#the core of dazai's character

[bungobble-my-balls]

OK correct me if I'm wrong, but I feel like the main 'yin/yang' parallel with Atsushi and Akutagawa is not something like 'this one is bad but secretly has a good side and this one is good but secretly has a bad side'.

I feel like it's more about 'who they are at their core vs who they choose to be'.

At his core Akutagawa is kind and at his core Atsushi is not. But despite this Atsushi tries every day to make the kinder choices and I love him so much for it. He has to work so hard to be good.

He wants to be a bitch SO bad I know he does but he tries his best to help people and be nice (sometimes he fails but that's OK <3)

Atsushi doesn't always WANT to help people, a lot of the time he's selfish and scared, but he does help people anyway. He keeps helping people over and over again. There's still some selfish motivation to it, and his initial motivation for helping people was because the headmaster told him that's all he was worth, but overall he does care about the people he helps and it weighs on him if he fails to save them. And of course, as the series goes on he starts helping people more because he can rather than because he feels like he needs to.

In Akutagawa's case, he's still capable of being kind but his environment led him into being someone who chooses to hurt people. But he's always been a protector at heart. In the start he was bad compared to Atsushi because he was choosing to hurt people and keep the cycle of abuse going. Just like how Atsushi developed in why he saved people, Akutagawa starts to get redeemed when he chooses to not just act on his rage. Not only does he start to spare people, but he speaks more kindly to them (apologising to Higuchi and telling Kyouka he's proud of her). It all culminates into the moment he chooses to help Atsushi and sacrifice himself for him, going back to his core value of being a protector. Even when he's finally revived, he keeps this role in his new position as Aya's Knight.

I kind of see the streaks of white in Akutagawa and the streaks of black in Atsushi not as their 'hidden sides' but as their fundamental selfs. That's who they are at their core, and their main colours (black for Akutagawa and white for Atsushi) are how they're presented to everyone else and how they try to have people see them as.

[philzokman]

it would be a little bit funny if asagiri killed dazai off breast style ykim

[sableeira]

When someone leaves your life, those exits are not made equal.

Some are beautiful and poetic and satisfying.

Others are abrupt and unfair.

But most are just unremarkable, unintentional, clumsy.

[kimetsu-chan]

The new chapter has put me through a range of emotions.

😰😭😄😟🤯😭😭😭😭😭

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

Teruko and Yosano should've faced off. I think Yosano should've been posed that question that Atsushi was; that reveal of the "future war" - Teruko went along with Fukuchi out of a mix of indebtedness and being at a loss for what to do. War is all she's known; of course she doesn't know. But Yosano has been to the depths of despair and come back out of it again. She might've faltered at this horrific reminder of her trauma, but when it comes down to it, she saves the lives before her. She fought for a way back to light and life. I just think there could've been a really interesting conflict there. And it would've made Teruko's role much more tragic if she wanted desperately for there to be a third option but just didn't have enough time to sit with it and process what that third option might be before Fyodor made it all go to hell.

Also a fight between them would've been interesting, because Teruko is much physically stronger than Yosano, but Yosano can heal from any physical injury inflicted. However, since we now know Teruko can alter mental age, she could inflict psychological wounds by de-aging her, which would've been a good callback to the horrors of war in her backstory, and also been a nice bit of foreshadowing for Teruko actually being a child.

Teruko eventually allowing Yosano to leave out that door after seeing her resolve would've been a deeply bittersweet and powerful moment, I think, especially in hindsight after her backstory reveal.

[musicalmoritz]

Every time I see a Dazai hate post I have to take a deep breath and remind myself not to argue because I will inevitably just end up using a lot of flowery words to call op an idiot

[thanonymousotp]

i need more friends who know both bsd and drgl so i can force them to recognize this insane brain rot ive been having. GOD. i wish i could think abt literally anything else. grahhghh. bungou stray dogs is genuinely so good tho so if uve been thinking abt watching it this is ur sign to do so

[kyouka-supremacy]

For tgp au, if Dazai is Michael, then who is Janet?

I have no idea? Oda? Chuuya and his themes of learning how to be a human?

[kaurwreck]

the argument of my post is that he did not. abuse implies maltreatment and intentional harm, taking advantage of a relationship to extert control and force, etc. i am suggesting that they have a mutual understanding and that this is an effort they are undertaking together; we do not see those negotiations or conversations, but we see very little of their relationship except for glimpses, and I am asserting that those glimpses of respect, understanding, and affection elucidate the details of the rest. none of this is to say it isn't violent. but they exist in violence, and akutagawa communicates in violence.

I am not holding them to the standard of behavior, communication, and pedagogy applicable outside of the context of genre fiction, and then I am further operating within their circumstances, personalities, environment, and narrative arcs.

thus, in impact, intent, and the characters' perceptions, I am suggesting that dazai did not abuse akutagawa, and that, rather, their dynamic, while not without tension, is not one of cyclical trauma, but of saving oneself through the other.

the crux of my argument and the framework i used to explore this analysis is that when you cut away presumption and artifice, the effect and details of their interactions don't align with abuse. and that when you shift to that lens, there emerges another story, one which, for me, untangled knots that had formed when I'd attempted to understand them through my assumptions of who they should be rather than who they are.

pm!dazai didn't abuse akutagawa. he reacted proportionately to the threat akutagawa posed to himself.

when dazai smacks akutagawa around in canon, they're running drills. dazai is not hitting him in misdirected anger or because he is venting his own suffering on him. akutagawa does not instinctually protect himself. in his fits of hyperviolence, he seeks to kill and be killed, and nearly is in beast, and in the course of his initial pursuit of atsushi.

he does not have the reflex or will or instinct to defend himself, and he is slow because he is having to consciously process the effort. his automatic reflex is to attack, but that will not stop him from being shot or overwhelmed or blindsided.

what they are doing in those scenes, what dazai is uniquely able to practice with him since rashomon can't pierce him, is not unlike cognitive behavioral therapy interventions. akutagawa is wired such that when he is triggered, he develops tunnel vision, pressing forward relentlessly without registering danger or responding to negative stimuli. this is a pattern developed from when he deemed dearh inevitable, and one which is liable to get him killed regardless of whether he has a reason to live.

he needs to consciously retrain his instinctual response, and he has to consciously and consistently reinforce it against his existing, much quicker instinct. he has to do it before he has the conviction or will to do it. and he has to do it over and over again, even when it isn't immediately life or death, because the instinct is self reinforcing, and the pattern he is trying to supplant it with is not yet.

skills are part of their users' framework for responding to their environment. jun'ichiro is anxious, but he can hide within light snow. kunikida has his notebook, but it has rigid limitations that he adapts to, similarly to how he works within the limitations of reality to keep from becoming consumed by his ideals.

akutagawa's skill, meanwhile, is wildly fucking disproportionate to akutagawa's constitution which is a problem when akutagawa wont react defensively. akutagawa is canonically frail, chronically ill, thin, and short (he's 5'8", but asagiri insists he's itty bitty every time he describes him in prose). rashomon, meanwhile, is monstrously powerful and hungry. it lends a false sense of untouchable violence when akutagawa himself is weak, and also is just really difficult to focus and control such that using it brings akutagawa into coughing fits. rashomon is also terrifying even in visage; it invites others to react with violence proportionate to their terror against the spectre of rashomon — but akutagawa is small, sick, and human; what is proportionate to rashomon is IMMENSE overkill if aimed at akutagawa. which is especially egregious because akutagawa will let them.

in other words, when dazai meets akutagawa, rashomon is as dangerous to its user as to anyone else. skills should not get their users killed. dazai is right. it's a shit skill.

akutagawa is vulnerable and self-destructive, and he and dazai are working to rewire his instinctual evaluation of his stakes. even when dazai punches akutagawa after akutagawa kills the mimic soldier, it's not a random act of violence or unregulated anger. the mimic soldier was not going to lead them to gide, there was no reality where they restrained him before he bit his cyanide, and he'd attacked dazai. but instead of reacting defensively at the opportunity, akutagawa fell to the former instinct, leaving himself wide open.

dazai reacts how he does because:

they are supplanting an ingrained instinct that is self reinforcing, the correction needs to be consistent to change the pattern and the former instinct needs to be discouraged with the same severity as the threat it poses;

by punching akutagawa first, dazai gave him notice and time to consciously muster the defense reaction theyre working on;

akutagawa needs to build an association between the defensive reaction and the triggering stimulus for this to work;

the context in which this happens is the exact sort of threat that rashomon is then ill equipped to handle— gide can see into the future, like oda, and mimic are military trained gunmen.

when dazai tells akutagawa that he couldn't ever defeat oda, he's not taunting him, he's right. akutagawa is relying on swift killing blows, but against someone who can see into the future, akutagawa is as vulnerable as a baby. and then, shortly after, that's what happens: gide wrecks his shit and is about to murder him dead when oda swoops in to grab dazai's dumb horrible baby kouhai who's trying to kill himself with the ambitious gusto of a horse.

as long as akutagawa fails to seek self-preservation, he is remarkably vulnerable. he's weak, and he's going to get himself killed. dazai doesn't coddle him about it for the same reason fukuzawa slaps ranpo for scampering into a police car with a murderer. you dont get praise for self endangerment.

dazai is not going to affirm a version of akutagawa that is trying to kill the boy dazai promised to save.

***

(also, this explains why akutagawa hates taking baths and being without his coat. dazai tried to instill in akutagawa the vigilance to register danger. in his absence, akutagawa strove to be worthy of demanding his approval by diligently practicing. but he's dazai's dumb baby kouhai who. takes things too far lmao.)

[chiliyue-archived]

Thigh Riding

Characters; Dazai, Chuuya, Kunikida, Ranpo, Nikolai

Tags; SMUT/NSFW fem!reader, nicknames, biting, teasing, thigh riding

Dazai

He's a tease.

As more whimpers and choked sobs escaped from your lips, he props your body against the mound of his thighs; a yelp escaped you as pressure applied to your core. It all started with a kiss within the empty office of the ADA. A kiss in which grew heated as your lover shamelessly roamed his palms all over your body.

His lithe fingers would find the clothed heat between your legs coaxing a ragged sigh in response You remain stagnant for a moment before experimentally rocking your hips, the motion caused a jolt of pleasure to recoccupate throughout your veins.

Gradually you picked up a pace, arms locking around his neck for support. Your face was beaming red but that was the least of your concerns as your moans echoed against the walls.

'Belladonna, you've barely moved and you already got my pants all wet~' He would whisper against the shell as your ear, though amused at your bold behavior.

Pure amusement glittered all over his expression as you desperately rolled your hips in a sloppy rhythm. His fingers, went to knead and message at your hips a silent encouragement while his voice dripped with the cruelest of words. However, it only added to your arousal as though compatible pairs.

And he was no stranger to this either, not by the way you clamped around his thigh shamelessly. He held that grin of his that made you weak in the knees; complacent and fervent as he urged you to continue.

"I'll need new pants after this, Belladonna, you've made them so soaked- but why don't we get to the main event now, hm?"

Chūya

An cocaphony of sounds bounced off the walls of your shared living area, Chūya's huffing and meandered groans coupled with your mewls.

He had you seated upon his thigh, his flesh in perfect orientation with your core- exposed after hastily pushing aside your garments.

His hands started to move you in a languid pace, words of genuine praise splitting from his clench teeth, the sight before him was becoming too great; hair sticking to your forehead, a focused gazed as you desperately tried to get off his thigh, even your lips were glistening in your own drool.

Chūya's bottom lip trembled as you squirmed against his grip- crescent moons blossoming along the sides of your hips. Each slight movement of your body or his caused tears to prick the corners of your eyes, begging for more

Chūya wasn't one to make your purposefully cry, he normally disliked it, but the moment when those crystal tears threatened to release from the desperation, it only riled him further.

He retrains the slow pace, edging you closer to your orgasm as his eyes continue to soak in the scene unapologetically.

His words traced with filth only shot pair after pair of arousal to your bundle of nerves, ushering a wave of whimpers from you end.

"God- Doll. You're making a mess with just my thigh. I didn't think you were that needy- fuck- If you keep squriming like that, i might have to use my special ability-"

Kunikida

You want to do what? Here? Now-?

Kunikida almost shut down the idea entirely, why get off his thigh when he could use his fingers instead-? and although the ADA was currently vacant with the exception of you horny pair, that was still quite improper-!

But your pleading face did more than enough to convince him, and the way you sheepishly rubbed your thighs together only added to the fuel. And so by some fortuitous miracle you found yourself mounted on his thigh

Though Kunikida would much rather be sheathed within your warm welcoming walls, he couldn't fully deny the pleasure that came as you rode on his thigh. The sounds you were making were pitiful and filthy, it made the detectives ears blaze unbearably red but his eyes betrayed otherwise; he couldn't peel them away from the way you moved your hips, attempting to create more friction.

At some point groans start to mix with your sound of pleasure as you rode closer to your climax. Despite his initial thoughts on the manner, words of praises slipped from his voice, his arms subconsciously going to hold you steady

And the sight of his dampening pant leg from your arousal made his mind go dizzy. It took everything within him to not take you right there, afterall you deserve some form of punishment after making such a mess

"Look at you pretty girl, getting off and my thigh and making my clothes all wet. Just relax a little- and k-keep moving like that-"

Ranpo

Ranpo is quite lazy, he'll do anything that doesn't require him to exert too much energy. So why not make you do all the hard work hard as he watches?

A grin is stretching on his lips as you made yourself comfortable on his thigh, your gaze shifting from determination to flustered in a matter of seconds.

He breathes out a gentle laugh as you started to move along his thigh, quickly becoming amused with the expression forming on your face; biting down on your bottom lip focusing on the act, sending your lover a glare whenever he made a tease(which was quite many)

He may even munch on his snacks as he witnesses your desperate figure ride off his thigh in search for your high. He was a jerk to his very bones.

How could he not? Not when you became desperate to reach your high, sluggish babbles and sounds falling from your mouth. It was the perfect opportunity to tease you mercilessly

His voice is cooing at you while you bury your head in his shoulder, face reddening at the flithy things he whispered to you. All the while your hips continued to roll over his clothed thigh. Your muscles were starting burn but you couldn't bring yourself stop.

As Ranpo, notices your depleting energy, he'll take some mercy on you and assist. With hands on your hips, he guides you in a sluggish rhythm that has your back arching as shivers jolted across your skin.

He huffs out a laugh when you ultimately choke out, the pleasure becoming too much- but your body betrays itself by locking your arms around him, hips shamelessly rocking in motion inviting him to continue.

"You find this quite lovely don't you? Be grateful my dear, while you get drunk off my thigh, you are leaving me high and dry. Though this visual you're providing is addicting~ "

Nikolai

You would smack that teasing grin on his face if you weren't busy drooling over the texture of his pant leg.

Nikolai was an awful tease, making you sit still on his thigh as he kisses you all over your shoulders and collarbone, fingers kneading at your exposed skin.

Even as you plead for him to let you move, he only chuckles and riles you up even further. Any attempts were instantly shut down with a harsh grip against your hip.

Eventually he takes some mercy after all your whining and begging, setting a pace. It was tantalizingly slow at first, he lips spreading into a grin as you cried for more.

Something was oddly amusing about how you clumped your legs together, arousal starting to stick to his pants. And as you bit your bottom lip in desperation, Nikolai is all but remaining deep eye contact with you. It only caused you flush a deeper crimson but all the more fed into his enjoyment

Your hips subconsciously start to move on its own seeking more stimulation. Resulting in the cruelest of words from your lover, degrading you for your slutty actions; even as tears roll down your cheeks and the only words you can babble was his name and you didn't slow down.

He becomes mesmorized with the heaving of your chest, the expression on your face and how prettily your back arched as your movements became sloppy. This all the more made the tent in his pants grow.

As you lose yourself in your orgasm, he'll take your hand and guide it the tent that was begging for your attention. He groans as you sheepishly place feathery touches to his clothed dick.

But after the lovely performance provided by you, Nikolai will make sure that his thigh isn't the only thing making you cry out loud tonight.

"I've turned you into a whiny mess with just my thigh. Now now don't be so selfish pretty girl, it's my turn to have some fun~"

[xvxblahhhxvx]

I think Dazai's backstory is really cool in how, despite having more information about it than most other characters, majority of his life is just one giant noodle incident.

Yep, that's the line I'm going with as an introduction to this analysis. Just bear with me.

To start off, for those who don't know, the term "noodle incident" originates from the (amazing) comic Calvin and Hobbes. In it, the whole idea is that Calvin did this unspecified thing in school that involved noodles, but it's never confirmed what exactly happened. It's only referenced in passing, and it is clear that it was not good. Applied to general fiction, the term Noodle Incident refers to an event that is often referenced, but never clearly explained, and what is important is the characters' reactions and feelings towards it. The principle idea behind it is that imagining what said incident could be is way more significant and impactful than anything it would actually be if it was said. It's not the event that's important, but the effects and responses to it are. *for more info, I recommend Overly Sarcastic Productions trope talk video about it*

Now, how this plays into Dazai's life is that, while it is extremely evident that he likely has a horrible, tragic backstory, we never really get to see much of it. The earliest we are introduced to him, he is already suicidal, and he has lost most in hope in existence. These feelings are tempered a bit when he first joins the Port Mafia, but they come back all too quickly. And while you could argue that him being in the Mafia is a large contributor to his depression,the main reasons why he seeks escape clearly transpired before he ever met Mori.

Dazai was already trying to commit suicide at fourteen, which is how he met Mori. Something happened earlier in his life, but we don't know what. Asagiri himself says that he left Dazai's core, the reason he wants to die, vague on purpose. We aren't given many details, and honestly, we aren't given much backstory to it either. The two biggest hints that we get is when he is speaking to Odasaku. First in The Day I Picked Up Dazai, and the second from Dazai and the Dark Era.

We have no idea who or what Dazai is referring to. From all that we have seen, all the backstories and light novels we are given, the only people that we know of whom Dazai actually lost were Ango and Odasaku-for Ango, it was that special friendship, and Odasaku, it was his life. And even so, it isn't much of an explanation, because he was obviously suicidal before he met them, as evident from how he speaks to Odasaku, and losing them wasn't a catalyst for Dazai's depression. (As a matter of fact, it was actually the first step towards improvement, but that's a different analysis).

Yet for how much we don't know about Dazai's life, I think it's done in such a way that it doesn't really matter. It's a noodle incident, in that sense. Because it's not about the events that actually transpired, it's about how that affects Dazai and the way we see him. Don't get me wrong, I would love a full, confirmed backstory, but Asagiri doesn't seem to intend to write it, and that makes Dazai's character so beautiful. It's also one of the reasons why the dark era, especially the light novel, is so tragic. Because yes, you can argue that as far as tragic backstories go, losing two friends isn't near the most awful, especially not in this universe (I'm not trying to play the "which character has more trauma" game, but compared to, for example, growing up in an abusive orphanage, it's relatively not as inherently tragic. That doesn't make it any less horrible though). But the point of the backstory isn't just to explain the reasoning why things ended up the way they did, why Dazai left the Mafia, boo hoo his friend died, but Odasaku and Ango represent everything in Dazai's life, everyone from his past we never got to meet and I'm not sure if we're ever going to. They symbolize all the things in his life that mattered to him, everything he never wanted to lose but did. The last scene in the bar, where the three of them meet up for the last time, Ango leaves, the picture with the three of them laughing and smiling, the whole thing is meant to serve as a microcosm for Dazai's life as a whole. That he feels he's always going to lose everything, and that's why he wants to die. We don't get details, we don't know the specific events, but we're left with the emotions that gives us an important glimpse into this character's mind, more than his life, and that's what makes him such an interesting character that's left open to interpretation and analysis. We aren't privy to the tragedy, but the aftereffects of it. And, almost as if to prove the point, Odasaku dies the next day. Right after Dazai says he always loses everyone, further cementing the idea that there's almost a curse surrounding him, a void of loneliness that may never be fulfilled, which is as much as Odasaku tells him when he dies.

Whatever happened in Dazai's life before fourteen was probably something horrible and tragic. Maybe he had a family. Maybe he had other good friends. Perhaps he even believed in the goodness of life and humanity. But what's really cool about the way he's written is that the exact events are not important nor necessary to understanding his character. His life is one big noodle incident, yet because of that, we're able to glean an almost deeper understanding about him, by leaving the details in the dark and exposing only the raw, humane emotions left behind. The most important part about any backstory in fiction isn't about what actually happened, it's about how does this affect the character now? What lasting impact did it leave on them, and how is it evident in the way they interact with the story in the present? This is something that Asagiri nails on the head when it comes to his backstories. And I think the lack of clear information about Dazai's backstory, yet all the information we do end up getting about him, is one of the reasons why Dazai is such an interesting and intriguing character in the series.

Thank you all for you time. You may now return to your procrastination.

[dazai-fan-page]

I get liking Dazai because of his mental state but liking him because of that and then insisting it's His Whole Thing flattens him down to a single trait that's not even his core character.

Dazai is a character of growth, it feels almost insulting to double down on his only goal being death. Obviously I don't mean jokes and headcanons, those are almost never what I'm talking about.

My point is that Dazai is so much more than just "lol sewerslide" and it makes me sad to see so much of the general takeaway be "silly depressed version of gojo"

[soupthatistohot]

BSD 109 Spoilers!!!

I will always always ALWAYS come back to this panel when talking about Asagiri’s storytelling.

At its very core, BSD is an absurdist text, Kafka Asagiri having been inspired by many absurdist authors. Franz Kafka, who he took his pseudonym from is one of them. Albert Camus, basically the most well-known absurdist is referenced with the Mersault prison, the name of which comes from a character in his most famous absurdist work, The Stranger. 

Absurdism is the belief that the world around us is irrational and inherently absurd and that explicitly seeking meaning is pointless. In his essay The Myth of Sisyphus, Camus explains, that there is value in the act of rebellion, though. Sisyphus, who has been doomed to roll a boulder up a mountain only for the boulder to tumble back down each time he reaches the peak, finds meaning in the act of continuing to push the boulder. Even though he will continue this cycle for all of eternity, he doesn’t just lay down and give up, he rebels against the absurdity of his situation by continuing to push the boulder, despite the seemingly futile nature of the act. 

As I said earlier, BSD is an absurdist text. All of the animanga’s main characters are on a journey of discovering their meaning in life, and their place in the world, and they do this by rebelling against its absurdity — especially Dazai. 

Dazai sees the absurd world for what it is, and when he was in the PM, he hated it. Thus, he sought suicide as a solution. I will note here that absurdists generally view suicide as a failure to rebel against the absurd, just giving up and giving into hopelessness. But ever since Dazai left the PM and took Oda’s advice, he’s been rebelling against this, doing good despite his inherent beliefs about morality and the world, and he’s absolutely gotten better for it. 

Other characters embody this idea of rebelling against the absurd, hell, that’s kinda what this whole arc is about. The world is literally ending, and things seem to be at their absolute worst, but someone like Atsushi still has hope that he can change the minds of the hunting dogs and save reality as we know it. He even has hope that he can get through to a vampiric Akutagawa when the guy is literally brainwashed and attacking him. Aya as the “last hope” right now embodies this, too, deciding that she can’t just sit around and do nothing and then trying to remove the sword from Bram even though the effort appears futile. 

But everything is going wrong right now. Fukuzawa is bleeding out, Dazai has just been shot through the forehead and appears to have died, Atsushi’s had his limbs ripped off and is at Akutagawa’s mercy, and Fukuchi is literally going to end the world! How can we have hope?!

Think about BSD. Think about the story that’s been told so far. Surely Asagiri isn’t killing everyone right now, surely the world isn’t gonna actually end. I’m not entirely convinced Aya’s plan is gonna work— but please consider that the point of absurdist storytelling is that even when everything seems to be at its worst, even when life seems completely meaningless, there is inherent meaning in still continuing to fight against this. 

BSD has never been a story where the villains win, and I don’t think it’s gonna start being one. I think, as usual, Asagiri wants to scare us, to make us feel hopeless about the situation, only for someone to pull through and completely turn the tides.

Dazai laying down and accepting his death at Chuuya’s hands is not going to be the end of his story, because it goes against everything Asagiri seems to stand for. Dazai wouldn’t just give up in his fight against Fyodor, because he needs to prove he’s right about what he says in this panel:

"The ones who actually make the world turn are those who scream within the storm of uncertainty and run with flowing blood."

I think this reflects Asagiri's own beliefs and is also the reason why he is not going to let Dazai die like this, because in a way, that would be proving that Fyodor is right. From a storytelling perspective, it’d be saying “everything I’ve communicated up to this point actually means nothing and life is truly hopeless!” 

Dazai has cheated death before, as has basically everyone else in danger right now. I promise you, something is going to happen and they’re all going to survive, because BSD is not trauma porn, for lack of a better term. It’s a story about how a group of people fight against the absurdity of their reality, even when everything seems completely and utterly hopeless. 

There’s a lot of theories circulating about how things could work out, especially Dazai’s “death,” and I’m not here to repeat all of them, but I will say that a lot of them have credence, especially because Asagiri isn’t the type of author to make mistakes, every single detail has a distinct reason. 

So even though I don't know how things are going to work out, I have full faith that they will, including Dazai's current situation. None of these characters are done just yet, they've got too much fight left in them to just give up.

[original twt thread]

[sukidenks]

¡ BSD men Twitter NSFW masterlist !

• Dazai

https://x.com/puppygirlgooner/status/1850698924153061503?t=xdu5KHoH6Eo4COJ82JqkZw&s=19 (so fucking perfect)

https://x.com/gaym4sturb4tion/status/1850700245925028065?t=p7pRaOjBgG59k8eg6zrLQg&s=19

https://x.com/deadaccalt/status/1824741534442643843?t=wX-EA7Sf3epeYHV0sfwf-g&s=19

https://x.com/thehoteloflust/status/1849081236137852945?t=iraOd3JqFbu7GefXm4jWIg&s=19

https://x.com/xruals/status/1792250752355733568?t=fT_Xfe3msz97GR6Jg8b8Ig&s=19

https://x.com/rough_daddyyy/status/1848439234459537689?t=Aca4-TxlCh7N6_zBUh86iA&s=19 (this is him fr just a bit nicer hehe)

https://x.com/KiluaZoldyck_Mx/status/1848757904436040172?t=xhu1ribSEigVB4u5oWw_oQ&s=19

https://x.com/OemiaKnives/status/1792411124228596171?t=uBNEy8EkkGuL2Kx2Gr8xjg&s=19

https://x.com/lusxdream_/status/1849015466800599290?t=n5hFnTXhLaZ7PBE897FjTw&s=19

https://x.com/iamgoddessvxo/status/1849310583557865921?t=ly4b3SYqoLLxLO3FyxHljw&s=19

https://x.com/paleanddecaying/status/1849532893355204780?t=GV053aD6sZcV2RT2331qcg&s=19

https://x.com/plscumwithme/status/1844853148042588349?t=iU6QNeRmK8cjjr0JaRwfQw&s=19 (fits kolya too tbh)

https://x.com/thatcatkorin/status/1847040015576322182?t=Z_j9Pb4Vp6w01wHTCGnqdA&s=19 https://x.com/rough_daddyyy/status/1849262801585398083

https://x.com/lilwprincess/status/1848442015463231939?t=hvshqcAaJR2lRBobfhKNVQ&s=19

https://x.com/lusxdream_/status/1832822658721100196?t=OUAoUUIQirJgdjIRXH1YFw&s=19

https://x.com/rough_daddyyy/status/1849746111424016475?t=eTKKhoa6r_qVPgFGnvbFSw&s=19

https://x.com/Rypo75/status/1849501406534734008

https://x.com/xruals/status/1838896591928783016?t=AYTR_AugogSd5TGpMTFJPg&s=19

https://x.com/henryholdenx5/status/1847826386288795925?t=LkhOryqbvjh6M8_Hvd7tZA&s=19 (don't ask why but this is so dazai core lol)

https://x.com/AdultDailyNsfw/status/1849783154346717444?t=4LaAcTLGs_0dyewrEeBRtQ&s=19 (I had a hard time deciding which character to put this under)

https://x.com/tiarafaye33/status/1846320877451071829?t=aMNjF_uC5DFrGvAXv6YZhg&s=19

https://x.com/Cafferety/status/1847410255405240821?t=AiUDCKQvKVo4ubEyDJKHOw&s=19

https://x.com/lusxdream_/status/1827636073918558370?t=QIb7oeCRzRaEEVznGBMjUQ&s=19

https://x.com/goonground/status/1833547498826379543?t=MPxrqCPJisG-Q6S4YFwiQw&s=19

https://x.com/apeachtoeat/status/1842523355033010582?t=tETztuMdpwZ1osdhZHgkGw&s=19

https://x.com/KiluaZoldyck_Mx/status/1842948890431238198?t=5iIbyAYziHR_8y0YA6Tsnw&s=19

https://x.com/DadBodDom2/status/1846061632851460155?t=tIj_fmBHU6bLj8FhZMTJEA&s=19

https://x.com/CottnCndyCaptor/status/1850452860242133146?t=tGUBZX8VEv1o_a1KGP9Njg&s=19 (tummy bulge <33)

https://x.com/emesscape/status/1845845434935152873

https://x.com/http_mommy18/status/1820521749525778550 (titjob>>>)

https://x.com/puppygirlgooner/status/1852176532510244980 (idk about this but yes lol)

https://x.com/cutedollies_/status/1751873138059542758

https://x.com/tiarafaye33/status/1851009350120456299?t=sxwUxv-qNVNSNr8-66yzww&s=19

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• Nikolai

https://x.com/kittyzpaws/status/1849249570724679885?t=cs29MqG-kDs9ooA4yQkpTA&s=19 (stalker kolya coming through <33)

https://x.com/CottnCndyCaptor/status/1831384283195568390?t=dRnw6pnuSEvt8qh_7-s-HQ&s=19

https://x.com/FreeSomno/status/1845278896020914535?t=nXuD9H0Ey3ABkhI_U8FCCQ&s=19

https://x.com/plscumwithme/status/1844853148042588349?t=iU6QNeRmK8cjjr0JaRwfQw&s=19 (ik I put it for dazai too but heh)

https://x.com/FreeSomno/status/1849990984467349807?t=6eJVcJ2rKUCD_HC3RgmkyQ&s=19

https://x.com/nthesadist/status/1849541353283436754?t=v0W7p1uxXw0rLacKZSiGDQ&s=19 (iconic)

https://x.com/thehoteloflust/status/1847299879090999695?t=1L (had to giggle sorry hehe)

--WbV6PwuLJFkTWqhAFA&s=19 (size 😩🤌✨️ doesn't help that he sounds like Nikolai too)

https://x.com/rough_daddyyy/status/1849814531440066969?t=pcJCb0woG0kN-YbyucWgMw&s=19

https://x.com/xruals/status/1833451858410484050?t=_tp0MGvHWvv7Sc-VQrVVGw&s=19

https://x.com/ur_specialgirl/status/1849636402943701386?t=eakhaafbIHSWD7eAC5bHIg&s=19

https://x.com/lusxdream_/status/1832967378466132167?t=OgMpTHEcn04-73zInW0YIw&s=19

https://x.com/Mistress_Agam/status/1848066458418565388?t=mPGL5trTFD3GMTDlf_dcsQ&s=19

https://x.com/thebestaround57/status/1849247737457545282?t=K2cg7dmDiRP6by2hwK_gZQ&s=19

https://x.com/thatcatkorin/status/1849197470305357829?t=oo-GyAVjPgFyAN01Lk0krA&s=19

https://x.com/k1nkyb0yfriend/status/1796029706925441124?t=hyPq1RmSuOjjcUxADRVBTQ&s=19

https://x.com/Mistress_Agam/status/1849225778350694641

https://x.com/luke5763/status/1848335290076680194

https://x.com/TheCumDungeon/status/1849071053718339600

https://x.com/Mistress_Agam/status/1849226088724996259

https://x.com/apeachtoeat/status/1841390884988059677?t=DBq4TX_pCEKl6Kbz3Vl2fA&s=19

https://x.com/rough_daddyyy/status/1849614540352192962

https://x.com/SubbyGooner_/status/1849506984698978731

https://x.com/SubbyGooner_/status/1849173579004338355

https://x.com/dadacloudy/status/1848870102596522153?t=giDeXXPF5QmH7X86tkiOjA&s=19 (this is so hot)

https://x.com/thehoteloflust/status/1848151547760308698?t=Ph8W8EdQ8yIA0WBIZTUuEQ&s=19

https://x.com/lusxdream_/status/1829453479045210121?t=exMUGrOORpIHbhdzTK3z4w&s=19

https://x.com/apeachtoeat/status/1842981915789533235?t=IUPPNUN0RWp3CZYHZypyNw&s=19

https://x.com/itskatiehehe/status/1850242079336861842?t=o6BvbQFrq9NRuA7mzgtXgg&s=19

https://x.com/daddysaberx/status/1803334204857459065?t=UxhOM_FEUjo1-ZxVA78ljg&s=19

https://x.com/yourcrzydaddy/status/1852241131922137555?t=hbaGiIOEkaJ6Ymull0gERw&s=19

https://x.com/1mango_muncher1/status/1823379324608631253?t=u_gqVUaH6H79ZpSTpi-Wxg&s=19

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• Fyodor

https://x.com/k1nkyb0yfriend/status/1726875481155195181?t=dGMKIqsqMiWEdHHG3vP0Fg&s=19

https://x.com/tiarafaye33/status/1847959741718204819

https://x.com/lusxdream_/status/1828353986350469347?t=ufAdSwmsmISy5tdJ5jKWeA&s=19

https://x.com/NARCISSISTFEIN/status/1848801243902140463?t=uqSQMC1iYwosCjAH3-qHTg&s=19

https://x.com/hours247365/status/1847138774926426146?t=zOFc9A3LNLoLA9mSaZ87EQ&s=19

https://x.com/xruals/status/1838158891550425582?t=u4HhfMXgcdeByfpLDRwh3w&s=19

https://x.com/xruals/status/1835989926120128730?t=iutJmp_INoPbvisYRQcCKA&s=19

https://x.com/DaddysPosession/status/1849998979506803084?t=ng7Uvv10CM-XPnK52TVETg&s=19

https://x.com/GentlemanDom8/status/1847661581531783208?t=uw-m0H9ZkcYiS0_pmh-kcw&s=19

https://x.com/rough_daddyyy/status/1849710774500917652

https://x.com/SubbyGooner_/status/1848485304585396727

https://x.com/dadacloudy/status/1849392264415514938?t=UrSkfGZASMRF51A-KV-mGQ&s=19 (gosh)

https://x.com/tiarafaye33/status/1848094963625828682?t=37MFTOurFHKYGmzi9fYVUw&s=19

https://x.com/dadacloudy/status/1849154544124436637?t=GOuSMaDcU-xsW4kuNTn6Pw&s=19

https://x.com/InsatiableMe_/status/1849592161576341673?t=ZoPwO-1ZVDZ8Rlhc3egUtQ&s=19 (he's definitely the type to make you do more work heh)

https://x.com/lusxdream_/status/1829811255714152575?t=AgfJUKVxvXnWT8FboSUnpg&s=19 (the music made me wheeze)

https://x.com/ur_playthingxxx/status/1848482615667650776?t=vvjCqzHvEaPF0K4HF-PspQ&s=19 (idk I just thought of cop fyo)

https://x.com/DadBodDom2/status/1846087348469072323?t=u_gqVUaH6H79ZpSTpi-Wxg&s=19 (again, cop Fyo <33. Could've been Kolya too)

https://x.com/paleanddecaying/status/1847717009364336753?t=2pGhLPx64ePhFrLcLVj2AA&s=19 (heh)

https://x.com/KiluaZoldyck_Mx/status/1845855997484802093?t=zn-nqN4W6OruhSu2o0HUvg&s=19

https://x.com/Fallen_Ghosty/status/1843748654957638015?t=B7GLngB9nYR35nAUa_b87A&s=19

https://x.com/peepwh0re444/status/1851883722045378990?t=xdu5KHoH6Eo4COJ82JqkZw&s=19

https://x.com/NNYMPHI/status/1851210226050953601?t=tGUBZX8VEv1o_a1KGP9Njg&s=19

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https://x.com/bbygirltamer/status/1806325211358265666?t=ditfrPhEE1b5H2pNwMBN5Q&s=19

• Chuuya

https://x.com/Mistress_Agam/status/1849228401476813118

https://x.com/lusxdream_/status/1828120917530329384?t=ldfHRLf8bX7snXlX3eyiqw&s=19

https://x.com/SubbyGooner_/status/1848792464276037777

https://x.com/TheMaster555555/status/1836882095593116140?t=ds1IAWJd1cXviXFKboHIvg&s=19

https://x.com/subbylina/status/1849264988113797327 (reminded me of chuu but fem version idk why but here xD)

https://x.com/dadacloudy/status/1847118378579747044?t=Qs-MrcVEFIz23KZZfT3VdA&s=19

https://x.com/lusxdream_/status/1828353423588131298?t=zKyCVd0WJVVqByl_wg8Ghw&s=19

https://x.com/httpdevils/status/1847779363879584202?t=C7zG3BzvOG2H6jGCNlrUgg&s=19 (not a vid but the vibes>>>>)

https://x.com/xruals/status/1830194326556618945?t=UF8fbKn0Wvc3BA2grsMeAQ&s=19

https://x.com/thebestaround57/status/1834394572551549356?t=jd0OSyNXXLqhnv3x6ywE6Q&s=19

https://x.com/impwuppy/status/1846847501279617294?t=IYNf_9D4Fh37yoY8Udk6EA&s=19

https://x.com/rough_daddyyy/status/1850088659527029181?t=nuawz7NUHp81O5hcD7PuxA&s=19

https://x.com/goodpuptrainer/status/1848285832370966844?t=fqTzpY4u7-V8siE8QehM5Q&s=19

https://x.com/specttm/status/1847987438301356542?t=W2DRNZgw4XQc3wj4uzcnow&s=19

https://x.com/saintktty/status/1848329750734901480?t=KISJJS5RMPBpzcfMQ8qPCQ&s=19

https://x.com/bigbreastslover/status/1848031455332450793?t=kdeLoNmgHcwEguDmTowOLw&s=19

https://x.com/rough_daddyyy/status/1849455076437356991?t=PZqegh19UOTgw2e9QavTjQ&s=19 (a little twinky but fitting tbh lol)

https://x.com/lusxdream_/status/1827635668740174304?t=A5a9qktpwV800cPB8xhcYQ&s=19

https://x.com/cerephia_xo/status/1847456770639151147?t=w-uG7yvOY8asTCREW6D6hw&s=19

https://x.com/cerephia_xo/status/1849795173556916254?t=0rtJNZ1XGgoygCEUnk43KQ&s=19

https://x.com/bunnybabybye/status/1841730789387469234?t=GWMJGYzBIOjE6v9IdtE9Cg&s=19

https://x.com/creammibunni/status/1831897887967748589?t=UfSDf9FTaHh9ELe2XAot7g&s=19

https://x.com/SheCrushes_/status/1502383871631011850?t=ddNZlx1HxLqjH8qOTP-5_w&s=19

https://x.com/SheCrushes_/status/1502383871631011850?t=bN2NVI8WGygLeiKjdkXyzg&s=19

https://x.com/hours247365/status/1848333139011375319?t=ZJIQMZO8kLC0uvtMXkUsFg&s=19

https://x.com/cerephia_xo/status/1843591897505571037

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• Mori (help I wasn't gonna add him but one thing led to another and I just found fitting ones-)

https://x.com/horizoneigh/status/1321834437181612033

https://x.com/urmom1974/status/1847263155254133063?t=0HepNO852N6FQLFzMaA4vA&s=19

https://x.com/SubbyGooner_/status/1848310000684294608

https://x.com/tiarafaye33/status/1847359907562963036?t=Gj4buk-VQHucF2AhoUc3Sw&s=19

https://x.com/denaos4/status/1847673897262444591?t=ObrnNnOXXF-jcMBSKqybHg&s=19

https://x.com/lusxdream_/status/1832967354487300601?t=VuDFyWA2kmVEwBOK7flwpw&s=19

https://x.com/lusxdream_/status/1829811312043704519?t=JRXy2UL1GUkNbXiYsYqWdA&s=19

https://x.com/PornstarNameID/status/1834687983280103433?t=lGG30dJxFGyUZl4FmkM6AA&s=19 (ignore the face reveal at the end lol)

https://x.com/little_battie/status/1849709181147713877?t=5w0Y8YjPWw50GUC7NRgE8Q&s=19

https://x.com/apeachtoeat/status/1840831706074661203?t=mgrccAjQd2mdjxuXlc-Fgg&s=19

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Bonus: https://x.com/toy_ftm/status/1848796196493557946?t=an041tSguGzih-msIu_aRQ&s=19

https://x.com/corruptedangelk/status/1850107886707339519?t=tGUBZX8VEv1o_a1KGP9Njg&s=19 (random threesome thingies. (Soukoku/Fyolai whatever you want :P)

https://x.com/http_mommy18/status/1832143280303141300 (can be literally any BSD men but like cock worship <33)

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Side note: I'm sorry if this wasn't very reader-inclusive y'all :<< I was most going through different tags and accounts, and added in whatever that seemed fitting for these characters. It was kinda difficult ngl lol. I put different colours so links were easier to separate, tho it seems a little messy but welp- ANYGAYS, please don't be hateful or judge me based on the tags and contents of the links ☠️☠️ But yeah, I'm also open to requests for other characters hehe.

Let me know if you want me to write little headcanons, drabbles, smut, ffs, anything. I kinda wanna start posting properly sometime. <33

[sableeira]

when I drew this I thought tachihara wears the bandaid when he’s working as a hunting dog too… He still wore the bandaid until the artwork was almost done. the fact that the bandaid is just part of his mafia disguise is even funnier tho. he either has character design trope knowledge or he saw dazai during his mafia days wrapped from head to toe in bandages and went: that’s an epic detail for my mafia disguise!

what kind of person do you see when you are looking in the mirror?

[rae-writes]

all for you...

Dazai x twin!reader

wc : 1.k

warnings : angst, ambiguous ending, major character death [not reader or Dazai], blood, implied prior emotional/physical/[light] sexual abuse

synopsis : "I don't want to play this part but I do, all for you"

a/n : I...apologize for this

“Well now…this is quite the mess to clean up…” 

The splattered blood on the wall had begun to drip, sliding down the wood slowly and splashing onto the floor with faint ‘pit, pit’ echoes. There was an eerie, ringing, silence to the air and a tension that felt suffocating.

Something shifted when Mori turned to look at the two children who just witnessed the murder— they were no older than fourteen. 

“You twins are my witnesses…from now on, I will be the new boss of the Port Mafia, and the two of you…will stay by my side.”

Fukuzawa Yukichi and Mori Ogai sat at a small, cherry-wood table that was decorated with a glass china set for the tea they were talking over; it would’ve been a rather amusing sight, if the conversation topic hadn’t been so serious. 

While they both performed their positions as head of their respective organizations diligently- and extremely well- it was no secret that they were each getting higher up in their years. They thought it best to discuss who would potentially be taking over once they were retired together, as it would help maintain their mutual agreement between said organizations. 

“Your best candidate is Doppo Kunikida, is it not? I was fairly certain it was him who was acting in your stead whenever you could not.”

You and Chuuya stood directly behind Mori, with a small handful of your subordinates a couple of feet away; similarly, Fukuzawa had Kunikida and Dazai behind him, with the rest of the agency’s core members on standby. The two heads didn’t really need them here, as they could very well handle themselves against one another, however by this point, it was more or less a tradition. 

“That is correct. What about you? Surely you’re going to pick from your pool of executives, aren’t you?” 

There it was. That nauseous dread pooling in the pit of your stomach. It sunk into your bones, forcing a cold sweat to the surface of your skin as, instinctively, your flight or fight response tried to take over. 

“Actually, that’s what I wanted to talk to you about.”

The sounds around you grow muffled so suddenly it makes your head spin and the scenery melts down into a memory of the executive meeting held a week ago.

“Do not mistake my words. I will continue as the Port Mafia’s head until it is apparent I am no longer able to fulfill my role; even then, my presence will not just disappear. This is my home and the organization I’ve dedicated my life to. I’m simply implying that we will need a suitable replacement when that time comes.” 

Rae glanced at Chuuya, finding him to be exactly who Mori was looking for. There was no one else in the room, or even the entire Port Mafia for that matter, who would be better suited to take over the position as boss. 

“And Dazai Osamu shall be just the person to do so.” 

No matter how sickening the feeling of fear and dread can be, anger will always be the secondary emotion. Even if that anger doesn’t last, it festers somewhere deep inside someone and builds until it’s crawling throughout their whole body— and suddenly it’s controlling them. It’s what takes over their mind like a parasite until it’s moving their legs, their fingers, their hands; until it acts on all those…scenarios in a person’s mind that were never meant to be born- that were only supposed to stay as impulsive thoughts. It’s then that the entire world a person experiences can be flipped upside down and drowned in the raging tides their anger brought. 

It was that anger that had your body moving on autopilot while you just…watched. Like you were a prisoner in your own mind, watching something on the tv screen. 

Your feet took a few steps forward before your hand was reaching for Mori’s teacup and slamming it on the edge of the table, shattering the glass. It left one big shard in your grasp. Your free hand had come up to the back of his head, fingers tangling in the long strands of black hair before yanking, forcing him to look at you with an exposed neck. 

When his red-purple hues met yours, your movements became your own. A gasp tore from your throat as you took in the sight in front of you, ragged breathing making you tremble. It was now that you were able to consciously think about your actions. 

And you thought about Osamu. 

You thought about everything he had to go through— everything Mori forced him to go through. 

You thought about that shine he had in his eyes that dulled over the years, only returning when he’d escaped Mori and the Port Mafia. You thought about the night he left, the way he cried over Odasaku and the way he cried about not wanting to leave you; you’d never seen him cry before. You thought about the hope in his eyes as you helped him leave and the genuine smile he’d given you two years later when you saw him again in the Agency. 

You thought about Mori’s sick, twisted version of affection— or ‘love’ as he called it sometimes. About the way he treated the two of you. The way he talked, manipulated, used, touched the two of you. 

As you gazed into the eyes of your tormentor- the man who was planning to drag your brother back to the darkness that had already consumed you- all that was swimming in those devil eyes was some warped version of pride; of satisfaction. 

His voice echoed in your mind, words he didn’t even need to voice aloud because he’d engrained them into you, seeping disgustingly- permanently- into your core. 

‘If I cannot have Osamu, I will gladly have you instead, my precious Y/n.’ 

With steady hands, though a trembling heart, you forced the broken piece of china into the flesh of Mori’s neck. And with a chilling cry, you dragged it across the entire expanse of his throat; his blood was now coating your face. 

It would’ve been a rather amusing sight- the horror plastered across everyone’s faces…if the situation hadn’t been so serious. 

“He…he was going to ask Osamu to be the next boss…and I couldn’t— I wouldn’t let him. Not you, Osamu.” Your voice cracked as you looked over at your brother, heart clenching when he looked at you with such…mortification. “Anyone but you.” 

And Osamu thought back to you. 

He thought back to all those times your eyes darkened in rage whenever Mori did something to him. He thought back to how you’d always yell at Mori for hurting him, whether physically or mentally. He thought back to the nights you promised him you’d help him shove down that darkness Mori festered in him. He thought about the promise you made him when he left the mafia: the promise that you’d be the one to kill Mori for what he’d done to the two of you. 

As he gazed into the eyes of his twin sibling- standing with blood on their face after just repeating the cycle, all for him- he could see the fear of what you’d just done. The determination to be better than Mori...and the love. Love for him. 

He should’ve known, his heart screams. He should’ve known this would happen, that you’d snap. He should’ve stopped you, he should’ve talked to you, he should’ve been there for you, because now—

. . .

After a haunting moment of ringing silence, the only person who dares to move is Chuuya Nakahara; the redhead kneels, sliding his hat off as he bows his head, “All hail the new Port Mafia boss, Dazai Y/n.”