#the mental process behind it was:

[vorakh]

still believe that the funniest most incorrect thing i got wrong about disco elysium before playing it was thinking that jean was the union leader. that he was evrart claire (or edgar claire). or alternatively that he worked in the post office or something.

[duocatt]

tl;dr things change including me, shocked & appalled. will being changing some stuff up & hopefully that leads to more fun. idk if im gonna change this one up or just make a new blog we'll see thank youuuu bye

[dykedvonte]

Honestly I see Jimmy's refusal to put Curly out of his misery less about his weird feelings of envy or his delusions but the fact Curly is all but stated to be a shield to Jimmy from his actions and people seeing the worst in him.

The only characters that Jimmy really interacts with one on one before the crash are Curly and Anya, two individuals he has wildly different relationships with. It's likely that Curly really did most of the talking between them as the pilots and the rest of the crew as staff. They didn't know of Jimmy's more reprehensible behaviors cause they never really had the chance to and Jimmy is subconsciously aware. If they had disliked him more than Anya would have told Swansea earlier or even Daisuke when things got really bad.

It's why he takes the immediate opportunity to blame Curly; He's the shield. He's saved Jimmy's ass more times than he can count and more times than Jimmy would ever admit. Even when he can't really do it anymore, he mentally shields himself from his own faults by putting Curly between them. Letting Curly die puts too much on him because he doesn't know how to function without a safety net.

In the end Curly only lives because Jimmy needs the idea that Curly will inevitably make things better to stay alive, meaning Curly has to live, no matter how much it pains him to do so.

[ganondoodle]

Have you been assesed for adhd?

nope, though im pretty sure i got it ... or its something similar bc although also not officially diagnosed there is no way im not autistic OTL

the only things i have been .. 'diagnosed' with is anxiety and chronic depression, though both of which by a therapist that got arrested for fraud and harassment (hahaha .. ._.) and im not sure how much weight that can hold both bc of .. THAT and bc i honestly have no idea how much a therapist can do (its been many years since then too) and the only meds he ever offered me where like .. drugs ('herbs')

i have been thinking of asking our family doctor about it but im rather afraid of whatever process i gotta go through to get anything that might help since im sure its also not JUST adhd that causing all this (and ... im afraid it could impact how i am treated ... like if they know im autistic are they not gonna take me seriously anymore or stop me from making choices about myself.. welp theres the anxiety ndfjkgndfknvgfdk)

(and a new therapist is pretty impossible bc theres a really big problem of not enough therapists around ESPECIALLY where i live ... also fear bc of the previous one .. haha ._, )

[jakowskis]

what's the countrycide filming fiasco? 👁️

fjfkfkfkfk so basically when they filmed countrycide they went out in the beacons and stayed at an old (haunted) hotel and the whole cast (possibly excluding naoko shes never mentioned when they talk about it? maybe she just didnt get as crazy fhdsjkf) got rlly drunk and had Misadventures. it's like their fav thing to talk abt at panels

some of those misadventures were

gareth hitting his forehead on a bell (you can see the welt in the finished episode), barrowman pissing in a public fountain at gareth's suggestion, barrowman + eve having a slumber party in their pjs (gwack activities tbh), and eve yelling at newlyweds. chaos! (link to one of the videos where they talk about it, timestamp included, is in the description of that gifset.)

burn gorman tried to steal a bathtub. this is like quintessential burn folklore, like this has reached modern newmanns who aren't even into tw because it's just so hilariously bizarre. better yet he denied trying to steal it to the rest of the cast for eight years and insisted the manager falsely accused him. he still won't talk about it when they bring it up. the man's mind is an enigma. he unscrewed it from the floor.

[dalvs-wife]

THIS IS FUNNY AS HELL IM CACKLING

[stereax]

saw you post 'listen before you go', thought you'd enjoy this:

oh...

[lewmagoo]

it’s cool and dreary outside, it feels like fall. i’ve spent my morning listening to classical music and i made some pancakes and coffee and now i’m just enjoying the sound of birds chirping through my open windows. very healing ♥️

[dracolizardlars]

I wake up, I see that my beloved musician Kavus Torabi's new album has released, I think "oh neat!", I end up reading the whole very in depth "biography" that comes with the album on Bandcamp and find out he's been through some serious shit regarding his mental health and familial relationships, I take immense psychic damage

[kerorowhump]

my boy best friend having trouble identifying/accepting envy?

actually makes so much sense for him

[quick-drawn]

i try to be open minded with ships and stuff, but i've always found it so hard to get behind hanzo x cass —

[tarantula-hawk-wasp]

Sometimes i decide not to post vent posts bc if someone says something nice or appeasing in response to it I’m going to snap and become evil

[waterdeepthroat]

i may have just written 3k words of angst about the tadfools having terrible body image when i was in a sleep-deprived haze and it needs to be edited down to a decent length but. i am cringe and i am free

[schakira]

you know, concealing a part of your identity in any setting is always going to be so alienating, especially when one does so for survival. i want to be a kinder, more honest person, but can i truly do that when i'm not even allowing myself to be an entire person? if i'm a third of what i should be, then am i anything at all?

[guarshroom]

Y'all ever just be an inch from having a complete mental breakdown at work?

[notquiteaghost]

Psychiatry UK have been providing a lot of NHS services for ADHD recently which is why she asked probably. They encourage ppl to get referred to them rather than local services as local are so stretched and then they do telehealth

oh yeah i know!! they're also significantly more competent than local services, is the thing. like, idk what they're like cuz i'm not actually under them, but i have gone private after my local nhs service decided i'm neurotypical actually, a decision made by a single psychiatrist after one (1) ninety-minute appointment + two double-sided questionnaires,

and, for contrast. so far, with the private service, i filled out those same two questionnaires purely as a screening measure. then i had a ninety-minute appointment with a psychologist just covering background/childhood, and when it was done she sent me her write-up and i got to correct it as much as i wanted and it only counted when i was happy with it. and then i had a ninety-minute cognitive assessment with a psychiatrist. and now i'm gonna have another final interview with a psych. and all that info is also looked over by the head of the assessment team and all decisions go through her.

so, yknow. i understand nhs services are being intentionally underfunded and that's not their fault, but psych uk isn't just encouraging people to go through them cuz their waiting lists are shorter. if you can get the govt to pay for you to go private you absolutely shld cuz in this specific case private is better