#then again.. ig im just going through it
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are you doing ok?
Honestly?? I'm not even sure anymore
Cause like,, I always sleep around nine or ten y'know, I take pride in the fact that out of all my friends I still have a somewhat decent sleep schedule, but for the past few nights I just have a hard time sleeping. Even my friend said it was unusual of me to stay up late
And idk, idk what's even bugging me, there's legitimately nothing but I also think there is bc if not then why am I even staying up so late y'know. Idk if it's like,, a lil premonition kinda thing on my end that maybe smth will happen and my body's trying to get used to being tired again, but like,, idk my summer classes are abt to end, and altho our activities and projects are vibing it's somewhat okay since one's a group project and my group is actually decent, so y'know it's no problem
But like... Idk. I'm not sure what's happening w me, I keep thinking abt a lot of things, but it's not even the stressful things like classes or my future or anything, the things that usually keep you up at night, no I just think abt some concepts and such
It's weird for me ig, maybe it's just been a while since I stayed up late hahah
#then again.. ig im just going through it#i make decisions and i either dont do them or i do them in a whim without second thoughts#i delete the games i wanna play after hours of thinkin of wanting to play them#and last night i ended up downloading pmd again despite the fact that ny motivation to do#the things i love back then just jumped out the window#idk but hey maybe i really am just going through it#and i just dont feel it that much bc hey. i think i cried enough tears already#im tired man#i really am#but hey i also wanna see what would happen if i dont give up yknow#just vibing hahaha#ah sorry for rambling tho cnmdnd#but hey dont worry abt me hahah#an ask and an answer#anon
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Ah fine I'll post somethin. Experimenting with designs and shit is all I'm doin. Nothin new.
(Not posting the colored in versions yet. These are only concept sketches. Keep that in mind)...
The digital "version" of ^this^ is just some lazy color blocking I did. (Pay no mind to the weird light effects); But it does add a little clarity to the original sketch that might be helpful. Note: the values will change to some degree later.
Full body type idea ^here^. The tail is fan shaped from proper perspective.
The basic blocks of his design include an array of different animal features i.e. plucked feathers and skin, goat horns and eyes, coyote skull and body, and lizard scales. Idk if anyone was curious though;
if anyone asks for more detail in the design inspirations and lore I might share it. I just don't really feel the need to post every part of my process yk (especially if I'm not 100% happy with it)
#Most of the reason I don't post stuff even when I do draw is cause I don't really wanna share it with everyone or it's not ready etc.#Just a personal boundary I guess.#i hope you guys understand#ik my schedule is real wack in gen but it's nothing i can help (currently going through treatments for my condition + other personal things)#plus I'm really terrible at gaging audiences so i have no idea what people want me to post#cause sure i can do silly cartoons but more often than not i like doing detailed stuff like this#though it doesn't tend to get as much attention as memes. that's only expected#but im thinkin about posting more about my ocs (maybe in comic snippets and stuff👉👈)#OH also i am drawing stuff for kids. obviously not this lol but nice cartoony things 👌#probably won't post those aside from maybe actual pages cause the other stuff is just doodles for school kids💀#again. lemme know if that's anything you'd wanna see.#my art blog#my art stuff#my art#my ocs#dulce oc#my oc stuff#sketch#traditional art#digital sketch#concept art#oc concept#(yes this is dulce. don't question it lol. transformation go brrr)#demon oc#demon original character#once in a blue moon posting weeeee#personal stuff#rant in tags#these drawings are from September and October which. ig isn't the WORST timeline but still. not technically new stuff sorry#demon design
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to love someone is to heal someone
#~ art#💚 memoryshipping#ignore tags if youre just here for the art and not me going full diary mode#anyways ... this is a little personal to me#especially with how i treat her here. i think this is a direct projection of how i'm feeling right now#today has been a little harsh on me - maybe a little painful even#i'm okay now - because i resolved it. albeit harboring some bits of anger to it but its not worth fighting about anymore#its hard to say that i'm - very optimistic so to speak because it's only one pillar i just jumped over and there will be more later#and this is me coping with it and im lucky to have mustered some energy to at least express it through drawing#i havent been drawing much for myself and it makes me sad because its my source of happiness#my time for drawing is being repurposed for other stuff right now and it still is and i dont feel entirely happy doing it unfortunately#i still have many things i want to follow up on my drawing list especially in my recent interests peaking again#but i resorted for now to making something im already used to. stevaide lol fgsjsddsjjsdjkghsdjgdjkhskjghshsgsasjhjsjksdjfhsfasgs corny ass#rest assured im at a somewhat relaxed state right now. throwing boops here and there calmed me down because theres people around me#who ig thinks im cool eajdhajhd#ahh anyway
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ffxiv garlemald discourse is so funny because people will go "ugh people just cant stand it when things aren't black and white" and then you look at how the empire are portrayed in stormblood and shadowbringers and its like hm. that seems like a pretty intense and accurate display of violent imperialism to me! Wow I wonder why people in this day and age may find it hard to feel sympathy for them or even hate them on principal. god its such a mystery.
the games like 50/50 to me on how it tackles these themes because I actually like the garlemald arc in EW, I think it has a lot of horrific and powerful scenes depicting how self destructive fascist propaganda and beliefs are, but I also think it doesn't go far enough on some fronts. the garleans' xenophobia is most notably and obstacle to getting them to accept the contingent's help, which is what they're there to do,
but there's never an admission of harm from any garleans on the uuuuuuuuh massive amount of war crimes the nations around them are still suffering from they're just kind of like "we misjudged you...but you actually wanted to help us all along" like yeah thats great now can we get you all some deprogramming because you keep talking about returning to your prime and glory days and I think we need to unpack some stuff you really SHOULDNT return to. im not even really talking about EW proper but the patches where things are a bit more chilled out and people are recovering.
It feels like they wanted to have their critique of imperialism and also have things end with the beauty of human connection and reaching out and these things just don't mesh well because hey a lot of your modern day audience is not gonna like having to treat people yelling xenophobic things at the cast and your character with kid gloves after you showed them hours and hours of the awful things these people's beliefs have done. especially in the present day hoo boy.
#im kind of torn between 'no characters dont need to be 'punished' to be redeemed but also the characters just being so lenient with the#colonizers after we see far too many people being lenient if not supportive of the colonizers irl. well. it really blows afslkjfalkf and#yeah you can argue if they'd gone through with the garlemald expansion they would've had more time to go into this but the fact is that its#absent from what they did do and I especially think the patches when we go to garlemald and the EW role quests going 'hey maybe the#provinces can help us rebuild' as if they'd have any goddamn right to ask that just make me feel like they didnt stick the landing#seeing all the characters who have suffering time and time again bc of the garleans or seen the results of their actions having to clamp#their mouths shut every time someone said something xenophobic in EW isnt satisfying and it leaves so much unsaid!#also some people feel like the narrative didnt blame emet enough but ngl I think thats reductive even with his micromanaging scheming littl#ass and the intention of garlemald turning out a shitshow that doesnt make anyone else less complicit. most governments like this exaggerat#and lie and spread propaganda but I dont think most people here excuse the actions of a bigot because 'they were raised that way'#this is also my issue with gaius' writing. hes primarily upset that ascians were behind what he thought was his good old fashioned natural#conquering ideology :( and doesnt it suck so much he killed people for it. like yeah he seems pretty aware what he did was wrong but his#ideology remains bizarrely intact and unchallenged by the characters around him. no dude it wasnt just the ascians the system is a lot more#complex than that by this point aaaaaugh#final fantasy xiv#ffxiv#siren says#I hope people are nice to me about this I dont think I said anything particularly controversial to the Tumblr crowd (twt maybe but fuck em)#ig my main point with this post is that the game isnt perfect at writing this and also that look. I actually liked the main arc in EW and I#like quite a few garlean characters but I completely understand why others didnt like it or any garleans esp if they have their own persona#experiences with colonialism and I dont get to tell them they're invalid for that. too many people get judgmental about this understandably#upsetting topic and you just gotta accept that this is a big line for many people
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I need to be weirder about the scavengers and cannibalism...
#its been a long day... but im feeling better now. (thanks for the well wishes and such btw <3-)#(-sending my well wishes in return by tenfold bcs. damn. it seems stuff is really going around rn)#but yeah... just. augh. theres just smth about how the scavs sorta translate into more like. thriller-esque genres pretty well?#like. i feel somehow those themes compliment their characteristics? or could compliment their characteristics in a more rounded out way#sure. theyre generally a light hearted romp of absurdity with occasional themes of a not good not bad handling of 'mental health matters'#but they just really shine a bit in horrific circumstances. esp with the sort of absurdity they bring to the table#theyre odd people. even in the context of their generally weird and alien universe. and that right there feels like a trove of potential#its like. ok. the lost light crew? also odd. but thats a huge ship. full of people and variety and a sense of purpose and normalcy post-war#(normalcy being. whatever all those background folks were getting up too while plot happened around them. cruise ship stuff ig)#but in contrast. with the w.a.p crew. its an ark class ship with like. a handful of people. and a whole lot of junk and free time#both just cruising through space endlessly for years. one with hundreds of people. and one with like 6 people.#so both are technically isolated when theyre not making pit-stops planet or station side. but again. 100s vs 6 dudes.#think. top of the line cruise ship from hell with a small town sized populace vs a big shitty boat and 6 starving guys#both have the capacity to become case studies in madness. both could do really well thriller wise. but the scavs being a smaller group?#it only being the 6 of them emphasis the isolation perhaps. less variety. less change. same 6 people for 5(?) years#things could get weird fast. codependent mentalities. us vs them mindsets. an otherness about everyone else outside of their group#and then! then you add to the mix the fact that theyre eating/drinking from corpses?! *chefs kiss* awesome. love it.#non-stationary isolation + cannibalism. ough. perfect mix. a classic of maritime horror but in space! :D!#a big ship. small crew. living while knowing that as soon as you kick the bucket. your body is the meal. your body is the fuel.#no decorum about it. no faith. no belief. just perverse survival. bcs they might enjoy it. a bloody gluttony. with a bite. a sample. a taste#it takes seeing your buddy as a walking talking burger to another level. bcs every corpse you come across is also a burger. and a gas can#also fulcrum making candy out of corpses is so. particularly perfect when it comes to the horrifically absurd. just. smth about it. idk#but also also. the line. where was the line drawn for each of them? and when did they each cross it?#most of them dont seem like the type to jump head first into that. so how did they justify it to themselves? had they done it before?#and then. when did it become normal? a habit? smth enjoyable?#i might be running out of tags. but yeah. them being weirder. esp about each other and others.#nothing brings a group of people together like the overhanging knowledge that you sort of kinda wanna eat each other#(rlly wishing i could stomach realistic thrillers rn. but i just cant. gotta stick to written or artistic styles or risk panic attacks :/)#(ive tried a couple movies and shows now. and cant get through most of them. praise be synopses and peoples long rambles about them tho :D)#(nothing like reading someones passionate ramble about the meaning/symbolism of some gory nightmare without having to actually see it lol)
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i think itis funny in the past when i would list my interests as if i post abt them i donot post abt the shit im into rly Mainly bc im not rly Into Into anything anymore i occasionally watch or read or play something but i dont do fandom stuff rly much.... just sometimes i get brainworms
#do i still list my interests somewhere i dont knowwww#i just stopped rly being into fandom a few years ago combination depression antipathy + bad experiences in fandom spaces#but idk. me listing my interests didnt rly accomplish anything for anyone bc it was just like anddd just so you know i was crazy abt this#video game for a rly long time it probably wont ever come up again but it might maybe one day. yk. ig its just sharing info Which is one#supposes the point of all of this but idk#its not that im cagey abt my interests except that one which i cant talk abt publically bc its a triple a game and im embarassed abt it. no#anything bad im just embarrassed . its not anything any of my oomfies have ever posted abt either so its just for me. and lamp . and when#the third game comes out i might post very very very vaguely abt it ......... possibly.#but ya its like. idk i think you guys have to find out abt my plague tale obsession on your own through lived experience. aka just me seein#like the word king and randomly collapsing to the floor and going KING HUGO 😭😭😭😭😭 oh god hugo guys oh god . please play plague tale#i wish i had finished that tw thing i started making but then i got too focused on the color palette and making it look nice and i stopped.#umm tw child death animal death The plague some gorey stuff theres some cult things in the second game ummm. yeah ..... its rly special to#me tho i love those games PLAY PLAGUE TALE!!! and if u need more indepth tws ill give them to you even if i have to replay both games to#refresh my memory... lamp wont play plaguetale with me (not their speed) so im all alone </3 but i miss it i might replay soon... i wish i#was in like discord servers so i could play it on call w ppl or something <- is in discord servers but is shy and Also i feel like playing#game on call is like a level like 2 friendship thing and i cant even do level 1 friendship things like i feel i need to at least be talking#regularly in a server b4 i like try to do Calls in the server esp for plague tale bc its like a 1p game so wed need a rapport to like have#shit to talk abt and etc ..... i could just infodump abt the game but again i feel doing that to like strangers/oomfies would b weird. ik i#come on here and talk abt whatever i want but its like you guys dont Have to read this and its not like a server where Yeah im not talking#to one person but im still like Oh well ive sent a message and its in the channel and everybody just has to look at it and whatever.#but on here i post i nobody cares and it just gets pushed down and its Fine bc its not like anybody has to feel obliged to respond#which is fine. you know.. i just hate being like a nuisance i hate . idk how to phrase. imposing myself on others ig.. which is dumb bc the#i turn around and whine abt how i have no friends and its like Maybe that is bc you donot talk to anyone bc yr scared they will be annoyed#with you and you dont leave the house and have no interests to bond with ppl and etc. but basically the difference is ive written all this#and you guys can just not read it or you can just read it and ignore it and its different. even tho i am like addressing you and i do have#like. weird parasocial thing with My followers or whatever where i talk directly to you YES YOU! reading this. IDKK im rambling so much i#dont know what im talking abt anymore. i proooooobably need to go to sleep im hungry tho but im not but i am. but i think my sleep is getti#off schedule again i had trouble sleeping yesterday too... ugh
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household enemy to the yyh watchthrough number one is the olympics. it's taken us a week to get two episodes into the gamemaster fight
#out of three. please the third episode's what makes it okay im fighting for my life out here#it is NOT for lack of trying on my part but theres only a brief window of time when the olympics is not happening#and as it turns out the watchthrough is Not my mom's first priority (how dare she etc)#i do feel slightly bitter that we've gotten through two eps of band o brothers in the same time#we are fighting for the same timeslots yet somehow the hour long show's gotten a leg up??#you don't have time for a 23 min ep but DO for a 60 min one?? explain the math to me please#idk how to explain the vague feeling of betrayal bc it Does Not make sense Nor matter in the slightest#but cmonnnn we were doing so well. and my little bro's starting up school again soon and my dad's gotta go back to work#sometimes eventually (<- hes on medical leave) and my grandparents are coming over next week We're Losing Time Soon#ughhh if i'd known the olympics were happening (<- somehow completely oblivious to this) i'd have accounted for#my mom getting whisked away by the land of synchronized divers and shot putters and whatever the hell#happens in the summer olympics (<- only pays attention to winter olys)#bc that always happens. and *i* have to go back to school in Some Amount Of Time Im Too Scared To Check (p sure it's late aug though) and#when that happens i'll (hopefully) be stuck across town which means we won't be able to do it any time besides the weekends#and i don't wannaaaaa#i know this is the least important problem anyone's ever had like i get that i know but#it's important to me that they sit down and watch this with me. and watching it pull apart and being#the one who's easily the most invested it makes me look all desperate when i ask them for their time and they can't give it#we can only pull this off neatly in the summer and we were so close and now we're losing it right at the finish line#i don't want life to get in the way of this little bubble i've fought so hard to make y'know#and it's childish and embarrassing and whatever but i just want them to have fun with me with this thing i care about a lot#but i can't do that bc my mom needs to watch the judo matches at Every weight class#even though she's recording a lot of them? i don't understand but whatever i know it's her thing im just moping about it ig#i want it to be as perfect an experience for them as possible and it's slipping away from me#and i don't wanna leave this project unfinished when i start school y'know. sighh#i think they might feel like i only want them around when we're watching stuff. whcih is weird bc that's like#The Singular Way we family bonded literally my whole life so idk why they wouldn't get that when reversed#but either way that IS how i wanna spend time with them. i want them to understand this thing that's become a part of me#and i wanna talk With them about it. and so far it's been fun in a way it's never been before. my mom at least seems to really like it#and i want it to Keep going well bc if we lose momentum im worried they'll start finding it tedious. sighh
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tonight is going to be so cool 👍
#had 2 go to an event & was gonna meet my ma there so i asked her to grab a couple things for me + she showed#w/ them n was also like oh this fell out of one of yr books i was moving ^_^ its so funny what did she mean by this!! & handed me.#my high school best friends suicide note. LOL. LMAO EVEN. god i didn't even fucking know i still had it. to be clear it was. um. vague.#meaningless 2 anyone else. so that's not on her. but hahahhha i am feeling SO NOT GREAT now insane deja vu getting handed that. and also th#bad brain shit surrounding my irrational terror that she's going to go through my room and all my things and find things she shouldnt#if i ever leave my room without doing 1 million... idk. compulsions ig. whatever the word is. which has been getting BETTER lately which is#why im HERE but now that's back. god. anyway just got back from a really loud busy thing. overstimulated and headache and#also um. just. not good!!! wow!!! who would have guessed!!! opening that fucking paper the size of my thumbnail#& suddenly im fucking sixteen again. god. anyway.hi. hows everyone's evening going.#txt#neg
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Playing A Series of Dusks is all fun and games till you realize you can do a Windsong and Vila duo run on Difficulty 17 and still do insane numbers
#ive been playing this game mode since its release and im like#going through it lmfao#and i thought itd be funny yknow#bc at this point difficulty 15 was the default difficulty for me#i thought hey what if i try beating this w just vila and windsong#and i did and like#huh y'know what if i try difficulty 17#and like#damn windsong really goes all out when her wife is around huh#im excited for the update on this game mode tho#but that means more artefacts to find😔#jusko here we go again#reverse 1999#id try a windla duo run on difficulty 20#but even w a full ass team i struggled there lmfao#had to borrow someone's kakania bc i fucking lost the 50/50 on her banner to 37😵💫#i think i jinxed that but hey ig lmfao#random bs
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finally getting my ass up to note down the last thirty episodes i basically binged without ever opening my notebook and wow mag181 really was a rest. for them. for me. for me now that, for one single episode, i can fall back into the shape of the first 160 episodes i noted down. like i've been doing this specific format for so long, even after 20 apocalypse statements that still felt wrong, a constant reminder of how horrid everything is. but not now. not for this episode. not for this one episode. surrounded by wrongness for a second i can pretend it's fine
#a biscuit's rambles#this fits. awfully well#this episode specifically was placed very very deliberately#one or two days more and ill finally be done#then my notes on the Fears as overview ig#and then i can rest#before starting the magnus protocol obviously. i already have the notebook ready :)#im so happy i took notes tho#made me go insane a couple times and trace too many connections. as tma should#also its just so satisfying#someone asks me 'i recognise that names whos this guy again' and ill flip through my notebook and its great
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man i really am conflict avoidant. i was in the car for about 2 minutes while stepdad was angrily trying to deal (through a video call) with the airport worker that wasnt letting my brother into the airport and i could barely handle it at all. i had to leave the car and stay at the other end of the parking lot while the shouting and stuff happened. he managed to do it in the end but god fuck i would not be able to at all. even in my little brother's position where he was holding the phone i don't think i would do that i would give up so quickly. i feel bad and im not even the one any of this was about at all
#the problem was basically the airport worker refused to print his ticket bc#“they won't let you through the border control anyway”#while not letting him go through border control. bc she was not printing his ticket. ahe was also not rhe border control#and had like 0 authority on rhat or any reason to stop him#and she was just there with 3 security guards dealing with this one 16 year old rhat just needs to get on his fucking flight#once she relented the border control let him through no problem at all#i have no idea what her problem even was she does not get extra bordercontrolman pay or anything and has no reason fo do any of this#literally why would you not just let the people 30 meters behind you that are paid to deal with this deal with this#at least thats what i think it was again i wasnt in the car for most of it#is this a vent im gonna tag it vent ig idk#vent
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broskis im gonna be honest with you, i do not see a point.
this is not a suicidal post, this is not a cry for help and i am not a danger to myself, and i am in communication with my therapist.
but like. i genuinely do not see a way out. i tried for months. my life was falling apart and i stayed positive! i didnt break down, i handled it, i survived it, i believed in a future that existed.
but its come to a point where i cant do that anymore. i cant pretend that theres hope for some sort of magic solution to come from heaven and fix everything. because i tried EVERYTHING. i worked SO HARD. and im still here. in the same place. im still sitting here with my life falling apart around me and i have tried every single thing i could possibly think of and there is nothing left to do.
the only things im really good at right now are sleeping and scrolling tbh. i am going to spend my entire life rotting in my childhood bedroom while everyone around me experiences all the things i've ever wanted but am apparently not allowed to have.
how am i expected to keep going if there's nowhere to go?
#babes i swear i am not suicidal#for better or worse if i was i would have checked myself into the hospital again#im just. i dont know man.#im gonna go to sleep#im gonna sleep all day tomorrow#which is normal for a saturday#but then sunday i have a con and like. might just sleep through that too#depression def affects my sleep disorder bc i havent been able to stay awake for more than a few hours at a time lately#this is my life now ig#jaytp
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living in the same city as nina could actually cure me
#i just miss her#a lot.#im proud of her immensely#she's one of the most hardworking people i know no joke#and i love her and always will#i just miss my best friend#we're all going through tough times#and i just know that cuddling and snuggling and watching movies and holding hands would give me life again#would reassure that living makes sense ig
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// anyway since my writing muse for ig remains ???? i'm closing his inbox until i manage to get it under control.
#ERROR ( );#// i just don't want too many things to pile up on here.#// for as much as i love unprompted asks honestly at this point they might go unanswered because it's just.....#// too much#// i love ig and i'm content just writing him privately on discord for the time being and hope to find the motivation for his tumblr#// threads soon enough again. even tho i've been trying. in the meantime u can find me on my other blog; that muse is much more active and#// easier for me to write atm. u can find the url in my pinned#// thank you for understanding and being patient. as always u can reach me through im's or discord#// always open for plotting and small interactions and chat on disco.
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#... only partially relating to singing but im. going through old recordings.#so i cover otoya in a group and we did smule duets as first recordings and ofc mine was a mess BUT. it was cute and energetic.#and oH MY GOD AT LEAST 3 MEMBERS WERE CALLING ME AN UKE NONSTOP FOR A WHILE AFTER LASKDJLAJD LIKE.#I GET IT YOU ALL READ BL. IG ET WE'RE COVEIRNG BOYS BUT YOU DONT HAVE TO SAY I SOUND LIKE A BTOTOM AND HAVE THAT UKE SOUND IM GONNA SOB#oh i found the comments. “SPOILED UKE VOICE”. “THE ULTIMATE UKE.”#CALLING ME AN UKE EVEN IN THE GC I WAS SO. WHAT DO YOU SAY TO THAT I WAS SO ASDKJAL !?!? >///<?!?!?#so embarrassing.#“my uke” nOW HOLD ON-#anyway that was like 3y ago and my voice is. not as spirited. it is weaker and airy and lower LMAO iMS O SCREWED WHEN WE START COVERS AGAIN#anyw it was fine bc that meant everyone thought i was cute. which is ideal as fuck <3#i just thought it was funny that they said i sound like a bl bottom while singing normally lmaoo anyway.#44597
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It's so confusing even to me sometimes especially when it perhaps matters the most how I am an empath as in I will feel like crying while watching someone else cry out if their hearts and I could literally feel their pain but then I'm also so detached like so much so that if someone I know is going through something (as in trouble in paradise (yeah I'm eloquent)) and completely losing it over that person, not being able to function properly like not eating being sad feeling depressed -- it just makes no sense to me??? Like I can't even begin to try to comfort other than just pat pat like??? So you found out they don't care about you don't you just instantly lose all feelings as well? Don't you feel cheated and ridiculed?? Does that mean nothing to you, your self-respect?? And if it does all those things then why do you feel sad. What do you feel sad for. I would feel angry. So incredibly angry and I would simply think I was an idiot to not notice the signs or to stay for as long as I did and it would be like a switch just completely off. I don't think I could ever hold a human above myself. And this makes me wonder if I could ever love at all.
#like ive thought about this ofc but just#it came to me again today#bc someone i know is going through it so im jusy#so lost? like bro snap out of it she used such a lame ass excuse and youre gullible and naive enough to take it at face value and cling on#and crying and feeling sad and sorry and taking your anger out on everybody else#and its extra pathetic the way i always knew that what that person felt was one sided from the beginning and kept telling them about it but#they were so in on their head#like insane level delusion#and i had to comfort them and all i could do was spit out bitter facts#and theyre v immature and like kinda narcissistic#and ik youre not supposed to tell them the bitter truth so soon but that also doesnt make sense to me#oh god am i antiromantic? i dont think so? like ive had crushes before?#im definitely in LOVE w my fav characters and tae and zayn#huh so maybe i am just hopeless irl#well. we'll see about that ig#comfort#antiromantic#detachment
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