#the brain works in mysterious ways

[kebriones]

it's so funny how sometimes you're at the edge of a breakdown and it just needs one stupid random little thing to push you over that edge. Like wow I'm freaking out about this small thing right now but in reality it's a million things behind it that I'm actually freaking out about.

Like it's actually silly sometimes because I will knock my foot against some furniture and it doesn't even hurt that much but it was the final straw and I'll sit there crying about it for twenty minutes and be fully aware I'm not crying about my foot at all. It's interesting to be a human and be aware of all those things happening inside your skull.

[kathegoose]

been studying my "downfall" this morning

AKA when i got the mimic hyperfixation 💞💞💞💥!!!! yapping below

so the very first non-lost-media mimic artwork i've made (that was very reek) was already foreshadowing what was going to happen. i don't think it is nnoooormal that some of the earliest artwork i've made was on an aggie.io/magma with the fellas... that do tend to get freaky. those were presumably drawn 5th august '23 or earlier. I do remember making older doodles on ruin release week, but they were on paper.

4th of august '23 I made a mimic with a rose between its teeth SFM animation, which is very alarming so early on....

then i drew very interesting drawings again along with making adoring comments about the rusty old bot that looks like a sickly stray cat, all throughout august '23..... and continuing....

i was still pretty much insistent that springtrap was my fav back then, but mimic came and absolutely demolished him when i got back to tumblr with mimic art (aug. 15)! the last springtrap post before a few months of no spingtap at all was posted on october 12, then I churned 3 or so springdoodles on january, and didn't draw him again in a while.

aaaand probably the first instance of mimic-induced masochism, which i think is enough for now:

so yeah..... I think I was losing my marbles about mimic much earlier than I thought it would be. Interesting.

[copia]

(hopefully) broadening your horizons with The Noble Art Of Self Destruction by Holding Absence <3

hello mate i have no idea how you haven't blocked me but have instead agreed to do casey summer together after i've abandoned this ask for a million years 😔😔 crooked melody has been a go-to for ages and i've listened to the whole album multiple times so the horizons were definitely broadened <333 i just forgot to tell u (i'm so sorry ily)

[tempesttz]

every time an anti endo says "demo systems dni," talks about demo systems like they are some overblown endogenic conspiracy of "trying out headmates" that's going on everywhere, or generally spreads misinformation about the widespread existence of demo systems, another rock gets flung into a river its me. im flinging the rocks. holy shit are anti endos allergic to a basic google search. i know you guys know how to use pluralpedia, you use it to mock us decently often from what i can tell. utilize that skill. come on now theyre not a thing. someone mispelled "endo" on tiktok and it autocorrected to "demo." here's where it got looked into and broken down, so you can't tell me i didn't show proof. man i wish i lacked critical thinking skills like sysmeds do. must be nice

[existential-dread-in-the-am]

People keep complimenting my clothes ???? Confused. It's a plain dark green cardigan. Why.

[chill-vibes-but-rainbow-panic]

You guys know the moment, when you can just feel the character obsession coming up? And you're just here like... why this one?

[mechanical-moron]

If you ever feel bad about how short your attention span is, don't. I started a diary entry a week ago and just remembered that I only got two sentences in before losing focus. Now I have no idea where my diary is. Pray for me :')

[megaawkwardhuman]

The way I experience hyperfixations seems unique to me? I'm sure it's not just me but I rarely hear it.

When I get a new special interest in something the one before that loses it's grip on me completely. It shocks me every time.

It's like I used to feel intensely invested in the characters of WWDITS along with the drama, the relationships, the headcannons. I would think about it 24/7, literally.

Then I got invested in South Park in February and now I feel "normal" about WWDITS. It's bizzare. I used to get annoyed at Nandermo for being overreated and popular when I just wanted to fixate on my rare pairs. But now that I DON'T fixate on them anymore. I actually like Nandermo and Nandermo fan creations in a casual way. Its so weird to be obsessed about something and then months go by and your brain decides its transition time against your will.

And I cannot re-awaken old fixations. It just never happens. I can enjoy it but I'll never feel that intense love for that thing the way I used to.

kinda same?

I get overarching hyperfixations with small fixations and the occasional thing I feel normal about

the thing is I don't know when the next overarching fixation will happen

and when I lose an overarching fixation it's hard for me to be feel the same way about it

for example a past overarching hyperfixation of mine is invader zim

I fucking LOVED invader zim and I'd lurk on the dib tag on tumblr

I watched the show, the movie, and read a bunch of the comics

buuuuuut now I haven't even rewatched an episode in a fucking while now and it just doesn't give me the joy it did back then

but if I lose a minor fixation I can gain it again

[arsenickittycat]

books, am i right fellas?

[ihopeicanchangethislater05]

oh my god

they probably celebrated his freedom from the ankle monitor by having sex

[doriana-gray-games]

can we get a snippet of Dr Watson taking care of Sherlock? :>

“You were foolish—“

“Calculating—“

“Foolish!”

“I miscalculated,” you correct. “Or missed some variable. Being wrong, in some small way, is not the same as foolish. Truly Watson, to think you so against learning, improving oneself by accepting failures—“

“YOU BROKE YOUR TOES!”

“Just the one toe…”

“The important one.”

“I don’t discriminate on such things.”

Watson pushes you down to remain on the bed. “I need to bind it. How’s your pain?”

“Tolerable. Unless…”

“No—“

“Then do not ask.”

Your good doctor had kept you in bed, elevated foot and everything for far too long now. It had been nearly an hour.

There’s tea on your cupboard. Extra sugars. And the very best biscuits, the one Watson hoards for the longest of days.

“Watson?”

They hum a soft sound, an acknowledgment, as they bind your broken appendage with steady and careful hands.

“If I am forced to endure monotony, I shall demand you do it with me.”

Watson looks at you, over those steady shoulders. A small smile across their lips. “I shall remain by your side. For as long as… as you need me, Sherlock. I can promise you that.”

[incognitofox]

[ohno-the-sun]

Sol

[yesloulou]

brazil '22 ☁️ -> australia '24 ☀️

[namelessherefor-evermore]

*Throws this on the ground and runs away*

[ithacantrickster]

me when I don't understand something