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this took way longer than expected but im back!
quick warning: this ask is really really long so putting that separation banner thing might help but if not, i hope this doesnāt bother anyone who has this pop up on their dash šš (and please donāt hate me if it does)
important timestamps in pepeās stream:
0:33 ā pepe smiles and waves
1:21 ā idk what this is but itās so cute
3:54 ā he got embarrassed šš
9:03 ā this is just attractive tbh
12:38 ā šš (but really though why is he so casually attractive this is so unfair)
16:03 ā his laughā¦
12:33 ā praising his mum
18:13 ā from āiām so sadā (x3) to ājust get good mateā
18:37 ā chitter chatter
19:32 ā laugh
20:15 ā quick flex š¤š
30:25 ā his inner dork shows up and starts rating pokĆ©mon for us
42:19 ā quick drop of the f-word
43:05 ā bro idk this is just so cute he looks like that one specific picture of an otter begging for food with its paws together šš
51:55 ā quick mention of an incident (or backstory?) regarding his name that he proceeds to not tell us about
53:09 ā this isnāt really pepe but christian has such a stupid sense of humour and icl i laughed
1:00:40 ā christianās stupid humour shows up again and this si the exact kind of joke iād laugh so hard at and make under very specific circumstances and PEPEāS laugh is just so endearing here i love him so much
1:02:38 ā pepe is good at chess, according to christian. donāt know if this is trueā i used to play too but i forgot the rules and my family exclusively plays checkers (everyoneās insanely good at it) so i currently have zero knowledge about chess.
1:04:32 ā ātoo tall ššā (again, not for me, because my head would be right at chest level, as you so perfectly put into perspective for mešš)
1:05:55 ā ākimi was always perfectā talk by christian and pepe
1:07:07 ā pepeās upset, christian says exactly what iād say to him (this is just sweet tbh)
1:09:40 ā quick stretch š„°š„°
1:10:58 ā i might be biased but i just think heās so good at explaining and putting into perspective what exactly happens/happened during the race for us non-drivers
1:11:20 ā ^^
1:11:37 ā also so endearing
1:12:50 ā sportsmanship or whatever but i love that heās so respectful towards everyone
1:13:38 ā kendall jenner mention by christian, also donāt knowwhat it is about this moment but it made me feel something about their friendship with sebastian (i donāt know how to put this feeling into words but i think they are mostly positive feelings)
1:24:33 ā quick little dance to gata only (whyās he literally doing my default dance though šš) but itās okay i just think itās so adorable
1:25:25 ā CORRECTION: he can bench 138kgā¦ which is insane to me but also he can do 150 on leg press?? thatās like three of me bro thatās so scary (š„°š¤šš) to think about
1:27:10 ā christian reacts to pepeās fitness the way i would (insanely)
1:38:56 ā driving driving šļøšļø (really long section where i wanted to stare at him but was also enchanted and captivated by the smooth driving)
1:50:16 ā āthatās what they saidā joke š¤Øšø
1:54:55 ā quick thumbs up and a smile (what a lovable sweetheart)
2:12:00 ā quick š«¶ followed by him crossing his arms
iām sure there are more significant moments than this (like when he accidentally launched a tomato at christian in their game ((this is significant to me because again, i have a really stupid sense of humour and laughed really hard at that too)) but this is all i recorded and theyāre mainly significant because they made me feel things (š¤„ļæ½ļæ½ļæ½)
okay thatās it, bye bye!! some of the timestamps at the start (ish) might be a little off and you mightāve already watched the entire video but i hope this was helpful for you and anyone who may come across this (tbh this wasnāt an entirely selfless endeavour but anyway)ā until next time (if and when new pepe content is dropped)!
p.s. i hope you also have a lovely lovely day ahead jackie!!
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i'm very late but omFG i love you so much? you're crazy good ????? this was such a pleasure to read and watch, thank u sm šš
(ppl cant hate since its about pepe <3<3 sorry not sorry guys)
0:33 and 1:21 ā such a gorgeous boy :(( i love him so much :(((( i also don't really understand what's happening at 1:21 but his smile and laughter after makes me melt
3:54 ā HE'S SO EMBARRASSED LMAO WHAT A CUTIE ?? he just doesn't stop laughing, and the little blush on his cheeks... the way his voice changes and š
9:03 ā he's SO attractive and for what? he's not even doing anything?? but the arms around the chair..... and like i'm a knuckle cracker and hand/finger stretcher as well so whenever he does it i just melt bcs i find it so hot :( also him when chris goes "ĆĆĆĆĆĆ" into the mic and then complaining about the music being so loud idK HES JUST SO CUTE DOING PRETTY MUCH NOTHING BYEā
12:38 āĀ casually attractive is a very fitting term for him... how is it possible ???
16:03 ā I WANNA SCREAM AND CRY ?????? no his smile is the most adorable thing ever. i rlly wanna make a pepe laughter compilation but then i would never do anything productive ever again....
16:33 ā mum mention <3<3 boys who are appreciative of their mothers <3<3<3<3
18:13 ā the switchup š and also him emphasizing "so", like "i'm SO sad"....... and also also his laughter after it š and when he does that kind of like chortle thing? like at the back of his mouth thing? idk what it's called in english, someone help????? idk it's adorable anyway
18:37 ā my bestie translated for me but i still understood nothing š HE SOUNDS SO CUTE THO like him speaking spanish is always so š
19:32 ā BABYYYYYYY!!!!! he is the most adorable person ever, im not even kidding
20:15 ā oh i'm totally okay, no worries š
30:25 āĀ I LOVE THIS i have no knowledge of pokemons (that was an overstatement, i know stuff but i haven't played since i was like 10) but i love that sm, dorky boys >>>>> the way he speaks about them is so cute idc. also him saying that pokemon is a very important thing to him is so š
42:19 ā i definitely did not clip this the second i first read through this ask.... no but like why was that so attractive š« š« not fair (also him apologizing for it?? b a b y)
43:05 ā IM CRYING I KNOW JUST WHAT U MEAN BUT I CANT FIND IT šš
adorable tho ^^
51:55 ā why does he not say more about this?? wth??? can someone fill me in ??????????? (fits very well with something i've written for the college!pepe fic tho š¤)
53:09 & 1:00:40 ā i love chris :(( i love both of their senses of humor omg, and pepe's laugh yet again..... my heart is going crazy
1:02:38 ā okay i actually know NO chess, like i know the rules but nothing else. i don't even like it usually, but pepe playing chess........ why is that attractive š« š« and being able to talk while doing it also? he looks so smart? and even doing speed chess???? waaaaaaah š and chris praising him š (checkers is so cool tho, i do not know the rules but anytime i watch anyone play it im very impressed)
1:04:32 ā not too tall for you š„° that makes me very happy š„° i used to have a thing for boys the same height as me but not anymore so pepe bby you're definitely not too tall <3<3
1:05:55 ā i forget sometimes that drivers like them are around the same age as kimi and would've driven against him in karting lol, like i forget that even pepe and kimi are in the same category rn ?? idk life is just šµāš«šµāš«
1:07:07 ā "i'm always going to think you're doing a good job" š„ŗ so relatable š„ŗ also pepe's grin when he's being praised.......
1:09:40 ā oh im alright, thanks for asking š«”š«” no issues, my heart definitely isn't going crazy
1:10:58 ā oh yes definitely !! as someone who can't even drive a regular car, i still understand very well? and all of the details are so interesting, i love hearing them talk about it. being nerdy about the stuff you like is soooo attractive ??? idk maybe that's just me tho
1:11:37 ā nyeoooommmm š„ŗ baby
1:12:50 ā love love love that, i feel like the two of them are quite often very honest in interviews and such? like when they went on the feeder series pod together, they had no issues criticizing stuff they don't like. and so like the same here, they aren't just saying this because they're friends with gabri i feel, it's just honesty and š„ŗ it's very endearing
1:13:38 ā that was so random š also funny how he mentioned seb but didn't then think about the fact that seb was there and probs could've ran into her ?? š but yea idk their trio friendship is so endearing idk
1:24:33 ā more spanish making me weak in my knees even as im sitting down š¶ aND CUTIE DANCE!!!!!! god he rlly got my thoughts running... like listening to songs in spanish with him and dancing and him singing along and just ??? no i cant take it (ALSO PLS THATS SO CUTE KSDHFFK DANCE W HIM!!!)
1:25:25 ā okay so like two days ago when i went to the gym, i was like "ain't no way pepe is gonna beat me in leg press" so i went and did 160kg just out of pure stubbornness š¶ i've never done over like 110 or 120kg but i was determined. however, i did *not* attempt to beat him in bench because i can only do max like 60kg LMAO so nope. but yeah it's definitely insane...... scary in a good way š„°
1:27:10 ā chris is very relatableeeeeeeeeeee š« š« š« š« š« š« š« š« gosh
1:38:56 āĀ him driving is so...... also idk why i love the sight of him wearing gloves for the sim AAAAAAA like i know it's not an uncommon thing but still like... idk it's just attractive š¶ and him driving that smoothly and easily while also chatting???? stop it pepe im blushing-
1:50:16 ā ......no comment
1:54:55 ā prettiest baby boy in the world, i kid you not
2:12:00 ā who allowed him to first be the cutest cutie ever and then cross his arms like that, eye-
again tysm!! this stream gave me new hope in life š whenever i feel bad i just go and watch it and...... well yeah š„ŗ hope you have a lovely lovely weekend darling!!!! <3<3
#i hope u didnt mean that u wont be back before he drops new content š„ŗ bcs drop by anytime you feel like it#i love this smmmmmm gonna go back every day#asks!#anon!#lotus anon!#šŖ·!#pepe marti
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The ITSAY Anniversary Show, Part 1
AND WE'RE BACK!
October marks the third anniversary of the show that rewired the BL industry, and it felt like the right time for a retrospective. In part 1 Ben leads a panel talk on I Told Sunset About You. Just us along with @liyazaki, @waitmyturtles, @wen-kexing-apologist, and @so-much-yet-to-learn
Join us as we talk about our history with the genre, Phuket as a setting, the complexities of the characters, and why this show remains so important.
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Timestamps
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0:00 - Intro 4:16 - How did you come to ITSAY? 11:31 - Phuket as a Setting 19:00 - Style and Genre 29:40 - Characters 36:18 - Teh and Oh's Dynamic 50:07 - Why do you care so much about ITSAY? 1:04:08 - Outro
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0:00 - Intro
Ben
BWOOOOOOOOM. Okay. It Worked. You're already in it.Ā
Nini
[laughs] That's staying in.
Ben
Welcome back to The Conversation, everyone, for our fall season. We're very excited about this season. We decided to take advantage of the reduced output of shows, at least for part of summer, and decided to do a retrospective on I Told Sunset About You and I Promised You the Moon. We also have made a lot of friends in our time on Tumblr and decided to hang out with some of them, and talk about the show so it wouldn't just be me and Nini blabbing about one of our favorite projects.
Nini
Our panel of I Told Sunset About You experts includes the lovely, the only Turtles a.k.a @waitmyturtles on Tumblr. We have Aiden @so-much-yet-to-learn on Tumblr. We have Captain Hands who is @wen-kexing-apologist on Tumblr. And the fabulous friend of the pod, our good friend mor @liyazaki on Tumblr.Ā
So that is our esteemed panel for I Told Sunset About You in this episode. That's who you're gonna hear. In the next episode we're gonna talk I Promised You the Moon and have a different set of people on.Ā
So, Ben, aside from the fact that it's the anniversary of I Told Sunset About Youāthe third anniversaryāwhy did you feel like this was the right time?
Ben
I think this has probably been one of the most thematically interesting years that the genre has had, and I've said many times that I don't think we'd be able to get the kinds of quality productions we're getting out of the genre now without the success of I Told Sunset About You and I Promised You the Moon, and I feel like for us to move forward with this particular show I think we had to at least get that show out of our system and into the recording. It had been bothering both of us that we hadn't really sat down and talked about it even though we dropped constantly that we are fans. I think it was really useful to talk about it.Ā
I really liked that we actually split up for it because you and I talked to each other a lot on this show, and it was really fun to talk to some other people about the show first and get some other perspectives.
Nini
We always say that one of the whole points of The Conversation is to expand the conversation outward, so we had a really good time doing these panels. We think you're gonna enjoy them. So, let's just dive right in.
4:16 - How did you come to ITSAY?
Ben
We're gonna get right into it, Our first question of the night. We're gonna start with Mor: longtime friend of the podcast. Mor?
Mor
Yes, hi Ben!Ā
Ben
How did you come to ITSAY?
Mor
[laughs] Well I came to ITSAY actually as a relatively new BL watcher ā I had very begrudgingly watched 2gether and a handful of other very typical GMMTV type shows. And I had heard that there were some higher budget higher brow BLs out there, but I'm not ashamed to admit that what initially drew me to the genre in the first place is theā¦ kind of fluffy romance trope-driven narratives? And it was just the first time that I had encountered any kind of queer media that was so lighthearted, and typically took place in a world where homophobia basically doesn't exist, and especially as a slightly older queer, that was such a nice change of pace compared to the other queer media that I'd been consuming up until that point. So frankly, the idea of watching a more serious BL back then made me a little nervous, even though that's a lot of what I typically watch when it comes to Western media. So I put off watching ITSAY for a while until I eventually decided to just jump into it and the rest is history.Ā
ITSAY isn't just my favorite show in the genre, it's one of my favorite shows and pieces of media period. I Promised You the Moon is too, but that's a hot take I'll expound on next time.
Ben
Thank you. Aiden, what about you, you've been around BL for a bit. How did you come to ITSAY?
Aiden
I've been in the BL slash QL sphere since the beginning, largely as a lurker. I didn't watch ITSAY when it aired, due to not being in the right headspace at the time to tackle a show with that much emotional impact. It was obviously very much in the zeitgeist, constantly in my feed, impossible to miss. So many other shows since then have been compared to it and I always planned to watch it someday in the nebulous future, but with so many things constantly airing Iād never quite gotten around to it.Ā
So when word went out that Ben and Nini were looking for people who hadn't watched it yet to get a mix of perspectives, I figured there probably weren't many others who'd been around as long as I had and somehow hadn't watched it yet. I re-evaluated whether or not I was ready to watch it and turns out I was! So, better late than never.
Ben
I am so glad we finally convinced you to watch the show. I wasn't gonna push you but I'm like āoh my god Aidenās finally watching.ā
Aiden
I'm glad as well. It was definitely an excellent thing to watch.
Ben
Okay, Captain Hands! [laughs] What about you?
Captain Hands
So I got into BL like a year-ish ago, and of course being a queer person who had not seen a lot of queer media the worms got in my brain instantly! There's like a master post of queer Asian shows that is somewhere on Tumblr that I saw, I don't know what user it is, sorry! But I saw a post that had I Told Sunset About You on it as like a good show to watch but I wasn't sure where to access it at the time, so I kind of just filed it away for later. Cut to like six months later, Ben and Turtles were yelling at me to eat vegetables, Kyr-kun-chan changed her icon to I think PP or Billkin or something, Nini mentioned PP and then a thousand messages in the clown server later ginnymoonbeam and I committed to watching ITSAY for the first time, which is probably a good thing because then Ben could warn me about doing one episode at a time.
Ben
Oh right, you were the one who was like, I'm tough I can watch more than one episode at a time. No.
Captain Hands
Wrong. Very wrong.
Ben
I'm glad you also finally joined us. Last but definitely not least, Turtles what about you? How did you come to ITSAY?
Turtles
Hey folks! Ben and Nini, thanks for having me, this is so awesome. All right, so, I guess what I'm the most well known on Tumblr for is the old GMMTV challenge project that I am blogging on. I came to BLs through Kinnporsche, at least Thai BLs through Kinnporsche, I was familiar with Japanese BLs for a couple years before that. I Told Sunset About You, in regards to it making it into the project ā it was obviously going to be a natural part of the challenge syllabus, in terms of anybody picking up that syllabus and learning about Thai BLs in the first place. But the entire project, the watch list is community contributed, itās 100% created by the community of Tumblr posters who love Thai BLs and who have lots of opinions about Thai BLs including this group here. It wasn't just through the solicitation of feedback on the OGMMTVC, uh, that I came to it, I certainly had seen I Told Sunset About You and I Promised You the Moon on many lists across Tumblr as, as an impactful BL. But in regards specifically to where it belonged by way of chronology, and by way of its cinematic impact, all of that feedback came through my soliciting the community on Tumblr for creating my syllabus that is teaching me about Thai BLs, and will hopefully get replicated in other people's journeys as well. So that's how I came to it.
Ben
I'm very excited by everybody's answers about how they came to this. I want to ask a quick follow-up question since ā some of us have been here since the before time and the long long ago, and some of you got started like a year or two ago? Going in reverse order real quick: what is everybody's first BL that they remember? Turtles?
Turtles
The classic, the wonderful, the amazing, What Did You Eat Yesterday? Long story short, that was the first time I had ever discovered Tumblr as well ā enjoyed that drama and I was absolutely insane for it for about two years solid.
Ben
Thank you for that. Captain Hands! What was your first BL?
Captain Hands
My friends were really obsessed with Word of Honor and showed it to me, so I got really into that, and that's how I found the, like, list of other BLs. If that does not count as a BL, then Kinnporsche was the first thing that I watched.
Ben
[laughs] Aiden, what about you? I'm actually really curious to hear your answer, because you and I have been around since the beginning.
Aiden
It depends on how you define BL, really. The first thing that I think could probably qualify would be the first Takumi-kun from Japan in 2007.
Ben
Unfortunately, that counts.
Aiden
Yeah [laughs]. Unfortunately indeed.
Ben
What about you, Mor? You said ITSAY was one of your first BLs. You have any others you watched before that? Or what was your other pathway into this?
Mor
2gether was one of the first ones, which is ironic because I hated 2gether. [laughs] I don't know why I finished watching it, I was just intrigued, so even though I kind of despised it for a lot of personal reasons ā just wasn't for me ā I enjoyed it enough that I wanted to keep watching. I wanted to find more.
Ben
I'm absolutely fascinated by how everybody came to this. It's KinnPorsche, 2gether, What Did You Eat Yesterday? and Aiden with some of the oldest stuff.
11:31 - Phuket as a Setting
Moving on to our next question! We're going to get into some setting stuff. What about Phuket as a setting stands out to you? I think I'm gonna have Mor answer this one first because they actually visited Phuket and some of the filming locations.
Mor
I certainly did, and I made a concentrated effort to take pictures, as some of you I think have seen, of the actual scenes in ITSAY, like the famous chip crawl deck, which was a journey to find. It was an incredible experience getting to visit Phuket. The setting of Phuket is unlike any other backdrop to a BL that I've ever seen. The landscape is really a character unto itself. I get a very similar but also sort of very rare sort of feeling when I watch ITSAY as I do when I'm watching, say, the train scene in Spirited Away. It's like looking at a natural environment that's been elevated to something almost magical just because of the way it's being shot or portrayed.Ā
I read once that Miyazaki's films almost make you homesick for a place you've never been, and that's how I felt about Phuket after watching ITSAY, to the point that it absolutely influenced my decision to go to Thailand and actually go there. And having been I can say it's just as lovely as they portray it to be ā but I do know my attachment runs a lot deeper and is more personal than that, because Phuket to me will always be tied to Teh and Oh.Ā
The specific locations they chose, having now been there and walked around and seen it ā it was so smart and it really enhanced the narrative while never overwhelming it or taking away from it. Like, I was very struck that the beach that the hammock scene takes place onā¦ it's very wide, it's very open, and you would almost miss the hammock, because the way that the trees hang so low to the beach, it really sort of encapsulates the hammock? You have to actually climb under the branches. It really I think created this effect of Teh and Oh ā they almost look cocooned in the darkness, in this otherwise very wide open environment. Maybe it felt a little safer because of that, to start saying what they had been feeling and skirting around. The wide shots of the beach chase sceneā¦ and obviously the beauty of Promthep Cape, and so many other moments. Phuket justā¦ it did so much to enhance the intimacy of the scenes, and move this story along.
Ben
Apparently we're all going to have to go visit Phuket now. Turtles, when you were reacting to the series you were writing about some of the cultural crossover stuff. What do you have to say about Phuket as a setting?
Turtles
I've never been to Thailand, but I have spent a good portion of my entire childhood and adult life in Thailand's southern neighboring country of Malaysia ā with my mother being Malaysian, my being part Malaysian ā Phuket is an incredibly important locale for me to consider. Chinese migration from Fujian, from other locales in China, traveled in part down that Thai landscape to the Malaysian peninsula, and then ultimately settling all throughout Thailand, through Malaysia as I said, and ultimately into Singapore which has a majority Chinese population.Ā
A lot of what I learned about Phuket in part comes from my own Malaysian heritage, but also through conversations with other amazing Tumblr users including the very wonderful telomeke, who hails from the southeast Asian region himself. Phuket, Penang, Kuala Lumpur, these are towns that happened to receive more than their fair share of Chinese immigrants, that ended up in part creating a very unique culture that we call Peranakan culture: Chinese immigrants intermingling with ethnic residents of the areas in which they settled. Teh's mom is just a fabulous example of somebody that, that holds a lot of those influences all in one person: she wears Peranakan clothes, particularly when she's hosting events for the public at her Hokkien Mee stall.
Ben
Captain Hands, Aiden, do you want to say anything about Phuket?
Captain Hands
Phuket is a small town when compared to locations like Bangkok, which is where a lot of I Promised You the Moon is going to take place. I've been thinking that the small-town vibe works very well with how often it feels to me like Teh's entire world is ending whenever Oh, like, does something that like makes him jealous. Or like, if Teh's rejected or if he makes a mistake, like you can just feel in his body how much that impacts him, and it feels very small-town to me, to like to have these little moments be so big to him.Ā
Thereās such a significant use of the Chinese language in this show, and for all the ways that like Chinese is used to tell us, like, what Teh is thinking and feeling, and for all the ways that like Teh is taking the time to try to teach Oh how to understand the language that Teh himself uses to express himself frequently ā is a really poignant thing for me to pick up on considering Teh's own heritage, and like, his mother's heritage, and like the Chinese immigrant population that is a part of that community.
Ben
Turtles was talking about the cultural crossover that occurs in Phuket from all the various people migrating there. I'm from New Orleans which can jokingly be described as the northernmost Caribbean city, that has passed between French and Spanish control multiple times, and has now been occupied by Americans for one hundred and fifty years. So we have a very weird collection of cultures here as well ā most evidenced in our architecture. And I think about that a lot when I reflect on Phuket ā because I just rewatched it this week ā it looks different from what we usually get in Bangkok.
Turtles
This show was so unbelievably layered by its visual cues, from a cultural interpretive perspective. Ben, as you pointed out to me, one of the friends, Phillip, he clearly comes from from a Islamic family, his parents are shown wearing a hijab and a songkok, and it's just very indicative of the the filmmakers giving us the indication that we're talking aboutā¦ the mixing of cultures, assimilation and melting pot, all of the different words that we want to throw out there.Ā
As per your note about New Orleans, you know, as we say in Malaysia same same lah. It's very comparative to all of these indications that they were bringing up about Phuket. Thinking about Phuket as a tourist town as well, as compared to New Orleans, having just been to New Orleans myself, I think that there's just so much to, to pull out there by way of whether you make Phuket a permanent home or not. Teh and Oh clearly exist on the borderline of that permanence as they get closer to going to college.
Ben
There's something specific about growing up in a tourist town, like you can go visit tourist locations during peak tourist season as a way to avoid people you know. Because unless they're working the location, it's just strangers.
19:00 - Style and Genre
Ben
We're going to move to our next question here and get into some style questions. How does ITSAY play with genre and stylistic expectations? And specifically, are there any works that you recall while you were watching it? Aiden, you and I had talked a little bit about this.
Aiden
For myself when I was watching ITSAY, rather than paying attention to the source materials that ITSAY drew from, I found myself thinking back on shows that I'd seen since ITSAY aired and reevaluating them through the lens that had changed from my watching it. ITSAY clearly broke open a number of aspects that the Thai BL circuit specifically hadn't delved into until then, and expanded the genre as a result.Ā
My personal favorite impact is seeing shows set in rural locations, which were quite thin on the ground before that point, and have increased at least in visits if not fully set in more rural locations since then. Shows like Tale of a Thousand Stars, Cupidās Last Wish, I Will Knock You, Remember Me, Moonlight Chicken. And it also, it showed grit and grime in a way that you really hadn't seen before that point in at least the BL genre. It was more common in media intended for queer audiences or art house type of content but the BL genre had always been very sanitized, very urban, very clean cut. Almost cartoonish and simplistic. And seeing something where you got to see buildings with marks on the walls that are from, you know, monsoon rain, stains, faded paint, chipped plaster, dirt on the ground, picture glass that had flecks on it, dust settled on things ā that was a revelation, at least at the time. It really made things feel a lot moreā¦ settled and grounded and realistic. It felt like you could walk down the road and see these places, rather than it being a kind of constructed facade of where these shows are, that's an everyplace everywhere kind of generalization. And that followed with shows like Not Me, I Will Knock You again, Remember Me, that you got to see the grittiness, Not Me especially.Ā
The inclusion of religion, more Chinese cultural aspects, things like that that had largely been omitted from most shows until then, started becoming involved more in the day to day life that you got to see. Things like the talk Bart where you do the alms in the morning providing the food for the monks that go around traveling from home to home.Ā
We also started getting more slower paced shows like Nitiman, You're My Sky ā which had heavy callbacks ā Coffee Melody, My Only 12%. Shows with high concepts, stronger writing, better production value on a number of levels, like, ah, Bad Buddy, Triage, La Pluie, Kinnporsche. Also things with some of the more awkward side of queer life, which until then had very much not been present almost at all, outside of the more tragic kind of shows. Because again, it was that sanitized, sort of, āit has to be picture perfect, it has to be idealā kind ofā¦ nuance and vibe on the shows. And so we got things like Secret Crush on You, and I'll argue that I Will Knock You should fit there as well.Ā
The way that it's expanded the shows that have come after ā and yes we do still have those sanitized, simplistic, clean, bubblegum sort of shows ā very much enjoyable when you're in the mood for that sort of show, but we've also added things to give more breadth. Things like La Pluie, Step by Step, Moonlight Chicken, that make it a much more encompassing sort of genre, able to draw broader crowds that have differing interests as well. I am thrilled to see the change and be able to tie back now to how that was driven by ITSAY.
Ben
This is one of the reasons why I was really glad we finally got you to watch the show, because you've been in the genre as long or longer than me? And it was one of the shows that you had skipped for specific reasons when it first aired and I was curious how your long view of the genre would play into your reflections upon it.Ā
When I watched ITSAY, I ended up having a really intense reaction to the end of it ā positively, as a result of some of the works that had come before. It's sometimes hard for me to connect ITSAY to other BLs that pre-date it, because those BLs are often heavily influenced by product placement and a slapstick version of humor that ITSAY is not relying on at all ā it's an incredibly serious show about what it wants to cover. And that connected me back further to some of the German works I had watched growing up. Like Summer Storm, which is I think from 2004, there's a Dutch film called Boys from 2014, Big Eden from America in 2000 which uses its setting in the American hinterland really well. And I just had not seen this in Thai BL.Ā
The closest we came to something this grounded-feeling from Thailand was The Love of Siam, which they submitted to the Academy Awards in 2007. I actually had Turtles and Captain Hands watch that this week, so before I get into my very specific reactions to that, at the end of episode 5 of ITSAY, I kind of want to hear you two, and what you have to say about Love of Siam in relation to ITSAY before we move forward.
Captain Hands
You've said before that you felt like ITSAY is an apology for Love of Siam, and I fully agree. Two kids that are childhood friends separate for a number of years, come back together, the attraction between them is instantaneous and very obvious and kind of hard to ignore? And then having it end the way that it ends for Love of Siam, is, you know, it's a choice! I can understand and see why they would play it that way, but I agree with you, Ben, that it is, that this feels like an apology for what they did to us with Love of Siam.
Ben
Turtles, any commentary you want to give?
Turtles
Me not being Thai, not knowing Thai, having not visited Thailand ā for a movie in 2007 to end with a successful same-sex relationship would have surprised me. So the film ending the way that it did was not surprising, and I found the journey to get to that point really poignant. That is a very deeply Turtles read, a very deep Asian read. Absolutely no surprise whatsoever that many BL filmmakers were influenced by this movie. And as far as ITSAY goes, is ITSAY an apology for Love of Siam? I can absolutely understand that verbiage, that's not a verbiage that I would necessarily jump to using.Ā
I could very well say that if ITSAY had ended without Teh and Oh getting together, I also would not have been surprised, especially with the way episodes 3 and 4 went. And now that I've seen Love of Siam I could feel stronger in that opinion. Now, as far as it making me feel good or satisfied with the story conclusion? That's, I think, you know that's, that's personal extrapolation there. But as far as the art itself goes I think Love of Siam communicated to me that I would not have been surprised if Teh and Oh didn't get together, if they had more personal, emotional, and also macrocultural wrangling that they needed to do. Love of Siam absolutely talks to ITSAY but I'm not sure that I would necessarily call it an apology.
Ben
Mor, do you have any commentary on genre history?
Mor
The really interesting, different thing that ITSAY did for me, as specifically a queer 30-something, a Westerner who's been in all sorts of extremely homophobic environments and, and different things throughout my life, and I've just gotten used to not having happily ever after. What I loved so much about BLs in the beginning was just, āoh man, we can have these light, bubbly, effervescent stories that get a happily ever after and it doesn't have to be complicated, it can just be sweet?ā And it was such a new concept for me, to see that.Ā
So, ITSAY ended up, like, with the ending that we got, it ended up being almost healing for me? As dramatic as that sounds. And that's really why, because it subverted it. You could tell going in, this is gonna be serious. This is gonna be hard-hitting. We're gonna be getting into deep stuff in terms of these queer kids figuring out who they are, and learning how they can be together, if they want to be together. So I was sort of expecting ā because of my history and what I'm what I'm used to seeing ā okay, well we're going serious, it's not a good chance this is gonna end well. So to see that ā which frankly was a much more realistic portrayal of queer relationships than your typical sanitized BL ā that is what took ITSAY for me to god-tier media, god-tier.
29:40 - Characters
Ben
Let's get into some of the character stuff. For all that they are incredible and great characters, why couldn't it be Bas or Tarn for Teh and Oh? Captain Hands! You're up first for this one.
Captain Hands
So the easy answer for me is that it just couldn't be? Like neither Teh or Oh really knows exactly when they developed feelings for each other, and they both try to have feelings for Tarn and Bas and they just can't make it work. Teh going to Tarn at 4 am and asking her to tell him that she loves him was, for me, like, āOh I need to know what it feels like to hear this from her so I can know how it, how it feelsā¦ to hear it? And to know whether or not that feels good? If that feels something, like something I want to hear.āĀ
For a more, you know, in-depth answer, because that's my whole shtick, right? There's a couple of things that I was thinking about, mostly the Chinese language element, the color element, and then just like Tarn and Bas as characters? One of the throughlines of ITSAY is that Teh frequently writes whatever his subconscious is fixating on over and over again in Chinese. Teh can't parse through the complexity of his emotions, but he can summarize them in like words, so like ārivalā or āintimate,ā and we know that there is much more behind what he's writing, than like what is actually being put down on paper? Because Oh's not good at Chinese, Teh spends so much of this show like painstakingly teaching Oh how to understand Chinese, and like how to understand him as a person and like his subconscious? So like once Oh starts to get it and get better at Chinese is when they really start to connect more intimately. If you think about the end of episode 3 with the sniffing scene, the buildup to that moment is Oh using the male/male protagonist question ā like, how you say male protagonist in Chinese, how you say female protagonist in Chinese, is male-male okay? ā is him asking if Teh is okay with them like potentially becoming a couple.Ā
And I know this is going to kill Ben to talk about the colors, but this is for the color girlies! Oh is red and Teh is blue and green, and something that I did notice on this watch through is like, Teh's home is filled with red, like the walls of the restaurant are red, his bedspreadās red, the couch, the clothing his mother wears is often red, and Oh's home isā¦ very much blue and green, so like the sign for the Panwa resort is blue, the windows, all of the windows are framed in this kind of like, light green. These boys grew up in each other's colors. Their home is each other's colors. And so of course when they first meet, they're going to be drawn to one another because they remind each other of home. Tarn's color is purple, and so there are parts of Tarn that Teh is drawn to, but I see that as kind of being like the red parts of Tarn.Ā
Oh likes Bas because Bas kind of acts as a similar person in his life to Teh. In episode 2 Oh says that he likes Bas because Bas drives him around, but he won't confess because he doesn't know what Bas's feelings are for him, and he thinks that Bas likes girls and he doesn't want to lose him as a friend, when that is a direct parallel to Teh. And something that I started noticing on this watchthrough is that Bas picks up whatever color Teh is wearing, but he's often like a scene or an episode behind. So in episode 4 Tehās wearing green at the beginning of like them going to the resort? And then Bas picks up the green when he shares a bed with Oh, and then by the time that Bas has picked up that green color, Teh and Oh are both in yellow, and so like they're now matching, and Bas is is behind the curve.Ā
From the perspective of just like, Tarn and Bas as characters, like they both value themselves enough to know when to let go, which I think is a very crucial part of their relationships with Teh and Oh? When Teh colors the hibiscus that Tarn draws red, she shuts that shit down like immediately and sends him home. And when Oh is quiet and sad on like the drive home, Bas knows immediately like why that is, and goes to Tehās house. So like I really strongly believe that Oh ends up with Teh at the end because Bas gives him up? Oh would have kept fighting the urge to go to Teh, and like to comfort Teh and to support him, if Bas hadn't driven Oh to Teh's house and been like, āit's okay, it's fine, I understand.ā And, and given him that freedom.
Ben
Iām very fascinated to follow up on the thread about Tarn and Bas having more willingness to cut those boys off [laughs]. Anyone else have any commentary they want to talk about on Bas or Tarn? Oh please, Aiden, proceed.
Aiden
It just needs to be said that Bas is the best boy and Tarn is the best girl. Sorry, somebody had to say it.
Ben
Thank you, sir. So [laughs] I think Teh likes Tarn because she's as committed to her future as he is. She intentionally does not pursue a romance with him because she thinks it would get in the way of her pursuit of her art and architecture career. And Teh is super committed to his career as an actor. And I think that's probably why he liked her so much? This is a little bit of I Promised You the Moon slipping through. But like Captain Hands pointed out: because she's committed to what she wants for herself, she's not going to sacrifice a ton of her stuff for him the way Oh might, or that Teh might for Oh.Ā
And Basā¦ I've been thinking a lot about second lead stuff because of conversations with Shan. Bas doesn't confess until really late in the game? But so much has happened at that point, that Teh is going to be able to break past that because of the earlier promise. I agree that he is the best boy. But I think Oh likes the drama [laughs] that Teh brings to his life.
36:18 - Teh and Oh-aewās Dynamic
Ben
On to our next question! The dynamic between Teh and Oh-aew is one of the primary draws of this story. What did you connect to in their dynamic or their story? Mor, you're up first.
Mor
I'm vibrating, can you tell? [laughs] So there is so much, I think, that could draw anyone into the story of ITSAY, because the glories and the pitfalls of first love, they have so much in common regardless of who you fall in love with. But I personally connected so deeply to their story, again, as a queer person, I know a lot of other people did as well. You can't help but painfully relate to both of them ā at least that was my experience, especially my younger self ā Teh having so many feelings that he spends so much time being incapable of processing or acknowledging, let alone communicating? And Oh being so long-suffering and hopeful and just pining with his whole self for this mess of a boy, who doesn't know what he wants or what he's doing. I mean not that Oh really does either; who knows what they want in a relationship when they're that young? And when you have feelings for your long-lost best friend that you just reunited with, it's very complicated.Ā
But there were just so many quintessentially queer experiences in ITSAY and in their dynamic that hit me right in my gay little heart. The tiny secret touches that mean so much, the affectionate friendly banter that all of a sudden is veering into flirting, or āare we flirting, like what's going on?ā and then the crippling doubt that sets in afterwards and how it can haunt you for days. This gut wrenching fear that these feelings you found yourself in can possibly affect your whole life: how your friends feel about you, whether or not your family accepts you. There's just so much that we have to consider, well beyond what our hetero peers typically have to deal with, and it's exciting and it's terrifying. It's not just incredibly validating, but like I mentioned earlier, it's healing in a way, to see such a frankly visceral experience portrayed with so much care and accuracy, as they did with giving us Teh and Oh's story, and their dynamic and how it progressed. I just feel like overall the stakes are so much higher for us? And often at so, so young and tender ages, to just explore who we are, to like and to fall in love with who we want to, andā¦ their whole story for me, watching it unfold ā this is very dramatic but it's true ā for me, it felt like someone peering into my past looking at all these little hurts I forgot, these bigger ones that are still healing, and saying, āit was like this back then wasn't it? It was so hard. But there's so much beauty here, and you can have it too! It can be yours too. You can have this struggle, you can go through all of this, you can walk through the fire and emerge through the other side with this beautiful, beautiful thing, that maybe even is even more beautiful because of how much work and how much brokenness it took to get there.ā
Ben
I'm so glad we got to let you get that out of your system, Mor. [laughs] Turtles or Aiden, do you have any commentary on Oh and Teh?
Aiden
For me the, the dynamic between Teh and Oh was very unique andā¦ not something that I had necessarily dealt with, but the coming-out scene for Teh and Hoon resonated incredibly strongly for me. The dialogue from that scene matched almost word for word how I came out to my own brother? And the emotions, and the fear and the terror and the relief and the reassurance and the, you know, gentle teasing to lighten the moodā¦ that felt so real. Mine had [laughs] rather less crying, at least in the moment, I definitely did later ā but the text and the, the feeling of that scene just took me right back to that moment. And there's so much about this show that is authentic in a very specific way to different people's experiences.
Ben
Thank you Aiden. Turtles?
Turtles
For me, what Oh was able to get out of Teh, by way of what I called a drunken hormonal experienceā¦ just the way Billkin acted in his exploratory attraction towards Oh and how PP received itā¦ how their physical interplay represented that budding romance, that budding attraction. The end of episode 2 on the boat particularly moved me, let alone the incredibly impactful endings of 3 and 4. I was surprised to sort of see Tehā¦ melt, and go back and forth in his physicality at the end of that episode. Just the physicality of that exploration, and how the physicality itself then compared to and reflected on all the emotional processes that we saw between the two of them. I thought that that was so unique particularly about this show, and how unabashed it was to display such physical attraction developing between the two of them, particularly on Teh's end. That's something that I'll really take away from this show, that it displayed attraction, really really vibrating attraction, in such an impactful way.
Ben
Captain Hands, you have any commentary?
Captain Hands
Of course you know I do, I have commentary about everything all the time. So I think the thing that really drew me to Oh and Tehās dynamic was the power of their feelings for one another, and like, especially the way that Oh acts as a magnet to Teh and like, the trance-like state that Oh kind of puts him in, so you get all these moments of Teh just kind of following after Oh, and like Oh being aware of that power that he holds? The sincerity of their characterizations and the commitment to their charactersā¦ I love this show so much for having Teh just constantly walk in circles. And how that will kind of translate into just the cyclical nature of his own personality, and like the experiences that he has, and the stuff that he puts himself through. The things he will continue to do as their relationship progresses. You can tell so much, like how comfortable these two are with each other, and how in love they have been with each other since they were kids, and that's another reason I think that they couldn't have really been with anybody else, is because they have all of this history between them? That is like so palpable, and like how much Teh wants to protect those memories, and like the feelings that he has when he's with Oh. The line that they say like, ādon't give my time to othersā is so poignant.Ā
Seeing the way that Teh is continuously transformed by being around Oh, hating coconut at the beginning of the show and thinking that it smelled bad, and then like having that scene with Oh on the boat at the end of episode 2, and then immediately opening episode 3 with Teh just smashing a bit of coconut meat on his face as like hard as he can, because he just wants to be like as close to it as possible and like, how it doesn't smell bad anymore, and how it tastes good now because he's starting to have these feelings for Oh. And that has radically changed how he interacts with the world around him. Itās just like so good to me to watch being portrayed on screen, especially because Teh is not aware of his queerness in the way that that Oh is? And so like, Teh not knowing why he feels the way he feels, and then lashing out because he can't put a name to like, what it is that is causing the feelings that he has, it feels very, very in keeping with like, the queer experience as you are like, learning your own identity.
Ben
The thing with ITSAY ā it's not just the things that it does that are familiar: with all the important touching, the knowing that exists between you, the dealing with the homophobia, the concern about how other people will perceive you, whether or not your parents can be proud of you if you are honest about this portion of yourself. What I think makes ITSAY so special as queer media, and why I lose my mind over it? It's about the fact that these two cannot hide how they feel from each other, at all. And as a result they are the most cry baby boys I have ever seen in all of queer cinema. I just rewatched it this week. These boys are crying constantly at and about each other. Every time any one of them says anything to the other, they make the other one cry over something.Ā
It's interesting because so much of the āare you are you notā thing, when you're growing up, is about the uncertainty that the other boy is actually feeling it? And that never feels like it exists between them. Oh knew what he was feeling, but as soon as Teh starts to show interest in him, he picks up on it instantly, and eventually confronts Teh very directly about it. As Turtles pointed out, the way the intimacy between them is displayed so frankly. They spend all of episode 3 dancing around each other ā we know where this is going! And then you get the back-scratching scene which leads into this arc about Teh dealing with the physical reality of Oh being a boy. Episode 4 has the underwater kiss. During the underwater kiss, Teh puts his hand on Oh's chest again, and Oh has a reaction to that, and you can see him immediately being hit with the uncertainty about Teh's attraction to girls ā in the middle of the best kiss that has ever happened. And I don't think I noticed that in my earlier watches: even during this huge moment for them, they are still continuing the drama. There's a specificity to the way that these two feel queer, that I have noticed that every person who grew up with some of the Knowing, as I call it, feels so intensely about these two boys.
Mor
I'm nodding so hard over here I'm surprised I haven't lost my head at this point. Yes, yes, a thousand times yes to everything you said. The sheer magnetism of their connection, that's really one of my biggest takeaways from this show. Not only the authenticity, but just how much Billkin and PP's chemistry and their talent as actors, how they were able to really, ah, just make that experience that is so true, it's so true to my experience as a queer person who definitely had the Knowing from a very young age... and had a lot of of moments like that where it just felt like, āwhat, I think there's something here, you know it, I know it, I think we both know itā ā it's hard to put it into words, but they just captured it so beautifully, so brilliantly. It took me back.Ā
It was so accurate that it made me remember little moments, tiny little moments in my past that weren't so little in the moment, they were really big when I was, you know, ten, eleven, twelve, falling for a girl for the first time. That's part of what made it so special for me is how it really took me back to those times, and in a healing way.
Ben
Captain Hands.
Captain Hands
I was just thinking about, in the opposite sense of like, I did not at least acknowledge my queerness until I was in my early 20s? But like, definitely grew up feeling very different from people around me and like, lonely compared to people around me, for like reasons I could not explain at the time? And so like, seeing Teh have to go through and process his own queerness because it is not something that has occurred to him before, was something that I took so strongly to. I relate so hard right now in my life to the identity narratives, because it took me so long to kind of parse through what my identities are, and to like, get comfortable with them. And so seeing Tehās kind of like, ācan I even like boys?ā moments, that is something that was really fun for me to watch, again with like the circling, like he has no clue [laughs] what's going on in his life and he is just circling and circling and circling until he kind of comes to a point that he can connect to, and then he'll kind of run off in that direction.
50:07 - Why Do You Care So Much About ITSAY?
Ben
Final question for everyone: Why do you care so much about ITSAY? Aiden.
Aiden
I care about it because, for one it is authentic queer representation on a level that I had very rarely seen on screen ā both in Thai media and and just in general. It's very true to life for a wide variety of queer people. But also I am passionate about it because of the way that it drove Thai media as a whole forward to a profound degree ā but especially the QL genre. It showed unarguably that there was a market for high quality productions, and the industry reacted by broadening their offerings accordingly. Many of the Thai shows that I love most from the past couple of years clearly echo back to ITSAY in specific aspects, and there will be untold echoes that continue radiating forward from here, in a good way.
Ben
Thank you, Aiden. Captain Hands.
Captain Hands
ITSAY to me is a foundational queer show. Mostly because queer characters are allowed to be complex, three-dimensional and frustrating. If anybody from Tumblr is listening to this podcast, which I know you are, the for, by, and about queer thing is something that I've been looking at a lot as I've been watching more stuff, and this is very much all three, right? Because they're letting these characters make mistakes, and like hurt people that they care about in their quest to better understand themselves? They are allowed to be human, which is like a wild concept in a lot of the like earlier BL shows, it's part of why I don't like it personally when people say that ITSAY's not a BL, because like, why can't BL's be high quality with like, really good structure and story right? Like I don't think that it's fair to just be like, oh this doesn't count as a BL because of like the, the production itself.Ā
And I think that just the emotional, like honesty and vulnerability that the script and the actors like showed throughout this process, really struck deep in my experiences figuring out like my own identity? There's such a commitment to everything and everybody in the show that I really liked. Watching the documentaries. I just love how much of the emotionally safe space it felt like, seeing how often the director himself was crying watching these scenes? Or like, how they would kind of wind up these these crying scenes by like, I remember like, PP being rocked back and forth in a hug by the director in the position that he's going to be in when he hugs Bas crying at the end of, what is it, episode 4 or part of episode 5 when Bas is like, go comfort Teh? All of these moments that like really show that the cast and the crew support each other, and like trust in each otherā¦ there is so much time and effort put into this show, and that is part of why I like it so much, is like you can tell how much care every aspect of this show was given.
Ben
Thank you, Captain Hands. Turtles?
Turtles
ITSAY for me reaches an echelon that only a very few Thai BLs have done for me by way of really balancing out an homage, a love letter to the culture that, that it's celebrating, along with what Aiden and Captain Hands have said so far regarding queer representation, and just hit a really incredible artistic balance experimented with with cinematic form and this serialized kind of publication way. Captain Hands, to your point about the argument about if it's a BL or if it's not a BL, one thing that I've been considering quite a bit in conversations, particularly with neuroticbookworm, has been whether or not ITSAY would have been more successful as a movie. And I've thought more about it and I think that, while there may be an answer to that that's separate from what I will say here ā which is that I think it was really groundbreaking that they took this incredible idea and artistic vision and put it in serialized form, and experimented with what had been concretely developed as a serialized BL genre, and played in that sandbox.Ā
So taking all of that together, taking all of those maybe slightly even risky decisions rooting this show in a particular voice of a culture that we hadn't seen highlighted quite in as explosive of a way as ITSAY being rooted in Phuket was, along with its gorgeous depiction of queer revelation, of queer realization. Just all of that combined into one pot of a show really blows me away.Ā
My watching experience of it ā it took me out, I couldn't multitask, I had to take all of your guys' advice and watch one episode at a time, and no show has done that for me. And so that, that's what I'll take away from it. A unique experience, unlike anything else that I ever experienced watching a Thai BL.
Ben
Before I move to Mor, I just have to say: Absolutely not! This should not have been a movie! I have watched a lot of goddamn movies. We deserved all of the time [laughs] that ITSAY gave us on this story. It would have felt so rushed if they tried to force this shit into two goddamn hours! Yeah! No! No. [Ben bangs the table] There's the table slamming. [laughs]
Turtles
Bartender, get him another drink!
Ben
I have drank like three-quarters of a bottle of wine, so, I'm sorry.
Turtles
Get him some pasta. [laughs]
Ben
[laughs] All right, sorry. This is about you all, not about me. Bestie in Christ, Mor!
Mor
[laughs] That was fantastic, thank you. I was banginā my desk over here like yessss, preach, take me to church! I am here to receive.
Ben
Why do you care so much about ITSAY?
Mor
Ohhh boy. A core memory for me from the last couple of years is sitting shell-shocked, absolutely shell-shocked on my couch, silently weeping, watching the credits of ITSAY roll for the first time. Truly just unable to move for probably ten, fifteen minutes, just trying to absorb everything that I just witnessed? And all I could think was, āthings are different now.ā Truly, that was my reaction to it, I mean, this show? It wasn't made to fulfill a trope. It wasn't made to fill a time slot. It was made to show the tender beautiful humanity that is at the core of all love stories, regardless of the gender of the person you fall in love with, and that's just not something that I can say for a lot of other BLs, or shows period? Not that they don't stand on their own two feet for all sorts of other reasons, but it's something that set ITSAY forever apart for me. Not only that that was clearly their goal, but in how beautifully they achieved it, how perfectly in my opinion they achieved it.Ā
It was so realistic to my experience as a queer person, but it's also a show that I would feel very comfortable showing to someone who had no experience with the BL genre. Because you don't have to have any. You don't have to have an appreciation for it. You just have to be a person. You just have to be a human who has lived through tough human things, and had relationships, to find so much value, so much to relate to. I don't know how you can watch ITSAY and not have it just reverberate with you on some personal level. Whenever I discuss it with people, just like we've been doing tonight, I'm hearing things that even being ā practically a priestess of ITSAY I feel like at this point ā even with that I'm hearing things that I hadn't thought of before. And I think that's beautiful, that a show can be so elevated, and done so well that people from all walks of life can come to it, and come away with things that are just so true and accurate to their experience, and you learn things by hearing it, you know, hearing from them. But yeah it was so realistic to my experience as a queer person, while also giving a happily ever after, which was beautiful but it was also very hard won, which made it even more beautiful for me. The characters are real, they are flawed, but they figure it outā¦ gives hope for the rest of us. [laughs] It raised production values. It raised the bar on what a BL can be.Ā
We did touch on a little bit about people debating whether or not ITSAY is a BL and I just have to say, whenever I'm debating anything I go to the source. And it was I believe a Teen Vogue article that BKPP were interviewed for: they both referred to the show as a BL, so have the writers, so has the crew, and if they are comfortable with addressing it as that, so am I.Ā
And then on a more personal note, it introduced me to BKPP my beloveds, to some of my best online friends, it got me halfway around the world to Thailand. Overall, it's an artistic and technical triumph as much it is is queer storytelling at its finest, it did everything it needed to in all the ways that it mattered, it moved me, it continues to, in a way that not much media ever has. It's got my whole heart and I could probably find something new to marvel about, you know, forever. It's as complicated and as, as simple as that for me
Ben
Thank you, Mor. I have been watching queer cinema for a very long time. Part of why ITSAY is so important to me, is no other piece of media has so consistently generated such strong visceral reactions. There's so many great pieces that you can pull out for people that many of them haven't seen, but there's something about ITSAY, where if you are aware of it at all, if you even heard its name, you know something about it, and have an opinion about it, whether you've watched it or not. And I also feel so strongly about watching Thai queer people talk so frankly about how they also had the same sort of visceral experiences that the rest of us had.Ā
What also matters for me about this show is, like we've had some interesting moments in the west: like Moonlight, Call Me By Your Name, other queer movies that have released, and we keep waiting for their impact to hit the rest of us. We felt the impact of ITSAY within a year of it releasing? ITSAY immediately impacted Korea's willingness to participate in BL, despite how conservative their film industry is. Japan re-upped their efforts on the genreā¦ and GMMTV responding to that! We felt it all throughout late ā21 early ā22. It is so rare that you can point to a work that genuinely changed the way an entire genre functioned? And also really rare that you can feel that impact in its time.Ā
And with that: thank you all for joining us on this first clown panel of The Conversation! If there's anything you want to say to the people before we go?
Turtles
I just want to say what an honor it was to be invited on this. I love loving BLs and I love loving BLs along with you all.
Ben
Captain Hands.
Captain Hands
Sorry if we weren't as funny as David.
Ben
[laughs] That's impossible. He's an unhinged 45-year-old gay man. Aiden?
Aiden
One last thought that came up: ITSAY has this level of radical compassion for every single character on the screen, and that helps the viewer to have compassion even if they may be homophobic or unfamiliar, it brings a level of love and care to those characters, in a way that we really don't get, and I have high hopes that it's something that's going to be repeated again as we move forward.
Ben
Mor, any other closing thoughts?
Mor
Oh man, I don't know, I'm just all caught up in the ITSAY wave of feels, as I, as I tend to do. This show has a unique way of shutting down my logical brain and just making me feel all the things, which is what good art should do, dammit, it really should. So, it's doing its job.Ā
Go watch ITSAY! If y'all are listening to this and you haven't, what are you doing? Come on.
Ben
It's been three years, if you haven't watched it since 2020, go watch it again. It holds up. It's still good.
1:04:08 - Outro
Ben
And we're back. Fun fact for all of you: Nini's setup went completely to shit while we were recording, so she had no idea what the hell we were talking about. For the entire recording we're having to text her updates so she doesn't close down the recording booth. So, Nini is now reacting from post, not from the panel.Ā
Nini
[laughs] Yeah, it was a very interesting experience editing the panel not having heard a word that you guys said, so it was all brand new to me. That is a very new experience for me.Ā
Ben
She edited out all of the āNini can't stop me because she's not here.ā [both laugh]
Nini
Oh god, no, but it was really delightful. I had a really good time. I had a really hard time editing the panel, but there's some things that you guys brought up that really sort of tickled my brain, and I wanted to get into them while I was talking to you in the afters.Ā
Captain Hands made some comments on why Teh teaching Oh Chinese, with Chinese being Tehās comfort language of expression, why that matters, and how the translation scene on the side of Promthep Cape plays into that. I found that was really interesting because that is new thinking for me, after three years and countless rewatches of this show I didn't think that there could be something about it that I hadn't thought about, or that was new to me, but thinking about Chinese as Tehās comfort languageāas his main language of expression. That brought up a whole new set of things to me in their relationship.
Ben
I have a couple of friends locally whose parents have immigrated from Taiwan, and they talk about how they have probably like a kindergartener's understanding of the language sometimes, and I hadn't thought about how Teh wasn't learning Chinese for the first timeāthat he may have had some familiarity from growing up around his mom. That was a fresh thought that I had coming out of the panel.
Nini
It just adds a little bit more color to what exactly Teh was doing in that class, what he was doing tutoring Oh-aew. How hard he worked to make sure that Oh-aew could understand him, because Teh is not great at expression, but the few times that he manages to express himself very clearly to Oh-aew it is in Chinese. Using the Chinese flashcards on the boat, writing and rewriting words in Chinese in his notebook. That's how he's able to get his points across to Oh-aew, and he can only do that because he's taught Oh-aew how to understand him. I found that was a really good observation.Ā
You made an observation as well that I really enjoyed about tourist places as safe spaces when you are from a tourist place, that going to do tourist things actually gives you a certain amount of anonymity that you wouldn't normally get.Ā
Ben
Some of the normal spaces like cafes, malls, etc. are populated by people that you would run into, but, like, locals are not going on a swamp tour. And so, you can get away with things that you might not elsewhere. Like, I think about the fact that Promthep Cape is a really popular tourist location, and the fact that when they were actually filming that scene very kind tourists stayed out of the camera, but were like two meters sometimes away from the boys while they're recording one of the most pivotal scenes of the series. And that's kind of what it's like when you're in tourist places in your hometown. Like there's a bunch of strangers crowding around you, and it doesn't matter if they hear you say something because they don't know any of your people.
Nini
One thing that Aiden brought forward that I really wanted to delve into myself: Aiden talked about visual style and how ITSAY allowed things to look grungy, and things to look worn, and things to look old, and things to look a little bit dirty; and how that contrasted against the previous BL impulse for everything to be bright and clean and shiny. And one of the things that made me think about from my own experience, how upsetāI don't know if āupsetā is the termāpeople tend to get from my home country when my home country is portrayed outside as anything other than bright and shiny and clean and modern. There's that whole pressure to look a certain way to the outside world, and that comes through in our media as well.Ā
So watching that impulse sort of come through in Thai media, and then being sort of broken by this particular production. I always like when I'm watching media from other places when I can see the points of connection between my culture and another culture, between my home and another person's home, that always makes me feel more grounded in the story, even though it's a culture and a place that might be 180 degrees away from me. You can still find those very human points of connection. I really enjoyed that.Ā
Here's one that I want to ask you. You talked towards the end of the panel about Oh and The Knowing, and you've brought up The Knowing over and over again recently, and it's something that I've really been sitting with as you've explained certain things in your life and certain things in queer life, and one of the things that struck me listening to the panel that I think hadn't struck me before is that Oh Knows. Oh has The Knowing, but Teh also knows about Oh because Teh has a complete lack of surprise when Oh tells him that he likes Bas. He doesn't even register it as, like, a surprising thing. So Teh also has a Knowing about Oh but not about himself. I found that a really interesting juxtaposition.
Ben
Teh is an actor who's masking all the time. I think he was probably a little bit surprised, but when Oh tells him that secret, Teh's only goal is to desperately reconnect with Oh. So, I don't think in that moment he cares about Oh being queer. Like, Tehās so stupid. He's not like paying attention to that sort of stuff. He only cares about Oh not shoving him away at that moment. Like, it didn't really matter what that secret was because he was going to respond positively.
Nini
I get that, but as the time goes on, we don't see any reaction from Teh about it, which is not the reaction that I would expect a teenage boy to have.
Ben
[sighs] When it comes to Teh, he's always performing. It's possible that he already knew these things, but I get the sense that he compartmentalizes. Like, a big part of it for Teh was he doesn't want to talk about it. Because talking about it makes it real, and then he has to face the reality of it. Like, that's what happens after the underwater kiss scene is Oh wants to talk about it and Teh really, really doesn't want to talk about it. It's possible that he knew, but because he's been away from Oh and so repressed, it's not eating at him.
Nini
I'll sit with that.
Ben
Teh doesn't act like he knew, but it's very clear that Oh was important to him, and he had to rapidly come to terms with those feelings.
Nini
I think it's pretty clear that Teh didn't know about himself. It's pretty clear that his journey I Told Sunset About You is a journey of understanding things that he didn't know and understand about himself.
Ben
Part of why I like that so much of Teh's journey is unspoken is it allows it to be more universal because it lets the audience at large take from Teh what they need and project into him what they're bringing to the scene, and this works out really well for Oh a lot, too, because Oh does so much with just looking at Teh.
There's some really great dialogue in the translations of this show, but there's a phenomenal amount of amazing work done from what isn't said, and that is one of my favorite things about it.
Nini
I also agree that one of the great things about ITSAY is how much is done in the silences and it's so interesting that you talked about the silences being something that the audience can project whatever they want onto and that being part of ITSAYās success, because it's also in a way so legible.Ā
Normally when there's space like that for the audience to project onto we get all kinds of wild shit, like Iām just gonna be real with you. But the silences and the way that these two boys acted were so legible that even though there was all this silence between them, for all this space for the audience to project into, they generally projected what I think the creators intended because the reads were largely consistent in terms of how people were taking it in and how they were reading things.
Ben
I do think so, but a big part of that is how simple ITSAYās story is. It's a very straightforward coming of age story in a lot of ways. That's why it works! Everything about ITSAY is inherently familiar, and it feels like an experience that people can enjoy again a decade, two, three decades from now. It's one of those classics you can go back and look at and you can probably point at where other projects referred back to it.Ā
I feel like I Told Sunset About You is going to be one of those projects where the future of queer coming-of-age cinema is going to refer back to it as one of its seminal moments.
Nini
So all that said, if we had to write at this pointā¦ an ode to ITSAY as our closing remarks on this retrospective, what would be your ode?
Ben
ITSAY is the best show that has ever existed because it is called I Told Sunset About You. It sets up this huge drama about running to the cape together before sunset, and they make it to the cape at sunset. Oh has this incredible breakdown and just says āI don't care what we're going to be to each other, just please don't leave me again,ā and Teh, upending decades of genre history and expectation, says, āIf I can be anything, can I be your boyfriend?ā and old wounds finally closed in my heart.
Nini
Well, that is an ode. I don't think I could be anywhere as poetic as you about it, but what I will say is that this story touched something very deep inside me. I can't imagine not having seen this. I can't imagine where I would be now if I hadn't seen this. It changed things for me in a lot of ways, and that's one of my highest praises for media. If you change things for me, if you make me look at things differently, you've won. So, that's my ode to ITSAY: you won.
And with that we're gonna wrap this one up. Our next episode will be our Last Twilight in Phuket discussion. Ben and I are going to sit down and jaw about that a little bit, and then we will be introducing a fresh new panel and talking about I Promised You the Moon.
So look out for that. We out. Say bye to the people, Ben.
Ben
Peace.
#podcast#lgbtq#i told sunset about you#i promised you the moon#ben and nini's conversations#the conversation#on art#season 4#fall 2023#fall series#thai bl#bl series#s4e1
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šØSPOILERS FOR FANTASY HIGH JUNIOR YEAR EPISODE 7šØ
Dimension20 "Fantasy High Junior Year"
Episode 7 "Stress Tested"
Timestamp: 00:36:06
Video Length: 4min. & 43sec.
Adaine gets a job at Basrar's! šš
Brennan: "Who else knows what their DC 5, their first focus and priority's gonna be?"
Siobhan: "I'm gonna go job because up until now my academics are pretty good. So I can focus..."
Brennan: "You are not in danger of expulsion."
Siobhan: "Exactly. So, I can have one week where I dip a little bit."
Brennan: "Hell yeah."
Siobhan: "If I have to."
Brennan: "Let's see what the roll is."
Siobhan: "Omg, I thought that was a one. It's not. It's a seven. But plus four, which is an 11. Oy-yi-yi."
Brennan: "And what skill are you rolling for that?"
Siobhan: "Investigation."
Brennan: "Cool."
Murph: "You do have a bardic."
Ally: "The DC's five though, right? Didn't you totally pass 'cause you picked it for your first one?"
Brennan: "Yes, you did. So this-"
Siobhan: "I did, but I still, I need to get to 'well off' to not roll with disadvantage for my Academics. And 'well off' is a 25."
Lou: "What did you get?"
Siobhan: "11."
Murph: "Oh, okay. Yeah."
Siobhan: "I mean, I basically can only get a 25 if I crit because all of these skills, I don't have anything good in."
Brennan: "But you do have Bardic and if you want to re-roll." *tempts stress token and rattles the box* šā
Emily: "Well, what about Divination rolls? I would think, especially with investigation."
Siobhan: "Well I- I rolled my Divination rolls."
Emily: "Oh, Okay."
Siobhan: "I used one. And the other one is also not very good."
Emily: "Okay."
Siobhan: "So, um..."
Ally: "Are you gonna re-roll or are you gonna add Bardic to that?"
Siobhan: "I mean, maybe I will use my Divination roll. So that brings me up to a 15. And then, I'll-"
Emily: "Can I also give you Bardic? So that your-"
Brennan: "I think we're gonna only allow one Bardic per."
Siobhan: "I'll use my Fabian bardic to see if I can-"
Lou: "It's a d8 now."
Siobhan: "Ooh!"
Siobhan: "Let's see if I can get it up to 20 at least."
Brennan: "Cool."
Siobhan: *rolls* "Nah."
Adaine to Fabian: "But thank you anyway. I appreciate your friendship."
Fabian: "Hey, you can always come by an get an espresso."
Adaine: "Thank you."
Ally: "You made a dollar."
Brennan: "Adaine, go ahead and roll two d10 and you get that many silver pieces."
Siobhan: "Okay."
Brennan: "As you do so, let me ask you. There are a couple different job opportunities. Part-time counseling at the student center. There's some other part-time work around. But you do see there's a job listing for a server at Basrar's."
Siobhan: "I mean, I'll do that. If I work at Basrar's can I get advantage on Popularity?"
Ally: "Ooooohhh."
Brennan: "We're actually gonna cut over and see this little scene. So, it's the first week of school. Like, I guess you head out. Basrar's is not too far from Mordred Manor. How do you like- what's going through Adaine's mind as you walk off to apply for a job at Basrar's?"
Siobhan: "I mean, I feel pretty good about it because me and Bastard already have a great relationship. I also have that thing of like, I really enjoy going to Basrar's. And so I'm like, 'So working there will also be great.'"
Brennan: "Yeah."
Siobhan: "So I think I'm going in very optimistic."
Brennan: "Basrar looks at you and says,"
Basrar: "Adaine, the Elven Oracle."
Adaine: "Hi!"
Basrar: "It is wonderful to see you."
Adaine: "Oh yeah, you don't have to- you can just call me Adaine. Actually I was wondering, I saw you had a part-time job available and I would really love to..."
Siobhan: "I just hand over my rƩsumƩ, which is 'Elven Oracle' and then 'one week of working at Oodles of Strudel.'"
Basrar: "And do you have any references from Oodles of Strudel?"
Adaine: "Unfortunately, the entire mall was destroyed in a cosmic incident."
Basrar: "No email address or?"
Ally & Lou laughing ššš¤£š¤£šš
Adaine: "No, unfortunately. No, and I actually- I was gonna say I could give you a reference for the Elven Oracle, but I actually don't know. I guess my sister. Yeah, I could- yeah, she's an elf."
Basrar: "Great. I'll give her a call right now." *waiting to hear the number*
Adaine: "Yeah. Great."
Basrar: "I don't have her phone number."
Adaine: "Oh. Yeah." *gives the number to Basrar*
Brennan: "He punches it in. You see him over in the corner."
Basrar: "Mmhmm. This is Basrar of Basrar's Soda Fountain calling for an application for a job for one Adaine Abernant. Just wanted to hear any reviews as her work of the Elven Oracle. Mmhmm." *continuous nodding*
Siobhan: "I start texting Aelwyn."
Adaine's text to Aelwyn: "What the **** are you talking about? What are you doing? Don't ruin this for me. I'm so broke."
Brennan: "You hit Send. A winky face comes back and he goes,"
Basrar: "Ha ha, a bit. Yes, very funny. Good. Yes, yes, yes."
Brennan: "You see he hangs up and says,"
Basrar: "Great, you can start working right away."
Adaine: "Oh, amazing. Thank you. Amazing."
Brennan: "All he has to do is summon ice cream. So it's an easy gig for him. It's just you carry it. He's like,"
Basrar: "Some of the ice creams have gotten very complicated and are hard to carry."
Brennan: "And there's like huge tureens and sundaes and boats of stuff."
Siobhan: "I'm so good at carrying things because I have a Mage Hand. So I'm doing a regular carry, but then my Mage Hand is also carrying three ice creams also."
Brennan: "Hell yeah."
#dimension 20#dimension20#blog#fantasy high#fantasy high junior year#stress tested#fantasy high stress tested#fantasy high junior year episode 7#fhjy ep 7#fantasy high scene#fantasy high junior year scene#dimension20 scene#queue#basrar#basrar's#basrar's soda fountain#basrar soda fountain#brennan lee mulligan#adaine#adaine abernant#adaine o'shaughnessey#siobhan thompson#aelwyn#aelwyn abernant
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DAN AND PHIL REACT TO PHAN TWITTER REACTIONS w/ timestamps
.03 sir please donāt crack your hands in my ears.
.11 way to early in the video for a phude Jumpscare
.16 DIP AND PIP ?!!!??
.26 tbh shoutout to Phil for acknowledging that even tho we have fan accounts, not everything we say, create, post is something we would want them to see. Love the self awareness. Appreciate the space he provides
.35 rip Dan memes and tumblr tags
.56 I actually needed to be told I am gorgeous and intelligent, I knows itās fake but itās nice to hear even if fake
1.37 WHY IS HE **** ********* THE MIC N O NO NO NO NO WHAT??????
2.08 chill Phil we werenāt gonna fight about it. Youāre Edwardā¦ OKAY
2.25 how many times are they going to watch pinof 1 ! Babes you can do that anytime you want not just on camera
2.37 Phil is in FULL CRISIS realizing how messy he is as if they havenāt already talked about this before
3.09 TUMBLR NEVER LEFT. YOU LEFT.
3.29 the synced lean in as they discovered the dan has something in his teeth bit was a video
3.40 SO SO SO GLAD THE SOCK VIDEO MADE IT. AND HES ACKNOWLEDGING
3.46 SHOES SOCK VIDEO JUMPS AREššš
4.24 ākeep readingā oh goodness that. Sir. Okay.
4.44 hi just realized is Dan wearing a muscle tank under the see through shirt????? Side note. Want the see through shirt
5.03 FANTASTIC FOURSOME JUMPDVARE
6.14 NO DAN NOT KATE THEY ARE LISTENINF. DONT BECOME INVOLVED IN ANOTHER ROYAL CONSPIRACY
7.41 absolutely fire meme. I laughed so loud I actually had to pause the video. Worst part? I had already reposted on twt yet still reacted to it
8.05 he is staring into my soul. Hell how is he staring THROUGH my soul
9.17 no words. āItās not a bad lookā alakakakak???
9.22 So suddenly itās not āweā anymore, huh?
9.53 rip Philās slitš«
10.08 I just through Dan making a joke then immediately hitting Phil to let him know he was joking was really funny. Stuff I do with my friends I am tactile
11.46 I ALWAYS thought that image was edited to have all of them. I didnāt realize it was a real photos
12.38 OH MY FOS????? JUMPSVARE WHAT THE HELL
12:45 those pounds weee so aggressive. It sounded like they really hurt. Iām hurt listening
12:46 Phil is watching that monitor like a HAWK he is NOT losing monetization bc Dan wants to wap
13.00 Phil saw and saved this and nobody knew. He lurks. Nobody is safe.
13:36 about nine āwhat can I sayās in. Dan has a genuine look of terror and confusion. He looks like heās playing up his reaction a bit in the beginning, laughing and stuff and acting annoyed but this point is genuine horror and realization. This is so gold. Will be giffing later. Also precious Phil
14.50 okay the editing kinda memes his monologue a bit but i was high key inspired. Heās so wrote. Everything is a story that must be concluded. I love that thought process. Clearly bc I am also a grade a yapper but still
15:50 oh the immediate IMMEDIATE regret in Philās face
16:35 we love a self aware king. The poster was a tad rough
16:56 THUS CIDEO AND COMMENTARY JS SO SO SO GOOD
17:38 YES THANK YOU THE WADVERT WAS RVEFHONE. We couldnāt eat sleep or think without seeing it
18:11 please wash your blanket? Guys? Like? You can clean, wash, or dry clean anything. Please?
19:00 tbh saw under the robbing blanks and it wasnāt even that bad? Compared to every horrific demon phannie thing that has been seen? Not bad! Could have been worse
19:45 2021 period???? Hello??? You were gone since 2018? At least from dapg??
20:44 yet???? Capitolestor strikes again
20:50 did they not have a keep calm and something on poster in their apt at one point??? Some people?? You mean you???
21:16 I SAW THIS WHEN IT DROPPED. love dami sm. This video was so good
22:24 JUMPSCARE
22:55 ā1992ā āDanielā calm down
23:25 āyou also let meā guys??? How is this forced situation? Who decided??
24:20 he needs to back away from the mic I can feel him breathing in my ears my goood ess??
24:34 Iām screaming bc they used a clip from the section before we all thought they got high. This section they posted was just a cute section
24:54 literally speechless. Also jumpscare?
26:30 the entire dan induced conclusion is beautiful I love them and their banter
26:54 nvm can you lean into the mic closer and tell us youāre proud again??? Needed that???
#dan and phil#amazingphil#dnp#phil lester#daniel howell#philip lester#dan howell#danisnotonfire#dan and phil renaissance#dnpgames
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11/01/2021 nakey new year
H: as you may have noticed my voice is all cracked because I screamed for 3 days straight.
SL: Why are you naked?
H: (?) to get in the right spirit (?) I was thinking about what to do for this video and I thought ānakey it isā. (?)Ā
H: About the match against phantasmo there were articles that kept only the part where I said it was boring, but in this match what I kept saying was ācheck what heās doing! This isnāt right!ā to the referee. Especially when he (ELP) stepped on my hand. (...) I remember it clearly because it really hurt, I thought my bones might be broken. I think the referee was checking as well as he could, but even I couldnāt tell exactly what he was doing. He fooled the ref, he fooled the audience, it was a foul play only was aware of. It was frustrating. Itās just like Ishimori san said after the match, I won by a hairās breadth. That was embarrassing. I thought to myself ā... that wasnāt a great win..ā and thatās when I said it was āboringā. But it was about the way it ended. Itās not like I wanted you to think āoh, so Hiromu was bored?ā! I wasnāt able to show what I wanted to show, and then there was the mess with the foul playsā¦Ā I thought āRight, thatās the kind of people Bullet Club areā.
H: You know when it comes to BC, recently I mostly fought against Ishimori and he usually faces me head on, so Iād kind of forgotten Bullet Club was a thing. You know last summer, Evil joined them! And then afterwards it was like āahā. I probably was looking at this match like a match against the Super JCup winner and thought he would be straightforward about it. And he (ELP) said he was looking forward to it, so I had some expectations. I do want to fight against him again though, have a better pin.Ā
H: I hadnāt realised we were the semi final at tokyo dome until the morning of the same day. I felt happiness at the thought that the Jr IWGP belt made it to the semi finals. And since my opponent was Ishimori, of course I knew without a doubt that it would be a hard match. There was just one thing that was different from usual though. The elbows. Fifteen minutes into the match, Ishimori flipped a switch. *footage of the sequence with a caption that says āIshimoriās barrage of elbows that Hiromu can hardly respond toā* That was tough. I tried not to give ground but I ended up receiving a one sided beating. At that point there were multiple times where I was on the verge of losing consciousness. In this situation you start to feel good, because of how many hits you took. I thought āitās rare for Ishimori san to get so fired upā. I think Ishimori san lost it a bit, heās usually pretty indifferent. I almost started laughing during the match. It was fun. It made me happy, it felt good. Itās bizarre huh? Pro-wrestling is hard to understand.
Ā I thought there was something wrong with me, after the match. I wasnāt thinking much during. āIām stupidā is what I thought. I didnāt want to lose. Itās easy to take a hit and fall down for a bit, but I didnāt want to do that. I donāt want to just win. Itās not just about winning. I didnāt want to just win a match at the Dome. I always liked matches where you take 9 hits and give back 10.
SL: Do you rewatch your matches many times?
H: I donāt like to watch them multiple times. This time the elbow scene really stood out to me, I thought āIām so dumb (lol)ā. āI should have just fallen down~ā.Ā During the match I wanted to overcome the attack, rise up and fight back. I completely lost that exchange in the end tho.Ā
SL: Have you watched the other matches?
H: ā¦ I watched Naito sanās match, and I think thatās it. I just watched gifs on the NJPWworld twitter. I was like āOh Takagi san did thisā¦ Oh Bushi san did thatā¦āĀ
SL: You talked about a dream in your backstage interview..
H: AhH. I didnāt,, really mean to say that I wanted to be in the main event at Tokyo Dome one day. I once told Okamoto san (journalist) that I wasnāt especially interested in main eventing at Tokyo Dome, but while I was walking back backstage with the belt around my waist I ended up yelling it. At that moment I thought I wanted to do it, it occurred to me that I could do it. So I yelled āI will defend the IWGP championship in Tokyo Domeā, or ratherā¦. I tried. I really bit my tongue. I couldnāt say it right.Ā
*showing the clip where he starts saying it, itās fine up until IWGP and then itās gibberish* (it starts at 11:00 itās so fucking funny). I bet the fans thought I was just yelling as usual. Anyway I said it again backstage, so forgive meā¦ I make mistakes tooā¦ Because I am human.Ā
H: There used to be only one day for Wrestle Kingdom, nowadays itās two so it could be possible right? One night for the IWGP heavyweight championship, one night for the IWGP junior heavyweights. Thereās potential there. I want to do it. I was thinking about stuff like that, having won the BOSJ, the IWGP jr belt, having defeated the Super JCup, but I had one person on my mind: SHO. I didnāt want to have to think to myself that Iād lost to him (?) And heās fun.Ā
(Sthg sthg apparently, in the video where he discusses every BOSJ contestants, he asked to cut a good chunk of what he said about SHO)
H: Heās really changed a lot, as a wrestler, Iām really looking forward to facing him. I want him to be my next challenger. Or rather, I will let him challenge me. Itās not in the cards yet but he did ask me in the ring (on January 6th at the NewYear Dash), when no one else could hear: āPlease let me challenge for the beltā. He asked in Keigo (formal/polite speech). Thatās how serious he was. It showed his seriousness, he should never change that part of him.Ā
H: ANYWAY. Bye! Happy New Year Everyone!
#hiromu takahashi#takahashi hiromu#hirochan's yt#njpw#ayy i'm back!#this video was fun!#I feel like the editing in the videos is getting better! there were a bunch of clips from WK#the one at timestamp 11:00 really made me laugh#also the way SL just straight up asked why he was naked
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BBHās Prison visit (scene-by-scene)
(To make things easier Iām going to put the timestamp for the END of each scene I talk about)
Link to the vodĀ
Very long post warning! This is going to center on Dream so if you arenāt into that donāt click the read more.Ā
28:46 - Bbh comes up to Dream and even walks past him a bit before Dream turns and starts moving again. This is our first sign of him being spacey. After he says hello he takes a deep breath. This sounds like the type of breath you take to calm down.Ā
29:14 - We can hear how Dreamās voice is different even from the last time we heard him. To make sure I checked Tommyās vod and it is completely different. He speaks slower, with more spaces, less enunciation, sometimes thereās a slight slurr to his voice. Bbh asks how heās doing and he replies and goes to spin his clock. I donāt know how intentional this is but BBH asks what heās doing and Dream stops and looks at the floor instead of at BBH.Ā
29:33 - Bbh asks if spinning his clock is what Dream does in his free time and Dream says yes. He used to write but he burned a lot of his books. He doesnāt say why. We can assume based off what he said he doesnāt write anymore. That means all he has to do is spin his clock round and round. After BBH opens the chest 6 spaces are empty. One book is on the lectern. He assumedly burnt all the books Tommy made him write. Why? He never elabirates on this so we donāt know
29:52 - Bbh asks if Dream likes it in here and Dream takes almost 3 seconds to respond. He describes it asĀ āreally goodā. Before while bbh is talking about the cell he doesnāt say anything. He looks at the lava but doesnāt move towards it.
30:11 - Dream talks about how he gets potatoes :] But theyāre raw :[. He goes close to the lava but comes back to talk to bad. Also whenever he walks he runs. Dream is notoriously very active, he bounces around he canāt do that in the cell so instead he runs from place to place.Ā āhe said he- I tried to get out and so he made it so I couldnāt have visitors for a few days butā He completely drops the potatoes conversation to say that then drops this conversation.Ā
30:47 - Bbh tells Dream that heās done bad things that got him in there. Dream doesnāt argue he simply repeatsĀ āthatās trueā. He also says he gets toĀ āthink and think and think... and play with my clockā. In that sentence he looks at the damage pot dispenser then plays with his clock.Ā
31:36 -Ā When Bbh asks if Dream wants to hear whatās going on outside he perks up somewhat and asks how George and Sapnap are doing. He remarks after bbh says they probably miss that they havenāt visited him. He then makes a reason for it because there were a few days he couldnāt get visitors. Bbh accidentally rubs in that they havenāt come by at all and Dream goes and spins his clock for 31:24 - 31:33. He says nothing in this time, then he asks whatās happening outside.Ā
32:41 - While bbh talks about thatās going on outside Dream spins his clock, he stops to chuckle at what Tommyās up to. Bad says heās sure a lot of people miss Dream while Dream is turned around and Dream snaps to attention looking at bad. He laughs at TechnoĀ āstill doing the whole anarchy thingā then asks for a 3rd time what is happening outside. He goes back to spinning his clock while Bbh talks. At this point itās very obvious how much Dream uses the clock. Itās like he relies on it.Ā
33:28 - Bbh talks to Dream aboutĀ the egg. He simply saysĀ āI remember the eggā andĀ āthatās intrestingā before going back and spinning his clock.Ā āI donāt really have anything else other than the clockā. Thatās sadly true. As far as he knows everyone hates him, heās lost everything. The only thing he has left is his clock. Bbh asks if heās named it and he has but he doesn't want too say the name. Instead of that he just keeps spinning it.
34:29 - Dream takes out at book and starts writing in it. Bbh asks what heās writing but Dream doesn't reply simply giving bad the completed book. Itās titledĀ āthank you!ā and the inside saysĀ āthank you for visiting me badboyhalo!ā Dream tells bad he wonāt be able to take it out. Bbh says that once Dream gets out he can take it with him. Dream doesn't reply and spins his clock. If you havenāt noticed how much he uses this clock youāre blind. He says that his sentence is forever when bad asks. āForevers not that longā Way to rub it in bad. At least Dream chuckles a little.
35:40 - Bad tells him he likes what heās done with the place before realizing how that sounds. Dream moves his clock to the other side of the room.Ā āI like to watch it and then when it hits halfway *pause* then *pause* then Iām happyā. Note that in this chunk Dream is particularly bad at replying to bbh. They watch the clock move together. Dream says that it wasĀ āawesomeā he seems to not have been the biggest fan of redecotaring because he moves his clock back to itās original location.Ā
36:43 - Dream makes a sound like when you are sad and have to take a breath before you start crying. He says that he doesnāt know what else heās supposed to do. Bad mentions that Dream has a heat source. From that we can assume that Dreamās tiny prison is pretty darn hot. He also asks how long heāe been in there suggesting that he has lost track of time. Thatās pretty common in people who are in solitary confinement. Bad gives a timeline of a few weeks to 2 weeks. For reference the United Nations says solitary confinement for more than 15 days is torture.Ā
37:20 - Bad asks whoās come and visit Dream, Dream says only Tommy and bbh is surprised. Dream remarks thatĀ āheās the only one actually, until youā and goes to stand close to the lava. He goes close to it a second time while he justifies no one visiting by saying thereās limited visiting hours and overtime more people will (come visit).Ā
38:18 - Dream tells bbh about the #epic prank he does on Sam where he burns his clock so he can see Sam and say hi. The clock that heās spent most of his visit spinning. So he can see someone else. I wonder if Sam decided not to give Dream another clock what else he would do to get Sam to visit. Bbh asks if he gets in trouble for burning his clock and Dream says sometimes he gets less potatoes.Ā
"oh so he starves you"
Ā "no I'm not s- I dunno- I wouldn't say I'm starving but-"Ā
"you have 3 square meals a day?"Ā
"........... i have potatoes"
The concerning parts are how much he stumbles over his words and the I wouldnāt say Iām starving. What would you say you are then?Ā
39:38 - Dream chuckles and throws his clock into lava. Itās gone now. Letās see if he acts any different. Dream moves around a bunch while talking about what will happen later, you can hear his chuckle and smile at hisĀ āprankā. Dream tells bad that Sam is going to make a system so that the potatoes are dropped in so he doesn't have to see him to give him potatoes. Bbh says that he should keep sam from doing it because doesnāt it brighten his day? Dream admits it does but everything here is automated so itāll make it better. Bbh asks if awesamdude treats Dream well and Dream says he does while he keeps glancing at the lava.
40:28 - Dream sniffles and tells bbh that itās fine in here. He has his clock and his book and,,, heās happy in here...right? He finishes off that sentence by sniffling and clearing his throat. All signs point to him not being happy in here. Where before he would spin his clock now he,,,, tries not to cry. Bbh asks if heās allowed to have anything else, Dream tells him he can ask. While bbh talks about how maybe he could get a potted plant he sniffles again. Dream is obviously upset but he does as Dream does and says heās okay and things are fine.Ā
42:00 - Bbh asks who Dream wants to come visit him, he says that he wants george and sapnap to come visit him. Bbh accidentally makes it sound like they donāt want to visit Dream, he says that they probably just need to be reminded that Dream is available for visitors. Dream takes 4 seconds to reply and itās just a sadĀ āyeaā. Bbh tells him to look on the bright side and Dream just looks at the floor. I think that he knows that George and Sapnap donāt like/hate him. He also takes awhile to reply to Bbh saying that heās been on good behavior right? If thatās because he hasnāt or because Samās idea of good behavior is hard for Dream we donāt know.Ā
42:51 - Dream throws himself into lava and Bbh reacts with horror yelling at him what is he doing? He says that sometimes he swims in there. What exactly made him decide to swim in the lava? Maybe him remembering how he he lost his friends, maybe him realizing heāll never be free, maybe he was bored? We donāt know. What we do know is in this cell healthy coping mechanisms do not exist. They arenāt allowed to exist by nature of it. He tells bab that going into the lava keeps him entertained and sometimes he likes to set himself on fire with it. He demonstrates this and while bad asks if itās a prank he just chuckles. This demonstrates how in the cell heās willing to put himself physically into harms way for any more stimulation. Itās sad honestly.Ā
44:12 - Dream says that bbhās time is probably almost up and thanks him for visiting him. Bbh says he wants to get Dream a pet and improve his living conditions. Dream talks about how long it takes to break a block, he once sat there for over 20 minutes with basically no progress. He helped design the prison and knows that if he broke a block the guard would be teleported in (and kill him). He realizes if bbh becomes a guard it could be a way to get him to come visit him :D heāll simply punch a block for hours until it breaks so the people tasked to kill him can be there. Dream is desperate for human contact. He realizes that would make awesam really mad and he doesnāt want to do that.Ā
44:35 - Bbh says maybe he can get his sentence commuted from forever to 10 or 20 years. Dream says heād like that if he has good behavior. I canāt help but feel noones idea of good behavior is lining up. Sam wants to think and see Dream as little as possible. Dream, I donāt know what Dream considers good behavior. Bbh sees good behavior as not trying to escape or messing with anything. Bbh says he doesn't wanna get Dreamās hopes but but Dream should look in the bright side. Dream sniffles and clears his throat. As this goes on it gets harder for him to not cry it seems. Bad tells Dream to look on the bright side and Dream says alright in a way that obviously suggests he wont.Ā
45:43 - Bad says that heāll come visit Dream again really soon. He says heāll bring George and Sapnap, Dream reminds him only 1 person can visit at a time. Bad says then heāll schedule for them to visit. Bbh alost saays that they need to visit their friend but instead says they need to visit you (Dream) instead. From Dreamās POV this celents that they donāt care for him anymore. Bbh ends his visit and Dream somehow sounds more dejected than ever.Ā
50:42 - Sam while HOLDING a clock says that he might not give Dream a new clock. It also doesnāt matter whether Dream knows if itās daytime or not. Bbh seems to have picked up how important the clock is to Dream. Sam also asks if DreamĀ āsaid anything(????)ā while he was in there. He also says that Dream swims in a lot a lot and usually he just wants attention. Sam also says with the way Dream has been acting that he probably wonāt get his sentence commuted.
Ā Overall very concerning! From the way Dream relied on an inanimate object and the moment it was he started sniffling, to how he talked and sounded different, to how he swims in lava and sets himself on fire for fun, to how heās starved if he misbehaves, to how he was spaced out and slow to respond. This all paints a picture of someone not doing well but pretending he isnāt. If he were to not get a new clock, and sam installs the automated potatoes machine I feel like he would get worse much faster. Unless bbh gets on that prison reform fast itās not looking good for him. Not even getting on how the warden of the prison hates his guts.Ā
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PARTIAL TRANSCRIPTS OF INTERVIEW WITH OāCONNELL, WILLIAM. DATED: 31 JANUARY 1998, 1:44 PM EST.
REMARKS: Compassionate and a career teacher, OāConnell seems to be a good fit with the students, and his nature seems to fit the skills that we need for our faculty at the Institute. Healing is a good plus, but his mutant ability is moderate at best. However, heās willing to learn, and given the rambunctious nature of the students here, heāll have ample opportunity, between breaking up fights and dealing with accidents. Hopefully he never has to use it in any widespread capacity, but thatās simple optimism. Further correspondence with the teacher will be noted with the codename TRIAGE.
TIMESTAMP: 00:02:45 - 00:04:11
XAVIER: This is a taxing job, Mister OāConnell. I know that you have your fair share of realization regarding mutant children, seeing as you have your own in our care, but I cannot stress enough how much these children will depend on you.
OāCONNELL: I know, sir. Making decisions lightlyābig decisions like this, it isnāt my speed.
X: Are you ready to be not just their teacher, but their confidant? Their mentor? Even another father to some of them?
O: Isnāt that just being a teacher after all? If Iām not doing that, well, sorry sir, Iām simply not doing my job well.
X: Oh?
O: Lot of the kids Iām leaving behind need the same thing too, and I donāt like tooting my own horn, but Iād like to think I helped a lot of them out like I will yours.
X: Admirable of you to say that. Educatorsāwell, they shape minds, for good and for ill.
O: I just hope I do more good in my life than ill, either way.
X: Doesnāt everyone? Alright, moving on, [...]
TIMESTAMP: 00:12:15 - 00:15:33
O: [...] really close to my kid too. I live in Silverhouse and I like being near her, but I hope that with the new job, I think a house in Cedarworth would be in the sights.Ā
X: Why not stay here, in the Institute?
O: Iāwell..
X: Speak plainly, Will. Itās no fault of mine or yours where you want to reside, but I just want to know.
O: Thereās too many people, if Iām going to be honest. Itās more situational, and Iāve wanted a house that me and Gabby can call our own. Sheāll have her room in the Institute if she wants; she made so many friends here, but Iād like her to have a nicer one.
X: And why didnāt you simply take the offer before?
[OāCONNELL is silent for a moment, looking down at his hands and takes a breath.]
O: Can Iā
X: I already said you can speak plainly, Will. Go on.
O: Okay.
[A silence stretches on for a minute or so, before OāCONNELL speaks.]
O: I think I wasnāt ready. I used to say that I wanted to stay for the kids that I had there, you know. Like it was a mission. A holy calling. Still is, but Iām not going to lie, I think I wasnāt ready to be around that many people. That many mutants.
O: You know from my file that I divorced when Gabby was born, yeah? I had to learn how to be a parent on my own, then with help from some of your folks. Then the job. God save me, I donāt think I deserved it. Not really. Then, I didnāt think I could be around that many mutants without thinking about one of the worst days of my life.
O: I wonāt make any excuses, sir. But if you want my reason, thereās the long and short of it.
X: Thatās a big admission.
O: Iām a big guy.
TIMESTAMP: 00:45:12 - 00:45:58
X: [...] if you were to take this job, Will. The policies wouldnāt be for someone of your skill set, but I would ask you to keep this in mind.
O: Healing?
X: Yes. Just know that some of our students can be volatile, as is the case with any maturing person, and may not have the sharpest grasp on their own abilities.
O: I understand; I did take care of Gabby alone for a while, right?
X: That you did.
O: I donāt think Iāll be remiss in saying that Iāll be, uh, equipped to handle the job with my ability. I heal plenty fast anyways.
X: Of course.
O: Just keep Nic close by, alright?
[OāCONNELL and XAVIER laugh together.]
TIMESTAMP: 01:00:12 - 01:09:58
X: I appreciate that youāve finally considered taking a position here, Will.
O: It isnāt an easy decision, lemme tell you. My kids are all bummed to see me go; every time they ask Iāve got half a mind to tell them Iām gonna be staying ātil May.
O: Got the sub, though, so everythingās a little clean if I ever get the job.
X: Mister OāConnell, I have one final question for you.
O: I did sayā
X: Yes, of course. Will.
[A long pause settles between them, OāCONNELL grows uncomfortable and shifts in his seat, perturbed.]
X: There are a great many things that would do this school harm, Will. As you are aiming to be a teacher here, and more importantly a father with a vested interest in your daughterās well-being, would you defend this school?
O: Of course.
X: Would you fight for it?
[The long pause on OāCONNELLās end continues. It stretches to around three minutes, not looking at XAVIER. When he finally speaks, thereās a sense of finality to it.]
O: I donāt have any experience, sir. But Iām willing to learn.
X: Alright.
[A slow smile spreads across XAVIERāS face, kind and warm.]
X: Weāll be happy to have you as part of the faculty, Will.
O: Oh? Iāoh!
X: Yes, oh.
O: You wonātāoh wow, you wonāt regret this sir! Iām going to beāI gotta tell Gabby the news! I canāt believe it!
[OāCONNELL stumbles against the coffee table and bangs his knee as he goes to shake XAVIERāS hand. The Professor chuckles as he does so, amused by the current turn of events. OāCONNELL exits, almost with glee.]
[END TRANSCRIPT.]
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nct/wayv masterlist
number of works: 48+
begun: 20/08/2019 last updated: 11/12/2020
key
request ā¤ musical ā« halloween/spooky ā¾ christmas ā
oddball ā§ idol birthday present ā§
į āį ā Ė ā į ā į
drabbles
Not the Reason ||| Taeil x Reader ā§ ||| fluff, mild angst ~ taeil finally admits something small, and maybe its a step towards the biggest confession of them all
Arms ||| Johnny x Reader just fluff ~ sleepy cuddling with johnny
Pro Gamer ||| Taeyong x Reader ā§ ||| fluff lol ~ playing animal crossing with your boyfriend, and hes not having a lot of luck
00:13 ||| Taeyong x Reader timestamp ||| angst mostly, fluff ~ late at night you hit a depressive spiral after feeling very ignored by your friends
Yuta x Insecure!Reader angst, reassurance fluff ~ because of your insecurities with your body, you make sure youre never as physically close to your boyfriend as much as you want to be. yuta wants to fix that ~ warnings: body insecurities (kept vague, but focusing around chest and stomach), general feelings of upset, tears, swearing (1x f**k)
Epilogue ||| Kun & Reader smutty undertones, lil fluff ~ prequel to āCandy Babyā, involves a soft, embarrassed and ultimately curious kun, and an accidentally nosey reader
Peace ||| Kun x Reader big fluff ~ waking up with kun is greatābut you know what is also good? falling right back asleep again
Victory ||| Ten x Reader fluff, humour ~ sad ten wants cuddles and mean reader wont give him any
Merigold ||| Jaehyun x Reader angst with tiny fluff ~ when buying flowers for your date, you end up falling in loveāwith the wrong guy
Safe Haven ||| Mark x Reader big fluff ~ while waiting for your boyfriend to come home, you sit curled up on the sofa, stuck on the edge of sleep
Catgroove - Parov Stelar ||| Hendery x Reader ā« ||| humour ~ pranking hendery with a classic
Pair ||| Jaemin x Reader ā¤ ||| solid fluff ~ you wait for your boyfriend to come home so you can spring a surprise
reactions
How NCT would comfort you after a bad day fluff, bit of angst, some curse words ~ kind of just what it says on the tin
How NCT 127 would react to accidentally hurting you fluff, some tiny spicier elements, but theyāre so mild, attempts at humour, tiny bits of angst in some? ~ scenarios in this are only very small things, and are mostly he members being clumsy/forgetting to be a bit careful in normal everyday situationsāno one gets really hurt!
How NCT Dream would react to you getting the hiccups pure fluff, humour
Small Displays of Affection in Domestic Life with Dream pure fluff and bad humourĀ
oneshots/imagines
Stay ||| Taeil x Reader fluff ~ boredom strikes you in your tired state, leading you to think back on the night before
Dreams Come True ||| Johnny x MakeupArtist!Reader ā¤ ||| fluff, small angst if you squint, some more inferred heated elements ~ johnny is kind to all the members of staff, and so you believe that he thinks no differently of you
Kestrel ||| Johnny x Reader ā§ ||| wistful angst, fluff ~ youre on the cusp on a huge change in your life, but a part of you cant let go, and youre not sure how youre supposed to
Lie to Me ||| Johnny x Reader subverted angst, fluff, smutty undertones ~ you and johnny dont agree on everything. and this time neither of you are great at backing down
Save A Nation ||| Johnny x Reader ā
||| humour, lil fluff ~ unistudent!johnny knows how hot he is. oh he knows. he also knows that a certain someone has had a crush on him for a very long time. and he also knows youre not confident enough to address it. but this is the catch for you, you see: because he is
Candy Baby ||| Yuta x Reader ā
||| lil fluff, humour, lil smutty undertones ~ you and your boyfriend are shopping at a special lingerie store. though not for the reasons that anyone may first expectā¦
Entranced ||| Yuta x Reader fluff, lil smutty undertones ~ waking up in yutas arms in the morning, bc who doesnt want that
Mishap ||| Yuta x Reader humour, lil fluff? ~ yuta is not known for his woodwork skills. he is also not particularly known for any common sense that would also come with it. however, good things can be made of the worst scenarios, and yuta is not completely ineptāno matter what winwin tries to assert.
Cosiest Place on Earth ||| Kun x Reader big fluff, some humour ~ where Kun is relaxing in peace, and a certain someone decides its a prime time to āannoyā himĀ
Home ||| Kun x Reader ā
||| big fluff ~ just cuddling with your long-time boyfriend after a busy day with the rest of wayv
Snow Drift ||| Kun x Reader ā
||| fluff, humour ~ going sledding with your boyfriend, what can possibly go wrong?
A Good Reason to Break the Law ||| Doyoung x Reader humour, fluff ~ doyoung does love you. and you wouldnt really call yourself a rule-breaker. yet you always find a way to worry himāwhich isnt particularly difficult, if you were honest
Baby Baby ||| Doyoung x Reader ā§ ||| fluff ~ a long day out leaves both you and bf!doyoung exhausted, and though its nowhere near over yet, you at least you have each other
Dinosaur ||| Doyoung x Reader fluff, humour, heated elements ~ doyoung was worried to meet your family, but he neednāt have been
Definitions ||| Doyoung x Reader ā
||| fluff ~ youāre studying with doyoung after returning home for christmas
Fail-Safe ||| Ten x Reader ā
||| big fluff ~ cuddling late at night with your slightly clumsy boyfriend
Aster ||| Jaehyun x Reader ā¤ ||| fluff, mildly heated elements ~ just some calm, soft times in bed with a very shirtless jaehyun
Ladder ||| Lucas x Reader ā
||| humour, fluff ~ you love your bf lucas, you really do. but sometimes, his chaotic tendencies led him into all kinds of trouble. and you never, ever laugh at him. totally. not even when he puts himself in a compromising position. not even once.
Spirit ||| Xiaojun x Reader ā¤ ||| fluff, little bit of sad ~ bed cuddles with your boyfriend after a hard day
Look Down ||| Mark x Reader angst, bits of fluff ~Ā mark invites you to a pretty bridge at sunset to finally confess to you
Ready ||| Mark x Reader ā§ ||| fluff ~ first time hand-holding with a shy, slightly awkward bean
Beautiful Like the Moon ||| Jeno x Reader ā§ ||| fluff ~ moongazing with your boyfriend to celebrate the end of his birthday
Strength ||| Jeno x Reader fluff ~ even with a cold you cant be stopped, and jeno loves you all the more for it
Sun vs Sun ||| Haechan x Reader humour, fluff ~ playful times out camping with hyuck and the others. but mainly hyuck.
Lung Crusher ||| Johnny x Reader x Haechan ā¤ ||| fluff, humour ~ after a long day, you and johnny are peacefully dozing on the sofa. you expected the two of you would be left alone, but youd be wrong
Loved ||| WayV x Reader ā¤ ||| big sad, big fluff, big humour ~ everyone needs to be taken care of sometimes, no matter how strong they are. and so when you come home from an awful day in the outside world, you are blessed to have several people come and pick you up again, setting you back on your feet ~ long fic ~ - NOTE: this is the old version of a new multiparter fic seen below, named Love. This version, Loved, will not be edited or updated but will be kept up for the slightly different series of events that it follows in comparison to its new version.
multi-parters
The Code ||| Doyoung x Barista!Reader slight angst, some fluff, mostly a mystery ~ doyoung has a thing for a barista at the best cafe in town, and after finding out the boss there is super strict, he counts his chances out. however, a bizarre set of events lead to an opening for someone clever enough to take it, and luckily his heart has chosen well. Part One ~ where doyoung remembers a special moment and confesses much to his own regret Part Two - coming soon ~ where doyoung begins to find strange numbers on his averley recyclable cups
King and Lionheart ||| King!Jungwoo x RoyalKnight!Reader ā§ ||| angst, fluff ~ inspired by the song of the same name, jungwoo is your king who you serve with your life, and you are his beloved knight in shining armour Part One ~ where you flee with nothing but the clothes on your backs and one another Part Two - coming soon ~ where you fight
Love ||| WayV x Reader ā¤ ||| reader big sad, lots of fluff, quite a bit of yearning & foreshadowed drama Main Story ~ everyone needs to be taken care of sometimes, no matter how strong they are. and so when you come home from an awful day in the outside world, you are blessed to have several people come and pick you up again, setting you back on your feet. though, not everything is as a clear cut as you perhaps once thought ~ long fic ~ - slow updates - Ending One - Kun - coming soon . Ending Two - Ten - coming soon . Ending Three - Sicheng - coming soon . Ending Four - Lucas Extra Special fluff, soft angst ~ ft jungwoo & reader; you and xuxi have an impromptu slumber party where your feelings are finally admitted to one another with the accidentally prompting on jungwooās behalf . Ending Five - Xiaojun Jigsaw Puzzle fluff, bit of humour ~ after finding the hedgehogās plastic bowl broken, you and xiaojun head to the pet store to buy a new one . Ending Six - Hendery - coming soon . Ending Seven - Yangyang - coming soon
Camping ||| NCT 127 & WayV x Reader fluff, some spicier elements sometimes ||| choose-your-own-story Start - in progress: 9,575 words collectively so far - - slow updates - ~ where you go camping with nct 127 & wayv, and end up in the most boring tent after dark during a small storm
extra
Vibe Checking NCT ~ donāt ask just read
#nct#wayv#nct 127#nct dream#nct u#nct x reader#wayv x reader#nct 127 x reader#nct fluff#nct angst#wayv angst#wayv fluff#nct 127 fluff#nct 127 angst#nct reactions#wayv reactions#nct 127 reactions#nct drabbles#wayv drabbles#nct oneshots#wayv oneshots#nct imagines#wayv imagines#nct timestamps#taeyong x reader#taeyong fluff#johnny fluff#taeil fluff#kun fluff#doyoung fluff
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'Depends on the Wagon' liveblog!
I saw someone do timestamps in their liveblog and it was absolutely lovely, so I think I'll try that too
1:55 why does Curtain sound like an mlm ceo LMAO
2:07 WOW ASSHOLE šš waving off your own teacher when he was complimenting you is not the vibe
2:17 so Dr. Curtian is only available through chain emails. Got it.
2:27 he seems like the kind of asshole to say that people on welfare are lazy and exploitave but then like, not pay his taxes
2:42 I DON'T LIKE HOW HE SAID THAT, THAT WAS CREEPY
2:47 oooooh Constance, always asking the right questions
3:05 Kate, why are you yelling, it's literally past curfew š
3:35 oh hai Jackson.. gtfo
4:22 oh yeah, the best way out is through the hallway that Jackson just entered. Good plane, babe.
4:25 soooo Kate Depending On Friends arc :)
4:59 AYYY HI RHONDA!!
5:13 why do I kinda fucking love then all deciphering the Morse code together
5:20 so the kids use the gemini riddle? Not the adults???
5:36 his face when he figures it out ššš
5:46 Nathaniel? Guess that's Dr. Curtain's name now. Less ridiculous than Ledroptha, but you dont get the badass Let Drop the Curtain reference
6:53 okay so no one knew he had a brother? But he did???
7:21 his faaaace š„ŗ
7:29 AWWW HE COULDNT BRING HIMSELF TO SHARE ššš okay I'm kinda on board with the change if they can make it work in the long-haul
7:42 hi Milligan, good timing š
7:56 "not the time.........I'll take a dozen" Number Two my LOVE
8:23 interesting. I dont think Mr. Benedict was adopted in the books? He certainly didn't let Violet's family, the Hopefields, because he knew their financial troubles would be even worse. So who?
8:54 ohhhh dear, stages of grief at work. Maybe don't do that
9:05 I talked about this in the MBS discord server, but I think the show is really nailing Mr. Benedict's feelings. He's always been an emotional person, but he has to be so careful. Bottling up your feelings only leads to bigger feelings later. It makes so much sense for Mr. Benedict to be a whirlpool of strong, repressed emotions.
9:11 MILLIGAN'S FACE JAHAHS
9:34 RHONDA'S FACE HAGSKDGDJ
9:40 Mr. Benedict, sweetheart š„ŗā¤
10:01 "brothers stick together" why does it sound like he's talking about Reynie here šššš
10:12 that is a good ass point, Mr. Benedict already lied to them once
10:21 it makes sense for Sticky to be the one questioning the most because of his anxiety, but damn
10:46 AWWWWWW
10:56 KATE MAKING A BED FORT KATE MAKING A BED FORT KATE MAKING A BED FORT
11:00 I dont like how aggressive Kate is but it makes sense considering she's been in the circus for years, taking care of herself for far longer than she hasn't. She's not good at depending on people, and she's not good with difficult people.
11:10 Yeahh, Constance gets it!
11:40 Yeahhh, Constance gets it
12:55 that teacher seemed pretty nice last episode, nice to see that they're not what they seem just the same as Dr. Curtain lol
13:28 CONSTANCE I LOVE YOU šš
14:00 "check again" okay so Krista from the tests and Martina give off the same vibe.. perfect š
14:16 "yeah......hang in there :D"
15:05 all of the apologies to the general class.. he's such an anxious sweetheart. He's really reading as autistic to me.
My sister just called me š it's like 8 am, I answered her like "did you ever consider that you might be waking me up?" She did not consider that š
15:22 Martina's face just growing more and more annoyed and disgruntled HAHA
15:29 that was CORRECT?? WHAAAA
15:51 throwback to when I compared Dr. Curtain to an mlm ceo.. definitely like a cult
16:44 ohhhh Martina
17:30 CONSTANCE HEARING VOICES HELLOOOOO
18:22 ayyyyyy helper man
18:40 he seems too cheery to be a helper .-. The helpers all being super sad made [redacted]'s story make a whole lot more sense
19:35 aaaand now we get to it. You know, it really does seem a lot more cultish on screen than in the book
19:53 WAIT CONSTANCE GOOD JOB PUTTING THE PIECES TOGETHER šššš
19:53 that cut to Milligan making that exact face was INCREDIBLE
20:05 was he tryna leave? Yeah, good fuckin luck bucko
20:10 "critical papers at home" my ass, they packed everything up
20:24 the stages of grief back at it. š„ŗ
20:38 their relationship >>>>
21:00 "located in the..?" *description of envelope* "located in the....?" *more description* "located in the????" šššš
21:34 ohhhhh Thursday must be the student ranking day
21:56 Martina seems like the kind to throw out "pick a god and pray" as a crit quote š
22:07 I don't see any of the Society'a names on the list. Maybe they havent been there long enough
22:17 OH SHIT JK THERE THEY ARE
22:25 ohh Kate and Constance
22:55 the combination of the ferry horn and the bell makes it weirdly grim
23:55 them bringing Kate up and reminding her that she's needed šāØ
24:29 hi Milligan bb ilyyyy
24:35 real good lookout guys, y'all are so well hidden
24:52 AYY HE'S DOING IT KATE STYLE
26:31 "visionary" is a word for it
26:31 I really kinda love that Number Two and Rhonda are going to such depths to try and help Mr. Benedict figure this out for sure
26:56 Mr. Benedict fully walking away while they talk about his brothers accomplishments š I'm laughing, but poor guy
27:08 his FACE š„ŗ
27:28 HERE'S THAT TANTRUM FROM THE TRAILER
27:28 take your guesses how many times will he fall asleep
27:50 "he just has to work through some things" you dont fuckin say
27:55 you mean to tell me he had a full blown meltdown and they didn't show him falling asleep once??
28:35 like father like daughter šāØ
29:10 ayyyy secret desk compartment
29:19 honestly I'm surprised there were actually papers he needed and it wasnt an excuse to go confront Dr. Curtain
29:32 oh shit, how'd they manage to get that far inside? No one was there to guard it, but the maze itself is a security measure
29:42 KATE STYLE STRIKES AGAIN
29:47 ooooh I like Dr. Curtain's office
30:01 WAS THAT SQ AND DID HE JUST CALL DR. CURTAIN HIS DAD
30:41 birds have careers. Got it š
30:50 JOURNAAAL
31:02 the fox?? Reynard the fox???
31:27 ohhh here we go, Dr. Curtain sees himself in Reynie only to resent it later
31:37 Mr. Benedict called Reynie a leader once too.. the parallels have āØbegunāØ
32:12 is this the "keep your enemies close" conversation??
32:15 I'm honestly surprised he called him Sticky and not George
32:42 IT IS SQ IT IS SQ IT IS SQ
32:59 sooo that starts by not letting his caution down with you
33:11 Dr. Curtain congratulating himself mid-conversation on saying something deep is so in character
33:20 "I was betrayed by someone very close to me" so that was Mr. Benedict. Who the fuck else would it be
33:23 WHAT DID I SAAAAY
33:31 oh noooo Reynie starts doubting Mr. Benedict here? Is that the move?
33:43 that transition was so pretty stoppp
33:53 again how hasn't he fallen asleep
34:55 ayyyy journal snooping
35:05 Constance, my love, you are cut throat
35:11 Milligan is in the DRYWALL? ohh buddy be careful
35:21 omfg are they talking about water polo š I love that that's the sport of choice
35:51 ayyyy they put the Milligan dots together too. Shame the guy's not with them rn
36:36 so Mr. Benedict brings up cheating first? I really like how we get to see the adults riddling out what to send back, we didn't get that at all in the books
37:46 I LOVE THAT THEY KEPT "don't get caught"
38:51 Kate riddling out the island schematics engineer style is so like her
39:07 they're just walking out the door?? Huh???
39:29 babe... turn off your flashlight
39:33 AND THAT'S WHY
39:58 is that the precursor to chuckroot?
40:38 the papers were from his orphanage š„ŗš„ŗš„ŗ
41:14 why does that break my heart
41:19 Dr. Curtain and SQ doing shit together it just.. so heartwarming
42:00 HAHA
42:16 okay, so show!Curtain is a kissass š
42:35 wait wait wait so Dr. Curtain is actively trying to contain his brother? That would explain why the Recruiters were looking for him and weirdly not the kids
43:25 "power wants to be free" sounds more like a personal mantra than a conversation between engineers
43:41 YES A LETTER TO MISS PERUMAL
44:02 more voices. Poor Connie girl š„ŗ
44:36 he loves her so much ššš
44:45 SHE TRIED TO SEND HIM A CARE PACKAGE
45:13 WORRIED MOM TIMEEE
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hehe liveblogging a vod go brrr yes with timestamps who do u think i am
taken fromĀ āTHE EVE OF THE REVOLUTION (dream smp)ā stream on Technoblades channel
Laugh times: 49:00, 1:00:12, 1:40:55
Bu ba daaa times: 15:14
āyou see, I had to stream at 12:05, i scheduled it, i made a vow to the godsā is the blood god youtube?? 0:50
āPage 1 of 100ā³ techno WhAT (3:50)
his voice is pretty today but i can HEAR it dying fjdkshla (his voice is pretty every day but shhhh
āāhey can u tell my friend gavin hes a nerdā gavin you SUCK get outta here gavinā techno chill 6:35Ā
about his cough and stuff 6:55
āalright so basically, I went to the doctor, like a few weeks ago, and I- I think I know what the problem with me is, because I also- well I donāt think the cough is the main symptom, I think itās something else, which I thought everyone experienced, but it turns out nope, thatās just me, itās just me havin that symptom, and so I- I mean itās not- itās not a terrible thing to have, but you should probably- youāll probably deal with it if you had it basically, not a big deal. but you know, if you just let it fester for years and years youāre probably going to have a problem. and so the doctor gives me medicine, and what the medicine does is it- it uh, it- it *stutters* inhibits stomach acid, so for like, I took the medicine for two weeks and my symptoms, they get a lot better! they- I, Iām coughing less! itās incredible! my life is good! but then i stopped taking the medicine because the doctor told me to take it for two weeks and it turns out, stomach acid- i think its useful for at least one thing? i dont know. so you actually do need that, so i stopped takin it like, a few days ago, anD NOW THE COUGH IS- ALL THE SYMPTOMS IMMEDIATELY RETURN. im so old. im dyinā. ohh no. so i started takin it again, which is as per the doctors recommendations. iām sure your all very interested in this. but i just- i dont want to cough during the stream tomorrow, please, please i need my voice, ive been preparing for this for like a monthā
alright that was fun. and yes i am very interestedĀ
SELLOUT TIMER POG
how,,,,how did seeing the sellout timer remind him of a gong,,,,,,valid and same but dfhgjksla
āalright so i was thinking, the other day, i should buy a gong. you know, like, those...i think its like chinese- itās- itās that big- its that big uhhh- its like a big plate, and you like hit it with a hammer and it makes- itās- its very loud, that kind of gong. i was thinking i should buy one of those, and then whenever- whenever the sellout timer goes off i could be likeĀ ād-do you hear that?ā and then BAM hit the gong!!! itās the- its the techno- its the subscribe to technoblade gong! itād be incredible. itād be incredible, chat, i would get- i would get kicked out of my parents house so quickly but- for the day it takes them to do that i would get SO many subscribers.Ā i would get SO many subscribers chat.ā
ah. thats how it related fghjsdkal (17:15). also he sounds like hes smiling and i cant help but smile while listening.Ā
techno please stop explaining thorns math i am confused 20:30
HE JUSTĀ
HE JUST TRIES TO KILLS BBH FOR NO REASON IM SHJKFGDL 27:00
bbh giving techno chicken one at a time while having a convo with tommy is the funniest thing ive seen today and i am crying 33:00
who tf just randomly knows the word espoused and uses it jskdhfl 37:00
37:40 is good technos gotten a lot better at tridentsĀ
48:22: āthis is- this is how my love life has gone, tommy. alright, so i was in high school, and i was like, i could talk to girls, but- [tommy: could you?] yes, that is within my capabilities, believe it or not, OR, i could just- i could just upload youtube videos and become unbelievably famous, and theyād talk to me. [tommy: have any of them talked to you yet?] no. no not really. but i am famous! so, i have to say, that was the backup plan, alright? *stutters*ā HFSDJKLS
1:01:33 techno 3v1 why ,,,,,, he so good
YESSS DREAM LAUGH AT TECHNOS JOKE YES GOOD im sorry i just get sad when people dont and i just,,,,they 1:21:58 kjhsdfal
1:30:40 he gives the fox a golden apple and nods im gonna cry
when typingĀ āTHUNDER AVERT YOUR EYESā he starts to type gaze and changes it to eyes. is this bc he told us to avert our gaze when doing the village breeding nd stuff??? bc ik its weird to hear him say avert your eyes instead of gaze 1:33:10
i stg if dreamsĀ ādo you see them over there? look at them.ā is used in an animatic (ESPECIALLY a sadist one) i will scream hskgdjfla these yters are controlled by artists and its amazing 1:38:30
āItās not an experiment, iām just putting my hypotheses through mutlible controlled trials where i adjust variables and then record the resultsā (1:11:20) has the same vibes as theĀ āmandatory unpaid volunteer workā stuff. also is techno a science nerd bc if he is thatd make him a math, science, english, and history nerd and that can NOT be allowed
wait wasntĀ āill burn that bridge when i come to itā a tumblr thing like was that from tumblr or am i forgetting something bc if not uh technos on tumblr /hj 1:13:40
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I saw there were no timestamps for LESTAT: THE MUSICAL online so I bit the bullet and watched it for the first time and recorded this iconic bullshit myself in a play-by-play P.1
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(WARNING: this is all bullshit that I found funny or interesting, apologies if not all the stamps are helpful.) I spent two hours on this so please reblog or like it. Part TWO will come soon.Ā (I also commented the stamps ON the youtube comments for the video so you can use them there for convenience.)Ā
Tagging all the vampire chronicles (??? related) people I know: @cara--corvaia , @lestatthebiprince @i-want-my-iwtv @vamp-prince-mikhael @tomorrow--mourning @moasfuck @hotvampiregoss @fuckinglovemanga @theweightwecarry @just-another-vcblog @thevampirelesthot @her-golden-hair Sorry to bother you if you dont know me, this is just a blatant ploy to befriend you all, and also, did I mention, youāre cool by the way.Ā
2:57 - Lestat canāt get his knife back in its fucking sheathe 3:22 - Lestatās dad looks like Geralt of Rivia and you canāt change my mind. 4:00 - Gabrielle is That Bitch P.1 5:00 - Nicholas?!?! *scooby-doo āAROOO?ā noise* Ā 5:50 - Gabrielle is That Bitch P.2 SHE can BELT, yāall 6:10 - Lestat literally left 2 seconds ago and Gabi sings about how heās gone.Ā
8:33 - First clap of the night, thank god, it was way too quiet so farĀ
8:52 - the stupidest fucking hats ive ever seenĀ
9:08 - Lestat is called a ācountry boyā and NICHOLAS!!!!Ā
9:40 - titties jokeĀ
9:50 - this dude in a BERET is sending me, what ERA is he FROM what the FUCKKKĀ
10:00 - Ā someoneās head blocks the gay agendaĀ
10:38 - āyo dawg i heard you liked bad acting so i put some bad acting in your bad acting so you could badly act while you badly actāĀ
11:50- the audience laughs at obvious āonly one bed tropeā that is obviousĀ
12:20 - Nicholas possibly fucked himself with a violin?Ā
12:33 - pig noisesĀ
13:05 - the audience laughs at obvious Top NicholasĀ
13:50 - catholicismĀ
14:05 - thats GAYYYYYYY p.1Ā
14:40 - JUMPSCAREĀ
14:50 - Lestat is bitten by this rando and cums instantlyĀ
15:00 - thirsty boi om nom nomĀ
16:43 - Lestat can have a little kiss, as a treat.Ā
16:55 - āWell, Iām outā *creates fire out of nowhere, walks through it, and dies*Ā
20:10 - every time he says āthirstā take a shot no just kidding dont haha unlessā¦Ā
22:19 - one guy in the audience tries to clap then stopsĀ
24:06 - āMOM, ITS MY TURN TO USE THE NICHOLASāĀ
25:00 - tender ass love ballad is a tender ass love balladĀ
29:00 - coming out to your mom as deadĀ
30:00 - Gabrielleās voice gives me literal chillsĀ
32:20 - do NOT laugh do NOT laugh this is NOT funny at all this is seriousĀ
33:30 - MulanĀ
33:55 - Gabrielle is That Bitch P.3 she really out hereĀ
34:50 - Moooo-ooom, youāre embarrassing me.Ā
35:50 - Gabrielle is That Bitch P.4Ā
37:00 - antonio banderas the 300 year old EDGY BOYĀ
40:26 - armand has a teen voice crack (āthousands of yEaRsā)Ā
42:20 - this random person shoots their shot at armand and gets nerfedĀ
43:19 - āyou would be beautiful if someone held you under a waterfall for several hoursā HGHJGGHGHGHJGJH why would you say that?!Ā
43:35 - humans pretending to be vampires tell vampires to pretend to be humans pretending to be vampires.Ā
44:29 - armand drops nicholas like a sack of potatoes and made me laughĀ
46:00 - that moment when suck your boyfriend too hard ladies amirite no wait Ā never mind heās dying this is bad actually 46:40 thruĀ
50:00 - Ā vampires pretending to be humans pretending to be vampires BUT MAKE IT A HIGHSCHOOL MODERN DANCE SHOWCASEĀ
50:50 - armand said: nice theater. shame if i were toā¦.steal it hundreds of years later.Ā
51:12 - thats GAYYYYYYY p. 2 Ā X2 BONUS DOUBLE WHAMMYĀ
51:45 - they literally said āNick was so pure his brain exploded ripāĀ
53:12 - get PWNāD armand you slutĀ
56:12 - if you listen closely you can hear my heart breakingĀ
57:00 - Gabrielle is That Bitch P.5 this whole song is bamf materialĀ
58:55 - long-ass head kissĀ
59:00 - āI DID NOT GIVE YOU THE DARK GIFT SO THAT YOU COULD WALK AWAY FROM ME.āĀ
Ā āI GAVE YOU THE GIFT OF LIFE KNOWING SOME DAY YOU WOULD WALK AWAY FROM ME!āĀ
1:00:30 - Gabrielle is That Bitch P.6 INCREDIBLE BELTĀ
1:00:50 - everyone is clapping! Clapping! Oh god, wait! Oh god theyāre kissing! Heās kissing his mom! Clapping...peters outā¦ you hear people go āohā.... he isā¦ kissing his mom...clapping...endsā¦Ā
1:01:00 - āI love you my son.ā people laugh because incestĀ
1:04:19 - worldās saddest cookoutĀ
1:05:20 - OH WELL I NEVER HAVE YOU EVER SEEN A VAMP SO CLEVER AS MAGICAL MISTER MAAAAAARIUSTOPHELEES
#interview with the vampire#lestat the musical#lestat: the musical#lestat#lestat de lioncourt#nicolas de lenfent#lestat x nicolas#louistat#vampire chronicles#anne rice#you guys have no idea how long i worked on this
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šØSPOILERS FOR FANTASY HIGH JUNIOR YEAR EPISODE 7šØ
Dimension20 "Fantasy High Junior Year"
Episode 7 "Stress Tested"
Timestamp: 00:53:31
Video Length: 4min. & 57sec.
Kristen talks to Yolanda about her Academics, Cassandra, and the Mysterious Voice she heard (Pt. 1 | ā£Pt. 2)
Yolanda: *shrugs* "That's my advice. It's the best I can do."
Kristen: "Okay."
Ally: "I start taking a bunch of notes. Maybe I can kinda combine this with my campaign."
Emily, Zac, and Siobhan just laughing! šā
Lou just laughing with his head in his hands ššš¤£
Ally: "Just something really public. I mean, like, if I do a miracle that's gonna help the campaign."
Emily: "I kinda think the shrimp jump was a miracle."
Ally: "I think you're right. Can I ask her if the shrimp jump counts as my miracle?"
Yolanda: "It's been very good talking to you Miss Applebees. Thank you so much. Good day."
Kristen: "The tarter sauce was on fire!"
Brennan: *click*[Yolanda's door closing on Kristen]
Ally: "Was there any way for her to help me find out if Cassandra's alive? After I talk to her, can I find some quiet space in one of the Cleric rooms and try to convene with...?"
Brennan: "Yeah. Yeah, let's make this first check here. So this is gonna be for sort of like your religion essentially."
Ally: "Yes."
Brennan: "Go ahead and gimme a Religion check."
Ally: *rolls* "That is an 11."
Brennan: "Okay. Sitting in the quiet meditation room, the one where you saw Cassandra and saw Kalina before."
Ally: *has hand out to ask for a stress token* "I gotta do better than that."
Brennan: *evilly smiling* "Kristen digs deep in a way that I think Kristen sometimes hasn't in the past."
The awesome caption team: (ominous music)
Ally: *rolls" "Cassandra. Okay, a lot better. A lot better. That is a 22."
Brennan: *gasps* "Incredible. With that, as you begin your fall semester in the same meditation chamber where you saw Cassandra when she brought Kalina back, you feel yourself drifting, becoming distracted. And suddenly, feel eyes on you." *growls* "Shadow. Something ferocious moving nearby. Feel yourself becoming distracted, and suddenly you remember the symbol from the Forest of the Nightmare King. Whenever you're in the dark, I'm here holding your hand and you're not afraid of the dark. Cassandra is beyond your reach, but definitively is not dead. She cannot grant you spells, but is so removed from this place that you are not sure how to contact her. But these handful of shards of the divine essence you're holding onto, there's some tether or connection here. It's just- the line hasn't been cut but it doesn't have a current right now. Right? On that 22, can Kristen think of a time or moment that doubt or mystery has actually made her life better? A moment where there was some small miracle that was provided, some benefit to life made by mystery or doubt?"
Ally: "I think she spent so much time trapped and feeling, like, super wrong that doubt and mystery actually feel like a really beautiful escape, and more true."
Brennan: "The concept of escape hits you. And for a moment you hear." *clicking* "And all of the locks on the windows and all of the locks on the doors in this room just open slightly. A little bit of divine magic flows through you. You couldn't control it like your old spellcasting, but when you thought of escape, you thought of, yeah, embracing the unknown gives you the strength to leave a bad situation. Escape."
Ally: "If there's some way for me to kind of divinely put something together, I don't know, like pine needles from outside, something forest-like and kind of- not really cast a spell, but just do something kind of in ceremony to send to Cassandra that says, 'I'm sorry,' I would love to do something like that."
Brennan: "Beautiful. Anyone who wants to, after one of the Lo-Fi study nights out in the twilight, there's a beautiful ceremony. And on that 22, you do not lose Craig to Wolfsong. You see Craig shows up and goes,"
Craig: "Hey, sorry I've been a little outta touch. Work's been crazy."
Kristen: "Where do you work, Craig?"
Craig: "Oh, I work at Armor, Zombie and Lich."
Kristen: "Oh, that's why you're..."
Fabian: "Still?"
Kristen: "You smell so good. When you walked into the group, I could just smell the cologne."
Craig: "No, it's great. I know they blast it on you. They blast it on you."
Kristen: "Yeah. Okay."
Craig: "All right. Let's go, Cassandra."
Brennan's Laughter šš
Ally: "Okay."
Brennan: "And there's a small ritual here. And I think for you to know on that 22, what came about was, like, an actual belief that Cassandra's presence in the world does good for people. And to the degree that you remembered escape and were like, 'Yeah, I have benefited from mystery and doubt. Like, really, concretely...' That made magic come back. And I think any instance that Kristen sees for doubt to do that will strengthen that connection. Awesome. 22. Huge success. And you took your first stress token."
#dimension 20#dimension20#blog#fantasy high#fantasy high junior year#stress tested#fantasy high stress tested#fantasy high junior year episode 7#fhjy ep 7#fantasy high scene#fantasy high junior year scene#dimension20 scene#queue#yolanda badgood#Craig#brennan lee mulligan#kristen#kristen applebees#ally beardsley#cassandra
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Jacob Brentās commentary part 3 - transcript
Hereās the transcript of part 1, the transcript of part 2, and the video for this part (re-uploaded on my channel since I assume it will be deleted from his soon). This one gets us about halfway through Tuggerās song before dying. And of course it contains him talking about John Partridge, and about missing the ball when Tugger kicked it at him.
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0:25 - Oh my gosh, hi everyone! Iām just waiting for everyone to maybe get back. Weāre trying to figure out whatās happened here. Third timeās the charm, right?
1:30 - [responding to comments saying ādonāt show the thumbnail of the movie, just give us timestampsā] Yeah, I think thatās whatās going to have to happenā¦. Hold on everyone. Iām just going to give it a second.
2:11 - Okay. Weāre going to not show the video - so pull it up on two different screens. Iām going to tell you where weāre going to start. ā¦
3:00 - Iām going to start at the beginning of Tugger, and thenā¦ Okay. Iām starting at Tugger. Top of Tugger.
[Yes, I was impressed that everyone in the comments section managed to restrain themselves when he said that.]
I love - and my screenās over here, which is why I keep looking over here - So!
3:45 - Oh! Oh! Okay! So! If youāre watching Tugger, heās about to kick the ball, and if you watch - I amā¦ going to miss the ball. Right here.
So I was supposed to catch the ball, and then I missed it.Ā
4:30 - So this is the amazing John Partridge, who is justā¦ I mean, if there ever was a Tugger he just embodies Tugger. What I love about the video is that I feel like everybodyās really their character, in real life, everybody - āterrible bore!ā Ha! Yes! Shade, shade before I knew what shade was - but Johnny was just fantastic, and he was one of those guys that everybody wanted to be around in life, in person - Iām talking like heās not here, heās totally here. In fact heās just won top chefā¦? In the UK, I believe? So there you have it. He really just was - heās always very funny, and made us all laugh, and heās justā¦ really Tugger.
5:42 - I love this choreography in the show. Thereās so much to it.
6:20 - So during this part - oh my gosh, look at that needlepoint thing. Let me tell you about that. So during this part in the show Tugger usually went out into the audience, and he would play with people, get someone up to dance, until on Broadway there was a little moment when somebody tried to sue because they were so embarrassed by this moment. But in the film we couldnāt do that because w had no audience, we shot this with no audience, so we had to come up with something else, so we -
(livestream dies a final, much regretted death - he promised heād record a commentary and put it up as a whole video later)
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Hi, Mandy! The podcast with Phil is up! When you have time to listen to it, do you think, you could share some of your thoughts with us? Maybe even do some time stamps with commentary? Like, of course no pressure, but it would be awesome if you decide to express your opinion on the matter ;))) Have a nice day š·
My main thought: I love how much more comfortable Phil is talking about his anxiety and things that make/made him anxious now. Iāve never heard him dig in quite so much on how his brain works with insecurities and how intense he can be about editing and how that can cause him to mentally spiral with anxiety.Ā
Besides that, I donāt think he said much here we didnāt already know, but I sure as heck enjoyed listening to him say it all again.Ā
Timestamps!
2:30 - Phil would have shown up in pajamas if heād known it was for a podcast. 2:37 - Interviewer asks Phil when he first realizes he was creative. āI think I just came out of the womb and did jazz hands in the hospital.ā 3:00 - His parents gave him a video camera for Christmas when he was eight and he made little friends with his friends. He talks about the horror film he and his friends made when they were ten (that heās made youtube videos about). He learned to edit then by pausing a video cassette tape and putting the footage in and editing in real time, before he could do it on a computer. He doesnāt know where that creativity came from, but heās been making videos as long as heās been able to make videos. 3:51 - He used to watch movies hundreds of times. He wore out the Gremlins VHS tape. He wanted to make things like that, or his own version of that entertainment. 4:05 - Gizmo the Gremlin was his mentor. No, he didnāt have a mentor, but heās thankful to his parents for letting him do it. If heād done his homework theyād just say, āGo for it. Iāll get you a video camera if you want to make videos.ā He acknowledges that not everyone had that means of doing it, though now everyone has a phone and anyone can do it if they wanted to with a phone recording. 4:40 - When he was young his family was mostly his audience, though they let him play the horror film he made when he was ten at school. āI think having that audience reaction, I was like oh people are actually laughing and enjoying it.ā 5:20 - He started youtube because he was impressed by the fact that anyone, anywhere can make something and have the chance to broadcast yourself. He saw people like Smosh and LonelyGirl15. He liked watching peopleās lives all over the world. 6:01 - He got two comments on his first video and couldnāt believe it. One from Australia and one āsomewhere elseā saw it and cared. 6:39 - He had imposter syndrome at the first Vidcon he went to. He went into a party and thought he shouldnāt be in the same room as people like Smosh. It was a learning experience. 6:58 - He found it crazy that a hundred people would come to a panel or meet and greet to see him and it made him feel like this was real, it was really happening. 7:32 - The interviewer asks him how heās maintained trust with the audience and his answer is, āYouād have to ask the audience, theyāre the ones that are still watching. 7:40 - He thinks being himself in his videos has help, he hasnāt had the need to reinvent himself or become somebody else. He feels like his audience are more friends than fans. 8:26 - "You have your long term collaborator, Dan Howell-ā āYes.ā 8:27 - He finds it refreshing to collaborate, especially in comedy videos. He thinks he works well in an improvisation style environment, like on the gaming channel. It helps to have someone to laugh and have comedy banter with. It also helps to have someone else with creative ideas so you arenāt in your own head all the time. 9:20 - The interviewer asks about the transition from youtube to the stage shows. It was a big leap - they had ten crew members and it was a learning curve. Heās quite a shy person so going on stage in front of 2000 people was far out of his comfort zone compared to making videos alone. āIt was kind ofā¦ fighting off my anxiety and thinking, I can do this, these people are here to see me for a reason.ā 10:33 - They interviewed potential crew members (about a five minute interview) and they needed to be other creative people and understand the internet. They needed people who understood what they were making, and also wanted people that had a sense of humor and knew how to have a laugh. 11:30 - Specifically talking about TATINOF: they were trying to turn everything people loved about their youtube videos into a stage show, with a narrative flowing through the whole thing. They wanted it to be bigger than anything anyone had seen from youtubers before. 12:12 - You will not be seeing Phil on Strictly any time soon. 12:45 - TATINOF was about 70% scripted but it got changed up based on what the audience were like or what the reactions were. American found different jokes funny than Sweden and they learned to change and mold it. 13:09 - During TATINOF learned he can actually do scripted stuff, because there were scripted sections. He used to say he canāt act but he thinks he did okay with the scripted stuff in TATINOF. 13:52 - Section about the Radio 1 show. It started with him and Dan collaborating as youtubers with Radio 1, and the BBC decided to give them a show. He specifically says that Youtube say how many good comments and views youtube videos get, and thatās how the show came about. It started freelance and then they got the main show. 14:40 - With the radio show, because itās live you really have to be aware of what youāre saying. Thereās an art to working the desk with the music in the background and when to dip it down. They were learning on the go and it was terrifying. For the first three months heād wake up in the middle of the night with night sweats and have nightmares about saying something wrong. He had panic dreams about the radio, but they got into a flow and he thinks it was an entertaining and innovative radio show. He always likes something that pushes the boundaries of the technology. 15:25 - He shades how 'old schoolā the radio is because they had to play music videos off of dvds. If a dvd skipped or broke then the show would just go off air and theyād have to improvise. It was good preparation for doing stuff on stage. 15:55 - He talks about the stage show in America that lost power and improvising it in an unplugged way. He was relieved when people were happy with it. 16:38 - He thinks there are things traditional media could take from digital media: free flowing, less restrictions. On the radio ideas had to go through about ten processes. āBy the time youāve gone through these ten steps of checking, the fun of the creativity is gone about. Itās not about breaking the rules, itās about trying to be more improvisational and spontaneous when you can. Not everything needs signing off by five people before you tell a joke.ā 27:49 - He likes that youtube is more fresh and reactive to pop culture. It feels fresher than television - cites people doing the floss dance on Netflix shows now. It was funny a year ago, and it was written a year ago, but itās not as funny now. 18:35 - The positive to traditional media is more people bringing experienced voices to the table helping you develop something. Youtubers know a few things instinctively but someone thatās been a scriptwriter for ten years can completely blow your mind. 19:25 - He would like to think the main thing his audience values is authenticity, but he actually thinks it is accessibility that they value more. Heās not like a movie or pop star. 20:14 - Heās fourteen years in and still tries to think of videos that would make him laugh or he wants to watch, but heās trying to branch out some this year. āTrying new things.ā He doesnāt think thereās any shame in seeing someone elseās video and thinking of doing his own take on that. 21:20 - He looks to Safiya Nygard for inspiration - he likes that thereās so much research and planning in her videos. Even if itās a silly video she has all the facts and goes to all the videos. He got to meet her the last Vidcon and it was nice to hang out with her. 21:56 - Heās inspired by traditional media, too. For a long time it was Scot Pilgrim vs. the World, he used to think if he was going to make a video that was it. He starts talking about editing here and goes in pretty hard on what editing means to him over the next few minutes. 22:50 - Heās good at suspending his disbelief. Itās a good sign if youāre lost in a world. When he saw 1917, he forgot he was in the cinema. 23:13 - āItās more when Iām watching my own videos, I canāt - I find it really hard to watch it as a viewer. I find Iām so critical of myself and I just see the edits and Iām just like, oh that could be different, that could be different. And even if after Iāve uploaded it Iāll get a text from my friend and theyāre like 'oh that was so funnyā but in my head Iām like oh but I could have cut two seconds off that bit. So I think I should learn, and other people should learn, not to be so critical of yourself. Because there can be a point where - I made a video in December and I was looking back at the footage and I was like, I canāt upload this, this isnāt Ā - this isnāt good enough. But then I just persevered with the editing and it turned out to be really funny. But that self doubt was creeping in like, people arenāt gonna watch this, people arenāt gonna like this. So I need to work on that a bit and think - if people are enjoying my videos I should be able to enjoy them as well.ā24:11 - Itās hard not to be numbers obsessed because youtube tells you as soon as you sign in whatās performing well and not. You donāt want to get that feeling when you first log in to your channel, and you canāt really avoid it. āYouāve got to see it as a learning thing rather than an everybody hates me thing.ā 25:42 - Once a video is out in the world, he lets it go. He doesnāt obsess over it. Heās more critical in the editing process and actually pressing go rather than after the fact. 26:08 - Heās particularly proud of his coming out video because of the unexpected reaction. The video production wasnāt incredible but heās proud of the message. 26:40 - They ask him how heād have felt in 2006 knowing where heās at now. āNo. Iād probably run away.ā 26:47 - āI was so shy and anxious, I couldnāt even likeā¦ phone for a hairdressers appointment. I was that nervous about public interaction and talking and stuff like that. So the fact that Iāve got to this level now where I can go on stage or talk on a panel itās just like - itās kind of mindblowing looking back at where I was. Iām proud of myself for that.ā 27:15 - Heās ready to sink his teeth into a big new project, to do something new thatās very Phil and his own thing. Heās obsessed with interactivity. He was making interactive videos ten years ago with youtube annotations and he thinks now broadcasters and traditional media is more accepting of that technology and narrative structure. 28:15 - He pitched one interactive thing that didnāt work out. He shouts out Complex and also Markiplierās interactive youtube original. 29:02 - Itās good to get feedback on an idea thatās rejected. It would be weird if everyone said yes all the time. He goes a bit in depth here on potential reasons why a project may be rejected and not taking it as an attack or a big negative thing. 30:33 - If he made a film heād write it, not be the star of it. Heās excited to see where that creative process goes. Heās written a few short stories and tried a long form script. Heās a control freak so he wonāt release it until itās perfect. 31:03 - He sees Youtube as his work, and scripting and pitches as a hobby. Heās not under a deadline with writing and can enjoy free flowing creativity, unlike youtube where he needs to make a video every week. 32:00 - Discussion about the illustrator they had for TABINOF, who worked on The Mighty Boosh.33:00 - When ask him for one thing heās inspired by at the moment, he says Bandersnatch and talks about it a bit. He still has Scott Pilgrim and Gremlins in his heart, though. āGizmoās the one.ā
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āDid Dan get TOO TAN?ā
(Sept 19th 2017 Dan liveshow timestamps) Ā
0:03 After an awkward pause and salute: āHello cyber friendsā (instant regret and reflection)
0:29 (Dear god, donāt grab your laptop by the screen like that Dan.)
0:44 Grimace #1
1:06 No Dan, you do not look *atol* different. That tweet, title and pic are all just clickbait.
1:10 (Bronze my ass.)
1:19 Hitting us with that meme.
1:25 (Didnāt need to be in your face thanks. Teasing angles?)
1:36 āNever say Trumpy ever again, in any circumstance.ā
1:45 Lovely pores and freckles.
2:00 Obviously everyone subscribes to YouTubers for their freckle content.
2:30 Livestreams are āa mistakeā because of the chat clinging on to one thing and spamming it.
2:40 No probing or questioning at airport, big grin.
3:01 āThe broadband is terrible but the 4G is great.ā Okayā¦
3:17 āThe toasty Dan experienceā, orangish filter.
3:26 Double rhyme: āI guess thatās a rhyme, yeah thatās fineā (okay itās a slant rhyme)
3:47 āButtered crumpet Daniel.ā
4:02 āWent to an island in the Mediterranean.ā (This is exactly the answer I expected and quite frankly the only one he should give.)
4:09 āLiterally did nothing for about six days, it was great.ā
4:15 āI am Pilgrimā book recommended by his mum.
4:30 Tricked into reading 900 page book.
5:00 Holiday was incredibly relaxing.
5:10 āOrdealā getting there, delayed flight, three hours ātraumatizingā
5:22 āHaha long boyeā āliterally, shins driving into my chest, bleedingā alright hyperbolic humor Dan. āTough.ā
5:38 āViolatedā on flight by guyās elbows, āno respect for personal spaceā, āfully leaning into meā, ādidnāt even careā, āhonestly an icon for all of us.ā (Was it Phil?)
6:03 3 am, old driver, mini bus, cliff roads, did pre-ritual preparing for death.
7:00 āSo much yogurtā, doesnāt know why.
7:05 āAssaggettiā tweet, we can shame him, āhas the worst sense of humor in the worldā, check it out and unsubscribe, doesnāt remember the language (Italian), apologizes, āconstantly problematicā.
7:55 āGot that D from the S up aboveā (vitamin D, or Philā¦)
8:16 Phil came on the holiday in case anyone didnāt know.
8:18 āHe went from like glass to pale ivory, which is goodā, āPhil is someome who erupts in freckles whenever he goes outside, so itās hard to tell if he tans or if your eyes are just kinda like drawing the dots between the space all the freckles are, if you know what Iām saying.ā (Wow, Iā¦ Iād like to think you mean what I know, but Iām not sure. Wow.)
8:37 Someone in the chat: āNice Ursa Major on that cheek boyā. Turn, pose, laugh.
8:41 āThe Bigger Dipper of my self esteem.ā
8:53 Good day: watched Bake Off and answered emails, āthrillingā.
9:13 Tumblr likes, fan art, ābeautiful to celebrate the great people.ā
9:43 āThe internet is not hereā, laughs, sighs, apologizes.
9:55 Some peer pressure advice.
10:25 Had to check what his video title is.
10:35 I donāt know why he bothers to ask if we watched either.
10:55 Accept that he does things by his British calendar.
11:11 Why he didnāt he talk about uni stories when it was happening. Ashamed? Yeah, processing turmoil at the time.
11:55 Now shares traumatizing, terrifying, shameful, embarrassing stories straight away.
12:15 Rowing club guy AUā¦ (not what I was thinking)
12:46 Laundry story: Phil was nice, Dan didnāt ask, *literally* ordered a cab, turned up with suitcase, Phil assumed he dropped out and was moving in, āIāve had a day and Iām going to wash my socks in your washing machine.ā
13:13 āIf you struggle to function as a person-ā (I really wish he had finished this sentence)
13:15 Asda sponsor for crying in the cheese aisle?
13:23 Pasta burn shaming (were you just never in the kitchen with your mum Dan?)
13:36 Dropping laptop so much recently.
14:00 Never taught cooking, laundry, accounting.
14:18 āNo one told me shit!ā (in Danās face again).
14:33 āWhat happens when Iām 23?! How do I do a tax?!ā
14:54 It was ravioli (pretty sure the instructions mentioned water Danā¦)
15:15 Thick as in stupid, not thicc fat booty.
15:30 āLook Fatima, we all have different life experiences, okay?ā (lol)
15:36 āRavioli ravioli, give me the death I deserveioli.ā Relates.
15:45 Rihanna livestream, forehead fetishist? Wouldnāt mind if anyone leaves for that. Ā
16:08 Not up on BTS, DNA.
16:33 Shames Eden for ālet me see that pastussyā comment, āleave.ā
16:45 āLove on the Brainā. He really loves Rihanna, amazing, blessing, doesnāt give a shit, casual, informal, etc. āBitch Better Have My Money.ā
17:25 Is sure BTS video with be āpure and beautifulā, expects āsoftly applied eyeshadow and very fluffy hairā, heās sure heāll enjoy.
17:38 Maybe new gaming video/livestream tomorrow.
17:45 Overcooked, ironic kitchen fire, foreshadowing.
18:08 Wasnāt sure if he should get into Chinese guy story again, but he has to.
18:13 Deep breath: āIt was 4 am, Iād been you know, well hydrated that evening, but I decided I needed another drinkā go into the kitchen, everyone else was asleep, guy had a whole chicken, with neck and feet, fine but surprising, tiniest pair of white y-fronts, hacked head off and made eye contact, just couldnāt, usually would awaken some kink in himā¦
19:39 Pool pic, shout out to friend, no consent, relaxing, absorbing sun like a lizard, *basking*, fell asleep, lucky it was a pool and he didnāt drift out to sea, sun stroke vid reference, āthe bad tanā.
21:08 People saying ātrying to be cuteā, the double chins (really?!)
21:21 The least Dan-like photo.
21:33 Thought it would ruin his Instagram aesthetic.
22:10 Lack of other content: relaxing, reading,
22:24 Took a couple other photos, sunset selfie, āno oneās going to take a photo of meā (what the hell happened to your personal photographer?) but then people came (please post, please!)
23:40 Bake off is his life, āNoel Feilding is a national treasureā, caramel was torture while hungry, faves are Liam and not!Val (what did he whisper about Liam? Really wanted him to beā¦?)
24:30 *Maybe* Halloween Baking, they donāt think that far ahead about anything.
24:48 Philās role in Danās video, mugging scene took nine takes, afraid to punch him. Outtakes please!
26:03 (grimace #2) āHello Grandma, my name is Daniel, Iām a wholesome person, thatās a very great influenceā
26:16 Wachowski films
26:23 Dan floating in donut plushies would be very challenging.
26:33 Dan flips a bit at the idea thatās itās weird to like people who donāt know who you are. Uses Ed Sheeran as example.
26:55 Scrolls past person who said they feel better when they have a dream about Dan and Phil.
27:17 Cared more about YouTube than university socializing and class, Pom Bear Massacre reference, made Tumblr account.
29:09 Chapped lips, season changed the moment he stepped off the plane.
29:42 āOkay Universe, I know I can be a bit of a downer, sometimes.ā
29:51 Haley Barry Storm powers
30:08 Yes the furry blanket comes out, polyester, sad pimp, Marks & Spencer.
31:06 Ready for everything seasonal, autumnal Yankee Candle range, not haute, but fun themes.
31:31 Frisbee laptop across the room on to the bed, missed.
31:46 Candle haul, yes it is content we need right now!
32:26 Furry invasion on Splatoon, scaley, yiffing proposition, āthis is a family gameā, not shaming just concerned for kids, though it is hentai-esqueā¦
33:27 Sonic: 2010 reminiscing, formatting of boxes.
34:04 Was stupid side kick, Phil being good, Dan trying to be helpful, actual just a cheerleader, Phil was disgusting, doesnāt know if Phil even knew what he was saying (of course he did).
34:38 Didnāt know uni vid was trending
34:52 Reflection (I think thatās the piano nook)
35:00 Weird because of swearing, someone at YT didnāt watch the vid, āAh, keep doing that, donāt watch my videos, just know that Iām a good personā¦ā
35:25 āI make great friendly content.ā (grimace #3)
35:30 Explains why trending isnāt automatic. Yes, think of the children.
36:05 āBut hey, Iām not bad, everythingās fineā.
36:45 āPeople of all genders do and donāt wear makeupā.
37:10 (Iām pretty sure that the no candles with birds is because of the fumes.)
37:25 What is with the nose touching when confirming Spooky Week? āNext video (nose touch) soon, donāt worryāā¦?
38:28 āFans of everything are annoying, thatās just what happens when people are enthusiastic about stuff.ā
39:19 Dan doesnāt get annoyed by different fandoms. Says more about the people being annoyed, part of their own insecurity, their lack of community, togetherness, celebration, shared experiences, jealous or sad, or maybe everyone just everyoneās annoying.
39:56 Dream Daddy: so dangerous saying Dilddy. Dan likes Damien, great taste, immaculate presentation, probably not Dilddyās romantic soulmate.
40:31 Dan is in like ten fandoms (makes a face).
40:45 Chat: āWill Phil become a furry, whatās your fursona?ā Dan: āIs it time to go?ā
40:55 Has never thought about it, promises heāll get on it soon, he knows what the internet wants from him.
41:31 Chat full of fursona suggestions. Heās going to start crying.
41:52 āA llama fucking hell.ā āLook at the time.ā
42:01 Going to go into a (not disturbing) hole later looking into axoltl fur suits.
42:24 Elf on a shelf meme, was going to post a Dan one, āold meme!ā (Still donāt need to be up in your face Daniel.)
43:27 Really wants to go see IT, needs to see Mother.
44:04 Shut up! American Horror Story, makes him happy. Loves Sarah Paulson (is his life), feels represented by a lesbian with anxiety. Evan Peters is great, looks gross, or great depending.
45:25 His fursona should be a big bear, I agree. What a reaction.
45:46 Left comb on holiday, looks like a bush.
46:13 (grimace #4 at group chat names.)
46:20 āWhat is wrong with all of you?ā
46:22 Glosses over diet ask. Indeed.
46:26 āDonāt call me Uncle Dan when weāre talking about fursonas.ā
46:36 āIf you live in Australia vote for marriage equality, we donāt need to have this conversation.ā āCome on, come on Australia, sort your shit out.ā
47:03 Going to āinnocently Google things that are fineā.
47:22 āMe and Phil would love to come to Russiaā.
47:27 Limitations of TATINOF.
47:44 Watch uni vid: āDonāt take it too seriously. Remember that most of the time Iām just trying to be funny, and if you ever want like my real feelings or opinions, just think about whatever the opposite of what Iām saying is, and thatās usually how to get to the sincere heart of whatever Danās talking about.ā
48:13 āStay calm, ask some senpais for some life advice and think carefully about what your fursona should be.ā
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āKILL JAĢ¶CKSEPTICEYE | Bio INĢµĢc Redemp TĢØIĢ¶Ģ¢onā Analysis + Theory
I donāt know if this is going to get any attention in the tag... thatās alright if it doesnāt. I just want to collect my thoughts into an analysis and a theory.
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But first, letās dissect this video a little bit. Iāll be using time stamps as a reference.Ā
[0:39 - 0:45] Jack feels sick and steps out of the video, covering his mouth as if heās about to throw up.
[0:47] Ze good Doctah takes over! He is confident, per usual.
[1:22 - 1:28]Ā āJackSepticEye. . . he is one of my dear friends.ā Normal for an alternative ego to have a correlating relationship with theĀ āmain ego.ā He expresses an attachment to Jack.
[2:00 - 2:10]Ā āTaking shape, taking form. You do not look the best. You do not look the way you have always looked. You do not look like... yourself...ā A bit weird to say that after assuming a stomach problem. Itās as if Dr.Schneep is aware of Jackās disposition, that Anti is slowly taking control of him and that itās physically taking a toll on him... well, perhaps appearance wise, but the video in itself is showing that Anti is causing Jack to slowly inch to death.
[2:22] The first glitch is seen. Subtle, sudden. Dr.Schneep appears to be fine.
[2:57 - 3:02]Ā āAlways. Always with the mood swings, one time he is one person, the next time he is a completely different person.ā Iām probably looking at this too much... I just found this interesting.
[3:07] Ze doctahās eye is itchy... ehh, itās probably because Jackās eye is itchy. Nothing more probably.
[3:41 - 3:45] Dr.Schneep starts to worry about Jack. The appropriate response for a concerning doctor and friend.
[4:14] The second glitch is seen. Longer than the first. It looks like Dr.Schneep is getting a nose bleed, just like how Jack got one from theĀ āSay Goodbyeā video. This could be Anti infecting him.
[4:18 - 4:28]Ā āI saved my very good friend Chase. Chase Brody, he went back. He saw his family. Did they take him back? We may never know--ā I mean, thereās speculation that Anti already got Chase. I saw a picture of Anti with his hat in a post. Just a thought. Dr.Schneep is getting a bit more concerned.
[4:54] Preeeety specific with theĀ āantiā in anti-coagulants...
[5:03 - 5:12]Ā āIf something gets inside your body, and it wants to destroy you from the inside out, thereās only one way to deal with it and that way is SCHNEEPLESTEN.ā Things are starting to get serious. Itās just like timestamp [2:00 - 2:10], itās as if he knows that Anti is slowly gaining more control over Jack. The third glitch shows ze doctah with black eyes, just like Antiās. Anti has now fully infected Dr.Schneep, and I think he knows it too.Ā
[5:12 - 5:25]Ā āYouāre not... looking yourself. Itās getting very warm in here. . . very scary, very, very, nervous.ā He is reaaaaally stressing out at this point. Heās trying to compose himself, but he is really worried about Jack and heās getting flustered. Him saying that itās very warm is probably due to him panicking.
[5:26 - 5:34]Ā āWhat is happening? I feel it in my own arm.ā Jack and Dr.Schneep are one and the same, they have a connection. Maybe itās a heightened connection since Anti is inflicting pain on Jack while infecting ze Doctah.Ā
[6:03] The fourth glitch happens. Dr.Schneep is rubbing his neck. It possibly connects to the slit on Antiās neck? The one he stitched?Ā
[6:32] The fifth glitch happens. Ze doctah is stressed out of his mind.ā
[6:38 - 6:43]Ā āYou need... get... whatever is inside that brain! Whatever is inside, we need to get it out!ā He is fully aware of what is happening to him, and he is stressing out big time because he is going to lose Jack if he doesnāt do anything. The sixth glitch shows Dr.Schneep convulsing, as if possessed.
[6:44 - 6:47] The flickering of the glitches are becoming more frequent, and Antiās voice emanates from Dr.Schneepās voice when he saysĀ ādie.ā
[6:49 -6:54]Ā āNot again, I will not lose you. I almost lost you once before.ā HEāS ADMITTING THAT HE STITCHED AND HEALED ANTI AFTERĀ āSAY GOODBYE!ā This is it! After Jack killed himself, Anti took over his body, and ze doctah stitched him back together. Itās still Jackās body nonetheless! More flickering occurs.
[6:58] Dr.Schneep is freaking out, he has no idea what to do. Heās going to lose Jack. He is panicking.
[7:15] His attempts to save Jack are becoming futile. Systems failure is in the Zalgo/creepy font in cc. The camera flickers dimly to reveal Anti for the first time, smiling at us. Anti knows that heās going to kill Jack, again.
[7:40 - 7:48] Dr.Schneep grows anxious.Anti speaks out from ze doctah with maniacal laughter. Anti has more control over him.Ā
[7:51 - 8:02] āVe need to save him-- I need your help!!ā Dr.Schneep is being driven by fear and panic. The feedback of the camera is lagging. He knows his demise is coming, and now heās screaming at the audience to help Jack. He knows that we, the community, can stop Anti, but he alone cannot. Anti continues to speak over ze doctah, telling the audience to save him and not Jack... just like he always wanted us to do. (By the way that was a pretty cool transition from Sean to Anti c:)
[8:05 - 8:10]Ā āAntidepressants, Anti-- depress--press--press--press. We have to depress Anti--and--get him out of there!ā Heās trying to fight against Antiās influence. He doesnāt have that much time, and now heās trying to go against the glitch to send the community a message to stop Anti.
[8:11 - 8:20] Anti fights back and manipulates Dr.Schneepās body to hang itself on the cord of his headphones. Ze doctah- thank goodness that this happened- breaks out of Antiās control and continues to do his best to save Jack. This shows that he was, originally, one of the strongest egos among Jackās alternatives. Sadly, heās losing the battle as he is slowly fusing with the glitches of the video.
[8:24 - 8:29] Dr.Schneep is stuck in the control of Antiās glitch, which is apparent from his repetitive, yet contorted, mention of anti-coagulants. His movement is synced with Antiās as the camera flickers between ze doctah and Anti, signifying that Anti has full control over him now. Their expressions match, the madness is taking over him with every pulse of a glitch.
[8:30 - 8:46] Ze doctahās pain is either the connection with Jack slowly dying, or the pain is from Anti which he is inflicting upon him. Anti, in the background, continues to laugh as Dr.Schneep succumbs to the realization that Jack will die, that whatever he did made Jack worse, that his efforts were wasted on someone that was going to die.
This is Antiās part. Iām just going to list out the important parts he says.
āim tired of playing pretend! sick of it!ā
āand you thought you had him backā
Ā āthey all follow meā
āive kept control all of this time!ā
āi am eternal, always!ā
āfooling around over, and OVER! in fucking circles!ā
āmocking me with your āglitch bitchā ā ha yeah shut up Anti you are a glitch bitch
āthat doctor thought he could save him but he was MINE! he was weak!ā
"who do you think youve been watching all of this timeā
āpowerlessā
āmy puppetsā
āthere are no strings on meā
So... what now.Ā
What does Anti want? What is he going to do? Jack is dead... again. What happened to Dr.Schneeplesten? I have a few ideas as to whatās going to come in the future.
Thereās a few new things he mentioned during his little hissy fit:Ā āmy puppetsā andĀ āthere are no strings on me.ā Heās talking as if he is a puppeteer, the one pulling strings in this entire predicament. He wants- desires for power, for control, and as we were watching,āpowerlessā and unableĀ to do much at first, he was ever so slowly getting what he wanted. From this video, it appears that Dr.Schneeplesten is now under Antiās control, making the strongest of the bunch submit to Antiās will. Itās just like what ze doctah said:Ā āIf one goes down, then they all go down.ā Anti is planning to take down every other alternative ego and to break their will so that he could enter easily within them. He was able to successfully infect Dr.Schneep by making him feel helpless. Anti slowly pushed Jack to death and Dr.Schneep couldnāt do anything about it, causing him to spiral into a heap of panic and mistakes. He was mentally broken, and that was when Anti entered. If he was able to do that to him, then think about what he could possibly do to the rest of them?
What I fear is that Anti will use all of the alternative egos against Jack. Jackās creations will turn against him.They will torture him, just like how Anti did to ze doctah. They will do all the dirty work, and Anti will grab the opportunity to possess Jack and fully control him. In a way, itās like a computer: if you take down all of the smaller systems in a huge one, then you can hit the center core of the process with ease.
Now... what can we do?
We fight back. We can think two steps ahead of what Anti is planning. We continue to strengthen our will for Jack to come back- especially when he broke his two video streak OH MY GOD WHAT HAVE YOU DONE ANTI YOU BITCH- and to make sure that we #saveseptic/#septicsave rather than save Anti. If we break now in a heap of worry, which is honestly working Anti WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO TO JACK, then we are playing right into the his hands.
Letās do this for Dr.Schneep! For Jack! We are more than one person. We are a community. Weāre not going to let some petty glitch take over Jack!
On another lighter note, I hope that you enjoyed my analysis, interpretation, and theory! I would really love your feedback please dont roast me alive. Iāll be honest, Iām scared to post this over tumblr. Itās moreso that it might get negative feedback, but thatās the risk that I must accept. I never really popped my head and put my input in stuff, especially in Markās and Jackās community, so yeah ^^ā
Have a good day all. Stay awesome, you are all amazing.
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