#the fucking hidden meanings in that episode alone man

[bapydemonprincess]

*rotates His Butler, In an Isolated Castle episode in my head like at least once every month*

[babyangelsky]

My Favorite Expressions in Love Sea Ep. 9

Holy shit I don't think I have ever felt more relieved watching the penultimate episode of a Thai BL than I did this week. I was expecting doom, I was expecting gloom, and while both were absolutely present, we did not linger there.

This is just my opinion but to me that alone is proof of how much Mame has grown as a writer because for a second there I was fearing another Don't Say No situation.

BUT THIS AIN'T ABOUT THAT LET'S YAP ABOUT MICROEXPRESSIONS

I need to start with my baby because after the horrors last week, seeing her smile means everything to me. Gotta hold onto it as long as I can because we all know what's coming.

And speaking of smiles, this situation is TERRIBLE there are delinquents coming at my man with 2x4's but this feral smile from Mahasamut?

This one is purely for Meena's benefit, to comfort and reassure her but it is genuine, Fort's eyes are very sparkly. He switches gears very quickly when the getaway bike arrives for the thugs though so however chill he seems, he absolutely isn't. He just wants to keep the baby (and Vivi and her friend) calm.

It's very disconcerting to see Vivi this serious.

We're 2/2 on smiles for other people's benefit. My poor girly.

*stares at Viviana* You did this.

This look of pure murderous intent may be one of my favorite expressions Mut has had over this whole show, especially because it's paired with that clenched fist. And I'm going to give extra praise to Fort for it because he doesn't clench his fist until after Tongrak apologizes for what happened and he doesn't open his eyes until his hand is practically trembling from holding it so tightly.

This response doesn't come when Rak tries to blame himself for the beating; it happens when he apologizes for it. Mut isn't angry in the abstract and he isn't angry at Rak, he's angry for him.

I don't like this face, Khun Tongrak. I actually had a moment where I thought to myself, "why can't I read your face right now?" and of course it's deliberate on Peat's part. Even without knowing what we know from the preview, this face would have told us that Something was about to happen.

Or maybe that's just me, I don't know. I've been staring very hard at Peat's face for the past two months.

Watching Tongrak desperately try to steel his nerve after entering the snake pit that is his sperm donor's house is heartbreaking.

As much as I hate to subject you (and myself) to more of Jak's face, I'd like to point out that like last week, his face is in shadow while the face of the person he's speaking to, in this case Tongrak, is catching the light. Also worth noting that Rak's back is quite literally against the wall in this scene.

We see this play with light/shadow again when Rak has a flashback of him from his childhood. Jak has always been a vile, psychopathic snake and his true feelings and intentions have always been hidden behind shadow.

It's horrible to say because there's so much anguish behind it but this is such a beautiful expression. There's a split second where he tries to look angry but it just doesn't work.

I think there's a tiny part of Tongrak that truly believed that tearing up the contract would be what made Mahasamut leave and on the flip side of that, a part that was afraid that the contract was truly the only thing making Mut stay.

GODDAMN THIS IS THE SEXIEST THING MAHASAMUT HAS EVER SAID ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME

For people like Tongrak and for people who can relate to Tongrak in the sense that one or more of the parents we pulled in the great gacha of life are horrible and shitty, there comes a moment where you realize that they aren't actually these huge indestructible monsters. They're human.

And when you realize that and look at them, it's like you're seeing for the first time. There's a weird sort of pity and whatever the opposite of awe is that you feel that's hard to describe. It's a feeling of "...Is that really it? Is that all there is to you?"

That is what Peat is portraying so incredibly in this scene.

BLINDING LIGHT OF LOVE LET'S GOOOOOOO

WILD HORSES, YA'LL! WILD FUCKING HORSES!

Pouty Tongrak face, as a treat.

Mook and Mahasamut were talking about Tongrak and what Mut would do if he got rejected when all was said and done, but Mook's face when Mut says he would accept the rejection tells me she's also thinking about herself and Vivi.

I actually really wish she would've talked to Mut about it directly because god knows girly pop needs to talk to someone about Vivi. Or better yet, Vivi herself.

As for the preview next week, do not even sweat it babes because you know what?

THERE ARE COLORFUL PATTERNS ON TONGRAK'S BODY!

I LOVE GETTING EVERYTHING I WANT!

[cyanidedrinkers]

Wade is very sick

As someone whos had many people go through Cancer treatments or who've had known people that have chosen not to go through treatments it really fucks up your body and what you can eat because most of the time if you do eat you can't keep it down. TW:// Mentions of Cancer, Cancers long term effects, and brief mention of suicide/suicide attempts Give me Wade whos constantly cold Give me Wade who eats a ton then throws it up later because his body rejects it Give me Wade who, When he gets in depressive episodes get very weak and skinny because his body cant keep food Give me Wade who loves smoothies because his body accepts it better but is scared to make them or ask for them out of fear of people asking or it looking to 'girly' (I know Wade doesnt care about that stuff but he does care about how people see him even if he wont admit it) Give me Wade who thrives off of protein shakes Give me Wade whos always drinking water and adding electrolytes to it Give me Wade who is always shaking slightly because his body wants to give up but he wont let it Give me Wade who gets so tired of it all that he shoots himself in the head repeatedly. Always in the woods, Alone. Because he doesnt think he deserves to die with others around him. To let them see how weak he is Give me Wade who doesnt speak about his cancer or how it effects him a lot because he doesnt want to be a burden Give me Wade who eats whatever Logan or anyone else gives him then sobs as his body rejects it later on Give me Wade who becomes anemic because of this Give me Wade who takes pills as a substitute for whatever nutrients he isnt getting Give me Wade whos anemia makes his head dizzy because while his cells regenerate and all he still needs to eat to keep it healthy and functioning properly because his healing factor regenerates his cells not his vitamins or proteins or anything vital to his body Give me Wade who has to grip onto the couch or door whenever he stands up to fast because so he doesnt he passed out Give me Wade who senses a bad episode and hides away to go pass out because his body is failing him Give me Wade who cries at night because he's not the soldier he used to be, He's not the mercenary he used to be, He's not the man he used to be and it hurts him because fuck he used to be everything and now he feels like he's nothing Give me Wade who works himself to the bone when no ones looking and passes out or faints more then he likes to tell people because damn it he's Wade Fucking Winston He's Deadpool He's the merc with the mouth NOT the merc that faints NOT Wade anemic Winston NOT Deadbody Give me Wade. That despite everything, Despite what he can do, Is in pain. In more ways than his skin hurting, Show me the aftermath. Show me the brutal long term effects of cancer because he cant heal those. He cant heal everything and he kicks himself for it every day Acknowledge the side of Cancer that's not talked about much Give me Wade who has his dog tags but keeps them hidden with lung, liver, prostate, and brain cancer charms added onto them. Talk about the long lasting effects of Cancer in Wade. They're very much present and can happen to him. Break this man down and show the nasty gruesome side thats not acknowledged. Wade is a Cancer patient that has allowed many kids to have hope. Allow them to see their symptoms in him too. Show them that they're normal and okay. And by all means, If you know anyone with cancer or that has beaten it check in on them. Because their may be affects they wont tell anyone, And if you have a history of cancer please get screened at some point. Cancer is a deadly thing in any form and my heart goes out to those who have it and those who've beaten it. I love ya'll <3 Stay updated on your health.

[sonicasura]

Kaiju No 8's Kafka Hibino gets dropped into the Godzilla/Kong Monsterverse, how much trouble will he cause?

His kaiju form is no doubt an Alpha if you look at episode 2 of the anime or the manga. Would Godzilla get extremely pissy like he did in Godzilla vs Kong? Maybe although the big guy will have trouble finding Kafka if he stays in human form.

Well, imagine our dear himbo being stuck as Kaiju No 8 throughout the entire stay! The mini kaiju that gave Kafka his powers would definitely hold the transformation as the monsters in the Monsterverse are walking radioactive massive disasters. Not small fry like the unnumbered Kaiju and Honju.

Kafka would absolutely have a meltdown for a few hours before coming up with a game plan. (He has another meltdown as I don't think he can age if stuck in Kaiju form.) His plan is affected by where or when he ends up in the timeline. Movie wise, Kong Skull Island is the earliest as the main events begin in 1973.

A good start considering the Iwi Tribe's connection to Kaiju specifically Kong could prove helpful to Kafka if stranded there. He can get a better handle at his abilities and begins to fully understand the monsters in this universe. Or how a displaced himbo somehow dads fucking King Kong.

If he makes it to civilization, then I bet our himbo would start up his very own Monster Sweepers. There are plenty of messes that kaiju had stirred while Monarch was being secretive. Kafka can still wear clothing so he can cover himself up to his hide appearance.

He's bound to encounter Godzilla a bit early as Skull Island kept Kong hidden by its massive storm wall. Kafka getting roared in the face and the man just gives Big G his version of 'Why are you yelling?!'. The himbo wants to get this latest mess climbed up so he can eat some soba.

Kafka being such a non hostile weirdo probably keeps Godzilla from pursuing a fight. Doesn't mean he leaves the man alone. Godzilla instead becomes that one kid who likes to watch frogs and occasionally be a nuisance to the frequent stray cat by booping their nose.

Poor Kafka tried to chill on the beach only for his new gigantic stalker to show up by splashing him with a small tidal wave. Monarch just in panic mode as they don't understand why Godzilla keeps emerging so randomly. Fully unaware he's there to bully the teeny tiny strange kaiju who likes to mingle around humans.

Even when Kafka shows his true power to help stop the latest kaiju causing trouble, Godzilla still be the asshole cat(affectionate) in this scenario. Sitting right on his front porch and in the way of the door so he has to go out the window to leave. (I had to balance Good yet Mischievous boy Kong so Respectful Asshole Godzilla.)

Kafka may absolutely scare the shit out of every human character but they'll learn he's just a giant dork. Lol

[ellsieee]

Enter fiancée stage left. I was prepared for pain, and I got it. At this point, I want both Jiwoon and the fiancée to run far far away. (I will probably change my tune next week when Suk makes me feel terrible for Taeha in some way.)

Jiwoon is settling himself in Taeha's life, staying at his house, and waiting for him to come home. He's choosing to ignore that he is the third party in this triangle, with the romantic hope that Taeha will choose him and everything will work out somehow.

I love Jiwoon's expressions here. It's just the right mix of amused and sarcastic. I cackled at Jiwoon saying he's sure there's no other woman... Taeha is cheating with a MAN! Suk being dramatic again lol. @.archiveofmystuff and I both think that Sohee knows about Jiwoon, but I think that at first she wasn't sure, which is why she is probing about "another woman".

But after she saw the looks that Taeha and Jiwoon were giving each other, she knew. And that's why she talked about her and Taeha's honeymoon plans, starting a family, and told Jiwoon to date and get married. She's basically telling him to back the fuck off.

It's hilarious that Sohee is getting hate, with people saying that she's a schemer and needs to stop getting between the boys. 💀 Are we forgetting that Sohee is well within her rights to be hostile to Jiwoon (even though she isn't). He's screwing her fiancé! He's the "homewrecker"! Taeha is a big cheater! She is the only one who shouldn't be getting hate in this scenario. 🙄

Oof. THE ANGST. How could Sohee not know? What bestie looks that pained when congratulating their friend on their marriage? No, that's the look of a jilted ex.

I literally shouted YESSSSS when Jiwoon roughly flung Taeha's hand away. Finally Jiwoon is doing what it takes to remove himself from this toxic cycle. Let's see how long his resolve lasts...

Oh.my.god 😭😭😭. Jiwoon getting a harsh reality check of what his relationship with Taeha is was painful but necessary. He needed to see that he's the "dirty" hidden secret, that Taeha isn't ready to commit to any decision, and that they're hurting someone that doesn't deserve this deception.

I love this last line. I love that Jiwoon tells Taeha point blank that he's going to destroy everyone and everything if he keeps doing whatever he wants. Taeha definitely needed to hear it.

I think there's going to be a part 2. I can't imagine being able to wrap things up in just one episode, even if Taeha ends up alone. There's just too much still unresolved.

Funny side note: The early release episodes sometimes has hilariously horrible subs. In Bad Guy, they have been consistently subbing hyung as oppa. When Jiwoon is delivering emotional lines, calling Taeha hyung, I read oppa and burst out laughing. They usually do fix the subs later, but it's weird the subs are so bad to begin with. Even G translate shouldn't be that bad.

There was one line from the bad sub (top) that I liked better than the good sub. I think guy code of honor is funnier and still carries the same meaning.

[kanmom51]

My opinion on the whole coming out issue,

I just want to start with a quote from a kdrama I recently watched. I'm sure some of you have watched it, it's called Business Proposal. Basically there's a whole sub-narrative about a "hidden relationship"

Episode 10 from Kang Tae moo "Who cares, I am just hugging my girlfriend. I can't wait for the entire world to know about us"

Knowing Jungkook has watched it too, I really wonder what did he feel hearing this, but it really gave me the "Keep on being jealous, I will keep holding my Jiminie" vibe.

This brings me to GCFs. The videos are surely an avenue for Jungkook to express his feelings to the world. And I am one of those who believe GCF Tokyo was a statement. I wasn't here when it came out, but I've heard a lot of people at that time thought this was a coming out. I mean, even until now, when we look at the comment section, a lot of strangers/non bts fans think it's a cute couple travel video. This just says a lot about how unbiased people perceive the video. GCF Saipan was a subtle statement too. It's no coincidence that out of all members, only Jimin appeared along the lines "I don't wanna lie no more, I don't wanna hide no more".

For those reasons alone, I don't think they want to hide forever. They are doing it now simply because they have no choice, due to the current climate. Yes, coming out is a risk and it can impact the other members and their careers, but you know what? Everyone in the industry is in the same boat here. Every idol face huge risks whenever a relationship is revealed. Whether it's straight or gay. We have all witnessed the many scandals in the past. And it is bound to happen to BTS members too. Them being under the biggest spotlight in Korea for years and years to come. Plus they won't be able to keep up with the "I am innocent, single, and I will marry army' narrative forever. In the future, if ever one of the member's relationship comes to light, I believe the other members will follow too. They will take the bullet together as a group. Plus, they are so big now. They have nothing to loose. A scandal here and there will never break them. Their huge international fanbase benefits them, simply because I feel like we are much more accepting in terms of dating scandals and lgbt+ issues. Also their whole vibe right now is shifting to "idgaf anymore about what people will think"

Change is coming! I may sound too much of a utopist right now, but I really believe that in the future we'll be able to see all of the members enjoy their life with their respective partners happily, freely without having the burden to hide and lie. Regardless of their orientation.

Another one from the vault.

Like deep deep in the back of the vault.

Doing some Spring cleaning in Autumn...

Kind of strange looking at these words in May 2023. With hiatus, solo debuts, almost no ot7 content and even less Jikookery.

I guess the climate, the SM purchase debacle, enlistment, all had an impact on them.

You were talking, anon, about a member in a relationship and it getting out... well, we saw how that's going for Tae, haven't we? Given, he hasn't admitted to it yet, but man, even before he has parts of this fandom (and another one to remain unnamed) went feral.

I have talked about them 'coming out' many times. My opinion being that they won't, not fully that is, not announcing "we're a couple". Not to say that I don't wish that one day we all live in a world where they can do that and will do that without having to worry about their safety, their livelihood, their families.

But that day is not here yet.

What I do see though, especially now after JM's folio and Face and JK struggling so so hard to not throw it all to the wind scream "fuck it all" and shout it out loud for all to hear, is that as of where they are to date, and unless anything drastic happens between now and their discharge from the military, things will change after they get out.

They might not say things out loud, but they definitley won't be holding back as much. Definitely not as much as they are now, and not as much as they were even going back to 2021-2022 (LV Jikook).

You said "change is coming".

Sadly, after that change did come, but not for the better.

What I'm hoping for is for good change to come as soon as they have this hump called MS off their backs.

We know they will have a lot to say and do, changes will be made... AFTER (sadly, we know this by RM's privacy being breached).

So, we will sit here patiently, us supporters, the people that love JK and JM separately and together, the people that love BTS, their music, what they stand for and the members as individuals as well, and hope that by mid 2025 we will get to see them all on the other side of this fuckery.

[bambiraptorx]

Okay, my long overdue infodump about yokai medicine/painkillers is here. Just as a heads up, there will be discussion of and reference to a variety of drugs, drug use, and addiction.

There are three main forms of treatment used to deal with pain: pharmaceutical drugs similar or identical to the ones used by humans, potions, and spells. For now, I'll focus on pharmaceutical type medications.

So, to begin, I do need to address the fact that the yokai population has an immense level of biodiversity, from skeletons to insects to dragons. This means that the use of medicine is probably incredibly complicated, as a given substance can has wildly different effects on different species--not to mention that even within a species a compound can have different results (see: stimulants and how they have drastically different effects for people with ADHD than for neurotypicals).

Add to that the fact that we also see a large variety of sizes for different yokai, from Exploding Frankie (maybe a foot tall) to the colossal building-sized creatures we see walking around int he first episode of the show, and you've got a very complex problem. (Size is relevant in figuring out dosages because drugs often have different effects at different doses, but also because larger people tend to need more to have an effect in the first place. A dose that would kill a mouse probably wouldn't kill a 6 foot tall man, for example, but depending on the exact drug it might still mess him up a lot.)

This means that it would be very difficult to, if not impossible, to properly categorize a chemical based on its effects. Sure, they know Adderall works as a stimulant and opiates are painkillers for humans, but how does that translate to a slime yokai who doesn't even have a nervous system? How do you effectively (and ethically) figure that out when the population of slime yokai is extremely limited? In all honesty, you probably don't.

(As a side note, it's fairly important that for the drugs humans use, they go through large amounts of animals trials before ever being tested on people to a) make sure the drug actually has the effect it's meant to, b) figure out what potential side effects might crop up, and c) find out what a lethal dose is. That's because we can reasonably compare the reactions of animals to what we might see in a human body. For large amounts of the yokai population, that comparison probably does not work.)

So yokai can, in dire circumstances, use substances that humans would (as painkillers, sedatives, etc) but it would be very difficult to know what dosages are safe for a given species, if any are. This would also mean that the Hidden City probably has a very different approach to drug education: less "ooh these drugs are evil and you'll get addicted immediately if you ever try them" and more "just because meth acts as a stimulant for humans doesn't mean it can't kill you at half the dose it takes them to even get an effect so be fucking careful".

I would imagine that drug regulation works very differently in the Hidden City out of necessity. After all, you can't even reliably say what effects a given chemical has, let alone recommend a dose for people to use. In a lot of cases, the best that the HC can do is probably enforce purity standards and proper labeling of products so that at the very least, people know what chemical they're actually getting and how much of it.

Which of course means that their legal system is entirely different when it comes to drug related crimes, because the use/possession of drugs is something that cannot effectively be criminalized when a pill that would cause an overdose in one person would act as a mild cough suppressant in another. (That and the whole idea behind making drugs illegal in the first place is to prevent addiction by making access harder, which... is a bit of a weird premise in the first place? but that's a whole other rant. Yes, use declines somewhat when the drug is made illegal, but it also makes it much harder for addicts to get the treatment they need when drug use is criminalized.)

Given the length of this post I think I'll cut it off here and edit with links when I get the other topics covered lmao.

Part 2 Part 3

[bengiyo]

Shadow Ep 4 Stray Thoughts

Last time, GIRLS. Girls from their sister school visited to workshop and then held auditions for Hamlet. A girl named Cha-aim took a shine to Dan, and Nai noticed! I like Cha-aim; she knows herself and told Josh to take a chill. Earlier, Nai took Dan with him to see a monk, who gave us some lore about defunct practices to float bodies down to the lake to help manage wild ghosts. The monk also taught Dan about lucid dreaming, giving us all new horrors to consider including domestic violence, institutionalization, and drowning. We left at Dan seeing the ghost of his father, which Nai confirmed, and the drama teacher told Dan that his father was in a coma.

Lots of trigger warnings for this episode including domestic violence, guns, institutionalization, suicide, child abuse, and cancer.

Oof, Dan definitely does not care for his father.

Let me just say that I greatly appreciate how they aren't lightening everyone's skin in this show.

Episode 4: Chess

Of course they put Nai in a closet. 🙄

The Brother really believed that excuse? More likely he just wasn't concerned.

Oh, here comes the terrible backstory. Bracing.

We've seen Took quite a few times around GMMTV, Dee Hup House, and such. She worked with Singto a bit on Friend Zone. I haven't seen Kik myself before, but he's experienced.

Thankfully, Dan wasn't hit by that bullet, but of course the mom was institutionalized and not the dad who's drunk and beating his family.

Incredible lighting choices on this hospital scene where the mom is unwell. She's in the blue, and Dan is in orange.

I am a person who believes in forgiveness, but I wouldn't spend my energy trying to make Dan forgive his dad.

Oh, interesting. Why is Anurak addressed as a priest in the past but only as a brother now? I've never heard of someone giving up holy orders but maintaining his vows. Tempted to view this as a means of avoiding cultural confusion with the dad.

Man, this dad is insufferable.

I don't like this goodbye at all. She's going to hurt herself and she knows it.

I'm so sad that Dan is the one who found her.

When he says he met someone at home and such... I hope this isn't a different kind of abuse.

Dan spends years alone with a drunk, abusive dad.

Holy fuck. Is Dan allergic to shellfish and he forced him to eat shrimp? He tried to kill his own son. What the fuck.

Whose identity is hidden in this shadow, and are they the person who potentially abused Dan?

Okay, I do love when a supernatural element lets us have moments like this. This was so ugly and foreboding, but it is one of the most stylistic and impactful things I've seen all year.

What the fuck happens to Dan every time he goes into the water, and why is he seeing Trin again??

I'm so heavy after that episode. That was so ugly. The implications of abuse surrounding Dan are so worrisome, and I'm also worried about that last gross line about becoming like his father before he died. I suppose if we had to start doing horror BL, I'm glad it's as emotionally nuanced as this and reckoning with the reality of this kind of trauma.

[wickedmoonlite]

KinnPorsche Rewatch 2023

Reminder: as we go into heavier topics in KP (dub-con/non-con, toxic behaviors, etc.), I will not be doing deep dives. I'm planning on taking this just below surface value as these are literally thoughts I have in the moment as I'm watching. Thank you.

Episode 6 Random Thoughts

FOREST EPISODE FOREST EPISODE FOREST EPISODE. Literally my favorite episode of the series. I like shows and movies where the relationship is the plot. So having an episode almost entirely dedicated to the blossoming relationship between Kinn and Porsche with little outside involvement is v good. Also, I really wish we could see the gentle, caring, silly, soft, carefree side of K more after this episode. We see glimpses later but nothing like this, when KP are well and truly alone together.

The super aggressive rock, paper, scissors is sending me.

And the fact that Kinn keeps bringing them back to the same spot and then Porsche does exactly the same thing before they just happen upon a little creek by sliding into it (though if it was really that close, how did they not see it 😬)

The betrayal after P spits on K lol

How far do they walk every day and back to get to the truck and creek though??

Kinn... Regular rocks do not start fires. Flint does though. Also lighters 👉👉

Porsche is such a shit.

Pete trying his darndest to stay hidden like Vegas definitely doesn't see him sitting in the car... The windows aren't even tinted dude (which I know is for filming purposes but come on).

The fucking smirk on Vegas's face when Pete finds the condoms then yells though.

K is trying so hard to catch a fish. Then P just pulls out some fruit like "lol I found this, keep trying for the fish tho."

The childlike wonder in K's expression and manner while P catches his fish and then he catches his own is so cute.

Apo looks so cold in the waterfall scene (I haven't watched the BTS for this episode but apparently he almost became hypothermic, the dedication ugh).

Porsche wants more kisses, Kinn. For the love of all that is holy, kiss your man.

I love that they get to know each other by sharing their dreams. It's such a nice little reflective moment where they get to know each other more and I appreciate it muchly.

The fact that Porsche really does "remember" the car crash just shows how suggestable our brains are as children. There are memories I have to this day where I'm not sure if it actually happened or was just a dream or something and my brain turned it into a memory.

They really should have tried to get a running start for that jump. Also, that was a pretty good distance they fell. Very surprised nothing was broken after that.

I really can't blame K for not wanting to go back, honestly. He must have so much on his shoulders as the heir (I mean, obviously).

"One strike, okay?" With... a pocket knife?? Yeah that's definitely gonna go through bone with one strike, P.

I like that K encourages P to leave... Because he knows it's best for P.

I LOVE how Apo acts this scene (honestly the whole sequence including after the bad guys show up) after Kinn tells him to get out of there... You can really see the man go, "Shit. I have to do this first." And then turns around and gives such a good feeling kiss. Ugh. K clenching his shirt because for him, it's the last time he'd see P and he doesn't want to let him go. Then the focus on the cuffs they'd just been wearing for who knows how many days as a symbol of them together and the journey they just went on and the falling in love. It's all so good.

P really said "you're not getting my man, fuck you." And then K gets shot 🙃

Then the look of, oh my god I really almost got away from here but now I'm trapped again, fuuuuuuuuuuuuck.

Another long one. So sorry, but not too sorry. I appreciate all of you who read these rambling text posts very much ❤

Rest day tomorrow, which I kind of need because adulting and work. I shall see you all on the 8th for episode 7. Thanks for reading, y'all.

[sundere1181]

unraveled au master post because I'm bored and I don't want to do school (also known as me info dumping about my silly little separated turtles for an ungodly amount of time)

After Draxum’s lab exploded, Splinter grabbed the turtles, just like in the show, but he dropped Raph on the outskirts of the Hidden City, who ended up being found by Malicious Mickey and raised by the Mud Dogs. Splinter gets to the surface and places the three remaining turtles in a box and goes to find food but gets recaptured by Big Mama. (wandered a little close to the lion's den [her hotel]) Mikey and Leo escape the box and wander off, (Donnie is asleep so he doesn't follow them) being found by Tim Dunkman, (the crazy basketball billionaire from the Air Turtle episode) who sells Mikey to Jessica Jacyln (the referee from the wrestling episode) and keeps Leo for himself. Eventually Alex Noe (The dentist from the todd scouts episode) finds Donnie alone in a box crying his tiny little heart out and brings him home to raise him.

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Personalities:

Leo was raised with little worth other than publicity and as a money maker, which had Leo end up as not only a rich kid, but an insecure people pleasing anxious rich kid who hides behind money, ego, and his stupid fucking sunglasses. he's (and Mikey, tbh) big with always trying to keep his image up, so he doesn't get mauled by media. This means that while Raph and Donnie are totally okay with breaking the law on the surface (No consequences, Donnie lives in the woods and Raph lives in the hidden city), Leo is strongly against it.

Raph was raised as a ruthless criminal, but he still has his morals and high empathy. He won't rob orphanages or schools with his dads and likely tried to adopt stray animals a lot (didn't really work out most of the time) He's the only one who really remembers his brothers, but it's a really faint memory, more like "I feel like there's other things like me out there" then "I have brothers." He's constantly on the lookout for other turtles (And used to attend the battle nexus regularly, but the feeling of recognition he got from looking at the rat-man champion freaked him out and he stopped)

Donnie is like, actually insane with the dentists. He really embraced his evil scientist side growing up, but more evil dentist. A lot of experiments and accidents with his teeth happened when he was younger, and now his teeth are all fucked up and weird, so he wears a facemask 24/7 to hide it. He's my insane little blorbo, on instinct he checks everyone's mouth the SECOND he meets them and has absolutely zero qualms about just stickin his hands in there (He always has clean three fingered gloves and hand sanitizer handy). He also has no qualms about anesthetizing and kidnapping anyone he meets that has unique teeth. (This is how he meets Raph for the first time)

Mikey is similar to Leo in a lot of ways, except since he's the huge champion of Jessica's ring, he relies more on his fighting/wrestling skills. It's basically what he's built his whole personality on. he will attack anyone on sight if they give the slightest sign of attacking. (this is how him and Donnie's first meeting goes)

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Since I thought it was kind of an impossible coincidence that all the turtles in this au would get the same Renaissance names, I gave them all different ones and tbh I think this coincidence is funnier.

Leo: Tim literally just named him after the basketball team. His given name is Viper. He nicknamed himself Leo and likes it better and usually introduces himself as it with certain new people, but his billboards and media and other shit call him Viper. (Including Tim)

Mikey: Given name is Micheal, but stage/wrestling name is Divino and he’s so attached to it that he just introduces himself as Divino most of the time. 

Raph: Given name is Ruthless Raphael, and when he meets Donnie and tells him that Donnie’s like “Well that's way too long what If I just call you Raph” and Raph’s like “But :(((( The ruthless part :((((“ and donnie’s like “Okay compromise what if I call you Raph and it sounds the same but if you spell it out it’s RRaph with two r’s” and then RRaph’s cool with it

Donnie: Only one where his actual given name is Donatello, but he has a lot more titles. Since dentists are technically doctors he calls himself “Dr Donnie” (Even though he’s 1. Two young for any kind of certificate or doctorate 2. Wouldn’t be able to get one anyway (turtle) but it doesn’t really matter the whole dentist gang is super illegal anyway no one really cares) and he has a whole rehearsed introduction that he says every time he meets someone that goes kind of like “My name is Donatello, Dr Donnie, or Dentitello, but you can just call me Donnie” or something stupid like that. And the first time he meets Leo Leo interrupts him in the middle of it and Donnie is REALLY offended. (Dentitello is a nickname given to him by his little nephew)(I could ramble about his nephew and the relations between everyone in the dentist gang[although its more like a coven] but this is not the place)

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Designs (Because I can't draw very well yet and I'm much better at describing things anyway):

Leo: Literally just a mini Dunkman (same sunglasses/gold rings n shit). He wears a similar outfit that he does in the Air Turtle episode but with a letterman jacket over it and without those stupid ugly ass fucking goggles.

RRaph: He has wrappings on his hands like HG and a red jacket like LL. He has a red bandana, but it’s tattered and dirty because 1. It was a gift from MM and he hardly ever takes it off and 2. It was ripped from an old t-shirt so it looks a little wonky and you can see some of the seams and the faded design that used to be on it. He wears it around his neck like a scarf, and has a red hat like Danny has on his head. He has a bunch of scars all over his arms and. Well. everywhere tbh (he lives on the streets with some of the most notorious criminals in the hidden city he’s gotta have gotten hurt multiple times) He also probably has parts of his shell broken or chipped off. Overall just very battle worn but he’s still a softie even though he won’t hesitate to kill you (As long as you’re not a child and have done something worth being killed) <3

Mikey: He really leans into the wrestler persona, to the point he wears his costume almost 24/7. His mask and gloves look a little something like these:

Except yk. a little more high quality and fitted to his unique turble body. (the gloves being more orange). He probably puts a bunch of gold and orange stickers on his shell and plastron to match the theme.

Donnie: His battle shell and all of his weapons are tooth/mouth themed. He got way into SFX makeup at one point when he was a kid and his magnum opus project he made while in that stage was his main battle shell that he wears around the dentists. he designed it basically to look like teeth are just growing out of his back while also giving significant protection. He has others but they're mostly plain purple or white. His goggles are more the same that they are in canon except less crooked and whiter.

I think that's it for now. i might add to this (Thank god Tumblr posts are editable)

Thank you for reading :)

[ask-percyparker]

A moment.

Percival found himself once again scouring the ruins of Rapture, looking for and documenting anything noteworthy. He couldn’t really tell how long has it been since he ended up here. Maybe days. Or a week. The sun and the Surface means so little at the bottom of the sea.

That is until the sound of falling debris descending from above down to the seafloor. Percy caught when he was taking a break from writing for a moment.

Scraps of metal. Luggage and it’s contents. Bits and pieces of what he could’ve only guessed what used to be an airplane fell. A plane must’ve crashed.

Freak accident..? Who knows.

Percy’s radio crackled to life, nearly causing him to jump. But he quickly tuned in to hear the voice of one M.J. Watson.

“Percy,” he said, “Think a plane just crashed. Do you think we’ll have company?”

“Not sure,” Percy answered as he watched the wreck, “Based on what I can see from here, I’d be surprised if anyone got out of that alive.”

A beat passes before M.J. responds.

“Maybe. Maybe not. We won’t know until—wait. Wait hold on… I think someone is coming into Rapture. Be careful, Tiger. We don’t know who’s on the other side.”

The radio dies down. Percy was once again alone for a moment. Trudging through the waterlogged streets of Rapture, he slowly made his way to investigate. Like he always did.

He tentatively entered the bathysphere port, the very same place he came from not too long ago. The flickering lights that showered Percy in brief episodes of darkness did little to comfort him as he remained hidden, trying to get a view of who was about to emerge.. But it seems someone else made it there before he did.

Two other forces actually. What appeared to be a regular man, a survivor being cornered by a splicer as the bathysphere rose from the water.

Don’t get involved.. Don’t get involved..

Percy shut his eyes as the splicer tore into her catch, jumping onto man as she stabbed the poor bastard with her two hooks, gutting him much like a fish. He gurgled, as he was tossed aside. Blood split on the floor. The splicer’s attention was now on the Bathysphere.

“Fuck this,” Percy muttered as he turned tail and ran as he heard the sound of the splicer screaming as she tore the electrical wiring in the port.

Maybe I’ll find ‘em later… Hopefully not as a corpse.

As soon as the splicer ran off, a young, reedy looking man soaked in sea water timidly steps out. He couldn’t be older than Percy. A 20-something for sure, with reddish brown hair and a bit gaunt looking.

The bathysphere’s radio crackled to life, nearly causing the newcomer to jump. An unfamiliar voice of a woman speaks to him.

“Now would you kindly pick up that shortwave radio?”

[marley-flores]

Marley stared at him for a long second. "Thank you." She just commented before sharing anything. Finally some common sense. "Alright so... You know me, sometimes I craft some things, weapons, traps, this kind of stuff. This time I did some smoke bombs, different types of smoke bombs. You had the basic foggy one, and the lacrymo one, or like I call it, the letal not so letal one. Spoiler alert, they both worked so fucking well Jimmy. But anyway, I did them but I couldn't just try them here, at least not the lacrymo one. So I waited, because of the Daybreakers episode and everything. And I waited. And the pot of gold thingy started. Raiders went outside, I was like, okay, maybe we're good, they seems more chill, they encourage people to do gifts and probably ask raiders about some random stuff. Plus we eat meat again, meaning the hunters are also active, we're should be good. Enough time had passed. New spoiler alert, maybe I was wrong okay. Anyway, I go outside, I double my usual precautions because well, shitty dudes are maybe in the region. So many miles, so many miles Jimmy, seriously I lost my cardio with Redwood, I felt so old. But again, anyway, I tried my grenades, huge success it worked like I wanted. I'm outside so I'm like, okay let's use this time to find this fucking little pieces of engine hidden deep deep in the engine. So I put apart different stuff. Victory by the way, I finally have what we needed for the cultivator and the washer. Happy Marley walked back to Redwood, all the precautions yada yada, and too many miles but hey I'm like "maybe this time I'll sleep once home." No tracks, no one, no problems, I'm a ninja Jimmy, a ninja. I see the walls of Redwood after I don't know how many hours. And on my last fucking stealth check, I do a one. It was like a cartoon, one branch, just one, it was ridiculous how noisy this thing was. A fucking joke. So of course, of course one second later Zack and Ermano are in front of me, knives out and pissed as shit. And at this point Jimmy, I was just like "fuck, two bad cops". The conversation goes wrong so quickly. I'm like, alright, let's be honest, no reason to lie. So I use the word "bomb". Huge mistake! It was like saying it at the airport, in front of two military dudes. Of course they saw me like some kind of terrorist after that. Of course! So we speak, I try to explain, I'm calm, they're not. So again, they don't like it. They both keep their stupid knives in hand. Uuugh... After one eternity of salty conversation. I'm outside and they go speak with the council or whatever. I go to the cemetery, meet Colin, who by the way, was cute, he feeded me and listened to all the salt I had this day because of the two alpha men attitude. Ike comes, I go to the council, I answer like two or three questions. Again Zack is pissed. At this point the temptation was just so fucking big man, I had to annoy him as much as I could. Plus I was pretty sure they were going to banish me for good at this point, because you know council of four, two military men in it, both really mad with what I did. I was like "okay it's doomed." But hey, plostwist, it wasn't! I love Rene, pretty sure she saved my ass. So yeah, that's it, I can stay, I can't go outside, it's my final chance yada yada. Oh they also searched my place for I don't know what, probably more bombs since I'm a terrorist. And yeah, that's it, moral of the story, don't go outside alone, don't use the word bomb, don't say to Zack to piss off." She finished with a big big big sigh, out of spit.

"I'll let her know , she has a potential other client. " Jimmy replied . He made himself comfortable next to her, as if the story was one to be listened to like a podcast. "Why would I lecture you ? You've already got the lecture. You cannot keep punishing someone over and over for a fault they did. Go ahead, explain the details of how you ended up in that situation. "

[resident-sean-expert]

Why I don't like these two images :

Let me explain :

Chapter 58 is one of my favorites because Taneda's "murder" scene is one of the moments in the manga that I enjoy the most

And I hate how it's going to be staged in the anime

I'm only basing my opinion on two images, and maybe the day I'll see the episode I won't be disappointed, but for now I want to talk about the gaps between the anime and the manga.

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So to begin with I hate the fact that in the anime they decided to add a chair.

That leaves us with two possible events :

> Taneda has just been stabbed by Sigma, and decides to sit on a chair afterwards. Ranpo comes

> Taneda is stabbed, Ranpo comes and decides to put Taneda on a chair

And this chair, according to me, destroys the whole angsty aspect of this scene.

Indeed in the manga, the first image we see is this :

A hand trying in vain to reach the door.

Taneda lies on the ground, completely bloody, and tries to move as he can with the little strength he has.

He is reduced to a maggot.

This was meant to show how cruel Sigma's act was.

No there is no chair to gently welcome Taneda, the only support Taneda could get was Ranpo and the wall.

Otherwise he would have died alone on the floor (like a shit)

In the manga, in order for Taneda to speak properly to Ranpo, he had to slide on the floor to lean his back against the wall, he's slumped, tired.

And here dying 😃

So yes, the fact that he fell from the chair gives a dramatic side, but why would an empty chair be planted in the middle of the room ?

The discussion between Sigma and Taneda was done standing up, as equals, at no point did Taneda sit down to talk to Sigma.

When Taneda was on the floor, in pain, Sigma's first action was to look at the camera without regard for the man underneath him.

Sigma wanted to kill the man, he failed, but it was still an act done in cold blood.

This scene was meant to show how much Sigma is willing to break the law in order to protect his casino, to show how ruthless he can be in a desperate situation.

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Now let's talk about the second image :

So yes, when I first saw the image I thought it was beautiful, the symbolism behind it is wonderful, but in the meantime it makes no sense.

Who drew on the wall with blood ?

It couldn't have been there before the meeting, there's no way Taneda would decide to have a meeting in a room where a murder happened.

So you're telling me that Sigma deliberately took Taneda's blood and drew on the wall?

Yeah, it's a good imagery, but there's no way Sigma would do that.

1) he doesn't have the time

2) he's not a proud criminal.

The act of stabbing Taneda was not done for fun, it was done out of pure desperation. Sigma does not brag about his failed murder.

So yes it could be painting, but I would find it even more ridiculous.

Now the meaning of the illustration :

Here Ranpo gives the impression of being a saint, a saviour who came to help Taneda.

Eyes are hidden in the wings, reminding us of his ability to be almost omniscient thanks to his super intelligence.

He gives the feeling that he is "hope", which in fact is the case.

But in the manga, Ranpo was not calm and composed, he seemed distraught.

I counted the number of times his eyes opened : 9 times

In the manga, the one who was shining was Taneda, not Ranpo.

It's Taneda who has all the information about the Book and who kindly told Ranpo to shut the fuck up while Ranpo's first instinct was to call for help.

Taneda was ready to die right here, in order to give Ranpo all the necessary information.

Ranpo was not omniscient at that moment, he is an adult who just saw an authority figure close to Fukuzawa at death's door.

This scene was supposed to show the urgency of the situation, Ranpo's panic and Sigma's coldness (who also panics internally)

And if Taneda hadn't saved his strength to stay conscious, the rest of the manga could have been different.

It was Taneda's moment, which shows the impact and the importance that this man have (thanks to his ability, which I recall allows him to know the nature of an ability if it is activated near him)

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I just needed to express my dissatisfaction ^^

I understand that in the anime they won't take 10 minutes to animate this scene, and that to mark the spirits they drew a cross on the wall and the wings + Taneda falling from his chair.

In the meantime I would have preferred something simpler, faithful to the manga.

Taneda laying of the floor half dead, and Ranpo worried.

Mostly what I like about the manga is that Taneda smiles in this situation, and I strongly hope they will do it in the anime otherwise I'll be severely disappointed 😁

That's it, that's the post ^^

[usertoxicyaoi]

OMG i am drained, they are ao unhealthy for each other. They are SOOO wrong for each other but cant survive without each other. Vegas looked desperate, like this is Vegas who calmly and coldly tortured a man, who kills without fliching but just unkept and lost without Pete. So toxic and codependent but i love them!!!!

hiiiii anon!!!!

gosh. the codependency. the codependency.

like. up until now we've been edging closer and closer with vegaspete in terms of them both gradually bringing out the Worst in one another.

and today's episode was the dam breaking. it burst. and i have been WAITING ON MY KNEES just for this. to see them both RUIN each other to this capacity. today's episode was a culmination of everything going on since ep 10 onwards, including how they both have SEEN each other, KNOW each other, their goods and their uglies, and are so fucking attracted to one another in terms of what they bring to one another and in what they see in one another for themselves.

because. listen. when its good, its so fucking good. the high, the sex, the company, the understanding, the act of taming and the act of wilding, and the complete and utter freedom and companionship they give one another to self explore and self actualise.

but they know just how UGLY the hidden away corners are. and they both just have this ability to put their hands through each other's bodies and pull out ALL that ugly and all those insecurities. they push and push and push each other to the point of wanting to die by the other's hand, and if that's too much, hell, they'll hold the knife to their jugular and the gun to their chest, all the other has to do is push a little more.

and. see. there's gentleness. there's fondness. if vegas could, if only he could, he'd wanna drop it all and fuck outta this town with pete and start all over again (something i predicted he would say at some point in the show!!). because vegas already Knows pete is The One for him. and this episode was more about pete realising he Craves vegas, yes, in fulfilling all his physical desires and fascinations and needs, like kissing his tied hands or using his hand to choke him, but also in how he sees such a desperation within vegas and an ability to love. he CAN do it. he CAN love. pete has FELT something SO close to it from vegas, in the way he cooks for him and holds him and makes him feel so sexy and has listened to what pete has to say.

but pete cannot SAVE vegas. he cannot fix or repair him. he cannot undo the damage that vegas has faced in all those years of constant abuse and humiliation from his father, that vegas then recycles onto pete. which is why pete asks him, is this how you're supposed to be living, when you can make a choice for yourself? meaning: you can save yourself. only YOU. and. god. vegas would. he would BITE at it. he would drop it all and run away with pete.

but vegas feels like he's stuck in this cycle and cant see a way out. until he sees the blood pouring out of pete's hand and the knife on his throat that he SURRENDERS. he PUTS HIS HANDS UP and says he gives up to pete. until pete sees vegas HOLDING the gun to his chest and SCREAMING at pete to shoot him and it'll all be over and pete CANT DO IT.

"and you know why."

the why remains unsaid - but they both know just how much they want and need each other. bc. god. isnt that what codependency is? these 2 will push and push and PUSH each other to their limits, to their ends, to the point of breaking and killing and dying and its always so fucking intense and soaring and heightening, isnt it? its sitting on the ground and clinging onto one another in the back alley of a club as they both cry and its holding each other's fists to stop them from harming and hurting themselves. but no one else knows, apart from them 2 alone, how these 2 are each other's sanctuary, each other's home, each other's place to rest in, where you'll be fed and your every desire will be heard without you even needing to say it and you'll be touched and kissed with such devotion and reverence and there is no shame or filth found in accepting and being who you are or want to be.

and so it cannot be anyone else. it just cant.

[astaroth1357]

Brothers React to the MC Looking at Them Lovingly

This is a personal experiment. This is the very first time I've written one of these with a goal in mind, "Make them fall in love all over again." It's a tall order. I hope I succeeded. 🙏 Special thanks to @a-chaotic-dumbass for picking the mood for this one!

Intro:

We all know that look. The one where one person stares at another like they just realized they're the only thing in the universe and they're in fucking awe of it. The kind of look that tells you they're utterly enthralled by that other person and just can't get enough of their presence. That look. Yeah, the brothers just got that look out of the MC.

Let's warm some cold hearts, everybody.

Lucifer

Lucifer was always beautiful. Always has been, as an angel or a demon.

A morning star is one that outshines all the rest. It stands out when the other stars have dimmed, holding onto its luster in defiance of the sun. 

There couldn't be a truer title for Lucifer to have. Not the horrors of war nor the fires of Hell could tarnish his radiance in any way…

But there were moments, like right then, where the MC caught a glimpse of a different sort of Lucifer.

His brothers would often only see the uptight Lucifer, the practiced visage of perfection that he tried so hard to keep up… 

But after a long day, when he thinks he's alone, he retires to his room to listen to his music and the difference is astonishing.

There's something so entrancingly calm about him… How the light of the fireplace flickers and dances across his alabaster skin to the subtle slouch of his posture. His face no longer marred by creases of stress and frustration… 

And his expression is so pure… So tranquil and at peace… Beauty without effort. A shine that can't be ignored. A morning star, in the truest sense of the word…

It took awhile for Lucifer to see the MC leaning against his doorframe.

They were staring at him with the oddest look… Smiling like they were enraptured by something, but he didn't have a clue why. He was just sitting there…

So, naturally, he turned to suspicion.

"Am I really that amusing…?"

Frankly, he wasn’t prepared for the little laugh they let out in response.

"Mm? No, no... I'm just always so amazed by you, is all. I'll leave you to your music..."

Having thoroughly ruined the mood, the MC then turned to leave. But Lucifer was already upon them before they could step away, wrapping his arms around their waist and letting contented hum escape his chest.

"Going so soon…?"

Apparently he appreciated the compliment.

Mammon

He didn't have to do it.

When Belphie bumped into one of the House's vases, shattering it against the tile, he didn’t have to take the fall for it.

It wasn’t connected to him at all. He could have stayed quiet and no one would have pointed a finger at him for once.

But he did.

When Mammon set his phone down on the table, MC knew instantly that he had lied in the chat.

He was with them the entire day, he didn't have the time to accidentally break a vase. He hadn't even gone down that hallway all day...

But he said something anyway.

And he didn't even look fazed. He didn't turn towards them seeking approval nor did he look irritated that Belphie didn't speak up. He didn't curse at himself for doing something so self-sacrificing either...

When Mammon leaned back into the cushion of his couch, the MC saw something truly remarkable on his face… A smile. A small one, sure, but relaxed… 

Assured in his own actions. Confident in his choice and accepting the consequences… undeserved, and likely thankless, they may be.

A genuine, serene smile…

Mammon wasn't sure what he expected to see when he turned to the MC. Probably confusion or disbelief that he, the Great Mammon, could be so selfless.

Definitely not the awed, lovestruck look he got...

"G-gah!" He panicked slightly and pressed himself back against the armrest of the couch in shock. "Wh-... What'cha lookin at me like that for??"

When the MC didn't answer after a few seconds and just kept staring, he honestly didn't know what to do. Were they broken or something??

"Oi, MC! I asked ya wh-Hey wait a minute!!"

He made a noise between a yelp and a shout when the MC leapt forward and latched their arms onto him. What had gotten into them??

"U-uh… MC? MC?? Damnit MC, answer me already!! Or at least stop squeezin so tight!!... MC!!!"

Leviathan 

To anyone else, it was just Levi being Levi.

He had finished a new episode of his latest animated obsession and he had to share it with someone. Anyone would do, but the MC was always willing to lend an ear.

Something about Levi really changes when he talks about his passions… It's like he comes alive in a whole new way.

He speaks at a mile-a-minute, but that's because he's so excited the words fly from his mouth. 

Some part of him is always bouncing, be it his leg or body. Sometimes even his tail will swish and curl behind him like an ecstatic puppy. And his eyes… 

Citrine pools that glimmer and dilate from the exhilaration of it all. It's his little world and anyone can see he's thrilled to be sharing it. 

You'd never know he was shy. You'd never think he'd look down himself. You'd never guess that he hid himself away… Why would someone so full of passion and life ever want to? Some things are just too beautiful to keep hidden...

Levi had only gotten six minutes into his latest rant before he finally registered how the MC was staring at him…

This man has seen enough shoujo to know what that look means and it shut him up sooo quick. If anyone else were in the room they would have seen a beet-red Levi desperately trying to hide his face.

"M-MC…! S-top staring at me like that…!!"

"Like what~?" 

He didn't have to look at them to hear the teasing lilt in their voice.

"MC…" He peeked out from behind his fingers to see them still staring and covered himself up more vigorously. "Stoooop…!!!"

But secretly? He wished they'd never stop. His cheeks may have been red from embarrassment, but his heart was trying to hammer its way out of his chest to hug them itself. Hell, he'd have happily given it over to them if they'd asked…

Please just let those loving eyes be for him and him alone...

Satan

Soft isn't exactly a word anybody would use to describe Satan, least of all himself.

His anger was quick to spark, his strength was nothing to scoff at, and even his smiles were nothing but plastic for nearly all of his existence…

Nearly.

The MC learned surprisingly quick that there was one thing that could bypass all of the hidden ferocity to Satan's personality. Something that could make him melt like butter in the summer sun…

Satan had always looked a little cute when he was reading. He was easily at his most expressive when engrossed in a thrilling story or deeply intrigued by something he found between the pages of a book…

But watching Satan read about cats, as he was right then, was really something else entirely.

Maybe it was the way his emerald eyes would sparkle or the lopsided grin he just couldn't hide as he would scan the pages about the playful habits of Bengals or the relaxed nature of Ragdolls…

Maybe it was the sheer impassioned dedication he took the subject, pouring countless hours into collecting and memorizing every fact he could from their diets to coat maintenance.

Or maybe it was the sheer fact that anytime he saw a picture of kitty in-print he looked like a besotted schoolgirl drawing hearts around her crush in a teen magazine.

Really, who's to say? But to the MC, it was proof that under all that anger, there was a tender, loving center even for the smallest, softest creatures…

Satan automatically snapped his book closed when he saw MC watching him from behind a bookshelves. Caught red-handed…

He knows exactly how he looks when he's doing his research internally squealing over cat pictures so he tries to do so in private...

He was about to sputter out a defensive explanation but then he registered their face…

He'd seen that look described in stories, romance novels mostly, but he'd rarely seen it in action… and never once leveled at him with such intensity…

Not to be cliche, but frankly his heart skipped a beat.

Satan forgot about his book briefly and got up to close the distance between them, tilting their chin up to keep their eyes on him.

"Like something that you see, Kitten?"

"You could say that…"

He laughed at their attempt to play coy, but let it slide just this once… Easy to do with them looking at him so amorously.

Asmodeus 

Asmo is a very popular demon. Someone so free ought to know quite a lot of people, after all.

And, of course, he had plenty of fans. He made DevilTube videos, hosted radio shows, fashion designed, and even modeled.

So it wasn't very surprising when a young demoness stopped him while he and the MC were out shopping. It wasn’t the first time he had been asked to sign autographs, but this meeting… it was different.

It was clear to them both that this girl was shy. Though she held out the paper, her eyes stayed firmly on the ground and she stumbled on her question… She likely a fan from afar, but everything about her seemed meek… unassuming.

Most people would have just gave the autograph then went on with their day. The interaction could have taken five seconds at most… but not Asmo.

He asked her name… where she was from, how she was feeling, her favorite foods, outfits, makeup, you name it. All with investment.

It was amazing to watch the shy young woman slowly open up, getting more bright and cheerful with each passing question until it evolved into a healthy conversation.

When their little meeting finally wrapped up, he gave her back the paper (now signed) but also fished out a bottle of perfume from among the mountains of bags he was carrying. He gave it to her and wouldn't hear anything to the contrary, he could always buy another.

None of his brothers ever gave Asmo enough credit for his giving nature… even if he had his own way of going about it. Though he cared so much about image and his ability to shine, he never hesitated to make sure that the people around him shined too...

Asmo waved to the fan as she scampered away and was about to  apologize to the MC when he saw their face…

The man knows this look well. He's seen it a billion times, though it was particularly cute coming from them.

"Awww MC! Taken by my beauty are you~?"

He was about ready to kiss their cheek when they responded.

"No, not your looks, Asmo… with you."

… Oh.

It was very rare to see Asmo speechless, but for a few seconds his mind seemed to take in their words… letting them fully sink in before his heart utterly melting.

Oh MC… His sweet MC!!

Asmo ended up dropping the rest of his bags just so he could properly litter his human in nuzzles and kisses, the both of them humming and giggling in delight despite their shameless PDA.

Of course it would be his MC to see that part in himself… Who else would take the time?

Beelzebub 

Food is a precious resource to Beel. For him, it's a lifeline. A good meal could save him from the brink of starvation…

But that still doesn't make him incapable of sharing from time to time.

He and the MC were walking back to the House after getting takeout from Hell's Kitchen. Beel hadn't even waited until they left the restaurant to start eating his share, spilling the smell of fresh food into the air around them…

Things were going fine on their route back until they heard whimpering behind them…

A hellhound puppy, not quite old enough to bear its fangs, seemingly followed them as they were walking… It looked like it had been out for some time and eyed their food with hungry eyes, but weak posture. Who knows when it last had a meal?

The MC was about to tug at Beel's sleeve and say something, but their demon was ahead of them this time.

A casual observer might have gawked at the sight of Gluttony kneeling down to offer such a lowly creature a sandwich. But the MC knew better. When you spend your whole life hungry, nobody more than you understands that kind of pain in someone else. 

This reaction wasn't out of character for Beel, it was elementary.

And when the puppy finished its meal and covered Beel's cheeks with appreciative licks, he just laughed and scratched behind its ears. Amethyst eyes looking more relieved at its health than disappointed he lost some of his lunch...

Food was Beel's lifeline, but kindness is what made him who he was…

When the pup finally scampered off, Beel looked over at the MC to tell them it'd be alright and saw their face…

He wasn't really sure what they were staring at… Did he have something between his teeth again?

"MC? Are you okay...?"

They laughed at him for some reason but pulled him in for a hug so they must have meant well.

"You're so sweet, Beel…"

Beel's never one to refuse a compliment so he just hugged them back, beaming.

"Thank you, MC…"

Belphegor 

To say that Belphegor tended to be on the melancholic side would be an understatement… It wasn’t that he was incapable of expressing joy, it was just harder for him to do than most. Not helped, of course, by his tendency to keep his true feelings vague and hard to pinpoint.

But on those rare occasions where he was overjoyed… Belphie could really be something special…

The MC and Belphie were attending one of Beel's games and it was a tight one… Both teams had spent most of it tied and Beel's team was running out of time to overtake that slim margin.

Belphie had always been a supporter of his twin's athletics, but this time it was tense even for him. He kept on the edge of his seat and didn't even nod off during the breaks like he normally would… The MC could just tell how nervous he was for Beel…

But right as the time was about to run out, Beel made a last minute score and sure, the whole field erupted, but Belphie? Belphie hollered.

The normally sleepy and mellow demon was on his feet in an instant and practically shredding his vocal chords in excitement. If his tail had been out, it would have been beating against the bleachers like a war-drum. And his expression?

Belphie's smile is said to stop hearts for a reason. When he puts his all into a grin it's almost like he ascends to Heaven once more, as pure as an angel's choir and as warm as a summer's breeze… Nothing in his eyes but pride and adoration for his beloved twin brother.

Truly, a heartwarming sight to behold…

Belphie didn't calm down until the rest of the crowd settled and was about to point out Beel's skill to the MC when he noticed their face.

… oh no… Why do they look so sappy…?

"You really love your brother, don't you?"

Belphie quickly hid his thoughts behind an irritated frown and plopped back down in his seat… but that didn't shield them from seeing his pink cheeks.

"Of course I do. What kind of question is that?"

He debated just joining Beel on the field to hide his embarrassment when he heard them snicker back.

"Yeah, you're right… Don't mind me."

Oh he minded. He minded a lot that he let his carefully veiled image slip like that. But thinking back to that smile on their face…?

Maybe being a little open wasn't so bad after all...

[aprillikesthings]

OKAY

man I know I said this a billion times already but hte CHARACTER STUFF in this episode

Remembering painful moments of your past is THE WORST at least when I'm doing it I'm usually lying in bed and not viscerally forced to relive them. Like I'm hyperphantasic but like...they're not flashbacks in the sense that I forget where I am, y'know? (Tho there's been times that those moments have just played on repeat for a while and holy shit does that suck ass; poor Daci has held me while I sobbed it out more than once)

oh hey I recently made a post about how many bondage scenes happen in cartoons

they did a good job showing how genuinely she's panicked ngl, to the point that it takes her multiple seconds to remember she has CLAWS

fangie

I'm cracking up I've literally already written very similar dialogue into my fic

I love how often I've forgotten major plot points but remembered their dynamic

Adora once again trying to talk Catra into leaving the Horde

It's the "I know you're--" that made this conversation doomed.

Like, Adora isn't wrong! That's the thing! She does know this about Catra.

But Catra is more than anything else stubborn and prideful, so this was always going to backfire.

Oh, god. The moment of one of their childhood memories starting up again. And Adora says: "You don't have to go in there." And Catra does it anyway. She knows it's going to hurt her and she does it anyway.

I know I've mentioned it in previous rewatches but the Golden Child/Scapegoat thing Shadow Weaver is pulling is SO FUCKING TEXTBOOK.

"I've kept you around this long because Adora was fond of you!" well also because it's convenient for you to have a child to take out all of your anger on, but hey

Again: Catra walked into this memory knowing what it was.

Catra: "You always need to play the hero, don't you?" Adora: "I was just trying to protect you" Catra: "You never tried to protect me! Not in any way that would put you on Shadow Weaver's bad side!"

THE THING IS: Catra is right. BUT ALSO: that's how being the child of an abusive parent works. Adora is stuck in the push-and-pull of also wanting Shadow Weaver to love and care for her (or just not hurt her). Both of them are in terrible places with no good options.

GOD this is so well-done as a portrayal of child abuse but OOF it's hard to watch sometimes because of it

Adora: "That's not true!"

Which is she denying: that she's Shadow Weaver's favorite, or that she enjoys it? Either way it's both true and not true. Being the Golden Child is better than being the Scapegoat, but of course Adora also does genuinely want to protect Catra, to the extent that she can without risking her own neck. But the Golden Child also often resents the Scapegoat--if you were just good she wouldn't be so awful, right? (That's not how it works, is the problem; there is no amount of "good" you can be that satisfies an abuser. They just want to abuse you, and they will make up a reason if they have to.)

Catra: "Oh yeah? When you left, who do you think took the fall for you? Who was protecting me then?"

"You can leave, just like I did!" Catra: "Oh, because I need to follow you wherever you go?" Adora: "I didn't mean it that way!"

Catra still wants, so badly, to prove herself in the Horde. Leaving is "giving in," in her mind.

Child!Adora: "You always said you didn't care about things like [becoming Force Captain]!"

She had just hidden it from everyone, even Adora. Anyway nice call back to the earlier scene where she lost the fight, pretended it was on purpose, and then sobbed alone in the locker room

"Why do you think I gave the sword back to you? I didn't want you to come back!" okay but you ....just got angry at her for leaving...so which is it

that one fanvid I quote too often captions this scene as "running away from my gay thoughts" and hoNESTLY???

NOT DONE HAVING OUR HEART RIPPED TO SHREDS JUST YET

the little baby hiss ;_;

also baby fangie

Child!Adora: "It doesn't matter what they do to us. I look out for you, and you look out for me."

i am metaphorically throwing myself off a cliff

both child!Catra and current Catra, in unison: "You promise?"

;_;

that moment of child!Catra stopping and turning to look at her young adult self is just SO MUCH. I dunno how often I've struggled with how I handled shit as a kid and had this moment of "that was a bad decision" mixed with "AND IT WASN'T YOUR FAULT you were A CHILD"

It didn't make me mentally vow to get vengeance tho so at least there's that

Catra's claws could slice that stuff but She-Ra's sword can't, lol, once again the sharpness of the sword is dependent on Plot

sometimes I screenshot things For Reasons

Catra does a little speech where she insists Adora was always intentionally holding her back because she just wanted a sidekick, and Adora's like No??????

I mean, if Catra's goal is proving herself and being in charge, she is in fact correct here

🎵but it won't make you happyyyyy🎶

also her expression looks a little deranged bc she is

"I'm so much stronger than anyone ever thought" well yeah but this isn't how you prove it, hurting others doesn't make you strong, but of course she doesn't know that, what part of her life would've ever shown her that

"I wonder what I could'e been if I'd gotten rid of you sooner" OUCH

And a heartbroken Adora apologizes but Catra's too far gone

AAAUGH

And this is the first inkling of the whole "being She-Ra, Savior Of The World" thing turning out to be REAL SHITTY.

poor Scorpia

plot notes, she still had that crystal thing from the beacon and gave it to Entrapta

WHOOPS, didn't mean to twist a knife there

oof that ep took ages and my battery is dying

gonna do at least one more tho after I eat something

It's Fridayyyyy

TIME FOR MORE SHE-RA

s1 ep11 Promise

oh shit I remember this one it's a heartbreaker

(good stuff for my fic though)

Hey remember when I swore up and down I wasn't going to liveblog my entire rewatch? Good times.

Part of me is like: I would get through these so much faster if I didn't insist on screenshotting them and commenting and making jokes

But the rest of me knows damn well I probably just wouldn't bother watching them?? This way feels a bit like watching it *with* someone, which I always prefer to watching things alone.

Also tbh if I did just marathon them while knitting or something I wouldn't remember anything!! Which would defeat the point!! So here I am.

If you're new to these posts: I am doing a rewatch of She-Ra with the specific purpose of taking notes for a fic I'm working on--but because this is me we're talking about, I also post a ton of screenshots with the purposes of commentary, squeeing at specific scenes, and making jokes. Because it's a rewatch, I don't comment on every plot point and I often mention things that happen later in the show--in other words, these might be confusing if you haven't seen the show yet.

EDIT: yeah this was another one where I hit the image limit, will have to reblog to finish it

I know people have figured out the "alphabet" of the first ones what does this sayyyyy

I mean wouldn't they all be portable in some sense? The one that recharges Glimmer could be taken down and moved somewhere, couldn't it? We know the one from Scorpia's kingdom was taken and moved to the Fright Zone, for instance.

"Query not recognized."

Adora's frustration here is exactly why I don't use Siri, like, ever.

Light Hope reminds me of a specific model? actress? from the 1980's but I can never remember who and it drives me CRAZY

*does some googling*

GRACE JONES I AM THINKING OF GRACE JONES

TELL ME I'M WRONG

Grace Jones also did disco music, TIL

back to cartoon lesbians

yeah that couldn't have been important for anything no worries it's fine

you didn't notice anyone else there until She-Ra destroyed something lolol

ehehehehehehh

Look I know it's the point of the whole show but I grin every time they're supposed to be on opposite sides and one saves the other's life (Does Adora do it more than Catra does? surely someone kept count)

don't mind me

little shit

🎵BUT YOU DID IT ANYWAYYYYYY🎶

"how many times are you going to make that joke" well how many times does Catra say it lolll

"where are your friends?" "you mean the ones you KIDNAPPED and CURSED???" "uh, yeah?"

lol

I just like the art style here

Okay so I can't screenshot audio, but that little moment of Catra saying "Adora? Adora???" where the tone goes from "hey look at this" to that almost-panic and then she turns around and it's kid!Catra is just so, SO well done.

ugh these scenes are such a punch in the gut

I'm not getting emotional at cartoon characters remembering the happier bits of their shitty traumatic childhood together, YOU ARE

;_;

man this shot is just good, ugh, you can see so much of their characters on display: Adora's self-righteousness vs Catra's sullen defensiveness

anyway they should've made out

lol

they're 1:1 so far this episode

(even though this cliff probably isn't even real)

"Did you really think I'd just let Shadow Weaver erase your memory like that?" oh so she DID know

Adora: "I don't know, probably" I mean I thought she would

I've been CALLED OUT lol

Adora: "Can you blame me? Catra: "*scoffs* Not really"

😏

John Cena.gif

BABIES (okay a little older like maybe 13)

(still babies)

I mean, true

I'VE HIT THE IMAGE LIMIT FOR THIS POST lol I knew I would

gonna post and reblog