#theres so much more but thats all i can muster

[neeko-system]

insane ramblings (arcane s2 spoilers)

i pissed myself off watching the schnee video about season 2 and it made me so mad i formed as many thoughts about season2 as i could so i could externalize why i like it more than season 1(tho not really. i like them both equally for their own reasons. comparing them is kinda insane to me because its the same fucking story lol. season 1 was not a movie)

season 2 is about creating a new chapter in your life, literally and figuratively.

ekko calls the wild runes the fingerprints of the arcane. something outside the bounds of their world that can interact with them and cause change to occur. viktor calls it pure chaos. something that acts on their world through a lens they cant understand. almost as if some sort of author or god or external being with control of the narrative. runeterra is presented as a world thats bears clear influence of its creation. this is stylized through the way the world is painted as if a painting and how its natural geography is feels artificially created.(i dont have examples but go look at the universe page if you havent. mount targon especislly feels like someone pinched it and made it taller(specifically in comparison to how mount targon used to be in the lore)) we see ekko jayce and heimerdinger discover that theyre in a story because of this.

the other two characters that discover this are the two that die and are revived by being infused with the arcane: jinx and viktor. after jinxs dies and comes back she's more dissociated, monstrous. she sees herself as a character in a narrative, giving her control over the authorial effect her already chaotic nature has on the world(the way accidents seem to happen around her almost as if the arcane is inside her). it was enmeshed into her life and it made her an agent of chaos. she ultimately enacts this with the tea party. taking the matter of her future into her own hands. her sitting in the jinx chair being her recognizing the symbolic narrative importance of the decision(vi's like bitch wth is going onnn 😭😭😭) she chose to continue the cycle of chaos with more destruction and death. remember this

viktor saught to gain control of the arcane by having a conversation with it, even offering himself to it. when jayce brings him back after the council attack it finishes his transformation and completely envelops him in the arcane. he comes back cold and detached, not responding to jayces feelings and seeking out the path that lies before him. he's sees the narrative of the world around him and decides the best way he can save the people him and sky always wanted to (tho kinda separately but we'll get to that) and starts his commune. he's trying to enact order in a chaotic world using the chaos to understand it. when jayce kills him in ep6 he's literally talking to the audience(narrative vision) about order and chaos (what inspires good also inspires evil) being two sides of the same coin.(wild rune side being chaos, the other order.) this visual metaphor of the coin is used to represent the struggle between chaos and order.(viktor calls jinx powder(fucked up dude) she gets stitches, the coin drops in the water chaos side face up, but viktor catches it, representing his effort to control the chaos of the arcane.) but ultimately the coin ends chaos side face up because they live in a chaotic world.

the chaos and order thing is even further played with in the way the world is presented in episode7. which i consider the crux of the story and this interpretation of it.

ekko ends up in the order timeline of his life. a world where vi dies instead of powder. (vi being associated with order through her being the one that had to keep reign on powder(chaos) and junkrat and roadhog. her sense of duty and desire to create order through the chaos inside her(destructive collateral(hurting powder, incidentally with words then physically, ex) by joining the enforcers. except it doesnt go great.(we'll get into that)) this causes the two cities to come together and theres no need for the arcane to be discovered. in the order timeline ekko discovers the powder that could have been, connecting that that person is still inside jinx, he just has to find her. in this world powder holds down the underground, shes a force of positive social order(wingmanning mylo, the thing vander says, her general hot pixie girl existence) yet the magic of the chaos still exists inside her. (vi continues to exist in this world as a doll where she still lives in the vent canyon in her fort.) she keeps the hextech crystals locked away because she understands the danger of that chaos. despite her external chaotic exterior she still tries to be a force of order and good in the chaos timeline(saving isha, painting herself as a savior of zaun like her idol janna(blue hair like the freedom of the sky, cloud tattoos)fixing sevikas arm etc. ekko uses the power of time he gains to bring this vision of order back to jinx in his world when she had given it up after isha gave herself(her chaotic action of saving isha paying itself back in reaction by isha saving her and then isha sacrificing herself in place of powder(who had been coming back because of the healing of the commune)). he sees that both sides exist and can co-exist. (order ekko in his suit versus chaos ekko in his decal covered jacket)

this episode highlights the dual sided nature of the world. piltover zaun, chaos order. progress destruction. both exist in both cities. zauns socio economic chaos is externally present while the internal order of the chembarons is hidden. piltover presents orderly but internally is a chaotic political jockey contest.(the whole thing that jayce gets wrapped in.) jinx and vi's mom representing the ideal of that bridge of a nation of zaun thats an equal to piltover. juggling the chaos of children and the order of organizing a community. her intense will living on through silco and vander, so strong it splits them.(i get it) vi representing the well intentioned but sinister external-presenting-order and the jaded and callous anxiety based internal chaos of piltover. shown by her insistence on enacting her will forcefully. her giant gauntlets to carry that weight(powder talks about vi fighting because she was scared with ekko.)(also connection with vander being a miner)while jinx represents the jaded and callous anxiety based external presenting chaos yet well intentioned but sinister internal order of zaun. two sisters two cities. same page ?

well theres another theme we have to talk about. cycles. you know whats a cyclical pattern? chapters in a story.

the two cities have been stuck in that cycle of struggle through generations. one that its residents have been trying to solve and perpetuate on both sides. vander and silco parallel to jinx and vi over the same thematics. vander's internal chaos(all the weight and pain he carries represnted by the monster he becomes(singed idolizing him for all that he did but not caring enough to let him rest peacefully and escape the cycle.(viktor sharing that amoral hypocrisy))) yet external desire to create order shown by him making deals with the enforcers(parallel to vi joining the enforcers) but it blowing up in his face in a similar way to vi working with caitlyn does.(silco gets involved to cause problems for vander to create the order he thinks is necessary to set everything straight, jinx following suit over the hextech gem.) silco having the external front of the horror of shimmer and his thugs but an internal desire to hold down the underground like he feels like he has to. both of them trying to carry the weight of the order and chaos by themselves. ekko seeing in the order timeline that in order to create order(hehe) you have to come together and forgive and learn to love again and move on. that the most fucked up thing could happen between two people and they can still love.

after isha dies jinx is ready to give up completely. the will of her childhood self is reborn and sacrifices herself to save her. (turns out processing your trauma through a child isnt a very good idea xp) but ekko comes back and shows that powder is still alive and that fate can be changed. when she comes back with ekko she sees vi stuck in that cycle and gives herself to correct it. burying 'jinx' and 'powder' and 'vander' and 'warwick'(vander's metaphorical weight) correcting the original mistake/accident that caused this timeline to descend into chaos in the first place. letting everyone involved process and move on from the pain all those years ago.(s1 ends with jinx causing chaos, s2 ends with powder establishing order by forcing vi to literally let go of her and vander) vi gets to mourn and find new love and stability that she needs and powder gets to pursue the adventure and spontaneity she always desired and vander gets to rest like he deserves.

creation is a theme of characters lives in arcane. jayces hammers, viktors hextech, jinxes inventions. and also destruction, vi's gauntlets, jinxes inventions again, the sacrifices viktor makes for his progress. but like the other two sided themes arcane posits that both exist within us and that we have to harness both forces equally and in respect to each other. (also hammers are a tool that can create and destroy, more on that)

creating new futures requires destroying the past. writing a new chapter means turning a new page.

mel is trapped under the weight of the empire her mother represents. ambessa seizing that power in order to protect her family yet it being the the thing that traumatizes mel.(the things you do for power at any cost.)(getting involved with the black rose leading to mel's assistant dying.(parallel to viktors assistant dying at his pursuit of power at any cost.) the truth that ambessa tried to hide being the reason kino died(parallels to vander keeping secrets about the enforcers to protect his kids->being the reason vi feels like she has to lie to protect powder etc). her similarly caught in that internal strife of order versus chaos represented by the lamb and wolf dynamic.(little fucked up its only really shown in the blood sweat and tears music video but whatever it shows my point.) the chaos of having children scares her into resisting her fate(wolf kindred) seeking power to establish order that'd keep mel safe. a world where ambessas on the throne(treating her like she's not resolved to fight(lamb kindred) hey im noticing a pattern. mel reconciles with the legacy of authority and magic she was trying to run away from and it gives her the power to break her and her mom out of the cycle(or chains in her case literally ty black rose) but ambessa dies in her pursuit of protecting the past, ultimately leaving mel to seek out her own future. her own new chapter.

mel's magical empathy driving her to pursue creating social order through the means she knows(politics.) (parallel to powder creating social order through her neurotic empathy(we see how acutely aware of the world jinx is in the sucker mv in episode 2. and how she wants to make change in the strife and damage of the underground but is too buried in trauma to do it/feels like she has to do it all herself(parallel to silco going through the same rebirth experience and being entangled with the arcane (the ocean water in his wound) and trying to carry it all himself while clearly stuck in his trauma) and she sees jayce as a path to that future because of the savior complex that drives him. putting all the weight of her hopes on him. jayce feeling like he has to save the world because of what happened to him and because of mel. mel saving jayce in the explosion but not viktor tormenting jayce with that savior complex further.

he sought out magic to improve and save lives and everyone place their hopes on him and he wasnt able to meet them. he loses viktor and he realizes that he was the only thing he truly cared about. he continues to temper with the arcane searching for answers and viktor reaches out to him through space and time to guide him to the answers. he ends up trapped in a pit, his literal lowest point with a broken leg(hammer destroying and creating, two sides of the coin.) all the ivory heights and political status he gained through his work crashing down on him(they did this in s1 too with the child he kills.) his internal insecurities lead him to chase order and he was forced to face the consequences for him meddling with things he didnt understand(politics, the arcane.) (kid dying, ethics of capitalism etc.) and through the climb he realizes who is he is, a guy with a hammer that fixes things and he wants to fix his partner, one of the few things he truly cared for in life. and when he couldnt it broke him, none of the glamour or actual change he made with hextech mattered to him as much as viktor did. so when he betrays viktor by not destroying the hexcore and using it to revive him, viktor is hurt and leaves. (parallel to singed idolizing vander and keeping the idea of him alive?) he's put through viktors shoes to truly understand the pain he's going through.

viktors ideas of saving people didnt come from the abstract hope of magic that saved him, he wanted tangible evolution from the status quo that was keeping people like him and sky and singed in the world beneath. he looked up to singed and learned some of his amoral ways of scientific pursuit. wanting to achieve that goal more than anything, even willing to give up lives(sky(probably not intentionally but ultimately careless (similar to jinx))) and joining the downtrodden together with him even though he knows the potential consequences. where as someone old like singed sees change as a constant cycle that must be fought through where as viktor sees it as something that can be attained. the same trap that jayce gets caught in believing that magic will save him. jayce has that blind hope beaten out of him (parallel to vi in the fight pits and how she learns to trust in the good intentions of others in episode 5)by future viktor's trial and he brings that painful truth with him to viktor but its not enough to sway him. he doubles down on his delusion of the perfect form and chooses to continue pursuing chaos as a means to his end. yet his facade of detachment fights against his internal desire of protecting and saving.(ambessa and jinx and caitlyn are also like this)

caitlyn buries herself in her facade after her mother dies. she pursued external order because she thought it would be the best way to help people but her over developed sense of justice as an affect of her privilege and insecurities (jayce) (i must take matters into my own hands) means she escalates the conflict. this culminates in jinx killing her mom incidentally as retaliation for the oppression of piltover that caitlyn represents and uses to get what she wants. pressuring jinx in an effort to stop her because she feels shes the only one that can since she thinks similarly. her mom dying means she loses her guidance and when ambessa gives her the power over piltover she continues to use it to get what she wants disconnected from reality. and in her trauma focuses singularly on the person that killed her mom.(mel gave the same power to jayce and it also didnt end very well.) this is shown in episode 2-3 how she is a) not very stable (chaotic exterior with a facade of craving order(vi-ish) with an internal desire of order(jinx-ish) but a facade of what that order looks like being the power she can lord over others(ambessa-ish)(she's a lot like vi and jinxes mom trying to be a bridge of understanding for the two cities(i get it))) this culminates in her losing an eye to symbolically represent her losing sight of what was really important(silco parallel(they do the right eye thing a few times.)) by focusing on jinx, the source of her trauma, she's continuing the cycle of chaos in a perverse sense of order stemming from the environment she was raised in. when in reality her chance to bridge the cities is when she has power over piltover but the wolf(ambessa reminding her of her trauma and who caused it) in her ear tells her to keep fighting. ambessa knows how potent familial bonds are for willing things to happen(since its her weakness too.) and she manipulates caitlyn using it. caityn turns it on the people of zaun(singed(calling him depravity) and jinx). but mel breaks caitlyn out too using her powers of empathy by not letting her succomb to the fate that she brought on herself. because she sees caitlyn and her mom stuck in the same cycles.(jinx with vi and vander.) giving her a new chapter to keep writing her story.

ekko also uses his time to give jayce and viktor new chapters as well. ending the cycle of trying again and again to find each other and letting them be together finally. ending the conflict that was consuming lives as a means to an end. freeing jayce and viktor of the weight that they put upon themselves.

like mel freeing caitlyn from trying to take on noxus, like jinx saving vi from trying to save her and vander. like heimerdinger freeing himself from the concerns of human affairs. his time with the firelights and in the order timeline changing him away from his harsh and stoic "we must preserve the tradition of the past" to "life is full of chance and chaos and we might as well see where it takes us." the sentiment ringing through the whole show that the people we meet and take with us in our life and the experiences we have that shape who we'll become are more important than the trauma and experiences that shaped who you were. that all it takes is a turn of the page(or wheel in his case.) to keep writing and make more of your own story

arcane season 2 no one gets you like i do

[the-s1lly-corner]

can you make headcanons for all the tadc cast with a reckless reader?

also, have a good day :)

-daz

TADC cast x reckless! reader!

last post for this batch! ill get right back to answering stuff soon! my cinnamon roll dough is almost done with its first rise and ill have to shape them soon! also gotta make the frosting..! short post since the base of one of my thumbs is getting a lil sore idk if its because ive been typing so much these past few days or if i just slept on my hand wrong; maybe both

CAINE:

youre in luck reader! you cant really get hurt in the digital world...! well, not... traditionally.. you can definitely still feel pain, thats for sure, but i dont think your digital body has any bones to break or skin to scrape..! so hey at least you can kind of be as reckless as you want without consequence...! except, there are consequences. caine is not at all happy at your recklessness.. i mean sure yeah some of his IHAs can be more... intense, i mean zooble almost got turned into a gloink, but..! i think he tones down his adventures just so you wont throw yourself into the danger

POMNI:

tries to stop you but her words fall short as you run in yelling into whatever the threat is without a second thought. "i- wait- er..." and youre gone, leaving pomni to hurry and try to catch up with you. she probably has to drag you to safety, assuming this isnt a case where you got all glitched up by an abstracted circus member.. shes gonna have to work herself up to get you to chill out; perhaps ending in a whole emotional thing where she just. explodes? perhaps

RAGATHA:

just because you cant get hurt doesnt mean shes not going to fuss over you. if there were a need for it i think she would keep a pack of Band-Aids on her. however, because you guys cant get hurt in that way, she tries to keep you in bed when you inevitably get knocked a little too hard and need to rest it off. dont even think about trying to get up out of bed, shes going to give you this stern look that only a few percentage of people can muster.

you know the look

the stern one

scolds you too if you get caught up in something real dangerous

only really softens up if you threw yourself in danger for the sake of another person, because i think ragatha would do the same

JAX:

"bet you cant make that jump"

"bet i <> can!"

que you absolutely eating shit after you fail to make that jump, comically flipping over yourself and face planting. you probably have cartoon birds circling around your head. jax laughs at you before eventually coming over to help you up. he will not let you live this kind of stuff, down

KINGER:

he gets so so scared when youre not in his sight, i think if he knew you were willingly throwing yourself into harms way? this man would have a heart attack! like really, or he would if he still had his organs and stuff...if he could he would keep you in his pillow fort with him forever... but he cant, so he has to settle with following you around with meek attempts to try to stop you

ZOOBLE:

zooble would do similar stuff as jax, but when you actually. go to do the dangerous thing they just pull you back. "dude. i wasnt being serious"

bro has to keep you on one of those kid leashes because your first instinct someone says "bet" or "no balls" or anything in that vein, you need to prove yourself

GANGLE:

her comedy mask probably falls off from the sheer shock from how easily you just. launch yourself into things. on one hand she worries for you, but on the other hand she cant help but feel a little jealous; i mean shes just ribbon and a mask, shes not really... tough... strong.. durable... she wants to be able to run around and do the things you do but theres that fear of being immediately broken down or overpowered, you know? didnt mean to get silly there; anyways i think she would try to keep in you bed to sleep off the soreness, like ragatha

[sucker4sixx]

Promises

Recycled from 2023!

Plot: unlike def leppard nikki makes promises he cannot keep

Warnings: mental breakdown, smut

Another friday night. You spent the day at home cooking a lovely meal for nikki, he was always disappearing to have a drink with his band but this time he promised to come home, it was different from all the other promises because this time he said he ment it.

Again.

You cooked you both a huge chilli, his favourite. And set it out by 7pm. He finished work at 5 but you didnt expect him to come home straight away, that was completely fine. Just aslong as he was home before nine.

8pm. You ass was getting sore from the uncomfortable wooden seat that you waited on and the candles where halfway done. Yeah sure you where nervous but its not exactly like hes done anything wrong, theres still time for him to arrive. You thanked the stars you put the plastic containers over the plates or otherwise they would be cold.

8:30. You where growing impatient, the tight black dress you wore starting to itch. No matter how much you checked your phone you wouldnt call him. Its his job to keep a promise. He is an adult.

8:50. Tears started growing in your eyes "ten minutes nikki. You got ten more minutes" you whispered to yourself.

8:51...

8:52...

8:53...

8:59 *ping* your phone buzzed

Contact name: "nikki"

"Hay baby foing to be a lirtle late back hime tonight, lobe you so much x"

That same message you got almost every second day, your eyes pouring of tears now.

"Fuck you."

Not exactly mature but your brain was racing and it was all you could muster up. Instead of doing what you would usually do, cry in your bed. You picked up the two, well made, plates of food and threw them on the ground.

Screaming all hell. The wine glasses filled with that extremely expensive wine he bought you? Smashed against the wall. You would crush the candles but they had already completely melted.

Your phone rang and rang as you lay on the kitchen floor covered in cold chilly, pieces of glass from the wine glasses leaving tiny scars on your arms. Anyone wouldve thought you where manic, but you thought this was too tame compared to how he really made you feel. You cried your eyes out as if you had no neighbours and you where in the planet completely alone, thats how you felt anyways.

10pm, you didnt move from your position, the melt down slowing but the crying becoming more dramatic.

"How could he do this to me? Im such a great girlfriend. I cook home made meals, i dont expect much of him" you though, only seeing red.

*click*

You look over to see nikki standing at the door way, looking at you like you where some sort of monster "babe? Ive been calling you like crazy! What have you done!" He scolded you, walking towards the 'crime scene' as few might describe it. "You have no fucking right to be scolding me!" You screamed back, standing up, feeling light headed from crying and screaming so much "every week, i slave in the kitchen over you" you pointed to the chilli on the ground "baby i promise ill come home tonight you just go cook a fucking meal that will take you fucking hours so that i can stand you up!" You mocked him. You walked towards him slowly, grabbing onto his shirt leaving it covered in chilli "ive fucking had it with you nikki" you said weakly, crying "i-" "dont talk to me right now" you walked upstairs, a trail of chilli staining the white carpet.

You ran a shower and locked the bathroom door so that he couldnt come in. The water pelting against you as you sat down made the feeling go away, the deep feeling of being stabbed in the back. After your long shower you got out and put on your pjs that thank god you remembered to take them in and dried your hair with the hairdryer that sat on the counter.

*knock knock*

You turned round to look at the door where the knocks came from. "Honey?" god he knew you loved when he called you that "what is it, nikki?" "Let me in please" he winced, almost like he was crying "i cant" he just huffed and sat against the door "i know i failed you multiple times" you sat against the door too feeling your eyes tear up "but god if you only knew how much i love you. God if only i could show you then youd know forever" "nikki ive heard it before. Your never going to change" you heard him crying softly "baby please" he pawed at the door, the alcohol becoming more evident. You reluctantly opened the door and he looked up at you like a lost kitten, propping himself up with one hand, eyes bright red and puffy. You both stayed still for a minute untill you got onto your knees, his gorgeous eyes scanning your face for your next move. Softly you kissed him and he brought his hand up to hold your face.

Without warning nikki slowly started backing you up onto the floor, his other hand behind your head. When you where fully on the ground, his hands traveled down to your pj pants to pull them down to your ankles while you undid his tight leather jeans. Soon you where both stripped as nikki sat inbetween your legs, kissing you on the neck making you whimper softly. He grabbed onto your hands tight "please dont leave me baby" he whispered, your hand coming up to tangle your fingers in his hair making him whimper too. He sat up, left arm resting by your head, legs spreading yours to give him more access and his right hand holding his dick. He dragged his tip through your folds painfully slow, knowing how to tease you right "nikki hurry up!" You laughed, you laughter was cut off by a gasp as he pushed into you. He moved down slowly since there was no foreplay, both groaning as he did so "fuck honey, your so tight"

You grabbed him into a tight hug as he finally got right into you, stopping to let your pussy adjust. "Are you okay baby?" You pulled him back in, making his dick go in further, you moan softly "i missed you" as a response nikki started moving out of you and moving back in before he was fully out. Your back arched on the cold tiles as nikkis pace quickened, still in a tight hug. He peppered your face with kisses making your face blush even more"im so sorry baby, im so sorry" he mumbled speeding up, your sweat mixing and the sound of his skin hitting yours becoming louder. You trailed your tongue up his neck making him moan and rest his forehead head on the cold tiles. You brought your hand down to play with your clit noticing that nikki was unintentionally getting more out of it than you, your other hand coming up to tug on his black scruffy hair.

Five minutes later he started thrusting sloppily and you felt the knot in your tummy tighten as he started to hit the g spot, you let out a loud moan and nikki figured you out, pushing in and out harder the exact way he did making you almost cry his name "baby...im going to cum" you winced feeling your vision blur and nikkj picked up his pace"let yourself go honey, cum around me" it was odd not hearing nikki swear and dirty talk but then again it was odd having soft sex and even odder having it on the bathroom floor. Your thighs shook as you felt the knot undo. Nikki moaning loudly when he felt you tighten around him "oh fuck baby, where should i cum" "on my chest" with that he pulled out fast and pumped himself a few times, making deep eye contact.

After a second or two his warm cum splatted on your tummy and rolled down your sides, he let out a struggled moan, hanging his head low.

None of you moved for a minute or two. Your back lay against the cold tiles gasping for air and nikki stayed between your legs gasping too. Both covered in sweat. Eventually he got some toilet paper and cleaned you both up, after, he picked you up carefully and carried you bridal style into the bedroom laying you down gently, no words spoken at all. "Are you alright darling?" He looked down at you "i just need you to be here then ill be alright" you felt your eyes tearing up, he got in next to you, staring at you sympathetically "ill be home tomorrow night i swear on it, ill try even harder" you couldnt help but frown, hearing the same speech again and again was getting tiring "yeah." "what did i say?"

"What you say every day" he stopped to think for a minute "ill try harder this time, ill tell mick. You know him he wont let me stay i swear, I want to be better for you baby i mean it" you felt your cheeks glow but stopped yourself from thinking of any change actually happening.

Saturday night. You spent the day at home cooking a lovely meal for nikki, he was always disappearing to have a drink with his band but this time he promised to come home, it was different from all the other promises because this time he said he ment it. Again.

You cooked you both a spaghetti, your favourite. And set it out by 7pm. He finished work at 5 but you didnt expect him to come home straight away, that was completely fine. Just aslong as he was home before nine.

8pm. You ass was getting sore from the uncomfortable wooden seat that you waited on and the candles where halfway done. Yeah sure you where nervous but its not exactly like hes done anything wrong, theres still time for him to arrive. You thanked the stars you put the plastic containers over the plates or otherwise they would be cold. No matter how much you checked your phone you wouldnt call him. Its his job to keep a promise. He is an adult.

8:30. Tears started growing in your eyes again *CLICK*

"hey baby im home!"...

[musubiki]

most recent story development in my brain: ive decided to actually seperate taffy and coco during the timeskip

initially i had it that taffy sticks with coco because he has nowhere to go and they eventually get together over the timeskip. the new version is that he runs away and disappears right before mochi leaves

in my head i see him as the type to run away after what mochi and coco do for him-- after coco put in so much effort and time advocating for him because she saw that there were traces of a good person under his antagonistic nature, and after mochi beat his ass for the final time and finally cleared his curse, he doesnt know what to do with himself.

the rest of the guild at that point (mochi included) has an attitude of "We know why you were the way you were. Now that there's no reason for you to hate us, you're free to go where you want. You can even stay with us." and this sentiment eats him alive. the guilt he feels is insane. the fact that he spent months (years?) trying to ruin mochi, brewing in bitterness and rage and all of a sudden all of that is gone and replaced with forgiveness and warmth is unbearable and he cant stand it, so he leaves.

this is all coupled with his feelings for coco and the attitude on his end of "I don't deserve this. I don't deserve her. All I can do is bring them down. All I can do is bring her down. I have no right to stay here. I have no right to want to stay here."

so theres a pivotal scene in my head where he has all these thoughts, standing right outside the side door to mochis house hearing them all chattering inside, and has a long moment of hesitation before going inside. in the OLD version coco opens the door before he can make up his mind and forces him inside with the rest of them, but in the NEW version i think its much more taffy-like if hes gone by the time she notices and gets to the door

(tldr timeline: mochi removes his curse -> he disappears -> he only appears for the last amanita fight because really thats HIS fight as much as it is mochis -> he leaves again RIGHT after. i imagine coco tried to stop him or say goodbye but this man is notoriously good at escaping quickly)

and so timeskip-wise coco attends university on her own. she keeps in touch with oscar and lime (more oscar than lime) and while she never directly set out to look for taffy, there was always that desire to look for him in a crowd or something, maybe hoping to run into him at random or that he would show up out of nowhere like he did the first time.

I'm not totally sure what he does during the timeskip then. something far away from coco and the guild, but somewhere close to the ocean because he could never find it in him to stray too far from it for too long. maybe lost his touch with water magic a bit because he was too afraid and guilt-ridden to use it. never really stopped thinking about coco but couldnt muster up the courage to go find her again. for YEARS hes convinced that she doesnt want to see him and he wouldnt do anything to make her life better. hes done too much to all of them for them to ever accept him, he thinks.

until one day coco just. shows up. after tracking him down (with mochi and sulluvans help). sitting on a barrel at the docks he works at in some city somewhere, eating some cotton candy she bought at the docks like "Heyo! Mochi needs another guild member, and you kinda owe us one, soooo..."

[fullmoondagger]

hi i read ur megatron and starscream wireplay fic and am SUPER JAZZED about the techy stuff i would like to ask. for a full layout of ur thoughts on cybertronian sexuality (like anatomically, physically, culturally) in as many words as u can muster 👁️ im new to the fandom and am deep in thought about this myself and would love to hear what u got 👁️ 👁️ 🙏 im fascinated by people’s thoughts on this and ur fic was so rad i ran straight here LOL

Holy fuck hi hello !!!!!!! First of all I'm super glad you enjoyed my insanity-fueled work ! I'm also a rather new fan and TF is consuming my every thought LMAO. Um also preface I may be a semi decent writer but I have the incoherent blabberer curse so be warned it might be slop down there. Waffle time

Second preface I'm mostly a G1 head and I havent read all the comics n stuff and idk what fun tidbits would be in there but I think they fight eachother rather than have sweet tender loving sex w their wifes so. Honk

Soooooo. Cybertronian sexuality. So I'm of the opinion that since they reproduce asexually, they dont have any genitals and sex isn't really A Thing, their bodies aren't built for that sort of fun n intimacy at least in the human take on things. How ever. ! Where theres a will theres a way and Cybertronias' main thing is to be always changing right. Im a rabid horndog but also the idea of two sexless creatures trying to fuck with whatever they have is sooo... Meow :3

To me overloads are well. As you may have read n picked up from my fic. A game where you try to overheat your system so much it fries your circuits and you get a bit stupid until your body forcefully shuts down to save itself from further damage. It's 1- stupid 2- unpleasant to most (some are into it because it sucks. masochism wins) 3- probably not good to do too much too often 4- super fucking fun with a buddy.

I'm exploring plug n play but im soooo. They would not have a sex cable. I think they just open up eachother n see what they can do cause I think its funnier and it points back to my trying to make do with an activity thats not really built into them... I had read a post on here about sticky interfacing appearing after pnp from mingling with specias with sex organs and I think its a rockin hc but yea idk where im going w this.

I might explore more gentle alternatives but my stupid problem is I have toxic yaoi shitbrain disease and if the two guys dont want to kill eachother when they fuck. YAWNNN. But I try to get better. But I like the idea of gentler overloads that maybe don't go as far maybe just cuddling but with a giant robot twist on it. MAYBE orgasms are overrated. To be fully honest. Been putting off writing things were at least a character doesnt cum cause I dont knowwee how itd be received but also I think its whatever. I need to work up to it :) I hinted at circuit munching in my fic cause aoughhhh I think itd be so fun. I gotta write some for real the idea of somebot just being all up in your components slobbering all over them maybe putting some teeth into it hasssss to feel good. Has anyone seen a pcb and didnt feel the urge to lick it. Feel how the little solder bumps feel on the tongue, the slight texture of the chips, the little resistors... Its like little kitty cats grooming each other<3 *holds up sign saying "awwww" to guide the live audience's reaction* Like licking on exposed joints like pelvic-thigh connexion or armpit or inner wrists. Neck. Their feet are like the opposite of something delicate and sensitive but i SEE those panels on the side of G1 Megatron's legs and im sure theres something to fuck in there. Opening up panels for a little treat like the advent calendar. I think tformer saliva is lubricant anyway so its a win win situation. Ohh noo im so rusty and i can hardly move nooo please you gotta help me I cant lick myself there im not flexible enough ahhh please . You get the idea.

Runnin out of steam but I hope it was not only readable but interesting. Do NOT be afraid of shooting me a dm on here or discord if you wanna live chat. Remember: the maybe intimidating blogger is just as scared as you are. Or you can send more asks I love asks that was such a lovely thing to find as I woke up <3 Have a lovely day my decepticon warrior

[miam0re]

SMUT REQUEST

HI!!!! uhmmm i love the way you write SO MUCH!!!! i was hoping for a requessttt!! i CANNOT stop thinking abt this scenario, i truly hope i inspire you and get u to write my idea 😭😭 i love your work sm!! i feel like my writing lacks so much english vocab when it comes to smut writing, so thats why im here,,, asking such a LOVELY WRITER BTW like damn

respectfully,

- carmine

(p.s, if this ask is too long, im debating to write this idea out but im so scared to post a smut :(( tysm if u consider doing my req!!)

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context

very close with march, comfy enough to talk about stuff, gossips, anything really, helps each other, close enough with stelle as well

oc!reader trailblazer (not caelus or stelle) having a natural allure, ur so kind, naturally motherly figure like, perfect lover type shit aura, always caring for others, AND oc!reader skillful af (any weapon y/n uses) voluptuous, flexible and speedy as shit, (im fast asf boi) but basically,,, think of,,, a hot and caring killing machine lmfao, her morals are more on the good side, shes kind, all that, but when it comes to battle, holy shit who tf is this mf??? battle lust, ruthless, relentless wtf (and the dynamic and duality of oc!reader seems to naturally attract the men who witnessed both oc!readers combat skills and being acquainted enough to know that this mf is like, the dream goddam)

the hsr men that you encountered are so obviously attracted to u, have the hots for you (canon way to their characters ofc), they all ask march annoyingly, still trying to be respectful to her whenever they can, just to try to get to know oc!reader, mfs cant muster up the courage to GET CLOSER WITH OC!READER!! and march got so fed up that she devised a plan, classic march yk?

— march basically got fed up abt the hsr men asking her about oc!reader (but not because of jealousy n shit, nonono shes happy and amused that her bff is that hot to them and shes so proud of herself for being close n shit) she adds all the men to a gc, and her being the mastermind yk texts and gathers them to a place (be it belobog, xianzhou u choose) and march PLANS to let the curious, secretly needy for ur attention, men eavesdrop in another room.

— SO!!! AND THERE THE SCENE PLAYS!! march had gathered welt, dan heng, gepard, jing yuan shit all of them, they felt so guilty abt this but they were too curious about you, march asked a clueless stelle to accompany her and oc!reader to this whole,,,, situation lmfao, march then asks subtly, not too obvious abt what she thinks about these hsr men.

— you talk abt them so nicely, with details, about yk, all of them one by one, ur so nice, so caring, every voice is filled with affection, march sweating in the bg cause of the hidden men within the room listening in like pervs lmfao

uh oh

— following the display of affectionate words ur clueless fat (butt) ass, march asks a question, a question that would change everything and reveal another side to her, a specific one, subtly nsfw and not at the same time, yk, to not be obvious, "so.. uhh y/n, would you wanna get close to them? one of them at least?"

— oc!reader: "without a doubt, but they... i feel like theres a certain hesitancy of... air around them? a wall? distance? (big sultry pout sigh that lets the men listening in shiver grrrr)" leaving the men ashamed as fuckkk from their hesitancy to get close with oc!trailblazer lmaoooo

march, (narrowing her eyes, disappointed at the eavesdropping hsr men lmao): "... i think they're just complete losers! :D *ahem* how close do you-"

oc!trailblazer/reader, (mf blushing): "-yes."

march: "???? oookay..." (contemplates to ask one of sampos questions, before finally getting the courage to ask) "so... y/n... would you want to be intimate with them? like- you kn-"

oc!trailblazer: "yes." (eyes become fogged with lust as she begins to fantasize about them, not knowing theyre in a hidden room)

march: "???!!!)_9_(__(($#)"!!2?????? o-okay! ahah! uhm... w-who are you thinking of in specif-"

oc!trailblazer: "...i dont care, i can take them all, and not in a fight..." (huffing subtly lmao)

march: "?????????????????? BITCH? HUH???"

oc!trailblazer: [insert slutty horny shit, absolutely bewildering both stelle and march, not knowing the HSR MEN ARE ALL LISTENING]

oc!trailblazer: [insert more slutty whore-y shit, if given the chance she would want to take all of their thick cocks <3 also getting carried away as she forgets march and stelle are with her]

march & stelle: [appropriate canon response of their close friend being so fucking horny]

hsr men eavesdropping: (both horny and disbelief and looking at each other like the spiderman meme shit idk let your imagination run wild)

— lets not forget the men eavesdropping and listening to the one whom they admired talk about getting fucked ruthlessly and mercilessly by all of them, gangbang, as shes finally expressing her inner slut to march and stelle LMAO, u can add their reacts too behind the hidden room conpartment reacting to oc!trailblazer!

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yeah i

this is one of my ideas and obsessions so i hope u take inspiration and do this... in your own way ofcs! i just typed out dialogues n shit for a clear idea of what im going for, if u read all this thank you so much for at least reading and i hope all kinds of inspiration hit you like a truck !! 😭

Hello there Carmine <3 First of, thanks for the love for my writing like please I'm blushing from your niceness 🤗

Reading through your idea I think I could write up something quick. Maybe the reader is going on about her fantasies of taking the men and then in the other room describing their reactions and thoughts. You say reader and Stelle are different right? I'll keep that in mind while writing.

Also you said that you wanted to try writing this but are scared...I say go for it!! We all start from somewhere. I still remember when I wrote my first few smut fics and they were obviously much worse compared to where I am now but I only got here by writing and writing and I feel like I still have a long journey ahead of me. If you really want to, I encourage you to try writing this in your own way :))

Apart from that, I'll try to write this as soon as I can hehe

P.S. No apologizing for being horny and sharing horny thougts. This is a safe space for thirty people huehuehu

[multiplicity-positivity]

hi so i understand if this isnt something youll help with but... ok so. sometimes when a new headmate is forming ill dream about them like theyre trying to introduce themself to me before they officially meet the other members since im the host and the one who fronts most. thats not the problem, i quite like meeting new members. the problem is i think theres a headmate introducing herself and... she's a terf. is there a way to prevent her from forming or change her to not be hateful or anything???? i dont want a terf in my brain :(

Oof hey, this is tough. The one thing I say right off the bat is, if a headmate is going to form, they’re going to form. We don’t think it’s possible to prevent a headmate from forming who already is forming, if that makes sense.

We’ve heard of paromancers successfully “dissipating” or dissolving paros/thoughtforms before, but we don’t know enough about this process to vouch for it, and from the sounds of it it doesn’t seem like something we’d readily recommend here, to anyone. You know yourself and your system best though, so use your own discretion if it’s something you want to look into.

Personally we think the best way to handle this situation is to welcome this member into your system, accept her, engage with her, and include her in group activities and conversations your sys may have.

While doing so, call out her harmful, bigoted, or wrong beliefs about trans people. Educate her with as much patience and kindness as you can muster. Encourage her to talk to trans people and think critically about her own opinions and beliefs. Reinforce the idea that change is possible, good, and necessary, even if it’s difficult or uncomfortable. If you have trans headmates in your system, set firm boundaries to help them feel safe, and let this new headmate know that exclusionary words and behaviors will not be tolerated by anyone in the system.

This may be challenging, but we feel it could be necessary in order to help this new headmate understand the realities that trans people face and avoid ostracizing her from your system entirely. Remember change is a process, and it often happens slowly. Don’t stand for bigotry and call it out when you see it, but don’t make her life miserable if you can avoid it. Also recognize the moments where she chooses kindness and inclusivity. Draw attention to her positive interactions, and express how proud of her y’all are when she makes steps in the right direction. Build her up and support her when she says and does things that humanize trans people.

Questioning and challenging internalized beliefs is not easy. So even though y’all will need to demand this of her, understand that it’s a process, recognize her efforts, and if/when she does change, embrace her with open arms. You can do all this without allowing her to walk all over your system and treat the trans people in your lives like trash. Be firm when you need to - no marginalized person should ever have to take bigotry from anyone, even if they share a brain.

(A note from our partner sys - maybe try and keep her from engaging with other terfs online if at all possible. Terf ideology spreads through likeminded folks secluding themselves in online echo chambers which aren’t all that difficult to find. Keeping her from joining these sorts of circles might help things go a bit more smoothly.)

Good luck - we know that life with a headmate who holds bigoted beliefs can be scary, disheartening, and exhausting. Don’t give up! We believe in y’all and we hope that y’all will be successful in educating this headmate so that she can live life with a better, healthier, and happier mindset in the future.

[gayspock]

ok 1 menty b for me

i dont know. i think its just always been so alienating. i think theres something wrong with me and its unfixable. and sometimes, if i cant have anything else, i just want at least the fucking chance to express that without people thinking even less of me. and ik in reality nobody even gaf or sees me. but i also know know that if they did, 9times out fo 10 people would be rolling their eyes. whatever. idk. i feel so lonely and i dont think im ever not going to be lonely and its never going to get better because even when given the resources, the opportunities i just can never manage . i just cant . i swear i try . but every single time. my whole fucking life . i just walk away from everything with even less, it feels like. and its getting so much harderand harder. and i dont know how to express it liek ... i fucking feel myself SEETHE as ppl keep insisting "theres still a chance! there's still hope!" like sure bro. but i dont want to fucking keep living my life along the fucking asymptote of getting consistently closer to dying alone but "haha technically its not a certainty" and . like theres just something so fucking repulsive about me and i just cant seem to fix it no matter what. and im so exhausted all the time. and i genuinely dont think theres any way out of that . i go to work and i come home so burnt out and tired. and people are nice there but i dont think i can really connect with anyone . i just cant seem to get close to people . and i dont have it within me to meet anyone else because im so fucking tired all of the time .

and even if i did and i mustered all the energy and spent all the little time i had left in the world i dont think theyd have time for me. not just bc nobody in their 20s does but also because i dont know . it just never seems to work . and i cant do it again where i try to invest every little piece of me into it when its jsut always left me fucking miserable and pathetic. bro do you know what i mean. not to be 16 and lame as shit still. i feel like im always the idiot ppl take pity on at best . i dont think ive ever been real to anybody. like alwaysssssss...... and even now i feel like every time I HAVE existed within circles of others. its literally 10 times out of 10 just constantly fighting to be included and seen as someone whos not a fucking joke and i just feel like such a fucking . loser for caring so much about it when. REALISTICALLY. pretty much all the people ive met in life will have forgotten i exist. and ok. ok. i just dont think ... like its not like some trait within me right like ... im not As melodramatic to be like oh . oh theres an actual innate trait within me thats activated and stops people liking me. just. the contrary like. i just think theres nothing within me to actually like . or to gravitate towards. so likeyeah sure . that makes sense. why WOULD you want to bother with someone whos just kinda hollow or whatever.. something something or other. and i kind of wish i was more resilient about tht. but i jsut . i guess as is a Guy of that Nature, its just ... im trying to fucking not fucking spiral but i just feel myself fucking filling up with fucking . miserable SHITTY bile or whatever because i just wish i felt normal or whatever. its such a fucking human fucking thing that other people can MANAGE. but i cant . its so so fucking hard and i cant do it and i cant handle it. and i just feel so angry sometimes anyways . bc i hate it . and i keep trying bc i wanna make peace with it because i know theres no out . like ive long since given up on ever thinking its going to work out . because nothing fucking helps but makes it so much worse . anyways. i dont know. but i dont know bro. it drives me fucking insane when people always spout some bs about how "haha everyone has someone! everyone will find someone! like no they dont no they wont . its so .. so much more isolating. or like "EVERYONEEE feels lonely sometimes" like HOW does that help. HOW. and it makes it so MUCH FUCKING WORSEEEE when people tell you about how lonely they are too!!! like cool . i dont have a chance then. sorry i know thats such a bitter bitch thing to say. but idk if it rlly matters like ... at the end of the day idc when ppl have partners. or people they talk to. family who loves them. and youre still lonely. cool. thank you for letting me know, dude. go back to the people who will look out for you and love you whilst i sit in the dark and not speak to anyone for weeks whilst not a single person would even notice im gone .

or like. bro. i dont think a single person has taken me seriously for long enough to ever fucking like me or hold me in enough regard to like... want to talk to me again nevermind like be with me in a certain sense so i jsut. i dont know. sits alone. every fucking day for years maybe. i dont know. i feel so fucking sad and angry knowing deep down that i can know all this and know its true but even then . i cant even have that . people wont even take THAT part of me seriouslyand think im just some fucking idiot whos not even trying. when i really reallyhave but its just so... worthless it feels like . it feels like im never getting anywhere and everyone thinks i just gave up when i didnt. and i dont know. thar makes it sound like people actually see me and really are laughing or something when i dont think its nearly that much. i think its like oh people see me make that as a snap judgement and i fall out of existence again. and i dont know. it shouldnt matter but i feel so fucking strung out and exist between these instances only and idk. idk bro. im trying to be okay with it. but as im getting older i just feel like theres so many more things that are revealing themselves as worse and worse. and im going crazy. im going crazzzzzzyyyy . whatever . insert the mental breakdown gifs . the funny ones where those guys aremoving really fast

[fictionfixations]

saving for general lilia

Spoilers for book 5. i talk about it

was reading the remaining vignettes i have that i never got to to earn as many gems for lilia's banner (im assuming it'll be at least after or on the 6th? cause that's epel's birthday iirc and based on how it was ordered in the 'whats happening in may' thing, that means he and the book 7 update are probably after epel. either after epel or at the same time as epel.)

i dont have that many vignettes so ill probably end up using the few thaumarks i have (i keep running out of thaumarks sob. i have the thing that gives EXP and the vignette exp in dozens but thaumarks are just like 'nahh') to get a bunch of characters' vignette levels up so i can read their vignettes too

and probably do the remaining twistunes i havent. which i havent really done the white rabbit fest twistunes so thats that

and then figuring out which study partner is the closest to finishing all tasks so i can get those gems too

oh and missions too ig which i know theres one for leveling characters to [] and groovifying. because thats what i did when i was trying to get another card. which i regret because it. wasnt even a favorite. but id already committed because i wasnt gonna get those pulls back so i just. kept going.

id probably have so many more pulls if i just. didnt do that.

fhsudifhs

so anyway

(Floyd Labwear) look at him he looks so cute all happy like that

(Silver Labwear) Kalim??? this is not to say that i think kalim has something that makes him sleepy like silver. but i like to be a believer that kalims smarter than he appears to be (but he also has a certain worldview that makes him seem oblivious or dumb. he likes to see the silver lining. but he was also the one in book five to notice vil was going to do something (aka poison neige), because he 'saw a look on vil's face that reminded him of jamil back when...' and im running with that). and ive seen a headcanon of Kalim having dyslexia but nobody really noticed so he always just kinda felt like he was dumb for not getting it when it wasnt his fault. which. i am also running with that. i mean it could totally be because its just this huge block of text thats boring just trying to read it. but still.

oh silver... (dont think about it. they literally thought epel was a spoiled rich boy in like his own labwear vignette i think, just because of how he looks. i wouldnt put much stock in peoples opinions.)

i kind of wonder how silver became a guard or whatever (or will be one. cant remember which it was) for malleus if they can hit at any time. but also malleus doesnt actually need to be protected, so like...

noo precious :(((( (silver. i have something to tell you. doctors can be wrong. and there can also be things that doctors have never discovered.)

his eyes are so prettyyy

anyway im not having high hopes of getting him. (im also gonna get like the key from the. the. the. shop. i dont remember which shop it was but im getting the points to also get that. so thats 40 pulls. and then. then then. i f orgot what a one pull is. uh its 30 i think. so so 48 pulls. ...thats not too many. and im going to pray i get lucky. and if i dont, well tough luck theres no way im gonna muster up 52 pulls out of thin air.)

[pumakaji64]

i suffer from this annoying problem you see-

i want to do more, i really think i do- but i just feel so confined by my current living situation where i am consantnly around my family- you see in 2020 my father mother and eldest sister had to move in with my older sister and i because of covid costing my parents their jobs- i wasn't exactly doing stellar before this but i was feeling like i was starting to get a handle on my life and starting to figure important things out- but since the move i feel like ive had to put that all on halt......

i stopped going to online therapy because i have no privacy to do so and feel safe because if i wanted to get any real progress id have to talk about my family and my childhood whici i do NOT want any of them hearing about and i cant go physically because i cant drive and i dont want to waste more gas and the time of the others- i stopped drawing because i have no privacy to safely express myself without their eyes unless if i lock myself in my room which they will judge me for and now my dominant hand is permanantly injured making it painful to draw unless im careful about it- i am confined downstairs in the living room most of the time because i need to watch my dog (this is on me though I can accept that) so i feel like i have no space for myself and when i take leisure time feel nothing but guilt everytime my family comes by- they love teasing me over the dog too saying i dont do enough i dont know how much theyre joking i already feel like shit all the time so i dont really appreciate the jabs- being on here is the one consistant thing i can muster up enough energy to do- but even so not without constant guilt- most days off dont feel like much of anything.

its hard even to engage in my interests anymore- dont have the time, dont have the energy, dont have the privacy, dont have the intelligence, dont have the confidence, idk... just been tough lately i guess.

not even my room offers much respite- my parents room is right across and they love to keep their door open- i feel them watching everytime i go in

i feel stuck

i feel like im wasting my life

i feel like i will never get out of here

i do not know what to do

i dont think theres even anything waiting for me even if i can

tw suicide talk

i cant go back to school because i have no idea what i want to do with my life- theres so much pressure for me to be succesful and each day i feel like more and more of a failure- and i know if i try and fail again i might end up trying to kill myself like i did last time

but to be honest i know i cant even kill myself because i know the cost of a funeral wont be worht it and because im too much of a coward to do so

but staying alive isnt much better when you feel like a constant financial drain and worthless layabout all the time

and everytime i think i find some sort of plan or some way out its like a carrot on a stick thats tugged away from me like a joke

it's so funny- i was openyl gushing about how hopeful i felt and now realitys crashing back down once again! there's no getting out of here.

to make it all worse this year has been terrible for me healthwise- im falling apart in so many ways and i feel even worse about being a waste of money-

i dont feel like i can talk to any of them about how awful i feel- most of the time any attempt to do so ends poorly and even when it doesnt nothing changes- i dont know where to make heads or tails of it all- i know im to blame for a lot of my own issues i know i overreact and take things too personally- i feel like i paint an unfair picture of them sometimes but eveyr day feels harder to keep on going- i already struggled with doing basic shit to take care of myself but recently it feels impossible

they did always say i just dont care enough- either its always been true or at some point became it.

i dont want to go to my stupid fucking job that bores the shit out of me- but i have to- i have to be of use somehow- i didnt sleep last night- i dont want to go to work because when im at work i just think about all the things i could be doing- actually useful or fufilling things i know i wont do on my day off despite how badly i wish i was while at my job

but i have to- it's almost time- so i guess i will.

whats the point of writing all of this- a cry for help maybe? pity seeking maybe even if i try to deny it over and over- i guess im just nearing my breaking point- something about these ast few months have been really grueling lately- again probably to do with all the suddent medical issues and the fact that my 20's are halfway done and i have nothing of worth to show for it- i dont know what to do i dont think im ever escaping this place and maybe thats for the best

I’m not a good person- I have all the same horrible traits they do. I just hide it on here to appear more likable.

im 25- its too late- ive wasted my entire life- it was always going to end this way everyone whose ever knwon me could see it thats why they all gave up on me- i did too. theres no point in prentending i can be fixed and wasting any more money. i feel like a ghost in this house watching life pass by. i feel like a stupid child trapped in an adults body.

i dont know what to do anymore-everything feels like sawdust.

But I’ll be fine… I’m numbing it all out. I don’t feel enough to want to hurt myself this time. like i said i have to go to work soon

im going to go downstairs and my mother will see my horribly messy hair and she'll make some annoyed comment about me needing to brush and ask me to run my fingers throught the tangles and we'll go to work. and i'll tell stupid jokes to try to make her smile because its the least i can do.

despite it all i love them still- but some days i wish i could love them from a safe distance.

im tempted to delete this like i do with all my breakdowns that i post on blogs that arent my vent blog but i think i'll keep this one up- because deep down i think i do want some advice or help or something- i cant keep living like this. i dont know what to do to stop. i just wish i had more to offer in return.

or maybe i just need to yell- whatever- doesnt matter- i'll go back to my usual postings on both of my active blogs regardless of whatever happens after this post-im sure i'll regret it later and try to just ingore this and hope you all too but it's like 4 am so whose even gonna see this lol

[wwweirdgirl]

OKAY I have some questions for you.

How did Valerie and EJ start dating?

Do you think Dollie and Valerie would be friends, or ENEMIES?!?!?

What does Valerie think of Jeff?

Do you have an adult (20s-30s) version of Valerie?

HMMMMM oh how I ponder on the answerssss

lucy ur getting the biggest fattest smooch on the forehead for this ily

1 - After like a year of slowburn and then becoming not just friends but not yet lovers™ they have a big fight and then kiss in a forest

When Val is abt to confess, Jack was so scared of being in a relationship again since Jenny he kinda self sabotoged and told her he never wanted to see her again and stuff. he has like a monster complex or something he was really afraid of hurting her.

Anyways after their breakup before they even started dating™ something rlly bad happens to Jack. i havent really figured out what happens yet, but he's like in a coma for some reason and theres a chance he might never wake up 💔 and then while Valerie is crying in his forest he manages to wake up with the power of love and friendship and then he runs to find her and then he's out of breath and they stare at each other for like 2 minutes and then they make out 😈

After that Val passes out for some reason and then Jack lets her sleep in his bed while he watches over her. And then the next day they both say 'i love you' and yay!! boyfriend and girlfriend!! I have alot to flesh out but thats essentially what happened lmao.

2 - HMMMMM.. i think they'd be friends tbh.

I see Dollie showing Valerie silly chick flicks while talking about their boyfriends. Like if Jeff does something that made Dollie mad Val offers to slash his tires or something lmfao.

They're kinda opposites when it comes to the "pink girly girl" spectrum, like Val is alot more pastel and muted and Dollie is more vibrant. However ik they would run a highschool in 2009 like the NAVY. Regina George who??? (i'm just kidding. regina i love you. forgive me.)

3 - Kind of friends?

After Val became a proxy and Jeff's eye healed from her stabbing him, she apologized and gave him a box of cigarettes when she mustered up the courage lol. The cigarettes were all just ones she found on the ground so when Jeff opens the box he's like "is this girl serious" bc he can't smoke those 😭 He 100% thought she was being mean to him but before he can say anything he sees her face and its pretty clear she's being genuine. She was a very sheltered as a child and any type of "bad" behavior she wasn't really taught much about so she didn't know anything about cigarettes.

Anyways after that Jeff is like "I can't smoke these but thanks ig" and things are still a bit awkward but theres not really any tension between them anymore. Eventually they get paired up for a mission and they get a bit closer yayay

Valerie is mostly just extremely curious about Jeff. Like he's the polar opposite of what she was raised to be when she was alive. She's never really seen anyone like him before which is why she's so fascinated by him. Hopefully that makes sense :P

Their convos mostly just consist of Jeff answering her questions and laughing at her face when he says a swear word.

3 - Not really

In my au, proxies usually die and then stay that age forever. They're like kind of immortal in the sense they can't really pass on, but they don't age. Like mentally or physically.

So when Val becomes a proxy at 19 she doesn't really grow any older. Theres not a canon version of her thats older than 19 years old.

[diaboliklove]

headcanons for yui & the sakamakis w/ their phones

yeah hi LMAO this came to be from a random conversation w my friend and it led to many thoughts and opinions ,, for context think this is current time, 2024. ive never written headcanons out but it was a lot of fun to sit down and really think <3 hope u like it !

this got so long but for super fun epic reasons

SHUU SAKAMAKI

- starting off strong !

- and by strong i mean he has a flip phone

- never charged

- well, by that i mean its either at 100% because he forgot it charging for a week or at 10% because he hasn’t charged it in a week

- will never answer your texts or calls

- would never even read your messages in the first place

- because one. do you know how much energy it takes for him to even find the damn thing

- two, why are you reaching out to him in the first place? he knows you probably need him to do something.

- and doing things is not something he does

- out of sight out of mind yk

- as time goes on and he tolerates you he may send you a text

- nothing cute though

- not even a full sentence

- just a statement you need to connect the dots for

- the thought of having a smart phone was appealing to him for the music services though

- but god forbid he has to muster the energy to search for the app, download it, make an email, register, find the right versions of songs he likes, make a playlist and - anddd he's already sleeping

- yeah he won't change a thing his little frankenstein neck gear is just fine for him

- thank god he didn't go through with it because if he discovered that ads played after two songs it would've been his 13th reason why

- that email he made btw

- hell

- FULL of spam due to him just clicking things to get through sign ups easier

- hacked within a business day with the password 112345

- added two 1s to throw them off

- he really thought he was doing something with that

- so fuck ads

- and mostly fuck reiji for not wanting to pay for a premium music subscription

REIJI SAKAMAKI

- aww what a cute silly little guy

- im sorry. but theres no way this man is well versed in technology

- definitely more than shuu though

- owns a samsung galaxy note for the stylus feature

- imagine telling this scary vampire that the house is out of milk and as he whips out his phone like a note pad while muttering how the cereal consumption in the house is getting out of hand

- major dad energy while he writes on it

- appropriate distance away from the screen

- looks down on his phone like its a lesser being

- never needs to google anything, thats for humans

- basically only used to contact someone if absolutely necessary and a note device

- a strong believer that phone use 30 minutes before bed leads to bad sleep

- this man already has nightmares he's not going to add to his troubles

- in the 24 hours drama cd reiji says he never grocery shops himself since he doesn't want to be with all the "gross" humans and contacts suppliers to provide the ingredients

- well erm : those suppliers scammed him

- after the scam first of all

- suppliers never heard from again

- secondly, reiji finds out about instacart

- he loves it

- in fact adores it

- you're telling him he can just order everything online? see all the products and cost right there??? and most importantly, can tell the shopper they're fucking up in real time?

- ohhhh yeah

- ladies and gentlemen meet our very own residential karen

- will ask for photos on all produce he orders

- those bananas? too ripe. replace them. those apples look bruised. cilantro leaves look brown. that doesn't look like a pound of grapes, try again. oh! oh! you're trying to give him choice grade steak instead of prime?? watch your back you fucking scammer —

- fool him once shame on him, fool him twice you can kiss your job goodbye

- theres literally a facebook mental health support group for instacart shoppers that have worked with him

- he's like an urban legend

- what a loser affectionately

- you did try convincing him to switch to iphone so you could play chess on the go together with game pigeon

- flat out no get fucked

- but started considering it when he saw you playing 8 ball against ayato

- not because he's jealous or anything

- anything but that

- like seriously, not jealous

- just wants to put you in your place for even thinking you’d be competition thats all

- i would show you texts with him but he’s more of a phone call type of guy

- you better answer on the first ring

- the only reason he should be sent to voicemail is if you’re dead

- i love him

AYATO SAKAMAKI

- the man, the myth, the legend

- uses a iphone 12

- the red one

- because his epic device must match the epic ayato-samas epic hair!

- probably understands technology the second best in the household

- don't tell him that though

- and by understand i mean this man has an instagram and tiktok

- fairly popular on the platforms too

- think like, 900+ followers on ig and 17k on tiktok

- would be more popular if he wasn't such a weirdo with what he posts

- terrible thirst trap king

- most of his videos on tiktok are him in the gym sweating and flexing or just a video of travis scott in the background and him posing

- captions definitely like "yeah bros !! 🔥🔥🔥 hit new rep 😎 at the gym 💪🔥 feeling unstoppable ‼️‼️‼️‼️🔥 ring the hunk alarm 🚨 🚨🔥‼️ #gym #gymbro #thatguy #viral #ayato"

- hashtags himself because he's a big deal

- no one knows if he just knows his angles or if he's just so attractive everything looks good

- his home screen is a photo of him

- and also his lock screen

- will ask you to hold his phone while he smolders into the camera for a tiktok

- do not fucking laugh your life is on the line

- ig feed consists of him, himself, and more him

- a ab photo there, selfie here, a picture of his jawline over there maybe a guest star appearance of him eating takoyaki in the corner over there

- nothing else

- no one is complaining

- girls AND boys at ryoutei send his posts to each other like its a new episode of their favorite show

- they collect his photos like kpop photo cards

- he is him

- follows his brother, a couple of big boobed models and basketball players

- as for other devices he definitely has a pair of airpods he lost over five years ago

- one day he'll find them

- as i mentioned in reijis, he likes playing game pigeon

- plays with you and laito

- used to play with subaru but that hasn't been mentioned since the battleship war of 2017

- ayato annihilated him, got every ship within 3 turns

- so subaru decided to annihilate the whole house

- took two business days for reiji to calm him down

- the left wing of the house still has inaccessible rooms

- anyways subaru blocked ayato

- and subaru still doesn't know that ayato had just seen where he placed his ships down

- to end this here’s live footage of yours trulys epic cup pong battle against you !

- nothing is more endearing than how he just does things that every other highschooler does

- just a normal guy

- i love him too

LAITO SAKAMAKI

- ladies and gentlemen behold the best technology user in the house

- owns a iphone as well

- iphone 12 the green one to be exact

- had that gucci snake case everyone had in 2018

- the off brand one too

- i will never not make fun of this mans taste of style

- also has a dell computer to watch movies and other questionable material with his cute little bitch-chans in bed nfu~

- his contacts are FULLLL

- to the point when he meets a new bitch he needs to quickly decide if he wants to delete samantha #4 or #2

- undefeated in 8 ball

- doesn't use a ruler or anything, just feels it within him

- he is the ball

- uses snapchat, insta and tiktok

- also tinder

- and bumble

- but whos counting

- im begging someone to teach these boys how to write a bio

- just picture you minding your business on a friday night and swiping left till you're met with a photo of a red head that's actually pretty attractive

- and then you see the about me and its :

- "your dimpled skin... as my breath sweeps across your lovely ears pulling you to my... back... as your skin is immediately chilled and excited... rising as it tingles... take a deep breath inhaling your sweet scent.... it brings a low moan of delight to my hungry mouth..... I licked my lips as I savored your scent.. another deep draw and my mouth is watering... I can't wait to have you ...my tongue enjoying you... why don't you send a message ;)"

- mf this is a chilis

- this is where i would like to take a moment to just look all his victims lovers in the eye because why does this work

- posts on his snapchat story often

- ranges from a video of him taking shots at a party to just a photo of his school desk

• taken artfully

- more popular than ayato on instagram while ayato is more popular on tiktok

- 4.3k followers on instagram, 2k on tiktok

- has yet to really do anything on tiktok

- got his followers from some videos he shot with ayato

- doesn't consider it important to be popular with some randos on the internet, he wants to attract those near him

- so, instagram is his hunting grounds

- more popular on ig due to the way he brands himself

- almost everyone from ryoutei highschool follows him

- if you don't you're either the "kya! what if he looks at my account?" or you are just pure of the knowledge of his existence

- his feed is really aesthetically appealing

- almost like he posts with intent on everything

- almost thought right?

- feed includes blurry pictures at parties, a shot of a wine glass at an expensive restaurant, him with his current girlfriend, a lively photo of him and ayato

- a lot of people take inspiration from his posts

- you look and you’re not sure if you want to be him or with him

- the regina george of ryoutei

- you know now that i think of it maybe the sockless loafers was his cut out boob top moment

- he's just making a statement

- but regardless his feed feels weirdly empty

- Idolized yes

- but it just feels so off sometimes

- like soulless

- follows basically only girls, heart reacts every girl that posts a selfie on their stories

- not afraid to comment a 😍

- especially not afraid to comment a 😍😍🤤🤤🤗🤗🤤😍😍😍🤤🤤🤤🙏😋😋😋😈🔥🔥🔥🔥🫦🫦🫦😍

- his captions are really well thought out though

- just a pleasing "4:37AM" or just a tag of whos in the photo

- will often come to you and ask if you'd like to "be her" about his photos with a girl and if you'd take even more risque photos together >;)

- video tapes him sucking your blood or doing other things to you

- randomly in a conversation he'll play the audio of the video just so you'll be flustered by your own noises

- will threaten to post it even if you didn't do anything wrong

- he just thinks its funny

- he would actually do it though.

- so idk pose at all times ok

- you know laito does cross word puzzles

- sure yeah he likes a nice sudoku

- but he also had a quiet obsession with geometry dash

- and i mean quiet, no one knows about this

- not even the ghosts that haunt him at night

- laito finds rhythm games in general somewhat comforting

- his mind is only focused on the beat and he's always had a good sense of rhythm so it's perfect for him

- more importantly: its a distraction from everything he is. the thoughts that he doesn't deserve such comfort leave him as soon as he fails once. the quick restart helps shut off his brain and leaves him feeling like a shell.

- a shell of what once was.

KANATO SAKAMAKI

- oh hello my dear pookie wookie dookie bookie cookie !!!

- literally the reason im making this

- owns a samsung flip !!!

- decorated excessively

- super cute phone

- mf better keep it close to his person the coquette girlies are eyeing you down

- he originally had an iphone X like his brothers but he saw one video of someone decorating a flip and decided he must have it

- in fact, he needed it

- so he threw his phone at you and screamed bloody murder when it broke

- you wanna guess who took the blame

- siituation ended with you limping out the dungeon and kanato gleaming at his new phone

- but he doesn't even use it that much

- yeah he's a bitch

- doesn't post on any social medias

- only thing he uses social media for is to see what pastry shop is trending currently on instagram, a stitching method tutorial on youtube, and to check on those cute school girls on tiktoks from the next city, oh he could just eat them up alive -

- what he does use his phone for though is are those freakishly cute games we all got addicted to once

- think like neko atsume, bunnybuns, cat condo

- spends his left over change from the bakery on new furniture for his cats on neko atsume

- has rage quitted from not getting a rare cat after two hours

- does gets giddy when he sees a rare one when he logs on

- and by giddy i mean if you hear a sinster hehehe come from his room just know it's probably not because he's doing something devious

- probably

- renames every cat that comes into his house

- you saw him playing once and pointed out that the cat laying in the kotatsu was ginger in hopes to bond over the same interest

- glared daggers into you and said extremely seriously :

"you mean sponge cake?"

- you will not bond over it

- abort mission

- just let the little guy have his own fun

- had a phase of playing the mobile crane machine games for plushies

- but he lost so many times he now rages whenever he sees a rilakkuma napping plush

- but overall he doesn't really care for his phone

- definitely more interested in his more real life cute hobbies like sewing and demon summoning 🎀

SUBARU SAKAMAKI

- oh the most evil one of all!

- the man so scary, so feared

- his phone story is a bit different than the others

- originally had a iphone 8

- but my little fellow is a walking rage room so damage was sure to happen

- screen was cracked and barely functional

- couldn't even touch the letters "e", "a" , "s" and "o"

- texting him was a game of morse code

"did you want to walk in the garden after dinner?"

"hh yur tht dprt for my attntin arnt yu? myb ill tk yu up n tht”

".. okay so yes?"

“y”

- but whatever it was always easy to find him so it wasn't a big deal

- until d day

- the battleship war of 2017.

- you haven't seen subaru this mad since the nair incident of 2016

- you tried helping reiji calm him down

- even offered to buy him a hot topic gift card which he did not want at all

- oh this was that serious

- you knew he was genuinely upset and that this shouldn't be funny

- but quite hard to not think so when you realize he's just a teenager having gamer rage

- his phone was completely obliterated by the end of his episode

- like

- it disappeared

- crumbs on the floor surely

- so reiji had a solution

- and it was the most atrocious thing subaru had ever laid his eyes upon

- behold !

- the mighty rage proof phone !

- and subaru was just

- silent

- in awe of what was in his hands

- ok now you knew if you laughed it meant death

- so you took pity

- spent all night telling him that maybe orange IS the new black

- and after he started finally feeling good about it

- the walking red haired menace runs into you two on the way to the limo

- and his eyes just lock on to the orange brick in subarus hands

• and he just cackles

- ayato doesn't even get a second to catch his breath before subaru is banging his head repeatedly with the damn brick

- needless to say

- theres only one thing broken between ayatos nose and subarus phone and it wasn't the phone

- reiji leaves a 5 star review that night

- damn, even subaru is impressed

- not one scratch on his screen

- so subaru keeps it and spray paints it black

- he doesn't use social media

- doesn't care for any of that shit

- too emo to be influenced by an influencer 💪🫦

- the only people in his contacts is you, reiji, shuu and in the future, kou

- no apps either besides a music streaming service

- even if it has ads

- don’t even think about ever asking to play a game

YUI KOMORI

- my baby !!!

- as we know her phone was once obliterated by the emo pomeranian

- soon gets a new a one just the boys can get her when they need her

- also got a samsung flip !

- decorated super cute, but nothing too showy

- heavily child proofed at first

- like the type you only can call your contacts on

- after establishing that, yeah she’s not gonna try to call the ops shes allowed to get some apps

- needs reiji to put a password in to allow it though

- wasn’t even given the wifi password till month two

- doesn’t use social media

- the possessive freaks don’t want her to get toooo popular

- the only app she really uses is pou and takes care of him like her own son

- definitely texts all the boys when she’s out if they need anything

- in fact, would even send “just checking in ! (＠＾◡＾)” messages if she hadn’t seen them in two days

- they all secretly love it

- texts ayato most frequently, subaru and reiji second most

- ayato sends her tiktok memes and yui genuinely doesn’t understand them

- he thinks its funny and cute as hell how hard she tries to piece modern day humor together

- was quietly bummed out she couldn’t play game pigeon games with everyone

- ayato asked her to play among us with him and she was ecstatic

- that feeling soon went away after ayato would get her voted out every round

- you gifted her a matching phone charm a year ago and she has never taken it off since

- often considers googling her fathers name even though she knows reiji can see her search history

- she just wants to make sure he’s okay

- sometimes imagines her phone ringing and her dads name comes up on the caller id

- often she wonders

“has he ever tried to call me? maybe he did on my last phone, and just figured i was unavailable. im available now though dad. please try again soon. i have so much to tell you! sorry i didn’t answer. i miss you.”

[klugpuuo]

1 , 11 , 12 , 13 , 27 , 31 , 38 , and 44 ,sorry if dats too much lawl

ATTACKING ME W QUESTIONS!!!! dw these arent too many :]

1 - who is/was your comfort characters?

i got a LOT of those. moonie nd gourmand from rw & basically all of phighting & th pink drifter from hld & th dwarf, linus nd krobus from sdv & basically everyone from slime rancher & grimora nd leshy from inscryption & ....

11 - favorite extracurricular activity?

i dont have any clubs im in so i cant say...

12 - what kind of day is it?

could be better but could be worse. mostly just waiting for umbra to respond so i can cry @ em (nd trying to muster th energy to get a snack and some more juice)

13 - when was the last time you ate?

not Too long ago but am still hungry . like 2-3 hours ish

27 - about how many hours of sleep did you get?

ehm. like 7. thats fine i think (i fell asleep at midnight nd woke up around 7 so)

31 - what type of music keeps you grounded?

almost nothing w lyrics unless im actively able to sing to em lol. hld ost helps :v:

38 - a soap bar that smells good?

these apple soap bars we used to get... smelled good nd didnt hurt to use...... my darling i miss you so

44 - you get a free pass to kill anyone, who is it?

SHIT. THERES TOO MANY PEOPLE FOR ME TO KILL uhhh h hh hhhhhh. your parents

[irarann]

affection through actions

here ya go :] (theres a small element of chatfic in here, and. japanese honorifics)

He gently cups the side of his neck, the tip of his calloused fingers on the back of the shorters neck.

"Oh? Why so red? I thought a star like yourself loves attention." He teases.

The blonde could only look away, a pitiful attempt at hiding his burning face. He's quite literally trapped in the tallers arms. He can't walk away from this either, they're sitting on the edge of his bed. Which just so happens to be directly seen from the other side of the house. Sometime's he wishes he could be just a little selfish so that he could muster up the courage to actually ask his parents to fix his privacy non-existant room. Oh how he wishes his younger sister decides to just never walk out of her room today or else she might see... Whatever the hell is happening right now.

"Attention and affection, two very different things.." He manages to blurt out.

"You're still very affectionate though."

"Not."

" 'I love you Rui!' 'Lets be together forever!' 'I'll always be by your side!' " He quotes him. Things that would normally fluster Rui once the words flutter in his ears, but now can use against him.

"Urgh... I mean actions! I don't normally do this.." He confesses.

And he isn't lying. He never usually hugs his sister, afraid of getting her sick. Nene would never accept a hug from him or even a simple headpat. Emu straight up tackles him, yes, but its not like he's initiated any of it.

And... All those instances has never been as intimate as this.

He was worried that he was making him uncomfortable until he saw from the corner of his eye a small smirk forming on his face.

"How come you seem to enjoy every bit of this then?" He queries.

His already red face gets redder, C'mon Tsukasa Tenma! I'm an actor! How hard could it possibly be to surpress a smile? He screams to himself. "Maybe I just like trying new things with you." Somehow he manages to say without dying from a heart attack.

"Well then me too." Rui smiles, looking deep into the others wild and bright orange eyes. "You better get used to this, I'm planning to give you hugs contantly now." His smile turning into a cheeky one.

"Great.." This was definitely him taking advantage of any way to fluster him isn't it? Well its working. A LOT. Props to you Kamishiro, No one has ever flustered him this much other than a raging fever without any parent home to tend to it.

And soon enough, Rui decides to close the distance between them. Soon turning it into a cuddle. How long it lasted? God knows. For all they care is that the one in their hands will be here to stay.

.

.

.

"WHAT???"

"YOU TOOK A PICTURE!?" He screams.

"Recorded and sent!" She replies with a cheeky smile.

"Y'know what give me that-" He takes her phone

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Leo/Need GC

Sakibun 7:56 PM

Oh my god finally!! Guys he made a move!

Sakibun attached an image

Icchan! 7:56 PM

Well thats certainly something..

Honahona 7:56 PM

Awww! Congrats to him!

Shiichan 7:57 PM

Why are you guys so interested in others private life.. Congrats to him? I guess?

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The more responses there are the redder his face gets, good question shiho, good question.

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Sakibun 8:05 PM

Sakibun has deleted one message

Sorry guys it was fake!! Happy late april fools hehe!

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He hands her phone back, not bothering to check the immediate responses to the message but instead just scream into the little pegasus plushie sitting right next to him on the couch.

"You really have nothing to be embarrassed of onii-chan! To be honest thats me an Icchans routine everytime she comes here, completely normal!" An attempt to comfort her older brother.

"Yeah. Because you've been dating for a year now. Thats a given Saki, you're used to affection." His deadpan voice being muffled by the plushie in his face.

"Well one day you'll get used to it!" She uplifts.

"...Maybe"

End.

guys i found an old ruikasa drabble from a year ago should i send it here? (note that i will NOT be changing any part of the fic, i will be keeping it as is just for funsies)

[twee-too]

A Strawhat Sleepover Zoro x Sanji x Fem!Reader (NSFW)

word count: 7k

small summary: Luffy, Usopp, and chopper had a great idea. They decided to throw a crew sleepover, but when alcohol and party games get introduced, the peaceful night gets a lot more interesting.

CW: Threesome, face fucking, oral (M&F), Drunk sex, slight neck grabbing

A/N: just wanted to point out that this is my first time writing a fanfic(Audible gasp) so it might or might not suck ass 💀 imma apologize in advance for any spelling mistakes/ incorrect sentences or smthing 😭 But hope yall enjoy it!

Also gonna colour code the names teehee

(some ppl share a colour cuz theres only so many 😒)

Luffy, Zoro, Sanji, Nami, Usopp, Chopper, Robin

since they say shii in this they get colours (sorry franky and brook)

You and the strawhats just finished the dinner your cook Sanji had prepared. Your captain had looked like he was about to pop, his belly gotten so round from all the food he just consumed. You'd tried to contain the smile that was about to form from how Luffy looked like an overstuffed Turkey, but having your fellow cremates Usopp and Chopper laughing hysterically in your ear wasn't helping. You eventually broke out laughing after Luffy had tried to get up but falling in the process making a cartoon "boing" sound effect.

It was getting late and the crew had slowly started to do their nightly routine. You had just put on your pajamas when all of a sudden you hear Luffy yell " EVERYONE COME TO THE DECKKKKK!!!! " you obviously hear your loud captain and rush to the deck.

Everyone had arrived eager to know what they were called for. An emergency? a marine Ship spotted? another Pirate Ship that had threaten to attack the Sunny and steal all our-

....

"Guys! Usopp, chopper, and I had a great idea!! We should all have a sleepover on the deck since chopper has never been to a sleepove-" Before he could finshes Nami and Sanji started beating poor Luffy and Usopp up, forgetting Chopper had also been a part of this.

"YOU GUYS ARE SO STUPID!! I THOUGHT SOMETHING BAD HAPPENED"

Nami scolded the both of them hard, You stood there rubbing your head in relief/annoyance. On one hand yay! nothing is wrong. On the other hand. Dumbasses.

Through luffys beaten up faces, he mustered up a muffled apologized

"WHY DID I GET PUNCHED? CHOPPER WAS THE ONE THAT BROUGHT IT UP!"

"DON'T BRING ME INTO THIS"

"YOU WERE ALREADY IN THIS"

"ALL OF YOU BE QUIET"

...

All of this was too much, especially for it being night time, but a sleepover doesn't sound too bad, The wind had been stale for the whole day and the ship had barely made it anywhere, so spending more time with your fellow crewmates couldn't be so bad right? You along with chopper had never been to a sleepover so this idea sparked the inner child in you. After all the fuss had worn off, the others had given their thoughts on the idea.

"I think the idea isn't too bad"

you were honestly a little surprised that Robin was willing to do it, actually thinking about it... it would be nice to hear her read a bedtime story for everyone, the way she reads storys never fails to soothe you.

"Me too! as long as we get to do sleepover stuff...like...uhh..."

The crew looked at you waiting to hear an example.

. . .

"To be honest I have no clue" You shrugged giving an embarrassed smile.

"ahh y/n, there's a ton of stuff to do during a sleepover! Like pillow fights, storytelling, playing tricks on people-"

Usopp was suddenly cut off at the burst of thought Nami had

"Yea! and we can also tell spoooky storys!"

Nami gave an evil stare at Usopp, knowing how much of a scaredy-cat he is.

"WHATCHA LOOKIN' AT ME FOR?!"

" Ya know what? I think a sleepover is a great idea as well!"

" I think this sounds stupid, I want my sleep"

"Zoro... You take naps every day, I think you'll be fine"

"tsk" Zoro gave an annoyed look

"Fine, if it'll stop all your whining"

of course, Sanji said yes, if thats what it takes to spend more time with the ladies he'll put up with the other's shenanigans.

Everyone had agreed, and now comes the sleepover prepping! Since there were no sleeping bags on board they loaded up in blankets and pillows! Luffy was telling Sanji the snacks, food, and drinks he wanted him to prepare. Usopp, Chopper, and Franky had all started to come up with stuff to do in case they start to get bored. Robin, Nami, and brook were collecting some stories to read, Nami and brook were getting the scariest ones, and you were setting up the sleeping area with Zoro.

You and Zoro we on good terms, you would sometimes ask him to help you train and would study him a lot. You were never really a love-crazy person, but something about the way Zoro carries himself made your heart beat a little faster, It got especially worse when you started hanging around him more often. Obviously you would never want to admit this, even if you do sometimes let your mind wander off thinking about him, or would sometimes catch yourself staring at him too hard while he trained. You don't want to admit you have a slight crush on him, because if you did you'd only have your heart broken. You respected Zoro, but you also acknowledge how empty-headed he can be, you know that someone like Zoro doesn't do love, the only thing on his mind was swords, sake, and sleep. You'd sometimes daydream about what he'd be like as a boyfriend, but you knew it would never work between you two. Although you knew all of this... you still had those nights when you'd crave his touch, fantasizing what it would feel like to have his big thick hands caress the hot inners of your thighs, feel the warmth of his body against yours, the idea of having him manhandle you all night long just excited you.

"Oi, you should pick whichever blanket and pillow you want before the others get back"

With that you snapped back from being lost in thought, all this Zoro nonsense was starting to get to your head. You didn't want to like him, but your heart said "hmm yes, sword-man"

it was first come first serve when it came to the blankets/pillows, some were better than others so you took the chance to take the best ones. Zoro on the other hand took whichever one he picked up first.

You didn't know where to lay your stuff, so you just picked the middle of the deck. Zoro just plopped his stuff across from yours. Your feelings regarding him just kept coming back to your head, but after hearing Sanji and Luffy come out of the kitchen and the others start returning to the deck, you felt more at ease.

Sanji and Luffy were carrying some snacks that the chef had prepared, dead eyeing Luffy to make sure he didn't even eat a crumb of it, alas, we know how Luffy is.

A few kicks in the hip later and everyone had finally settled down into their sleeping area, Sanji though was handing out special desserts he had made for the ladies. You know how Sanji is.

When you first joined the crew you had a pretty big crush on Sanji, he had stolen your heart with his kindness, respect, and obviously his gentlemanliness. You knew if you wanted to be in a relationship with him, you could. However as time went on, your thoughts started flying everywhere, you'd wonder if he'd be a committed boyfriend, and you'd soon come to your conclusion that he just didn't seem like the loyal type, though you didn't have any proof of this well other then the fact he acts like a dog in heat around other women, thoughts just kept building up to the point where you started to distance yourself from him a little. Not by too much, just ignoring his flirtatious comments/compliments, never being in a room alone with him, and always being one of the first people to leave the kitchen after they're done eating. However, even with all your efforts to get this man outta your heart, you still can't look him in the eyes for too long without blushing, the way he gazes at you so softly always makes your heart melt.

"Y/n! I made you this pastry, I put all my heart into it! I hope it tastes as good as you look~"

His stupid heart-eyed expression always annoyed you, he'd do that to any girl he sees in a 1-mile radius. You thanked him and took his pastry, adverting eye contact.

You hated how pathetic you felt, both Zoro and Sanji had no clue how they made you feel, and that alone made you feel so small, and it's not like you'd do anything to change that. You just needed to grow up.

As the night went on the straw hat pirates did a list of activities to do. They built a blanket fort, made s'mores (Sanji did all the work, although Luffy did try to make a fire that almost ended in setting the ship on fire merry pt2) Had a pillow fight (which resulted in a few people flying off the ship) Played hide and seek, told scary storys, and finally ending in Robin reading everyone a bedtime story. You almost forgot this was a sleepover and not a party from how much fun you were having, but good things have to come to an end. Everyone was falling asleep, and you were even finding yourself..dozing...off....into.......sleep..............

....

"ACK"

You jolted up awake looking around confused, then look down to see what just hit you...

ah.

You piece the puzzle together, luffy had somehow turned upside down in his sleep and kicked you in the face by accident.

You wanted to hit him back but decided not to, you knew it'd wake up the others in the process.

You looked around to see everyone dead asleep with snores echoing to the area. you guessed it has been a few hours since everyone had fallen asleep. You get up and stretched your back, rubbing your eyes and making your way to the kitchen to grab a drink. You tried to not wake anyone up but it was hard considering it was like a maze to get out of with everyone sleeping on the floor and all. You'd soon happen to walk right above Sanji without even realizing, he grunted softly and adjusted his legs a little but that was enough movement to stop you right in your tracks. You could hear nothing but your heartbeat, it was a nerve-wracking feeling. You stared at him for a while, letting a deep sigh out. You were standing right above his face, with each foot on each side of his shoulder, if he were to wake up to this sight of you... you'd die of embarrassment, never being able to look at him the same. The more you stood there, the more your mind spun with late-night thoughts,

"what if I just sat on his face"

As soon as you thought that you turned bright red, and finally continued your way to the kitchen.

Finally, you made it to the kitchen, after what felt like years. You grab a cup and start filling it up with water until you hear someone walking outside the kitchen, your heart almost skipping a beat. You thought everyone had been off in dreamland at this time of night, but someone was awake aside from you.

You where just about to go see who it is until you hear a loud thud, then some arguing. You had a sneaking suspicion of who it was.

You walked over to check the deck and alas, Zoro had "accidentally" stepped on Sanji's foot, causing Sanji to wake up. They were about to start a commotion until you grabbed their attention and Motion them to shush.

You were thinking how this can get any worse? They end up coming to the kitchen to see what you're up to. At this point, you're panicking a little bit, you alone with the two of them? that thought alone gets your mind racing. You assure yourself that nothing is going to happen.

"Whatcha doing awake at this time of hour?"

"Luffy kicked me awake, I was just grabbing a glass of water."

"Are you ok?? does it still hurt??"

Sanji walked over to you to get a better look at your face, his face closer than it has ever been to yours, his eyes...you felt your heart doing break dances in the sudden excitement but also felt embarrassed. You dodged the eye contact and nervously faked laughed

"Ya! im fine, don't worry it wasn't too hard"

you walked off to take a seat at the table, cup in hand.

"Zoro, what'ya up for?"

"I heard some movement and noise... came to check who it was, ended up waking this guy up to"

Sanji shot an annoyed stare at Zoro, and Zoro shot one back. The tension between them was getting out of hand, you just wanted to drink your water in peace. You decided to cut the water short and go back to sleep, you were about to get up but Zoro gave an idea.

"Well, since we'll all awake, how about we do something while we have a drink"

"That's just your dumb excuse to drink sake you stupid celery stick."

"and what about it? you curly fry!"

What did he wanna do? Zoro went to grab the sake, Sanji looked like steam was about to come out his ears.

He'd had gotten 2 sake bottles and 1 empty one.

"I knew you were an idiot but come on? I hope you know thats an empty bottle"

"of course I know you dumbass"

Zoro was gritting his teeth in anger. You couldn't help but wonder what the empty bottle was for... Zoro placed the three bottles down, he had brought 2 cups for the sake and gave one to you, he didn't care enough to bring one for Sanji. He sat back down and poured himself a cup, he put the second bottle closer to you. You looked at Sanji, but he was too busy giving Zoro a dirty look.

"Whatever! I didn't wanna drink anyways"

You knew you couldn't handle sake, it was too strong for your taste. 2 or 3 cups full would probably get you pretty drunk. You decided to fill the cup up and down it. You never really liked the taste of sake, you didn't understand how Zoro can drink this stuff all the time.

"Time to play truth or dare"

Zoro smirked as he looked at both you and Sanji. Your eyes widen a little.

"you're on"

"What?"

Zoro placed the bottle down ready to spin, it's not really how you play truth or dare, at least not the way you played it. there was never a bottle involved?.

He spins the bottle, sending it spinning around the table. You were sitting at the end table while Zoro was sitting on the left and Sanji on the right. The bottle stopped closer to the left side.

"Your up Zoro, truth or dare"

"dare"

Zoro didn't even hesitate, caught you a little off guard, but that didn't stop you from coming up with something.

" Yell out the first word that comes to your head "

"SAKE."

You shook a bit when he yelled that. You didn't expect him to do it so fast without hesitation. He drank more of his sake and spun the bottle again. You were a little scared, but you felt excited. But that excitement soon turned to dread when you saw the bottle slowly stop on you.

"Y/n! Truth or dare?"

"uhh...truth?..."

You had thought that truth would've been better than dare, you were in the heat of the moment, and it's usually common knowledge that dare is worse than truth, but for a split second, you had forgotten what situation you were in. You had forgotten who you were with.

"hmm..."

there was a moment of silence between the three of you. The tension was ripping you apart. You drank another cup of your sake. You were trying to make a mental note to not drink too much, but all you could focus on was the words that were going to come out of one of their mouths. They both looked at each other, then at you, then back at each other. You felt your palms begin to sweat a little, you were cupping them in between your legs playing with your thumbs.

"What is your biggest fantasy?"

Sanji was staring at you like you were about to tell them where the one piece was. The sudden attention on you had you suddenly blush. You couldn't look them in the eye, you couldn't even think of a fake answer. The first thing that came to your mind was having your way with both of them. Your face grew red and knew that you couldn't just say nothing. You started to feel the sake, you started to crack a smile. You couldn't hide it now, they were staring at you wondering what you were thinking.

"M-my fantasy..."

Your eyes looking down the whole time, you weren't brave enough to bring them up. your imagination was running wild, and before you realized it, you were spacing out again

"Is-- too--... be with..."

You realized what you were about to say and blinked away the dumbness. You quickly looked up to see them, but that only sent more butterflies to attack your tummy. You caught both of their eyes and felt yourself burning up.

"be with? what do you like someone?"

When Zoro said that Sanji looked like his soul had flown out of his body. You had no idea what to say, you had dug your own grave.

"ah n- uh well... uhm..."

With the sake and the level of embarrassment, you were feeling right now you couldn't form a clear sentence. You thought maybe you should drink more sake, to loosen up, but then who knows what'll you'll say next

"y/n— do you really like someone??"

Sanji was in disbelief, To be honest, it was a more genuine reaction than what you would have thought.

"That isn't... the question... I don't have to answer that"

Even without saying it both of them knew You had someone in your heart. Little did they know it was the two of them! You knew your cover was busted. They just couldn't find out it was them.

"alright fine, let's change the question, who do you like y/n?"

Zoro had an evil grin on his face, it annoyed you to the core. It also annoyed you that they were pressing you about a whole new question!

"That wasn't the original q-question! That's... not fair!"

"Well, you didn't answer the other question in time, so time for a new one."

You were beyond annoyed but also nervous as hell. How has this situation gotten worse? You cursed Zoro for being such a dick! You hated that you liked him. Plus Sanji is over there eager to know your answer, giving you all his undivided attention.

"I like...some guy...you don't know him"

Sanji looked so defeated, While Zoro over there just stared at you, you weren't even able to keep eye contact for a second without feeling your face warm up. You dont understand what they expected, or what you should've said??

The night goes on and after a while, the truths started to become worse than the dares. There was a rule where you could only pick the same thing 3 times in a row or else on your 4th time the other players get to pick for you. There were some incidents where you forgot the rule and it ended in an embarrassing mess. You'd had taken your last cup of sake for the night making it at 4 cups and at that point your inner self was on do not disturb and your embarrassment had flown out the window, the men in front of you took notice of this. Now, The bottle is on Sanji, you are thinking of a truth question but you just end up blurting out the first thing you think of.

"hehehe.... What ... turns you on the most? sannnji~"

Your question caught both Zoro and Sanji completely off guard. You went from not being able to make eye contact to this? You stayed giggly and kept looking at the stunned blonde. Sanji was Speechless, his face blushed with a little bit of pink. None of them have ever seen this side of you. It was a turn-on in itself!

"haa...uhh..probably would be..."

He already knew the answer, but could never say it was you, but of course he wants to say you. He's loved you ever since you joined the crew. He loves you so much it hurts to not be around you, but he doesn't want to force anything or make things uncomfortable for you. He didn't want to say anything to you because he couldn't read you sometimes, one day you'll be kind to him and the next you'd be giving him the cold shoulder. He didn't want to make the wrong move so he just went your flow, but by doing so it sorta created a distance between the two of you. He always tells himself it's what you want, but it still breaks him. He'd think about you every night before he slept, hoping one day you love him as much as he loves you. He doesn't like to think of himself as a pervert, but every now and then when he's taking care of "Business" he'd always Dream of you, how you'd look completely exposed under him while he plants a kiss over your soft face, then on your neck, then your perked up breast, thinking of that alone can get him stone hard.

He looked at you, you looked so adorable, like nothing in the world mattered.

"as long as its the person I love, anything they do can get me going"

He didn't break eye contact, but gave a soft smile to you, it was like he was trying to tell you with his eyes. You on the other hand were too drunk to get the memo. Sanji grabbed the bottle and gave it a hard spin. It eventually stopped on Zoro, he had only been doing dares when given the chance, so now it's his turn to do truth. You gave him this Big cheeky smile alongside a giggle. After that question Sanji got, Zoro wasn't too excited about whatever you were about to spit out.

"....How many ...people have you slept with?"

He knew he shouldn't be surprised but damn. Your expression plus the way you said that was so....he felt his heart skipping and doing a little dance. You looked so vulnerable in his eyes, made him just wanna carry you to somewhere private and have his way with you. He didn't even realize he had feelings for you, not until a few weeks ago. He was Training like usual but it felt more empty like Something was missing. when he was done, he saw you talking to Luffy. He knew nothing was going on between you two but something about how happy you looked bugged the hell outta him. He wanted to just walk over and sweep you away, he wanted you to only ever be that happy when you're with him. That's when he realized, what was he thinking? he thought he might've been tired so he took a nap but even in his dreams he saw you, but you were so out of reach. It drove him crazy, to the point he couldn't even look at you without feeling a pain in his chest. He knew at that point it was love, it had to be.

"Hmm, 3"

Zoro had been with a few people way before he had met Luffy, but this news absolutely blew you away, you couldn't even hide how visibly surprised you were. This meant that Zoro actually cared about his love life?? well at least his sex life, but you were jumping to conclusions. This all hit you at once, like a big sign that said "YOU HAVE A CHANCE" you didn't even know what to say, but before you could muster up anything he had already gone and spun the bottle. You were still processing all the thoughts in your head, not even noticing the bottle barely on your side.

"y/n Truth or dare"

now that you know Zoro could potentially develop feelings, you go in for the kill. At this point, you had all the confidence in the world.

"I p-pick truth!!"

you were riding the little bit of hope you had, you fully believed in yourself. You were ready for whatever they were about to say! However You took a look at Zoro, he was giving this devilish smirk and looked like he was trying to contain a laugh. He looked up to meet your eyes.

"Who would you rather want to sleep with, Me, or Curlybrows?"

You looked at Zoro, a little puzzled, even Sanji let out a small gasp, he didn't think Zoro would ask such a straightforward question. Zoro knew if worse came to worse he could blame it on the booze.

You knew that too.

...

"I-I'd rather sleep with both of you"

You saying that felt like a 10-ton hammer had been lifted off of you. You felt so free now that you have nothing to hide anymore. Other than your feelings. Maybe they got the hint? you looked back at them, both flushed with a red tint down to their neck, Sanji grabbing a tissue to block the blood from coming out his nose while Zoro froze up. The room went silent for a moment until it was broken by the sound of Zoro's chair backing up. You looked up at Zoro wondering what he was doing? Maybe you weirded him out and he was leaving, you never stopped looking at him until he had walked right up to you.

"It's a damn shame you didn't say just me, but hey, better than nothing"

Quickly he spun your chair to face him and leaned forward to grab your chair armrest.

"You idiot marimo! Whattya-"

Sanji quickly got up to back Zoro away from you.

"Shut it you shitty chef... listen for a second"

He never broke eye contact with you. Him leaning above you gripping your arm rests for some reason turned you on? the roughness was extremely hot.

"I know your drunk.... but tell me where you being serious"

You were confused why Zoro took it so personally. In response to his question, you shook your head yes. He moved his face closer to your ear, you could feel his body warmth from how close he was.

" would you wanna do it now? "

His words lingered in your ear, his deep whispery voice made you clinch your thighs together. Took a second for you nod yes, you haden't fully realized your actions before Zoro picked you up and plopped you on his shoulder your ass towards his face while you stared dumbfounded at Sanji.

"You heard her Curlybrows, she wants us to fuck her"

You've never seen Sanji so flabbergasted, it was honestly kinda cute, but that was the last thing on your mind right now. They were gonna what you? you looked at Sanji to see him following Zoro, bring more tissues. You cover your face, you didn't know if he was joking or not, but here you are at The aquarium bar. No one was gonna hear anything, was he being serious??

He sat you down on the long sofa, giving you a peck on the forehead. Sanji then followed by sitting next to you. He looked eager to touch you, his eyes scanning your body, but he took your hand and kissed all around it, kissing your palm, your fingers, your knuckles, then finally looking at you, the light from the aquarium tank made him look so Beautiful.

"Are you sure you want this darling?"

Your heart almost exploded in your chest, this is what you've been waiting for, this moment right now. To give them all your love. You felt Zoro take your other hand and kiss your wrist slowly trailing up, stopping on your skin and looking at you, waiting for your answer.

"yes...

Please..."

You could feel Zoros smirk on your skin, he snuck a few more kisses in and got up on his feet.

"Curlybrow."

Zoro balled his hand in a fist, initiating a game of rock paper scissors. Without questioning, Sanji did the same.

"Rock, paper Scissors"

Sanji had won.

Zoro gave a defeated look, while even tho Sanji had no clue why they were doing this, he was still smug because he had won.

Zoro took your hand and tugged you in front of him, your back directly on his chest. You could feel his erection on your ass, and knowing how turned on he was made you even hornier.

"I got top, you got bottom"

Sanji was already happy he beat Zoro, but now he gets to eat you out too? he couldn't be more excited. He got on his knees and slowly started taking off your shorts, letting them drop to your ankles. He couldn't believe the sight he was seeing, taking it all in and staring without making a move, the way he eyed your wet panties made you needier.

You jolted a little when you felt a wet kiss on the crease of your underwear, he licked the brim, and he kissed all around your panties just before spreading your thighs more to get a better angle of your covered pussy. He started to lick your clit through your panties, he could already tell how wet you were before he even started. He suckled and pushed his saliva through your underwear making you lean into his mouth, even with your panties on he still somehow managed to devour you.

While Sanji was getting busy feasting on your honeypot, Zoro had already crawled his way under your shirt into your bra. He had mange to sleep with women before, but that doesn't mean he knows how to take off a bra, after all, he's still a dumbass. you could tell he was struggling a little, which made you internally giggle and crack a half smile until he had enough and literally ripped that shit in half. The shock shoved you deeper into Sanji's face causing you to slightly moan, you saw your ripped bra fall to the floor and a pair of Big calloused hands Touch you up. Your soft skin, your scent, and your little gasps at every touch were driving Zoro mad. He was a hungry beast and you were the only cure for his Hunger. He dug his face into your neck while he messaged your breasts, sucking your shoulder, then moving to the side of your neck, from the side moving to the back. You could feel him taking in your Pleasant aroma, it gave you Goosebumps.

You were getting needier, you wanted more. It felt as if they were just testing the waters, you bit the inside of your bottom lip slightly staring at Sanji's head. He kissed all around your thigh, lifting his head and now making eye contact with you.

"Can I take this off, sweetheart?"

He tugged slightly at your panties, his eyes were as soft as his touch. You nodded your head yes and felt him slowly take them off. You felt the cold air meet your wet cunt, you could also feel how wet your panties were when he took them off. Your legs flinched a little at the new cold atmosphere. Your bottoms have completely been taken off and were fully exposed. you could just feel Sanji's extreme gaze on you, he rubbed his hand up and down your thigh as he pecked kisses all around the front of your pussy.

His tongue taking lead and slowly made a sloppy trail to meet your slit. You twitch your legs slightly closer and a small airy "ah" moans out your mouth. You could feel Sanji's mouth touch your sweet clit, he groaned into your cunt making your legs shake. Zoro was getting busy full-on needing your tits, He brushed against your now erected nipples, toying with them. He made sure to not fully play with them just to tease you a little.

"Z-Zoro"

You whisper bringing your hand to touch your breasts, but before you could Zoro pinned your hands behind your back and pushed his boner into your ass, slamming your pussy all in Sanji's face. you let out a desperate moan as you felt Sanji's groan vibrate throughout your body, he didn't stop his feast and continued to eat you out. His tongue flicked your clit at a rapid pace, sucking and licking like that was the last meal he'll ever eat. You jolted at the sudden bite Zoro had marked on the side of your neck. He was still holding your hands tight, he won't allow you to help him. With his free hand he grabbed your face by the cheeks to pull you into a wet kiss. He groaned into your mouth and could feel how hard he was breathing, he slide his tongue in pushing your faces closer together like he wanted to merge.

You both pulled out of your intense kiss, gasping for air. Sanji wasn't letting up, his tongue was like a gift from god. He went from fast licking and suckles, to slow tongue glides across your sensitive spot. You felt Zoros mouth right over your ear, He bit it softly and sucked on the area he had bit. You let out a louder moan, goosebumps ran through your body as you felt Zoros wet tongue enter your ear. The feeling was so new, your body squirmed at the feeling, but that only made you rub against Sanji's tongue more. His wet tongue moved its way along the inside of your ear, you could hear his groans Crystal clear. You felt yourself coming to a climax, Your back arched and you locked Sanji's face in between your thighs.

"I-I'm— ahh!"

You couldn't form a sentence, the pleasure was too immense. They understood that you were about to cum, you felt Sanji pick the pace up a little, and Zoro with played with your nipples. You let out a finishing moan and leaned forward into Sanji's face, feeling your eyes roll to the back of your head. Your legs shook profusely as you felt overwhelmed, you were on your tippy toes at this point. Drool ran down your face as you felt you're high come down, your legs became weak as Sanji pulled away. Zoro had bear-hugged you for support just in case, you were breathing so heavily it sounded like you were whimpering.

Sanji kissed your thigh, his soft wet lips against the inside of your Shakin thigh made you Twitch. Zoro still hugging you, lifted you and sat you back down on the sofa. You looked at them both, Zoro was as red as a tomato, and Sanji cleaned his face with his thumb, your juices glistened on his finger, his face was bloodshot red and looked like he was about to blow up. You then noticed the tent that laid on his pants, you looked at Zoro, just to see the same.

Sanji is still on his knees, laying his head on your lap. You motioned him to sit on the sofa, which he quickly did.

Your heart was still beating heavily, you wanted to make them feel as good as they made you. You turn to Zoro and whisper in his ear

"You'll be in back"

As you drew your head away from him, You could see the not-so-slick smirk that had crept onto his flustered face, Zoro didn't even try and hide his satisfaction. Sanji had wondered what you told him, but before he could ask you had gotten on all fours and faced Sanji, you pecked a kitten kiss onto his still-wet lips. As you went further down, your back arched more upwards, lifting your ass for Zoros view. They had both got the memo, Sanji protested cupping your face in his hands.

"Wait-! Y/n, I don't want to get your Beautiful face dirty... you don't have to do this"

His cute puppy-eyed face made you wanna do it even more.

"I want to do this...I...I've been waiting to..."

Sanji bit his lip and groaned at the way you stroked his hardness slowly up and down. You didn't even give him a chance to protest, he was already melting from your touch. You could feel Zoro message your ass slowly, like he was waiting for something. He rubbed his erection onto your exposed cunt, You held in your moan, you craved him more than ever. You slid off Sanji's pants and pulled his dick out, you looked at it wondering if you could really take him all in your mouth. However, before you got to test that thought you felt Zoro smack your ass, you yelped in shock. He bent forward a little and pulled your face up towards him, he whispered deeply in your ear

"you didn't tell me what you wanted."

His voice was so rich and gruff in your ear, you let out a small Exhale as he dug his crotch into your ass, rubbing it slowly.

"I— want you"

"You want me what?"

"to..f-fuck me.."

He hummed hearing you say that "Now put it all together" he teased

"I-I want you to fuck me Zoro!"

"That's my girl"

He set you back to doggy style and grabbed your ass, sanji kissed your forehead before giving Zoro an ugly look. Not for too long tho, when he felt your tongue meet the tip of his dick. He couldn't even remember what he was mad about. He jolted and let out not so concealed groan.

You sucked the tip feeling it twitch in your mouth. The warmth filled you as you took more of him, licking around his Veins, You got off to seeing how much pleasure that was spread onto Sanji's face. That thought was cut sort becuase of a sudden pressure you felt in your backside. You almost choked when you felt the tip of Zoros dick press into your entrance. You didn't expect him to be so thick, you felt a moan bubble up and couldn't hold it in, letting out a muffled moan onto Sanji's member. Which he surely enjoyed.

"Mmh!"

Your walls wrapped around him like a Christmas present, the grip was real he felt like he could cum just like that but he knew that wouldve been embrassing He gripped your ass and let out a broken grunt. Your toes curled with each inch he went deeper, you could feel his dick pulsing in you. He spread your cheeks apart with his thumbs, to get a better look at how his dick just fills you up. He suddenly pulled out slowly, you let out a little whine of confusion. You wanted to look back at him and see what he was doing, but as he was tip-deep he thrusted hard into you. Your legs jolt together, you feel Sanji's dick hit the back of your throat, you couldn't help but let out a choked gag.

Zoro's thrusts were slow but hit hard, he'd try to go slow, but his patients was running low, he couldn't help it when his hips started to pick up the pace.You bobbed your head up and down feeling Sanji's tip hit the back of your throat. Slurping his dick out your mouth you look up at him as you let your tongue roll out, all the juices that's been building in your mouth leak from your tongue to the head of his member.

"shit..."

Sanji really couldn't hold back how much he wanted to just devour you, his face went apple red as he bit his lip and tried to keep eye contact. His chest grew and shrank as his breath increased, you put him back into your mouth while stroking him. You loved seeing him this Squamish, you loved his soft moans and groans, any noise that came out his mouth made you want to have the sloppiest make-out session. You loved the Control you had over him and his pleasure, you felt your clit pulsing, you went to go play with it but Zoro grabbed your arm and folded it behind you. He went for your other arm and crossed it behind your back. He gripped your hands tight as his hips slammed against your ass, he was going all in now, his thrusts sounded like gun shots, he wanted to go as deep as he could. Loud moans and groans filled the air along with slapping sounds, Your head was getting fuzzy and your eyes where clouded.

The hard thrusts and motions from Zoro did all the work for you when giving head to Sanji, The sensation made your teary eyes roll back, you felt your stomach knot, and your moans became more loud and desperate. You felt yourself reach your limit as Zoro hit your cervix. Your legs shook and tightened up as you felt yourself cramp up, warm tears ran down your stuffed face. You moaned onto Sanji's dick when you felt him bring his hands to your face, his thumbs rubbing away your tears from your puffed-up flustered cheeks.

Sanji's hands tensed up, he was reaching his climax feeling his dick hit the back of your throat, hearing the gurgling noises you made with each thrust Drilled into his ear. He was drunk on lust, he didn't even realize he was gripping your face slightly and moving his hands along with each thrust Zoro did. He let out one last groan as he filled your mouth with his seed. Zoro wasn't too far off from his own release. He held your hands with one hand and your neck with the other, slapping against you again and again. Edging closer to his pleasure like an animal in heat. His breath was out of sync with his movement and his grunts started becoming more rough. He quickly pulled out and painted your ass white, he held his twitchy cock on your ass stroking it vigorously until nothing came out.

As everyone came down from their high, both Zoro and Sanji realized how messy things had got. Your face is covered in a mix of cum and saliva, and your ass is graffitied with Zoros jizz. Sanji had taken a minute to question what happened to all the stuff in your mouth? He dragged his thumb to your bottom lip and slowly pressed into your mouth, to see everything had been gone. A part of him was extremely turned on

"did you swallow it darling??"

Sanji was both concerned and extremely flustered, but before he got to overreact you felt your legs go weak, you couldn't hold yourself up anymore and collapsed.

You woke up on deck, Your face tucked in zoros neck. Your body still felt sore but it was bearable, you were all cleaned up from what the three of you had done. Having zoro hold you with such security and softness made you feel at ease. You heard the others from the kitchen, it was only you and Zoro who hadn't gone to breakfast. You felt bad for Sanji since he couldn't sleep in with you. You looked at Zoros's resting face, you examined him how handsome he was.

"Go back to sleep"

He mumbled, adjusted his pose, and pulled you closer to him. You gave him a little peck on the neck before you felt your tiredness creep up on you, it was not long before you and him Fell back to sleep with the morning wind brushing against your warm faces~ꨄ

[shigarakisslutbag]

Hey, im a new follower and wondering if you can make another Shigaraki smut omg i love those!♡♡ pleaseee

So im in a yandere ish mood. Dw this isnt noncon because ikd how you, the reqyester feels about it SO. Tomura is gonna be a skight yandere who's just super obsessive when fucking his sweetheart <3

I probably have a lot of typos but oh well . Its late and i wrote this on a whim

Theres so many things shigaraki feels when it comes to you. Especially your body. Theres so many things this boy does when it comes to acting, thinking, and even breathing around you . You and shigaraki had been together for about a year now and you love him with your whole heart, but shigaraki loves you even more and he doesnt mind one bit. He'd been giving all the love in the relationship just so thats one kess thing you have to do.

Shigaraki had been obsessed with you for ages before you two were even together. Thinking the most obscene nasty thoughts about your body. You moved so eloquently and talked with love in the tone of your voice and it sucked him in like a vortex. He'd especially been wanting to fuck you long before you two were together. Thinking about how your puffy doughy little cunt would fit so snug around his tbrobbing cock. All he wanting to see was your tongue sticking out of your perfect lips as he fucked you senseless and your eyes rolled to the back of your head; it was as if you were searching for a heaven that he was already giving you.

He worshipped you like the greeks worshipped the greek gods . You were so powerful and entrancing to him. The way your puffy nipples felt on his tongue as he flicked it up and down the sensitive bud felt so i toxicqting and he wanting to ingest it into his very being.

He loves touching you so much and handling you like he hates you. He loves grabbing fistfulls of the meat of your hips/ass while fucking your cunt and pulling you to take his cock even deeper. Which is the position youre in now almost

Your head is buried in his neck whilst you lay ontop of him with hsi dick buried in your sore pussy . Hes got you trapped in his arms squezzing you so you cant escape the intense pleasure he gifts you.

"Who makes you feel this good sweetheart? Be a good fucking girl and tell me who's making you feel this good ."

"You.. you.. you!"

He gives slap to your ass and says, " say it properly like my good slut."

"Yes sir. Its you sir, who makes my pussy feel so good!"

He starts moving his hips up and his cock slowly disappears into the folds of your pussy.

"So you like when i fuck you like this? Slow," he presses in further, "and deep"

Youre almost sobbing at this point, but muster up the words to tell him that its the best thing youve ever felt.

Shigaraki begins to pick up his pace and sloppily fucks your wet, sweet hole. The room is filled with nothing but the sounds of skin hitting skin and you yelp everytime he hits your gspot

"You like being fucked like my toy? Because thats all you are. My. Fucking toy. And youll only be mine, because i only want you to make me feel this way "

The thrusts get even quicker and soon hes cumming in your cunt. Its so much that is spilling out of your hole but he fucks it right back into you as a way of saying your his little cumslut. Forever.