#the essence of his being
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it's the constant cycle of one person runs and the other chases in a sort of ouroboric cycle where the chased becomes the chaser because, over time, the one who was originally chasing after the other has come to understand the futility of the act, and yet they are accustomed to the cycle, or is married to it in some way that prevents the cycle from ever closing
and by that i mean merlin was so enthusiastically chasing after arthur until the weight of destiny and the futility of trying to alter it or even fight against it in any meaningful way started to slow him down, wear him thinner, bringing arthur around to chasing him—e.g noticing merlin's departures from nagging or bantering at him—while still yet merlin is dogging the heels of arthur and his destiny (and his own)
and it's just two people forever caught in the orbit of the other, really, one hand out to try and catch the back of their shirt to slow them down while never quite being able to reach it
#like#what i'm trying to say is#at least for me#you can see the way the start of the series is merlin trailing after arthur in a sense#but as the time goes on and the threat looms and destiny presses down on merlin and its more and more harrowing#and its more and more painful to hide what he is#what he can do#the essence of his being#while still trying to be arthur's shield#it becomes equally about arthur trailing after merlin#trying to get that part of him back that smiled easier or was wittier and more chatty#he comments on it so many times later on that merlin is so much quieter than he used to be#and it's true and i think it's this like exhaustive game of chase that both of them are never giving up on#chasing each other into eternity because that's how it's supposed to be#and the chase ends eventually we know#but#anyways#[griffin mcelroy voice] IS THIS ANYTHING#i don't even know if this makes sense like i tried to articulate it but idk if this tracks lmmfaoaoofoaoao#merlin#bbc merlin#arthur pendragon#merthur#my merlin thots
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looks at hair slicked back megu I Could Fix Him
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#megumi fushiguro#fushiguro megumi#megumi#fanart#jjk fanart#real talk he was near unrecognizable 2 me before i coloured the hair and eyes#spent a good hour struggling being like this is not my beautiful boy Who Are You but we got there eventually#first he looked like eden n then he looked like th ace attorney guy n a billion other Anime Boys With Exposed Forehead#had to use another layer 2 draw on his bangs to make sure it wasnt an issue with the face#sure enough it Wasnt the face it was simply the universal truth that megumi is not meant to show forehead on main :/#the essence of fushiguro megumi is in the bangs i dont make the rules sorry <3#i will always think the bangs suit him more i think but i have come around on him w his hair back somewhat#peeled megumi u can stay ill allow it#just not when sukuna does it smh#also side note just this kind of comparison piece drawing a char with hair down vs slicked back sent me RIGHt back to yoi u have no idea#like i know fr a fact i did this w yuuri#twice even
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LEON
LEON YOUR EYEBALLS
#art#ride kamens#ride kamens spoilers#ride kamens episode 14 spoilers#can't believe i made a joke about it being his eye color AND THEN#i did see his updated sprite before i got to 13 but i didn't even notice it at first...#at least he also got a funky little face marking to go with it#shine on you super shitsuji!!!!#anyway I AM FINALLY CAUGHT UP#on main story anyway i haven't played the tower emblem event yet :')#but man i am loving this game#i was not expecting it to be a full-on mystery! with intrigue!#who is lying! who is telling the truth! who THINKS they're telling the truth but isn't!#punctuated by the most delightful nonsense like the unbreakable magic superhero covenants#where you gotta touch rings in the magical wedding chapel dimension that we teleport to sometimes to talk to our dead dad#(OR IS HE???????)#NO IT'S GREAT (and it does make sense in context i just love it)#still 50/50 on yellow beyblade man secretly being our dad but i can't get into theories now i don't have enough tags#man this really has the essence of what i love about rider ❤️#so far i do think agata is my favorite#but then there's leon...#let me put it this way: i would tell agata a hard truth about himself if i thought he needed to hear it#but there is no amount of money in the world you could pay me to say anything even slightly mean to our sweet leon#LET 👏 HIM 👏 HENSHIN 👏#WAIT SHOOT is it too late to redo my survey answers i need to demand that i be able to put hats on leon
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ANDREW SCOTT photographed by Ramon Christian for Attitude
I suppose I just enjoy being gay so much on so many levels, I think it’s such a wonderful thing to me. It’s an extraordinary gift to my life and just to be able to see the real beauty in being gay is completely wonderful. The older I get, just the more I feel so lucky to have been born gay and that pervades my life in the sense of all my friendships. I have so many amazing queer friends in my life now that I just adore.
#andrew scott#he always has the best stuff to say about being gay#i still think of the thing he said about being in a gay bar feeling like part of his essence#edits
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One of Shadow Milk’s many prop replicas of himself, left behind. Even though the eyes are forever staring straight into the distance… Oddly enough, you still feel like you’re being watched.
But surely, though, it won’t hurt to take it home and touch up the colours, right? :)
#oh. my god chat. do i have a lot to say now#IM LOVE HIM#oh my god#fhis is the only time ur gonna see me say i love shadow milk directly and not his art HAHAHA#FUCCKKKKK#this one rlly has me messed up#ive been sitting on this concept for a long while!!! i just cant rlly nail the vibes that i want for it… but mroe than anything i want to#show him to you guys.. so issok if yall see the flopfail before i learn how to better capture my mental image#oh it’s so possessed. btw. like not even a second of thought has to be put into it#LMAO#physical vessel for the shreds of his essence that managed to avoid being sealed up. it’s not enough of him to do anything crazy…#but just enough to put you on edge :)#golden freddy pose shadow milk (i will be drawing this some day)#his ability to move is really sporadic#sometimes he’ll be right in the middle of attempting to make a gesture and then he’ll collapse mid movement… darn#(kicks him) fuck you#i think he’s….. cute.#haha.#okay#shadow milk cookie#cookie run kingdom#mystuff#cookie run#crk#crk fanart#cookie run fanart#fave#is it egotistical to put a fave tag on MY OWN ART yeah probably BUT U GUYS DONT. GE T. HOW MUCH I LOVE THIS VARIANT#doodled an oc x canon w this concept in class 2day n realized too late someone wuz watching me draw…………… man.#IM AT TAG LIMIT????? FUCK MY LIFEEE I DIDNT EVEN KNOW THAT WAS A THING. BYE LOL!!!!!
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6x17 - WEREWOLVES OF LONDON
-anchors
#theo you didn't answer his question#mmmmm i wonder why#and i love this scene sm it really shows the essence of theo being his anchor#thiam#liam dunbar#theo raeken#gif alert
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Buck is the kind of guy to get turned into an animal. Any animal really but especially one with big wet eyes and general pathetic demeanor
#stealing from Cat but literally Eddie would look over on a call and Buck would just be there . 🦝 like this#and everyone would groan and go not again. but eddie would say alright come on bud lets get you fixed#and he would let buck ride around on his shoulders if he was a little animal while they went to see a witch or something to get it fixed#and maybe buck would realize he can get away with being all over eddie more when he is an animal... so he starts Trying to make it happen#and eddie notices of course and tells him something beautiful about how he loves him in every form but that doesnt mean he has to change his#or something. i am not eddie so i am not good with words#anyway yay buck animal#evan buckley#essence of buddie#in the tags anyway#original.txt
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#my boyfriend#astarion#my edit#carleysastarionedits#carleysbg3edits#baldur's gate 3#bg3#bg3astarion#astarion bg3#baldurs gate 3#astarion ancunin#virtual photography#virtual photographer#bg3 screenshots#astarion screenshots#vampire#elf#i need him#is that my most used tag? probably#falling more in love with him every day#falling more in delulove with him everyday#astarion brainrot#at this point feral doesnt even describe it#i need to absorb his essence into my very being#mine
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Historic F1 Rivalries | Part 2 : Alonso vs his Demons
#scheduled post BAYBEEEEEEEEEEE#sebastian vettel#fernando alonso#f1#contributing to the vetlonso lore#this is also me doing exposure therapy.#the essence of this rivalry is just seb being HEHE and Fernando being 'fuck you. fuck your hehe. fuck your hood. fuck your big homies' - xa#PLS TAKE THIS IN THE SPIRIT IT WAS INTENDED#obvi left out the real vitriolic stuff. this is just a fun silly goofy video#also my dad is a ghost writer on this: he rec-ed his fav moment (fernando making fun of german athletes but the clip is impossible 2 find)
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An Uncontainable Sacrifice
#mdzs#katan art#jiang cheng#jiang wanyin#sandu shengshou#really like rays of light emitting from the body motifs so here’s JC with them#been thinking about how he found out about the golden core transfer#and like imagery of the core exploding out or being externalized in some way#as if JC can no longer control it as it leaks through his body and dissipates#like that one fanart where WQ is looking in horror at her hands covered in golden essence at what she’s done#but related to JC instead#this was super sketchy and loose and I really like it! did a lot of color thumbnails before starting the final piece#might go back and do something more clean and see what happens idk
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oh my god,,??!??
#BKDK BEING BKDK#Bakugo’s body moving on its own AGAIN#Deku with his ‘what would Kacchan do’ essence !!!!!#being each other’s weaknesses…#I want to say ‘look how far they’ve come’ but they’ll always be this way and it’s amazing#bkdk#dkbk#bakudeku#dekubaku#:’)#ktdk#katsudeku#dekukatsu#katsuizu#izukatsu
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after winning a practice match
#or something#i didn't really have context i just wanted to draw akaashi being pretty peace and love#my art#haikyuu#haikyuu fanart#akaashi keiji#akaashi keiji fanart#bokuto kotaro#bokuto kotaro fanart#i don't like how i drew him here agh#i dont think i quite caught his Esscense howwww do you spell that word#essence#that#but oh well#we persevere#uh#bokuaka#bokuaka fanart#haikyu!!#haikyu!! fanart#gonna try draw them more maybe bc i think they're neattttttttt
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"Were you always this insufferable or is that part of the Mei Changsu persona as well?"
--Mu Nihuang, probably almost certainly
#(he 100% was always this insufferable and maybe even more so)#the whole 'being a teenager' thing yknow#though it's true he has now had thirteen years to like. distill the insufferability down to its essence. and weaponise it.#call him on his bullshit Nihuang it'll be good for him and more importantly for you#neuxue watches lyb
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No one:
Me after watching "Return of the Ice Emperor": ...So does Zane just have the ice emporer chillin in the back of his memory like a second personality
#lego ninjago#zane julien#ice emperor#the ice emporer#ninjago crystalized#zane ninjago#i just be ramblin#Like see it would not have been at all out of the ordinary if they went with 'Oh yeah Zane came out of being the ice emporer as he#remembered who he was. In essence‚ he got better'#But no#not only does he still have memory of being the ice emporer#the ice emporer is just...in there! He wants his Vex back to do his bidding and whisper in his ear even!#....dare I say that (even if it was played as a gag) it was kinda based
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the way HC grew up thinking he was weak, monstrous, repulsive, was told that he was cursed, and believed that he had to spend 800 years becoming better, stronger, more powerful, for XL, bc he wanted to protect XL -
but then he meets XL again, and shortly after becoming friends, XL tells HC that he doesn't care if HC is hideous, doesn't care if HC is a beggar or royalty, a ghost or human. later on, XL even tells HC that he doesn't care if HC is strong or weak, at his lowest or highest point, in worst or best moments - XL loves HC no matter what state HC may be in, he loves him simply bc he is HC.
and this unconditional love from XL is so important to HC, so healing for HC, and is exactly why it shaped HC so inexorably, both 800 years ago and 800 years later. bc XL truly is the kind of person who loves someone for who they are, not how they appear on the outside.
and HC fully reciprocates this unconditional love by loving XL no matter if XL is the god-pleasing crown prince or the broken husk of a man wearing bwx's mask trying to take revenge. HC returns this unconditional love by repeating XL's words back to him, what matters is you, not the state of you.
#hualian#my meta#i've talked about this before but it just hit me all over again#the puqi shrine sleepover and the campfire convo and when xl says 'you can't be strong every moment of everyday'#are the same in essence#the way HC chose to give XL his ashes specifically after XL tells him he really does want to see HC's real appearance and doesn't care even#if it's hideous or monstrous#XL being the one who says 'what matters is you not the state of you'#XL truly being the kind of person who doesn't care about all these things!! he only cares that HC is HC!! he loves HC bc it's HC!!#anyway. the thesis of hualian is 'what matters is you not the state of you'#aka unconditional love!!!#mp: tgcf
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⁂Early life:
Princess Visenya Targaryen of Runestone was born on the last day of the year 90AC, at her mother's ancestral home.
The newborn child was named after the Conqueror Queen, Visenya, by her father and anointed by holy oils seven days after her birth at the Sept-by-the-Sea in Runesport.
Queen Alysanne, who held the child during the ceremony is noted for having remarking that ‘the girl has all of Viserra’s beauty, but Alyssa’s temper’ to which the King is said to have answered ‘Gods be good’.
As Princess Visenya grew, her parents continued to battle, using the young girl as a pawn in their conflict, with both parents appealing to the King and Queen to take their side on occasion.
During her early years she grew especially close to her natural born brother, Orys Stone, the illegitimate son of Prince Daemon by Lady Rowena Royce, Lady Rhea’s older third cousin. The young boy was brought into Lady Rhea’s household in the year 90AC, following the passing of his mother.
From the age of five, her parents’ estrangement was permanent, with Prince Daemon returning to the Crownlands and Lady Rhea and their daughter remaining at the Vale. After royal intervention it was agreed that the Princess time was to be split between living in Runestone with her mother, and between the Red Keep and Dragonstone with her father, alternating during the seasons, summer and winter was spent on the Vale, while spring and autumn in the Crownlands, special celebrations were shared.
Her education appears to have been strict and somewhat old-fashioned, thus, in addition to her studies, Grand Maester Runciter notes in his journals, she was taught spinning and weaving and had an innate talent for weaving intricate tapestry. From the year 92 forward, Visenya, who had been betrothed to her newborn cousin, Prince Aerion, was expected to become Queen Consort, and her education reflected it. Her betrothed passed away in his cradle two years later, and Visenya was then betrothed to his newborn brother, Prince Aelor.
Her tutors at the time, Maester Adelin, Archmaester Vaegon and Master Petrarca of Volantis, regarded Princess Visenya as an extroverted, lively, highly intelligent, and strong-willed girl. Prince Daemon was reported to be proud of her horsemanship and marksmanship.
Because of her outstanding intellect, and his blunt favoritism, King Jaehaerys named Princess Visenya as his cupbearer in the Year 96AC, at the age of six.
The young princess often was allowed to discuss the classics, philosophy, and the affairs of state with ambassadors and envoys visiting the court of Jaehaerys. Moreover, she was personally acquainted with the painters, musicians, writers, and scholars who lived in and around the royal court.
Princess Visenya if often considered one of, if not, the best educated women of her generation.
The year 96AC marked another milestone for Princess Visenya: on the eight moon of the year, the young princess bonded and became the first rider of a she-dragon she named Huraxes. The same dragon that as a hatchling had been brought to Princess Daenerys Targayen. Huraxes had pearly scales and iridescent wing membranes, with pale and pinkish flames. The princess was allowed to bond with the she-dragons by royal decree after falling ill with a bolt of Spring Fever that nearly took her life.
Matches for Princess Visenya started being discussed by the Small Council, brought up by the Lord Hand. Thought Visenya was heiress to the largest fortress in the Vale and to the Ladyship of Runestone, it was argued that as she was a Princess of the Realm, the matter of her marriage was a prerogative of the King, which infuriated Prince Daemon, who at the time occupied the seat of Master of Law, the Grand Master agreed that such line of thought might anger the Vale, as the Princess was highly regarded by her people and her second cousin, the Lady Jeyne Arryn. Lord Corlys suggested his own son as a match for the princess, four years her junior, most likely to tie another dragonrider to his house. His Grace put down all talks of marriage for his niece, agreeing that such was the right of his brother and good sister to choose her match.
For the celebration of his niece's fifteenth nameday, the king ordered seven days of celebrations, with a tournament and grand feasts. The Queen's absence was noticed, excused as Her Grace was in the early stages of her final pregnancy, and Visenya was allowed to sit in the seat usually reserved for the consort; she was crowned Queen of Love and Beauty by the Dornish Ser Eldric Dayne, the Star in the Morning.
Since the Princess's return to court early in the spring of 104 AC, Visenya had caught the king’s eye, and it is reported that Viserys and his niece have become very close, spending hours each day in each other's company, promenading in the gardens, hunting in the Kingswood, and dancing together during feasts and balls.
The king is said to have spoiled his niece with lavish gifts, including presenting her with a manse in King’s Landing, a country estate crossing the Blackwater Rush and later a sea palace in the Reach.
⁂Marriage and Queenship:
After the death of Queen Aemma Arryn in the Year 105 AC, Princess Visenya, aged 15, became the 2nd wife and Queen Consort of her uncle, King Viserys I Targaryen. Their betrothal was announced a month following the queen’s passing, and a private ceremony was held three months later in Dragonstone.
It was a scandal at the time, as not only the King’s new marriage was announced a moon after the late queen’s passing in childbed, but it had also been rumored for some time that Viserys and Visenya had been lovers.
More salacious tales propagated by the fool Mushroom during the Dance of the Dragons tells of the princess sitting on her uncle's lap during feasts, kissing him shamelessly, and nibbling his fingers sensually as he fed her like a beloved pet; of the king fondling her breasts in public, and announcing to his courtiers that he and his niece would retire to make love. These have no contemporary support, with Septon Eustace calling such tales absurd and slanderous.
Over the matter of his marriage to his niece Viserys claimed that the marriage was in the public interest and ordered a grand celebration for the occasion of his new queen's coronation, to happen after the end of mourning period for Prince Baelon. Visenya was the first Queen Consort crowned in a separate ceremony from the reigning King. During the occasion the apparent advanced state of the queen's pregnancy caused a new wave of rumors that Visenya had been the King's mistress while the queen was still alive and that their child was conceived out of wedlock.
In their more than two decades of marriage, Visenya and Viserys had fourteen children, all survived into adulthood, something that the maesters attribute to the queen’s management of the nursery. Visenya’s role as a mother was glorified throughout the realm, their young new queen’s obvious fertility was seen, by the smallfolk and nobles alike, as both a bless from the Mother and a sign from the gods. With the birth of her twin girls, Princess Viserra and Princess Rhaelys, coins were issued, portraying her as the Mother, an allegory that would repeat itself many times for the remaining of her husband’s and son’s reign. If in her maidenhood, as a young princess, Visenya posed as a model for sculptures of the Maiden, in motherhood and queenship, she was now the Mother.
Although it was not the norm of the age, and in fact, apart from the late Queen Alysanne, no other queen receive such a honor, King Viserys granted Visenya a seat on his Small Council, leaning on her for advice on varied subjects due to his respect for her opinion and good judgment. She became a formidable figure with far-reaching influence during this time. According to some sources, her influence was such that Queen Visenya effectively ran the government alongside the Hand of the King.
In the year 115AC, around the time of her stepdaughter’s wedding to Ser Leanor Velaryon and in the years that followed, the Queen Consort started to work and put her own trusted people in ever higher positions to strengthen herself and her sons through them.
Visenya acted as her first husband’s regent after his health decline, sat in her eldest son’s war table following Viserys’s death.
⁂Personality:
Some historians have contended that to some extent she deserved her negative reputation propagated by her stepdaughter following the death of King Viserys I, despite the inaccuracies of the claims that she was sexually disreputable or regarding the legitimacy of her children, other criticisms of her were valid: she was ambitious, proud, obstinate, and masked her cunning behind a sweet-toned voice and flawless manners.
Princess Rhaenyra described her as a woman of reckless extravagance and wantonness, who seduced a grieving man, and whom the King nonetheless loved passionately and faithfully. It is widely known that those part of the Black Court of the Princess of Dragonstone took to call the queen ‘the King’s Great Whore’ and ‘Lady Concubine’, however always away from both the queen and the king’s ears as well as her supporters, further spreading the rumors of an extramarital affair while the late Queen Aemma still lived and questioning the validity of the legitimacy of their children. Despite rumors spread on her sons legitimacy supported by the queen's supposed lasciviousness, all of Visenya’s children resembled those of her lineage.
In her youth, Visenya was celebrated as ‘the most beautiful creature in the world’ and that there was ‘nothing lacking in her that the most beautiful girl should have’. Ser Alyn of Hull would reflect later in her lifetime that regarding her appearance ‘there were few women who could compete with the Queen in her prime’.
Visenya was fiercely independent, a trait she shared with her mother. Mellos described her as having ambitions to match her pedigree. However, Archmaester Gyldayn notes that Visenya was fully aware that a woman in Westeros could not hold power in her own right. Instead, Visenya orchestrated the rise of her sons.
Capable of acts of extreme ruthlessness, she, in contrast, was also able to demonstrate uttermost kindness and charity.
⁂Issue:
At four and thirty of age by the time of their weeding, Viserys was already considered in his middle age. The union however proved itself to be a happy one, and together they had 14 children, nine sons and five daughters.
Visenya had been taught the importance of receiving an education and came to play an extensive role in her children' education, resulting in the creation of a "superior breed of princes."
Queen Visenya was know to call her children her 'precious jewels', and took great pride in all of them, she was particularly close to the princesses Alyssa and Elaena, however it is said, that from all her children, her favorite was Prince Aegon.
edited on 11/04/2024
#house of the dragon#hotd fanfic#it's pro team green#kinda#viserys married his own niece#so she's team red#she's the bitch people accuse alicent of being#the children are there in essence#Aemond is the same#mostly#hotd#viserys targaryen x oc#viserys targaryen x reader#tyland lannister#fuck viserys
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