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Lazy Day
Pairing: Bucky x F!reader
Warnings: Nothing but fluff
Length: 808
Summary: You and Bucky have a lazy morning.
A/N: After a VERY long break, I’m semi-back! I’m not going to say I’m fully back because I still don’t log into Tumblr that often, but I’m hoping to write a bit more! I got severe burnout in May, partially because of finals, but now that the new semester has started I feel that itch to write again, especially after the past week. Right now I’m feeling more fluff than smut, so I hope y’all don’t mind!
I do not give consent for my work to be translated, copied, or sold!
You open your eyes with a hum. Your once warm body was getting colder and colder by the second. You only notice when you roll over that it’s because your personal heater has gotten out of bed. With a heavy sigh, you roll back over and close your eyes. You hear heavy footsteps coming from outside of your shared bedroom to your side of the bed.
“You got out of bed,” You grumble into the pillow.
You hear Bucky chuckle before he kisses your temple. “Sorry Doll, I wanted to make sure there was some fresh coffee for when you woke up.”
At the sound of fresh coffee, you cracked open one eye to look at him. “Fresh coffee you say?”
Bucky laughs again and shakes his head. “Don’t worry Doll, I’ll bring you a cup.”
Bucky moves to get up but you grab his arm to stop him. “Will you come back to bed?”
Bucky smiles down at you and gives you a gentle kiss on the lips. “Of course I will Doll, I’m just going to get our coffees.”
You let go of his arm and close your eyes again as he leaves. You hear Bucky working his way around the kitchen and decide that you should at least sit up and fix your hair. You readjust your pillows so you can lay back comfortably and before you can fix your hair, Bucky comes back with two cups of coffee.
“I tried to make it just the way you like it,” Bucky places both cups of coffee on his bedside table.
Bucky leans over the bed and gives you a gentle kiss as you fix your hair. He lets out a hum of approval and smiles.
“You know, I could get used to this.”
“Could you now?” You ask him with a smile, settling back in on your side of the bed as Bucky hands you your coffee.
“Oh definitely. I get up and go on my morning run, I make us coffee when I get back, you looking absolutely gorgeous.”
“Oh you flatter me too much Barnes.” You say dramatically with a laugh.
“There is no amount of flattery in the world that would capture everything I love about you.” You feel yourself get warm as butterflies erupt in your belly.
“Bucky, it’s too early to be cheesy.”
Bucky rolls his eyes and sips his coffee. “Well I can’t help that you’re my dream girl, Doll.”
You scrunch your nose at both his cheesy comment and the way he drinks his coffee. “I don’t know how you are so sweet but take your coffee black.”
Bucky looks down at his mug, his eyebrows furrowed. “What do you mean?”
“It’s just so bitter. At least add some cream or something.” You tease him.
“Just so you know, I happen to really like my coffee just the way it is. I don’t need all that extra stuff to make it taste better.”
You take a sip of your coffee and shake your head at him. “Lying isn’t good Bucky, you should be honest.”
Bucky rolls his eyes once more and lays against the headboard. “If I change my coffee, you’ll have to change yours too.”
You glare at him. “You wouldn’t dare.”
He glares back. “You want to try me, Doll?”
The two of you continue the stare off for a minute before a white furball makes her presence known. Alpine jumps onto the bed and meows loudly, trying to get your attention. Bucky breaks first, turning to look at her.
“Are you hungry Alp?” He asks her, petting under her chin.
Alpine flips onto her back and lets out a small meow, letting you both know that she wants food. You both smile at her.
“Don’t worry Alpine, we didn’t forget about you.” You tell her.
You rub her belly and kiss the side of her head. You place your cup of coffee on your bedside table and get up.
“And where do you think you’re going, Doll?”
“Alpine has to eat.” You look at Bucky with a ‘are you serious?’ face.
“Get your cute ass back in bed. It’s a lazy day which means I take care of everything. You don’t have to lift a finger today.”
You smile and sit back on the bed. “Can everyday be a lazy day?”
“If you want it to be Doll.” Bucky smiles at you.
This is why you love him. Not because you can ask him to do anything and he would do it. But because he would do so without you asking. He would rather you be comfortable and him do all the work. You couldn’t ask for a better partner.
Bucky leans over and places a gentle kiss on your lips. “I love you.”
“I love you too.” You lean forward and kiss him again.
#avengers#bucky barnes#bucky barnes x female reader#bucky fanfic#bucky x reader#bucky x reader fluff#bucky barnes fluff#bucky x y/n#bucky x you
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Nico couldn't wrap his head around it, but he believed her. The fear was evident enough on her features, the way her voice had sounded hoarse. Her eyes sunken in as if she had lost hope altogether, even in such a state she was still strikingly beautiful. His heart ached for a pain he couldn't fix. There was no cure, no band-aid, or treatment the lost boy could offer to mend her suffering. All he could do now was be there for her in any way she needed. "I believe you." He whispered, biting the inside of his cheek. With the amount of people that gone missing, surely she wasn't the only one who experienced this? He wanted answers, mainly for her, but all that could wait. "It' won't. It can't, not again. I will do anything and everything to protect you this time Whitney. Just say the word, whatever you need is yours." He reached for her hand and lifted it up between them and squeezed softly. "I'm so sorry I wasn't there, but it won't happen again. I swear by it." and a lost boy always kept their promises.
"I know...and I was here every day." Whitney could feel the familiar prickling in her eyes, the tingling in her nose that meant tears were moments away. Her vision started to blur slightly as she stared up at him. "I was here, I could see you, I could hear you but I couldn't - no one could see me or hear me or...help me." Her voice cracked at the memory of it. Of wandering around the streets, unable to sleep as she watched everyone else around her. She'd realized other people were missing too but she couldn't see any of them either, she was utterly alone while being surrounded by everyone she loved. Early on, she had tried to fight it but near the end of the third week, it was hard not to lose hope and that's when the screaming had started, the desperation for anyone to hear her. "I'm scared." She whispered back, letting a tear fall as she stood there among the bustle of the town, knowing but still doubting that she was visible. "What if it happens again."
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What are dead man walking tornadoes? :O
it’s a multi-vortex tornado. i dont remember the tribe it originates from (i think it was cherokee), but there’s a native american legend…? saying? that goes “if you see a man in a tornado, you are about to die.”
the most infamous shot of a dead man walking tornado hit jarrell, texas in 1997
it did so much damage to the town it caused the scale that tornados are measured by, the fijita scale, undergo revisions, and it made anchoring buildings in the tornado alley region pretty much mandatory. (it took the entire town off the map. only those who had taken shelter outside of the town or in underground bunkers survived.)
two more examples of dead man walking tornadoes looking like a person are a tornado from 2011 that hit cullman, alabama
and a tornado from 1975 that hit xenia, ohio
edit: it has been brought to my attention that the native american “legend” part of this post was a rumor spread by a documentary.
i have been asked to remove it, but i believe in letting my errors stand because i’m not perfect. i make mistakes
#ask#nature#tornado#sorry if this reply is late#hope the image of walking tornadoes chills you to the bone as much as they do for me#usually i find tornadoes strangely awe inspiring#what with the shear power and destruction they can cause in such a short amount of time#but walking tornadoes are another class all their own#also i made a typo in fujita scale and it’s too late to fix it now
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Roy staring in shock and horror at Jamie being cuddled by his mummy while he tells her all about his hair woes because Roy realizes that this will be his life now, the day before in the boot room was not a one-off thing, this is how it’s going to go whenever Jamie’s upset about something: he’s going to cling to Roy like a koala and Roy will be expected to pet his hair and say something encouraging and not tell him to fuck off and that’s some fucking insane bullshit, isn’t it, because Roy knows too, without a shadow of a doubt, that he’s going to do it.
#roy kent#jamie tartt#georgie tartt#roy/jamie#roy x jamie#sorry roy you help fix it up real nice you buy it#i'm a normal amount of insane about this#3x11#ted lasso spoilers#okay now i am really going to work#where i will turn on my computer and keep going
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maría for the ad astra zine! lc u will be missed T_T
#lalin's curse#maria lalins curse#maria navarro becerra#OUUAHHHHGHGGGGG#Stop i miss lalins curse so bad. ough.#sorry i hsve many thoughts do not look at these tags theyrre long#i always had a feeling it wouldn't come back but i'm still so sad like thats my daughter........ my kids.... for reals...... i was#around their age when i started reading and now i'm like 19 they shouldve grown up with us FUCKKKKK i miss rhem so bad. timeskip davias.#i think i spent like an entire year with the lc/delete worms it's one of the smaller fandoms#that ive been in so i'm surprised but also there was SO much going on in thzt damn comic. hwhere is church boy WHY VALOR THE BUS DRIVER#i remember getting ownership of the fandom wiki and spending an insane amount of time on the home page and fixing it all jusr for fandom t#COMPLETELY CHANGE THEOR LAYOUT i think that killed the vibe for me tbh. fanodmwiki alwyas at the scene of the crime#Whahteverrrrrrrrrrr#what ever man.#seeing it go is so sad like ik it'll be revived eventually but OUGH the comic was so well done. i still recommend it so bad even though its#a terrible cliffhanger (itd ok we know what happens)(Lie)#i still need to own delete one day. Ill learn spanishtrust me. idk isaky art changed my life so much i'm so glad she won snowmiku and got s#many insane opportunities I hope she always wins forever. rhe four other laliners that follow me i hope you are still here. hiiiiiii#putting this zine together with all my lc oomfs was so nice and it's such a nice farewell to the comic AUHH go check outthe others plz#okau over. Lc changedmy life sorru#art tag
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since ive already been pretty open about this and im not afraid to whack a hornets nest i'll go ahead and say it: if you were raising a kid in a pseudo-apocalyptic setting and then you found out that said kid was going to be the one to defeat the eldritch god that you have tried to defeat for half your lifetime and could never manage. that she was going to FACE that eldritch god it was prophesied. you would teach her how to defend herself and how to fight. like god i am not saying hero's trauma from it wasn't justified because i do think the twins took it too far but the initial process of training her makes so much more sense if you approach it at the angle of "this kid is going to do something we've been trying to do since we were twelve and couldn't manage and we might not even be there to help her so we have to make sure she doesn't die in the process" and not "we're going to make her fix our mistakes" it makes sense. goes along with lark's running theme of not being strong enough in the moments that matter and wanting to make sure nobody else ever feels as helpless as he did when walter was injured. goes along with sparrow desperately tempting fate with normal's name- not because normal was an accident, but because sparrow never wanted to lose even one kid to the doodler and it was a fervent, desperate wish to let normal get to be normal
#dndads#kasey rambles#sorry im feeling especially spiteful today#cause again i do think. the twins get the least amount of nuance from the fandom#tell me how yall were just fighting for glenn so hard and then you turn around and tell me that the twins are evil monsters skahsdkfhkdhsf#like idk. it makes sense to me!#if hero was supposed to fight the doodler but they dont know WHEN it would happen. theyd train her early#make sure it was a fight she could win#and thats also why shes NOT in the chosen one position anymore#she wanted to leave and now that she could reasonably defend herself should she be threatened. its fine!#if they really only wanted her to fix their mistakes she would not have been allowed to leave. lmao#again this isn't to say that she wasn't traumatized from the experience like.#i think the twins shouldve been honest with her and there shouldnt have been so much pressure#but i get why they felt the need to make sure she could handle herself in a fight so early on#also like. this kind of thing happens in so many post apocalyptic settings its not even uncommon#yall just dont see this world as being post apocalyptic and it shows LMAO
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it’s crazy how much having a safe place to be yourself and express your identity and personality and interests, both online and irl, can change your will to live. honestly.
#i came out to my fav professor/mentor today#it was kind of impulsive but idk#she’s just made me feel so safe and supported and cared ab#that honestly all i wanted to do was tell her#and hear what my new chosen name sounds like when she says it. idk.#anyway she was So incredibly receptive and understanding and supportive#like she said things i needed to hear that i didn’t even know i needed to hear#at one point she essentially reassured me that she doesn’t and won’t ever love me any less as a boy#and she immediately wanted to call me by my chosen name and use my preferred pronouns#and she kept telling me too that there’s no pressure or need to stress and that if i ever wanna adjust the name or pronouns i can#and that gender isn’t a fixed thing ofc#she told me that she’s proud of me too#god i’m so luckyyyy dude#i feel so loved and cared about#also i said in an email recently that i was looking for a part time job (like totally as a separate thing i mentioned bc of scheduling stuff#and totally unprompted today#she started talking to me about getting a paid position for me set up with some grant money ig??#which we were already tentatively planning on doing next semester#but bc she saw me say that she’s trying to get it set up now 🥺🥺#AGH i kinda love my life rn#but i’m so terrified to and im even more afraid to admit that#anyway so sorry this is an excessive amount of tags#silas speaks#vent#trans#transmasc#trans masc#transgender#queer#lgbtq+
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glaring directly into the sun as I write them into my unpublished f/o list
#i was already in trouble w Donnie but I've been spending so much time with Leo fic I'm just like oh. well. shit.#plus I've been on the Leotello fence for. A While. so that hasn't helped#unfollow me now babes im officially coming out as a tcester#i don't have a tag decided yet#but yeah#au where rat stays w them 👏#ive been violently fixing on the show again to cope with the BATSHIT AMOUNT OF BAD IN MY LIFE RN#this year fucking sucks. i am going to kiss some goofy ass turtles instead.#plus they're both biters. stay winning ✌️#aight how am i tagging this#sorry in advance to whoever i piss off with this post#¯\_(ツ)_/¯#ficto tag#proship selfship#leotello#tcest#i will probably be putting up an updated pin post#at some point#fr tho what should their tag be#i was thinking like#two's disaster. three's chaos#or something#i dunno im still brainstorming#could just do emotes for this tho?#💜💖💙#that kinda fits tbh#olay sorry im done
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does anyone have any advice on how to feel alive again
#me @ me: no one cares#sorry to keep depression posting i just dont know what to do#its hard to stay positive when everything feels so fucking bad all the time#covid shit is stressing me out. election shit sucks so bad. my health is bad my mental illnesses are mental illnessing#and if one more person at my stupid fucking job makes a fucking comment about my fucking mask im actually going to start killing#im so serious. i really cant do this anymore#why dont people care about other people it makes no sense#why are people so fucking horrible to each other. everything is so fucking horrible#one of my coworkers literally right now has covid and on our zoom call he was like well the vaccine wouldnt have done anything anyways#are you sure about that??? because you sound like you cant fucking breathe#idk i just feel hopeless and bitter and exhausted and like nothing will ever be okay ever again. and im At Work.#how are you supposed to combat this. what are you supposed to do.#no amount of cognitive fucking behavioral therapy is going to fix the fascism or the climate change or the pandemic or the or the or the#like literally why bother. it doesn't matter nothing matters!#i just want to go home#but then when i get home im like fuck. i really want to go home.
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girlies im sorry but i have to say it...... we as a society lost the art of making out. why does it always has to end with orgasm if you can just suck face for an hour straight!!!! give me lazy makeout sesh slowly winding down by the end or give me death!!
#yap tag#sorry sorry i have a healthy amount of respect towards all and every smut writer here i swear#but sometimes i think we as a collective found the perfect formula for this type of fiction at some point and now everyone is following it#don't fix if it's not broken i guess but live long enough and it can get repetitive#also i have a lot of feelings about sex being the culmination and resolution of the story#not all of them are good
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moved tartaglia and neuvillette from request only to primary muses :)
#❛ ♡ › jupiter : 𝐨𝐨𝐜.#this was a super long time coming ... AAAAAAAA i also fixed a couple of errors i found in my carr.d while editing ... im so sorry everyone!#been doing a lot of chatting plotting for both that i think it truly was. time <3#FINALLY CONTINUED ON WITH THE ARCHON QUEST TODAY ... got to finishing the fremine.t domain but honestly just need to say: the amount of#neuvi mentions were amazing. the fact the traveller only had wriothe.sleys respect despite everything was bc of neuvi and ykw.#BIG RESPECT TO WRIOTH.ESLEY#ALSO SIGE.WINNES TOO ... thinking back to her trailer now and i wonder if thats reference to when#wrio tells her next time him and neuvi talk hell see if he can bring her and if so ... thats great#still dont know where tartag is (spoilers i do but i havent seen how this is going down)#played as tartag during that daily life as a prisoner thing and it was so funny. just reliving old memories oops
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match sprint cycling hannigram au
#the amount of time it took us just now to understand what the heck kind of psychological mind games we were watching#this sport is so wild#fixed gear cycling with no free wheel and no brakes...#sorry these bikes are not for sane people i just imagine hannigram riding their lil track bikes off a cliff together#do you see my vision
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Beasties of Greenhollow soundtrack! Some tracks on this are from older projects like elphame but all of them have been reworked in some way. Most of them are entirely new. Enjoy!
#soundtrack#music#indiegamedev#Youtube#beasties of greenhollow#indiegame#chiptune#elphame#hey again gang. Another scream into the void#Things have been getting more interesting tbh#I'm starting therapy again. I have learned from this that my anxiety is in the very very high end.#And I guess the only thing that surprises me about that is that it's an abnormally high amount vs the average.#I've had more intrusive thoughts this week than in a long time. (I almost said ever but that was 2021 where they woke me up...)#It's mostly about my mistakes and ppl I've scared out of being in my life because of the actions based on my anxieties.#Like “if i could go back in time I could fix it”... girl you'd be going back in time like 100 times. At that point it's not fair lmao#I think I shouldn't talk about who I'm dating here anymore. Friends told me to stop seeing so many new people and I took that advice.#I'm exercising incredibly frequently; obsessively so. It really doesn't change much in my anxiety. I walk for like 3 hours a day.#My friend group is... difficult. One of us had a falling out with another and the dynamic is just so awkward for me now.#it just seems like everyone else has moved past it though but I still miss him. I don't think this can be reversed#we used to talk on my stream and play digimon cards n jackbox and d&d... But now they're only interested in d&d which I don't love#For god's sake I've published a game and moved to a nice new place. why aren't I happy hahahaha#work is no longer enjoyable since BoG was publised. our new project is in an iffy category but it's not my place to argue#I want to write music and animate but I have to do my hours for this new project before I can do anything like that...#I ended up siding with my current boss in that ethical dilemma I posted about and rn idk if that was the right decision.#Okay what can i talk about that's good? We moved to a nice place. I'm celebrating BoG's release with family tomorrow.#Graeme's playing Iconoclasts- one of my favourite games! He's also returning to work soon so it'll be less awkward to have a lady over#Thinking about good stuff going on just draws the mind to holidays I've had before. I treasure my memories!#Okay so I've complained for a long long time bc life doesn't feel great rn. But rest assured I already know this is 90% my fault hahaha#Oh another good thing that happened!!! My elestrals card was printed and ppl are really happy with it. I have a card in a real card game!!!#don't tell anyone but there's another one on the way. Anyway that will do for now. I'm sorry about my... self.
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if yall knew what i went through to get this story done damn 😭
#yeah sorry not ready to shut up about it cause i can’t believe i wrote a 57k fic in almost 4 months#the amount of research and useless things i learned…#and how crazy i made myself trying to get the story to be suspenseful enough and make sense#half the time i wanted to give up but didn’t wanna let my artist down cause she already finished her piece like a month ago lol#but anyway this story exists and now all i have to do is fix some formatting and do a final read through of ch 6 and 7 and I can move on!
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i've been having some trouble falling asleep lately
#art#i'll be yapping in the tags#its not that im depressed or anything. it is the opposite actually#ive been using this medicine for quite some time. and it made all my negative emotions disappear#“oh wow huh but isnt it great you don't feel bad anymore”. this is the same thing my psychiatrist told me when we were discussing this topic#in hindsight it was kinda silly of her to say. i can't believe i pay a ridiculous amount of money per session just to hear shit like that#but she's cute and im a pathetic homosexual who'll seethe at the sight of other specialists like a beaten dog so I will let it slide i guess#we see each other twice a year anyway and all i need from her is the prescription for happy pills. anyway the happypillen#i would fight god if it means i can use stertraline for the rest of my life. thanks to it i can and i do live#but I don't really feel like myself anymore. do you get what i mean#the things that have been giving me anxiety attacks or flashbacks not so long ago? i feel almost nothing about it at this momet#it still haunts me to this day but the intensity of my feelings and emotions does not reach even 1/5 of what it was before#i do not want to disclose more specific topics so i will use a simple example. i used to be afraid of dogs#the fear was so severe that the mere sight of the tiniest little barfing creature was enough for me to freeze#now i can pass one without any problem. the fear i feel today is nothing more than a shadow of bygone times (something i do out of habit)#but i guess this example is not objective enough since my close irl friend has a dog that i became fond of#im still pretty sure this dog of her is capable of biting my ass off if necessary but im not afraid of it#because fear is not an option in this brain of mine at this moment#i don't feel any anxiety sadness or anger anymore. even if something close to it begins to rise in me it shuns down within a few minutes#i can't even cry. i am craving emotions that i was so eagerly trying to dispose of back then#i feel the most mentally stable I have ever been and at the same time i feel pretty much dead.#perhaps i just got used to the fact that sorrow accompanied me for a very long time and i should learn to live without it#perhaps sorrow is just as important as happiness and its absence is a mere side effect of the happy pills#and i have to put up with it in order to have a functional brain#perhaps we people are never happy with what we have in our hands. also i hate drawing#one's can tell since the picture i attached is raw as fuck#but even despite my praised mental stability if i were to stay alone with it even for a minute longer i would go insane#next time i will draw something lighter and cuter. like my favorite kpop boy or fortnite. maybe in the next century#thanks for coming to my tedtalk. bye#i made a typo in the word “sertraline” but im too lazy to fix it i would fight god for you but i will not do this im sorry zoloft
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🌸💙 Persona 3 Ferris Wheel 💙🌸
my ferris wheels finally arrived, so I'm super excited to have them up in my shop!!🥰💗💞
> my shop <
#persona 3#p3#persona 3 reload#im sorry im not tagging all those characters;;#theres so many;;;;#(after doing my quality check I discovered that a good amount of my ferris wheels arrived broken#so I'm in the process of getting them replaced🥺💞#that said I'll hopefully be able to add more to my listings soon! so try not to fret too much if you miss out on the first round of sales💗)#technically speaking the issue is that some of the ferris wheels arent fitting in their base#so i might be able to fix it myself#but its going to be a lengthy process for sure#so hopefully i can get them replaced asap🥺🙏#as of right now i think i only have one left thats ready to go#so check it out if its something youd like♡♡♡#edenfire shop#merch#my merch
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