#the thing is i know next year things are gonna get infinitely better for me

[kieren-fucking-walker]

Hello,

I've been off work for 3 months with horrible depression (not helped by the fact that in that time my cat died of cancer) and my work are not paying me.

I need to be off for longer really, but I can't afford to not be paid any more, especially this close to Christmas, trying to help my mum move her stuff out of the house now she's left my abusive dad, and while I'm still paying off money towards Sage's care for all the testing and medication he had leading up to his death.

I know it's a shit time all round, but if anyone is willing and able to help me out just keeping on top of bills, vet payments, and maybe being able to afford to do a graduated return to work rather than just going back to full time then my PayPal is here and my KoFi is here.

I appreciate everyone who has taken the time to read this and I hope you're safe and as well as can be 💜

[reiding-writing]

sickeningly sweet [ s.r ]

Spencer Reid had never had a valentine before. In attempt to make him feel better about it you engage in a casual conversation that leads to a potential date.

s1!spencer reid x gn!reader || fluff || 1.3k || masterlist!!

a/n: happy valentine’s day my loves <3 (i promise copy cat part 2 is coming soon 😭)

You can’t say that you’re surprised when you find out that Spencer Reid has never had a valentine before.

It sounds a little mean in your mind, but you know that the whole team is thinking the same thing.

“You’ve really never asked someone to be your valentine pretty boy? You’re missing out,” Morgan can’t help but chuckle at Spencer’s confession, taking a sip of his coffee with an exaggerated smirk on his face.

“I- did, once when I was nine,” Spencer’s tone carries that awkwardness you’ve come to associate him with along with a small trace of uncomfortableness at the topic of conversation. “She emptied her juice box over my head and then laughed at me,”

“And you haven’t asked anyone since? Come on Reid you can’t let one bad experience get you down,” Elle turns back and forth in her chair with her foot as a pivot.

“You say that like either of you have valentines,” You shake your head at the two with a laugh as you lean back against your chair.

“Oh i’ll have one by the end of the night,” Morgan shoots a wink in your direction and you making a mock gagging motion in response.

“You’re gross,” You roll your eyes at Morgan with a dramatic shake of your head as you push your chair backwards and stand up.

“I’m gonna make some coffee, you want some genius?” You raise an eyebrow towards Spencer, tone harbouring infinitely less sarcasm as you nod towards his empty coffee mug.

“Yeah uh, that would be great actually thank you,” Spencer hands over his mug to you with a smile that’s embarrassingly endearing and you’re glad the kitchenette is around the corner from the bullpen because you’re sure your affection for him is showing all over your face.

Spencer Reid had never had a valentine.

Oh how you wanted to change that.

To shower the boy in all of the love and affection he so justly deserved and yet never seemed to get. To dote on him for a day and not let him so much as lift a finger to do anything for himself.

Instead, you settled for making him a sickeningly sweet cup of coffee.

“So, when are you gonna ask then?” Spencer stopped craning his neck in your direction at Morgan’s question, an obliviously confused expression painting his face.

“Huh?”

“Oh come on Reid we all see the way you look at them don’t try and hide it now,” Morgan rolled his eyes exaggeratedly with a shake of his head, and Spencer flushes a bright red at the accusation.

“I’m not- I don’t-”

“You don’t have to deny it Reid, this is a safe space,” Elle’s tone carried all the teasing of an older sibling, and her expression hammered that message home tenfold.

“You’ve got thirteen hours to make a move pretty boy otherwise you gotta say goodbye to that sweet valentine of yours until next year,” Morgan tilted his head with a furrowed brow.

“There’s actually twelve hours and 42 minutes until midnight,” Spencer’s response was more of a defence than anything, and he awkwardly pushed a stray stand of hair behind his ear.

“That’s even worse, you gotta grow some balls and ask them soon man or it’s gonna be too late,”

Morgan was right. He did have to ‘grow some balls’ - whatever that meant - and actually ask you out before you ended up finding someone that was way more interesting and experienced in the dating world.

What if you already had? You never mentioned whether you had a valentine or not during the earlier conversation.

What if he actually plucked up the courage to ask you out and then you turned him down because you already had somebody else.

God that sounded like a nightmare.

“I am absolutely not going to ask them to be my valentine.”

“You’re not gonna ask who to be your valentine?” Your voice jolts him out of his defensiveness and straight into embarrassment, not at all aided by the way you lean over the back of his chair to place his coffee mug on his desk.

“I uh- No one- I’m not asking anyone-” His deflection is very half-assed, and the fact you don’t pick up on it makes Morgan want to just force your two heads together until you both kiss.

“Very understandable honestly,” You take a seat in your desk chair with a satisfied nod, crossing your legs and taking a sip from your coffee. “Valentine’s day is overrated in my opinion,”

“You- aren’t spending it with anyone?”There was a clear sense of bewilderment lacing Spencer’s tone, his eyebrows furrowed in confusion like he physically couldn’t fathom the fact that you didn’t have anyone to spend the day with.

You shake your head nonchalantly at his question, swivelling around in your chair until you’re facing your desk once more. “Nope, i’m gonna eat a tub of ice cream and wallow in my own self pity as I make fun of shitty rom-coms,”

You lean your head against the back of your chair to look at Spencer beside you, shrugging your shoulders. “You’re very welcome to join me if you have nothing else to do later, it’ll be fun,”

“No invite for me?” Morgan’s tone is very clearly teasing your favouritism towards Spencer, although even if you said that he could come he wouldn’t, this might be the one shot Spencer actually has to grow a pair.

“Oh please, knowing you we wouldn’t even make it through one movie before you get bored and decide you want to go to a bar or something,” You roll your eyes with a laugh. “Spencer actually watches the movies we play,”

“Right right, you and your ‘movie nights’ how could I forget?” Morgan shakes his head at you with that knowing smile and you have half the mind to threaten him with violence at the potential of him spilling your little secret, but you know that if you do that’ll be exposing enough for Spencer to catch on about how head over heels you are for him.

“So, what’d’ya say genius? Impromptu movie night? I have dark chocolate,” You throw the dark chocolate in there as a bonus like he wouldn’t say yes to you if your idea was to sit outside on the pavement behind the office in the rain.

“Sure- Sure yeah okay-“ Spencer’s answer is coupled with and encouraging nod from Morgan, and it makes Spencer’s face heat up more than he thinks is humanly possible.

“Great! I’ll even crack out the strawberries,” You clap you hands together and it’s a done deal.

“I’m gonna drop this off to Hotch i’ll be back in a sec,” You hold up the file in your hand as you push yourself away from your desk and stand up, speed walking across the bullpen towards Hotch’s office.

“A movie marathon with chocolate and strawberries, that sounds pretty romantic to me pretty boy,” Spencer shakes his head adamantly at Morgan’s continued attempts at trying to lay down the groundwork for him to take his relationship with you to the next step.

“They’re just being nice,”

Morgan and Elle both facepalm in unison.

[herioclizard]

[It starts off with a little boy named Y/N staring off into the distance. Seeing the world around him in ash and fire. He then turns to walk away...]

[We then see a 13 year old boy named Y/N yet again but this time he's trying to climb a wall with the help of his new found friends, Powder, Andal Brask, Vi and a couple others. Vi is the first to make It to the top and breath the fresh air. Y/N then soon follows and help Powder and Andal Brask up.]

(Just imagine the look with your face)

Y/N: "Gotcha."

Andal Brask: "Took you long enough."

[Andal says while passing Y/N nudging him slightly in the stomach]

Y/N: 'Yeah, yeah. Love you to douchebag."

[Powder doesn't say anything but gives Y/N a nod, which is her basically saying thank you]

Y/N: "No problem."

[Vi then calls out and asks]

Vi: "Hey, Powder. Come take a look."

[Y/N looks as Powder runs to her sisters side. Y/N feels the wind gusting in the background and onto his skin. Powder is right next to Vi as Andal knees down to look at the city]

Powder: "Woah...."

Vi: "It's nice getting above it all, huh?"

[Vi asks but they all look in amazement as Y/N walks to Vi's right (my right) then once the others make their way up a blimp comes flying above them shaking the building a bit. Powder then says]

Powder: "One day, I'm gonna ride in one of those things."

Y/N: "That would be so cool..."

[Y/N says with the amazement that only a child could have. Mylo then speaks up and says]

Mylo: "And one day, I'm gonna shoot one of 'em down."

[Andal scoffs and says]

Andal Brask: "Yeah, sure you will, Mylo."

Mylo: "I will. Watch me."

Andal Brask: " Oh, I will be..."

[Andal says with a smirk on his face. Then Claggor speaks up and asks]

Claggor: "Vi, Andal, are you sure about this?"

[Y/N brushes off what Claggor says by speaking up]

Y/N: "I know what you're thinking, Claggor, and don't worry, It'll work. My plans always work."

[Powder, Mylo, Claggor, and Andal let out a collective "Eh.'"]

Y/N: "What?"

Andal Brask: "Your plans always get us in the worse times."

Y/N: Okay, name o-"

[Y/N tries to speak but is cut off by Mylo saying]

Mylo: "The dreadnaught."

Y/N: Name tw-"

Claggor: "That time you got stuck in a infinite portal loop."

Y/N: Name thr-"

Powder: "There was also the time you tried take on a whole army by yourself. And failed."

[Y/N throws his arms up into the air]

Y/N: "Alright, I get your fucking point..."

[Y/N sighs and jumps down and runs across to another building as Claggor says]

Claggor: "If we get caught we-"

Vi: "We're not gonna get caught. We'll be out before anyone notices."

[They are on another rooftop as Vi says]

Vi: "All right everybody, follow me. Just don't look do-"

[Vi's cut off as Y/N runs and starts to climb the side of the building]

Vi: "Or... you could do that."

[Y/N then jumps to the other building as he says]

Y/N: "Am I great or what?"

[Vi then follows, she says]

Vi: "I'm leaning more towards the "what" opinion."

[Claggor is about to go but Mylo moves him aside and goes next. He makes it across with no issues]

Y/N: "Four and a half stars. Mine was better."

Mylo: "Uh-uh. Keep telling yourself that."

[Andal then arrives next with little to no sound to his arrival]

Y/N: "I still don't get how you do that."

Andal Brask: "A hunter never reveals his secrets."

[Claggor then jumps down with a bit of a loud thud with his arrival. He them eats a cupcake and asks]

Claggor: "Couldn't we have at least just walked here?"

Y/N: "Take one good look at us and you'll know the answer to that."

[Y/N then turns around and sees a terrified Powder still on the rooftop. Andal let's out a sigh and whispers]

Andal Brask: "You gotta be kidding me..."

Mylo: "Called it. You owe me now, Andal."

Andal Brask: "Yeah, sure. I'll pay you when we get back. I blame you, Vi."

[Andal says turning to Vi as Claggor says in a defeated tone]

Claggor: "I'll get he-"

Y/N: "No. She's gotta learn to do this herself."

[Y/N steps forward and gets Powder's attention]

Y/N: "Powder, look at me."

[Powder turns her head to face Y/N on the other side]

Y/N: "We practiced this. Remember what I told you?"

Powder: "That..."

[Powder takes a deep exhale and says]

Powder: "...I'm ready."

Y/N: "Yes! I won't let you fall you have my word. You trust me, right?"

[Y/N asks her as Powder takes a deep breath and nods]

Powder: "Yes."

[Y/N takes a step back and Powder slides down the roof and stops herself from falling off. Y/N is about to take a step forward but goes against it as he believes Powder can do this herself. Powder goes for the railing and then jumps to the other side where everyone else is. Powder nearly falls back but Y/N grabs her hand just in time. She looks back and then back at Y/N]

Powder: "Th-thanks."

Y/N: "I did promise you, didn't I?"

[Y/N pulls her up and then she slightly stumbles around but gets her bearings. The crew than run off as Vi then whispers to Y/N]

Vi: "Thanks for helping her."

Y/N: "Anytime."

[Y/N says while nodding. As it cuts to them skimming across the side of a building, all while indistinct chatter is heard in the background. Claggor then starts up by making up some what if's]

Claggor: "What if Vander finds out we're all the way up here?"

Vi: "Look around you. You think anyone topside's going hungry? Besides, this is exactly the sort of job Vander would've pulled when he was our age."

[Birds chip in the background as Vi says]

Vi: "I'm going. Are you with me or not?"

[Andal nods as Claggor turns around. Mylo just shrugs it off. Y/N looks at Powder already knowing she's going with Vi. He turns face Vi and nods aswell. Claggor sighs]

Claggor: "Vander's gonna kill us."

Y/N: "He can try. So keep quiet and keep the girls lead."

[Y/N then slides onto the balcony with Vi. Y/N signals Vi to check the windows. She comes back and shakes her head no. Y/N nods and Vi says]

Vi: "Alright, all clear."

[Andal comes down first followed my Mylo. Mylo tries to open the balcony door but fails. He groans in annoyance and asks]

Mylo: "Who locks their balcony?"

Andal Brask: "People who aren't idiot's."

[Andal takes out his knife and goes to work on the lock. Vi helps Powder down. And then Claggor comes down and looks down below and sees multiple enforcers down below]

Claggor: "There's tons of enforcers down there."

Y/N: "That's great. It means we're at the right place."

[Vi turns Andal and asks]

Vi: "You gonna get that door open anytime soon?"

Andal Brask: "I just started, Vi. Theses things take a minute. So would you shut the fu-"

[Vi cuts Andal off by kicking open the door. This leaves Andal a bit flabbergasted]

Andal Brask: "Oh...Kay then..."

[The all past Andal while going in. The room has books, a chalkboard full of some type of equations and some more stuff but the place looks in terrible shape. Y/N looks at the books as Powder is behind Y/N and asks]

Powder: "Do you...know what they say?"

[Y/N let's out a low chuckles followed him turning to face Powder]

Y/N: "No, Powder, no. That was always more my friend Ikora's thing."

[Y/N looks under the books and finds a hand cannon that's white and black with an ace of spades on the weapon]

[Y/N inspects the weapon and asks Powder]

Y/N: "Hm...thinks this is my color?"

[Powder gives Y/N a small thumbs up, and he smiles as well and puts the gun in a hoster on his left leg. Mylo then says]

Mylo: "You know, Claggor, for once you're right. We are definitely not supposed to be here."

[They all steal mostly anything they can find and put it in a bag. Andal looks at the equation on the wall as Vi is right next to him]

Vi: "Must be an inventor. Any idea what's this about?"

[Andal looks at it and says]

Andal Brask: "I got nothing. But these notes don't seem finished..."

[Powder wonders around and sees a small dome looking item as she is amazed by this]

Powder: "Whoa, I think this is a real Valdiani."

[Powder opens it up and shows a round sphere surrounded by rings]

Mylo: "Oh, yeah? What about this?"

[Mylo asks while pulling out a device from nowhere. Powder then says]

Powder: "That's a nose hair trimmer."

[Y/N slightly snickers at this. Y/N then says]

Y/N: "If it's not nailed down, you take it. Got it?"

[Y/N tells Powder and sees nods but is still focused on the Valdiani. Mylo then finds notes relating to what seems to be "Ghosts" but most of the data is teared up. He then finds some werid brown and gold device with a blue crystal in the middle of it.]

Mylo: " Uh...guys?"

[They also inspects this as Claggor asks]

Claggor: "Uh, Andal, how the hell did you find this place?"

Andal Brask: "Little man gave me the tip."

Mylo: "Little man?"

[Mylo asks, but Vi says]

Vi: "Just leave it. Come on."

[Y/N is inspecting his gun when Powder says]

Powder: "Y/N, come on."

Y/N: "What?"

[Y/N asks as Powder goes into another room]

Y/N: "Powder, wait up."

[Y/N follows Powder as they open up a door into some old workshop. They inspects the workshop, but the two's attention is deverted when they see two sandwiches]

Y/N: "Score!"

[The two bite into the sandwiches. Powder then removes some blueprints as it shows a chest and what seems to be an old broken machine with no color to it]

[Powder tries to take the chest but to no avail. Y/N looks at the machine with a bit of curiosity in his eyes. Y/N picks it up. Powder then asks]

Powder: "What is It?"

Y/N: "No idea..."

[Powder finally able to open up the chest but all they see is about six blue crystals there. Powder picks one up as unknown to them is that a crack in the machine Y/N has in his hand starts to glow blue.]

[The group is still throwing stuff into the bag. Andal hears footsteps coming from the door. He quickly commands Mylo]

Andal Brask: "Mylo, door, now."

[Mylo quickly puts a chair infront of the door as Vi runs in and tells Powder and Y/N]

Vi: "Powder, Y/N, we gotta go."

[Powder quickly takes all the blue crystals and Y/N pockets the object he found. As a voice asks]

"Hello? Is someone in there?" The voice asks but no one responds to it

[But also while running Powder drops a blue crystal onto the ground. It cracks with electricity as Powder, Vi and Y/N run for the balcony door. All the while, the man still tries to bust open the door. Vi begins to get everything into the bag as she says]

Vi: "We'll be fine. Just get back on the roof."

[Crystal then hits a wall and blows up sending everyone flying back. They all cough and grunt as Andal asks]

Andal Brask: "What the hell was that?"

[The floor cracks beneath their feet]

Y/N: "Everyone hold onto something!"

[Then, the rocks fall below onto the city as everyone tries to get to safety. The men then look up and see Vi and Y/N]

"Hey!"

Vi: "Shit."

Y/N: "Fuck."

[The two say those words at the same time. It then cuts to them all running through the streets as they hear shouting and enforcers follow them. They run down the stairs as Andal yells]

Andal Brask: "Move your asses!"

[The birds caw and the tense music picks up. Suddenly, once their on the bridge, it starts to be raised. They make it across, of course, but also did the enforcers. They all run into an alleyway]

Vi: "This way!"

[Vi yells out while they all hit the wall and turn left. They hit a gas main while running this blinds the enforcers enough to where they don't know where they went. The enforcers go into different directions as Y/N opens up an entrance]

Y/N: "Come on, let's go."

[Mylo leans down and says with worry in his voice]

Mylo: "Uh, maybe you should go first, I did just get this shi-"

[Y/N kicks Mylo down they all then jump down. And then they land on some old waste and garbage]

Andal Brask: "Great. Now it's gonna take forever to get the stink out of my clothes..."

Vi: "Oh, cry me a river, Andal."

Claggor: "Guy's, what was that? What the hell happened back there?"

[Claggor asks and they immediately turn to Y/N and Powder]

Powder: "I don't know. Y/N and I didn't do anything."

Y/N: "We were just eating some sandwiches. Some very good sandwiches might I add."

Mylo: "I could fill a damn library with all the things you both 'didn't do.' And sandwiches seriously?"

Y/N: "What? They were really good."

[Vi then stands up and says]

Vi: "Guy's, we just emptied a Piltover penthouse right under the enforcers noses. So if you're done beating yourselves up, let's get this home."

[Vi then walks down from the pile of trash as it fades to black]

[pepper-steam-milkshake]

I forced my friend to watch three hours of BSD in chronological order and then interviewed him about it: The Interview

Feat. my girlfriend and several side tangents.

All questions are bolded in blue for better clarity.

We watched my chronological edit (still in progress) from Fukuzawa and Fukuchi meeting to Dazai picking up Akutagawa post-Dragon's Head Conflict (ALMOST at Dark Era).

-

ME: Okay! (claps hands together) First and foremost, who’s your favorite character so far? I have to ask.

FRIEND: Probably Dazai.

ME: That’s fair.

FRIEND: Bottom masochist.

GF: Gotta love him.

ME: (fighting back laughter) I cannot—I still find it funny that that is just what you’re going with. Like, you’ve only known him for like… an hour, I would say?

GF: Those are his most defining character traits.

ME: I mean yes…

FRIEND: He wants to die—he wants to commit suicide gently. Bottom masochist.

ME: (fighting back laughter again) ...Alright, who—

FRIEND: If he were a switch, he’d be into BDSM, you know, just…

ME: (still laughing) Do you—do you, um, do you have a least favorite character at this time?

FRIEND: He’s written really well, but by just himself, probably Mori.

ME: That’s fair. So, Mori...

FRIEND: He’s written very well, but he’s an asshole.

ME: Yes.

FRIEND: And I feel like there’s something about the scientist guy that I’m probably not gonna like, so we’ll see.

ME: About Shibusawa?

GF: The white-haired scientist?

FRIEND: The one we just saw.

ME: Yeah, so… what you saw with Shibusawa, it’s kind of… we’ll get into that more, but what you saw was kind of… the movie does a horrible job of elaborating on anything. Let me just say, I have the light novel, the light novel does a much better job of actually clearing up everything. The movie, the way it was written—first of all, is very different from its prototype, but it’s a thing. But anyways, it’s interesting that Mori is your least favorite character. What is your opinion of Mori’s relationship with Yosano? Like, how they interacted?

FRIEND: The infinite heal?

ME: Yep.

FRIEND: I mean I think that’s why (he’s my least favorite). He’s an asshole. He’s using her, I don’t why the fuck he was there, but he was there.

ME: What are your thoughts on Fukuchi from the few moments that you had seen him? (…) That was the guy at the beginning who was friends with Fukuzawa.

FRIEND: Kind of neutral. I don’t really know what to think of him? I think he’s… kind of like Chuuya where he’s headstrong. I just haven’t seen enough of him yet.

ME: You’ll get to see more of him, like, a lot later on, like…

FRIEND: Something split between those two (Fukuzawa and Fukuchi). The white hair. Obviously, because they’re different ideals.

ME: Hehe. Ideals. You’ll know why I laughed at that eventually. What do you think of Fukuzawa on that note?

FRIEND: He’s probably a close second for being my favorite character.

ME: (surprised) Really?! Interesting!

FRIEND: He’s just a very cool character, he’s a swordsman without a sword. That’s kind of funny. From the beginning, at least. I can see where the guilt lies within him, but he also still has emotion.

ME: (nodding) Yeah. So, you mentioned that Fukuzawa is your second favorite character with your number one being Dazai. Who would you say is your third favorite?

FRIEND: Probably Ranpo.

GF: (clapping) Yes!!!

ME: As you should! I support that! Because, like… he’s just a silly little guy.

GF: He’s autistic! :D

FRIEND: Their (Fukuzawa and Ranpo) interactions are fun to watch. You have them and then it just goes to “ah, look! More death!”

ME: (wheezes) Yeah.

FRIEND: That’s how Dragon Ball’s like.

ME: I believe that.

FRIEND: It’s like, “oh, peace!” and then they’re like, “okay, cool.” Next year, another tyrant.

ME: What do you think of Chuuya?

FRIEND: (thinking) ...I like him. Funny enough, he reminds me of Bakugo.

GF: Oh, Bakugo from My Hero? Interesting.

ME: I don’t know enough about My Hero Academia to be able to comment.

GF: You know of Bakugo.

ME: Is he the protagonist?

GF: No, he’s the bully. He’s the blonde-haired bully one with red eyes that bullies Deku.

ME: Ohhh. Isn’t he the guy that… he’s constantly shipped, like BakuDeku?

GF: Oh yeah.

FRIEND: That’s the main thing.

GF: That’s my ship. ;)

ME: ...Fascinating. (laughs)

FRIEND: (returning back to Chuuya/Bakugo comparison) Just very, like, doesn’t think about what they’re doing, just is very “I’m gonna do it anyway”.

ME: That’s fair.

GF: I think it’s interesting that Chuuya doesn’t have—in the way that Bakugo has Deku—Dazai is not Deku. So it’s a different dynamic completely, because Bakugo has a power dynamic over Deku from the very beginning. And Chuuya does not have that character flaw.

FRIEND: I mean at this rate, Deku is kind of probably suicidal as well.

GF: Middle-school Deku, yeah, definitely. But not in the same way.

FRIEND: Eh, even adult Deku, I would say.

GF: But Dazai is not a—not crybaby, but you know what I mean.

FRIEND: It’s kind of the opposite. I mean, Chuuya’s probably stronger than him, but he’s got that leverage on him.

ME: I am curious about what you think of Dazai and Chuuya’s relationship from what you have seen.

FRIEND: It’s interesting. It’s gonna be fun to see how… they’re definitely the type to say, if someone called them like “good friends” they would immediately deny it.

ME: (laughing) I would agree with that.

FRIEND: But then, like, an hour into them working together they’re playing a videogame.

ME: I would definitely agree with that. They do have that sort of vibe to them.

FRIEND: That’s what some guys need all the time.

ME: Were you surprised to see Odasaku again?

FRIEND: Um… no, I think I was kind of ready for that to pop up again. I think it’s a character that would kind of be wasted—no reason to make that character and then just not bring him in.

ME: That’s fair. Out of curiosity, how has this format necessarily impacted your viewing of Bungo Stray Dogs so far? You can’t necessarily say compared to how it would be normally since obviously you have not seen it normally, but like… I’m interested to see how… what do you think Bungo Stray Dogs is from what you have seen so far?

FRIEND: From what I can tell, a problem with Bungo Stray Dogs is that if you were to watch it normally, you would get kind of lost.

ME: I would agree with that.

FRIEND: Because you’re going back and forth a lot of times, so I think it’s helpful… now, obviously Dragon Ball, when I watched it the first time, was obviously not in order, ‘cause OG Dragon Ball was not playing on Cartoon Networ—Adult Swim.

ME: Yeah.

FRIEND: I got grounded a few times watching Adult Swim.

ME: (laughing) Of course, as do we all.

FRIEND: So I watched (Dragon Ball) Z first, but then you eventually go back and watched the other. To me, it’s better to watch an anime in chronological (order) because then it’s like, you’re just watching it pretty much…

ME: Like getting everything right off the bat of what’s going on?

FRIEND: From beginning to end, yeah.

GF: I think the only issue with Bungo is that since there are so many characters that are a part for their beginnings—for example, seeing the one clip of Lucy, where like—

ME: “Who’s that?”

GF: “Who’s that” and you’re not gonna see her for another six hours.

ME: (wheezes)

GF: Until she becomes plot-relevant.

FRIEND: And that’s fine though!

ME: It’s interesting because for example with Rimbaud, you know, you saw him at the very beginning of all this more or less, and then he reappeared later. Did that have any impact on your perspective with him—did you realize it was him at the time?

FRIEND: What’s the character again?

ME: He was the guy who had the yellow box ability.

FRIEND: I felt like there was something more to him. It’d be really weird to just have him as a bodyguard, like only one bodyguard in the entire Mafia. I’m like, “you’re also designed unique, you’re not just a normal background character” so there’s probably something important for you.

GF: I have a question. Who do you think the main character of the show is?

ME: (wheezes)

FRIEND: No one yet.

GF: Do you think we’ve seen the main character of the show yet?

FRIEND: No. It’s still too early.

ME: What if I told you we have seen the main character?

FRIEND: It’s the baby. (the one Oda picks up in the beginning of DEAD APPLE)

GF: (laughing) It’s the baby?!

ME: (laughing) The baby?!

FRIEND: The girl.

GF: (laughing) The one that Odasaku saved?

ME: (disbelieving) Kyusaku?! No wait—(wheezes)

GF: The one that Odasaku saved!

ME: Pleeeeeeease!

(laughter for a few seconds)

ME: (laughingly) Yes, how did you know? How did you know a seven-year-old is our protagonist of Bungo Stray Dogs?

FRIEND: Am I actually right?

ME & GF: No.

GF: (is not remembering) I don’t think that character—that was a random-ass kid.

FRIEND: (falling for it) Ah. I just thought, like, maybe the baby grows up to be… I mean, it’s none of the characters. I don’t want to assume.

GF: What’s her name…

ME: Lucy?

GF: No…

ME: Yosano.

GF: Umm… Season 5 little girl. Karate girl. (Aya)

ME: Oh. I don’t have clips for her.

GF: I know, but what’s her name, I forgot her name.

ME: (picturing Teruko) Oh, I can see her…

FRIEND: Steve.

GF: She’s that little girl that Odasaku saved!

ME: (laughing) Oh god—she’s not, but—

FRIEND: You can’t remember her name, so it could be Steve.

GF: Steve. I wanna say Anya but I know that’s not right.

FRIEND: Anya’s from SpyXFamily.

GF: I know… I associate the same name for some reason. (returning to original topic) You’ve seen about ten seconds of the main character of the show.

FRIEND: (jokingly) Oh. Arahabaki.

ME: (laughing) Yes, how did you know!? How did you know?! (moving on) I am curious who you think is the antagonist of the show.

FRIEND: (hasn’t moved on) Wait, is the main character that like, cat guy? The one that turned into a cat?

ME: (panicking internally) ...Maybe!

FRIEND: (immediately) It is.

ME: (wheezes)

FRIEND: I can read body language really well.

GF: Based on the reaction of “I’m not answering that”!

FRIEND: Whenever you don’t answer something, I’m like, “Yeah, okay, that’s the answer.”

GF: Who do you think the antagonist is then?

FRIEND: Not Mori. (thinking) I guess besides from Arahabaki? Because I feel like he’s gonna be a Sukuna situation.

ME: Interesting, interesting.

GF: I’d watch the fuck out of this show more if Chuuya was the villain, I’m gonna be honest.

ME: I mean, that’s fair.

FRIEND: Have we seen, like, a little clip of the villain at all?

GF: Oh yeah, we’ve seen him multiple times.

FRIEND: Oh, a couple times? (thinking) I don’t think it’s Mori. He’s the most obvious one.

ME: That’s fair. He’s very antagonistic, but he does… he has his moments.

FRIEND: He’s giving me weird vibes, because I’m like, “Is the Port Mafia a bad organization or a good organization?”

ME: That’s the question everyone asks themselves!

GF: Depends on who you are!

FRIEND: I like how they have the gi—the biggest building in the city.

ME: Oh yeah, no, it’s literally like Yokohama looks normal, and then there’s just this one fucking tower.

FRIEND: Are they a Mafia, or are they just an organization? There’s a difference!

GF: “Damn, where’s the Mafia hideout?”

ME: “I don’t know, guys!”

(laughter)

FRIEND: I would I guess say Mori just because he’s the most obvious one, but it’s probably not him. I don’t think it’s the scientist guy (Shibusawa) either.

ME: Interesting. What do you think of Natsume? That was the guy who had the cane.

FRIEND: The guy who got kidnapped?

ME: Yes, that was the guy who got kidnapped.

GF: During the play, yes.

FRIEND: I haven’t really seen much of him, so I don’t really know. I mean, I know him for two things: being stuck in a carpet and then giving out business cards.

ME: (wheezes)

FRIEND: That’s the only two things I know him by!

ME: That’s fair, that’s fair. What do you think of Yosano from the little bit you’ve seen of her?

FRIEND: Yosano?

ME: She was the infinite healing person.

FRIEND: Yeah. (thinking) ...Traumatized. She’ll probably have more screen time, maybe? She’s pretty important.

ME: What I will say is the majority of characters you have seen up to this point are recurring characters in present-time Bungo Stray Dogs.

FRIEND: I figured, yeah.

GF: You’re getting the backstories.

FRIEND: It’d be really weird if they just, never showed up again.

ME: Yeah, no. Well, as you can see with Fukuzawa for example, he has been a recurring character since the beginning. We saw him when he was a little kid, and then we saw him again in the future when he found Ranpo, and then we saw him again—like, he keeps showing up.

FRIEND: He’s important. (returning to original point) Yeah, I think we just got to see more of her. Really the only time I—I mean, she’s 11 at the time when we first meet her. Well, I mean not technically not when we first meet her. Just in the backstory.

ME: Yeah. So, out of curiosity, do you think any of the characters we have seen so far are main characters, meaning that they are main focus protagonists of the story?

FRIEND: I think Ranpo and Fukuzawa. I think they’re pretty important. I can’t imagine they’d make a duo like that and just not have them be too relevant. Even if they’re side characters, I think they’re still going to be important to the story. Obviously, the duo here, Dazai and Chuuya, I think that’s obvious. Oh, and Mori.

ME: So far, out of the different things that we have watched, different scenes, arcs, do you have a favorite amongst the ones that you have watched over the last three hours?

FRIEND: I’m a big shonen fan, so probably the fight scene against Randou and the boss, technically. I like well-made fight scenes. Even if they’re kind of short. If they’re well-made, I like them.

ME: I can respect that, that’s fair. Do you have a least favorite arc or scene of what you saw previously?

FRIEND: I guess… it’s not even bad, it’s just compared to the others, the war scene? Like the war part? Just feels out of place to me, until I see more of it. Compared to the other parts, it was like “ehh, did we need? The war?”

ME: We did need the war, because the Great War is very important.

FRIEND: But yeah. For right now!

ME: For right now!

FRIEND: Compared to the other arcs it was the weakest.

ME: Out of the antagonists that we’ve seen so far, who is your favorite?

FRIEND: Probably Mori. I can understand he’s the most well-written right now.

ME: That’s fair. I would say that Mori is overall a very well-written character in Bungo Stray Dogs.

FRIEND: That’s why—I think when you watch Dragon Ball, when we get to Frieza—incredibly racist.

ME: (flabbergasted) ...Okay?

FRIEND: Well, Saiyans, you know, they have tails? So what do you think is a slur they call them. (brief silence) He calls them monkeys. It doesn’t help that when they look at a full moon, they turn into a great ape.

GF: Why have I never seen that?

FRIEND: It’s pretty iconic!

GF: I’ve never seen one as an ape.

ME: So, wait, Goku turns into…?

FRIEND: It’s a whole thing. There’s a reason he doesn’t have a tail later on.

ME: Wait, so is the tail the reason they turn into an ape?

FRIEND: Yep. They can’t without it. Saiyans are born with tails.

ME: ...Fascinating.

GF: (goes to look up Goku as an ape)

FRIEND: In OG Dragon Ball, he has a tail. He turns into a great ape—it takes a lot of control. Goku—he doesn’t find out he’s a Saiyan until way later.

GF: (found it) I’ve never seen this monkey before… Like every screenshot and clip I’ve seen of Dragon Ball I’ve never seen a great ape on screen.

FRIEND: It’s more important in OG Dragon Ball and then the beginning of Z. After that…

ME: It’s not really talked about anymore?

FRIEND: No, because they bring in Super Saiyan. Which takes the storm for transformations.

ME: Actually, on that note, you told me you do a lot of power-leveling for Dragon Ball.

FRIEND: Not just Dragon Ball. Everything.

ME: Well, that’s perfect because I’m curious to see what you would rank the abilities you’ve seen so far on screen. So obviously I’ve not conveyed to you everyone’s ability, but from the abilities that you’ve recognized, how would you rank them?

FRIEND: How am I ranking them? (sassy) Do you want me to scale them?

ME: (sassy back) Maybe.

FRIEND: If that’s the case, no offense, they’re block level. Like, city block level. That’s kind of it. They’re not gonna be planetary or anything. Like, Goku as a ten-year-old—and it’s saying a lot—beats them. He was able to blow up the moon.

ME: That’s not very cash money of him.

FRIEND: He was not the one that did it, ‘cause remember, he turned into a great ape, so, there’s only one option they had. The moon gets blown up twice in the show.

ME: Why? How does it get better from the first time?!

FRIEND: Dragon balls. You can make any wish on a dragon ball.

ME: What?! ...And he wished for the moon to come back?

FRIEND: Well, yeah, the Earth kinda needs the moon.

ME: Well yeah, yeah. (mimicking Snapcube Dub) “It’s gonna have like an effect on the tides or something.”

FRIEND: Yeah, and all the astrologists out there. (returning slightly back) The person he was fighting was the same level to blow up the moon, and at the beginning of Z he’s able to destroy planets.

ME: Gotcha.

FRIEND: Pretty easily. A whole level of difference in power. (returning back to original point) Yeah, but at most I’d say they’re city block level. They’re not leveling cities or anything.

ME: That makes sense. How would you rank their abilities in comparison to each other?

FRIEND: If we’re counting to experience, because I haven’t seen Mori’s—

ME: You have seen Mori’s.

FRIEND: ...Is it the medicine girl?

ME: Yeah. Elise is his ability.

FRIEND: So she’s a fucking Stand, from Jojo. (moment of confusion from me) A Stand is like another being that they can control.

ME: Yes.

FRIEND: So he has a Stand. I know where they got that from—that’s from Jojo.

GF: It’s a reference to a very old Japanese… book?

ME: It’s based off Mori Ougai’s written works.

FRIEND: (laughingly) Well, so when was that?

ME: So, basically the whole thing with Mori and Elise is Elise is based off—oh god, I’m gonna say this wrong and I’m gonna get absolutely slaughtered for it when I post this—Mori Ougai’s The Dancing Girl. (I WAS CORRECT)

FRIEND: And when was that? Out? (The answer is 1890.)

ME: It’s old. So, I don’t know if you’ve noticed yet, Bungo Stray Dogs features characters that are named after famous authors.

FRIEND: Yeah.

ME: For example, Yosano Akiko, we have Mori Ougai… she was very briefly there but Kouyou Ozaki, although—

FRIEND: (jokingly) Where’s the J.K. Rowling character?

ME: There is not one! I think the only actual British character we have that’s only really been seen like once or twice is Agatha Christie.

FRIEND: It could’ve been Gordon Ramsay.

GF: Is he—does he count as an author?!

FRIEND: He’s made cookbooks!

ME: I mean, I guess if you count that!

FRIEND: He’s had published books!

ME: So—that’s another thing, their Abilities and their lives are based off of the books that these authors have written, so it’s one of those things where their Abilities are literally named after things they’ve written. For example… (clicks tongue) I’m trying to think of an example…

FRIEND: Is there an Edgar Allan Poe character?

ME: ...Yes.

FRIEND: (immediately) There is.

ME: Yes, there is.

FRIEND: That’s a pretty big author!

ME: He is in fact in this.

FRIEND: (thoughtfully) Does Shakespeare count?

ME: (immediately) Shakespeare is not in this.

FRIEND: Damn.

GF: It’s all authors from the 18 to early 1900’s. We don’t have any, like, historic authors. There’s no Odyssey.

ME: Could you imagine if Homer was in there?

FRIEND: Just a nine foot jacked guy.

ME: The characters that have been shown in Bungo Stray Dogs, there have been Russians/Ukrainian authors, there’s been American authors, Japanese authors… Trying to think if there’s anyone else off the top of my head, but I think… I mean, technically Canadian… because Lucy Montgomery’s Canadian… So there’s a variety. Season 2 is around when you’ll really get to see some of the Americans. Which will be a while, so. It’ll be several hours before you see any Americans. I mean you saw technically an American (Lucy).

FRIEND: Can’t wait to see the Snoop Dogg character.

ME: Please. (sadly) There is no Snoop Dogg character, sadly. (thinking) I’ll give an example. With Edgar Allan Poe, his ability is The Black Cat in the Rue Morgue.

FRIEND: Okay, that’s fair.

ME: That’s his ability. I’m not gonna tell you what it is. You’ll find out eventually. (returning to original point) Basically, it’s different works—it could be poems, it could be stories—Fukuzawa’s ability—which he does have one—is actually based—it’s All Men Are Equal, which actually comes from a treatise encouraging education that he wrote.

FRIEND: Thought it was gonna be the Declaration of Independence.

ME: (laughing) Nooo, nooo, not quite. Which actually, I started reading that treatise out of curiosity.

FRIEND: I thought you were going to say the Declaration of Independence.

ME: (jokingly) “I started reading the Declaration of Independence. Um, I’ve come to notice some uhhh clear exceptions in there?”

FRIEND: (half-jokingly) I mean, I’m fine.

ME: (jokingly) Okay.

FRIEND: Just saying.

ME: (jokingly) I see how it is.

(various threats of kicking occur including one instance where I am called short; my girlfriend asks me how does it feel since I’m constantly making fun of how short she is /affectionate)

ME: I was reading his whole writing about encouraging education, it was interesting because I could see how the character Fukuzawa could be pulled from what he had written about, so it’s cool seeing the different aspects of these characters through their writings. (moving on) Do you have any guesses, hypotheses about what will happen in the future of Bungo Stray Dogs?

FRIEND: (immediately) They’re all dead.

GF: (starts cackling)

ME: I mean! You’re not wrong! He’s right, but he shouldn’t say it!

(all of us laughing)

FRIEND: You said guess!

ME: (laughingly) I was talking more specifically like, “oh, what do you think will happen to characters?”

FRIEND: “Oh, made by Bones? They’re all dead.”

ME: I mean—

GF: He’s not wrong!

ME: He’s not wrong, but he shouldn’t say it!

(friend laughing)

ME: No, but like, what do you think will happen for potential characters in the future, do you think certain characters are gonna show up or not show up again?

FRIEND: I’m not going to be that knowledgeable about authors, so I can’t really say on that one. I think we’ll maybe see more organization leaders, characters meeting—like characters we’ve already seen meeting.

ME: I can confirm that.

FRIEND: I think Arahabaki is probably going to be a big thing for the show.

ME: (in the know) Really?

FRIEND: (not in the know) I feel like there’s something there.

ME: Interesting.

FRIEND: I mean, the chaos was him transforming with the corruption. It’s gotta be something. You can’t just be like, “oh, yeah, there’s like a thing inside of you” and never…

ME: So what I will say with Corruption is it does come up again later in the series, so this is not the last time you’ll see it.

FRIEND: I figured.

ME: It also was introduced in Storm Bringer.

FRIEND: Which technically is before what we just saw?

ME: Storm Bringer came between 15, which was the bit with Dazai and Chuuya, and the Dragon’s Head Conflict. (incorrectly) So in the few months between that period of time—(realization) actually, it takes place a year after Dazai, Chuuya, 15. So at that point, they’re Dazai, Chuuya, 16! :D

FRIEND: Yeah.

(mac n cheese questioning and discussions)

ME: Any final thoughts about Bungo Stray Dogs?

FRIEND: I think it’s good.

ME: (claps hands together) Thank you for letting me put you through three hours of this!

-

He has not seen the entirety of BSD yet. Some other fun things:

Almost immediately called Dazai a masochist bottom. I lost my shit while watching.

We have seen Atsushi once, which is when he's being tortured by Shibusawa (and proceeds to kill him).

He has not seen full-blown Corruption, just the brief tidbit from DEAD APPLE.

I am surprised he didn't mention Fyodor considering how every time he reappeared (Origins of the DOA, DEAD APPLE) he was like "oh hey it's that guy".

We watched two hours and forty minutes. I rounded up.

Yes, I am still working on this. Still trying to put it together + figure out where to put it for sharing.

It's so interesting how the order in which we watch has affected his perspective of character importance. He seems to think Fukuzawa and Ranpo are like, the big father-son duo of the series. Curious to see his reaction once he realizes they're not.

I love that he thinks Arahabaki is going to be this big deal. This is the funniest thing he could've clung onto.

He has not read the manga.

[vampiric-succulent]

OUAW EP 20:

It’s not even past the bean footage yet and already I have a thing to comment about—

“Hey. Keep working. Keep your hands down.” Idk if it’s just Mace or if it’s me but this is an interesting thing to start the episode with

Also I lowkey already watched this but considering that I wasn’t really paying attention due to Sleep im rewatching

Oh this is the Silly Goofy episode. Got it.

Watching this is so different now that I know how tall each of these people actually are in real life

“Mr Kremyyyyy….. Torbek had a nightmaaaare………..” torb <3

Hot jones?

Why is Mikey using the King Shmebulon voice

Oh the energy here is so weird today

NEXT YOURE GONNA TELL TORBEK THAT A SHRIMP FRIED THAT RICE and they’re gone

The improv shenanigans here are SO GOOD— “the wee hours” watches and the blue J and the bottle of something

HOT JONES!!!

“There was that guy and he was like… woah.” Bi Gricko!!!! “Why you always watching these kingly types and looking at their woah?” Lmfao Gideon you are no better

Degenerate Jones

TABAXI TORBEK and eughhh Mammon Tiefling Gricko (applying for all Mammon Tiefling Gricko)

I love how Kremy is super paranoid thinks everyone is out to get him but still immediately tells Gideon everything (I need to see Gideon do some sort of something back bc coalecroux is feeling increasingly one sided and it is making me sad)

“Torbek was happy with the infinite abyss”

THE FEDS

Poor Twig she went from dealing with absolute loneliness to dealing with all this bullshit. She needs to have the space to Bogart out a little bit like get this woman a destruction room

Twig 🤝 Torbek

coping mechanisms

Gideon has such older brother who acts like a father figure to Twig vibes

THE FEDS THEYRE IN THE CLOTHES

Torbek is simply following suit… following the suit to the ground lmfao

PENIS NOSE?????? HOW IS THAT AN OPTION

Gideon is overwhelmed by Penis im sorry

This is just reminding me of when Frost got the proud nudist curse and Derek made that slapping turn joke 😭

Obligatory “im walkin here” please stop

Nvm we have the coalecroux and also poly party affirmations (long shots and headcanons)

OH!!! Woah there Kremy

“Think of the Federal government!” Quick Gid take your clothes off!! The government!!!

OH NO THE ORCIFICATION

NO THE FUCKING CABINET

DEREK. DEREK WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT DEREK WE COULD HAVE NEVER GONE DOWN THAT ROAD

Love Torbek’s Spring Aladrin voice. It’s like some sort of old English aristocratic friend of Oscar Wilde.

Oop! Theseus’s Ship mentioned (kind of)

“Did we do a bunch of drugs before bed again?” Funny you should have asked that Gideon given what is now happening

“Tentacles probe me” “yes Gideon join us the time is now get naked”

WHY IS IT ERECT NOW DEREK. PUT THAT DOWN. “Something about beekeeper helmets…” HUH

Oh god Twig is gonna bogart out

PUT IT DOWN. PUT THAT THING DOWN AND AWAY.

“STOP BEING ERECT. STOP EATING MY BONES”

Love how Nikkie says “your mind is back to Gricko” and Mikey just starts screaming

Whoops!

It is so impressive how Twig is so controlled. Like she has every justification to absolutely freak out right now and she’s keeping calm and trying to manage things.

Thank god Hootsie is out of this lol

NO TWIG LOOK AWAY

“Torbek was *very* thorough.”

Okay seriously how old is Twig?? This is a very important question. Like REALLY important.

I’m imagining Spring Aladrin Torbek lying on a couch like he’s gonna say “draw me like one of your French girls”

Guys. Please. We are nearly halfway through this video. Please.

YES CAST SILENCE. HUSH MICHAEL.

No Twig it’s not your fault!!!!!!! No!!!!!!!!!!!

Not the Pennsylvanian sperm trees

“After what I’ve watched today I don’t think you’ll accomplish anything of value.”

Not the milk joke PLEASE y’all not the cilk

Frost is so sweet tho

No more Hot Joneses :(

Yesss Twig establish those boundaries!!!!

Tom is such a deep cut

Okay so Twig is at least 200 years old. Good. That’s really good. Good to know.

Grinko is having a stronk. Please call the Gronkulance.

WHAT HAPPENED TO HOOTSIE.

Omg she’s their niece!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But also HOLY FUCK HE HIT HER??? WITH A CABINET????????

“Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.”

Menasith, and their older sibling Menapauthe.

The Glowing Anus 😭

Oh this is Nikkie’s fault. Fantastic.

MORNING FROTH CONGRATULATIONS EVERYONE

“That’s very funny Gricko. Your daughter is possibly bleeding out.”

Ohhhh Hootsie’s okay thank god

Gricko however is really not

Okay so I know this is a fantasy campaign and we are in the literal Feywild so this like kind of doesn’t matter but how does Gideon get energy??? Does he need to absorb nutrients or is it just sort of as long as he keeps his internal furnace alive he’s okay?

Twig boundaries 100 with regards to Torbek but fully get the party’s concerns

Also Twigsy ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Not Gricko being hypnotized by Spring Aladrin Torbek’s hip sway

Torbek does not know but Torbek must dance!!!!

Oh Torbek’s ticket is so sad

“This is an Acorn Satchel!!!”

Mikey annoying Nikkie so much that she just takes things away

Frost getting jealous over the Gricko impression 😭❤️

What is a mud meffet?????

I love Andy so much. Oh he’s wonderful. So glad he’s here.

KLUTZY RETURNS for like two seconds

Love these guys. Oh my lord. Also what the fuck happened in the first like hour???? Still a fun little episode.

[autumnoakes]

oh boy. i have not done this at all this year partly because a) i thought it was an art/creative challenge and i didn't have the mental capacity for it and b) i forgor ��� so! i'm gonna do all of the days right now because. of reasons (the reason being that i have the energy right now right now) (by @autiebiographical )

autism plus - i think this is about comorbidities? i have an ADHD diagnosis and i'm working on an hEDS diagnosis as well. i'm also pretty sure i have OCD and anxiety in general tbh

infinite - i'm not too sure how to answer this one? sorry

audhd - THATS ME!!!!! it makes for some interesting times because i have and will eaten a food for weeks on end until getting physically sick of it or listened to the same song until i can't stand it or played the same video game until its boring (hello 800 hours in breath of the wild). usually if i take a break from it, then it gets better and i can enjoy it again.

music - music is actually one of my biggest stims! a lot of my life revolves around music. both sides of my family were/are musicians and i grew up surrounded by it. i'm always listening to music out in public. i really want to get back into it (i used to play violin before the pandemic but started working right as it started and ran out of time and motivation between work and school)

verbose - irl i'm not very articulate. i think sometimes i'm able to be over text where i can delete things and take time to think about what i'm going to say without it being awkward. in real life though, i'm always fumbling over my words and taking way too long trying to figure out how to form the words i want to say next. it's annoying :/

individuals - not too sure how to approach this one either? so loose interpretation. i know many other autistic people both online and irl, and we're all really different. sometimes i get along with them, sometimes i don't. same with allistic or neurotypical people.

neuroscope - i think when i saw this it was about being able to tell when others are also neurodiverse? i'm pretty good at this but i'm also really good at hiding my own neurodiversity (but getting worse at it actually). i know a lot of people who i watch and go "hm" (because people watching is something i enjoy /genuine) but i wouldn't tell someone out of the blue that i think they're autistic

non-speaking - i am fully verbal, and i live with two other autistic people. one is nonverbal and he is an important person in my life. my experience with life is very different though, so i don't have very much to say about this.

community - i've found that most of the autistic community, like a lot of disabled communities, are online which is great! however i do also think it has its drawbacks because the internet can be an echo chamber and i think there's a reason why a lot of people on tumblr especially are neurodiverse.

self-advocacy - oh boy, i'm still learning this. it's difficult to know when to stand up for yourself and how, let alone really draining. at least, for me it is. mostly because having to do so sparks deep anxiety and i find i just can't do it. i don't tell many people that i'm autistic at all

unlearning ableism - another one that's a long time work in progress. it's so difficult to unlearn ideas that you've been around your entire life and grew up learning, but it's necessary to create a welcoming community. i know a lot of people struggle with internalized ableism, myself included. although i have been able (been forced to, actually) take a step back from my responsibilities and focus on creating schedules that work for me instead of trying to do as much as possible all at once.

differently wired - yeah, my brain very much does work differently. i've had a lot of people (including other autistic people) think i'm weird and tell me so because i want to do something a certain way and i don't want to change it. i'm developing a theory that autism isn't JUST neurodevelopmental, but a lot more than that, considering the number of comorbidities that occur alongside autism.

vivid imaginations - i don't have maladaptive daydreams, but i daydream a lot. ironically, i also have aphantasia, so it kinda plays out as a book/audio recording with some vague shapes acting as the people. i love listening to music on the bus for this exact reason. i often daydream scenarios relating to a special interest or hyperfixation.

hyperfixations - SPEAKING OF. people who follow me will know i've been going feral about hades 2 for months and months (i love the narrative choices they've made with the main character, melinoë, and she's one of my favourite characters in general). i've also been hyperfixating on resident evil (games only) for almost 2 months now. i finished re4 remake last week and started playing re2 a couple days ago. re4 remake specifically is one of my favourite games because i love how they wrote the characters and i love the attention to detail in that game (i'm actually still playing it akdjskdn i got the DLC and i love playing as ada)

pebbling - i have an idea of what this means but i don't know if i do it?

autistic pride - i don't have a lot of it. i want to, but sometimes it's really difficult for me to find pride in being autistic. a lot of it is related to internalized ableism.

repetition - oh i am always repeating. i was told during my autism assessment that i always wear the same clothes which i never really thought i did before remembering that i wore basically the exact same outfit more days than not for like 2 years when i was a kid. same goes for food - i like eating familiar foods and meals and i don't like changing it up or trying new foods. i also do this thing where i repeat what i just said under my breath (pallilalia!) and people notice this but i've only gotten a handful of comments on it

self-regulating - i'm bad at regulating emotions actually or even identifying them sometimes. i've had it where i've gone from being really angry and just wanting people to face consequences for their actions -> having a meltdown. i can't often tell when a meltdown is coming and it's really embarrassing for me to have one.

comfort items - i have a lot of them. i always go out with two fidget toys in particular and my noise cancelling headphones. i have two necklaces i wear everywhere. i have a pile of stuffies on my bed.

executive dysfunction - mine takes the form of mostly being unable to finish tasks, being unable to switch between tasks, or being unable to stay on one task. i don't usually experience trouble starting a new task, but sometimes i do. it's the finishing tasks that's a big one for me because eventually i hit a point when i'm like "okay, i'll finish this later" and then i never go back to it. so i've been trying my best to do things in one sitting, but sometimes it's not possible. i once submitted a half-written essay for a class because i hit that point and i would have failed otherwise.

queer - my identity is hugely shaped by being autistic as i've come to realize. i'm aroace and bisexual, in that i don't experience sexual/romantic attraction, but i'm open to dating others (and maybe having sex with the right person), and i don't exactly have a preference for who i'd do it with. i also think people are pretty. i'm also aplspec, which is to say i'm on the aplatonic spectrum and don't really feel the desire to make new friends. i still have favourite people though. my gender is weird but recently it switched over to trans guy but like nonbinary about it (demiboy?)

disabled - since i'm in uni right now, i can't work. fortunately i live at home and have minimal to no costs despite being 23. it's hard for me to frame this as a necessity for me personally and not a luxury. if i worked, i would have to give up getting my degree. i also have chronic pain and fatigue, which makes it difficult to walk long distances. i do take the bus and don't drive, which helps me stay somewhat active. even if i did drive, without a job no one will give me a car loan, so i'd be in the same spot anyways.

synesthesia - i don't experience this

genetic - i have a lot of family members who are also autistic/ADHD. my assessor did a bit of a family tree about it. the two autistic people i live with are my cousins. i also have another cousin and an aunt who are autistic, and i heavily suspect my maternal grandmother is autistic or ADHD. my dad has ADHD too.

pets - i have none and i'm sad about it. i'd like to have a cat, but that makes rent go up i think, and i'm not sure if we're allowed pets here. my last house was a strict no pets zone. i grew up with cats though, and they make me happy. big dogs scare me quite a bit, even if they're chill and even though they seem to like me (i'll still give them affection. they didn't do anything wrong)

fidgeting - mmmm i do this all the time. my assessor for ADHD put me down as inattentive type because he didn't see me fidgeting much, but my leg was going under the table for the entire assessment and he couldn't see. i also have been unmasking and found out that i am more combined type/hyperactive than previously thought. i don't stay still in chairs very much. i always have a fidget toy on me, too.

stimming - see above. i'm always stimming pretty much. right now.... well i kinda am actually. i'm under my weighted blanket.

safe foods - i like to eat sandwiches and wraps a lot. sometimes i like meat, rice, and some kind of sauce. i have a lot of safe foods but also a lot of unsafe foods and it can sometimes be hard knowing what is and isn't safe. i've had many times when i thought i liked something and then didn't touch it or took hours to eat it (without doing something else and forgetting its there)

empathy - this is weird for me. i don't know where my empathy is. i think it's on the lower side, but sometimes i get just really upset over my friends being upset. i want to help a lot but mostly it's so the issue will go away. it took a lot of effort to stop constantly checking vent channels in search of someone i can help.

accommodations - i use accommodations in my education. i only got them about two years ago when i was diagnosed with ADHD. i could have some for a job too when i get one, but i only got those in august with my autism diagnosis, so i didn't have them for when i was working a couple of years ago.

sensory euphoria - i get this most when listening to music. a couple of weeks ago i put on the totk soundtrack to do work to and was listening to the colgera fight music and was just in BLISS for a solid 10 minutes. i was stimming so much and humming and it was an indescribable feeling listening to that music, especially when the dragon roost island motif comes in.

[slytherinshua]

i'm not really one for new years or rly doing anything for it, but i thought i should at least thank all my friends who have made this year infinitely better for me. i'm ngl, this year was really hard in many ways. it felt like me and my family particularly were hit with new things to deal with as soon as the old ones had ended, and we just desperately wanted a break.

my way of getting a break was talking to you all, writing my silly little delusions, and being able to have a space here to share my work. so thank you. whether you were a silent reader, liked, reblogged, followed, or gave feedback for my writing-- all of you have helped me so much this year. the love that my writing has received has given me such motivation to keep going and to keep trying, and i don't think i would've otherwise.

now to thank my lovely friends, who without, i wouldn't be here today :( in no particular order...

@aravrs,, @kyrjnie,, @nyukyujs,, @etherealyoungk,, @rubywonu,, @kyeomyun,, @idubiluv,, @minholing,, @welcometomyoasis,, @dinotoro,, @wonijinjin,, @hannieheartuu,, @mangocustard16,, @amara-mars,, @glosskirt i don't like putting you all together because each of you mean so much to me individually, but i was worried i was gonna forget some of you especially since i don't talk to you guys as much </3 i love each and every one of you, and you have made 2023 such a fun year for me since i was able to talk to you all!! thank you for wanting to be moots with me and for talking to me, talking with you has been so fun and comforting this year <3 cheers to 2024 🫡

@blue-jisungs axe you were one of my first moots ever, and the first blog i followed. we became friends last year but i feel like we became so much closer this year. we watched kdramas together, spammed and ranted to each other, fed each other brainrot and delusions, and just generally enjoyed each others company :( i cannot see my life without you in it, you are so so so important to me now and i want to cry whenever i think about how amazing it is to have you as one of my best friends. i love you more than you know <3

@fairyhaos yena! you were one of the first blogs that i saw and went "woah" bcuz ur writing has always been so amazing. i seriously love it so much, i'll never get sick of it. once i got to know you as a person, i realized that you're even more amazing than your writing is. you're fun and kind and sweet and caring-- thank you so much for being my friend this year and i can't wait to make more memories with you next year 🫡

@weird-bookworm sky you are truly one of my closest friends. we've spent so much time talking and i've enjoyed every second of it. i feel like we have a unique dynamic cause unlike my other friends, we're constantly teasing and bullying in each other in the best of ways <3 in a weird way, the fact that i still know someone who is as big an army as i used to be is comforting. you feel like nostalgia-- like the old me in 2021. and even tho ur older by a bit, you feel like a younger sister to me sometimes skdjsk i really love you a lot, thank you for being my friend this year!!

@haecien cien my only guy friend 👹 talking to you has been especially fun this year. introducing you to the new loves of ur life, listening to you scream about minghao, harua, seungwoo, hyunjae, shin and gaon, playing stardew valley, and sharing some nostalgia from the philippines is all so comforting to me <3 i love u so much and i hope that i can find some more guys to add to ur loml list in 2024 🤞

@kkooongie sarah!! we've talked quite a bit since we met, and it's always been so fun and nice to talk to someone who is as much of a multi as i am <3 finding someone who also stans groups like victon and verivery is extremely hard??? and i'm so happy that there's someone out there who loves silly little nugu kpop men just like me <3 i love you a lot, and i hope you never forget that 🫶

@evalevaeva eva.... ur just incredible to me sometimes?? from writing the best fuma delusions to stressing out abt ur auditions (don't go to cube istg) talking to you has always been so fun!! i'm still so glad that you reblogged that one so mun fic, otherwise i would've never found your blog or talked to you </3 the sieun delusions are real and stan lucy for a better life 🤞 you always make me laugh and smile so much, and i hope i do too cause otherwise that would be a little awkward... 🧍‍♀️ PLS I HOPE IM NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO LIKES OUR FRIENDSHIP 👎

@caramel-maveeato viv </3 my wife fr 🥹 whether it was screaming about the men i love the most to dying over your art or fics, you've always been someone who was always comfortable to talk to. i just love talking to you so much its so therapeutic??? stop rizzing me up tho it must stop before i go insane 🙅‍♀️🚫 no more rizzing in 2024 okay 👹 i hope we talk a lot more and stay as close as we are now bcuz talking to you has always been one of my favorite things to do, i love you so much 💖

@candewlsy mizu my baby </3 I LOVE U SO MUCH LIKE PLS PLS PLS KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE U IM GONNA SCREAM I WANNA SQUISH U?? what. ur just so fun and silly and comforting and I LOVE U AND UR HUMOUR 🥹 i love how you allow me to introduce you to new kpop men and actors, and how you love them just as much as me!! you're just as delulu and slightly deranged as i am AND THATS WHAT MAKES IT FUN 😭 i love watching kdramas with you, and i hope we can finally get through our list of kdramas to watch in 2024 cause its getting l o n g e r 🧍‍♀️ thank you also for reblogging my fics bcuz ur reblogs have to be some of my favorites ever </3 they're so fun and entertaining to read, i always end up giggling :(

@wheeboo rania :( i know i usually bully you and you bully me back, the whole divorced wives things but idk i'm feeling a little emo rn so i'm just gonna be appreciative?? i know we have talked recently, but it feels like we haven't talked enough since before christmas cause i've been busy and you've been busy... and idk i've just felt that void a bit?? talking to you has always been so fun and relaxing, and it's guaranteed to make me smile and laugh and just be an escape from anything i've been thinking about. watching k-dramas and having little music sessions were some of my absolute favorite memories of this year. it's just so special that I can call you one of my best friends, and i hope that i can continue to talk to you for years to come because you're one of the most comforting people i've ever met. not to mention that you write like an absolute goddess?? i still remember proofreading psycho for the first time and just being so shocked bcuz how does anyone even write like that????? i love that i'm ur little go-to for fic spoilers pls don't ever replace me or i'll cry 🧍‍♀️ and whenever i'm struggling with a fic, i always go to you as well <3 i can't express how much i love you and how much you mean to-- words just aren't enough 😭 i'll never get tired of talking to you

@eternalgyu i saved you for last cause i know this is gonna be a long ass paragraph.... ppl are gonna be dying to scroll past this so i wanted to make sure u were at the end. saving the best for last yk 🫡 hannie you have changed my life. like from the day i met you my life was completely changed. it felt like i had finally found my missing puzzle piece?? the best friend that i never had was finally in my life. and my life has never been the same since. everyday when i wake up, i text you. my brain is just "hannie hannie hannie hannie hannie hannie" that's all it is now. when you weren't able to text me for 3 days, i felt like my world had stopped. i couldn't think about anything else, i couldn't sleep. at this point, i need you to live. i need you to be able to function. you are the reason i kept writing. you are the reason im alive. and you will always be my favorite person on this entire earth. i'd choose you over everyone and everything in a heartbeat. it's not even a question at this point, but i know the answer is gonna be you every time. i know this isn't an accurate number of the messages i've send to you, but just on discord, in 2023, i've sent you 183,422 messages. i'm sure ive sent thousands on instagram, and hundreds on other social media too. if you ever stop talking to me, i'll literally find u. LIKE U CANT EVER LEAVE ME CAUSE UR STUCK WITH ME FOR THE REST OF TIME >:( i'll start sending you daily emails pretending to be car insurance or smth like idk ill think of smth... anything to keep you as my best best friend for eternity. i know i say that i don't believe soulmates exist, because the idea of romantic soulmates is a little too fantastical for my realist mind. but since meeting you, i can say for certain that platonic soulmates do exist. we fit together so perfectly, i couldn't imagine anyone else as my best friend.

i remember one time before i met you, i tried to make an irl friend here and my dad said "i hope that you'll find your diana". obviously they didn't end up being your diana, but it's fine. because i did find my diana. you are my diana, and i am your anne. if i could spend the rest of my life talking to you, it'll still not be enough, so please keep talking to me in heaven or something.... the beomgyu to my taehyun, the jeonghan to my joshua, the sejun to my subin, the hoyoung to my gyehyeon, the wyatt to my yuto, the anton to my sohee, the taesan to my jaehyun, the yechan to my wonsang, the chanhee to my changmin, the jeongin to my seungmin, the moonbin to my rocky, the jo to my yuma, the jake to my jungwon, the theo to my jongseob, the taehyung to my hobi, the hwiyoung to my hwiyoung (what), THE HWIYOUNG TO MY DAWON (there we go), THE TAEYANG TO MY HWIYOUNG (even better), the jihoon to my minhyun, my one and only hannie. i love you more than anyone and anything. even though we're so different, we work so well together. we have different biases, and different habits. different religions and different plans for our lives. but we both have plans to meet each other, and i know it'll happen eventually. my life won't be complete until i can run up to you at the airport and give you the biggest hug. i'll probably start crying when that happens since i'm crying just think about it. i won't let go of the hug for maybe 5 minutes because i need to make up for all the hours spent that i couldn't give you a hug. i don't usually like hugs, but giving you one is all that i want to do. there's been so many times where i wished i could hug you. whenever you're struggling or feel depressed, whenever you feel hopeless and lost and uncared for and unloved and overlooked. i just want to hug you when i hear about them, because even though i don't know how to help you in those times, even when i don't have the solution, i know a hug would make things just a little better. when we eventually get ourselves a little apartment with a couple of cats, you can always come to me for a hug when you feel down. i'll bake you some brownies or cookies and we'll watch some kdramas together. we'll reminisce to old kpop songs from our childhood (like... srr SUGAR RUSH USH SUGAR RUSH USH SUGAR RUSH USH UH) and we'll eventually be old porch grandma's still bopping to txt's emo songs. i'll spend my teen years with you, and my adult years with you, and when i'm old and wrinkly, i hope you're still by my side. cause i don't want anyone else as my best friend. only you. pls don't cry while reading this cause ik you might AND I DIDNT MAKE THIS W THE INTENTION OF MAKING U CRY BUT LIKE IT MIGHT HAPPEN..... i rly rly love you. seriously. i love you so much. every memory i've made with you in 2023 is precious, and i know we'll make millions more in the years to come. please stay my best friend for the rest of time, because i'm never going to get sick of you. i love you the most, i hope you know that <3 i hope this is a good paragraph cause i forgot everything i wrote at this point, i don't really plan to write this much but whenever it comes to writing an appreciation for you, i always have more to say. you're my favorite person in the entire world, so ofc i would never run out of words to describe how much you mean to me. please be happy in 2024 and talk to me a lot <3 we'll meet each other for real soon and share a long hug together. until that day, let's continue how we are 🫶

happy new year to you all!! i hope 2024 is filled with love and joy and happiness <3 i love you all very much!! - zanna

[coraniaid]

One of the things I like best about the second half of Season 7 -- one of the few things I like about it at all, if I'm being honest -- is the fact it lets Buffy accept that she's still growing up and figuring out who she is as a person.  "I'm not finished becoming whoever the hell it is I'm gonna turn out to be", as she tells Angel in Chosen.  She doesn't have to have all the answers, she doesn't have to be defined by the choices and mistakes she made when she was a miserable and lonely teenage girl, she doesn't have to have found a perfect relationship or future life partner before her twenty-third birthday.

The show ends with Dawn asking Buffy what they're going to do now that she isn't the singular Chosen One, and she doesn't offer an answer because she doesn't know yet!  "That's kind of the point," as she also told Angel earlier.

I think that's a really good and emotionally satisfying place to end the series on -- with Buffy finally free of the destiny that she's been forced into ever since we met her, not because she's been forced to stop being a Slayer or because she’s sacrificed herself to save the world, but because she's no longer The Slayer but merely one of many.  The story of Buffy the Vampire Slayer is over, but the story of Buffy Summers has just begun.  Who knows what will happen next?

It's why I've never been at all tempted to read the post-Season 7 comics, because there's no way that they -- or anyone -- can better that ending. By definition, a future of infinite possibilities is better than any concrete suggestion.  (Also, yes, lots of the specific details I've heard about the comics make them sound pretty bad anyway, that's also a factor.)

It's also why I think it's kind of pointless to spend time arguing that Buffy definitely would or wouldn't end up in a relationship of some particular type, with somebody she knew before she was old enough to graduate college.  Maybe she does get back together with Angel or Riley or Spike.  Maybe she finally realizes she's attracted to Faith, or to Willow, or somebody else she met before the show ended. (Maybe Owen Thurman is still alive.)  Maybe she meets somebody new. Maybe they get married, maybe they don't.  Maybe they have kids, or adopt, and maybe they don't.  Maybe Buffy decides she's happier single. Maybe she doesn't get to have the sort of romantic relationship she'd want at all; maybe other things get in the way.

Some of those possible futures sound like happier endings to me than others, and some seem more in keeping with the direction I'd like to imagine the story going if the show had continued.  But anyone who tries to argue that they know which of those things would or wouldn't happen because they know what the sixteen or nineteen, or twenty-one year old Buffy would have wanted is, I think, not being serious.  The show itself explicitly rejects this idea. Even though her mother's death has forced her to take on more adult responsibilities, Buffy herself is still growing up.   We don't know what will happen to her a year, or five years, or ten years after Chosen.  We don't know what she'll want, we don't know who she'll be.  Buffy herself doesn't know that, so how could we possibly know?

As Buffy said, that's kind of the point! 

[prettyboykatsuki]

warm-ups | sfw + kunigami + sofa

✭ tags ; implied nsfw at the end, coming home / re-uniting, established relationship, gn!reader 18+ | ✭ wc ; 1.4k (?????)

✭ a/n ; me when the random prompt generator gives me a random prompt and i have no clue how to execute on it. never written him before ever so Sorry

Kunigami thinks he should get to fight an airline service at least once in his life.

It'd be one thing if this incident was something happened once in a while. National traveling is already a pain in his ass thanks to customs. He's doing it so constantly - he's used to the strain. Waking up early, packing his things neatly, going through a million checks.

If he were a less ethical person, he'd take a page out of other pro's book and just get a jet for himself because frankly he's fucking sick of it.

This is the longest he's been completely out of the country before in his life. He's been gone for around 6 months now, training with the Brazilian National Team. It was a reward experiencing he'll admit, despite kicking his ass nearly everyday. He made good friends and the people were welcoming- someday he'll make plans to go visit with you.

But he's homesick beyond reasonable doubt. He misses his family dog. He misses Japan.

Most of all, Kunigami misses you.

He really considered not leaving because the idea of long distance didn't sit right with him. You (being the unfortunately considerate lover) you are encouraged him to go. He's thankful you support his dreams. You even surprised him with a visit because it fell on his birthday.

Which was thoughtful and he was so glad to see you but not helpful in quelling the ache of your absence.

Kunigami Rensuke loves you habitually. Maybe that's just how he operates (how he has after becoming a wildcard, that persists into his pro-career) but there's something about it that he never fails to act on. No amount of calling or texting has been able to scratch the itch, the need to love you.

You've been dating for the better part of three years and your anniversary is a few months away. Kunigami wants to marry you but he has to make more money first so he's been hustling.

(Not that you care about stuff like that. But as a pro and a man with pride, he's not really comfortable giving you any less)

It's a typical story for a lot of athletes but you were there before all the fame and publicity. You put up with all of it, all of his dedication and all of his frustrated feelings. Soothed him with gentle hands and a warm meal and a house that felt lived in.

To say Kunigami is grateful is understatement of the century. More accurately, Kunigami can't be without you too long. His life feels incomplete if you're not next to him. He's gotten heat for being soft but he doesn't care.

A wild card, a soccer hero - Kunigami has a lot of self-imposed expectations. But you? Not once have you ever made him feel bad about any of it. In a career where nothing is guaranteed, Kunigami is assured by your love. It makes him want to work harder.

You, of course, are nowhere near as clingy as he is. People often joke that you've got him wrapped around your finger. You laugh and disagree but Kunigami knows it to be true. Anything and everything, Kunigami wants to give you the world.

So six months has been a nightmare. Frankly, he never wants to do it again. His mood is infinitely worsened now because of all the delays. You have a tight schedule and you're not going to be able to come see him because of it.

So he's seething a little, despite it all. He really wants to make it someones problem because he misses you just that much. But alas, he already knows he shouldn't. He can practically hear your voice already.

("A day isn't gonna kill you, Rensuke.")

But it really feels like it will. He's moping the whole way home, even as his driver drops him off at his apartment - Kunigami doesn't feel like his life will start again until he sees you.

So, unlocking his door and coming into his abandoned apartment feels unceremonious at best. His first reaction is that something is a little off when he enters.

There's a noise coming from the living room and everything smells good. The house smells like linen, more precisely. His first reaction is that there's someone who broke in.

But upon entering further, traces of you start to appear like magic. Your coat on a hanger in the closet, your shoes on the rack and your house slippers missing. He doesn't want to get his hopes up, so he holds his breath as he walks into the living room.

Like some kind of miracle, Kunigami finds you asleep on his old beat up sofa. Now the new one, but the one he's had since he's first apartment. You're cozy in it too, hidden under a pile of blankets and wearing his stolen clothes.

The T.V. is playing an old comedy movie and there's a glass of water and all your things next to you. He's so happy for a minute, he really doesn't know if he should wake you up. Picking you up and plopping you into bed with him (maybe trap you there for a while) seems best.

But you stir awake before he even has a chance, eyes blinking up at him blearily, muffled under the covers.

"Rensuke?" You say, yawning aloud "That you? Or am I seeing things?"

What does he even do with his feelings?

"Not seeing things. I'm home."

You laugh pleasantly, sitting up rubbing your eyes. Your socks are pulled up to different degrees. Kunigami wants to marry you immediately.

"You're home," You say, happy with it as you open your arms up dramatically - inviting him in "Welcome home,"

It takes every ounce of restraint not to tackle you as he drops his bags on the floor and kneels between your legs to hug you. You're warm and soft, and Kunigami has missed you so much it's inhuman and cruel.

You let him nuzzle into the crook of his neck, palms soothing on the nape of his neck as you rub your cheek against his hair.

"How was the flight?"

"Pretty shit but it doesn't even matter," He says back, pulling away to really look at you "Doesn't matter at all,"

"You missed me that much?" You tease. He laughs out loud.

"Don't do that to me," He says, unable to stop smiling "You know the answer to that. I thought you couldn't come see me?"

"My boss' son is a huge fan of you, would you believe?" You say, yawning a bit as you lean forward to press your forehead to his "So I promised him a signature. He gave me 3 whole days off."

Kunigami laughs.

"Are you serious?"

"So serious. I thought it'd be better to surprise you at home. If I did it in the airport the paparazzi was gonna get pictures of you losing your marbles,"

He laughs at that, cradling your face in his palms.

"Yeah. Pretty sure I woulda tackled you,"

"You would've knocked me unconscious. You're so big,"

"You think I got a little bigger?" He prods. You laugh and Kunigami thinks it's his favorite sound in the world.

"Fishing for compliments five minutes in? Really? You did get bigger, your arms feel good. Very much wanna get crushed in them, so good work?" You say, squeezing his bicep. He grins.

"And the rest of me?"

"Guess I'll find out about your core 'n legs in a bit, huh?"

Kunigami laughs at that, the stupid wiggle of your eyebrows and the warmth of your body. He feels fucking giddy, in a stupid way since he's a grown ass man. But who cares, really? His life is good. He's never been so happy.

You make room on the couch for him and Kunigami hurries to join you - taking his shirt off and leaving him in his briefs before you climb to lay on top of him. You hug his chest.

"I got 20 minutes before I can't hold it in," He replies, his hands around your waist.

"Maybe I should stretch or something."

"I can help you with that," He offers.

You laugh, pressing a kiss to his mouth.

"No you can't, you fiend. Give me 20 minutes of cuddling before you render me useless to walk without assistance,"

He feels blood rush to a place it shouldn't go.

"Might have to cut it to 15,"

You laugh and hit his chest and Kunigami squeezes you even tighter. He loves you more than anything else in the world.

[spopsalt]

Horde Prime is just such a lame final villian, He has no ersonality beyond just evil cult leaderrr like you have SO MUCH potential there! There is SO MUCH you can do with having a literal CULT LEADER as your main antagionist, I say this as someone who's written a story with a cult leader before. Y'know a show that does villians right? RICK AND MORTY BABY!

Honestly I don't get the hype around Rick Prime, he's not the greatest villian, he's fine, he's passable, but he doesn't have much personality, kinda seems like wasted potential. Especially considering that he didn't personally know Rick c137, and only brutally killed his wife and child because he bruised his ego. And I struggle to say three words about him, I mean uhhhh he's evil, sadistic, and uhm....has a big ego. I mean he's a fun to watch, and is admittadly very memorable. Also, it's honestly refreshing to have a villian that doesn't have some tragic backstory, honestly though, I feel like Evil Morty is a MUCH more interesting villian. He's smart, manipulative, cunning, arrogant, and is shown to have a sense of humor (Example Rick c137 saying "Are you better than me?!" And Evil Morty replying "Jesus Chirst, I hope so!) and is very good at making plans. Needing only one day to completely control Evil Rick, he also has a belivable backstory, his Rick is implied to be physically abusive, since he has a tendency to flinch, we actually see him flinch and shield himself in his backstory when Evil Rick yells at him, but both of these villians are WAY better than Horde Prime because THEY HAVE PERSONALITIES.

While Rick Prime doesn't have a ton of personality, they make up for that by having him be fun to watch, Horde Prime is just boring, he has no interesting dialogue, as of writing this I can't remember a SINGLE line from him, just the god-awful deleted victim blaming line "You always wanted more, all she ever wanted was you"

Meanwhile the lines I remember from Rick Prime off the top of my head "You think it's cool being the smartest man on earth, but once we give you this technology you become the smartest thing in every concieveable universe, the infinite Rick, a god." "It's a non-stop where all the guests are the only people we like" "Or me! Again it might be me! But like a saw thing! I'm veryyy sneaky." "Look it's the wife guy! Dead wife Rick! I'll tell you this guy does not know when to quit (...) You brought two Mortys with you? What are they, your cheering section?" "What're gonna do? 'Aw Jeez' me to death? Oh you don't want those scematics buddy, those are for grownups. (...) Listen, Rick to Rick, he's got the weapon plans, buddy, nip this in the bud! He's 14! What's gonna happen the next time he gets mad at Grandpa?" And my all time favorite lines from him that he says while literally getting brutally beaten to death by the guy who's wife and child he brutally murdered "Haha! Let's do this then! You're welcome by the way! I MADE you! I showed you infinity! And what did you do with it!? Hang out with MY grandson?! Raise echos of MY daughter?! What's your LIFE without me!? Admit it! You would've been me! I just walked into your garage before you walked into mine! But eventually you did! YOU LIVED IN MY HOUSE!" He made it abundatly clear that he regrets NOTHING! Not. One. Single. Thing. Meanwhile I literally cannot remember Horde Prime's last words.

How do you screw up THAT badly with a final villian? Rick Prime isn't the greatest villian, but at least he's fun and memorable. What's memorable about Horde Prime besides his character design? That's right! Nothing! Evil Morty is an amazing villian with an interesting backstory that makes sense, being one Morty who finally snapped after years of emotional and implied physical abuse. Meanwhile Horde Prime is just uhhhh evil and uhmmm that's it. He's evil, deal with it. HE'S A GOOD FINAL VILLIAN!

Sorry I kinda blabbered on about Rick and Morty for too long, it's just AMAZING how many things it does better than spop, it's not the greatest tv show ever, but I like it nonetheless, and when it does good, it does GOOD! It just has a bad reputation because of those godawful episodes in seasons 4-6, I won't specify, but if you know, YOU KNOW! Ok, I'll stop talking now, I hope you enjoyed this comparison!

[barnowl265]

To all Acolyte fans. I'm not saying this to be mean, I'm saying this to hopefully bring some closure. The vast majority of people who watched The Acolyte did not like it. The numbers, reviews, and ratings are all out there to check if you want. Not enough people watched the show to greenlight a second season, and of the few who did, the vast majority didn't like it. This show LOST money, it doesn't matter how much you appreciated it. If the show isn't going to make money, to risk another season would be bad for the property as it's likely to not do well a second time.

I've seen plenty of comments from people who are showing support for getting the show a second season. While I admire the fact that you appreciated the show and want to see it keep going, you're probably not gonna get a second season. I've been a fan of the KOTOR games for years, and fans have been begging for a movie or show that retells its story. Yet, Lucasfilm has given us nothing but a possible remake, which we still haven't seen a proper trailer for yet. If Disney isn't going to deliver a certified moneymaker like a KOTOR movie trilogy for fans who've begged years for it, then they certainly won't deliver a second a second season of a show they already canceled.

I've also seen where you point the blame, other fans. First off, The Acolyte's cancelation isn't something to be happy about. A loss is a loss. It's a loss for the company, the actors, the production team, and every Star Wars fan out there. Hours of hard work gone to waste. No one wants a show to fail, but making a show is like baking cookies. You leave 'em in the oven too long, they get burned. The Acolyte had been delayed several times before release, and we know what happens to shows and movies that face production delays. It usually means the show has lots of problems and will be lacking in quality. The show failed because of various poor decisions being made behind the scenes that hindered its development as well as hiring a director who didn't do any research, tried to retcon at least two extremely important elements of the franchise, and doesn't consider herself a fan. If you wanna blame anyone for this failure, blame Disney's incompetence for letting this go on under there watch, blame the higher-ups at Lucasfilm for fumbling the bag on choosing a director, but the last thing we should be doing is blaming each other. It's not my fault The Acolyte failed, it's not the YouTubers fault, and it's definitely not the actors' fault.

Which also brings me to my next thing. To all the fans who hated The Acolyte. Yeah, I don't like what it did any more than you do, but be more mature about this. This show had people working hard at this for the past few years, give them some grace. The actors, set and costume designers, vfx artists, camera, and sound workers, where just doing their job. They don't deserve to be insulted for that. The show getting canned is heartbreaking enough for them as is. All that hard work and effort, wasted. C'mon guys, we're better than that.

Star Wars is a universe of infinite possibilities. Some of those possibilities have stood out while others fell away, and The Acolyte will unfortunately be a victim of the latter. I'm not looking for a fight, enemies, or an argument. I'm just hoping to bring Star Wars' horribly fractured community together a little bit. It probably won't amount to anything, but I wanted to share my opinion, and hopefully, someone got something out of it. Please, be respectful in the comments.

God bless you all, and may the force be with you.

[fanficsformyfaves]

So Sweet

Kirby Reed x Fem!Reader

WARNING: SMUT 18+, Dom!Kirby, Sub!Reader, Fingering (R Receiving), Oral Sex (R Receiving), Strap On Sex (R Receiving), Hickeys, FLUFF, Mentions of Murders and Police Investigation

PREFACE: Reader is Kirby's fiancé and an old friend of Sam's from when she worked with her at the bowling alley in Modesto. Once she found out about the Ghostface attacks in New York, she had to go and make sure Sam and Tara were okay

A/N: Texts are Colored and in Bold!

Flashbacks in Italics!

She is my newest hyper fixation, so, enjoy <3

"Sam?", I call out,

Making her turn towards me. Once I made sure it was actually her, my shoulders' finally drop in relief.

"Oh my god", I whisper to myself,

Before walking up and pulling her into a hug.

"I was so worried. We practically sped all the way here"

"You didn't need to come all this way", she says

"Are you kidding me? Once I heard about the case from my fiancé, I just packed a bag and hopped in her car", I reassured,

Pulling away, as she sighs.

"You're my friend, Sam. I had to make sure you were okay"

She smiles and looks down at her feet.

"Thank you"

"Don't mention it"

Just then, her eyebrows raise in confusion whilst looking back up at me.

"Wait...fiancé?"

That's when I realized I never got to tell her.

"I guess life's gotten away from me. Yeah, I'm getting married"

"No fucking way"

I couldn't help, but laugh at her surprised expression.

"To who?!"

"Well-"

"Baby!", a familiar voice calls out,

We both look behind us and there she was. Despite being together for years, she never failed to make my heart skip a beat.

Kirby and I met when I moved to Atlanta in pursuit of a better job than the one I had in Modesto. I was at the grocery store, checking out the ingredients I was gonna use for dinner, when the cashier swiped my card.

"Sorry, ma'am, but this card was declined", she let me know,

"Oh, um, could you try it again?"

"Of course"

She tries the card once more and sure enough, we ran into the same problem.

"It's still declined"

"I got it", a woman answered,

I turn around and it felt like I got the wind knocked out of me. There weren't enough words to describe just how beautiful she was. From the greens and blues in her eyes to the rosy pink lips and soft blonde hair...she was something straight out of a movie.

I eventually snap out of the lavender haze that was consuming me with each passing moment and go to stop her.

"Oh no, please, I couldn't-"

"I insist", she interrupts,

Swiping her own card. Not only was she breathtaking, but her heart was just as perfect. I smile to myself and take my now-bagged groceries. We made our way outside to the parking lot and she walks me to my car.

"I'm (Y/N), by the way", I introduce shyly,

"Kirby", she grinned,

"Is there anyway I could repay you?"

"Well...you could take my number, as a thank you"

I let out a laugh, before realizing she was being serious.

"Oh! Um, sure", I reply,

Getting my phone out. She takes it and starts putting in her number. Was this really happening? If this was all just a dream and I wake up right now, I'll be so pissed. Once we had each other’s contacts saved, I slid my phone back into my pocket.

"Maybe next time, you'll forget your wallet at a gas station and I can ask you out for dinner", she jokes,

Handing me back my phone.

Her sense of humor was only one of the many things that made me fall for her. We spent the next few months just flirting and getting to know each other. We would meet for dinners, coffee and even horror movie marathons at each other's houses.

One habit I picked up since I met her was looking forward to the sweet little morning texts she'd send me.

Kirby<3: Morning, beautiful. Hope you slept well

And every time, without fail, I would squeal into my pillow like a child.

Me: Good morning! I did, hope you did too. Are we still on for binging the Conjuring movies?

Kirby<3: Are you kidding?

Just then she sends me a photo of the snacks, drinks and an infinite amount of candy.

Kirby<3: I've got them all in chronological order! I'm just waiting for you to bring your fine ass over here

It didn't take long for us to become official.

It happened one night, after one of our little rendezvous. There we were. Laying in her bed, sweaty and out of breath. Our limbs tangled together, holding me tight against her bare skin.

"You are amazing", I exhale,

As I attempted to catch my breath.

"I know", she joked,

Pressing a kiss to the back of my shoulder and causing a soft chuckle to escape me.

"You know what I've been thinking about?", she questioned,

"Hm?"

"...How much I love you"

It was as if time came to a screeching halt, the moment those words left her lips. Afraid that this was all just a figment of my imagination, I hesitantly turn to face her.

"What?"

Maybe I was just hearing things. She laughs and gently caresses the apple of my cheek, like I was a piece of glass she was too scared to break.

"I love you, (Y/N)", she repeats,

Leaning in to kiss me once more. Little did I know that this night was the beginning of the rest of our lives together.

When Sam realized who it was walking towards us, her jaw drops in shock.

"Kirby?”

“Surprise!”, she greeted,

Putting an arm around the small of my waist, before I turn my head to meet her kiss.

“Wait, when did this happen?”, she questioned,

“About six months ago”, Kirby answered,

As I smiled at her.

“I’m so happy for you guys, really. It’s so good to see you again”

“It’s good to see you, too…I mean…better circumstances would’ve been nicer, but-”

Samantha tilts her head and shrugs in agreement.

"How are you and Tara holding up?", I asked,

"Holding up", she replied,

Looking back at her sister and friends.

"A friend of mine who works at the Plaza booked you guys a suite. You'll have extra security there", Kirby informs,

"Kirby-", Sam goes to argue

"Don't bother saying no", I interrupt,

Knowing Kirby wouldn't let Sam and the rest to fend for themselves out here.

"This is your safety, Samantha. You shouldn't risk it, especially with that psycho's targets on your backs", she explained,

Gesturing to her sister and friends, who were now approaching us.

"Kirby, this Mindy and Chad. Their friends of ours from Woodsboro", Sam introduced,

"Great, even more people to add to our suspect list", the young woman replied,

"I'm sorry?", I asked,

Scrunching my eyebrows in confusion.

"Well, this whole thing is obviously someone staging another stab movie, so...that makes you two the newest characters to look out for", she explained,

Before I could question any further, Kirby decided to reply instead.

"She's right"

"What?", I turn to my fiancé,

"That's a fair observation. Good to know we have another horror movie fan in our midst, could never have too many", she reassured,

I shake my head playfully. After making sure everyone was okay, the car we ordered to take them to the plaza shows up.

"That's your ride. Sam, you have our numbers"

She nods.

"Just let us know when you make it there safe. The Airbnb we're staying at is right across the street, if you need anything", I bid goodbye,

"Thank you", she smiles,

Before following her friends into the car.

~

Later that evening, we got back to the apartment after Kirby was done doing whatever else she needed to do at the at the police station.

"I am beat", she exhales,

Flopping onto the couch.

"You're telling me", I replied,

Joining her and laying against her chest, as she held me close to kiss the top of my head.

"I can't believe we're actually getting married"

"Yeah", I chuckle,

Kissing the forearms that were wrapped around me. We spend a few moments laying in the comforting silence, when she decided to speak once more.

"How tired are you?"

"A little tired", I turn to face her,

"What's up?"

That's when I notice the smirk on her face and immediately knew why she asked.

"Oh"

She giggles, before leaning in to kiss me. Despite how many we've shared, each kiss was only more exciting than the last. I flip onto my front and straddle the expanse of her thighs. Her hands making their way up my hips and settling around my waist to hold me where she wanted.

Her lips eventually trail past my cheeks and down to my neck. Marking my skin with one hickey after the other.

She slightly pulls away, while her fingers tug at the bottom of my shirt, almost as if to ask if she could take it off. The day I say no to that question was the day I'd officially lost my mind.

I nod and she pulls it off over my head, leaving me in just a black bralette.

“Good fucking god”, she praised,

Causing a delicious chill to run up my spine. Not wanting to waste anymore time, she reaches behind me and undoes my bra, before letting it fall down my arms. My top half was now left completely exposed to the draft in the apartment, which was made apparent by my buds immediately hardening at the cool air.

She pulls me in closer and wraps her lips around one, while the fingers on her free hand began to pinch and roll the other. There was no stopping the onslaught of whines and pleading moans that were escaping me.

I lean into her touch, as each hum she made against me caused vibrations to travel down to my core, only causing me to grow wetter and needier for what she had planned next. My hips began to grind against hers, granting me some kind of friction to alleviate the growing ache between my legs.

"How long has it been?", she mumbled against my breast,

"Too long", I exhale,

Getting back on my feet, allowing her to unbutton my jeans and drag it down to my ankles. I hastily step out of them, before straddling her once more.

She then lays me down and her lips make their way down my chest and stomach, till she was finally where I needed her. Her fingers wrap around the waistband of my underwear and slides them off of me, prior to being thrown across the room.

She parts my legs and takes a moment to admire the mess she was making out of me.

"So fucking good", she whispered,

Before nipping at my inner thighs and making them tighten around her head, to which she throws them over her shoulders and pulls me in even closer. Finally having had enough with teasing me, she dives right in. Her tongue licking up all of the arousal, as I gasp at the contact.

"Mmm, my sweet girl", she hums,

Sucking at my clit. She knew just what to do to drive me up the wall and have me begging for more.

Kirby always went on and on about the way I tasted. She said that if she had it her way, my legs would be over her shoulders all day long.

I could be do anything, like washing the dishes and she would just turn me around, get on her knees, spread mine apart and just dive right in. Once she'd gotten her fix, she would just get back up, kiss me and move on like she didn't just have me screaming and shaking.

Her fingers start rubbing up and down my slit, only adding onto the pleasure that was already consuming me.

She finally slips her digits into me and they immediately press against my g-spot. A gasp fleeing out of me as a result. It didn't take long, before she picked up momentum and was ramming into me faster and harder.

"Fuck, yes!", I whined,

Grabbing onto her golden locks for dear life.

She didn't let up once.

"You taste so fucking good", she cooed,

Swallowing me whole like I was the last thing she would ever have again. The familiar knot in my stomach threatening to snap at any moment.

"Don't stop!", I cry out,

"Don't plan on it", she teased,

Before continuing her ministrations on me. Her fingers repeatedly hitting my sweet spot every time she plunged into me, as my walls clenched around them like a vice. I knew it was only a matter of time before I-

"You're close, aren't you? Be good for me, baby, let me fucking have it"

That was all I needed to hear. I came with a screaming moan and let myself go all over her welcoming mouth. Once she was done swallowing the mess I made, she licked me up clean, causing a whine to escape me from the overstimulation. I was always so sensitive and she knew that. So it came as no surprise to me, when she giggled at my reaction.

Finally coming up for air, Kirby then pressed her swollen lips against mine.

"Can you taste yourself?", she mumbled with a smirk,

I nod and she pulls away.

"Think you can handle one more?", she questioned,

"I brought your favorite toy", she added,

Rubbing circles onto my sides with her thumbs. How on earth could I say no to that? I nod, still trying to catch my breath from the orgasm that I just had.

"I need to hear you say it, baby", she says,

"Yes, please", I shyly answer,

She chuckles and leaves me with a kiss to the cheek, before hurrying off towards the bedroom. She then comes back with the strap and places it on the edge of the couch.

I got back on my feet and helped her out of her clothes, as we continued making out. I get her top, pants, bra and thong off and no matter how many times I've seen her naked, I was always left speechless at how beautiful she was. Every dip and curve making my mouth water from how badly I needed her.

"Just to let you know, a picture would last longer", she teased,

"Oh, shut up"

She laughs, stepping into the harness, as I helped secure her into it. I lay back down and she gets in between my legs, wrapping them around her waist. She grabs the base and drags the tip up and down my slit, causing my hips to buck up against hers.

"Someone's excited", she exhaled against my ear,

Dragging her tongue against the tender point behind it.

Finally having had enough with the torture, she pushes the toy into me in one swift thrust. A surprised gasp escaping me as a result.

She began pounding into my needy cunt with such need, it felt like the couch was squeaking against the floor.

"God, you're tight", she mumbled,

Struggling against the firm grip I had on the toy, whilst burying her face in my neck, littering my skin with hickeys and bite marks.

The climax I hit not too long ago still rendered me sensitive, so, I was already on the verge of having another orgasm, only this one was growing more intense than the last one due to me being overstimulated.

By this time, the room was filled with the smell of sex and sweat. The sounds of my pathetic cries and our skins slapping against each other echoing throughout the halls.

I wouldn't have been surprised if we got a noise complaint by tomorrow morning.

"Does that feel good, baby? Did you miss this as much as I did?", she groans,

Ramming even harder and faster into g-spot.

"Yes! I'm so fucking close!", I scream between my moans,

"Do it for me. Cum"

The knot in my stomach snaps and comes undone, as I cried out one final time.

My body immediately goes limp, allowing Kirby to gently pull out, causing me to whine at the sudden emptiness. She always made me feel so deliciously full.

Once she rids herself of the toy, she scooped me up into her arms and lays me on top of her bare chest, before grabbing the blanket to shield us against the apartment's cool draft.

"That was...wow", I exhale.

My mind still reeling from the euphoric state it was just consumed by. She chuckles and kisses the top of my head.

"God, I love you", she says,

"I love you too", I replied,

Looking back up at her in awe. She leans down and presses another one of her kisses to my eager lips.

"So sweet", she smiles.

Let's just say I spent the rest of the night returning the favor.

[jungblue]

SEVEN DAYS | PREVIEW

pairing: jeon jungkook x reader

genre: beach town au / fluff, angst, eventual smut

word count: 1,755

description: You thought that it was just going to be be a normal vacation to the beach. Seven days of hanging out with your parents before moving away for grad school. It was supposed to be that simple. However, when you meet a local boy that wants to show you how life is lived by the water, you don't realize just how quickly you can be dragged under.

note: Hello, everyone. It’s been a very long time since I’ve posted anything writing related on this account, but getting back into things that made me happy has really been helping me. I know it says multi parts and this is just a preview, and I’m not the most reliable person ever lol. But I just want to put some creativity back into the world, and this is a story I wanted to write years ago that is just now coming to fruition. Thanks for all the support!

Day 01: Sand Dollar Budget

Day 02: Shark Teeth Over Seashells

Day 03: Jason's Woods

Day 04: Legend of the Lighthouse

Day 05: New Moon

Day 06: Lightning in a Bottle

Day 07: Lost at Sea

“Are you gonna stay underneath that umbrella the entire time?”

Your jaw clenched, toes nestling themselves further into the sand, as if that would somehow anchor you in place. The constant crash of the waves in front of you had induced an almost trance-like state, so the sound of your mother’s voice had thrown you off completely.

“You know I don’t like the sun,” You responded, turning to face your parents who were just a few feet away, relaxing in their lawn chairs. “It’s hot, and I enjoy the ocean a lot more when I don’t have to squint while looking at it.”

“It’s called sunglasses.” Your mom tapped her face, showing off the simple fix to your complaint. “And the sun kind of comes with the territory of being in Florida, dear.”

“Yeah, yeah,” You mumbled.

“Go in the water then. You haven’t been in all day. You’re gonna waste your whole time here.”

You sighed heavily. Wasn’t the point of vacation to spend it in whatever way you found pleasurable? And if for you that was relaxing beneath the shade, what was so wrong with that? Plus… your fear of the ocean and all of its infinite surprises lurking beneath might also possibly be a factor. You were from a landlocked state, after all. Did she forget that your closest interaction with the ocean until now was through pictures?

Though, when you really thought about it, maybe being dragged away by some possible sea creature with sharp teeth would save you from the pit of anxiety you had been drowning in for some time now.

Colorado to California.

In just two weeks you were going to be moving states away from all you had ever known. No friends, family or even acquaintances waiting for you on the other side. Of course, you knew you should be grateful for this opportunity. It was a prestigious program that was tough to get into. But regardless of understanding your lucky position, it didn’t change the festering fear clouding your head. Fear that was apparently so strong, it was actually driving you into thinking a shark attack might be ideal.

Only dramatics of course, because your next move was standing up to proclaim, “Fine, I’ll be at the pool.”

“Not what I meant, but better than nothing.” You couldn’t see your mother’s eyes, but you knew they were rolling into the back of her head.

You fought your way up the sandy hills. Each step having your feet slipping beneath the grains. And after a lifetime of this you finally made it to the wooden dock that led from the private beach to the beach house you were staying at for the next seven days.

It was a beautiful sage-green house that stood on top of wooden stilts, and an outside staircase that brought you up to the front door. It was only one of many that stood in an endless line down the beach front as far as the eye could see in either direction.

You got interrupted in your admiration of the different houses as you did an awkward run across the blazing hot wooden path. Definitely should’ve grabbed your flip-flops, you thought to yourself.

“Ow, ow, fuckin’ motherfuck,” You whispered as you finally landed back on a patch of grass on the other side of wooden planks. You breathed a sigh of relief as you dug your feet into the cool dirt before walking towards the back of the collection of beach houses, where a community pool was.

Most of these houses were owned by snowbirds who only lived in Florida during the fall and winter when the northern states became too cold. This left hundreds of houses all over the south of the state open to people from everywhere in the country to have a little week of ocean paradise.

Paradise.

That is what you needed to treat this trip like. No worries about moving and having to start over. Just being here in this moment for the short amount of time that you were here. You decided that was going to be your new mindset moving forward as you opened the gate to the pool.

The pool was quite large, but there was a group already huddled up in one corner of the shallow end. You counted two boys and two girls as you scanned for an open lawn chair to lay your things down.

You couldn’t help but notice how attractive they were as you started to take off your bathing suit cover. It was only amplified as you got closer while wading down the steps into the water. You were lost in this thought when the group suddenly turned to face you. You froze up just expecting a simple friendly wave of acknowledgment. However, that was thrown out of the window when one of the group began to drift towards you.

“Hey, nice to meet you!” One of the boys said as he extended his hand while you settled waist deep into the water.

“Oh, nice to meet you as well.” You shook his hand, not used to such sudden introductions.

“Jesus, Jimin. What’ve we told you about ambushing people like that?” One of the girls said, lightly smacking his shoulder. “Sorry about him. He was never taught manners. My name’s Reina.” She smiled.

“How the hell’s that any different than what I just did?” The boy, apparently named Jimin, asked while crossing his arms in annoyance.

“Well you already broke the ice without giving her a second to breathe, so I had to.”

Jimin looked like he was about to say something back until the other boy in the group came up and looped both of his arms around their necks, pulling them closer together. “Alright now lovebirds, you’re scaring the tourists.”

Ah, that explains their playful squabbling. “Oh, you guys are dating. You look super cute together,” You said.

Jimin immediately stood up taller, grabbing Reina closer. “Yeah, I accidentally caught a fishing hook in her hand when we were fourteen and she’s just been tagging along ever since.” He smiled, peppering kisses on her cheek.

“Well, it showed me how bad at fishing he is, so I knew he wasn’t gonna be one of those guys out on the boat for hours ignoring their girlfriend.” She grinned during the insult before getting her head dunked underwater.

“I’m gonna kill you!” She yelled as she swam towards Jimin who was already jetting towards the deep end of the pool.

“That’s what you get!” He laughed as she caught up with him and began splashing at him.

You smiled watching them together. You weren’t lying when you said they looked cute together. Though your smile faded after a few seconds, because seeing them reminded you of your own situation. Not only was the idea of grad school itself weighing you down, but it had actually been the downfall of your longest relationship. After you found out you were accepted into the program in California a few months back, things took a turn for the worse in your love life. He was not able to see a future in a long distance relationship spanning a few states, so unfortunately you had to call it quits after three years of being together. You started to dwell on these thoughts when you were thankfully snapped out of it by the guy who had tried to stop Jimin and Reina’s bickering a few minutes prior.

“Sorry about them. Taunting each other is their favorite hobby. I’m Namjoon, by the way.” He smiled, dimples popping out as the sun reflected off his almost platinum blonde hair.

“No, it’s no problem. It’s pretty cute actually.”

He shook his head. “Trust me, the charm wears off after more than a decade of having to watch it.”

Wow, a decade, you thought to yourself. And the comment actually made you remember something. “Oh, that reminds me. You called me a tourist.”

His eyes went a little wide as an apologetic look crossed his face. “Sorry, totally didn’t mean for that to sound rude. I know some people can complain about tourists, but we love meeting you guys.”

“No, no, I wasn’t mad about that,” You said, waving off his concern. “I just meant that means you guys actually live around here full time.”

“Born and raised by the water, baby.” He raised his beer.

The last person you hadn’t been introduced to yet then swam over towards the two of you. “Well, except for me. I’m Lisa, by the way… It’s actually my last full day before we’re heading back home.” She looked sad as she said that, lips pursing as it set in that her time here was almost over.

However, it looked like some people had not seemed to realize she was almost set to leave, because immediately Namjoon turned towards her, mouth open.

“Oh my god, I forgot you were leaving tomorrow! It feels like you just got here like two days ago.”

“Ugh, don’t remind me,” Lisa said, dipping her head beneath the water for a few seconds.

“Well, this will absolutely not be how you spend your last night in this town.” Namjoon stood up, making his way up the stairs so that he could stand over everyone in the pool. “Announcement!”

“Yes, oh great leader,” Jimin yelled from the deep end of the pool, where he and Reina seemed to have made up.

“It’s Lisa’s last night, so I have an idea.”

“Oh, oh, oh!” Reina explained as she began kicking her way back to the shallow end. “Jungkook’s band plays at Blue Tiger tonight after he gets off his shift at the marina.”

Namjoon clapped his hands together. “Read my mind Reina!”

Everyone got immediately excited and began pulling themselves out of the water.

“Jungkook?” You asked, still standing in the pool.

When you asked about this mystery man, some of the members of the group looked at each other and gave a strange smile.

“Uhm, just another one of our friends that lives here too.” Namjoon suddenly reached his hand down to you, silently asking for you to take it. “He’s really good. Wanna join?”

You were surprised by the offer, since you had only met these people ten minutes ago. But you thought to yourself, this was exactly the type of thing you needed to distract yourself from all the stresses from your life. Plus, this Jungkook character sounded intriguing enough.

With that, you reached up for Namjoon’s inviting hand. “Sure.”

[tojikai]

I just finished the “home” series, i just found your account yesterday yet all that’s left for me to read is “permanent mark”🙃

Like the “fix you” series, i ended up with alot of questions which is weird because i don’t have any for sundered but then again, im more of a toji girl

Questions:

- why did toji cheat?

- What happened in their marriage for it to get like that?

- did he ever truly fall out of love?

- do you have any plans for another story series?

- what would’ve happened if she hadn’t died?

- would’ve he regretted it or come back to her eventually?

- did he think of her daily after her death?

- how was he feeling after her death, years after?

- why did he put his mistress over his wife?

- Does he love his mistress more

- what’s up with the whole thing he did/him putting her over his wife

- what was his thought process when it first happened and after it kept happening

- ik he said he didn’t love hana but why would he cheat and basically put her over his wife if he didn’t?!?!

- i read 3 out of 4 stories so far and it seems like there a pattern of dudes putting someone they think they love yet don’t over someone they do or love more, is there any reason’s for it

Just me rambling about the story and your other stories:

I know he did but i hope toji suffers so so so much more until his last breath! (He did but I hope it felt like it was infinite for him😌) also Fuck hana! Wtf😭😭 if only toji didn’t fuck up bro its so sad, im hating yet understanding him?? If that makes sense, actually no not understanding but sympathetic towards him in the first ending ig but still fuck toji!!! I felt bad for him and then the next life chapter??? With his thoughts wtf and putting hana over y/n again😭 fuck toji!! he basically emotionally cheated if i was y/n i would’ve lefttt!! I swear your y/n’s are saints compared to me shhsjs

Your stories are so beautifully written yet so sad

I love them even if i might hate the love interest lol

Im More of the resentment type so it feels so silly to say this especially over a fanfic(but then again all of yours are so wonderfully written) but your stories i guess have made me possibly see things in a different light: like ppl do make mistakes and can change or genuinely regret them or that people can maybe hurt the people they love which is so weird for me to say because its a story and also im the type to refuse to believe you can love someone after you treated them so badly or cheated on them. Ig ur stories have made me realizes humans make mistakes and they aren’t BAD people for it butt the pppl they hurt doesn’t have to take them back nor forgive them or they can and it lean to something better than what would’ve been if they ended things

Note:

Im so sorry if im asking too much and i hope im not bothering you, i just tend to talk alot regarding things that i get invested in and i get so curious sbsjsj

Im probably writing this much because im so sleepy right now haha (my apologies especially if i wrote so much nonsense or I didn’t write/explain things wellh

thank you in advance if you answer 🫶i appreciate it, have a good day/night🖤i hope y enjoy the remaining of summer! Tysm for creating these masterpieces ‼️

hiii omg thanks so much, im glad that you enjoyed them <3

- to answer the first 3 questions: toji cheated bc he was bored. i have no excuses for this man in home series bc he really cheated bc their rs was getting a bit dull for him. do u know that point they say in some lovers' relationship. the drought, the feeling similar to "falling out of love" but they say not to leave your partner during this time bc that's when true love begins? yeah that. 🥹 he didn't really fell out of love but it's like a similar feeling to it.

- as for plans for another series, i'm thinking of doing a mini one. i have a draft here just waiting to be polished and published.

- if yn didn't die, hmm... assuming they stayed together, it's gonna be a very dead relationship. bc yn is so so tired. not just emotionally but mentally too. she's gonna have a hard time believing that toji still loves her even if he tried to explain. she's gonna be very reserved and visibly uncomfortable around him, thinking that he doesn't really want to be w her and just staying out of pity. she's gonna limit herself, and the love that she shows him. it will ultimately end in divorce, and he's gonna end up not wanting to sign it.

- yes, toji would've still regretted it even if yn didn't die. he's bound to come back to yn eventually. the day he left, he never planned on staying with his mistress for long. he just went there bc he was frustrated and he's trying to run away from yn's confrontation and the consequences. deep inside he was hoping that yn won't push through w the 'divorce.'

- for the 7th and 8th question, yes toji thought of yn every day and every night. the onyl time he's not thinking of her is when he's swarmed with work. but even during those times, his mind wanders to her still. the feeling that he felt when he learned of her death and discovered how she prepared everything for him and his new life was how he felt his whole life. it was never lessened. if anything it only got worse w time.

- for the 9th, 10th and 11th question: no, he didn't love his mistress more than yn. he left and put his mistress over his wife bc he thought that's what he wanted. there was a sense of thrill, the feeling of being with someone new that pushed him to act like that. as mentioned in the home series, his pride took over and he thought that that's the freedom that he wanted but it wasn't. it was too late when he realized that. you really don't know what you got until it's gone. he thought yn's gonna be there forever and that's why he kept choosing to go to his mistress not knowing that yn's days were numbered and that he's about to lose her.

- when he first cheated w her out of pure lust. there was no deeper meaning to it. and then it kept happening bc he found escape and thrill in it. other than that, she gives him a different type of attention, something new.

- w hana it was the attraction that made him act like that. im not saying all people, but some tend to be nice to attractive people and they don't even notice that to impress a new one, they end up neglecting another one. other than that, it's bc they work together. he doesn't plan on getting it on w her tho. he loves yn.

- i just like the thought of them making mistakes to learn from LMAO but i guess the difference is in fix you, his wife's dead. it's the lack of appreciation for the present and being stuck in the past. while in sundered, uhm it's a lot of pride and he did love Naomi tho. she was so good to him. (except that 'thing' she tried to do)

it makes me happy when people say they learn something from the content i put out🥺 the fact that you guys read my masterlist also makes me happy bc it makes me realize that literature really do make something immortal AAAAA i enjoyed reading this and answering your questions~ thank you so much for the love and support you give my stories <3 hope you're having a great week ~!!

[xivrefsheets]

Dawntrail Updates!

Figured I may as well toss a post to the void with DT rapidly approaching. Ahem. Hello! First of all...

Wow... thanks a bunch! I'm happy this little project has proven to be so helpful for so many folks out there! I figured once I stopped updating that this blog was gonna fizzle out into obscurity but I'm still getting quite a bit of interaction despite the inactivity (I really do miss Tumblr sometimes...)

Anyway, wanted to put an update out here on things going forward after DT drops and knowing how rambly and Autistic™ I tend to get, I'll just put that in a cut.

So as I've mentioned in passing in the tags of a random ask, I'm sort of considering opening comms for ref sheets again due to really Really Spicy money-related happenings in my personal life. However, there's a few steps along the way before I make this a reality and this isn't even a full guarantee it'll happen as I'll also be opening art commissions in the near future and those will take more time and priority over ref sheets PLUS there's the factors that led me to closing in the first place.

I'm trying to steer away from using Anamnesis going forward for a number of reasons (some borderline petty, I admit) but I've been introduced to some nifty new plugins that are slowly taking the program's place that make posing infinitely easier and also fix the primary issue I had with Ana which was.... not allowing unique NPC faces to show in gpose anymore. (Yes I'm aware that they still worked for carbuncles and the like but that was just enough of a hassle for my posing needs that it made the sheets Not worth making anymore since I was already dealing with other stress on the side at the time as well). I'm still learning how to effectively utilize said plugins and once I've gotten better and mastered them that'll be the end of step 1.

Step 2 is gonna be... well... waiting for DT to drop. As we all know, a massive graphics overhaul is coming, so there's very little point in opening requests for new characters now when the models are about to be more detailed and will very likely be tweaked along the way if player feedback affects NPCs down the line.

Step 3... that I dread... revamping my studio yet again. Mostly just gonna be taking out some of the extra light sources since those tend to get in the way when the model is really tall and also researching more setups. May also see about utilizing chromakey as well. Idk idk. I doubt I'll have the energy to make the sheets super pretty like some folks do, but taking transparent shots will cut out a lot of distracting factors and make the finished sheets look a bit better I think.

Then after that, I'll probably do some practice rounds and re-work sheets for popular characters as well as fixing the old, shitty sheets from when I first started that were Way Too Yellow that I've been meaning to fix for literal years now (so sorry to all my fellow color-picking artists friends out there I'm sorry that's so annoying... TTATT) and from there I'll see if it's something I still want to pursue and open comms for.

I'll shoot for maybeeeee mid-August or so for the next update. Obviously, I still have a job and I'll be enjoying DT with the rest of you guys so it'll be some time before I even think of doing ref sheets again, but I at least wanted to throw out there that this is still something I think about, but a number of factors made me stop to begin with. One factor being...

...pricing! If/when I open again, it'll likely be a proper commission post on ko-fi and I'm thinking of starting at $10 with tipping enabled. In the beginning, I was allowing requests for the barest minimum of a donation and the constant $3 for characters with a ton of details to cover was getting a bit demotivating after a while, so I'm sorry if this puts off past and future clients, but I am doing all of this in my free time, so... ;w;

ANYWAY! If anyone read all this... thank you! I know it's a Lot and I'm sorry. Been a minute since I've had to do some sort of official addressing like this... haha.

Feel free to follow my ko-fi for updates regarding ref sheet commissions, art commissions, and whatever new art I post (if you're into that) and maybe toss a dollar or two my way since, yanno, I'm Quite broke rn and have an unpaid vacation coming up... 👉👈 or if you just wanna support a fellow queer this June.

and if y'all don't hear from me in a few months just assume I lied LOL!

[popiacopia]

Papa... I have a, a question.

Do all dogs go to heaven or do all dogs to hell?

I know they all go to "paradise" because, obviously, but where do the dogs go?

We're putting our old family dog down on Thursday night and he's definitely ready to go... Somewhere. He's gonna feel so much better. Still very sad we have to say goodbye. Will probably cry a lot. But where is he going?

I may be busy, but never too busy for something like this. I am so sorry, cuoricina. Losing a pet is something I am very familiar with, sadly. To call them a pet is almost an insult, because we love them like they are our own children.

I believe that our pets, when they have to leave us, get to do something special. They get to pick where they go. They get to wait somewhere, but not by themselves. They wait with your other loved ones, and they make each other happy. Like a day care, I think. It could be a pet and a person, or a pet and another pet. They spend their time together, having fun and loving each other the same way they loved you.

They wait for you, but they are not sad, and they do not want you to come visit them any sooner than you have to. They know you still have a life to live. So they spend their time telling each other all the things they know about you, and what they experienced with you. They wait, but they are patient, because they know that you will come see them again one day when the time is right. And when that day comes many years from now, they will tell you everything they did while they waited, and you can tell them everything they missed while they were away.

I do not know where pets go for certain. I wish I could say, I truly do. It would make me feel much better on some late nights when I cannot sleep and my mind wanders. But if the world has some inherent good in it, and I believe it does, then I think this is true.

And even if it is not… I am comforted knowing that while they lived, they did nothing but love me. They lived a life shorter than mine, but only because they spent all the love they had to give in a much shorter amount of time than people do. If we loved as much and as hard as our pets do, I believe we would live shorter lives as well— because what is the point of living if not to love? Pets have simply figured out life’s purpose faster than we have— that is why they live short, but infinitely happy lives. They spent their time the only way they knew how, and they got it right. How many people can say they did the same, living a perfectly happy life without even trying?

Your dog has loved you so very much in this life, and he will keep loving you in the next.

I hope I could offer you some help. I know that it is heartbreaking. But things will, one day, get better.