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#dead dove is such a useful tag if used right because you know that whatever is on the label the author commits to it (via @dropdeadjackā )
^ dead dove is meant to be used in conjunction with other warnings, to indi not to replace them.
'creator chose not to use archive warningsā is the tag youāre looking for if you want to tell readers āthere might be some fucked up stuff in here, but i dunno if it meets the point of a formal tag/i donāt want to spoil it/i donāt want to promise anything/etc.ā it already exists!
the conflation of "dead dove" into a genre of fic when it's intended to mean "there are warnings here, take them seriously because you get exactly what's on the tin" is probably one of the worst things to happrn to fandom because you get people who tag "dead dove" and no other type of warning. like. cool. this is worthless
and you get people saying "anyone who writes dead dove is morally awful" or whatever. which is like. hello. this is a label you slap on the front of something to say what it is not a type of story
#technically 'choose not to warn' only applies to things it's archive policy to warn for#but for most situations it's a relevant/useful way of communicating that point to your readers#anyways i am sharing this post in the spirit of harm reduction not as a statement on triggering/controversial/'harmful' fic#i know i have some followers who have very strong opinions on this stuff so don't write me a callout lol#whether you think it's okay to write and post Literally Anything or not#the fact remains that people WILL do it#and even if you disagree with that (as is a perfectly valid and defensible way to feel)#i hope you will agree that appropriate tagging is a form of harm reduction if nothing else#ryan rambles
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(The rest is under the readmore!)
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#breaking news: local man is confronted with the fact that if he uses dumb contests as an excuse to avoid emotional vulnerability ā#then his partner is going to do the exact same thing lol#also covid update: I had a bit of a relapse and have been completely stuck in bed again the last couple days#am still definitely doing better than before but remain very very fatigued#apparently changing my bedsheets was a little much for me lol#anyway thank you to the people who have sent in asks the last couple days!! I am very excited to get to them#I just had to get this self indulgent comic out of my system first lololol#bsd#bsd dazai#bsd chuuya#soukoku#skk#bungou stray dogs#my art
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Thats it this post is an @kathaynesart appreciation post. Comment or reblog if you love and appreciate Kat and her work <3
#if wren got an appreciation post so does kat#ive been wanting to do one for kat forever now but I keep getting shy#apparently im feeling brave today <3#because we mutually agree future leos death scene is the best movie scene#but genuinely?#kat you have no idea how amazing it is for MANY people to get nice comments from you#You are a huge source of inspiration for everyone#Many people look up to you and the fact you look up at people in return?#How you interact and support everyone?#we love you#the wraenata but of post comments <3#I still have no clue if you are making a reblog sideblog but if you do or not im still stoked to remain around supporting everyone anyways#<3#have an appreciation post you deserve it#hope im not posting too late for people to see this haha
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And thus, with the passing of 24 hours, Caeru's ambition truly comes to an end. Major Nemesis spoilers below the cut- we're talking endgame ambition business here. Mostly on a character RP front.
The Doomed Scientist made quite a few... choice decisions, in the end. Killing Cups once and for all, recording his story as one of grief-
And sparing what little remained of Mr Mirrors, leaving it free to roam Parabola as it sees fit.
Some of them, he can explain. Others, he's still left to feel... discontent.
Cups needed to die. That much was certain from the start. It was a tyrant, as all Masters are, and complicit in the bargaining and eventual destruction of four (potentially five) cities, as all Masters are. It was an obstacle. A murderer. A petty monster that felt no remorse even on its deathbed, and it went out of its way to ruin multiple lives just because it felt owed its own sick and twisted idea of revenge.
It killed his first love. It looked him in the eyes and he knew what it had done and he knew from the start it was going to die.
Perhaps, in the end, it knew too. And yet it still pleaded, and wanted to live, and-
It made a bargain.
A bargain Caeru didn't take.
Not because he didn't want to. Gods, he wanted to. He wanted it. He wanted it more than anything else in the world. To have Greylu back, to give him the gift of life, of love, to show him the wonders of the Neath and the beauty of the correspondence and all of the people Caeru has met and loved and found home with along the way-
But. He couldn't.
Because Cups was a monster. And no matter what, it deserved to die. And he could not, in good conscience, allow it to live.
Even if sparing it meant everything he's ever wanted.
So he's left here, now. With a bloodied traveling coat, and a bloodsoaked knife, and a favor finally fulfilled.
And nothing to live for. No resurrected lover, no charming visits to Helicon, no slow dances in the living room, no memories to rebuild and lives to live and he won't live again-
Nothing. All he has is a coat born of obligation, not to his love, but to people he's never even met. To lives he's never even touched. To a paramour, still alive, with hair of rose-pink, who doesn't even remember her own brother's existence.
Cups didn't die for Caeru's sake. Cups died for the sake of all who wanted it dead. For the revenger's court, and the ghost screaming in his ear, and the reckoning that will not be postponed indefinitely.
And Caeru, who acted as a tool to carry out their wills? Who all but betrayed his own lover, just to satisfy a cause he never knew existed?
All Caeru is left with, is regret. Regret-
-And grief.
#yin-thoughts#fallen london#fallen london spoilers#nemesis spoilers#so! nemesis huh!#i have. a lot of thoughts#overall i think heart's desire remains closest to my heart#but that's almost certainly bc of the obvious ''you always remember your first'' bias#there's a lot of problems with nemesis that have been talked to death by other people way more eloquently than i could ever express#(the big notable stopgates littered throughout. the weird pacing at the end. the fact you never meet your actual nemesis til the finale)#but overall i still liked it a lot!! i loved it actually!!! it singlehandedly made me like cups as a master!!!!#not because of anything nemesis actually DID mind you. i just really liked making up things about it#in place of nemesis. actually featuring it.#which could either be a plus or a minus against the ambition depending on what angle you look at it from#but. yeah. i'd say i enjoyed it. i enjoyed it a whole bunch#and now that ive played 2 out of the 4 ambitions and my FL hyperfixation evidently isnt letting up#it's safe to say we're all here for the long haul#tune in (insert miscellaneous time in the future) for when i finally after like a year and a quarter#get to find out what the fuck truly goes down in light fingers#and also keep an eye out for that caeru-centric fic ive been unsubtly alluding to and still need to write.#ive got a whole outline for it and it's. well#you'll all see when (if?) i finish it#i have some ideas abt how i wanna play around with the nemesis endings + what they mean to caeru#(and i do mean endings as in both of them)#and it all may seem. insane. when we get there#but i swear i have a direction plotted in my head#i swear#scoundrelventures#<- the scoundrel isnt mentioned At All in this post but that works as a general FL oc lore tag
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"when they find your bones theyll know youre really a [sex assignment]" thats not true actually im gonna get buried beside my wife and our headstones are gonna read "evan" and "caspian" and our shared last name and im gonna be buried in a suit and shes gonna be buried in a dress and maybe we'll throw in a trans flag for funsies and they may learn we were trans but more importantly they will know that we were in love
#this is what theyve been doing with trans remains like forever btw#there have been remains from 5000 years ago from people who probably wouldve been defined as transgender today#and they will continue to do that because history will move forward#and i take comfort in the fact that it is easier to be trans now than it was in the decades before us#and it will continue to get easier for the trans kids who continue to be born and live#trans#t4t#t4t mlw#t4t wlw#transhet#transmasc#trans man#transfem#trans woman#t4t nblw
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I think about The Seige of AR-558 all the time. It's probably one of my absolute favourite ds9 episodes (along with In Purgatory's Shadow and By Inferno's Light which can not be topped) that one part where Julian is treating the wounds of one of the star fleet officers who've been essentially abandoned in this war zone and the officer is clearly so deeply traumatised by his experiences there is one of the most poignant moments in the entire show to me. The dialogue is so good and it really reminds you that this is an actual war theyre having, not just some flashy space battle where the good guys win and then everything is fine- it's had lasting impacts on these people who star fleet is meant to protect but really they send out a group of officers to a planet and then leave them there for months longer than they were supposed to be and so utterly do not care about these people because they see them as disposable. Even after Sisko and the ds9 crew realised how awful the conditions were everyone was expected to stay there - a position too important to the federation for them to let these people go home but not important enough for them to send backup or replacement officers (I though Quarks presence in the episode was really good as well for providing a perspective of someone not in StarFleet and a lot of the things he said about human nature and the actions of the federation really reflected how I was feeling about it as well haha)
Also the music was really good
(Edit if you want to hear more of my take on star fleet corruption I have put it in the tags)
#ferry yaps#ds9#star trek#deep space nine#can you tell I'm the number one star fleet hater#star fleet and their lack of a moral backbone continues to bother me#they're so willing to let atrocities and clear breaches of basic human (and like. alien) rights if it's convenient to them#they do it with section 31 and they do it with how they treat their officers#even my favourite characters are not immune to this like Sisko's whole 'I can live with it'#at the end of In The Pale Moonlight#makes perfect sense for his character and is a good dialogue on what lines people are willing to cross#for what they perceive to be the 'greater good'#which mirrors pretty closely the philosophies of Section 31#which Sisko condemns#despite the fact that when it comes down to it he'd do the same thing as them#and that's an issue with a lot of Star fleet's command body as a whole#they're in this environment where the prosperity of the federation is held above all else#including ethics a lot of the time#so they almost feel like they're allowed (encouraged?) to push moral boundaries to ensure that prosperity remains#which leads to an overall tendency towards corruption in star fleet command#which happens very frequently#I have more to say but I don't want to put it in tags holdon I'm gonna reblog this
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Yes. Because Tommy and Billy are the pinnacle of reliable characters and not at all people who 1) aren't privy to the details of someone else's relationship and 2) aren't trying to get under Steve's skin.
Steve and Nancy were absolutely in a grey area after their argument in S2. The fact that there's wiggle room to infer cheating at all makes it inherently unclear whether or not the characters were broken up. At the very least, they weren't on the same page at all.
Hell, I'd say it's completely in character for Nancy to cheat in this moment because we've repeatedly seen how she's impulsive and doesn't really consider other people's feelings when they conflict with whatever goal she has in mind.
#can we stop saying nancy didn't cheat and admit that actually people just didn't care that it was cheating#because the show clearly wanted you to root for j@ncy?#like. yeah back in 2017 when S2 aired I also didn't care about the cheating because it was clear that nancy and jonathan were a better matc#but the fact remains that neither character actually said they broke up#or even that they THINK it was a real breakup#and even if we do want to say that their argument was for sure a breakup and they were both aware of it#nancy had been pining for another guy for the last year. and emotionally cheating is still not okay#sometimes nancy does shitty things and actually it's more interesting if the narrative acknowledges that#strangerthoughts
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Every day I am haunted by the fact JJK could be amazing but it will be just idk Bleach or something
#I've seen a lot of people complaining about the fact that it's impossible to fit the ending of every unfinished arc#in the five chapters that remain for the manga to end for good#And it all just... legitimises my fear and apprehension haha#And it's a pity! It's a pity! The dynamics were so good! And yet nothing! Sukuna was so good! And yet nothing!#It was so nice how he seemed to play with the idea of transcending human categories and values but even the values of curses so to speak#Well beyond everything. Well beyond positive/creative nihilism even! He was not like Mahito#I wonder if Mahito is more a negative nihilism with a funny edge or a positive nihilism. For now it seems positive#with how he seems to have said something like 'nothing matters so we can do whatever we want and create what matters'#But Sukuna transcends all that! It could have been interesting to see how that developed in a way that wasn't just childish edginess#But no. And then there's all the idea of curses and sorcerers not being all that different#and so not really entirely possible to say one side is good and the other bad#There was the idea of the very source of powers with fear and love playing a role here in such a juicy way#And then there's the entire thing happening with Gojo as a concept and the very concepts he plays with which I could eat like an apple#but also I would let those very concepts eat at my heart as a worm inside an apple#Full of holes and rotting inside out and yet delighting at the sweetness#It could all be so good! And yet! Most of the manga is a few sketched dynamics and concepts and a very long fight with Sukuna#promising half finished arcs#WHY it could have been so good. And I don't think criticism is a matter of 'fans being spoiled! Go write your story!' or something#It's not a matter of things not going as fans would want them to be. It's a matter of not writing well#or cohesively things established by the author themselves. And I think that's a fair criticism#If we are to take manga as an artā which I wholeheartedly supportā#then we can subject mangas to artistic or literary or whatever you want to call it analysis. There are works that are better constructed#than othersā and there are works that have good ideas but poor execution. And it's always a pity#In the case of JJK it's truly breaking my heart and the comments I see around about these five last chapters are not helping xD#God it could be so good. So good. And I'm not talking about in specific to meā which yes that too given the topicsā#but just so good in general. It could be so good. It could have been so good#And yet it's starting to look more and more like any other shonen. It truly breaks my heart haha#I talk too much#Jujutsu Kaisen#I used Bleach because I think that's one of the mangas that has been the most a let down to the friends I have who like shonen
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im not entirely clear on what this post is saying but it reads to me like "no one likes muffing", but the woman who coined & popularized the term "muffing", mira bellwether, was a trans woman who died of complications from covid and lung cancer last year. she was my friend. she wrote an entire zine on fucking trans women, called Fucking Trans Women, which has an entire chapter on muffing and how and why people like to do it. so i think we have it on pretty good authority at this point that some/many trans people experience sexual pleasure from muffing??
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Do you think there will be Raphael pov in palmarosa at any point? I love how you write hiiiiim
Hiya anon!
So far I'm leaning towards no.
The reason is that I actually like that he's so hard to read, and because I find the concept of writing his mind genuinely challenging because he is so inhuman to me. I think if I were writing his POV I'd feel seduced by the urge to humanise him 'internally' and we'd lose the mystery and mercurial power of seeing him as an outsider (i.e. from Astarion's POV).
And while that's tempting in its own way, I'm very much not wanting to do that either! Part of what I enjoy in this story is watching Astarion deal with the loneliness in a way of being with someone / spending time with someone who thinks so differently to him, who prioritises differently to him, who has different values to him, and who is so very *not* human.
And sometimes that's something I want to write, but I actually don't want to humanise Raphael to that degree, so I'll be avoiding his POV, I'm sorry!
#asks and answers#palmarosa#thespectaclesofthor#the fact remains that for me personally#i find that when people write raphael from his POV#a lot of the time - and i haven't read all the fics#he's written like a human who's just a sadist#or a human who's just a bottom masochist schemer#and it's like...he's so very Not Human to me#that i find him very unrelatable when he's written like that#which had me realising a while ago that i didn't want to write his POV#because the temptation would be to humanise him through that#and i don't want to do that
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Been watching adventure time for realzies instead of through osmosis and man. Ice king. MAN.
Literally every time Simon is referenced after the initial reveal has me bawling my eyes out. what do you MEAN he saved the farm world universe from the mushroom war. And he asked for help as he died. What do you MEAN Finn wrote mean letters to ice king and flame princess to make them fight and called ice king "simple Simon". I thought it was just the specifically Simon focused episodes that'd be fucked up but once you know he's Simon, literally every appearance of him or ice king is so tragic.
#going post#at#simon petrikov#the single frame of simons remains crushed under the frozen bomb killed me instantly#and then fucking simple simon. finn what the fuck. he doesnt even KNOW how evil that was finn why would yiu DO THAT TO HIMMM#also fp didnt deserve that either but im more focused on simon rn#and the fact that i the christmas special revealing his past pretty much ALL of the lead up is just recordings of ice king being profoundly#lonely or like.#SOBBING.#FOR HOURS ON END.#AND HES RECORDING THESE VIDEO DIARIES BC LITERALLY NO ONE ELSE WILL LISTEN TO HIM#AND PEOPLE FIRST WATCHING THOSE EPISODES WERE PROLLY LIKE OHHH SILLY ICE KING. WHAT A SAD OLD MAN. hey why are we focusing on him so much.#like i get it hes sad the joke kind of wore off. woah whos this nerd on this last tape#godd. GOD#i cant wait to get to fiona and cake the show i need some fucking resolution STAT
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what is the deal with everyone identifying themselves by their birth sex? i see it all the time. everywhere. and also ā maybe it's just a function of the people i happen to see, but it's almost always people saying they're "afab" rather than its complement.
it's telling, to me, what they really think of (other) trans people, because they act as if your sex at birth is constant and unchanging throughout your life. one of my coworkers said they had a low voice for an afab (meaning low for someone who's never gone through a T-dominant puberty). people use the acronym ā denoting what sex a doctor determined you to be when you were born ā not always accurate because sex traits can be mixed or ambiguous ā as a placeholder for present-day "male" or "female."
it's the same thing, i think, as when people say that sex ļæ½ļæ½ļæ½ gender and mean that trans men are female and trans women are male. sure, some of them are, maybe (though I'd bet it wouldn't go over well calling them that), but it's called SRS for a reason; transsexual. with our current technology, we can't completely change a male person to a female one or vice versa ā but we can change a whole lot of their phenotypic sex characteristics, whether that be by removing them or switching them to the other sex. that's kinda the whole point of medical transition, actually.
so to me it just, idk, it reveals how people are really thinking of their own transition as well as others', that they see your birth sex as unchanging, fixed, inevitable destiny. that's exactly what transphobes think of us. why does our own community have to think of us that way too?
#sorry to do... idkā 'trans discourse'#i try not to get too angry online abt stuff cuz its really not the best for my mental health#but i cannot stand these terms and i don't know why so many people are constantly using them to refer to themselves#and INCORRECTLY too#'afab genitals?' 'afab chest?' tell me you don't know what those words mean without telling me you don't know what those words mean.#hm. and note how ive instinctively capitalized SRS but afab and amab remain in lowercase#i think thats due to the fact that people have ā and by extension i have ā been viewing them as words rather than as acronyms#i know why they think it (internalized transphobia) (probably some intersexism too w the view of the rigid sex binary)#(but im not intersex so idk correct me if im wrong)#trans#ftm#mtf#transsexual#agab#afab#amab#transphobia#o.
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ffxiv garlemald discourse is so funny because people will go "ugh people just cant stand it when things aren't black and white" and then you look at how the empire are portrayed in stormblood and shadowbringers and its like hm. that seems like a pretty intense and accurate display of violent imperialism to me! Wow I wonder why people in this day and age may find it hard to feel sympathy for them or even hate them on principal. god its such a mystery.
the games like 50/50 to me on how it tackles these themes because I actually like the garlemald arc in EW, I think it has a lot of horrific and powerful scenes depicting how self destructive fascist propaganda and beliefs are, but I also think it doesn't go far enough on some fronts. the garleans' xenophobia is most notably and obstacle to getting them to accept the contingent's help, which is what they're there to do,
but there's never an admission of harm from any garleans on the uuuuuuuuh massive amount of war crimes the nations around them are still suffering from they're just kind of like "we misjudged you...but you actually wanted to help us all along" like yeah thats great now can we get you all some deprogramming because you keep talking about returning to your prime and glory days and I think we need to unpack some stuff you really SHOULDNT return to. im not even really talking about EW proper but the patches where things are a bit more chilled out and people are recovering.
It feels like they wanted to have their critique of imperialism and also have things end with the beauty of human connection and reaching out and these things just don't mesh well because hey a lot of your modern day audience is not gonna like having to treat people yelling xenophobic things at the cast and your character with kid gloves after you showed them hours and hours of the awful things these people's beliefs have done. especially in the present day hoo boy.
#im kind of torn between 'no characters dont need to be 'punished' to be redeemed but also the characters just being so lenient with the#colonizers after we see far too many people being lenient if not supportive of the colonizers irl. well. it really blows afslkjfalkf and#yeah you can argue if they'd gone through with the garlemald expansion they would've had more time to go into this but the fact is that its#absent from what they did do and I especially think the patches when we go to garlemald and the EW role quests going 'hey maybe the#provinces can help us rebuild' as if they'd have any goddamn right to ask that just make me feel like they didnt stick the landing#seeing all the characters who have suffering time and time again bc of the garleans or seen the results of their actions having to clamp#their mouths shut every time someone said something xenophobic in EW isnt satisfying and it leaves so much unsaid!#also some people feel like the narrative didnt blame emet enough but ngl I think thats reductive even with his micromanaging scheming littl#ass and the intention of garlemald turning out a shitshow that doesnt make anyone else less complicit. most governments like this exaggerat#and lie and spread propaganda but I dont think most people here excuse the actions of a bigot because 'they were raised that way'#this is also my issue with gaius' writing. hes primarily upset that ascians were behind what he thought was his good old fashioned natural#conquering ideology :( and doesnt it suck so much he killed people for it. like yeah he seems pretty aware what he did was wrong but his#ideology remains bizarrely intact and unchallenged by the characters around him. no dude it wasnt just the ascians the system is a lot more#complex than that by this point aaaaaugh#final fantasy xiv#ffxiv#siren says#I hope people are nice to me about this I dont think I said anything particularly controversial to the Tumblr crowd (twt maybe but fuck em)#ig my main point with this post is that the game isnt perfect at writing this and also that look. I actually liked the main arc in EW and I#like quite a few garlean characters but I completely understand why others didnt like it or any garleans esp if they have their own persona#experiences with colonialism and I dont get to tell them they're invalid for that. too many people get judgmental about this understandably#upsetting topic and you just gotta accept that this is a big line for many people
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Love the fact that a huge majority of the Humans we see are Humans who get to work in the field they want, post scarcity, and because itās something they really want to be doing and they donāt actually have to be doing it, theyāre all workaholics about it
Human trying to claim theyāre not overworking themselves by pointing out that no oneās making their other coworker take a break
Their coworker who is a Vulcan
In the spirit of fairness tho, the higher ups force both of them to take some time off, and although Vulcans may not display emotions, the Human has a sense that they fucked up by bringing their coworker into this
#this is about humans#but thereās probably also workaholic Vulcans too#trying to remain under the radar by taking advantage of the fact that people donāt usually know Vulcansā limitations and such#but this one still got hit with some mandatory time off#doing job searches wishing I lived in the Star Trek universe š#Star Trek#Vulcans#Humans
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cw suicide mention & imagery
original play idea where people seem to live their normal lives but the audience gets the feeling that somethingās wrong, thereās a tension and there are things that obviously go unsaid that hang in the air between the characters uncomfortably long enough until the last member of the audience has filled in the blanks in their own way.
there is a figure off to the side, a very young man in a suit, watching them, unmoving and silent, and as the scenes and progress, as characters leave and appear, as the setting changes, the young man is always there. no one interacts with him, but there are moments when they almost do. when the characters stop what theyāre doing when they stand close to him, and appear to listen. but thereās nothing.
the sound of TV news reports, all playing over each other, create an uncanny and uncomfortable buzzing that never, never stops, and there are too many to really make out the words. they get more silent the closer they get to the young man in the suit, quieting down to nothing when they stand by him to listen ā but the characters seem unaware of the change. so does the young man, statuesque though he is.
then thereās a little girl, covered in dirt, her hair askew, her cheeks rosy ā the image of having spent the day outside, playing in the dirt, a smile on her face, her eyes big, as she skips towards the young man and asks, ācan we go now? can we play?ā
the young man cards his hands through her hair and says, āyou go ahead, iāll be right there.ā
but still he stays there, seated.
everything continues as before, but the characters slowly undergo a complete change in character, in routine, in appearance. the old man who wore suits is not dressed in sweats and old, worn out, dirty shirts. the sweet, kindhearted young adult is now quiet and apathetic. the woman who, in the beginning, was talking her friendās ear off and could barely stand still is unmoving now, staring out into nothingness.
the buzzing and bustling background noise is slowly, gradually getting louder as the characters become increasingly nonverbal and unmoving. the lights dim down.
then all at once, after a crescendo, the noise stops suddenly, the lights turn off completely, before, with warm, yellow light, a woman weāve seen before ā as she stares into nothingness ā appears on the stage, slowly approaching the young man as if unsure of her body but undeniable in her grace.
they smile at each other for a moment.
m, whispering: youāre not supposed to be here, not yet
w, cradling his cheeks: i was always supposed to be here long, long before you
m: i know. iām sorry, iā
w: i know. i forgive you. iāve always forgiven you
m, after a while: but not yourself
the woman shakes her head.
w: a mother will never forgive herself for burying her child, and a father will forgive himself even less. (a beat) you have such a handsome face.
m: itās not your fault
w: so beautiful, those eyes, iāve missed you so much
m: listen to me, itās not your fault!
w: and your hair! papa would be so glad to know thatā
m: mother. mama. listen to me. itās not your fault
w, tearful and whispering: you were supposed to be fine. you were always supposed to be fine. it was never supposed to be this bad, we were supposed to help, butā
m: i know. i tried, i really did. both times
in that moment, the little girl comes skipping on stage again, approaching them with her wagging ponytail.
g: what are you doing here, mama? will you play with me now? itās been so long!
the woman gasps, her tears getting the better of her as she falls to her knees and pulls the girl to her chest, who readily returns the hug
w, sobbing, kissing her cheek: hi, baby. yes, iāll play with you, of course i will. letās go.
the young man helps his mother up, allowing her to pull him into a hug, and she whispers: āas much as i love her with all my heart, iām so proud of the young man youāve grown into. and now i have you both, just as i always did.ā
the young man brushes a kiss to her cheek, then lets her go, watching as his mother disappears with the little girl.
m: i have to stay a while. iāll follow you soon.
(woman and girl, hand in hand, exeunt)
the lights dim, and the buzzing returns, accompanied by the sound of dragging footsteps the audience cannot see, until everythingās back in total darkness. the noise stays. growing louder in increments, leaving the audience uncomfortable and unsure if this was it.
as they quiet down, we hear a man, sobbing uncontrollably, before eerie silence takes his place, too.
the curtain falls.
#idk what this is but itās deeply fucked up suicide awareness#obviously there are no dialogues except for that one half assed thing but the dialogues and the imagery and the stage setup and directions#will allude to the fact that the young man who killed himself remains uncomfortably in the lives and the minds of those who miss him#and he cannot leave because he chose this. heās anchored to them more than he was when he was alive#maybe heāll have a soliloquy or two. or maybe the empathetic character will speak for him in ways that we do when people die#in the ways that we put words in their mouth and turn them into people they might not have been because grief is funny like that#the static buzzing news caster noise is obviously 1) the 21st c at large; 2) grief preventing you from feeling calm; and 3) doom news#there will be quotes like āyour death it wonāt happen to you. it happens to your family and your friendsā#yes the young man is trans. no thatās not why he killed himself. yes the mother takes the blame bc thatās what mothers will do#itās all just fucked up what can i say. there are no redeeming qualities#suidice cw#cw suicide#itās 2am i have nothing to say in my defense#i was overcome with the urge to write a play and the ideas for it sorry#not st
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desperately trying to pick apart Alphinaudās outfit by layer because its a hooded long-sleeved short jacket over a little backless dress jacket (with a turtleneck and clasp on the collar?) over a fancy zipped sundress and knee highs (??). also he has a fancy little tie
#how did cosplayers separate it. Many people have cosplayed him before#the dressjacket is probably attached to the short jacket itās probably two layers not three#the fact remains itās a backless jacket hiding under a normal jacket#donāt worry bud Iāve been drawing ven for years I know how to do layers.#kipspeak#play game#alisaie is not nearly this fancy. it takes her like a minute to put hers on#and he has a tron disk
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