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heartshattering · 4 months

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Well, I managed to make it through the night. Even with all the physical pain, anxiety, catastrophizing, obsessive thoughts, panicking, sobbing, etc. I still fell asleep eventually (and without having to take more of my sleep aid than what I've been taking for the past 2 weeks). Pain is actually a little bit better today but not completely gone.

I scheduled an appointment with my doctor for June 13 but still have to make an appointment with the gastroenterologist and with the lab to test me for stomach bacteria again. I'm trying my best but this is so exhausting and there's no guarantee I'll even have any answers by the end of all this. I just wish this was all a nightmare I could wake up from and finally be okay.

#IBS #gastrointestinal issues #painsomnia #panic attack #I had a full-on breakdown last night feeling like that was it for me #the pain was terrible #and my meds were not working #next month is the 10 year anniversary of when I had to undergo an emergency surgery #so maybe I have that in the back of my mind... idk #I'm always thinking that I'm never going to be okay and that whatever health issue I have going on with me is just going to kill me #it could also be the fact I've always been surrounded by death especially in the past couple years #and I've never been able to resolve my Health Concern OCD even though that was one of the first conditions I was diagnosed with #I'm just so tired of all this #I was crying last night while thinking 'How much longer do I have to deal with this?'#I'm so full of regrets #I should have taken better care of my stomach and overall health #not to mention my mental health too #I'm just so overwhelmed always trying to balance things all on my own without any help #I guess that's part of being an adult but still...#I just can't handle anything it seems

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zhongscara · 1 year

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#genshin impact #genshinedit #genshinimpactedit #genshinet #genshin otter #leisurely otter #otter #mine.gif #theyre soooooo cute #getting the footage for this was so painful tho...#trying to find good angles #the fact that my ping is terrible and makes my game stutter if my graphics are anything higher than low LMFAO #but i did it for them... my sweetums...

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shepscapades · 29 days

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[PART 1] [Part 2] [Part 3]

A young Xolotl and the strange build he’s spotted across the water from his starter builds! I wonder what it could be… how mysterious!

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hinamie · 2 months

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all i have left

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #yuji itadori #megumi fushiguro #itafushi #fanart #jjk fanart #fushiguro megumi #itadori yuuji #yuuji #megumi #hhhhhhhhh why angsty mood im hurting my me :((((((#go from megumi angst 2 dumb outfits then HARD pivot back 2 angst #u dont understand th clench in my heart i get drawing th sukuna scars on megumi i genuinely hate it so much #theyre such a Part of yuuji's design tht drawing them on megumi feels so viscerally wrong n it just hammers home that nothing is alright #had to listen 2 the cutesiest music possible while drawing this 2 keep myself sane #miku miku beam th pain away :)#real talk tho like. im really not one to b terribly emotionally affected by my own art. or to draw from my Own emotional state at all rly #i tend 2 keep myself pretty distant #but theres smth abt this one man this one pulls at th kokoro :(#suffering from success ig :/#created an emotionally poignant piece n it hurt. 0/10 wld not recommend. am going back to drawing boys shirtless >:c #gna draw something else so i stop feeling genuine human emotion

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haunted-xander · 1 year

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Pretty pretty butterfly

#this was experimental #and i like it!#pain in the ass tho #butterfly wings so beautiful but so hard to draw #the pattern isnt even the hardest part. its the damn veins #anyway. i love this terrible terrible woman #athena #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #art #my art #xanders art #xanders haunting art #digital art #fan art

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chronicpaingirlie · 5 months

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(guy with chronic fatigue voice) why do i get so tired by the middle of the day every single day :/

#i scheduled a grocery order for midday bc i forgot abt NAPTIME ‼️ terrible mistake im so sleepy but i have to do stuff #chronic fatigue #chronic pain #disabled #disability #0

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corpsentry · 2 months

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a glass sun 1/2

#my art #my stuff #this is really fucking long so im gonna have to break it up into multiple reblogs #(howling) WAUGHHHHHHH #i love aishang by xiaoshiguniang #i love to implicate my alma mater in my art about being gay in the shittiest most conservative corner of singaporean society #by some terrible trick of fate i ended up in the conservative chinese christian cishet circuit from primary school to end of hs #obviously i am not most of these things but there i was. Depressed #and there i was after that at Liberal Arts College. the 4 years i spent there were a clusterfuck #but like a good and outrageous and lively clusterfuck #and i graduated in may this year and when i came back it was for the first time in 10 months. it was like. what da hell #like i love being here in specific ways but there is also the pain of being seen as something you're not constantly #can i blame them? i ask myself this every day. for most of my ex classmates and relatives i Am the only not cis person they know #idk my lottery number was bad this corner of society really is that bad #and so its like. idk dawg anyway i aint offering solutions but u get it like it fucks with your head to be misgendered either which way 24/#but to leave them behind would be to leave the only people who knew me for the first 19 years behind. and thats a lot of my life #i am 23!!!!!! ough #anyway. whatever. if u liked it i have a ko-fi #reblogos appreciated

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syrren · 1 year

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At least docm’s inevitable merciless rampage will serve as excellent Scarland promotional material 😌

#docm fanart #docm77 #hermitblr #hermitcraft #the incident #hermitcraft s9 #myart #fanart #hewwo I’ve been terribly busy and largely unable to draw for pleasure lately due to wrist pain oTL #but rest assured that I am fully caught up on limited life and hermitcraft s9 and losing my MIND #anyways can’t believe Catboi DocM is what finally convinced me to pick up a pen and make some fanart

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aspiringwarriorlibrarian · 1 year

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I love how Izzy's arc last season was "What is this romcom bullshit I want to get back to gritty pirate stories" and his arc this season seems to be "I changed my mind, the gritty pirate story sucks."

#izzy hands #our flag means death #ofmd s2 #ofmd spoilers #like he hasn't completely decided he wants to be a minor romcom villain again yet #but he's definitely realized the banality of evil and the terrible boredom of pain part

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madnessofmen · 1 year

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#polls #i like it in theory #but irl it's like. uneven weights on top of me #and lumpiness underneath #just an overall back pain inducer #i can tolerate it for a little while though. an hour at most #terrible if I fall asleep

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thefatfemme · 9 months

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Shout out to fat people with chronic pain. Use that mobility aid, get yourself a tasty treat, and don't give a fuck what anyone else thinks. Your body deserves love and care no matter what!

#thefatfemme #Chronic pain #fat positive #fat liberation #Disabled #body positivity #Self love #fat acceptance #fatphobia #mobility aid #No this has nothing to do with my hips and back screaming today why do you ask #Also if anyone who sees this uses a cane while also having wrist pain #Do you have any good ways of mitigating the wrist pain while using the cane?#Cause I have tendonitis and will likely develop carpal tunnel from grooming dogs and some days my wrists are just terrible #Can't grip for shit #And while rn I can manage without a cane for the most part #there are also days where my back and hips act up and a cane would be a major help

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amphibianaday · 11 days

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day 1767

#amphibian #frog #self #frogsona #'hey hows recovery going?' fighting the urge to rip the post op binder off at every moment #my current number 1 enemy #except when i take it off to shower. i feel exposed like a beetle without its shell. put me back in my terrible husk actually im fragile #i think i have a pretty decent pain tolerance but i HATE the constant low level pain and discomfort

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theplatypusblue · 15 days

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lazy 1AM lloyd

#ninjago #lego ninjago #ninjago fanart #ninjago dragons rising #lloyd garmadon #ive had terrible sleep lately idk whats going on w me. also my phones touch screen hasnt been working and its stressing me out.#cuz i either gotta send it in for repairs or get a whole new phone and either way its gonna be a pain in the ass. phew. oh well.

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go-see-a-starwar · 1 year

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Watching the end of Ahsoka Ep 4 like

#next weeks episode: Pain!#(probably)#Felony is gonna rip babygirl away from us again in a terrible way I know it #and yet I’ll be eating every crumb #eta: felony actually did right by my boy this ep I was pleasantly surprised #anakin skywalker #hayden christensen #ahsoka tano #rosario dawson #ahsoka series #ahsoka spoilers #eta: I brightened up the screenshots #they looked okay at 2am 😆 but very dark in the daytime

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creekfiend · 2 years

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Man sometimes I think about Dora and like yeah she's a fictional person and not real but Jesus christ imagine dating a guy and he's literally the worst like just absolutely terrible and he doesn't let you be A Real Person and you finally leave and he makes you into a cudgel to beat himself with in his horrible brain and then ALSO YOU GET USED AS A METAPHOR FOR THE VIOLENCE OF LIBERALISM IN A VIDEO GAME ABOUT HIM ????? AND THE NARRATIVE CONTINUES TO NOT LET YOU BE A REAL PERSON EVER

WERE THERE NO GRAVES IN EGYPT

#disco elisco #the way this game is about women makes me feel the emotion of frustration #like it's... idk i feel so complexly about it bc the bits we get of harry interacting withbher are SO #painful and secondhand embarrassing and stuff like youre clearly meant to feel sorry for her #but in a way where like the... idk the reason she gets your sympathy is bc you can see his like #terrible behavior and treatment of her reflected sort of in her like a mirror not because she gets to like #have interiority #and in a lot of ways the way the game treats her is necessary i think? for the point its making #but ALSO COMMA #like... idk #mumble mumble mumble

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cleolinda · 3 days

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Currently dealing with the idea that I have hypermobile joints and possibly mild HSD, gonna have to ask my doctor about this, but I pitched this idea to my physical therapy guy and he said, in the most deadpan tone possible, “Would you believe that I am not surprised by this.” And then I remembered this man has seen me casually touch my heel to the opposite hipbone just because I felt like stretching that leg. While having a herniated disc. And lying down. The reason it matters is that I wobble all over the place and it affects my ~Form in doing these exercises correctly for my back. So now that we have this hypothesis, we’re paying attention to this and working on things to strengthen various muscles so I fall over less while, say, just standing still.

#‘hey! what if I could explain everything about your terrible balance and rolling ankles and herniated discs?!’#thank you I will go stare at a wall now #yes I am also audhd thank you for asking #this is why my knees click! this is why!!#why we didn’t catch it before: I have zero joint pain #is. is this why I can pick up things with my toes

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