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hellspawnmotel · 4 months ago

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well you guys really called my bluff on this one, haha. I have a lot to say on the topic so this will probably turn into a long post but the answer really depends on this: what interests you about astro boy, pluto, and the franchise/tezuka's body of work as a whole? what do you want out of this experience?

if you're just looking for places to read/watch these things and that's it, I'll put some links here at the top so you don't have to dig through this whole mess.

you can read astro boy (original manga) here (there are occasionally missing pages on this website, if/when you run into those you can switch to this one which is harder to navigate but complete)

you can watch/download the 2003 anime (english sub) here

you can read naoki urasawa's pluto here

so you're interested in astro boy but aren't sure where to start: my opinion as someone whose point of view you respect for some reason

it didn't occur to me until recently that for a lot of people who follow me, your cultural touchstone for the concept of astro boy is most likely to be the 2009 american movie. I didn't watch that as a kid, I was 14 when it came out and fully into my "anime is superior to western animation" phase, but I've watched it now and well.... if you like it that's great! I did not. I'm not going to dwell on that, but I think it's worth noting that whatever your opinion on it as a movie is I don't really think it's a good representation of astro boy and its themes. moving on.

the manga

if you want the pure, unfiltered astro boy experience, this is as close as you're gonna get. it's gonna be a little haphazard though because the dark horse publication, which is probably the only way you're gonna find to read it in english, does not order the stories chronologically. I don't think that really matters because there's not a lot of continuity so as long as you understand the basic premise you can read in whatever order you want, and this puts a lot of really good stories first anyway so it's nice too. personally as far as all versions of astro boy proper go, the manga is my favorite. it's not always an easy read, for reasons I'll get into in a moment, and it's not always good either. some stories are phenomenal, some are just plain silly, and some are downright terrible. but given how long it ran for and how consistently and without breaks tezuka worked on not just it but all his other manga too I think that's too be expected. but even the bad ones I think are worth a look! this is the history of manga as a medium right here! and I love the manga, it's fun, funny, wonderfully drawn, compelling, shockingly dark at times, and just a fascinating read for those with an interest in classic comics.

all that said, I think it would be irresponsible of me to recommend it without also including a big fat disclaimer, which dark horse was kind enough to put at the front of the book.

if you have an interest or familiarity with classic/vintage manga, anime, comics, and cartoons, you probably saw this coming, but some of this shit gets REAL racist, most often in terms of how people are drawn. some of tezuka's biggest inspirations were the rubberhose american cartoons of the 20s and 30s, and all that implies. for whatever the opinion of a white american is worth, based on his writing I really do believe he had good intentions- he consistently speaks out against racism and bigotry in general, in astro boy especially. you can tell he was very passionate about it. but I'm not gonna defend the guy either, you can't be drawing people like that, even if it was the 40s-80s. a lot of the experience of getting into tezuka is reading a story where the moral is "racism is evil! end discrimination!" accompanied by straight up racial caricatures in the art. it's baffling and infuriating. if I could I would travel back in time and hire the man a sensitivity reader, but I can't, and he's been dead for 35 years so we'll never know what he would've done about it today. all we can do is take it as an opportunity to learn and do better. but, if all that puts you off getting into the manga or the series at large, I don't blame you!

with that out of the way, the size of the manga might intimidate you. there's a lot of it. lucky for you you don't have to read all of it if you don't want to! I've read the entire thing because I'm a completionist at heart, but I've had several friends come to me for a smaller and more manageable reading list, which is as follows:

(stars for my personal favorites, grimaces for "I did enjoy this one and I think it's worth reading but I don't feel good about recommending it". I also think "the artificial sun" and "atlas" are important reads if you're interested in the history of the franchise because they get referenced a lot, but they are VERY racist and I don't think theyre good enough overall to make them worth putting on the list despite that.)

that was long. next up:

the 2003 anime

I am not quite done watching this one but I'm pretty close so I feel confident in saying: on the whole, it's great! it looks absolutely fantastic for a tv anime from that era, the character and world design is top-notch, and overall it does a really good job adapting the best and most important parts of the manga into a continuous story, although it softens the blow of the darker moments quite a bit (which might be a good thing for you, depending on your tastes). it's pretty beloved by western fans, and for good reason.

I do have my issues with it, for one this might not be a popular opinion but I think they majorly screwed up on adapting the "greatest robot on earth" arc (my favorite arc btw, yes I might be salty), for another they really sand the edges off of uran's character compared to the manga and make her a lot more meek and girly. but that's just my opinion and if this show is the only one you've watched you wouldnt know that anyway. so don't let that deter you if you're interested, you'll be missing out on a pretty fantastic kids show.

so, if you're looking to really dive chest-first into astro boy as a franchise and understand all there is to know: maybe don't start with this one. it changes a lot from the source material and kind of does its own thing. but if you're just looking for a good story thats fun to watch and total eye candy, go nuts!

pluto

pluto by naoki urasawa is an adaptation/reimagining of astro boy's most famous and beloved arc, "the greatest robot on earth". it's also what got me into the franchise and one of my favorite manga ever! pluto reinvents the story as a detective thriller set in the aftermath of what is effectively, and obviously, the iraq war. it's brutal and harrowing, and beautiful and cathartic and hopeful. to me it is the gold standard for "dark and gritty reboot of a children's story" because urasawa adores tezuka and respects the original version, which was always a dark tragedy anyway, just presented differently. you might have seen pluto got an anime adaptation last year as well. I've watched it, it's pretty good! it doesn't change all that much (I don't like the few things they DID change but whatever) but I just think urasawa's artwork, paneling, and pacing are completely unmatched so I'd recommend the manga first. I'm not gonna be that asshole who insists you gotta read the manga over the anime though, if anime is easier for you you're better off having experienced pluto that way than not at all.

(if you ARE interested in both astro boy and pluto and are considering which to get into first, it's important to know that reading the arc pluto is based on will spoil a loooooot of things about the story. so weigh the pros and cons of that before making a decision!)

so, that's basically what I have to say. I haven't watched the 60s or 80s anime adaptations so I can't give insight on those, and I'm by no means an expert on any of this. I only started reading the original manga like three months ago and before that my memories of the other stuff was pretty faded, before I revisited it. if you're interested though I hope this helps, and I hope you enjoy yourself if you decide to take the leap! it's kind of a rabbit hole. I did not know what I was getting into when I decided to reread pluto, but I'm sure glad I did.

if you have any other questions about my personal opinions, feel free to shoot me an ask as well!

#astro boy #asks #sort of.#this got very very long lmao

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southside-otaku · 8 months ago

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Not sure if it’s like the moon, season, or what but here I am writing AGAIN! Yay🥳 Anywho, here’s more for our Daddiest Kaiju Officer Kafka because I am now reading the manga because I am so down bad and so invested in this story!! As always this is a fem!reader but anyone can enjoy!

MDNI 18+

“Oooh fuck, Kafka!” Needless to say it was a great time for everyone to be at the training grounds right now. If anyone were around they would hear the obnoxious noises and vulgar comments being ripped out of your throat as your back hit the wall over and over from your boyfriend’s harsh thrusts.

“God baby, you feel so good. You bein’ a good girl for your handsome officer yeah?” Again he thrusts his fat cock up into your already sopping wet pussy. You give out a guttural moan hearing the squelch between your thighs which were burning trying to keep purchase on your boyfriend’s hips.

You could tell he was getting close by the way his large hands gripped your ass harder and his hips moved at an even faster pace- man has inhuman powers ya know he’s gotta put them to good use.

“A-aah! K-Kafka, baby, I can’t! I can’t anymore-“ he hushes you and kisses your already bruised lips in a passionate embrace attempting to calm you before he completely ruins you for the third time today. “Cmon Princess, I know you can take it. You fit my cock so well, no one else can do that. Cum f’me doll.” And with that you drench his awaiting cock in your juices as he fills you with his seed.

He rests his forehead on yours as the two of you catch your breath. “Damn mama, that was the best one yet. Hope nobody decided to head back early haha” he chuckles with that big goofy grin.

That night, however, when the boys were hanging out poor Ichikawa hardly said a word to his friends. He was never taking a training break to look for Kafka again.

Taglist:

@i-literally-cant-with-this @kazutora-kurokawa @manji-hoe lmk if you wanna be apart of my taglist! I’m gonna try to write more!

#sorry ichikawa poor baby ain’t gonna call him sir anymore #anime #kaiju no. 8 #kafka hibino #kafka hibino x reader #Kafka hibino x yn #kaiju no 8 smut #kafka hibino smut #kaiju no 8 x reader #kn8 #kn8 spoilers

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vamphorica · 3 months ago

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How would a female Mello, matt, and Near be?

absolutely wonderful question, anon, thank you so much. if you've been on my blog for any length of time, it is probably not surprising that i've given this a lot of thought and, putting aside my intricate transgender speculations for the time being, let's gender swap the wammy's creatures, and consider how that could impact their narratives within death note.

note: i will still be referring to all three using he/him pronouns, but this is not intended to be intentionally contrary. feel free to substitute whatever pronouns your heart desires throughout.

♀ mello -> mihaela may be a little bit obvious, haha, but if mihael is a croatian name that means 'who is like god', and we need to retain the letter 'm' for obvious reasons, i think it works well as a feminine alternative name. mello is relatively androgynous as an alias, if not slightly masculine, but i think it is fine given what i'm about to talk about.

mello's canonical gender expression is already nonconformative, so it is interesting to speculate what he would he look like if he were a girl. one of my absolute favourite genderbent depictions of mello is this piece by thekatzone because it still retains mello's visual ambiguity but in the opposite direction. i do think he would dress more masculine as a woman not only because his subversive appearance is a very significant aspect to his character, but also because of how it might relate to his position in the mafia.

mello spends a significant amount of time in the manga and anime in hypermasculine environments despite his presentation, and i think it is important to retain this idea even if he were to be genderbent. i do think mello would have had a much harder time, if it was at all possible, in attaining a leadership position within the mafia as a woman. the women who frequent the base are implied to be sex workers, and so i'm genuinely curious as to whether mello would have felt able to approach the organisation as a masculine presenting woman, or whether he'd seek out a different group. in which case, what would that group be? would he have been able to effectively carry out his insane plans in the same capacity?

i have very little doubt mello would still have been ambitious, but i actually don't think that he would have been able to pursue his goal to catch kira before near as he went about it in the series. certainly light would not have taken him seriously if the voice he heard down the phone was higher pitched, and that alone could have greatly impacted how sayu's kidnapping played out, as underestimating mello could have easily resulted in her death.

♀ matt -> apparently mail as a name means 'pleasant', and that is very funny to me. i quite like the name maille, which is irish, so fits nicely with a vague headcanon i haven't fully developed. i also learnt it is the name for a brand of mustard, and i think he would appreciate that. matt as a pseudonym might have to be changed to matilda, or martha.

while i am under no illusion that matt would be the kind of girl to give a shit about their appearance, i do think in another life, he would have made an excellent e-girl twitch streamer. i can imagine him wearing cat ear headphones and miniskirts, and referring to "chat" every five seconds. rest in peace, mail, you would have loved twitch subs.

regarding matt's gender identity in the canon series, i think that it worth considering how he might have responded differently to surveying others as a woman rather than as a man. i think matt's approach to watching others is very informed by his own personal biases, which I think are definitively masculine. The most clear example of this is how he describes misa as "an awfully cute japanese girl" which, while isn't necessarily the worst thing said about a woman in this godforsaken series, demonstrates that matt's perspective on women is superficial at best. this isn't helped either by the fact that he completely fucks up when guessing misa's age, even going so far as referring to her as a "child".

i think a female matt would probably feel the most overwhelmed of the three by societal expectations of women, and may even distance himself away from femininity. i'm not trying to suggest here that matt's comments imply he's misogynistic, but i actually think matt is the most masculine of the wammy's kids, which may be controversial, i don't know. i believe that he retains his masculine personality in this genderbent scenario.

♀ near -> i love the japanese pronunciation of near's name, nia, as a girl's name that he could use as an alias. natania has the same meaning as nate – 'gift of god' – which does not match his character at all, haha, but that is what i managed to come up with.

near is the easiest to consider gender swapping because to me, he's a girl anyway. you can point to his female voice actors in the anime, or his long hair in the 2020 manga one-shot, but he is also so clearly coded as a feminine character, a contrast from not only mello's aggressive impulsivity, but the masculine environment of law enforcement. with halle as a notable exception (who herself is very masculine, but another post, perhaps), near is markedly different from every other character in the series. some might say he resembles his predecessor, but i think they are very distinct from one another as characters.

my personal opinion relating to mello and near's gender identities (which you may disagree with) is that mello expresses his gender ambiguity externally whereas near does so internally. essentially, if we interpret them both as androgynous, mello's appearance is far more expressive of this, whereas near's behaviour is his more nonconformative trait. this can be a slightly tricky area to navigate as it's important not to dive headfirst into gender essentialism, but i think near's mannerisms can, and should, be explored here.

girl near would still be able to work as head of the spk, without the disadvantages girl mello would face to become head of the mafia. i really don't think there would be much in the way of significant plot deviance if near was female, other than maybe light freaking out over the fact he was caught by a woman, which would be very funny. in the one shot, near's internal androgyny has manifested itself as a more external expression, and i really like that decision.

to conclude, i do love the concept of the wammy's girls, and i think it invites some interesting discussions relating to how femininity is often dismissed in death note. there's a lot of creativity in genderbending characters. mello, matt and near each have complex and interesting traits that are very fun to explore when thinking about them from this perspective.

#sorry this took me so long to respond to #managed to write it out while getting tattooed so i think i deserve credit there at least #asks #mello #mihael keehl #matt #mail jeevas #near #nate river #wammy's house #death note #gender #analysis #perhaps?#headcanon #text post

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olderthannetfic · 3 months ago

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anon who asked how to make ao3 stats into charts here. i figured doing it all by hand was the case haha. i just wanted to know if there's any more convenient way to go about it, since i'm not exactly good with numbers

i'm mostly interested in how the number of works in other languages are broken down after reading the first paragraph of the anniversary post on ao3's front page (what are the other most used languages, how many works do they have and how are they distributed across different types of fandoms, that kind of thing)

Works search can find some of these things, but it won't show you sidebars.

One easy way to get a sense of how things look is to pick a big tag like M/M or Explicit and then filter by language. Sadly, languages themselves are not tags in terms of how AO3 handles them (boo!), but many other metadata categories are. Ratings are particularly useful because all works have one and only one.

Grabbing the numbers, by hand or not, is secondary to defining what you're asking and figuring out which numbers would even be relevant.

"How many works are currently up in which languages?" is one of the easiest questions to answer. I haven't gotten those numbers in a while, and I'm supposed to be doing other work, so now's the perfect time to procrastinate by doing this instead:

When gathering data, you'll need to be logged in and not muting anybody.

There are a bunch of other ones with 0-50, but even by the ones with a few hundred, you're seeing lots of false positives from people trying to hide their Minecraft RPF.

Getting a good breakdown is harder, but for Chinese, at least, nearly 80% of the works are M/M, so you can get a sense by just filtering M/M for Chinese. Out of that 700k, here are some sidebar numbers:

Men's Football RPF (18570)

声入人心 | Super-Vocal (TV) (17894)

Slam Dunk (Anime & Manga) (14232)

全职高手 - 蝴蝶蓝 | Quánzhí Gāoshǒu - Húdié Lán (12760)

Haikyuu!! (12566)

Table Tennis RPF (10715)

ジョジョの奇妙な冒険 | JoJo no Kimyou na Bouken | JoJo's Bizarre Adventure (9858)

呪術廻戦 | Jujutsu Kaisen (Manga) (9813)

原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game) (8890)

Hetalia (Anime & Manga) (8730)

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cerealforkart · 10 months ago

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Closing Manga Thoughts

I just deleted a long vent post about every single one of my feelings about the end of the podcast and the manga being over. Except not really over because it looks like there's a lot more interest in a physical edition than I was expecting. Hopefully I'll see y'all in the preorders in a couple weeks once I figure out how expensive this will be to make and from there how much I want to charge.

Anyways. Please humour me for a quick moment while I make a big deal out of my thing because it might look like sixteen goofy little drawings in boxes every other week, but it's been a really big deal for me over the last year and a half. I've decided all I really want to say about the end of the manga is thank you for being a fandom I was comfortable sharing something like this with. When I first got into DnDads I had never shared fanart anywhere and I had been fallen off the creative train for a while. So thank you for being here, for engaging with the manga because without that engagement I wouldn't have bothered to see this through to the end. Thank you for allowing me to foster an interest in making comics.

I feel really peaceful now that it's over. It's hard to explain, but I was always very anxious about if people would still be interested in the next pages, if I was wasting my time, if I had phoned it in and should have tried harder. But now that it's over, now that it's complete, and I'm proud of every single page, even the ones I was kind of lazy with, I'm just very content and grateful that I was able to share this very special project, and I don't care so much about if they'll be looked back on fondly, or laughed at, or ignored anymore. It's done, and I'm happy.

Now that the manga is over, if you're ever wondering what I'm going to be doing next, I'll still be here. I have more DnDads ideas, some comics that will escape the four panel format I've been locked into for so long, and I draw One Piece stuff too sometimes, and that won't be going anywhere for a while still haha. I also have an original fantasy comic about a magic that kills you that just entered it's third chapter and you can check it out starting here on Tumblr, or on it's own website here. And if you ever want to request art from me or just support me financially, I have a ko-fi, I take requests for the low price of literally any money.

Once more, thank you. This project has been so special to me, and I'm so unspeakably grateful that it was this fandom I was able to share it with, I don't think it would have lasted, or even started anywhere else, for anything else.

#noodly #thank you everyone #this still turned out pretty long #so I'm sure you can imagine how annoying the original draft was haha #god I'm making such a big deal out of this as if I'm not going to be back here tomorrow lmao #just got lots of feelings tonight #this was a really special chapter of my life #but I'm kind of glad to see it go

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thelazyhermits · 2 months ago

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Because Idia was insanely cruel to me when I was pulling for his tsum and broomquet cards, I have no other choice but to retaliate by making him suffer through as many embarrassing otome game/shoujo manga-esque tropes/situations as possible, all of which will be underneath the cut 😈

Okay, first off, I wanna say the reason behind Idia's upcoming suffering is none other than Ortho as well as all the other Ignihyde dorm members cause they all wanna support their OTP and think Idia could use some help, considering how he is and the fact that he's got a lot of strong rivals lol

After much deliberation, which entailed the shippers thinking about everything they know from otome games/anime/manga, they all come to the decision that the "forced to be together due to circumstances out of their control" trope is the way to go since Idia never leaves his room, so obviously, they need to bring Yuu to him and keep her there long enough that romantic hijinks can ensue.

They decide to go with the old tried and true handcuffed together trope in particular cause it's a classic and always so effective in fictional settings, and they don't see why that won't be the case in real life as well 😂

Naturally, cause this is Ignihyde we're talking about, they wouldn't use normal, old-fashioned handcuffs. Plus, it would be harder to get Idia to wear something that actually looks like handcuffs for obvious reasons lol

Instead, they make what look like metal bracelets, and the story that Ortho provides to Idia/Yuu is that someone from Ignihyde asked for Ortho's help in making them for one reason or another, so Ortho decided to bring them to Idia/Yuu to get their input.

Because he trusts Ortho so much, Idia doesn't bat an eye when Ortho places the "bracelet" on him, and obviously, neither does Yuu.

That's why they're both very surprised when, within seconds, the bracelets suddenly smash together, and they find themselves unable to separate the bracelets, which are now attached like magnets.

Making full use of all the acting techniques he's learned from Vil, Ortho acts surprised cause these bracelets, according to his fake story, should only be capable of acting as communication devices, accessing the internet, etc.

Soon after, Ortho "comes to the realization" that these must be the bracelets that the roommate of the guy he had been helping was working on which "coincidentally" look near identical to the ones Ortho had been helping with.

As Idia starts complaining about how impractical it is for roommates to be working on projects that look that similar, Yuu asks about the bracelets they're wearing and how to take them off since she quickly realizes she's unable to, much to Idia's dismay.

Ortho explains these bracelets are from an anime the roommate likes that he just wanted to recreate for fun. They're essentially handcuffs that keep people stuck together, although there is a feature that allows whoever is wearing them to be set free for no more than ten minutes so they can use the bathroom, etc.

Unfortunately, said feature can't be used multiple times back-to-back, so Idia can't constantly use it to keep from being close to Yuu, which Ortho knew his brother would do if the option was available lol

Once that time limit is reached, the bracelets will immediately seek each other out, as designed, and once again stick together like magnets.

Unsurprisingly, Idia demands that the guy who created the handcuff bracelets free him and Yuu. Unfortunately for him, while Ortho and creator of the bracelets try to free Idia/Yuu, they are unsuccessful because "for reasons beyond them" the bracelets aren't responding to the release code that their creator set up so he could always remove/disengage them.

Naturally, Idia also tries to remove them himself, but much to his amazement, he's unable to, and that's thanks to Ortho who made sure to Idia-proof the handcuffs ahead of time haha

Once enough time passes with all of Idia's efforts to free himself ending in total failure, Ortho and the bracelets' creator promise that they'll immediately start working on fixing the bracelets, which they thankfully can do remotely so everyone doesn't have to crowd around in Idia's room.

In the meantime, Ortho tells his brother to just be patient and to focus on being a good host to Yuu, whom he apologizes again to for all the trouble.

Idia, of course, is not a fan of the idea of being left alone in his room with Yuu, but sadly, he's unable to stop Ortho who hurries out of the room along with the guy who made the bracelets and Grim, whom Ortho promised to keep an eye on for Yuu as a form of apology for inconveniencing her so much.

As expected, Idia starts panicking cause all he can think about are all the otome games/anime/manga that involve the tried and true handcuffed together trope lol

It doesn't help matters that this happens AFTER Wish Upon a Star so Idia is especially awkward when it comes to these kinds of scenarios that remind him of those otome game dreams that had previously plagued him 😂

Thankfully, Yuu keeps her cool since, while this situation is a little exasperating, she's not all that bothered about having to stay with Idia in his room since it's not like she had any plans for the rest of the day.

She's really only concerned about Idia, whose heart may not be able to survive these current circumstances lol

That's why Yuu does her best to be accommodating/supportive toward Idia since she feels bad for him, and she doesn't want him passing out on her 😂

Yuu tries to get Idia to ignore the handcuff bracelets and just pretend this is like a normal day when she comes over to play video games, which is what she originally came to his room to do on that particular day. She's sure he'll be fine if he gets lost in his games since that'll help him temporarily forget about the real world.

Since Idia is desperate to escape facing reality, he goes along with the idea, but unfortunately for him, it's impossible to forget about his current circumstances due to Yuu's wrist essentially being attached to his and the fact that she has to sit close to him in order for him to use both of his hands when he games.

Regardless of whether Idia plays solo or Yuu plays with him, the positioning is awkward/uncomfortable cause of their wrists, although Idia is more bothered by the fact that Yuu is close enough that he can feel her warmth.

His heart starts pounding so hard that that's all he can focus on, and he can't stop freaking out about the possibility of Yuu being able to hear it 'cause how can she not when it's being so loud?!

Even though Idia keeps all his suffering thoughts to himself, Yuu can tell just from looking at his red face/pink hair that he's unable to escape reality with his video games, and she assumes it's because of their wrists being attached, which really is impossible to ignore.

That's why Yuu next suggests reading manga because their handcuffed wrists won't really get in the way since they're both capable of reading using one hand/their laps.

And they can do it with their backs facing each other, which she assumes would be preferable to Idia who likely wants to avoid looking at her in his current flustered state.

Idia quickly goes along with that suggestion since anything is better than his current predicament.

To a degree, it is since now Idia can avoid having to look at Yuu. However, he's still stuck being close enough to her that he can feel her body heat, even though Yuu made sure to avoid pressing her back against his for his sake.

Rather than focus on the manga he picked out for himself to read, all Idia can think about is how close he is to Yuu and how, at any moment, something unexpected could happen that results in their backs becoming pressed together, making them resemble lovers from otome games/shoujo manga who end up in scenarios where they each have their own work/tasks they need to do but still want to somehow be in physical contact with each other so they can simultaneously enjoy each other's company.

Countless scenarios of this nature run through Idia's mind, and he just continues spiraling when his traitorous mind makes him wonder what will happen if he's still handcuffed to Yuu when nighttime rolls around.

Surely, he won't be able to survive.

Without thinking, as he starts internally screaming upon thinking of the agonizing embarrassment that's ahead of him if Ortho doesn't save him soon, Idia moves to clutch his head, completely forgetting about what's currently attached to his left wrist.

Caught off guard cause it happens so fast, Yuu gets jerked toward Idia, and they collide, causing them both to fall over.

And that's how Idia, to his great dismay, finds himself lying on the floor with Yuu on top of him.

Needless to say, everyone in the entire dorm heard the high pitched shriek that Idia released during that moment.

(Meanwhile, Ortho and all the Yuu/Idia shippers are cheering cause the bracelets just alerted them of the drastic increase of Idia's heartrate which they automatically assumes means romantic hijinks are currently ensuing 🤣

Fortunately for Idia, the members of his dorm refrained from tapping the bracelets, so they're not spying on Idia/Yuu like they're fully capable of doing cause they wanna respect Idia/Yuu's privacy, and Ortho didn't think they should go that far.

So instead they're just making assumptions of what's going on based on Idia and Yuu's pulses, which the bracelets are able to clearly monitor, and because Ortho knows his brother so well, he can accurately make guesses about whether or not something potentially romantic is happening haha

In regards to Grim, he's been stationed in a room filled with snacks, video games, and movies, so he's just chilling, living his best life, completely oblivious to what the Ignihyde dorm is up to lol)

Miraculously, Idia manages to avoid passing out, but since the possibility of that happening is still there, Yuu quickly climbs off of him and tries to get Idia to calm down so he won't hyperventilate.

Thankfully, Yuu eventually manages to get Idia to calm down, although he refuses to look directly at her, and she wisely refrains from asking him what happened earlier when he was freaking out which caused them to collide since she doesn't want to take any chances of saying anything that will make him freak out again.

Instead, Yuu tries to distract Idia from his internal suffering by suggesting they watch some anime since that's something they can do while handcuffed, and she's hoping this will help him focus on anything other than the current situation at hand.

Since he has some new episodes that he has yet to watch that he's been meaning to check out, Idia goes along with her idea because surely watching some of his beloved anime will save him from this hell.

Fortunately, for a while, Idia is actually given a respite. While he's still overly conscious of Yuu being so close to him, he's able to mostly keep his focus on the anime they're watching.

Regrettably, everything goes downhill when an unexpected kiss scene happens in one of the episodes they watch.

Normally, Idia can watch those without batting an eye since fictional displays of affection don't bother him, but that's not the case this time cause the kiss scene happens after the main character and his crush end up locked in a room together for an extended period of time, which results in previously hidden feelings coming to light.

Seeing this, all Idia can hink about is how he too is currently stuck alone in a room with a cute girl, not to mention the fact that she's handcuffed to him, which makes things all the worse.

Needless to say, Idia is soon back to internally screaming about how unfair life is to him lol 😂

Yuu naturally picks up on Idia's embarrassment thanks to his scarlet face and bright pink hair and quickly figures out what's got him so flustered this time.

She kindly refrains from saying anything and releases an internal sigh of relief when the anime characters stop kissing and finally get out of the locked room since Idia somewhat settles down after that, although he's still incredibly flustered.

Despite that little incident, the two continue watching anime since it helps to distract Idia and makes it so he doesn't have to talk to Yuu lol

The rest of the afternoon passes like this, with the two watching anime and also playing board games, the latter of which was Yuu's idea since that's something that can also be done while they're handcuffed together and she thought Idia would get distracted if he got the opportunity to beat her like he so often does.

Unfortunately, Idia couldn't enjoy the board games as much as he usually would cause his traitorous mind decided to point out just how considerate Yuu has been of him all this time since she keeps making all these suggestions to accommodate him and never questions his embarrassing reactions. She just rolls with whatever he throws at her.

Idia can't stop himself from getting the "doki doki"s cause of the current circumstances they're in that make him hyper aware of stuff like that, which he'd normally not think too much about for the sake of his sanity lol

He can't stop himself from thinking that Yuu would truly make for a great otome game heroine since, despite her being a scary delinquent tomboy, she's very kind/considerate toward the people she cares about. She's definitely someone who can trigger other people's romantic flags, especially with her ridiculously OP charisma stat.

In hopes of bringing himself back to reality, Idia quickly assures himself that there's no way anyone would ever wanna go for the route of a gloomy otaku shut-in like him. Yuu has sent him a friend request, but that's as far as this relationship is going.

Despite this, Idia still gets flustered whenever Yuu smiles after making a good play in whatever game they're playing, and his heart won't stop pounding like a drum whenever her kind/soft gaze focuses on him.

At this point, Idia really wants someone to just come and put him out of his misery 😂

Unfortunately for Idia, his suffering is far from over since, when evening comes, Ortho and the others are still unable to disengage the bracelets, and they don't think they'll be able to free Yuu & Idia before morning, meaning Yuu has no other choice but to spend the night in Idia's room, much to Idia's great dismay.

In regards to dinner, Ortho prepares it for Yuu & Idia since Yuu obviously can't cook while attached to Idia, especially since Idia refuses to leave his room.

As a form of apology for all the trouble that their dorm caused her, Ortho makes a dish he knows Yuu really likes, but he especially focuses on dessert by making several since he knows how much Yuu loves sweets.

While this is a good thing for Yuu, who's obviously touched by the sweet gesture, the same can't be said for Idia who spends the majority of dinner internally screaming cause he can't stop thinking that the faces Yuu makes when she's happily eating sweets are really cute.

Up until this point, Idia never gave much thought to the faces Yuu makes when she's happy, but under his current circumstances, his traitorous brain can't stop itself from pointing stuff like this out.

It doesn't help that they have to eat side-by-side, and their arms end up constantly brushing against each other. That's why Idia is unable to ignore Yuu and her cute expressions despite how much he desperately wants to.

Idia is suffering™ 🤣

(This was all a part of Ortho's grandmaster plan. While he did want to do something nice for Yuu, he mostly just wanted to give her food that would result in her making lots of cute faces. According to the data he has on her, some of the cutest expressions of Yuu's that he has on file are the ones when she's eating sweets, and he was counting on his brother taking notice of that and getting charmed by her cuteness as a result 😂)

Fortunately for Idia, although Yuu is very much aware of his scarlet face and flaming pink hair, she never brings attention to his embarrassment, which she assumes is because their arms keep brushing against each other.

When dinner finally ends, Idia is internally begging for a miracle - to be saved from this torture.

Regrettably, that salvation doesn't come. On the contrary, his suffering only increases thanks to Ortho who, after dinner, returns to Idia's room after having kindly made a trip to Ramshackle along with Grim to fetch a change of clothes for Yuu.

Ortho's "kindness" comes back to bite his brother cause, after Yuu takes the shortest shower of her life, she hurriedly returns to Idia's side, wearing a tank top and shorts, resulting in Idia getting a clear view of her muscular figure and her chest, the latter of which's size is bigger than people first assume cause of the kinds of clothes Yuu typically wears lol

Cue Idia shrieking like he's being chased by a horror movie serial killer 🤣

Having expected this sort of reaction, Yuu, who really has no control over this since Ortho had Grim collect the clothes she had previously been wearing while she was showering, apologizes and explains this is the only change of clothes that Ortho provided her, and she can only assume it's cause he had Grim go into their shared room to collect your clothes and Grim just grabbed whatever without giving his clothing choices much thought.

What makes it even worse for Idia is the fact that Yuu's hair is still wet since she couldn't afford to take the time to dry it.

Panicking, Idia hurriedly finds one of his baggy hoodies and some sweatpants and forces Yuu to wear them cause he won't survive otherwise.

He soon regrets that decision, however, when he sees how adorable Yuu looks when wearing his clothes that are obviously big on her cause of their height difference and the fact that I HC that Idia prefers baggy clothes.

(This is also all according to Ortho's grandmaster plan. He knew Idia would react like this, and he wanted this to happen cause what's more romantic than the heroine wearing her love interest's clothes?)

Unfortunately, there's really nothing Idia can do since he can't get ahold of Ortho to get him to find new clothes for Yuu, and he refuses to leave his room while handcuffed to her.

As a result, Yuu ends up wearing Idia's clothes for the remainder of the evening, and they'll also be her pajamas for the night.

Once she has put on Idia's clothes, Yuu uses the towel she brought into the room to towel-dry her hair which she didn't have enough time to dry in Idia's bathroom.

This is a slow-going process since Yuu is only using one hand for Idia's sake, and it's agonizing for Idia cause her dripping wet hair is making his heart pound like crazy, and he has no idea why. Why is he getting so flustered over something like this?! 😂

That's why Idia eventually snatches Yuu's towel and dries her hair himself with both of his hands since the sooner her hair gets dried the better, although doing so is murder on his pounding heart cause all he can think about are all the couple scenes from the anime/manga/otome games he's seen that have lovers drying each other's hair.

(This is also what Ortho was going for. It's why he sneakily made sure there were no hair dryers available for them to use 🤣)

Thanks to Idia being so desperate to end his suffering as quickly as possible, he's able to dry Yuu's hair pretty quickly, and she thanks him for his help, all the while giving him a pitying look cause of how flustered he looks lol

Because he really doesn't want to go through the embarrassment of Yuu offering to dry his hair, Idia decides not to take a shower that night.

Plus, Idia isn't confident about getting in and out of the bathroom in under ten minutes cause anything can go wrong when he's panicked/flustered, and Idia would rather die than risk Yuu seeing him fresh out of the shower 😂

Once Idia has made it clear that he'll save showering for after the bracelets are removed, the topic of sleeping comes up cause of how late it is.

Because the only way the two of them can sleep thanks to the bracelets is by sharing a bed, Idia is naturally against the idea of sleeping and instead insists on binging anime all night since sharing a bed with Yuu will surely kill him lol

Unfortunately for Idia, this is the one time when Yuu doesn't try to accommodate him since she doesn't approve of him pulling all-nighters cause it's not good for his health. Plus, she can tell he didn't get much sleep the previous night, no doubt because he stayed up late gaming, so she is determined to get Idia to sleep tonight, much to his dismay.

In hopes of making the situation easier for Idia to handle, Yuu suggests making a pillow barrier between them. That way, they won't ever get too close.

Thankfully, Idia's bed is a decent sized one, so they can both comfortably fit on it even with the pillow barrier.

Idia does his best to resist at first, but in the end, he gives in since he knows he's no match for Yuu when it comes to matters like this. Plus, she has been extremely accommodating the whole day, and he can't blame her for not wanting to stay up the whole night.

That's how they eventually find themselves on Idia's bed with countless pillows in between them since Idia wanted to make the biggest possible barrier lol

As expected, despite the pillow barrier, Idia can't bring himself to relax because of these current extremely embarrassing circumstances, so he's expecting to stay up the whole night, staring at the ceiling while bemoaning how cruel life is to him 😂

Much to Idia's surprise, he's eventually pulled away from his internal suffering when Yuu's hand, the one that's attached to his and is currently buried underneath the pillow barrier, takes hold of his hand and gives it a reassuring squeeze.

Half-asleep at this point cause of the late hour, Yuu, who's able to pick up on Idia's distress, sleepily tries to calm him down by assuring him that everything will be fine. Nothing will happen tonight, and Ortho will save the day tomorrow.

As she's talking, Yuu softly strokes Idia's clammy hand with her thumb in a calming motion in hopes of helping him relax. She also starts quietly humming the kind of soft, soothing tune you'd hear playing during lullabies.

Unsurprisingly, Idia gets flustered by the hand-holding, but at the same time, strangely enough, he somehow does begin to calm down for some reason, most likely cause of Yuu's humming since he ends up focusing on that more than the fact that she's holding his hand.

Because Yuu is self-conscious about her singing, Idia has never heard her sing before, and humming is also rather rare, although she has been doing that more as of late, so he can't help but be entranced, especially since it's such a lovely sound.

Of course, his heart still skips a beat when he realizes that Yuu is moving out of her comfort zone for his sake, making him think another of his flags just got triggered lol

Eventually, thanks to Yuu's efforts, they both end up falling asleep, hand-in-hand, and are able to remain in a deep sleep throughout the rest of the night.

This ends up being a bad thing for Idia, however, cause, once his little brother is sure the coast is clear, Ortho sneaks into the room so he can check on how Idia is doing.

After quietly cheering about how well things appear to be going, Ortho decides to remove the pillow barrier since that'll obviously only be in the way of possible future romantic scenarios 😂

Once that's done, Ortho quietly wishes them both a good night and retires to his room where Grim is fast asleep.

Because of Ortho's actions, Yuu is understandably caught off guard when her internal alarm clock wakes her up and she finds herself being hugged by a sleeping Idia who's now treating her like his favorite body pillow.

Not having expected Idia to be a secret cuddler, Yuu is surprised by how tightly he's hugging her and how he's even got his face buried against her neck. Their legs are even entangled - to the point she knows there's no way she'll be moving anytime soon, not without risking waking Idia.

Fortunately, Yuu isn't bothered by this turn of events since she likes cuddling with her friends, and she honestly thinks it's pretty cute that Idia, of all people, is a secret cuddler.

(This is my HC since Idia probably is touch-starved to a certain extent considering how he isolates himself and has been doing that for most of his life, although he does have a warm, affectionate family which is why he's not as bad off as Yuu.

Plus, I could see him being the type who seeks out the closest heat source when he sleeps since I feel like he has a naturally low body temperature despite having fire hair lol)

Thankfully, Yuu already contacted Jack in advance to let him know she'd be missing their usual morning run since she knew getting Idia involved in that was out of the question.

As a result, Yuu has nowhere she needs to be, so while Idia continues to sleep, she just passes the time by playing with his hair which is all over the place thanks to all the moving Idia did while he was sleeping.

Regrettably, this peaceful atmosphere doesn't last forever since Idia has to wake up sometime, and when he finally does, he makes it very loud and clear that he's awake lol

With a piercing shriek that makes Yuu wince cause of their close proximity, Idia pulls away from her and tries to put as much distance between them as possible.

That, of course, ends in his total failure thanks to the bracelets that force Yuu to move along with Idia, so as a result, she ends up falling onto Idia, eliciting even more screams from him 🤣

For the sake of her poor eardrums, Yuu quickly covers Idia's mouth and tells him to stop screaming. Otherwise, she won't remove her hand from his mouth, and she won't try to give him some space.

Since that's obviously the last thing Idia wants, he quickly settles down, and once she's sure she won't have to worry about any more screaming, Yuu finally uncovers his mouth and pulls away from him.

After that exchange, Idia asks what happened to the pillow barrier, and Yuu tells him that, since the pillows are scattered around them and she never left her side of the bed, she can only assume Idia demolished the barrier while he was moving in his sleep.

Naturally, Idia refuses to believe he would ever do such a thing, even while asleep, but regrettably, he's unable to think of another plausible explanation since it's true he was the one who was tightly clinging onto Yuu earlier rather than the other way around, and he was on her side of the bed when he woke up.

Idia is absolutely mortified. He just wants the ground to open up and swallow him whole. Please just put him out of his misery 😂

Feeling bad for him, Yuu assures Idia that she won't tell anyone about what happened and she won't tease him about it either. She also assures him that she wasn't bothered by his actions since she likes cuddling with her friends, and she knows Idia had no impure intentions cause he was asleep.

This really doesn't make Idia feel much better since he's too deep into his mortification by this point. He can't even really hear her cause he's breathing so hard/loudly, on the verge of passing out cause it's all too much for him at this point.

Upon realizing this, Yuu quickly but gently takes hold of Idia's face, forcing him to look her in the eye.

While maintaining that eye contact, Yuu gently instructs him to match her breathing - to think of nothing but breathing.

Idia weakly resists at first, but eventually, he follows her instructions cause the worry in her eyes is so obvious and he doesn't like that he's the reason that worry is there.

Plus, Yuu uses the word "please" when she asks him to match her breathing, which further shows how concerned she is about him since she's pleading with him to listen to her.

Despite everything she has unintentionally put him through these last 12+ hours, Idia can't bring himself to take things out on her, like he probably would if it was anyone else he was stuck with.

He can't intentionally do something that will make her sad.

As a result, Idia's breathing eventually calms down thanks to Yuu's efforts, and it's only once he completely settles down that Yuu finally releases his face.

Once Idia finally calms down, Yuu gently brushes away his hair from his face, making him blush, all the while holding his gaze. She tells him that he can trust her - that she won't ever purposely do anything to hurt him, so recent events won't change anything.

Once this is all over, Yuu won't bring up recent events again unless Idia wants to. She won't tease him or try to have fun at his expense, because she cares about him and always wants him to be comfortable in her presence. She would never purposely do anything to ruin that, especially not after what happened following the Ghost Bride incident.

So Idia doesn't need to worry so much. She can understand how his negative mind always makes him assume the worst, but this one time she wants him to trust her more than those negative thoughts. She wants him to believe she's not like the kind of person who would hurt him for her own amusement.

The whole time she's talking, Idia just stares at her with wide eyes as his heart once again starts rapidly pounding.

Strangely enough, despite how hard his heart's pounding, Idia doesn't feel panicked like he did all the other times this happened.

On the contrary, Idia feels the calmest he's felt since this whole bracelet handcuff nightmare began.

Catching Yuu off guard, Idia suddenly starts laughing, as if he heard the best joke ever.

For several seconds, all he can do is laugh before Idia says it's just like a shounen protag to say something so cheesy/sappy. He can't believe she can say something so embarrassing with a straight face like that.

Before Yuu can complain, although she is happy to see Idia acting more like his usual self, Idia tousles her hair and says, with a grin, that he's completely forgotten what he had been so bothered about cause of Yuu's typical cringe.

After he thanks her, using his typical mocking tone, making Yuu pout, Idia just continues to laugh and ruffle her hair.

One of the main reasons he laughs so much is cause Idia hopes the sound of voice will drown out the sound of his still heavily pounding heart, and he hopes that by mocking her like this his hair won't give away the fact that Yuu's words actually made him really happy and assuaged his worries just as she had intended.

Around that time, Ortho arrives on the scene, and because things are looking so good between Idia and Yuu, he finally releases them from the bracelets, with the claim that they finally fixed the bug that was making them malfunction.

With a cheer, Idia leaps out of his bed and heads for his gaming console, so he can resume the gaming he had to put on hold, all the while enjoying his newfound freedom.

Much to Yuu's surprise, Idia tells her to hurry and grab a controller so they can do some dungeon crawling together. This catches her off guard since she would've thought that he'd want her to scram so he can have some much needed alone time.

Once she overcomes her surprise, Yuu moves to join him, all the while feeling happy about the fact that it seems her previous words really did reach Idia since he seems genuinely comfortable around her despite recent events.

All the while, Ortho gives himself a pat on the back for his excellent matchmaking. Obviously, his recent scheme was a total success, so now, he's even more enthusiastic about matchmaking! He's gonna do his best for his big brother and make sure Idia's the one who gets that Best Love End!

Idia, of course, won't be nearly as enthusiastic 😂

#fortune in twisted wonderland

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asaichiban · 28 days ago

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Unpopular opinion in ytanu fandom ("fandom" i say, and its like,, 3 other people here sobs): I loved Asaichi the very second I started reading and, to me (a fan of tsundere guy chars), he's just so adorable and cute and I can't get enough of him

(had insane thought to make a Asaichi ita bag cause its not like anyone would know he's a character from a yaoi manga, but haven't gone through with that idea cause it feels wrong, like its on similar level as to back when guys walked around wearing ahegao hoodie)

Omg!!!! Omg, I'm so happy I got an ask on this blog!!!!!! Hi!!!! Ah!! You're on anon so I can't tell but have we met before? Here or on AO3? Have I perhaps seen you liking my previous posts? Or is this your first time stopping in?

I am so intrigued that you liked him right away, haha, I thought he was horrible. I just reread the full thing cover to cover recently and was like damn, I forgot how much I did not like him at first. For me, I remember so clearly that it was when I saw him crying that it was like a switch flipped in my brain that made me irreversibly obsessed with him. Like…

He's so 🤏🥺 ???

Also yeesss I totally get you on the bag thing. When I first found Asaichi merch in Tokyo, I wanted to put a pin on my bag but I felt literally the EXACT same way, like isn't this just putting a porn character on my bag? Isn't it gross even if people don't know? If they do recognize him, will they think it's even grosser?

I'm not really sure at what point I stopped feeling that way but now instead I'm like, wouldn't it be awesome if someone saw it and recognized him and talked to me about it? I was actually talking about this with @asaichi the other day, because they just got an Asaichi pin to put on their ita bag, and I said I wanted to do the same but was afraid of my family or friends asking who it was and where he was from, and they said I could say I found a pin I liked but didn't actually know the character. Which would work, I think, since he looks like a cool guy without context. Though I guess it'd be harder to explain away as "I don't actually know who it is" if you dedicated a whole bag to him, haha.

Anyway, I don't have an Asaichi pin on my bag at the moment but I do have a small Asaichi shrine in my closet. It makes me happy and once I'm living on my own I'll probably move it somewhere more prominent, lol.

Hope this answer wasn't too long. I was just really happy to hear from you. Feel free to stop by any time, on anon or off it.

#literally made my day u don't even know.#I was having a mental breakdown but then opened tumblr and saw your message and immediately snapped out of it. thank u.#anon ask #ask

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dicenote · 7 months ago

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12, 13, 14, 15, 21 & 22 for the character ask for Matsuda. :)

Yayyyy thank you for the ask!! :D

Get ready because I feel like I'm gonna write an essay and a half about The Guy

12. What's a headcanon you have for this character?

Oh geez, I feel like I have so many. How can I pick one?

A random one is that Matsu is the kind of guy to like lying on his bedroom floor. Like, if he had a rough day? Floor Time. He's contemplated so many things while staring at his ceiling. It really helps him feel grounded; when his brain is screaming at him to Do Something, it can help to just lay down and think through stuff.

13. What's an emoji, an emoticon and/or any symbol that reminds you of this character or you think the character would use a lot?

@lawlietscaramels sometimes uses 🦆 for Matsuda, so that emoji now reminds me of him. I keep forgetting to ask lei why they chose a duck, but it feels weirdly fitting haha. Matsuda's just a duck kind of guy, I suppose.

Matsuda seems like he'd use emoticons as punctuation. Stuff like :D and :'( help get his point across in messages when his tone might be read incorrectly (especially when he's messaging someone who can't read sarcasm in an email, Ide). If he's feeling a little extra (and/or texting Misa) he'll use over-the-top emoticons like ☆*: .｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆ because he finds them fun and silly! Also, I think he'd do 😔 a lot, both irl and over the internet.

14. Assign a fashion aesthetic to this character.

I don't know the right word for it, but you know the aesthetic of, like, a bowling alley carpet? That's how his vibes are too me. Like, he's casual and fun, and I associate him with dark tones offset by bright neons.

As far as how he'd actually dress (outside of what we see in canon, where he's wearing a suit 99% of the time), I feel like it'd be kinda close to goblincore? This is kinda based on me googling and poking around sites, so I might be off with this 😅 I do think he'd love a chunky earth-tone sweater and corduroys, though. Something cozy and casual, you know?

15. What's your favorite ship for this character? (Doesn't matter if it's canon or not.)

hnnnngh why do you have to do this to me /lh I'm gonna talk about a few of them because I can't help myself they're all so good.

I love so many for different reasons! I think my favorite right now is probably MatsuIde, because I really enjoy their dynamic and banter. Also there's so much hurt/comfort potential with these two post-Kira. I feel like, after everything's happened, they have this connection to each other because they feel like no one else can really understand what those 5 years were like. This is true for the entire Task Force (and I like AizaMatsu for similar reasons), but with MatsuIde it just hits different, you know? Maybe it's because they spend so much time together onscreen (on panel?).

LawTsuda is probably my favorite ship for the first half of the manga/anime. Emotional intelligence vs. Logical intelligence is a ship dynamic that I fall for every single time, and Matsu and L have those respective traits in spades.

I also am a Canon One-Sided MatsuLight truther, lmao. Matsuda having a crush on Light feels so right but so wrong, and it really helps put parts of the second half into context. Like, Matsuda shooting Light hits so much harder that way, idk. Imagining a world where this ship is healthy is difficult but I find their dynamic so so interesting. Matsuda you deserve so much better but I can't help myself sorry.

TL;DR- MatsuIde is probably my fav overall, LawTsuda is my fav for the first half, MatsuLight is the crunchiest.

21. If you're a fic writer and have written for this character, what's your favorite thing to do when you're writing for this character? What's something you don't like?

My answer to both questions has to do with writing his impulsivity. His priorities differ a lot from other characters, and that changes what details he pays attention to and how he reacts to information. It also means that he's going to act irrationally in the name of Doing Something. Which is fun to play with! In chapters 9 and 10 of Weekend At Ryuzaki's, for example, I was trying to give off the idea that Matsuda is being quickly backed into a corner, which causes him to make a lot more mistakes and hasty decisions.

But on the other hand, writing an unpredictable character acting unpredictably while also making it satisfying and interesting to read is really hard. Like, I don't want him to seem like he's randomly bullshitting his way to answers that move the plot along. He has reasons for doing things in the heat of the moment, even if his reasons aren't exactly logical.

22. If you're a fic reader, what's something you like in fics when it comes to ths character? Something you don't like?

I like to read just about anything with the "Matsuda Touta is Not an Idiot" tag, lol. Because he's not, really. Sure, he acts without thinking sometimes, and his thought process is very different from L's and Light's, but he's not an idiot. I like fics where he solves or helps solve the Kira murders, but his line of logic is different than the one used by L/Near in canon.

It's really hard to think of things in fic I don't like, to be honest! I guess one would be the Matsuda/Sayu pairing. I just find it kinda icky given that one scene in canon with them together. If they are both older, and it's a small part of an otherwise compelling fic, I can usually forgive it, though.

#death note #ask game #touta matsuda #matsuda touta

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yuseirra · 5 months ago

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I went and jotted down my thoughts after having written my previous post. I brought a translation for it! It goes a little more into detail.

Just a moment, I was referencing the official manga volumes for the fan comic I'm drawing. In chapter 72, Ruby says something in front of Ai's grave:

'You know, about Aqua... He seems a little brighter these days. Like something that was possessing him has fallen away.'

This was the moment when Aqua decided to stop seeking revenge and live a normal life. At that time, Aqua's star-shaped eyes disappeared, and he returned to having normal eyes.

I’ve mentioned it many times, but the stars are essentially the gods of this manga. There are constant references to "stars dwelling within the eyes", or the idea of "being a reincarnation of the brightest star" in both IDOL and Fatal.

When the stars dwell within, it seems to grant some sort of special power. The term 'dwelling' or 'possessed' implies that they are entities acting with intention, or at least some kind of force is at work.

This manga often brings up gods, right? And the gods that were directly mentioned, if I remember correctly, were in chapter 144. There were four distinct gods, and gods who didn’t realize they were gods (this seems to be in plural form).

This is important. It means these gods will play some role in the story.

The god who created the world. God who brought forth the concept of souls. God who love absurdity and unreasonableness. God who loves people.

There are gods who don't realize they are gods as well.

I believe the characters from the Hoshino family are most likely those who don’t know they are gods. Their stories align too closely with mythology. Ruby once said she was Amaterasu, and Ai had been associated with Ame-no-Uzume (whether she was possessed by that god or was the god herself, it seems the phrase, "the reincarnation of a star" that's been used to describe her indicates that she was likely a manifestation of that god. She's probably also that star that the speaker in the songs longs for and pursues to bring back to life/become into). Kamiki’s name even has 'god' in it, and he has many parallels with Ame-no-Uzume's husband. In mythology, Sarutahiko is a deity who governs the land, and helps guide people so they don't get lost, which is why people pray to him for traffic safety. He’s also a shining god whose body radiates light, an indigenous solar god before Amaterasu. Aqua’s name matches Susanoo, Amaterasu’s brother, who is the god of the sea.

There’s something up, right? I’m sure of it.

Right now, the plot is so intense and moves so fast that it’s hard to get emotionally invested... Haha. It’s becoming harder to create content because I need to immerse myself in the character’s emotions to be able to draw something. Honestly, I feel really sad because hearing the spoilers has shattered my immersion. I could stay immersed up to chapter 159, but just hearing about the spoilers for chapter 160, it felt like the story was moving too quickly... I’ve never seen a manga so much like a soap opera before. Maybe it’ll be fine when I see it in the drawings, but for now, I might need to take a break because I can't get back into that emotional space.

But aside from that, there’s definitely something going on about the star- eyes in the manga.

Kamiki seems to be swayed by it. In the past, he suffered because of it, and it’s unclear whether he’s currently using it to his advantage or relying on it to revive Ai. But if you look at the lyrics of Mephisto, it seems more like the latter.

Based on my analysis of that character, there's actually really high chance of him just being a really pitiable guy who's been suffering upon having lost Ai tragically, probably in all this to get his lover back. He’s definitely the type who would do anything for Ai because he genuinely loves her. The black star is somehow intertwined with him. If we compare this story to mythology and find the parallels with it, the god that corresponds to him is actually a really benevolent one. He’s a god who protects and helps people. The virtuous god. He's also very powerful, the head of the earthly gods and is respected and worshiped by many.

I don’t think this is a coincidence. If Ai wanted to help him, it would make sense if he's like that in essence.

He was originally a good person, right? It seems like something went out of their way to corrupt him and ruin his life.

The lyrics of 'Fatal' even say that a capricious star messed up the speaker's life. There are lyrics that mention of "creative downfall from heaven" or something like that. The lyrics are really strange. And in 'Mephisto,' there’s a line saying, 'I forgot who I am,' right? I think this character is a god who doesn’t know they’re a god.

Everything fits.

Isn’t this it? Isn’t the main mission of the protagonists assigned by the gods tied to saving their father then? The more I think about it, the more convinced I am.

If this isn’t the case, where is the story even headed? What evidence is there that Kamiki is really evil and the mastermind behind everything? Am I missing something? Wasn’t he originally a good person? From what I’ve seen, his personality was so good that he even helped improve Ai’s character. He didn’t just not get angry, he seemed incapable of being so.

When you look at his actions, he seems like someone who keeps smiling through unbearable situations. You really need to pay attention to the scenes where he smiles because that smile might not be a real one at all. That’s why I’m convinced that his expressions in chapter 154 were genuine. That chapter showed his true nature.

I really think I’m right. I’m usually pretty good at reading psychology, and with everything fitting together like this, I think this is where the story is headed, don’t you agree?

Honestly, it’s really hard to create fan content right now. The current situation is very messy so it’s difficult to focus on drawing something sentimental or wholesome between the characters.

But I feel like the clues related to the gods are starting to unravel. I think this all makes sense. It’s not like there haven’t been hints sprinkled in along the way.

#oshi no ko #oshi no theories #oshi no ko spoilers #spoilers

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electratheart · 7 months ago

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my mini essay about how much i love haikyu bc i need to express it pls

oh gosh idk what’s come over me but i could not be happier honestly.

after watching the dumpster battle move in theaters last month, i feel like ive been thrown into a full fledged haikyu phase that i missed out on both in 2020 (but it’s fine i heard it was also horrid at times during this, but lowkey looked fun LOL) and when i watched it for the first time in 2021 (ik im a little late to the game… don’t remind me)

when i watched it for the first time, i obviously loved it. but it’s hitting so much harder now—how im both reading the manga from volume 1 to rewatching the series (loosely) side by side. and i rarely rewatch anime’s unless it’s casual random ep (i.e ohshc or hxh for me hehe)

something about it this time means so much more. haikyu gets me so excited, hyped, happy, and so emotional. i don’t even play volleyball, but i do love the sport! yet it makes me feel like i can fly too 😭😭 i wish i was able to witness this series during its first release (i would’ve been in middle school!!) and i feel like it would hit so hard to grow up with them and the series 🥹 but it’s okay—timing is everything. even 3 years is a while already too.

but i’m so glad to have haikyu rekindle this spirit of excitement and motivation in my life right now. the story. the characters. how they all grow and develop and improve. and the themes about teamwork, believing in yourself, passions, hard work, everything in between just reminds me and teaches me so much in my own life too. i could go on and on but this is only a mini essay after all haha. i just love it so much.

thank u furudate for creating such a masterpiece. this piece of work changed the world and so many lives. even mine. and ik this might sound corny but idc. i really do love haikyu and what it means to me. everything about it, it makes me want to live that way too—to go after my dreams and believe in myself and cultivate my passions and work hard and find a community and live my life the way i want. so simple but powerful at the same time.

it makes me sad that the manga is over and we’ll only be getting another movie (literally robbing us…. i’m still manifesting for a new season idc idc i’m in denial) but i know haikyu is always there for me whenever i need it. and look, i can rewatch it, reread it over and over again. bc the spirit of haikyu goes on forever always!! we keep on flying higher!!!

#hq #haikyu #haikyuu!!#talking to myself

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xxlady-lunaxx · 1 year ago

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Unwilling | {KokuZan}

Theme: Angst

Note: I purposefully chose to write this as angsty as I could. I'm sorry in advance-

TW: implications of suicide! Mentions of sex :> like... the word haha- Angst obv! Vague spoilers-

How I wrote this is kinda skipping around a bunch and I wrote it differntly than I used to so sorry it's kinda rushed too...

It might not make sense if you've not finished the manga :> (more somewhere around the middle, I mean? cuz i'm vague abt details halfway through LMAO)

(part two here)

Kokushibo looked at Muzan with an inquiring look. "Muzan..?" he said tentatively.

Muzan sighed, as if annoyed he had been called. "Yes?" He looked at Kokushibo from his perch on his chair. "What is it you want?"

"Can I, um, kiss you?" the Uppermoon asked. He wasn't sure what to say. He just wanted some sort of affection from his boyfriend who seemed to hesitant to give him any.

Muzan crossed his arms. "Kiss me? No. I'm not in the mood for wasting my time right now."

Kokushibo nodded and averted his eyes. He'd expected that. It was the same answer he got nearly every time.

"It's too much of a bother," Muzan said, rolling his eyes. "Now, go to where Nakime is."

Kokushibo obeyed and moved to leave.

~~~

Muzan stood above all of the Uppermoons on a platform, something he'd had Nakime make specifically higher up to appear more menacing 'than he already was.'

"All of you are useless!" he said, his voice echoing in the hollow of the room. "You cannot seem to follow orders correctly! So far, no Hashira has been killed in the past, what? ten years? Pathetic. None of you have found any sort of trace of the blue spider lily, and besides that! You cannot catch a mere child. No sign of the runaway demon, no sign of any of you making progress at all! Disgusting. Have the Upperranks fallen? The Lowermoons were already horrible, but will all of you acting as such, maybe you six should be qualified as Lowermoons." He gave them a condemning look. "You're failing as Uppermoons. If you do not do something soon, if you do not prove yourselves worthy of the title I've given to you, I'm stripping all of you of your ranks."

There was a defeaning silence in the room and even Nakime knew better than to make a sound as Muzan glared down upon the Uppermoons.

The threats were probably—hopefully—empty ones as they had been for some years now, but they were still terrifying all the same. Who knew if this would be the time he decided they were no longer just to scare them?

He raised an eyebrow at their silence. "Very well then, off to your missions now. I hope none of you disappoint me," he said, shooting a look at Nakime.

In an instant there was a strum of an instrument and every Uppermoon found them back to where they'd been a couple minutes before.

Kokushibo, having just had been in Muzan's office, was there again now. Muzan stood in front of him, the stern look still playing on his face.

The Uppermoon blinked then said, "Uhm, Master..."

"What is it?" Muzan snapped, irritated.

"I'm sorry that I've—we've all—not been doing enough to fullfill your wishes, I promise to work harder and I'll-" Kokushibo started.

Muzan interrupted him with an impatient look. "Does it look like I give a fuck? Apologies aren't going to change anything and promises won't either, so don't fucking act as if I'll 'forgive you' for some stupid words." He rolled his eyes and glanced up at Kokushibo. "It's your own fault for being useless and weak. Go fix it yourself than pleading forgiveness."

"But... Muza-"

"No. Go do your missions or I'll put Douma up as Upper 1," he said, clearly a lie but also quite plainly a way to say I don't give a fuck about you right now.

Kokushibo sighed and turned away, trudging out the door.

~~~

Muzan glanced at the clock. 4am. Fuck.

Well he wouldn't be going outside anytime soon.

He sighed. Where was Kokushibo?

He drummed his fingers on his desk mindlessly, bored out of his mind. He sort of wanted to be with Kokushibo right now, just to... be with him.

But there was no way he would go ask. No fucking way.

Muzan dropped his head down onto the desk, annoyed with himself. Why'd he even care about Kokushibo?

The clocked ticked by painfully slowly and Muzan found himself pacing around.

Eventually, he got bored and went around to Nakime.

"Nakime." he said quietly, his voice echoing in the empty room.

"Yes?"

"Take me to one of the households I've presented myself in as a human."

"Alright." She brought her hand down to her biwa and plucked one of the strings.

Muzan blinked and found himself in front of a door.

"Papa!!" a little girl said, running up to him and hugging him.

He quickly changed his eyes to normal looking ones and gave her a smile. "Hello, I'm back from work," he said. "Why are you up so early? It's only 6..."

She grinned up at him. "Because I can!"

He sighed. "Alright..."

A woman came in and greeted him. "She woke up and wouldn't go back to sleep," she explained apologetically.

"Oh, alright, well, you should go off to bed," he said, looking down at the child in a disapproving way.

"Awh.. but-"

"Go to sleep! You need sleep!!"

She huffed but nodded and ran off.

The woman laughed. "Welcome back, dear."

He nodded. "Hm... If she sleeps, do you think we could have some time alone?" he asked.

"Maybe," she said, smiling at him. "Why?"

"I thought we could maybe do something together," he said, his tone suggesting more than he said. Suppose, he thought, she could fullfill some of his want for Kokushibo. She wouldn't be the Uppermoon but she'd be something to fill in his time?

~~~

"He went where..?" Kokushibo asked slowly, his gaze dropping from Nakime to the floor. Why would Muzan go to a human family...

Nakime sighed. "Kokushibo-sama, Muzan-sama went out with the woman from the family of humans he'd created in Asakusa." She looked down at him from her platform above. "Apologies. Should I take you there?"

He shook his head slowly. "No, no I think... take me to his office, please?"

"Alright..."

~~~

(drama✨)

Kokushibo tapped his foot impatiently on the floor as he waited.

Finally, after a couple hours, Muzan arrived. He looked disheveled and his clothes looked unusually unkept. As he walked in, he was fixing them, when his eyes landed on Kokushibo.

"Kokushibo?" he said, confused.

At the same moment, the Uppermoon said, "Muzan. We must talk."

"What about?" Muzan didn't care about reading Kokushibo's mind at the moment. His own mind was already filled with the sounds the woman had made some time before. Honestly, he didn't like her but if it would do anything to make him feel less... clingy, then so be it. Well, it was kind of useless now since Kokushibo was back and now he wanted to just throw himself into the Uppermoon's arms...

"Are you cheating on me?"

The demon lord blinked, pulling his mind from his thoughts. "What now?"

"Are you cheating on me," Kokushibo repeated, his voice stern but his tone almost... hurt.

"Why would you..." Kokushibo's thoughts filled Muzan's mind and he realized that he knew of the woman. "No! I'm not."

"Are you sure of that? You never seemed to care about me, you never do anything with me, you don't let me do anything for you, and then you go out and have sex with another person! And a woman, no less!! Do I not satisfy your needs because I am a man?" Kokushibo asked irritably.

There was silence in the room for a beat before Muzan said, "Well, of course I don't like you!! You're... boring!" What a fucking lame insult. He didn't even mean it. But of course, he wasn't about to say what he felt... that's not how it worked, right?? Anyways, who even wanted to pour out their feelings? "I don't care about all this affectionate shit you want."

It was Kokushibo's turn to process this. "So... you really don't care?"

"No!!" He was so persistant, why did he even like Muzan?

"Then..." Kokushibo swallowed, his mind racing. Muzan didn't like him... "Then I want to break up."

"What?" Muzan looked genuinely shocked at this. "Why?"

"You literally just said you don't like me!! And you just cheated on me!" Kokushibo crossed his arms. "I'm breaking up with you." Then he turned and marched out, leaving Muzan in shock.

Why... How had this happened? Muzan leaned on his desk for support. He hadn't been cheating!! He'd just been... No, he supposed it appeared as if had been. Why hadn't he noticed...? (bc he's a dumbass)

~~~

Kokushibo flopped onto the bed he never used, feeling horrible.

Why had he done that?

No, more so, why had Muzan cheated on him?

He... Kokushibo loved him! He'd done everything in his power to make sure Muzan was feeling alright in the relationship, feeling good. But he'd failed. And now they'd broken up. Because of Kokushibo.

Fuck.

He was a fucking idiot, what had he done wrong?? Where in their relationship had he fucked up...?

~~~

Muzan buried his head in his arms, leaning onto the desk. That didn't happen. Please let it not have happened.

But, of course it had. Of course it had.

Muzan had fucked up the whole relationship, and now, for some reason, Kokushibo had thought he never cared and then he'd fucking broken up with him!!

No fucking wonder all his relationships were fake.

Muzan groaned. He was a shitty boyfriend.

Not Kokushibo, Muzan was.

Kokushibo had been a wonderful one. A loveable one.

And guess who dumped that all away?

Muzan.

He lifted his head and hit it hard onto the table. Fuck.

~~~

He thought he would get used to it. The not dating Kokushibo 'it,' to be more specific. But it was hard. Kokushibo had been... everything to Muzan. And now he was nothing.

It had been months now and yet, the only thing Muzan could think of was his boyfriend. No, his ex. Right. They weren't dating anymore.

Why couldn't he just grasp that?

~~~

A girl. A demon girl. She had conquered the sun.

Muzan should've felt happy but he really... really, he didn't. He couldn't. But he would get the fucking girl and take her blood.

Maybe if he became truly immortal he could find a way to get Kokushibo back.

~~~

Kokushibo felt useless.

Like, he couldn't... couldn't live knowing Muzan had never liked him. He'd just been... some toy to the demon king, then? Probably.

And so he did his best to ignore him, avoid him.

He would never forgive Muzan. No, he could never.

~~~

Perfect. The perfect solution!!

Muzan would get the demon girl and then when all the demons could resist the sunlight... then, he would use that occasion to ask Kokushibo back. Because it would be a good time for the demons as well.

~~~

Fuck it, the demon slayers were doing better than Muzan had expected... But, no matter. They would win. Muzan would win. He had to, otherwise how would he ask out Kokushibo?

~~~

Shit. Half of the Uppermoons were dead. Where was Kokushibo.

Muzan closed his eyes and located Kokushibo, fighting three Hashira and one demon slayer.

The Uppermoon was... struggling.

Ah... the strongest Hashira was there too.

No matter... the strongest Uppermoon was no match for him.

~~~

No. No. No, what, how?!

Kokushibo... Kokushibo had died.

How. How the fuck.

Muzan fought furiously against the Hashira that just kept coming and coming. The demon slayers, so persistent.

Why. Why had they taken Kokushibo from him?!

Fucking hell...

Muzan saw the sun facing towards him, disintigrating him. He was dying. Fuck it, he was dying.

And then there was nothing.

He looked around. Was he still alive?

No...

He was going to hell now, no?

He was dead.

And there was Kokushibo.

"Kokushibo!" Muzan shouted, his voice echoing in this emptiness.

Kokushibo looked at him, disdain filling his features in a second. "Muzan," he said quietly.

"Kokushibo, will you forgive me? I..." Muzan's voice trailed off.

"Forgive you?" Kokushibo laughed, a fake one, a cold, horrid sound. "Never. I will never forgive you, Muzan Kibutsuji. You ruined my life. I should've never become a demon."

Muzan gaped at him. "What..?"

Kokushibo gave him a disgusted look and faded away.

"No! Kokushibo! I'm sorry!"

It was too late.

He would never be forgiven.

~~~

Muzan wasn't aware that people who went to hell were given second chances. But apparently they were.

He found himself as a child growing up. He felt sort of empty, as if missing something though.

As he grew into his teens, he started remembering more of his past. Little by little.

He found he longed for a relationship, but whenever he dated someone he felt only remorse for something—someone—he didn't know what. Or who.

He had a girlfriend now. Again.

She was sweet and nice to him but he found that he wasn't particularily attracted to her. Sure, she was pretty and all, but... he was unsure.

"Kie!" he said, her hand clasping around his arm. "You're going to break my back!"

She laughed. "Carry me!! I'm not that heavy!"

"You aree!!" he whined.

She gave him a playfully injured look. "What?!"

"I'm kidding, I'm kidding," he said, pulling her along the sidewalk.

Muzan stopped abruptly, almost bumping into a boy who looked to be around his age. Kie did bump into him.

"Ow-" Muzan said, turning and stopping her from falling.

"Sorry- Oh, hello!" Kie said, smiling.

The boy nodded. "Hey."

Muzan turned back and nearly fell down. "Kokushibo?!" he said, shock filling his tone.

"You know him?" his girlfriend asked, confused.

Kokushibo nodded slowly. Then quickly shook his head. "No, nope, you must've mistakened me. My name is Michikatsu, sorry, bye!!" he said, looking almost scared. He shot a glare at Muzan then sped off in the opposite direction.

"That was odd," Kie said.

"Yeah, uhm, odd," Muzan agreed, nodding. He watched as Kokushibo ran off. Kokushibo... he could speak to him now.

~~~

"Fuck, where the hell is he?" Michikatsu grumbled, walking down the street.

"Kokushibo."

The voice pulled Michikatsu out of his thoughts and he looked up. Dread filled him instantly. Muzan.

"Yes?" he said quietly. There was no escape, was there? He couldn't leave as he was looking for Yoriichi.

"Kokushibo, you remember, don't you?" Muzan asked hopefully.

"I do. Why?" he said, realizing a second too late he should've pretended not to.

"Kokushibo, I'm sorry, please!! Please can we... can we try again?" Muzan pleaded.

"No."

"What?"

"No, no we cannot. You say you remember, then you must remember that you've cheated on me and that you don't even care," Michikatsu said, crossing his arms.

"But... I care now!!"

"Sure. Lies." He glared at him, anger filling his voice. "I could never care for you anyways." That was a lie too. He did care. But he didn't want to get into a one-sided relationship. Muzan was probably just doing this for show.

"Oh."

And that was all Muzan said because then, Yoriichi walked over.

"Michi!! I was looking for you everywhere," he whined.

Michikatsu turned around gratefully. "Yoriichi!! Finally! I was trying to find you too," he said, laughing.

Muzan blinked. Oh. Yoriichi.

Yoriichi noticed Muzan, then, and his eyes narrowed. "Michi, is he bothering you?"

Michikatsu considered denying it but then nodded. "Yes, he's, uhm, trying to date me."

"Get away from my brother," Yoriichi snapped. "We don't need your gay ass around us." He pulled Michikatsu's arm. "Let's go."

"Yeah, let's go," Michikatsu said, half relieved and half disappointed. For what? He knew not.

"Wait-!" Muzan tried, but the Tsugikuni's had already sped off.

An angry voice came from behind him. "Are you cheating on me?" Kie asked, crossing her arms.

"What?" Muzan turned, desperation suddenly filling him. Those words... not again.

"You're trying to date someone else? Are you really gay? Wow. The most bullshit I've heard in my life. You're literally dating a girl and then go off and find guy and try to date him?" Her voice grew louder with each word, fury rising in her throat. "I can't believe you!! I'm breaking up with you! I really thought I could trust you."

Muzan was speechless which Kie took as confirmation. She glared at him and then stalked off.

That...

Muzan blinked.

Fuck.

~~~

Yoriichi was making rice and Michikatsu stood watching him, his mind elsewhere.

Should he really have gone off and done what he had done? Or should he have let Muzan have a chance... Really, he wanted to have. He wanted to hold Muzan in his arms and believe that he meant the apologies.

But he also couldn't believe them. As much as he wanted to. Which was ironic, he knew, but it was... something he truly felt. And he hated himself for it.

"Michi? You alright?" Yoriichi asked, waving a spoon in front of his face.

"Huh? Oh! Yeah, sorry, I was just thinking," Michikatsu said, smiling.

"Alright, well, the food is done!"

Michikatsu picked up the plate that Yoriichi had made for him and sat at the table.

Had he really done the right thing? Or was he just unwilling to chance Muzan's supposed lies...?

~~~

Maybe he should've just let Kokushibo go.

Two rejections from the man he loved.

Well, fuck it.

Muzan found himself at a cliff then, not even knowing where he was. Had he walked this far? He'd been so consumed in his thoughts that...

No, maybe he'd gone here on purpose. To end himself. He clearly belonged in hell, and only in hell.

It wasn't like anyone cared.

Muzan looked down, noting how far the cliff dropped down.

Perfect. The impact would be just enough to kill him.

He smiled at it, a sort of bitter smile.

"I tried," he whispered, leaning forward and closing his eyes.

{Word count: 2900}

WELP

i finished this with a stupid headache and rushed writing BUT IT'S OKAY I THINk

I THINK IT WAS WRITING A.L.R.I.G.H.T. (that's me trying to convince myself it's not shitty for a rushed in one hour sort of writing)

Kie is totally not Tanjiro's mother :3

#kokuzan #kny #kimetsu no yaiba #sillyness #demon slayer #angst #uppermoons #demons #angsty shit #muzan #muzan kibutsuji x kokushibo #yoriichi #the most angstiest thing i plan on writing in a while tbh bc i can't #help #im losing my sanity

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