#therapy announcements

[k-0thepowcardfan11]

Bye...

[wings-of-flying]

y'all fncers are kidding yourselves if you think there's any universe in which chip makes the first move. no shot. no way. the guy who represses his emotions? bullshit. whereas gillion 'you upset me so let's duel about it' tidestrider? come on. it just makes sense

[nintendonut1]

pink heart white heart light blue heart

[imagineitdearies]

~ A Flawed Eternity ~

(AKA drabbles set in the Perfect Slaughter universe. 🩵 Special thanks to @themoonatmingitaw for the ko-fi request! 🩵)

In which Astarion and Tyrus use the hot springs.

~

“I don’t trust the druid,” Astarion declared two weeks after the alliance had been struck.

They were attempting to rest again following one of Tyrus’s tranced memories-turned-panics. He frowned down at Astarion now, hand pausing in the midst of playing with those silvery curls. “What’s happened?”

“Oh nothing—yet. But all his blathering on about that forest spirit child, waylaying our mission with superstition . . . more distressing, I couldn’t see past his gigantic hairy arse during that surprise attack,” Astarion grumbled.

Tyrus relaxed a bit. “You don’t like him,” he translated.

“I like his dedication to your sister—those arms are nice to look at on occasion—but outside that?” Astarion huffed. “His prying ‘helpfulness’ certainly wears on the nerves.”

Tyrus sat up a bit, nodding at the nearby spring. “Would a soak help calm them?”

Astarion narrowed his eyes up at him. “Have you tranced a full four hours yet?”

“. . . maybe this could help me trance easier, too,” Tyrus shrugged in lieu of an answer.

“Give you a handful more memories to choose from, at least,” Astarion sighed.

They both still struggled to rest, Tyrus especially. It felt worse falling into a terrible memory these days—like his freedom was being stolen over and over again.

Quiet moments like these felt much more restful.

Later, while leaning back against Tyrus’s chest in the bubbling little pool, Astarion murmured, “Halsin gave me a pat on the back, after we flank-killed the last cultist. And, well, you know—of course I reacted a bit,” he said with an annoyed sniff. “But he couldn’t just leave it alone after. Had to apologize over and over; even approached me today and offered himself if I needed a ‘neutral outsider to talk to about anything.’”

Tyrus contemplated this for a moment. “Might that not be . . . potentially beneficial?”

Astarion sat up from his recline to turn and face him. “What I need is to be strong right now, love,” he said, reaching to cup Tyrus’s cheek with his brows pulled low over his eyes. “I need to keep you safe. I need to stay on high alert, not wallow in pains best left forgotten.”

Can they be forgotten? Tyrus almost asked.

Pain and fear seemed like the only things his mind cared to hold onto, whether vivid or deeply rooted in his subconscious.

But an hour later, after they’d dried off and redressed, the soak seemed to have done its work—Astarion’s irritation melting away into something a bit more vulnerable.

“I . . . well, I told him I’d think about it, actually,” he spoke in a very small, hesitant voice after he’d pulled Tyrus in.

Tyrus offered a small smile up at Astarion and then tucked his head into his partner’s chest.

“I hope you do,” he whispered back.

[aikuse]

hey uh just as a reminder if you’re polyamorous/non-monogamous and you don’t allow your very monogamous partner the chance to leave the relationship if they find it doesn’t work for them and they’re not okay with the relationship dynamic then you’re a shit human being

[petits--oiseaux]

Either give me a fucking raise/promotion or do your own job.

UGH people keep coming to me to ask what we should be doing in situations and even know I KNOW the answer, I'm not the person who gets to make executive decisions. So, I still have to wait for that person and HOPE he actually answers or fucking knows what he's doing. But the last month he's been gone and isn't doing shit so then I'm stuck. And of course students don't know this is the case, so then IM bombarded and feel like I'm not doing enough when it's literally not my fauuuuulllltttttttt.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[the-haunted-office]

"I've been so good today, though. I saw this guy sitting peacefully on a park bench and I just... left him alone. I didn't start any shit with him. I could have like, ruined his day, but I didn't!!! I just walked past, left him alone, and went about my day. Progress! And I didn't even go to therapy to make it this far."

[huellitaa]

🎀💭 blog revamp: complete!ㅤ۫ ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ 💭 🎀ㅤ

i know i've not been very active lately, and i apologise! i have been getting my shit together in real life and online and have been working through some personal bits. i know i often go on and off of hiatuses randomly, but i'm attempting learning consistency in all areas of my life (and managing my time better because i'm absolutely terrible at it) and tumblr seems to be one of them that i need to work on too. anyway, thank you for your patience, and look forward to my usual messy, non-consistent chaotic girly posts ♡

──★ ˙ ̟🎀 WHAT'S NEW?

my blog is now divided into two seperate parts: @hue-hearts, my music, k-pop, media, reviews, etc. blog, and @huellitaa (this blog), which is my digital diary, photo dump, glow up, chaotic it girl blog.

updated my intro post, making each of my blogs now easy to navigate and giving you all more information ♡

i still don't have a posting schedule and no i will not be using the queue. i want to post what i want when i want without being held to any kind of schedule.

[hobisexually]

I have so many problems with karamo but the s8 finale… he sees an asian woman who has severe trauma surrounding her father due to (some) asian culture(s) not allowing people to properly talk to their parents about their emotions or issues with them because that could be seen as disrespectful, oui? so she hasn’t spoken to him after her mother died and that is hard, yes?

and this man chooses to surprise her in the car (after making her cry) with an unannounced FaceTime call with said father, which forces her to immediately talk about why she’s upset with him after three years of not speaking??????? without being prepared, without knowing what to say to a stubborn elderly asian man who never learned to deal with his emotions and fucked up because of it? REALLY?

the LEAST he could have done was tell her in advance so she could write it down for herself and so she could be prepared

sure they talked. sure they made a start. but at what cost. what violence did this wreak on her for no reason. jesus CHRIST THIS MAN ANGERS ME SO MUCH

[k-0thepowcardfan11]

Train..

[karliahs]

somehow always easy to forget that there are points in the lifecycle of a Big Obsession that inexplicably feel very bad. banning myself from ao3 for at least today and we'll see how that goes

[quackinquack]

this whole 'war' is actually so funny bc in terms of the ccs themselves, it is fully one-sided. like the dream team's various jokes, dream saying he felt q didn't deserve the award over foolish. throughout it all, q has not once even mentioned them. the closest thing you could call a response was him retweeting his own tweet telling his fans not to bother with people who discredit his work and that he's confident in it.

like he's actually doing crazy well post-quarantine, whereas everyone else's viewerships dropped considerably. like it's just genuinely so funny to see dream and his stans be so jealous and mad that they pick a fight that they aren't gonna win or even get a reaction out of.

[whentherewerebicycles]

i have a very stupid problem that is causing me a very stupid amount of distress. my aunts are planning my baby shower which will be in my home city (a place where none of my friends live). we are inviting a bunch of family and tbh it's solely so i can get stuff from my registry. i feel okay about that part because i've bought gifts for all the extended family baby showers and weddings over the years and it seems fine to be like 'ok now it's my turn i really need the help.' the part that is making me feel weird is that my aunts feel strongly that i should ALSO send invites to all of my out of town friends, including college and grad school friends, because those people might send me gifts too. i think that a lot of my friends WILL end up buying something from my registry or sending something (a lot of them have asked already!) and that's very nice of them!!! and i do think i might want to send a birth announcement or something later just as a "hey! a big thing happened in my life!" kinda thing. but i feel super uncomfortable sending out invites to an event i know they can't attend (and would never expect them to fly to a random city for!!) because then it just feels obvious that i'm asking for a gift instead, and that makes me feel bad!!! but also idk my brother and SIL just had a MASSIVE shower where like 50+ of their friends came (because they went to college in our hometown and all their friends still live there) and my cousin just had a big shower too (she lives and works in our hometown) so i also just feel dumb for like. having a very small kinda lame shower where my extended family is gonna be like oh... does she not have any friends?

[warringwarrioridiot]

Real photo from the twink invasion war (TW: emotional)

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We salute you in the name of Queen Jiafei

@the-muzansama My brother called you a twink

[astradyke]

okay i am officially Home From Therapy !! dan and phil this means you should give me a special treat and upload btw <3 at 9 pm bst 4 pm est <3 because u love us all a Super Graphic Ultra Modern amount!

[sadieshavingsex]

My partner and I finally broke up. I’ve been experiencing a lot of difficult emotions and coming to terms with a lot. Sometimes I think this blog has been a great think piece to deal with evangelicalism and its effects on me in sex and relationships. Other times I think it was a space to try to rationalize and force myself to accept a relational and sexual dynamic that really wasn’t working for me. Some of the time it might have been both. I hope that people benefited from the former, and that no one followed in my shoes with the latter. I believe that I’ve had a lot to say about sex and evangelicalism on this blog and a lot of it does hold up in interesting ways in hindsight, but I’m coming to terms with the idea that people’s mileage (mine very much included) may vary wildly when it comes to the ideas I’ve discussed here. I think it depends a lot on where you are on your exvangelical journey and what your personal values are beyond the religion you left. Despite the fact that I wrote all of these posts—and managed to stay relatively coherent at least some of the time—I’m starting to think that I jumped the gun on where I’m meant to be in my journey and how my values were evolving. The fact of the matter is that this blog really started as a way for me to deal with having sex before I felt completely ready, and while a lot of what I said here made sense, the fact that I wasn’t in tune with my own wants and needs for so long came back to bite me in the ass quite a few times. I don’t think our sexual issues were entirely or explicitly the reason for the breakup, but I think they contributed immensely to (or at least compounded) pretty much every problematic facet of the relationship. I would hate to see anyone follow in my footsteps in this way by using my posts to explain away major issues in their relationships or convince themselves to do something they’re not ready for. I really just hope that people have come to this blog, taken what they need and what works in their life to benefit and help them, and left the rest.

This post sounds very sanctimonious and blog-ending, but it’s not to say that the blog is over. I still have a lot of thinking and self discovery to do, and I’m thankful for the experiences I’ve been having even though they’ve been really intense. I believe the blog may take on a more positive and balanced tone now that I am going to be moving on from this situation. Maybe I can even give some advice on things that work for me in my journey, when it feels like for so long this whole relationship has been something that just wasn’t working for me, whether I admitted it or not.

Thank you all for being here with me through this and for all your messages of advice and support. You are amazing!!!! I hope this blog has helped you articulate your own feelings and commiserate about common struggles, and I sincerely apologize if any of the posts I’ve made pertaining to my own warped perspective of a difficult situation have caused you confusion or pain or veered you off the path to your goals and happiness. I love you all and wish nothing but the best for each and every one of you ❤️ happy new era for the blog!!!