#theme: loss

[araekniarchive]

eve, after the fall (auguste rodin; bronze, 1883)

Mark Twain, The Diaries of Adam and Eve // Hozier, From Eden // Angela Carter, The Bloody Chamber // Frank Bidart, The War of Vaslav Nijinsky // Eagles, The Last Resort // Anne Sexton, Words for Dr. Y

[r0bzombixx]

i wanna sleep in your car while youre driving,

lay in your lap while im crying

[seasunandstar]

Maybe we don't bear the unbearable. Maybe we die with it. And in our place some larger, less impatient shape may then be granted space but I don't want it. I want my mother. Sometimes beside her in the bed while trying to tell her I'm okay, I start to weep. She watches me. Her eyes are distant now, gone deep inside some gravely gentle place where, with a stranger's curiosity, she seems to ask What can I do with your sadness? She has no use for it. We will lose what we love, and our suffering is useless, and by dusk all the crickets will thrum their one absence of warning. That trace of light against the hills will spread through trees, undo the ends of evergreen, then fall to fields. It will not hold. As if it means to urge us, look. Love's body must be manifold. Black cricket shell, new summer air, late light. The landscape's all ablaze with gentle strangers. Look. We're standing in a field.

-- From "On Joy", Taije Silverman

[hp-fanfic-archive]

Make Me Smile (Come Up and See Me) by busaikko Pairing: Remus/Severus/Sirius, Raising Harry AU Rating: E Word Count: 26k Podfic available here Read by: randomicicle Length: 3-4 hours AU. In the aftermath of October 31st, 1981, Severus Snape, Remus Lupin, and Sirius Black try to set their differences aside to keep Harry safe.

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[expiravitae]

Bring Me The Horizon, True friends

E. Pauline Johnson / Tekahionwake, Ojistoh

[shepscapades]

[Pt 1] [Pt 2] [Pt 3] [Pt 4] [Pt 5] [Pt 6] [PART 7] [Don’t Let it Reach the Heart]

Nobody Anymore Nobody Anymore

[This comic is part of my dbhc au, following the chaos and panic that ensues after Doc and Xisuma try to get Etho back online at the start of s9 after a very rough s8 finale that leaves him a little. broken. It's set to the vibes of Joywave's Destruction. This part concludes this comic, but this moment doesn't end here: Don't Let it Reach the Heart will be the title of the fic that will follow the end of Destruction!]

[dramiserable]

I saw Miku at the village festival the other week trust me

[wizardingace]

it’s so bonkers to me that generation loss’s commentary is regarding the toxicity surrounding streaming and the “show must go on” mentality and doing anything for viewers when you have the meta-context that during the first episode ranboo was getting actively injured by a malfunctioning wire, but continued on anyway

[seasunandstar]

[image id]

There is a heartbreaking beauty about my crummy street tonight, at 2 o'clock in the first snow: I stand looking out at this window, I think how everything seen is something seen for the last time. At last I turn away, I give up. I am tired, I can't mourn anymore the loss of what I never asked for and never understood

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franz wright

[araekniarchive]

@seravph​, I Think I Am Going To Cut My Hair

Interview with the Vampire (1994) dir. Neil Jordan, script by Anne Rice

Gone Girl (2014) dir. David Fincher

Avatar: The Last Airbender (2005-2008), 3x16: Sozin’s Comet

Jacqueline Wilson, Vicky Angel

Gülten Akın, ‘I Cut My Black Hair’ from What Have You Carried Over?

Laurence Price, The Famous Flower of Serving-Men (traditional English language ballad, c. 1656)

Regina Spektor, Samson

Little Women (2019) dir. Greta Gerwig

@seravph​, I Think I Am Going To Cut My Hair

[jesncin]

Reunion and Loss. A continuation of Twin in the Mirror and Chimera Twin Constantine, a remix of the Golden Boy arc from Hellblazer.

A story of Two Constantine brothers and the different ways they handled grief after losing each other at birth.

[seasunandstar]

The Promise

Stay, I said  to the cut flowers.  They bowed  their heads lower.

Stay, I said to the spider,  who fled.

Stay, leaf.  It reddened,  embarrassed for me and itself.

Stay, I said to my body.  It sat as a dog does,  obedient for a moment,  soon starting to tremble.

Stay, to the earth  of riverine valley meadows,  of fossiled escarpments,  of limestone and sandstone.  It looked back  with a changing expression, in silence.

Stay, I said to my loves.  Each answered,  Always.

-- Jane Hirshfield

[vampiremogai]

Copied from below the cut:

; IDs && plain text below !!

pt: tīlucta. coined by me, for 100 acronymchaos event day 5 with prompts time + grief. Definition: a term unique to the grief an immortal feels for the people && things they've lost because they live forever orr grief of an immortal, immortal time & grief, etc

name derived from " tīma " meaning time in Latin && " luctus " meaning grief, sorrow, mourning, etc also in Latin .. option w && w/o flower for personal pref .. :end pt

ID 1: A rectangular flag with 7 strips of varying sizes, with colours && sizes going in top-to-bottom order: medium dark red, small dark yellow, small dark beige, small light yellow, small dark beige, small dark yellow, medium dark red. The dark red strips have crack like spikes going through the other strips. The middle strip has 6 dark red crosses, 3 on the left and 3 on the right where in the center is a dark yellow stylized clock. :end ID

ID 2: the same as the previous but with a dark crimson rose inside the clock :end ID

; tagging : @/radiomogai | @/acronym-chaos ; myles is fascinated by the concept of time travel && also v interested in grief ( in a not weird way lol xe realizes how that sounds hsbshs ) and such .. so w these prompts xe couldn't help merging the two, and xe came up w tīlucta .. !! This has ended up as a term myles will personally use, and xe finds much joy in it .. !! also xe apologizes for the multiple pings, but bc xe is behind on the prompts xe has to post like 3 things in a single day .. !!

★﹕ tīlucta

pt: tīlucta :end pt

★ ⌒⌒ ;; coined by ! me

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100 acronymchaos event || day 5 prompts time + grief .. !!

☆⌒⌒ ;; definition

; a term unique to the grief an immortal feels for the people && things they've lost because of their immortality // grief of an immortal, immortal time & grief, etc

﹕★ name from " tīma " meaning time in Latin && " luctus " meaning grief, sorrow, mourning, etc also in Latin .. !! option w && w/o flower for personal pref .. :D

; IDs && plain text below !!

pt: tīlucta. coined by me, for 100 acronymchaos event day 5 with prompts time + grief. Definition: a term unique to the grief an immortal feels for the people && things they've lost because they live forever orr grief of an immortal, immortal time & grief, etc

name derived from " tīma " meaning time in Latin && " luctus " meaning grief, sorrow, mourning, etc also in Latin .. option w && w/o flower for personal pref .. :end pt

ID 1: A rectangular flag with 7 strips of varying sizes, with colours && sizes going in top-to-bottom order: medium dark red, small dark yellow, small dark beige, small light yellow, small dark beige, small dark yellow, medium dark red. The dark red strips have crack like spikes going through the other strips. The middle strip has 6 dark red crosses, 3 on the left and 3 on the right where in the center is a dark yellow stylized clock. :end ID

ID 2: the same as the previous but with a dark crimson rose inside the clock :end ID

; tagging : @radiomogai | @acronym-chaos ; myles is fascinated by the concept of time travel && also v interested in grief ( in a not weird way lol xe realizes how that sounds hsbshs ) and such .. so w these prompts xe couldn't help merging the two, and xe came up w tīlucta .. !! This has ended up as a term myles will personally use, and xe finds much joy in it .. !! also xe apologizes for the multiple pings, but bc xe is behind on the prompts xe has to post like 3 things in a single day .. !!

[hp-fanfic-archive]

For Lack of a Bezoar by Bolshevikmuppet99 Pairing: Harry/Hermione Rating: M Word Count: 33k Podfic available here Read by: TheLastVoice Length: 4-5 hours Canon Divergence from HBP. When Harry fails to save Ron's life in Slughorn's office, he and Hermione are thrust into a search for answers. But the path is thornier than either of them could have possibly imagined.

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[dontbelasagne]

desperately need to do a presentation on why the Twelfth Doctors journey perfectly represents the transfem experience

their previous eleventh incarnation being suave and hypersexual (i know moffat is mostly to blame but!) is reminiscent of attempts to fit into heteronormative ideals of masculinity. whilst it is not completely insincere, there are obvious signs this does not fit you as a person, it is acted out of desperate need to being seen. as Vastra put it, eleven wore that face, and subsequently that form of masculinity, to be accepted. on becoming twelve, realising even an "idealised" masculinity does not inherently serve them, they retreated into themselves as a person for self-reflection and trying to understand why they feel so detached from who they are.

the "am i a good man" arc mirrors being closeted and having to present as something not inherently tied to your sense of self, but still wanting to be the best of your perceived gender as any failure could leave you spiralling into self-doubt about simply being like any other "man". you ignore your gender dysphoria/questioning by trying to claim a moralistic view of gendered expression. made even more clear by Twelve rejecting Clara's heroic view of them, establishing that even though they have made efforts to be a "good man", that is just a placeholder for their loss of identity.

Missy appearing as she does, who as a character serves as a parallel to The Doctor on what they could become, and her eventual arc in trying to become good is symbolic of the fear around transition regret that internalised transphobia can create when you are closeted. Missy never gives importance to their fem existence other than nonchalant jokes, rather showing a more free and expressive personality devoid of any frustration. this immediately dismisses the transphobic assumption that trans people are only focused on their gender. also, Missy representing trans femininity is inherently tied to chaos and upsetting the status quo, she is the embodiment of what society considers accepting your womanhood as someone previously labelled masculine. what many others, and The Doctor themselves, saw as a need for attention and senseless disruption is Missy not needing to serve a false version of who they are, that they can now focus on becoming whoever they want to be now without losing energy to performing a gender that society has imposed on you. Missy could never have made the decision to stand with The Doctor if she had not given importance to her own queerness.

it wasn't coincidence with meeting Bill, she was the perfect foil for The Doctor to finally let go of their anxious attachment to masculinity. i would even argue for the majority of s10, The Doctor is largely ambiguous in their gender identity and does not fit into any construction of masculinity or femininity. whilst they still present as something socially labelled as masculine, they do not internalise that gender expression. they are uncaring about and not needing the validity that comes with heteronormativity, and thus is free to finally accept the decision they have to make. as Bill says, it is so hard to let go of The Doctor, and that rings true for twelve themselves. but they begin to realise The Doctor can be anyone. yes, they are tired, it would be so easy to simply rest and not give value to who you can become. but choosing to let go of everything you once were to survive is better than oblivion. it is better to let go, to choose another lifetime where the only person that dies is your falsity, to finally get it right and choose kindness. for yourself and for those who you love. they regenerate, not just into another person, but into someone who (if only tv scripts...) can now move forward.

[w0lfwren]

thinking about how since showfall already had a token gay they could make fun of they probably just programmed any queerness out of niki and ranboo entirely so they’d be more palatable to their family friendly audience. thinking about how ethan came up with the drag idea then was immediately murdered.