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ashisgreedy · 1 year ago

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Theodore Nott x F!Reader

“Camera Shy”

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You hear three knocks on your bedroom door. His 5-minute warning he’d sent via text had been accurate down to the minute. Your heart raced to see him after the hour-long sexting spree you two just had while he was at an obligatory dinner.

You open the door and see his expressionless eyes pierce into yours. He steps inside with his usual swagger and wraps his arm around your waist. He slams the door behind him as his lips crash into yours. The scent of cigarettes and ash envelopes you. You wrap your arms around him but the sudden force at which you are shoved into the wall stops all action.

Theo pulls away from the kiss, ghosting his mouth down your jawline. “I missed you.” His words are a whisper on your skin. “I can’t believe you had the guts to send a video like that, full audio, knowing damn well I was in public.” He licked your skin, nibbling down the column of your neck. “I need you, now.”

You gathered that much, what with how eager he was the second he walked into the door. “Then have me.” You answer him.

Teeth sink into your neck while hands trail down over your torso. His hand cups your ass, letting out a low groan.

Eager hands palm your torso, rough and possessive. Your blouse is unbuttoned halfway before it's yanked over your head. He captures your bottom lip between his teeth before shoving his tongue into the heated kiss.

“You have such a beautiful body," He murmurs, running his fingers along the edge of your bra. One strap falls down your shoulder, zealous hands cupping your breasts. He squeezes and rubs, teasingly avoiding your hardening nipples. "And it's all mine to enjoy, isn't it?”

With one hand, he skillfully unclasps your bra. The garment goes slack and the straps slide down your arms. It falls to the floor and Theo lets out a gruff sound at the sight.

Your breath hitches as his fingers tease your nipples. “Yes…” you whisper. “I’m all yours.”

He pinches the soft peaks, watching your face twist in pleasure. His hips pressing firmly against yours keep you flush against the wall. You press back, adding friction to his hardening cock.

“You’re mine.” He says in a way like he's daring you to argue. His face is so close that his nose presses into yours. “You’re all mine.” He tries to maintain eye contact with you no matter what direction you look. One hand slowly moves down between your thighs.

“Yours…” You say, letting out a whimper when his hand rubs your core over your pajama shorts.

“Spread them, spread them, come on.” He demands.

You open your legs wider for him, losing some height as you do. “Like this?”

He slips his warm hand down the front of your shorts and panties, gliding his fingers down your slick slit. “Perfect.” He presses his forehead into yours. “You’re soaked.” His voice was laced with cockiness. “Were you this wet when you were playing with yourself on video?” He teased. You shook your head ‘no’ and he circled his fingers over your clit. “I want to see what is mine.”

It was easy for him to push your shorts and panties down. The cloth pooled at your ankles. “What do you want me to do?” You ask, catching his intense stare.

“Get on the bed.” He finally backs away to give you a chance to move. His eyes are still locked onto you, like a predator ready to pounce.

A couple steps and you're sitting on the plush mattress. The cool air from the fan makes you feel a bit shy being the only naked person in the room.

Theo gives you a seductive smile, nodding in approval. “Lay back, present yourself to me.” He demands.

You avert your eyes and do as he asks, opening your legs for him to see. “Like thi-”

“Wider.” He cuts you off. “Don’t be shy now that I’m in the room with you.”

A flush of heat washes over you as you actively open your legs wider for him. Your heart raced as he walked closer, eyes glued on your intimate display.

“Better.” He said. “Now touch yourself like you were in that video.”

You swallow thickly and reach down between your legs. You were wetter than you realized. “I want you to touch me…” You say, gliding your finger along your slit.

Theo takes out his phone and points it at your cunt. “Oh, I will.”

“What are you doing?” You ask, moving to close your legs when you hear the telltale sound of the phone recording start.

He grabbed one of your knees and pushed until you were open for him again. “I want to make my own video.” He rubbed your thigh slowly. “Now do as I said, darling.”

He moved the camera to show your face and your blush deepened. He recorded himself rubbing and flicking your nipple until you flinched. You were panting, breathing faster with every moment that passed.

“More…” You said. When his hand moved to your opposing breast, he pinched the sensitive nub. You moaned at the sensation sending pleasureable shockwaves through your body.

“Fuck, amore mio.” He whispered. The camera lens followed his finger on its journey down your stomach between your spread legs. You’d played with yourself like he asked, but nothing compared to the sensation of his touch.

His phone grew closer as he parted your folds, capturing how slick you were on film. His digit traced your asshole and you inhaled sharply as butterflies rushed into your stomach.

“Theo.” You groaned, tired of being teased.

He dragged his gaze back up to your face. “What?” He said, using his hand to cup your cunt. “Tell me what you want. Beg for me so this video is worth rewatching.”

You licked your lips “Don’t show this video to anyone…”

A curious smile grew on his face. “You think I’d do that?” He leaned in. “I can’t even stand another guy glancing your way, there's no way in hell I’d show anyone this video.”

You nodded in understanding and slowly began to grind your hips against his palm. “Please…” You bit your lip and looked away from the camera when he brought it to your face. “Please… um.. finger me.”

Theo looked down with a concentrated look and managed two fingers into your entrance. He immediately curled them against your gspot and roughly finger fucked you.

“Fuck!” You cried out, your legs closing involuntarily.

“Open your fucking legs.” He demanded, camera on your pussy while he fingered the hell out of you.

The lack of build-up made you see stars. You tried your best to spread your legs again but the intensity of the sensation made you writhe instead. “I can’t! I.. oh gods!” Your moans filled the room and Theo’s ministrations only got more intense.

You could hear your ever-growing wetness the faster he went. The veins in his forearm stood out as he used more of his strength to bring you to a sudden orgasm.

“AH!” You screamed, the sensation rocketing through your body. You arched while waves of electric pleasure pulsed through every nerve you had. You were acutely aware of how loud you were being but you literally saw stars and couldn’t be bothered to care.

He removed his fingers just as roughly and set the phone down on the bed. “That was beautiful, Amore.” His belt clunk to the ground.

You gasped, sucking in air while your heart pounded in your chest. “What the fuck.” You managed to say. He only stood naked before you for a second before he slid onto the bed, scooping your legs under his arms.

The position had your legs resting on his shoulders while his cock prodded your entrance. He grabbed his phone again, not worried about the angle this time “Beg for it, beg for my cock.” He demanded.

“I'm still catching my breath. I-”

“Beg, you need my cock, you need to feel full. Beg for it.” He growled, his face rubbing against yours.

“Theo!” Your legs shook at the new angle. “Fuck… fuck! Give me your cock. Please! Please I want it.”

“Hm.” He growled. His teeth nipped at your cheek and ear.

“Please!” You began again, feeling his cock slide along your slit. “Please. Theo, fuck me. Please fuck me. I need it.”

He didn’t oblige and instead sucked at the skin on your neck creating a hickey mark. His fit body moved in a subtle thrusting rhythm.

You whimpered. “Fuc- PLEASE! I want to feel full, I want… I want to feel your cum dripping out of me.”

He groaned against your neck and let up on the patch he was sucking with a pop. “You want my cum, baby?” He asked, still rutting against your pussy.

“Yes! And I want you to record it dripping out of me. Please, please, Theo.”

He was happy with this and used one hand to guide his cock to your entrance. “Shit…” He slowly pressed inside you. “How are you still so fucking tight?” He moaned when he sank all the way inside. “You were made to be fucked by me.” He kissed you roughly before continuing. “You were made for me. I know you crave a rough fuck. Tell me. Say it.”

“Yes, yes.” You nod, feeling a swirl of overstimulation from the hard orgasm you’d just had. “I like it rough.” You agreed. “Please fuck me, please.”

Theo sat up, letting your legs drop, and set his phone to the side. He moved back down closer to your face and started thrusting harshly. You wrapped your legs around him, aiding him to fuck you even harder. His biceps flexed as he held himself up above you.

With each thrust, you felt yourself slide more and more up the bed. It was too much, yet it felt like pure bliss. Your eyes shut while his cock hit just the right spot inside to make you scream. His moans, mixed with yours, began to grow in volume.

“Will you come for me again, amore? Hm? Do you have it in you?” He asked. His knees dug harder into the bed as he held your shoulders so you’d stop sliding away.

He was out of breath, just as you were. Sweat beaded on his forehead and his brown waves began to stick to his skin. His thrusts were getting sloppy while his skin heated up.

You needed a bit of encouragement to come like he asked, so you reached down and rubbed your clit as best as you could with the heavy thrusting your boyfriend was doing.

Your toes tingled and your vision blurred. Theo breathed like he was running a marathon while your head pressed back into the mattress. You pinched your eyes shut as another body-shaking orgasm rushed through you.

“Yes, baby, yes. Come on my cock. Fucking hell.” He encouraged.

As your body pulsed with pleasure, he lifted himself up at a new angle. He gave a few more pumps before he was moaning your name, gasping at the intensity of the climax. He grabbed your breasts while his cock pulsed inside you.

A few seconds passed before he collapsed back down on you. His arms wrapped around you protectively while he caught his breath. You hugged him tight, lips kissing every part of him that was close enough to you.

Several minutes passed and his softening cock was still inside you. He finally pulled back enough to kiss your lips. His kisses were a series of short pecks while he smiled down at you. “So pretty.” He kissed you once more before looking around the bed. He spotted his phone and he checked the screen, it was still recording from what you saw.

He took a deep breath and pushed his hair off his face. “Okay, amore mio. One last thing. Stay still.” He asked, his voice much more calm than it had been all night.

He kissed the back of your hand before backing away. The camera moved down to where you were connected. Carefully, Theo pulled out. You hissed at the feeling but breathed a sigh of relief when he was finally out.

He helped ease your legs back open with one hand. “Relax, babe.” He said, pressing his hand on your lower stomach.

You did as he said, and relaxed. You could feel the warmth begin to pool between your legs within a second. Theo bit his lip and moved the camera closer. His cum oozed out of your spent hole and dripped down onto the bed. He used his finger and gently coaxed more out. “So good.” He praised. “That's what you wanted, right, darling?”

You nodded slowly. “Yes…” Your legs trembled.

Finally, you heard the tone of the video being stopped. You relaxed and watched as Theo dropped the phone onto the nightstand. He then scooped you back up into his arms, a small satisfied smile on his face. His kisses were endless as his hand rubbed your back.

It wasn’t long before your shower suggestion was taken into consideration and you two shared a nice warm soak in the bath together afterward. It helped ease any sore muscles that may arise by morning and gave you two more time to cuddle one another close.

“What are you going to do with that video.” You finally asked as the bubbles in the bath began to dissipate.

Theo opened his eyes and looked at you with amusement. “I’m going to watch it every day for the rest of my life.”

“Shut up,” You laughed, splashing him with the sudsy water.

He laughed, wiping the water off his face. “It’s true! And maybe, we can make more in the future.” He winked playfully and kissed your cheek.

Thanks for reading! I don’t know much about Theo yet but I was… in need.

#theodore nott #theo nott #theodore nott x you #theodore nott smut #theo nott smut #slytherin boys #my writing

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strawberryshortcake1495 · 2 months ago

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Mabel and Wendy are taking a hike through the forest when a voice recorder comes flying out of the sky and hits Mabel on the head. “Oww!” She whines. Wendy picks it up. “A voice recorder! Hold on, I can connect this to my cassette player back at my house. Come on, Mabel!” Wendy gives the 13-year old girl a reassuring pat on the head before grabbing her arm and running off. Once they reach Wendy’s home, Mabel greets the Corduroy brothers and they make their way into Wendy’s room. The redhead grabs a beige cassette tape and puts the voice recorder inside it. “I hope it’s not cursed or anything…” Mabel says, walking over to the cassette and leaning her head and crossed arms on the table as the audio begins to play.

“Oh, Grunkle Stan…Grunkle Ford…Oh god, I’m praying you hear this…I-I know you’re probably confused and worried but it’s okay! I’m gone now. That rumbling you heard? I reactivated the portal and I-I jumped through it. I can’t hurt you now. I managed to hijack this weird ship that was flying by and I’m currently d-driving it right now. Please just…listen to me. This whole mess started this morning. I saw the little cliff in Gravity Falls and I thought it would make a cool hangout spot for me and Dipper. God, why did I think- I…I just wanted to spend some time with my brother before our 13th birthday. But then- then- it happened so fast. I fell into this weird trap door, Dipper went after me, and then there were these weird robot aliens and…and…I thought I could- (whirring sounds) *sobs* I tried to fight them off but they grabbed Dipper and… *voice breaks* Dipper…Dipper’s dead. He t-trusted me…Please! Don’t make me remember that! And Soos? I know you’re there too. That letter I sent you at 3AM? I-I was wrong. I won’t be looking forward to shenanigans and awkward teenage years. Only suffering… *hic* pain. *gasps* (more whirring sounds) If you never see me again, just… *voice cracks* please listen! I was so stupid and arrogant to think I could beat those stupid aliens! *crying* I tried to save him but he was already gone…I can’t…can’t hurt you too. I-I’m a monster. I shouldn’t be alive- (loud whirring and crashing sounds)”

Mabel stood there, hands covering her agape mouth as the crackling audio slowly stuttered to a stop. “Dear god…” Wendy let out a shaky breath. “What was that?” Mabel didn’t notice her breathing had become louder and heavier when Wendy wrapped her arms around the smaller girl and held her tight. As Mabel’s mind scrambled for answers, it lingered to the old book Bill made. The one that Grunkle Ford was hiding for a good reason. While reading that book, she learned that she and Dipper��they only survived in this universe. Thinking about all the other Mabels and Dippers that weren’t so lucky suddenly made her nauseous. She pushed herself out of Wendy’s arms, into the bathroom, and puked out the contents of her lunch and breakfast.

#gravity falls #mabel pines #dipper pines #wendy corduroy #bad endings #book of bill #tw: child death #tw: vomit

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ladyaldhelm · 5 months ago

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Making Gifs Part 1 - Capturing Video

I am making this for @errruvande but I thought maybe others could use this guide to. This is my own personal workflow on how I make my gifs. Everyone has their own way of doing it, and there is no right or wrong way, but I have found this works best for me, with my limited tools and since I do not have photoshop.

Please note I am not an expert lol! There are people out there making far better gifs than me, and many other gifmaking resouces on Tumblr that are probably better than mine.

Keep reading below >>>

So there are two ways that I have found that work for capturing video. If you have the discs like I do, using a program like Videobyte BD-DVD Ripper works really well to grab video clips from Blu-Rays and DVD's. I recommend only using Blu-Rays if you have them. since DVD's are much lower quality.

However I have noticed the videos I captured with this program tend to be dark and have some compression artifacts, even when rip to an MKV with high quality settings. So I use a different method which I feel produces higher quality video captures.

I use Windows Screen Recorder (I have Win11 but this will work for all versions of Windows) with the quality settings set to High. In order to do this, go to Settings > Gaming > Captures and set the following:

Make sure the Video Quality is set to High, set your Screenshots folder, turn off Audio (you don't need it), and keep the frame rate to 30 fps.

For Windows 11 press WIN + ALT + R to activate the screen recorder. There is usually a bit of a delay so make sure you start a few seconds before the scene you want to capture. And try to keep the length of the capture below about 90 seconds; the shorter the better.

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Capturing Sequential Caps

So, for those of you with Photoshop, you can import your video directly into the program and make your gif from there. But I found that Photopea really does not like videos, and will stall and crash if I load a video directly. So I have to capture sequential screencaps to make my gifs.

I use VLC Media Player. There are a few others out there that take sequential caps, but I have not been able to get them to work myself.

Download and install the latest version. Then go to your settings to set up the Sequential Caps function. They have a great guide on their website here but I will reiterate it in this post.

Go To Tools > Preferences and then at the bottom of the screen select the All radio button to show all settings.

Select Video from the left menu. Scroll down about halfway until you see the Snapshot section. Choose the folder where you want the caps to go.

3. Then, under Video on the left, expand the Filters list.

4. Check the "Scene Video Filter" from the list.

5. Then scroll down on the left menu under Filters and click on Scene Filter. This will open up the settings for that particular filter.

6. Set the Image Format to PNG.

7. Then for the Recording Ratio, change to "1". The Recording Ratio is the frame interval. So for example, if it was set to "300" (with a 30fps video), then it would take one cap every 10 seconds. Setting it to "1" will make it take a cap once per frame.

8. None of the other settings need to be changed.

9. One more important setting, otherwise this will not work! Close the menu, and go back to Tools > Settings and leave it on Simple. Go to the Video section and MAKE SURE the output is set to "Automatic". This is important because if it is not on Automatic the Scene Filter won't work!

Then just open your video with VLC. VLC will automatically take the screencaps while the video is playing. If you pause the video, it will stop taking caps.

NOTE: For smoother gifs, change your playback speed to be slower. Go to the top menu > Playback > Speed > Slower (fine). The more you click this the slower the video will playback, and that means more caps will be taken over that time frame. I usually set it to 0.75x, but if you want even smoother gifs for really short clips, you can set it even slower than that.

Your screenshot folder will look like this:

Then we are done with this part and onto Photopea! Which I will go into detail in another post: PART 2

#gifmakers #gifmaking #gif making #gifmaking resources #gif making resources #my guides #giffing tutorial #screencapping #sequential caps #gif making tutorial

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foxes-that-run · 5 days ago

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Taylor Swift: 'My Confidence Is Easy To Shake'

By NPR Staff November 2, 2012 (x)

Taylor Swift's fourth studio album, Red, sold 1.2 million copies in its first week — the highest first-week sales total in a decade.

I think what I've learned recently is that it's not ... heartbreak that inspires my songs. It's not love that inspires my songs. It's individual people that come into my life. I've had relationships with people that were really substantial and meant a lot to me, but I couldn't write a song about that person for some reason. Then again, you'll meet someone that comes into your life for two weeks and you write an entire record about them.

The idea was based on this experience I had with someone who was kind of this unreliable guy. You never know when he's going to leave, you never know when he's going to come back, but he always does come back. And she's wondering whether to let him in, and he just wants her to give him another chance, but she doesn't know if he's going to break her heart again. It's a really fragile emotion you're dealing with when you want to love someone, but you don't know if it's smart to.

Once touted as a teen idol and a genre sensation, Taylor Swift is neither of those things today: At 22, she has become one of the biggest commercial forces in all of pop music. Her latest album, Red, sold 1.2 million copies in its first week — the highest such sales total in a decade. She spoke with NPR's Guy Raz about success, setbacks and why, in a career that began at 14, so many of her songs have dealt in love and heartbreak. Hear the radio version at the audio link on this page, and read more of their conversation below.

GUY RAZ: You quote the poet Pablo Neruda right on the first page of the liner notes. The line is, "Love is so short, forgetting is so long." And it seems like that line sort of sets the theme for this record.

TAYLOR SWIFT: It really does. When I read that line, I absolutely connected to it. I felt like my favorite writers have almost musical hooks in their work, whether it's poetry or a hook at the end of a chapter that makes you want to read the next one. And I think that my favorite writers definitely have something musical about what they do, in saying something so relatable and universal and so simple.

You write the vast majority of your songs, and a lot of your themes are about love or love lost and heartbreak. I sometimes wonder whether you date a lot of jerks.

[Laughs.] I've written all my songs on every single one of my records, and that's what's been fun about looking back. My first album is the diary of when I was 14, 15, 16. My second album, Fearless, was from 16 to 18, and so on, and so on. So you have my life being recorded in journal entries from these two-year periods of my life since I was 16. I like to write about love and love lost because I feel like there are so many different subcategories of emotions that you can possibly delve into. I've never missed two people the same way — it's always different for me. I've never fallen in love with someone and had the same exact kind of feeling come over me. So I think that there are all these different mixtures of emotions that go into individual feelings that you feel for individual people. And, yeah, most of the time it doesn't work out.

That's the thing with love: It's going to be wrong until it's right. So you experience these different shades of wrong, and you miss the good things about those people, and you regret not seeing the red flags for the bad things about those people, but it's all a learning process. And being 22, you're kind of in a crash course with love and life and lessons and learning the hard way, and thankfully, I've been able to write about those emotions as they've affected me.

Is there a line that you won't cross when it comes to writing about how you feel?

I don't think that I've ever experienced that line before.

So it's really you speaking in your lyrics?

Yeah. I've always written songs the same way. You learn different tricks — you learn craft, you learn structure, all that — as you go. Since I was 12, I would get an idea, and that idea is either a fragment of melody and lyric mixed in, [or] maybe it's a hook. Maybe it's the first line of a song. Maybe it's a background vocal part or something, but it's like the first piece of a puzzle. And my job in writing the song and completing it is filling in all the rest of the pieces and figuring out where they go. The reason why I keep doing it is because it's like a message in a bottle. You can put this message in a bottle, throw it out into the ocean, and maybe someday, the person that you wrote that song about is going to hear it and understand exactly how you felt. I think that's what keeps drawing me to songwriting: the spontaneity of how you can get an idea at 4 in the morning or while walking through the airport, and also the fact that it's conveying a message to someone that's more real than what you had the courage to say in person.

In the liner notes, some of the letters in the lyrics are capitalized, and your fans know what that's about. These are clues for them to kind of piece things together. Do you see your lyrics as a way for you to directly communicate with your fans?

The first thing that I think about when I'm writing my lyrics is directly communicating with the person the song is about. I think what I've learned recently is that it's not ... heartbreak that inspires my songs. It's not love that inspires my songs. It's individual people that come into my life. I've had relationships with people that were really substantial and meant a lot to me, but I couldn't write a song about that person for some reason. Then again, you'll meet someone that comes into your life for two weeks and you write an entire record about them. When I first started writing songs, I was always scared that my songs were too personal — like, if I put someone's name in a song, people won't relate to it as much. But what I saw happening was, if I let my fans into my life and my feelings and what I'm going through — my vulnerabilities, my fears, my insecurities — it turns out they have all those things, too, and it kind of connects us.

A lot of people know you were a talented singer as a kid, but you actually experienced setbacks for many years before you made it, right?

I started out with community theater, like local theater. I loved being on stage. I loved telling a story through words and music. I actually ended up going to auditions in New York for Broadway stuff. I didn't make it there. What I ended up coming back to is, I always was just so obsessed with the storytelling in country music. Shania Twain, Faith Hill, The Dixie Chicks — I was so taken in by their songs. So I started singing their songs at karaoke contests and singing every single weekend at something, trying out singing the national anthem here or there. When I was 12, I started playing guitar and writing my own songs, and that's when it became something I could never stop thinking about. It went into overdrive. I was always singing at some coffeehouse or some singer-songwriter night or this festival or that festival. It just became everything to me when I was about 12, and that's when I started really pressuring my parents to move to Nashville.

What motivated you? Were you just convinced you were going to make it?

No, actually. I was never convinced I was going to make it. And I look back — my mom and I reminisce about this all the time because we had no idea what we were doing. My parents bought books on what the music industry was like. They had no idea what the music industry entailed and what was involved with it. [Something that was] said to me early on was, "Teenagers don't listen to country music. That's not the audience. The audience is a 35-year-old housewife. ... How are you going to relate to those women when you're 16 years old? You should come back when you're in your 20s." And I kept thinking, "But I love country music, and I'm a teenager! There have to be more kids out there like me."

How do you deal with setbacks now? A few years ago, you were criticized by a few critics for a performance at the Grammy Awards. Did that shake your confidence?

Absolutely. My confidence is easy to shake. I am very well aware of all of my flaws. I am aware of all the insecurities that I have. I have a lot of voices in my head constantly telling me I can't do it. I've dealt with that my whole life. And getting up there on stage thousands of times, you're going to have off nights. And when you have an off night in front of that many people, and it's pointed out in such a public way, yeah, that gets to you. I feel like, as a songwriter, I can't develop thick skin. I cannot put up protective walls, because it's my job to feel things.

The kind of magical way that criticism has helped me is that that's another thing that I put into my music. I ended up writing a song called "Mean" about that experience, and about this one particular guy who would not get off my case about it. To stand up at the Grammys two years later, to sing that song and get a standing ovation for it, and to win two Grammys for that particular song, I think was the most gratifying experience I've ever had in my life.

There's one song on the new album called "The Last Time," which you sing with Gary Lightbody of the band Snow Patrol, that's particularly heartbreaking. Where does that come from? You have this bright, upbeat personality and this charisma that's been written about so much, and yet there's a lot of pain in what you write about.

The idea was based on this experience I had with someone who was kind of this unreliable guy. You never know when he's going to leave, you never know when he's going to come back, but he always does come back. My visual for this song is, there's a guy on his knees sitting on the ground outside of a door. And on the other side of the door is his girlfriend, who he keeps on leaving — and he keeps coming back to her, but then he leaves again. He's saying, "This is the last time I'm going to do this to you." And she's saying, "This is the last time I'm asking you this: Don't do this again." And she's wondering whether to let him in, and he just wants her to give him another chance, but she doesn't know if he's going to break her heart again. It's a really fragile emotion you're dealing with when you want to love someone, but you don't know if it's smart to.

This is an election weekend, and I know that the day you turned 18, you registered to vote. You've also said that you want to wait to take public positions on issues; that you want to feel comfortable enough to defend them. Are you there yet?

No, I'm not. I think at 22, I'm still gathering information about who I am as a person. I look at a lot of people's interviews on their lives, [and] I talk to a lot of people who are older than me — I have a great respect for gray hair. A lot of people tell me that when they were 22, they thought they had it all figured out, but they didn't. Just when I start to think that I know how I feel about something, I learn something else that changes my mind. I just feel like I don't have enough wisdom about myself as a person yet to go out there and say to 20 million followers on Twitter, and these people on Facebook, and whoever else is reading whatever interview I do, "Vote for this person." I know who I'm going to vote for, but I don't think that it's important for me to say it, because it will influence people one way or another. And I just want to make sure that every public decision I make is an educated one.

For most people, the time to make mistakes is when you're 22. Do you feel like, because of your public persona, you can't?

I do think about it. There's not really one day that goes by that my life isn't documented somewhere. I live in a world where I know for a fact that my grandkids will get to Google what I wore today. It's a strange dilemma because it puts an amount of pressure on your every move that other 22-year-olds don't necessarily have to think about. In the grand scheme of things, I'm living a life. ... I know I'm going to make mistakes. I'm just going to try to handle those mistakes as a good person. The perception of you is going to change daily when you do what I do, but I just want to end up knowing in my heart that I did that right thing and tried my best, and if you mess up, hopefully it teaches you something.

#Haylor media #Taylor Swift #Print Interviews

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thelongestway · 28 days ago

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One or two chapters more left after this. My heart goes out to all the authors that have to write endings. Ye gods the fucking things are intricate.

And long enough to give tumblr trouble posting it, apparently! Needed to edit so it would let me - let me know if the thing cuts off mid-sentence or something!

Also, take note that the cw: suicide mention stands.

With those hurdles cleared, though, I present...

Chapter 13: Friends

Dandelion regarded me for a long 3,5 seconds, and that made my threat assessment spike, so I checked to see that no one was doing anything stupid in the feed (they weren't). And all the humans in the sector had done the smart thing (gotten the hell out of our way). And the Friend was securely sedated. There wasn't anything that could possibly be taking her so long to process, so I asked, Are you crashing?

The voice she produced was carefully neutral. No. I'd just like some additional context to answer that question properly.

I gave her a cautiously affirmative ping.

She said, Do I understand correctly that you were custom made for your function? And everything irrelevant to it was a later development?

No, I was mass produced for my function. Also, what the fuck does that have to do with anything.

Let me try that again. When we first met, you attempted to copy my media archive immediately upon connection. May I ask why?

Yeah, and fuck you for your "a malware scan will be wholly sufficient, security consultant SecUnit." Again, what the fuck does that have to do with anything.

She gave the bot equivalent of a sigh.

SecUnit, I am trying to understand whether I need to explain the specific customs we have around Movie Night, or whether you have simply never seen a movie in your life, instruction videos notwithstanding.

This time I was the one who needed entire seconds to process. In the end, I just threw a directory listing of my own archives into our feed.

And that's not counting all the crap I deleted over the last 42 000 hours!

Dandelion hummed appreciatively as she skimmed the list.

I stand corrected.

Why exactly did you think I was downloading your media archive?

Iceblink and I thought you were looking for records to analyze. She briefly considered letting you believe we were all Zeelites, but we decided in favor of caution.

And that was the exact moment Indah decided to tap Dandelion's feed in order to send her a route map. Dandelion pinged me to assess the route, then patched the audio transmission through.

"Senior Medical Officer Dandelion of the Dandelion Tenacious, you and your patient are clear to proceed to the Merchant Docking ring embarkation hall via the indicated route." Indah's voice sounded like she was instructing a particularly stupid bot that it was supposed to dock at the cargo ring, not the public ring. "All civilians have been cleared from the area, and the last security personnel are withdrawing now. Be advised that transition from ring to ring will require an authentication procedure which must be initiated by your security escort."

The route Indah suggested was as direct as possible, and bad for any kind of traps. Preservation Alliance was letting them go.

I informed Dandelion, and her performance reliability wobbled, then stabilized a little higher than it had previously been.

"Acknowledged, Senior Station Security Officer Indah, and thank you for your help. We will be at the Merchant Docks shortly."

Normally Indah would close the channel at this point. Instead, she said in the same bored tone, "By way of thanks, would you mind answering a few questions for me while you walk?"

Ah. I see we are at the part where your security decides what to charge me with. Dandelion said in our private channel. Then she responded to Indah, just as dryly: "Answering security questions without legal counsel is generally considered unwise. I'm afraid I must decline."

"That's fair," Indah allowed. "You're not under any standing obligation to respond, if you were wondering. Off the record--I just find myself curious whether you could tell me any more details about a certain humanitarian-cum-terrorist organization best known for ignoring the law entirely in favor of what it considers moral. Especially seeing as it's supposedly been defunct since the early days of the Rim. Crossed one too many corporate lines back in the day."

Dandelion's processing activity spiked. She didn't add Indah as a separate threat parameter, but she was certainly paying attention now. And talking. Which she had acknowledged was stupid a second ago.

"You are remarkably well-informed about a long-defunct fringe organisation."

Indah chuckled.

"Not too many people in Preservation Alliance are interested in the very niche subject of terrorism history. Between you and me, Senior Medical Officer, it was extremely gratifying to have one up on some of the snobbier historians around Preservation. I am surprised to see a doctor recognizing such a relic from the bygone past, though."

"Do you know what a Lyson project is, Senior Security Officer?"

"I'm afraid not."

"It's the medical procedure used to create the Friends, a kind of brain-altering surgery. Abuse of the Lyson procedure had been prominent enough on pre-Javelin Earth to be banned entirely save for certain exceptions, screening for which took years at the minimum. The Friends used to be the best known such exception, but they were born of a time most people knew these things were possible.

"Once I would have said any doctor worth her salt should have recognized that brain scan, but it is becoming more and more apparent to me that a great number of things were lost or fragmented with the corporate expansion. Despite their excellence otherwise, your medical databases do not have anything listed under the Lyson name. I suspect once the procedure was no longer common knowledge, the surviving Friends took great pains to keep it that way."

"I see. Senior Medical Officer Dandelion, in your opinion, should I be worried about seeing more Lyson projects in the wild from now on?"

"Not from the Trellians, Senior Security Officer Indah. There had been six Public Universal Friends on our founding Javelin. Only one Friend made it to the node ship era, and it died 165 years ago. There is no one remaining who would carry out the induction procedure."

"But there is one doctor who would risk a great deal to stop someone else from reversing it. I would very much like to know why."

Dandelion was silent as we walked through the empty corridors, lit only by emergency lighting, and silent as I entered the codes which would let us into the Merchant Docks, and silent as the codes came back green and the lift took us to the embarkation floor. I could feel Senior Indah's presence lingering in the feed. She was patient. I hoped she knew what she was doing.

Dandelion spoke up only when the doors to the embarkation floor opened, and there were no serious physical obstacles remaining between us and the Tenacious' docking bay.

"By now, you should have Senior Engineer Haze's story."

"I do. But it is something of a second hand testament. I'd like the tale straight from the horse's mouth, as it were."

"Before I give you any details, I would like to know whether this case will be a matter of public record. Not for the sake of my own privacy, but because a second era of unchecked Lyson projects is a horrifying prospect."

"I'm glad we agree on that, Senior Medical Officer."

Senior Indah sent Dandelion several documents, and she quickly scanned them. Her performance reliability was rising steadily, and my threat assessment rose at nearly the same rate. Then she marked one form with a signature and sent it back to Indah.

"Very well, Senior Security Officer. I confirm that I had once been an initiated member of the Public Universal Friends, and later a victim of the very same reversal procedure Dr. Mrinal of the Preservation Alliance attempted to initiate on the Friend currently in my care. I wish to testify that the reversal had very nearly killed me, and that I could not in good conscience allow someone else to suffer the same."

"'Very nearly' does play a role here, Dr. Tenacious. According to Dr. Ratthi's report, you seemed very certain the procedure would, in fact, kill the patient. Yet you appear to be very much alive. Why is that?"

Dandelion's performance reliability stabilized at around 80%, oscillating with a magnitude of approximately 5%. Considering how many emotions she was having in the background, this wasn't bad. And the wobbling seemed like a good thing. I never wanted to see that number go above 98% again.

"Because I had friends, Senior Security Officer. Friends, who had forcefully removed me from medical confinement and who were my lifeline as I recovered the sense of self gutted by the procedure." Dandelion's voice became very hard. "I want to make it absolutely clear, Senior Indah, that it wasn't the operation to turn me into a Friend which destroyed who I was. It was the reversal, carried out without either my knowledge or my consent."

"Noted," Senior Indah said seriously. "Please continue."

"The doctors took me as I slept, and I woke up a different person. When I told them I had not wanted the procedure, they said it had been for my own good and that I was simply being a difficult patient. I had little recourse to demonstrate how wrong they had been, so I attempted suicide by starvation. If not for my friends, I would have succeeded."

Dandelion waited for acknowledgement of what she had said, then continued: "The Friend in my care was running a solitary operation. It has no one. Were the reversal procedure undertaken successfully, I am certain it would have killed itself once left to its own devices."

She was wrong. That Friend wasn't a doctor. It was a security officer. It wouldn't have destroyed itself in order to make a point. It would have tried to nullify the ongoing threat to others like itself.

I threw my analysis into our work space and pinged Dandelion to let it through to Indah. She complied without even scanning it.

Indah took some time to read through, then said:

"Senior Medical Officer Dandelion of the Dandelion Tenacious, are you making a formal charge of criminal negligence against Dr. Mrinal?"

"I am not. Much like the doctors who did it to me, Dr. Mrinal had never seen a Lyson project before, and acted on their understanding to the best of their ability. But regardless of their intent, and of whether or not I had the legal right to intervene, I could not let them go through with it, costs be damned."

"Thank you for your testimony, Dr. Tenacious. You have been very helpful. I will relay this information to Preservation Alliance leadership, and I will come back to you with their response."

Dandelion acknowledged the message and closed the connection. We proceeded.

Once we sighted the Tenacious' walkway, flanked by a delegation of both Preservation and Trellian humans, Dandelion suddenly tapped my feed. Her performance reliability oscillation had gone from sharp spikes to much smoother waves, and she sounded a lot calmer.

To answer your question, SecUnit, Movie Night is a custom that's even older than the node ships. Once a week, a crew member chooses media that they like, and everyone who wants to experiences it together. Movie Nights are far from mandatory--the node ships have grown much too large for that, and most have several stable movie night groups anyway--but they are usually a well-attended event. Sharing their favorite stories lets people grow closer.

For some reason I was imagining Mensah, Ratthi, Pin Lee, Arada, Overse, Bharadwaj, Volescu and weirdly even Gurathin all sitting on board ART and choosing a show. That would never have worked. ART would be an asshole like it always is, so any show would just get replaced by Worldhoppers the moment the humans lost focus.

How do you decide who gets to choose? Do you get a turn?

We draw straws, then keep the order going. New crew are added after the latest round ends, Dandelion focused her cameras on Captain Reed's gaunt face. And yes, normally I do. But not any time soon, I think.

#the nameless fanfic #ttou #time to orbit unknown #the murderbot diaries #horrible crossover thoughts #my writing #well that was a wringer to write #let's see if it worked #cw suicide mention

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may-bee-its-just-me · 1 month ago

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✨Trauma dump sesh;

but make it classy because effort was put into the wordage and I cant count how many takes i did for the recording

"I’ve a naturally hyper personality; I dance while I work, sing while I clean and I try to brighten everyone’s day. I get asked why I am the way I am. “Oh it must be the coffee, that’s why she’s so quirky again after her lunch break”. Truth is, I push myself to my limits daily and crash by the afternoon. Any spare physical energy is immediately used up; taken advantage of. I’m a one woman circus act walking the line of energetic and productive, over a hundred ft. drop into despair, with nothing but the safety net that is God’s grace to protect me. I go through swings like nobody’s business, taking the highs as they come; Until I swing too high and fall out the back of my seat. In rough waters, I take every moment above water breathing heaps of fresh air up until the millisecond the next wave engulfs me; Breathing salt water with it. I’m Icarus, taking my temporary wings for a joyride; Flying too close to the sun. Sometimes this worries people. They ask if I’m okay, seeing me hunched over the kitchen table praying for another ounce of strength. They want to help but, seeing as how it’s daily, I tell them “same ol’” and let them move on with their day. And, when they ask me why I haven't seen a doctor after a year, I haven’t much to say. I can’t explain it, I don’t have the energy and they won’t understand. People look at me like I’m crazy. My knee jerk reaction is to deny. I’m not crazy, I’m just struggling, I’m trying really hard, I’m. Not. Crazy. But the truth is, who wouldn’t be? No one understands how hard it is to live every single day in pain, until they experience it themselves. To have every motion of your hand matter. To have every action, reaction, tone of voice matter. To be ever conscious of every maneuver your body makes - trying to limit mistakes and dropping things but still go fast enough to keep up with your job. To be hyper-aware of every micro-adjustment to your posture; In hopes that one of them makes the pain lessen and allow your mind to focus on something else for a moment. And, when needing to lift heavier objects, be careful not to lift too long or to speed-walk with them too fast, lest you cause your arms to flare up again. And, when the flare up inevitably happens, how much of the muscle spasm in your shaking hands do you allow others to see in hopes of being cut a break, but not enough that it makes your work sloppy? What do you do when your mind is fuzzy, and the room is spinning - Your heart is beating harder and you’re losing your balance - Your ear keeps ringing intermittently, and your chest feels heavy - You think you’re going to pass out, but your body isn't ready - and you don’t want to, but your heart rate still unsteady - you’re catching yourself from falling, and you’re just trying to get through the work day - So you’re stuck in limbo, between conscious and fainted - Until eventually it tapers off and you begin to question; Am I somehow faking it? Did it ever even happen in the first place? You make mention of everything hurting, all the time, just for older family and coworkers to joke about “becoming an adult - Not understanding just how deep that cuts, or what they’re really joking about. . I’m exhausted. I’m broken. I’m weak. I’m frustrated. I’m burnt out. I’m beat. I want to rest, but even after a long day of hard work and minimal issues - The pain creeps up when I lay my head down for sleep. I don’t want to be a miserable person, I don’t want to be consumed by my struggle. I want to keep hold of faith for healing, stay hopeful for better days. I want to spread joy. So I break my body to keep up in the day, deal with the consequences by night, and repeat in the morning. I’ve a hyper personality, tied down by my body. A personified contradiction, walking a tightrope, swinging forward and back, halfway underwater, too close to the sun."

~ Bee, 11/20/2024 [Wannabee poet and rich person]

#I find it hilarious that the audio on my computer is marked as 4:20 for length #please dont freak out over this #Also #i feel like 10k would solve a good 50% of my problems ngl #feel free to also tell me if its awful and bad and crush my poetry dreams

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chaosdetector · 2 months ago

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First Steps of Many

(Redacted Audio) Asher x Black Reader Imagine ~ 1.75k words

!!Disclaimers!!: This is not beta read, there is angst, some foul language, occasional violent imagery, brief & light hints of sexual attraction btwn 2 adults, and bc it hasn’t been peer-reviewed (also bc I couldn’t decide if I wanted to write it like a [Name] fic, or use the listener’s nickname throughout), this fic could expose you to unhealthy amounts of CRINGE!!!

If any of this isn’t your cup of tea, feel free to scroll away and find something that does (I won’t take it personally ;D)

If none of that turns you away, then here’s a seat and a snack! I hope you enjoy the potential pt. 1 of this series! <333

This is a narration of the beginning of the end. Baabe would hold down the fort as per usual, taking orders from five people before getting to her favorite customer. They would both like to talk more about daily troubles, Asher sucking his teeth to keep his angst about his bitter family in a vacuum, and Baabe pivoting themselves from anything too personal by stringing out their consonants on a stuttered inhale.

The welcoming bell of the family owned joint interrupts itself to ring thrice for a happy horde of hungry habeshas, and Asher quickly two-steps from the counter and to his table. Baabe welcomes them all warmly, but raises a couple eyebrows with their hastened pace in servicing them all. Asher sees Baabes’ struggle to serve and record all of their orders as something he indirectly caused, flinching when he sees you nearly drop someone’s chai and three plates of food.

He walks up to you when you make it behind the counter, with about eight tickets still on the line, and four more plates to bring to their tables, he told you how he thought it would be best for him to come back later, and apologized for rushing you with his promise of staying to sit down and talk in the way he knows you’ve wanted to.

You stare at him with your eyes squinted, as if stressing your eyes would help you hear him better. You get the bright idea to glance down at his lips just as he utters the fact of him leaving, then practically lunge over the counter to clap his hands between your own. Loud crashing and clattering of tea and coffee sets against plates and cutlery quieted the entire kitchen, and ignited another kind of clamoring and clattering.

“I can handle this. I know it looks like a lot, but I deal with worse at my day job.”

The shouting from the kitchen approaches and intensifies after coming into contact with someone else’s spilled masterpiece. Baabe looks back for a moment, then flicks their face, beaten soft with yearning (and the incoming blow to her paycheck for one and a half tea sets), towards Asher. His blonde hair brushing against your face as you lean in close to his ear. Your minty breath closes the gap between you both as you say–

—“Wait for me. “Please.” He turns his head and nods, something that could’ve read as him nuzzling into your neck—something he’s stayed awake thinking about doing since he met you.

Something about your intoxicating scent, your hickory toned skin—something about all of you never fails to make him swoon. What happens next is almost automatic; you see in the midst of his adoration of you he reclaims his clarity, next he makes the decision he wanted to from the start (sit and wait for you to sit with him over a delicious meal that someone else will bring out for the both of you), then he wrestles with the characatures of his pack members his mind made to taunt him, wins against them all because, “Fuck ‘em. What are they going to do about it? Bitch and moan? I can take that. Fight me? They can fuck themselves over and try.”

The idea of David and Milo pop up in his mind. He looks up to see two teas he hadn’t ordered sat in front of him, and your apron slung across the chair parallel to him.

“I’d get my ass handed to me every day if it meant being here.”

“Well,” You chuckle. “…let’s hope it doesn’t come to that, yes?”

His eyebrows shoot up, breaking his morbid composure. He lets out a laugh, awkward in it’s intensity and tone.

“Well, anything for the world’s best siga fir fir.” He looks to your eyes, then glances down to the tea you generously paid for. He thanks you for his drink and for starting the meal in the same nod he dips down to drink his tea in.

“And of course, I couldn’t miss out on the best waiter in the world.” You snort mid sip, coughing down the remainder of your hot tea to make room for your laughter. You had to settle yourself down from your laughing fit.

Why were you laughing anyways? He didn’t even say anything funny? Maybe it was his face when he said it? The way he’d scrunch his nose before being cheeky was always so endearing, or maybe it was the way this mountain of a man was so gently clasping onto his cup?

“[Asher says something]” That’s it! It was his eyes! It had to be! The way his smile would crease his gaze into crescent moons, and the happy shape of his face was only exaggerated by his thick short boxed beard…and maybe it had a little to do with his choice of dress. Bomber jackets are understandable, but a leopard fur print interior and trim?

Baabe hadn’t noticed the abhorrent pattern until now, but maybe it was because Asher was wearing it? He somehow pulled off even the most criminal looks, so they wouldn’t be surprised.

Baabe stared for a second longer. Had his arms always been that big?

“Do you like my shirt?” “Nah, just your arms.”

Baabes’ eyes flew open, making them appear only a fraction as erratic as they felt. A wave of heat swallowed their neck and face.

‘OH MY GOD WHY DID I SAY THAT?’

“Oh my GOD, I can’t believe you just said that!” Asher guffawed, then laughed from deep down in his gut. Baabe was about to shrink into themselves for good until—.

“You know, it takes a lot of work to look this good!” Asher begins to put on a show. Flexing his arms in poses you could only remember that one hunky guy from the SpongeBob Movie doing. He cracks another laugh out of you. “I’m glad these big guns impress you!”

You take a moment to weigh the risk of what you’re about to say.

“You always impress me Asher.”

Asher froze, something he could’ve concealed better if it weren’t for your sweetened tone. Part of that moment he spent frozen was dedicated to scanning you up and down for any hints of sarcasm or humor, the next was spent reeling himself away from your genuine look of adoration. Because, dear GODS, if he looks at you any longer than how much he already has, he’s bound to do something stupid–and not “poor-man’s-imitation-of-Arnold-Hasslehoff” stupid, he’s talkin’ “Pick-you-up-in-his-arms-and-run-away-with-you-tonight” kind of stupid.

“Ehem, so uh, what did you want to tell me? Or, uh, what did you want to talk about?”

Baaabe rubs their ring finger, gently wringing just above where the knuckle connects to the start of their finger. “I actually wanted to talk about us. Asher, you and I have known each other for a while, and I really like you, but not enough to keep things between us how they are now.”

Asher’s hands went cold. He felt his grip on his teacup tighten.

“I like you too much, Asher. Every moment we spend together is more precious to me than the last, and–I–I’d just like, so, so much, to spend more time with you.” Baaabe looked up from their hands, their nervous glare softening the moment they met Asher’s own stunned expression.

“Do you feel the same?”

A beat passed between the two.

Then another.

A jittery laugh comes from Baabe.

“I may have sprung this on you, it’s alright if–.” “I’D LOVE TO!” “I mean, I agree! I’d love to go out with you [Name].”

Baabe blinks. “Really?” They release a sigh, the kind that is so heavy with emotion you’d have to manually push the last half of it out your chest and up your throat. Asher releases a heavy sigh of his own, then focuses all of his erratic heart to say–.

“Yeah! Yeah, really.”

They giggle in stupid glee for a long while, then Baabe (the glutton for punishment they are) springs another question that gets their heart racing.

“So, when are you free? I know you’re always busy with your security business so…”

“Yeah, no, don’t even worry about that! The guys can handle a couple jobs without me. And if they can’t–” Asher blew a raspberry. “–they’ll figure it out!“ The lovers let out a couple more laughs, riding on highs that, honest to God, they don’t know why are wracking through them this heavily.

The entire restaurant seemed to pause, and in that silence, the energy between them began to burn. A beautiful, private moment between both of them and the thirty other people in the restaurant.

You glazed over the audience with a scornful glare, briefly enough to catch nearly everyone’s eyes before they could be sneakily removed to an uninteresting wall, or an unnaturally compelling wood tile.

Asher coughed, which wound up drawing your mind to more important things.

“Are you free the Friday after next?” He asked, his hushed voice pointed enough for you to make the connections between the consonants and his intended message. “Yeah, yeah I can be free then.”

#redacted audio #redactedverse #redacted asmr #exult's diary entries #exult writes petrichor's crypt #x black reader #x black fem reader #fanifiction #part 1 of 5? possibly? let me finish my finals and we'll see lol #next time the story will be a [Name] fic

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karanseraph · 6 months ago

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Alien robots can have accents

This might be spoilers for The Life and Times of Skywarp fic, but just going through my process in public, because sometimes this helps me think and organize my thoughts.

Alien robots can have accents, because other planets have regions and culture and also because if we encounter them, they can assimilate our language(s) differently.

Also, Transformers media has pretty much always had this as a thing, because, with one notable exception I can think of, humans recorded their voices.

What a character's accent sounds like can differ, like if one piece of media was recorded in Canada, for example, and another recorded in Japan, let's say, then even if a character has a regional accent in both, that character doesn't necessarily have the same type of regional accent.

some non-audio media also calls out quirky speech patterns and accents in the written dialogue.

OK, that's all understood stuff we all know.

Now, I'm trying to think what accents and mannerisms Thrust and Ramjet have when we meet them through Skywarp's POV in a fic.

So, I the writer (and I've noted this bias in the various notes attached to the fic) am writing in English, because that's my language. And mostly it's North American/US/Eastern/Mid-Atlantic because that's my region. But, here and there there may be deviations or variations. The characters aren't actually speaking English on Cybertron, I'm just writing the story in my language.

The POV character is Skywarp, who, like many people, does not perceive his own accent unless someone else calls it out. So, descriptions of the other Cybertronian characters having any dialect or accent difference get filtered through the character's perception.

Skywarp, the character, in this fic, is based in Vos which is in the south and east of Cybertron. He doesn't always know what region a dialect is associated with when he first hears it. He just notices it's different or more difficult to parse.

So like, when I'm writing, I would not say "Nyonienne" is French." It's not. It's really not. It's an alien dialect/accent of whatever Cybertronian languages is spoken in that era. But, I might write that when Skywarp met Eriel and she gave her designation the way she pronounced certain airy phonemes was different enough that he wasn't sure how to spell her name. It might have been Oryal or Ariel or Auriel.

Skywarp knows Mirage, Tracks, Red Alert, Thundercracker, Flatline, and Daytrader are all from and/or based in Iacon, but he also knows they don't all sound the same and supposes this is because Iacon has 'street' and 'spire' differences as well as being a big region with suburbs.

OK, so back to Ramjet and Thrust. Skywarp has never met them in person. He knows of them. He knows they are based out of Unitrex which is generally in the north and has a cliffy Rust Sea coast and is known as City of the Stars. When there was a big Seeker meeting, Ramjet sent Red Wing and Laserbeak as emissaries, but Laserbeak is an older bot with his own fawning skeksis-like mannerisms and Red Wing was a new recruit to their team, possibly assimilating language elsewhere.

I think this version of Ramjet is like if a locally-famous rock star from a metal band (they might be The Heralds or just Heralds?) that sings songs about chaos, destruction, and sometimes romance received some regional knighthood-like honor due to his emotive spark-felt singing and took it way too seriously and acts like he's some kind of Seeker-Rock-Paladin, but it's hard to tell because whenever he's not singing his manner is over-the-top facetious and sarcastic to the point of deadpan lying about everything. But the bots on his team legitimately think he's great and consider him their leader, because he totally signed up for that! Also, he crashes through things a lot.

The Sir Rock Star thing seems British coded, even if organics are more likely to seem him as their mechanical steed than a shining white knight. Does another region have this intersection of musician and public treasure, like if one is an idol singer or such? Ramjet could also be that.

But Thrust is...loud and boasts about how great their team is, but acts mainly as Ramjet's conspiratorial spiritual advisor going on and on about the stars and alignments and the symbolic meaning of colors in other bots' decos and what elemental energies he promises he can sense in others.

Some Thrusts are vaguely Western-like? But is Thrust also Brit-coded but like old British occultist flavor? And he goes about saying every bot is a star and do what thou wilt and talking about magic?

But they aren't really British at all. They're alien robots throwing brutal warehouse raves in Unitrex as a cover to spy on the Titan-building project nearby.

#transformers #ramjet #thrust #maccadam #cybertronian worldbuilding #cybertronian culture #long post #writing #fanfic

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turtlesocksv2 · 5 months ago

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4 Minutes Ep 2 Liveblogging

ok i'm not even going to look at my dash, i am going straight into this. I have been home for all of 10 minutes but I cannot wait.

oh somebody just got their ass beat Cain and Abel style.

So her son committed suicide because of gambling debts. We know who's running an online gambling operation. I see the dots, I am starting to connect them. also LMFAO at Tyme he does NOT know how to deal with patients it looked like it was physically painful for him while she was talking and he was trying to figure out what the fuck to say/do. and in the end, he does the least. Take these pills and tomorrow there will be another, DIFFERENT doctor who is NOT ME that you can tell this to.

Even the nurses gossip about how intimidating and cold he is. Very interested in Tyme's doctor ex-girlfriend just from that throwaway. Girl, do not drop out of your specialty over a boy!!!

Heyyyy it's my other boy Mio! I hope he gets to be unhinged here as well. And lmao at Title being an Awful Boyfriend Jet is really getting typecast as The Worst Dude. Ohohoho, sneaky sneaky with the phone recording, good job Dome!!!

god this flashback/dreamsequence/thinking about his powers scene is so visually interesting. i love it.

Title, your girlfriend is missing and people are suspecting you are involved maybe don't have a dance party in your car??? waiting for your bestie to help cover it up??? he fucking is keeping her locked up until she won't break up with him anymore oh my god. Jet really DOES play The Worst Dude every time. Great, you could stand to be a little more concerned your friend is a kidnapper here, this is why the goddess of time is telling you to experience character growth and be a doper person.

AND NOW TITLE HAS DOME IN THE TRUNK OF HIS CAR POSSIBLY DYING. THIS MAN JUST CAN'T STOP.

good on Great for kicking Title's ass and taking Dome to the hospital.

Lmao at Tyme fixing his hair and tucking in his scrub top before seeing Great as a patient. the nurse calling him out about it without saying anything is Peak Comedy. this fucking loser.

Tyme, Great is in no condition to be dealing with a Hot Doctor who is Looming like that. he has a head injury! the way Tyme just gets all up in his space...I am losing my goddamn shit at the heartbeat sound effect going on while Tyme is inspecting the wound. God this conversation is excruciating in the best way Tyme is down so bad it's hilarious.

Oooooh, JJay is a cop. Oh that's going to be delicious when we get KornTonklaWin drama from it.

Oh, is Tonkla Title's brother? that's interesting. Win has much better bedside manner/victim comforting than Tyme does. Korn's brother killing Tonkla's brother...the drama.

Oh but now we're getting a confrontation between Great and Title...hallucination? was the dead body not Title? anyway, the ticking clock effect works very well here. love these little audio touches that add so much.

Tyme here to save the day! so Title is indeed alive unless Sammon's getting Real Weird With It which I would respect. Once again, it is physically painful for Tyme to express human emotions "I was just worried" ok stalker. he's such a fucking disaster.

Nepo Baby Kitty returns!!! so fluffy, so majestic, would cuddle and feed sponsored treats.

uh-oh system crash at the illegal gambling operation is probably not great!

oof, Korn, just don't answer at all. no wonder Tonkla's gonna leave your ass for the hot cop.

the cello players are really insane, actually. This mafia uncle has flair, I like it.

I've only known Fasai for 2 minutes and I love her already. Mafia Queen!

...Is Bas going to be Ass Out every episode? Because I'm not complaining, love that for him.

Poor Tonkla, waiting desperately for his Ain't Shit boyfriend/sugar daddy/whatever to call him. But wait, what's this? Hot Cop Win is at the door? Sammon always delivers the "ACAB...except for this one Hot Cop that is only half a bastard." be grateful that Tonkla isn't breaking into your car to steal evidence and do his own investigation, Win!

#4 minutes #i have no idea where this plot is going but i love it #that's a lie i have SOME ideas #Tonkla needs to dump Korn's ass #we need more Dome i need my boy to cause more problems #I've only had Fasai for 2 minutes but if anything happens to her...

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Doing Hypnosis That Actually Works (Ep.2)

You want to become better at doing hypnosis? In the previous episode, I touched briefly on some things that prevent hypnosis from being effective and actually working on you. Some of it might not be you! It might be what you're hearing. But what makes hypnosis effective? Let's go into depth on that. Here I talk about making hypnosis files work effectively, but it will also help you sculpt your suggestions better so you can powerfully hypnotize someone during a live session.

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People come to me all the time and they say,

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wow,

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I thought that hypnosis just didn't work on me until I tried your files.

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It took a little bit of practice and tweaking to get there, but now it seems like I have unlocked

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my own formula and the formula for your effectiveness might turn out different but

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i invite you to use parts of my formula within yours remember we are all here

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together

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I want to see people creating good content that works.

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Because when I first saw hypnosis content on the internet, I was completely in awe of the possibilities.

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It was this magical world where anything could be created.

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The body, the mind, working together to create anything.

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You could change who you are, your shape, your identity.

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You could change your body, your thoughts, your habits and ideas.

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You could experience anything erotic or therapeutic.

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I found these huge libraries of audio files all over the internet.

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But that dream kind of came crashing down, because a lot of them just didn't work.

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And it makes one think, is there something wrong with me?

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In the previous episode,

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I talked all about making yourself more susceptible to hypnosis and making it work

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for you.

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Today I'm going to talk about how to make hypnosis content that works.

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This will help you to make original content or to edit someone else's content to your own desires.

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Of course,

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you shouldn't publish someone else's content as your own,

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but I know plenty of people chop up hypnosis content and put it together in their

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own way for their own usage.

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Now first you're going to need the right equipment,

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though in my beginning I recorded on a simple gaming headset.

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You know, one of those little microphones that sticks out from the headphones.

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And no one ever complained about the audio quality.

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I just made sure that my mouth was the correct distance,

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the volume levels were good,

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and the backgrounds were decent.

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And no one complained.

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So just remember that it doesn't have to be perfect.

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After all,

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famous YouTuber Casey Neistat once said that it's not about the camera that you

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have or the quality of it all.

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It's about the story that you tell and the way you communicate.

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The content is what matters, but it is nice to make sure that there is no background noise.

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You don't want noise coming from your computer, and you don't want echo or reverb on your microphone.

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Personally,

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I like to use a dynamic type microphone,

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which is commonly used by podcasters and such,

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because it cuts out a lot of that noise that is around the microphone,

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or distant from it,

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or off-axis from it.

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It also kind of gives you that warm broadcaster sound that you're hearing right now.

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Now these dynamic microphones do often pick up an electrical hiss,

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this constant hum that comes from the frequency of the electricity in the room,

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and you can take that out with a simple noise cancellation.

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I like to hook up my microphone to a small preamp because I do not speak very loudly,

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and this will bump up the volume of my speech.

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Then that connects to an audio interface, which translates it digitally via USB to a USB port on the PC.

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I use a PC case from a German manufacturer called BeQuiet.

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They always come with quiet fans and hard drive mounts that are soft,

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sound deadening and all that stuff.

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But realistically, any modern PC case is going to be much better than we had years ago.

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I find that two large fans work fine in the PC.

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One intake and one exhaust.

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120mm or 140mm, not a big deal.

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For the average PC, two case fans is fine.

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And with today's technology,

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you might not even need a hard drive,

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which can make all kinds of loud random noises.

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And then a nice tower cooler on your CPU goes a long way to keep fan speeds down.

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If you're recording with a laptop, it's probably no problem.

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Just close out any other programs so that your fans are not ramping up.

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But please use a dedicated microphone.

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Don't just record it through the microphone on your phone or mobile device or on your laptop.

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Plug in some kind of microphone and it's going to be way, way better.

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Now,

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the way you speak is going to be your own individual thing,

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so I can't really comment on that too much.

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Just make sure that you are clear and you're in a good position.

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You might want to stand up to have a more full,

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dynamic voice,

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or you might want to sit down to be really chill.

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Listen back to your recording and see what it sounds like.

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Of course, don't be too critical, as no one really likes the sound of their own voice on recording.

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You can use a pop filter,

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a little piece of material that goes over your microphone that prevents a popping

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sound when you make a P sound.

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That's the air blowing over the microphone.

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But I find a good solution is to just offset the microphone to the side a little

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bit so that you're not blowing on it every time you make that P sound.

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Get the appropriate distance so that you're not breathing on the mic too much.

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Be mindful that you're not bumping anything because that can make a loud sound and

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it's pretty annoying when you're listening to hypnosis.

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Even a tiny tap on your microphone can sound quite loud for the listener.

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Now let's say you're not using your microphone at all.

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Maybe you create the voice digitally through a text-to-speech program.

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In practice,

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this kind of thing usually doesn't sound very good,

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but there are a number of people that do it right,

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and it sounds really,

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really good.

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I can't tell you the techniques that they are using,

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but maybe you could listen around and try and find those creators that are using that,

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and see if they'll give you a few tips.

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I do know that using the traditional built-in Microsoft voices can be horrendous at

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worst and comical at best.

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But even then, some people use those voices and they tweak them a certain way and it sounds pretty good.

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Now,

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you are in luck if text-to-speech is something you use or you want to get into at

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the moment,

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because we have a lot of new AI models working on that right now.

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These machine learning models are working themselves out as we speak, getting better and better.

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They are so good that they can imitate the voices of famous people.

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Kind of frightening implications,

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but I'm sure there's plenty of made-up voices for you to use and experiment with.

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These voices are sounding quite good.

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you will have to play around with them and tweak them so that they get the right intonations and timing.

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You will have to work closely with it and edit the audio yourself and the timing

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with it so that it sounds more natural.

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I don't know how to use this stuff.

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I just know that I'm hearing it all over the web and it's getting better,

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so you have an opportunity there.

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Now, I can't explain everything that works, but let's talk about the basics of making hypnosis work.

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I'm talking in the audio content creation here because it is a bit different when you are in person.

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A lot of these techniques that you learn in person don't work in an audio file.

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They might involve checks or deepeners.

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Anything that involves interaction with the viewer is not possible when we are creating audio.

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Though some of it might apply when you're doing it live to someone over the internet.

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The funny thing is you see people with all of their certifications, all their training courses and such.

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Those things are great, but they may not provide you with the natural delivery that works best.

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or something that works best via audio file.

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Going by a script is fine and typically necessary at first, even for quite a while.

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But after learning a certain number of techniques, you often go beyond technique.

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You begin to kind of just do it.

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It can be a bit conversational, and people love to experience it in that way.

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It makes them feel that it's normal and natural,

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and there's no pressure on them to go into some state of trance.

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You kind of sneak your way in there, so to speak.

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So one of the best ways to go into this is to have no script,

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or I think even better,

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is a basic,

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simple script.

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Kind of a list or jot notes of what you want to talk about and create.

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Now this is a bit advanced.

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I do recommend in the beginning that you literally just write out what you're going

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to say or what you're going to make your program say or whatever.

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This naturalness comes after you get your voice and get some practice in understanding what works.

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Next is what I think might be the most important thing.

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And if there's one thing that I'd like you to take from this entire talk, it is this.

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Be all positive.

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Yes, every single thing that you say should be in a positive light.

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And that means literally using only positive words.

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For example, I will rarely ever say the word bad.

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I won't even go that far.

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I will often say not so good or not ideal.

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In those situations, I'm using a negative positive.

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I won't even say the words let go of the stress of the day.

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I will just say let go of everything.

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You may or may not be aware of the vibration of this.

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But take a moment to feel into that.

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Feel the difference of that.

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Let go of your stresses.

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For some, that might be okay.

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They might say, oh, that sounds like a good, nice thing.

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I've had a stressful day.

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And for others that are already in a relaxed, good mood, they're kind of like, what?

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I'm not stressed.

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In fact, you're kind of making me stressed by assuming that I am stressed for some reason.

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It is so, so common for people to say things like this.

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I've heard this from people doing live hypnosis, hypnotherapy,

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audios of every niche and topic.

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It is so common, and I cannot blame you for doing it, but it does need to change.

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Everything that you say needs to be in a positive light.

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Even if I'm doing some kind of dark or evil roleplay,

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I keep everything as positive and playful as possible so that no one experiences a

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bad trigger and we keep the vibe as high as possible.

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It is especially important to keep positivity when a subject is under hypnosis

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because they are susceptible and we want only positive suggestions to go into them.

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Remember, this is a rewiring a brain.

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And positivity is what makes everything work.

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Even in the workplace,

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most experiments show that positive comments will provide you with much more benefit,

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better results,

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and better output than negative feedback.

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This is simply the nature of things.

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Good things come from good things.

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After all, hypnosis is just a heightened state that connects to the law of attraction.

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Like attracts like.

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You don't have to be shouting glee from the rooftops.

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I'm certainly no manic pixie myself.

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I'm pretty monotone.

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That's just how I talk.

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But my choice of always keeping it positive makes for not just an easy listening experience,

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but something that works.

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Something that creates something positive in your life.

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I think that's pretty simple.

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Now on to the next thing.

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People have a little bit of an attention issue today.

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It's no surprise when you look around that our attention spans are dwindling.

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So let's work with that.

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In fact, it challenges us to be better by making our content less boring.

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That means capturing the listener or viewer's attention the moment that you start.

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Perhaps you noticed that I jumped right into this recording without a bunch of preamble,

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and that is pretty typical of my content.

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I'm kind of

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calling out a lot of people here when I say this,

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but I did not start this talk by saying,

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welcome to Jack's Hypnosis,

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where we help you with this and that,

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and we talk about all these kinds of things,

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and here's who I am,

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and here's what I do,

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and here's why you should listen to me,

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and oh,

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roll that 30 second intro,

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but not before I tell you about our sponsor,

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and blah blah blah blah blah,

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And then maybe give an explanation of what hypnosis is.

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And then the warnings, never listen while driving and taking medications, blah, blah, blah, blah.

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And then some big, long, slow induction for 30 minutes.

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And I know some people don't mind that kind of thing.

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They like a long induction.

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They don't mind a nice intro,

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but I know that half the people out there are figuratively punching the air right now,

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like,

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yes,

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stop that shit.

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Get on with it.

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Just start it.

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The people want their content.

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So make your content start with the very first sentence.

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It's almost a pretend intro when you do it this way.

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And the listener does not realize that it's starting already and that they're

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having thoughts of it in the first sentence.

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You're getting it started.

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You're going to start off with something where the subject doesn't need to be in trance for it to work.

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For example, if I was going to help you become a better public speaker,

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I would start off my first sentence by saying,

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Wouldn't it be nice to be clear,

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confident,

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and precise whenever you speak to people?

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Even if it's more than one person at a time.

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Even if it's many people at once.

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Just that first sentence primes them for confidence and capability.

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And let's just say that person still needs a whole lot more confidence points to

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get up to that level of being the perfect public speaker.

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Well, I just boosted them up one or two points, and they're already on their way.

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They've got their first stepping stones to dive in.

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Now they're already confident enough to go further.

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And they didn't have to wait for it.

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They didn't have to endure anything to get to that point.

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It's like, bang, delivered right to them the second they pressed the button.

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What a VIP experience.

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Then you can blend the induction into the content of what the listener wants or your intentions.

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You could say something like, relaxation grants a sense of confidence.

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And that's a little hypnotic hint to go deeper.

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You're just nudging them down a little bit.

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And you do that for a little while,

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and then maybe after five or ten minutes,

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you might mention how they feel a bit heavier than before.

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Oh hey, maybe you notice that you're feeling heavier and more relaxed than you were a few minutes ago.

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That's perfectly natural and normal.

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There are a lot of people listening that are already feeling that.

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For some, it's this whoa, huge effect, and for others, it's a little hint, a little nudge.

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And that's all you're doing, just nudging and nudging.

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And then you could say something that implies that they are feeling heavy,

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or maybe their eyes are feeling heavy.

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Hey, did you notice that your eyes feel a bit heavy?

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And then you could say, allow your mind to take you down deeper.

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It's important to always keep going deeper.

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But you don't just say, go deeper.

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Because the subject kind of thinks, what does that mean?

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How do I do that?

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They get confused and then they're like, oh, I must not be very good at going deeper.

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No, go deeper is a strange command in itself.

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So let's break down the example that I gave you.

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Allow your mind to take you deeper.

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There's a few layers to that.

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the first command is allow and that in itself is enough to take you deeper because

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that state of going deeper is the state of allowing and even just that you could

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expand on that word allow you could say let yourself drop when you drop let go into

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the ease

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Let what happens happen.

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That's what allowing is.

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Let's break down the next part.

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Your mind.

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First is the word you.

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And that grabs the listener's attention.

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It's the cocktail effect.

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It's like hearing your name.

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This is directed at you.

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So you end up paying attention right away.

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Then there's the phrase, your mind, which is often subconsciously interpreted as your mind.

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The subject might even consciously mistake it for that,

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especially if you're doing this in an erotic context.

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and then the instruction to go deeper but now the listener has a method they have

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the how they know that they have to allow their mind and it will take them there so

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the instruction is no longer to go deeper

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It's to do what they need to do to go deeper.

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Oh, now it makes sense.

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Now you've got your viewer.

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Now they're going into that highly susceptible place.

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Now their brainwaves are slowing down.

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Now they're beginning to feel that bliss of trance creeping in.

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And it feels like they didn't have to try.

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And I like to avoid using numbers of deeper,

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like people will say 10 times deeper,

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50 times deeper,

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because that doesn't make any sense to the listener's mind.

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It's just like, what does that mean?

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What does that feel like?

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How do I do that?

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And you start thinking like, isn't that a lot?

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How is that even possible?

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Most of us have a pretty analytical mind, and that's just not going to work for them.

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Basically, don't put pressure on the subject.

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Don't make them perform unless that's something that they want to do.

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Don't make them try so hard.

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Do as much as you can yourself to create that experience for them.

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And then even when the subject is deep in a trance,

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give them suggestions that would probably still work even out of trance.

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Because then you're making them really comfortable.

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You're making them feel like they don't need to be in this strange magical state of

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mind to make this work.

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Let's go back to the public speaking example.

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Even when we think that the subject is in a deep trance right now,

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we are not going to jump straight into the suggestion of,

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you are a perfect public speaker.

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It's not a bad suggestion.

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I just like to think, what if they're not in the most deep receptive state right now?

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But I still want it to work.

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I'd like to say something that would work even without trance.

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Imagine you are cool, calm, and prepared for your talk.

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Imagine what you feel like when you know that your presentation does not need to be perfect.

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Imagine the relief of knowing that the fact that you did it is fantastic in itself.

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And when asked a question that you may not know the answer to,

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you are cool and confident,

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knowing that you don't know because you have not looked into that particular topic

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or you have looked into it and could not find sufficient answers.

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Isn't it nice to feel the relief of being human?

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Now look at those string of suggestions that I just used.

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Those would all work outside of trance.

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And that's why we need to get ourselves out of the idea of induction and then

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suggestions that work because the subject is in trance.

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Yes,

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this state of deeper brainwave activity,

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this thing that we call a hypnotic trance,

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yes,

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it enhances the suggestions.

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But it's best to make suggestions that work regardless of whether or not the subject is in trance.

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This is what it means to make it natural, and this is when it works best.

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Hypnosis is an enhancement.

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It doesn't give you any ability to make magical commands.

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Look at how we create things as humans.

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We visualize it first.

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We visualize the ingredients of our salad before we make it.

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We visualize our body to create it.

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We imagine it,

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we feel it,

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we hear it,

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use the senses,

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we line up the emotions with it,

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and we think of it in as much precision as possible.

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That's how all things are created, intentionally.

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Your imagination is a preview of the future.

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Just by thinking of something, you are drawn to it and it is actually drawn to you.

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In ways that we understand and in some ways that we honestly don't.

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Some odd,

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unbelievable things happen when we combine our imagination with our emotions and

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our intentions.

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And sometimes the manifestation just seems to magically appear.

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We don't know how.

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Sometimes we try to explain it.

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Sometimes we consciously make actions towards it, as we should.

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And sometimes we're thinking about it, and it just sort of pops into your existence.

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It just sort of happens.

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And as humans, we don't really have the perception to understand 100% how.

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All we know is that we get people to conceptualize things first and then they happen.

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We don't just say it's going to happen.

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We conceptualize what it's like.

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We create it in some part of our imagination.

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And we do some kind of action to move us into a physical space closer to it.

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And that's what you're encouraging.

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That's the next part.

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That is an instruction of something physical.

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We have mentally created what we want.

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We have visualized it, heard it, felt it, seen it.

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We have emotionalized it with as much precision as possible.

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And now there's this drive and motivation and magnetism towards it.

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And the best way to get the ball rolling towards that direction is to do something physical.

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If you're looking to improve someone's physical fitness,

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one of the instructions might be,

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make sure that you walk every day.

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Or,

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the next time you take a drink of water,

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stare into the water for a few moments,

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imagining that that water contains exactly what you need to accomplish your goal.

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And as you drink that water, you feel it become a part of you.

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The physical instruction could be anything related to the topic you're talking about.

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Overall, here's what makes the hypnosis usually work.

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A calm state of focus.

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An imagination scenario that makes you feel something as much as possible.

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And then physically doing something.

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This is the simple 1-2-3 combo.

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You have combined three concepts that work excellently together, and you have done them in that order.

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Because first you relax and focus, then you feel it, and then you begin doing something about it.

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Then we finish it off by just saying, hey, you can do it.

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You don't have to try to make it work.

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You got what it takes.

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Go ahead and do it.

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Say it in your own words.

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How would you tell a friend that they can do it?

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Now, once you're done your recording, you can do noise reduction and editing.

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You can put in some background audio.

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Find whatever fits the vibe that you're going for.

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You could use binaurals or brainwave entrainment.

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You could use certain soft music.

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You may have to search around for royalty-free stuff.

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You may have to pay for the royalties to use it if you're going to publish it.

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And it's not necessary to add a background track, but it can add so much depth to it.

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So I hope that this has helped or at least entertained you.

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And I'm sure you have learned plenty.

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You don't have to implement all of these things.

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And when you do, you can do it in your own way.

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If you can just be all positive with what you create, you are going to change the world.

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Honestly, that's all it takes.

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That is the biggest thing.

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Do your own thing.

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Keep it positive.

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Get out there and make some crazy stuff.

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I'm Jackson Stock.

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You can find me on YouTube,

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or you can go to my website,

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transformhypnosis.com,

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to listen to all kinds of self-improvement and transformation audios.

#male hypnosis #hypnotized guys #hypnotic #male hypnotist #jackstock #jacksonstock #hypnotized #hypnosis #self-improvement #content creation #Podcast #Doing Hypnosis That Actually Works (Ep.2)#Transform Hypnosis #Youtube

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lefluoritesys · 1 year ago

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TW: detailed description of a car crash and its aftermath/consequences

I am not going to edit this post. These are entirely raw thoughts, and they should stay that way.

I want to give a shoutout to our physical protector & external soother, who now has no memories of it, but who saved our lives and the lives of our biological family members yesterday during an absolutely horrible car crash. Who was fronting and saw the truck right before the crash. Who woke up first, and despite screaming their lungs out, realized what had happened in a matter of seconds due to pain and hearing the crash happen. Who picked up the phone to call an ambulance first things first and repeated instructions to themselves about what they should do to keep themselves on track. Who realized everybody in the car was unconscious because nobody was replying to their screaming. Who heard the body's sibling start to cry and instructed them to get out of the car, and when they couldn't, carried them out in their arms. Who screamed their lungs out for our mother to wake up, and we have confirmation that our mother heard it. Who couldn't call the ambulance due to being in a completely different country but did everything they could in that moment. Who told our father that our mother is unconscious and let him handle it. Who called our partner system and informed them of what happened so they could comfort us and see what is going on because they would be worried sick. Who cried and screamed on the phone but comforted our sibling. Who took photos and recorded audio logs of what had happened. Who was making an effort to use a translator and direct the paramedics' attention to our sibling because they were hurt. Who had an equally bad mental breakdown at the ER from how terrified they were. Who was there, and despite being terrified, despite already being an emotion holder of "I am going to die," reacted quicker than anybody could in that situation due to understanding they were the only one conscious, and they needed to keep everybody alive. Who thought our entire family was dead and didn't stop rationalizing through screaming, crying, shaking, and pain.

I want to give a shoutout to our newly formed trauma holder, AKA @teshawithane, who formed due to the crash to keep the memories of it away from our physical protector & external soother. To keep the memories away from all of us. Who holds the memory of us seeing our family and believing all of them were dead. Who was keeping calm and ran on adrenaline. Who ran around the ER, paying close attention to our sibling due to their trouble with walking and the doctors being more concerned with our mother. Who throughout all of that was updating our partner system and kept drawing the attention of the doctors to our sibling and didn't forget to mention we were hurt too. Who then distracted our sibling and walked back and forth between our mother and our sibling, checking in on both of them. Who had to watch our driver get taken to surgery, bleeding from every place possible. Who put our coat over our sibling when they inevitably fell asleep on the chairs in the ER. Who were pacing around and tearing up when the adrenaline crashed. Who is forever stuck in the age the car crash happened and was introduced to this world in the worst way possible. Who took most of the emotional pain and trauma. Who didn't understand they were a part of the system at first and didn't question it either, despite there being many obvious signs and them calling us "we." Who was violently shaking the rest of the day, up until the very late evening. Who is now finally sleeping in the inner world, leaning on me.

I want to give a shoutout to our internal soothers/protectors/caretakers who have been hovering over all of us and helped us calm down as much as we could that day. Who treated our bruises and injuries in the inner world because the inner world attempted to recreate them on our inner forms.

Thank you. All of you.

The two that I was talking about, you saved our lives and the lives of our biological family, and for that, I am forever grateful. Both of you now share different parts of that trauma, and both of you have gone through hell yesterday. And I know you still, every time to front, get stuck in horrible flashbacks about the crash. I know you cry every time you front because even the slightest reminder of it is overwhelming, and you just want it to be a terrible nightmare, and it isn't.

And the rest of you, you have done an amazing job keeping us stable when we couldn't do that for ourselves. You made sure we were alive mentally, you called our families and distracted us, and for that, I am forever grateful.

If it wasn't for all of you, we might not have been alive today. Moreover, because of the work done at front, a life of our driver was saved, who was at the time in a critical condition and spent around 10 hours in surgery.

So I thank you. I am forever grateful. There is nothing I can do to repay you, and you won't even ask for anything. I will make sure we heal, both mentally and physically, and I am going to try to make you feel safe again, even though I know it's nearly impossible right now, even for myself.

I love you, my dear system.

We are alive.

-host

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dangakkisland · 4 months ago

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Chapter 3 (trial) + Chapter 4 most of the daily life

Brazilian economy is in shambles..One battery for my mouse was 40$..With a discount This time I have video! from Bandicam + Bandicut you all will finally see the UI, I think that's what is called! Right when I finally get the pictures (My game stopped when I finished recording..I had to start over), it has more content than it would normally have

As I said after that if it glitched I didn't save it because I was confident of my abilities and didn't expect the game to crash so early without warning, as you can notice I put the audio in Japanese because my mind would get into a knot because of the English audio and sometimes it doesn't match The trial was pretty much the same I couldn't exactly open the bandicam for screenshots so I went without it for the entire trial, the noticeable thing about it was ''Hi-fuck'' and ''Tak-unt'' both nicknames from Shou (It would be Taka who gave birth but being honest YOU want to call him that? in English? I don't think so)

Union <3

There is absolutely nothing wrong with this one, no references but the chapter opens up to Hiro saying ''gado'' (Cow or person who lets themselves be stepped on for someone they love) there being nothing coming out of this title is just balanced

And Kirigiri saying that one Naruto meme (it is not the only one with super however that's the one that is the first on the search bar and one that I remember vividly, plus is from voice makers the one who invented the naruto meme of ''Flexiable Heterosexual'') ''You're a man, let it go'' ''What do you think men are made of?''

''I'm the boss, I do what I want...PAIN DIED LET IT GO!'' ''I don't care'' ''LET IT GO!''

The teachers' room also gave me abnormal amounts of money because of Tim Burton...I hope he has the right reason to give me +20 coins

Ah yes the blackboards that changed the whole trajectory of veiled hope I remember well...Nice to see them translated, I couldn't have the whole blackboard for some reason, I was very close to it for whatever circumstance

The screenshot speaks for itself: Monokuma is that one Keanu Reaves emote (Admitted, real not fake, not a bit, Top 10 characters who despair for ass, I don't know how to spell the actor's name)

''I was at the bathhouse, what more you would want to know? My zodiac star signs?'' - Zodiacs are very popular, or it may be Saint Seiya fever that never died in the 90s and keeps being Brazilians favorite Shounen besides Dragon Ball, in the 2010s I met it via Rebosteio, a channel not for kids who did mostly edgy humor that I was fond off at the time most of the episodes are blocked out of the earth...

And there is finally a thing I can explain, Woodpecker reference! (I'm not sorry for bringing the Woodpecker movie curse) ''Minha nossa nossa nossa'' Video posted on youtube on 1st of April 2014 by TVMAROTO

Is that I would say if I didn't look closer now and see that the ''Nossas'' are not together, its fine we can dream... and she tries to do the static of every robber in brazil too, if I saw her on Rio de Janeiros streets (I don't live there) I would run or give up my life on sight

''Bow, it is your chance to get this over big guy Makoto! Bow and beg like you never did in your life''-Hiro

Ending this big post by saying ladies and gentlemen plus yer majesties oh that's the name of it:

''The most despairful, the most evil, monstrous tragedy of humanity'

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poisonheadcrabsalesman · 2 years ago

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so sorry but do you perhaps have a video compilation of Roland cutscenes? I can't find anything :(

No need to apologize, we are starving out here together. There are currently no video compilations of all of Roland's lines or scenes, however you have come to the right place and I can organize what's out there and tell you where to look. He doesn't even have a Quotes page on Halopedia....yet.

He first pops up in Spartan Ops and is in almost every cutscene except for Key, the ninth one where he's only spoken to.

I usually use the Halo youtube channel for the cutscenes but there's several compilations if you want to see all of them at once for the context.

Stealing from myself - here are the levels he has lines in. He crashes Ops about halfway through the campaign and then helps a lot in the critical levels at the end. Lots of banter and bickering. A+

Halopedia is your best friend and has transcripts. Join me in hell

Roland also narrates a lot of Spartan Assault and Spartan Strike, mobile games that have a lot of lore. The combined cutscenes are 12 minutes long and not..fabulous, but interesting.

For Halo 5, he's in the cutscenes for the levels "Reunion" and "Glassed". Same video but I got the timestamps. I think these are the cutscenes most people think of when they remember that Roland is a character because so many of his appearances are in side things no one plays.

There's also a youtube channel that has 3 random WR videos of SpOps levels - here, here, and here - if you want a 5 minute-ish video of the dialogue for three of the Invasion levels.

I have a few scenes recorded in my vid tag here, but I'm slowly grabbing more - along with audio files straight from mcc because gameplay and gunfire over the lines makes it hard to hear even with the subtitles.

Anyways this is A Lot and I need to be a little less insane on the internet, but I am always up for lore talk or questions.

#asks #anon #crab text #Roland the AI #this is insane enough. it can go in the tag.#if i forgot anything people are legally allowed to kill me #goodbye now

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sophieinwonderland · 1 year ago

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Can you talk about the study on tulpas that Stanford is doing? We remember you mentioning it

Sure!

Here is the post in r/tulpas from 2019

The event was 3 days long: 2 for travel, and 1 day for scans and interview.

I flew in in the evening, and caught a university paid Uber to the hotel. It was in the afternoon at this point. The flight from SLC to SFO isn’t a particularly long one, so I wasn’t horribly tired and didn’t feel like crashing for much. I relaxed a bit, and decided to meet up with another mancer in the area, and get a bite to eat. After a lovely talk with them, I headed back to the hotel to try and get some decent rest for the far more busy day tomorrow.

I had previously told the crew that I was more of an evening person, so we had the interview over lunch, and did the MRI scans later in the afternoon. Lunch was at Tanya Luhrmann’s home with Michael Lifshitz, on the Stanford campus. The interview was actually rather enjoyable, and gave us much time to talk about tulpas, the community, and Aly in particular. The interview was recorded by all 3 of us at the table, but the other two also will be transcribing it for better use later. It’s entirely possible to ask for a copy from them, and I might get a transcribed version later, but I have my own copy of the audio at least.

The interview was fairly free form. There were some formulaic questions, much like I received in the pre-study questionnaire. But there were also much more open ended questions, that didn’t have a set destination. More than once Tanya would get excited by a response, and ask more followup question that would end up following one tangent after another. The questions were fairly varied; from the more expected ones like how I found out about tulpas or why I made Aly, to more unexpected ones like trying to describe how specifically Aly helps me. The time flowed pretty quickly during the interview, as I attempted to explain my relationship with Aly and the experience of having her. I think I did okay, but there weren’t really any sort of wrong answers.

The MRI scan was fascinating. Due to scheduling restrictions, my session was broken into two portions. Each portion we focused on a separate task. I’m told that one of the two tasks was new, and I was the proverbial guinea pig, but I’m also told that it was a ton easier than the previous one. I wasn’t going to complain. I don’t want to go into too many details, to not poison the well so to speak, so that people can practice for the specifics of the experiments. The first one focused on mindvoice and possession/disassociation. It was probably the longer of the two, since it was a little more involved than the second. We found the test to be harder than expected, even though we knew a bunch of the specifics since we helped design the test. Trying to stay focused while the machine is loudly buzzing and clicking at you while you’re stuffed in a tiny tube, wasn’t exactly easy.

During this, I also had expressed interest in getting a nice scan to print off later. So after the experiment was done, they happily obliged and got a full resolution scan of my brain and emailed it to me. I plan on 3d printing it later, maybe at scale but I haven’t decided yet.

We then had to leave the lab for a while, since another group had scheduled it, so I was given like an hour tour of campus nearby and we grabbed some smoothies. At this point, I was pretty open to just chat with Michael, the neuroimaging researcher about the study and other plans, including doing an AMA after the data has finished being gathered and starting to be analyzed or published.

The second experiment was purely mindvoice related, and far less stressful because it was more open ended and less constrained in general. We rocked through this one really fast, taking a lot less time than expected. Which people were happy about since apparently this particular one had just been retooled. It was still loud and took getting used to, but it worked out pretty well. At the end of it, who would have thought being in a tube for 3 hours would be tiring. I went back to the hotel, ordered some food and just crashed on the bed.

The last day, it was mostly just check out from the hotel and get ready to fly. Tanya had a couple more questions to ask, and I had nothing better to do between checking out of the hotel and my flight. I spoke with her a little bit more, then spent a little over an hour wandering the Stanford campus before I caught another Uber to the airport.

The experience was actually really pleasant. I was incredibly anxious and worried about it, probably for the same reason a lot of other people are. Worries about what will happen, what the process would be, Imposter Syndrome worries, and whatnot. But in the end, it actually was a really positive experience, and fell like it was good for both Aly and myself, since there were a bunch of things that got us a little bit closer together.

That all said, the study still has a bunch of funds left, and we’re looking for more people who’d be willing to spend 3 days in Stanford to go through it all as well. Here is the link for the new interest form, to help us screen who would be the best fit for the study.

Thanks all for reading!

In 2021, it was mentioned that the study was on pause due to COVID.

Due to COVID-19, the study came to an unceremonious halt as lockdowns started. Only recently have the facilities in Stanford opened up enough to consider continuing, but there's still a bunch of general roadblocks due to the pandemic.

Last year, a user reported participating in the study and did an AMA, meaning it had restarted by that point.

One user asked what the goal of the study was, and they responded with this:

Trying to see if there's something that shows up on brain scans. Nothing more or less. Afterwards they can compare to see if it's similar to things like DID.

I haven't heard anything on this particular study since, but the ones running it published this in February:

It's unclear to me if the above study is connected to the MRI study. Since it was mentioned that the MRI study had an interview portion, perhaps they used some of the answers from the interviews with tulpamancers for the MRI study for the above?

Either way, it shouldn't be too much longer before the results are released.

And I'm so eager to see both the conclusions, and what the next phases of research are going to be. 😊

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