#the fact that ocd is on there…. embarrassing

[altschmerzes]

seen one too many snide posts about this in the last week or so but did you know that if you don't enjoy scenes in smut establishing consent or checking in then you simply don't have to read them and you don't have to go online and whine about how they're Consent Posturing and Purity Culture and Sanitizing Everything and God Just Kill Me Now. like you can have a preference without making it into a three act morality play, which is ironically what you are accusing other people of doing.

the same goes for like, detailed content warnings on fics. or content warnings at all. you can just skip those. they're not a sign of Purity Culture Gone Too Far or Those Damn Puriteens or whatever. you can dislike things without being an asshole about them or implying they're Taking Away What's Good And Correct About Fic Or Creativity.

[chiimeramanticore]

so i found out i have ocd recently

[aspectpriority]

I'm reading the other link from that OCD post and oh man oh No it is So So over for me I fear. Am I aware that the feeling like I'm going to be publicly executed for this is ironic? Yes! Can I do Anything about it? Not right now! Oh boy!!

[la-principessa-nuova]

there’s one person on my team who has a lot of background noise and a voice that happens to work with the background noise cancellation in a way that is a sensory nightmare for me. So when he talks, if I’m even remotely dysregulated, I have to mute the call and wait for him to be done talking, and even if i don’t have to, it’s often better to avoid using up a limited number of spoons for the day.

I barely work him with because he kind of has his own subset of work that’s related to my team’s work but due to various reasons only he can work on it (and has backups that are not on the team, not like a bottleneck on one person)

but that means when he gives his updates and explains things, it’s extra important for me to understand what he’s saying, because it’s stuff I need to plan around but have no other insight into.

And even though I can read it on the captions, it’s (1) harder to follow than both audio and captions together, and (2) usually very, very wrong because this is somebody with (a) poor audio quality and (b) a different accent/regional dialect than the captions were trained on and (c) using technical language and sometimes internal-only acronyms.

so yeah, i need to look into finding some ways to work around this like figuring out more about what he does so i have an easier time figuring out what he’s saying from context, and also solving my long-term burnout that’s decreased my window of tolerance so much. Because I’ve worked with so many people with such terrible audio quality but I’ve never had this much of an issue before.

Even with other people with kind of bad audio instead of a little grating, it feels like nails on a chalkboard. But also it might be a little bit OCD because it’s definitely worse if I’ve been thinking about it happening with one person where it can happen to that lesser degree with almost anybody. And then fact that thinking it’s going to be dysregulating makes it dysregulate more and then i can’t focus and my thoughts get stuck on it and i feel a panic because now i’m worried i won’t understand anything and i’m going to be behind and get in trouble for not listening and get caught not knowing something that was just presented… and then it’s not just dysregulation but also anxiety.

and of course it’s not easy from an audio processing perspective too, so i’m sure the anxiety about a challenging audio processing challenge contributes, plus having to pay attention to something i have no context on, which brings up a lot of anxiety from ADHD-related C-PTSD. this brain is such a tangled mess…

[hoe4hotchner]

Hi!! If you still take requests could I request Hotch helping a fellow bau member after she tried to hide her ocd from him (like intrusive thoughts, counting and blinking hard etc not cleaning or contamination ocd)

Thanks! xoxo 🧡🧡

Blink twice, tap four times, hold your breath and count to six | [A.H]

Pairing: Aaron Hotchner x bau!gn!Reader | WC: 0.5k  | CW: OCD | Summary: Hotch reasures reader when he notices their OCD being a little more frequent than usual |

You were certain you’d been subtle about it, always careful to keep your mind’s demands invisible. Blinking patterns, counting in repetitive loops, moving your fingers until they felt “right” — these things were all in the quiet spaces, hidden behind closed doors and the shuffle of paperwork. Or so you thought.

But Hotch was observant, maybe too observant for your own good. It started with small things: his brow creasing when you tapped your fingers on the table during briefings, his quiet gaze following when you seemed lost in thought, counting silently to bring calm. You brushed it off, certain he was just being his usual analytical self, until the day his concern broke through the usual boundaries he had set for himself.

It was late, everyone else had gone home for the night. You’d been poring over files, a trail of cold coffee cups beside you, trying to distract yourself from the prickling anxiety that had settled in your mind since a particularly tough case. Then it happened again — blink twice, tap four times, hold your breath and count to six, over and over. You weren’t sure how long you’d been repeating it, but when you looked up, Hotch was standing in the doorway to the conference room — You sometimes worked on your files in there to keep your mind on track.

“Can I come in?” he asked gently.

You cleared your throat, swallowing the reflexive answer to brush him off. “Of course.”

He entered, closing the door behind him, the soft click echoing in the quiet room. You half-expected a reprimand, a reminder to go home and rest, but his gaze was unusually soft, something between empathy and understanding.

“I noticed you’ve been… distracted lately,” he began, his words careful. “More than usual.”

The confession sat on the edge of your tongue, bitter and unwelcome. “It’s nothing. I just get… caught up sometimes.”

He nodded slowly as if weighing your answer. “We all have our patterns,” he said, his voice low and calm. “But if they’re weighing on you, you don’t have to hide them. Not from me.”

The words caught you off-guard. Your heart pounded, the intrusive thoughts flaring up in response to his kindness, an immediate discomfort in your chest at the vulnerability.

“Hotch, I don’t want anyone to think… that I can’t handle this.” The admission tumbled out, quieter than you’d intended. “Sometimes, my brain… it gets stuck in loops. It makes me repeat things to feel okay.”

He nodded as though he’d known it all along. “You’re one of the most resilient agents I know. But you don’t have to manage all of this alone.” He took a seat beside you, close enough that you could feel his presence. “If something is weighing on you, I want you to tell me. I can help.”

There was a soothing rhythm to his words, one that almost matched the way you counted, but softer and kinder. You swallowed, fighting the wave of embarrassment that rose at the idea of admitting everything. But his hand, warm and steady, rested on yours.

“I don’t think less of you,” he continued his voice barely a murmur. “In fact, I have more respect for you than you realize. What you’re dealing with doesn’t make you weak — it shows your strength.”

You closed your eyes, letting his words settle in your mind like stones sinking to the bottom of a pond.

“Thank you,” you whispered, the words carrying all the gratitude you hadn’t known you were holding.

[yrfemmehusband]

Happy tourettes awareness month! Here are some things in no particular order I wish people understood about living with tourettes!

- We have to live with a constant fear of others thinking that we are on drugs or otherwise dangerous to be around. A lot of people tell us to not suppress because "you shouldn't be embarrassed!" But it's not about that. Having tourettes can genuinely put you in danger, and for many of us already has many times. It's not about being embarrassed, it's about being fearful.

- Suppression hurts. It's exhausting and it's hard.

- Coprolalia is more than just swearing. It can also look like saying "I have a bomb" when you're in an airport. Or "I'm a nazi." Or any number of things that are socially unacceptable to say. Coprolalia is about your brain attaching to words or phrases that you simply shouldn't say.

- Copropraxia is its lesser known twin, which is the same thing but with movements instead of words.

- Tourettes isn't just tics. Many of us also have rage issues and rage attacks, impulsivity issues, comorbidities like ADHD, OCD, and autism, chronic pain from constant movement leading to sore muscles, learning disability, social impairment, and much more.

- A clinical feature of tourette's is waxing and waning. Put simply, that means that sometimes we have a lot less or even no tics, and others we have a ton of tics. Waxing and waning periods can last hours, days, weeks, months or even years.

- Up to 50% of people with tourettes go undiagnosed in childhood

- You can keep talking while we are ticcing unless it's obvious that it's affecting our ability to hear (for example if I'm screaming.) we can hear you while we are ticking. Tics don't take up our entire brain space, in fact a lot of the time we aren't even thinking about the fact that we are having a tic unless you point it out

- In that vein, don't respond to, comment on, or overly pay attention to people's tics. Doing so will just make us have more. The best practice is to simply ignore them and treat us like any other person.

- A lot of us can drive.

- No, I don't think I tic my sleep. Some people do. But generally, how would we know?

- No, I don't tic during sex. And you're a weirdo for asking.

- Concentrating on something generally makes tics lesson or completely go away. So when you see someone with moderate to severe tourette's have really good eyeliner, or be able to draw or sing or dance, it's not an indicator that they're faking. It's a facet of the disorder that doing things we like lessons tics.

- Studies have found that people assigned female at birth or who otherwise have estrogen dominant bodies have less tics in childhood that gradually increase with age. Many of us are told in childhood that the ticks will go away, and then are taken by surprise when they get worse in adulthood. This isn't widely known, because most studies on tourette's until recently are done on people assigned male at birth

- Also on that note, afab people with tourette's are more likely to go undiagnosed than their amab counterparts.

- Tics don't inherently hurt. What does actually hurt though, or is at least uncomfortable, is the premonitory urge we get before a tic. This can feel like a buildup of energy, sort of like a cough or a sneeze, and gets worse the longer or more that we suppress a tic.

- Tics are both involuntary and controllable. This may sound like a contradiction, but breathing is both involuntary and controllable. You can hold your breath for as long as you can, but it will eventually force you to take a breath. Tics are the same

Fellow tourettics, please feel free to add more in the reblogs or replies :) happy awareness month!

[th0rnback]

Do you have any headcanons that tend to translate into your writing?

Oooooo, that is a good'un. I’ve been in this fandom so long sometimes I forget what is headcanon and what’s canon 🫠

Buuuuut, I’m sure some of these might be shared with lots of folks, yet off the top of my head:

⭕Edward wears gloves not so much to hide his automail, but to soften it. Metal joints pinch. He learned this the hard way when shaking someone’s hand. It genuinely upset/embarrassed/made him self conscious for a while after that event. ⭕Alphonse always like the barn cats since he was small, yet moreso after Trisha’s death. He liked to entice them into the house of an evening for the warmth and comfort. The house didn’t feel quiet so empty when filled with a patter of paws or rumbling purrs.

⭕Ed’s an ugly crier and he is SUPER self aware of this fact, while he is trying to ‘keep a stiff upper lip’ he also has the worse poker face known to mankind (which I guess can be canon? Because the sweet bean was a mess at Trisha’s funeral, howling at the sky with snot) ⭕Al, even when human and back when kids, is the better liar. He’s got a good poker face (even without the helm) and the street cred of polite sweetness.

⭕Roy hides it well and because irony is key: Roy gets anxious around horses. As a kid a mounted MP’s horse nipped him and Chris presumed this is why he is still Not A Fan of the hooved beasts…. In reality, watching a group of Ishvalan’s get trampled when the cavalry arrived on scene made him realize how terrifyingly powerful such animals are (cue his anxiety over FoM!Ed being so tiny around an animal with hooves bigger than the kids skull)   ⭕ Riza doesn't like being ignored. She can deal with it, but it does make her hackles rise. There is something about being so blankly disregarded she finds as rude yet know, deep known, its because she spent too much of her youth with a father who barely spared her a glance, absorbed in his work... until he suddenly was like ''yo lovely daughter, need to borrow that skin on your back for a second'' ⭕Riza is very good at leg sweeping, hip checking, or just thwacking the back of Roy's knees because when he came to live as her father's apprentice at their crumbling rural manor house, she took great joy tripping him up in the corridors to the point it became a game.

⭕Havoc was nominated for first aider training for their unit. He drew the short straw. Hated every second of the weekend long training he got shoved into. The team make frequent jokes they were hoping to improve his experience, as his dating life is piss-poor and doing CPR would be is only form of ‘kissing’.

⭕ Riza’s a tea-a-holic (which could be canon? Girl be drinking tea in a lot of manga panels). She likes tea due to the variety of scents and finds the method of brewing/preparing it as a form of decompression/keeps her mind blank and hands busy because there are only many times she can dismantling and cleaning her service weapons to a pristine condition before someone presumes she has OCD.

⭕Roy isn’t very good with the scent of fatty meat being cooked. He can deal with it, but sometimes, on The Bad Days™the scent can send him reeling. (This was mostly inspired given how my paternal grandfather was a tank-man during ww2 and my uncle had the horrors of playing with flame throwers in other dumb-mens-wars and neither of them could cope with the smell of smoked bacon of fat-heavy meat).

⭕Fuery is blind AF without his glasses…. Probably me projecting like hell as poor sighted dweeb with thick glasses and also how I HATE that characters in fiction get their glasses off and can FUNCTION DURING CHAOS??? LIKE, NO. EVERYTHING IS BLURRY AND SCARY. MATE, I ONCE LOST MY GLASSES IN THE AMAZING MAZE OF MAIZE AND I FELT LIKE I WAS IN THE BLAIR WITCH PROJECT FIGHTING FOR MY LIFE. Also, during a paintball match, I had to forgo my glasses because the eye protective googles didn’t like me wearing them, so I was just blindly taking people out and running into trees, but that’s another story. Rant over.

⭕Maes & Gracia had experienced pregnancy loss before they finally had Elicia: its why the two of them cherish her so much

Annnnnd... I'll stop. Otherwise we are gonna end up with a sickeningly large amount and I fear I'll bore you. 💖

[autisticfaun420]

More on HSN autism and poop I guess

My most popular post by far is my one about my struggle with fecal smearing not sure why. I guess I’ll give you guys a follow up cause I want to talk more about incontinence and how it has affected my life. Sorry new to tumblr and I don’t remember what tags to use so OCD people can filter so I hope this intro is enough of a trigger warning.

I’m gonna be blunt about it, what’s worse then smearing though is just being in public stuck in a shitty diaper really for a couple reasons. I can’t stop myself from having bowel accidents in public, and when I’m having them too I *look* like I’m having one, I can’t stop my legs from squatting like a little kid and there’s often an accompanying sound to go with it. I wish I could say this in a nicer way but I basically go from the tolerable quirky R word to the ew so disgusting R word real fast. People go from smiling at me at least to going to openly degrading me and making comments like I’m not in the room. People get bothered real fast, I can’t blame them it smells bad but it doesn’t change the fact on how I feel inside once I became old enough to realize this was going on. It’s hard for my parents and caregivers to find a place in public to change me and it’s often impossible. The restaurants I eat at, the places so visit, are all dependent on me having a single room bathroom because a proper adult changing station is a pipe dream.

God forbid I have a diaper blowout (where poop goes up the back and out the diaper), then whatever small amount empathy people have goes quickly out the window. I used to like taking the bus with my dad, I can’t do it anymore. I had one blowout on the bus and people acted like their life was in danger “ew ew ew oh my god the r word shit everywhere ew” from someone not even close to where I was sitting, people telling my dad how my mom should of handled her pregnancy, I learned what an abortion was that day. People become blunt when they are mildly inconvenienced with a bad smell and they think it gives them a right to dehumanize someone. I know it’s disgusting but maybe there’s something wrong with me but I don’t think the reaction warrants it. Not when I’ve been at people’s houses and the dog shits everywhere and people go aww he’s just a little guy to the dog. I wish I got that kind of reaction as an autistic child, infantilization is at least better then telling me I should have never been born.

I wanted to write more but sorry I’m crying now. I guess I’ll end it on a positive note. I mentioned in a previous post how one of my high school friends, who grew up with little brothers and cousins, had no problems changing me so we could hang out. I’m not saying that’s an accommodation I expect anyone at all to make for me who’s not a parent or a caregiver getting paid for it, but the fact that he never acted grossed out when cleaning me healed something in me. I would be so embarrassed shitting myself in front of my “cool” neurotypical friends, I would be tearing up and I opened up about it and how embarrassing it is and he basically told me fuck the haters and it’s not something I can control. I didn’t ask for it. A part of me believed I was doing on purpose and carried guilt and guilt leads to meltdowns and smearing incidents. “What do you mean all the cool kids poop their pants” he would say sometimes to make me laugh. During our hangout sessions I would whisper to him “cool pants” or text him that so he could discreetly take me to the bathroom. He’d do it wether he was drunk, stoned, or sober. And like I said in the other post, he was the only reason I was able to have the freedom to hang out without a caretaker or parent in high school and we could all smoke weed together without my parents knowing. I think they did know what I was doing and just let me have my teenage fun, I think my parents thought the weed chilled me out too, which is true, so they let me do it but my cannabis use is a topic for another day.

[r0tt1ngv4mpyr]

MAXLEY HEADCANONS!

(REQUESTS OPEN)

//TW FOR SH//

MY MAX HEADCANONS:

•is hispanic

•has vitiligo on his hands and a bit on his face and wears gloves and foundation to cover it up

•has autism/adhd

•used to sh that's why he started skating is to not think about stuff as much

•is trans (ftm)

• has a skinny hourglass body by the hates it because it makes him look less masculine

•listens to more rock and metal but in general listens to mostly all genres (except slow songs, jazz, classical, country)

•has snakebites, septum, stretched gauges on his ears , and industrial piercings and a bell button piercing 😻 (also has a wolf cut)

•bi (pref male

MY BRADLEY HEADCANONS:

•is half american half italian

•he has freckles

•has ocd/anger issues

•loves black coffee with a little milk

•finds max's piercings hot

•would never get a piercing himself (scared of needles, doesn't think they look good on him, and his dad would never let him)

•has fluffy middle parted hair that was cut short but grew out to a shorter mullet

•religious trauma and daddy issues

•gay (mlm)

MY MAXLEY HEADCANONS:

•when they make out bradley puts his hands on max's waist/hips and sometimes he puts one hand on his waist/hips and grabs max's hair

•bradley was max's first time

•max will pick up random creepy ass bugs and bradley will be like "put. that. down."

•bradley is like 6,1 and towers over the 5,5 max

•max is very touch starved but isn't very used to touch (said in a headcanon earlier) and will do anything to get any affection from bradley but is really nervous when he gets it then just kinda melts

•definitely have some sort of history but max forgot and bradley didn't (maybe like childhood friends or smth)

•both unironically love the song "romance is boring" by los campesinos

•max loves horror movies and bradley hates them (they still watch them together tho)

•max says the most out of pocket shit and bradley just stares at him with his head tilted like "wtf?-"

OTHER PEOPLES HEADCANONS I LIKE (credits are included)

•bradley needs glasses bc he is nearsighted but doesn't wear them bc it takes away his cool - @thecat_inthe_cherryhat on tiktok

•bradleys mother died making his coexistence with his father uncomfortable, he does not hate his father, in fact he loves him but he does not know how to be and live with him, he does not want to admit it - @thecat_inthe_cherryhat on tiktok

•bradley's father is his weak point, he became conceited and rude as a way of defending his father's expectations - @thecat_inthe_cherryhat on tiktok

•he likes Britney Spears' music and has records but hides them from the - @thecat_inthe_cherryhat on tiktok

•Bradley is a law student, he was forced to go there because of his father but he still likes it a little - @thecat_inthe_cherryhat on tiktok

•he has a masculine image but his hygiene care makes his friends tell him that he is feminine, he uses lip balm because he doesn't like having dry lips - @thecat_inthe_cherryhat on tiktok

•When Bradley was in Middle school he used to wear baggy overalls has messy hair and wearer braces - @h4z3l_quits on tiktok

•Bradley used to be a kind and loyal kid! But when he got adopted by a rich family he started getting rude bc he was “spoiled” and he was raised to be perfect that’s why he’s competitive - @h4z3l_quits on tiktok

•max actually likes Bradley genuinely and just pretends that he likes roxanne and like tries desperately to get Bradley’s attention so he gets jelly - @chrys_linn on tiktok

•max is left handed so bradley is on his left side when he gets the chance just to see if one day they'll hold hands - @somnusgallery on tiktok

•max likes to play with Bradley's hair and Bradley gets embarrassed and ends up blushing every single time - @cassie_m328 on tiktok

•Max is ALWAYS bruised and patched up due to trying extreme shit with his skate and Bradley being the meticulous guy he is always brings stuff to patch Max up - @crowking.jpg on tiktok

•Max and Rox broke up due to them being young and immature and Max is mostly over it but he does feel he's not relationship material or isn't fully on board with one afterwards but THEN HE MEETS BRAD - @crowking.jpg on tiktok

•Max may be shorter but the moment he rizzes Brad up Brad loses his MIND like man's weak AF for Max's smooth ahh attitude - @crowking.jpg on tiktok

•Brad loosens up around Max overtime and let's go of his fragile masculinity and embraces open queerness and things he limited himself away from - @crowking.jpg on tiktok

•Brad and Max bring out the best in each other due to their competitive nature and ambition for improvement - @crowking.jpg on tiktok

[lovelypearlystarz]

Donsy Family hc’s:)

SO since i made Della + HDLP hc’s + GFDS hc’s i thought it was only right i do Donald’s:)! So here we Go!

Donald Lee Duck-

•Knits Sweaters and socks, Isn’t very good at it thought

•Like sweets but prefers not to eat them infront of the kids so They don’t think it’s okay to also eat a bunch of candy

•Still Treats the boys like his own kids and they frequently come to him for advice

•Hyper-Empathetic

•perfectionist •Has them loud dad sneezes

•Tells dad jokes

•Incredibly romantic

•His favorite colors are Blue,Orange,Red,Yellow and Green

•Loves Daisy’s eyes

•incredibly stressed

•Very kind and giving even with his anger issues he doesn’t let it effect his choices

•An Amazing Cook

•Loves his kids to death

•The sun

Daisy Mayflower Duck-

•Making her own Fashion lines,the kids Including HDLP Model for her clothes mostly Dewey

•Likes Spicy + Savory Food,Favorite food is Spicy instant Noodles

•Is a horrible cook

•Loves her kids to bits

•Fiesty

•very defensive over her kids,Will fight for them.

•Makes her own clothes,Still very into fashion

•Minnie Models for her too since she’s a local Celebrity

•Loving and Maternal

•Strong + Independent

•Is also very romantic

•favorite flowers are roses

•The moon

kablooie/Abril(April) Duck-

•Severe Anger issues

•Speaks Spanish when someone gets on his nerves

•the youngest of all the duck kids

•Is a Clone Of huey(acts nothing like him) From Fowl,But he escaped One day and stayed out on the streets spying on scrooge and his family

•Surprisingly Gets along with Della And Goldie

•Doesn’t get on with kids his age,it’s hard for him to make friends

•Get’s in trouble all the time,Hates getting embarrassed,Laughed or yelled at.

•his favorite drink is chocolate milk

•Hates spicy foods,but loves Bitter and sour foods

•he pick pockets out of habit and the need to survive

•gets along with Louie the most out of HDLP,They just get each other without having to speak

•Is easily Flushed /Embarrassed

•Doesn't like celebrating his birthday

•The Eclipse

maysie *May* Duck-

•is actually Daisy’s niece but her and june’s parents died when they were children so they stayed with her

•Is very studious and Mature for her age

•One of the oldest

•was Actually Born in april

•Is close to June because of their shared experiences

•Treats Abril like a baby for shits and giggles

•appreciates the fact Donald and daisy took them all in

•LOVES sweet food,Has a SEVERE sweet tooth,anything sweet you got she’s taking it from you- politely

•The cousin she gets along with the most is Webby and Huey because of their personalities.

•The Moon

Juniper *June* Duck-

•Is very Energetic

•The middle Child of them

•Very sweet to everyone she loves. hate's being mean

•prefers sweet and savory foods over spicy and sour

•get's on very well with everyone because she's so nice

•has a very easy time making friends and forming bonds unlike her siblings

•her favorite cousin is dewey and webby, they just get her

•when texting she always says LOL or LMFAO

•her favorite drink is pink lemonade because it's pink and it taste good

•likes hanging around beakly and lena, she reminds them of webby.

•comes up with some designs for daisy to use.

•wants to eventually be a teacher even though she doesn't have good grades

•loves hugs

•close to may

•finds kablooie a bit aloof and intimidating

•giggles alot

•was born february 7th

•tries surprsing scrooge on his birthdays with tons of gifts and if he doesn't accept them she guilt trips him with the puppy eyes

•very tomboyish and likes playing in the mud and dirt

And for sexual orientations/gender identity-

•donald is Masc and bisexual

•Daisy is femme and Pansexual

•Kablooie/abril is Aromantic

•May is a lesbian

•June is also a lesbian

now for mental issues/struggles

donald-anger,depression anxiety

daisy-anger issues, anxiety

kablooie-ODD,anger issues, social anxiety

May-OCD

June-autism + autism

[wowstrawberrycow]

Expanding!

I am really wanting to write drabbles for Elrond and Thranduil. But, before I dive in I've been trying to develop my own head canons for my au. This doesn't mean I will stop writing for Gimli and Legolas though. I adore them far too much! 😍

Here's my head canons! I personally think Elrond and Thranduil would balance each other very well.

Thranduil

Definitely a bi-guy and is 100% a disaster.

Is both Barbie and Ken at the same time, or separately depending on his mood. I say this because I canon him to have a perfect blend of fem and masculine styles that are glamorous. No pun intended (we all know he uses glamor). The way he carries himself is very much like a popular girl at the mall (Barbie) but is athletically masculine (Ken).

100% brat energy.

Can easily be a party 'girl' without that effecting his masculinity in anyway.

I imagine he probably does wear makeup from time to time.

I could see him being a very sexually charged individual.

Has heavy trust issues that cause him to keep people at a distance. I'm wanting to say because he is secretly sensitive he does this to avoid getting hurt.

Overly emotional and overly dramatic. He is the drama king!

He gives me the air of someone who is wildly insecure, with very low self-esteem, and poor body image; who hides behind a hyper confident mask.

After losing his wife (the main form of stability in his life) he turned to alcoholism and hides behind a false party persona.

Is absolutely terrified of anything happening to his son. Is extremely overbearing to the point where he has projected his own fears onto legolas and has accidentally been pushing them (I canon legolas to be a they/them) away.

Tries to be supportive but falls flat because he is a helicopter parent.

He for sure did not let Legolas out of his sight until they were in their equivalent of teen elf years. This made his son grow even more rebellious causing a rift in both their lives.

I think it absolutely destroyed him inside to let Legolas go out into the world in the movies. But, he did so because he had to let go eventually. Hanging on tightly would make him lose his son forever

Will argue with Legolas about leaving the palace to go fight the spiders and other creatures in forest very much the way Ariel's dad does when Ariel goes to the surface in the little mermaid movie.

Definitely needs guidance from a Dom.

He is a single mom. Again this doesn't effect his pronouns.

Trauma survivor with PTSD 😢

Elrond

Also a bi-guy but is not a disaster.

For sure has a responsible dad vibe and will go out of his way for his kids.

In fact, he gives off the air that he's the communal dad. #Dadfriend

family man through and through.

I imagine that he is the type of dad to casually tell embarrassing stories about the 'kids' in his life or anyone he considers his kiddo as well as his own kids that are blood related.

Absolutely is the type who is a teacher as an occupation (child hearder). Teachers heard children right?

Is extremely organized with OCD tendencies.

He always struck me as a paramedic type too, especially if assisting in battle. I mean he is a very skilled healer canonically.

Can appear tired and done with life, but also has a secret streak of dad humor/lame humor.

Extremely patient.

Is very lonely. Life has not been kind to him canonically. And his children drifted away from him, lost his twin and other loved ones too 😢 So I think that is the reason why in my canon he tries to be dad for others. It helps that he's older than most too.

Could be chronically depressed 😢

Is definitely a caregiver type in a BDSM lifestyle relationship.

Wholesome babe

Can be quite the suave Gentleman in private

100% weird at all times

Hippie dad status always

Space cadet

[thefifteenthdivisionarchives]

Six Hearts Bleach Headcanon

(this has nothing to do with my rewrite project, though I would still incorporate these Headcanons into it if needed. This is just general Bleach stuff)

Ichigo Headcanons

He likes surprising people that he has a large collection of William Shakespeare books. In fact, when visiting the Kurosaki home for the first time, Uryū stared at said collection for a good 5 minutes straight out of pure shock.

He's very fluent in English

It was thanks to Chad that Ichigo has some interest in playing the guitar.

He has a fantastic singing voice (Masakazu Morita has sung some songs and I believe JYB was part of a band). Unfortunately, he’s embarrassed to sing in front of others. Only his sisters know of this talent.

While I’ve previously thought of him as bi-curious…I’m warming up to the idea of him being aroace (he can still be in a relationship!)

Enjoys listening to American 80s/90s music

He'll suck on lemon slices. You know how you ask for a drink at a restaurant and they'll stick a lemon slice on the glass? Ichigo would just suckle on that and is very much unbothered by the sour flavor.

Would rather be in familiar company than large social gatherings.

His first kiss was Tatsuki. It was Christmas, they were kids, under the mistletoe, and don't want to talk about it further.

Probably has inattentive ADHD (probably projecting here too)

Suffers from depression

Rukia Headcanons

Once she got the hang of it, she's surprisingly good at video games, specifically Vs type games. So far, she’s beaten Ichigo, Chad, and Keigo on multiple occasions

Similarly to how Rukia prefers to sleep in Ichigo’s closet, she had found similar places to sleep over at Orihime’s, Chad’s, and even Uryū’s apartment in case she needed to crash there instead.

In terms of ‘age’ (Shinigami standards), she is 15~17

She recently learned of sexual orientation and gender identity. Through this, she realizes that she could be pan. 

Despite being a Kuchiki, Rukia would still swear quite frequently

A light sleeper and bit of a night owl

Uryū Headcanons

His body has difficulty absorbing iron, which can result in anemia and low blood pressure. He was also prone to illnesses growing up. His powers do help boost his health, but he still has to be mindful.

He is very fluent in German (I think this is canon?)

He works part time at the local library as an assistant not long after turning 15

He started fighting Hollows not long after entering middle school

He had beef with the previous Shinigami that had watched over Karakura before Rukia was stationed there

He started living on his own during winter break of his final year in middle school

He is asexual-demiromantic. He somewhat sees him as nonbinary (still sees himself as a man, but feels he doesn’t quite fit the mold), but sticks with he/him pronouns. Though, he wouldn’t mind being referred to as they/them.

He learned how to play the violin because his father wanted to keep him busy and away from anything Quincy related.

Not a morning person

Has sketches of his designs and any inspirations

Enjoys watching old b-movies, even the laughably bad ones

He has some level of OCD, wanting things in a specific order, mayhaps even color-coded (more likely autistic, in reality)

He's probably autistic

A decent cook

Also suffers from depression

Orihime Headcanons

She has written her own recipe book of any dish she makes

Once she learns anyone in her friend group is in a relationship or crushing on someone, she will be that person’s hype man

She is at least bi-curious. Considering she’s friends with Tatsuki and Rangiku, there ain’t no way she’s coming out of it straight.

She has interest in learning how to play the piano

Likes to do yoga and would try to get her friends to join

Has hyperactive ADHD (girl is so out of pocket at times, this makes sense to me)

Through the Handicrafts Club, Orihime has gained an affinity for making bracelets (be it beading, knotting, and braiding) and just jewelry and charms in general

She works at a cafe part time and can somehow memorize even the craziest of coffee orders

Chad Headcanons

Chad now owns the cockatiel Yuichi was possessing. Chad named the bird after the boy

He also has a few potted plants to care for

He volunteers at an animal shelter

He is an ally and you’d know he’d give free hugs to whomever needs them.

Speaking of, he’s a surprisingly good hugger. He knows how to control the strength of his hugs to where people could just fall asleep because of how comfortable and safe they feel.

Would hit the gym to safely let loose (obviously not with del Diablo and de Gigante)

He and Uryu share custody of the group’s brain cells. Actually…they could be something similar with Garnet and Pearl, Team Dad and Team Mom (or whatever you wanna call it) dynamic

Renji Headcanons

While Renji’s drawing capabilities leave a lot to be desired, he’s actually pretty good at abstract shapes and lining.

Renji is the oldest of the group. Even older than Rukia give or take (still likely younger than 110 years). Let’s put it like this: If Rukia can be considered 15~17, then Renji could be 17~19.

Renji doesn’t get the hype over pride stuff, gender identity, or sexual orientation. Not in an ignorant or phobic sort of way, but more like ‘What? You want a cookie?’ type of attitude. He doesn’t see it as something special, just something that…just exists. He ain’t gonna give anyone special treatment.

He’s an oversized heater, radiating a lot of body heat

You know this man has a hair care routine

Holds on to a great amount of guilt for willingly going along with Rukia's execution

[sonic-4-episode-ii]

heres a "quick" list of some hcs regarding physical disabilities, mental illnesses & other stuff that can impair function or is "odd" physically but i dont know the proper term for

might update this every once in a while but for now thats it

spoiler alert: its all chronic pain!

Sonic

Fibromyalgia, big-time. Uses massively thick socks to stop his feet from hurting too much while running.

DID, which starting developing when he was like....4. now that he's (mostly) gotten over his "just push everything down" era, inter-system communications are pretty strong, and he's friends w/ a lot of his headmates

doesnt have the best eyesight (in fact its p awful) but hes convinced he can still see well enough so he refuses to wear his glasses. WILL NOT wear contacts

has NPD

autistic. contrary to popular believe, he doesnt have ADHD

schizophrenia. idk which type or whatever. hes got the hallucinations.

has auditory and visual (???) synthesia which caused him to. make the sonic CD us sountrack. yeah

Tails

HoH, but doesn't like using hearing aids. A bad habit inspired by Sonic's refusal to wear his own glasses

OCD, huge-time. his paranoia can get so bad sometimes that he doesn't even trust Sonic. doing much better in that regard nowadays, though.

tic disorder, hits themself or has their neck turn the other way violently (hurts!!!!!!)

so obviously autistic they get a little embarrassed abt it sometimes

c-ptsd haver

Knuckles

Undiagnosed chronic pain, has no idea what's causing it. Fully believed it was emerald stealing karma for YEARS.

gets weird pinched nerves alot because of some of his old scars being close to nerve endings. ow

has bad eyesight but genuinely didnt realize for years

has a sort of? processing disorder thing? i dont actually know what it is. when you try to talk but actual gibberish comes out n you cant think. someone else had the same hc but i forgot what they called it. but he has that

does actually have a lot of trauma due to being alone for most of his life and being raised by nothing but a rock and maaaaybe some birds. crazy ik

Amy

Horrible, awful eyesight. worst perscription out of ALL of her friends

Hypermobile joints, which is part of why she has such a horrible posture (along w her dysphoria).

abandonment issues due to. yk. being abandoned by her parents, which ends up leading into her getting unhealthily attached to anyone who gives her the time of day (and she arbitrarily decides is totally the one for her)

Shadow

PTSD (canon)

mobility issues (canon)

NPD + maybe borderline...?

Rouge

pretty much 100% deaf, uses hearing aids.

has some kinda smt going on because of the way she grew up but fuck if anyone knows what it actually is.

Blaze

Had anorexia for years, which has caused a lot of muscle weakness. Now that she's in recovering, things are a lot better, but she still uses a cane most of the time.

has depression, anxiety and self-worth issues due to being bullied as a child. not just for her flame powers

double anxiety bc of people trying to take her shit

Silver

similar to Blaze, weak thanks to a really bad diet as a kid.

due to genetic mutations caused by radiation, contamination of drinking water & food, and extreme changes in the environment, silver has four arms

also a really weird immune system that flip-flops from being disturbingly strong to scarily weak (can eat actual trash somehow but a cold puts him out of the running for weeks)

anxiety + separation issues. tries to be stoic abt it tho

has dyscalculia And dyslexia, struggles with understanding english especially

Vanilla

chronic exhaustion + fibromyalgia from a young age. sort of worried cream will end up having it too

Cream

weak immune system due to lots of childhood illness. might not be able to be vaxxed bc of it

gets ear infections really easily, made significantly worse w all the dirt she kicks up from flying with her ears

unspecified panic disorder due to trauma. tries to stay brave

Charmy / charmie / charmee

constantly low blood sugar due to weird bee stuff + inconsistent diet as a kid

he thinks hes funny :/

might have autism and/or adhd

Espio

undiagnosed mobility issues. can climb fine, but has trouble walking and cant run. uses a cane

anxiety he refuses to talk abt to anyone except the other chaotix and, very rarely, silper

Vector

self-inflicted hearing loss. went to too many concerts

developed anxiety after taking care of charmy and espio for so long. thanks kids

Sticks

OCD. tends to unintentionally encourage tails's delusions. currently getting experimental therapy thats working rlly well

somehow has almost every possible vitamin deficiency

Eggman

tics similar to sonic and tails's

OSDD

NPD

Neo Metal Sonic

transfeminine metal sonic from the main au

chronic headaches after episode metal

joints tend to seize up when chilly for too long. although shes immune to water, its worse when shes cold

tics due to system errors / bugs she and tails cant fix. she doesnt actually mind them since it makes her feel more connected to her bros :]

memory problems also after episode metal

due to her memory problems she has to memorize stuff by repeatedly being given info and it takes way longer for her to learn things compared to other computers so i think she has a learning disability? bc of that?

has weird backwards sensory issues. lack of harsh lighting or metallic noises unsettles and can overwhelm her

might have NPD

has delusions. getting better at recognizing them, which helps her help tails more

Hyper Metal Sonic

second, transmasculine metal sonic from a spinoff au

self-induced chronic pain (wtf bro)

joints also seize up when cold

Sage

doesnt feel much physically, which leads to her getting bad injuries she barely recognizes for ages

autism beast

Scourge

popcorn lung due to smoking several packs of cigarettes daily so his voice sounds more gruff

everything sonic has also

[bitter-hibiscus]

Heyo i have a question for you my transfem Red Hood friend

What do we think about pre-transition Robin!Calliope listening to Noel's Lament from Ride the Cyclone?

Like, obviously, there's the "fantasizing about being a woman part." But ALSO also I'm thinking wrt the taboo about the csa and the fact that it wasn't something she could/felt like she could talk about? Because to me there are two questions, there's the question of whether she acknowledges that she was a victim and the question of whether she would feel safe to talk about it (because sex is taboo, because queer sex is taboo, because sex work is a crime in the us etc.). And also a bit meta but like about how gender ties into that, about how people associate sex work and sexual assault with feminity.

So now I'm thinking about Calliope having this huge secret that burdens her and she can't talk about it and also this other huge secret that she can't talk about wrt her gender and her perception of survival built on repressing stuff and having this fantasy in which she's an independent adult and a woman and she killed her pimp when he tried to hurt her and she does sex work and everyone knows it and she's open and confident about it... Thinking about how in that fantasy, Monique dies at the end... (Kinda like in bury your gays queer fanfiction: you are allowed to experience catharsis through fiction but only if the sinner is punished at the end.)

And also, I heard the line "at night I burn myself with cigarettes" and immediately thought about her like yeah. That's Robin II yep yep yeah.

CORRECT AS FUCK MY LIEGE. I LITERALLY THINK ABOUT CALLIOPE EVERY TIME I LISTEN TO THAT SONG

I agree with everything you said so so so so much esp because like, while I do think that Calliope is a very emotionally open woman (though not emotionally available) she's also someone who is incredibly affected by shame and embarrassment. And there's this almost guilt-induced embarrassment in my interpretations of her, where she truly believes that the things she went through (the rape, Sheila leaving, Willis dying alone, her own death, the fact Bruce doesn't love her, etc etc) are all HER fault because there's something fundamentally wrong with her. So even though she, to me, protects the sex workers that work for her, and is obviously very accepting and supportive of other trans people (side eyes my butch!dick grayson headcanon with so much love) those are things that she believes she's not allowed to not be ashamed of, because she's just lesser than other people in every context.

(I also think that her OCD would absolutely convince her that she's faking those trans thoughts because she's actually secretly a bigot who believes only women can be S/A'd and then it spirals out of control because that's the first time she ever admits to herself that it was rape.)

Honestly, it's so funny that you bring up the bury your gays trope because. because if Jason is trans in UTRH, isn't that exactly what he's doing? Isn't he trying to get Bruce to finally break, finally abandon himself, for the sake of Jason's own catharsis that results in his own death? In a Calliope world, isn't that the story reinforcing that no, she's never going to be independent, she's never going to be free, she's never going to live her life free of the fear of what lurks in the dark because she's a woman, because she dared to demand more than what the men in her life were comfortable with, because she refuses to become complacent? Isn't that the quintessential story of women in fiction?

[oros-ash3s]

henlo I come bearing asks for my prospective favorites Atlas and Alastair ☝️

💭 THOUGHT BALLOON — what is your oc's MBTI, enneagram, and/or other personality aspects (if known/interested in)?

💯 HUNDRED POINTS SYMBOL — share three random facts about your oc that others may not know.

🩹 ADHESIVE BANDAGE — does your oc have any physical and/or mental disabilities?

💙 BLUE HEART — does your oc have any cool/special powers and/or abilities? how are they with magic, if it exists in their world?

(yes I’m already aware they have some sort of magic stuff but take this as a pass to Yap heheheheheh)

hey sea!! thanks for the ask <3

ASK GAME \\

💭 —

MBTI || Atlas is an INTJ-A and Alastair is an INTJ-T.

The INTJ-A (or “Architect”) personality is characterized by being introverted, intuitive, thinking, and judging, making them strategic, analytical, and independent thinkers who value logic and systems.

The INTJ-T (or “Turbulent”) personality is characterized by being success-driven, perfectionistic, and eager to improve, often noticing small problems and striving for constant improvement.

💯 —

Atlas is very musically inclined. He plays the guitar and the drums, and later on joins a band with Kokoa and Kau’i. They have frequent gigs and for a while it’s his one source of employment throughout everything.

He loves junk food. His favourite type of food is surprisingly McDonalds, as that’s what he first tried after getting out of Eden for the first time.

Atlas is obsessed with movies. Although he’s not very media literate (what being apart of a cult all your life will do to you), he loves watching them for fun. Some of his favourites are old cheesy rom-coms, something you’d least expect from the hardened soldier.

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Alastair cannot handle spicy foods at all. He’s someone who has only ever eaten food from the church and the orphanage so he has built up no tolerance. Wren had him try a hot cheeto once and he almost cried and gagged on it for a minute straight.

Thinks dogs are really cool. He’s never seen one in real life before though.

He developed no hobbies outside of studying files in the archives so when he leaves the church, he finds himself unable to pass the time and tends to spiral in his own thoughts. This often results in panic attacks but he doesn't want to embarrass himself in front of Atlas and Wren and so he hides his face in his shirt and holds in his own breaths until he’s gagging and shaking.

🩹 —

Atlas and Alastair both have a myriad of mental issues/disabilities. A large part of their arc revolves around this, and it’s something that the both of them have to overcome over the course of the story.

Atlas is formally diagnosed with both c-PTSD and PTSD, resulting from extreme trauma throughout his childhood and the result of living through a war, and becoming a prisoner to Eden. He is also diagnosed with amnesia from brain damage when he is 18, something that affects him for many years after the fact. Because of his brain damage he is also very susceptible to concussions and migraines, and especially sensitive to light. This grows worse as he ages.

Atlas was also written to be autistic-coded, although he doesn’t ever recieve an “official” diagnosis for it.

Alastair is diagnosed with depression by the time he is about 23, although it was something he struggled with for most of his life. He also deals with heavy suicidal ideation by the time he is 21, and it only becomes worse as time wears on. Alastair, although never formally diagnosed, is selectively mute, something which he’s had to deal with since he was about 5-years-old. He develops agoraphobia in his early 20’s as well, something that dictates his life for a long time.

Overall Alastair deals with a lot of mental health issues, although he doesn’t actually get a name for a lot of them. Like Atlas, he is meant to be autistic-coded, though he is also OCD and anxiety coded, and could be read as having paranoia. And as a result of the war, he does deal with PTSD symptoms.

tldr; atlas and alastair are extremely mentally ill and do NOT have the time to deal with it

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Atlas and Alastair also end up with quite a few physical disabilities, as result of living through a war.

Atlas ends up losing his right arm when he is 18, and wears a prosthetic for the rest of his life. He also suffers from nerve damage in his right hand, having very bad grip control and frequently experiencing tremors. His vocal cords suffer a lot of damage from the electric collar he was forced to wear at Eden, and he ends up losing his left eye, later wearing a prosthetic. Overall his body ends up pretty damaged by the time the war is over, and he deals with chronic pain for the rest of his life.

Alastair struggles with extreme chronic pain post-canon. He loses his left leg near the end of the war, as well as suffers severe burns to the left side of his face which renders him blind in that eye. His body never fully recovers from the injuries that he sustains while in the final battle circa 2043.

💙 —

I’m not sure if I’ve ever fully went into depth with what exactly their powers are, but both of them are Magicus, which means they were born with a power.

Atlas has power absorption. He can mimic others abilities and use them as his own. While this is ability is activated the other person’s power is weaker than it usually would be. In some examples he can mimic physical abilities of humans as well, which in turn drains their energy. And while his power is in use, his eyes glow.

Alastair has void. He is able to change the mass of his body into literal shadow. While in his shadow form, he can see everything — time, space, the makeup of the universe itself.

Although they both have powers, their ideologies when it comes to magic contrasts greatly.

Atlas sees nothing wrong with his powers, having been raised in an environment where it was normalized. He frequently had to train using his power, and activating it is like something as simple as breathing to him. He uses it almost every day as it gives him an advantage on the battlefield, and isn’t afraid to use it if it means winning a fight or completing his mission.

Alastair, on the other hand, doesn’t want anything to do with his powers. He hates using them — refuses to do so, actually. He has sworn to himself that he won’t become like what everyone else had thought of him. He doesn’t have really any control over them because of this, and is not nearly as experienced as Atlas is. He views his powers as more of a curse than a gift, opposite of Atlas.

(Ironic, considering Atlas comes from Eden, which is strict about magic and thinks it’s something to be controlled, not used. While Alastair comes from the Congregation, which is proud about their status as Magicae.)

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[lxvenderjewel]

oliver mistreatment rant under the cut

i like katie but i do really sympathize with oliver. because he moves into westport as a tween who's already developed his own interests (like harry potter) which is a fine and normal thing to be into where he originally grew up. but then he moves to this pretentious ass town where he knows no one and everyone hates him because everyone hates his mom.

he's so quickly jolted into changing everything about himself so that he can fit in with these people, because, you know, they move when he's about to start middle school, and making friends becomes a lot harder when you get to middle school, especially in a town where everyone else is using this code that you know nothing about, and for the first few seasons he tries so so hard to get people to like him and to fit in with every other westport kid and his parents do not help him AT ALL.

in fact they actively hinder him from fitting in with other kids. taylor doesn't really have this problem because when they move she's in high school and she doesn't really care at that point, she's spent so long being a middle class kid that she doesn't care about changing herself for westport, but oliver desperately wants people to like him.

he's literally the only kid in westport who has to do any chores, who doesn't go on vacation, doesn't have any hired help, and to katie and greg that's normal but it's so embarrassing for him to grow up in this space where everyone else has so much more than he does. but every time he tries to rectify that his parents are stopping him at every turn.

i strongly believe that oliver's autistic, he's so lost in the masking sauce that katie and greg never get him a diagnosis whereas anna-kat's ocd is severe enough that they actually go get a diagnosis for her, but that's besides the point. he doesn't even ask them to go on vacation or anything literally all he does is lie about where he went on vacation to fit in and his parents get mad about that too as if it affects them at all.

katie and greg are alright as parents but they mistreat oliver so badly it makes me so mad. like with taylor and anna-kat they're great! but with oliver they literally just hate him . and the way katie treats cooper who is a very clearly abused and neglected child with no support system is an ENTIRE other rant.