#the only way i feel like i can prove im not that is if i get really good at something. but truly nothing inspires me. nothing brings me joy
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that is absolutely not what a “claim” means. this is second hand embarrassing and i’m only replying to point how hilarious it is that you so confidently state obviously incorrect things.
on one hand, i hope you’ve graduated high school because i’d feel bad making fun of you otherwise, but on the other hand, the idea of adults who so boldly state misinformation as fact being out and about with a high school diploma is scary and makes me fear the state of the education system.
if you’re looking at the formal oxford definition, you missed the word “typically”. as in: common usage. not genuine meaning. you’ll also see “without providing evidence or proof” not “without having evidence or proof” or “there is no evidence or proof” like you state. if you have a look at it’s noun definition, we see “an assertion that something is true”, which is more accurate to the actual meaning of the word. it’s just an assertion of fact.
it’s very disturbing that you genuinely seem to believe something being called a “claim” means it’s false. ironically; it reeks of someone who’s chronically online and lacks much formal education. the most simple example i can provide is the beginning of many proceedings being through a “statement of claim”, as in making a claim that the other party has done something. before i wrote the word “claim” i actually thought about it, but i figured no one would be stupid enough to argue that a “claim” means something is false. i underestimated the internet yet again.
also yes, i’m not addressing the rest because debating it is entirely insignificant to me, as i stated. i can send all day collecting my posts talking about advocacy for Afghanistan or reproductive rights, or sourcing books written by radfems about racism and class, but im not going to spend my time proving that to someone who’s demonstrated such awful faith in arguments. i have better things to do. im not an idiot. also, finally, you’ve entirely misinterpreted “there is nothing there at all” - i wasn’t referring to discussions existing or not existing, i was referring to there not even being straws to grasp at. i thought that, too, was pretty clear.
i can’t tell if your arguments are just in horribly bad faith or if they’re genuinely based in such a lack of understanding. either way: i highly recommend you get off tumblr and go read a book. unless your next reply is nearly as laughable as this one, i will ignore it.
I will just never take men seriously when they complain or they're upset by "it's a girl or an abortion" because sure, okay, let's say it's hateful, hurtful, that it's "murder" even, if you want. Let's just say it's misandry, it's bigoted, sexist, whatever you want. Say "men are oppressed", anything.
But where were you when we were discussing the (at minimum) 20 million missing baby girls in china? What do you call that, then?
#radblr#radical feminism#radical feminist community#radical feminists do touch#radical feminists please touch#radical feminist theory#radical feminist safe#radical feminists do interact#radical feminists please interact#beewildered
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Do you have any general nsfw headcanons for Chase, Heatwave, and Blades?

I love these dorks so much
Warnings : gn!reader, a few callings of good boy, repeatedly calling Blades pretty(im weak), talks of overstim.
Mdni you will be blocked! Adults only!
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Chase
Chase is a bot you can basically top from the bottom and he perfers it that way, he likes you telling him what to do he likes when you praise him, give him direction. He is the most obident mech you will ever meet, he could be thrusting into you but the second you tell him to pause he will, and he will without a single complaint even if his spike is wrapped around your wet heat, threatening to make him overload.
* It’s difficult to ask him for much riskier behaviors, however you found out by accident he is a vouyer and is ashamed of how hard he gets watching you touch yourself or fuck yourself with your toys. He was beside himself with guilt when you found out, he couldn’t bare to face you knowing he had seen you at such a moment without you knowing, but was left shocked when you informed him how hot that was.
* Speak of, he sees it as both a reward and a punishment when you make him sit at the end of his berth and make him watch you touch yourself and get yourself off without his help. It’s a reward cause he’s delighted you trust him so much, and he gets to see you in such a lewd state! A punishment because he desperately wants to lick you clean and feel you cum around his spike.
* PRAISE! please praise him, he needs to hear you tell him how good he is for you, that he’s yours, that he makes you feel good, he wants to feel wanted and desired.
* However, on the flip side of things he can very RARELY be the dominate party, Chase is very strict about rules, boundaries, acts and given your permission, if you were to break one of the following you will be dealt a swift punishment befitting of the crime, whether that’s warming his spike when you are so close to cumming, being denied for a week, being overstimulated, or a spanking. Though he also expects the same in return, even if he never has trouble obeying you and your orders.
* Truthfully if you can manage, Chase would adore a day collar, something casual and lowkey to go out and do his job in but still signal your trust, bond, and commitment.
* He is awful at hints or subtle gestures, but sometimes you can’t tell if it that or he just likes you grabbing his face and telling him to fuck you even more. This alos ties into his want and need for heavy eye contact, he needs to be staring directly at you into your soul while loving you.
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Blades
Yes he is the prettiest boy, please tell him all about it and how much you love him! Blades likes a nice mix of praise and degradation, if you’re going to call him a slut or shareware make sure to put ‘my’ in front of it first, or he gets so pouty when you don’t and it makes himi want to prove himself to you so much more. He is a whiny princess, he whimpers pathetically for you and begs so pretty too, he just wants to be your good boy or your filthy whore.
* loud, very loud, you need to be careful when fucking him cause he is vocal, I hope you have a big garage or your own hanger, because having sex with Blades at the firehouse is a risky gamble. Either he is loud and someone hears, or you can manage to gag him, but then it muffles all his slutty cries. Wings fluttering, face bright blue as his optics roll back, biting down on his mesh pillow with tears rolling down his face cause it feels so good!
* Switch, he can truly lean into whatever role you want him to fill, he can be your trembling whining bottom begging for you to ride his spike more and play with his valve, or he can be your needy top who loses control when shoving his spike into your greedy hole, unable to stop his hips and blabbering about how good you feel and how close he is to overloading.
* His wings are sensitive, so very sensitive, even just a few gentle brushes of your hand against them is already making transfluid leak from behind his modesty panel, nip at them or drag your nails across you will have him overloading within second with a squeal.
* He cries a lot during sex, it just feels too good! And he’s very vocal in letting you know he’s enjoying himself, the closeness, the passion, the trust, the vulnerablity, he’s a mess for it and even feral for it. He says that, then attempts to be a brat once, but you were quick to find out how much he hates (and loves) edging, he sobs loudly and strains his voice box to plead with you to let him cum, he’s a good boy! He’ll behave he swears! It’s the hardest orgasm he has, and he grows hooked.
* Blades is however also addicted to tasting your cum and will beg to go down on you as much as he possibly can, you can get him to do any task so long as you offer yourself up as the prize, and whatever it is will be done so fast it’ll make your head spin.
* His favorite positions are ones where he can look at you, he doesn’t even have to look in your eyes he just wants to see you, whether thats between his thighs lapping at his valve, riding his spike, or letting him take you frome behind, Blades just loves seeing your body jiggle with each thrust, he loves the softness of your body compared to the harden metal of his own.
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Heatwave
MENACE, your hole is not safe from this mech and in fact neither is any location, common room, his habsuite, the Sigma, the woods, literally anywhere Heatwave can have a moment with you is not safe, nearly every inch of the bunker has had his transfluid and your juices on it, but he is very thorough in his clean up. Heatwave is not one to mess around, he is feral in his affection for you, and while he maybe a little awkward showing it to you in a softer sense, he has no issues bending you over any surface.
* Another mech who is feral for your holes, he’s a big fan of overstimulation but mostly a fan of leaving marks on you in someway, he is gentle and careful of course, but don’t be surprised when you have some big hickeys, servo prints on your thighs, and bite marks on your inner thighs and stomach.
* Teasing him is dangerous, especially if it’s before the team revealed themselves to the town. You can feel his optics on you, taking in ever last move you make, the sway of your hips, the little pats to his leg you give him while conversing with other townsfolk, the flirty smile you give him from across the venue. Just know afterwards he’s caging you between him and the wall while pounding into you, growling out swears and how “you’re such a slaggin’ tease, filthy fraggin shareware, huh? Be good and overload for me. We aren’t stopping until you remember you’re mine.”
* Heatwave loves a good mating press, at least as close as he can get with his size compared to yours, loves holding your legs up and pushing as far up as they can go, just to fuck you deeper. His engine purring and interal fans whirling to cool him down, sweating coolant, but still smirking down at your fucked out form.
* He has a mild jealously problem, which leads to his ‘yes no’ relationship with exhibitionism, yes he absolutely wants someone to see how he fucks you, let them see how well trained you are for his spike, but also NO, he wants no one else to see you like this this is for his optics only. A result of this is he’s leaned more towards taking you to his old ship and mounting you over the control panels, recording your little couplings in there just to get it out of his system.
* Don’t let him find out about your toys, you’d think he’d get jealous but no, in fact he now wants to modify a few so he can have easier control of them, namely your vibrators, mostly a bullet vibrator you have, just so he can have you wear it out and about while the have it so he can control it without the remote to it.
* Also a big fan of doing things a more cybertronian way, whenever he gets a chance to drive around just you and him, he wants you to feel up his interior, maybe move into the back and strip for him, let him watch you play with yourself before mass shifting a little so he can stuff you with his thick spike.
* Lives and loves to manhandle you, bend you any which way he can, fold you in half, flip you over, anything that lets him fuck you deeply. But even with his rough fucking he takes great pride in cleaning you up and soothing you with a purr of his engine.
#smut#transformers valveplug#valveplug#transformers x reader smut#transformers x human#transformers x reader#transformers heatwave x reader#transformers blades x reader#transformers chase x reader#rescue bots x reader#rescue bots x reader smut#rescue bots heatwave x reader smut#rescue bots blades x reader smut#rescue bots chase x reader smut#rescue bots heatwave x reader#mdni#mdni blog
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failure and futility
for day 2 of campfire fest! prompt: third eye (and i guess could also count for explosion, or a lack thereof lol) @outerwilds-events
#i meant to do something yesterday but i had a crazy shift at work and was feeling lazy lol#anyways. pye and idaea after the probe didn't work#this line of text is the first thing that comes to mind for 'third eye' for me bc its the only evidence/in-game mention of the nomai's -#- third eye being special/different from the other two in some way. im curious if it is actually composed differently and has better vision#or if it is just better for seeing fine details in things directly in front of them since it is forward-facing as opposed to -#- being on the sides of their head#also i just think about these two a lot. can you imagine being co-leaders of the most difficult and controversial part of a massive project#that is so important to so many people including your friends family members and ancestors who have died in search of what you are -#- going to potentially destroy your entire clan while attempting to find#you are building a weapon intended to destroy yourself and the entire star system you were born in#and your co-leader is the person with quite possibly the most opposite opinions and disposition to you#idaea having to grapple with the fact that the failure of something he never wanted to exist in the first place is still upsetting to him -#- because despite their differences he still sympathizes with pye who was so confident and wanted it to work so badly#and both of them as well as anyone else working at the sun station put so much time and energy into constructing it#and that work was so miserable due both to the heat and the tension due to their differing opinions and their own mixed feelings on it#pye having to admit defeat to everyone else working on the project who were so excited for this to finally give them the answer#in front of idaea who was so convinced that it was a bad idea and who she was probably desperate to prove wrong#in front of the entire crew of people who had spent probably months in miserable working conditions#after she had been so confident that it would work and so insistent that this was the only way#and she had to admit not only that it failed but that it couldn't possibly work. that deep down she knew and had probably known for a while#- that it would never work and had continued working on it anyway because she wanted it to work so bad#anyways. the fucking brainworms#tried out a new style for this and i really like how it turned out#outer wilds#outer wilds spoilers#outer wilds nomai#frostgnaw draws
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I keep seeing fanarts of ppl's OC's being on the ship, so do you think that if there was 6st crewmember (specifically, another woman) Anya would've been more safe? Like, someone to actually call Jimmy's begaviour out, someone Anya might wanna trust? Is there a possibility something might have changed (even if a little) or it would not have mattered at all?
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I feel like the game would make it part of the commentary on where she would believe and help Anya but still be sort of dismissive? Like the whole “don’t waste time crying and being scared keep going and move on, don’t let him win”. It’s supposed to be positive and reinforcing but sometimes it does more damage in those times of mourning and grief, it feels patronizing, like you don’t understand what you’re going through but they do. Even if they did call out his behavior it’s still on Curly to act and while another voice would help, it’s still 4 against 2 on guys that don’t get it until they have to vs women who always have to.
I don’t mind mouthwashing OCs but I do get a bit bored as they tend to be borderline saviors or like Jimmy aligned. They are either more complicit than Curly or just Jimmy haters for no reason, outside of what the creators know about what he did to Anya. I am never irked by OCs but in a story like mouthwashing you really need to think about what your character adds to the commentary, especially if they are there during the crash. It’s nice to have like characters on Anya’s side more whole heartedly and interesting to see characters who placate Jimmy but sometimes it’s one note.
I can’t and don’t want to police peoples OCs it’s never my intention when I comment on trends I notice, but I do feel like the way people make their OCs interact with these two characters and especially Curly, really show a grave misunderstanding of the narrative and these characters as people vs roles in the story. Still, I know people just make up characters for fun and that’s fine. Great even, but I guys I’m focusing more on OCs that are supposed to have those serious dynamics. My favs tend to be pretty-Tulpar or post-Tulpar au OCs.
The inevitably of the crash is on Jimmy. He did that not because he wasn’t stopped but because all his means to kill Anya were taken. The gun, the axe. Even if Curly did strip him of his co-pilot privileges and try to keep him contained there’s only so many people. An extra body helps but they have jobs they have to do, he’s the only one steering the whole ship and Jimmy would likely have an out: food, bathroom, etc. He’s not new and if he couldn’t crash the ship directly, who’s to say he wouldn’t sabotage something else? A clunker like the Tulpar wouldn’t take much. An extra person helps but it’s just another thing that prolongs what a person like Jimmy is willing to do to shirk responsibility.
It’s more than just needing someone to stand up to him and think that’s what is missing when it comes to inserting a character into the mouthwashing setting.
#like again most people treat Jimmy like a misanthrope and he’s not and the way he’s just evil/rude to everyone all the time just isn’t real#like he’s snarky and rude but it can’t be 100% of the time like hes not going out his way to instigate#he’s the type to say shit and hope it stirs the pot like Daisuke likes him at first#thinks he’s a bit of a jerk but he likes him like unless you specifically make a character he’s dislike he’s not just gonna be#readily antagonistic to strangers or at the get go#not to mention it’s not just about Anya needing a friend but someone with the power to do something#a point in why she confides in Curly is he’s the captain she’s not just gonna tell the only other woman just because it’s still personal#not every girl tells their friend or another woman especially if they are new and they don’t know how they react not all girls are#girls girls some can be just as toxic as the men they are being confided in about#the nuance of the situation is not solved by having more people who actively hate jimmmy if anything it would make him escalate further as#clearly has issues with how people perceive him and being liked like another woman who hates him that’s gonna do something crazy in his mind#I think it’s interesting when OCs explore another side of the pre established dynamics as Jimmy uses each remaining crew member to fill a#something Curly provided for him and represent his dynamic with Anya and being an abuser I just feel like a lot is being missed out on#and it’s mainly cause people don’t want to make OCs that aren’t great people like it’s okay to have a grey mediocre OCs in situations like#this its realistic and helps you write more grounded characters like idk i like the ocs but eh im not like a super fan#I really should make an analysis on Jimmy cause people hate discussing him and his character is being really misunderstood#like not saying she’s innocent or an excuse but just not getting how he is supposed to work like he’s no dick fucking dasteredly#he’s a shitty guy who gets shittier like he ain’t start out an avengers level threat#mouthwashing#💀 anon#mouthwashing game#ask#anya mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#mouthwashing oc#now I gotta make an oc just to prove myself but I can’t draw#so maybe not cuz what’s the point if I can’t explain the fly drip
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"Why not?"
"I wish you were a girl."
#hughlander#at first i thought of hughie saying the first quote but the more i thought about it the more it made sense for it to be john HEAR ME OUT..#he was obviously trained to only enjoy the whole “american dream” so ofc that picture perfect look for him would be a woman next to him#while he himself is a piece of shit and cares only about his image he also just doesnt give a shit#(based on his behavior l8r on in the show) he also just doesnt care what anyone has to say especially since in his eyes he is THE strongest#no one can say anything to him and hes untouchable..which is why his odd obsession with hughie will prove to be zero issue#and while he tries to make a connection with hughie in his own overly possesive way hughie holds himself firm with his actions#(lowkey where things gets ooc oh well idc) homelander does try and make SOME sort of attempt in picking at his brain anf at hughie as to#figure out WHY he even is interested in “that loser” and in doing so he eventually finds that hughie for whatever stupid reason#notices that he GENUINELY does care about people and that its not some front like he really does and TRY to see some good in people#so john opens up slightly to him about what people at vought did to him as a kid and its those moments where homelander tries to make it-#light buy hughie looks at him and i mean really /looks/ at him and says “jesus thats fucked Im sorry” and john is absolutely dumbfounded#like so dumbfounded and the god honest yet short comment in regards to him opening up about his past#essentially john starts to feel what he always imagined what “feelings” are supposed to be and after a long time of him and hughie oddly#finding some sort of “middle ground” he tries to pull a move in a moment of odd peace amongst the two and hughie jerks back#john is so confused and i mean REALLY confused#he thought he read all those “signals” right based on the romantic films he was forced to watch why is hughie acting like this?#he doesnt want to even think about what this pain in his chest is and all he can ask is “why not?”
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certainly feeling some things about the fact that simon. bullied edwin, yes, because he clocked him being gay. but not out out of hatred for him because of it. instead it was because he thought edwin was cute and felt sad and confused by edwin not paying attention to him. because simon is also gay. that is some beautiful and tragic storytelling and such a good way to come back around and give edwin some amount of closure on that chapter of his life wow
#im a big sucker for this kind of thing… repressed doomed gay love and how it can manifest as fear or rage and so on#wugshghhhw#I wasn’t expecting that scene and his words are now echoing in my brain#‘do you think it has to be torture? being the way that we are?’#that line hits like a fucking truck#it’s also just suchhhhh an affective scene to show how far edwin’s come when it comes to accepting his sexuality and accepting that it#doesn’t warrant torture or repression or self-deprivation of love both internal and external#to be able to look this boy in the face and tell him that he doesn’t deserve the punishment he’s giving himself#out of both guilt and shame for his feelings and how he handled them#rajgghhhgfgh#for such a minor role that actor did such a wonderful job like the emotions he had to expresss there were not simple or easy#and his line delivery was just… very convincing#I just. really like this little turn of events. really good#kibumblabs#dead boy detectives#liveblogging#ALSO on a less serious note this proves that not ONLY has edwin been somehow attracting So Many guys despite his negative rizz#in the afterlife. but apparently when he was ALIVE as well. he just didn’t know it because. you know. 1900s and all that.
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See the thing is. I know I'm good at writing. Like I have my weak areas or things I need to improve in, but it's not a skill I otherwise spend a lot of time feeling insecure about because a) if I don't believe in my writing literally who will b) if I want to publish my writing I ought to at least feel a resting level of good about it because editors and agents likely will not be cradling my face like a prize cat and telling me how talented I am while asking for their edits c) I've always had an audience for my writing even at its worst– I started sharing my original works online when I was around 16 & that really helped sell to me the idea of 'there will always be someone out there who likes what you do' d) untalented men never think this hard about the quality of their works and they always end up published anyway and e) I don't have many other thoroughly developed skills so why not have one I feel good about. Having said this. Awkward feeling to realize you're one of the authorial weak links in your postgraduate creative writing degree's social circle
#part of the issue is definitely also like. i am good at what i do! its just that im the only one doing it#40 people in my fuckass degree and im the only one who writes fantasy fiction. we had one more girl but she did romance & dropped out#(to be an agent) (this isnt a sad story)#but yeah no im mostly surrounded by very talented poets and screenwriters. which makes my works seem a little. frivolous. in comparison#and my friends especially are so fucking talented it makes me ill. and they engage politely with me about my writing but its also#superficial and i cant blame them because its simply not what they write/what theyre interested in! i feel the same about poetry#but my friend actually seemed surprised a while ago when i mentioned a thing id been writing and i joked that it looked like she was#surprised i could have good ideas and she didnt answer. and like. man.#i am a good writer! i fucking know im a good writer but im a good FANTASY writer and these people are. different writers and theyre good an#im floundering in this environment next to them and theres something not as like.. artistic in what i do its so fucking embarrassing#and they also display just such a lack of curiosity as to others' writing like.. they wont check the moodle forum to read what the others i#our module have uploaded for each assignment?? like arent you even just CURIOUS? but now im also just wondering if theyre like 🤞 this#with each other in a way that excludes me and my stupid flop ass fiction. i dont know. its just so silly. everyone always talks about#finding community in writing groups & degrees & such and that is exactly the last and most isolating place ive ever been insofar as my#writing goes. like at least way back in high school no one cared in general. here people do care. just not about what i can bring to the#table. although again i really dont know if this is a larger scale lack of curiosity/involvement in others works so i digress.#notnow#tbd#sorry this is a very priveleged complaint to have i AM deeply enjoying my degree and ik im so lucky to get to go where i attend. i just#occasionally feel sad. and knowing i failed my last assignment (which WAS fiction) (one chance to prove myself! cute) isnt helping much#if the poetrypeople are better at me even in the thing im meant to be good at. baby we're about to enter the mental health meat grinder.#but we stay silly. i think i just need to find people online etc to talk to about writing again like i did at 17.#just full insanity paragraph analysis. that was fun. i enjoyed that.
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#sometimes when i read posts from people in the bi community it makes me feel like im not a real bi#a lot of them seem to be so obsessed with actually falling into bi stereotypes#like the only way you can be bi is if you listen to certain music or wear certain clothes or the dumb 'cant sit in a chair correctly' thing#if you arent doing at least 2 of these things then youre a fake bi#also i grew up in a very close minded home#yes im bi but i didnt come to terms with it until i was in my early 20s because of how i was taught to view gay people#and i think my preference for men comes from that too#im attracted to women too for sure but i feel like sometimes im just... performing? idk if that makes sense#like i feel the need to really let people know when i find a woman attractive otherwise they wont believe me#i hate people's obsession with stereotypes#i hate the way i feel like i have to prove myself#is the way i feel about this unreasonable?#did this even make sense?#i feel like im going nuts#also im not just attracted to cis men or cis women#i was just saying that i have a preference for men in general and i think thats because of my parents
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Shinjiham is cute when it’s romantic but tbh I think i vastly prefer the idea of them being best friends instead. Like, neither of them really saw it coming and weren’t really looking to get another best friend (Shinji has Akihiko, Kotone has Junpei and Yukari respectively) but it happens anyway. Kotone takes a liking to Shinji much faster than she does anyone else and I’d say a big reason is just the fact that he’s so reserved that it allows Kotone to do most of the talking while he just listens and they love this arrangement cuz Kotone doesn’t get to talk about her own interests very much. Though I think some of her needs to talk to Shinji stems from this insecurity that he isn’t happy in the group and she has this people pleasing problem and wants everyone to be happy so she makes a much bigger effort to talk to Shinji. And it’s very unfortunate because Shinji intentionally acts cold and distant because he doesn’t want to form any attachments because he wants to die soon, but aaaaaaaagh dammit this girl just keeps talking to him and being sweet and encouraging him to engage in his interests and share them with the others and he just can’t seem to say no when she’s got those damn puppy eyes. And Kotone is just able to get him out of his shell by being persistent but not in an overwhelming way, she’s very cheerful and supportive of him. And Shinji is able to offer her support by encouraging her to talk about herself and by making sure she’s taking care of herself. They just click really well and make such a positive dent in each other’s lives and it’s all about basic acts of kindness going a long way you know?
#persona#persona 3#kotone shiomi#shinjiro aragaki#i uh. probably didnt do much here to prove that their relationship is best when its platonic akjsks i mean idk how to convey it#that these two are just so good for each other but that im just not feeling it romantically#and why should i honestly like cant a guy and a girl just be platonic soulmates like me and jackie aljsks#plus i just have other ships with these characters i like better ahem akishinji and mitsuham yall already know#and i just feel really comforted by their relationship being best friends cuz it makes the pocket watch a lot more power of friendship#and it just. irks me the idea that its romantic love that saves shinji and its romantic love that gave him a will to live#cuz first off you can save him without romancing him and also like if you think kotone is the only person he wants to live for#youre just wrong like in fact its very clear in his social link that he feels this strong love for everyone#its literally like why other characters are so ingrained into his link he loves everyone and they love him back#its just kotone who organizes the time for them all to get together plus like idk when ppl say shinji only wants to live after romancing#kotone its like. well hes not gonna have a good time post coma then huh#and i suppose the point being made is he has to learn to live even if his gf isnt there but again like. shes not the only thing he has#idk i just hate this like pedestal romantic relationships are put on and i hate the implications that like#akihiko has been trying for years to protect shinji and his love doesnt matter cuz it isnt some heterosexual romance#grrrrr it just irks me is all and yeah i just think theyre besties who do everything together#kotone is like shinjis emotional support animal that guides him through the scary crowds and shinji is off putting enough to scare away the#meanies that come their way and they have a dress up montage and make cookies
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Sorry I intended to keep about 400 miles from this discourse but what do you fucking mean that people heard the guy who made fake screenshots against an artist justify it using "Oh its to show that callout culture is bad and that you people were too quick to believe them." and just went yeah that sounds right you have a good point callouts are bad but youre just showing that we support what youre doing actually Really just proves to me that at best the average person who never shuts the fuck up about "cancel culture" is either a remarkable idiot or a massive hypocrite provided you say the right cue words at them
#1) people who do this can and do lie about their reasons especially with how easy it is to get people on your side doing so#2) even if it shows whatever fucking shit theyre making up ITS STILL A DEEPLY FUCKED UP THING TO PIN ON A PERSON???? LIKE#The artist in question does not benefit from you using them as your little example toy. If they in your own argument are a victim of the#traumatic nature of callout posts WHY THE HELL ARE YOU JUSTIFYING FURTHER TRAUMA??? WHAT DO THEY GET FROM THIS#Sorry i have close friends who were the victims of basically almost everything said artist had happen only with even less justification#and it haunts them every fucking day to see the way people are still treating them. the 'good' treatment included#Why for even a second are you people acting like you actually give a fuck when you are justifying the fallout of this whole mess with 'oh i#guess this really proves a point. its actually showing thing bad' yeah im sure that feels great from being on the receiving fucking end as#the strung up example. Im sure theres really a lot of comfort in 'oh we shot you to show how bad shooting people is'#i have zero fucking respect for any of you. hypocrites the lot of ya just looking for the wording that proves your own personal side#rw drama#i fucking guess im just literally fucking baffled at how fucking. little it takes
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There's this pull in recovery to feel behind in comparison to your peer group, and that's, of course, a valid feeling. It's understandable, but I think a lot of what we don't remember is that... they often aren't starting out in the same place you are.
I think part of the reason so many feel terrible about "being behind" is that it feels like we have to blame ourselves for being behind. If you just weren't affected by it, you'd be right where your peers are, right? It's a way to blame yourself in severe cases.
Recovery isn't about "catching up," I think. It's about pressing the play button and letting yourself live. You might never "catch up," you might never be at the "same level," but that fundamentally doesn't change that your life is worth living how you want it to.
#mental health#recovery#i always conceptualize it in a metaphor of planets...#...because it feels like my own has stopped completely and everything in it has withered away...#...i don't think people think 'time has stopped but the world is moving on without me' as profound until you experience it...#...because i'll look at other people and what their metaphorical planets look like and i just... find it heartbreaking if i let it...#...and i think the comparison in recovery can easily be a way for you to weaponize your own suffering against yourself...#...because it DOES feel good and it feels productive to be the punished and the punisher...#...and that shields you away from recognizing that it's almost literally the opposite of freeing or productive#to me it's akin to the viewpoint that suffering is divine and is a Test Of Mettle#that if you only suffer until the day you die you will Be Rewarded...#...but i find that there is no glory in a war waged against yourself...#...that the battlefield is coated only in your blood is not a testament to you Deserving a Good Life...#...you already deserve a good life regardless of what war you are fighting. and that's hard to swallow...#...because then it feels like your suffering to prove yourself was POINTLESS...#...and you have to swallow the fact that you suffered and you didn't 'have' to#i just want people to start to internalize these ideas or even just think about it in context of themselves#i don't *want* you to suffer for your recovery (though this is a pretty impossible task regardless ime)
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It’s so hard to find good people in the world.
#I’ve lost faith in humanity a long time ago#im tired#im tired of feeling so alone#im tired of being sad#my heart can only take so much#I’ve got enough wounds and bruises to prove it#I know it falls into you need to be around the right people#but it’s always I thought they were the right people and they seemed like it and I have so much so many chances and opportunities#just to be let down it’s fucking exhausting#I give people room and chances to change for the better to grow and I’m always stabbed in the back in some way#I know it falls into you’re just around the wrong people but agdhdjaks UGH
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cannot believe AK is leaving mr!...... gayest nini i have come across to date. no one is doing it like her
#when she looks bored while santiago is kissing her neck because she wants him to Stop It so she can go talk to satine......#comphet girlie of all time#we only ever see her giving santiago attention when satine is supposed to be showing interest in the duke or is actually showing#interest in christian#shes trying so hard to make satine jealous and it isn't working#also she found a fuck buddy to keep her occupied when satine is so she wont have time to stew in her thoughts and feelings#the way the tour is staged so nini is standing on the set piece with christians box and sparkling diamond ends with them staring up at#satine with the Exact Same Expressions on their faces#most likely we are meant to interpret ninis expression as yearning to BE satine but when you put her next to christian i have gay thoughts#nini doing a double take when satine says 'i went to the doctor' because SATINE TOOK HER ADVICE#those of you who havent gotten to see her nini are missing out and i scream because idk if u see my vision or if all my satini fics land#weird to u#i miss her already and she hasnt even left yet#the pining and the yearning and the confused 'do i want to BE her or do i want to KISS her??' from nini and the homoerotic rivalry tension#and its tragically one sided because satine doesnt even NOTICE nini because shes too busy being in love with christian#the fact that nini says 'i would do anything to be the headliner here' in the 'be careful' convo thereby proving she is a LIAR because she#wont do ANYTHING. she wont become the headliner at the expense of satines safety#she loves satine so much im gonna start screaming#i just wrote a whole meta but i dont wanna tag it because i have this weird fear of AK seeing me calling her nini gay and so its just gonna#get lost on my blog#beatrice.txt
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no the spotify wrapped thing is crazy cause no one except jjinggus i know has him in it tbh circle was one of the best releases ever not in shinee solos but in kpop its sad to see he isn't as appreciated by the fandom itself too not to mention flow was another master piece too which is super under appreciated
spotify wrapped stats aside. i really think shinee music (as soloists and as a group) really suffers because they're (considered idk?) idol music, and the fanbase behaves the way it does as a consequence. like i think we can't really have convos about music bcs half of the shawols aren't here for that anyway so its not surprising that circle gets the ugly child treatment along a lot of shinee group albums too ofc
#like its always stream x ! but never lets talk abt the diff vocal styles in each song or abt the lyrics or abt the word's musicality#im not going to go full yk bcs yeah but its funny watching music shows ep with jinki bcs you can feel the difference when he's performing v#the other ppl performing and its not only abt stage presence its just another vibe like theres music and music ig#oh also this isnt yk against the other members music i think those ppl dont give a shit abt their music tew#like i think jk music isnt like bcs his persona liked that much bcs let another kpop twink do what he does (idt they can but yeah) his#fanbase WOULD love it like beat drum teaser proved it lol#you can listen to shinee but i listen to shinee music in a better and more smart way ❌️☝🏽🦅‼️💥💢🖕🏾#<- not you anon just a copypasta#asks#anon#answered#isnt liked * damn i have to sleep...
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#i think that im about to say is very unpopular and opinionated but okay#whenever somebody makes a joke about one of the shitty situations going on in the states americans get so mad and say ‘it’s so bad for us#too but there’s nothing we can do’ and like ?? there are plenty of things u could do ???????#do u expect us to go ‘boo hoo poor americans :(‘ when these are messes u caused and that are now inconveniencing the rest of the world#start a revolution idk !!!! but stop expecting other people to coddle u and solve ur own problems#french ppl were unhappy with the government and they made guillotines like let’s be a little creative#it’s just that most leftists are too afraid to actually take action and do something against the rules while the other team is happily#setting fire to the rulebook#revolutions are not won with politeness#kind of one of the biggest issues of the dems and im very serious#everyone is so obsessed with doing things by the book that they constantly fail to take action#doing things correctly is of course important but when the other side keeps proving that they don’t care about the book u have to find ways#to get things done somehow#instead of expecting everyone to feel sad for u and go boo hoo while u do nothing#the italian government is also shit but i only blame italians for that and i dont expect other ppl to coddle us in our misery
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lord please forgive me i am getting into fights in tiktoks comments again
#teeth.txt#IM SORRY i have no self control#also i feel justified bc the initial post was a trans guy asking 'if theres a reason why some trans women are so nasty to trans men'#and i was like. it's transmisogyny. and the op hasn't replied but it didn't go over super well with the other trans guys in the comments#ACTUALLY what's even worse is that my comments have gone over fine like nobody has been mean or unendingly stupid (a little stupid tho)#but the trans girl who said pretty much the same things i did in a slightly less patient way is lowkey getting jumped#so. proving the point there guys.#god trying to have any sort of rational discussion in comments of anything but#especially the character limited tiktok comments is so evil#i would actually very much like to patiently explain this to you because i have the time and desire to explain my thoughts#but it's making it really hard when i can only get like 45 words in at a time#anyways there are a lot of people liking my comment(s) which makes me feel a bit better bc a lot of people agree but also it's dire in there#i should maybe just delete tiktok again. but then i will just go in instagram reels. which is worse tiktok.#alsooooo i forgot that The Algorithm on that damn app is crazy and i think maybe i just shouldn't have commented anything at all#bc i think me rapid firing 3 comments in a row on a post that had pretty low views actually just rocketed it#out on to other people's pages and now it has a lot more attention in general. which is lame bc it was a bad post which is why i commented.#aughhh
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