#the dark secrets I know
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we were sitting on the floor and i was cutting out tiny pictures to make a collage for a friend's birthday. you were on your phone and you laughed about something, and i was still in love with you then, so i asked what had you giggling.
"sorry. i was just..." you took a moment and went back to texting. "i was telling someone about how you're afraid of the dark."
i'm afraid of the dark because something bad happened. "oh." i felt a little slinky of shame crawl down my throat.
you glanced up, and maybe it showed on my face, because you rolled your eyes and held the phone to the side casually so i could see the group chat. "what? was it a secret?"
i looked down to the scissors in my hand. "i just..." no, it's not a secret. it just felt like something private, something serious. saying why would you tell someone that just feels like an accusation. it's unfair. i honestly am not even ashamed of it, it's just a fact about my person that i don't usually share.
what a strange experience. is this a human thing or a generational thing? for our grandparents: did they need to worry about how quickly someone can just... share your personal information? again, i didn't even really have a true objection. what could i say? i want any person in my life to feel they can be honest with their friends. it's not like i said don't tell anyone this.
i cut out another letter to complete the rainbow happy birthday, started hunting for the exclamation mark. i heard you sigh dramatically.
"don't make a big deal about this," you said.
this entire conversation was a pattern for us, and this was when we got to my least favorite part of the pattern. i would get my feelings hurt in some oblique not-technically-terrible way, and then it would be making a big deal about something. you'd get frustrated for me for being soft, but i was born soft. you knew i was soft when you pierced me. it's one of the things that made controlling me so easy.
"i'm not," i felt my voice crack. the question came without my wanting. "why are you guys talking about me?" and why are you saying that thing? why not like - i'm telling them how you're generous and kind and pretty.
you let out this low, tragic groan. "oh my god." you tossed the phone away from your body. "there, see? i just won't talk to them if you don't like it."
the rest of the hour went the way it always went, between us: i said i don't actually mind if you talk to your friends but -, you found a way to call my minor expression of discomfort "being dramatic." you got upset that i had been offended. i ended up apologizing, even though i hadn't actually done anything.
afterwards, you picked up the phone again. after texting for a little bit, you snorted. "okay," you said, "but it is kind of funny you're afraid of the dark. i mean, when you think about it."
#spilled ink#writeblr#i'm trying to write about this really specific and wierd new experience#that i think is specific to the internet generation#where people you trust can just... say whatever??? and while most people are trustworthy#sometimes they'll just like... put ur shit out there????#and the thing is that sometimes it's GOOD - i want you to tell ppl if ur partner is being cruel!!!!!#i want u to be like ''hey is it normal if xyz happens'' ... but stuff like ''she's afraid of the dark''#PARTICULARLY when it's CLEARLY making fun of me....#what is the point of that.#this is huge and complicated and happens outside of romantic relationships too btw#like someone u thought of as a friend will be like . oh did u know she's scared of heights and it's like.#girl why are u fuckin doing that tho?#it's not a SECRET i just ...???????????????????????#and i think that gross feeling of like -- ''i can't REALLY be upset bc there's not a TRUE RULE about this....''#it's just not something talked about. bc it's so specific and yet so complex#bc how could i say like '' this is a violation of trust'' when it... technically I GUESS isn't????????????#idk maybe im just like super sensitive but please tell me in the comments/tags/etc if this is#something u have experienced (a trusted person like spreading ur shit) and if u were cool with it
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okay but can you imagine—
#danny phantom#danny phantom fanart#dp#dp fanart#danny fenton#dan phantom#dark danny#tucker foley#sam manson#a glitch in time#a glitch in time spoilers#agit#agit spoilers#danny phantom spoilers#i know i KNOW we saw dan just as phantom with red eyes#but it makes me laugh to think abt a world where he can change back into his future form at will#maybe he can do both and he just uses it to mess with danny lmao#if he changes the logo that's one secret identity people just. would not guess#tried to make this one more chill and agit helped a lot :P simpler expressions#also loving how we all just slapped a ponytail on the danny clone#i gave him a dress shirt to emphasize the half-vlad thing#but tbh i do like the trend of giving him edgy t-shirts and hoodies lmao#ney's comics#ney's art#also *collapses from exhaustion*#why do i KEEP MAKING COMICS#WHY DO I KEEP DOING THAT
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Okay, so, crisis averted. Both of them, really. Red Robin had not asked or attempted to get any more of Danny's drink and the World Ending Crisis was less World Ending and more World Threatening. Either way, no one is hyped up in lethal amounts of caffeine and the world is in no more pieces than it had been before.
That brings attention to a new problem, though. It's uniquely Danny's problem and Constantine and Zatanna and Deadman won't stop laughing at him. He's also pretty sure that Raven is laughing at him in the privacy of her mind, so that's making him feel worse.
The problem is that every single hero that had been at the meeting a week ago that was not a part of the JLD has been overly concerned about him.
So what if he half died when he was fourteen and therefore will never look over either fourteen or eighteen? So what if he consumes enough caffeine to kill an elephant within a few minutes? What is he gonna do, die? That's not a real threat as long as he only fights as Phantom.
Ignoring the fact that he can, in fact, get hurt to the point of near death as Phantom. It's not like anyone knows that, though! Besides, ghosts run on god rules. They can't die, only fade when forgotten. People aren't likely to forget about most ghosts, though, even if they can't remember their names.
He's not gonna share that, though. Let Batman keep his contingency that won't work because the only contingency that will work for Phantom is the one he made himself. Tried and tested! He's marked it off of his Bingo Card.
Anyway. Heros and their kids/proteges have been trying to track him down for the entire week. He can't risk even leaving the House of Mysteries because the Supers are all probably listening out for him and they can't hear him through magic. It sucks. He just wants to go get a cup of coffee as Danny. The second he leaves, though, the Supers will be on him like bloodhounds. He'd leave as Danny, but the rest of the JLD don't know what he looks like as Danny and he'd like to keep it that way, thank you very much. Being stuck as Phantom was going to start causing issues to his human half if he doesn't get to leave soon.
Should he risk it? Is coffee that won't kill him really worth risking the Supers finding out his civilian identity? Sure, they wouldn't tell anyone, but he didn't like the idea of someone being able to pick him out of a crowd when all he wanted to do was blend in. It's why he avoided Gotham and Bludhaven, actually, but that's both self explanatory and another story for another time.
"You're still here?" Zatanna sat on the couch beside him. "You're normally gone by now. You can't not be tired of us yet."
He sighed and sunk down into the couch slightly. "Believe me, I'm tired of being stuck here, but I can't leave. I can't leave as a human because you guys don't know what I look like and, no offense, but I'd like to keep it that way. I can't leave as I am now because Superman will be on my ass quicker than I can blink!" He whined this time, "I just want a cup of coffee."
"What about your special brew?" Raven asked, coming into the room.
"I want to drink coffee as a human. That stuff will kill me if I drink it as a human."
"At least you know your limits."
"That sounded like a dig at someone, Z."
"It was."
"Why don't you just go out under a protection spell?" Raven offered, "We could cast one over you and you could leave. Superman can't hear through magic, so he won't be able to tell. Neither will Superboy."
Danny thought for a second. "You're a genius, Raven! Has anyone ever told you that?"
"A few times," she blushed.
"Well, it needs to be said more!"
Zatanna laughed. "Alright, kid, let's get you outside before you drive yourself crazy."
Practically vibrating in place, Danny waited for the protection spell to settle over him. The second it did, he was out the door and wandering the streets of whatever city the House of Mysteries decided to drop him as Danny instead of Phantom.
"Who are you," was not the question or voice he wanted to hear the second he stepped into the open as himself.
"Danny," he squeaked out through his absolute panic. He didn't dare turn around.
The sound of fabric moving minutely clues him in to the second person behind him. What the hell were these two doing out? It's the middle of the day and there's no attacks going on anywhere in Gotham!
"Where did you come from?" Robin asked.
Oh shit, oh shit, oh shit! This was really bad! Why did the House drop him *here* of all places? Does it *want* him to die again? It was very painful the first time, thank you very much! "Illinois?"
"Was that a question or an answer?" Why is Red Robin here now?!
"An-an answer?"
"Ah, you guys are scaring the little guy!" That was Nightwing. They're surrounding him! Why is Nightwing here? This is Gotham, not Bludhaven. "Give him some room to breathe."
They did not, in fact, give him room to breathe. Maybe coming outside was a bad idea. If he gets out of this no more dead than he already was, he was going to move to the middle of nowhere and become a hermit. Smallville is a town in the middle of nowhere, right? He'll retire as Phantom and move to Smallville until the people get suspicious and burn him as a witch-!
Maybe moving to a big city would be a better idea. Or locking himself in the basement of the House of Mysteries. Yeah, yeah that's a good idea.
"-even listening?"
Oh shit. They were still talking to him! Now is not the time to panic! "Gottagobye!" And then he was running.
Good job not panicking, Danny.
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#dc x dp#justice league#justice league dark#danny phantom#zatanna#raven#john constantine#no ships#writing#brain child#I wrote this instead of working on any of my current wips#justice league meeting#dc x dp crossover#dcxdp#dcxdpdabbles#fanfic#fandom#phandom#danny is having a crisis#no more caffeine yet#batfam#the batfam do not know how to approach someone normally#especially when they're in costume#the house of mystery#the house of mysteries is a little shit#the supers can't hear through magic because they're weak to magic#secret identity#secret identities#Enough Caffeine to Kill an Elephant
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(guy who has never played cotl) haha au time
#this started as a design exercise bc i couldnt get sphinx/devon rex narinder out of my head#but the whole time i was thinking man imagine if the lamb brings him in as a follower but nobody knows he was actually. you know#and the followers are like haha wow our leader channels the power and wisdom of the one who waits almost as if they were them#would that be cool or what. anyway heres narinder reassuming his pre-bishop form and everything his flesh remembers before godhood#ok now im gonna ramble abt design notes#the singe marks were inspired by fallen angels like how some ppl say they burned while falling from heaven. i wanted smth like that when#the lamb is resurrected by nari.. their outfit is inspired by papal cloaks while narinders is based on crusader armor#the lambs name 'bellwether' is also a term used for sheep that wear a bell and lead the flock and i thought that was cool#idk what the thuribles do yet but i do have smth in mind where theyre linked together. and ofc the lamb has a shepherds staff#very proud of nari's little devil tail!! and it was hard to see bc its so dark but he has wrinkles around his forehead to conceal his#third eye. even he isnt aware of it (for now)#idk where im going with this au i just have a bunch of ideas?? basically the lamb is keeping nari's identity a secret from him so he doesnt#go down that path of powerhungry destruction. smth like trying to lead him down a better path but feels guilty lying to do that#also theyre in love with each other and theyre stupid pining idiots abt it. mwah#cult of the lamb#cotl#cotl lamb#cotl narinder#the one who waits#cotl the one who waits#narilamb#art#au#myart#my art#character design#cotl au#false prophet! au
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every. page. that. i. wrote. you. were. on. it.
#i love him#gracie abrams aesthetic#poetry#gracie abrams#the secret of us#good riddance#us.#kay'smidnightramblings#creative writing#evermore#folklore#dark academia#just thinking#late night thoughts#prose#free now#i knew it i know you#gracie and taylor#i love you im sorry#i miss you im sorry#best#i know it wont work#full machine#close to you#risk#let it happen#tough love#felt good about you
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the first star to fall into the night sky
#recreation of herbert james draper’s ‘day and the dawnstar’ ft secret life shadowbeans :)#thellos art corner#ldshadowlady fanart#smallishbeans fanart#shadowbeans#jizzie#secret life fanart#secret life#life series#lifesmp#mcyt fanart#mcyt#originally i wanted to capture that beautiful bright dawn from the original work. but lizzie’s demise was so broody and lonely and dark yk#AUUGHHH secret life lizzie. you are so misunderstood but i get you#i know scott was there at her death but in my heart it was joel. to me it was canon
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honestly you would think Rayleigh gave birth to shanks the way they are just exactly the same person right down to their alcoholism, penchant for scheming love of sandals and other generally horrible fashion items.
In a world where Mihawk meets Shanks first, he later goes to challenge old man Rayleigh and it all starts to click into place. like "oh you're the reason I'm stuck with that" point to Shanks wearing an outfit a pattern blind person put togther.
#like father like son#Don't get me wrong he's definitely like roger as well#But its like Ray hit copy and paste with his personality#Like it was just so adorable how both of them were drunk as fuck literally while the secrets of the world are being revealed#Most of the time we see them they are in a bar of some kind#Also I know roger didnt teach this man to go anywhere looking like he just rolled out of the street.#Honestly Buggy has more of Roger's flair and penchant for dramatics than Shanks he's just a coward and has modified it a bit#He definitely inhereted his fashion sense#one piece#throwing thoughts to the void#dracule mihawk#mishanks#akagami no shanks#hawkeye mihawk#red hair shanks#silvers rayleigh#roger x rayleigh#dark king rayleigh#one piece rayleigh#shanks#buggy#buggy the clown#gol d roger
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more dreamling dad au bc thats just what i do now apparently i like lazy afternoon naps and so do our boys
#dreamling#hob gadling#dream of the endless#morpheus#the sandman netflix#sandman fanart#a few people have asked me what the babs name is#ive been calling him Kian#and he gets jealous of Nightmare and wants to be scary too sometimes so his dad made him that horrific onesie#to kian's exact specifications thank u#my art#its important to me that people know kians got dreams dark hair and flair for dramatics but#hes also got hobs big dumb sunshine brown calf eyes that he flashes to get his way bc he also has hobs effortless charm#i also headcanon as he gets older he secrets handfuls of sand into his pockets from EVERYWHERE bc he wants to be like his dad#and hob has to be the sand police and has to make kian turn out his pockets on the doorstep every time they come home from anywhere#bc theres only so much vaccuuming even an immortal man can take#and kian does so but petulantly and while sporting dreams patented Imperious Pissy Face#they have a rule that kian is allowed to stomp as loudly as he wants to his room but isnt allowed to slam doors#in this essay i will-
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"zk is an awful ship they'd be so horrible and toxic together" zutara is literally baby's first EtL ship who go from enemies to close friends in canon they're one of the most wholesome interations of the trope imaginable but also i want everyone to know i'd still ship it even if it was horrible and toxic <3 because they're 2d moving pixels and not fucking real <3
#holly talks bs#zutara#i know some in the zk fandom itself might not agree but i find the actually wholesome defense tiresome#it doesn't matter they're fictional cartoons it's FINE#entering my toxic zutara era#zutara as you are the only person who understands me and this is gonna get sooo co dependent and i might let the world burn to keep you#zutara killing yon rha and hiding the body and lying about it to the gaang to keep the peace forging a dark secret between them#zutara doing their public facing duty as the fire lord and the avatar's wife while carrying on a decades long affair that only#comes to light after they're both dead#think of the POSSIBILITIES have some IMAGINATION#lads (gender neutral) that is what fiction is FOR
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Victor Frankenstein & Henry Clerval
from Frankenstein by Mary Shelley
#henry isn't depicted properly in most frankenstein adaptations because it would be too gay otherwise#same goes for literally every adaptation embellishing a romance between victor and elizabeth that really is not there in the novel#and if I said that victor's paranoia of henry discovering his dark secret (the creature) is a metaphor for his internalised homophobia..#I could argue that the creature is a manifestation of his homosexuality generally but it especially plays into his relationship with henry#in interesting ways#frankenstein#victor frankenstein#henry clerval#clervalstein#< if it has a ship name you know it's serious#(I couldn't find any actual illustrations of these two because it was all tumblr fanart)#mary shelley#classic literature#polls#queer#new post
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was feeling the sad beige mom in my soul tonight so had to doodle a her 'cause its a crime i don't draw more mystic flour tbh
also have my dumb message to my friend about it
#cookie run#mystic flour cookie#shadow milk cookie#creme university au#i really fucked up the beasts for this au teehee#shoutout to the bestie mystic flour who let blueberry yogurt die#to her it was a mercy to let him die because she saw what the forbidden magic did to him#and knew that the friend she once had was already dead before burning spice swung his axe#so she just let it happen and didn't bother to heal him when it was all said and done#in the end only silent salt knows what she did but alas hes really good at keeping secrets now#okay listen i just think the beasts in general are so cool so i made them tragic in this au because nothing is safe from me#still havent actually decided if mystic flour is dark chocos mom yet or not but it could amp up the angst factor for him so much#im so sorry dark choco i also threw you in the horse plinko my man#i need the other beasts to have faces already so i can go feral drawing them too
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I am of the opinion that Isabeau probably wakes Siffrin up at night years after the fact to just whisper I love you to them like he was planning to during the clocktower sleepover and Siffrin promptly bursts into tears, it probably becomes a regular thing when Isabeau wakes up in the middle of the night after the journey is over
#Isat#In stars and time#Isat spoilers#isat isafrin#isat isabeau#Isat siffrin#I dunno I just think there's something reassuring about someone saying I love you in your bed#The blankets warm between the two of you and the dark night making it seem more secretive then it is#Intimate in ways that can only be done with pure affection and care for the other....#Big love for people saying I love you without fear#And the other who had been waiting for so long to hear it being finally able to say it back...#But not as frantic or as loud as the confession went but a simple and sleepy affection that comes from familiarity#And knowing the other already knows but needing to remind them that hey. I love you.#Anyway I'm good now I was just thinking about my chronic bitchless life and got a tad sad
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Iri'thiel reference sheet for lvl 10 (2023/2024)
---------- I post her often but if you're new here - she's a character from a homebrew The Revenants (Awakening) game that started as our first DnD one-shot 4 years ago. Today the game is separated into 3-4 different groups of players in different places around the world and time, trying to prevent it all from collapsing to an anti-magic calamity.
Iri is a customized Fey Wanderer Ranger that is based on slashing and psychic damage, blade dancing, misty stepping and invisibility. She's a good investigator and has the Observant feat that lets her see things others wouldn't. She also has more and more issues with having her mind safe from exterior influence and dangerously growing number of people to care about.
#I know saturday posting is a bad idea but Im very happy with how this turned out#also yes first proper reference in 4 years lol#an update was long overdue#anyway thanks to Secret Satan event for motivating me again!!#i still need to update her page on my website anajkdnad#monerelluvia#The Revenants#TR: Awakening#original character#dnd#dnd oc#dungeons and dragons#drow#drow oc#half elf#elf#ranger#fey wanderer#dark elf#artists on tumblr#lgbtq artist#Iri'thiel#digital art#reference sheet#ref sheet
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*inhales* YOU WERE THE BEST BUT YOU WERE THE WORST, AS SICK AS IT SOUNDS, I LOVED YOU FIRST, I WAS A DICK IT IS WHAT IT IS, A HABIT TO KICK, THE AGE-OLD CURSE, I TEND TO LAUGH WHENEVER IM SAD, I STARE AT THE CRASH IT ACTUALLY WORKS, MAKING AMENDS THIS SHIT NEVER ENDS. IM WRONG AGAIN, WRONG AGAIN. *exhales*
#kay'smidnightramblings#gracie abrams#the secret of us#i love you im sorry#taylor swift#good riddance#gracie abrams aesthetic#evermore#folklore#felt good about you#normal things#tough love#good luck charlie#close to you#risk#dark academia#poetry#late night thoughts#just thinking#us.#blowing smoke#let it happen#i knew it i know you#gave you i gave you#this is what it feels like#i know it wont work#mess it up#feels like
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"listening to music in your target language is the best way to learn it" they said "it'll be fun" they said but now i'm listening to smells like teen spirit in classical latin with weird instrumentals in the background.
#there's do i wanna know too#and gimme gimme gimme in ancient greek😭😭#i figured everyone should know that these exist#look up modern songs in ancient latin and greek on spotify if you're bored lol#chaotic academia#dark academia#academia#classic academia#books#academia aesthetic#art academia#poetry#light academia#romantic academia#green academia#the secret history#dead poets society#ancient greek#ancient greece#latin language#languages#multilingual#smells like teen spirit#nirvana#classical latin#random#text post#text#music#classical music
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francis and richard had the potential to become the best tsh couple
#the secret history#art tag#francis abernathy#richard papen#richard papen/francis abernathy#i dont know their ship name#tsh#dark academia art#the secret history fanart#queer art#donna tartt
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