#the inherent trust of allowing someone to witness this

[katebeckets]

how to say "I love you" in x-files [37/?] ⤷ 5.14 — “The Red and the Black”

[cosmerelists]

Renarin Ranks Starting Places For New Readers of the Cosmere Series

"Renarin ranks something" requested by @themoonstonechronicler :)

Fans often argue about where new readers should start in the Cosmere: which book is the best starting place? In this list, Renarin will rank various options. Because if any character can break the fourth wall, it's either Hoid (of course) or Renarin with his funky corrupted Future Sight.

[Contains Stormlight Spoilers through Rhythm of War!]

1. Way of Kings

"Starting with Way of Kings is like jumping into a 4 versus 1 Shardblade duel armed with a sword that screams when you touch it after a lifetime of not really being allowed to train in real combat scenarios due to your blood weakness. Will you be in over your head? Yes. Might the experience harm you? Very possibly. Will Kaladin's presence save you? Absolutely. Is it a bad idea? Objectively yes. BUT does this choice make you inherently cool? I think so. At least, I have no regrets."

...

"Make that very few regrets."

"I give this an 8/10."

2. Elantris

"Listen...I get it. You want to start from the beginning. Proceed chronologically. I think my cousin Jasnah would be inclined toward this. But speaking as a 'funky time guy,' as Adolin called me once, I have to say that the past doesn't necessarily predict the future and uh...this one just might be a little tough to start with. In my opinion."

"4/10."

3. Tress of the Emerald Sea

"I think...I think I like Wit. Mostly. There was that one time he tried to make everyone think I was hooking up with, like, multiple women at once, which was...weird. But he also made fun of me. Which does not sound good, but it meant he respected me in a Wit way. In any event, this book is like sitting and listening to Wit for hours. Is it good if that is the first thing you ever do? Maybe? The little rat is cute."

"9/10."

4. Yumi and the Nightmare Painter

"This one is Wit too. Just to get that out of the way. And I think it might be a little bit confusing for a first-time reader since it is clearly being told to a Rosharan, which is not something a new reader would understand."

"But on the other hand, it is maybe...refreshing to have a main character who hasn't yet realized what he's good at, and another main character who hasn't yet realized that not all aspects of her religion should restrict her as much as they do."

"So a confusing place to start, but not necessarily a bad one."

"6/10."

5. The Emperor's Soul

"This one is short! That might be good for someone who is looking for less of a commitment. Plus, it involves a lot of research into how things work, if that appeals to you. But I think the real benefit is that if someone is reading it to you, it would probably only take a few hours."

"10/10."

6. The Sunlit Man

"This book is like seeing into the future, since it is literally about the future. It's also very painful. Which, in my experience, the future often is. The future can be changed...but not in this case, because now it's written down. So I would say: start here at your own risk. On the other hand, it will probably seem less sad if you read it without any backstory. But it will make other things sadder later, trust me."

"3/10."

7. White Sand

"This one can be good if you're a man, since there are a lot of pictures. There are also a lot of words, of course, but if you're just starting out on the reading thing, then having the pictures would help a lot I'd imagine."

"6/10."

8. Warbreaker

"Speaking as someone who...well, I can't say that I deliberately make dramatic reveals, but I have been known to do things like scrawl warnings on a wall or appear suddenly from the shadows or, you know, stuff like that. So I might actually recommend reading this before you read our books, just so you can have those, 'Wait, it's YOU!' moments over and over again."

"Seriously, why did so many of those characters end up in our series?"

"I'm not answering the question, though. This one is standalone, and not too long, yet still manages to have a pretty big cast of characters and a bunch of storylines. It is like Sanderson training."

"8/10."

9. The Final Empire

"This is what everyone always tells you to do. Sometimes it can get frustrating when everyone is SO SURE that they know what's good for you, especially your dad, who won't listen when you tell him that you don't want to become an ardent even though he thinks it's the best. And you know what? In the end, I am a fighter, but also a scholar, since men can do both now. So sometimes what people say is good, but only when it happens in the way you want it to and...I think I lost the thread. Um. You can do what people tell you that you should do IF you want to. "

"If you start here, I imagine you'll like it. Sometimes what everyone tells you to do is a good idea...but only if it's what you want too."

"9/10."

10. The Alloy of Law

"Starting with Mistborn Era 2 is like bonding a corrupt spren. It's almost what everyone agrees is a good thing to do (start with Mistborn / bond a spren), only you're going about it in a...different way. But different is not necessarily bad! Yes, I have abilities that are maybe from Odium and that give me a maybe sacrilegious ability to foretell the future...but when given the chance, I immediately recommended my best friend do the same thing."

"Being different can be good. 7/10."

[rabbiitte]

EP7: The misconception of Mew turning “evil”.

Mew didn't turn “evil”. Engaging in manipulation might pose a challenge for someone who has never practiced it before. Mew possessed the ability to manipulate from the outset, yet he often refrained from doing so, often reserving it primarily for his relationship with Top (he exercised manipulation sometimes consciously and sometimes unconsciously). This explains his adeptness in manipulating Nick, as he skillfully chooses his words and delivery. "Victims"? Mew is fully aware that Nick isn't innocent (what he did was pretty illegal), but Mew doesn't hesitate to tailor his words to Nick's preferences. Throughout, Mew has always been intelligent and has always used that intelligence to achieve his goals, whether academically or romantically.

Similarly, Mew had long held an internal belief in his superiority over Boston (a sentiment reciprocated by Boston), but he finally chose to voice this sentiment in EP7. He had never endorsed Boston's lifestyle and consistently passed judgment on it, allowing his friends to condemn and degrade him (an attitude Boston mirrored by condemning and denigrating Mew).

Indeed, Mew possesses the capacity to consume alcohol but he often refrained due to his low tolerance. This low tolerance translated to a fear of losing control and letting his guard down, actions Mew, who thrives on being "superior" and in control, detests.

He, as seen in EP3 at the pool party, only chose to indulge in alcohol when he knew Top would be taking care of him, given the trust he had in him. That was the first time we saw him drunk. However, maintaining control where it led Mew? Mew probably thinks the answer is "nowhere." Consequently, he opted to deactivate what seemed ineffective. Mew has grown tired of being the one in control, at least when he's with Ray. Mew has resigned himself to not being able to control and change everything.

What has shifted within Mew isn't his core identity. And, of course, from the beginning of the series he has a very clear and marked identity. He still retains his sense of superiority, manipulative tendencies and a strong need for control. He remains a romantic at heart and continues to find solace in books. The change lies in how he assesses people. Mew no longer fully trusts his own judgment and refrains from acting on it. Currently, Mew selectively emphasizes different aspects of his personality based on the situation, like his need for control (notably, around Ray, he still exhibits some other traits of the old Mew). He can turn his need for control (and self-control) on and off depending on the circumstances. With Boston, his desire for control is intensified, while it lessens when interacting with Ray.

This shift arises from Mew's realization that a) trying to change Ray (or Top) is futile, b) he trusts Ray and he longs to escape his emotional turmoil.

In essence, what we witness in Mew's current actions is a previously concealed aspect of his identity. It doesn't represent his entire being, but rather a facet that has existed within him all along, and he now consciously chooses to emphasize it. Control remains an inherent part of his personality, yet he has gained (through negative experiences) the ability to decide when to employ it (quite an important lesson, if you ask me) . Mew hasn't transformed into a malevolent figure; rather, he has allowed his questionable thoughts and inclinations to manifest in his behavior. This doesn't categorize him as a corrupt individual; instead, it portrays him as someone fundamentally good who occasionally commits regrettable actions. The same principle applies to the other characters in the series. Embracing this complexity is the essence of understanding their personas.

More about Mew and his need for control here.

[bloggedanon]

what is a parental apologist??? sorry not trying to be rude

OH I DIDN'T EVEN SEE THIS ASK FJAKS HELLO YES MY APOLOGIES

Basically, I've got a whole hangup about youth rights, and have the mindset that everything about the way the relationship between a parent and their child works, and by extension the way adults view and treat minors in general, is kinda inherently fucked six ways from Sunday. ¯⁠\⁠_😅_⁠/⁠¯ A parental apologist is someone who thinks the parent-child dynamic as it stands is fundamentally good, or anyone advocating for "parental rights," which I kinda see as the antithesis of human rights tbh

Explanation below the cut, but like most things I say on the internet, it's long-winded and hard to read JFLASLSL

(and yeah, don't worry anon! you're fine lmao I made the thing in bio sound kinda vague in hindsight BFKWJZ)

Just looking at the parent-child relationship (or at least the standardized nuclear family model), I'm just gonna list some qualities a normal, healthy relationship between two adult human beings typically is supposed to have:

- Mutual communication

- Mutual trust

- Equality

- Mutual respect

- Freedom to make one's own decisions independent of the other partner

In the typical (nuclear) parent-child dynamic:

- Parents generally manipulate their children using lies (e.g. Santa Claus, the Easter Bunny, etc.), informational manipulation (like the kind we're seeing being called for by parental roghts groups to promote the censorship of schools and their books), refusing to give reasoning for their behaviour but demanding that their children do, etc.

- If a parent violates a child's trust, the child has exactly zero recourse, and no choice but to continue putting their lives and all their needs into the hands of the parent. The parent can't really rely on the child for everything either, since there's just so much someone in a kid's position is able to do for an adult. The adult's the one that's supposed to be providing, after all. In the nuclear family, parents are left to both care for themselves, their careers, their household, each other, and their kids all on their own, with no real support to be found outsode each other. In that way, the parent-child relationship is unfair to both the child and the adult.

- Equality... yeah, there's nothing about the parent-child relationship based in it. Skipping this one JDKAJD

- If the child doesn't respect the parent (as an authority), then the parent doesn't respect the child (as a human being). And then the parent may not respect the child as a human being anyway. Either way, this difference in what "respect" means for each party constitutes a lack of mutual respect for sure 💀

- The parent makes all the decisions. Children aren't allowed to make any. Any that the child is allowed to make is more the parent's choice than the kid's.

So the parent-kid relationship is built on literally the opposite of anything that would be a healthy (or even non-abusive) relationship between anyone else, and yet people still argue and believe that this isn't an inherently abusive relationship the same second one of the relevant parties is a minor. I'm highkey bitter about it HFKWHDJSJ

Disclaimer: I have yet to witness communal childrearing among other cultures, so I can't really offer any other point of comparison for nuclear family dynamics v.s. communal family dynamics 🤡👍

[harmonyhealinghub]

The Fulfilling Journey of Being a Reiki Practitioner

Shaina Tranquilino

February 5, 2024

People are constantly seeking ways to improve their physical and mental well-being. One holistic practice that has gained significant popularity in recent years is reiki. As a reiki practitioner myself, I can confidently say that this path brings immense fulfillment, not just for those we help but also for our own personal growth. In this blog post, let's explore why being a reiki practitioner is so deeply fulfilling.

1. Empowering Others:

As a reiki practitioner, one of the most rewarding aspects is the ability to empower others on their healing journey. Through gentle touch or distance healing, we channel universal life force energy to balance and harmonize the recipient's energetic system. Witnessing clients experience deep relaxation, stress relief, pain reduction, emotional release, and overall well-being is incredibly fulfilling. Knowing that you've played a part in someone's healing process creates an indescribable sense of joy and purpose.

2. Creating Positive Energy Exchanges:

Reiki sessions create powerful energy exchanges between the practitioner and client. During a treatment, both parties immerse themselves in a serene atmosphere where positive intentions permeate the space. This exchange enables profound connections with individuals seeking healing and promotes an environment conducive to fostering trust and compassion. The shared experiences during treatments often result in lasting relationships built on genuine care and understanding.

3. Personal Growth and Self-Healing:

While offering healing to others, reiki practitioners embark on an inner journey of self-discovery and growth. Regularly practicing reiki allows us to become more attuned to our own energy systems, bringing about personal transformation and healing. By working on ourselves, we enhance our abilities as practitioners – becoming clearer channels for divine energy to flow through us effortlessly.

4. Cultivating Mindfulness:

Reiki inherently encourages mindfulness in both practitioners and recipients alike. The practice requires us to be fully present, focusing on the energy flowing through our hands and into the recipient's body. This heightened state of awareness fosters a deep connection with the present moment, enabling practitioners to let go of distractions and worries. The mindfulness cultivated through reiki spills over into all areas of life, leading to increased clarity, peace of mind, and overall well-being.

5. Being Part of a Supportive Community:

The reiki community is a tight-knit group that shares a common passion for healing and spiritual growth. Engaging with fellow practitioners allows for valuable exchanges of knowledge, experiences, and techniques. Participating in workshops, seminars, or reiki circles not only expands our understanding but also provides ongoing support from like-minded individuals who understand the unique journey we are on.

Being a reiki practitioner is truly fulfilling in countless ways. From witnessing the transformative effects it has on others' lives to experiencing personal growth and cultivating mindfulness within ourselves – each aspect contributes to an enriched existence. By embracing this holistic practice, we become catalysts for positive change while simultaneously nurturing our own well-being. If you feel drawn to healing work and have an innate desire to make a difference in people's lives, consider embarking on the fulfilling journey of becoming a reiki practitioner.

[j-a-nuary]

Carrier

Sonar

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Stray Kids Urban fantasy AU (feat. Ateez from time to time) | A “carrier service” exists, seemingly only to get people (usually women) home safe after the trains stop running.

Heavy on bad boys with hearts of… some kind of shiny metal, probably.

Warnings: smutty stuff [fingering (f rec), the inherent eroticism of vampires], toxic masculinity but make it mystical.

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Hyunjin could not believe his luck. His day to day, or - more accurately - night to night, searches for a willing donor weren't exactly difficult. Even before his little accident, he hadn't had much trouble picking up. But afterwards? He could convince anyone of anything.

Not that he liked to. He was a monster, but he wasn't completely without morals. He avoided using his tricks unless it was absolutely necessary.

Sure, the standard he held himself to was low, but at least it existed.

Which made the current situation all the better.

He didn't know why the woman under his hands and against his body was so hot, or why she smelled so strongly of roses, but it just made him all the more hungry.

He groaned as her fingers slid into his hair, tugging slightly as the two of them moved approximately in time with the beat of the dance mix blaring through the club.

Hyunjin bent forward, pressing his lips against her neck. She rewarded him with a stuttered curse. Smiling into her skin, he let his hands slide down her sides, toying with the hem of her top.

"I just want to eat you up," he murmured.

He felt the vibration of her moan more than he heard it. It made him press himself more firmly against her. He slipped one hand under her top, splaying his fingers out to feel more of her just a little too hot skin. Carefully, he hooked his pinky into her waistband.

Maybe that's what made her start trembling. Or maybe it was his other hand, now cupping her chin, pressing just ever so lightly against her throat.

"Will you let me?" Hyunjin asked, nipping at the skin of her neck. He was drowning in her floral smell now, tasting roses and vanilla on her skin.

She nodded. More than that, she let one of her hands fall to his wrist, pushing his lower hand even further downwards.

Hyunjin groaned again, willingly allowing her to guide his hand.

"Right here sweetheart? You want me to take you in front of all these people?"

She was practically throwing herself at him, but he was begging for it anyway.

"Let's go somewhere a little more private," Hyunjin suggested.

It wasn't that he didn't like the idea of showing off. He just didn't want any interruptions or witnesses.

"Where?" She asked, sounding breathless.

"Follow me sweet thing."

=====

"Give me something Seungmin!"

Felix was scanning the crowd inside Sonar. He cursed his inability to hone in on scents like Jisung or Changbin.

His talents were a little more… ephemeral and vague. Given that Spring was only just starting, he was nowhere near the top of his game. Still, he could sense that something was off.

"Do you know how many fucking people are in that club right now? Give me a minute for christ's sake."

Seungmin was right. Felix knew he was right. He took a deep breath, trusting the nerd on the other end of the phone call to do his thing.

Still, he watched the crowd intently. Taking another deep breath, he shut his eyes and desperately tried to remember what she had been wearing.

He cursed his stunted senses. Compared to the others, he was the worst option to track someone down. He had just wanted to take a little bit of the heat off of Jisung, and no way in hell was he about to involve Changbin.

"Seungmin, I need something. I don't see her anywhere."

"I am trying, okay?"

Felix groaned. He didn't know why or how, but he was certain that he needed to get some sort of explanation to Little Turtle tonight. If not tonight, then certainly before she had to call for a carrier again.

"God damn it, I'm such a fucking idiot!"

"What's up?" Seungmin asked.

"Her phone number is literally in the system," something else occurred to Felix as he spoke, "and you have the ring map!"

"That only works if she's wearing it," Seungmin pointed out.

"Check it anyway. And send me her number."

Felix disconnected the call, and waited.

=====

Tempawan allowed herself to be led out of a side exit. Had she not been so focused on the man leading the way, she would have noticed the “authorized personnel only" sign.

But at the moment, she was shameless. In the purest form of the word: without shame. She knew that relief from her strange fever was only moments away.

She quickened her pace just a bit when he pushed the door open. Surging forward, she pressed her lips against his.

They stumbled out, into the back alleyway, lips and limbs intertwining further with each passing moment.

"I don't know how adventurous you usually are," Hyunjin mumbled against her lips, "but I am really tired of waiting, sweetheart."

"Then don't wait."

Hyunjin didn't typically like mixing food with pleasure. It wasn't really his style. It felt childish to him in some way.

But when the meal was so eager, who was he to deny that hedonistic streak?

"Then don't wait” the words echoed in his brain.

Hyunjin groaned, biting at her lip in another kiss before speaking up.

"Are you sure? I'll have you right here if you let me."

"Fuck," she panted, losing herself in the way his fingers were slowly sliding up her thigh, under her skirt, "please. Give me everything."

=====

“Pick up pick up pick… fuck!” Felix cursed at the pre-recorded voicemail greeting. It hadn’t even rang. Desperate for help, he decided to call in back-up.

At least this call rang. It was quickly answered as well.

“Hey,” Jisung sounded so casual it made Felix a little jealous, “how’d the talk go?”

“I can’t find her.”

There was a beat of silence while Jisung thought of something suitably vague to say.

“I mean it’s a big place…”

Felix huffed, shaking his head.

“It feels wrong. Do you think you could come and… you know,” he hated to lean on stereotypes, but here he was, “smell her?”

“How does it feel wrong? What’s going on?”

Felix felt like crying. Fighting down the frustrated tears that threatened to well up in his eyes, he cleared his throat.

“I don’t know! I just…" he took a breath, "it feels wrong. Something is wrong and I don’t know what it is. I don't know how to help.”

“Woah, hey,” Jisung tried his best to sound comforting, “don’t worry about it, okay? I’m on my way. Five minutes, okay?”

“Okay.”

Felix didn’t waste any time making his third call.

“Please tell me you have literally anything for me, Seungmin.”

“Her phone is dead,” Seungmin responded, “last pinged location was inside Sonar. And it looks like she isn’t wearing the ring.”

“Fucking hell!”

Seungmin kept quiet. Felix was typically the calm one. The one who could get the others to relax. Seungmin had never seen, or rather, heard him like this before.

Felix took deep breaths, trying to recompose himself before speaking again.

“Listen, pretend I’m Chan for a second, okay?”

“Okaaayyy?”

“Fucking find her,” he spat out the words, “and get me that fucking ring.”

"How am I suppo-"

Felix hung up on Seungmin.

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"You're so wet for me sweetheart."

Hyunjin had Tempawan facing the wall, one hand braced against the bricks, the other two digits deep inside her.

"Please," she begged, trying to keep somewhat quiet, "please please please please…"

"Don't you worry sweetness," Hyunjin whispered into her ear, "I'll give you everything you need."

Her knees buckled. Despite her increased appetite as of late, this was different. This man somehow was making her a complete mess. The others were usually so busy chasing their own release that she often left feeling unsatisfied, even as her temperature evened out.

But this man…

"Fuck," she whimpered, "I'm… please…"

"You're okay sweet girl," his voice dripped directly into her ear, "just cum once before we really start."

It didn't take much longer for exactly that to happen. Hyunjin felt it all. The tightness around his fingers, the jerk of her body against his. He bit his lip, enjoying the sounds she made as she slammed her hands against the bricks in front of them.

"You did so well," he kissed her shoulder, letting her catch her breath, "so good for me sweetheart."

Tempawan lifted her head, tilting back to settle the back of her head into the crook of his neck. She heard him groan, pressing his lips against her own neck.

"Can you keep going, sweetness?"

"Yes," she was still breathing heavily, but she needed more to satisfy the icy feeling under her skin, "please…"

"Perfect," he withdrew his hand from under her skirt. Carefully, not wanting to leave any residue on the outside of her clothing, he lifted it to his lips.

Tempawan turned her head and watched, a little in awe of the way he was enjoying himself. The way he was enjoying her.

"Good god sweetheart," he whispered after sucking his fingers clean, "did you know you taste like vanilla ice cream?"

And roses, he thought to himself.

"Are you willing to let me have more of you, sweet girl?"

"Please," she was willing to beg for it if she had to, but she suspected that she didn't.

Hyunjin gripped her waist, turning her now to face him.

"What a goddess you are," Hyunjin whispered. "Do you mind just a bit more foreplay, sweetness? I'm a bit of a biter."

"It's fine," she breathed, tensely waiting to feel him. "Bite as hard as you like. I just need you t- fuck."

He didn't need to be told twice. Leaning forward, he entered her, in more ways than one. In the only way that truly matters to a vampire, he entered her. Feeling the shock run through her body, he groaned as he felt her tighten around him.

Dipping his fingers back under her skirt, he felt her twitch around his digits again. Clamping onto her shoulder, his fangs broke her skin easily. He didn't know which sensation was more responsible for how she jerked against him.

At first, it was perfect. Roses and vanilla beans, silk and nectar.

Then something hit Hyunjin’s throat. A grassy taste that he knew was not hers.

That’s fine, he thought, I’m not the arbiter of her relationships.

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Jisung pushed through the crowd, tracing the faint trail of familiar mangosteen and… something less familiar, like a minty, fruity cocktail.

Chan followed close behind.

Jisung had tried to create a good enough excuse to stop Chan from coming along, but given the choice between Chan and Changbin, this had seemed like the better option.

Felix brought up the rear, feeling knots in his stomach as they moved. Despite the crush of bodies, there was a distinct chill that Felix felt the further they walked.

Jisung paused, reorienting himself. He knew what it looked like, but he didn’t care. There was something about that minty scent that was familiar, and it made him nervous.

“What’s wrong?” Chan asked as Jisung swiveled his head, trying to catch the direction of the smell.

“There’s a lot going on just…” Jisung closed his eyes, concentrating. A second later, his eyes opened again, shining a brighter yellowish color, “that way.”

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“You’ve got to be fucking kidding me!”

Hyunjin’s eyes opened, lifting to see Jisung staring at him and Tempawan. He couldn’t help but smile, teeth still buried into her neck.

Then he saw Chan and Felix.

Quickly, he released his jaw’s grip on her.

“It’s just a hickey,” he whispered into Tempawan’s ear as he maneuvered behind her to face the others. “So you’re the one she belongs to, huh?”

She giggled, then shook her head. Eyes landing on Jisung, she smiled slowly. She felt incredibly warm and… snuggly? God I’d love a nap.

“You’re a real… fuck…”

Her knees buckled.

“Felix!” Chan called.

“On it!”

Jisung could have reached her first, but he was busy being held back by Chan. Hyunjin watched the four of them. Felix, tending to Tempawan with the knowledge of a field medic and the bedside manner of a therapist. Chan, barely struggling to hold back an increasingly feral Jisung. Jisung, working himself up and ranting.

“That’s the motherfucker Chan! I should have killed him! Let me the fuck go!”

“Not happening.”

Hyunjin could have left, but the fact that Chan was there had piqued his interest enough to stick around. For now at least.

“If it makes you feel better,” Hyunjin offered, “I wasn’t planning on killing her.”

“You could have fooled me,” Felix muttered before turning towards Chan and Jisung, “we need to get her to Minho.”

“I will end you!” Jisung was tearing at Chan’s hand. Literally, he could feel it in his bones. The ache was starting. His jaw ached with the slow elongation, and his voice was getting hoarse and deeper. “Let me go!”

“No,” Chan said, paying no attention to the claws digging into his skin. Readjusting his grip on Jisung, he locked the slowly transforming man against himself with one arm. Chan dug his other hand into the inner pocket of his suit jacket. He pulled out his cell phone.

"I think I'll just be going," Hyunjin nervously chuckled and started shuffling backwards.

Chan didn’t look up as he searched through his recent calls.

"Lix, can yo-" 

"Got it," the blonde responded. He slammed a hand against the ground and his eyes fluttered shut.

Call Hyunjin a cat, because he was certain that one day his curiosity would get him killed. He already knew what Jisung was, and he had an idea about Chan. But the soft looking blonde one? He had no clue.

He didn't even notice the tendrils of roots that were winding around his ankles. Not until they constricted, causing him to lose his balance.

"You need to get over here…" Chan spoke into his phone, "make an excuse… Jisung needs your pills…"

To his credit, Jisung was still giving his all to get out of Chan's grip. He was well into the non-verbal stage now. His hands were closer to paws, which actually made it easier for Chan to hold him.

"Sonar, back alley… oh, give yourself an extra dose on your way… LT is here."

He dropped the phone back into his pocket.

"Felix? Can you keep an eye on Jisung?"

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Changbin stood up, sighing dramatically. To all the world, he looked like a man who had been called in to do inventory. Internally, he was panicking.

"Seems like they need an extra hand," he made the excuse easily enough. Half-truths were simple like that.

Hongjoong, who would describe himself as currently being in his cups, let out an annoyed sound.

"Sure, just take all the eye-candy away. First that girl, then Felix, now Bin."

"Hyung…" Mingi groaned.

"Sorry man," Changbin chuckled, "sounds pretty serious though."

Yunho stood as well, much to Seonghwa's annoyance.

"You need an extra hand?"

Changbin shook his head, pulling his coat on.

"No, nothing like that," he pulled out his wallet and dropped some bills on the table, "we've got a system. Anyway, that should cover a few rounds. Might be back later."

Changbin forced himself to move casually as he left.

"Mingi," Seonghwa spoke softly, just loud enough to get the younger man's attention, "how do you feel about espionage?"

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Chan had let Hyunjin go. Or rather, Chan had made Felix let him go. Or rather, Felix had begrudgingly followed Chan’s order to let him go. Hyunjin nervously kept an eye on the wolf that was now tangled in city-toughened roots as Chan led him to the open end of the alley.

"It seems like you know one of my boys."

It wasn't phrased as a question, but Hyunjin knew when he was being interrogated.

"Know is a strong word," Hyunjin explained, "we run into each from time to time."

Chan tilted his head, looking as unbothered as anything. He reached into his jacket again, this time pulling out a simple black cigarette case.

Hyunjin noted the silver reinforcements on the corners of the case. Old, probably expensive when it was made, and even more so now.

Hyunjin glanced up and down the alley, wondering how far he would make it if he made a run for it.

"I wouldn't recommend it," Chan interrupted his thoughts.

Hyunjin didn't recall Chan lighting his cigarette, but there it was.

"Jisung doesn't willingly change very often."

"Honest to god," Hyunjin sighed, "I don't know what his problem is. He's got some kind of grudge."

Chan nodded. He believed what Hyunjin was saying. Or at least, he believed that Hyunjin believed what he was saying.

"I won't blame you if you don't want the job. Cohesion is the goal, but I'll settle for civility."

"Not to be an asshole," Hyunjin couldn’t help but huff, "but that's more on him than me. I barely know the guy. As far as I know, he just hates vampires."

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"Sorry man," Felix muttered towards Jisung.

Jisung growled in response. If not for the somewhat muddy tendrils wrapped around his snout, he would have snapped at him.

When Chan and Hyunjin had walked a bit further down the alley to talk, Felix was left to tend to Tempawan and keep an eye on Jisung.

Not that Felix had to do much. Tempawan was stable enough for the moment, and Jisung was immobilized.

"Do you know that guy?" Felix asked.

Jisung huffed, then whined. He wriggled in his earthy bindings, snuffling as he tried to get closer to Tempawan.

"She'll be 'right mate," Felix reassured him.

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"You have got to be fucking kidding me!"

Jisung couldn't exactly laugh, but his tail twitched at the way Changbin unknowingly mimicked him upon his arrival.

"Changbin, relax…"

Chan held a hand against Changbin’s chest. Changbin was keeping a remarkable amount of calm, all things considered. He was barely trying to get around Chan.

"Re… relax? Do you know who this motherfucker is?"

"We've talked."

"Oh! Oh, you've talked!" Changbin balked, "I see, I mean as long as you've talked I guess that's fine."

Hyunjin kept silent, mentally cataloging people he had possibly wronged to be called a motherfucker twice in thirty minutes.

"Just go help Felix."

For the first time, Changbin actually took in the scene at the other end of the alleyway. The little remaining calm he had dissipated as soon as his mind processed what he saw.

He took a step towards the three figures on the ground, then turned to look at Hyunjin.

"What did you do?"

Hyunjin was mesmerized by the green that sprung up in one of Changbin’s irises. It was a shade he knew all too well.

"I… nothing…" Hyunjin wasn't used to feeling off-balance.

"She's fine," Chan answered the real question. "Go help Felix and Jisung."

"She better be more than fine," Changbin growled, casting Hyunjin a lingering and exceptionally dirty look, "or it won't matter how much you two have talked."

[curiouschaosstarlight]

Bounced back and forth, think I'll just make this post-

(Warning: Under the read more, if tumblr keeps the read more intact, is me, an aromantic/aegofictosexual person ramble-ranting about aroaceness in fandom. You're free to scroll past if you wish, or to disagree with me on whatever takes for whatever reason, this is just my one opinion on something I consider to be a big pet peeve of mine.)

(If you read this and go "but I don't do that!", then I trust you, and you're not the kind of person I'm talking about. I'm moreso referring to some things I've personally either witnessed or experienced in previous fandoms, and nobody this applies to will actually see this post unless it, like, gets a bajillion notes...um, hopefully.)

It is so. fricking. frustrating. having my only possible representation in media be like...[that one character] from DR. You know. the otaku or "geek" that's portrayed to be unattractive, "gross", and "weird", and will eventually express sexual attraction to "3D" people, because their attraction to and obsession with 2D was never a sexuality, but intended to be some creepy, incomprehensible thing, and a way to demonstrate their shortcomings and inability to actually court someone.

Characters who actually match my sexuality and experience will never exist unless I make them with my own hands, because both allos and other aces consider me "not ace enough".

This honestly plays a big part in why I'm really touchy about aroace headcanons; because often times they're blatantly used to say people aren't allowed to ship [character a] with [character b] -- and the person making the headcanon is usually 100000% fine with [character a] being put in a gay ship, but will loudly complain if they see them featured in the (usually het, usually canonically teased) first ship. Because it was never about actually writing an aroace character, it was about reframing "ewwww you like THAT ship?? gross uxu what's wrong with you??" into "uhhhmmmm but that character's aroace-coded" "sorry, I can't see them as anything other than aroace" (yeah, I didn't ask? Everyone else gets to talk about THEIR ships with that character and you enthusiastically support them...) And it's like... I feel like these types of headcanons specifically are always presented like, inherently, I'm totally, obviously going to agree with them, and if I don't, then clearly I'm just not aroace. (I wish that was more of a dramatization, but I had someone who I previously told my seuxality to go "oh. well. I'm asexual, so I see this character as aroace-coded, (and I'm right)" <- not outright said but very, very heavily implied, especially because they continuously insisted the character was "canonically aroace-coded", and I just had to sit there like... "...okay, but I'm aroace. (and I think saying that about a clearly het-intended character that's constantly being flirted and canonically shipped in extra side materials with is kinda hurtful)" <- I didn't say that part)

And the fact that no one respects if a character is canonically het or bi kind of plays into why I don't care when a character is canonically gay or ace. If everyone's sexuality is just "gay (MAYBE ace!!!)" or "okay but have you CONSIDERED they might be bi??? (stop putting them in het ships >:((( )" only when it's convenient, then why should I care for my downtime? It doesn't change canon. And I don't feel represented by people's on-the-whim, flimsy-as-fuck headcanons.

But it does still piss me off when people take a reboot or remake or continuation and flagrantly disregard a character's canon sexuality.

And it's upsetting that aroace characters 1. aren't really a thing for the most part, and 2. get written over when they are a thing.

I imagine that when I finally manage to finish one of my stories or games and, y'know, all of my characters are bi/pan/demi because that's what I tend to write...that's probably just gonna get changed to be "whoops everyone's gay lol" by the fandom, and I've already come to terms with that. (Well, by the part of the fandom that isn't populated by "ugh, everything is so WOKE now!" assholes, I'm just gonna pretend they won't even show up because they aren't worth it.) But then, it's also like...if someone officially continued or adapted my properties, and they changed my characters to be all straight or maybe one character gets to be kinda-sorta gay or something, I. I would definitely lose my shit.

-vague gestures-

I don't really know where I'm going with this, I just wanted to say my whole piece without having to worry about being accused of derailing/not listening to a post-

But basically if you're outraged whenever a gay character's sexuality is changed for any reason in any context, I better hear you be that upset about the rest of the possible orientations, and not pulling that shit yourself. I swear to god.

[schrodingers-tits]

Butters Stotch’s mentality rant because I need to get it out of my system. Trigger warning for general Butters-family-ness. Also this isn’t edited I just wrote down my thoughts and couldn’t stop

I have spent days watching South Park, specifically Butters. He isn’t an ‘uwu’ Eric Cartman, he’s a kid who spent too much time with the wrong people. When your only influence is an abusive family and Eric Cartman, a master manipulator, it’s obvious who you’re going to trust: Cartman. Childhood trauma can have an intense effect on the brain and general development. I’ve witnessed it firsthand with many of my friends, and their situations look very similar to Butters’. This one kid I knew- my childhood best friend- is a prime example. They didn’t have a good home life, and ended up stealing things and being very bitter. Butters is in an even worse situation, and has only a neo-nazi to look to for help. Professor Chaos allows Butters a sense of control. And control is something that is often strived for in situations like Butters’. Professor Chaos was born from needing control, but Butters was born from the lack of it (a part of the reason I love the DID Butters headcanon so much). And, as shown in the earlier seasons, the only friends Butters had were Dougie and Pip. Even then, they weren’t truly friends: just kids stuck in a basement with Stan. Butters is the butt of jokes, and is blamed for everything. He doesn’t see a problem with this because it’s all he knows (as shown from his comments in the video games when exploring the world, and in Bebe’s Boobs Destroy Society). Adding on to the point from earlier about his role models, in the episode about Butters riding horses (I can’t remember what it is and if I lose all of this writing I’m gonna cry) his parents are preaching about the Russian kid being a communist bent on destroying American society. Butters doesn’t hold these views, but his parents do. Which then lead him to internalizing them. Butters wouldn’t insult someone, but the Brand company is telling him he would. They’re telling him he’s assertive or whatever. And thus; he is. Butters doesn’t do these things unless the people around him do. Just like in Post-Covid, it’s clear the writers themselves acknowledge this. When grounded, Butters won’t come out of his room. Even if it takes 16 years. He’s naïve, all he knows is that he’s supposed to be grounded. Try to escape? He’ll just be grounded even longer, dare I say he’ll get beaten/abused further. But when he’s let out of his room, and he isn’t grounded, he’s just… a normal guy. A normal, happy dude. Cartman, on the other hand, ends up on the streets covered in junk. The ending he always gets: a bad ending for the bad guy. But the writers don’t give Butters a bad ending, they give him a normal one. A happy one. He isn’t a bad guy, the people around him are. And he’s naïve.

TLD;R: the people around Butters are terrible, and thus, Butters emanates this terrible behavior. He isn’t inherently bad, just naïve.

[trashyocstash]

also here's lily's profile

Species: Dog

Occupation: Employee at Minnie's boutique

Home: Mouseton, Calisota, U.S.A(originally from Duckburg)

Likes: Art, drawing, painting, flowers, gardening, nature, the outdoors, taking walks, fashion, shopping, spa and salon trips, rainy days, thunderstorms, movie nights

Dislikes: Being stuck inside, not knowing if someone is trustworthy, feeling unloved, crowds, partying, being taken advantage of, public speaking, spiders

Family: Lucille(mother), Leon(father)

Friends: Minnie, Daisy, Clarabelle, Ortensia, Mickey, Donald, Goofy, Oswald, Horace, Madison(ex friend), Olivia(ex friend)

Love Interests: Phantom Blot, Cody(ex boyfriend)

Lily is a gentle and good-natured type, who is very loving despite her past issues. She has trouble trusting others, but still makes it a point to be kind and honest. Lily is outdoorsy, intelligent and shy.

Personality:

Lily is kind, she has a big, loving heart and cares about others. She sees the good in others, and even is kind to the villains. Despite having been hurt in the past, she won't stoop to the lows of those who have hurt her. While the others are surprised she'll even be kind to the villains and help them, she believes they deserve to be treated with humanity despite their actions. She will call them out, but always being calm and gentle, unless they do something really bad, then she gets upset.

She has an artistic spirit, being creative and passionate about art, specifically the visual arts. Lily has always enjoyed going outside and drawing scenes of nature, and will just draw whatever she wants in general.

Her biggest problems relate to her trust issues, stemming from poor relationships with others in the past. She's been hurt multiple times, and it gives her an uncertainty regarding others true feelings and motivations. This means that with others she doesn't know well, she can be standoffish, shy and quiet. In turn, people may think she's being rude, but she doesn't mean for that to be the case.

Also as a result of her past, Lily desires real, true connections with other people. She eventually joined Mickey's group of friends, but always had some hesitancy with them until they proved how much they care about her. She's also jealous of their happy romantic relationships, wishing to have what they have, for someone to truly love her as she is.

Despite the fact she can stand up against the villains, her confidence is shaky, especially if her weaknesses are exploited.

Lily is intelligent, clever, a great problem solver and enjoys reading. With all her issues, her hobbies and interests allow her to escape into another world, where she doesn't have to worry about anything anymore. She's also willing to help Mickey with cases, even knowing the danger it puts her in.

She is humble, and likes to take care of her appearance, as feeling pretty helps her feel better, even if just by a little bit. The other girls like to have her on shopping trips and going to places like spas and salons to help her too.

Abilities:

Lily has different inherent abilities as a dog, and can make various dog noises such as barks and howls.

Enhanced Smell: She has a strong sense of smell.

Enhanced Hearing: Her hearing is also very strong, she can easily identify a sound's location and can hear sounds others can't.

Canine Instincts: Lily has natural instincts as a dog, such as naturally being playfully and a love of novelty.

Retractable claws: She can bring out claws, but usually doesn't.

Sharp teeth: She has naturally sharp teeth.

Skills:

Art: She is talented at visual arts, specifically drawing and painting.

High intelligence: Lily has a keen intellect, smart, clever and a great problem solver.

History:

Born and raised in Duckburg, Lily led a fairly normal life until she met her ex boyfriend Cody, and ex friends Madison and Olivia at college(where she was taking visual arts). They all seemed like kind people, and they were all in the same class together, so Lily easily bonded with them.

But things went downhill, as Madison and Olivia began to see Lily as a “goody two shoes” and “no fun”, because she wasn't a drinker, and wasn't interested in parties. They began to mock her behind her back, which Cody never minded, and even began to join in on. She became pressured to do the things they liked, no matter how clearly uncomfortable it made her feel. Cody also would openly berate her, make her feel terrible about herself, and wouldn't take kindly to her standing up for herself. In the end, their cruel treatment finally made her gain the courage to leave those relationships, which Madison and Olivia weren't bothered by, but which made Cody pissed.

Her fear of him was a contributing factor in her leaving for Mouseton, alongside just generally thinking leaving behind her past would be the best thing for her. Seeing as it was a city close to Duckburg, she decided it would be good to leave for there. At Mouseton, she got a job working at Minnie's boutique, leading her to befriend Minnie, and the rest of Mickey's friend group. She's had issues trusting them, but they are kind and understanding, and have gone out of their way to show how much they care for her, and that she's a true friend to them.

Relationships:

Phantom Blot:

With her ex and old friends, they presented themselves as good people, kind and loving, but deep down, they were cruel and fake. A reason Lily is so drawn to Phantom Blot in the first place is because unlike everyone else she's ever known, he doesn't hide his darkness. He's a villain, he does bad things and is open about it and revels in it. She's already seen the worst in him, he has nothing to hide from her.

In turn, he is drawn to her because he finds a kindred spirit in her. Like him, she is intelligent and a natural artist. She is kind, and even when calling him out is never that upset or rude(it'd take him doing something like his death traps against Mickey to really upset her), because she makes it a point to be kind to people, even when deep down her past relationships have made trusting people hard at times. Phantom Blot wants a mother for his daughter, and believes Lily is the perfect candidate for that. He could date another villain, but believes a normal person is the best option, believing it would give Phantom Brat the most stability.

Lily is friends with Mickey and his friends, which has put her in the line of sight of the villains. She's gotten caught up in their schemes before, which is how she met Phantom Blot(no specifics yet, but probably involves him kidnapping her to bait Mickey).

They also have a lot of sexual tension between them, Phantom Blot has a natural sultry, seductive voice and they both find each other attractive after all.

Despite her interest, her morals keep her from actually forming a relationship with him, which upsets Blot and eventually, he unconsciously does less evil things, still being a villain but not “death traps and mind control” evil, his mind attempting to appease her.

Mickey Mouse:

As mentioned, she will willingly help him with cases. He's a true friend to her, and values her input. Mickey worries about her when it comes to Phantom Blot, he is aware of the tension between them, and hopes Blot doesn't hurt her, instead hoping her love will steer him away from villainy.

Minnie Mouse:

Lily works at Minnie's boutique for her, leading to their friendship. Minnie is kind, encouraging and understanding. She puts no pressure on Lily, and lets her be herself. They've also been able to bond over shared interests in fashion, shopping, gardening and flowers.

Clarabelle Cow:

Her love for gossip can be grating, but Lily still considers her a good friend. She can be nosy about her relationship with Phantom Blot, curious about the romantic and sexual tension between the two of them, but still respects Lily’s privacy and boundaries, which is why she hasn't told anyone outside of their friend group about it yet.

Cody:

Her ex boyfriend, initially a nice guy who she bonded with art over, things took a turn when he joined in on Madison and Olivia's teasing. He realised he and Lily didn't mesh as well as he thought, he was starting to become bored of her. But instead of breaking up, he doubled down on the mocking, reaching the point of berating and cruelty. Cody became controlling, he, Madison and Olivia would force her to do things she didn't want to do, and had no problem humiliating her.

He would mock her and lower her self esteem through his comments, such as making fun of her appearance and her art, and if she stood up for herself, she would be met with yelling. The final straw was when he crossed from only emotional abuse to also physical abuse, smacking her when she stood up for herself. Lily couldn't take it anymore, and, too afraid to face him, broke off their relationship over text. His angry response added to her fear, and she ran off for Mouseton. At the back of her mind, Lily worries Cody will track her down and hurt her again.

[allmyblogs]

 The Crucial Choice: Why Choose a Criminal Lawyer in Arizona

In the state of Arizona, facing criminal charges can be a daunting experience. Whether it's a misdemeanor or a felony, navigating the legal system can be overwhelming without proper representation. This is where the role of a skilled criminal defense attorney becomes paramount. But why specifically choose a criminal lawyer in Arizona? Let's delve into the intricacies of this crucial decision.

Expertise in Arizona Law: Every state has its own laws and legal procedures, and Arizona is no exception. By choosing a criminal lawyer who practices in Arizona, you benefit from their deep understanding of the state's legal landscape. From statutes to case precedents, an experienced criminal lawyer Arizona knows how to navigate the complexities of the local legal system.

Familiarity with Local Courts and Prosecutors: Besides knowing the laws, familiarity with local courts and prosecutors can make a significant difference in your case. A criminal lawyer in Arizona has likely interacted with judges and prosecutors in the area, understanding their tendencies and strategies. This insight allows them to tailor their approach to best advocate for your rights and interests.

Personalized Legal Strategy: No two criminal cases are exactly alike, and a one-size-fits-all approach rarely yields favorable outcomes. Choosing a criminal lawyer in Arizona means selecting someone who can craft a personalized legal strategy based on the specifics of your case. Whether it's negotiating a plea deal or mounting a vigorous defense in court, your attorney will tailor their approach to achieve the best possible result for you.

Mitigation of Penalties: In the event of a conviction, the penalties imposed can vary greatly depending on the circumstances of the case and the skill of your legal representation. A knowledgeable Arizona criminal lawyer understands how to mitigate penalties through various legal avenues. From advocating for reduced charges to arguing for leniency in sentencing, their goal is to minimize the criminal justice system's impact on your life.

Protection of Your Rights: One of the fundamental roles of a criminal defense attorney is to protect the rights of their clients. This includes safeguarding against unlawful searches and seizures, ensuring due process is followed, and advocating for fair treatment throughout the legal process. By choosing a criminal lawyer in Arizona who is dedicated to upholding your rights, you gain an advocate who will fight tirelessly on your behalf.

Access to Resources and Support: Successfully defending against criminal charges often requires access to resources such as expert witnesses, investigators, and forensic specialists. A reputable criminal lawyer in Arizona will have established connections within the legal community, enabling them to leverage these resources to bolster your defense. Additionally, they provide invaluable support and guidance during a challenging times.

Peace of Mind: Perhaps most importantly, choosing a criminal lawyer in Arizona provides you with peace of mind, knowing that you have a knowledgeable and experienced advocate in your corner. Facing criminal charges is inherently stressful, but having a skilled attorney by your side can alleviate much of the anxiety associated with the legal process. From answering your questions to providing reassurance, your lawyer is there to support you every step of the way.

When facing criminal charges in Arizona, choosing legal representation is critical. A criminal lawyer with expertise in Arizona law, familiarity with local courts and prosecutors, and a commitment to protecting your rights is a good choice. From personalized legal strategies to mitigation of penalties, the benefits of choosing a skilled Arizona criminal lawyer are clear. In legal uncertainty, having a trusted advocate can make all the difference.

[cveenso]

Eleventh.

I'm uncertain how to interpret this. Someone once told me that unless I've invested four or five years in a relationship, I'll never fully grasp the pain of a breakup.

I have to say that's not the case. To be honest, I don't believe that. People tend to cite time, in my opinion, as an excuse for the suffering they endure after being betrayed. Don't get me wrong, I know it hurts, but blaming your hurt on the years you spent with that person—you loved them—really doesn't prove anything.

Discovering love for someone doesn't necessarily require years. In just a week, you may come to recognize that person as your true soulmate, confirming your genuine affection and desire to commit to them through marriage.

Devoting years to a relationship merely serves as evidence of enduring numerous challenges and betrayals, despite initially choosing to stay following the first instance of infidelity. It becomes increasingly absurd.

All I can express is that individuals who possess such a mindset lack self-reliance. I don't hold contempt for them; instead, I pity them. I feel sorry that they feel so reliant on their partner that their departure causes such profound anguish.

I have one piece of advice for those facing this situation: Allow yourself to feel disappointment, but don't dwell on it. Consider your ex who betrayed you. They may appear happy, causing you pain and a sense of injustice.

Remember, life is inherently fair, though we often overlook the factor of time. Time reveals all truths. While it may not be our time now, those who wronged us will face consequences, though we may not witness it directly. Punishment manifests in various forms, and it's not our responsibility to administer it. Instead, our duty is to maintain faith, focus on our religious beliefs, strengthen our spirituality, and trust that Him will provide unexpected blessings. He is the ultimate planner.

Yours Truly,

cveenso

[emmanuelouise]

Social Media Survival 101: How to Not Become A Victim of Doxing | Written By: Louise Baylon

In light of our discussion regarding online social networks (or OSN as I'll be referring to moving forward), I've decided to dabble into my own experiences and share some of my knowledge as a seasoned social media veteran - so to say. So far in this journey of mine to educate myself on how to handle my personal information online, I have been reflecting on new concepts presented by our instructor. I figured it might be a good change of pace if I am to reflect and share my own experiences this time!

OSNs are not easy to traverse, despite their simple interfaces and welcoming atmosphere - they are some of the most notorious places you can be on the internet. I should know, I have been through quite a number of social platforms and I have seen the ugly side of every single one. You have to keep in mind, OSNs isn't only a space where you can share your own content but it is also everyone else's and that can come with its own repercussions. Have you ever heard of the term 'doxing'? I trust that if you have been on the internet for as long as I have, if not longer, then you may have come across this term thrown around here and there. To those who are unfamiliar, the act of 'doxing someone' is to maliciously post someone's personal information out to the public without their consent or knowledge. Essentially, it is outwardly leaking someone's information to the public's eye. Now I myself have not been a victim of doxing (thankfully), but I have been a witness to it and I would like to share my few cents on the topic hoping that it may be helpful to anyone reading this. Albeit unofficial, I'd like to categorize doxing into two classifications - direct and indirect.

Direct Doxing It is what I call the textbook definition of doxing; someone leaking a person's private information to the public for whatever reason they might harbor. This type of doxing is usually performed by cybercriminals or by moderators who are tasked to snuff out cybercriminals.

One of the most common sightings for direct doxing are on online forums and chatrooms such as Twitter (also known as X) and Discord. When discussions get heated and turn into full blown arguments, it's not uncommon for someone to dox the other person out of spite. Putting ethics aside, the public rarely speaks up when it comes to doxing as it is usually done to individuals the majority agrees is problematic and who is spouting problematic nonsense to the platform. Some may see this as a form of online justice. Certain people believe that if you are bold enough to be spitting problematic content (or at least content that isn't inherently bad but they still disagree with) then you should be held accountable; it has always been a law of the land on social platforms. At first glance that belief seems to be justified, but always keep in mind that the internet is a land of unpredictable morals. If the real world is filled with garbage individuals, the internet is filled with the same garbage individuals who are given confidence to be more toxic by hiding behind usernames and anonymous identities. Even if you had done nothing wrong nor post problematic content, there will always be individuals who will dislike or disagree with your content and that is more than enough reason for them to attempt doxing you!

Indirect Doxing It is when information that should be private is shared to the public (unknowingly so) and the usual culprit - is you! It may vary from you posting a picture while on vacation with the location tagged to as simple as you liking a post.

This type of doxing is lethal as it is done unknowingly and extremely hard to avoid. OSNs pride themselves as platforms that allow people to connect with each other by sharing - keyword being share. In these platforms, you are encouraged to share more of your personal life and interests in order to connect with others who you may know personally, share the same interests, or both. And it is with this very feature that you may fall victim of doxing. There is this content creator from Tiktok (and I cannot for the life of me remember their username) who does content by finding the real names of his viewers. What happens is that someone will comment on his video saying "I bet you can't find me," and in a matter of minutes he can snuff out that person's government name. Depending on the amount of information available, he does a number of ways to snuff out the name. He opens the commentator's Tiktok account and looks for links to other social media platforms like Facebook and Instagram. From there he can look for full names which are usually found on bios or images. Sometimes when material is scarce, he checks the person's mutual friends to see if they've mentioned the name on their boards or tagged posts. He can even track unrelated accounts that contain the full name through liked posts, tagged locations, and check-ins. The point here is that by sharing, as OSNs encourage us, we are giving more and more material for strangers to find specific information about us. The Tiktoker I mentioned had no malicious intent yet he was able to find people's government names in minutes, what more if it were actual cybercriminals looking for your government name and location?

So how can you avoid falling victim to doxing? Here are five general rules of thumb you must keep in mind.

Rule 1 : Never Overshare When posting something, you should consider the potential consequences it can bring. Ask yourself "can this be used to dox me?" and proceed from there. If you really want to post something, limit personal details to the barebones minimum of what is necessary.

Rule 2 : Practice Exclusivity Not everyone needs to see that you are on vacation at this specific resort or you are going out of the country. Manage who can see your posts and can visit your account - better yet set your account private! If you want to flex being able to travel to other countries or have vacations on fancy places, then flex only to those you know - strangers don't need to be informed about that.

Rule 3 : Turn Off the Tracker Make sure you disable location services and untag locations from your posts. It's more than enough that you're posting about it, no need to tell people where you're precisely located.

Rule 4 : Choose Your Friends Wisely When adding someone as a friend who can view your posts, make sure that they are trustworthy or at the very least you've spent time with them long enough to know they are safe to view your content.

Rule 5 : Clean As You Go If you are done with a certain account of yours, don't just leave it idling - never to be used again. Clear out all information when moving to a new account or better yet deactivate or delete it if possible.

I know there are more out there, but these are just five rules that I live by as someone who has been on the internet long enough to witness the dangers of doxing. I know it will be a huge adjustment if you're not the type to practice these rules, but it does a whole lot in the long run. I've been able to explore OSNs for around a decade unscathed from doxing and hopefully this article will help you do the same as well.

Discussion Dates: 03/05/24 - 03/07/24 Images sourced from Microsoft Bing Image Creator.

[serial-unaliver]

want to elaborate on "defensive reaction to trauma" - the behaviors identified as narcissistic exist ironically as an attempt to prevent future abuse. you want to feel you control every situation and ensure no one sees you as vulnerable. one thing i've done (which is associated with narcissism) is make people feel like they're "walking on eggshells" around me and generally afraid to upset me. I grew up in a violent household in which I had a submissive personality that allowed for significant amounts of abuse. this lead me to view anything other than aggression towards others as being "weak" and that kindness will lead to someone taking advantage of me again. the exact same thing happened to a family member older than me so I also modeled her behavior, seeing that she wasn't being abused anymore. however, narcissistic behavior impacts all your relationships, it isn't actually some sort of shield against harm like people assume ("narcissists can't be hurt" - untrue, narcissists are so insecure and afraid of being hurt they're hurting you FIRST, and will also be easily triggered by anything perceived as making them appear to be the less powerful one in any given situation, even if you aren't trying to put them down, the past warps the reality of the present.)

so what can you do if you have a narcissistic personality to help yourself?

1. remember not everyone is secretly plotting to hurt you - this one takes a long time to learn and you'll have a lot of one-sided beef with people in the process as you make incorrect assumptions about their intentions. for me personally what changed things is every time I asked for advice on these situations, someone was like, "uh it doesn't seem like that person meant to target you at all, they actually meant xyz". and at first this pissed me off and distrust the person who told me that, but then literally everyone, even people I trusted, would say the same thing. I became miserable and frustrated with my relationships and now try to give people the benefit of the doubt rather than automatically assume bad intentions.

2. remember not everyone is competing with you - a conversation with a narcissist can feel competitive because for a narcissist the success of others brings about much hated feelings of inadequacy. however, everyone is going to be proud of their achievements in life, and is not automatically attempting to make you look worse or humiliate you in comparison. this particular mindset in narcissism usually develops after emotional abuse involving putting you down in some way. don't do it to others now.

3. look for positive things in the actions of others - people aren't inherently cruel and depraved. your experiences may have you believing that love isn't real, empathy isn't real, and compassion is inherently manipulative, but it's not true. witnessing people act in ways that involve showing love without demanding anything in return can help you trust more and give you incentive to improve your own behavior. start searching for the good in your interactions instead of the bad.

if you know someone with a narcissistic personality, can you help them?

it depends on your relationship with the person. if you're trusted or respected in some way by the narcissist then your advice will have meaning. even so, though, you'll want to avoid a black-and-white approach. telling someone with a narcissistic personality "you're fully in the wrong" is as effective as telling a psychotic person a delusion isn't real. it's better to 'validate' the feeling and then pick apart the situation a bit and ask questions in good faith that make the narcissist think more about a scenario they made a brash assumption about. this will probably not change anything the first time, the second time, or even the third, but you are gradually instilling a mindset that involves approaching (perceived) conflict in good faith. ultimately since narcissism is defensive, it's difficult to approach, because you're taking to someone who put a barrier up before the conversation even started.

dealing with malignant narcissism

malignant narcissism is narcissism involving sadistic behavior. this involves more purposeful harm associated with abusive relationships. the mindset someone has to reach this point is a rather vengeful one and healing will involve dropping the 'revenge' approach to trauma entirely. malignant narcissists are more likely to lose close relationships and maybe have like, one person sympathetic enough to put up with everything. honestly, there is really no compassionate or understanding approach that will work in response to malignant narcissism, because you're dealing with someone who has as much hate as they have fear. changes in the mindset of a malignant narcissist are most likely to result from consequences once they lose something or someone they needed most. overall, the best thing to do to deal with someone like this is not give them the satisfaction they want: seeing you upset. now to get personal for people who are the ones inflicting the harm: i've distanced myself from some family members due to the way i'd treat them as a result of vindictive jealousy. the reason I decided to avoid engaging in this behavior is it reminded me of my abuser too much. yes, even the people with evil personalities have limits! but seriously, if you aren't healed and know you'll hurt someone, just stay away from them. trying to maintain a relationship involving these feelings of resentment will make you and the other person miserable.

there is no positive connotation to the word 'narcissist' in any context. if i'm talking about what psychs identify in me as 'narcissistic traits' I use the word because the behavior i'm describing is objectively harmful to myself and others. it's very odd to see people attempt to spin it into something positive as a form of anti-ableism.

[taisiakat]

November Energy Reading

For the General Collective

Oracle deck: The Shaman's Dream Oracle by Colette Baron-Reid

Music: Positive Energy & Healing For The Soul

Preface: I took some much needed time away from the focus of doing readings and such and brought my attention to more the here and now with some trauma healing work I needed to do that was more secular in nature and less overarching cosmic.

It helped me put some things into perspective especially in regards to my spirituality, my cosmic existence and this body/life experience I am currently living.

Sometimes we get caught up into the bigger picture that we forget that we are here to live this life and experience these experiences Now.

I don't know what tomorrow will bring but I do know I need to live the now more fully and be present more with these experiences so I can live a more enriched set of experiences.

T.

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Eyes of the Eagle - 18 (r) Body / Physical / Earth

Protection, Inherent trust, Rise above the Fray

An eagle soars high in the sky to have an overall wide view of their territory. They can see miles away, and catch the glimmer of their next meal with their extraordinary sight.

However, that lofty perspective can only work if the eagle is fully engaged in it's surroundings and is well versed in their territory.

Right now your perspective is focused too much about the lofty aspirations and higher potentials and not enough focus on the here, now, this moment to fully embrace and witness the good, the bad and the ugly.

These experiences, challenges, and obstacles are here to help you become the best, the most, the noblest of your self that you can be.

Take time to stop looking to the sky and start looking closer to around you, by you and at your feet. Do not judge but to be willing to hold space for, to say yes to, to just meet these experiences with a NOW present approach.

Yes, it is good to have a lofty view, but if that lofty view starts clouding your ability to see and participate in the NOW, then what is the point of lofty other than keeping your head in the clouds.

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Deep Dive - 10 (r) Emotions / Feelings / Water

Embracing risk, Diving into a task, New discoveries

For those that do journal work, this is for you specifically. Especially if you spend most of your time doing journal work for healing.

Sometimes we go so deep into these spaces and places to heal, that we forget to balance the equation of work by replenishing that cleansing of the 'wound' with something that helps bring enlightenment and engagement of what that experience now means to us, as someone once said to me' Who would I be without this chaos and trauma' - to look within and look out and see how this actually has brought me to where I am.

This does not mean that the trauma, the shadow work of healing is not valuable. No, what it means is once we heal the pain, we need to marvel in the outcome and see how we now are. A better self, a wiser self, someone who has understanding of that trauma, that pain and can help others through.

One of my favorite phrases of 2020 - and still is valid today is: Please put your Universe Oxygen Mask on first before assisting others with their mask.

So take a moment and be proud of what you have accomplished with your healing journey. Explore the new freedoms of feelings and emotions that you can stretch out and experience deeper and more meaningful.

Be grateful for that experience because it brought you to this point and space. You will discover that the healing becomes even stronger and more vivid if you allow yourself to integrate that back into your emotional space without the issues of the trauma and pain.

From a previous post

Remind yourself the following:

There are NO BAD (Negative, lower frequency etc.) feelings.

What you feel is real for you.

Other peoples feelings are real to them

Empathy helps us relate to others and how they feel.

Feelings are NOT behaviors.

Learning how to detach from a feeling does not mean you don't feel the feeling. It means learning how to observe the feeling and understand the feeling so you can respond, not react to the feeling.

Allowing the feelings to integrate and heal - helps you experience life more in the now, instead of from the past.

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Lost Compass - 35 Mind / Mental / Fire

Getting back to integrity, finding the way home, trusting intuition

One of the saddest realizations I had during my mini walk-about, was that we place judgement on aspects of ourselves that are just as important and Body, and Feelings; Our Mind (Id, Ego, Brain) the connector that connects our Body (the movable motion vehicle to experience this 3d experience) and our Spirit/Soul (the ever existing all knowing part that is part of the collective, the Divine, the spark of eternal beingness)

We tell ourselves as spiritualists that we need to stop using the meat mind, monkey mind, grey matter, a bunch of other terms that are judgmental and create conflict for us.

So, as I moved into this secular space of my walk-about, I was confronted with this conflict in myself.

We must realize ALL of our essence is comprised of these parts. Yes, there is an automatic function of the brain/mind that regulates the body functions. But we think, hear, smell, feel, touch, taste in the 3d world, and our mind processes and we have thoughts about them, even if you think the brain is just a switchboard, it still has value and function.

We're taught that ID is bad, EGO is bad. Again, these are man-made beliefs.

So I ask you this month to take a look at what judgement you have placed on your mental/mind, ID/EGO, thinking, processing, intelligence, and work out those traumas, issues, judgement to heal and re-integrate.

REMOVE the JUDGMENTS!

You have a great opportunity to find your mind and become whole again.

Awareness is the key.

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Moon Maiden - 41 Spirit / Spirituality / Air (Higher Purpose / Noble Cause)

New ideas, New Beginnings, Curiosity

This is a new chapter, a new beginning, after doing a quiet silence reflection of where you are, how you are, it is time to take the next step in your growth and power.

Moon Maiden calls to you, be true to this calling. Stand proud, full of energy, light and curiosity, just as the maiden is with her first kiss.

We must balance all aspects of ourselves. Too many spiritualists focus on the 'everlasting', non-corporal experience and that is where they spend a lot of their time and energy healing. This isn't wrong, but if you do not live your life - you will end up missing the pleasures, experiences, and the joys this space has to offer and bring.

So the next time someone in the spiritual space says 'Why are you not doing X' ask them, How will doing X improve my experience in living this life?

You might just be surprised that they don't have a solid answer.

One final note, your path, your journey, your experience is for you. ENJOY IT

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I offer written individual Full Moon, New Moon, Monthly, and weekly readings if you are interested. Contact me for more information.

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Experience, observe, be curious and enjoy! The Last Chance Crone - helping you with your shit when other methods fail

[qualitystoneveneer]

Exploring Stone Panels in the USA: A Detailed Guide to the Elegance and Durability of Modern Architectural Veneers

Introduction

Stone panels have emerged as a remarkable option in architectural design, seamlessly blending timeless aesthetics with modern engineering. As an enthusiast with a penchant for construction and design, I've delved deep into the world of stone panels in the USA. In this article, we'll explore the nuances of stone panels, their benefits, and applications and delve into the credibility of this remarkable material in the construction industry.

Unveiling the Elegance and Durability of Stone Panels

Benefits of Stone Panels

Stone panels, also known as stone veneers, have gained significant traction for their inherent advantages. These panels encapsulate the beauty and authenticity of natural stone while offering a lighter and more manageable alternative. The benefits extend beyond aesthetics:

Aesthetic Appeal: Stone panels exude elegance and sophistication, imparting a timeless charm to any structure. Whether used for exterior cladding or interior accents, stone panels enhance visual appeal.

Weight Advantage: Unlike traditional stone installations, stone panels are lightweight. This characteristic eases installation, reduces the load on the building's foundation, and expands the range of structures that can benefit from stone aesthetics.

Durability: Stone panels are engineered to withstand the test of time and weather. They are resistant to fading, cracking, and erosion, making them suitable for indoor and outdoor applications.

Cost-Effectiveness: Installing natural stone can be cost-prohibitive due to its weight and labor-intensive installation. Stone panels offer a cost-effective alternative that doesn't compromise on visual appeal.

Versatility: From rustic to contemporary, stone panels are available in many styles, textures, and colors. This versatility allows designers to achieve their envisioned look without compromising the material's durability.

Applications of Stone Panels

Stone panels find a diverse range of applications, contributing to the architectural landscape in various ways:

Exterior Cladding: Enhancing a building's exterior with stone panels bestows it with an air of luxury and timelessness. From commercial spaces to residential homes, stone panels add a distinctive touch.

Interior Accents: Stone panels aren't limited to external use. They can transform interior spaces, becoming focal points in living rooms, fireplaces, and kitchen backsplashes.

Landscaping: Beyond the walls, stone panels contribute to landscape design. They can create stunning retaining walls, pillars, and water features.

Commercial Spaces: Stone panels elevate the ambiance of commercial spaces such as hotels, restaurants, and offices. They create a welcoming and impressive environment for customers and clients.

QualityStoneVeneer: A Beacon of Excellence

For those seeking authentic and high-quality stone panels in the USA, QualityStoneVeneer is a reputable and trusted source. With a commitment to delivering top-notch products, their range of stone panels showcases the dedication to craftsmanship and durability.

Conclusion

Stone panels have emerged as a versatile and elegant solution in construction and design. Combining aesthetics, durability, and cost-effectiveness, they have revolutionized how structures are adorned. As someone who has witnessed the transformative power of stone panels, I can attest to their ability to imbue spaces with elegance and timelessness. Whether it's the exterior façade or interior accents, the versatility of stone panels knows no bounds, making them an invaluable asset in architecture. So, embrace the allure of stone panels and embark on a journey to elevate the visual and tactile aesthetics of your living and working spaces.

[you-belong]

A List of 10

I missed this space. I missed the practice of sharing my heart through these words. Thank you for being here.

The past five months provided five years' worth of lessons and growth. Alas, I wish each of these accounts was documented. The following list includes ten of the lessons I was reminded of or newly learned of late:

1. Revisiting past versions of yourself or behaviors is a natural part of a soul’s evolution. Observe the behavior and approach with loving compassion for what your soul is trying to show you. Within the light of your consciousness, you are empowered to decide what patterns no longer support your highest self.

2. There is nothing more nourishing to my spirit than conscious connection with another soul.

For those who can communicate freely from their heart, the opportunity for connection is powerful. By mirroring what I hear or observe, expressing compassion, and offering grace - hearts are forever transformed. I am a living testament to these transformative moments. I would not be alive without the loving witness of countless individuals. 

3. Asking for help is not weakness. Identifying your need for support and acting accordingly is a mark of humility and intelligence. Humans were created to live within a community, supporting one another.

4. Sometimes there is no logical reason why a relationship or circumstance doesn’t align with your present. Learning how to trust your intuition is an essential lesson on the path of spiritual living. 

5. Each day is new. In truth, each moment is ripe with possibility if we can surrender to the present.

On Sunday, I experienced a panic attack for the first time in years. On Monday, the universe provided a miracle in the form of a job. Circumstances can change quickly. If you continue believing in your inherent worthiness, believing you will attract abundance, and trusting that life is teaching you or preparing you for something greater, you will live within the flow of life. Divinely inspired action coupled with the embodiment of surrender will result in miracles. 

6. A person’s unconscious wounding or programming will impact their subconscious mind, consequently manifesting as their conscious reality. 

Recently I became conscious of lingering wounds relating to my worthiness. Affirmations, meditation, plant medicine, and somatic practices help me continually.

7. Your mind’s anxious thoughts are lying to you. You either feel anxious about the past or about a future possibility - both of which are illusory mental projections. The only true reality is the present moment.

In this lifetime, I experienced childhood trauma and identified as someone with a mental illness throughout my 20s. I tried a slew of SSRI and SNRI medications to help me through daily functioning. I say the following with humility and gratitude for the tools and support that kept me alive to pen the following: You are not your anxiety. You are not a diagnosis. You are not the trauma, the abuse, the pain, or the losses. I held onto the identity of “depressed and disabled” because, without these qualifiers, I interpreted my existence as lacking.

 8. Learning to distinguish between anxious thoughts and my intuition is an experience I am actively working through. 

If you learned anything about the latter, I would appreciate hearing your wisdom. (There is a “Contact” option on the blog where you can send me a message). 

9. I no longer associate my worth with a source of income or the amount of money in my account. 

For as long as I can remember, I struggled with the balance between honoring employer commitments and my own physical, interpersonal, or professional needs. For the majority of these employable years, I saw this as a personal failing and a character flaw. I never wanted to leave my being at the front door of a job. Moving forward, I will only accept professional opportunities that align with my values and allow for my self-expression. Beyond a shadow of a doubt, I will always be writing. This is my calling to fulfill. 

10. I need God in this season and in each one before.

I recognize the word “God” is now hollow of meaning for many. God doesn’t belong to one religion or ideology. If the word doesn’t resonate for you, I hope you can feel into the spirit of the word. That being said, I live in constant recognition of my connection to the God essence within all life. I hear a bird’s song, I feel the sunshine on my skin, I observe how a human loves, I experience pieces of art and I am reminded - there is purpose and all of life is connected to this source of energy. 

These personal reflections will not resonate with all, but I share them in hopes that even one person will be encouraged or inspired to reflect. I pray my life is one of constant correction, growth, and opportunities to reflect the truth of your beauty back to you.