#the best family on tumblr sry

[endfght]

anxiety threatens to overwhelm her, with hands shaking uncontrollably to breath coming in and out in sporadic, high-pitched bursts. everything that had happened did so so quickly that nicole couldn't be positively sure what exactly occurred. they'd been hole up in an abandoned park ranger's shack, connor gone with his father and shane to check the traps that they'd set early in the morning, and to scavenge what they could in preparation for the last leg of their journey. she and cait had been attending to a stew brewing in the fireplace when footsteps sounded on the porch, not a second thought given to who they'd belonged to ⸺ until they got heavier, hesitated, and then splintered the door off of it's hinges. they were lucky in the grand scheme of things: the lone man that came through the door was not much bigger than either of them, but the look in his eyes was enough to frighten nicole to her core. there was the briefest of seconds where they were all just staring at one another, and then he lunged; and when nicole opened her eyes, he was dead on the ground and caitlin had a blossom of blood forming in a circle on her pant leg around the blade that had previously been in the dead man's hand.

no— don’t take the fucking knife out.

hands freeze immediately, wide eyes shifting from @innocentsbled's face to the handle sticking out of her thigh. instinct had been to remove the cause of cait's sudden pain ― but sister's ever-rational mind stilled her hand before she could act. ❝ i⸻ what- ❞ jaw hung, voice cuts itself off, words caught in her throat with a lump the size of a fist. she takes a deep breath in attempts to calm herself down, sweaty palms wiped down the sides of her legs, eyes blinking rapidly to keep the tears she hadn't realized were falling at bay. ❝ what do i do ? tell me what i'm supposed to do ⸺ please, cait⸻ ❞

[purble-sarah]

a stephanie brown sketch for the soul

[charliemwrites]

heeey, idk if you got my last ask, or if tumblr ate it...tbh i can't remember if i actually sent it lol...but if i did sry for sending it again🫣

anyways, it was basically: imagine putting the 1fur1 in those holiday dog outfits/matching pjs and trying to wrangle them together in front of the camera to take the ole classic ✨holiday family photos✨

ghost is like the moody teenager who refuses to dress up and take pictures (cuz he thinks it's stupid and will most certainly not be humiliated like that how dare you)

price being the star pupil, sitting nicely and looking v handsome in one of those plaid bow tie collars

i bet gaz would also pose nicely, being the best boy and also v handsome in his get up (he’d be eatin’ that shit up💅🏽)

könig would tolerate being dressed up, but he's like those dogs who forget how to function and become super awkward when they're put in clothes

and you'd have to bribe johnny with hella treats to get him to sit still and keep him from chewing off his outfit🤭🤭

I don’t think I got this actually?? Tumblr might have indeed eaten it.

But oh my god that is spot on.

I’m still not convinced we couldn’t get Simon in at least a Santa hat though…. 🤔

[lucianalight]

Hi! I'm back :) after another long hiatus😅 I have missed all of you❤️

First of all a huge thank you to everyone who were worried and asked about my health and how I was doing. I wasn't doing well tbh. I'm one of those people who had the misfortune of never quite recovering from covid. I already had one chronic illness that was messing up my life and health. Having another on top of that takes a lot of physical, emotional and mental toll and limits my energy greatly. So I needed time to get used to my new reality and condition and learn to how manage it and live with it. It's still a work in progress and doctor appointments are seeming endless but at least some meds are helping. So there's that.

You probably already know the second reason why I wasn't doing well. I've seen terrible things…And you need time to process them. To grieve, to deal with trauma and survivor's guilt, and nurture your anger and keep fighting, keep resisting…

And well, internet connection still sucks so using social media is kind of an ordeal :D

There were a lot of times that I wanted to come back on tumblr but every time some issue would come up and take my motivation and energy. Then two weeks ago, after I couldn't crush the little ray of hope that maybe this time I'm going to see sth I like, I started watching season 2 of Loki. I watched it while promising myself that I'm not going to care anymore if it's bad, reminding myself that I might see sth as bad as season 1. Still I was surprised that I didn't hate it. On the contrary there were moments that were entertaining and even enjoyable. And those moments were more than the ones I dislike. It was better than season 1 and admittedly that's a low bar since I consider S1 one of the worst tv shows I've ever seen, but there were noticeable changes in pace and tone of the narrative and characterization in S2. Some issues in S1 was addressed. Loki was actually the main character of his series and got to do badass magic stuff :D The characters were flesh out and three dimensional and likable(I love OB so much :D). There was no romance. The ending was great.

There were of course things I didn't like. Removing Loki's backstory and his issues with his family from the story is one of them. How some of his moments in past was addressed. The episodes at times got boring or very predictable. There were times that Loki was ooc or comedic moments that weren't delivered well.

It wasn't perfect but at least acceptable. And probably the best Loki content we got since TDW. And I liked the ending a lot. I found myself keep going back to rewatch some scenes. I found myself analyzing the content happily. I had things to say. So here I am :D basically I'm 100% back to my Loki bs and I'm making it everyone's problem :P

Whether you loved the series or hated it, you're welcome on my blog and you're welcome to send me your opinions and engage with me in discussions and metas. I will tag posts accordingly in case you want to avoid certain content(tbh I still don't know what the new tags will be because I haven't written anything yet but I will make a post when I do).

There will be posts of some new fandoms so block their tags if you don't want to see those posts. The new fandoms are Sandman tv show(I haven't finished the comics so plz don't spoil them for me), Wednesday, My Hero Academia, Shadow and Bone, and The Bifrost Incident.

As I mentioned above I'm dealing with multiple chronic illnesses and have a limited energy each day. I will try to answer your messages, comments and asks as soon as I can but it might take a long time. Sry about that.

And finally a warm welcome to all the new followers and thanks to everyone who are still following me❤️

[gubbles-owo]

i adore seeing brazillian miku make the rounds, and by extension all the other regional variants that proudly showcase all these rich cultures. it's super sweet (while also demonstrating just how malleable miku is as an icon!) but i suppose it's also brought a long-standing personal frustration to the forefront of my mind again, namely... i don't really have a heritage or culture that i can call my own. be warned, stupid american white girl rambling under the cut lmfa o

so yeah im like. "white", or whatever. it's critical to acknowledge that "whiteness" is ultimately a contrived social construct meant to elevate those to a certain class above others in order to oppress and silence those who did not fit this construct. it's fucked. the definition has changed and morphed over time, blurring those included into some homogeneous mass devoid of any real culture, but its purpose remains much the same. so in order to break down this shitty concept of "whiteness", i break down my roots into components, right? a more detailed, nuanced set of backgrounds and traditions that all define me as a unique being, yeah? it just kind of... doesn't work in my case. my own heritage is.... murky. my father's side of the family reportedly includes a mix of things— welsh, german, fuckin english— but all of those were rattled off once by my father in a tone bereft of confidence, pausing for long periods between each as he struggled to recollect any of the details. so very broadly some sort of "western europe" deal, but not much specific beyond that. i cannot recall any particular traditions or anything from his side of the family that were drawn from these various cultures. here's the real kicker: my mother? adopted. legally could not dig up who her biological parents were until legislation allowed it... after their passing. for the longest time we had zero fucking clue where she really came from, the circumstances of her birth and subsequent adoption, all of that. the non-biological maternal grandparents i grew up with at least had their own strong ties; my grandfather immigrated from france after WW2, and my grandmother and her family from poland around much the same time. they spoke their respective native languages alongside near-flawless english, and god, during large family gatherings around christmas and whatnot i ate the best goddamn perogies i probably will have ever had in my life. but see, that's the thing... that's the only time i ever really had those. or had all that much cultural interaction, really, were confined to those transient blips of holidays and events. it was all with extended family that i barely knew because i only ever got to see them once or twice a year. somehow they all knew my name, but i never knew theirs. it felt so... distant. like i was observing a warm and loving family behind a thick wall of glass. it's not like they ostracized me or anything, i just. felt so hopelessly out of the loop. my mother never learned of her true background until very recently. lithuanian, as it turns out. at least for her mother, no clue where her father was from. so in a way, lithuanian is the single one hereditary thing i can point to and say "yeah, i guess that is technically me," but it's not like i grew up around it. i never met my biological maternal grandparents, or Anyone biologically on that side. i know nothing about the culture or the language or their traditions. perhaps if i had grown up with some of that it would've felt more core to my being, but learning so late after the fact feels... almost pointless? like what am i supposed to draw from this?? -------- An idea introduced to me at one point was the idea of region as culture. but augh. oouuggghhh we are opening a nasty can of worms here. (thanks tumblr for nuking this next paragraph for no fucking reason, so u get a screenshot, sry):

algonquian. quinnipiac. pequot. mohegan. connecticut. those sure ain't names carried over from england unto unclaimed soil that's for fucking sure. thanks the horrific methods of colonialism, the place i grew up and hold dear to my heart is, ultimately, built on tainted soil. how closely can i really hold onto any of that when it is built up on the very names of those that were eradicated?? god it is all just so fucked. yeah, i know, fuckin, "privileged white girl whining" here. and you'd be correct. i'm not holding the short end of the stick here, and it's necessary to acknowledge that. sure, i can stake claim to "gay" and "transgender" and "chronically ill"— but my heritage, and the ground on which i've lived all my life, is absolutely not one of them. what our dumpsterfire of a country did to the indigenous people that once thrived here is just... absolutely fucking horrific. ------- to be clear, i don't think there's anything inherently wrong with mixing cultures. like i'm not really on about some """purity""" shit where i have to have One Single Background; i'd say it's probably good and healthy to have different things to draw from! but i dunno, there's a point for me at which it all feels so fractured that it's impossible to derive any sort of identity from it all. where do i come from? what am i?? and at the end of it all the only really thing i can say for myself is.... "white". and i fucking hate that. it feels as if trying to further adopt traditions of any of these aforementioned cultures feels like some sick and twisted form of cultural appropriation. it feels wrong. it's theft. to tie it back to where this post began, how would i design a fuckin miku to represent where i'm from? and i just... don't have an answer. i have nothing. i remember a poll going around here on tumblr that was like "which of these languages would you want to learn?" and while i considered picking smth and rbing it i just could not pick one that didn't somehow feel wrong. the closest from that list i could answer was like... danish. why? not because i have any ties to denmark. but because there is a single prog metal band from denmark that is incredibly important to me. but they don't even sing in danish!! all of their lyrics are in english!! i don't even know what the language sounds like!! in fact i keep mixing it up with dutch!! fucking hell my uncultured ass needs to learn a Lot of things. i just wish i had roots that i could be proud of, rather than confounded by and ashamed of.

[themosthatedbeingg]

Roleplayer name: Kas

Roleplayer pronouns: They/He

Muse name(s): Lucifer / Hazbin hotel ( Zephyr Hazbin oc )

Preferred communication: Tumblr DM’s Discord and tags in rp , I love to talk !

Experience: over 19+ years I’ve been rping since high school forums

Preferred roleplay type: Paragraph/ some icons ,/ no icons , dash comm, Just asks . I can do one liners but only for short crack things .

Pet peeves & dealbreakers: when you constantly OP or go to the extreme to much , a few times is ok but when it’s constant … ya ./ when you keep repeating the same angst over and over in a thread and not moving the story along or making your character a constant woe is me and not giving me anything to build off of story wise it’s annoying but my biggest peeve is when you assume my character as done something /did something with no evidence and don’t talk to me about it at all just throw it in the rp;

I can’t stand that I used to be lenient with that in the past but I’ve made some boundaries .

Also I can’t handle constant angst sry my life sucks as it is I like fluff and adventure and stuff . Or if you don’t read my rules or completely ignore my headcanons / can’t compromise at all. }

Best time to write: afternoon/ evening for me gives me time to think and hopefully I’m off work. But really anytime is nice.

Are you like your muse?: YES! I am hella short ~ a total King ;3 I have depression and ADD and autism, I come from a large family and I love snakes ;3

Tagged By: so many ppl lolol

Tagging: @voodoodaaddy @letsstaytuned @hells-musing-along { <3 my beloveds } , @hellsdisneyprincess @cast-you-dxwn @heiilari and anyone else only if you want to!

[i-still-mask-because]

hello! im trying to start masking again, but my family is anti-mask and anti-covid vaccine. theyre not hostile or forceful abt it and i love them regardless but i still get questioned whenever i try to wear one.

to make matters worse i have executive functioning issues that makes it hard to remember so uh. im following u so that i can be reminded to do so more frequently. i really wish i could convince my parents without getting into an argument though.

sry for dumping this on u you dont need to respond if u dont want to

Hey! Thank you for sharing 💛

I'm really sorry to hear you're lacking support from your family. I'm experiencing similar circumstances where my family may not overtly or forcefully try to keep me away from masking, but I can 100% tell they don't think it's reasonable & some may try to debate me about it or try to coerce me out of it. Familial support is so important, so I 100% understand how alienating and rough it can be to be the only one still committed to taking covid safety measures & precautions.

I recommend finding online spaces with other covid-cautious people you can connect with, get support from, and find access to tools & resources (be it through Facebook groups, Discord servers, IG communities, Tumblr communities, etc.). I suggest those especially because they've personally been tremendously helpful for me feeling a sense of community and connection. Bonus if the space is tailored to be a safe space for your specific demographic.

Also, there's this page called How To Talk To Your Loved Ones About Covid, and it's very insightful and thorough. I totally understand how stressful it can be to be put on the spot to as your loved ones' personal public health expert (especially if you can tell they may not be very receptive), so I hope this could give you some useful tips on what you can say when talking to your folks.

If anyone has any additional suggestions or supportive words, feel free to share!

Wishing the best for you anon 😷💛

[rambler-of-procrastination]

do all :) you obv can leave out any that you’re uncomfortable answering!

yo ty for ask :D

1: Full name rambler of procrastination

2: Age minor

3: 3 Fears people i care about leaving me, idk what else

4: 3 things I love friends, certain family members, the time of the day that nobody is awake and its calm

5: 4 turns on as i am a minor, no ty

6: 4 turns off as i am a minor, no ty

7: My best friend i uh. idk. i have friends but i dont want to say this person #1 yk

8: Sexual orientation queer, polyamorous, and aceflux

9: My best first date never been on a date

10: How tall am I 5'6 ish

11: What do I miss childhood

12: What time were I born idk

13: Favourite color grey

14: Do I have a crush many

15: Favourite quote idk

16: Favourite place uh idk

17: Favourite food im craving lemon cheesecake rn

18: Do I use sarcasm sometimes

19: What am I listening to right now my fan

20: First thing I notice in new person usually their height

21: Shoe size 8 us men

22: Eye color changes colour rn a green

23: Hair color idk how to describe

24: Favourite style of clothing comfortable

25: Ever done a prank call? yeah when i was younger

27: Meaning behind my URL i remember it but too tired to type it out rn sry

28: Favourite movie how am i blanking on this

29: Favourite song tbh i like a lot of songs so-

30: Favourite band ajr

31: How I feel right now tired of everything and upset and sad yeah

32: Someone I love a lot of mutuals

33: My current relationship status single

34: My relationship with my parents its a relationship alright

35: Favourite holiday easter cus i get to see my good family

36: Tattoos and piercing i have no tattoos and i just have my ears pierced rn

37: Tattoos and piercing i want so many

38: The reason I joined Tumblr this account is my 2nd so why not make another yk

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? uh yeah never had one

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? uh idk

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? no

42: When did I last hold hands? never

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? it takes me 10-20 minutes to actually get up but after that its like 5 minutes

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? i dont shave my legs so no

45: Where am I right now? bed

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? i have no clue

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? changes with each song

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? yes currently

49: Am I excited for anything? sleeping tonight

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? this is a weird question

51: How often do I wear a fake smile? every smile

52: When was the last time I hugged someone? i think a month or 3 ago

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? hes in a relationship so idc

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? UH YEAH -

55: What is something I disliked about today? so much man. so much

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? so many mutuals

57: What do I think about most? a lot of mutuals

58: What’s my strangest talent? i can balance coins straight up

59: Do I have any strange phobias? trypophobia

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? behind

61: What was the last lie I told? that im doing okay

62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? with friends video i hate phone calls

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? yea

64: Do I believe in magic? its all a trick to the eye

65: Do I believe in luck? sure

66: What’s the weather like right now? no clue its just hot out

67: What was the last book I’ve read? idk

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? yes

69: Do I have any nicknames? yeah

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? idk as i never go to the docs

71: Do I spend money or save it? both

72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge? nah

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? my blanket

74: Favourite animal? axolotl

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? i forget

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? my last name

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? idk

78: How can you win my heart? be a good person

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? idk

80: What is my favorite word? idk

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr not ranking

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? trans rights and (my name) is trans

83: Do I have any relatives in jail? how would i know

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? teleportation

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? a lot

86: What is my current desktop picture? art i made

87: Had sex? no

88: Bought condoms? no

89: Gotten pregnant? no

90: Failed a class? got a d+ in one

91: Kissed a boy? yes

92: Kissed a girl? no

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? nah

94: Had job? nah

95: Left the house without my wallet? yeah

96: Bullied someone on the internet? serious bullying? no

97: Had sex in public? nah

98: Played on a sports team? yeah

99: Smoked weed? nah

100: Did drugs? nope

101: Smoked cigarettes? no

102: Drank alcohol? ye

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? no

104: Been overweight? yes (right now)

105: Been underweight? yes

106: Been to a wedding? yeah

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? yes

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? np

109: Been outside my home country? ye

110: Gotten my heart broken? yea

111: Been to a professional sports game? yes

112: Broken a bone? yes

113: Cut myself? mhm

114: Been to prom? no

115: Been in airplane? yes

116: Fly by helicopter? no

117: What concerts have I been to? ajr

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? yes

119: Learned another language? some words

120: Wore make up? yes

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? na

122: Had oral sex? no

123: Dyed my hair? yes

124: Voted in a presidential election? no

125: Rode in an ambulance? nah

126: Had a surgery? idk if it counts as surgery i think no

127: Met someone famous? yes

128: Stalked someone on a social network? no

129: Peed outside? yes

130: Been fishing? yes

131: Helped with charity? yes

132: Been rejected by a crush? no

133: Broken a mirror? yes

134: What do I want for birthday? piercings

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? idk

136: Was I named after anyone? yes

137: Do I like my handwriting? sometimes

138: What was my favourite toy as a child? forget

139: Favourite Tv Show? atypical

140: Where do I want to live when older? idk with my future partners

141: Play any musical instrument? nah

142: One of my scars, how did I get it? rather not say

143: Favourite pizza toping? buffalo chicken

144: Am I afraid of the dark? nah

145: Am I afraid of heights? nah

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? nah

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? yeah-

148: What I’m really bad at math

149: What my greatest achievments are idk

150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me rather not say

151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery buy nfts /j uh donate a lot of it

152: What do I like about myself fluffy hair

153: My closest Tumblr friend a lot of my mutuals and i are close

154: Something I fantasise about future

155: Any question you’d like? na

[frabbitx]

I posted 412 times in 2021

40 posts created (10%)

372 posts reblogged (90%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 9.3 posts.

I added 272 tags in 2021

#fanart - 38 posts

#mcyt - 38 posts

#dream smp - 37 posts

#my art - 37 posts

#digital art - 34 posts

#mcyters - 33 posts

#tommyinnit - 30 posts

#ranboo - 9 posts

#wilbur soot - 8 posts

#dsmp - 8 posts

Longest Tag: 120 characters

#first stream i watched was the day befor the desicion was made were tommy and ghostbur made drugs for tubbo as a present

My Top Posts in 2021

#5

The traumatized children squad Tommy Innit, Tubbo Underscore and Ranboo MyBeloved

Just made a reference for them for fun. Tommy might change design wise bc idk if I wanna keep the racooninnit design. Also sry tumblr for posting it here late. I posted it on insta and then forgot about it xD

97 notes • Posted 2021-02-23 04:13:27 GMT

#4

"Am I the bad guy?"

See the full post

109 notes • Posted 2021-01-17 10:17:57 GMT

#3

"This is the beginning of sometging great."

friendship ended with dream smp. now origin smp is my new best friend.

146 notes • Posted 2021-04-18 15:57:35 GMT

#2

"You suit looks terrible, dude."

See the full post

146 notes • Posted 2021-03-21 12:24:47 GMT

#1

Sometimes a family is a 6'6 ft tall half enderman boy, his platonic husband who has nukes, their adoptive son who is a zombie pigman, his platonic husbands mom????, his platonic husbands best friend who came back from the dead and the best friends adoptive dad who is the warden of the prison and also has an animal crossing persona.

218 notes • Posted 2021-03-06 14:47:49 GMT

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[i8jisoo]

𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘 𝐊𝐈𝐃𝐒 ⇉ walking buddy

yang jeongin x reader | imagine

↬ summary; yang jeongin is not your walking buddy anymore, you could find the way on your own — he realizes that when he comes back.

↬ warnings; cursing, angst, & brief talk of bullying

↬ notes; sry i’m missing not posting about skz lololol i thought of this rly quickly so i did it :(( idek where i thought of angst out of no where but i did it!! super short but.. oh well

jeongin left to pursue his career at a fairly young age, he left his friends and family to achieve his dreams. if only he knew his dream was right where he started, you. you were his dream, you were everything he ever wanted.

he found himself back to the housing, the familiar neighborhood and the same concrete path that would trail all the way up to your high school that was near the college you two were supposed to attend together. the air was crisp and cold, his body bundled in a puffy jacket and a scarf wrapped around his neck and his frost-bitten hands tucked into his pockets. leaves crunched behind him, his body turning. 

there you were, books in hand and your backpack on your back. he sighed in relief, “there you are!” he smiled, walking towards you while you took a few steps back.

“what are you doing here?” you spat, your hand tugging on the lock to the white picket gate. 

the swings weren’t there anymore, the ones he used to let you push him on.

“i wanted to see you.” he murmured, easily opening the gate for you like how he used to when you both snuck out of the house. “well, you haven’t wanted to for the past two years. so, you can go back to what you were doing.” 

you were always difficult, stubborn as a horse and sharp tongued. you had grown up, growing into your school uniform that fit you properly and your hair fixed up and your face maturing to fit your age. 

you weren’t baby faced anymore, you didn’t seem as childish and you didn’t seem to be the same person that would help him out. 

you were the one who held is hand, the same person who helped him out when he was bullied. you were there to wipe his face off, you yelled at him to stop crying, going back the next day to school to confront them. you got suspended that week. 

you were the same person who took him to the school’s winter dance, only to sit at a table in the corner and eat snacks and sip on spiked fruit punch. he liked that day, he liked to sit and talk. 

he left for auditions, not returning back and leaving you to wonder when he’d return. his parents ate dinner with you, they still hosted sleep-overs with you and your family to reminisce on times when their son wasn’t there. his brothers were great friends, of course when they weren’t at school and busy with their own lives. 

his hands pull out a wallet, made of duct-tape and holding very few things in the wallet. there’s a crumpled slip of paper, you looked at the paper which was from only four years ago. he had a bright smile, arm enveloped around you and his hair was messy. there you two were, hanging around in his bedroom with a bowl of popcorn and pajamas on.

“why — why are you showing me this?” you ask, jeongin just shaking his head and sighing. “you — that’s what i miss. they — my best friend. they are what i’m showing you.” he explained, stumbling over his words with the sentence caught in his throat. your hand tugged on the photo, he let it slip into your grip, the photo dropping and landing on the concrete in front of his feet. 

“you should go back to your sparkly outfits, i have homework.” you mumbled, holding up your book and letting the gate open and close behind you.

“yeah, you should — do your homework. i’ll be home.” he spoke softly, the words falling on deaf ears and the sounds of rustling leaves and the gusts of wind. 

he picks up the picture, smiling at it and slipping it back into his tacky little duct-tape wallet. 

his eyes stung with tears, his throat tightening as he watched you walk up the steps to your house and close the door, leaving him out in the cold.

you knew the way to your house, you knew these paths back and forth. you most certainly didn’t need him to walk with you from and back anymore, yang jeongin did not need to hold your hand or an umbrella for you anymore. 

he didn’t need to bring a spare coat or pack you an extra toothbrush because you would forget things like that. he didn’t need to even bring lunch for you, he always packed you just a peanut butter and jelly and a yogurt drink. he didn’t know how to cook. 

he didn’t get to do any of these things anymore and that was his fault, maybe if he had wrote a final note, maybe he could’ve just walked on the same path — instead he was walking the other direction.

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[wasterella]

oh my god an amputation trigger? whatever caused it must've been awful im so sorry :(

The plot's taken a HUGE twist and it's divvied the fandom honestly based on opinions lol some people even dropped the show? but I personally love the direction the story's taken. But yeah every Sunday is a world of pain, there's been a lot of glowups (Armin is my personal favourite dAMN and there's chad Eren and Levi looks amazing in the new style and REINER WOOF sry and PONYTAIL MIKASA oK im rambling sry), a death from the 104th squad (😭) there's still a lot of violence but a lot less chomping (it's still there though, I vividly remember a gory scene from ep 3? I think? so I still wouldn't advice watching it) Season 3 was also great, S3 pt2 might be my favourite arc in the series (and we got lots of Levi moments 🤤 in pt1)

I don't wanna be a bother so you don't have to answer this or anything but if you do (and if this isn't an annoyance 🥺) how are you? How's the pandemic and general shittery in the world treating you? I hope you're safe and happy and have a great day! ❤️

It’s all good, but thank you, I appreciate it :) 

NOW I WANNA KNOW THE HUGE TWIST! I kiiiind of know certain things, like I know who died in the 104th because I remember that being huge when it happened and it was all over Tumblr haha XD Are Jean and Eren even on the same side anymore? >.> And Levi? Because I see things sometimes and I’m like -squints- lol I should probably like, read a synopsis or something just so I can get the story without the other stuff haha XD 

Thank you for giving me some deets XD And for warning me away because of the chomping, I really appreciate it, and I’m super glad you’re still enjoying it so much!! That’s really great! 

Definitely not an annoyance, you’re very sweet for asking! I am doing okay, thank you :) It’s definitely been a rough year with the pandemic, but no different for me than everyone else. We’re all going through the same thing, we’re all trying to manage. I know a lot of people have been worse off, so I really can’t complain. I would say the only one I do complain about occasionally is it can get kind of lonely sometimes because I live alone |D But I chat with people and I’m trying to stay positive and hope for the best overall :) 

I hope you are also doing well Anon! And that everything is starting to improve wherever you are, and that you’ve been safe and healthy this whole time! I hope you and your family are okay and let’s all hope the rest of 2021 is nicer to us <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

[sir-beingmyself]

Big risk here oops

Ok so hi, i feel obligated to give some sort of introduction just cause of my own worries n I’m sry if you just dc xd

You might’ve seen my art around, I feel like I have a pretty recognizable art style (even tho like only 1k ppl have even seen a single pic I've drawn xc) and if you are one of those, I beg of you don’t share to those accs, most of the info that I’ll spread freely here I don’t want my family to know, and they have quite a thorough look through my other accs, some of them havin my accs open 24/7 in case some changes happen, so just for my own safety I ask of you to please not share this around to the audience who knows my other content.

Now w that out of the way, heyo, I’m Elzyv, most call me El for short, I’m demisexual and girlflux (idk my orientation yet), I’m 18 (though the body is not) [outdated info, host has no identity currently], I’m currently the host of my newly discovered system which I still find baffling due to my almost crippling capabilities, mostly due to paranoia. I’m currently not working or doing school due to the unbearable amount of stress it puts me under and currently my only attempts at occupation is art and Twitch (Swiiivet if you’re curious).

For most of my life I’ve lived socially isolated (In case you’re unaware SIR in this context stands for Social Isolation Recovery) and as borderline definite consequence of it I have most of my mental problems, so I’ve started this tumblr to hopefully gain some friends, or at the very least ppl I can connect to and maybe if there’s more ppl who have grown up isolated we can all start a lil group together? idk prob hopin for too much xdd My response to social isolation was to completely mentally and emotionally shut down (I call it bein gray) and only recently have I actually tried to undo it, mostly w the help of my bf, so if I’m emotionally weird or completely detached to the situation or whatever else could’ve been as a side effect, know that there’s that (also I have prob short term memory due to it yay)

So ye I just plan on hangin out for the most part, prob actually reblog stuff just cause for the longest time I’ve been terrified to for some sorta potential accusation of stealing xc Post art whenever I can think of it, n if anyone asks me anythin I’ll try my best to have art accompanying it

[k-u-z-u]

Can you do them all for us. I know it's a lot to ask but it's just easier like this. Thank you

Ah shit, here we go again. To who though? This is the 2nd time I do this, so you could at least send me a message you know. At least I would know who wants to know 200 informations of me :’D

200: My crush’s name is: @xedalist199: I was born in: 2000198: I am really: in love197: My cellphone company is: Huawei196: My eye color is: green195: My shoe size is: EU 39194: My ring size is: I don’t know tbh, I never wear ring.193: My height is: 171 cm192: I am allergic to: I don’t have any allergies.191: My 1st car was: I can’t even drive. :’D190: My 1st job was: waitress189: Last book you read: Eastern by Martin Kay188: My bed is: Not so comfy.187: My pet: fish186: My best friend: @sangeki-x185: My favorite shampoo is: Syoss pure184: Xbox or ps3: pc183: Piggy banks are: useless182: In my pockets: I don’t have pockets right now. If i have, usually nothing.181: On my calendar: Nothing because my life is boring.180: Marriage is: not meant to make you happy179: Spongebob can: make Krabby Patty178: My mom: too loud177: The last three songs I bought were? I’ve never spent money on songs before.176: Last YouTube video watched: A hungarian streamer’s highlights video.175: How many cousins do you have? 3174: Do you have any siblings? Yes, a brother.173: Are your parents divorced? no172: Are you taller than your mom? yes171: Do you play an instrument? No but I would love to.170: What did you do yesterday? worked, played[ I Believe In ] 169: Love at first sight: yes168: Luck: yes167: Fate: yes166: Yourself: no165: Aliens: no164: Heaven: no163: Hell: no162: God: I just don’t care.161: Horoscopes: kinda160: Soul mates: yes159: Ghosts: yes158: Gay Marriage: yes157: War: no156: Orbs: yes155: Magic: no[ This or That ] 154: Hugs or Kisses: meh both >153: Drunk or High: drunk152: Phone or Online: both151: Red heads or Black haired: ahh booooth150: Blondes or Brunettes: both :’D149: Hot or cold: cold148: Summer or winter: winter147: Autumn or Spring: autumn146: Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate145: Night or Day: night144: Oranges or Apples: oranges143: Curly or Straight hair: on me, straight but both ftw142: McDonalds or Burger King: McDonalds141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: milk chocolate140: Mac or PC: pc139: Flip flops or high heals: flip flops138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: sweet and poor137: Coke or Pepsi: neither of them136: Hillary or Obama: Obama? :’D I’m not from the USA135: Burried or cremated: burried134: Singing or Dancing: singing133: Coach or Chanel: ugh never heard of Coach before :’D132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: I don’t even know them :’D131: Small town or Big city: small town130: Wal-Mart or Target: -129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: -128: Manicure or Pedicure: manicure127: East Coast or West Coast: East126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Christmas125: Chocolate or Flowers: chocolate124: Disney or Six Flags: Disney123: Yankees or Red Sox: -[ Here’s What I Think About ] 122: War: It’s pointless.121: George Bush: -120: Gay Marriage: Two people who love eachother decide to spend the rest of their lives together. It’s just normal marriage.119: The presidential election: -118: Abortion: -117: MySpace: -116: Reality TV: It can be funny af.115: Parents: My parents? You don’t want to know what i think about them.114: Back stabbers: They are disgusting.113: Ebay: Usually trash.112: Facebook: It’s okay.111: Work: It’s good, if you are working you can buy stuff you want.110: My Neighbors: I never see them so they are ok. :’D109: Gas Prices: TOO HIGH108: Designer Clothes: Having them is just showing off.107: College: It’s aight.106: Sports: I’m not interested in it.105: My family: lmao104: The future: If it’s with my bf, it’s perfect.[ Last time I ] 103: Hugged someone: I don’t even remember.102: Last time you ate: an hour ago101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: on monday100: Cried in front of someone: last week99: Went to a movie theater: months ago98: Took a vacation: 2 weeks ago97: Swam in a pool: years ago?96: Changed a diaper: in august ugh95: Got my nails done: a year ago maybe, I usually do it for myself94: Went to a wedding: few years ago93: Broke a bone: never92: Got a peircing: never91: Broke the law: years ago maybe90: Texted: 2 minutes ago[ MISC ] 89: Who makes you laugh the most: Me. I’m funny af.88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: nothing87: The last movie I saw: Gone Girl86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: Living with @xedalist85: The thing im not looking forward to: my exams lol84: People call me: Dorina83: The most difficult thing to do is: Living without @xedalist82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: nope81: My zodiac sign is: Aquarius80: The first person i talked to today was: mom79: First time you had a crush: When I was 10yo.78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: @xedalist77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: yesterday76: Right now I am talking to: @xedalist75: What are you going to do when you grow up: I will never grow up sry.74: I have/will get a job: I kinda already have.73: Tomorrow: I’ll play league and rest FINALLY.72: Today: I worked.71: Next Summer: Hopefully will live with @xedalist70: Next Weekend: I’ll do nothing as well yaaay.69: I have these pets: fishes68: The worst sound in the world: Cardi-B’s voice67: The person that makes me cry the most is: -66: People that make you happy: @xedalist , @sangeki-x , @dark-blind-love65: Last time I cried: yesterday64: My friends are: the best63: My computer is: fast af yay62: My School: ugh61: My Car: I don’t have car.60: I lose all respect for people who: are violent.59: The movie I cried at was: Kimi no na wa58: Your hair color is: light brown57: TV shows you watch: Dance moms lmao56: Favorite web site: :) Tumblr :)))55: Your dream vacation: As long as I’m with @xedalist, everything is like a dream.54: The worst pain I was ever in was: -53: How do you like your steak cooked: I don’t like steak.52: My room is: aight51: My favorite celebrity is: Melanie Martinez50: Where would you like to be: with @xedalist49: Do you want children: yes ♥ @xedalist48: Ever been in love: so in love rn47: Who’s your best friend: question 186 pls46: More guy friends or girl friends: I’m okay with both.45: One thing that makes you feel great is: music44: One person that you wish you could see right now: @xedalist43: Do you have a 5 year plan: kinda yes42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: no41: Have you pre-named your children: yeeees40: Last person I got mad at: mom39: I would like to move to: Canada38: I wish I was a professional: nail artist, yep[ My Favorites ] 37: Candy: I hate candy.36: Vehicle: car35: President: -34: State visited: -33: Cellphone provider: -32: Athlete: -31: Actor: -30: Actress: -29: Singer: Melanie Martinez28: Band: Mamamoo27: Clothing store: I don’t have a favorite.26: Grocery store: They are all kinda the same :’D25: TV show: Dance moooms24: Movie: K-1223: Website: still Tumblr:)22: Animal: cat21: Theme park: -20: Holiday: Christmas19: Sport to watch: -18: Sport to play: esport ftw17: Magazine: -16: Book: -15: Day of the week: Friday14: Beach: -13: Concert attended: -12: Thing to cook: cakes11: Food: everything hehe10: Restaurant: a hungarian one9: Radio station: I don’t listen to radio.8: Yankee candle scent: Never owned a Yankee candle before. Too expensive :’D7: Perfume: Avon Attraction6: Flower: hydrangea5: Color: blue, black4: Talk show host: -3: Comedian: -2: Dog breed: not a fan of dogs1: Did you answer all these truthfully ? yes

[wholegrainhockey]

my first impressions of the top 10 nhl draft picks 2018

#1: Rasmus Dahlin

- a baby

- will either save buffalo or be crushed by it

- a god? in the eyes of everyone with Experience and Knowledge?

- has beautiful hair

- shy????????

- i want The Best for him

#2: Andrei Svechnikov

- looks like a hot altar boy

- 10/10 would date

- already has tumblr stans (i’ve seen those gifs of him drinking water at the combine don’t even play)

- dimples? !

- looks way hotter in other pictures but i'm trying to keep with the theme here

#3: Jesperi Kotkaniemi

- adOrabLe

- a NAME

- so young???

- can i pinch his cheeks

- wait does he look like nico hischier’s younger brother to anyone else

- a new fave

#4: Brady Tkachuk

- family dynasty

- looks like he’s gone camping multiple times in his life (a boy scout?)

- i appreciate his bromance with hughes

- i will never spell his last name right on the first try literally called him ketchup by accident, hope it catches on

- i feel like he was annoying in middle school

#5: Barrett Hayton

- also looks young

- looks low-key fratty

- i know nothing about this boi

- good luck with the ‘yotes say hi to dylan for me

- probably liked bugs as a kid

#6: Filip Zadina

- seems cocky

- idk i don't vibe with him sry

- not ugly tho

#7: Quinn Hughes

- small, but is he smol?

- looks kinda dead?

- tkachuk bromance

- everyone in his family is of superior hockey stock???

- could be 13

#8: Adam Boqvist

- hot(ter on tv than in pictures)

- too bad he’s going to Chicago i can't like him :/

- it’s not you it’s me bud

#9: Vitali Kravtsov

- cutie

- probably won’t be playing anytime soon bc of his contract but it was nice meeting him

- hair looks floppy 10/10

#10: Evan Bouchard

- is this man 35?

- can win in a fight

- reminds me of a moose in the most gentle way possible

[team-free-squiggle]

One word prompt: Love

Ask 2: Also m sry to add to this but the prompt can be anything but analogical or royality

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Hey, that’s cool, whatever floats your boat! I know I just did a couple analogical ones, so I can understand if you want to read something else!

And I think I’ve only written moxiety like twice so I hope that’s okay? It’s not analogical or royality xD but in all seriousness, thank you for the prompt!

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verse: canon

Prompt: above

Characters: Virgil Sanders, Patton Sanders

Pairings: moxiety

Warnings: none

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Anxiety didn’t know what Love was.

He grew up in the subconscious, having to fend for himself. He never had a corporeal form, never knew anyone else. He knew there were others - he could see the famed Morality, Logic, and Creativity. He heard the whispers of the other traits like himself, though none of them had a form like those three. They were the light Sides. They were real, or as real as a trait could get. 

Anxiety wasn’t like them. Until he was. He became real when Thomas acknowledged him. He left the subconscious, got his own room. Eventually, he even became Virgil.

But while he knew Anxiety quite well, he had no experience with any other emotions. Remember, he had known absolutely no one. 

And all of a sudden he was learning. He knew the names, what they were supposed to be, of course - Thomas knew it, so he did too - so he was able to pretend that he knew, that he felt.

But he didn’t. And one day, Patton - his dear, sweet Patton - found out.

Virgil felt everything so highly. Like, if he loved someone, he loved them aggressively and in capslock. He LOVED them. But he, unsurprisingly, was anxious, because he had never cared about someone else so much before.

He had never had anyone to care about. 

Thoughts of things like this, and even more intense feelings from other emotions - especially sadness, which was not new to him (though he wasn’t used to it being at such a high level) - often made him crumble into a panic attack. Usually, he was in his room when this happened, but lately he had been spending more and more time away from there. With his FamILY.

This had several consequences. First, he got to see more of Patton. Which always made his heart do a good, flipy-flopy thing. 

Virgil did not like his heart doing the flipy-flopy thing. It felt weird.

Second, his panic attacks could now sneak up on him where the others could see him. Where Patton could see him. Virgil did not want that.

Sadly, as the saying goes, karma is a bitch. Virgil certainly thought so, when his panic attack started.

Virgil had been in his room, listening to Panic! at the Disco and scrolling through Tumblr, when there came a knock on the door. Virgil paused his music and turned off the phone, shouting “come in!” to whomever was at the door. It opened, and in walked Patton, with a tray of freshly baked cookies.

“Hey, Pat!” Virgil smiled, even as his heart did the good/bad flipy-flopy thing. He scooted back on his bed, so Patton had a place to sit and to set the plate down.

“Hey Virgil! Want some chocolate ship cookies?” Patton held one out to Virgil, sitting down. Virgil nodded eagerly and took one, smiling at how good it was. He gave Patton a thumbs up, who giggled as he reached for another before even finishing the first one.

After Virgil had finished the second cookie (he was feeling dangerous okay), he had to ask.

“Pat, how do you get these so good?” Virgil was curious. Patton giggled, smiling as he finished his own (second) cookie.

“I just bake them with a little bit of love!” Virgil looked at his friend… his best friend… quizically.

“What is love?” Virgil didn’t mean for it to slip out. He just didn’t think about what he was saying until he said it.

“Baby don’t hurt me no more.” Patton giggled, expecting Virgil to laugh. But the anxious side’s face stayed blank with confusion.

“Wait… Virgil… do you really not know?” Patton began to tear up as he asked, heartbroken at the thought that Virgil didn’t know what love was.

“I don’t know, Patton. I…” Virgil paused. “I have Thomas’ memories, obviously, so I know people love us - I know how it feels, I guess - but it feels almost secondary. Like, I did’t feel them. Which sorta makes sense, I guess.” Virgil laughed bitterly.

Patton looked at Virgil curiously. “How does that make sense? Like, you explained that well, but like… why do you think you feel this way?” Patton still had a tinge of sadness in his voice, which Virgil noticed. But now that he started explaining, he couldn’t stop.

“I grew up in the subconscious, remember?” Virgil looked over at Patton as he heard the moral side gasp.

“Wait, what? The… how?” Patton asked. Virgil looked surprised.

“You didn’t know?” Patton shook his head. Virgil sighed. “All of us that aren’t you were in the subconscious. By which I mean, all the Sides. We knew each other were there, though we never interacted. There was no point, as long as everyone did their job. So while you, Logan, and Roman were up here, the rest of us were still just floating in the subconscious. Which makes everything numb. So I didn’t feel anything, except when I saw you three, and wished I could have that. And of course, Anxiety I knew. But, love? Happiness? Those were and still are foreign to me.” Virgil noticed Patton was paying attention to him so hard there were tears threatening to fall.

“Virgil…” Patton whispered. “I… I don’t know how well this is gonna work, but… would you like it if I tried to teach you about the more positive emotions?” Virgil nodded. 

“Yeah, like happiness and love… I know anger and sadness and lonliness pretty well, I think.” Virgil joked.

“Well not anymore! You have me, now.” Patton smiled. Virgil giggled, nodding in agreement.

“So, happiness, is the one that makes you smile. It usually comes from doing something you love, something funny, or from spending time with people you care about that care about you!” Patton giggled, smiling. “So, like, for me, baking makes me happy. For you, I might guess music? Just because you’re always smiling through it and you hate when we interrupt you from it.” Patton looked over at Virgil curiously,

“Maybe it was like when you came in my room earlier? I smiled, cause of you, cause I know I like spending time with you.” Virgil said shyly, making Patton aww. 

“I like spending time with you too Virge! And yeah, that sounds like you being happy, I think.” Virgil felt more of his heart do the flipy-flopy thing when Patton looked at him, all smiling and cute and adorable and- wait what?

“So, for love…. Well, I guess you could saw we all love Thomas, ‘cause self-love.” Patton giggled. “But in all seriousness, love, it… well, if we’re gonna be stereotypical about it, then you might wanna think of Roman.”

Virgil looked at his head. “What about Princey?” Patton giggled at the nickname.

“His grand, romantic gestures, and all that… that’s his way of showing love. Each person shows love differently, and there are so many different types of love.” Patton tried to explain.

“Like, when I bring you all cookies… like, that’s me saying I love you all, in a friend way.” 

Disappointment flared in Virgil’s chest, though he didn’t know why. 

“What if your heart does a weird, sorta good but also scary flipy-flopy thing when you’re around a specific person?” Virgil asked. Patton smiled.

“That’s probably you liking someone, Virgil. Romantically.” Patton explained with a gentle smile.

“What if that person you apparently like… how do you tell them this? Without losing them? Losing them is the last thing you want.” Virgil tried to explain. He knew he loved the others, now… but Patton was still special. Patton was his best friend, and he did not want to lose his best friend.

“Just… tell them. If it’s Roman or Logan, they’ll understand the want to maintain the friendship if they don’t like you back.” Patton had a bit of an edge in  his voice.

“It’s not them.” Patton looked up in surprise at Virgil.

“Wait, then who are you talking about?” Patton looked genuinely confused. Virgil moved the cookies and scooted closer to Patton, gently. 

“I’m… Patton, I’m talking about you.” Virgil blushed, not knowing how Patton would take it.

Then he felt the pressure of Patton’s lips on his. Virgil smiled into the kiss, knowing for sure that he loved Patton and was happy with him. Virgil was also pretty sure that Patton felt the same way, judging by the fact that he initiated the kiss.

“So, um, obviously I like you back…” Patton blushed sheepishly after they broke the kiss. Virgil giggled happily, making a smile come to Patton’s face.

“I’m glad. Like I said, I couldn’t lose you.” Virgil offered a small smile, which Patton returned. “So, how do you feel about eating these cookies, putting on Parks & Rec, and cuddling the rest of the night?” Virgil offered.

Patton squealed, ran to his room, came back with a blanket, pillow, and teddy bear. And he was in his cat onesie. Virgil laughed happily, moving the cookies to make room for Patton on his bed.

“So Virgil?” Patton asked as they waited for Parks & Rec to load. Virgil looked over at Patton.

“Yeah?” He asked, setting down the cookie he had just grabbed.

“Are we boyfriends now?” Patton asked, seeming rather shy. Virgil kissed Patton, smiling.

“I’d like that, if you want to be.” Virgil smiled as Patton nodded, both of them cuddling into each other as Netflix finally loaded.

And if Logan and Roman found them cuddling and asleep at dinnertime, well, then they were gonna have to deal because Patton and Virgil are just way too cute together.

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Taglist below cut

(Sanders Sides)

@astraastro @madly-handsome @amber1594 @lie-lie-birdy @thebaagelboy@justanotherpurplebutterfly @ravenclawunicorn1 @ako1209 @princessbelix@water13girl @romanasanders @deathshadowrules @virgils-jacket@fandomsofrandom @cochroachkappa-blog @zoeyheys @chipminkle@6tick6tock6 @maizieandbirds @panic-at-theeverywhere @not-my-patton@cookieturtleart123 @confinesofpersonalknowledge@generalfandomfabulousness @thegirlofwolvesandfangs @toujours-fidele@light-it-on-fire @ghostmaster83 @bubblycricket 

(All)

@birdybabybird @awesomelissawho @funsizedgremlin @surviving-an-ocean-of-fandoms @teacupfulofstarshine @am-i-heaven-or-am-i-hell 

Also @randomslasher because it’s Moxiety and I asked if I could tag you in it so thank you for saying yes!

[melyaliz]

Birthday Secrets

@Starrwolves: OMG, I just found your Tumblr, & it gives me life! Seriously, it’s crazy good! Sry, I get really hyper sometimes, anywho I’ve been reading ships & fics, but I saw in one ship, I think it was nightrainn2’s, where you wrote they got in fights, but came up with a solution that made them stronger, could you write something about that pls with Damian & the reader. Something about that scene just makes me melt. So many of the past ships gave me ideas I know they weren’t for me ... part 1 of 2

so would it be alright if more gave me ideas that I could ask for little fics or scenarios, whatever you call it from you? Mega sry for this being such a long ask, but I had to get this all out, keep rocking it! 2 of 2

Fandom: DC / Batman

Summary: Dating a boy like Damian is a struggle. Especially when you keep secrets.  

Pairing: Damian x Reader  

Notes: So your blog was deactivated and I know I had nothing to do with that but I feel bad because I took so long to write this that you got were deactivated during that time! I’m so sorry! I hope you can somehow see this.

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Having a boyfriend who was a hero was hard. Especially when you didn’t know he was a hero.

It wasn’t like the beginnings of a relationship with Damian had been easy, to begin with. At first, you had been pretty sure he hadn’t even liked you as a person let alone have romantic feelings. Yet here you were, almost a year after prom. Going on dates and having out.

He had even kissed you a few times.

Even called you his girlfriend (that was a story for another day).

So here you were, coming up on your birthday. It was a big deal to you. Not really so much the birthday it’s self but the plan. While your parents had planned this much more “mature” idea of a birthday Damian had come up with the best idea for both of you.

First, you would start with a full breakfast in the Wayne’s private Jet while Alfred flew you guys to Disneyworld. There you guys would get as much goofy Disney shit as you could while getting line hoppers and even a backstage tour of Animal Kingdom.

You had both kept it a secret from your parents who thought you were still going to the family gathering they had planned. The whole idea had stemmed from you complaining that the LAST thing you wanted to do for your birthday was spent it with your extended family. But your parents had “guilted” you like they always did by saying that “family came first”

Damian had proclaimed that you were allowed to be selfish one day a year and demanded you to tell him what you had always wanted to do.

And that was how your plans had come about.

Really it was a joint effort stemming from the fact Damian had never known much about Disney before you. Something you had quickly cured. (His favorite princess was Jasmine).

Now Damian back to your problem. You had dealt with Damian’s disappearing before. Valentines Day, your 5th month anniversary, that time he said he was going to take you on a night time cruise across the Gotham Harbour.

He always came with flowers the next day mumbling something about family business. You always brushed it off. He came from a large well to do family, it was just part of you dating him.

But never in a million years did you think he would miss this day.

You had woken up bright and early before your parents waiting eagerly for him to come pick you up. Dressed up in your Disney gear full of butterflies of excitement.

Sitting on the couch you waited, and waited, and waited.

Until your father came down asking what on earth you were wearing and to go up and change.

You texted him.

You called him.

No response.

You couldn’t tell anyone what had happened and had to just go through the motions of your birthday with your family. Most of them ignoring you after giving you their hollow “Happy Birthday” a few nosey relatives asking about your mysterious Boyfriend. Many more interested in what college you wanted to go to.

You smiled and politely answered all the while wanting to cry.

What the hell happened.

After nothing, fulled with frustration you sent off one last text.

“I don’t know what’s going on but forget it. Don’t call and don’t bother coming back. Obviously, this relationship isn’t as serious as I thought it was.”

He knew, he knew how important this was to you. And he didn’t even bother to let you know he wasn’t coming? Forget it. Forget him.

Then turning off your phone you snuck off to be alone for a while. Hiding from all the passive aggressive comments and prying eyes. It wasn’t like anyone would really miss you anyway.

The party came and went. You watched as cars pulled away from your bedroom window. Watched the sunset, watched the moon rise. You just wanted to sleep it off but you couldn’t seem to get your body to relax. So you just laid there. Unsure what to do next.

It was well into the night, maybe even early morning when you heard your window open. Bolting up you reached for your lamp. Quickly you pulled it from the wall raising it over your head. If Gotham City had taught you anything it was smash and ask later.

“Wait, Y/N it’s me!” You froze, the light of the moon emulating Robin who stood in your window.

“I… Robin? How do you know my name?” you stuttered still unsure what to do.

“No, It’s me,” Robin said taking the mask off.

“D… Damian?”

“I… I’m sorry I missed your Birthday. I’m sorry I left you with your family alone. I… there was this gang and dad needed my help but. I tired to get out of it but they needed me.”

You stood there dumbfounded as he spoke.

“Alfred said this was it, my crossroads. I’m sorry I missed this. I know how important this was for you.”

You cut him off hugging him. Burying yourself in him. Tears you didn’t realize you had been holding forever fell from your cheeks.

“I thought you didn’t care about me.”

“No, No I love you,” Damian said taking your head in his hands, “Y/N I love you and I never want you to feel like you are not an important part of my life because you are.”

You spent the rest of the night talking. Him telling you about his mother and past, catching you up on him becoming Robin. About the missions he went on that had made him miss all those moments together. Moments he hated missing.

You told him you were there for him. You understood why he had kept this from you but you also wanted him to be honest with you from now on. You needed to know what was going on. How he was feeling.

And you came up with a plan. When his other life needed him he would just text you R. That way you knew to hang tight. You knew it wasn’t you. 

You both sat there on your bed talking until the sun came up. Just spilling all the secrets you had been holding. Talking about dreams and goals. It was as if telling you that he was Robin had opened the floodgates and he could finally really be himself. It was like a part of him that was missing you didn’t even know about was suddenly there and everything else made sense.

“So,” Damian said glancing at the morning light dancing through your window. “Disneyland?”

You laughed jumping up, “I’ll get changed and meet you outside.”

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