#the pain I was preparing for
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Just know that I miss them. And by them I mean Maura and Daniel
#the grudge I have over 1899 being cancelled#the places I wanted to see this couple go#the pain I was preparing for#the hope I had#but oh no#we can’t have that can we#maura x daniel#daniel x maura#maura franklin#daniel solace#1899#1899 spoilers#1899 netflix#the potato rants in the tags
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Old Wounds Reopened[flood]: Kyoshi Warrior Sokka | Blue Spirit
Zukka Week Day 3 (id in alt)
+some close-ups bc I love them so
other things from ZW2024: Day 5 | Day 6 | Day 7
#zukkaweek2024#zukka#sokka#zuko#[id] in alt#love some kyoshi warrior x blue spirit stuff#but make it the homoerrotic tension of trying to kill each other#really went back to my roots (dai tarot cards) for these ones tho#escart#relatively conceptual#sub-theme for the week is touch#for me#icon for you and the homoerrotic-homie with the closeup#also incredibly proud of myself for fucking getting this done#bc i had vague plans for other things that may or may not be finished in time#looking at day 5 in slight pain about things that could have been#and i had at one point corrupted the files for these#prepare to be sick of seeing this one tho because I love it so much
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Really I think nothing shouts "my first Presidential election as a politically active person was 2016" more than the fact that when I feel hope and excitement for the future (possible President Harris) for more than five minutes I immediately get a crushing, all-consuming anxiety of "feeling this positive emotion now is going to make it so much worse when the worst thing possible happens" to the extent that I'll probably need my break-glass-in-case-of-emergency anxiety medication.
#politics#us politics#kamala harris#donald trump#2016 election#2024 elections#personal post#I can't feel any hope about politics without my brain reflexively shutting it down in case things get too nice before the fall#I know Harris has flaws#But I just like her--she's more progressive and feels joy and isn't shy about hating Trump#But then my brain is like “do not get attached or The Pain will be worse later”#This happened in 2020 too---I couldn't believe it when we won I was so busy preparing for the worst#harris for president#democrats#vote democrat#seriously vote democrat#If you are following me or reading my fic and capable of voting in the US election and are not voting Democrat please feel free to fuck off#You're the reason Trump won in 2016 and if you prove my anxiety brain right I hope all your food comes out burnt for the rest of your life#good thing I have therapy tomorrow
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Jason after a certain incident
@bonerot19 enjoy :)
Poll is in the weblogs (why did my spellcheck change it to that???) Ahem REBLOGS to decide what comfort to give him, so far the cat distribution system is winning
Edit: the cat distribution system won! stay tuned for whenever I finish that
#Now that I'm looking at it I'm seeing everything wrong with this drawing#So I need to post it right now before I try to fix it into oblivion#Anyway#I don't feel like I nailed the emotions in this one so prepare for more drawings of Jason suffering#Soapysudz art#As I chase the high of getting emotions onto the....screen? Since its digital art ig you could say that#soaps art#jason todd fanart#Batarang incident#To me patching yourself up is such a lonely and painful thing#The pain being caused by your dad choosing to throw a knife at your neck to save your murderer must be so much worse on top of that
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and they were roommates
#ts4#the sims 4#sims 4#simblr#ts4 cas#my sims#preparing the growing pains save <33#juno come back btw...i missed him and wanted him to be part of something T0T <3 so here he is
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Look. Look look look.
I was saddened by Percy's death, obviously, but it didn't hit me overly hard because I was expecting it the entire time I was watching E7. Damn episode is literally called Cloak and Dagger and had all the telltale signs of an impending character death (looking at you, score-less scenes and death-flag dialogue)
But KASHAW? Fucking KASH? They killed HIM off? That was the scene that brought me to tears. What the FUCK do you MEAN the loveable asshole is DEAD? That he got SQUASHED like a BUG by Thordak and joined the Matron's side?
He and Zahra were supposed to have a lovely cameo each season where we got to see their relationship progressing alongside the others! They were meant to end the show happy and healthy, joking with Vex and Vax about how twins run in Zahra's family!
I kinda desperately want Kash to be given a resurrection. Let Vox Machina repay him for his help in bringing Vex back last season! Let Zahra and him build their family together! Let me know some peace!
#yet that is not how stakes in an animated show like this works#percy coming back is already pretty significant and considering their deaths happened within episodes of each other#the ONLY way i could see it working is if they did a double-resurrection (think zahra appealing to vex as a fellow heartbroken lover)#critical role#critical role spoilers#tlovm spoilers#tlovm#tlovm s3#the legend of vox machina#kashaw vesh#zahra hydris#god i am actually so destroyed by what happened to kash#percy's death? expected. prepared for. painful but necessary for the larger picture.#kashaw's death? unexpected. unprepared for. COULD HAVE BEEN GIVEN TO FUCKING SYLDOR INSTEAD#to be clear this is not me hating on the show - i am just deeply emotional about such a sudden character death
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heartless
trying to cope with the chapter 1081 // episode 1115
#lawlu#lulaw#one piece chapter 1081#one piece episode 1115#one piece fanart#one piece spoilers#op fanart#trafalgar law#monkey d. luffy#amerain#my art#sensei... im begging you let law be happy 😭#i thought i was prepared after reading the manga#boy was i wrong#watching the episode was just as hard i'm in pain
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it's something like he'd throw you his flask to take a swig from and watch you drinkin from it while he leant against the door frame and when he- you- finally got called back on again he'd take a sip from it too real slow like- like it weren't the whiskey what he were tryna savour or- or- maybe something like
Also, bonus:
#Oda if you prepare something even more PAINFUL than this for ZoLu......#One Piece#Gol D. Roger#Rayleigh#Silvers Rayleigh#Gol D Roger#Gold Roger#I too would not be able to act normal for my first mate#I TOO would not be able to act normal for MY CAPTAIN#SIGH. it's all about circle and captains and their first mates for pirates#Kozuki Oden#Wano Arc#Wano Kuni#Wano spoilers
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#smrsrhrn iii Dont. know#i wanna comic i wanna comic AAAAAAAAHHHGGH no MOTIVATION cries sobs throws up#i ;lsd kne nkejhe kst hteoi wmuut;stsal lrr rww#so many things prepared in headspace but No. working haddnd... ..... kkhhhHHHhl;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;#endless pain and torture . if i Cannot Function.KINITO SCSNNOT KFUNCTION EITJERR./j#kinitopet art#kinito my beloved#kinito the axolotl#kinito fanart#kinitopet#birdyfy art#kinitopet my beloved#kinitopet fanart
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working in animation feels like this
#I feel like i cannot in my right mind recommend this career to anyone#is it fun and rewarding? yes. i have done and gotten the opportunity to do things i never dreamed of#is every day also a nightmare and the world is caving in on itself and every new show feels like getting beat to death?#yes. Every day i am beat to death with hammers#If you want to work in animation have fun and work hard and prepare for eternal pain and suffering
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Danny may have underestimated Vlad...
#vlad has chronic pain#danny phantom#vlad masters#dp#selkie draws#yes his cane is made of a material danny cant phase through hes a prepared bastard like that#trying out someting new with the coloured lighting it was hmm#i really wanted to make this fully coloured but i just couldnt get it looking right#i imagine here vlad's been zapped with the plasmius maximus and cant transform#danny thought he had the upper hand alas vlad knows how to kick ass as a human as well#fire hair danny#i love you fire hair danny#pompous pep#(kinda)#(he chokes danny in the show also)
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finally got a copy of the revised tgcf novels and skimmed book 4 and the fenglian breakup hurts so much more in the revised version... fx's whole line about "i really don't know, then why have i followed you all this time" is removed. instead what happens is, right after xl says "no, it was the past me who was crazy", xl directly tells fx to leave:
XL: "You should go." FX: "What?" XL: "I said, I don't need you anymore, you should go."
all the other parts of the scene are the same. these revised lines, though, are so painful... it also makes it obvious that fx did not abandon xl, he only left bc xl literally dismissed him as a servant and directly told him to leave 😭 fx doesn't even have that line questioning why he followed xl anymore.
#tgcf#xie lian#feng xin#fenglian#tian guan ci fu#heaven official's blessing#either way fx did not abandon xl!!! i will die on this hill!!!#i think it's also impt to rmb that this scene takes place right after xl comes back from being stabbed 100 times#xl is not himself at all and is extremely traumatized#me desperately reminding myself: postcanon they are happy and best friends again it's literally canon that they are reunited and friends#again and happy#oh god this is genuinely so painful in a way that i was not prepared for#im sorry for the new year angst; my copy of the revised novel just happened to arrive on jan 1 😭😭😭#my translation#mp: tgcf#i need to see what else changed but its gonna take me forever to actually read all 244 chapters omfg#oh yes mulian is gayer in the revised version btw
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any of my fellow spoonies have any tips on making a living when you basically can't work? i've tried to apply to basically every job near me where i would be sitting down and not lifting stuff due to my limitations... but even aldi has now rejected my application... i'm quite literally running out of options and it's stressing me out big time. any advice would be greatly appreciated!
#please i have credit card debt#i was not prepared to lose my last job even though i hated it and it made me physically ill#disabled on main#disabilties#disabled#disability#chronic illness is a bitch#chronically ill#chronic illness#chronic pain#chronic fatigue#potsie#pots#pots syndrome#potsawareness#postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome#heds#hypermobile eds#ehlers danlos zebra#ehlers danlos syndrome
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the way that diff languages sound r so fascinating they're all different and all so vivid
#russian is like the surface of a feather like it's light but not exactly “soft” but still very delicate#german is . cute ? i think it's adorable . it has a lot of momentum it makes u wanna talk fast and talk a lot#like it's squishy . sleek surface w a soft inside#thai is like song . it's like interprative dance or maybe a trust-fall . everything follows from the previous thing#it feels like a little fairy flying up and letting itself fall and flying up again and so on (for fun). its so beautiful but also playful#mandarin chinese is like . idk why but it gives me the same vibe the concept of Observation does . like to read and to see and absorb#and then to translate that into smth else . like . imagine a poet people watching or an artist preparing a canvas w practiced hands. thats#the vibe. soft and elegant and musical but like...in a way that feels lived-in. arabic feels wise ? like music or poetry u read#and feel nothing about then years later u stumble on and it applies to everything in ur life. that kind of vibe. like it knows more than u#and itll make sure ur heart and soul grows as big as its lexicon . polish is like snowflakes falling . it has the feeling of complexity and#elegance but it's also so so light and slippery and...maybe not elusive but the feeling of losing a dance partner in a waltz ? like fun and#light but also an underlying elegance and somberness still . turkish is like the feeling when u get a text from ur crush#and your heart tightens and you cant tell if it's really painful or really amazing . it feels like unrequited love . or a caress#or making out with someone when you know its the last time you'll see them. its beautiful in a yearning longing way#korean is like joking around w ur friends and you've stayed up until like almost 5 AM and youre so delirious that everything is funny#and ur speaking kind of lightly and openly and everything you say holds a lot of weight and doesnt matter at all. you laugh at everything#and youre practically talking in inside jokes and watching the sunrise together . one of them hits u on the shoulder lovingly. ur by a fire#yoruba feels like the metatheory of the matatheory . abstraction until it circles back to intuition or maybe#it feels like plotting the route of a comet or maybe like the soft warm whirr of statistics. trying to verbalise beauty somehow#when you know the best thing you can show it is by telling everyone just look!! look at the sky just look!#anyway yh i think i could do this for every language ever tbh
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"I hope you told your brother how much you loved him, because you're probably never gonna see him again."
"..."
"Was that too dark?"
"YES!"
"Sorry."
#mario movie#mario move spoilers#super mario bros movie#super mario bros#mario and luigi#super mario bros movie spoilers#cherrysip edits#i was gonna make a different gifset today but then i found that new trailer and WELL HERE WE ARE lol#TOAD SERIOUSLY CAN YOU READ THE ROOM HERE???????????#first time in the town was kinda funny second time was genuinely a bit upsetting to the point that i gasped when i heard the dialogue#mario would prefer you Do Not Say Things Like That!!!!!!!#he is no way shape or form emotionally prepared to grapple with the idea of his brother being dead or never being able to find him#that would end him. that would destroy him. he would truly not know how to go on. so that is just firmly Not a Possibility in his brain#(and now i made myself REALLY sad thinking about mario remembering this conversation a little later and wondering#when WAS the last time he told luigi he loved him????? he can't remember. he loves his brother more than anything and anyone#but he hasn't said it outloud in so long and the realization of that is extremely painful. there's some more angst for you!!!)#anyway this is just a compilation of all the significant scenes where mario and luigi are actually together we've seen so far and I CRY#also the brand-new one of them running through town!!! omg it's perfect#with mario doing unnecessary parkour and luigi just diligently jogging along on the outside and avoiding the mess#the characterization even in the tiniest moments like this is truly CHEF'S KISS#will be working on more gifsets because my brain just needs to stare at all this until the movie comes out lololol
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imagine getting your period with cramps right before having to take three exams the next day haha that’s so funny right (I’m sobbing.)
#I had to make him go through the pain#If I suffer he suffers.#Would this make my Mista afab#Wait hold on… should I be in the kitchen…..#Anyway hihi haha period cramps suffering yaaayyyy I have to wake up tomorrow I’m so happy no I’m not I’m fucking lying what is wrong with m#3 tests I am not allat prepared for tomorrow. Fuck it we ball I guess#But hey I got 100 on two exams today *bats eyelashes and twirls hair*#jjba#jojo no kimyou na bouken#jojo's bizarre adventure#guido mista#digital art
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