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i digged up in my notes and guess what
Kunikida HEADCANONS āš part 2!!! + some other characters at the end!!!
- he absolutly hates having his hair down and having his bangs in front of his face like in the oav so he put heavy amont of hair gel that makes his hair feel kinda like cardboard
- he was a troublemaker as a kid
- he's cisgender in a very transgender way. he considers himself a boy only because he was born as one and never really thought about it or feel any connexion to it despite having a schlong. like he's kinda gender apathetic
- it's not a rat tail!!! it's some sort of weird jellyfish haircut he only ties the lower layer and use way too much hair gel
- during his earlier years at the agency he used to have depressive episodes, where he forgot his ideals and bedrotted for days. now he feels so awful about it that he doesn't allow himself to take such breaks
- he likes poetry, mostly romanticism and naturalism. he sometimes writes some himself and has a notebook for it. Dazai found it and thinks his writing style is cringe and corny (he's kinda right...)
- he has a weird laugh, like an ugly one but it's cute
- once he came up with a schedule for katai and katai didn't even look at it
now just random dump of silly hcs i made up about the cast
- atsushi climbs the stairs on all four (even outside...)
- when someone shows him a silly video of a cat falling he takes it personally and answer something like "IT'S NOT FUNNY!! HE HURT HIMSELFš”"
- the type of guy to bite his nails until it bleed and peel the skin of his lips and kunikida swats his hand when he does
- fukuchi always has a favorite in the hunting dogs, sometimes it's tachihara, sometimes teruko, sometimes jouno but it's never tecchou. they're all kinda his children and tecchou is the least favoriteš
- he got fangs like a cat. he's literally just a big cat
- tachihara saw fukuchi as a father figure. he used to admire him a lot and think he was super cool so he sometimes copied his posture or mannerisms. im saying that bcs of this artwork! like look he's literally copying him they're so cuteš
so imagine how absolutly disappointed he was when he learnt he was kamui.. and when the man he kinda saw like his dad stabbed his eyes... :/ womp womp
- jouno believes he is the most beautiful mesmerizing creature to have ever blessed this planet
- natsume is trans!!! he's a calico cat!!! calico cats are at 99.9% females!!! NATSUME IS AFAB
- he's katai's dad. don't ask me why it's just that scene where he shows up at katai's house they got such a cute dynamic he's his father in my head
- ango got the worst eye correction ever. probably has bifocal glasses for staying on his computer for so long
- kyu does age regression, because this is NOT a 13 years old
- katai is an avid reddit user. he is not the same person online his digital footprint is ass
- i feel like he would love shoujo and slice of life anime that are girl lead like k-on, lucky star, nichijou or azumanga daioh. but not in a weird way. he would envy feminity, how in touch with their own feelings they are, and women frienship and intimacy, he wishes he could experience that too
- he loves cats and wishes he could adopt one but he knows that he wouldn't be able to take care of it in his state and would probably forget to feed it
#bsd#kunikida doppo#bungo stray dogs#bsd kunikida#bungou stray dogs#bsd headcanons#bungou stray dogs headcanons#bsd atsushi#atsushi nakajima#natsume soseki#ango sakaguchi#fukuchi ouchi#yumeno kyuusaku#bsd q#dazai osamu#bsd dazai#katai tayama#bsd katai#hunting dogs bsd#tachihara michizou#jouno saigiku
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Rec List: Letter Writing Fics!
There's something so romantic about writing letters -- even when they aren't love letters! The idea of taking the time and effort to put pen to paper, to share your thoughts and feelings with someone else, to drop them into a mailbox and wait (im)patiently for their response... poetry. Even with modern emails -- they may not inherently be quite as dreamy, but you can still capture a lot of the same energy and vulnerability and connection.
Here are ten fics focusing on written communication, mostly physical letters but some diaries or online communication as well. We've got a lot of historical stories, a lot of long-distance, and SO much pining. Read, kudos, comment, reblog, follow, subscribe -- and get ready for the next category!
Just for Tonight (I can be yours) by SadaVeniren/@sadaveniren (42495, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) ā fic post
Omega Prince Harry writes letters to Prince Ludwig to whom he'd been promised to marry since birth, while he gets to know Louis, a simple worker from the neighbouring kingdom. The same, he's supposed to marry the prince of for a truce
Reccer says: the double/secret identity always gets me. also they building of their relationship while also trying to keep key parts of them hidden
Just Another Card Again by tippitytap/@tippitytap (3775, General, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson)
Dear reader, this is a story of Harry and Louis falling in love through greeting cards and being neighbours. With love, Clifford
Reccer says: So so cute and the links to the cards are such a nice touch.
Dirty Diana by yeah_alright/@uhoh-but-yeah-alright (3042, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) ā fic post
Harry writes to his confidante Diana every day for a month about all his Louis fantasies.
Reccer says: Really creative, hot, and so funny! Filled with smutty ideas but the tone is light and fun - such a great combo! The juxtaposition of Harry's dirty thoughts and his sweet way of communicating with Diana made me giggle throughout the fic
adjudication by barchive/@bottomlinsons (75000, Teen, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson)
Harry has fallen for his betrothed through letters she written him over the years, but when he finally arrives to marry her, he learns things aren't what he has believed
Reccer says: It's so well crafted. The plotting and pacing are excellent and the use of miscommunication is really well done. Plus there's some very swoonworthy scenes!
all the sins you didnāt have by Brooklyn_Babylon/@twopoppies (99522, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) ā fic post Warnings: A sexual assault, not going all the way
Itās 1880, and premier danseur Harry Styles is running out of time. At twenty-five, heās fast becoming too old for the lecherous benefactors who frequent The Paris Opera Balletās infamous backstage, and the only way to ensure he isnāt left penniless or rotting away in a brothel is to secure a permanent patron. Enter Lord Louis Tomlinson: wealthy, young, handsome. And, unfortunately, a notorious rake.
Reccer says: Everything is amazing -- the theme, the location, the era, the atmosphere. And itās wonderfully written. I love the gorgeous sensory details, and how the author uses those to cast light on the charactersā hidden emotions.
No One Like You by my own spark/@myownsparknow (19932, Mature, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) ā fic post
Where Liam and Niall are art historians discovering the truth about two nineteenth century painters on opposite sides of an artistic divide.
Reccer says: I love the nerdy art-historical discoveries!
Blue Moon by Aquietlarrie/@aquietlarrie (152907, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) ā fic post
itās the late 50ās. times are āsimpleā. rock n roll is in full swing. vinyl, music and dancing are the primary ways of entertaining yourself, and in a time where loving someone of the same sex is illegal, two strangers catch each otherās eyes across a dancefloor and do just that. over the span of a year and in between two cities, harry and louis happen to find each other at just the right time.
Reccer says: I thought this was SO well-researchedāthe 50s vibes are immaculate.
Lonely Cards Club by Hellolovers13/@hellolovers13 (25837, Teen, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson ) ā fic post
Harry's life in Cardiff is rather uneventful. Until he receives a strange Christmas postcard. It gets even stranger when he finds another one the next day. š
Reccer says: This fic is so sweet! Just the perfect bit of gentle cheer, love, and mystery.
miles away from seeing you by LiveLaughLoveLarry/@loveislarryislove (1700, Teen, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson)
Harry is studying abroad in New Zealand, but he keeps in close communication with his long-term boyfriend back in England.
Reccer says: This fic is told entirely through social media posts, texts, emails, etc, which is a super cool medium! It's very sweet feeling their connection from so far apart.
Dearest Gemma (I fell in love) by Thingsicant (1300, General, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson)
Harry writes his sister letters as he meets, falls in love with, and courts a handsome blacksmith.
Reccer says: Harry's ups and downs of emotion make me laugh, and the surprise Louis has been working on is so sweet.
#rec list#category 25#letter writing#one direction#harry styles#liam payne#niall horan#louis tomlinson#zayn malik#1dficvillage#1dsource#allwaswell16#alwaysxlarrie#hlficlibrary#hlcreators#ficsfor4am#tracksintheam#trackinghome
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serpentine rising au designs of the early ninja [first few years of being ninja id say? these are their 'early days' designs in my timeline]
oh also the serpentine rising name is a inside joke . its not serpentine focused its just my ninjago rewrite au
you can read all the info belowww if you wanttt toooo swiggly face smiley face.
its still early development so theyre not set in stone and i will change things
ive had this art ready for awhile but ive spent like a week writing the stuff below
general setting info -
im a huge sucker for sloppy overused hollywood tropes and ruining things with my personal preferences in media so ! the ninjas identitys arent known. they keep them secret. and they all go to highschool in the beginning [except lloyd hes too young to be in highschool ] like the ninjago movie. i suck. but also like give those ninja a proper education i do NOT trust wu with doing that he is not reliable
serpentine and oni and all other species that are villains just because they are that species [example - the oni and the serpentine in the early seasons] are no longer villains just because they are born from that species. yay! making an entire species all villains just because theyre apart of that species is super boring so its getting eradicated now. 'theyre all evil unless they learn how to not be evil like mystake did with her being a oni and learning how to be good' booooooo BOOOOOOOOOOOOO TOMATO TOMATO TOMATO š
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why does that tomato look so weird what
garmadon isnt the pilot villain [hes only referenced by his skeleton army but he never actually appears or is heavily brought up] and hes a very built up villain and is referenced a lot by others to build up a big image for him before hes revealed and he only appears much later on. ninjago drags his dead corpse around too much let than old man REST. also im tired of season 97 about garmadon and lloyds relationship SNOREEEE .also i find it so funny that lloyd is more upset at misako than garmadon when they reunite like hydrogen bomb vs coughing baby type situation garmadon has probably killed thousands and put mass genocide and ruling the world infront of his priority list instead of putting lloyd at the front whilst misako got flashbanged by her sons radioactive eyes and cried herself to sleep . there is a huge difference here
most species + other established places have different languages. theres no way they all speak the same language i know its just because its a kids show and it needs to be dumbed down but cmon it would be more fun . so yeah most have different languages and they all have more built upon cultures which are explored in episodes like the ninjago mail episodes where you get to see a look into civilian life whilst the story still plays out. its like that but with other places and characters we've seen from them
also im just calling ninjagos language common because i forgot the actual language name
pythor is released first and he releases the rest of the serpentine and sticks with lloyd until all of them are released and then betrays him . and the final battle with the great devourer is the serpentine with the war + great devourer vs the ninja + the serpentine against the war .
im still working on it but i have most of my ideas sorted for the pilot , morro and the serpentine
oh yeah speaking of morro uhhh the ghost realm i forgot the name is MUCH more eldritchy. ive been given a living physical embodiment of a realm of the dead to play around with . what else am i supposed to do with that. not make it creepy and a hivemind like creature that affects every soul it can get its tentacles on ??? cmon. so yeah morro and all the ghosts are corrupted by the preeminent and i want to explore morro and lloyds dynamic more because it has so much potential . imagine seeing your mentor replace you with somebody else and they get to be the thing you dreamed every day to be but theyre just a kid and they dont know and theyre so happy but youre so angry and they took everything from you but they dont know they did but you cant control yourself because theres a Thing in your head and its also Very Angry. ya. so i want to explore that more yes. morro had interesting motivations and i like his character . so when the preeminent is defeated morro comes back as a regular uncorrupted ghost and he gets therapy good on him
since garmadon doesnt come around until much later + im trying to limit down on repeat villains like the overlord and stuff a lot of the season villains are either going to be swapped around and switched or heavily changed. and so far im not considering any to be but if i have to i might completely remove certain villains if i truely cant find a spot for them. basically im just blowing up the entire ninjago timeline
elemental powers work in the way that base level elemental power is being able to manipulate existing material and like final form elemental power is being able to create that elemental power from nothing [something something 'most elemental powers branch from dragons who are the element of creation' etc etc]. depending on the power the stages can be more difficult to reach. like for jay with his element he can make his own electricity without outside assistance [such as elemental weapons, being a conduit or just. fusing with your element like nya did] really easily but the side effect is his control of it is somewhat more unstable because his power is just that strong. whilst for somebody like nya or lloyd creating their element from nothing is extremely hard and would take decades of training to master so they have the weakness of just having to stick to stick to manipulating existing forms of their element instead of creating them from nothing.
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lloyd - you annoy me but i love you equally as much
considering making him woke idk i just want to piss off those ninjago fans with theythem lloyd . shoves pipebomb up ur butt night night chat!!! . ]
uhh i actually dont have his age set down yet im kinda unsure about it but hes younger than 10 years old yes. but he looks a lot younger than he is because he ages slower than a normal human
basics we all know hes a oni/dragon/human yah. master of energy yadaaa yadaaa. big changes is the great devourers venom partially passed over to him from garmy dont ask how it woooorks so basically just sometimes goes and maul peoples arms off but then crys about it later
known languages - common [isnt too good at writing common though due to not having a great education from darkleys, hes better at speaking it. ]
lloyd subconsciously shapeshifts to look like his father to be scary and intimidating so people dont hurt him [so his current design isnt what he actually looks like] hes like a pathetic hairball demon demanding you to be afraid of him. he truely thinks this is his true form
lloyd does not know of his actual species despite. not looking human unlike canon. look lloyd doesnt know a thing about his parents or his heritage his parents basically booted him out of the house as soon as he was born and he grew up inbetween houses being raised by people from favours his mom could cash in before he was eventually booted into darkleys
fighting style is much of a mix between what wu has taught him , random angry squabbling with his claws and most important of all. random shank he owns that the ninja have tried so hard to take off him but fail everytime to. hes a rogue style build and is the most sneaky out of all the ninja. short and puntable , knife in hand.
ok . biggest change in this rewrite. HE DOESNT BECOME THE GREEN NINJA UNTIL HES 15-16 AND THE TOMORROWS TEA NEVER HAPPENS TO HIM. dude i swear canon wu has got to be the final twist villain of the series because WHY did he drag that 10 year old toddler onto the battlefield as the green ninja GET HIM OFF ???? THERE????? anyways so yeah wu does try to get him to be the green ninja early on but he gets severely injured in a fight and misako beats wu's ass and he stops being the green ninja really early on and just continues being a student until hes old enough to be on the field
ok edit i might make it so the tomorrows tea does exist because i like it in concept but its only a temporary effect
his elemental power is changed because his power at the moment is just straight up 'green' the movie is right he really is just the green element. anyways so his power functions as it takes energy from something [either himself or his surroundings] and can apply the energy to something else or convert it into a different type of energy and apply it like that. energy cannot be created or destroyed yadayda [he could train to create energy from nothing but that would take like decades to accomplish on his own without outside help cough cough becoming a conduit cough cough ] GOODNIGHT ninjago and HELLO sleep paralysis! anyways he specialises in plants [he LOVES plants] and he carrys a terrarium around with him 24/7 its in a jar hidden under his black hoodie. this is how hes discovered as the green ninja he saves the ninja using the plants and stuff from his jar not whatever that golden weapon glowing stuff is booooorrring
since hes constantly taking energy from himself his body kind of adapted to have an insanely fast metabolism to make up for it
elemental power side effects - either goes in a tired state and sleeps for like a week straight or he jumps around and bounces off the walls for a week and struggles heavily to sleep. also if he takes in too much energy since hes really young and his body isnt strong enough for it he makes a huge explosion of raw unfiltered energy and it blows up everything around him including himself
wu adopts him and he is homeschooled by wu for a little bit before being brought into school
when misako returns i say he moves in with misako and lives there but he spends weekends at wus and goes there every afternoon
clings to kai like a leech . kind of in denial about it and if its brought up he throws a tantrum and does x2 the pranks on that person who brought it up. but yeah hes much more attached to kai and follows him around the most.
in terms of most powerful between each ninja his most powerful aspect is he has the most adaptability and ways of using his element [since his power is really uh... open? in how it can be used? like. theres a TON of things that energy can be applied to. energy is extremely broad] but he restricts himself by only specialising in using raw energy [aka 'power: green'] and flora growth and manipulation . so hes not as strong as he could be if he stopped chaining himself down with just those two useages of energy.
he can see others energy in like a weird way. he could have a blindfold over his eyes and still 'see' others energy and be able to tell whos who and be able to identify things around him.
loves heavy metal music. felt like sharing. he loves cartoons and will hoard the tv remote and defend it with his life
umm note for future me their oni features are gold colors and their dragon features are black. sprinkle some green in there too
all the ninja take turns at babysitting him and training with him. he picks up skills from all of the ninja.
in dragon rising hes still a teacher because i love that for him goodjob lloyd go on and continue the family tradition of turning children into blinded child soldiers who dont know what theyre getting into . but his reunion with the ninja takes a lot longer and the monastery was thrown underground and hidden during the merge . because like. no way the monastrey is out in the open on a mountain and people are saying in the crossroads 'oh we miss the ninja' DUDE THEYRE RIGHT THERE ??? so yeah the ninja monastery is actually hidden and unable to be found properly by anybody else because its in like some random cave stuck half torn apart. lloyd stays there and just mopes and is a big loser in there for awhile
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zane - BABYT GIRL!!!! ok general infoooo š
any pronouns . doesnt care about pronouns . heh.... the ninja are woke now.... watch out liberals wait hold on no what are they called again whats the opposite one.
basics yeah . nindroid/robot species duuuh. elemental power is ice yadyada we all know this. has very enhanced senses and intelligence but is kind of not self aware of why. they have all the sensor stuff and can see things differently like a robot but they dont really register that theyre seeing things in a robot way. its like shoved to the back of their brain [+ you cant really tell what you experience is not normal if youre a social recluse who doesnt hang around other people]
robot reveal takes some building up to get to since i think crowding it all into one episode is kinda boring nah i wanna drag this on make it hurt yayddaaaa
languages: cant name them all he knows too many.
elemental power - he can just summon ice. but its not normal ice its his ice. when it melts it doesnt create water and it just. stops existing. its magic ice. he can also freeze water and manipulate the frozen water. when he does that then it can melt into water ya
elemental power side effects - makes a horrible squeaking noise from the ice being in contact with his metal body. not much of a side effect to him more so an annoyance to everybody elses eardrums. he also struggles to move his body when hes overusing his ice . it like gets inside his bolts and metal junk so he moves more slowly. he has to like sit it out and 'defrost' if he overuses his power since he wont be able to move or anything
hes very cold constantly . he doesnt feel it but everybody around him certainly does
i genuinely do not know how to approach the ice emperor season why did they just ignore him committing genocide haha guys guys please why did we just ignore that why is everybnody okay with that why did we just brush past that. i still want to include the ice emperor season but it needs to have more impact and consequences than it did and i dont know how to include that
the only ninja that knows how to cook anything properly. do not trust the others with a kitchen. ever.
his fighting build is kind of what i would consider a magic fighter ? hes skilled and follows his teachings very well but also works with his element quite frequently and doesnt rely too heavily on neither his element or fighting and uses them both when needed in combat.
when hes in school / before graduation he was a straight a student who asks if the class can have more homework to do for fun. biggest snitch ever in school [wont snitch if its his friends tho. well he wont purposely snitch. he might accidently though] he always carrys medical supplys and general life stuff with him at school incase anybody else needs them. hangs around the halls of the school the most and just roams them checking on people and breaking up any fights. sometimes gives himself a rest in the library as a treat
lives on his own in the centre of ninjago city
when he reunites with his father he takes him in to his house and they start living together
taught lloyd how to cook and do general chores like cleaning your clothing properly and doing the dishes [since darkleys never taught him how to and he never had a proper parental figure for most of his life to teach him the basics of life]
in terms of power stuff hes the most skilled in combat compared to all the other ninja.
he appears as human for a long time even after learning hes a robot hes still getting over it a little give him some time. when hes older during the whole downloaded to head stuff he gets convinced to stop hiding it though
likes classical music and sloppy tv dramas that are badly made. he will point out how bad the show is with the writing but he'll still watch until hes on season 26 and have his eyes glued to the screen and start mimicking the speaking mannerisms of the characters
kind of big change. him and pixal swap places with the whole downloading to head thing. it just makes more sense for me for the guy who died to be. the one in pieces and needing to be uploaded to survive. also my babygirl pixal deserves it as a treat
i kinda forgot how zane was revealed in dragon rising . but uh while he was stuck unactivated or whatever his body kind of just continued 'fixing' itself and upgrading itself on its own so hes like super advanced and a lot different looking in dragon rising
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nya - they did you so dirty in the early seasons nya i love you you deserved so much better
she her they them . Yeah. licks your foot
languages uhh - merlopian, common and has the ability to send general 'vibes' towards sea animals that know no intelligent language. like canon :p
human for now š after recovering from being one with the sea she kinda becomes not fully human and can breathe underwater and she zones out a lot and gets weird visions of stuff that happens in the sea Yay
still loves jay yes i couldnt erase that it would be a crime . im a jay x nya truther its one of my favourite relationships in all media theyre such a 'he makes me laugh :]' type relationship i love them
her being samurai x actually does something and after her identity being revealed she isnt immediately useless . why they do that
also she doesnt use a trident she uses weapons from her old samurai x stuff . all that time fighting as samurai x using a sword only to change to a trident? no way it was that easy of a switch and why would she switch to a weapon she doesnt know how to use as efficiently as a sword which she does know how to use . 'but it looks cool' ok . stab. stab. stab.
she works the hardest out of all the ninja. to the point its very unhealthy. shes constantly out fighting
elemental power - can take water from the air, any surrounding source or from herself and manipulate it. in general she can just manipulate water. thats her power. she can also cause changes in the weather and stuff it but that only happens later on because thats a big step up from 'i move water and change it to be as hard as a knife to be my weapon' to 'water in the clouds is MINE!!!'. she could only summon brand new water and not just manipulate existing water when she was bound to the sea. if she trained hard enough she could probably unlock it again.
elemental power side effects - dehydration [ shes taking water from her body. a tad bit obvious it would remove. the water. and make her dehydrated], overuse of power makes her zone out real bad and her body goes numb and she cant feel anything and sort of just runs on autopilot. her body is also always nagging her for water even if she doesnt need it because it knows that extra water is going to probably be used up on her powers
after seabound she has patches of blue tinted skin on her torso and she gains swirly sea like markings on it too. smiles
also her being apart of the sea takes longer to undo . can you tell i like seabound. have you picked up on that yet. its my favourite season of the og ninjago / before dragon rising
she gets random nosebleeds sometimes
she helps create mechs and gadgets for the ninja alongside jay . stealing this headcanon from my friend . you know who you are .
fighting style is tricky. id say she became really reliant on her powers after retiring samurai x but after seabound she started using her actual weapons a lot more frequently for both her health and because she went a long period of time without using them and kind of grew used to not. using them again. so shes more of a equal usage of power user like zane is but def not as skilled as zane is when figuring out when is a good time to use them and not. she gives me sorcerer / fighter vibes .
she lives with kai in the outskirts of ninjago city . they live in a apartment building where the owners probably slipped a 20 bill to whoever checked for the safety of that place . they also run a shop together
does NOT clean her room and neither does kai. their house is a genuine abomination
taught lloyd some basic tech stuff and would occasionally show him some of the fighting rings she used to go to so they could just observe how the people fight in there and stuff so lloyd could learn a little from that.
when she was in her samurai x arc she used to participate in fighting rings to build up her skills more
she gets into a lot of fights at school . very confident and sticks up for the little guy . likes to hang around the gym at lunch
she cuts her hair short a bit after becoming a ninja
tongue is bioluminescent and so is her blood. also her blood and tongue is blue. why not
she has a lot of scars all over her body, primarily from her samurai x years. she didnt get personal training from wu until later when she became a ninja so she was just fighting with her own fighting style she built up over the years from scuffles and fights in school and fighting rings so she played really dirty in her fighting. she did get a little bit of training from wu but because she wasnt considered a ninja by him until later she didnt get personal training and that training was more to pass the time and do something.
she has a lot of scars and some chunks of flesh missing from her fingers due to not handling equipment properly when doing repairs to her samurai x mech + the others mechs
she doesnt wear any jewerly [doesnt have any piercings either] except for a necklace which has her half of the yin-yang medallion
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cole - i like you. ill give you a potato as a gift
oni/human hybrid [oni is distant & from a few generations ago. its from his mothers side] the only oni physical features he has is thick skin and very small nub horns.
his build is much more of a physical hands on tough fighter type build. out of all the ninja he uses his elemental power the least [due to living in a city where tearing up the ground to fight somebody isnt considered acceptable] and he relys the most on his physical strength to handle the job. he uses his power more when they handle work outside of the city and more in the middle of nowhere
languages: common and very small amounts of munce's language which he learnt from geo when they were just passing time and bored. i really need a name for these languages
elemental power - its like nyas in the way it cant just be used to make the element and the element has to be sourced from around him. he manipulates earth from the world around him but he cant summon it. later in dragon rising he learns to create his own elemental earth because manipulating the earth from the merged lands gave him really bad headaches due to the Screaming
side effects - gets very stiff limbs and has really bad muscle pain. his skin is very tough both from his oni genes and his elemental power causing his skin to be 'hard like rock' so its really hard to stick needles in his skin or anything like that so medical assistance that requires a needle has to be handled differently when it comes to him.
doesnt listen to much music at first due to disliking it because of his father but later on learns to love it just to be himself and not follow his fathers influence and connect music with his father. he likes really intense and strong music
plays the drums at school and takes lessons purely because of his father. he skips very regularly and wastes his fathers money a lot lol.
kind of a quiet kid and keeps to himself.
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kai - i could put him inbetween my fingers like a worm and squish until he pops
he / him and SWAG
languages: some ancient forms of common that he learnt in class [he liked history class so he actually payed attention and listened] + common . he also knows a bit of serpentine
human ya. resident human of a group full of either non-humans or previously-human-but-no-longer-human-humans
has a little mini arc of feeling like hes not strong enough and cant contribute much to the team etc etc boo
elemental power - can summon fire and it can come from any part of the body [never does it to his hair though. cant ruin that style] he can also manipulate existing fire as long as its not being controlled by somebody else . if it is its a fight for power and whoever is stronger gets control of the fire . his elemental power is a bit of a reverse of how they usually work, he finds creating is own element to be much easier than manipulating existing forms of it
side effects - gets peeled skin and overheats sometimes. he gets a fever too
his bodys internal temperature is much warmer than your average humans
glows at night [his veins and chest are the brightest] hes very warm and acts like a heater to any room hes in when its nighttime.
also resident jock of the group totally. popular in school and used to be on the sports team before he dropped out of it due to not having time for sports anymore because Ninja Stuff.
picked up his parents work in their shop purely for money, he doesnt have much passion for his work. hes good at his work but he doesnt actually enjoy it
his mind wanders a lot and he can kind of spiral really easily sometimes . not that he will ever tell anybody that tho lol . a lot of his fights get to him and he takes them very personally to his character and thinks about them a ton . even if its the smallest fight . he picks apart at each of his flaws in the fight for hours.
all the ninja participate in helping lloyd learn to fight but he out of all of them works the hardest to teach lloyd everything. because of this lloyds fighting style somewhat mimics kais a bit more than all the others [all the ninja have similiar fighting styles even if they dont work too well with their builds or fighting type because they all trained together and learnt off eachother]
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jay - YEAAAAAA BABYYYY
might wokeify him and give him blue hair and pronouns [she her privledges]. we'll see. edit ok scratch it yes jay she/her and he/him pronouns woke minions woke me woke woke all ninja woke. only uses she/her after the merge tho
serpentine infected human !!! from the bite in rise of the snakes i think it was called . he just has scales and fangs and a small nub tail and his eyes are slit like a snakes
elemental power - can create electricity and manipulate existing electricity. works best summoned from his hands or a weapon any other surface being used to summon his power isnt too stable .
side effects - severe damage to body if overused or used in too much force. also he like always has that little static shock thing. whenever he touches somebody he gives them a little zap. also her hair is usually always really messy because of her power. she tries really hard to keep it down though because he thinks he looks silly with it all poofed out from electricity
out of all the elemental powers hers is the most unstable so a lot of her personal training is put into controlling it. he had to put the most work out of all the ninja into elemental control training.
his fighting style is much more of a mage build. he doesnt use physical fighting as much and relys more heavily on his elemental power
in terms of power her element is the strongest in raw untrained strength. she trained really hard to slowly perfect her control of it
she has a lot of scars primarily on her hands due to his work. he has chunks of the skin and flesh of her fingers missing and he has a few electricity scars running up his skin [from his left side primarily]
has more of a build made for agility rather than physical fighting due to his fighting style relying less on physical strength. he still has a ton of muscle though. all the ninja do. just he probably has the least amount because out of all the ninja he fights the least with physical strength . still can beat people up without his element though of course
she lives in a junkyard outside of the main city and bike rides to school everyday
works with nya on the mechs
idk how to handle dragon rising jay . i think im just gonna keep him as being apart of the administration rather than joining raz or all of that . ninjago teasing me with the beauty that is admin jay and then just throwing the concept in the trash smh. bring him back . i love admin jay . why did they literally do nothing with that concept dude bring him back. he can be a villain just not for raz instead for the admin
oh but yeah im gonna just completely blow up skybound and tournament of elements characterisation of jay that doesnt exist in here. useless love triangle? incel jay? what are you talking about? never heard of it
she occasionally wears jewerly . her most prized possession on herself is a necklace like nyas that contains his side of the yin-yang medallion
electricity sometimes changes color depending on points in the story . why ? idk i just want admin jay to have red lightning thats why. bites your pinkie finger off your hand.
wears skirts. hit post.
still worrys a lot but doesnt mean she isnt confident in battle. once he has a game plan set up for battle he barges through the door with full force and charges at the enemy . he just likes to analyse the situation and get a handle on it first before barging straight in [unless hes emotional, he might skip a few steps if hes emotional enough]. out of all the ninja theyre the most perceptive
teaches lloyd basic mech stuff alongside nya + brings him to comic stores and buys him stuff
sells her creations at market stalls and gets a ton of money through that.
can you tell that i was throwing beer at the screen when they revealed jay wasnt apart of the administration anymore. have you noticed i dont like raz sided jay yet. im fine with her being a villain but LET HER BE A OFFICE VILLAIN LET HER THROW PAPERWORK AT THE ENEMY!!!!!!!!!
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no designs for them yet but still important for story
misako . they did you so dirty i somewhat forgot you existed for a few seasons because they NEVER SHOW YOU . anyways her fake name is koko she uses it when shes in hiding. her battle name is the lady iron dragon
human
she / her
trans because why not 'then who gave birth to lloyd' lord garmadon. next question.
no elemental power just a sword and a dream
ex-warrior. im smashing koko and misako together . yes . i like them both [misako still my fav though] misako met the garmadon brothers when she was fighting on the opposite of a battle [she wasnt really very aligned to them, she just owed some people a favour and fought for them because of that] . she won the battle and kept them hostage before talking a little with them and letting them go . they hit off ever since and became friends .
she was one of garmadons biggest opponents after he went really into the evil side. they sort of became offical enemies a few months before lloyd was born . they had a huge custody battle after lloyds birth [aka a literal battle . its a oni tradition lol] garmy lost but also garmy is like evil as hell and does not care about breaking laws or tradition anymore and only proposed the option because his ego is big and he thought he'd win . next thing after that garmy tried stealing lloyd away despite losing the battle so misako had to give up lloyd for his safety .
she eventually went into hiding going under a different name [koko] and dyed her hair orange so she couldnt be as easily recognised. she still has wrinkles though ninjago movie writers are weak they should of made her old. shes spent a long time looking for lloyd but lost him since she was so distracted fighting garmy
now she just works as a emergency services doctor. her dream job was to be a archaeologist but she did it for awhile and it brought way too much attention to her name so she had to drop it [even though she goes by a fake name and appearance she still doesnt want her fake identity getting any large publicity] . maybe one day when she gets garmadon off her back she can finally live out her dream job.
she reunites with lloyd after he gets severely injured trying to be the green ninja too early. the ninja bring him to the hospital because they cant treat his injurys on their own due to them being too severe and they all meet misako. misako joins the ninja force and semi takes on her mantle as the iron dragon again. not as much anymore, only when her son needs protection and she has to jump in
shes still a very experienced warrior and knows how to kick butt. just she doesnt do it much anymore because it wouldnt work well for people to recognise she has the exact same fighting style as the long missing warrior lady iron dragon.
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garmadon [i call him garmy]
oni/dragon 50/50. same as before. his dad the fsm just did mitosis or something to make him and wu idk. they just zapped into existence. if he can make whole realms out of existence im sure he can do asexual reproduction and make two children
he/him
as i said before hes a much longer built up villain . he doesnt get brought back 24/7 because that hurts my brain and it just makes him a less terrifying villain and more like a occasional nuance. throwing beer at the tv when i see the 5th ninjago season centered around lloyd and garmadons relationship SNOREEEEEEEE. give it more of a build up
has red markings on skin due to venom
crys fire because i love that feature in the movie its so cool
so yeah . he only gets referenced more and more and hes built up a lot in image before hes actually finally revealed. hes a lot more intimidating and much more affected by the venom than canon garmy and hes killed a ton of people . hes like a really really bad guy whos fully infected by the venom
he has more dragon features than canon but majority of them are oni centered features.
his human form isnt what he actually looks like 'cured' or whatever its just a human disguise he uses to be accepted by others and seem more friendly and not a bad guy . this happens after the venom is mostly purged from his body ya
non human features aka stuff from being a oni are black and purple with some whites.
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oni/dragon . hides his true form unlike his brother garmy who does not give a fauk who sees his true form.
has primarily dragon features not too many oni compared to garmy who has a couple dragon features alongside his more dominant oni ones
non human features aka dragon stuff are gold and white with some small purples.
lowkey kind of a horrible teacher who teaches literal children how to be soldiers but thats just because hes ancient old and not used to new ways + his father wasnt that good . of a father . and didnt teach him very well either. he cares about his students greatly but hes inexperienced and was taught by a bad teacher [aka. his father]
still has a crush on misako lowkey such a loser for her . im a wu / misako truther . she deserves better than that FREAK garmy and im not letting him break her heart
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ok im still working on the other characters come back later. also still workin on the ninja
#SERPENTINE RISING#grabs your arm and rips it clean off your shoulder [thats just me stimming]#ninjago#ninjago au#ninjago rewrite#jay walker#lloyd garmadon#kai smith#nya smith#cole#idk his full name#lol#lloyd#kai#nya#jay#zane#i do not remember zanes full name either#my art#double d art#ninjago fanart#ninjago headcanons
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ME TRYNA GIVE YOUR FIC ALL THE HEARTS IN THE FUCKING WORLD
WHAT THE FUCK ALLLIEEEE WHAT THE FUCK
Unfortunately I have to requote your entire fic back to you I'm so sorry
āQuit squirming or Iām going to turn this constellation into a penis,ā you griped, lifting your machine from Siriusā leg.
HOW COULD YOU START YOUR FIC LIKE THIS????? HOW COULD YOU BE SO FUNNY AND WITTY AND ENDEARING AND WELL-WRITTEN WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU ššššššš¤š¤š¤š¤š¤š¤
āSadist,ā he hissed.
š«¦š«¦š«¦š«¦š«¦ SO WHAT????
āSaid the masochist that paid me to stab him a million times.ā
EAT HIM UP. ALLIE ARE YOU CONVERTING ME INTO A SIRIUS GIRLIE????? I FEAR I FEAR HIM COS GART OLDMAN WAS SO SCARY TO ME IN THE FILMS I FEAR I FEAR I FEAR THE CHILD IN ME CAN SEE HIM IN MY MINDS EYES BUT THE WOMAN IN ME IS LIKE š¤Ŗ I LIKE SCARY MEN NOW THO?????? AHHAHAHAHAAHNSIDDNNCJDKKD
He glanced down at you. āAre you flirting with me?ā
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Just then, the bell on the front door or you shop chimed. A tall man with sandy hair, dressed in jeans and thick sweater stood in the foyer, looking around at the art and plants strewn about. Given your profession, you immediately noticed his lack of tattoos, and the scars marring his hands and neck, one even stretching from his sharp jaw towards his nose.
Das my ride yall
āMoony!ā Sirius called, jerking his leg and nearly inking himself.
YOU MEAN MY HUSBAND š¤¬š¤¬ GET IT RIGHT BLACK ITS FIRST NAME MY LAST NAME HUSBAND. YOU DONT KNOW ANYTHING ALSO STOP FUCKING MOVING YOU LARVA YOU WORM
Then, his eyes flicked to you, a deep brown and sallow with exhaustion, but his beauty struck you like a blow, the lines of his face coalescing in a way that would make the great painters weep.
[VIOLENTLY SHAKING] I NEED TO WRAP HIM LIKE A BURRITO
Based on the countless stories Sirius had told you in the hours spent on your table, you surmised that this was Remus Lupin, his level-headed, long-suffering schoolmate.
Wrong. That's my chair. My comfy beefy bed. My warm biteable pillow. You fool. You imbecile. You misguided spirit
You sighed and set your machine aside. Clearly, you were taking a break.
ššššššš¤ IM CRYING YOU WRITE SO BEAUTIFULLY SO WELL SO AMAZING SO VIVID IM BITING YOUR BRAIN NOM NOM NOM
āRemus, this is y/n, the architect of my beauty,ā Sirius said, gesturing grandly in your direction.
Sigh. Fine. Smash. Give me Sirius right now. I'm gonna eat him up
HO IS YOU A POET WHY YOU SPEAK LIKE THAT
āWell, then thereās no where to go but up,ā he said with a cheeky wink, and your heart damn near leaped out of your mouth.
š¤ hoping it's up
āMoony wants to know if you can tattoo over scars,ā Sirius said, earning a glare from Remus.
With my thighs????? I thought you'd never ask
āReally. Iāve tattooed over dozens of scars, cover-ups, or decorations. Iād love to work with you.ā Merlin, did you just say that out loud? You needed to get it together; you were a professional.
WRONG YOU SHOULD HAVE JUMPED HIS BONES THE MOMENT YOW SAW HIM. WEAK PIECE OF SHIT ššššš
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āAHH YOU WITCH!ā Sirius wailed.
š¤Ø says the witch?
āBloody hell, I knew you two would get along. Youāve got twin scowls,ā Sirius chuckled, leaning back against the table with his hands behind his head.
The fact you didn't do this sooner is criminal
āYouāre really good,ā he murmured, close enough that you could smell the wool of his sweater, the lingering notes of cinnamon and tea from his cologne. āItās beautiful.ā
āThanks, Rem,ā
āāāāā REM YOU JUST MET AND YOURE CALLING HIM REMMMMMMM SKSKSKKSKJSKSJSJSJSBSHSBSBSISKKSSK š«”š«”š«”š«” RIZZLER I FEAR
He was like an anxious thundercloud, tense and unsteady, and it made your chest tight with empathy.
AN ANXIOUS THUNDERCLOUD IS CRAZY WHAT RHE FUCK
He sat down, coiled in on himself despite his long limbs. Like he was afraid to take up too much space.
HES SO
āIt's justāā he sighed, lifting his arm. He started to roll up his shirt sleeve, dexterous fingers folding the fabric neatly over itself, revealing inch after inch of his forearm. Lightly tanned and taut with lean muscle, veins tangling with the map of scars littering his skin.
Lick. ((I am nothing but a dog))
You tried to stay neutral, but you were practically salivating. He was so beautiful.
YOU AND ME BOTH SISTER IM GNAWING AT THE BARS OF ME ENCLOSURE š¹š¹š¹š¹š¤¤š¤¤š¤¤š¤¤š« š« š« š«
Remusā profile floated into your minds eye, sorrowful and striking, and your pen started to move of itās own accord. His expression came to life under your hand, with long lashes and a crooked nose and that jagged scar.
š«µIš«µKNOWš«µWHATš«µYOUš«µAREš«µSIMMMPPPPPš«µ
āWhatever you say, love,ā he murmured, getting comfortable. Entirely oblivious to the way the petname made your thoughts turn to static.
āNo wonder Sirius like this so much,ā he said, tracing your face with his eyes. āWatching you work is fascinating.ā
Sirius is also in love with me š it's hard being THAT gworl š£
āThat does sound like Sirius,ā he chuckled. āI like your focused face much more than that scowl.ā
Sit on it. HUH WHO SAID THAT (me)
āCharming? Sweet? Clever?ā You asked, glancing up at him. āSirius talks about you like you hung the moon.ā
š„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš«š«š«š«š«š«š«š«š«SHE GETS ME YOU TELL HIM GIRLIE RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
You shrugged. āI figured youād tell me if you felt comfortable. Iām not here to pry, just help.ā
We love an emotionally intelligent girlie
Before leaving, he placed another appointment on your books for the following week, this time asking for a tree along the back of his calf, the roots spreading across the scaring he had there.
I dont remember what I wanted to say but I bet it was something inappropriate š«¦
Your sketchbook was filling with sketches of him, like you mind needed a place to spill your overflowing thoughts of him. With him, it was like every sound was heightened, every movement sharper, the very colors in the room more vibrant. Overwhelming in the best way.
š«µ SIMMMMMMMPPPPPPPPPP
He huffed a laugh, seeming a bit shy himself. āYes maāam.ā In a fluid motion, he hooked his fingers under his sweater and tugged it overhead. His chest was tanned and lined with lean muscle, the kind built outdoors, not in the gym. The scaring was worse, deeper gauges in softer flesh, but you barely registered it, too busy staring at the half-healed red slash across his ribs.
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You were already starting to gather that Remus wasā¦different. And you'd only met one other person with scars that matched his, and they also always cancelled around the full moon.
We got blue's clues up in here
Remus seemed to pick up on your dilemma and slowly spread his knees, allowing you to step between them. The heat of his body was intense, drawing you closer, but you swallowed your impulse, trying to focus instead on the moon and constellations you were mapping out.
š«µ WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO-
āYou smell nice,ā he hummed, close enough that you felt his breath tickle the hair around your ear.
Eat me then š
āYāknow, I probably shouldnāt say this, but IāI missed you the last two weeks.ā Remusā voice was low, just above a whisper, resonant like a drum in his chest. You wanted to wrap it around you like a blanket.
WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN SHOULDNT SAY THIS YOU BUFFOON YOU ABSOLUTE CANDLESTICK YOU NINNYHAMER YOU JOBBERNOWL
āBrilliant. I love them, and theyāre very effective.ā He waggled his eyebrows, and you and Remus rolled your eyes.
BROTHER EUGH WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEYRE VERY EFFECTIVE
James lifted his shirt, revealing a peak of his washboard abs, framed by a pair of sprawling antlers across his hip bones. You leaned a bit closer, checking for any faded spots or ink spreading.
FUCKING hell
Was heā¦jealous?
HE BETTER FUCKING BE
āWould you ever get a tattoo like that?ā You asked, glancing up at him through your lashes.
LICKING HIM SO MUCH
You met his eyes. āYou should give me a little more credit, Moony.ā
She really said
And I respect her for it. She a bsddie
āIt's risky, yāknow, to flirt with your tattoo artist,ā you murmured, grazing your fingers over the mostly healed goldenrod tattoo. āYou've got a permanent reminder of me.ā
She's so smart I love her I will shove my tongue down her throat. So hot. She is me. Holy shit am I a narcissist
He smirked, his hand sliding into the hair at the nape of your neck. āWell, the thing about werewolvesā¦ā he was so close, warm breath fanning across your lips. āWe're a possessive sort, territorial. So having your mark on my skinā¦ā he sighed, eyes dark with desire. āI'm finding it hard to hold myself back.ā
WHAT THE FUCKING SHIT IS STOPPING YOU COS IT AINT FUCKING ME
Remus surged forward, lips colliding in a heady, toe-curling kiss. You immediately gave into him, his tongue caressing the seam of your mouth, dipping past your lips to taste you, claim you.
āBe gentle with me,ā he grated, kissing along your cheek, down towards your throat. He craned your head back, grazing his teeth along your pulse, and you shivered. āIām trying to savor this, not devour you.ā
I CAN BE GENTLE BUT DONT GET IT TWISTED IVE BEEN TRYNA DEVOUR YOU THE MOMENT YOU WALKED IN FUCKER ššššš
āPatience, dove,ā he chastised affectionately, lifting his head. āJust be good for me, yeah? Youāll get what you want.ā
Your brain emptied. Seeing this dominant side of Remus had you folding like origami. You nodded, letting him drag you in for another languid, bone-melting kiss.
āļø FOLDEDāļøLIKEāļøORIGAMIāļø IM CRYINGGGGGGG WHAT THE FUCKKKK šššššššš IM GOING TO CREAM MY PANTS ON HOW GOOD IT IS
āTell me if you want me stop,ā he said, shifting to kiss around your navel.
THE DAY I TELL YOU TO STOP THEY NEED TO PUT ME DOWN
āDon't stop. Please don't stop,ā you pleaded, and he smiled against your hip before sucking the skin between his teeth, biting at your flesh just hard enough you make you keen.
š« šš¤š«Øš¤Ŗš£š«š¹ IM FINE THIS IS FINE. SHE PASSED THE TEST THAT IS THE ONLY CORRECT RESPONSE
The table shifted, rocking back a bit, and you looked past Remus' hair tangled in your fingers to his body. He was rocking his hips against the edge of the table, so turned on by the act of eating you out that he needed some relief.
IM GONNA GET PREGNANT IF YOU DONT STOP
āRem, baby,ā you whined, the sight dragging you that much closer to release. He glanced up at you, his eyes glazed and pussydrunk, and he whimpered against you.
I'm legally obligated to say I feel so bad for Britney I nearly use this gif but I don't like using people I don't kin as meme reactions and I love women so #freebritney
āGood fucking girl,ā he growled, withdrawing his fingers to lap directly from you, savoring every drop of his efforts. āThat's it, love. Relax fāme.ā He brought you back to earth with his tongue, long, languid licks and kisses around your trembling center, across your inner thigh slung over his shoulder.
Little did he know I would give him 10000000000 babies. Fucking hell I need a blunt (don't smoke)
He made his way up your body, catching your words in a messy, top-lip kiss. āGot your mark all over me now, dove,ā he purred, pecking your cheek with a cheeky grin.
HES INSANE ACTUALLY OK THX
āIām, ah, a bit embarrassed to say that I did.ā He straightened with a sheepish smile, revealing the dark spot leaking through his jeans.
YOU DONT EVEN KNOW YOU DONT EVEN KNOW YOU DONT EVEN KNOW
I WANT HIM SO BAD I WANT HIM SO BAD
HI ALLIE CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR 1000 FOLLOWERS I THINK ABSOLUTELY DESERVED BECAUSE YOUR WORK IS INCREDIBLE YOU ATE THAT UP SLAYYYYYYYYYYYYY
I............ I have never submitted a request, unless I was explicitly asked by the writer because ksjdjdjjjsjsj ME ASKING FOR SOMETHING?????? SNSJSJSJ ANYWAY I was like it should be fine because it's for your celebration SOOO hear me out. Remus Lupin ? IM GOING THRU A REMUS THING ? 1000 scars/1000 glances???? WHICHEVER IS FINE YOURE GONNA EAT WITH THAT
WEE OK BYE I LOVE YOU BYE
xxx
ilysm and I hope this only deepens your Remus fixation š«¶š» thank you so much for all of your love and support, I genuinely get excited when I see you pop up in my feed or notifs. my favorite hanni š¤
1000 inked scars | R.L.
feat. Remus Lupin x tattooartist!reader
cw: mdni 18+, possessive!Remus, marking kink, oral (fem receiving), tattoo needles and tattooing, mentions of injury and scars, probably inaccurate representation of tattooing in the 70's, no war
1000 things prompt list (closes feb 1!) | masterlist
āQuit squirming or Iām going to turn this constellation into a penis,ā you griped, lifting your machine from Siriusā leg.
āMaybe if you didnāt handle that gun like a cudgelāā
You slapped his fresh tattoo and he yelped. āPull yourself together, Black. Youāre almost done.ā
He groaned, slumping back onto the table with his arms slung over his head. āSadist,ā he hissed.
You resumed your tattooing, packing black ink to the map of stars. āSaid the masochist that paid me to stab him a million times.ā
He glanced down at you. āAre you flirting with me?ā
You glared up at him.
Just then, the bell on the front door or you shop chimed. A tall man with sandy hair, dressed in jeans and thick sweater stood in the foyer, looking around at the art and plants strewn about. Given your profession, you immediately noticed his lack of tattoos, and the scars marring his hands and neck, one even stretching from his sharp jaw towards his nose.
āMoony!ā Sirius called, jerking his leg and nearly inking himself.
āSirius,ā you bit, but he was already out of the chair.
āWhatāsāuh, whatās up, Pads?ā the stranger, Moony?, said, glancing down at Siriusā rolled up pant leg and the nearly finished tattoo on his calf. Then, his eyes flicked to you, a deep brown and sallow with exhaustion, but his beauty struck you like a blow, the lines of his face coalescing in a way that would make the great painters weep.
Based on the countless stories Sirius had told you in the hours spent on your table, you surmised that this was Remus Lupin, his level-headed, long-suffering schoolmate.
āI wanted you to meet my friend!ā Sirius grabbed his by the elbow and dragged him towards your station.
You sighed and set your machine aside. Clearly, you were taking a break.
āRemus, this is y/n, the architect of my beauty,ā Sirius said, gesturing grandly in your direction.
You slid off one of your gloves and extended it to Remus. āPleasure. Iāve heard loads about you.ā
āOh?ā Remus asked, shaking your hand with a light touch, his skin warm and a bit rough. āTerrible things, I wager?ā
āThe worst,ā you chuckled, and the corner of his mouth twitched up into a half-smile.
āWell, then thereās no where to go but up,ā he said with a cheeky wink, and your heart damn near leaped out of your mouth.
āI asked Moony to come hang out for the last bit of the tattoo so he could pick your brain,ā Sirius said, hopping back up onto the table.
āSiriusāā
āPick my brain about what?ā You asked, pulling up a chair for Remus and sitting back onto your stool, putting on a fresh pair of gloves.
āI, uhāā
āMoony wants to know if you can tattoo over scars,ā Sirius said, earning a glare from Remus.
āAbsolutely!ā you chirped, hoping to dispel Remusā clear discomfort. āJust takes a few extra passes, but it shouldnāt be an issue.ā
Remus gave you a small, grateful smile. āReally?ā
āReally. Iāve tattooed over dozens of scars, cover-ups, or decorations. Iād love to work with you.ā Merlin, did you just say that out loud? You needed to get it together; you were a professional.
āSee, Moons? I told you!ā Sirius propped his leg back up, and you fired up the machine. āAnd it doesnāt even hurt.ā
You lowered the machine back to his leg, taking a few quick warm up strokes.
āAHH YOU WITCH!ā Sirius wailed. You and Remus both jumped at his shouting, but he quickly dissolved into laughter. āBloody hell, I knew you two would get along. Youāve got twin scowls,ā Sirius chuckled, leaning back against the table with his hands behind his head.
You glanced at Remus, and he looked back at you. A flicker of connection flared between you, and heat rose in your cheeks. Quickly, you looked away, turning your attention back to Siriusā tattoo.
āSo, what are you thinking you want to get, Rem?ā Sirius asked after a few moments of quiet, the buzzing of the machine filling the air.
Remus shrugged. āHadnāt really thought about it. Just wanted to doā¦something.ā
āWell, if you want, we can try and cover any up. But I find that people really get more out of going the decorative route,ā you supplied, looking at Remus while you picked up more ink. āI can hand draw a few designs that flow with the scar, turn it into an art piece itself.ā
Remus was quiet for a moment, contemplative, and Sirius gave you a knowing smile. āI think I might like that, yeah,ā Remus said, his voice soft, almost awestruck. Like heād never ever considered the possibility before.
As a tattoo artist, you were intimately aware of how much a personās skin could impact their well being, scars in particular weighed heavily on many peopleās spirit. Remus, it seemed, was no exception.
Sirius guided the conversation in another direction, giving Remus a chance to process the implications of what you offered, and you finished the tattoo half-an-hour later. While you were wiping it down, Remus hovered over you, looking down at the piece.
āYouāre really good,ā he murmured, close enough that you could smell the wool of his sweater, the lingering notes of cinnamon and tea from his cologne. āItās beautiful.ā
āThanks, Rem,ā you said, smiling up at him, and he smiled back, a flush creeping up his neck before he hurriedly stepped away.
You patched up Sirius and sent the boys on their way, an appointment for Remus on the books for the following week. All heād given you to work with was placement, his forearm, and that he wanted something natural, like a plant.
Having no more appointments for the evening, you folded yourself into your studio couch with your sketchbook. You sketched a few things, lavender and roses and chamomile, but your fingers itched to draw something else. Remusā profile floated into your minds eye, sorrowful and striking, and your pen started to move of itās own accord. His expression came to life under your hand, with long lashes and a crooked nose and that jagged scar.
You clapped your sketchbook shut, sitting back with a sigh.
Next week couldnāt come quickly enough.
You paced around your shop, pouring over your sketch for Remus. You wanted it to be perfect for him, lest you scare him off a tattooing forever.
The door chimes, startling you out of your concentration, and Remus strode in, carrying a tray of drinks and a paper bag
āMorning!ā You chirped, hugging your sketchbook to your chest.
āMorning,ā he said, passing you one of the cups. āI asked Sirius what you liked, so if it's awful, blame him.ā
Butterflies fluttered to life in your stomach. It wasn't unusual for clients to bring you coffee and food, but with Remus it feltā¦different.
āOh! You didn't have to do that. Thank you, Remus,ā you said, taking a sip. It was your favorite drink, and it's familiar warmth settled some of your nerves.
He gave you a small smile, but you could tell he was nervous. He set the bag on your desk. āI also brought some pastries. Sirius mentioned you like chocolate?ā
āI love chocolate.ā You beamed. āCome on in, we can sit over here and go over the design.ā
Remus nodded, shirking his coat and following you over to the couch. He was like an anxious thundercloud, tense and unsteady, and it made your chest tight with empathy.
āHow are you feeling?ā You asked, patting the spot beside you.
He sat down, coiled in on himself despite his long limbs. Like he was afraid to take up too much space. āAh, fine,ā he replied, taking a sip of his drink. Earl gray, from the smell of it.
You arched a brow. āIt's okay to be nervous, Rem,ā you said. āBut it's just us, and nothing is set in ink. If you change your mind, it's totally fine.ā
āIt's justāā he sighed, lifting his arm. He started to roll up his shirt sleeve, dexterous fingers folding the fabric neatly over itself, revealing inch after inch of his forearm. Lightly tanned and taut with lean muscle, veins tangling with the map of scars littering his skin.
He watched your face, gauging your reaction. You tried to stay neutral, but you were practically salivating. He was so beautiful.
āAre they too bad?ā He asked, his voice rough with tension.
You met his brown eyes. āNot at all.ā You pulled out your sketchbook, flipping to the page you had ear marked. āAnd it's perfect for what I sketched up.ā
He managed a half-smile, some of the clouds disappearing from his aura, and accepted the sketchbook when you handed it to him. His eyes widened.
āGoldenrod,ā you said, shifting closer to look at the sketch over his shoulder. āUsed to treat pain.ā
Remus traced his finger over the tangle of stems, the delicate florals. āI take it almost everyday,ā he murmured, looking over at you, his eyes warm and full of something you couldn't quite place.
āSo, what do you think?ā You asked, your gazes lingering on one another.
āI think it's perfect,ā he said, and you smiled, genuinely thrilled that he liked it.
āOkay, ready for me to start sketching?ā You asked, and he nodded. You led him over to your station, already set up and waiting for him, and he hoped up onto the chair,, his long limbs dangling near to the floor. To break the quiet, you put on a muggle record, and Remus seemed to relax a bit, sipping on his tea and watching you putter around through dark lashes.
When you settled onto your stool, ink pen in hand, anxiety bloomed in your stomach. Remus was about to watch you draw on him. Youād drawn on hundreds of clients, but like everything else, with Remus it feltā¦different.
āIt might tickle,ā you warned, resting his arm where you wanted it, your fingertips tingling from the contact. āAnd try to stay very still.ā
āWhatever you say, love,ā he murmured, getting comfortable. Entirely oblivious to the way the petname made your thoughts turn to static.
You placed your sketchbook just beside his arm and made the first line, a quick stem arching alongside a scar stretching from wrist to elbow. Slowly, line after line, the sketch started to come together, flowing with the natural shape of his forearm and itās scars. You got lost in the act, sinking into the labor of creating.
It wasnāt until Remus made a soft, approving hum in his throat that you peaked up him, breaking your focus. His eyes were almost sleepy, heavy-lidded and soft and the corners, a smile tugging at his lips.
āNo wonder Sirius like this so much,ā he said, tracing your face with his eyes. āWatching you work is fascinating.ā
Heat roared to your cheeks. āOh, I donātāhe seems more interested in teasing me than letting me work.ā
āThat does sound like Sirius,ā he chuckled. āI like your focused face much more than that scowl.ā
Merlin, what was happening to you? You felt like you could melt into your chair like a pile of pudding. Was he flirting with you? Or does he always talk like a romance book hero?
āHow long have you guys known each other?ā You asked, changing the subject and ducking back down to your work to hide your expression.
āDecade at least,ā Remus said. āWe met our first year at Hogwarts. Never thought Iād befriend the Sirius Black, but yāknow, stranger things have happened.ā
āWhyād you think that?ā
Remus shrugged, the muttered a soft apology for moving. āSirius isā¦Sirius, and Iāmā¦ā
āCharming? Sweet? Clever?ā You asked, glancing up at him. āSirius talks about you like you hung the moon.ā
A flush creeped up his neck. āHeās dramatic.ā
āAnd brutally honest,ā you said, holding his gaze.
āCan I ask you something?ā Now it was his turn to change the subject.
āOf course,ā you said, capping your pen and setting it aside.
āWhy havenāt you, ah, asked?ā He glanced down at his scars, and you know what he was implying.
You shrugged. āI figured youād tell me if you felt comfortable. Iām not here to pry, just help.ā
His eyes flitted over your face, swallowing hard, and it seemed he was at a loss for words.
āReady for ink?ā You asked, giving him as reassuring of a smile as you could muster.
He exhaled, turning his wrist to inspect the design. āReady.ā
The rest of the appointment flew by, with Remus sitting like a stone while you tattooed him for close to four hours. You didnāt speak much, letting the music fill the empty air, but it was a comfortable silence, broken by the occasional question or annecdote. Remus seemed to appreciate being able to relax, and you were happy to give him a safe place for little while. Holding space for what this moment meant to him.
When you were finished, Remus stared at the tattoo in the mirror for a long time, and when he turned back for you to wrap it up, you could see tears collecting on his lower lashes.
"Thank you for this," he said, clearing his throat. "You were--this was amazing."
You knew he meant the art, but still, the praise made your heart glow all the same. "Of course, Remus. I'm glad I got to be the one to do this for you."
Before leaving, he placed another appointment on your books for the following week, this time asking for a tree along the back of his calf, the roots spreading across the scaring he had there.
After Remusā second and third appointment, you noticed a change in him. He seemed more confident, a little more outspoken. He was coming to life before your eyes, and you were starting to see the fuller picture of the boy Sirius loved so much.
Already, you felt so close to him. Connected. And you were starting to miss him those days in between, his appointment becoming the highlight of your week. Your sketchbook was filling with sketches of him, like you mind needed a place to spill your overflowing thoughts of him. With him, it was like every sound was heightened, every movement sharper, the very colors in the room more vibrant. Overwhelming in the best way.
But then he cancelled your fourth appointment, citing illness, and you didnāt see him for two weeks. It wasnāt until he sent and owl requesting an appointment for this coming Friday that you finally felt like you could breathe.
Sorry again for cancelling. Are you free this Friday? Thinking a moon and stars on my chest, with those gorgeous clouds I saw in your sketchbook. Canāt wait, RL.
When Remus walked into your studio, you had to stop yourself from hugging him, you were so excited to see him. He looked tired, a little dimmer than the last time you saw him, but he greeted you with a warm smile and a bag of pastries, and that was all you needed.
You had him sit up on the table, busying yourself with the station in avoidance of the inevitable. He was going to have to take his shirt off. Your heart was palpitating just thinking about it.
āAlright, Rem. Strip for me,ā you said, ripping the metaphorical bandaid off.
He huffed a laugh, seeming a bit shy himself. āYes maāam.ā In a fluid motion, he hooked his fingers under his sweater and tugged it overhead. His chest was tanned and lined with lean muscle, the kind built outdoors, not in the gym. The scaring was worse, deeper gauges in softer flesh, but you barely registered it, too busy staring at the half-healed red slash across his ribs.
You gasped. āRem, what happened?ā
āWould you believe me if I said I was in a fight club?ā He rubbed the back of his head, averting his eyes from yours.
āNo, but you donāt have to tell me anything. Just that youāre alright,ā you said, unable to mask the warble of concern in your voice. You were already starting to gather that Remus wasā¦different. And you'd only met one other person with scars that matched his, and they also always cancelled around the full moon.
His eyes softened. āIām alright, dove. Donāt worry about me.ā
āIām the only one that gets to gauge you with weapons,ā you huffed, grabbing up your sketching marker.
He barked a laugh, head tipping back on his shoulders. āFair enough. Only you get to wound me permanently from now on.ā
āGlad we reached an understanding.ā You propped the sketchbook on the table and leaned in to start sketching. Remus sat up as straight as he could, resulting in your head hovering around his clavicle. But, with his long legs, you couldnāt get close enough.
Remus seemed to pick up on your dilemma and slowly spread his knees, allowing you to step between them. The heat of his body was intense, drawing you closer, but you swallowed your impulse, trying to focus instead on the moon and constellations you were mapping out.
As you drew, you started to shift closer, drawn in by the work and his proximity, the clean smell of his skin, until you were practically leaning against him.
āYou smell nice,ā he hummed, close enough that you felt his breath tickle the hair around your ear.
You nearly dropped the marker, but managed to keep your grip steady. āSo do you,ā you said, unable to come up with something clever.
āYāknow, I probably shouldnāt say this, but IāI missed you the last two weeks.ā Remusā voice was low, just above a whisper, resonant like a drum in his chest. You wanted to wrap it around you like a blanket.
You looked up at him, lips slightly parted in shock, so close you could brush your nose against his if you moved a hair closer. āYou did?ā You asked, certain that if pupils could turn into lovehearts, yours would be beaming out of your head like a cartoon.
His hand came up to caress you jaw, tentative and gentle. āBeing with you is the best Iāve felt in ages,ā he said, tilting your face a little closer to his. āI donātāā
The bell to your studio rang loudly, and you jumped back from Remusā hold, nearly tripping over your stool.
āHey Moony! Thereās my favorite artist!ā James came plowing through, wrapping you up in a bearhug that squeezed the air from your lungs. āHow are you, sweetness?ā
āIām good, Jamie,ā you wheezed, and he set you back on your feet.
The boys clasped hands, a quick, almost automatic handshake.
āWhat are you doing here, Prongs?ā Remus asked, trying and failing at not looking irritated.
āSirius said you were getting some ink today so I figured Iād swing by and have you take a peak at how mineās healing.ā
āJames, itās been like six months. Your antlers healed fine,ā you reminded him.
āYou did his antlers?ā Remus asked, a flicker of something dark passing through his eyes.
You nodded. āYeah, you didnāt know?ā
He shook his head, glancing sidelong at his friend.
āI suppose it might be time for a touch up. Let me see,ā you sighed, crossing your arms over your chest.
James lifted his shirt, revealing a peak of his washboard abs, framed by a pair of sprawling antlers across his hip bones. You leaned a bit closer, checking for any faded spots or ink spreading.
āLooks perfect, Jamie. All good,ā you said, sitting back on your stool, mildly impressed with yourself.
āBrilliant. I love them, and theyāre very effective.ā He waggled his eyebrows, and you and Remus rolled your eyes.
James hung out for another hour, chatting with Remus while you finished the sketch of the tattoo. Your bodies were just as close as before, but with James, you were forced to keep it strictly professional. But the proximity without being allowed to touch was melting your mind, making heat pool in your lower belly. You could feel every breath Remus took, feel the rumble of his voice in your chest, the warmth of his body mingling with yours.
It was maddening, and you could tell Remus was growing more impatient by the second, the muscles around his neck taught with tension, his fingers twitching against his thighs.
At one point, you laughed at one of Jamesā jokes and swatted at his chest, earning a smile from him. When you glanced back at Remus, his jaw was clenched tight, eyes glaring a hole into the drink in his hands.
Was heā¦jealous?
He had no right to be, but still, the thought of him being possessive made your heart rate quicken.
Finally, James left, leaving you and Remus alone in the simmering tension you'd built. He watched you closely as you returned to your station, prepping the tattoo machine.
āWould you ever get a tattoo like that?ā You asked, glancing up at him through your lashes.
He leaned back on the seat, bracing his hands behind him. Showing off the lean expanse of his torso, the rugged look of him that stood in sharp juxtaposition to his style and personality. āNot sure I could pull it off.ā
You scoffed, allowing him to see you peruse his body. āI strongly disagree.ā
He chewed on his lower lip, a nervous habit. A flush started to spread across his chest, reaching towards his cheeks. āWhat would you suggest?ā he asked, a sultry edge of his voice.
Unhurried, you stepped back between his legs, letting your fingertips graze along the valleys of his lower abdomen. āPerhaps a snake.ā You traced the shape along his skin, his muscles tensing to stop himself from shivering. āOr ferns. Maybe a wolfs jawāā
āA wolfs jaw?ā He asked, quirking an eyebrow at you.
You met his eyes. āYou should give me a little more credit, Moony.ā
He blinked at you, clearly taken aback that you knew his secret. āYou knew.ā
āI do now. I've only seen scars like yours once before, on another werewolf. And with the nickname, your tattoo choices, being MIA on the full moonā¦it adds up.ā
His eyes searched your face. āAnd you don't care?ā
āOf course not. I care about you, not your affliction.ā Your hands still lingered on his hips, like your skin was magnetized together, you couldn't seem to pull them apart.
Remus straightened, his hand coming up to cup your face again. āI haven't been able to stop thinking about you,ā he breathed. āYouāve gotten under my skin, dove.ā
āIt's risky, yāknow, to flirt with your tattoo artist,ā you murmured, grazing your fingers over the mostly healed goldenrod tattoo. āYou've got a permanent reminder of me.ā
He smirked, his hand sliding into the hair at the nape of your neck. āWell, the thing about werewolvesā¦ā he was so close, warm breath fanning across your lips. āWe're a possessive sort, territorial. So having your mark on my skinā¦ā he sighed, eyes dark with desire. āI'm finding it hard to hold myself back.ā
āThen don't,ā you replied, heart in your throat.
Remus surged forward, lips colliding in a heady, toe-curling kiss. You immediately gave into him, his tongue caressing the seam of your mouth, dipping past your lips to taste you, claim you.
Your arms found their way around his neck, fingers digging into his feathery hair and tugging at the roots, drawing a low groan from his chest. He nipped at your lower lip in warning before soothing it with his tongue.
āBe gentle with me,ā he grated, kissing along your cheek, down towards your throat. He craned your head back, grazing his teeth along your pulse, and you shivered. āIām trying to savor this, not devour you.ā
āDo you always keep yourself on such a tight leash?ā You asked, breathless as he lapped at your skin, your thighs trembling with desire.
āPatience, dove,ā he chastised affectionately, lifting his head. āJust be good for me, yeah? Youāll get what you want.ā
Your brain emptied. Seeing this dominant side of Remus had you folding like origami. You nodded, letting him drag you in for another languid, bone-melting kiss.
Remus slid off the table without breaking the kiss, leaning down to scoop you up by the thighs in a fluid motion.
āRem!ā You gasped in surprise when he turned and dropped you onto the table he just vacated.
He leaned over you, one hand reaching down to recline the seat so you were laying back, legs on either side of his hips. His lips found your neck again, kissing and licking his way down while his hands pushed up the hem of your shirt, fingertips cool against your fevered skin.
āTell me if you want me stop,ā he said, shifting to kiss around your navel.
āDon't stop. Please don't stop,ā you pleaded, and he smiled against your hip before sucking the skin between his teeth, biting at your flesh just hard enough you make you keen.
āI won't, love. I'm not going anywhere.ā His fingers hooked into the waistband of your jeans, easing them down over your hips until they fell to the ground in a pile.
Your knees tried to pull together on instinct, the vulnerability making you flush, but his hands gripped your inner thighs, spreading you apart for him. You could tell he was in his element, something having loosened from his usually reserved demeanor. It felt like you were seeing him completely for the first time. No holds barred.
āDon't hide from me, pretty girl,ā he cooed, lowering to his knees. āYou're gorgeous.ā He trailed kisses up your thigh, charting a tingling path until his nose grazed sodden panties, making your pussy flutter and clench. āFuck, you smell divine,ā he muttered before dragging his tongue over the thin fabric.
āOh, godāRemus,ā you moaned when he sucked on the fabric over your clit, pleasure blooming from your center. Your eyes rolled back, fingers tangling in his hair as he flicked your swelling bud with his tongue.
āSo responsive,ā he praised, pulling your panties aside with his middle finger. āYou this sweet for all of your clients?ā
You shook your head. āI've neverāfuck, baby.ā Your words splintered into a cry as he eased his middle finger inside of you, your dripping entrance accepting him eagerly. He nudged your clit with his nose, making you cry out again.
āJust me?ā His voice almost sounded like a purr, deeply pleased by your admission.
You nodded, urging him closer by the roots of his hair, and he practically growled.
He nipped at your thigh, overpowering your meager attempt easily. āPatience, remember?ā
You whined. āRemus, please. Just wanna feel you.ā
He withdrew his finger, then added a second, pumping you slowly. āI know, baby. I'm right here, I've got you.ā His mouth found your clit again, his tongue circling around and around, and you arched off the table, moans spilling from your lips like a song.
Steadily, the fire built, with Remus' devoted attention pouring over you like gasoline. He moaned against you, eyes screwed shut when your pussy clenched around his fingers, teetering on the edge.
The table shifted, rocking back a bit, and you looked past Remus' hair tangled in your fingers to his body. He was rocking his hips against the edge of the table, so turned on by the act of eating you out that he needed some relief.
āRem, baby,ā you whined, the sight dragging you that much closer to release. He glanced up at you, his eyes glazed and pussydrunk, and he whimpered against you.
His deliberate motions got sloppier, greedier, as he rutted against the table. Losing control of himself, like his entire being was desperate to be inside of you.
With a final curl of his fingers, you toppled over the edge, coming with a cry loud enough to rattle the windows as relief crashed over you, cool water dousing the flames beneath your skin.
āGood fucking girl,ā he growled, withdrawing his fingers to lap directly from you, savoring every drop of his efforts. āThat's it, love. Relax fāme.ā He brought you back to earth with his tongue, long, languid licks and kisses around your trembling center, across your inner thigh slung over his shoulder.
āFuck, Remus,ā you panted, slumping back against the table. āThat wasāā
He made his way up your body, catching your words in a messy, top-lip kiss. āGot your mark all over me now, dove,ā he purred, pecking your cheek with a cheeky grin.
āWhat aboutā¦ā you trailed off, fingers toying with his belt, unsure of what you were asking for him to fuck you, or mark you. Or both. All you knew was that you wanted him, badly, even more so with that post-orgasm clarity.
āPatience,ā he replied, chuckling at the annoyed look you shot him. āReady to finish up this tattoo?ā
āBut you didn't get toāā
āIām, ah, a bit embarrassed to say that I did.ā He straightened with a sheepish smile, revealing the dark spot leaking through his jeans.
Holy shit. You'd made him cum in his pants.
You surged up, throwing your arms around his neck and tugging him down in to a ravenous kiss. āMerlin, you're so fucking hot,ā you mumbled against his mouth.
He grinned, breaking the kiss to nuzzle into your neck, hiding the flush you could see staining his ears. āSays the girl that made me cum without touching me,ā he muttered, almost indignant.
āIām not sorry,ā you chuckled, sighing when he pressed his plush, kiss-swollen lips to your racing pulse.
āIt's alright, I'll get even,ā he teased, his teeth nipping at your skin.
āIs that a promise?ā
āMost normal people would interpret it as a threat.ā He picked his head up, eyes sparkling with mischief.
āWell, I'm not normal people,ā you replied.
āAnd thank Godric for that.ā He kissed you again, all smiles and airy pecks.
Normal was never your style anyway.
#remus lupin fanfic#remus smut#remus lupin smut#im gonna make a conjuring circle now#anyone wanna join?
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Ezran having to defend the castle... For Me??
#the way im just about to write this too that's so funny#tdp ezran#ezran#i see opeli in the background. i am nervous about it#trailer#s6 spoilers#s6#tdp spoilers#tdp#the dragon prince#let him square off against claudia in my dreams#i would also happily take viren
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you know, you know. no gods, no masters, no kings on pedestals. everyone is fallible. death of the author. you know! you are balanced about your intake of media - you allow the wiggle room, the grace, the gratitude, the skepticism. nobody above criticism.
but still. a weird gut-punch feeling, something akin to betrayal. you read the article. surprise! an author you love is actually: a serial fucking predator.
well, shit. what now. no, you knew he was a person (all people are), but now you're wondering - what have i overlooked by accident? what messages have i internalized that are strange and cruel? and also, like, what the fuck?
his actions lay a thick glaze on top of everything. like each place is now ruined, opaque in a new way. but okay, fine, you've done this before. you knew better, right? you've been betrayed by many a cherished childhood author.
still, this stickiness. fuck. can you pick up that book again. will you read it to your children. you've recommended it to others - will you ever do that again? and of course, of course, no parasocial relationships. you were theoretically above this kind of sentiment. but the artist informs the art, right.
so it's not something as clear-cut as feeling he owed you, specifically (a stranger) better behavior - just that you kind of, in a distant and odd way... sort of trusted him to do better. it's not like a real trust or something speakable, just the faint hope that the product (good books) was a thin representation of the soul. now it feels like the product (good? books?) was a mask. in some small or insignificant way, your previous support of this person lent them power. your money and your time and your laughter.
and the thing is - you have this terrible, echoing sensation. how many times will this happen? over and over. you find out that the singer you love is actually a predator. you learn over drinks that your favorite high school english teacher is in jail for what he did to her. you listen to the news idly and suddenly discover that a woman you used to idolize has been abusing her kids for an actual eon.
what can you touch without the static melting off. you can't even really complain about it too much (you were supposed to know better, and besides, you don't want the same re-split "it's not your fault, love what you love" basic advice), but now it's here. somehow, it feels like - you let him into your life.
it's not that things need to be pure or an artist has to be like, endlessly perfect, mindful. demure. it's more just this terrible truth that has been replayed through your veins so often it feels criminally vain. power corrupts, absolute power corrupts absolutely. did you want any one person to be worth that power?
it's just that he wrote books where he seemed to understand that. he seemed to know about hierarchies and unfair systems and bigotry and privilege. you thought they were books about what it means to struggle. you thought they were about having power and still using it for good rather than for control. he spooned you a narrative of being a good guy, a kind soul. you fucking bought what that fucking monster sold.
maybe that's why they were fantasies, after all.
#spilled ink#warm up#oh im .... sick to my stomach.#i talked to him. like ....... we talked. that man interacted with my poetry and writing.#that article.... gutwrenching. i am so sorry to everyone he's ever even been in the room with.#i feel.... like... unbearably. sick.#he acted like he was cool and friends with me!! we were cool internet writers together!!!!!#i feel sick for even having been polite to him.#i ...... am experiencing something so fucking complicated.#i wonder how many of u are feeling that too. like ''oh i sent him an ask and he was funny and sweet''#THATS HOW THEY GET U. ..... and YES I KNOW!!!#i am so fucking well-read about parasocial relationships. it would just be nice to like. trust that someone ISNT#hiding a huge fucking background of BEING A COMPLETE MONSTER. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK.#by the way i am not part of a fandom. this is āwhat the fuck i accidentally supported a rapistā not#ābut my showwwā. like i care far more about like. the human cost.#but also like... people are people. idk i saw a take on here about how nobody should mourn the books#and idk. people almost always reply to any scenario with their personal experience first -#''i knew him'' or ''wow i was just at that store'' or ''i grew up there'' or whatever. because that is how we establish connection &#emotional weight. that's just... a person thing. and there is a difference between 'oh this guy is a monster'' & the feeling of:#he's been a monster and i SUPPORTED THAT. i CELEBRATED him. i !!! a fucking victim myself!!!!!!!!! SUPPORTED . HIM.#i am sick. i feel so much pain for her and everyone he's ever hurt. saying ''the books are ruined'' is i think ... like how people say#they're shocked and disgusted by him. (obviously there's nuance here. im sure there's some creep doin it wrong. but u know. in general)#idk..... im an author. i understand my work is in your life in whatever small way. i understand that connection. it's real.
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full on feel like pjo tv s2 is not gonna hold up so they need to drag as much attention to the series as they can by using nico as a sock puppet w tsats2
im fully expecting the show to go the way of the movies. it doesnt help Sea of Monsters is almost unanimously the least favorite book of the first series. People frequently forget it even exists or what happens in it, especially more casual fans.
Heck, just look at how little fanfare the second season has gotten so far as compared to the build up to s1. I wouldn't be surprised if s2 totally flops. It would be a little funny.
#pjo#riordanverse#pjo tv#pjo tv crit#tsats 2#Anonymous#ask#im still sad theyre beating every dead horse in the franchise they can EXCEPT for the graphic novels#the poor graphic novels arent getting advertised AT ALL and the BoO one got cancelled#like. the graphic novels would actually be probably one of the best advertising avenues!#like. hey! you dont need to write a whole new book! just remind people of previous books and give them a way to refresh on it#and given how the first couple of graphic novels were a different artists i could totally see them doing a second version#just to make them all consistent. thatd make sense and be reasonable.#the show has also already kind of trapped itself in a corner in a couple of ways#for one they kind of screwed themselves over failing to plan for the actors. yknow. ageing.#Walker is already taller than like. most of the cast. Percy's gonna be TOWERING over Luke by TLO#i think the main trio is all like almost 16 already? and we're only on s2. its gonna be rough. they didnt think about it. they didnt plan.#also with how theyve been messing with plot and characterization theyre VERY quickly going to start running into hurdles#because they dont seem to understand the more you change earlier on. the less the later stuff will work without also needing change#because. it's dependent on what comes before. so we will very quickly be requiring either MASSIVE canon divergence or a lot of retcon#and retcon in the show is going to be VERY OBVIOUS#though i stand by itll be so funny if they solve too much too quickly in s2 just like the movies and it just ends on#''wait. crap. what are we going to do for s3 now. we solved too much too early. they have nothing to do''
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wait, that elias?
#huge shoutout to @sepezzz elias design this is very much inspired by it. go look at it#im so serious if i never draw another person manspreading in a fucking office chair itāll be TOO SOON#anyways.#the juxtaposition truly is crazy hahaaha right people change in the weirdest of ways#i like thinking about how they both present themselves. elias understands he works at Important Academic Research Facility so he still#sooort of tries to look somewhat official. but well he also gets away with what he can#he has that vibe of Yeah i work here and im kind of important but iām chill. i know how to chill#meanwhile that other freak is just like i am going to make this body look presentable or so help me god.#heās the Head of the Institute he can no longer have whimsy okay. and listen itās not because i think jonah is that boring and would#dislike piercings and funny socks or whatever. i think heād like those. but see he needs to make this believable that elias truly has#changed okay. and also like i said he is the Head of the Institute he needs to look Super Normal And Unremarkable#anyways i think itās funny how eliasā whole thing is that he tries to distance himself from his family image and tries really hard to Not#end up like a rich asshole. and then. well.#(looks around) So i think about this man a normal amount.#i could write like 20 thinkpieces on both of them but instead theyāre gonna make me do college essays about like language and shit.#myart#the magnus archives#tma#elias bouchard#oh my god it is actually un fucking believable how much i think about him every day#if this becomes a daily elias blog yall will just have to deal
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Roleswap anyone??
Tell me Fernando wouldn't make a fantastic general/emperor, and that Napoleon wouldn't make a fanastic driver/tp!!
#this might be the most mentally ill thing ive drawn yet....#lmao im like ah this would be a funny idea to draw#and then got WAAYYYYY more into drawing napoleon#to the point of cuteness aggression and sadness that him in f1 isnt real :(#cofi and i made up a whole lore and plot line so if you want a pt 2 of that hmu LMAO#but briefly: hes a driver(2 wdc btw) who got kicked out for smth and then came back as a tp again to torment his former rivals#gahhhhh why is he so cute why isnt he real :( i would stan him so hard you dont understand#with his cute little lesbian bob and introverted but brave and outspoken demeanor....#his mechanics and team in general are all tall men who love to pick him up#but god the plot is just so fun and compelling that it makes me sad that kinda driver doesnt exist irl#my greatest dream is for someone from the actual napoleon fandom to see this#bcs its weird enough for you guys so i cant even imagine what theyd think#BUT PLEASEEE#anyways. this is a very odd post. but im very proud of it :)#lmao this is just like one step closer to actually writing my proper manifesto about it#but yeah i posted that silly meme the other day and it got way more notes that i expected so maybe this will be appealing too?#girls who cannot draw normal fanart#<- like seriously i wont draw napoleon in his normal clothes and fernando vice versa but no prob with the reverse?? my brain...#f1#formula 1#fernando alonso#nandopoleon alonsoparte#napoleon bonaparte#napoleon#catie.art
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I absolutely really need to be writing anything but random ideas while I procrastinate and this is so awful rough bc I literally wrote it on my phone in one sitting while avoiding work but
Do you see my vision. Her Nosy Bitch Syndrome would actually be good for him when they've both chilled out a little in the postcanon.
#fic#wip#i know its weird that im writing about shuro getting a crush on marcille when i have no intentions of letting that go anywhere#but the idea wont leave my head. he would end up liking her for the same reasons the toudens latched onto her#she's weird and awful in her own way but she's honest about it. you never have to second guess yourself with her#because she wears her heart on her sleeve and is so bad at not doing so#she's not afraid to Speak Up and advocate for herself so you can trust her to push back if you lean on her too hard#maybe i just have terminal blorboism. i want to see her be freaky good at learning eastern magic#and maybe even cry a little bc calligraphy gives her that same calm feeling that braiding her hair used to#and she didnt think she'd ever find another meditation routine that actually fits her#also its just. wouldnt it be so funny. if falin was worried about them not getting along bc marcille is jealous#and then actually visiting and seeing the way shuro looks at her and going#oh no you dont. thats MY elf get your own!!!!!
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#sometimes i wonder if sex is a thing that's more enjoyable in my mind than irl to me#because im not a big fan of being touched at all#maybe im just telling myself this because im not having sex and that also kinda sucks cjnxnxjx#and im way too anxious to go out there and actively seek out a partner#it's also funny cause with most irl crushes i've had i would never want to have sex with them#but like..... the idea of sex is fun you know?#writing and reading and fantasizing about sex is fun#?????#i'm wondering if this is just how i work or if it's tied to shame#sexting is fun too !!!#idk about doing it irl tho jdhdjdjd#flirting is fun#flustering others is fun#and i guess touching others is a lot better than being touched#am i..... a stone top#i'm kidding....... i think#jdhdjdnxnbdnxjxjxx#then again there's also a huge sub sitting inside me so like..... even more ??????#i mean i also have HUGE trust issues so there's that too#ugh#anyway sorry for the rambles jdnxjxjx#i just felt like typing this out somewhere cause i've been thinking about it a lot#and i felt like a smut blog with 2k followers is just the right place to share deeply private thoughts about my relationship with sex jdndnx#so yea if any of you have been wondering.... this smut writer here is not getting ANY jdbdjxnx
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it is beyond infuriating how anne rice seems to insist on marius being a positive force in anyone's life ever. like she can't fully commit to exploring the fact he groomed armand and has repeatedly taken away his consent for what marius thinks is best (take the end of TVA as an example) and just kind of flatly puts it in the narrative. there's not really much interest in how these horrific events make marius come across as the worst because EVERYONE loves him. for gods sake, lestat learns from armand exactly what marius did to him in TVL and then proceeds to go find marius and be super friendly to him in the same fucking book. even armand and pandora, two of the people who have MORE than enough right to hate him, do not. it doesnt feel like shes trying to explore the toxicity of the abusive dynamic he traps them in, it just is there. and like yeah ofc the toxic vampire romance series but i think that this should be handled with more care. and it is not ever really framed in a way that she is interested in exploring how marius should easily be one of the most horrific characters in this series because it kind of feels like sa/rape/grooming/other things of that sort are just put there to further plot and not to really get the respect that they deserve in a medium.
#twist rambles#vc posting#grooming mention#for blocklist sorry im on my im really mad about this fucking series soapbox again#to be fucking honest she treats slavery similar. like its just THERE and the characters doing it dont really feel bad about it (much like m#rius doesnt seem to.. feel much if any remorse for arm.and) and it is just like... ok heres another bad thing with no examination. this isn#a super coherent post but i went a bit forward to see how b&g was handling the arm.and stuff and oh my god. oh im so mad. like i just... i#wish so badly that arma.nds abuse was taken seriously other than haha its sooo quirky that mari.us is in a position of power over him and#provides housing money sex comfort etc for him and is abusing him but hes sooo happy with himmmm. like he fucking sold him into sex slavery#and we are supposed to root for him#ask to tag#sorry this is just. its a very triggering part of the books but its something that i kind of keep returning to to mull over because it is#handled really badly. like i think she was trying to go for a lo.lita vibe (iirc she did actually mention nabok.ov as an inspiration) but#didnt really care enough to examine WHY that is an interesting take on the subject matter. not even to get into pan.doras stuff bc its just#really bad but at least he waited until she was an adult i suppose. like i will give anne one thing that she has characters and (poorly han#led) writing that makes you really think and analyze. which i think is where i enjoy media that is like... this kind of sucks at points but#u can tell the authors viewpoints soo transparently. and u can examine it thru this. like i think thats why i find the gr.ell run of GA int#resting too bc u can telll that man is a libertarian and doesnt respect women. and then claims to do so. its interesting to me. anyways#did u guys know she defended bill clin.ton when the monica stuff came out and victim blamed her. just a funny coincidence.#sorry for the really long tag rant but i am sooo fed up with how she treats this topic forever and ever. bc its been this way forever.#anyways back to reading had to get that out. lmk if u need me to tag this bc its a lot of tws :)
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Dave and Steven's relationship is so fucking mental literally THE toxicest of yaois š„
#luly talks#like literally everything about them is insane. fact that dave says steven is of the few people who treated him like a human yet is willing#to just fuck him over and like basically kill him#fact that steven refuses to give purps to the authorities even when he knows he's the criminal and that he WILL keep killing#like its so funny bc usually its dave the one who refuses to leave a situation but this time its phoney whom has him leashed#and its mental cuz WHY I DONT GET IT#and he even lets him do fuck all too remember my post pointing out how this is the only place where dave steals from the prize corner?#when i replay dsaf 1 and the good ending from 3 imma write my essay on steven and their relationship#(<- empty promise bc im a lazy ass)#but seriously steven is such a speciment he's as toxic as it gets in every way possible#not even outright evil just. he's all fucked up man#like he had so many chances to do things right but he only did wrong again and again#also do you guys think dave knows he's steven?#i dont actually remember if there's mention of this on the flipside#and. do you guys think steven REMEMBERS dave?#he's a gen 2 according to himself i guess so he probably has some vague memory#i like to think that's why he's so... favorable to him#LIKE THAT'S THE THING EVEN IN THAT WAY HE'S SO MEAN TO HIM#but not as mean as he is to jack whom he regurlarly kills over nothing#jack and all thef ucking other employees he literally implies bad employees dont last
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i cant keep it hidden any longer
#i get nervousss n shit about gettin character voices all wrong#i spent all of yesterday worryin about if theyd say each others first names or last names or WHAT ! idkkk#i didnt write any more than this But i rlly rlly want to#basing this over the exact types of convos me n my friend have When i watch her play granny#i say dumb shit like ooohhh shes gonna get you Or why are you so mean to this old ladyš¢š¢š¢ to rile her upš¤ cos its funny#and then when i run out of things to say i start asking shitty would you rather questions like Would you rather make out with granny#or springtrap. would u rather have to be angel dust Hazbin hotel(she HATES him) or Pinkypills william afton (also HATES)#idk how id write that for these guys. ik theres gotta be a way though#my rambles#homestuck#writing feels more vulnerable than just my silly ass drawins Cos its lettin ppl peek in2 how i think n perceive shit . its intimidatinggg#but im posting it anyways !! ill fight off the urge to delete it the best i can#sayin all this Meanwhile itās just a few lines from a pesterlog emulator LMAO . i take myself too seriously w stuff like this#rhas my problem i think . joviality come to me NOW! i am lighthearted and carefree about rhis#yaaaayayayaaayy!!!!#FOR THOSE WHO DONT KNOW. GRANNY IS A SHITTY MOBILE PUZZLE HORROR GAME. THE OG !!!#all the shit like Piggy on roblox. thats copying granny š¤š¤š¤š”š”š”#my drabbles
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spent the first hour and change at work deleting some old files and am having a grand ol time laughing at myself for not realizing i was a lesbian sooner
#vulnerable tag rambles ahead please be kind abt them i didnt intent to ramble this much but i dont wanna delete it eitehr#me to every single man i have ever dated after 6mo-1y: yeah hey this really isnt working out i dont really know why but i really hate mysel#and i dont want to blame you because i dont think you did anything inherently wrong here; i think this is something about me but i need#space to figure out why im feeling this way [every single one reacted by telling me No i wasnt allowed to leave btw]#i hold very complex feelings about these relationships esp bc of them ending in very violent/chaotic ways most of the time#but its interesting to look back at it all and realize ive left every man for the same reason (which is that ive hated myself Every Single#Time ive dated a man) and its funny bc i recognized the self hate pretty early on w/ cishet men but when it came to queer men it was#much more confusing (esp w/ nto knowing Any lesbians at that point in my life). im so happy im a lesbian tbh#i have a lot of issues w/ the racism fatphobia and transmisogyny present in lesbian groups#and also coming out as a lesbian really truly saved my life. before i met my wife i was quite literally in a 3yr abusive relationship that#definitely would have died in if i hadnt realzied i was a lesbian and ran from him#its also weird seeing liek the hard evidence of the things that happened to me btween 2016-2020 tbh#cause that was such a bad time of my life. i truly dont know how i survived it but im so glad i did#like the three major relationships in my life b4 meeting my wife was: guy who was in college when i was in HS who stalked me when i left;#guy who was a year younger than me who cheated on me the entire time while telling me he was being victimized (he wasnt; this was very mess#guy who saw the very messy toxic ldr i was in and helped me dump my ex then decided that meant we were in a relationship [insert 3 yrs here#and admittedly all 3 years with him werent the same level of abusive but it was definitely unhealthy from the start considering I Didnt Kno#we were together until he wanted to celebrate vday and got mad i didnt know our anniversary - and like this isnt including the other stuff#that happened between those Relatonships[tm] (cause ive never been monogamous; these were just the Major Relationships)#like i genuinely think if i hadnt come out i'd be dead rn given just how dangerous my relationships were/continued getting#i am also so tired now that ive seen all this cause like. fuck i can barely believe it and i not only lived it but have PTSD about it#i should write about my life sometime. i feel like it'd be cathartic to try and make a tangible timeline and stories from the years ang stu#anyway yeah. be nice about the tag rambles. dont message me with pity or curiosity or anything about this. i dont usually talk abt this stu#publicly bc i hate the ways ppl start tryign to baby me when they realize my life has been extremely fucked up until only a few years ago#n im still working on accepting kindness from others bc of [insert life traumas here] but its a long process so pls respect my need for jus#being heard rn w/o too much pressure< 3 (but ig if u do read this can u like it cause i feel a little crazy seeing all the evidence of the#stuff i experienced now also cause fuck ik logically it was but also i cant believe it was all real still yk)
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straight up discovered i was scizoaffective in an unrelated fashion 20k words into writing my psychological horror oneshot in the most distressing and abstract scene in the whole fic and its like DAMN..... LMAO I COULDN'T HAVE GUESSED
the fic was the canary warning me of my problems the whole time. the metaphor just writes itself
#personal#canary continuity#im writing this really slow compared to my other work because its so fun to think about but so taxing to write#so youre getting some liveposting about the process. this is just the FUNNIEST fucking thing that could have happened while i was writing-#-this#dw about me btw i think its funny so you should too#not even half way done yet btw. but we're getting there
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