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#i love that heâs just playing video games with everyone (and losing <3) but itâs so cute and wholesome of him#like taking time off training to spend time with people he loves?!??!!#heâs come such a long way my sweet prince <3#the manga is so so so good to me for giving moments like this#vegeta#fav
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I'm surprised to learn that people are actually being fussy about Gojo killing the Higher-Ups.
I guess when it comes to the "goofy" archetype it's prohibited or something that they can display other characteristics and go other things other than crack jokes.
Why even be surprised he killed the Higher-Ups?! First, he wanted to because they're entitled assholes. Second, same guy who was going to kill a group of people before... twice.
First time, "Should we kill these guys?... I don't think I would feel anything..."
Second, the KFC scene?! HELLO?!
Third time is a charm!!
Okay, it was okay for Gojo to kill curses because they're curses. But, hot take maybe I don't know, but the Higher-Ups are worse.
The curses do what curses do because they're curses. They're manifestations of negative human emotions, so they cause havoc. They're not bound by any laws and even those who could talk and think for themselves won't still have a mortal compass because again, they're curses.
However, the Higher-Ups were human beings who used the power and positions they have to practically exploit jujutsu sorcerers and children.
I did not forget that they sent three 15 year olds on a missions that they all could have potentially died on just to kill one of them. They did that on purpose.
They chose to label Gojo as a criminal the moment he got sealed. Did so with Yaga because he was a teacher of Geto and Gojo. (I'm still sad about his death, I liked Yaga!)
They use tradition to control others and you think they didn't have it coming? Especially by Satoru Gojo, one of their biggest victims?
I would have been more surprised if Gojo hadn't been the ones to kill them.
#good for gojo he should have took them out#when a goofy character shows they're not just a goofy character some people lose their fucking marbles#oh stop oh give me a break#so y'all must have not have been paying attention to gojo AT ALL like he doesn't just have funny moments#just kiya's thoughts#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#gojo satoru#satoru gojo#jjk manga spoilers#jjk spoilers
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Ride 768: Doubashi attack!!
Pag 1
1: Orange....
âLess of a heroâ? Ah!?
2: Nonsense!!
You've never been a hero to begin with!!
Pag 2
1: Ha..... Hakogaku!!
Even Hakogaku caught up!!
2: Thick.... thick.....
3: A man like this holds the strongest of powers!!
6: I'm thin compared to him!!
That's not true, Oosumi-kun!!
7: Senpai, is he strong?
The Hakogaku member who last year defeated Sohoku's Kaburagi in the first day's sprint is
Pag 3
1: him, Doubashi Masakiyo!!
Buah!!
Pag 4
2: Buah...
So in the end you've decided to run?
3: âChickenâ
Pag 5
1: We're passing by the sign the signals 5km until the sprint line!!
2: Hakone Academy.....!!
3: Ace sprinter, Doubashi!!
Ugh.....
6: We're at â5km leftâ until the sprint
7: There's not much left
Pag 6
1: It won't take more than â10 minutesâ!!
2: So you've come, Doubashi!!
It's âsanâ!!
San!!
How many times have I told you!!
3: Again!!
Pag 7
1: You want to get revenge against me!!
2: That's how someone who won last year would speak, but you lost against me!!
3: Hahaha, are you being a sore loser?
I'm telling you you're the one who lost!!
4: Whatever, come at me!!
It's not whatever, what are you even thinkin when saying that!!
Are you that self confident
Pag 8
1: We'll definitely win!!
2: Interesting, buah!! I came here to humble you!!
4: Ugh....
He's different.....!! He's much more dangerous now that he's running rather than when I met him this morning in the tent!!
Pag 9
1: Hakone Academy's Doubashi!! He's so overwhelmingly intimidating!!
It's like the pressure of a huge raging bull that has its eyes on you!!
2: Just by looking at me he makes me feel like my hands and feet are restrained
Issa fought against someone like him last year!?
4: No!!
5: Calm down
Steady your breathing
6: Swallow your nerves, Danchiku Ryuuhou!!
Pag 10
1: He moved on his own!!
Everyone is so overpowered by Hakogaku that they're not moving!!
For me, on the contrary
2: It's a chance!!
Nagoya's Komao used the curve and jumped ahead
He plans on going ahead alone!!
Pag 11
3: The sprint line is 5km from here!!
Horse acceleration!!
I think I can aim for a breakaway victory!!
4: That guy has a reputation for running solo!!
Gallop!!
This is bad!!
5: Doubashi has an incredible pressure!? But isn't this kind of things
6: just fears that we create ourselves!?
7: I can keep going like this!!
Doubashi isn't worth fearing!!
Pag 13
1: Where are you going?
3: Uaaaaaaagh
Pag 14
1: I thought I was 200m ahead of him, and yet
2: I could have let you go freely, but if you keep wandering around in front of my eyes like that
3: I can't win comfortably!!
Wa-
Pag 15
1: Hakogaku's Doubashi accelerated in an instant and passed Nagoya!!
Gallop!!
2: Together with Sohoku!!
3: Ah!? âSohokuâ!? Tch!! He reacted at the same time as me...?
4: You're the only one who can react at the same speed as me in this leading pack
Orange!!
Pag 16
2: Chicken!!
Pag 17
2: Orange is still behind!?
3: Did he give an order to this guy?
4: And he still managed to keep up with my speed of reaction!?
6: What, this guy's eyes, this running
Pag 18
1: What happened, your expression has changed!!
So this guy wasn't a chicken!!
2: Sorry, Doubashi-san
We'll take this sprint
3: The two of us!!
Pag 19
1: Garuaagh
2: After stopping Nagoya down, Sohoku number 5 jumped out from there
3: and attacked again!!
Tch
4: Hahaha
I told you!!
Pag 20
1: âWe'll definitely winâ!!
2: Orange!!
Hahaha, what we're aiming for is to be
3: âJapan's number oneâ!!
4: I'll make you Japan number two!!
#yowamushi pedal#yowamushi pedal translations#yowapeda#yowapeda manga#yowamushi pedal manga#yowamushi pedal spoilers#ride 768#kaburagi keeps being the funniest person around i adore him asdhsdgfkd#how tf did he became 100 times more stupid since aoyagi left#did aoyagi take aways all of his braincells when he left????#was he actually kaburagi's brain????#anyway i adore him and i adora his relationship with doubashi ashdlsdfjhlds#their whole exchange in this chapter made me laugh so much i took longer than necessary to translate that part lmao#the best way to defeat your opponent is just to pretend youve won already against the#mental battle won: kabu 1 doubashi 0#now leaving those two dumbasses aside for a moment#DANCHIKUUUUU YOU FUCKING GO BOYYYYY#its his time to shine you go boy show us (and doubashi) what youve got#i love this thing they have where kabu gives the order#bc one would think danchiku (being the one with a brain) would do that but nope! kabu does#and when it comes down to it he is pretty good at it#btw lets not forget that kiji is about to arrive too#and hes going to be the last - which means by kabu's logic that hes the hero#which means that hes gonna win????#idk i feel like thats whats gonna happen
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kinda wild to me that one of the most compelling aspects of both Chuuya and Kunikida's characters to me, that I never really see talked about, is how they're heavily set on a doomed crash course towards complete and utter destruction, and how I am so, so worried for them both.....
#bungou stray dogs#been thinking a lot about chuuya lately (shocking for me i know (said with no sarcasm truly lmao it is rare for me))#cause of the 15 manga and also playing the fucking jeht quest in genshin impact ugh (where's the one dual genshin bsd fan who Understands)#but like this pressure has been building up for chuuya for so long due to being used and manipulated by all these people#first the sheep then mori then verlaine then still mori now#he was groomed since childhood just like dazai#but unlike dazai he didn't have an oda to help him get out of the mafia........ he's still stuck there#and his personality is different from dazai's. dazai was more self-aware imo (but still a groomed emotionally abused kid don't get me wrong#but chuuya's whole thing is needing to belong and wanting a leader to be loyal to but ending up in positions of leadership himself#which makes him feel pressured but he accepts and stifles any negative feelings just because he wants to belong#and all this crushed him with the events in the light novels and yeah he went through character growth but he's...... Still In The Mafia...#and that fucking scene asagiri added to the cannibalism stage play i don't think hardly anyone even knows about bc IT'S NOT DISCUSSED ANYMO#where mori emotionally manipulates him with the flags!!! and it deeply hurts him!!! and he presumably deals with that shit all the time!!!#it is WORRISOME. it WORRIES ME okay.#chuuya doesn't have anyone who can save him from the mafia (dazai is in no position to okay; it's all he can do just to try to save himself#and it's so so scary. it spells awful things for him.#didn't asagiri say he'd have a rough path or something??? and he added that fucking scene in the play!!! it haunts me!!#i fully expected this shit to hit a turning point in the meursault arc but we can't have nice things i guess#and as for kunikida a;lskdfl (took me this long to get to him oop) literally the ending of Entrance Exam (the novel) is just#One Big Foreshadowing for Kunikida's downfall#he's compared to the azure king for a reason. Sasaki saw the azure king in him for a reason. it's fucking worrying!!!!!#there hasn't really been anything like that since in the manga (just like for chuuya lol ugh) but he's TERRIBLE at coping with his trauma#and it only gets more apparent once shit hit the fan in the doa/hunting dogs/meursault arc#it's not good!!! i'm worried for kunikida too!!!!#even if the manga isn't focusing on this these worries are always in the back of my mind man#both kunikida and chuuya are doomed to hit some kind of breaking point eventually and i await those moments with dread yet anticipation#i want dazai to be able to save kunikida from the despair being too good a person brings the way he couldn't save oda#and chuuya.... if we get a scene with him & mori mirroring the one in dark era where dazai finds out that mori orchestrated the kids' death#oh man i think i'll fucking die (give it to me i need to cry)
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Iâve been so caught up thinking about the fight sequences and the animation styles and the writing and the antics aand the everything about Spy Family Code White that I forgot about the Ferris wheel. Oh my god oh my god oh my god the Ferris wheel.
#spy x family#spy family code white#spy family#spy x family code white#babbling and spoilers beware:#LIKE???????? that was so intense in the best way#my man got on his KNEES. ON HIS KNEES. and said no stop my oh need to hear this.#you need to hear that you matter and that I chose you and made a promise to you#that you are a mother and a fantastic one and our lives are better with you in them#he got on his knees and skipped past proposing and said let me restate my wedding vows#and I genuinely think if he had been allowed to keep going he would have told her he loves her and wants her to stay.#bc my dude had MOMENTUM and just kept going. he showed no sign of stopping.#he started yammering about how wonderful his wife is and couldnât physically stop#he wonât admit it to himself but he loves his family so much#he wonât admit it to himself but the moment either of them starts to doubt that they are cared for he will drop everything and remind them#fuck I love spy family itâs so good#Iâm so excited for more#I should read the manga finally#ALSOOOOOOO#The cute little teaser at the end that was like ah well time for a family trip this time to the south!!!#LIKE PLEAASSEEEE CAN I GET A BEACH EPISODE#A BEACH MOVIE IF YOU WILL#I want Spy Family Movies like Hercule Poireaut stories. throw those guys in an episodic mystery or mission for 90 minutes and give me 46 plz
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I am liking Jujutsu Kaisen, way more than I imagined I would, but I foresee it will let me down and it's keeping me from enjoying this as much as I could haha
I think the characters and dynamics are well set, and I think many of them have an incredibly good and deep potential, but I would be willing to bet they'll not get a proper development, enough for them to really hit. A well assembled set of gears is not enough to make the movement go, you have to wind the clockwork.
I think Gojo and Megumi have a fascinating and very complex dynamic, but I doubt it will be given the time and care that imo it needs to actually work. And it is going well enough for now! One could see the intimacy between them was deeper than the one Gojo had with, say, Yuji and Nobara ever since the very first few episodes despite the fact Fushiguro too was a first year. But the pieces forming what they have are extremely complex, and it just wouldn't be realistic if it doesn't show, even if in a not showing way, or if it doesn't have consequences or implications.
It's one of those dynamics that shape one's life, the way one regards the world, the way one establishes or not relationships with other people. It's one of those dynamics that could be full of fondness, gratitude, resentment, admiration, trust, and that imply intimacy, the good kind or the bad, even if in just the knowledge of someone who's been a constant through your life. It could, and would, imply a myriad of feelings, and probably in such a mix it could imply contradictory feelings too. Even the nothingness would weight, even the nothingness would be significant and meaningful.
Gojo took Megumi and his sister under his wing, the son of a man who murdered him, because of both selfish and selfless reasons. Megumi looks like Toji. What does Gojo feel about this? How does Gojo deal with this? How does Gojo go about taking care of Megumi? Would he walk him to school? Make him breakfast? Celebrate his birthdays making him blow candles? Did he take him to the zoo? Does the relationship between them feel professional or is it something more? Gojo appreciates his students, but is Megumi to him just another student? When Gojo faces Sukuna in Megumi's body, did he see the kid he raised, or does he just see Sukuna in one of his students' body? Did he have one faint wavering instant? And how does Megumi feel about this? Is he resentful of him? Resentful of the situation? Of the selfishness behind his actions? Does he feel like a pawn? Is he grateful? Does he resent feeling grateful? Would he rather not? Does he love Gojo? Does he feel nothing about him other than what he could feel about a teacher that sort of annoys him but knows he's reliable in his strength? Does he think it unfair, cruel or unfeeling that Gojo is close, closer perhaps, with Yuuji or Yuta, considering their story? When Sukuna slices Gojo in two, does the remnants of Megumi's soul tremble?
And not just Megumi and Gojo. Yuuji and Nanami, Gojo and Nanami, Yuuji and Fushiguro, Nobara and the boys, or Nobara and Maki, Todo and Yuuji or Yuta, Gojo and Yuta, Megumi and his sister. Gojo and Geto, even! If the pieces are well set, the dynamics are intriguing, interesting, and have potential to be deep, but then the characters have like two plot relevant scenes that punch you hard, but little more, it's not nearly enough. Especially not nearly enough for the enormity that is shonen dynamics and situations. And the potential existing at all, and then not delivering, makes it all the more frustrating when you're left with something mediocre that could have been so good.
The development of dynamics through not only a few plot relevant gut wrenching moving scenes, but also the smallness of life, is important. The friend who recommended this to me said that those things were just unnecessary filler, but I disagree. I think there's a big difference between a large amount of anime-only filler episodes whose existence is based on the fact they had run out of manga chapters to animate, and moments of quietness. The low stakes character-driven moments of quietness can be so telling and so insightful, and they are so satisfactory when brought back later in higher stakes situations. My friend teased me there was no scene of Gojo making breakfast to Megumi, that it would be an idiotic idea, but it would be so telling. How he makes breakfast, what they eat, if he tries hard or if it's all mechanised, if they have personal bowls or if they use whatever, if he just buys them some pastry on the way to school, if the way they have breakfast changes through the years, or if he doesn't make them breakfast at all! All that would be very insightful on their dynamic and its evolution. All that would give a glimpse on how they regard each other and why, even in the present. All that could become meaningful in tense situations and high stakes scenes.
These moments also let the plot breath; if a lot is happening all the time, if every character is always experiencing trauma after trauma, the entire story is so emotionally draining that at some point you don't even care all that much. Besides, these nothing moments or low stakes plot arcs, besides deepening and developing dynamics, also let some in-world time pass, which would make the intimacy and bond between characters more believable imo; between Yuuji eating Sukuna's finger and their last confrontation in December how much time has passed? A few months? Am I truly to believe these characters are so everything to each other in only a few months?
Without some smallness, some repetition, some daily life, some low stakes not plot-centric development, the dynamics don't hit, they don't truly feel fleshed out, and dynamics as complex as the ones Megumi and Gojo have, or as supposedly meaningful as the one Megumi has with Yuuji or his sister, should be fleshed out if they're going to exist at all. Otherwise they'd risk making the writing feel awkward and fake. Besides, if the dynamics felt well fleshed out and realistic, they would shape the way the characters interact and act, and how they deal with situations, thus being plot relevant.
The shonen genre has so much happening all the time, the stakes are so high, the dynamics are so rooted in big events and the relationships carry enormous weight and implications. Yet they barely get developed, and it feels so stupid, so plain, the absence of something so important noticeable like a constant void, a shapeless nothingness present in every scene. It makes the characters feel like cardboard figures. Jujutsu Kaisen is already getting a better job than many, but I doubt it will do enough for what I've heard, and I fear I am bound to feel let down, and bound to feel unmoved.
After all, if not enough time and care has been given to develop a dynamic, I am not going to feel pressured by the high stakes; if not enough time and care has been given to develop the dynamic between Megumi and Yuuji, as good potential as it has I am bound to feel little for this last confrontation between Sukuna and Itadori, and his effort in getting Megumi back.
#It's not that I think everything has to be character driven or take a lot of care about dynamics#Death Note for instance works well without it. There's juice in the dynamic between Light and his father and the role of Matsuda there#and it works well with Light's views and their evolution and the whole Kira situation. It isn't much. It doesn't need more#But Death Note doesn't truly drop something as big as Gojo and Megumi to then do barely nothing about it#('But L and Watari' not the same at all. That was deepened in the anime and besides Watari is not one of the main characters)#Or Megumi and his sister. If we see barely nothing of Megumi and his sister other than shiny flashbacks of her#how am I to feel moved by it all beyond superficial emotions? I don't know. It just feels so like cardboard to me#And it annoys me! It annoys me a lot! Because Jujutsu Kaisen has amazing potential! The dynamics and characters could be amazing!#But I don't trust they'll live to their full potential and the potential existing for nothing is ruining this for me xD#Jujutsu Kaisen#Sorry this time I'm tagging it. I want to find this and see if I was right when I'm finished. I think I'll read the manga too#The condescending filler breakfast comment by my friend was ironic considering the Kramer vs. Kramer breakfast scenes exist#Breakfast can be so telling. And besides he loves the Chainsaw Man coffee scene so I don't get why not breakfast#But truly some small daily life moments can tell us a lot about a character that we could recognise later on in high stakes scenes#such as how they deal in tense situationsâ what makes them snap#how they go about dealing with a problem.#Sometimes it could be smaller moments or conversations what makes characters reconsider thingsâ not just having Sukuna rip their heart out#In Pandora Hearts the conversation between Elliot and Oz about the book series they love and their favourite characters becomes key#Oz's development and how he regards thingsâ his own personâ and how he deals with situations will be shaped later on by this conversation#till the very end. The entire main character's development is shaped by a 'filler' conversation.It's not filler. It's just not a fight scen#Shonen manga readers find everything filler except for fights which is ironic considering that many fights in shonen feel unnecessary#Breakfast is unnecessary. Just filler. Fighting thirty seven secondary monsters or chapter after chapter of physical training is not. Okay#Things can be small but plot relevant. If it shapes and fleshes out and deepens a character or a relationship it is not filler#And mainly MAINLY for the love of everything good if you're going to make a fucked up or Meaningful Beyond Everything dynamic#give it time and care. Actually write it. Don't give me two panels and one conversation after some life and death situation. It's not enoug#Especially if I'm to believe they are important. Make me believe they actually are#I don't know... This issue with not trusting the development of very well set potential in Jujutsu Kaisen#has not only been keeping me from thoroughly enjoying the seriesâ but actively keeping me from watching for weeks#It makes me doubt if I want to spend my time in this at all since after all time is limited and we can but spend it in a handful of things#A pity. I really love some things and I really think Megumi and Gojo could be everything to me haha the Heathcliff/Hareton vibe gets me
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normal thing to say about your dear friend who you think is really cute and charming and hard-working and basically the perfect wife material
#hamefura#my next life as a villainess#otome game no hametsu flag#aaand rewatch done! now my honest thoughts#good start. the middle is kinda boring. ep 8 doesn't exist don't worry about it#this anime draws me in in the same way that Futari Wa does#in that it has a fascinating main cast and a very vague skeleton of a worldbuilding that leaves me wanting to overthink it#unstructured thoughts incoming:#Geordo's still a creep and no matter how much the story wants me to like him I just can't#Keith's siscon is very Yikes! and that's so bad because I love his and Katarina's relationship as siblings#Katarina lowkey thinks Sophia is a freak but never kinkshames her and that's so bestiecore of her. they're soulmates your honor#Mary is SUCH A LESBIAN holy shit. I did not remember how much lesbian she is#I'm lowkey annoyed that the show frames her attraction to Katarina as âhaha funny isn't she weird?!â#like in the sleepover episode she was describing the things she'd like to do with her beloved and she's being like. normal about it#but the soundtrack does a silly and I'm like. wow this anime does not like her huh#I swear Geordo and Keith are even weirder about Katarina than she is but the anime always gives them slack about it#unless they're having their homoerotic squabbles. which is to say the anime does Not Like The Queer Coding of the story#I'm sure there are worse examples of weeb homophobia but there are a couple moments I saw in the manga but not here!#anyway where was I. Oh right. Ascart Sibs Autusm đđź#Nicol doesn't have much presence in the story due to his quiet nature which is so sad because his inner world is intriguing#he's such a good friend. loyal and caring. I wish we got more of him in this season#and finally: Maria. God. what is there to say about her that I haven't already#the girl came in with a 7 year disadvantage on her rivals and yet Katarina is all over her!#rewatching season 1 is so weird because I could swear she had more presence than she really does because holy shit#Katarina loves her! so much! wtf#maybe I'm remembering season 2?#anyway these are my thoughts on doomflags season 1#2nd watch edition#oh I almost forgot#romance in chiaroscuro
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some illustrations/vibes from my uhh 29k memory trauma/disability focus orufrey fic, into the deep end.
#witch hat tag#orufrey#idk what more i'll draw so i'll just put these here. i think my failing eye qifrey will be with me forever now.#yesterday - i realise this is probably weird - i BURST into tears for ages like hot tears bc i just suddenly was overwhelmed#by oru's feelings rather than qifrey's. i was just in my orufrey mindscape as usual teehee and i just. oru wanted qifrey to be able to look#at him so much suddenly. and realised that can't ever happen again. i could literally cry a lot again now. i wrote oru trying so hard#to focus on the good qifrey can still have from living and i felt bad and HE felt bad in that moment for being SO sad about it#but until then i/he hadn't processed the truly painful parts of disability that you can't deny. sometimes it hurts so bad and it's unfair#the thing is i do feel that shirahama is leading up to this. disability is so central to witch hat and as for qifrey's narrative...#mm. i can't really believe the powerful and desperate emotions orufrey give me lol anyyyyywwaaayyyyy read my fic haha#i want more ppl to read it and tell me they enjoyed it..but you can't beg for such a thing. no matter what orufrey is..god they are so much#i am so glad from the bottom of my heart that i encountered this manga.#the first drawing is meant to express the feeling of pain coming from one place in your body. and feeling like a conduit#*oru voice* You are a human being.
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the natsuyuu manga is so funny the volume will be like "natsume grapples with his desire for unconditional love versus his fear of burdening those around him, knowing the more he opens his heart to the people he cares about the more he stands to lose if something goes wrong; these people are the warmest he's ever known and he's the happiest he's ever been and that scares him because he can't shake the feeling that it's fleeting and fragile and could all disappear at any moment, so all he can do is fight to protect everything he loves and hope one day he'll deserve the precious happiness he's been given here"
and then the blurb on the back is like "natsume climbs up into the attic to look for some books, but... uh oh... is that a... g-g-g-ghost??!? things are about to get freaky deaky in here if he doesn't do something... quick!!! will natsume be able to handle it before the clock strikes thirteen, or will he become... gulp... the ghost's next meal?!?"
#always gives me a little heehee chuckle after the Emotional Damage inflicted by the story#just finished vol 11 uuuuuuu........ the one where he goes to visit his parents' old home uuuuuuuu.........#it was the first episode to make me cry when i watched the anime but i didn't this time#i did tear up at the end tho when natsume asks to retake the family photo with sensei in it this time đđđ#like stopppppppppp im gonna die#retag later#ny blogging#moment was ruined when i turned the page and fuckin Matoba was there like WHO ASKED U KGJSLDKSDKGN#(lil mini drawings after every chapter. the theme this vol was characters when they were younger and. matoba & natori were up next ig)#it's fine there were already other parts of the manga that made me cry that didn't in the anime#like when the little fox travels all the way out to see natsume again and finds him having fun w his friends#and loses courage and walks away thinking ''i guess the one who was really lonely this whole time was me...''#AND THEN natsume finds them anyway and asks for directions to their forest so he can come visit next time LIKE COME ONNNNNNNNN#the natsume observation logs are everything 2 me u hear me EVERYTHING#main character from other characters' pov is ALWAYS 1000/10 good shit đđđ#i wanna get to nishimura and kitamoto's chapters again rhrngnghrnggh vibrates in chair#cant be doing this again Except That I Can#where are my boys. SHOW ME THE BOYS
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I love aokiji from one piece. Hes my little swimbly bimbly
#i like him a lot. i love how one piece gets a lot of morally gray antagonists#like. aokiji is kind of a really good guy in certain moments.#like he cares a lot about civillians . he just works inside of a really shitty system . hes like the idea of a âgoodâ cop#who like joined the marines with the intent of helping people but he does more harm than good .#i think it makes a lot of sense for him to have quit after the time skip. i know hes rolling with the blackbeard pirates now though#which is weird to me. bc that doesnt seem to suit his ideals. i think heâll turn out to be undercover or some shit or a sword operative#im excited to learn more abt sword bc its apparently really important in the manga rn#but im not caught up so itâs just like. a vague thing i know now#*thinks about robin backstory* dereshishishishishiâŚ..#also it makes me so mad how oda does so many of his black characters bc. aokiji is right there. you know how to draw black people#give that same treatment to usopp!!! or blackbeard. its lame. it sucks#related. hes a minor antagonist but i wish they did more with mr 5. hes another black character with a good design (at least in the manga)#the anime kind of connects the corners of his lips and makes them look bad but in the manga its natural yet still cartoony#he has such an underutilized devil fruit too T_T he can basically explode any part of his body.#and its usually used in the form of flicking exploding boogers at people (funny) but i was expecting him to get a cool moment where he just#fuckin. BOXES someone with explosions and some cool kicks. sadly we never get that though
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the phantom hourglass manga is the one i care about the most out of all of the loz manga and therefore the one i am most willing to rip apart because of its relation to the game, its own problems, and the potential that was lost or thrown away for any reason at all
making this separate than the list of things i liked about the phantom hourglass manga
im not going to be too organized about this; ill go by topic and in each topic go in chronological order through the manga and everything else will probably be all over the place
im not even going to touch the story yet and just go after the art off the bat because i really believe that this manga has the weakest art of all of them. i dont know if its due to some kind of time crunch or a lack of care but its really⌠im not expecting any of these books to have killer art, but in ph it just feels like there was less effort with inconsistencies in some designs and either very low detail or just absent backgrounds. this feels like a mean-spirited critique since i understand that manga is difficult to create and requires a lot of effort but its just visually⌠worse than the loz manga that came before or after it.
some specific grievances i have with the art are things like inconsistent designs of some characters (linebeck is hard to draw and i get that but hes just⌠never totally consistent) and some items like weapons (the shape of bellumbeckâs sword changes during the fight for some reason) and stuff is⌠left out. the fire temple has basically no layout since linkâs just in some flavor of void for the entire blaaz fight. one of the panels with linebeckâs ship shows it from the behind at an angle where you should see the deck but its just not there
his ship is also missing its chimney on the cover art
this is also more of an opinion thing but the way astrid looks almost nothing like her game counterpart is just⌠itâs a nickpick based on opinion but that is Not The Same Character.
you can absolutely tell a fantastic story with lacking art, but the reason why im criticizing this mangaâs art is because its the tenth in a series of manga who, up until this point, has had consistently good art, and then it drops off with weak backgrounds and character inconsistencies.
plus, i really care about how this story is visually portrayed.
the pacing, even with half of the story cut, is also a bit of a problem. as far as i'm aware, this is the only loz manga to have significant chunks of the story cut out, and while it admittedly works well with only half of the story, it fucks with the pacing a bit. specifically, it screws over linebeck's arc, which i'll talk about more in a different section, but it also kind of glosses over the phantom sword and (obviously) loses some possible time for further character exploration and whatever. the cut from the ghost ship right to jolene right to the final boss is, while handled well, kind of abrupt.
obviously, cutting half of the damn story will make what's kept feel a little too fast, but even some of the stuff more original to the manga is paced weirdly or is just... eh.
there's a bit after neri is found where linebeck decides to stop working with link and basically ditches him and this whole thing lasts one to two goddamn pages before everything is patched up and good and... why even include it if you turn the page and oh problem fucking solved. it's even a little out of character for linebeck at that point since a few pages before he's seen getting the sands of time for link and it's... it make sense but it's a really extreme character choice and while it serves its purpose (introducing the idea of linebeck not valuing other people very much and realizing that) it's still extremely brief.
the added stuff with linebeck being a past member of the ghost ship, while fine and interesting at first glance is also a strange choice that doesn't work all that well? it works for characterization and all of that but it makes for a weird situation with linebeck's character motivation where he's a coward and after the ghost ship for the treasure on it, but if he was present on the ghost ship literally as it was fucking gutted then he would know exactly what the danger of the ship is and want to avoid it no matter what. in the game his motivation for going after the ghost ship works because he doesn't know for certain whats on that ship and has never been on it. plus, aside from character backstory and whatever, it doesnt serve much of a purpose. linebeck even makes some comments about the ship's interior and the like but it all amounts to nothing because link never actually goes into the ship anyways. it's just a weird backstory to give linebeck.
the shuffling around (and cutting of one of) the three final bosses is also weird. it makes sense for the story order the manga goes with, but it actually lowers the stakes for the bellumbeck fight (in the game literally everything is on the line but in the manga its just linebeck and they absolutely use that to their advantage but still) and mixing the ghost ship fight and bellum fights make the final encounter really brief and kind of anticlimactic in some way. it's difficult to express, but the order of the final bosses in the game makes bellum a more interesting villain and melds with linebeck's arc in a much more interesting way. it feels like there was a specific reason for that given order and for the manga to just toss that aside means it loses something.
also reserving pretty much an entire chapter for jolene is A Choice to make. there's nothing wrong with using an adaptation to flesh out a character but here you don't learn anything new about jolene she just kind of makes very little sense in her motivations when you give her more screen time but dont change her from wanting to kill linebeck for fucking off but also still liking him maybe. good for you if you like jolene since she got more time here but they did pretty much nothing interesting with her
this is something i figured out while writing this, but the manga actually does Fuck All with the actual hourglass. you could've cut the fucking thing out and it wouldn't have effected the story too much. link never goes into the temple every again and the phantom sword is just. made on request with link having no interaction with it before using it to kill bellum. the only time the phantom hourglass is actually plot relevant aside from link first getting it and then using it to gather sand is when bellum tells link to bring it to the temple and then it's used exactly once to stop time and then it's used as proof that everything happened. oshus says link needs to use it and the sand to break the curse over the temple of the ocean king and then that never actually happens the sand and the hourglass is just used once to stop time once and otherwise it might as well not be in the story it's so weird. it's also implied that oshus needs the sand to restore tetra after he returns to his own true form but they dont say anything about that after he initially mentions it so who cares. oshus also tells link that zuaz will teach him how to defeat bellum. link never meets zuaz and still beats bellum anyways.
it feels like they cut the latter half of the story but forgot that the fucking majority of linebeck's entire goddamn character arc happens in that part of the story. sure, most of the cutscenes and whatever happens in the first part and linebeck does develop a bit in the first part but he doesn't really start to change until after the ghost ship, when you get his letter and his dialogue starts to change slightly to suggest that he's starting to like link more and care about something other than the possibility of treasure. the manga cutting out the latter half of the story but still making linebeck's arc end in similar places makes his arc feel really fast and even abrupt in the manga. he goes from being fully motivated to get treasure and still kind of selfish to caring a lot for link and deciding not to wish for treasure and the time was just NOT put in to make that a smooth transition.
honestly linebeck overall got fucked in the manga more than any other character. his arc was shafted, his characterization is strange and even kind of changed from the game, he's never drawn consistently and doesn't even look great since he seems to be stuck between two styles when he's drawn, he's more shallow and generally a less interesting character, and while most of that is probably a product of having one book to cover ph, it's still a problem.
like with all of the loz manga, the extremely limited amount of space and time the story is given absolutely fucks it over so you really are stuck with telling nothing more than an abridged and seriously inferior version of the story. i dont care how good the original stuff is if it barely qualifies as a good adaptation. the story wasn't told all of the way and none of the game's strengths are kept or expanded upon. you lose the majority of the best character's arc and depth. half of the story was cut. the title item is barely used. it feels like they didn't really care about adapting phantom hourglass and just hashed out a trimmed-down version of the story to fit into 188 pages and while there was some effort put in with a bit of a unique take on linebeck but it just falls flat when everything around it feels like it wasn't given a second thought.
i'm not suggesting that the author's didn't fucking care, i don't know what the process was with this, but it just... it doesnt feel like they actually wanted to earnestly create a good adaptation of this game. i have an altered perspective on all of this because this game is my special interest and something i deeply care about and inspect the little details of and it kinda just sucks that phantom hourglass never got a good adaptation because... this game has some serious potential for a really good extended adaptation.
Unlike the other Zelda games that the other manga cover, the structure of the journey in Phantom Hourglass has an insane amount of space for fleshing out of character, exploration of new concepts or character relationships, or just.. whatever you want. Providing you cover the original story, of course. Off the bat, there's a nebulous amount of travel time between islands, which can be used by authors for character moments and interactions and just little moments that can be used to further themes or concepts. You can use the implied time overseas between islands to have some interactions between Link and Linebeck. Show the three fairies hanging out with each other. Show the whole crew becoming closer to each other as time drags on.
Linebeck's existence and function within Phantom Hourglass alone is so fucking unique and amazingly good for an extended adaptation. In most other Zelda games, the companions are pretty much glued to Link's side and follows him through dungeons, or they're characters locked in a specific place, more or less divorced from Link's quest, but Linebeck is an integral part of the plot, present for every part of it as it advances, and yet he's out doing fuck-all while Link is in dungeons. He's a great excuse for authors to add detail to islands, write new characterization for background characters, or even just give Linebeck his own b-plot running concurrently with the game's normal plot. He's important to the plot and yet doesn't touch the gameplay; he's free to do whatever you want while Link does dungeon stuff. One possible idea I've mentioned before is the idea of, while Link is in the temple of the Ocean King, is to create and explore a possible relationship between Oshus and Linebeck. Scenes of them talking can be used to flesh out Oshus as a character and to add some extra depth to Linebeck and make his arc more interesting to follow.
There is... SO MUCH you can do with Phantom Hourglass if you care enough to do it, and I'm just so frustrated that we got this solid 4/10 of a manga.
#salty talks#bitching about the loz manga#hi if you think i'm wrong or made a mistake in this i implore you to fucking yell at me for it#i care about this game so fucking much that i would love to know if i fucked this up in any way#anyways uhhhh yeah. oof. it sucks.#i dont like jolene at all and have tags blacklisted to reflect that and will not touch stuff w/ her so thats why i dont read this much#jolene wanting to kill linebeck but still being implied to be attached to him makes me slightly uncomfortable ngl#probably one of the biggest reasons why i dislike her so much she gives me really bad vibes and is annoying#anyways. yall out here talking about how this manga has good dadbeck moments are fucking lying#maybe i cant see it because i have a good relationship with my dad but at best he's just. idk he gives a shit abt link at the most#i hate manga astrid i hate her so muhc. like. look at astrid in the game. what the fuck were the manga artists smoking#game astrid looks nothing like manga astrid and i like game astrid better.#this is incoherent bc im tired and i dont know how to write things like this and im so fucking tired#if you want clarification about any of this like you want me to talk about something specific?#send an ask or bring it up in a reblog or smth ill gladly discuss this book and why i kinda want to feed it to my dog#i just. game linebeck has queer vibes. game linebeck can be read as autistic#manga linebeck is neither. milquetoast ass fuckin wet cardboard take on a character#i dont even hate him he just fucking sucks compared to game linebeck#like. i hold game bellumbeck in such high regard bc everything about is is wonderful its a beautiful climax#every little thing about it is great i love the stakes i love the implications you can make about linebeck about bellum#the music the atmosphere the events leading up to it its place compared to other final bosses#manga bellumbeck is cool but its not what it could be#i didnt add any more photo evidence for art grievances bc theres a lot. bellumbeck's design changes between chapters#can you tell when making this post is no longer fueled by tired hate. can you#i thought about painting a target on my back and tagging this as phantom hourglass but thats a bad idea lol
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iâve been meaning to change my header to bsd for forever because i LOVE bsd but yall are really gonna tell me all about the new minato thing right as im about to finally go for it and stop me AGAIN?? yall cannot do this to me im literally never going to get over minato and kushina
#they continue to be THE canon naruto couple#shikamaru and temari are also Very Good but gotta be real i personally like minato and kushina a bit more#why do series always give the best lady characters good relationships#like yeah good for them and im happy and all#but bruh i wanted to make them lesbians and now im too attached to her actual sweet straight romance to do that#offensive honestly#also just kills me not to have bsd represented upfront#so i have been meaning to change the header for FOREVER#but couldnât decide an image for it#BUT i took note of a few while ive been rereading the manga so i was gonna pick one#but now im TORN#because god i really fucking love minato and kushina#and i like that naruto in my icon ends up between them on mobile#little familyđđ#also the soundtrack of that moment in particular is one of my absolute favorites and i love Many parts of narutos soundtrack#also i just firmly believe that minato and kushina were one of the absolute MOST well written parts of the series#ughh having an internal war over my silly little fictional stories#Iâll probably still end up changing it maybe possibly
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the thing abt btr is i really wanna see more characterization/ ixn but i don't think anything i write will be able to capture the essence of the source material :(
#i think i just have to also finish the manga at some point but... i hate to admit this... but i don't like 4koma...#i tried to read newgame or something at some point and i just couldn't. 4koma is sth I'd consume with a meal but i can't read it#if that makes sense. like i can't have it as a story. i enjoy the milgram comics and they're basically 4koma but. it's not as a story.#but it's also kinda my issue of not willing to break too far away from canon like i have hcs or scenarios i associate w certain characters#but i feel. idk. guilty writing it if it âbreaks characterâ too much. even w aus i try to stick close to canon and find good parallels#it's just idk. reverence for source material bc usually i like the stuff i write for! i enjoy it! i want more of it not sth different#the most ooc hc i have is hrk being trans bc i think there's no way they would have that be canon but. idk! We'll see!#but also when it comes to btr rahhh idk which pairing to write abt and the issue is I'm usually not a multishipper!! but!!!#everyone in the series adores bocchi so much. and obv it's a series abt bochi's growth so we have more focus on how the others feel abt her#but the moments of understanding shared btwn bocchi and ryo. the sharing of secrets and vulnerability btwn bocchi and nijika.#the way Kita supports and pushes bocchi forward. like. all of them are so shippable!!! i want it all!!#at the same time there's the very canon admiration kita has for ryo and the way only ryo calls her ikuyo.#and in canon how ryo rejects invitations from everyone else but has nijika as her only friend like. as someone who. is okay w being alone.#like idk this is me projecting but the way she falls asleep on nijika the way she says sukithe way nijika so easily gives her the fries#i find it hard to believe they are not bickering gfs. like. they make out every night.#like idk rahhhh i just. i really like all the dynamics!!! i want to write i want to consume but i want to do it right#holding characters i like a lot in my hand just like. mm. do i make you happy or do i. give you so much angst.#i really wanna write sth angsty for the sake of self projection and getting things out of my system but i like all my pairings too much orz#i get an inkling of an idea and then go but no.. i can't do this to them... they wouldn't do that... they're good kids...#maybe i just go really ooc for once just so at least i know i can and i feel less. strung abt it.
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:((((((((( i ran out of tags . tumblr hates to see me thrive!!!!!!!
ok niku just . read the tags first and then come back here ok đđ i have a lot i still need to say this is so important to me . this fic changed my life .
(WARNING this got long âŚ.. really long âŚ.. mysteriously. i got carried away đ PLS donât feel the need to respond to any of this btw i mean that sincerely i know this is kind of a Lot i just need you to know much i adored this fic <3333)
BACK TO GOJO ok so his talk w readerâŚâŚ it was just so satisfying to see them finally get to tell someone about their experience. it mustâve been such a great feeling for them !!!! to get some of it off their chest :((( ⌠and to have Gojo Fucking Satoru our safe harbour of a man there to believe them and listen to them and reassure them. heâs so mature when it comes down to it and you captured that so wellâŚâŚ like as much as he acts childish and teasing this is exactly how i picture him interacting w someone he doesnât know in a situation like this!! heâs flirty and unserious but he tells you heâll protect you and means it. (iâm so down bad it physically hurts)
sorry iâm abt to go on a tangent i think BUT I JUST đđ really⌠REALLY love their dynamicâŚ. how it evolves so much even though he doesnât even know reader exists for most loops!! and to them heâs just this beautiful Something that they canât help but look atâŚâŚ âinhumanly attractiveâ is a great way to put it like heâs justâŚ.. this magnetic forceâŚâŚâŚ.. and i feel like even before they speak to him for the first time they probably find some kind of hope in him.
AND thatâs so important bc to me thatâs like . the main Theme of the fic? hope. reader has to find some kind of hope to make it through shibuya and more often than not they find it in gojo!!! in just seeing a familiar handsome face, in learning how to navigate the timeline through his actions, in talking to him and finally having him on their side. their choice to trust him fully at the end just made me soooo insane. and obv the hope theme continues even after that because gojo believes in them!!! believes that theyâll be okay in the prison realmâŚ.. more on that later actually bc i Still. have a lot to talk abt đđđ iâm just wildly flipping through my notes at this point iâm sorry to throw this at u when weâve barely interacted but in my defense this fic reached into my actual skull and started rewiring my brain so!!!! yeah.
i got completely sidetracked there but . yes!! the conversation between them when gojo gets sent back in time is. so good!!!!! so wonderfully written!!!!! i havenât mentioned it that much yet i think but i love your writing i devoured every lineâŚâŚ i struggle w the flow of my own writing SO much but this just flows so incredibly well??? it was sm fun to read????? and the rhythm of the paragraphs (that sounds. Insane but i hope u know what i mean đđ) is so distinct!!! and ofc there are SO many banger lines in this in generalâŚ. the gore descriptions and the lines abt reader and their fixation on hope. on gojo!! âHe's a terrifying sort of beauty and you can't help but be captivated by him.â <- this is just one example but!! idk iâm just so enamored by ur writing style.
and the dialogue!!!!!!!! i cried!!!!!! itâs so consistently gojoâŚ. him going all âoh?â âinterestingâŚâ but not explaining anything ⌠the âding ding ding!â after making reader guess what he should just be telling them (itâs the teacher in him <33) AND AND AND these too!!!! :3
âJust think of it like having a lot of MP.â
âYou know, your technique kind of reminds me of save scumming.âÂ
THEY JUST FEEL SO CANON thatâs our gojoâŚâŚ thatâs exactly what he would sayâŚâŚ heâs so unserious and so funny and so charming đđ sigh.
ANDDDDD reader telling him good luck!!!! gojo beaming and squeezing their shoulder!!!!! the lil wave!!!!! đĽşđĽş that made me smile so wide niku heâs so infuriatingly cute . it felt so genuine!!!! pls know that this gojo will probably live in my brain forever like genuinely . iâve been brainrotting over him all week and this was the final nail in the coffin. iâll never be free.
ok but also !!!! extremely important !!!!!!! before i get to the ending i just need to tell u . how much i loved kenjaku in this âŚâŚâŚ.. kenjaku nation (me & six others) will never forget these crumbs of content like he just feels so real!!!!! and heâs so interesting!!!!! made me realize how truly down bad i am for him bc these lines made me so fucking happy đđ brain started releasing serotonin like CRAZY iâm so ashamed.
âYou can come out, you know.â
âHow interesting.â
"I'll be nice, though. I'll make it painless."
âŚâŚ.. heâs just âŚ.. yeah. yeahhhhh. đđ iâll never be normal abt him. i think itâs SUCH an interesting detail that he always makes readerâs death painless in every single loopâŚ. he never lies about it. that feels so in character to me too!!! heâs kinda fascinated at first and when that interest disappears he kills them. but he doesnât make it unecessarily cruel because thereâs just. no need. kenjaku is a sicko but heâs oddly polite at times and iâm justâŚâŚ. yeah. gonna need you to take over for gege akutami actually đđ get in the writerâs chair!!! the fandom needs u!!!!!
wait while weâre on this topic pls just know the entire confrontation between reader and kenjaku was one of my favorite moments in the entire fic <333 not JUST because iâm a kenny stan okâŚâŚâŚ readerâs resignation and âI appreciate it.â made my brain spin because itâs just . kinda chilling? kinda sick? that they arenât even really afraid of death anymore⌠or more like theyâre just so frighteningly used to it.
AND AND ANDDDD niku your writing in this scene đľâđŤđľâđŤđľâđŤ gutted me like a fish.
Time doesn't flow in the box. He didn't lie. You die again.
i exploded btw . ackkk i wish i could explain it better i just!!! :< adore your writing. these lines made me go completely batshit theyâre just so good. and the âtime doesnât flow in the boxâ line ⌠how that ties in with the ending and readerâs choice. whewww.
segway time <3333 this is the final rant i promise!!! i just need to talk about the ending bc it was so perfect and like many other things in this fic it made me insane âŚ. have i said that already âŚ. probably at least a couple times đđđ itâs true ok!! itâs just sooo interesting to me and obviously so wellwritten and fitting and just. thematically ties everything together so well? i was FLOORED
hhhhh i donât know where to begin so iâll just start w the final convo between reader and gojo :> he asks for their name !!!!!!! i cried !!!!!!!!!! calling someone by their name or knowing their name as a form of like . Closeness or Affection is one of my greatest weaknesses and i also think itâs soooo telling that GOJO wants to know Your Name. he wants to know you. to hear that from someone who seems so inhumanly beautiful and violentâŚ.. for him to kind of extend a final olive branch and attempt to connect w you :((((( it just says so much without spelling it out and i. started chewing at my desk. itâs so good!!!!!!! such a genius way to tie everything together!!!! and readerâs final words to himâŚ
âThank you, Satoru Gojo.â You burn the glittering glow of his brilliant bright blue eyes into your mind. And then, everything is engulfed in an unending black.Â
first of all!!! so so sooooo pretty. wowow. second of all THE THANK YOU âšď¸âšď¸âšď¸âšď¸âšď¸ thatâs also such a perfect conclusionâŚâŚ.. reader finally put their trust in someone and had that faith returned. and they thank him!!!! i like to think it means something to gojo tooâŚ. likeeee how often do people really thank him for what he does? how often is his hard work to protect people acknowledged and appreciated? sorry to bring gojo back into the discussion all the time sadly i AM in love w himâŚ.. đđ and this fic made it worse so technically itâs your fault. kind of.
okay so my brain is kinda spinning away again so iâll get to the final final thing!!!! for real this time!!!!! readerâs decision to be imprisoned in gojoâs stead⌠thatâs so . genius? iâm so in awe??????? it makes so much sense from a character perspective based on what theyâve been through â after being at the mercy of time for so long, wouldnât it be nice to be free of it? completely? itâs almost kind of chilling and just the idea of it scares me LMAO but it makes sm sense that reader would be drawn to it.
AND like i mentioned before!!! how it leads to a deeper connection between them and gojo, and how at the very end of the fic heâs the one who has faith in them. faith that theyâll be alright, of sound mind.
âŚâŚ and that brings me to the final final final thing because. itâs just like the opening poem!! reader is the cat in the box. nobody can say for sure if theyâre alright, not to mention alive, until the box is opened. and we donât get to know!!! you leave us on a cliffhanger and thatâs so good bc it really is like the cat in the boxâŚ. we can only wonder but it also gives us the freedom to decide for ourselves if we think they come out okay or not and iâm justâŚâŚâŚâŚ.. in love. with this fic. and the ending and the reader and gojo and you.
hopefully youâve noticed atp but i really did go completely insane reading this đđ i said it at the beginning but just to reiterate!!: for SURE one of my all time favorite gojo fics . AND loopfics in generalâŚ. thank you sm for your hard work :â3 aaaa i canât tell u how much i admire the time you spent working on this??? your storytelling and writing and characterization skills????? i genuinely feel sooo giddy and excited and happy rn bc. i just adored this fic!!!! iâm so lucky i got to read it!!!!! :33 pls pat your gojo on the head from me and let him know i love himâŚ. itâll boost his ego but thatâs a risk iâm willing to take đđ i hope you have theeeee loveliest day or night a human being can have bc you made mine <3333333
beyond the unending night (reader + satoru gojo)
notes: it's finally here. the long awaited halloween fic. yes, i know it's march, but i did start working on it in september. haha. there's so much i could say, but i will leave it at that this fic is, in every sense, a fic that i would not normally write. and yet here we are.
contains: f!reader (no physical description or gendered language is used), no explicit romantic pairing (though you don't have to look hard to find the reader x gojo implications), major character death (played with), semi-graphic depictions of death, blood and violence, minor suicide ideation, canon retelling (lines of dialogue are pulled from the jjk english dub because i'm a dirty dub watcher). opening poem is from higurashi no naku koro ni (minagoroshi-hen). fic title is from giga's beyond the way.
please note that this is a time loop fic and, by nature contains repeating scenes (particularly from canon). please do not read this fic if you do not like that sort of thing.
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Please tell me what happened in this night. It's like the cat inside the box.
Please tell me what happened in this night. You don't know if the cat in the box is dead or alive. Please tell me what happened in this night. The cat in the box was dead.
The first time, it is instantâ you donât even know whatâs happening.
The second, it is by flame, but you barely realize it, barely feel itâ a second of mind numbing heat before nothing.
The third time, it is something slicing across your throat; you see the blood spilling everywhere, then the pain followsâ a moment of pure agony before nothing.
The fourth time you realize whatâs going on; whatâs really going on.
You realize youâve been dying.
You think your head is going to explode.
At first, you think itâs because the subway platform is crowded, insanely soâ there are hundreds of people shoved into this space alongside you, packed like sardines in a can. Youâve never been one for crowds, but itâs the reality of things when you live in Tokyo. For the most part, youâve learned to accept it, but even this crowd is a little much and you wish you hadnât listened to your friends when they said you should go party in Shibuya for Halloween; you donât even like partying.
Thereâs a sharp pain in your temple followed by a thought so loud that it feels like someone is screaming it at you through a megaphone positioned right next to your ear.
Itâs the night of October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
For the eighth time.
Before you can even question the thought, images flash in your mindâs eye, blurry at first before they come into focus. The platform gates open. Chaos ensues. People dropping onto the subway tracksâ spontaneously bursting into flameâ their heads, necks sliced off, stomachs cut openâ
Bile rapidly builds up in your throat, and you clamp your jaw shut, trying to force it down. Not here. Not now. You try to focus on something else, anything else happening outside of your brain. Thereâs a pair next to you musing about the people standing on the subway tracks, wondering what the two (the four?) of them are talking about. You blink back tears as you look. You can only see two: a freakishly tall man with white hair dressed in all black, and another man, dressed in strange, yet more traditional looking garb. Are those costumes too? You donât have a lot of time to think about it as another image forces its way into your brain.
Your corpseâ lifeless on the ground.
Your corpseâ burning to ash.
Your corpseâ bleeding out.
You canât hold it in any more. Every fiber in your being screams at you to get away from the subway tracks, but instead you rush toward them, shoving people left and right as your hands desperately reach the stability of the gate. You grip it like a lifeline as you retch over the side of it, the contents of your stomach spilling all over the subway tracks.
Thereâs a quiet murmur of disgust behind you but you canât be bothered to respond. You need to get out of here. You need to leave. You need to do it beforeâ
The gates open and the crowd starts to move like a tidal wave, pushing and shoving their way through the gate. Youâre swept away, vomit long forgotten as you and a few dozen others tumble onto the railway.
Alarm bells go off in your brain, loud and deafening. A voice in the back of your head screams for you to get off the track! Get off the track now beforeâ
The platform erupts into a cacophony of screams, drenched in horror, saturated in fear. You are surrounded by people, by corpsesâ beheaded, sliced open, bursting into flames.
Your terror roots you to the ground as the carnage ensues around you. Itâs only when another person, another corpse, dressed in a magical girl costume collides with your body that you can finally move. But itâs too late, you realize, despaired and helpless, as your bodies fall to the ground.
Itâs too late.
You die an eighth time.
You think your chest is going to explode.
At first, you think itâs because itâs so hard to breathe, frustratingly soâ there are hundreds of people squeezed into this space alongside you, packed like cattle for slaughter. You've never been one for crowds, but itâs the reality of things when youâre in Shibuya. For the most part, youâve come to accept it, but this crowd is way too much and you wish you had just stayed home and ordered a pizza; though honestly, the thought of pizza kind of makes you sick.
Thereâs a dull throbbing in your forehead, followed by a thought so loud that it feels like someoneâs hollering at you from a loudspeaker thatâs been installed in your brain.
Itâs the night of October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
You think it's the ninth time now.
Behind you, you hear a woman screaming, her voice crazed and terrified. You turn your head automatically to look at her and when you see her you realize you recognize her yellow and white magical girl costume. You can say with certainty that youâve never seen her before and yetâ
Before you can ruminate more on it, imagesâ memories assault your mindâs eye with a clarity that is absolutely sickening. That woman colliding into you, your bodies slamming into the subway tracks before you bothâ Your stomach churns violently,
and you feel like youâre going to puke, but you force it downâ can't afford to right now. Instead, you make your way over to the woman.
Her head is in her hands as she mutters over and over again about how everyone is going to die. People around her figure that being stuck in here with the crowd has probably gotten to her. You, however, know better.
â...hey,â you say softly.
Her muttering comes to an abrupt halt and slowly she raises her head to look at you. Thereâs a flash of recognition in her eyes and she grabs you violently by the shoulders. âYou! You know, donât you? That weâre going to die?â
If it werenât for the fact that you have indeed experienced death here eight times already, then you would have thought sheâs lost her mind. Slowly, you nod and she seems relieved by it, her grip on you loosening.
You canât help but feel a little relieved tooâ glad to know that youâre not the only one experiencing this nightmare. Thereâs a voice in the back of your mind thatâs confused though. Why is she only remembering now? But then again, it took you a few times before you realized yourself.
Around you people start to gasp, and you glance back toward the railway to see an abnormally tall man with white hair and dressed in all black jump down from the atrium onto the railway. He lands rather gracefully for someone who jumped at least one floor and starts to converse with the other three people (you think they're peopleâ two of them are in some pretty wild costumes) on the track.
Wait. Isnât it supposed to be just two people: the tall man and the one in the traditional clothes? Where did the other two come from?
âWe have to get out of here,â the woman says. âBefore they kill us.â
Her grip shifts from your shoulders to your arms and she starts to shove at everyone around you, trying to force her way through. She seems to know, just as well as you do, that any second now the gates will open and the crowd will start spilling onto the railway, littering the tracks with bodies and ash. Neither of you can let yourselves get swept up with the rest. If you do and you end up on those tracks, youâre as good as dead.
People move aside at a snail's pace, many of them too focused on trying to see what is going on on the subway tracks. This isn't good. You need to move faster or elseâ
The collective sound of the gates opening echoes in your head, a metallic hiss that makes your stomach fold into itself. Before either of you can stop yourselves, you both whip your heads back to look, to confirm, but itâs a mistake.
The briefest lapse in attention is enough to pull you both into the current of people, and try as you might to fight against it, the crowd splits you and the woman apart as it swallows you both whole. Youâre both spat onto the tracks at the edge of the platform and your head collides with the metal rails of the track. It feels like your skull is about to crack in two, and it takes every fiber in your being to scramble to your feet. You're close enough to the platform that if you can just climb up it, then you'll beâ
âHelp! Help!â
Itâs the womanâs voice. You turn to see that she ended up a couple meters away from you. Sheâs staring at you, eyes brimming with fear filled tears as she extends her hand in your direction. You take a step toward her, reaching out.
And then, her entire body is engulfed in flames, the skirt of her magical girl costume a ring of fiery death around her.
Her blood curdling scream is the only thing you can hear, her burning flesh, the only thing you can see. You donât know what to do.
You canât save her.
There's something touching your back. You can barely feel the pressure, but it's hot, scorching hot, mind numbingly hot, painfully hothothot.
You know this sensation. You have felt it before. The scent of burning cloth, burning hair, burning flesh clogs your nostrils. It's too late, you realize, helpless, despaired as the flames eat at your bodyâ your soon to be corpse.
It's too late.
You die a ninth time.
Itâs October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
This is the tenth time.
Your head hurts, but you ignore it. Thereâs something more important that you need to attend to. You immediately make your way to the woman you met during your last round, the one you watched burn to death. Her costume is still pristine, unmarred by fire and death.
For now.
Sheâs not screaming this time and while thereâs a little voice in the back of your mind thatâs concerned by this, you try to ignore it.
âUm, excuse me?â you say when she doesnât acknowledge you as you approach.
The woman turns to look at you. Youâre taken aback by the distinct lack of recognition and it feels almost as if the woman you encountered previously and the one before you now are two separate people. In a way, they technically are.
âDo I⌠know you?â she finally asks when you donât say anything.
Your mouth is dry. How do you even answer that? You donât know her. You just watched her die twice. You know her. She begged you for help. You couldnât save her.
If you explain all of this you know sheâs just going to think youâve lost your mind. Maybe you already haveâ youâve died nine times after all.
You give her a weak smile. âI⌠just wanted to tell you that you think your costume looks great.â
She blinks, taken aback by your words. Thereâs no doubt that she wasnât expecting you to say that. Itâs the truth though, her costume is nice; sheâs dressed up as a character from a magical girl anime that was popular a couple years ago.
âThank you! I made it myself!â The woman breaks out into a genuine smile and your heart hurts. In a few moments sheâll die and the costume she worked so hard to make will be nothing but ash on the subway tracks.
âSorry,â you blurt out before you can stop yourself.
âFor?â
For watching her die. For not being able to save her.â...I just kind of came up to you all of a suddenâŚâ
She laughs. âItâs okay.â
Itâs not.
You consider telling her that she should try to move. That if she stays here she will die. You donât want her to die. Again. You can still hear her screaming in your ears as she burned to death. You want to tell her.
You donât.
âStay safe, okay?â you say. It almost sounds like youâre begging.
She gives you another smile, kind and gentle and you think youâre far too undeserving of it for not telling her what fate will soon befall her. âYou too.â
âIâll try,â you say and move away from the woman just as the gates open and the crowd surges toward the railway. You do not fight it as you are swept up into the crowd and despite what you said, you do not try, this time, to stay safe.
You die for the tenth time.
Itâs October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
This is the fourteenth time.
Thereâs a slight ache in your head, but itâs subtle enough that you can ignore it. The pain you feel lessens with each round and you think itâs a sign that your body no longer feels the need to remind you of the precarious situation that youâre in.
Or maybe you are just becoming numb to everything: your death, the death of the people around you, the death of the woman in the magical girl costumeâ
You try not to think about it too much as you reach into your bag to check the time on your phone: 8:37PM. Thereâs not a lot of time: you need to move.
At the very end of your last attempt to escape this nightmare you realized something. You need to know exactly what is going on around you so you can plan accordingly: where to not stand, where to not go. Up until now, youâve relied almost solely on the knowledge gained from your previous failures to try and survive, but obviously itâs not enough to keep you alive. Youâre not sure why you didnât realize this earlier. The panic, maybe? The fear?
Maybe you really are becoming numb to all this.
Unlike previous iterations, this time you elect to move closer to the gate, positioning yourself somewhere against it where youâre unlikely to be pushed off the platform in a couple minutes when they open. You take great care to place yourself where you can see the ones responsible for the slaughter very clearly. At the beginning, you could only see one, the one who looks the most human, but with each repetition, the other two have become more and more clear. You wonder why. You donât have time to think about it.
Murmurs nearby alert you to the arrival of the fourth major player involved in the nightâs events. You look up and see the white haired man dressed in all black descending upon the platform like an angel from the heavens. This is your first time really looking at him and you realize thereâs something almost inhumanly attractive about him. You canât quite put your finger on it, but it occurs to you that you shouldnât even try; you donât have the time to be drooling over some handsome stranger.
Youâve naturally never taken the time to try and listen to whatever the conversation the man and his opponents have before all hell breaks loose on the platform, but you try and lean closer to listen. Itâs hard to hear over the dozens of conversations going on behind you, but you try anyway. There might be a clue to whatâs actually going onâ or better yet, a clue on how to get out of it.
Itâs obvious that youâre missing context from what bits of the conversation you do manage to hear, but honestly it all sounds like stuff out of a shounen battle manga. There is one part of the exchange that you manage to hear with a startling sort of clarity. It feels almost as if your heart stops beating as your blood turns ice cold in your veins.
âIf I run away, youâre just gonna kill everyone here, right?â the man in black asks.
Thereâs a pause, and if your heart was still beating itâd be long enough for just four heartbeats.
âIf you run away?â The monster with cane repeats, the sadistic grin spreading wide across its features, displaying its charcoal black teeth. The gravelly sound of its voice sets fire to the blood in your veins, your stilled heart thumping wildly, in fear, in anticipation. Soon. Itâs happening soon. You brace yourself. âWeâre going to do that even if you donât!â
You die a fourteenth time.
Itâs October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
This is the seventeenth time now.
Things are going surprisingly well, even as the people around you tumble onto the tracks. You manage to hold on, desperation keeping you from falling into the abyss. This is good, you tell yourself, despite the fact that itâs not the first time youâve achieved this. Every little victory is worth celebrating, but you have to remain vigilant. This is yet another information gathering loop, and while you know that maybe this time youâll be lucky and live, thereâs still a chance, a big one, at that, that you will die again.
You have to make the most of each and every death.
Itâs such a morbid thought, but the ends justify the means, or so you tell yourself. If you have to die a few times to make it out of this unending nightmare, then so be it.
The spot youâre in is a good vantage point; itâs easier to see everything happening below you. Itâs so good that itâs actually sickening. You watch as the monster with the cane and one with what looks like branches for eyes slaughter the people on the track, mowing them down, setting them aflame. In another life, in another many lives, that was you down there, and for what feels like the first time in forever, you feel like youâre going to be sick. You feel like, at some point, you likened the scene before you to some kind of shounen battle manga, but you think that was wrong.
This is borderline horror.
Everything plays out before you like a scene out of an action horror flick. If you didnât know better, youâd think you were just an extra on set, but you know the reality is that youâre just an extra to whatever phantasmal battle is taking place in front of you. The monsters and the strangely dressed man all try to attack the man in black, but he manages to block every hit effortlessly, as if he is protected by some sort of invisible barrier. When it seems the two monsters are about to hit him, he merely jumps out of the way and the two monsters seem to collide, the force of their combined strength sending a gust of air throughout the crowd. The man in black neatly lands on a nearby platform half wall and says something about curse users, whatever those are, to the monsters, before he starts to mock them, pulling down his strange blindfold in the process.
And this, youâve found, is where you start to get in trouble.
You clearly remember thinking, at some point, previously, that there was something attractive about this man. You still donât know what it is. You havenât had the time to try and figure it out, but there is one thing that you do know: you canât keep your eyes off of him.
He drops back down onto the tracks, antagonizing his opponents in an arrogant tone as he approaches. When he comes to a stop between the two monsters, the second round of their fight begins. They try to hit him, but he dodges still, gracefully, fluidly, like the three of them are embroiled in some sort of passionate, yet violent dance.
You cannot turn your eyes away as he cruelly rips off one of the arms of the one-eyed monster.
You cannot turn your eyes away as he brutally kicks the branch-eyed monster in the abdomen, sending them flying to the other side of the platform.
You cannot turn your eyes away as he effortlessly hurls the one-eyed, now one-armed monster in the same direction, sending them smashing into the wall.
Only when the man in black seems to fly to the other side is the spell over you seemingly broken. Still, your eyes give chase, and your body too, rushing from one side of the platform to the other. You canât lose sight of this fight, you tell yourself, settling in a spot you recall being safe during your last round. Doing so could mean another death, another loop, another October 31.
You watch as the man in black acrobatically dodges what looks to be vines or roots that the monster with branches for eyes seems to have summoned from the depths of the Tokyo metro. He lands on the monsterâs shoulders, balancing on them as he uses its branch-eyes for leverage. The look in the manâs eyes is so crazed that you can see it from where youâre standing. He says something to it and thenâ
With a feral and sadistic smile, he rips their eyes straight out of their skull.
Your heart is pounding wildly in your chest as you watch the fight unfold. It is horrifyingly, disgustingly violent, yet still you watch as people on the track are killed by the human-like person, blood raining down as their freshly beheaded skulls go flying into the air. He and the one-eyed monster launch their counter attacks against the man in black and the blowback is so intense the power goes out causing everyone to scream.
Thereâs a faint glow where the man in black is standing that starts to grow brighter and brighter. You can make out his form turning to face the wall, and it seems almost like heâs slammed the monster that had branches for eyes against it with some sort of telekinetic power. Despite the panic from the people around you, you manage to hear him, chuckling like a mad man as he draws closer and closer to the monster.
The one-eyed monster yells out a name, a name you think must belong to the man, but he doesnât hear it. He doesnât hear the one-eyed monster as he extends his hands out toward the eyeless monster, exerting some kind of force that you canât really see. He doesnât hear the one-eyed monster as the eyeless monsterâs entire body is vaporized in a flash of blue light. He doesnât hear the one-eyed monster, as the lights flicker back on revealing a smoking crater stained with purple blood where the eyeless monster once stood.
But you do.
Satoru Gojo.
You make sure to remember that.
Itâs October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
And this is the eighteenth time.
You watch as the man called Satoru Gojo stalks through the crowd of people on the subway tracks, chasing after the one-eyed fire monster. It throws people at him, in a clear attempt to slow him down.
It does not work.
Satoru Gojo climbs back onto the platform in a way that you can only describe as inhuman, and the people nearby shriek and move away from him, out of terror, out of fear. You, on the other hand, draw closer, refusing to lose sight of him.
He is relentless in his pursuit of the one-eyed monster. It continues to throw person after person at him, but he does not stop and the people float there, suspended in midair before they are gently lowered to the ground by some unseen force and scramble away.
No one dares get close to Satoru Gojo, everyone on the platform seems to know that doing so means certain death, yourself included. But you still feel the need to keep an eye on him. The monster and the strangely dressed man are focusing more on him than the crowdâ anyone in between is just collateral damage.
But not you.
Especially since youâve made it this farâ youâve never made it this far before.
A voice echoes throughout the platform; you realize itâs the automated announcement.
An eight car train is pulling in. Please wait behind the yellow line.
You can hear everyoneâs relief coming from all sides. The train is coming! The train is coming! A ripple of hope makes its way throughout the crowd. With the train comes the chance to get off the platform and the senseless violence thatâs been happening here. Some of the people around you are talking excitedly and others are running toward the gates, toeing the yellow line theyâve been instructed to wait behind. And you, you should be excited, you should be hopeful.
All you feel is dread.
It eats at your stomach, at your chest, at your mind. Clawing and gnawing at you in a way that leaves you paralyzed on the platform. Thereâs something wrong here. You canât be sure because youâve never made it this far, never survived long enough for the train to come, but something is just not right.
No.
You must be paranoid. The train coming is a good thing. It has to be a good thing. You are just paranoid. Itâs normal. Itâs natural. Dying seventeen times would do that to anyoneâ rob them of hope, condemn them to an existence full of fear.
It is not lost on you that the thought of dying more than once, much less, dying seventeen times is not normal or natural in the very slightest.
But you need hope, you crave it, wildly, desperately. The hope of freedom, of escape is the only thing getting you through this unending nightmare. Every time you die, every time you wake, it is with the hope that maybe, just maybe this iteration will be different, maybe this one will be the one where you make it out, make it back to your friends who must be waiting for you, make it back home where you can be safe and sound. You need the hope to keep going. Because without hope, what will you have left?
The train screeches as it pulls into the station and the people around you laugh in both disbelief and relief. They start to push and shove toward it, fighting to be able to board because thereâs no way everyone here will be able to get on an eight car train and being left behind at this point is practically synonymous with death. Unable to decide if you believe in the train as a symbol of hope or a new layer of fear, you are pushed along with the crowd toward it.
The doors of the train cars slide open and the current passengers all rush off as they disembark. You as well as everyone else on the platform can see with a horrifying clarity that the train is filled to the brim with monsters. Monsters that reach out and grab anyone their hands can reach. The woman to your left. The person to your right.
You.
Hope is gone.
What do you have left?
You die for the eighteenth time.
Itâs October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
This is probably the twenty-sixth time now.
If there is anything this entire ordeal has taught you, it is that you are resilient. Whether it is some innate trait that you never had any reason to uncover before or just a byproduct of being trapped in an unending cycle of being dead and not dead, you don't know. What you do know, though, is that even if you no longer have hope, you at least have your resilience.
Whether you want it or not.
You check the time. Itâs 8:35PM. Something flickers in your chest, like a faint light in a sea of darkness, but you ignore it. You donât have time right now.
With a nimbleness born from your previous failures, you weave your way through the crowd. Youâve done this enough times to know where the gaps areâ who will yield and who wonât. Your destination is the escalator that leads off the platform and up to a higher part of the station. Youâd noticed previously that the escalator along with every other entrance onto the platform will eventually be blocked by vines or roots of some sort (the work of the branch-eyed monster probably). Itâs not a perfect plan because you donât know what happens on the other side, but whatever it is has to be better than whatever is happening on the side that youâve been on.
Youâd tried to get to the stairs during your last two rounds, but youâd just missed it. You hadnât been fast enough and had gotten caged and slaughtered along with the rest. But this time, this time you have more time. Itâs just one minute, but itâs enough. You know it is.
The flickering in your heart grows stronger. Hope. You try not to pay attention to itâ you donât want to be disappointed yet again. But you want to so badly. A voice in the back of your mind tells you to focus on the good, tells you that if there was truly no way out of this endless nightmare, then why would you get more and more time with each round to escape your fate?
With that thought in mind, you break out into a run, recklessly rushing through the crowd, shoving anyone who will not yield to the side. Out of the corner of your eye you can see the stark white of Satoru Gojoâs hair as he descends upon the platform.
You need to get up those stairs.
Now.
If you remember correctly, the roots and vines donât close off the area the moment he touches down, but a little after they start talking, so you think there is probably some time, but you canât leave it to chance.
The stairs are packed, and for some reason no one is moving. The escalator right next to it is just as full and the power doesnât seem to be working. You donât have time for this. You clamber onto the escalatorâs rubber handrail, ignoring the weird feeling that passes through your body as you do so. You donât have the time to worry about whatever that is. The people around you start exclaiming around you, but you donât care, you donât listen. You wobble as you try to balance yourself and when you think youâre steady you try to run.
But you trip.
And you die for the twenty-sixth time.
Itâs October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
This marks the thirtieth time.
And you have, finally, finally made it up the escalator, up the stairs with barely a second to spare. You pause, glancing back as the roots or vines or whatever the hell they are seal off the entrance to the platform. You notice that the area where the plants come down is actually fairly clear, despite the crowd. It seems weird, but you donât dwell on it.
A strange feeling envelops your entire body and your legs turn into jelly. As you sink to the floor, you realize what youâre feeling is relief as all the tension, maybe thirty iterations of Halloween 2018 worth, seeps from your being. You don't remember the last time you felt anything other than fear and dread; itâs weird, but not unwelcome.
That voice in the back of your mind tells you that you can't relax just yet: October 31st isnât over. Even though you have repeated this night again and again, burning the events that play out on the platform into your memory, you do not know a single thing that happens over here. It would be smart to scope everything out.
Legs still shaky, you rise to your feet and start walking. You think itâs probably for the best to try and head up to the surface and you make your way up to the next floor.
Itâs packed with people here too, but relatively peaceful, especially when you compare it to the pandemonium taking place beneath your feet. Still, you can make out the undeniable hum of displeasure resonating throughout the crowd. People complaining about how uncomfortable their costumes are, people complaining about how much they want to go home, people complaining about how much their nights have been ruined because they couldnât meet up with their friends andâ
A thought hits you like an eight car train.
You were supposed to meet up with your friends.
Thatâs why you were on the platform in the first placeâ you were waiting for them to arrive, but then the trains stopped working, and people just started pouring into the station out of seemingly nowhere (you think you heard some people say theyâd come from the crossing?). Soon after that is when everything went to shit.
You check your phone, though, for once itâs not to look at the time (8:56PM). Instead, you open LINE to check your friendsâ group chat. Thereâs no signal here, for whatever reason, so if there are any new messages, you havenât received them. The last one was from Kei, mentioning he was enroute, but as far as you know, youâre the only one who made it to Shibuya before the trains stopped.
Did one of them maybe make it here though? Surely, you would have run into them ifâ
The image of a woman in a magical girl costume fills your vision, burning to death before your very eyes as her screams echo in your ears. It is the first time in what feels like forever that youâve thought about her and your stomach churns violently. You couldnât help her, you canât even help yourself, so how could you even expect to do the same for your friends if they were here? The mere thought of having to watch them die over and over is almost enough to send you over the edge. You donât know if you could do it.
Would you even have a choice?
No. You can't think like that. You have choices. You've had choices. If you didnât then, you would still be down below, among the fire and brimstone. Dying, if not dead already. However, instead, you are up here, where, for the moment, it is quiet and peaceful.
That thought, in of itself, is enough to give you a shred of solace, a glimmer of hope.
You take a deep breath and fiddle with your phone a little more, changing your lock screen to a picture you and your friends took at a photo booth not too long ago. The four of you are huddled together, faces squished as if you're all struggling to fit in the frame, despite there being plenty of room. You're mid-laugh because it's the first time you've been in a photo booth in years, Mio and Shin are grinning mischievously and finally, Kei is smiling, but only just slightly, the embarrassment clear on his face. It's probably only been a few months since you all took this picture, but the fact that it feels like it's been years makes your heart ache.
You press your forehead to the screen, like a prayer, like a promise.
You will make it out of this nightmare.
No matter what.
A shrill scream yanks you from your thoughts and you are instantly on your feet, alert as your eyes flit around frantically to identify the source. It doesn't take long for you to find it and when you do, you think you might have stumbled upon a new layer of horror to this nightmare.
Itâs not the corpse, dangling by a noose, that terrifies youâ by now youâve seen dozens upon dozens of dead bodies that the sight of just one more doesnât faze you in the slightest. The thing thatâs the most mortifying, thatâs the most disturbing is that right next to where the body is tied are two girls, two teenage girls still dressed in their school uniforms.
You can accept monsters and weirdly dressed men being responsible for the carnage tonight, but children too? Both girls look like theyâre barely in high school and try as you might to rationalize things, to chalk it up to coincidence, you cannot ignore the ominous energy radiating from them.
The very notion that these two children could have killed someone here is a hard pill to swallow, but so is the fact that youâve died.
And youâve had to swallow that pill thirty times now, so whatâs once more?
âListen up!â one of the girls yells over the crowd, but she is mostly ignored; you donât think everyone here has noticed her and the corpse dangling from the rafters. She scowls and turns to the other girl and says something quietly to her. The other girl nods and almost instantly sheâs stringing up another person, another example. You want to look away so badly, and yet you cannot bring yourself to and you watch the poor soul choke to death.
âI said listen, you dumb monkeys!â the girl shouts, and this time sheâs caught most of the crowdâs attention. âIf you donât want to end up like these two, youâll listen to what we have to say!â
There is clear dissent among the crowd, people dismissive as they utter their disbelief. Some seem to think itâs a prank, but you know better. It takes two more examples before the crowd goes silent before the two high schoolers.
âAbout damn time!â The girl roars and then points toward the atrium, which is currently covered by roots and branches. âAll of you move over there!â
You have a bad feeling about this.
Still, you comply; the girls have made it abundantly clear that failure to do so will result in death, though, at this point, you're almost certain this iteration is a bust and death is all but imminent. You try to keep positiveâ thinking you can at least gather information or, who knows, maybe there's a chance that this one is the one.
Yet when you step onto the mound of vines and branches that cover the atrium it feels as if you've crossed the threshold into hell. Your footing is stable⌠but for how long?
An eight car train is pulling in. Please wait behind the yellow line.
It's faint, but you can hear the announcement from below. The liquid in your stomach curdles at the sound as you recall the train and, in particular, what is on board. Soon enough, those monsters will be swarming the platform, massacring everyone in reach, guzzling down their blood, feasting on their fleshâ
It dawns on you that the people on the platform are the monsters' first course.
And you, and those around you here in the shrubbery, are the second.
As you realize this, the branches and vines disintegrate beneath your very feet and suddenly you are mid airâ falling, falling into the abyss below.
You die for the thirtieth time.
Itâs October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
You've done this nearly sixty times now.
After countless failures, you've decided that you're just not going to go upstairs any more. No matter where you try to go, you still end up herded onto the death trap above the platform where you ultimately fall to your death. You've tried positioning yourself in the same spot, tried bracing yourself for the dropâ but nothing seems to work: upon landing, assuming you manage to land without hurting yourself or dying in midair (which has happened a couple times) you get grabbed and killed by one of the monsters from the train. It's probably not impossible, you just don't have the physical prowess or reflexes for it.
If anything, you can try again later, but you sincerely hope you don't have to.
It's 8:32PM, and you have plenty of time to get to your chosen spot for this loopâ it's close to the stairs, in the very center of the platform. Here, there's little risk of getting pushed off onto the tracks when the gates open. You'll probably have to move when the train comes, or even before (assuming you survive) to avoid the monsters, but you'll get to that when it's time.
You can't really see the fight once it breaks out after Satoru Gojo arrives, but you still try to keep track of it as best as you can. You see when he hurls both monsters across the platform and you're not sure if it's muscle memory or what but you have to fight the urge to move to the side and watch. It's been a while, yes, but you've seen the fight countless times beforeâ it doesn't change. Satoru Gojo will give chase. He will rip the branches from the branch eyed monster's skull. He will use some kind of power to eviscerate them.
You don't need to watch, but there's something in you that wants to.
It doesn't make sense, you've seen it all before; if you're unlucky you'll see it all again.
The lights go out and people start screaming; Satoru Gojo is ending the life of that one monster. Soon enough he'll be back on the platform, in pursuit of the other. You think at that point it would be good to move, reposition yourself as far from the incoming train as possible.
When he rises from the tracks like a demon straight from hell, you realize it's the first time this loop that you've actually gotten a good look at him. You remind yourself, again, that this isn't the first time you've seen this man, this scene. You can't help but watch, but stare at Satoru Gojo as he stalks through the crowd in pursuit of his prey. His expression is an eerie sort of calm that's at odds with the acts of violence you've seen him commitâ his eyes an unnaturally bright blue.
He's a terrifying sort of beauty and you can't help but be captivated by him.
An eight car train is pulling in. Please wait behind the yellow line.
The sound of the announcement sends your heartbeat into a frenzy, snapping you out of your little trance. The train is coming and you need to get moving. As you dart to the edge of the platform, the thought occurs to you that even if you avoid the initial wave of monsters, it's likely you will inevitably be caught by them and killed. It wouldn't be impossible for Satoru Gojo to turn his attention to them instead of the two he's currently facing, but he's just one manâ can he truly defeat all those monsters?
You can see the train pulling in and you brace yourself, praying that it'll work out somehow.
The doors hiss open and the screaming starts again as the monsters come bursting out of the train, biting and mauling anyone they can get their hands on. Those who were lucky enough to not be at the front start to scramble away and the monsters give chase. Your body is taut, ready to try and dodge any that come your way.
Out of the corner of your eye you notice something moving through the air. A person? With blue hair? You take the risk to lookâ they're attacking Satoru Gojo. He tries to punch them but they fly away from him to dodgeâ disappearing into the crowd.
You hear a loud cracking sound over the cacophony of the crowd and your stomach twists; you know what that sound is. The roots above the atrium disintegrate and bodies from above start to rain down onto the platform.
And then, you're not sure what happensâ it's so quick that you only manage to see what looks like an explosion of blood surrounding Satoru Gojo. Corpses litter the ground around him and even from here you can tell he is shaken by the carnage.
The monsters have finally reached where you're standing, and you duck under one as it lunges at you. Although it's big and scary, you realize it's moving kind of slow. Right after it another one comes at you and you take a side step to avoid it; this monster is kind of slow too.
Maybe you can do this.
As soon as you think that a strange feeling courses through you. Every hair on your body feels like it's standing on edge and the voice in your head is telling you to look at Satoru Gojo. You don't understand why because you think he's the least of your worries right now, but you do it anyway.
He's in some sort of stance, one hand raised to his face, fingers bent in some kind of gesture. There's some sort of aura, oppressive and frightening emanating from his form.
Satoru Gojo is doing something.
You just can't tell what.
Itâs October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
And you are utterly confused.
Barring your first few loops when you weren't fully aware of what was happening, you have very distinct memories of how each of your previous iterations of this night have goneâ of each and every one of your deaths. But for your last round, the last thing you remember was feeling the immense power radiating from Satoru Gojo's body, but that's it.
You do not remember dying.
In fact, you don't think you did.
And yet, here you are again, back at the start: it's 8:32PM and the monsters and strangely dressed man are standing on the subway tracks waiting for the arrival of Satoru Gojo.
You don't understand what's going on; you didn't die but you're still stuck in this damn loop. Up until now, your death has served as the trigger to restart the loop. It's not impossible that maybe you suffered a quick and painless death but you're almost certain that isn't the case.
Something else must have happened.
Something having to do with Satoru Gojo.
You have to find out what. If you don't, you won't know how to avoid it, and if you can't do that, then you really might spend an eternity stuck in this nightmare. And so you take great care to repeat the steps of your last round. You need to make sure to survive to the same point you made it to last time.
Miraculously, you do.
The moment you feel that sensation again, a prickling sort of feeling that envelops your entire body, your eyes are on Satoru Gojoâ trying to figure out what the hell he's doing. His eyes are crazed with a desperate kind of focus. You see his mouth moveâ he's saying something. A spell? A prayer? A curse?
You don't know.
You do know.
Your brain feels like it's going to explode.
Again.
Itâs October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
Again.
You do not know how many times it's been the night of Halloween in Shibuya: you stopped counting around the hundredth loop. It feels like it's been a while since then. Or maybe it hasn't? You don't know any more.
What you do know is that this night ends up going one of two ways before you are forced to repeat it. Either you die, in some way, shape or form or something happens just after nine that forces you to reset. You still don't know what it is exactly; you only know that Satoru Gojo is responsible for it.
You do prefer it to dyingâ it's far less painful.
But if anything, you wish you could just die permanently and never have to repeat this night ever again.
Unfortunately, you know better.
The only good thing youâve noticed about all of this is that you really do seem to keep waking up earlier and earlier. The last time you checked, it was at around 8:30. It might take hundreds of thousands of loops, but eventually youâll certainly wake up early enough to avoid this damn entire mess.
But by the time that happens⌠will your sanity still be intact? Will you really be able to go back to a normal day to day life after living the equivalent of hundreds of years, repeating the same night over and over again? You donât even know how youâve managed to stay sane all this time and as much as you want to believe you could do itâŚ
There has to be a breaking point.
For both your mind and this time loop.
If youâre lucky, youâll reach the latter first.
Thereâs a dull ache in your head that feels foreign yet familiar. Your mind is foggy, all your thoughts hazy as you try to recall what the word for this feeling is.
Groggy.
It feels as if youâve woken up from a nap and you blink the sleepiness away from your eyes. When was the last time you took a nap? Itâs been a while⌠You think you maybe tried once or twice, but you were too nervous, too on edge. Awake or asleep, it didnât matter because, either way, you were doomed to repeat this nightmare.
As you think this, you realize that something is different.
Youâre used to how the start of each loop feels like waking up suddenly and abruptly and it becomes clear to you that you havenât looped. This is completely uncharted territory.
You need to find out whatâs going on.
The first thing you notice is that itâs quiet. Almost eerily so, especially when the last thing you remember was screaming and chaos. You glance around you and find that it looks like all the monsters from the train are dead, the ground littered in their bloodstains and corpses. There were so many of them, you donât know how someone could have wiped them out so quickly⌠Could it possibly have been Satoru Gojoâs doing?
More concerning than the complete eradication of the monsters is the fact that nearly everyone else on the platform is standing stock still, their mouths ajar with blank expressions on their faces. Itâs almost as if their souls have completely vacated their bodiesâŚ
Were you like that too before you woke up?
You hear voices, and your body immediately goes tense as you turn your head in their direction. A little ways ahead of you, you see a man dressed as a monk conversing with the blue haired person from earlier and before them isâ
Your heart nearly stops: itâs Satoru Gojo, restrained and on his knees.
Honestly, you canât make heads or tails of the conversation theyâre having; itâs more shounen battle manga nonsense. Satoru Gojo doesnât seem to be enjoying their conversation either, and he interrupts them, clearly annoyed.
âAre we gonna do this or what?â he asks. âThe view sucks and Iâm just kinda bored.â
âI wanted to enjoy this sight for a little bit longer, but you are right,â the monk says. âI wouldnât want anything to happenâ gate, close.â
When he says that, Satoru Gojoâs restraints move, the weirdly shaped cubes at the ends of them closing in around him, trapping him in a giant red cube. It starts to shrink until itâs small enough to fit in the monkâs hand.
You gulp and hope they donât notice that youâre awake. The fact that they havenât slaughtered the rest of the people standing around you is a good sign, but you donât want to find out what happens if they know youâre cognizant.
Itâs not hard to play the part of a living statue, especially when you compare it to everything else youâve had to suffer through on this night. You watch as the monkâs allies, the ones who had attacked everyone on the platform, wake up, but before they can do or say anything, the box holding Satoru Gojo slips through the monkâs fingers and makes a dent in the concrete. The look on the monkâs face makes it clear that itâs a problem he wasnât expecting.
You donât know a damn thing about Satoru Gojo, but you feel like this kind of thing is the norm for him.
The blue haired person suddenly looks in your direction and you nearly stop breathing. Have they noticed you? It takes everything in you to keep perfectly still, in hopes that maybe they didn't, that maybe theyâre looking at something else. They raise their arm and it extends, their hand acting like some kind of projectile. You almost shut your eyes and brace yourself for impact, but their hand flies upwards and hits something on the ceiling, destroying it.
Inwardly, you breathe a sigh of reliefâ youâre still safe.
For now.
You listen to their following conversation and while you still donât fully understand everything, itâs clear theyâre talking about what to do next since theyâve taken care of Satoru Gojo. Something having to do with someone named Yuji Itadori? The group seems split on what to do about him but itâs clear heâs their next target.
Eventually, everyone but the monk (you heard the blue haired person, who is apparently named Mahito, call him Geto?) runs off, probably to find this Yuji Itadori person. Once theyâre gone, Geto speaks and, at first, you think heâs talking to you, but it becomes clear heâs addressing someone else. âThose cursed spirits are actually smarter than the two of you.â
âGive him back!â a voice hidden among the crowd hisses. Your blood runs cold at the sound. You recognize it; itâs one of the high school girls from the upper floor.
âWe cooperated with you fully and kept dropping monkeys for you,â says another voice; it must be the other girl that was with her, the one who hung all those people.
âNow give us back Master Getoâs body like you promised!â
âDonât toy with Master Geto any further than you have!â
You blink in confusion. Isnât the monk named Geto? The way the girls are talking it sounds like theyâre talking about someone else⌠Is it possible that the body is âGetoâ but the person theyâre talking to is someone else possessing it? It sounds kind of crazy, but then again, so is every single thing youâve experienced tonight.
Your suspicions concerning this âGetoâ are confirmed only seconds later as he says, âNow begone, or is it your desire to be killed by this body?â
One of the girls vows her revenge and you hear shuffling somewhere else in the crowd as they scurry away. Now you think itâs just you and whoever it is thatâs puppeting Getoâs body. You see him plop down in front of the box (the prison realm, you think heâd called it) thatâs holding Satoru Gojo.
âYou can come out, you know,â he says after a while.
You freeze. The rest of the platform is completely silent. This time you think he might actually be talking to you.
âI know youâre there,â âGetoâ adds, his voice casual. âIf youâre insistent on hiding, you should know that Iâm not afraid of using whatever means necessary to smoke you out.â
Given everything his allies have done, thereâs no doubt in your mind that heâs serious. You were hoping to hide out among the crowd until he decided to leave, but it looks like you wonât be able to now.
Looks like this loop is a bust after all.
Your heart starts to race as you weave your way through the crowd. In every single one of your loops, you were always treated like a bit character, never noticed or singled out by any of the major players of the night. Although this is your first time encountering this âGetoâ itâs clear to you that heâs involved with everything thatâs happened here and honestly, you get the feeling he might actually be the mastermind behind the massacre.
That makes you even more nervous.
You come to a stop in the place where Satoru Gojo was once kneeling before he was put in that box. Now that youâre out in the open, âGetoâ looks you over with some sort of nonchalant curiosity.
âYouâreâŚâ he starts, sounding thoughtful, "not a sorcerer, are you?â
Sorcerer. You heard that term thrown around by him and his group a few times. Itâs what theyâve been referring to their enemies as. It probably wouldnât be smart to lie and say you are one; you get the feeling heâd see through your lie anyway. âIâm not.â
He hums. âHow interesting.â
â...what do you mean?â you ask before you can help yourself.
âItâs just you have an abnormally large amount of cursed energy for a non-sorcerer,â he explains. âThough, I suppose that all just sounds like gibberish to you."
You nod and look down at the box lodged in the floor. It has eyes, big creepy looking eyes. "...are you going to do the same thing to me as you did to that man?"
He laughs, "...fortunately for you, the prison realm only holds one person at a time and I need him sealed away more than you."
"...does that mean you're going to leave him in there forever?"
"If I'm feeling nice, I might unseal him in a hundred years or so."
One hundred years? At this point, you've probably lived roughly that amount of time through your loops alone, but for Satoru Gojo⌠"Won't he die first?"
"Only if he decides to," 'Geto' says, looking completely and wholly unbothered. "Time doesn't doesn't flow in the box, so when I unseal him, he'll be the same as he was just now. Physically anyway. Who knows how deteriorated his mind will be after all that."
Time doesn't flow in the box.
The words echo in your mind over and over. Time doesn't flow in the box. In other words, that means time has stopped in the box, and if that's the case thenâ
"Anyway, rather than worry about him, shouldn't you be more worried about yourself?"
You look at 'Geto' and he's smiling at you, it's friendly, but ominous. There's no doubt what is going to happen next, though you had already resigned yourself to this iteration being a bust; it was only a matter of time.
Time doesn't flow in the box.
"I was thinking I might keep you around, even if you arenât a sorcerer, your wealth of cursed energy would serve my plans well," he muses. "But⌠it would be too much trouble trying to teach you how to use it in time."
As he talks, you realize this is probably the first time your death is intentionalâ every other death you've suffered has just been a byproduct of the ongoing slaughter. You were just another casualty, a victim, never a target.
You're scared.
Even though you know that once he kills you, once you die, you'll just loop back to around 8:30 again. You'll be on the platform again. And you'll play out some sequence of events before you eventually die again. And again and again.
Time doesn't flow in the box.
"I'll be nice, though," 'Geto' says, raising a hand and another monster appears out of nowhere. You donât even bother trying to figure out from where. It doesnât matter, especially since this monster will surely be the one to end your life. "I'll make it painless."
"...I appreciate it," you say and close your eyes hoping that he's not lying about it.
Time doesn't flow in the box.
He didn't lie.
You die again.
Itâs October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
And you're trapped.
You don't know how and you don't know why, but you are stuck in a time loopâ forced to suffer through the horrific events of the night before you die and begin it all again. It's been a long time since you stopped counting how many loops you've gone through, but if you had to guess, it's probably somewhere in the hundreds now.
You are so very tired.
But it doesn't stop. It won't stop no matter what you seem to do. You are stuck. You are trapped. You are doomed.
âTime doesn't flow in the box.â
Ever since that first loop where you heard whoever is possessing Geto's body say that, the words have been stuck in your head, playing on loop.
You finally realize why.
âTime doesn't flow in the box.â
It's 8:25PM when you wake up; that should be plenty of time.
You need to find Satoru Gojo.
After hundreds of loops you've come to a singular conclusion: you need to prevent him being sealed in the prison realm. You've witnessed it enough to know that you won't be able to do it alone; you'll need his cooperation.
You rush upstairs as fast as you can, ignoring the shiver that runs down your spine as you step onto the stairwell. According to your previous loops, Satoru Gojo arrives on the subway tracks at 8:40PM. With how crowded the upper floor is, you donât know if youâll have the time to intercept him and talk to him, but if you can at least figure out where to find him, then you can try and talk to him during a subsequent loop.
When you reach the fourth basement floor, however, you donât know where you should even start. Heâs pretty tall so you think you could spot him in the crowd, but⌠there are still so many people. It occurs to you that maybe it would be better to try and look from a higher vantage point so you head to the stairs that lead up to the third basement floor. You check your phone again. Itâs 8:35PM; you need to hurry.
Luckily for you, you find him very easily on the third basement floor.
The only problem is that heâs in a hard to reach spotâ squatting above a sign hanging over the crowd.
You check your phone again. Itâs 8:38PM and heâs starting to move, presumably to meet with those waiting for him on the subway tracks. Itâs good that you found him, but thereâs no doubt about it.
Youâre going to need more time.
The moment you wake up, you immediately bolt toward the stairs. It's taken many, many more loops, but you've finally brought the time you wake down to around 8:15. You're still not sure if it's enough time, but there's only one way to find out.
You barrel your way up to the next floor and zig zag through the crowd to get to the next flight of stairs. By the time you get to your destination, you're completely out of breath, your chest heaving as your lungs clamor for air. Youâve done this so many times, yet your body acts like itâs always the first. It sucks, but thereâs nothing you can do about it. You slow to a brisk pace to catch your breath and check the time. Itâs 8:27â a new record. Hopefully itâll be enough.
The goal is to catch Satoru Gojo before he moves to his lookout point above the crowd. While not impossible, it would be difficult for you to follow him there. You eye the safety barricade that blocks off the area where heâll be moving in just a few minutes warily.
Yes, getting over there would be extremely difficult.
You donât want to think about it right now; youâll deal with it when the time comes.
Especially since Satoru Gojo has now entered your field of vision.
Your heart starts to race at the sight of him and it feels like itâs beating a million times a second. There isnât a lot of time. You need to talk to him, but your legs only wobble, your feet planted firmly to the ground. This is not good. You need to move. You need to move.
Finally, after what feels like both an instant and an eternity, your feet finally budge, propelling you in Satoru Gojoâs direction. The beating of your heart only grows louder as you make your way toward him, mingling with the single thought thatâs echoing throughout your mind right now: will he even hear you out?
You need to make him.
âExcuse me!â The words nearly come out in a stutter as you realize that you are actually talking to Satoru Gojo. You have watched this man at a distance for so long that it almost felt like he wasnât real, like he was just another fixture in this nightmare that youâve been living for far too long. And yet, here he is, right in front of you, in the flesh.
And his attention is on you.
All sound stops: the crowd around you, the thoughts in your head, the beat of your heart. Even though you cannot see them through that blindfold of his, you know that Satoru Gojoâs eyes are on you and the thought of that, the knowledge of it is actually a little overwhelming. Your mouth is dry and suddenly you donât know what to say, but you need to say something. You need to say something before he thinks maybe you bumped into him by accident and just walks away without a word.
âI need to talk to you!â The words just burst out from your mouth and something about it is just absolutely embarrassing. Youâre not sure if it's desperation or the fact that you havenât really talked to anyone other than the existence occupying Suguru Getoâs body in nearly forever.
Satoru Gojoâs lips slowly start to form a smile, âOh, yeah?â
The sound of his voice makes your mind go blank. Thereâs something different about it right now; more playful, amused even. Maybe itâs because heâs talking to you, a harmless human being and not a monster trying to kill him. Itâs almost kind of jarring, but you know, with certainty, what Satoru Gojoâs voice sounds like. And the fact that heâs actually talking to you right now has you kind of excited. You nod, doing your best to not show how thrilled you are that heâs not ignoring you.
He hums thoughtfully, âSorry⌠but unfortunately I kind of have some business to attend to right now.â
âIââ You start to say that you know that heâs headed down to the platform below to fight withâŚChoso and Jogo, you think their names areâ you donât know the name of the monster with the branches for eyes. âItâsâ itâs really important!â
Gojo tilts his head a little, clearly thinking. You should probably say something else, something to try and convince him to stay a little longer and hear you out, but your mind is both full and blank. Where do you start? From the beginning? Or do you start with what is most important? Maybe you should say what you think will get his attention. Youâre not sure, and you realize you really should have thought about this earlier because youâre running out of time right now.
â...mind handing me your phone?â
You stare at Gojo, completely and wholly confused, but he just holds out his hand expectantly. When you donât move, he wiggles his fingers a little, a silent gesture telling you to hurry it up. Without thinking, you reach into your bag and unlock your phone before handing it to him.
âKind of sucks that cell service isnât working right now,â he remarks as he types something into your phone before handing it back. âBut! Here's my number.â
You look down at your phone and, sure enough, Satoru Gojo has added himself as one of your contacts. Heâs even added a little star to the end of his name. Thatâs⌠a little unexpected. Why his number though?
âAre you⌠hitting on me?â you mutter in your confusion.
He laughs, âWell, you said you had something really important to talk to me about, right? So just give me a call when you get home or some time tomorrow and we can talk then!â
Youâre not going to make it home, or even to tomorrow, and neither will Satoru Gojo. As you start to tell him this, he steps past you. Desperate, you try to grab him, but somehow, for some reason, you canât. You remember he did this with Jogo and the other monster, made himself untouchable.
This is not good.
He gives you a little wave, cheery as he says, âIâll talk to you later!â
You watch, helpless as he hops over the barricade beyond your reach.
Gripping your phone tightly, you take a deep breath. It's fine, it's not like you didnât expect things to go well anyway.
You'll just have to try again.
Every time youâve tried to solicit help from Satoru Gojo, it has gone the same way. He just wonât give you the time of day, and in some ways you canât blame him; heâs clearly here to deal with the monsters down on the platform. Youâre fairly certain that he probably thinks that whatever is going on with you is a much lesser issue in comparison.
Plus, it probably doesnât help that in the times that youâve approached him, you havenât been able to articulate yourself particularly well. Once you start talking to him, you just get hit with something akin to stage fright and the connection between your mind and your mouth just stops working. Itâs gotten better with each attempt, butâŚ
Itâs just so frustrating.
It is interesting that Gojo has given you his number every time, star symbol and all. Youâre not sure what kind of person you were expecting him to be, but after witnessing him literally and viciously rip monsters apart, youâd figured heâd be a little more somber. However, in the fragmented conversations you���ve had with him heâs come off as far more friendly and playful than you would have thought. Is he the type of person to get more serious when the situation calls for it? You canât help but wonder, but ultimately, it doesnât really matter.
What really matters is that youâre able to convince him to help you.
You have to convince him.
âExcuse me!â you say, stepping in Satoru Gojoâs path. You donât stutter this time, and your voice is more sure. This is good.
âYes?â
His head turns in your direction and you gulp. Gojoâs gaze, despite that blindfold of his, still feels just as overwhelming as it did the very first time you approached him. You have no doubt that heâs sizing you up, but thereâs just something about it that makes you feel like youâre being picked apart.
You take a deep breath and step closer to him, hoping your voice sounds firm enough as you say, âI need your help. Iâm trapped.â
He chuckles a little, âI know, but yours truly is on his way to go beat up the bad guys keeping you all trapped here, so soon enough youâll be all free to go on your merry little way.â
Right. You were so caught up in your own plight that you nearly forgot that technically youâre not the only one âtrapped.â Satoru Gojo obviously knows that everyone else is confined to this station, but you doubt he knows that youâre confined to this night alone.
âThatâs not what I mean!â you sputter.
âThen what do you mean?â Gojo asks. Should you tell him that you mean that youâre trapped in a time loop? Youâre honestly not sureâ in the movies and manga youâve read about time travel, revealing that sort of thing risks creating a time paradox which seems to be a bad thing. If you have to tell him, you will, butâ âOh, I get it.â
You stare, bewildered. Did you maybe just spew all of that aloud?
Gojo gives you a mischievous smile. âYouâre hitting on me, arenât you?â
âNo!â The word comes flying out of your mouth. You canât deny heâs attractiveâ youâve thought it all this time, but that is not whatâs happening here.
âNo need to be embarrassed,â he continues, ignoring you. âI totally get it, so if you want, Iâd be happy to give you my number!â
Again? Youâve received Satoru Gojoâs contact details in every loop youâve talked to him, star symbol and allâ you even have his number memorized. Thereâs something kind of odd about how he keeps giving you his number. Part of you wonders if heâs got some sort of ulterior motive, but you havenât thought too deeply about it. There are way more important things going on.
âI donât need your phone number,â you say. âI need to talk.â
Your response seems to give Gojo pause. Did you somehow manage to get through to him? No way. Your suspicions are all but confirmed when he gives you that familiar apologetic smile.
âLike, I said, Iâm sort of in the middle of something, butâŚâ Gojo reaches into his pockets and rummages around until one hand fishes out a folded up piece of paper. The other hand keeps digging around in his pocket and when Gojo seems to give up on whatever heâs looking for, he turns his attention back to you. âGot a pen?â
What?
Gojo tilts his head. âWell?â
âI do, butâŚâ You trail off, unsure why heâs asking.
He holds out his hand waiting for you to just hand him the pen. You still donât get it, but you reach into your bagâs front pocket and pull out the pen and hand it to him. Gojo looks almost like an excited child when he takes it from you, quickly scribbling something onto his paper before shoving it and your pen back into your hand.
You look at the paper; it looks like a receipt. For a disturbing amount of mochi that Gojo bought earlier today. The amount of money he spent is almost sickening; way too much to be paying for mochi. More importantly, you notice something juxtaposed over the receiptâs print.
Itâs Satoru Gojoâs name and number.
He even drew a little star next to his name.
âIf you change your mind later, just give me a call!â he tells you cheerily. âI promise Iâll make it worth your while!â
You gawk at him. He cannot be serious. You literally just told him that you didnât need it and yet he still gave it to you. He must want you to contact him later, but you canât even begin to understand why. It canât have been something you said or did, right? Unless, heâs actuallyâ
âLater!â Gojoâs voice cuts through your thoughts and you notice him walking off with a wave.
You canât let him get away.
Again.
You crush the receipt in your hand and rush after him. Despite the crowd, Gojo seems to move through the people with ease and it almost seems like they are yielding to him naturally. Itâs good for you. Makes him easier to chase.
âWait!â you yell, but Gojo doesnât even look back. Bastard. Your muscles strain as you try to run faster. You know you wonât be able to grab him if you get to him, but there has to still be something you can do to stop him. Circle around him? Cut him off before heâ
Satoru Gojo reaches the barricade.
âWait!â you yell again. âSatoru Gojo, wait!â
He does not even acknowledge you.
Youâre almost there though. Almost. If you reach out your hand, then maybe, maybe you can grab him. Something in your head tells you that itâs useless; youâve never been able to touch him. But, you donât care, you donât care because you have to try. You stretch out your hand, desperate and hoping, but just as you do, Gojo effortlessly jumps over the barricade, moving to survey the crowd.
Due to your momentum, you almost collide into the barricade, but you manage to stop yourself. You stare at Satoru Gojo through the glass. He watches the crowd for at most three minutes. Is this just another bust? Is there really nothing you can do? There must be a way you can get his attention. Is it possible to climb over the barricade? No, itâs too high. Thereâs nothing you can grasp onto or use as footing either.
This fucking sucks.
Another minute or two and Gojo will be on the move again, and there will be no way you can follow, no way you can get his attention. You press your hands against the glass, pushing against it. Naturally, it doesnât budge. Why would it? If only you could get it out of the way. If only you could break it. This stupid barricade is the only thing between you and Satoru Gojo and thereâs no way you can climb it, but if only you could break it.
If only you could fucking break it.
Suddenly, the glass feels warm. Satoru Gojoâs image starts to look a little distorted as the warmth beneath your fingers grows. Something is happening. The glass starts to vibrate and shake. Violently. The tremors grow stronger and stronger. You should stop. You should back away.
You donât.
The barricade starts to crack and fracture and soon the sound of shattering glass resounds throughout the entire room. Everyone starts screaming. No one knows whatâs going onâ not even you. But you donât care. Itâs gone. The barricade is gone.
You take a step forward, toward Satoru Gojo. Heâs on a beam thatâs about a two meter drop from where youâre standing. Thatâs fine. Thatâs okay. You can make it. You have to. Without a second thought, you jumpâ
And you land on the beam. You look up and Satoru Gojoâs attention is back on you. Heâs finally, finally turned toward you, face twisted into an expression you canât decipher or even comprehend, butâ
Somethingâs wrong; your world is turning on its axis, butâ
Satoru Gojo is looking at you, andâ
Up is very quickly becoming down, andâ
Satoru Gojo is coming closer, butâ
Youâre slippingâ
But heâs right there, andâ
Youâre falling, butâ
Heâs trying to catch you, butâ
Itâs too late. Itâs too late.
The last thing you think you feelâ
âis Satoru Gojoâs arms around you.
Itâs October 31, 2018â Halloween in Shibuya.
And you are causing a commotion.
âShit! Fuck!â you curse loudly. The people near you start to shift away but you barely notice; you donât really care.
You were so close, so fucking close and yet⌠yet here you are again. Itâs quarter past eight and you are back on the goddamn platform. You donât know what happened; you remember falling and thinking you were going to die, but you are absolutely certain that, once again, this time, you didnât die.
Is Satoru Gojo at fault again? Did he do something? Like he did all those other times you looped without dying? When you think about it more, you donât think so. You donât know what happened; all you know is that you tried to get to him, but you slipped.
And he caught you, you definitely remember that.
You still donât understand why you looped, but thereâs not much you can do about it now; itâs not like you can go back anymore. It just sucks, because you think he might have actually listened if youâd talked to him.
Or he would have come after you for⌠whatever happened with the barricade. It could have been taken as an attack on the crowd⌠But if he thought you were doing that, then why would he catch you?
You donât know.
All you know is that you have to try again.
The only problem is that you donât know how you managed to shatter the barricade. You think about it as you make your way up to where youâll find Satoru Gojo. There is the possibility that it wasnât you and something else happened to it instead, but that feels way too coincidental. It had to be you. Thatâs the only thing that makes sense. You just canât figure out how you did it outside of wanting, wishing, praying for the barricade to break. Itâs not like you have supernatural powers like Satoru Gojo and his enemies.
Despite your mind being completely and wholly occupied by trying to figure out how in the world you managed to break through that barricade, you still manage to make it to the second basement floor of Shibuya Hikarie by 8:25PMâ a brand new record. Satoru Gojo doesnât show up until around 8:34PM, so that gives you almost ten minutes to try and figure out what you need to do to try and replicate shattering the glass barricade again.
Exceptâ
Except Satoru Gojo is already here.
The thought that maybe youâre mistaken flashes in your mind before itâs quickly dismissed; thereâs no way youâd mistake anyone else for him. There is absolutely no denying it: that is Satoru Gojo. Bewildered, you double check the time on your phone. Maybe you misread it and youâre actually late but sure enough you read it rightâ Satoru Gojo is here early.
What the hell is going on?
Of the thousands of times you have experienced this night, this hell, this sort of thing has never happened before. Everything happens at a specific time, as if adhering to an unseen schedule. Itâs likely that what happened in your last iteration did delay Satoru Gojoâs arrival onto the platform, but other than that there has never been a deviation to the time table.
And yet, here Satoru Gojo is, nine minutes early now.
You realize that thatâs not the only thing thatâs strange: heâs not moving. In previous rounds, when you encounter Gojo here, heâs walking to the lookout spot beyond the barricade. But, right now, heâs just standing there, hands stuffed in the pockets of his jacket. It almost looks like he's waiting for something.
Or someone.
This unexpected turn of events has you rooted to the spot. Youâre not sure what you should do. No. This shouldnât change anything. You need to talk to him. As concerning as a change like this is, the extra time it gives you should be a good thing. Despite knowing that, your feet are still firmly planted to the ground.
The crowd shifts and you see Satoru Gojo start to move. Toward the barricade? No. Heâs not heading in his usual direction, rather heâsâ
You stop breathing.
Heâs headed toward you.
All sound stops: the crowd around you, the thoughts in your head, the beat of your heart. Even though you cannot see them through that blindfold of his, you know that Satoru Gojoâs eyes are on you and the thought of that, the knowledge of it is absolutely mind numbing.
He comes to a stop before you, lips curled up to form an amused sort of smile as he says, âSoooo, you needed to talk to me?â
You try to answer but no words come out of your mouth. Are you dreaming? You have to be, right? There's no way that this is actually happening. Could it be that, after thousands of loops, youâve finally lost it? Your mind shattering along with the glass of the barricade at the end of the last one?
Gojo tilts his head, indicating that he's still waiting for an answer. When you open your mouth, at first, nothing comes out, the words stuck in your throat. You force them out, your voice cracking, â...how did you know?â
He smiles, looking almost mischievous as he reaches up and lightly taps the side of his head. âI remembered, of course!â
All you can do is stare at Satoru Gojo. He remembered? How is that possible? From his perspective, this is the first time youâve met and while it shouldnât be possible for him to remember thereâs something in your mind thatâs keeping you from completely dismissing the possibility.
Gojo laughs, âI take it from the look on your face that youâre not used to this sort of thing happening. Is this the first time?â
âNo.â The fact that the word is out of your mouth before you can even really think about it surprises you and you really have to think. Your face scrunches together as you try to remember. Is this really not the first time? Then, the memories assault you, overlapping as they replay simultaneously in your headâ a woman in a yellow and white magical girl costumeâ begging you for help as she burns to deathâ smiling as she tells you she made her costume herself. â...it happened just once a long time ago.â
ââA long time ago,â huh. Sounds like you've been at this for a while now.â
â...unfortunately.â
Gojo hums. âSo when you said you didnât need my phone numberâŚâ
âYouâd already given it to me a few times,â you say, figuring thatâs where this conversation is going.
âReally now?â
Does he not believe you? Or is he just being an ass? Youâre not sure, but since you had taken the liberty of memorizing Satoru Gojoâs phone number you recite it back to him to prove your point.
Just when you think you may have stunned Gojo into silence he starts to laugh, obviously finding something funny about the fact that you know his cell phone number. âSeems like you've got quite the fascinating technique there.â
Technique? What is he talking about? Your confusion must be plain on your face because he adds, elaborating, âThe time travel.â
You continue to stare at him. You don't think you'd consider what you've been going through time travel, because traveling implies moving from point A to point B, but you've been stuck walking in circles at point A for a long time. What really gets you is⌠âWhat do you mean by âtechnique?ââ
âYou mean you donâtâ oh. I get it; no wonder youâre trapped.â
That does not answer your question in the slightest. âCan you please explain what you're talking about? What do you mean by âtechnique?ââ
âRight, right⌠So basically, a technique is like a special sort of power,â he finally explains. âLike I said, your technique seems to be a kind of time travel. Whenever you activate it, your mind is sent back in time.â
What he's saying makes sense, but⌠âHow come you were sent back too?â
He laughs again. âIsn't it obvious? Think back to beforeâ do you remember that I caught you as you were falling?â
You nod slowly. The memory of his arms around you is almost embarrassingly vivid. â...is it because we were touching?â
âDing, ding, ding! That's correct! Anyone you happen to be touching when you activate your technique gets affected by it too!â
Something about his tone annoys you, but you try to ignore it. He could have just told you rather than make you guess. âHow do you know that for sure?â
âWell,â he continues. âYouâve done your little time loop a bunch of times, right? If your technique affected everyone, or even a few people in a select range you would have noticed for sure. And if it affected only just you then we wouldnât be having this conversation right now, now would we?â
When you think about it, you do think that the woman in the magical girl costume might have bumped into you before the loop where she remembered.
âThatâs honestly just conjecture, but I've got pretty good eyes, so Iâm hardly ever wrong.â
Gojo gives you a grin and while you do think that his reasoning is sound enough his confidence is a little grating. More than that, though, youâre glad that this conversation is actually going really well.
âEither way,â he says thoughtfully. âIt doesnât look like you can control your technique. Usually a personâs technique manifests when theyâre a kid, but you seem to be a special case⌠in fact, I bet your technique activated for the very first time tonightâ probably under some pretty extreme circumstances, too.â
â...dying counts as an âextreme circumstance,â right?â
âOh, absolutely. Or legitimately thinking that youâre gonna die, but it seems like your body has been unconsciously activating your technique as a sort of defense mechanism. Which is why youâre trapped.â
âSo, if I could control it Iâd be able to make it out of this time loop.â
âYeah, but in this case it probably wouldnât end very well for you,â he points out with a chuckle. âItâs not like you actually want to die, right? I mean, if you did, then your technique wouldnât even activate in the first place.â
You donât; what you want is for this night to finally end. To be free from the endless cycle of dying over and over again and again. You donât think death is quite the answer; even if you were to learn how to control this supposed technique of yours, thereâs no guarantee that you would just unconsciously activate it when the grim reaper comes knocking on your door. No, the answer isâŚ
âAnyway!â Gojoâs cheery voice cuts through your thoughts. âI highly doubt that youâre the type that makes a habit of jumping off ledges for the funsies, so the fact that youâve been dying tells me that some pretty gruesome stuff is about to go down, so, tell me what happens tonight.â
The sudden drop of his voice sends a shiver running down your spine. If it werenât for the fact that youâve seen how serious Gojo can get, the sudden shift in demeanor would probably freak you out a bit, but it doesnât. This is the Satoru Gojo youâre familiar with.
You do have one concern though. âThat⌠wonât create a time paradox or anything, will it?â
âNah,â Gojo shrugs. âYou wouldnât cause one with the way your technique works, besides, if youâve only been going back at most an hour or two in time itâs hard to believe youâd be making a really big impact⌠unless you really believe in the butterfly effect.â
Youâre still not quite sure.
âTrust me, itâll be fine.â
His voice sounds strange. Gentle. Kind. It's the most soothing thing you've heard in a long time and it makes you want to believe him.
â...okay.â
Anxiety is still gripping at you, but you try to dispel it, taking a deep breath before beginning your explanation. For the sake of brevity, itâs probably best that youâre as concise as possible. There isnât much need to really get into the nitty gritty of things unless he asks specifically.
Naturally, you begin with his arrival onto the platform and how soon after a fight breaks out and how the crowd is unfortunate enough to be involved. Gojoâs expression is passive for the most part, but he does crack the faintest hint of a smile when you mention how he manages to eviscerate one of the monsters.
It disappears once you tell him about the arrival of the train. Between the dozens upon dozens of people being dropped onto the platform by those two high school girls and the hoard of monsters disembarking from the train, everything devolves into pandemonium.
âWait,â Gojo holds a hand up and you pause. This is his first interruption since you started recounting the nightâs events for him. âEveryone is able to see the monsters?â
You stare at him. What a weird question. â...yeah?â
His mouth twists and it looks like heâs thinking about something. You canât even begin to imagine what. Finally, he comments, âMakes sense.â
It does not, but you donât ask him to elaborate. Surely if it was important he would have just done so.
âAnyway, in the middle of all that, you⌠you do something.â Your brows bunch together as you remember the stance Gojo took, the crazed and desperate look in his eyes, the feeling of your head about to explode. âI donât know how to describe it. At first, it would just force me to⌠activate my technique, I guess. But now, it just knocks me out for a few minutes.â
Gojo frowns and he rubs at his chin, obviously thinking about what youâve said. Eventually, he raises a hand and bends his fingers into a familiar gesture. Itâs the one that preludes whatever he does on the platform. âDo I do this?â
âYeah.â
He hums. âInteresting.â
You wait to see if heâll explain. He doesnât. Great. Even if he doesnât think you need to know, it certainly would be nice to. Itâs annoying otherwise, but you ignore the feeling and continue. âI canât tell you what happens when Iâm knocked out, but when I come to everyone is basically a zombie and all the monsters from the train are gone. I think you kill them.â
âI probably do,â he says casually. âBut what about Volcano Head?â
â...you don'tâŚget a chance to kill him,â you say slowly. Gojo tilts his head, waiting for you to elaborate, but you hesitate. You have to tell him, you know you do, butâŚ
You have seen the interaction so many times and though you don't know the exact nature of the relationship between them, you can tell that seeing Suguru Geto (or rather seeing his body) shook Satoru Gojo to his very core.
There's no doubt in your mind that he will not take this news well.
âCome on now,â Gojo's tone is light-hearted, unaware. âDon't keep me in suspense here.â
It's as if you're withholding the punchline to a joke. In a way, you suppose you are, but you don't think he's going to find it funny.
You take a deep breath. You need to tell him. The worst thing that could happen is that he doesn't believe you, but if that's the case⌠you'll probably just end up repeating this all again until you find a loop where he does.
Having made it this far, you'd like to avoid all that.
âBefore you can get Volcano Head you get restrained by something called the prison realm,â you say slowly, âby someone calling themselves⌠Suguru Geto.â
The second the name leaves your mouth, there is a clear and obvious shift in the air. Gone is Gojoâs laid-back and frivolous demeanor, replaced with something more somber and almost frightening. The tension grows more and more palpable to the point that you think it might almost choke you.
You almost wish that it would.
âYou canât be serious,â Gojo finally says, once your words have fully sunk in.
âIââ You start to speak, but come to an abrupt stop when you see him shove his hand into his pocket to yank out his phone of all things.
The both of you know full well that thereâs no reception here, but you donât think that heâs planning on making any calls. Gojo scrolls and scrolls on his phone before he stops and shoves the screen in your face. It shows a picture of three peopleâ a teenage girl with a cigarette in her mouth, a younger, happier version of Gojo sporting a pair of round sunglasses andâ
âWhen you say âGetoâ is this who youâre referring to?â Gojo demands, using his other hand to point at the third person in the frameâ a handsome young man with long dark hair pulled up into a bun.
âYes, butââ
âThatâs impossible. It canât be him,â Gojo interrupts, his voice firm, cold even. âHeâs dead.â
Thereâs a note of finality in his words that is definitely meant to leave no room for argument. It doesnât stop you, though. Instead, you glare at Gojoâs stupid blindfold and say, â...being dead doesnât mean a damn thing! Iâve died hundreds of times and yet Iâm still fucking here, butââ
âYour situation is different,â he interjects, the temperature of his tone hiking up, his words like heated hissing. âI killed him almost a year ago. There's no wayââ
âYou didn't get rid of the body properly!â You cut him off, raising your voice in hopes that he'll take even just a second to stop and listen. It seems to work and you add something you remember âGetoâ saying. âYou should have had Shoko Ieiri get rid of it, but you didnât and now some⌠some kind of gross brain thing is possessing the corpse!â
The air between you both is silent as the grave. Though you can't see it, you can feel the weight of his gaze pressing down on you. Heâs definitely having second thoughts about everything youâve said so far. Thereâs a chance he might even think youâre his enemy now. You stare him down though, refusing to look away. Youâve made it this far, you canâtâ you wonât back down.
â...youâre not lying, are you.â Gojoâs words are more of a statement than a question. Thereâs no doubt in your mind that he knows the answer, and yet heâs still asking. You wonder if maybe heâs clinging onto some vain hope that maybe, just maybe this all a sick, cruel joke thatâs gone way too far.
âIâm not.â
Gojo holds your gaze for a second longer before he lets out a curse. âFuck!â
â...Iâm sorry,â you say quietly, mostly because it feels like the most correct thing to say at this moment. You donât know the whole story, but it seems like they were close. If so, then it must have hurt Gojo a lot to have killed him, and must hurt even more to know that someone is desecrating the body. You hate that you, a complete and utter stranger, happened to be the person to tell him, butâŚ
It had to be done, for the sake of getting past this unending night, it had to be done.
Gojo runs a hand through his hair and lets out a ragged sigh. âOkay. What happens after that?â
You give him a rundown of what follows; he gets sealed, the monsters wake up and all but âGetoâ leave in search of their next target. When you mention the high school girls demanding the brain give Getoâs body back, Gojo snorts loudly.
âFat chance of that,â he says derisively.
You nod in agreement. It was clear to you that the brain parasite has no intent on giving it up any time soon. âAfter they leave, he⌠talks to me.â
âProbably couldn't ignore all that cursed energy you have,â Gojo remarks offhandedly.
You stare at him, expression twisted in a way that shows that you have absolutely no clue what that means. It should be fine for you to ask this one question; it actually concerns you after all. âWhat does that even mean?â
âExactly what it sounds like, though⌠probably doesn't make much sense to you, does it?â
You give him a pointed glare and all Gojo does is laugh.
âJust think of it like having a lot of MP.â
â...Like in a video game?â
âExactly!â Then, Gojo tilts his head, clearly thinking. You don't bother asking; you don't feel like he'll explain.
âHe does ask me if I'm a sorcerer, whatever that is. Is that why?â
âProbably. Ordinary people don't have even a fraction of the energy you're packing.â
âOrdinary peopleâ he says as if youâre not an ordinary person who got caught up in all this supernatural sorcery bullshit. Or at least you were, but if the time loops are really a product of your own doingâŚ
âDoes he kill you when you answer?â Gojo asks to get the conversation back on track.
âNot right away. What happens next kind of varies,â you answer. âHe usually lets me have a question or two before he kills me; I've asked him a couple different things.â
âReally taking advantage, arenât you?â Gojo says and you're not sure what to make of his tone. Is he mocking you or is he easing back into that laid-back persona of his?
âIf Iâm doomed to repeat the same situation over and over, I might as well make the most of it,â you respond flatly.
âYou know, your technique kind of reminds me of save scumming.â
Heâs definitely gone back to acting almost completely unseriousâ all signs of his earlier agitation are nearly gone.
âSo what did you learn?â
âWell, the prison realm only holds one occupant. Once theyâre sealed, time stops for them and the only way out is if the bearer unseals them or if they choose to kill themselves.â
âI see⌠And what about our body jacker?â
âHe didnât go into detail but he said something about⌠striving toward the evolution of mankind?â You frown a little at the memory. He didnât explain further because he said that you wouldnât understand.
âHuh. Interesting. Wonder how he was gonna go about doing that.â
âI don't know, but I can't imagine you'd like it since he goes out of his way to seal you into that box,â you say. âSaid youâd get in the way because youâre too strong.â
Gojo shrugs his shoulders and grins a little. Cocky. âWell, I am the strongest sorcerer around, you know.â
You would think him overconfident if you hadn't seen the magnitude of his strength first hand.
âAnyway, that's as far as I ever go. When he's decided heâs done talking to me, he kills me and I loop back.â
âSo, in short, what you want help with is getting past that point, right?â
âMore or less.â
âAnd all I have to do is avoid getting caught by the prison realm?â
You nod.
âWhatâs it look like?â he asks. âA big cage with a bunch of metal bars?â
Now that you think about it, you havenât woken up early enough to see it before it traps him, but you canât imagine it looks that much different. âNo.. Itâs a small box with eyes⌠It gets big enough to fit you in it, though.â
âHuh.â He stretches his arms out above his head as if heâs trying to emphasize how large he actually is and shoots you a grin. âShould be easy enough then. I bet our body snatcher used the shock of seeing Suguru to trap me but since I'll see it coming, avoiding it'll be a piece of cake.â
Gojo makes it sound so easy, and maybe it really is as simple as that, but you can't help but be worried still.
âDon't tell me you don't think I can do it,â he says, tilting his head.
âIt's not that,â you admit. âI'm just concerned I might die before we can get to that point.â
Truthfully, since you know that will just result in another loop you're less concerned with dying itself and more worried about losing the progress you've made in convincing Gojo to help you. Even though it's been clearly proven you can loop him as well, there's no guarantee you'll be able to make the physical contact needed to do it upon death.
âYou've made it pretty far on your own, though, right?â
âYeah, but⌠Iâve messed up plenty of times.â More than you can even count. âThere's also the possibility that taking the time to talk to you might have thrown things out of whack.â
Speaking of time, you check your phone. It's 8:39PM. You curse.
Gojo leans over to check your phone. âLet me guess, I'm supposed to be somewhere right now.â
âYeah, this is when youâre descending down onto the platform.â
âYou know where I am down to the exact minute?â He asks and you tilt your head back and forth a little. Itâs not exact per se, but itâs close enough. Gojo chuckles a little. âMan, I didnât realize that you were actually that into me.â
That earns Gojo a glare from you, but he just laughs it off. âI doubt being a few minutes late is going to make a big difference.â
You certainly hope so.
âDon't worry,â Gojo says and you notice he's using that tone from earlier. âYou won't die.â
Itâs hard to argue with him when he uses such a reassuring sounding voice and yet, you still open your mouth to tryâ to voice your doubts, but what he says next silences you before you even can.
âI'll protect you.â
You think your heart stops beating in your chest and your words dissolve in your throat.
He grins at you. âDid you fall in love with me just now?â
That catches you a little off guard. You're willing to admit he's hot, but surely he must be joking. âHow could you even think of something like that at a time like this?â
Gojo laughs again. âWell, since someone is so worried about their time table being all messed up, I better head down there; canât keep Volcano Head and friends waiting, right?â
You blink. Is that it? âWait, shouldnât we make a plan or something?â
âIsnât the plan for me to not get caught in the prison realm?â
Yes, but⌠âBut what about me? Is there anything I can do?â
Gojo stares at you, or at least you think he does. â...I donât know, is there?â
Youâve seen the encounter between Satoru Gojo and those monsters so many times and you try to picture a version of it where you intervene and⌠all you can see is yourself getting in his way. Youâre no fighter, no⌠sorcerer, or whatever he is, youâre just some ordinary person that was unfortunate enough to get all caught up in this mess. The most you can probably do is kick the prison realm out of the way when the time comes, but otherwise⌠â...no, I guess not.â
His expression turns sympathetic. âYouâve done plenty by telling me everything that happens. So just wait up here, and let me handle the monsters.â
You almost nod. Almost. But then you remember what transpires up here above the platform. You know it sounds safer up here where youâre less likely to get involved in the carnage, but⌠âWait, no, if I stay up here then Iâll fall to my death when those girlsââ
Gojo laughs, interrupting you. âDonât worry about that. Itâll be fine.â
âHow?â
âJust trust me.â
âIâŚâ Itâs hard to. After everything youâve gone through itâs hard to trust in anything, to believe in anything. Even though youâve made it this far this time, the worry that something will go wrong and that youâll have to do it all again still lurks in the back of your mind.
Despite all that, you want to believe.
You want to believe that you can make it past this unending night, that one day youâll wake up and itâll no longer be October 31, 2018. And the first step towards that is trusting in Satoru Gojo.
â...okay,â you say quietly. âOkay.â
Gojo chuckles then asks, âAnything else before I head off?â
You start to ask if thereâs anything you should say, in case things donât work out, but you stop yourself. Youâre choosing to trust him, to believe in himâ you can figure out that stuff later if things end up going south after all. So, instead you give him a smile and it feels a little weird because you donât remember the last time you did. âGood luck!â
For a split second, Gojo looks almost surprised, but then he laughs again, beaming widely at you. He starts to move past you and reaches out to give you what you think is meant to be a reassuring squeeze of the shoulder and then heâs off. You turn to watch him go, the crowd, once again, parting almost naturally for him.
When he reaches the barricade, he pauses, raising his hand as if heâs giving you one last wave. Then he jumps over it onto his little perch and then less than a minute later heâs gone, descending to the platform below.
Now, all you can do is wait.
You check your phone again and itâs 8:44PM. If you remember correctly, the high school girls start threatening everyone right before 9PM. With Gojoâs arrival being shifted back almost five minutes, does that mean that theyâll be shifted back too? It would make sense, but youâre not too sure.
Out of habit, you keep checking your phone and at nearly 9PM, you hear the shrill voice of one of the girls over the crowd, commanding everyone to do what she says, her partner stringing up bodies until everyone listens. Everything plays out just as you remember it, which is mildly comforting, though you know that the events that happen up here are more or less independent from what happens below.
Surely, just as Gojo said, a few minutes arenât going to change anything, butâ
No.
You agreed to trust him. To trust that everything would be fine.
When the girls start to demand that as many people as possible climb onto the roots and vines covering the atrium your heart starts to hammer in your chest. In just a few minutes, all the foliage will disintegrate beneath you, and you and everyone else here will fall into the abyss below.
You are afraid.
There isnât a single loop where youâve really survived this fall. If you donât die in midair, you die right after landing. Itâs a death trap, and thatâs why youâve stopped coming up here. Thereâs a part of you, the part that knows whatâs about to happen, that wants to try and run back onto stable footing. But you canât, because you know if you do then the girls will kill you for sure; you have to stay.
Itâll be fine, you tell yourself, itâll be okay.
You just have to trust Gojo.
An eight car train is pulling in. Please wait behind the yellow line.
You hear the announcement faintly below you. Itâs almost time. You brace yourself and try to stay calm. Gojo said he would protect you, that you wouldnât die. You donât know how he intends to keep that promise, but all you can do is believe in his words.
Itâll be fine. Itâll be okay.
The vines and roots start to crack and the ground beneath you starts to give out. You squeeze your eyes shut as that sickening weightless feeling overtakes you. It occurs to you that this is actually quite literally a trust fallâ will Satoru Gojo really be able to catch you?
As you fall, you realize almost instantly that something is different.
Youâve experienced this fall dozens of times and so, even though it has been a while since youâve gone this route, you are very familiar with what it feels like. Something is different. Youâre falling faster. The trajectory is changing. Itâs like some force, other than gravity, is pulling at you.
Is this Gojoâs doing?
Just as your body collides with the ground you hear the sounds of mutilating flesh meld with the screams surrounding you. Blood and severed limbs litter the ground, but you try to ignore it. You need to focus on your own survival right now. Quickly, you scramble to your feet scan the area around you; youâre on the platform right now and right in front of you isâ
Right in front of you is Satoru Gojo.
His back is turned to you, his focus currently elsewhere. Looking at him you realize you recognize this scene, though itâs much closer and at a different angle. Heâs about to do that thing, that thing that knocks you out.
Something in you tells you to move closer to him, after all, he used his mysterious powers to deliberately bring you closer to him, right? You rush toward him and as you do something he said earlier pops up in your mind.
Anyone you happen to be touching when you activate your technique gets affected by it too!
Whatever heâs about to do⌠Is that his âtechnique?â And if it is, would it work the same way as yours? If so, thereâs only one way to find out: you need to touch him. You dodge monsters and other people as you run toward Satoru Gojo andâ
A monster still manages to grab you, its large hands wrapping around your wrist. You try and yank it free, but it's much stronger than you are.
âShit!â you hiss as the monster starts to pull you toward it and away from Gojo. What do you do? Your other hand is still free, should you try to punch it in the face? Orâ
Before you can do anything, something blasts the monsterâs head clean off. Shocked, you stare as the monsterâs body slumps onto the ground, its grip loosening on you instantly. You whip your head around to find that while Gojo still has his back to you, his arm is bent back in your direction, his palm open as if he fired some invisible blast from it.
Then you feel it again, something pulling at you, but this time it's more forceful. Your body is yanked toward Gojo and the second you feel his hand press against you, you see him make that gesture with his other hand.
âDomain Expansion,â he whispers in a strained voice. âInfinite Void!â
Something happens and your vision flashes for a fraction of a second. And thenâ
The room is enveloped in an eerie stillness; all the violence and bloodshed coming to an abrupt stop. Monsters and humans alike stand like the living dead, unconscious with their eyes wide open as if they are staring into an infinite abyss. You recognize this scene, youâre familiar with it because itâs similar to the one you wake up to after being hit by Gojoâs âdomain expansion.â The only difference is the presence of the monsters, who are all but gone when you regain consciousness.
The pressure from Gojoâs hand is gone and he says to you, his voice still low. âIf youâre squeamish when it comes to blood and gore, it might be best for you to close your eyes.â
And then heâs gone.
You do not take his advice. You do not close your eyes. How many loops were you unable to witness whatâs about to unfold? A few hundred? A few thousand? And if all goes to plan, then you will never get another chance again: thereâs no way you could possibly look away.
And what you see unfold before you is that Satoru Gojo was right.
He is the one to kill all the monsters.
Itâs not as if you really had any doubt, after all, it seemed like the most logical conclusion to come to and yetâŚ
Thereâs a difference between knowing and seeing.
All the violence resumes and the platform is engulfed in the sounds of carnage and slaughter once more. The lack of terrified screams makes everything more disconcertingâ without them, all you can hear is the squelching echo of mangled flesh and blood splattering all over the place. You canât really see him, but you can tell where Satoru Gojo is in the crowd as he leaves dozens upon dozens of decapitated heads soaring in his wake. Once or twice, he leaps out of the crowd and even from where you stand you can see the crazed glow of his inhumanly blue eyes as he massacres monster after monster.
Even though you donât think you have anything to be scared of, you are still terrified: Satoru Gojo is no longer a man, but violence incarnate. You want to move closer to where Gojo gets trapped, but youâre afraid to. What if you get in his way? What if he kills you by accident?
Dying again when youâve made it this far is definitely not ideal, but isnât being killed by Gojo the best case scenario? Because then the two of you would probably loop together again andâ
No.
Gojo said you wouldnât die.
He said heâd protect you.
Itâs hard to believe when heâs in the middle of a massacre, slaughtering monsters left and right, but you remind yourself yet again that you have to believe in him.
You take a deep breath and start moving, taking care to keep an eye on where Gojo is. You donât know how long this is supposed to take, but you do know where he ends up when heâs just about done. The closer he gets to that spot, the sooner the prison realm will be unleashed upon him.
Thereâs a small group of zombified people nearby and you settle yourself among them. Itâs not super close, but you think it's close enough that you'd be able to run over and kick the box away from Gojo if you have to. You do a quick survey to see if you can spot the body snatcher, but he's nowhere to be found. Hopefully, he hasn't noticed you moving around, or, if he has, he's more concerned with Gojo than he is with you. Given that you always seem to be the last thing he acknowledges, you'd like to think that he doesn't consider you a threat.
Which you're not, not really anyway.
The sounds of slaughter start to die down and you look to see Gojo approaching the spot where he gets caught. He looks beat, his eyes unfocused and his breathing heavy. You do another quick scan around him and notice a small box a few meters away from him, wrapped in what looks like paper charms or seals or whatever they're called. That has to be the prison realmâ though it looks different than what you saw before. Gojo seems to notice it right after you do, his gaze honing in on it, examining it with some measure of bewilderment. Then, some invisible force slices through all the paper seals covering the box and it expands, the corners of the box floating up in midair to reveal what looks like a large sheet of dark red flesh with a large bloodshot eye stapled to the middle.
Disgusting.
If Gojo didnât realize before, he seems to now, because he takes a step back, away from the grotesque thing. Good, goodâ
âHey! Satoru!â Your blood runs cold at the sound of the body snatcherâs voice. He emerges from the crowd, smiling widely as he gives Gojo a wave. âLong time no see!â
Satoru Gojoâs entire body goes rigid. Shit. You told him, you warned him about what was going to happen, who he was going to see, but was that not enough? Itâs possible that no amount of warning would have been enough to mentally prepare Satoru Gojo for the sight of the man he said he killed a year ago. After all, you know that thereâs a stark difference between knowing and seeing. Even then, if Gojo doesnât gather his wits and move now then heâs going to get caught and you canât let that happen.
Your body moves before you can even think about it.
You scramble out from your hiding spot in the crowd and throw yourself in between Satoru Gojo and the prison realm. Thereâs no way you can kick it away from him now, not when itâs in this form, but maybe, if you get between them you can at least keep it from capturing him.
The eye quivers erratically, as it flits from Gojo to you. Every hair on your body stands on end as it watches you, the pupil dilating and contracting uncontrollably. You canât look away from it, your own gaze fixed to your image reflected in the black abyss of the pupil. Something in the back of your mind tells you to stop, to get away, itâs dangerous, but you keep your feet firmly planted to the ground.
A second, or maybe even a minute passes and the prison realm shifts, its fleshy form morphing to restrain you.
The body jacker looks at you, his frown tinged with disgust. âDonât you think youâre being rather rude by butting into what could have been a touching reunion?â
You scowl. Is he still trying to play the role of Suguru Geto?
He sighs and looks past you at Gojo. âSatoru, I thought bringing lesser sorcerers to fight alongside you was more trouble than it was worth?â
You hear Gojo snort from behind you, âIt is⌠but this person here isnât a sorcerer⌠Just like you arenât Suguru Geto.â
The faker almost pouts and presses his hand to his chest as if Gojo's words have wounded him. âSatoru, Iâm hurt, how could you say such a thing to your best friend?â
âCut the bullshit,â Gojo snarls. âYou canât fucking fool me. You might be in Suguruâs body but I know with all my heart and soul that youâre not him.â
The corpse snatcher stares at Gojo, expression blank before he sighs once more. Then, his gaze shifts back to you, his eyes narrowed as he looks at you with sheer disdain. It feels as if youâve been drenched in ice cold water. There's no smile this time but you already know what's going to happen.
Heâs going to kill you.
âI intended to deal with you later since you seemed harmless enough,â he says, raising a hand to summon a monsterâ the same one he always uses to end your life. âBut youâre in the way. So, I think itâs for the best if I just get rid of you right now.â
Instinctively, you try to take a step back but the prison realmâs restraints keep you in place. Not that it would have mattered much, even in the loops where youâve tried to escape the fakerâs monster, it still kills you, too fast and too agile for an ordinary human like you to avoid. All you can do is squeeze your eyes shut and wait for the monster to kill you. At least, itâs always painless.
Something touches your back.
Your eyes shoot open.
Before you is the monster, wiggling and writhing only mere centimeters from your face. It gurgles and snarls at you, desperate to fulfill its masterâs wishes and kill you but it doesnât move any closer. You stare at it with wide eyes, unsure of what to do.
Someone behind you clicks their tongueâ Gojo. You try to turn your head to look at him, but your movements are too limited, the most you can do is turn your head to the side. The sounds the monster is making start to change, sounding more frenzied, almost as if itâs in pain, and you flit your eyes in its direction just in time to see its entire body explode. The monster's guts and bright purple blood fly off in every direction, getting on the floor, the ceiling, the zombified bodies of the people unfortunate enough to be nearby, but not on you.
This is Satoru Gojoâs doing.
He steps in front of you, half turned towards you as he moves in between you and the body snatcher. His hands are shoved in his pockets as he loudly says, âDid you really forget about me?â
Youâre not sure if heâs talking to you or the body snatcher.
Past him, the imposter scowls, raising his hand once more, probably to summon even more monsters, but Gojoâs quicker, and it almost looks like his eyes are glowing even brighter, the blue looking almost white as he whips his head in the fakerâs direction. The sound of mangling flesh and breaking bones echoes throughout the room as Gojo, using that mysterious power of his, seems to break the fakerâs arm.
The body snatcher hisses loudly and despite the fact that his face is twisted in very obvious pain, he tries to shoot Gojo a mocking smile. âDo you really think you can kill your best friend again?â
âI already told you,â Gojo turns to fully face the monster inhabiting Getoâs corpse. He tilts his head a little to the side and some force starts to squeeze at the fakerâs neck. âYouâre not Suguru.â
You hear a loud crack as Gojo telekinetically snaps his neck.
The head rolls onto the ground and you almost look away, but then you notice his eyes still moving, looking around. Is he still alive? Then you remember: the thing possessing Suguru Getoâs body was some kind of parasite. âGojo! Wait! The brain!â
He reacts almost instantly, head turning and in an instant the skull is crushed and all that remains is red splotch on the ground.
You almost relax. Almost.
But the body is still standing.
Horrified, you watch as it quivers violently before falling to the ground. Then what looks like dozens of black spirits start to erupt from the corpse and the entire room is engulfed with a shrill howling.
What the hell is going on?
âThose must be all the cursed spirits he consumed,â Gojo explains uselessly, voice barely audible over the screaming. âGuess he was empty before.â
You donât bother asking what he means. There are bigger problems right now. âWhat do we do?â
âNo choice to exorcise them,â he answers plainly.
For him to exorcise them, he means. You both know that thereâs not much that you can do. You still canât move and honestly, you donât even know if itâs possible to get out of the prison realmâs restraints. Not without dying. And if you die nowâŚ
Everything will have been for naught.
Youâll reset time and have to do this all over againâ assuming you can even get to this point again.
There has to be something, you just have to think outside the box.
Or ratherâ
âGojo!â
He glances back at you.
âYou need to seal me in the prison realm!â you exclaim. He turns to face you fully, looking bewildered and you start to explain as fast as you can. âThose things are going to attack any minute right? I canât move or try to hide and I canât expect you to protect me the entire time and if I die then Iâll end up looping time again, butâ but, if you seal me in the prison realm then that wonât happen.â
Gojo frowns, looking conflicted. âYou donât think I can do it?â
âWouldn't it be easier if you didnât have to?â
He tilts head and you think heâs conceding your point.
âPlease,â you beg, staring at him desperately. âWe donât have much time. The other⌠cursed spirits will wake up soon too!â
You donât have to explain that you mean Volcano Head and friends.
It takes only a second for Gojo to consider the very few options you have. â...how do you seal it? Do you know?â
âI think so,â you answer. âThereâs no guarantee itâll work but I think that if you say âprison realm, gate closeâ it should seal me inside.â
If anything, itâs worth a shot.
Gojo nods. âDo you know how to break the seal?â
âI⌠donât,â you confess. You never asked, and you donât think the body snatcher would have told you even if you did. He only told you that it holds one and thatâŚ
That time doesnât flow in the box.
â...you donât have to break the seal.â
Gojo frowns, âWait a secââ
âEven if I make it past tonight⌠What if this all happens again? What if I inadvertently trap myself in another time loop?â you ask. âI⌠I donât want to have to go through all of this again. Itâs better for me in a place where time doesnât pass.â
You donât know for sure if itâll be better, but right here, right now, it seems like the best option.
It feels like an eternity passes before Gojo says anything.
â...fine,â he agrees and you donât quite know how to feel about it. The howling around you all grows louder. You wonder why the cursed spirits havenât attacked yet. Maybe Gojoâs power is holding them at bay⌠for now anyway. You both know that he canât ignore them forever.
â...before I do, though, mind if I ask you just one thing?â
You blink. âNot sure what I can do for you in this stateâŚâ
He laughs. âI just want to know your name.â
What an odd request. Though, now that you think about it, you donât think that during this loop or any other loop really, youâve ever told him your name. It only seems fair to tell him, since youâve known his for longer than heâs known of your existence.
You tell him your name.
He nods, looking as if heâs committing to memory. Probably easier to remember than his phone number. âAny last words?â
You try to think of something. Nothing comes to mind and you just shake your head.
Gojo takes a deep breath, âAlrighty then⌠Prison realm, gate close.â
Just as it did the many times youâve seen Satoru Gojo sealed away, the boxes and restraints around you vibrate a little before they start to close around you, growing large enough to fit your body as they approach.
You wonât see it, but once youâre inside the box will shrink and become small enough to fit in the palm of someoneâs hand.
Will it be quiet inside?
In your final seconds, some words, some last words come to mind, and you say them, hoping that he hears them in time. âThank you, Satoru Gojo.â
You burn the glittering glow of his brilliant bright blue eyes into your mind.
And then, everything is engulfed in an unending black.
Itâs November 30, 2018â morning on the campus of Tokyo Prefectural Jujutsu High School.
Satoru Gojo strides through the school grounds, casually tossing a small silver box with eerie blue eyes known as the prison realm up and down in his grasp. Walking at his side is Shoko Ieiri, a pretty woman whoâs been unfortunate enough to have been Satoruâs friend since high school.
âAre you sure this is a good idea?â Shoko asks, twirling a few strands of her long brown hair.
âWhat do you mean?â Satoru responds nonchalantly. âAll my ideas are good ideas.â
Shoko hums in clear dissent, but doesnât say anything more. Even she knows better than to try and waste her time trying to argue with Satoru. âIâm just worried about their mental state. Didnât you say that time doesnât flow in the box?â
âIâd be worried if it was some normal person,â Satoru says. âBut after what theyâve gone through I think theyâll be fine.â
â...well, if you say so.â
The two arrive at their destination: the largest training area on the Jujutsu High grounds. Satoru places the prison realm at the center and takes a few steps back with Shoko standing behind him, in case anything happens.
He doesnât think it will, but itâs always good to take at least a few precautions.
âGojo, are you sure we should be doing this?â Shoko asks again. âDidnât they want to remain in the box?â
âOf course I am,â Satoru says with his usual air of confidence before looking back at the prison realm nestled in the grass. He grins and thenâ
âPrison realm, gate open.â
if you made it this far. thank you. it's my sincerest hope that you enjoyed the ride. 3
#OHHHHHHHH MY GOD.#okokokok this is gonna be. Really Incoherent sorry in advance đđ niku this made meâŚâŚ insane. fully. someone needs to restrain me#one of my favorite gojo fics Ever??? like genuinely????? this was SUCH a pleasure to read i have sm i wanna say :((( hhhhhh#FIRST OF ALLL the higurashi poemâŚ. what a banger <33 i LOVE how it ties in with the ending too but more on that later :33#but itâs also so perfect bc reading this fic rlly did feel like playing a vn in the BEST way possibleâŚ. just. seeing all the tiny variation#experiencing the loops along w readerâŚâŚ it was just SUCH an enjoyable experience i canât even describe it!!!!!!!!! iâm so floored!!!!!!!!!!#like i ADORE timeloops itâs my favorite trope Ever and this fic was just . a godsend?? perfection??? the best loopfic ive read?????#IâM STILL GOING FULLY INSANE OVER IT BTW it satiated every single craving i have for timeloop content. my brain is leaking endorphins rn đľâ#i LOVE the opening lines and the constant reusage of âItâs the night of October 31 2018â Halloween in ShibuyaââŚâŚ just so satisfying somehow#and readerâs mental state was also so thoughtfully depicted⌠it was so easy to insert myself into them but theyâre also. rlly charming?#them latching onto gojo as the one anomaly of the timeloopâŚ. fixating on him and his beauty (real as fuck btw)âŚ. and searching for hope!!!#finding hope in gojo!!!! learning to trust him!!!!! :((( it feels kinda like a very twisted one-sided slowburn ⌠and i ate it up.#i also rlly like that itâs not explicitly romantic!!! thereâs enough subtext to enjoy a romance aspect but itâs not the Focus yk??#and i like that!!! the focus is on reader and the timeloop and both of those aspects are woven into gojo rlly naturally :>#ok so iâm using that as a segway. bc OFC i need to rant abt gojo fucking satoru and how much i love him and ur take on him đđ#every once in a while iâll find a fic where iâm like. this author knows Gojo Satoru personally. they speak to him on the phone every night.#and this fic is ABSOLUTELY one of those likeâŚ.. this gojo is Canon to me. iâm so serious abt it like thatâs HIM !!!#and it just reminded me of why i love him sm bc this rlly does feel exactly like the gojo from the manga and thatâs SO impressive 2 me âŚ.#iâm in awe of u niku. i donât even know where to begin w gojo bc i loved SO many lines and lil details u put inâŚâŚâŚ. đľâđŤđľâđŤ#heâs just. soooooo charming :/// he truly is. heâs beautiful and handsome and he gives you his number every loop . w a star symbol!!!!#asks you for your phone or a pen and gets all excited writing his name⌠the mochi receiptâŚ. 𼺠heâs so endearing we need to put him Down.#HEâS SO GOODDDDD I CANâT SAY IT ENOUGHâŚ. his convos with reader were a huge highlight for me and i loved loved LOVED#the moment he finally understands their situation. when they speak and he hears them out and heâs almost gentle. sooo reassuring.#starting to think youâre genuinely gege akutami btw like . gojo is so complex but you just. captured him perfectly???#heâs cocky and playful and teasing and a killing machine and heâs Kind. heâs playful even when youâre a stranger#and when he finally hears you out he speaks softly and says heâll protect you :((( reader is better than me i wouldâve cried LMAO#THE DIALOGUE IS SO GOOD N FEELS SO REAL âdid you fall in love with me just now?â NOOO âŚ.. âšď¸âšď¸âšď¸âšď¸ âŚ. (maybe âŚâŚ..)#ack. heâs the most charming man in the universe my heart was fluttering like crazy this isnât⌠normal human behaviorâŚâŚâŚ#WAIT i almost forgot âŚ. i too adore the jjk dub and every time gojo spoke i heard kaiji tang in my head <33 10/10 would recommend!!!#writing âŠ
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*dusting my hands off* WELL....THAT WAS.....HM
#dude this anime traumatized me its so good but its giving me.....bad ending vibes..#i think the cool animation & attractive characters are almost a distraction (DO I LOVE IT???? YEAH BUT): the tone of this whole story is..#how do i put it into words..it feels like its all ..meaningless. but that that is the point also. the theme.#that human life is so. Weird.... big. small. ephimeral. trascendent. invaluable. meaningless. all at once#idk idk but now i NEED to read the manga now. 1st to see what happens next#2nd cos i think the og artstyle goes better w the mega depressing vibes#like dont get me wrong the story has funny cute n badass moments but s2 left me w this very.. sour taste regarding the storys themes#i think it all contributes to this same discussion abt humans and life purpose#the futile desire of an individual to become bigger than life itself..or smt like dat. v depressing and almost nihilistic#i dont even know dude maybe im making this up lol#oh yea 3rd cos when i catch up i can read n watch other ppls theories& analysis which i RLY need rn i CANT do this alone lol#di4ry#jjk s2 spoilers#jjk
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when you break up and make up - ( @omgeto ) divorce au, angst
dorm room escapades - ( @satoruhour ) smut, dad´s bestfriend!nanami, age gap, GAWWDD DAMNNNN, daddy kink, this is some good stuff
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fifteen minutes - ( @roseglazedlens ) âSay that again. Louder. Canât hear shit with the sound of my dick slapping into your cunt.â that´s all I have to say, your honor
protective - (@kingkonoha ) headcanon, hubby!kento, my man my man my man my man i love thissss
swear it´s just right for you - ( @slttygeto ) smut, fluff, hubby!nanami, I´m weaaaak, he´s so husband material
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labour of love - ( @s4lv4tions ) fluff, vanilla smut, lowkey angst if you´ve been keeping up with the manga/anime, loving hubby!kento, SO DOMESTIC, love making, :(
losing his mind - ( @daisynik7 ) smut, dom!reader, hubby!kento, sub!kento, overstimulation, multiple orgasms, WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEW, 10000/10, now this is new
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tie my tie, marry me - ( @kenananamin )fluff, slice of life, "the moment nanami knew he never wanted to tie his tie by himself ever again and wanted to spend the rest of his life by your side" please just do yourself a favor and READ THIS
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riding - ( @screampied ) smut, hubby!nanami, "riding nanami so good that it makes him want to propose", LASJHLSFJH THIS IS SOME GOOD STUFF, the ride was so good he had to propose.. again
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