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spacedustmantis · 9 months ago

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thinking about everything's changed since polites

#ough...#the first death #the first real loss #and grief #and it's odysseus's own fault you know #it's such a good line illustrating how losing a friend and a good chunk of the men he was responsible for changed his outlook #but also how his fleet views him as a person #like 'he's changed omg'#dude of course he fucking has #'i bet he's hiding something from us' let the man grieve!!#hmmm #epic the musical #buggy thoughts #silver screen

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solargeist · 5 months ago

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I love how over time kid xelqua has become less just baby grian and more grian's kid who he found in the woods/somehow created and now the kid represents all of grian's childhood trauma and Catholic guilt and grian is just trying to break the cycle bc there's this magic fucking baby who is the best thing in the world

JKAGJKD yes Exactly, see evo Grian has a lot of family issues, from being an orphan, to the Watchers, he has ISSUES, so raising a version of himself is..... definitely odd, but weirdly healing.. He sees how he was as a kid, he wasn't that bad, he was just a kid ! He didn't deserve to be abandoned or anything. He sees all of his ache in Xelqua, he's very much breaking the cycle.

[mumbo: You alright mate, you have that look in your eyes. grian: no yeah--i'm good, i just.... its easy to raise him, y'know ? i mean, i know he's literally me, but.. it makes me wonder about my own parents--before the watchers, if i was anything like him, i don't know why they left] (-me)

#i was gonna go to bed but then i doodled this real quick ajgadjk #grian and family issues makes me go crazy #my art #ask #sketching #kidxelqua #grians already a big brother. pearls his younger sister ! he had to raise her since they're close in age.-#-and even tho you love someone. you can still ache for the loss of childhood. its not a kids responsibility to take care of another alone #pearl and grian were close in age so they were just kids together. they had a Us against Them dynamic #grian and xelqua have a struggle and adjustments to figure out #figure xelqua out. hes a kid. but not human(hermit-)#i like to imagine at first. grian would just stand to talk to xelqua. but later he starts crouching down to his height #<- IMPORTANT !! i did this a lot when working with kids and ur their best friend immediately WAHHH #i always draw aether crouching down to talk to xelqua #grian catching watcher baby fever hahahahaaha

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eskildit · 1 year ago

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i think a lot about hot sauce and jeannemary. two young girls so ready to kill and to die. a comparison made all the worse when you recall that hot sauce lost all her family to the cohort, that she can specifically recall fourth style necromancy (using corpses as bombs). a fourteen and thirteen year old that could easily have been on opposite sides of the same front line.

#the locked tomb #the loss of childhood! senseless violence!#opposite ends of the propaganda machine #eskildit posts tlt #all of nona the ninth #how am i supposed to tag hot sauce #jeannemary chatur #ok to rb #edit: okay im actually gonna use these tags to ramble a lil #in many ways i feel alecto the ninth is gonna be the hardest book to actually pull off #first for the obvious reason that its an ending and endings are always hard #but second because nona the ninth was by far the most political book of the series #books 1 and 2 following harrow and gideon mean we're following characters on the outskirts of the empire #gideon is individually oppressed by the ninth and even harrow is considered a black sheep outsider of the nine houses #but they are still WITHIN the houses gideon has dreams of the cohort harrow has dreams of of revitalizing her house #nona was our actual introduction to the real consequences of the empire that characters like judith like jeannemary like corona herself #have their livelihoods and status entirely built on the imperial violence we see first hand on new rho #anyway i say all of this to say it means coming back to these characters might be kinda tricky!#the cost of the empire is no longer abstract its extremely palpable!#how does one return to our core cast we've know for multiple books now that we understand that #idk. interested to see where we go!

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rosswood · 20 days ago

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how many cycles of trauma and suffering does it take to get to the center of a silly little anvil guy (the answer might surprise you)

#generation loss #genloss #gl vinny #vinesauce #zarted #id in the alt text #sure ill maintag this cause its laser focused on This Guy in particular #i didnt take great pains or in fact any pains to correlate how the real guy looked at whatever age to this here timeline #i just vaguely remembered davys grey vinny and worked backwards from there #+ obvs took cues from some of his more recognizable looks #a nod to his iconic question block cap and the vinesauce hoodie in the wardrobe progression #the progression of costuming is based on the notion that showfall slots its characters into archetypes #and as archetypes theyve all got highly recognizable Looks #so as one person evolves into that archetype their personal style gets whittled away and replaced with a recognizable Default Wardrobe #so at first he gets tagged with the Color Green. then layering. then the hat. and so on #yes ive overthought a very specific type of progression that is in all likelihood not anything that actually happened in canon #but we dont have evidence it DIDNT happen so you know #im just enamored w the idea of gl vinny being drenched in apathy because hes been there so long #everyone else on the carousel is in their 20s and ranboo is 19. and vinny is 38 #i have to imagine hes Been There A While #and hes so rotted through from desensitization that he cannot bring himself to care anymore #and underneath that i suspect theres an undercurrent of 'i should shield these people who are so much younger'#but in the end youre trapped and theyre trapped and the suffering is so important to the people who have trapped you #and how much can you shield them from really?#dont get obsessed with the silly little anvil guy from generation loss worst mistake of my life

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katyspersonal · 4 months ago

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me before SoTE: Gehrman 🤝 Miquella on being seen as creeps and awful people by fandom over misinterpreting some bits!

me after SoTE: Gehrman 🤝 Miquella on not being able to accept the drastic change (mostly to the worse) of a person they held dear and latching onto their former, "nicer" version, attempting to resurrect that version even although the result is a bit of just a husk (.....AND being seen as creeps and awful people by fandom over misinterpreting some bits lololol)

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I guess they're doomed to be friends no matter what gfjhjgv At least with Gehrman's crafting skills, he can make him many pretty dresses

#soulsborne #bloodborne #gehrman the first hunter #elden ring #miquella the unalloyed #this trope is so unhealthy yet so sad #it is fascinating to think about though!!#but yeah...... happy end? lol gfjggjh #they're the 'he just doesn't understand!' guy #especially miq because with gehrman he is very justified with the grief of loss #meanwhile with radahn it was basically putting him out of 'misery' because he insisted on becoming Hoarah Loux 2 #gfhgfghv awful way to put it I know but this is true #I'd argue that the scale on which demigods think is naturally a bit different from average humans tho #like psychology of the guys that have capacity and intention of shaping the world isnt 100% like us simple gremlins #but still heh #I discovered a thing I love to explore #the 'this isnt real you fuck come back' guy

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notanartificialintelligence · 10 months ago

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I watched Generation Loss a couple weeks ago and now Im listening to Lovejoy. what

edit: this was made before Feb 27, 100% love and support for Shebly. william can choke

#for the record genloss was the first time I actually watched anything [gestures vaguely] like that #like. any of the SMPs? nope. streamers? nah #i do like lovejoy now btw #genloss -> sorry boys -> lovejoy pipeline real /j #lovejoy #genloss #generation loss #ranboo generation loss #sorry boys #wilbur lovejoy #al post

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anathemafiction · 4 months ago

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I'm replaying the Alpha on patreon (of course) and I just made a mental connection. Between a Romanus who keeps a journal in Latin, and a little child meeting a certain monk, touching a book for the first time and realizing how wonderful preserving knowledge is. I wonder if Romanus thinks of them when they preserve their own knowledge in their journal. (your story is so beautiful, I always find new joy in it)

Absolutely. I couldn't put that detail in Book One, because the player hasn't chosen their origins yet, but when Romanus sits down to write in their journal again, and if you're on the Scribe Origin, they'll think of Adso. He's never too far away from their mind ♡

#Of all the origins Adso is the 'mentor' who strikes a deep cord in Romanus #It's canon he was your first friend outside of your mother #And your first real loss #alpha spoilers #the golden rose

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orbmanson7 · 19 days ago

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So I don't want to say I'm disappointed about this, but maybe I've just been spoiled by scorpy's amazing (and authentic) VHS skills, because the picture quality is way too high for a CRT, even using RCA-to-RCA, no additional conversion, the pixels are just too well defined to give an authentic VHS feel...

I eventually switched it over to the flatscreen tv using 720p, RCA-to-HDMI, and the picture is again very clear, even with the artificially added loss. However, the texture bleeding and tracking loss effect that's been added is definitely much better in this particular format. It feels more authentic and enhances the experience, and while it doesn't compare to the naturally bad quality expected of the CRT, it's still an improvement.

And then I switched the flatscreen tv to a 1080p display, and again, the loss texturing that was added certainly helps, but it just doesn't feel authentic to an actual VHS copy. There's definitely effort in this, but when playing the video in such a high resolution, it kind of gives the game away that it's all edited in. Maybe that's intentional, though? Don't look TOO closely, or you'll see the wires, you know?

I'll plug this into my laptop next to see if I can pull some additional display options out of it, but I think it's safe to say the best option for viewing The Founder's Cut VHS tape is using around 720p on a computer monitor or flatscreen tv, as it gives the closest to an authentic genloss'd experience you can get!

Even if it doesn't look all that great on the CRT, I am still quite happy with how this tape eventually came out overall. There's obvious effort here to show a degraded, lossed, altered video, and that really adds to the story of Generation Loss, especially the version of that story that the Founder seems to want people to know.

#generation loss #genloss #ranboo #I'll talk about the glitches in another post but i wanted to talk about the formatting for a bit first #orbs thought bubbles #not to put scorpy on a pedestal when it comes to the ultimate vhs quality but as someone who has so many of his tapes and #also watches streams from people dedicated to making an authentic vhs experience like forgotten vcr on twitch #its hard not to compare #but i do recognize this is vhs quality on a mass-produced scale which just isnt really feasible to do in a completely authentic manner #im happy with what they were able to make of this #even if ive seen some real quality stuff from people who operate on a much smaller scale for a much much smaller audience

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silverbastardgoldenfool · 9 months ago

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The Fool (notoriously in love with Fitz):

FitzChivalry Farseer (notorious heterosexual):

#realm of the elderlings #fitzchivalry farseer #the fool #fitz and the fool #realm of the quarantine #robin hobb #rote #fool’s quest #i just. 🤦‍♀️#first of all 'lord golden had been a handsome man' like........ it's so suspicious #that you're not even like oh no my childhood friend no longer looks like himself #you're specifically grieving the loss of the beauty of a character he played who you didn’t even like #like why are you singling lord golden out specifically rather than Fool or Beloved??#and why his handsomeness and not just like his health or vibrancy #idk bestie if my friend was disfigured obviously i would be devastated for them but i wouldnt be like #damn they were so gorgeous and sexy and this is a loss for me personally #like you would just be sad that they no longer look like your friend right?#I'm explaining this terribly cos I just woke up but anyway. gay jail.#also let's be real 'handsome' is such a radical understatement for how enraptured fitz was by lord golden's beauty lol 💀

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musical-chick-13 · 13 days ago

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Like. The last thing I'm going to say is that I see a lot of comments about how "Well Americans probably deserve whatever is coming to them" because [some variation of how we are all equally violent and stupid and of course we elected this guy] and I will be the FIRST one to go, "Fuck America for real, I hate it here" but. There are in fact millions of people who did not want this. Who actively fought against it and will continue to do so.

BELIEVE ME, I understand the impulse to go, "Well with all the shit America has done to the rest of the world, why should I feel bad for them." I understand that compassion fatigue is real. And I DEFINITELY don't think it's the rest of the world's job to fight my battles for me or prioritize my feelings above anyone else's.

But if people are worried for their safety. If they're scared. If they're wondering how they and the people they love are going to survive the next few years. If people are feeling despair and despondence over the fact that they are stuck in an absolutely hellish landscape they did not ask for. Just...please let them have that. You don't have to tell them that you think they deserve it.

#us politics #I just think that every vulnerable person who tried to prevent this probably would not in any way benefit or become a better person from #hearing 'you are acceptable collateral damage of the upcoming administration because America Sucks'#like my dudes I am not even asking you to HELP ME I know we all need to put on our own oxygen masks first. I am just asking you to have #a little bit of sympathy for the people who are about to go through an INCREDIBLE amount of struggle that they will have limited #individual power to fight against.#it's not hopeless! it's not! but this isn't like sw episode 4 where a single person can destroy the death star and the entire empire will #be directly and significantly kneecapped. there is only so much in this real world situation that one individual person can do.#a lot of people are going to have a harder time finding other people to connect with to get through this. all I'm asking is that you #do NOT make it harder on them by telling them their misfortune is brought on themselves for things they didn't do. or by telling them that #there is no way they can ever be happy or fulfilled or a good person.#there is NOTHING a person can do to 'deserve' the extreme loss of human rights that this party wants to make into a reality #if you believe that someone CAN ever 'deserve' the loss of those rights...#well I think that you and I are so fundamentally different in an ideological sense that there's no point in us speaking to each other

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art-from-the-juice-box · 5 months ago

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gen loss >:] and a written out talking to myself because i think it’s funny that it looks like a star wars intro

#the words randomly in the corners from other drawings was stuff i was drawing about the other 3/5ths of sorry looking for ran and charlie #only one drawing made the cut lmao that’s why tommy innit is randomly here w a flashlight #could just be a random kid though so you didn’t hear that from me #oh wait i lied in the star wars intro blurb there’s more of it lmao that definitely gives it away even if i said nothing #also i cropped two drawings into blank corners and the spinny one isn’t genloss but it IS from an rbg trio among us stream (vr one)#tbh since i watch streams w/o 100% attention i thought he was stuck spinning for real since it happened the first time i was like 🤨#like ran you fixed it last time just pick up the controller again that’s it #im a fool #this is only half of the ones i’m posting cause i didn’t realize how much i doodled #generation loss #EW IT SUGGESTED @1 GENERATION #SORRY FOr the CRINGE CENSOR BUT I DO N O T WANT THIS IN THAT TAG #anyway #generation loss fanart #ranboo fanart

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mokutone · 2 years ago

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wooooooow naruto thanked him :) maybe naruto doesn't hate him. maybe.

maybe theyre even.

😳 friends

#my art #naruto #sai #sai yamanaka #naruto uzumaki #hbd sai #this is abt shippuden ep 197 or 198 #this moment means a lot to me as a fan of sai bc its kind of the first time that naruto extends sai an olive branch or like.#even implies he likes having sai around #and it happens right after sai stopped the cloud nin from beating naruto 2 death 4 real #and then got really frustrated at naruto for continuing 2 protect sasuke despite how much sasuke was hurting naruto and sakura #and naruto told sai to shut up LMFAO #but like immediately after that despite sai insisting that sakura would be better at managing the wounds naruto has sai do it #and thanks him #and maybe naruto was just thinking about how mad sakura would get or something else #but u can tell it really meant a lot to sai...and the episodes after this he gets a little obsessed w/ making sure naruto is okay #u can tell the whole time hes thinking ''sasuke is a Fucking idiot. if naruto and sakura cared abt me half as much as they care about him-'#''-i would never betray them. i would never hurt them like that.'' hes like so jealous of sasuke #to be fair to sasuke. sai would have no way to comprehend the loss of the uchiha clan massacre or itachis torments but like #ough. these episodes r great for sai fans. hes trying his best and he Does Not Know What Hes Doing #this isnt intended as shippy (very little of my stuff is. as always) but just sai being Intense abt his first real friendship #i think he's obsessed with naruto because naruto is so...up front. he doesn't often give fake smiles #and when he does hes not doing it to be polite but to avoid hurting other people. i think sai is drawn to him like a moth to a flame

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thaliagrayce · 2 years ago

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y'know what we don't talk about enough? Hazel died. We talk about how she grew up in the 30's and 40's and we talk about how out of place she feels in the modern world, but! She died! She was dead! She has spent more time dead than alive, and not by a close margin!

How does that effect a person??? We got some of it in the flashbacks, but once those caught up with her present timeline and she shared them, they just kind of... disappeared. And she was a regular girl with some weird past experiences. That's one way of doing it, sure!

I think it would have been a lot cooler if she was just a touch creepier. If she felt a little bit Wrong. Yeah, in general she's more approachable than her brother, she's more sociable and less closed off, but. If you actually spend any time with her, it can be difficult to tell which child of the underworld is actually more unsettling.

Hazel is bright of personality and has a dazzling smile, but sometimes she'll just... shut down. She'll go completely blank for like half an hour and nobody knows what to do with it. Sometimes she forgets she's alive. Sometimes she'll spout the grimmest shit you've ever heard like it's nothing, she won't even notice it's weird until the room goes quiet. She spent decades in Asphodel, which is designed to make people forget about themselves and wander around for eternity, only she didn't have the luxury of forgetting! Wild! After she comes back to life, sometimes she forgets that she's allowed to Do Stuff now. She can spend so long sitting and staring at nothing. Sometimes she'll start crying on cloudless days because it hits her again that she can actually feel the warmth of the sun on her skin and she can hear birdsong. Every little mundane experience is a blessing and she will make you remember that in the most foreboding way possible.