drawing ideas#I don’t have a caption for this. I might just leave it blank#does zoro ever get the hat put on him?? I don’t think so but I also know jack diddly about later one piece lore#REGARDLESS#ok bye bye
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he wasn't listening
#little comic now that finals are over.. smiiiles#more to come ofc i just wanted to get this little idea out of my head#'koi is this inspired by that one mechanic ace fic' no more questions.#my art#one piece#portgas d ace#portgas d. ace#marace#marco the phoenix#phoenix marco
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upon the heart of magic mountain 🌸🗻
from the oceanic goddess revered in the cyberpunk city on its hillside, to the stories of the ochre-feathered canary who's song hasn't been heard in years, it has been long thought by theorists that perhaps the magic imbued into this mountain was no coincidence- but rather the creation of mystical beings seeking to make a haven of sorts, a home protected by the powers that lie within this volcanic formation.
#hermitcraft#hermitcraft season 10#hermitcraft headcanon#mcyt#mcyt fanart#jimmy solidarity#solidaritygaming fanart#ldshadowlady#ldshadowlady fanart#seablings#hermitblr#mcytblr#gkm arts#digital art#illustration#lafakiwi draws#artists on tumblr#worldbuilding theory#just a little idea i had in my head last night#this is more lore to the iron mine canary piece i did last month also C:#lizzie is the goddess of the mountain/its current sole protector and jim's the patron god of magic and steward of humanity#hc10: upon the mountain of magic
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wolfpack. aka: if not friend, then why friend-shaped?
"Hey-- uh, Danny?" There's an almost imperceptible tremor in Tucker's voice.
Danny doesn't look up from what he's doing, his pencil scritching across his notebook as he tries to do another quadratic formula question. "Hm."
"What's -- uh -- what's with the dogs?"
He looks up now, and finally sees where Tucker is -- standing in the doorway of his room with an ashy look on his face and a skewed, nervous smile. He's got a white knuckle grip on the doorknob. Sam is wide-eyed behind him, and using him as a partial meat-shield.
Danny looks down to the two giant ghost wolves sprawled next to him lazily. One large green one with his head in Danny's lap, letting him use him as a prop-up for his notebook. Another equally large black one splayed against his hip, sleeping on her side with her head tilted inward to his calf.
Automatically, a grin tilts across Danny's face, and he lifts his notebook up to scratch behind the green one's ears. He opens a lazy eye, one that is bloody red with a ring of yellow around the pupil, before slipping it shut and leaning his head into Danny's touch. "This is Sirius and Procyon," he says, and reaches down to scratch Sirius' belly. "And they're not dogs, they're wolves."
"Great," Tucker says, his voice suddenly much smaller and faint, "Love that distinction."
Sirius makes a great big groan, and Danny's grin widens, his heart swelling with fondness. His hand slips away from her belly, and before he can put his notebook back down, Procyon pushes his head up his lap until his ear is against his stomach, demanding pets now too.
Sam peeks her head up from over Tucker's shoulder, "I think what Tucker's asking here is what are they doing here, Danny."
He shrugs, scratching under Procyon's chin. "They kinda just showed up. I tried sending them back to the Zone, but they keep returning." And they were weirdly intent on just following him around, which is the only reason he gave up on returning them. They weren't causing trouble, and they knew how to hide around the living. Plus, he just loves dogs. "So now I have two wolves living with me."
This, oddly enough, did not do anything to calm Sam and Tucker down. Tucker's mouth purses into a thin line, and he presses the sides of his palms to his lips in prayer. "How have your parents not found out about this?"
Danny wordlessly raises his hand, and his sleeve slides down to reveal a thin chain bracelet hooked around his wrist. He whistles sharply, and both Procyon and Sirius jerk their heads up to look at him, ears pricked up and eyes alert.
Silently, he points to his wrist and rattles it twice, and in unison both wolves stand up and pounce. Instantly, they turn into a respective, opaque black and green mist that swirls around the bracelet and forms into two, flat wolf charms.
Both wolves are posing in the stereotypical wolf howl, with little stars indented on the sides. Procyon's charm has the Canis Minor constellation engraved on it, while Sirius has the Canis Major.
Danny faces Sam and Tucker, and points at his wrist. "Like this."
#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dpxdc#danny phantom#danny fenton#dp prompt#dpxdc prompt#dpxdc crossover#danny phantom au#dpxdc au#i am SO tempted to make this a danyal al ghul au for no other reason than I love Danyal Al Ghul <33 he is the most blorbo ever#wolfpack au#tagged dpxdc bc i think yall could have fun with this idea.#plus this was inspired by a clone^2 commission that i just got the finished piece for today. which i'll prolly share if anyone's interested#just no thoughts head empty danny with a mini wolfpack :] Sirius and Procyon are very protective of him. they wuuuuuv him.#my idea (kinda) is that they're actually straight up *danny's* wolves. like. they were made when he was. they're not random ghost wolves#that decided to imprint on this random ghost child. they're danny's. they're like. familiars. the fact that wolves symbolize power. loyalty#guardianship and the fact that they're described as 'extremely intuitive with a near supernatural instinct that can detect danger'#(all of which can apply to danny) was coincidental. but yeah. they formed in the ghost zone and when they didn't find their boy they went#searching for him. which is why he didn't have them right away. but also if anyone wants to take this they can interpret however they like#also like. the fact that danny canonically is friends with a wolf person (Wulf) and befriended Cujo instantly -- who is shown to be hostile#to anyone NOT danny -- makes me think that dogs just REALLY really like him. he's like. an animal whisperer. which i think is really funny#bc i think it'd drive sam -- resident animal activist -- up a wall. just a little bit. like yes its great that these animals love danny sm!#but also!!! she!! look her way pls. she loves you animals sm. she's vegetarian!! she's just a little envious. just a tad.#just mmm the mental image of Sirius and Procyon stalking out of Danny's shadow with deep rumbling growls. their hackles raised and their#muzzles scrunched up to reveal dangerously sharp gleaming teeth. they're protecting their boy.
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year of silver…. year of silver please sega… unpack his trauma…. pleasee….
#silver the hedgehog#sonic the hedgehog#mephiles the dark#eggman nega#silvaze implied#really proud of this piece but idk how to break through into the sonic fandom atp haha#but he’s my favorite and I know it’s more than likely they’re not gonna do another year of#or if they do it’ll probably be Amy but#idk it’d be cool#I imagine it would be like. a lot of time loop stuff . probably happens due to leftover time eater destruction or mephiles escaping again#and it would devolve into an MGS2 style ending#in a perfect world silver would have no idea it’s Blaze he’s chasing even at the end . he just knows he has to give up restoring the#sonic 06 timeline….#or maybe he realizes mephiles and iblis are im the same boat as him and blaze and he reunites them in a normal way#idk#I have so many silver ideas….. so little time to make comics
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hotter than hell
[ID: Digital art of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun Maximum in their alternative universe form based off an angel Vash and Devil Wolfwood illustration Nightow did. The both of them are sitting side by side, exhausted from the heat, Vash has his arms crossed, leaned against his knees and his head against his arms, eyes closed as sweat drips from his face. His wings spreads over the both of them to shield them from the sun. Wolfwood is sitting with his right leg extended and his left leg with the knee slightly up. His eyes are also closed with a clear grimacing expression. He uses one of his small devil wings to fan Vash, the text effect reads “flap flap”. Being in the shadows, the palette is cool, blues and purples. A sliver of light shines on the parts not covered by wings in a bright orange/yellow. END ID]
#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun#trigun maximum#this is such a random piece but i just wanted to draw these versions of them...#usually im a double angel vw kind of guy . i like the imagery of angel ww but his little antenna horns and triangle tail and devil wings#very cute... and frankly vw has duality in this field... of angel and devil. demon and diablo and whatnot#but ultimately the angel motifs suits vash the most if nightows side illustrations and book covers are anything to go by#like the covers for vol 5 and vol 8... he is lovely in wings - both the winged kind and his plant-esque kind#and mortal wolfwood my no.1 forever. the idea of devil ww guiding an angel vash back to heaven is a fun thought though#theres probably like 800 stories with that kind of angel/devil plot but im beaming it at vw#ruporas art
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✦ Ektor ✦ Miloš ✦ Huf ✦
#ektor has been such an incredible muse for me so far this year#i've been wanting to have my bigger pieces to look rougher & i think this is the closest i got to the idea so far! i'm very happy with it!#ektor#oc#original character#oc art#centaur#dnd#dnd oc#comic#just realized i forgot his little chin hairs but like#he can shave sometimes if he wants to#even tho his entire face is covered with fur actually#im gonna stop questioning this before it gets to me#we love inconsistency here
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danmarch 🐉💎
#honkai star rail#dan heng#march 7th#danmarch#fanart#hsr#what else do i tag. i have no idea#anyway. im breaking my VERY LONG oc art streak to post my one(1) contribution to star rail#i care them very much#ive been playing this game so religiously and they have not left my team#tragic past(emo) vs tragic past(girly pop)#theres NO WAY with marchs very teenage girl mind that she does not have a crush on the hot cool mysterious yet caring dragon guy#who stays in the room right next to her#and the fact that he teases her so much........#the whole ass belabog quest he throws in little harmless march roasts every so often#he fucking CARE her#i bets shes like a filipino mom with that camera. every oppertunity (picture!!!!)#and dan heng gets dragged into it#he is honing his photography skills against his will#any nice place? shes like (lemme pose can you get a photo of me?)#dan heng just sighs#they bond over silently judging stelle rummaging through the garbage#cast each other that best friend glance as half her body is sticking out of a trash bin#i like to think you see them hanging out on the train together#with dan heng reading some obscure 8th century book on civilization pattern and development#and march is humming and putting stickers and aesthetic shit in her scrapbook#taping a piece of antimatter legion loot in the middle of a page#and with bubbly handwriting (we beat some bad guys today!!! <333 so fun!!)
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“Maybe the flash was to blame. Or maybe it’s his shrunken state that gave the looming witch the illusion of being exactly 10 feet tall.
Whatever it was, it had flicked something within. Suddenly, he was no longer a lizard. Nor a great, powerful wizard. Not even “Rick Shades.”
He was a little Gourami.
Only 12 years old. Eyes wide and unobscured. Skin smooth from the lack of scars. But most of all, untainted by the horrors.
And unlike that little Gourami, he was entirely aware of what’s coming for them. He could warn the 12 year old. Maybe save them even. Tell her that continuing this approach is a bad, BAD, VERY TERRIBLY BAD IDEA!!
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But he couldn’t.”
My inspiration pieces: :)
#I’m actually really proud of this piece#epithet erased#rick shades#toidei gourami#lorelai blyndeff#prison of plastic spoilers#anyone else find it weird that rick didn’t butt in or made a peep during the whole thing?#I completely forgot he was there the whole time#like he had no issue doing that prior#molly even felt his little legs constantly moving in her hair#but here?#not even a ‘hello’?#not anything even after she got thrown out?#not ‘are you ok?’#no comment?#it feels off that he hasn’t said or done anything considering his character#was he so still that neither molly nor naven mentioned him?#ok granted they were both heavily occupied and distressed#is it just my angst-loving ass making a headcanon that he did a freeze response to a trigger?#probably#ok- 🥲#my art stuff#flicker’s art stuff#I have ZERO idea what the ocean king looks like so I just went with ‘squid man’
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And the universe said you are not alone
Close ups below the cut!
#fire draws#in stars and end poems#<- thats my tag for this now because i have more ideas for pieces inspired by the end poem hehee#in stars and time#in stars and time siffrin#in stars and time loop#isat#in stars and time spoilers#two hats spoilers#kinda#isat siffrin#isat loop#siffrin fanart#loop fanart#guys im so normal about this game and the end poem can you tell#these two just#MMMMMMMMMMMMMMM#they make me insane a little bit#they contrast each other so well
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I don’t know why, maybe because I’ve been on a Garp kick lately.
But I do really think that Garp kind of became like a surrogate Uncle to the Roger boys and by extension Mihawk. Like I can just imagine Roger telling them that if they were ever separated from the crew or if something ever happened to him or Ray and they needed help they should go to Garp (I mean he entrusted his own baby to him it makes sense he’d also entrust his boys)
(for whatever reason Mihawk got this talk too despite him already traveling by himself and not being officially part of Rogers crew. But since Ray adopted him he’s Roger’s brat as well)
All this to say that Garp takes his uncle duties very seriously and what is an uncle if not an inconvenience and an embarrassment?
So Ofcourse he pulls up to Kuriagina during the timeskip (Hawain shirt and all) to visit his new grand babies (read Perona and Zoro) that he’s heard so much about. (read shanks immediately gossiped with him abou mt after stumbling upon them last time he came to visit Mihawk)
And because Garp is essentially the one piece equivalent of Florida man, this goes well for absolutely nobody
Except Zoro who is nothing if not a troll. And game must recognize game.
The monkeys love him tho, he communicates with them on a wavelength nobody can quite understand least of all Garp.
#have been very obsessed with the idea of garp going out of his way to troll Mihawk lately#I just think their dynamic would be amazing#Mihawk immediately calls and tells Shanks if he ever catches sight of him again he will take his other arm#Shanks of course thinks this is adorable#I love the idea that Garp just somehow collected all the little baby pirates from Roger’s era#Mihawk becomes a warlord and garp immediately starts parading him around marine headquarters#as the only one of his hell brood to be actually become a law abiding citizen#and the rest of the marines have to stand there like that isn’t the actual marine hunter#to new recruits and low level marines garp lore goes crazy#throwing thoughts to the void#one piece#dracule mihawk#this is my official petition for Garp to be a memeber of the goth fam#I love complicated family ties#hawkeye mihawk#mishanks#gol d roger#monkey d garp#monkey d. garp#roronoa zoro#zoro#Perona#goth fam#one piece goth family#goth family#one piece marines#silvers rayleigh#akagami no shanks#buggy the clown#garp the fist
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thinking about tomura being tenko’s older brother where they’re perhaps ten years apart. you and tomura first meet when you’re both eighteen, start hanging out as friends, but you’re only vaguely aware he has a sibling when sometimes he says he can’t hang out that particular weekend because he has to “babysit the brat”.
after a while, you’re able to convince him to show you a picture of his little brother. you’re curious if they look alike, and other than a few features like their eye and hair color, you can easily imagine how tomura looked at that age, too. him and tenko look startling similar to each other even with that many years between them.
“sorry…” tomura grumbles through the other side of your phone call one afternoon. “tenko’s soccer practice got canceled and now my mom’s making me watch him while she’s at work.”
he sounds annoyed, almost embarrassed by the fact that, even at eighteen, he has to obey his mother’s requests, but is ultimately contrite about his last minute change of plans having to effect you so often as well.
“it’s ok,” you assure him with your usual chipper tone, fully understanding the responsibility he has. “but, y’know…” you remind him, “if it’s ok, i could always come over and we could hang out while you’re watching your brother?”
you try and hide your eagerness the best you can. the truth is, you’ve been wanting to meet the mini-tomura for quite some time now. tomura always describes him as annoying, as a needy little brat that whines until he gets his way, but the words are never spit with scorn and there’s something soft in his eyes that always gives away the fact that he actually does care.
tomura usually just brushes off your offer, promises to reschedule with you, so you’re prepared to be let down, but that time, after a short pause of contemplation, tomura clears his throat and says, “i mean, yeah, ok. that’s fine i guess, if you want…”
“ok!” you beam, already grabbing your keys. “i’ll be over soon then!” you hang up, grab your bag, and jump in your car.
any time you’ve been over to tomura’s house (which has been few and far between, since your place tends to be the designated hangout given you usually have the house to yourself most of the time) tenko hasn’t been there. he’s been at his aforementioned soccer practice or a friend’s house or some other activity that’s kept you from meeting him.
you’re so curious it’s overwhelming, and as you pull up to tomura’s house he’s already perched on the front step, gazing at his phone until he hears your car approaching. you park by the curb and scamper up to greet him, giving him a hug as per usual, and though he’d sounded sort of defeated on the phone earlier, seeing your smiling face now makes him feel a little lighter.
“hey,” you grin, momentarily holding both his hands in your own down between your close bodies. sometimes you're reminded how adverse to any kind of physical touch tomura used to be when the two of you had first met. even something as simple as a light, playful nudge would make him flinch, cause him to keep a bit more of a distance for the rest of the day.
but over time, you're not sure exactly why but, something changed.
and it was actually him who came to comfort you that time. you'd been upset, had planned on staying in your room alone until the ache decided to pass. but then you and tomura had started texting. he'd sensed something was wrong so he'd called. he'd heard the heartbreak in your voice, told you he was on his way, and not ten minutes later he was sitting beside you on your bed with his arm around you as you'd talked to him about what had happened while you'd cried.
ever since then, he'd gotten more comfortable with your casual, familiar touches, though he still found it easier to touch you than to be touched by you.
“hey,” he returns, then adds with that hint of that sarcastic humor you’ve come to love so much, “you ready to meet the little demon?”
you laugh, unable to not be amused by his melodrama. “oh, c’mon,” you say, lightly batting at his arm. “he’s only eight, he can’t be that bad!”
all tomura offers in response is a muttered, “yeah, well…” before inviting you inside.
as soon as you walk through the door, a little dog comes bounding towards you, running in energetic circles and barking as his tail wags with both curiosity and excitement. you proceed with caution around the corgi, wanting to reach down to pet him but hesitating around the unfamiliar animal.
the few times you'd been over before, tomura had let his dog out into the yard so he wouldn't end up jumping all over you, so this is the first time you're meeting him up close instead of catching glances of him through a window.
"ugh, sorry..." tomura mutters as he reaches down and scoops his dog up, the canine's tail continuing to wag even more once he's secure in tomura's arms. "i forgot to let him out back..." he then seems to realize something, his eyes widening a bit as he does a double take back at you and asks with a little more guilt in his tone, "you're not afraid of dogs, are you...?"
you wave off his concern with a swish of your hand and a crooked smile. you tell him you're not, you were just a little surprised is all.
"it's mon-chan, right?" you ask, slowly reaching your hand out for the dog to sniff.
"yeah. mon-chan," tomura confirms, readjusting his grip on the wriggling animal. "he's super friendly. just, well..." he gives a half shrug as a small grin cracks at one corner of his mouth. "he can be a lot."
"hey, mon-chan..." you coo, your tone turned sugary sweet, and the dog gives the back of your hand a few friendly licks. "awwww, you're cute, aren't you? what a good boy..."
but before you can dote over the dog too much, something catches your attention from the corner of your eye, causing you to shift your view towards the living room that sits off to the side of the main entrance.
and, lo and behold, there he is.
little tenko and his sweet little face that reminds you so much of the older brother you’ve become so fond of.
“hiiiii,” you greet the little boy with a soft voice and a smile. you know kids can often be wary when meeting new people, so when tenko just stares at you with those big, dark eyes you’re not surprised.
“hey,” tomura grumbles to his sibling. “don’t be rude. say hello.”
tenko then seems to snap out of his cautious trance, looking at his brother then back to you before saying, “is this the girl you’re always talking about, nii-san?”
tomura feels his cheeks heat and his ears burn as he sputters out something that sounds like half an excuse, half a scolding before telling tenko to go watch tv and behave. tenko obeys without any trouble and as you pass by through the living room you can see a popular superhero movie playing on the screen.
you travel down the short hall to where tomura’s bedroom lays at the very end, and once the door is shut he seems to become a little less tense.
“i’ll need to make him lunch in about an hour,” he tells you. “but until then…” he flashes you a suggestive smirk and you know exactly what’s coming.
it's one of your favorite things about hanging out together, the way it relieves the tension, lets you two unleash parts of yourself that you rarely let other people see. and tomura's been surprisingly good at it from the start. you wouldn't have guessed at a glance how skilled those hands could be, how coordinated given his usually lax, nonchalant nature...
he tosses you a game controller and you catch it with ease. “wha’dya say we pick up where we left off?” he asks, a hint of darkness to his voice that you now recognize as cold, hard competition.
you feel a look of confidence spreading across your face at the challenge and you reply in a tone befitting of a worthy opponent, “you’re on.”
the next hour passes quickly as you play your guys' favorite co-op game together, leaving you just two points from tying with tomura, and amidst your laughter and playful taunting, there’s a slight squeak as the door creaks on its hinges, little tenko peeking through the thin crack and observing, letting out a quiet gasp when he realizes he's been spotted.
“i’ll be out in a sec,” tomura tells his brother, already knowing what that expectant look means. tenko seems to linger, casting you another glance, and you convince tomura to pause the game.
“c’mon,” you murmur, giving him that guilt-tripping stare that he hates you for being so good at. “let’s go make him lunch and then we can finish this after.”
and it’s that suggestion of we, that suggestion of together, that has him pausing the game and setting his controller aside, standing from his bed to open the door to his little brother and following him down the hall to the kitchen, you close behind.
tomura takes out a tupperware from the fridge and has just popped it in the microwave when his phone buzzes from his pocket. "it's my mom," he states. "gimme one sec." he steps out of the kitchen and begins to wander towards the living room, his voice growing more distant as you hear him pick up the call. you hope everything is ok. but, for now, it's just you and tenko standing in the kitchen, the eight-year-old gazing up at you with that big, curious stare while the microwave counts down the seconds behind him.
"can i have lemonade?" he asks once you meet his eyes and give him a friendly grin.
the microwave beeps and you go to take his lunch out of it. "sure," you answer. but then, a little bit more suspiciously, you ask, "does tomura usually let you have lemonade?"
tenko nods, not giving anything away as you finish plating the other items of his lunch while tomura remains on the phone in the living room. from where you stand, if you glance just slightly around the entryway, you can see him sitting on the couch, leaning forward a bit while he continues to speak with his voice low. you just hope his mom won't be mad that he invited you over while she wasn't home.
it's not like you hadn't been over before when his house was empty, but given this is the first time you've met his little brother, you just hope you're not overstepping somehow. not to mention that, unbeknownst to you, tomura's mom had begun badgering him about meeting you before the end of summer. as soon as she'd caught onto the fact that her eldest son had been hanging out regularly with a girl, she couldn't help but become curious as to what kind of girl she might be.
a bit distracted by your thoughts, you just nod and say to tenko, "ok, sure, you can have some lemonade then."
once his chicken tenders and apple slices and animal crackers are promptly arranged on his plate and a glass of lemonade is poured, you carry tenko's lunch to the table and take a seat across from him while you wait for tomura to conclude his conversation, trying to keep your growing anxiety at bay at any possible problems that may be arising due to that phone call.
you try to listen in, though mostly hear the standard, vague, "yeah. uh-huh. alright," responses from tomura until—
"are you my brother's girlfriend?"
you blink at tenko, taken aback as you sputter over a response to that, wondering for a moment if you merely imagined it. then, once your nervous giggling and bashfulness begins to dissipate, you clear your throat and say, "did tomura tell you that?"
tenko takes another bite from one of his apple slices and says, "no. but he talks about you all the time. he says you're his friend, but i hear him talking to his friends at night when he thinks no one is listening."
you stare at tenko with an intensity you don't realize you're wearing on your face at first, the suspense eating you alive. eventually, when tenko doesn't seem like he's going to offer more, you lower your voice to something closer to a whisper, your gaze darting back to where you can barely see tomura sitting in the other room, still on the phone, and ask tenko, "what do you hear him say?"
tenko, his big eyes moving up and to the right, contemplates that for a moment as he finishes chewing and swallowing his next bite, then tells you, "i don't know exactly. i can't hear what his other friends are saying, but one time i heard nii-san say that you were special." you feel your cheeks heat and again glance over at the back of the boy you've become so fond of so quickly. "he said something about not wanting to ruin anything," tenko continues, reciting the words as if he doesn't quite grasp their meaning. but then, tenko's mouth splits into a mischievous little grin that reminds you so much of tomura, it's honestly a little scary. he says, seeming to find amusement in his next words, "one time, i heard him say you were like his guardian angel or something..."
a childish little giggle bubbles up from tenko's lips, almost as if he finds a cruel kind of pleasure in knowing his older brother's biggest secret, but this information just makes your heart all the more warmer towards tomura.
you'd spent the last couple of months suffering inside your own head about it all— about whether you really meant something to tomura, about if he cared for you as much as you did for him or if you were simply just convenient and would be discarded come any significant distance put between the two of you—
suddenly tenko seems to retract, perhaps sensing your discomfort, so you take the opportunity to clear the nerves and giddiness from your throat and change the subject.
"so, tenko," you begin, trying to straighten out your crooked smile. "tomura tells me you play soccer. do you like it?"
tenko gives a shrug at first, taking another bite of an apple slice that's had the skin peeled and cut to resemble rabbit ears. then he says, "i guess so. but i like watching movies more."
you ask him what kinds of movies he likes, recalling the superhero blockbuster that had been playing on the tv when you'd first arrived, and feel a spark of endearment as tenko's face lights up as he delves into telling you all about his favorite characters and their cool powers.
"wow! you sure know a lot!" you commend him with a beaming smile, and at the compliment tenko's face begins to turn a little red. "do you and tomura ever watch movies together?"
"not really..." the younger sibling sulks, pouting as he peels the remainder of the skin from his apple slice. "nii-san is usually playing video games in his room and my mom says i'm not allowed to play them because they're too violent..." then, before you can tell him that's too bad but one day he'll be old enough to play the same games as his brother, tenko perks back up and tells you, "but sometimes... sometimes nii-san lets me into his room on nights our mom works late and we play mario kart together."
you have to force yourself to stifle a laugh at that. i mean, it's just completely adorable, isn't it? the thought of tomura, who tries so hard to play it off like he couldn't care less about his little brother, like he's nothing more than a nuisance to him, a pest, an inconvenience, does actually take the time to bond with him anyway. at least, when no one's looking.
you tell tenko you also like mario kart, then lean in and add in a playful whisper, "but i bet he doesn't tell you about all the times i've beaten him, does he?"
tenko regards you with blatant skepticism. "no way," he says, as if he's never been more sure about anything in his life. "there's no way you can beat nii-san. he's too good! no one can beat him!"
now you laugh openly, causing tomura to glance over his shoulder just to make sure there isn't too much chaos ensuing in his brief absence, but tenko just looks confused.
"well," you reply, amusement trailing off the end of your words, "he is pretty good. i'll give him that. but unbeatable..." you quirk up one brow and wear a slight smirk for a moment before allowing your features to fall back to normal. then you tell tenko, "just give it time. one day i bet you'll be able to beat him. i believe in you!"
"you behavin' in here?" tomura suddenly appears in the entryway, slipping his phone back into his pocket as he casts his little brother a warning look.
"your girlfriend says she beat you in mario kart, is that true?" tenko blurts out, and you have to force yourself not to tease tomura when his cheeks visibly darken at the mention of you being his girlfriend.
"everything ok?" you ask to defuse the situation a little and put tomura back at ease, but then his look of bashfulness morphs into a look of slight surprise at the sight you and his little brother getting along so well.
quickly, he snaps out of it, and replies, "yeah. she was just checking in," before seeming to notice something awry about the picture here, specifically on tenko's side of the table.
"hey," tomura lightly scolds his brother. "you know mom only lets you have lemonade on the weekends." you immediately begin to apologize, saying that when he asked you thought it would be ok, and feel embarrassed that you let yourself be manipulated by a child, but tomura assures you it's fine before returning to interrogate his little brother who, admittedly, looks very guilty now.
"did you lie to her?" he presses, and for a moment you're afraid he'll make tenko cry. tenko denies it at first and you observe with growing anxiety as the argument between them ramps up a bit.
it isn't until you reach over to place a hand over tomura's, which has been firmly planted on the tabletop as he leans in over his brother, that he seems to simmer down a little.
"one time will be ok, won't it?" you ask him, not wanting to ruin the moment you'd just shared with tenko, feeling like you'd gained a little more of his trust. you use your secret weapon, the one thing tomura can never say no to whenever he sees it— that sweet, pleading stare you give as you gaze up at him, the look that makes his stomach flutter and his head haze over with thoughts he'll be revisiting later once he's alone.
"fine," he concedes, some of the rigidity that had captured his limbs leaving him as he steps away from the table. he looks directly at his brother and concludes with a warning, "but just this once."
you're relieved, and tenko appears to have returned to his prior state of unfazed contentment, but tomura still seems impatient about something.
"c'mon," he says, beckoning you up from the table to follow him back to his room. "we still have a game to finish."
you give tenko a parting smile before humming out an amused, lilting little note, trailing after tomura as you chirp out a mischievous remark of, "are you gonna actually help us win this time? or am I gonna have to carry the entire round again?"
he lets out an incredulous, albeit amused, chuckle, surprising you by throwing his arm around your shoulders and tugging you in closer to his side so you almost stumble down the hallway. "oh, just you wait..." brazen, he murmurs in your ear, his voice low and dark, now allowing the butterflies in your tummy to unfurl their delicate wings and take flight, "by the time we're done with this round, the other team isn't even gonna know what hit 'em..."
and, with that, you once again return to the confined space of his only slightly disheveled bedroom, the tv screen still bearing the scores from your last game. although, admittedly, as you continue to sit side by side, knees nudging one another here and there when things start to get a little too desperate or rowdy, you can't help but find yourself a little more distracted and self-conscious than usual.
because you swear you catch tomura glancing at you in between rounds from the corner of your eye, something softer, something warmer than you're quite used to possessing his crimson gaze.
it's a side to him you've rarely gotten to see, but you hope he'll learn to wear it a little more openly around you as time goes on.
besides, when his little brother had asked if you were his girlfriend, he hadn't quite said no, now had he?
#word count: 3600+#helloooo this has been in my drafts since the summer time oh my gosh#this is just a fluffy lil sfw piece btw#dont know if i'll end up expanding on it but i just think the thought of tomura and tenko being siblings is so cute T^T <3#also I imagine this is like a friends to lovers type thing with tomura#and like you’re just on the cusp of actually dating but haven’t like done anything other than really hug and hold hands a little bit yet#like maybe it’s the summer before you guys are going off to college and you’re spending a lot of time together#and he plans on telling you how he really feels about you before the end of summer#anywaaaaaaaayyyyyy just wanted to finish this lil idea up because. yeah. its been sitting in my drafts for forever.#and i miss him <3#drabble#tomura x reader#tomura x y/n#tomura x you#bnha x reader#bnha x you#bnha x y/n#mha x y/n#mha x you#mha x reader#shigaraki x reader#shigaraki x you#shigaraki x y/n#boku no hero academia fanfic#my hero academia fanfic#tomura shigaraki x reader#tomura shigaraki x you#tomura shigaraki x y/n
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