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you guys I have to admit to yall. I'm actually crazy. there is a dark side of me you haven't seen...
I like to take always sunny characters + lore seriously, I psychoanalyze them and then bring them to more extreme sides of the character while trying to keep always sunny vibe & humor. such as: I have a CharDen fic I've never posted which centres around Dennis murdering Jack Kelley for Charlie and bringing him the skin to show his love. yandere, obsessive, crazy, yes. but NOT that far from canon and I could tell you why i think so down to exact episodes + lines but I'll spare you my intense psychosis
#like i think theres something wrong with me#i cry watching always sunny sometimes#cause specifically Charlie and dee are like me so much it hurts sometimes#makes me Big Sad as well as da Ha Ha#all the characters really#except frank?#i have no deep thoughts for frank he is not a deep person (lovingly)#he just balls out with no shame#the only trauma he has is the asylum#but frank deals with that through intense drug use reckless promiscuous sex lashing out towards others denying his parentage of Charlie#oh wow i guess i do have deep thoughts about frank cause i ran out of characters and had more to say#aint that a bitch#always sunny#its always sunny in philadelphia#iasip#iasip mac#iasip shitpost#iasip dennis#iasip charlie#iasip frank#iasip dee#charden#charlie x dennis#charlie/dennis#dennis reynolds#mac macdonald#charlie kelly#frank reynolds#dee reynolds#deandra reynolds
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mostly interested in the character/relationship study potential of the âeveryone livesâ but I also want to try to write a mostly uncomplicated, if not bittersweet meronia thing to the tune of In Our Bedroom After the War or such
#<- guy who can literally only work on 1 thing at a time but has a pile of âmeh thatâs interestingâ#voice#a.personal#near provide asylum for one (1) internationally wanted mob boss who really needs PT & maybe lithium if he wants it#idk maybe the complicated part is the processing the trauma when you still have work to do#maybe itâs not that deep heavy#maybe they just sit together on the couch in nearâs penthouse and play mind games
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Imagine: Taking the Pennyworth name instead
(just short for now I'll work with this after I finished my deadline)
I'm thinking of a small AU for this but I always thought what could happened if Reader was an Isekai or regressed in a Neglected batfam fic?
Reader knowing what happens to the story or her future life with these people and they just straight up planned something to stay far away from the family without causing them to become yandere or obsessed with them.
If reader think it through and most possible solution is to stay at the mansion and be discreet as possible.
And the most I could think of is just get adopted by Alfred instead, bcs why not? You get to stay at the mansion, you won't have the Wayne name on you for reasons that maybe you resent the thought of being called a Wayne.
And even if for a short while you can feel like you belong, not as a child of a rich asshole who becomes a vigilante that runs around 'his' city to do his nightly fight with criminals that just keep multiplying because god only knows he has more patience and time for them that his neglected child who rots in an old house that makes the child feel it's their own Arkham Asylum.
Not to be related to a bunch of bitchy brothers and sisters who thinks they're far more important or involved in the family and never thought that just because they 'died' multiple times your trauma weights lesser than them, just because yours is far more tame doesn't mean you don't get to deserve a little love too.
(This is just me putting myself in the reader's shoes because that's really what I do to most of the x reader fics I make)
Imagine reader just straight up ask Alfred is they could be his child or grandchild instead.
"Adopt me". Alfred stop himself from tipping the teapot when he heard a small tiny voice below him.
The butler looks down and sees the old yet younger addition to the family stare at him from below holding an- wait a minute is that a real adoption papers??
--- Tune in next time to when will I finished this fic before another sh8y day intercept this again---
ALFRED PENNYWORTH SUPREMACY RISE UUPPPPPPP!!!!!!
(some of you might wonder why I'm fixating on Alfred being reader's grandfather/father, it's very simple I just miss my grandfather and Papa so now u know, I'm pretty sure no one wondered but here you go anyway hahahaha)
#My fictional grandfather is Alfred Pennyworth#Yandere Batfam#Yandere Batfam x neglected reader#x neglected reader#Platonic Alfred Pennyworth x reader#x reader
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DP x DC: Why summoning the Ghost King and Danny when he expects Pariah Dark might literally give John a panic attack
So, this would not be the first time John has summoned something and didnât get what he expected. To explain that, Iâll have to explain the Newcastle incident, and I will but going to give a brief overview of what the consequences are before dipping into that⊠because itâs a bit intense
So during a summoning one of the things you need to do is name the being youâre summoning. The ritual and sigils are what brings the being forth. Naming the summoned entity is part of the binding. The binding is what gives you an amount of control over the being summoned and offers protection to the summoner
So having the wrong name means they have no control over what they summoned. Naming the spirit puts it on a leash and muzzles it, having the wrong name is just letting it in without the leash or muzzle
Letâs just say at this point, Constantineâs past experience with summoning would make him super against summoning âthe Ghost Kingâ and one of the other magic users like Zatana would have to do it
John would be freaking out the moment the wrong guy showed up, he has some trauma around that. Even if itâs just Danny, this is going to dredge up some stuff and heâs going to have a hard drink afterwards
I will now be going into one of the most traumatizing moments of John Constantineâs life. As such, itâs going to get pretty intense and Iâm toning it down a bit
Explanation of the Newcastle Incident Content warning sexual assault and abuse
In 1978 Constantine and his âmagic gangâ go to the Casanova Club to deal with a bit of a situation there. They arrive and thereâs a lot of dead bodies in the basement and a very traumatized girl
Astra Logueâs father was basically a cult leader and an orgy enthusiast. He and his followers did some not so great things to Astra. Astra was psychic, so in her distress she summoned a hellhound named Norfolthing (actually a primordial elemental but that takes explaining) to protect her from the sexual abuse of her father and his followers. Norfulthing proceeded to commit sexual assault against the cult before killing them
John and the Magic Gang showed up to deal with the aftermath. In order to get Astra out of there and get rid of Norfulthing, they decided the best way to deal with this was to âfight fire with fireâ
They then proceed to summon the demon/former god Nergal but the ritual didnât have his name. Right ritual, wrong name. Nergal then proceeded to drag Astraâs soul to hell, Norfulthing raped one of the magic gang
John then spent the next two years at Ravenscar Mental Asylum and only managed to rescue Astraâs soul from hell about a decade later. She was still dead obviously but at least she wasnât suffering in hell
So yeah
John has some baggage when it comes to summoning things with the wrong name
#dp x dc#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc#John has had a rough life#heâs been through some things#itâs also a big reason John doesnât use that much magic early on#because if you go in half cocked and mess up you are going to mess up big
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More Batman/My Little Pony au art because these are ridiculously fun to draw. Part 3 here! Part 1 here!
More info under the cut!
1. Sweet Talk/The Harlequin (Harleen Quinzel)
Originally contracted to work as a psychiatrist for the Tartarus villain redemption program, Sweet Talk had a unique relationship with the Joker. This relationship was proven to be even stranger than her coworkers had originally assumed when she broke him out and joined him in his life of crime.
Devoting herself entirely to her new life and relationship with the joker, she covers her original cutie mark at all times. Snce her horn was snapped she can no longer cast precise spells, leaving her magic mostly emotion-based and intensely volatile, (typically manifesting in the form of sparks, zaps, and explosions).
Other Notes:
-Using Tartarus as a substitute for Arkham Asylum for this au because why not.
-The villain redemption program did NOT go well. Sorry Twilight.
-Mostly based on BTAS Harley because I adore the original costume.
-Her horn was cracked by the Joker
2. Pudding Pie/The Joker (The Joker)
Batponyâs most notorious foe. Said to have been just a regular pony until he fell into a vat at an Ace Potions factory during a conflict with Batpony.
He doesnât have a Cutie Mark, but itâs unclear whether this was always the case or instead a result of his accident. The effects of permanent Cutie Mark lossâthe only known cases of which occurred via long-banned magic and/or traumatic injuryâare largely unstudied, and itâs ramifications are unknown. Some ponies theorize this may be the reason for the Jokerâs mental state and general disposition. Â
Sundown has a different opinion on the matter.
Other notes:
-Based mostly on BTAS joker and the â89 Nicholson joker.
-His name is just based on Harleyâs âpuddingâ nickname for in in a lot of versions, but I think it would also be hilarious if he was a distant relative of Pinkie Pie.
-I could leave it ambiguous but. Yeah the potion vat didnât actually do anything beyond slightly altering his physical appearance. Heâs just like that and he never got a cutie mark in the first place.
3. Gadiel/Scarecrow (Jonathan Crane)
Raised among ponies, Gadiel was relentlessly bullied for being gangly and birdish, earning him the nickname âScarecrowâ in his youth. Though he later successfully became a professor and psychologist in Gotham, Gadiel was eventually fired when he was found to be testing his fear-inducing potions on his students and purposefully putting them through terrifying and dangerous situations. Deciding to take his experiments to the masses, Gadiel donned the mantle of Scarecrow and weaponized fear to become a career criminal.
As the Scarecrow, heâs known for his skill in manipulation, psychological torture, and crafting dangerous potions and gas. The effects of fear on magical creatures are unique and intense, much to Gadielâs delight and interest.
Other Notes:
-I wanted to make his front half a crane but I couldnât get the long neck to work right with the mask, so heâs more crow-like instead.
-according to the wiki 1/3 of Griffin names start with a G so naturally I was extremely tempted to name him Gonathon and you should all be very grateful I did not. The name Gadiel has origins in the bible as the name of an archangel which I thought was fitting given the insane religious trauma some versions of the scarecrow went through. I thought about trying to do something similar for this version but given that the mlp universe uses Princess Celestia as a replacement for God in expressions like âCelestia knows whereâ and âOh my Celestiaâ I wasnât really sure how to go about it. Thereâs probably some kind of sun-worshipping thing in equestria idk.
-I spent a long time on the mlp wiki but from what I could find the only âfearâ magic in the show is just used by one guy and its just called âdark magicâ. I thought for sure there wouldâve been some random plant or magical creature they dealt with at some point that maybe did something similar I could use for his blurb but unfortunately there was not.
4. Mandible/Falseface (Basil Karlo/Matt Hagen)
Hungry and deeply resentful of the changeling queen for forcing her underlings to share what little stolen love they had with her, Mandible went rogue early on and split off from the hive to pursue his own ventures. Finding success under the name Claypose as a pony actor in Gotham, he was sustained primarily by the one-sided love of his fans for years, despite the false identity having no real prior personal relationships to leech from.Â
After a magical special effects accident on set revealed his true nature, he went into hiding and immediately started crafting a new persona, but soon found in his distress and rage over losing his identity as Claypose that he could no longer sustain any disguise long enough to keep up a long-term facade. Blaming the accident, he targeted the unicorn responsible by posing as his wife to leech his love, but ended up killing the pony in a panic when his disguise failed much faster than heâd anticipated it would. Unable to keep up a new identity or return to the hive, Mandible turned to a life of crime instead, doing dirty work for the bigger criminal names in Gotham and leeching love from his employerâs targets to survive.
Other notes:
-Clayface being a changeling was an obvious pick given his power set but I really wasnât sure how to tackle the main issue of him being unable to keep a solid form for long. I went with his distress and frustration being the main thing keeping his disguise flimsy (so he gets put in kind of an ourobouros cycle where his disguise being bad makes him upset but him being upset makes it harder to fix his disguise), but the magic accident probably also contributed somehow.
-Why are all the changelings straight up just named after body parts in this show whats that about. The âClayâ in Claypose is obviously a reference to his title/schtick in the comics while the âposeâ comes from both his job as an actor and the fact that heâs posing as a pony. Mandible is the name for the jaw part of an insect.
-there's actually an entirely different batman villain called falseface in the '66 series but I couldn't come up with anything better. Changeface just does not roll off the tongue.
3. Winglon/Killer Drake (Waylon Jones)
Originally intended to be used in an entrance exam, his egg was stolen from a Canterlot delivery cart on its way to Celestiaâs school of magic and sold on the black market to a Pony Island circus. Raised to be part of the freak show, Winglon was pitted against circus performers and overconfident challengers in ring fights for money and entertainment. Enduring abuse and injury throughout his life from ponies that he was always fundamentally stronger than, it was only a matter of time until he snapped. Garnering the name Killer Drake for his actions, Winglon escaped into the Gotham sewer system.
Not knowing how to return to the dragonlands or whether heâd even fit into dragon society at all, he continues to lurk in the dark away from any life, deeply resenting ponies and all other manner of magical creatures that make friends with them.
Other notes:
-I like silly names ok. Winglon Jones. -I like the theory that the dragon egg used for Twilightâs entrance exam was actually fake/meant to be a no-win scenario, but I also donât think it would be that hard for enterprising ponies to get their hands on dragon eggs. The practice probably stopped in the later seasons when they made friends with the dragonlands or whatever though.
-Given that dragons threaten to eat or kill ponies at multiple points in the show, the cannibalism is actually kind of understandable. And also not even cannibalism anymore. Still murder though.
#harley quinn#harleen quinzel#dc joker#joker#dc scarecrow#jonathan crane#dc clayface#Clayface#Basil karlo#matt hagen#waylon jones#killer croc#Batman#Batman au#mlp#mlp fim#mlp au#mlp art#My little pony#this isnt even all of it yet Im working on the riddler as we speak#my art
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Series Masterlist - Take Me Home
Pairing: Beau Arlen x F. ReaderÂ
Summary: You are another lost soul at Sunny Day Excursions. Youâre aiming to settle in Helena, Montana, where Beau Arlen is the new sheriff in town. But you both have a past youâre running from.Â
AN: Welcome to my first ever Big Sky series! This is set towards the beginning of season 3.
Series Tags/Warnings:Â (**18+ only!) Angst and grief/trauma, PTSD, canon murder mystery, eventual smut.
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Chapters:
Part 1: All of Her Days
Part 2: It's Not Right, But It's Okay
Part 3: Welcome Home
Part 4: A Past & Future Thing
Part 5: Not That Simple
Part 6: A Man or a Coward
Part 7: On the Edge of a Knife
Part 8: Take Me Home
Part 9: A Choice to Make
Series complete!
Bonus One-Shots:
A Good Man Is Hard to Find** When Beau starts pulling away from you and Emily during a very difficult case, will the pressure make or break your relationship?
A Crime of Passion** When Beau Arlen decides to âmake it up to you,â heâs damn thorough.
S.I.N.G.** Beau wishes youâd take this self-defense lesson a little more seriously.
Echoes Beau has another rough night, but you help him face a harder truth.
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I feel like sometimes we put too much blame on the other siblings for neglecting our favourites:
Luther has repeatedly gone off on his own (investigating Reginald's moon research, getting high in the club, going to the coffee shop, locking Viktor up, entirety of his time in the 60s pre-Five's arrival, refusing Five's plea for help, refusing to stay and talk to Viktor, etc etc) without telling anyone or wanting anyone to follow him. Him being gone for 1 day and no one noticing isn't really a red flag.
Diego's obssession with JFK was extreme and a red flag for his mental health, but he has been a walking mental health red flag since he was a toddler (so have they all). He was also ignoring all of Five's warnings about him saving JFK potentially causing an apocalypse that would make his actions worthless as he'd actually kill billions. He then ignored all of Luther's warnings about meeting their father, which Luther was right about (mostly). Five leaving him in the asylum wasn't unwarranted, no one knew that the Swedes were going after Diego at all.
(allison is honestly valid in her blame of the others not looking out for her as she is consistently expected to be the one to reach out, not the other way around)
Klausâ addiction, homelessness and PTSD are ignored by his family largely because he has refused help and advice so often that theyâve learnt not to give it. He is ignored when giving plot relevant information because he has described a thousand absurd things to them that are ultimately meaningless. In essence, he is the boy who cried Wolf.
Five is incredibly rude to his whole family, barring Viktor, and is consistently minimizing their traumas and experiences to get them to do what he wants (even if he does want to save their lives, he's going about it the wrong way). He is also very cryptic and withholds a lot of crucial information about things like the apocalypse.
(ben is difficult because most of the time he can only talk to klaus who is having difficulties of his own, and who tells everyone that ben isn't around which is a dick move honestly but not one done out of malice and ben is well aware of that)
Viktor has almost always put his own trauma and recovery before anyone else's. He has physically fought and hurt every one of his siblings and his foster (?) son, and arguably done so consciously. He has also bared his sibling's private home life/childhood to the entire world without their knowledge or consent.
the situation is usually a lot more complicated than "everyone needs to apologise and do better to character A" because character A isn't innocent in this either
#tua#the umbrella academy#luther hargreeves#diego hargreeves#allison hargreeves#klaus hargreeves#five hargreeves#viktor hargreeves
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oh no you guys. iâm going to spew things iâve realized while rewatching umbrella academy. Iâm realizing were all being too sucked into fanon things after being stuck without canon content for so long. We have convinced ourselves Five acts like a mean mean dude to everyone but rewatching, iâve realized heâs only stressed and is saying things out of panicked anger, especially in s1 with the apocalypse dooming over them. he acts soft to his siblings multiple times, heâs really not as mean as we write him in fanfiction. he is a little crap though, thatâs for sure, and i love him for that <3
also realizing that the siblings donât hate five. they just literally donât know him at all. he came back a completely different person after 17 years for the siblings, they donât know five, heâs a stranger so of course theyâre gonna be cold to him. itâs like, âi donât know you well, but youâre always going to be my brother in the endâ.
ALSO. for those who ship some of the siblings, uhm⊠iâve seen a lot of you guys try to prove that they donât see eachother as siblings and more like academy students, but they very much say in just about every episode that they see eachother as siblings. they donât actually SAY that word by word but they say things like âsheâs our sisterâ, or âour dadâ. if they say OUR dad⊠bro. iâm not even going to continue, you can put it together yourself. But, i do realize why people ship the siblings. I am not defending incest shippers but with umbrella academy i can see why people have resorted to it. only 3 of the characters in the main sibling cast has romantic partners. people like shipping people, people love writing romantic relationships, but with only diego/lila, dave/klaus, and sissy/viktor, (iâm not going to count five/dolores for now) people are desperate with the need to ship the rest of the siblings with someone, and since there are only a few actual canon characters in the show that interact with our main 7, people start shipping them together⊠yikes. anywho, thatâs all for that peice. i blame the show writers as well for shipping luther/allison, they did not have to do that, but iâm hoping it was only to convey the severity of what childhood trauma does to people.
ALSO THIS HERE SHOOK ME. I actually think Reginald cares for the siblings. i hate to say it, but itâs true. caring for them does not mean being good, though. he was a horrible father, and person, but he genuinely did care for the siblings, in a like, âbeing the best is the best thing for you, i will make you better, for your sake, even if you donât know it now, you will see that i am rightâ kind of way.
also why has NOBODY MENTIONED THIS. in season 2 when diego first reunites with five in the asylum, while heâs walking into the visitors room, heâs staring at five with this heartfelt, soft look, and then says âfiveâŠâ in the most soft spoken voice ever đ your honor i love them
ALSO UGHHH THIS. IM GOING TO FREAK OUT ABOUT CAMERAWORK AND METAPHORS HERE SO BARE WITH ME. we as a fandom complain about the lack of flashbacks five has due to his ptsd. weâve seen his first flashback since getting back to his family in s1 during the van scene when he gets triggered by those kids playing and starts thinking about his own childhood, iâm guessing. i ate that scene up, and was sad to see that be one of the only deeply vulnerable scenes he has in the season, and during my first watch i thought theyâd never bring it back up. but they do!! i may be stupid for not realizing but whatever. in season 2, when five is trying to explain at elliotâs with all his siblings around that another apocalypse is coming, everyone starts talking about each other. as someone who studies film and camerawork, i love this scene. we see the camera focus on five as it slowly zooms in. it doesnât switch scenes at all as the siblings voices overlap and echo over eachother. this whole scene conveys him getting overwhelmed and he starts to zone out, starting to think of the nuclear war he saw his siblings in. the scenes of the war start quickly switching through, showing many different scenes of it before it switches back to five, who says âguys, you all die. i want to forget it but i canâtâ which just UGH its so well done there. if you think about it, he was starting to slip into another flashback. he was triggered by talking about their deaths in the war but was handling it well until the siblings started fighting, where we see the overlapping voices happen. it portrays him losing control and being unable to pull it back together with too much going on for him to focus on grounding himself. we DO however, see that five was able to pull himself out before he fell too deep into the flashback. i love how they show this through them still having the scene showing the war, but then fives voice starts talking over the scene which is still focusing on the war as if he was pushing it back and forcing himself to come back to the present.
thank you for reading if youâve made it this far, i will continue to freak out another time <3
#umbrella academy#the umbrella academy#tua#theumbrellaacademy#umbrella_academy#FREAAAKING OUT#five hargreeves#number five#reginald hargreeves#diego hargreeves#allison hargreeves#luther hargreeves#viktor hargreeves#ben hargreeves#klaus hargreeves#lila pitts#camera work#film#nerding out
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Professor Membrane: Good or Bad Father?
I've decided to scientifically argue weather or not Professor Membrane from Invader Zim father of Dib Membrane and gasoline the other one by going through EVERY EPISODE of Invader Zim (that he appears in) and making a point counter of every good and bad action he does.
Episode 1 The Nightmare Begins Ignores Dib -1 point
Episode 2B NanoZim Just gives him the tiny ship when he needs help even though what he says is insane. Proffy doesn't even call him insane just tells him to run along + 1 point
Episode 3A Parent Teacher Night He tried to show up for the meeting,,, even if it resulted in the lab exploding. + 1 dad point - 1 scientist point
Episode 6B Battle Dib Didn't recognize his son - 1 point Too hard to contact - 1 point Gave Dib the permission slip + 1 point
Episode 8B Bad Bad Rubber Piggy MADE HIS SON INTO A COOL ASS BATTLE ROBOT TO PREVENT HIM FROM DYING + 1 point
10B Bloatys Pizza Hog Only one annual family night out - 1 point Lets Gaz choose wherever she wants + 1 point Made sure Dib also came + 1 point If Dib doesn't show up, he'll put it off for next year - 1 point 12B Game Slave 2 One of the best lines in the show + 1 point
13 Battle of the Planets Told his son aliens were fake and said he had a big head as a baby. The iconic line "my poor insane son" debuts this episode. - 1 point
14 Halloween Spectacular of Spooky Doom said "It was only a matter of time" for Dib going to HIS INSANE ASYLUM THAT HE OWNS. - 1 point Did not consider Dib's opinion for a second. - 1 point Sent Dib to the asylum. For the rest of his life. - 1 point And an extra bad point, because that's really bad, and the worst thing he's done in the show and what most people remember him for. - 1 point Another bad point for apparently experimenting on baby Dib so much he has subconscious trauma over it. - 1 point
15B Future Dib Neglects his children (hasn't shown up for weeks) - 1 point However he makes prerecorded messages for them so he's not totally abandoning them. + 1 point Inviting his kids to the infinite energy thingy. + 1 point Pat Gaz on the head + 1 point Noticed Dib was missing immedietely + 1 point He told Gaz to make sure Dib doesn't do anything embarrassing. - 1 point Waited for his kids despite jeers from the audience + 1 point DOESN'T GIVE EVERYONE PERPETUAL ENERGY BECAUSE THEY DISRESPECTED HIS KIDS + 1 dad point - 1 scientist point Membrane doesn't realize the robot dib is fake - 1 point
18B The Sad Sad Tale of Chickenfoot Invasion of privacy by letting randoms in the house. - 1 point Calls his son insane to everyone there. - 1 point Insisting what his son's future is as I'm assuming he does that a lot offscreen. - 1 point Not defending Dib when everyone starts laughing at him - 1 point
20 Tak The Hideous New Girl Trying to make friends with Dib's friend :) + 1 point
21 Backseat Drivers from Beyond the Stars Tells Gaz to be nice to his brother and helps her out with her problem. + 1 point Calls Dib insane behind his back - 1 point
23b Dibship Rising He LIED about the can of beans wiping out ALL HUMAN LIFE - 1 point?
25 Gaz Taster of Pork Always keeps the fridge stocked with good food + 1 point Stopped what he was doing immedietely to help Gaz with her problem + 1 point Put his kid on public TV without consent - 1 point Turned his kid into an experiment - 1 point Makes his children have to do an escape sequence at all - 1 point Apologizes + 1 point
27 The Most Horrible X-Mas Ever Trusted Dib with his anti-santa arsenal + 1 point
DELETED EPISODES!
Mopiness of Doom Listened to Dib + 1 point Told Dib to give up on his dreams - 1 point Very encouraging to Dib + 1 point Constantly checking in on Dib + 1 point Very tuned into Dib's emotions and be able to tell when something is bothering him + 1 point Professor Membrane's love is conditional - 1 point Complaining about Dib to Gaz - 1 point
10 Minutes to Doom Did not recognize his son - 1 point Did not want to get involved with Dib's fashion matters - 1 point Deciding to take a look anyways + 1 point Didn't to his son and now insisting that they have to stop him - 1 point
Day of Da Spookies Calls his son insane - 1 point Stopping work to help him anyways + 1 point
TOTAL SCORE
Good Points - 25 Bad Points - 30
ENTER THE FLORPUS
Making his kids a food robot + 1 point Waiting for Dib + 1 point Calling his son insane to Gaz - 1 point Telling Gaz to be supportive, even using metaphors + 1 point BEHOLD MY BOY CHILD + 1 point Mean to Dib about his interests - 1 point Arguing - 1 point Calling Dib's spaceship fake - 1 point Wishing isn't very scientific son - 1 point Patting his son on the head + 1 point Unprovoked calling Dib's ideas imaginary - 1 point Confirming he knows aliens exist, thus meaning that he's just saying they don't to be mean to his son specifically - 1 point Insisting it's a hallucinations so hard - 1 point Saying he'll always be proud of his son before he thinks he's going to die + 1 point Saved his son from a pit! + 1 point Helped fight off robots with Dib + 1 point Saying "great work honey" to Gaz + 1 point Using the moose without arguing + 1 point Pretending like all of it was a hallucination - 1 point Convincing everyone else it was a hallucination too - 1 point 10 Good point 10 Bad points
TOTAL SCORE
Good Points - 35 Bad Points - 40
RESULTS ARE IN!!!! Professor Membrane, SCIENTIFICALLY, is a BAD DADDYO!!!!!!
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I got ideas for other toons for Asylum Au
(Dandy's notes about Vee and Tisha)
Cosmo â It is possible that he could have had severe burns over most of his body due to the fire, where his arms in particular would have suffered burn damage. He would have a fear of fire and anything that could cause its effects. He would have had a good relationship with Sprout, since Sprout, in addition to treating him well, sometimes treated him with all sorts of sweets like cookies or muffins.
Glisten â possibly dysmorphophobia syndrome, considering himself ugly because of his shortcomings in appearance as he believed, tried to correct them, as a result he only worsened himself and because of this he began to try to correct it even more by causing harm to himself, but the medical staff did not allow him to do this (possibly depression and self-hatred)
Brightney â Perhaps she would be terribly afraid of the dark because of her trauma associated with it.
(I donât know for sure about Roger, most likely he will have a problem with his head, due to the fact that he has visions of his past âfamilyâ, which he supposedly âkilledâ, and now because of this he wants to commit suicide and is trying cutting himself, the only thing stopping him is the medical staff and Toodles)
OH MY GOODNESS TISHA VEE NOOO!!!!!!
I actually have thought about things for Cosmo and Brightney, though I never added it to the post
Cosmo has an overeating disorder/addiction to capsules/pills. Capsules in Dandy's Care are like pills but they're chewy, have flavor, and are nutrious. All toons eat them but Cosmo is pretty much addicted to it. He's forced to have a regulated diet but sometimes he sneaks into the storage room to eat more capsules
Brightney's lightbulb is fizzling out, which is akin to losing your vision. She can't get another bulb because her switch is broken, so she carries a lamp to see (similar to carrying like an IV stand).
I do enjoy the idea for Glisten. Maybe he has truama based around his looks and things.
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Church Bells(Adler x Bell!Reader x Woods)
Previous Intel
Eighth Intel | Before
Description:
The world ended for Bell after Cuba.
The whole world followed soon after.
Zombies AU | Drabble Format
Warnings/Tags: Mature Rating, Graphic Violence, Dark Themes, Trauma, Body Horror, Gore, Major Character Death, Brainwashing, Post!Cuba, Pre!Solovetsky, No Solovetsky, Female Bell, Older Man/Younger Woman, Toxic Relationship, Obsession, Menticide
Words: 4k (What's a drabble again?)
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Day After Ukraine Mission
16:07 | February 28th, 1981
CIA SAFEHOUSE E9, âDIE LANDEBAHNâÂ
âYou do that a lot.â
You start from what you were staring at, the codes that are so tricky and you feel so close. The intel from what you have in your hands adding a piece to the puzzle that youâre enamored withâthe complexities satisfying a carnal part of you that you canât name. Your head turns to find Lazarâs curious yet amused smile, close to the television they used sometimes for the news not at your usual spot at the too small desk with the too large computer; at the center table instead is where you chose to haunt.Â
âWhat?â you reply dumbly, too out of your element to say a more snarky reply. The transition from focused on the task to this interruption from the man that is more of an Eema than an Abba due to how hearty he looks and feels and making sure everyone felt the same by also stuffing their face.Â
âThat.â You were met with Lazarâs finger in your face. You resisted the urge to stare cross eyed and instead gave him a more inquisitive look, eyes searching. Which only humored him more, releasing a chuckle. âYou have quite an intimidating stare.â
You push the hand away, scoffing,
âWhat? At my work? Isnât that like everyone else?â
Lazar hummed, his eyes glittering at a joke you canât understand.
âNo. You have that type of stare that will freeze lesser men. Or get slapped by someone who thinks youâre looking for a fight. Or get you put into an asylum. Only, when you decode, you have an insane smile on your face. Itâd be creepy if we didnât know you.ïżœïżœïżœ
âUh huh.â You dismissed, eyes glancing at the medical office. âYou should work better on your compliments if you want Park to have a drink with you.â
If Park wasnât in the medical office room along with Adler, youâre sure Lazar would throw his old cup noodle at you. Alas, he only gave you a dry âHa. Ha.â with a neutral expression but still didnât leave. He wants an answer.Â
You turn to him fully, elbows leaning back against the desk, petulant.
âI doubt I smile like how you describeâŠâ Lazar snorted while you frowned at him, before shifting your gaze back to your papers. âI donât know. I justâŠlove puzzles. Theyâre fun to solve.â
âIs that what makes you stare so intently?â Lazar leaned against the television, the stand slightly creaking at the movement, his intrigue seeming sincere. Another question hidden, two subjects being asked for one answer. A wall. âThe thrill?â
Is that what love is to you?
You tapped at the papers, biting your lip in thought.Â
âMaybe a partâŠI just have this need to figure things out. To open it upâto find the numbers, the letters, the riddles. In an order that is random but itâs not. Itâs just a trick. A shadow on the wall. A reason for each piece. Each hint. Every piece of the puzzle has its purpose. Itâs reason for being.â You didnât notice when you started smiling, the topic consuming you like books and pictures do. But you just kept going as you grabbed your pen and fiddled with it, miming writing numbers or letters. âLike Sims with mechanics, I think. Or you with bomb wiring. You find the hardy wires or broken piecesâand I untangle it all. I even love how difficult it could be if I find a cipher intellectual. Itâs fun.â
âSounds maddening,â Lazar replied simply, brow raising. âAnd painful. Maybe even obsessive.â
You shrug, staring deeply at your own pen, tone far away. As if you were speaking about another topic than this. Something other. Like a secret.
âThatâs love, isnât it? Pain and obsession?â
âYour books tell you that? Or you come to that conclusion yourself?â You pressed your lips, silent. Only glancing at Lazar(are you easy to read?) who only smiled gently before switching gears and letting out a booming laugh. âWith that description of loveâyou very much implied Adler is in love with our friendly neighborhood Perseus.â
Your jaw dropped, a gasp being released as you sat up rigid in your chair. A defense for Adler and a denial ready only for a startling guffaw to join in.
âWhat the shit are you talking about, Lazar?â Woods comes from his previous spot practicing with the boxing bag, Mason side by side with his own amused gaze as they come close to the center table. Woods snorted as he leaned back against the table near you instead of taking a proper seat. âCan you imagine our own Robert Redford switching spit with a commie? Ha!â
âIs that what youâre doing?â Mason quips to his friend with a nudge while Woods expression quickly changed to offended with no heat as he pushes Mason back with a disbelieving snort. âWhat? Sorry Iâm airing out your fantasies.â
It was strange watching them. The easy back and forth quips and teases. Lazar felt like a warm hearth and home cooked meals compared to Masonâs steady kindness of a worn animal despite its past and WoodsâŠ
You briefly think of the night prior, how charged he felt out in the field. Not eager for it yetâŠwilling to take everything and anything out his way. But his friendly taunts and words to you too. The arcade. The room where you got the intel and the knowledge he had of you, knowing you wouldâve loved to play around more with the tech and computers there if the both of you had time and not world ending doom.
You werenât impressed by his skills. Skills are to be expected in this line of work. People can call you cocky all they want.
But how personable he is? That was different.
It was unexpected.
(Why did it feel like heâs more close to you than Sims right now? Why has everyone been so disconnected from you? Evenâblue fire for eyes hidden by the shaded wall, wheat dancing in the wind, artful cracks across a canvasâ)
A hand waved in front of your face, your eyes broken from its lost look as you blinked back to the present.
âHello? Earth to Bell?â Woods was still next to you and you couldnât help but notice that Mason moved away with Lazar to where Lazarâs station is. Still talking with friendly smiles and easy atmosphere. You blinked again before turning towards Woods, who looked at you with a mix of amusement and concern. âWhat happened there? Did you even listen to a word I said?â
You didnât. Youâve been doing this a lot. Getting lost in your head. Your brain foggy and mind distant. Not as quick as you usually are. You thankfully havenât had this happen in the field. You hope it stays that way.
Instead of giving a straight answer, your lips only rose in a dry smile.
âSorry, was thinking just how you got the guts to punch Hudson of all people.â
Woods huffed, crossing his arms and leaning back, brushing your shoulders as he did.Â
âDoesnât take guts to punch a prick.â
âNo,â your smile turns up a tad, more mischief. âTakes some balls instead. Canât have balls without a prick nearby or thereâll be trouble.â
Woods made a choked sound, as he stared at you dumbly before slapping the table and releasing a loud boom of a laugh. You wonder how he does that. So loud. So free.Â
âYou got more spunk than I thought, Bell. Guess you need it to even get the idea to escape in a Ruskie tank.â
You huff out your nose, but your chest still lightened at the praise. Your smile coming easy now and tension completely fallen away. You hid it though as you turned back to your work, picking up a stray picture of the Ukraine base you took.
âDid it for you. I figured you would want to run some commieâs over.â
âOh, Iâve dreamed of it. I would say top five of my favorite wet dreams.â
You couldnât help it. You snorted, it bursted through your chest and it didnât stop, only turned to a laugh. You put a hand over your mouth to try to contain it but Woods satisfied expression only made you laugh more.
âWhyâwhy did you say that?!â You try to collect yourself but you couldnât. Not when Woods waggled his brows as if in answer. âPfftâshould I even ask whatâs top one?â
Woods shrugged.Â
âNo can do. Gotta protect your innocence somewhere. My mind is a crazy place. Donât wanna scare you off.â You snort again, shaking your head at him and tried to get back to work. Woods didnât move as you stared around at the different pictures you took with Intel. âSay, whereâs the random pics you took of me?â
âDonât worry, Woods. I didnât take out a camera with you over the mannequinââ You stopped when he shook your shoulder, a warning gaze that only made you bite back another smile and only glare at him with no heat as you pushed his hand off. âCalm down,â you say quietly. âI havenât said anything. Scoutâs Honor.â You raise a hand as if to show.
Woods rose a brow dubiously.
âWere you even a Girl Scout?â
âDoubtful. Looks like you just gotta hope I donât open my mouth about it.â
Woods grunted. Yet still didnât leave.Â
âDo you normally take pics of everything and everyone? Even on missions like that?â
âI like it. I like taking pictures. Did I make you uncomfortable?â You did take a few of him before you took a picture of the base. It was nice lightning and he looked good. âI can give you the pictures I took to you, if you want. They were good shots.â
âI suppose I can add it to my scrapbook.â Woods joked before shaking his head, his eyes turning more curious as the conversation went on. Gaze more assessing as he stared down at you. âNah, itâs fine.  Donât mind you keeping them. After I take a look of course. I guess Iâm just askingâŠwhatâs the obsession with the camera? Film is precious right?â At your shoulder tensing, you starting to get defensive, he quickly changed tactics as he rose a hand in calming manner. âI ainât judging. Just curious. Couldnât help but overhear Park talk to you that Adler doesnât like wasting resources. Or some shit like that. I donât get the big deal. But it must be if you keep doing it despite them having a stick up their asses about some film of all things.â
Your brows pinched together, gazing intently at Woods eyes. You donât see a reprimand. Or exasperation. Or even amused exasperation, like you were just being cute while doing something disobedientâlike a pet jumping at their owners even as they tell them no with an amused smile. (âAlways the one who never listens. Huh, Bell? Didnât I tell you before about the pictures?â) Heâs being sincere in his interest. It was his expression that did it.
You looked away, eyes taking in the safehouse around them.Â
âEver feel like a ghost in your own body?â
âCanât say that I have,â Woods answered roughly. You nodded next to you, him taking that as permission that he can finally properly sit next to you. You didnât mind thighs or shoulders brushing. Comrades now. Both of you throwing your lives on the line. Getting shot  by a common enemy brings people together no other way can.Â
âWell, the coma did a number on me. I donât remember much. I canât put a story to scars on my body. My life, my memoriesâitâs only Vietnam.â
âFucked up thing to remember. That whole war was a shit show,â Woods provided. âYou mustâve been young.â
You only hummed, distant. Eyes straying in the direction of the red room. Your skin prickled in goosebumps, ears falsely hearing shots and napalm strikes. You shuddered but hid it by clenching your fists on the table, eyes on your jumbled words of your work.Â
âYeahâŠHue City was just the start of everything going downhillâŠBut I guess my point isâŠâ You donât know how to properly say it, you canât find the English word for this. Esurient for memories erased. The feeling of not quite fitting in everyoneâs circle, even with Sims. Monachopsis. (Are you even here at all? Itâs like they stare past you.) âLife is memories. I donât have any. Whatâs a person if not memories? SoâŠI donât feelâŠlike it. A person.â You shrug casually, mutely. Hand wandering to a picture, thumbing it. âGhosts donât seem to remember stuff besides a deep motive. Thatâs what others believe. ButâŠwith picturesâŠpictures are for memories. If I take pictures, Iâm actually taking memories. And if take enough memoriesâŠâ You struggled once more how to explain but Woods was sharp despite his looks.
âYouâll be a person again.â Your eyes darted towards him, giving him a minute nod as he seemed to consider your words with a tilt of his head. The silence between the two of you wasnât stifling, justâŠthere.
You felt like something was released from you.Â
Unlocked.Â
The key was just for someone to ask.Â
âHey, listenââ you turned at the soft touch to your shoulder, and you noticed Woods looked uncomfortable about the atmosphere you created. Not used to sharing open emotions like this no doubt but still had what appeared like care in his eyes. âYou should really talk to Mason, heââ
Your ears honed in on the medical office opening, your eyes quick to follow as your head swiveled. Everything turned silent as your eyes settled upon the body you can recognize even in the thickest of jungles or deepest of wet rice paddies. And as your eyes settled, your thoughts of ruminating toska and the sense of lacuna dissipated.
You were so busy trying to catch what Adler was saying to Park beside him, you temporarily forgotten Woods next to you. You could hear him talking. Some form of advise.Â
You turned back to your work and absently nodded with a quick smile to match at him. Your lips moved to say thanks. You think you did.
You didnât see Woods throw another look of concern towards you, of suspicion. Turning something over his head.
You forced your ears to stretch, as if with force you can have super hearing. With brute force you can have the arcane man with valleys upon his visage, with liquid nectar that bounces with voluminous silk, voice of gravel that leads to the path of victory and makes your mind hazy.Â
You still had a pen in your hand, tight as you looked down with a frown at the papers. Your leg beginning to bounce under the table. Impatient. Restless. Athirst.
âIâm going out for a smoke,â Adler called out(Beckoned, Signaled, Enticedâtrinket waved like a treat. Your nepenthe.) clearly, more loudly than how he was talking to Park. You didnât turn your head as he walked out the door near the garage door, too obvious. But you did sneak a look when he exited, stealing gaze right when you saw his back before the door closed.
Except it didnât. A small rock held it ajar.
A secret.
âWhat the hell?â Woods was bewildered, staring after Adler while you tried to hide the fact. Waiting a beat. Or two. Your leg bounced under the table, growing more insistent. âDoesnât he get his fix in here anyways?â
You heard Lazar answer for Woods, something about Adler needing a change of scenery sometimes. You can see in your peripheral his glance. You ignored it as you stood up to head back to your computer desk.
âIâm taking a break too,â you say, quickly picking a book from your pile in the corner after a brief deliberation.
âUhâŠâ Woods face wouldâve made you laugh from how scrunched up it was as he stared as you quickly fixed your work papers back in the center table, book under your arm. âIsnât that what you were doing? Like fuckinâ a second ago?â
âNo,â you answer, organizing the pictures and quickly scanning them before you do so. âLazar interrupted me from my work. And then you did. It was an interruption. Not a break.â
âYou sure turned prickly,â Woods said in answer.
You pause, seeing Woods was somehow offended. He just doesnât get it.
âSays the cactus,â you quip with a quick smile, twitching up more at Woods huff out his nose. âIâŠlike taking my break the same time as Adler,â You decide to answer the question in his eyes. He did listen. âItâs what weâve always done. I read. He smokes. And right back to work we go. It works better this way.â
You didnât wait for his reply.Â
You didnât even bother to see if he was about to.
You have the book in your hand, and you have your tether(Your eyes looks for the sun tanned gold even though it should blind you, but you never cared for your wellbeing. Protect the quiet monster like a demon enraged. Demon for monster. Monster for demon. The coin. You keep it in your pocket, whelve itâthe whispered confessionâthe gravity of your ustulation and agastopia can burn through your pockets and skin all it wish. You keep it in. Like the pain killers Adler gave you earlier for your migraine after their meeting with Hudson about Ukraine.) outside.Â
You open the door and without looking, you went to the left side of the door thatâs by some unused pallets. Sitting on them and opening your book to your last point, as if you were ignoring him. (How could you?) He was smoking as he leaned against the wall beside the door. You always left of it, him always right. (â Heâs always right. â He â never â lies. Not to â â â you.)
It was silent. Only the turning of your pages as you focused on reading, and the occasional exhale you hear now and then if you strain your ears. A puff of grey smoke above the two as your audience.
You donât mind the quiet moments. You take what you can get. The two of you have too long a history for you to be uncomfortable at silence. Or needing something more.Â
You donât.
(The secret coin in your pocket burns, and you try not to flinch nor whine. You must stay sated, âÂ ĐŽĐ”ĐŒĐŸĐœÂ â â â â.)Â
A shot went through the front of your skull, your hand darting up as it seemed to go to the back of your head, a hiss to your lips. You almost dropping the book with your other hand.
âAnother migraine?â He was close. You opened your eyes you didnât realize were closed as you were hunched over your knees, spotting his shoes.Â
You only offered a small nod before closing your eyes again, jaw tight.Â
âI donâtâŠâ you stop, speaking more quietly to help with the pounding. The sunlight was too much already, you donât want to add your own voice to your own misery. âDont know why itâs getting worse. Is thisâŠnormal?â
âIt can be.â He replied simply, to the point. âHere. Take this.â
You blinked your eyes open and lifted your head to spot he took out some more medicine from his leather jacket, holding it out to the pills in the palm of his hand. At the sight, your stomach curdled.
You felt yourself pale and you donât know why.
Adler mustâve noticed your hesitation. Tilting his head and lips twitching to a frown around his cigarette. He lifted a hand, taking one deep inhale, embers subtly lighting his face before he threw it off. He exhaled out his nose, smoke flowing smoothly.Â
Your throat tightened as you stared. But not in want. It felt more heavy. More heady. Your mouth open more in a wince than for anything else.
âYou know this will help. We gotta make sure youâre in shape for this, Bell.â You bowed your head in shame, book now beside you on the pallet as you clenched your hands on your knees. You heard him sigh. And now you see him, closerâheâs kneeling in front of you. One knee down, the other having his elbow leaning against it. âI donât have to explain to you the stakes currently. You know how serious this is since you and Woods found out Hudsonâs dirty little secret about Perseus and the nuke he has. You know it. We canât fuck around anymore.â
You hunched your shoulders, as if that can hide you from your guilt. Because you spotted his glance towards your book. You can guess what else heâs hinting.
Stay a ghost or try to be a person? A part of your mind asked. You tried to not let your heart crack of no more pictures.
âI knowâŠâ you say, eyes down and to the side. Yet⊠âItâs justâŠit wasnât that long ago you gave me themâŠI donâtâI meanââ Your tongue is tied again. Like always near him. You didnât mean to sound accusing or hinting. Adler is trained for medical issues on the field. You tried to take a breath. âI just donât want to be a burden with all this. Slow you guys down. I donât want to disappoint you.â You did a tight squeeze of your knees, practically white knuckled grip, a mix of uncaring at your honesty and hating yourself for it.
You felt your chin be lifted up, Adlerâs forefinger doing so you can be face to face. He assessed you seriously.
âYou wonât, kid.â Heâs so close. Breath to your face. So calm too. Your anchor. He believes in you. If you or him leaned just an inch or two forwardâhe took his hand away from your face before bringing his palm with the medicine again. âTaking these will help. Iâll watch over you. Just like the good âol days.â He tilted his head, a quirk of the mouth up. And you think he couldnât be more charming.Â
You ignored your past nerves, quickly taking the medicine in a dry swallow, gloved hands brushing his bare ones(Damn it all.).Â
He nodded at you, the barest thing of it before he stood up. Glancing at your book again with pressed lips before facing you once more with a raised brow.
âOscar Wilde? Here I thought you only read Dostoevsky and Nietzsche.â
âItâs a collection of some of his poemâs. And a break from existentialism and nihilism is good for the mind. But youâve always been more of a stoic,â you shoot him a teasing look, an attempt to get your bravado back. âOur very own Prince Andrei Bolkonsky.â
Adler did a small huff out his nose.
âJust donât start bowing.â Adler did a quick motion of his to the door. âCome on. Back to work, Tolstoy.â
You nod, marking where you were in the book before following Adler back in, your hold on the book tight. Who knows when youâll get to read again.
Stay a ghost or try to be a person?Â
(It doesnât matter. Adler made the choice for you.)
You tell yourself itâs fine. You instead let yourself be a book for Adlerâwilling to be read. You imagine how he would do it, a book of you in his hands. Read through your pages, open up your spine and let his fingers run through your creasesâhow easily can he finish you? How many times could he, until youâre worn and wrinkled from use? Will his touch trace the abuse of a loved book?
The place where he put his finger on your chin burns.
âŠ
The page you marked on the page reads:Â âNever regret thy fall, O Icarus of the fearless flight, For the greatest tragedy of them all, Is never to feel the burning light."
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A/N: Bell is a SIMP. Poor girl. The best way to tell if Bell is in love, is if she suddenly starts thinking in poetry. Bell stares intensely you say? Bell loves intensely too.
Iâm also confusing myself with Dark!Adler and Soft!Adler. But again heâs both so đ€·ââïž Man so toxic and a red flag, heâs even confusing the author.
Also, Iâm planning to write really quickly to finish up For Whom the Bell Tolls. Didnât want to but I really want to go ahead and write for BO6. Then again, that fic was NEVER supposed to be that long or longer. Sorry if I speed through some stuff, I just want to finish it and move on then torture you all further.
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Fortnight
Yuta Okkotsu x Reader
Warnings: Lyrics used at some point, Angst, Cursing, Reader is described gender-neutral,, Reader was sent to a mental asylum by their parents due to their cursed energy which has caused trauma, Past-trauma mentioned, Manga chapter 261 Spoilers, Blood and death mentioned.
à©â©â§â The Tortured Poets Department MasterlistËâ.àłàż*:
âI touched you,
For only a fortnight
(I touched you)
But I touched you.âÂ
This was not how any of it was supposed to go. When you first came to Tokyo Jujutsu High, as a first year, you were welcomed with warm, open arms. A complete and utter drastic difference from your home life.Â
As a child, you always knew that you were different, You could always see the monsters that your family could not see. For as long as you can remember, you can always remember waking up to the monster in your closet, only to be shaken off by your mother and father as it just being your imagination. You remember distinctly the sounds of your cries as you wailed for your mama and papa to save you. The very same cries you were letting out at this very moment, hopingâpraying for Yuta to be okay.Â
Too many people in your life have either left, or been killed due to the agonizing evil in this world. Nobara, Nanami, Gojo-Sensei, âŠMegumi. So many you have loved and cherished as if they were your very own family.Â
From the very first moment you were abandoned by your mother and father at the age of ten in that wretched asylum, you knew that you had absolutely nobody. You could still remember the numerous tests and the various blood-work and psychiatric treatment you were put through. The shock therapy, the injections, so much trauma that you, as a child, had to endure.Â
When Gojo-Sensei came, a boy with midnight black hair by his side, you had finally been savedâseen, and saved.Â
âYouâY/n, have a gift. And I promise you, that with my guidance, and the love of your peers, you are going to be just fine. âKay?âÂ
Gojo-Senseiâs words are often replayed over and over again in your head throughout the few short years you have been at Jujutsu High. You felt comfort in them, because in all honesty, Gojo-Sensei was right. With his guidance, and the love you often felt from your peers, you were okay. You were perfectly, and utterly fine.Â
Truly, everything was going so, so amazing in your life.Â
So, why did it all have to change now?Â
âI wanna kill him..âÂ
Your words came out in strained sobs as you sat at the medical bedside of Yuta Okkotsu. Shoko stood right above him, scalpel in hand as she worked ever-so-carefully as she removed Yuta;s brain from his head. By his left side, Gojo-Sensei lay, head cut right open, and brain gone.
Even in death, Gojo-Sensei was nothing but a puppet for the jujutsu world.Â
And so was Yuta. Your Yuta.Â
âI think we all want to kill him, Y/n,â Shokoâs voice was soft as she spoke, continuing her diligent work of art as she wiped a bit of blood away from dripping down Yutaâs head.Â
The male lay unconscious by you, hand loosely in your own grasp as he lay limp, awaiting to use Kenjakuâs cursed technique inside of Gojo-Sensei in order to stop the raging battle between Sukuna and the Jujutsu world.Â
âHe has taken everything away, ShokoâŠNobara, MegumiâŠGojo-SenseiâŠMy Yuta..â Tears began to well up once more, slowly dripping down your face as you stared sadly at what was becoming of your lover.Â
Shoko pressed her lips together in a frown, her gloved hands carefully continuing to cut open Yutaâs head to get to his brain. Her brown eyes moved at one point, gazing right at you with a look of complete and utter pity. âI know, Y/n.âÂ
It was silent for a few more minutes as Shoko carefully extracted Yutaâs brain from his head. It made you completely and utterly sick; seeing your lover there in that state. You wanted to throw up as you watched Shoko set his brain down on a medical table before she turned towards Gojoâs own body, beginning to prepare it for Yutaâs brain.Â
âYuta and I were only together for two weeks, ShokoâŠ.He called it a fortnight..â You chuckled sadly, remembering Yuta as he spoke to Gojo-Sensei with such excitement when Gojo-Sensei had returned.
âI finally worked up the courage to ask Y/n to be mine, Gojo-Sensei..â His shy smile, accompanied by that little blush of his as he scratched the back of his neck warmed your heart.Â
âNo kidding! Look at you Okkotsu, finally taking what's yours!â Gojoâs voice boomed loudly as he chuckled at his students' pride. âHow long have ya been together? Donât tell me Iâve missed a whole year!âÂ
âWeâve been together for a fortnight..âÂ
Shoko let out a sad chuckle, moving her head to gaze at you as she smiled pitifully once more. âGojo always knew that something would happen between you and Okkotsu..â You watched as hands covered in latex carefully grabbed the bloodied organ off of the medical table. Shoko turned her back away, carefully placing Yutaâs brain inside of Gojoâs head, before she began to get to work stitching up the puppet.Â
â...Will Yuta come back?â Your voice shook as you asked the dreaded question that you already knew the answer to. There was no way that Yuta would be coming back. He only had five whole minutes before the cursed energy would leave him, leaving both himself, and Gojo-Sensei dead.Â
âI donât think he will come back, Y/n.â
Shokoâs words were straight to the point, not wanting to lie to you and get your hopes up. However, you wished that she would have lied to you. The feeling of your heart sinking deeper into your chest hurts. It hurts so bad.Â
You could feel the salty trail of tears slowly drip down your face, falling right onto Yutaâs hand that you held as you stared hopelessly at the love of your life.Â
âI touched him for only a fortnight, ShokoâŠHow is that fair?â You cried out, moving to stand up as you let go of Yutaâs hand. Your face was red as you wiped furiously at the tears that continued to come out of your face. âHow is that fair?!â Your voice cried as you screamed in Shokoâs direction, heart beating quickly as you wiped Yutaâs blood off of his face.Â
No reply. Shoko stayed silent as she continued to work on stitching up Gojo, her brows knitted together as she completely shook off your breakdown.
And I love you.
Itâs ruining my life.
I love you, it's ruining my life.Â
I touched you.
For only a fortnight.
I touched you.
But I touched you.Â
Those words replayed over and over again inside of your head, like a mantra that you had known forever. Tears continued to crash down as you turned, rushing out of the medical room as you cried. Cried for your parents, cried for Gojo-Sensei, for Nobara, for MegumiâŠbut most of all, for the loss of your loverâYuta.Â
This just was not fair, nothing was fair.Â
Your eyes roamed the destruction outside of the medical room; sobs continued to escape your lips as you looked for at least a place to sit and calm yourself. None of this was fair.Â
You continued to walk around the destroyed property of Jujutsu high, face red, eyes burning as you continued to cry, and, and cry.Â
âItâs not fair..â You spoke to no one in particular as you fell to your knees under one of the many trees outside; one of the few that was not destroyed during Sukunaâs rampage. Your heart continued to beat, soft sobs leaving your lips as you stared down at the ground, hands gripping the ends of your uniform as you cried.
âGojo-Senseiââ You cried out the name of your teacher as you looked up to the sky, eyes narrowed as if you were trying to curse your deceased instructor with just a look into the sky. âYou should have just kept me thereâat the asylum. I never wanted to ever get this attached to anybody again..Nobody.â You let out another pitiful sob as you wiped helplessly at your eyes, trying so hard to get rid of the oncoming rush of tears that just would not stop.Â
âI want to kill him so bad..â Your bottom lip trembled as you let your hands drop to your lap, sobbing once more as you slammed your head back into the trunk of the tree.Â
âLoving Yuta was the worst decision of my lifeâŠLoving you is ruining my life, Yuta!â You screamed up to the sky, face beet red as you continued to scream and cry at the realization that you truly lost the love of your life forever.Â
There was absolutely nothing that Yuta could do to fix thisâto come back and continue to love and protect you.Â
His arms encircled your waist as he held you close in the vision of your memory; his warm breath tickling your neck as he pressed a kiss to it. âIâm so happy I finally have you now, Y/n..â He let out a shy chuckle.Â
âIâm happy we both just finally found the courage to confessâŠI really missed you while you were gone, Yuta..â You let out a breathless giggle as he pressed another kiss to your neck, before moving to press one to your cheek, then your foreheadâand finally your lips.Â
âYou have no idea how happy you make me..âÂ
âI feel like I finally have someone to live for.â
âI love you, Y/n.â
âI will never, ever leave you in this cursed world. I will forever protect you, okay?âÂ
I love youâŠ
I love you..
I love you.
Yuta Okkotsu, forever loving you is ruining my life.Â
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Sub!Gar Logan x Dom!Fem!Reader
Summary:
Gar had a very hard day. You know you canât take away the pain, so you try your best to distract him from it instead.
Sub!Gar Logan x Dom!Fem!Reader. Friends to Lovers. Smut and Angst. Set during Season 1, Episode 7.
Word Count: 3,600
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THIS IS A RE-POST. This is a fic from my old blog (a blog that was shadowbanned, forcing me to move). This fic is not stolen, it is completely mine, and I am just re-posting it to help people find my new blog, and to make my masterlist complete when I post new fics for this fandom.
Detailed warnings and author's notes below the cut.
Warnings: some emotional angst, mentions of trauma/PTSD - Gar kills someone for the first time and is very upset about it (as in the canon), friends to lovers, takes place during Season 1 Episode 7 (âAsylumâ), descriptions of canon level violence, this is a smut fic, the reader character is implied to be fat, the reader character uses she/her pronouns and has a vagina, this isnât a hard sub/dom relationship but there is sub/dom undertones, Gar is more submissive and the reader is more dominant, the reader calls Gar âgood boyâ and he really likes it, tiddy sucking, p in v sex, unprotected sex, the reader rides Gar, creampie, quick/desperate sex. I believe thatâs everything. Most of the focus here is on the emotional side of things and not the smut so if you wanna see more PWP, definitely let me know.
A/N: fic is titled after a Pierce The Veil song because I have been obsessed with the new album, and I think it really fits here. Having a trauma with someone, but it just draws you closer together and makes you seek comfort in them. I did consider making up a mission that wasnât in the canon for this, but I am always drawn to how sad, wet, and pathetic he is after killing the scientist, especially if weâre doing sub!Gar - he seems especially subby and in need of comfort.
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When you woke up alone, you werenât entirely surprised.Â
Of course you missed Garâs presence beside you in bed. But you hadnât exactly expected him to be sleeping peacefully after the day the two of you had.Â
You and Gar were always the type of best friends to share a bed. Both of you sought the kind of comfort that could only come from cuddling close to the warm body of a safe person. Most often, you could only fall asleep beside each other.Â
It had been that way since he had first been taken in by Doctor Caulder and he had come to you for comfort after he had woken up sorely missing his parents. On that first night, you had fallen asleep cradling him, and pretty much every night since then, the two of you shared a bed without question.Â
The two of you were just intensely affectionate people, and you saw nothing wrong with expressing your friendship through those simple touches. It was just friendly, after all.Â
The two of you always hugged each other tight and held hands while walking in public. There were many times when Gar put his arm around you or kissed you on the forehead, or times when you kissed him on the cheek. You werenât shy about expressing your very platonic love for your best friend (at least, thatâs what you had to tell yourself).Â
The two of you werenât romantically involved - you were just very close best friends.Â
No matter what others thought when they looked at you, having those stereotypes in their minds about a guy and girl not being able to be âjust friendsâ. Even if you wanted to play into that stereotype so badly with him - even if you wanted all of those people to be right. You would never risk ruining your friendship with him just because of some annoying crush. You were very good at keeping all of your stupid feelings trapped inside of your chest.Â
Especially on days like this. When life got hardest, he needed you to be there more as a friend than anything else. And you needed him too.Â
It was one of the reasons that he had gotten into bed with you that night, despite the fact that he scoffed at the very mention of trying to sleep. He wanted to be there for you. So you really werenât surprised when you woke up and the bed was cold, void of his presence. Because of course, he couldnât sleep.Â
It had been a long, hectic, shitty day.Â
After everything that had happened, you werenât even really âsleepingâ yourself.Â
You were drifting on the edge of consciousness, so exhausted from the day that your body was trying to forcibly knock you out. Between Kory and Dick screwing loudly on one side and Rachel and her birth mother chattering brightly and even crying on the other side, you had been having a very hard time falling asleep. That, and the horrors of the day still flashing through your mind. It made for a deadly cocktail that kept you awake. If not for the pure exhaustion of dayâs events weighing you down - then you probably wouldnât have closed your eyes at all.Â
When you came back into a hard consciousness this time, though, you missed the feeling of Garâs arm around your waist. You instantly missed the feeling of his pleasant warmth at your back - cradling you, making you feel safe.Â
Before you even had your fully eyes open, you were out of bed yourself. It was almost an instinct, being so entirely drawn to him. You wandered out to the larger living space of the very expensive condo âsafehouseâ with your socked feet on the cold floor. You clutched at your own arms under the loose sleeves of your oversized sleep shirt as goosebumps formed on your skin.Â
You wondered in the back of your mind what the weather was like outside and if Dick had turned on the heat before going to bed. Then you had to wonder if adjusting the thermostat was even a concern in anyoneâs mind after such a long day. It was probably only on your mind now that you were missing your human heater.Â
You found Gar sitting on the couch.Â
He had his oversized green headphones on, his phone screen providing the only real light in the room - aside from the everpresent glow of the city that leaked in from the tall glass panels that could be called walls in the ultra modern house. He was holding the screen inches away from his face as he slumped back against the unused couch.Â
He was likely making an imprint of himself that would be the only âlived inâ essence of the overwhelming cold, expensive atmosphere of the place. From the sideways tilt of the screen and the way his thumbs were moving, you easily guessed that he was playing some kind of game. Something to distract his mind from the dayâs events still playing there on repeat like a bad movie.Â
He was wearing a pair of sweatpants that Dick had given him, dug out of a drawer of clothing that was apparently always kept in the place in case a need for it should come up. Just something else the âsafehouseâ stocked, like food, medical supplies, and monetary currency from all different countries (because Bruce was rich and paranoid enough to be prepared for âany scenarioâ).Â
Gar had paired the pants with one of your tee shirts.Â
Something that was slightly big on him even with his natural muscle mass filling it out, bright tie-dye and worn-in cotton. It was purely you. Having the fabric draped over his body did make him feel at least somewhat at ease because it was soaked in your natural smell. It made him feel close to you even when he had gotten out of bed.Â
He hadnât wanted to bother you with his tossing and turning or the bright glowing light of his phone screen when he knew he wouldnât be able to sleep properly.Â
He felt your presence in the room, but he didnât look up until you crept further toward him, steering into his hazy peripheral view. He shrugged off the headphones as he looked up, locking eyes with you over the top of his phone. Your heart ached as you saw that expression so well illuminated by the sharp white light from the screen. He had the face of a kicked puppy, big wide eyes staring you down. Especially because he was making a clear effort not to let his mouth curl into a deep whimpering frown.Â
You knew that the events of the day had been particularly hard on him.Â
Of course, there was the obvious. The mental exhaustion and fear of being kidnapped and held hostage. The pulsating adrenaline of wondering if he was going to come out alive, on top of the worry he felt for you, Rachel, Dick, and Kory. The intense physical torture he had suffered at the hands of âscientistsâ controlled by a doomsday cult.Â
But on top of all of it, he had experienced something far worse. Something that you knew was far more taxing on his mind.Â
He had killed someone for the first time.Â
You feared that he was too gentle for killing. Even with the amazing power he wielded.Â
Gar - someone who protested eating meat because he hated the idea of an animal being harmed for the sake of his nutrition. Gar - someone who always scooped up spiders and household pests to bring them outside because in his opinion, even the smallest of creatures deserve peace.Â
You knew that he was someone who never planned on using his powers to truly harm anyone.Â
But the moment the choice had been presented to him - to use his powers to harm someone, or to let you be harmed - it hadnât really been a choice in his mind at all.Â
You had been backed into a corner. You thought you had been clever, breaking out of the room they had locked you in with nothing more than an earring as a lockpick. But without a weapon and without a plan, Gar saw them threatening you and became blind with rage.Â
Before he truly knew what was happening, he tasted flesh.Â
A very large part of him didnât regret it. He would choose your life over the life of someone unknown - someone who was going to hurt you - any day of the week. He knew that, if given the same choice, he would do it all over again.Â
But there was another part inside of him that kept gnawing with guilt. Another part that said he was wrong, that said there should have been some other way. Something inside of him that said he was now just the villain in someone elseâs story - that he wasnât any better than the people who tried to hurt you in the first place.Â
In a lot of ways, that voice said, he was worse than them.Â
That voice made it difficult for him to sleep.Â
âCanât sleep?â You hummed out, approaching the couch to come and sit beside him.Â
Gar did little more than shrug in response to the question. He didnât want to admit the weakness aloud. He didnât want to tell you that he was warring with guilt over something that the others - especially you - didnât seem to struggle with.Â
You both already knew the answer. It had been a hard day for him. Of course sleep was far beyond his grasp.Â
In a silent, but comfortable exchange, Gar locked his phone and set it aside, entirely uncaring of saving his progress in the game while you sat down beside him. You slid onto the couch with your butt half nestled on top of his hip and your legs strung across his lap. He reached one arm in front of you, draping it over the thickness of your thighs. In a very natural move, he lazily wrapped his knuckles around your bare skin.Â
Neither of you bothered to acknowledge your lack of pants - the fact that you were only wearing underwear with your oversized sleep shirt. You were so used to each other at this point that casual states of undress didnât really need to be acknowledged.Â
He drew mindless patterns into your skin with his thumb and slung his other arm over the back of the couch, bringing you into his lovely natural warmth. You laid your head onto his chest, easily cuddling into his side as you indulged in the familiarity. With his phone turned off, the darkness ruminating through the room was a silent cloak that enveloped the two of you. It made it much easier to fall into that routine of comfort that the two of you always embraced.Â
You would explicitly deny that his touch on your bare skin felt like a deadly trail of needles erupting with fire - in the best way possible. Now was not the time for your lust to be breaking through. He was your best friend, and he was clearly in need of comfort.Â
âI missed my human heater.â You mumbled out quietly, nuzzling into his side affectionately.Â
He let out a hazy breath - some attempt at a laugh in response to your affectionate nickname for him. It was something he knew well about your friendship. You had a constantly chilly body, and he would always be there to warm you up with his blazen hot skin. Just another perk from his mutation - even when he got stuck out in the snow, he never ran cold.Â
Now that you had acknowledged that wordless question (the reason you had gotten out of bed, why you couldnât sleep), it was Garâs turn to do the same.Â
It hung in the air over his head and turned into a stony silence in the quiet, dark room that made each of his breaths seem particularly heavy beside your ear. It was a tension that built upon itself for a few moments. You werenât going to ask, even though you had a feeling you virtually already knew the answer. You wondered if he was going to come out and admit it before you simply dragged him back to bed and forced him to stay there out of your own selfish need.Â
But then he finally broke the silence by saying the words.Â
âWhenever I close my eyes⊠I just keep seeing his face.âÂ
His words were tentative, a quiet whimper released into the room after being trapped in his chest for too long. Like electricity, shocking and impossible to avoid, you felt his pain surging through you. It caused your throat to clench painfully. You shifted slightly, turning so that you could get a better look at his face. Even in the dimness, the sad glassiness of his eyes practically glowed.Â
âGar,âÂ
You called out his name, your own voice giving away a depth of weakness that you held for him. Before you could help it, you were reaching up and cradling the side of his face with a cupped palm. Even though your hands were cool, the feeling was intensely comforting to him - just because it was you. He couldnât help but lean into it, leaning on your hand as though it was the only thing in the world holding him up in that moment. When he squeezed his eyes shut, trying to force some of that terrible guilt away, he accidentally forced the tears out and let them leak freely onto your hand.Â
âOh, baby.â You cooed out.Â
You were entirely unsure why the nickname popped out. The sound of it on your own lips even surprised you. It was something you had never called him before. But he didnât stop you, didnât seem to find it unpleasant, so you continued.Â
âYou did what you had to do.â You told him with certainty. âYou saved my life.âÂ
That was something infinitely valuable to him. But he wondered if somehow, he had diminished his own value in the process.Â
More thick tears slipped down his face and you thumbed them away upon instinct. He swallowed thickly before he spoke again, though this time his words were heavily entrenched in those tears.Â
âWhat if that man had a family?â Gar sniffled quietly. âWhat if-?âÂ
âOf course he had a family, Gar.â You quickly cut him off, knowing that his words were quickly spiraling into a deep, putrid guilt.Â
That guilt was definitely something you felt the need to save him from.Â
Upon hearing your words, he looked at you with sharp hurt in his eyes. Clearly, he had been expecting you to argue against his point, rather than confirm it. But you had a completely different line of thinking in mind.
âEveryone does.â You continued on. âEveryone has people who miss them. But you canât waste your sympathy on some fictional family youâve made up for the guy in your head. Having a family and being missed doesnât give people the right to attack others and get away with it. The possibility of being missed doesnât mean that people can go through life without seeing the consequences of their actions.âÂ
Gar let out a quiet huff. It was a sound of defeat - a signal saying that your words had punctured his surface, but hadnât quite set in yet.Â
When he didnât say anything in reply, you continued.Â
âYouâre my family.â You told him firmly.Â
You used the hold on his cheek to fully turn his head toward yours, and you gently angled into him so that your foreheads were pressed together. Gar closed his eyes and basked in the soothing feeling as you continued talking.Â
âAnd Iâm yours. And I really, truly donât care about who lives or dies outside of us. I donât care what happens as long as weâre safe. And weâre together.âÂ
You wanted to add on a verbal exception for the others - for Rachel, and Dick, and Kory, and likely Rachelâs mom just for her sake. An exception for the people who had quickly also become your family in the short time since you had met them. But you had a feeling that Gar knew about this exception in your mind without you having to voice it.Â
Gar swallowed hard again, and this time you felt it bob harshly through him while pressed so closely together. You felt him let out a harsh breath before he spoke again.Â
âI guess⊠I guess Iâm just worried about what you think of me now.â He spoke the words so quietly, as if his fear even crept into voicing this. âI donât want my favorite person in the world to be afraid of me. Or⊠to think Iâm a bad person.âÂ
âIâm not afraid of you.â You quickly argued the point, a slight laughter on your lips at the mere thought of it - at the mention of being afraid of someone like him.Â
Yes, he could turn into a giant green tiger, and yes, seeing him use that power to its full extent for the first time had been⊠jarring. But you would never be afraid of someone who cried during Pixar movies and said it was âinhumaneâ to kill the animals in Minecraft for food.Â
âI could never be afraid of you, Gar.â You easily added on. âYouâre not a bad person. Youâre such a good person. Youâre so good. Youâre such a good boy.âÂ
Those words struck a cord deep within his soul, and a whimper escaped his lips before he could stop it.Â
âSay that again.â He told you, so pitifully that it almost sounded like begging. âPlease?âÂ
âYouâre such a good boy.â You repeated yourself, running your thumb along the soft skin of his cheek once again. âYouâre a good boy, Gar.âÂ
In a moment, the air shifted.Â
The magnetism between the two of you came to a fierce head, and the desperation, the vulnerability that the dayâs events had brought forward morphed itself from pain and sadness into something the two of you knew well in the presence of each other - pure wanting. But this time, both of you were exhausted and completely lacking the energy to have any self control to hold it back.Â
âY/N-âÂ
He barely got out a whimper of your name before you pressed forward that extra inch, stealing his breath as you pressed your lips to his. It was a perfect moment - a beautiful culmination of everything you had ever wanted since meeting him. You definitely werenât going to waste it.Â
He moaned into the kiss and you echoed it back, gulping in breaths through your nose so you wouldnât have to pull away from the soft cushion of his lips, not even for a moment. When he reached for a greedy grip on the back of your head, filthy and wanting, gently nibbling on your bottom lip - your instincts took over. You blindly swung a leg out, climbing over his waist, and he let out a sharp hiss at the feeling of your weight being planted in his lap. You were beautiful and whole as you sat down on top of him, a perfect reminder that this wasnât just a dream as his cock quickly swelled to life under the heat of your core where it brushed against his borrowed pants.Â
âPlease-â He whimpered into your mouth, barely able to get the word out before you sucked his bottom lip into your mouth, making him moan out shakily in the most beautiful way.Â
You planted your hands on his shoulders, easily taking control of the situation - not that he cared. He felt like he belonged under your controlling grip, under the pleasant weight of your body as his hard cock throbbed underneath your perfect weight. In a blur of heady kisses, swapping breath with the only man you had ever wanted like this, you got your underwear off and got his pants around his ankles. He shoved your shirt up over your breasts to possessively latch onto one of them with his mouth as you reached down and lined up his pulsing cock with your wet, wanting cunt.Â
âOh-âÂ
He let out another beautifully pathetic whimper as you sunk down onto him in one smooth movement. Your tight, wet heat quickly surrounded him and made his head spin. You felt so full that it almost choked you, but the hot pangs of electricity that shot up through your pussy easily spurred you on. You wasted no time before you began a brutal pace, bouncing on his lap as if he was nothing more than a toy for your own pleasure. The slap of skin on skin was irritably loud in the otherwise silent room, accompanied only by Garâs harsh, animalistic pants and your choked-off moans as you struggled to comprehend the fullness of his nearly overwhelming cock.Â
You both needed it. You needed the intense sting of pleasure to push out the worries of the day.Â
With Garâs hands gripping at your waist as if you might slip away at any moment and his face buried in your breasts, you almost didnât hear the quiet murmur of his request when he managed to get the words out beyond that blinding pleasure.Â
âSay it again,â He choked out past his harsh breaths. âPlease!âÂ
It took your cock-drunk brain a moment to comprehend it, but when the gears fully churned, you instantly knew what he meant.Â
âYouâre a good boy,âÂ
You moaned out, reaching a hand up to pet through his hair. You took a fierce grip on those green locks, never once faltering in the harsh, unforgiving rhythm of your hips as you continued to piston yourself up and down on his cock.Â
âYouâre a good boy, Gar.âÂ
âOh - fuck!â Gar grunted into your chest.Â
At the sound of your voice saying this, declaring that he was a good boy - he abruptly came inside you.
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Thoughts on the master of fear, Scarecrow? Also, fave design, he has so many good ones (second BTAS, his trading card one, mistress of fear, Gaslight,, fear for sale, the Arkham Games etc)?
Hey so, do any of you remember Batman Live? It was this really fun, extravagant stage show that touched on a lot of Batman hallmarks and was generally a really fun time as far as I recall. I went to the SĂŁo Paulo premiere with my family, and I was a little too young to really recall most of it now, but some things I definitely remember like the huge Joker hot air balloon made of performers in bodypaint, or the comedy sequences in the Iceberg Lounge. The one thing that stuck with me the most was when the Scarecrow showed up. Batman goes to Arkham Asylum and the entire comedy camp tone drops dead, as he walks in and finds all these bodies in straightjackets hanging from chains, and the doors open as The Scarecrow walks towards him in stilts, summoning loud smoke eruptions that are poisoning and weakening Batman as he leers over him. That part actually did scare me as a kid, and it was probably the first time I had any kind of feelings on Scarecrow imprinted in me.
I was introduced to The Scarecrow as this uniquely horrifying villain who could terrify through presentation alone. I didn't particularly understand what the fear gas was, I was too taken with that ungainly thing up there with the stilts and all those people turned into cadaverous decorations, lurking from the endless halls of the asylum, who towered over everyone and placed Batman into a writhing breakdown with a few gestures, and never appeared again until the cast roll, completely absent from the rogues gatherings after. Granted, of course that's because the stilts prevented him from joining the fight scenes, but that helped to reinforce his mystery. He wasn't someone Batman was going to punch back, no no, the Scarecrow simply vanished as soon as he was done with disarming Batman, and you'd just have to pray for that unfathomable creep to never show up again.
And I'd say this might be part of why I've never been too big on the fear gas, in part because I was first enraptured by a version of The Scarecrow who clearly didn't need it that much, or at least, could do much more besides it. The Scarecrow is, I'd say actually one of my top 10 DC characters, half of that on the basis of his designs, but he's a character who tends to really, really struggle under a lack of cohesion and being subordinate to his gimmick, much more so than the other rogues. The fear gas is a good gimmick, but it is just that, a gimmick, and one that's usually reliant on how far can the story push the horror and the visuals to at least make it effectively scary for us, otherwise it gets incredibly boring very fast, and it's not even a gimmick exclusive to him since so many other characters have similar mind control/illusion abilities/gadgetry at hand (and to say nothing of Hugo Strange, who first used fear gas and who quite frankly kicks the Scarecrow's ass in terms of quality storylines, although Hugo does that to most of the other Batman villains too)
The Scarecrow has become the go-to character for hallucination sequences / revisiting character traumas, which frequently makes him less of a character and more so a convenient plot device, a problem heightened by the larger issue here that is his inconsistent motivation, or lack thereof. He lacks the kind of "breakout" stories that his fellow major Batman villains have had that usually cement an ongoing characterization, and his most famous/celebrated appearences in mass media don't really do much to combat the assertion that he is shallow and weak and whose only asset is the gas (namely, his boss fights in Arkham Asylum, which are all about the fear gas hallucination scares, and his role in Nolan's Batman, which is very fun, but also purposefully plays him up for ridicule and lack of depth next to the other villains)
These days, the Scarecrow is a tedious pip-squeak. His schemes lack verve, his cruelties stir little in the way of frissons. Haunted by clichĂ© to an even greater extent than the other rogues, heâs often brought low with a single sock to the jaw delivered by Batman, or by finding himself on the receiving end of his own fear-inducing concoctions. He often acts as a pawn in the hands of bigger, badder third parties. Heâs ostensibly a stand-in for the figure of the reductive, smug and hypocritical psychologist, nicely bundled up for the audience to humiliate in effigy - TheMindlessOnes's rogue review for Scarecrow
In "Nothing to Fear" it is explained that Jonathan Crane has always had this "thing" for scaring people. (Just as Snidely Whiplash had his "thing" for tying women to railroad tracks, I suppose.) But this is a wan kind of motive. One senses sadly that the real motive for the Scarecrow's behavior lies in the writer's need for someone to do something reprehensible. At the root of the matter may be a difficulty in sorting out the Scarecrow's ends from his means, with a consequent confusion between the goals the Scarecrow intends to reach and the tactics he employs in reaching them.
As a psychologist specializing in phobic disorders, Crane knows how to induce fear and trembling in his victims. But this tells us nothing about what the Scarecrow wants to accomplish. And without a sense or statement of what those goals are, the writer will be tempted to substitute means for end and make the Scarecrow's goal simply the scaring of people. Usually his actions are woefully underexplained - Dreams in Darkness' review by Toonzone
You might think that I'd be advocating for the Scarecrow, then, to disregard a need for a motivation and become as unknowable and horrific as possible, to recapture the awe I felt at his Batman Live self, but no, not at all. For one, I don't think the best version of anything is necessarily the one that made the most impact on me as a kid. Two, there have been some attempts over the years to remove Scarecrow from the toxin or seriously amp him up as a threat, and frankly, most of those have only made the character dramatically worse and more boring (I don't remember the name, but there was a Batman story a while ago where he goes on a big scary killing spree with no toxin just to prove he can and it was fucking terrible). Three, and the big one here, is that this pretty much forces you to get rid of Dr. Jonathan Crane, and I think that does a disservice to the character's potential. I think that's giving up on trying to make him work as a character and I don't think you have to do that.
My preferred characterization for Crane is one that emphasizes his nature as a scholar turned supervillain. The cold and misanthropic and neurotic nerd professor who spent most of his salary on books and took to terrorizing the city as a costumed criminal in part because he wanted money to buy more books. Who takes off the costume mid-crime spree to school his henchmen on specifics of brain chemistry, who gets revenge on those that wrong his students or even employs them as henchmen, still the same guy who thinks there's nothing wrong with firing a loaded gun in a packed classroom as a demonstration. Far less interested in human connections than he is in human reactions, things that can surprise him or that he can catalogue or research or write about. Someone who's not a sadist for sadism's sake, but who doesn't really see you as a person so much as he sees a test subject. I like Crane as a snarky humorous heel who thinks of himself as amoral and mature while doing horribly immoral and childish things, the Herbert West or Rusty Venture of Batman villains (James Urbaniak is definitely the voice I'd pick for him).
My preferred kind of motivation for him is something along the lines of how he's portrayed in most of Kings of Fear, where he puts Batman through the wringer in part as an attempt to get to him and cure him once and for all, or issues #4-5 of The Batman Adventures where he induces city-wide illiteracy in part as a protest against the city's failing education. In Gothtopia he makes all of Gotham hallucinate their perfect ideal lives, eliminating the crime rate but causing the suicide rate to spike up in return, and yes it does turn out to be the set-up for a really generic "fear gas everyone with blimps and make everyone twice as scared" pay off when his involvement is revealed, but I always thought Scarecrow being able and willing to do that, to create these huge and even benevolent-seeming social experiments, as an idea with legs. Fear State was frustratingly halfway there, with the initial set-up of Scarecrow pursuing a theory for fear-based social upheaval, but on top of not being very good, it also wound up that he was just doing the same old thing again and had Batman call him out as someone who just wanted to gas the city and make everyone scared again and never changes and does anything different, which seemed like Tynion defeating his own purpose of trying to make a defining Scarecrow story and address his lack of one, completely failing to address the why the character has that kind of problem and upending itself for meta commentary before doing anything interesting.
Even Kings of Fear, easily the best Scarecrow story of the past decades if not outright ever, kinda ends in a bit of a cop-out where The Scarecrow has to be wrong ("Even when he's telling the truth, he's lying, and even when he's right, he's wrong", Gordon tells Batman to reassure him, to nullify the past 5 issues criticizing and tearing into Batman from every angle imaginable), and he has to be a sadist who just wanted to fuck with Batman and uncover his worst fears because it's what he does. Why does Scarecrow want to unravel people and wrench their worst fears into the surface? Because he's a sadist who gets off on it? I guess that's the canon answer most of the time, but it's such a boring, weak one. Because he wants revenge on the world / bullies? Still weak, done better by other villains even. Because of an unspeakably traumatic childhood that taught him the world was ruled by fear and therefore driving him to become it's master? Okay, but it still doesn't actually answer what he wants to get out of doing what he does.
We know that Jonathan Crane was a fragile youth routinely terrorized and abused by others and plainly traumatized by his experiences. We know that he is learned and brilliant and given to introspection and fantasy.
From this base it is not hard to imagine Crane turning into a man fiercely devoted to solitude and study and capable of a murderous rage when his privacy is violated. It is possible, in other words, to imagine him as a reactive force, in the mold of Freeze, systematically terrorizing and destroying anyone who crosses him but rarely wanting to start trouble himself.
Or we can imagine him as a mercenary, a specialist hired by others for nefarious purposes, but who is not himself strongly motivated by particular rages or desires.
But if the Scarecrow is going to remain a sadist and a sadist onlyâif he is going to be moved only by the psychotic desire to harm othersâwe ought to be made to feel the seductive power that sadism has over its practitioners; we should be made to feel and appreciate the hot and sour joy that comes from the purposeful humiliation of another - Dreams in Darkness review by Toonzone
It's kind of a frustrating pattern in a lot of his stories where he gives a reason for doing something, and it turns out to be a cover for yet another sadistic fear gas attack, but his cover reason was a more interesting motivation for him than what he actually was going for. A villain who mainly just gets a kick out of hurting people and concocts bullshit excuses and reasons to justify said hurting? The Joker does that already, but the Joker always clearly states what he wants and has all those ways to make cruelty for cruelty's sake entertaining. If that's all The Scarecrow is also, no wonder he's going to be so incredibly lacking most of the time (nevermind the fact that he's never going to be the guy most infamous for gassing Gotham City).
Yes, he may be sadistic and cruel, he may enjoy what he does too much, and maybe there really isn't any kind of realistic explanation as to why a man would dress up as a scarecrow to commit terrorism and spray innocent people with chemicals to make them terrified, but refer to the guy he's fighting. "Realistic" is the wrong term. The issue here is less "why" the Scarecrow does what he does, and more what is he hoping to get out of it. Granted, this is less of a concern if you're playing The Scarecrow as a figure of horror, someone who's not even really human underneath that outfit. But I think that locks away much of his versatility. The Scarecrow needs Jonathan Crane, and I think there's good stuff to like about that awful man.
I like Jonathan Crane the sardonic pragmatic scientist who still embraces his hopelessly ridiculous life, a guy who's not nearly as above it all as he'd like to be and has wants and needs moreso than he really likes to admit. I like him as a book lover, as a fan of horror, I like him as the kind of guy who'd send fan mail to Elvira and break out of Arkham just to catch a Halloween parade and guest star in a Scooby-Doo movie for a change. I like him as someone who'd have a decent working relationship with the other rogues and pal with the Legion of Doom and get into a physical spat with Riddler over a chess game. Someone who custom-makes his own outfits and equipment, who makes scythes out of animal bones to fight Batman with, who picked the scarecrow motif in part because it was a term of derision his colleagues used on him.
Who pours himself over his research as he records his theories in a tape recorder, the kind of guy who grouses at having to clean another cell because he's getting annoyed at his test subjects killing themselves, seriously guys the cleaning supplies for this batch were as fresh as they could be, and the iguana amygdalas I used should be stopping your neocortexes from overreacting this strongly. Subject #3 over there got over his fear of centipedes yesterday and he hasn't screamed all morning, I'm gonna need the rest of you to stop being such babies, okay?
It must be terribly liberating for Crane, to transcend mere ugliness and become inhuman. Of all the rogues, heâs easily the one who takes Batmanâs âI need a disguise; I shall become a beast of the nightâ schtick and runs with it the farthest - TheMindlessOnes's rogue review for Scarecrow
And that's for Jonathan Crane, man of science. The Scarecrow, however, is not science, he is unreason incarnate, and to me what most makes The Scarecrow work as a Batman villain has nothing to do with "they both use fear as a weapon", I always thought that was a bit shallow of an angle to pursue (most, if not all, the villains rely on fear, it comes with the whole "crime" thing). The two have a stronger connection via the costume, the theatricality, the becoming a creature of the night angle. None of the other major Batman villains are going into their costumes the way The Scarecrow is. They have their personas and varying degrees of division between them and their "real selves", but few of them are wearing outright identity-separating Halloween Monster Costumes with separate names and personalities they can dip in and out of at their convenience.
And I'm gonna interrupt myself to answer your second question. I couldn't pick just one design, so counting the Batman Live one above, I picked 10. These are not in order and they're not necessarily how I'd design him, I'd say my actual favorite Scarecrow designs are fan-made, but if I was going to pick out of "official" material these are the ones I'd go for. It's time for:
(Left-to-right: George Pratt's Scarecrow pin-up, Phil Jimenez's Scarecrow design, Ed Natividad's concept art for Suicide Squad)
(Left-to-right: His TNBA design by Bruce Timm as drawn by Luciano Vecchio, Alex Ross's design for Justice, and Tim Sale's Scarecrow)
(Left-to-right: Kelley Jones' design for Kings of Fear, Jeremy Raapack's design for Legends of the Dark Knight #25, Scarecrow's design in Happy Halloween, Scooby-Doo!)
*cough*, anyway: Most of the other rogues with their signature suits or masks or body distortions don't tend to have closets full of different variant Batsuits and scarecrow costumes to choose and devote to their cause and ideal, that they sit at night tailoring on how to make scarier or more loaded with weapons, that they might even have conversations with, things that sit in their closets waiting because both of these brilliant men, men who have (or at least had) different civilian lives, men who could stop doing this at any time, who both decided that becoming a Halloween monster prowling the streets to inflict terror is a necessary, even productive use of their time.
And I think that's the key word I want to end here, productive. I think The Scarecrow needs to be more productive. Because even if he's not aware of it, he is achieving progress via his research, and there is one way he's proved his ideas: Batman walks out of every fight they have stronger. Every encounter they have is a test that Batman resists and walks out of more able to cope with his own traumas, or at least, better able to resist them being weaponized against him. I always wanted to explore the idea that Crane is genuinely convinced he's doing people a favor or at least achieving something via all these horrible Scarecrow campaigns, and one thing he has achieved is that Batman is never not prepared for chemical attacks or assaults on his mind, Batman resists ungodly trials of willpower and determination and courage, in part because he has to deal with the Scarecrow pumping terror juice in his brain semi-regularly.
The fact that Crane loses and gets beaten up and has to retry schemes again and again and kill people and join the costume parade just to lure Batman is fairly inconsequential to him, so long as it gets results. He's not interested in dissecting Batman's brain or being more like Batman, that's Hugo Strange's thing. Hugo Strange needs Batman to be fearless, allmighty and perfect, where as Jonathan Crane wants nothing more than to unearth and study the fears and kinks in the armor, the dead last thing he wants is a perfect man. Hugo Strange wants to crawl naked into the mask of the great and terrible fascist and never come out, where as The Scarecrow wants to crack open all the masks in the world and feast luridly on whatever seeps out.
Batman isn't just the ultimate trial against his fear-ruled worldview (or even affirmation), and he isn't just a breakthrough waiting to happen: he might be his greatest success as of yet. A case study on the success of exposure therapy, proof of potential medicinal applications for his formula, the greatest guinea pig of all time because he won't die no matter what you pump into him, you name it. So what if all those other people couldn't stomach the procedure, so what if those precious innocents are too weak and stupid and useless to not get in the way of research, it's clearly worked wonders for those who could take it.
And if the future belongs to men like Batman, if all of these superheroes and supervillains are the way things are going to be like forever, if the future is Bat-shaped and as vast and uncertain and horrible as the forces shaping it, the future needs to be prepared. The future needs to grapple with it's past and face it's greatest horrors and become stronger for it. There is no such thing as overcoming fear, there is only living with it, embracing it, bowing to the primordial instinct that knows the answer before you do. Mankind grew and developed it's intelligence and tools out of fear, fear of the bigger predators out there, fear of the other cavemen, fear of starvation and death and everything they couldn't understand and master until they learned to fear it. What better knowledge to pass along than fear? And who is better qualified to teach about fear?
Maybe Crane isn't just another monster with a grudge, maybe he isn't another costumed revenge killer, maybe he isn't just a power-tripping sadist bully out to torment others because he can, and maybe he isn't a hopeless traumatized madman who destroyed his professional and personal life in a monstrous quest to satisfy an obsession ruling his soul.
Maybe he is a sane response to an insane situation. Ever heard that one before?
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âFound you.â
 The voice sent shivers down your spine. For a moment you were frozen in fear, but as you began to hear footsteps approaching you broke out into a run. You didnât bother looking back. You knew that voice all too well and your only option here was to run. It was already so late into the night, and nobody else seemed to be around. As you ran you reached for your phone, dialing emergency services. You were running out of breath, looking for a place to hide. As you heard someone answer the phone, a hand was suddenly over your mouth, pulling you back.
âYou canât run from me anymore.â
â€
  Your eyes shot open and you jumped up in bed, breathing heavily as your mind was racing. You gripped the bed sheets tightly, taking in your surroundings and starting to settle back into reality. It was just a bad dream, just another bad dream. You laid back in bed, eyes losing focus as you looked at the ceiling, trying to think of anything else so you could forget this nightmare all the quicker. The problem was it wasnât the first time you had dreamt of something like that, and it probably wouldnât be the last.
  Once your mind had settled, and your breathing was even, you got up. You grabbed your phone and stared at the date for a while. It had nearly been a year since you last saw him, even in your nightmares about him, you never saw his face. His voice alone was enough to haunt you. At first you adored it, hearing such sweet words from him, hearing your own name, but now the memory itself made you feel uneasy. Even if you were living a normal life, he still clung to you like a shadow. Sometimes he wasnât visible, but he was always there, and you could do nothing to get rid of him.
  You had some breakfast and got ready for the day, taking a moment to let the sun wash over you. It was a silly substitute to the warmth you once got from another. You walked over to your bus stop, thinking about what your day would look like, already forgetting about the morning. The day itself was normal, and you figured it would end that way, but I guess that was too much to ask for. As you walked to your apartment you noticed two figures in black waiting outside your door. You thought to run away and call the cops but they noticed you first, waving you over and taking steps in your direction.
âMiss y/n, weâre with the police and have a few questions for you.â
â⊠pah⊠police?â
  You were thinking of running, but when they said they were police you let your guard down a bit. The two got close and showed you their badges, detectives Choi and Kim.
âUh⊠what is this about⊠Iâm a good citizen and-â
âCan we speak somewhere more private?â
âYeah⊠sureâŠâ
  You let the two into your place, offering them something to drink and sitting down with them in your living room. You were visibly nervous, and they noticed.
âYouâre not in trouble.â Detective Choi assured you. âWe just had some questions for you regarding Wen Junhui.â
âOh⊠you meanâŠâ
âI believe he goes by Jun.â
âWhatâs this about? I havenât heard from him sinceâŠâ
âNearly a year ago he was institutionalized forâŠâ Detective Kim began but stopped. âWell you know the rest. You havenât had any contact with him since, have you?â
âNo. Not at all. He wrote me letters for a while, but I never read them and just sent them back. Eventually he stopped, and I havenât heard from him at all. Nor did I ever try to make contact with him.â
âBut you do know where he is?â
âThe facility that has him in their care, yes, Iâm aware of it.â
âYou said he sent you letters.â Detective Choi continued. âAnd eventually stopped. You havenât received anything strange in the mail lately, have you?â
âNothing at all. As you know Iâve moved, and I doubt he knows my current address. What is this about anyway? Does he have a hearing or something? I was informed heâd remain institutionalized because of his diagnosis and beha⊠viorâŠâ
  You trailed off as things started to fall into place. It was late at night and two detectives had been waiting for you at your door. Now they were asking if you had any contact with that guy, especially recently.
âHe broke out⊠didnât heâŠâ
âUnfortunately he-.â
âHow!? Those type of places-â
âPlease calm down, miss. Youâre correct that he has no idea about your current whereabouts, weâre just asking for information about him.â
âInformation!? What can I possibly give you? The police report on him says everything you need to know! Heâs a stalker, he abused me, he kidnapped me, he locked me up, he nearly killed me! Heâs a psycho who got off easy going to some asylum for the mentally insane! And now youâre here telling me he escaped! How exactly do you think I can help you!â
âWe just-â
âGET OUT!â
  You expected some decency, for the two to get up and leave on their own. They did get up, but instead of leaving, they locked the door.
âWa⊠what are you doingâŠâ
âIâm afraid we canât leave until we get what we came for.â
  You grabbed your phone and bolted for your room, only for Kim to grab you and pin you against a wall. You tried to break free, but he was much stronger than you.
âWho are you!â
âWeâre just trying to help, honest.â Choi said. âWeâre trying to find Jun, and youâre our best bet.â
âI want nothing to do with him!â
âWeâre well aware of his history with you, and understand you have no ties to him, but heâll be looking for you. So we need to know everything. If anything strange has happened lately, any friends reach out and seem weird, anything at all. You might not be aware of his presence, but he could be nearby.â
âHe⊠heâŠâ
âOnce weâre satisfied weâll go, and you wonât see us again.â
âNo⊠no, I donât know anything!â
âThen just let us be sure.â
  You were held still as the other jabbed a needle into your neck. You screamed bloody murder, thrashing around, but soon enough you felt yourself growing weak. You thought youâd pass out, but instead wound up in this drowsy state. Kim set you down on the couch, keeping his hands on your shoulders so you wouldnât slump over.
âWhat are you gonnaâŠâ
âThis wonât hurt, promise, but it might feel weird.â
âUhâŠâ
  You could vaguely make out Choi getting something from his pocket, like a small tin case. Then you felt something small and cold pressed against the side of your head. It made you shiver, and then you felt some weird tingle, like static in your head.
âWhy donât we do a quick trip down memory lane to make sure we didnât miss anything.â
â€
âJun!â
  You ran into the arms of your best friend, your lover, your everything. He picked you up with ease and spun you around before peppering your face with kisses.
âAnd where have you been all day, my love?â
âWorking. Someone has to pay the bills around here.â
âWe both pay the bills, not just you.â
âTrue⊠and what have you been up to today?â
âTrying out a new recipe for my love.â
âIs that what the delicious smell is?â
âYes. Itâs almost done, so wash up for dinner.â
âWill do.â
  You had known Jun for most of your life, and weâre always so close. It only felt natural that your friendship would evolve into something more. Jun confessed to you with a bouquet of roses and poured his heart out, bringing you to tears. You had both loved each other for a while, but he was the one with courage to say it first. From there everything was like a dream. He was so perfect, and he convinced you to move in with him after a few months. Your life together felt like something out of a fairy tale at times.
âOpen wide.â
  Jun loved to feed you, especially when he cooked. Not to mention giving you a bath at the end of the week.
âThis tastes divine.â
âOnly the best for my love.â
  He cuddled with you every night, and every morning you had to fight with him to let you go. It was adorable, even if sometimes you didnât have time for it. You knew he did it all out of love, and you couldnât fault him for that.
âIâm going to be home late tonight, so donât wait up.â
âWhat? Why?â
âIâm hanging out with the girls tonight.â
âNo, no, no.â Jun reached over and wrapped his arms around your waist, pulling you back down into bed with him. âLetâs have a movie night together, just the two of us.â
âHm, that does sound tempting, but I havenât seen the girls in months now. So a night out is overdue.â
âDo you have to?â Jun pouted. âI donât want you out alone.â
âI wonât be alone.â
âYes you will, I wonât be there. Itâs gonna be so lonely.â
You giggled. âDonât be silly, Iâll be fine.â
âThen can I come?â
âGirls night, sorry, I donât make the rules.â
âNo fair.â
  Jun was very reluctant to let you go, but he knew he wouldnât get you to change your mind about the matter. He called you often that night, just checking in and asking if you needed a ride, wanting to know where you were. After a few drinks though you stopped answering and just focused on enjoying yourself. He didnât take that well though.
âY/n!â
âHuh? Jun? What are you doing here? How did you find-â
âWhy didnât you answer your phone, I was so worried!â Jun came over and pulled you into a hug. âI thought something had happened to you.â
âI told you I was hanging out with the girls tonight.â
âAnd you couldnât answer my calls or texts?â
âI answered you ten times already.â
âLook at you, your face is burning up. Itâs time you came home anyway, letâs go.â
âWhat, no, Jun.â You pulled away. âThe nightâs still young, and the party is far from over. Iâm fine, so you can go now.â
âNo, youâre coming with me. If you canât even answer your phone, then youâre done.â
âYa! Youâre not my dad! Now go.â
âY/n-â
âGo.â
âNo, youâre coming home-â
âIâm not. Iâll stay with a friend tonight, so donât wait up.â
Jun laughed. âHilarious.â
  Jun grabbed your arm, his grasp a lot stronger than before, and he started dragging you away from the others. Your friends immediately got up and tried to get him to let go, but he pushed them all away, and considering most of you were already tipsy, they lost balance quickly.
âJun!â
âIf this is how youâre gonna behave, then youâre not going out again.â
âJun, let me go!â
  You couldnât break free, but when you got to the car you started fighting him. He had opened the door for you and was trying to get you in, but you refused.
âDonât be a brat!â
  Jun slapped you, making you freeze. It wasnât a hard hit, but your cheek still burned from the impact. You grabbed your cheek with your free hand, slowly looking back at Jun.
âGet in the car.â
  In your state of shock it was easy to get you in the car, he even put your seat belt on for you and then slammed the door shut. You watched him walk to the drivers side, silently getting in the car and driving off. You stayed quiet the whole ride over, waiting for him to open the door and pull you out of the car too. Neither of you spoke until you were in the house.
âIâm sorry about-â
âYou hit me⊠you actuallyâŠâ
âYouâre drunk and-â
âYOU HIT ME!â
âAnd you werenât listening to me! I told you I didnât want you going out tonight, and you completely ignored me.â
âI have my own life you know, a life outside of you.â
âNo you donât. Iâm your whole world, and what I say goes.â
âSays who?â
âMe! Nobody knows you like me, and I know whatâs best for you. Being out late and drinking, itâs not the best idea, and you shouldnât be doing that.â
âOh, unless youâre there, right?â
âYou need someone to look after you.â
âI can look after myself. In case you didnât realize, I was doing just fine without you.â
âHardly.â
âHow did you even find me anyway? I didnât tell you where I was.â
âThat was the first thing that made me worry! I had to use the tracking app to-â
âTracking app!â
âYes. The one for couples, so we can always-â
âWhen the hell did you install that in my phone?! And without telling me!â
  You pulled your phone out of your bag and began looking through your apps, seeing what he was talking about. You couldnât believe you had never noticed it before. You were about to uninstall it when Jun snatched your phone away from you.
âYa! Give that back!â
âYou wonât be going out for a while, so wonât need it.â
âExcuse me!â
âItâs late, and youâve had dinner, so you should get to bed.â
âYou canât be serious right now.â
âVery.â
âYouâre unbelievable.â You headed for the door. âI swear youâre acting crazy right now.â
âWhere are you going?â
âAnywhere else!â
âYou are so full of jokes tonight.â
  Jun grabbed your arm again and dragged you to the bedroom. He started stripping off your clothes and you were quick to stop him.
âWhat are you doing!â
âYouâre drunk and need help getting your clothes off so you can shower.â
âGet your hands off!â
âCome on, babe, itâs nothing I havenât seen before.â
âI said let go!â
  Your actions and words were met with another slap, stunning you into silence once more. You felt tears sting your eyes, and then Jun pressed a kiss to your head.
âIâm sorry, love, that seems to be the only way to get you to listen right now.â
âPlease let goâŠâ
âIâm trying-â
âIâll take a shower and get ready for bedâŠâ
âBut-â
âCan you make me some tea?â
Jun smiled. âOf course, baby, Iâll make your favorite.â
âThank you.â
  Jun gave you another forehead kiss before leaving you alone. You stood in place for a while before stripping out of your clothes and going into the shower. You didnât know when the tears started mixing with the water, but you stayed there for a while and let yourself cry. The day had started out fine, but now everything felt like a nightmare. Everything you thought you knew about Jun had changed so fast, you felt like the boy you had known, had fallen for, wasnât even real. Eventually Jun knocked on the door, and you told him youâd be out in a minute. You dried your hair and got into some clothes, meeting him in the kitchen for tea.
âHere you are.â
âThank youâŠâ
âIâm sorry about tonight, love.â Jun softly pet your head. âI didnât like you being out there alone. It was better I take you home.â
âHmâŠâ
  You took a sip of your tea, the warmth making you feel a bit better. Although you tasted something off about it. You couldnât quite put your finger on it, and while you were thinking Jun tipped the cup towards your lips.
âDrink up while itâs warm, itâll help you sleep.â
  You wound up drinking every drop so as to not spill anything, and you definitely felt funny. You had been tipsy earlier, and practically sobered up in the shower, but this felt different. You were feeling drowsy, and Jun took your cup from you before you dropped it.
âJunâŠâ
âSh, itâs late, you should get some sleep.â
âI donât⊠I feelâŠâ
  Your legs gave out and Jun scooped you up in his arms. You could barely make out his face, let alone his words. With whatever strength you had you held onto him, mumbling about what was going on, but you were incapable of getting an answer. Despite your effort to hold on, you eventually fell into darkness.
â€
  You woke with a minor headache, snuggling against your pillow when you felt something cold on your leg. You lazily sat up, thinking your leg wasnât covered, but it was, so you pulled back the blanket to see a chain. Now you were awake, and you grabbed the chain, following it to the leg of the bed frame, seeing that you were locked up.
âWa⊠Jun!â
  You were tugging on the chain when Jun came in, and he immediately stopped you. He could see the look of panic on your face, trying to calm you down.
âEasy there, baby, did you have a bad dream?â
âWhat is this? Why did you chain me up?â
âOh, that, just to make sure youâre safe.â
âSafe?â
âYou had a crazy night, so you should stay in bed today and rest. This is just a precaution.â
âTake it off, now!â
âBaby.â
âNow! Where did you even get a chain! And about last night, you were acting so crazy! I thought youâd be fine today, but this is unacceptable.â
âIâm just looking out for you and doing whatâs best.â
âI can decide that for myself.â
âYouâve shown me otherwise.â
âWhat?â
âLast night is proof enough. Iâve always been worried about the company you keep and-â
âStop, just stop it. Get this chain off, and then we can talk.â
âWe donât need to.â
âJun!â
âSince youâre up, Iâll bring you breakfast.â
âNo, Jun!â
  He didnât listen and left you to struggle with the chain again. When he came back he had you sit against the headboard, setting down a tray for you and trying to feed you, but you refused him.
âBaby, you have to eat.â
âNot until you let me go.â
âThatâs for your own good.â
ââŠâ
âBaby-â
  You flipped over the tray, getting food all over him and the bed. He stayed in place for a moment before quietly getting up and gathering the dishes. He left without a word and then came back to properly clean up, removing the stained bed sheets, and anything else that was dirty. You watched him in silence, glaring daggers at him, but he paid you no mind. Your clothes had gotten stained, but he didnât do anything about that at first. Although when he came back with a glass of water you were confused.
âHere. At least hydrate.â
âNo thanks.â
âSeriously?â
âI know you put something in the tea last night⊠you think Iâm gonna trust anything else from you?â
âHm. I guess thatâs fair.â
  Jun drank the glass of water and set it down on the nightstand, going over to his dresser and rummaging around for something. From where you were you managed to see him pull out a small box, then there was a needle and vial in his hand.
âJunâŠâ
âYou need a bath after that ordeal, and if youâre not gonna behave on your own, I have other methods.â
âWhat is that! Where did you get that!â
âIt wonât hurt.â
âJun!â
  As he approached you tried to get away, but you could only move so far before the chain went taut. Jun crawled onto the bed, and then on top of you, keeping you pinned with his body weight.
âJu⊠JunâŠâ
âItâs just some medicine.â
âGet that away.â
âSh, sh, sh, just hold still.â
  Jun had always been stronger than you, so he kept you still with ease, exposing your neck and driving the needle into you. The pinch made you close your eyes, and you could hear your own racing heart in your ears. A tear slid down your cheek, and a moment later Jun was wiping it away.
âDonât cry my love, Iâm just doing whatâs best for you.â
âPlease⊠let me goâŠâ
âSh, letâs get you cleaned up, okay.â
  You were already feeling weak, and Jun moved you with ease. You barely noticed when he took off the chain, or began to get you out of your clothes. He disappeared for a moment, and the picked you up in his arms. He took you into the bathroom, removing the last bits of clothing and putting you in a warm bath. He actually felt nice, but that might have been the drugs talking. Jun tended to bathe you on friday nights, so this wasnât difficult for him. Especially since you were nothing but a doll at his mercy like this.
  At some point you did fall asleep, waking up dressed and in bed like nothing happened. Although the chain was back on your leg. You tried to sit up, but found it difficult to do so and just went back to sleep. When you woke up later Jun was there, helping you up so you could eat. You were still weak, so you couldnât throw the food like before, but you did keep your mouth shut. That is until Jun grabbed your face and forced a spoon full of food past your lips. You had no choice but to eat, you were hungry after all.
âThere you go, thatâs a good girl.â
  You never really recovered from that day. Jun kept you chained up and in that drowsy state. You slept a lot, and you had no sense of time besides the daylight, but you couldnât always trust that. Jun always made sure you ate, and cleaned you up too. You could barely understand anything he said, but you could make out the smile he always had on his face. You were powerless to stop him, but you knew you needed to figure out some way out of this. It was hard to come up with a plan when you could barely think for yourself , but fortune was on your side.
  One morning you had woken up with Jun, getting your face peppered with kisses as he cooed and snuggled against you. When he got up you noticed his phone on the nightstand. Heâd be back soon, but you couldnât waste this opportunity. You crawled over and grabbed his phone, shakily sending a message to a mutual friend of yours, and signing it with your name. You had to be quick, so you only begged them to come over. From there you scrambled to delete the message so Jun wouldnât find out. As you were putting it back on the nightstand Jun came back and quickly took it from you.
âNo, no, no, baby, thatâs not for you.â
  You were nervous about getting caught, but after inspecting the phone he didnât find anything suspicious. Now you could only wait and hope your message had been received.
âIâll get started on breakfast.â
  Jun tucked you back into bed and went off to start preparations. He was nearly finished when he heard a knock at the door. He wasnât expecting anything so he was quite perplexed. As he approached the knocking got louder and more aggressive. He checked to see who it was, finding a familiar face on the other side of the door. So he opened it, but only a bit.
âHello, Misu, what brings you by so early?â
âHere to see y/n and talk about plans for the weekend. Can I come in?â
âUnfortunately y/n is sick and isnât accepting visitors right now.â
âOh dear, is it a fever? She rarely gets sick, let me see her.â
âThatâs alright, I wouldnât want you getting sick.â
âItâs no bother. Iâm sure youâre tired looking after her day and night, I can give you a bit of down time.â
âNo, no, itâs fine. Iâll let her know you stopped by.â Jun tried to close the door, but Misu stopped him. âYes?â
âIâm not leaving until I see her.â
âSheâs sick and-â
âAnd no one has heard from her in weeks. Not even her job.â
âSheâs on sick leave.â
âProve it.â
âIâm sorry, are you doubting me?â
âNot at all. I just want to see my friend and make sure sheâs alright.â
âShe is, I assure you.â
âAnd you expect me to trust you after that night?â
âIâm sorry. I donât know what youâre referring to.â
âOh you know, when you showed up unannounced and dragged y/n out of the restaurant. You fucken hit her! Twice!â
âWe had a little disagreement and-â
  Jun didnât get to finish as Misu pushed their way into the house, calling out your name. They didnât get far before Jun grabbed them.
âIf you donât leave now I will call the cops and have you arrested for trespassing.â
âGo ahead, call them. Iâm curious to know which of us will end up in handcuffs.â
  Misu pulled away and stormed into the house, still calling out your name. Jun glared and watched them go, starting to think about what to do. The sound of your name stirred you from your slumber. For a moment you thought you were just hearing things, but it was getting louder and louder. You tried to sit up, but you could barely manage, so you just screamed out for help with your voice, starting to choke on your sobs.
âHoly fuck, y/n!â
  Seeing Misu in your line of sight made you cry tears of joy. They had come, and they knew you werenât alright.
âWhat the hell is all this, what happened?â
âHel⊠helpâŠâ
âYeah, yeah. Iâm going to call the police, this is fucken crazy.â
  Misu dialed emergency services, putting the phone down for a moment and focusing on the chain, trying to figure out how to remove it. You were so focused on them that you didnât notice Jun coming into the room, not until he had Misu in a choke hold.
âJun!â
âSh, sh, sh, donât worry about this baby, just an uninvited guest.â
  You couldnât do anything as Jun dragged Misu out of the room. You started crying again, thinking you had made matters worse. In between your sobs you heard a voice, and then realized Misu left their phone, and it was still on a call. You quickly found it, realizing the operator was still on the line. You composed yourself enough to ask for help, telling them you were being held captive, managing to give your address too.
âI know that⊠give me that!â
  When Jun returned and found you on the phone he quickly took it from you and hung up. He was glaring at you, but before he could say anything he noticed Misu had left her messages open, and there was the one you had secretly sent from Junâs phone.
âYou⊠you⊠how could you!â
âJun, please⊠pleaseâŠâ
âAfter everything Iâve done! You, you, how dare you!â
â⊠please⊠just stop thisâŠâ
âWe have to go, we canât stay here anymore.â
âJun-â
âQuiet! Not another word from you.â
  You certainly quiet down when you saw Jun with another needle. You could barely struggle beneath him, and felt the pinch on your neck. Jun removed the chain and picked you up in his arms, taking you out to the car, and thatâs when you heard the sirens. A weak smile appeared on your lips, feeling a sense of relief. So you let your eyes shut, hoping to wake up in a better place.
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âY/n⊠y/n, please wake upâŠâ
âHmâŠâ
  Once again your name brought you back from the void. Everything was a blur as you opened your eyes, your senses slowly taking in the world. You heard a steady beeping noise, the white of the room hurting your eyes. Although your movements didnât go unnoticed.
âY/n! Youâre awake! Doctor! Doctor!â
  Soon enough you could make out Misuâs face, but your vision was soon blurred by tears as you saw the bruises on their neck.
âMisu⊠Misu, are you okayâŠâ
âDonât worry about me, worry about yourself. Iâm so sorry I didnât realize something was wrong sooner. I couldnât fathom Jun⊠Iâm sorryâŠâ
âHe⊠what happenedâŠâ
âHe was arrested, and is currently being processed. I already told the police everything, and even asked about getting you a restraining order.â
â⊠what happened to usâŠâ
âDonât waste tears on that monster. Everythingâs going to be alright now.â
  The doctor looked you over once you were awake.Thankfully your health was alright, you just had drugs you needed to flush out of your system. Although the doctor did mention the withdrawal wouldnât be pleasant either. Misu promised to stay with you, not planning to leave your side anytime soon. Youâd be staying in the hospital for a while, and theyâd be your overnight guest. It was weird getting back to normal. The world was no longer spinning and you could actually focus on things and be awake again. The withdrawal wasnât fun though, but you were in a hospital, so nothing bad could really happen to you.
âWhat the fuck do you mean he got out!â
  Misu reacted for you when some detectives came by, telling you that Jun had gotten out on bail. He would still be prosecuted for assault, and kidnapping, but for now he was free on the streets.
âWhat stupid⊠look at me! Look at her! A guy like that shouldnât be out of prison!â
âIâm sorry, but thatâs the law here.â
âWhat if he comes here, tries to threaten us to drop the charges?â
âWeâll have someone posted outside until the court hearing.â
âUnbelievable.â
âMisu⊠weâll be okay⊠right?â
âOf course. You heard them, weâll have our own security detail, and I doubt that asshole knows where we are anyway. No oneâs gonna talk to him and tell him. Weâll get him arrested at court and get that restraining order as well.â
  Misuâs words reassured you, so you could rest easy. You had a date set, so now you had to wait for that. It gave you some piece of mind, and thatâs all you could ask for right now. Once you were better you were allowed to go to the garden to get some fresh air. Youâd probably be discharged soon, and Misu offered you to stay with them while you figured out what to do next. Your other friends also came to visit you, glad to know you were alright and also apologizing. You didnât blame them though. You and Jun had always been so perfect, but things just went south so fast. You thought everything would be alright now, but that wasnât the case.
  You were sleeping peacefully when you heard some noises outside your room. You groggily woke up, seeing someone come into the room. You rubbed the sleep from your eyes, seeing the white coat and believing a doctor had come to see you. It was strange to have a visit at night, but you figured it was for good reason. Before you could ask there was a rag in your face, and you were pushed back against your pillow. Now that they were close you could see their eyes, and youâd recognize those anywhere. You tried to scream and squirm, but the chemicals were already taking hold.
  When you had gotten weak he stepped away, doing the same thing to Misu who had not woken up from the commotion. You could barely keep your eyes open, and you certainly couldnât scream for help. Once Jun was done with her, he brought over a wheelchair, getting you into it, and putting a mask on your face. He gently pet your head and mumbled something about taking you home, but you couldnât do anything to stop him. He wheeled you right past the officer posted outside your room, even greeting them on the way out. You desperately wished to say or do anything, but you were barely holding onto consciousness.
  You could barely make out the elevator ride, but you were aware enough to realize you had been taken to the parking garage. Jun easily got you into the backseat of the car, laying you down and wrapping you up in a blanket. He found your attempt to struggle adorable, but just told you to get some rest and that everything would be alright. You couldnât fight the drugs for much longer, and ultimately passed out. Completely unaware of what awaited you when you woke up.
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  The new place was so unfamiliar to you, the first thing it did was strike fear into your heart. You felt like no one would find you, and thatâs exactly what Jun wanted. You woke up as you arrived, Jun carrying you inside and into the bedroom. Of course he chained you up again, but things were different this time. You werenât on his drugs anymore, and now that you were awake, you were gaining back your strength. You couldnât just be weak this time.
  So when you had the chance you attacked, grabbing Jun from behind and trying to choke him out. He was quite surprised by your actions, but he still had the upper hand. He slammed you down on the bed and pried your hands off him. You would have thought heâd scramble away, but instead he quickly pinned you down, glaring daggers at you. Of course you were afraid, but you couldnât just let that fear take over and make you helpless.
âWhen did you get so brave?â
âYou should be in prison!â
âAnd away from you? Do you have any idea how agonizing these last few days have been without you?â
âTheyâve been heaven for me.â
âLiar!â
âItâs true! Being away from you, being free! I donât know what happened, but youâre not the Jun I fell in love with!â
âI am! Iâm the same Jun youâve known your whole life.â
âNo youâre not!â
âYes I am! The same man who has loved you for years, who couldnât bear the thought of you being with another! Iâve always loved you so deeply, I canât live without you! Donât make me lose you again⊠pleaseâŠâ
âThis isnât love! You kept me trapped at home like some animal and-â
âYou were gone! Out in the world without me, and I didnât know if you were alright. You scared me to death that night, I couldnât handle the thought of losing you again. I had to keep you safe!â
âThis isnât how you keep someone safe! This is kidnapping and-â
âItâs just the two of us. No one will find us here, weâll be okay, and weâll be together, thatâs all that matters.â
âYouâre crazy if you think I still love you after all thisâŠâ
âDonât say that⊠I know you love meâŠâ
âI donât know youâŠâ
ââŠâ
  You could see the heartbreak in Junâs eyes, and it terrified you. He was acting like a total psycho, yet it seemed like his feelings for you were sincere. It made you wonder if he was always like this, if you had never known this side to him. Although the answer was clear as day now. He had always been so clingy, never really letting you go out without him, and even when you did, heâd check in every hour or more. You were so blinded by love you couldnât see the warning signs, no one around you really did.
âLiar⊠youâre a fucken liar! You think you can just throw away all those years of our love! All your stupid so-called friends have been feeding you lies! Taking you away from me when Iâm the only person you need! Because of them you were in the hospital! Because⊠you called them⊠you were the one⊠you betrayed me!â
âThen just kill me already! Iâd rather be dead than be locked up with you!â
âYou donât mean that!â
âIf you wonât do it, Iâll do it myself!â
âLiar! You⊠you⊠if you donât love me anymore, then I canât let you love another! Itâs only me!â
âWhat-â
  In the heat of the moment Jun wrapped his hands around your throat and started to squeeze. You didnât register what he was doing at first until you found it difficult to breathe. You reached up to get him off, but he didnât budge.
âJu⊠Jun⊠JunâŠâ
âYouâre mine, and only mine!â
â⊠junâŠâ
  You couldnât hold out for long, the edges of your vision going black. You said youâd kill yourself just to get away from him, but you didnât think heâd do it himself. The lack of oxygen weakened you by the second, so you stopped fighting all together and just let it happen. This may not be how you pictured your end, but youâd take it if it meant freedom. Jun didnât let up either, not until you stopped moving. Then he realized what he had done.
âY/n⊠y/n! Y/n, wake up! Wake up, Iâm sorry! Iâm sorry, please, y/n, wake up!â
  Jun shook your body, quick to begin CPR, and not stopping until you took in a breath. He was so relieved, and held you tightly, weeping into your chest.
âIâm sorry⊠Iâm so sorry⊠please forgive meâŠâ
  You could barely make out his words as you were taking in life again. Relieved and disappointed all at once. Silent tears slid down your cheeks as you were left to wallow in your meaningless future.
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  Jun couldnât apologize enough for his actions, but he vowed to treat you with such care. Although that was difficult as you were still upset with you. He struggled to get you to eat, or even look at him. He may not have access to the medicine he gave you before, but your lack of nutrition was making you weak.
âMy love, you have to eat.â
ââŠâ
âI wonât let you die like this, so please, you have to keep up your strength.â
  At times heâd have to force feed you, even if a bit, just to make sure he wouldnât lose you. Still, he could see such emptiness in those eyes, and it pained him dearly. No matter what he did, it seemed like that spark was gone. You on the other hand truly felt like a living corpse, but a part of you still thought of escaping. It took days, maybe even weeks, it was hard to tell time anymore, before you found your chance. The chain only ever came off when you needed to take a bath, so that was your time to act.
  When you had the chance you shoved Jun out of the bathroom and quickly locked the door behind him. He immediately panicked, but you focused on what you needed to do. You only had a bit of time, and your strength wasnât what it used to be. You turned on the shower head, trying to fill the tub faster, grabbing a bunch of things and throwing them into the water all together, splashing it around a bit to give the illusion you were attempting to drown yourself. You heard the panic in his voice, knowing he was putting together pieces you had laid out, so now was your chance.
  There was a small window in the bathroom, one you had never seen locked. It was just big enough for you to squeeze through, even if it would be painful. You forced it open and began to crawl through, grateful you were on the ground floor. Once you were outside you didnât hesitate to get up and run. You werenât trying to go far, you didnât have the time for that, so the plan was to go to the neighbors for help. You saw a light on in one of the houses down the street and ran over to it, frantically banging on the wall and asking for help. Soon enough there was an answer and you let yourself in, telling the home owners to call the police, that you had escaped from your captor.
  You were glad they believed you, and you stayed with them, out of sight, until the police showed up. Of course you had been missing this whole, so your escape brought relief to many around you. Although you had been worried about Jun escaping, the police had him in custody, and you saw him being taken into the back of a police car. That is until he saw you and went ballistic. He got away from the officers holding him and made a run for you. Thankfully he didnât get close, but the possibility itself terrified you.
âY/n! Youâre okay! You scared me back there! Please, baby, tell them thereâs been some mistake! Y/n! Y/n, look at me! Y/n!â
  You hid behind a friend of yours that showed up, keeping your tears to yourself and trying to ignore his words. You were trembling, just wanting everything to stop. It wasnât until you were told he was gone that you could lift your head. Relief washed over you, and you were properly taken care of from there. He didnât get bail this time, just kept locked up until the trial. Now you were dreading that, not wanting to see him again, but you had no choice if you wanted to make sure he was behind bars. Although sadly that didnât go to plan.
  His lawyer pleaded insanity, going over all the things he had done to you, and stating how that proved Jun was mentally unwell. His behavior at the trial certainly convinced everyone else too. The whole time he couldnât keep his eyes on you, on occasion whispering your name and an apology. Asking if you were alright, if you had eaten, completely ignoring the trial itself. Everything he did to you was out of love, even you couldnât deny that, and his lawyer used that to his advantage. In the end he got a proper diagnosis and was sent to a mental asylum for treatment. That wasnât really what you wanted, but as long as he was away from you and couldnât hurt anyone, it was good.
  You couldnât really go back to the place you called home. You did try, but he was everywhere, not to mention the letters you received practically every day. If you truly wanted to get better you had to move on with your life, move on from him. So you did. You sold the house and got your own apartment, moving away and losing some friends along the way. You had to do what was best for you. It took a while, but you slowly started living again, but your heart remained still. After all that, you couldnât possibly trust anyone with it ever again.
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âHm⊠there really is nothingâŠâ Choi said. âI kinda expected⊠somethingâŠâ
âI guess she really hates him.â Kim added. âYou know that boy never shut up about you, kinda feel bad for the sucker now.â
Your head was pounding, so many memories being dragged to the surface at once, you could barely make sense of the present.
â⊠who⊠who are⊠you⊠reallyâŠâ
âNo one important. Weâll keep an eye on you though.â Choi stated âJun is bound to find you.â
âNo⊠no, pleaseâŠâ
âDonât worry. We wonât let him get you, we just want him back in his cage.â
âHuh?â
âNothing to worry about. Letâs go.â
  You felt something get take off your head, the static feeling finally starting to fade away. You could see the other two making their way to the door, and you tried to get up, but ultimately collapsed to your knees. You heard the door open, and then there was a crash. Kim landed next to you, knocked out from the impact. You were starting to get your stability back, looking up to see an impossible sight before you. Choi was dangling in the air, clawing at his throat, struggling to breath. You thought you were still delicious, moreso when you saw a third party in your apartment. The figure stepped closer and closer, ultimately coming into the light and making your eyes go wide.
â⊠no⊠no, no, no⊠it canât beâŠâ
â⊠how⊠how did youâŠâ Choi choked out. â⊠howâŠâ
âIt was easy.â Jun laughed. âI saw you scoping out my old home, and I followed you from there. I knew youâd lead me right to her, so it was a matter of waiting.â
  The gentlemen in the air suddenly flew out the window, making you scream and cover your head. You then heard footsteps approach, crushing glass along the way. You were too scared to look, wanting to believe this was all just another nightmare. Your desires didnât do anything for you as you felt a hand grab your chin and force your gaze to meet theirs.
âFound you⊠I finally found you, my love.â
â⊠you⊠youâre not real⊠you canâtâŠâ
âSh, I know itâs shocking. I canât quite believe youâre real either, but you are, and so am I.â
â⊠noâŠâ
âMy poor baby, you must have missed me so much. I know things didnât go well last time, but this time it will be perfect. You and I-â
  Kim had regained consciousness, immediately drawing his firearm, only for his weapon to suddenly be pointed up, and all rounds emptied into the ceiling. You screamed after the first shot and covered your ears.
âYou dare to try and hurt my lover?!â
âSubject 074, youâre to return to containment!â
âI didnât escape, just to go back. I will thank you for the blessing though.â
  Once the gunshots had stopped, you took a moment to settle down. Whatever this was, you couldnât stay, so when you had the chance you ran for the door. You only took a few steps before you lost your footing and found yourself floating up in the air. You screamed over the sudden levitation, not understanding what was happening.
âIâm sorry love, I know this must all be so scary and confusing, but I can explain.â
â⊠pu⊠put me downâŠâ
âOf course.â
  You tried to run away, but the door slammed in your face. Even though it wasnât locked you couldnât get it open, as if something heavy was blocking it. You eventually gave up and collapsed to the floor curling up and shutting your eyes. You heard footsteps approaching, flinching when you felt a hand on your head.
âSh, sh, my baby, everythingâs going to be okay, Iâm back now.â
âNo⊠no you canât⊠the policeâŠâ
âThey canât keep me away from you, no one can.â Jun smiled. âI should get rid of our uninvited guest first though.â
  You didnât know what that meant, but you made the mistake of looking over as Kim was also tossed out the window. You hid your face again, starting to sob. This was the worst nightmare you had ever had.
âWe should probably go somewhere else.â
  You suddenly began to feel dizzy, as if the ground beneath you was moving. You opened your eyes, confirming that wasnât the case, but not feeling well regardless. Jun watched you with a fond smile on his face, petting your head some more and softly cooing you to sleep. For whatever reason you couldnât resist, not even if the adrenaline of all these events should keep you awake. The last thing you saw was Junâs wicked smile, hoping this was all just a dream.
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  You woke up peacefully, hoping to find yourself in bed, but that wasnât the case. You sat up and found yourself in some kind of glass cage. There was no top, but the walls were too high, and there was no way for you to climb out. Around you there was nothing but darkness, and you thought you were alone until Jun showed his face.
âThere you are.â
â⊠no⊠no you canât⊠youâre not⊠this is just another dream⊠just another bad dreamâŠâ
âOh, did you dream about me? I did too. Both at night and during the day. I missed you so dearly my love I was going insane.â Jun laughed. âI guess my love for you did work in my favor.â
  You were still uncertain about this whole thing, but you were so confused more than anything. You wanted nothing to do with him anymore, nothing at all, but something was very different about him, very wrong.
âHow⊠how did you escape⊠youâre supposed to be⊠medicated and⊠andâŠâ
âOut of my mind? Please, I was never sick to begin with, so there was nothing to treat. Everyone thought my love for you was psycho, but they were wrong, even you.â
â⊠me?â
âYou couldnât understand that everything I did for you was because I loved you, because I had to protect you.â
âThat wasnât loveâŠâ
âNot what most would think, but thatâs the only thing that dictated my actions.â Jun came up to the glass, a deranged look on his face. âI love you, y/n, always. Now we can finally be together, and no one can ever take you away from me.â
âNo⊠no this isnât right, this isnât love.â
âSilence!â Jun took a breath. âEveryone always says that, but theyâd happily use it to their advantage. You know a lotâs been happening these last couple of months.â
  Even if you were scared, there were still things you wanted to say. Although now they all seemed to be stuck in your throat.
âAt first I was in that asylum. Taking pills and talking to doctors, everyone trying to fix me, but you canât fix what isnât broken. Then they came along⊠I know what you might be thinking, who, but even I donât know that. What I do know is they took me somewhere else, somewhere special. They said I was special, that I had great potential. I think it was just cause I appeared crazier than the others, but thatâs when the real fun began. Needles, and drugs, and blood, and pills, and torture⊠I was their human lab rat⊠for what Iâm not sure, but I canât deny the results.â
  Jun started laughing again, and then you began to notice things start to float up in the air. He knew you were watching, so he began to make the items move around with ease. Then it finally clicked, this was all his doing.
âPower, like nothing else. Telekinesis, thatâs what they call it. Isnât it cool? The power to move things with my mind. They were certainly happy with me, telling me I was a good investment, wanting to move on to the next phase, but I only cared about one thing, you. It honestly wasnât that hard to escape, they doubted my skills, not to mention my other powers.â
  In the blink of an eye Jun disappeared, and then he stood right before you, inside that glass cage with you. He quickly cornered you, keeping you pressed up against the glass and pinned by his own body. He had that devilish smile on his lips, and you wanted to look away but he grabbed your chin.
âThey were really no match for me. The only hard part was finding you again. You completely disappeared, leaving behind no real trace. I guess I got lucky seeing those two snooping around. I would have found you anyway, but they sped up the process.â Jun stared at you fondly. âItâs good to see life in those eyes again. I missed it.â
ââŠâ
âAh, right, the other thing. You can speak your mind love.â
  It was a strange feeling, this heaviness in your chest suddenly disappearing. Your throat didnât feel constricted anymore, so you tried speaking, surprising yourself with the results.
âWho are youâŠâ
âJun, Wen Junhui, the one and only.â
âYouâre lyingâŠâ
Jun sighed. âThis again. Why do you lie to yourself, are you so afraid of loving me?â
âYouâre not Jun.â
âOf course I am.â
  His lips were suddenly pressed against yours, kissing you deeply, kissing you with hunger. Despite everything you had said so far, you couldnât deny the familiarity you felt. When he pulled away you were both out of breath, but he was far from done with you. He latched onto your throat, kissing and sucking on your skin, marking you up in ways no one had in so long. You couldnât resist it, not having felt this way in months, not having been touched in such a manner either.
  While Junâs lips were on your neck, his hands were running down the side of your body, caressing you and squeezing. They wrapped around your waist and then moved down to grab your ass, making you jump, and he chuckled, calling you cute, but continuing. His hands began to tug down your pants, and you tried to stop him, only to have your hands slapped away. He bit down hard on your shoulder, giving you a warning to behave.
âYou donât know how long Iâve been waiting for you baby, and I know youâve been yearning for me too.â
âNo⊠no⊠you-â
âYour body doesnât lie.â Jun hissed. âJust relax baby and let me take care of you.â
  You felt like you were melting under his touch. Every little skin to skin contact sending sparks across your body. Once he had access he didnât waste any time to grab your crotch, starting to rub you through your panties. You bit your lip to hide your moan, only for him to notice and kiss you. Forcing your lips to part and making you moan into his mouth.
âThatâs my girl.â
  Jun was just as impatient as you, soon enough moving your panties aside and teasing your core directly. He began to rub your clit, sending more tingles down your spine, and when he pushed a finger into you without warning you threw your head back. You nearly hit the glass but Jun moved you forward just enough to miss it. He loved the look on your face, especially knowing he was the cause of it. He just wanted to see more and more of it, having had his imagination for the past few months, and now finally having you in his grasp again.
  You were too focused on your own pleasure to remember the circumstances of your situation. Not having felt this way in so long, you were easily giving in to your carnal pleasures. It also didnât help that Jun knew, and knew exactly what to do to make you his. Your body began to move in rhythm with his, your hips moving on their own, and your hands mindlessly looking for what you wanted. Jun was a step ahead of you, already having his pants at his ankles, making it easy for you to grip his cock. He let out a groan when you wrapped your hand around him.
âYou really did miss me, you canât lie.â
âJust⊠just shut up⊠andâŠâ
âFuck you?â Jun chuckled. âAnything for you.â
  He got sloppy fingering you, just wanting to get you ready as fast as possible, but he couldnât hold out for long. Whatever bits of clothing you had that constricted his access to you were torn up, and soon enough your legs were wrapped around his waist.
âYou want me baby?â
âHm⊠yes, pleaseâŠâ
âYou gotta say the magic word.â
âPleaseâŠâ
âNope, you gotta tell me what you want, and from who.â
âYou⊠I want you to fuck me, pleaseâŠâ
âAnd whatâs my name? Whatâs the name of your lover? The name of the one who owns our heart? The name I havenât heard in so long.â
â⊠JunâŠâ
âWho?â
âJun, please, please⊠fuck me.â
âWith pleasure.â
  He wasnât going to tease you any longer, and ready or not, you were going to take everything. In a swift motion he pushed into you, making you cry out his name in ecstasy. You had been stretched out like that in so long, and no one else besides Jun ever had the pleasure of doing so. He gave you a tiny moment to feel him before his basic instincts took over and he began to move. He was relentless, making up for lost time with each thrust, and making your eyes roll to the back of your head every time. His name spilled out of your mouth like a confession and a prayer all in one. Soon enough there was nothing in your head but him and what he was doing to you.
  As Jun got close to the edge he held you tighter, keeping you right where he wanted with ease. Although he wanted you to climax first, pressing you against the glass and using a free hand to rub your clit. He didnât need to play with you for long before your vision went white and your body shook for him, squeezing him tighter and pushing him to his own climax. You could feel the warmth inside you growing and growing, feel him throb inside you. It brought tears to your eyes, reminding you of everything you had missed. Your body was spent, but Jun was far from done with you.
  He stayed put inside you, gently rocking his hips and making you tremble with the tiniest of movements. You could feel him getting hard again, knowing what came next and that you were powerless to stop him. He had a lot to make up for, and a lot of frustrations to get out. He worked you over for your second climax, and third, and fourth, and then it all blurred together into one. Somehow you could take, even if you felt like your body was way past its limit. Something in your mind keeping you in that perpetual state of bliss. You had lost count of how many times Jun spilled his seed inside you, but you could feel the overflow, and it was so nice.
âHad enough yet, baby girl?â
âHm⊠I⊠IâŠâ
âYou donât know? Did my precious girl get stupid on my cock?â
ââŠâ
âIâll take that as a yes. Why donât you close your eyes and take a nap for me love, I got you.â
  Just as quick as you found yourself floating in a sea of bliss, you felt a calm darkness wash over you. The exhaustion made it so easy to just pass out by his words.
â€
âWake up, y/n.â
  You inhaled softly as you opened your eyes, still in an unfamiliar area. You looked around, seeing some sort of lab equipment around, but nothing you really recognized. Then you realized you were strapped down in this metal chair, something similar to what youâd find at the dentistâs office. You tried pulling on the restraints, but it was no use. Your body ached with exhaustion over the previous events. Which brought it all to the forefront of your mind, making your eyes go wide. You couldnât believe that after all this time you had merely let Jun take you like that. You barely even put up a fight.
âDonât beat yourself over that.â
âHuh?â
âI might have cheated there. I need you exhausted for this next part, and I figured I could kill two birds with one stone.â
âWhat are you talking aboutâŠâ
âIt felt good though, better than before, right? I know your memory might be fuzzy, but I promise it was way better. And we can do it again, and again, in the future.â
âWhat is this⊠what are you doingâŠâ
âRight. That. I mentioned I had other powers besides telekinesis. You saw me teleport, so care to guess what the other one is?â
ââŠâ
âTelepathy.â
 You screamed upon hearing his voice inside your head, pulling on the restraints again in a frantic panic.
âEasy there, easy. Iâm not gonna do anything bad.â
âYou⊠you manipulated me back there! You made me-â
âOh please, you know you want me, and no one else. I was just making sure you felt extra good. Telepathy can be so fun when you figure out how to manipulate the brain.â
âGet out of my head!â
âYou wound me with your words, but I forgive you. Iâm gonna make it all better.â
âYou psycho!â
âEveryone keeps calling me that, but what are you going to do? Even if youâre upset with me, that doesnât change the fact youâre tired, and I can do what needs to be done.â
âWot⊠what is that?â
âFix us. Fix you.â
âWhat!?â
âItâs simple really. Iâm just going to get rid of all the bad things, and only leave the good. Remove that terrible night where everything went wrong and go from there.â
âYou canât do that!â
âYes I can. Itâs all I ever wanted to do since that day, and now I have the power to do just that.â Jun came over to pet your head. âIt wonât hurt at all, just a fuzzy little tingle while we talk and get things straight.â
â⊠no⊠stay out of my head!â
âDonât be scared, Iâm going to put everything back in place, and weâll both be together again, like nothing ever happened.â
âDonât⊠donât, pleaseâŠâ
âSh.â Jun kissed your head softly. âIâm gonna fix our love.â
(II)
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one of my favourite concepts for how ak!jay thinks, is his traumas around names and identities.
"jason", for instance. he can't stand being called that name after escaping. it disorients him when barbara or bruce use it to refer to him, because in his mind, he's no longer that person. "jason" is the name of the second robin, of batman's partner, and bruce wayne's son, and as far as the arkham knight is concerned, that boy rotted and died in the walls of the asylum. the man who emerged wasn't "jason" anymore. just a broken, traumatized shell with no desire in life except to destroy batman. the arkham knight is only referred to as just that, the knight.
but that's not the only way jason compartmentalises his experiences. in the worst depths of his time with the joker, after jason's identity and self-worth had been completely broken down, but before the "arkham knight" was forged, a third mental persona exists. that persona embodies the most pathetic part of jay; the times when he wept and grovelled and trembled at the clown's feet, shakily doing anything to avoid pain. emptily reciting "my name is jason todd" to the camera, even though any feeling associated with that name had long been drained out of him. the arkham knight does everything he can to repress those experiences from his memory.
i think it takes a very long period of healing post game, before jason is comfortable with actually referring to himself as "jason" again, acknowledging himself as the same person who used to be batman's partner and lived through torture, instead of compartmentalising his identities. but he does eventually get there.
The third mental persona has no name. It's Joker's creature. A thing, and things don't need names.
#shelia's cooking yet again đ„đ„đ„#sands replies#jason todd#robin#arkham knight#arkhamverse#jason todd headcanon#milfsheilahaywood
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