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apocalypse-alpaca · 1 year

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do y'all ever think that like. We are pioneers. We're the first generation to really have queer media here, for us to see and connect with. idk just a thought

#i both envy the next generation and don't #because theyre going to get to fully grow up with these masterpieces #but with us we all got to be there to laugh and cry about these groundbreaking moments happening #for the first time in media #like #thats pretty special #idk im feeling positive right now #i love my little gay shows #good omens #wwdits #ofmd #sherlock #gay #queer #mlm #lgbtqia #loki

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tenshouining · 1 year

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Day 2 - Transition. A conversation with your future self. colourless ver. under rm !!

#Trans Jayce Week 2023 #jayce giopara #jayce league of legends #league of legends #arcane league of legends #league of legends fanart #transtism real #i have a class early tomorrow soooo i finished this at a . more REASONABLE time today #tonight? idk. whatever. slay #transition #jayce talis #thats who this ! is supposed to be specifically but itse fine it works either way itll do teehee #meowing loudly . the colours on this gave me sooo much trouble #fun pose!!!!!!!!!!!!! colouring makes me murderous #man of progress my ass. man of horrible colur harmonies and unessesary additions to the pallette (looking at you yellow sock)#BUT !! all in all i Guess i like this piece :] itse a more ambitious pose than id usually try and!! other than the legs floating a bit it #has pretty !! decent contact points ect i think so :)#figure studies my belobved youve made me a much better man #i am this close to putting vik + jayce into some sort of artist au thing because autism begs me to mix special interests #viktors the type of freak to learn about sine waves and proper physics terms to properly animate a dress in the wind or something #them working in a studio together? i am crazy. i am insane. autism is overtaking me. im half human and half foxy /ref #shoutout to me for talking so much in thesetags also. stay winning jase nation. if you read to the end of these you get a prize

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theygender · 4 months

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I've got too many games I want to play and not enough free time 😭 I still need to finish my BG3 playthrough but since Endless Ocean: Luminous came out I've been playing a lot of that instead. Also just got back into Wizard101 last night. Started playing House Flipper again last weekend. Still need to finish BOTW so I can start a TOTK playthrough and finish Pokemon Shield so I can start on Pokemon Violet. I've been fighting off the urge to start up a new Skyrim playthrough for weeks. My brother just told me that Paper Mario: The Thousand Year Door is getting ported to the Switch. And now I'm suddenly feeling inspired to replay DAI... And throughout all of this I'm also playing the hell out of DragonVale on my phone. Someone just pay me to play video games all day please

#and before anyone suggests it: no i cant try to get into streaming #the way i play video games is extremely frustrating for other people to watch ahdjsksl #no one is going to give me money for producing a video where i spend two hours checking every barrel in the map while juggling my inventory #and then immediately give up on a puzzle and just sit in silence for 30 minutes while i look up a walkthrough instead #i need a situation that pays me $200 a day just to be autistic at the screen alone in the comfort of my own home #rambling #a few years ago i made it a mission to play all of the dragon age games and dlcs in order and i did not complete it #i got all the way to inquisition before i quit #i had already played it on ps3 but i wanted to replay on my new gaming laptop and unfortunately my computer decided it was too complicated #and also i just wanted to play as an elf again and i was resisting that urge bc i played as an elf the first time and wanted something new #so i didnt connect to my character as much #BUT ive learned a lot about optimizing my games from getting bg3 to run on my computer #so i think i could get it to handle dai now. especially if i upgrade to ssd like ive been wanting #and i just saw a dai post on my dash that made me daydream about possible characters and i was struck with inspiration #when i first played through on ps3 i didnt know anything about da lore. it was my first dragon age game #i was just doing whatever i thought seemed coolest #so i basically modeled my inquisitor after my dnd oc and then just picked a vallaslin i thought was pretty #and then when it came time to pick a specialization i was just like 'i mean my hand has rift magic right? seems obvious enough'#but now i know the LORE. and the dalish really interest me. and i want to make an inquisitor thats their own character #i didnt want to replay another elf mage bc i thought it would be too similar #but at the same time i wanted to re-experience dai (and experience trespasser for the first time) now that i knew more about the dalish #(with mods that fix the annoying bits where your character seems to not know about their own religion of course lol...)#i was thinking about that and i just got hit with some inspiration #instead of 'my dnd character but with a cool tattoo and rift magic and they kinda roll with the inquisitor stuff bc idk whats going on'#what if i made a more intentional character with a much different personality and their own backstory #theyre still the first of their clan but i know what that means now so theyre not really into the herald of andraste stuff #theyre a devotee of falon'din with his vallaslin and fittingly choose necromancy specialization (tho theyre annoyed by all the maker talk)#they can look cool and goth and maybe they even make some different choices about the well of sorrows 👀#i could keep rambling but im running out of tags gah #anyways ive got lots of ideas now and i think the playthrough would be unique enough to be worth it

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br1ghtestlight · 9 months

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my doctor asked if she could refer me to a neurologist bcuz of my lifelong problems & symptoms etc and I was like sure whatever but it turns out the waitlist for the only neurologist is TWO YEARS LONG like whats even the point then. WHY EVEN REFER ME!!!!! who is like yeah i have neurological problems and my brain is broken but its not biggie i can totally wait two years :). then again this is the same healthcare system that makes people wait 6+ months for cancer treatment or appointments while they are slowly dying so im not shocked

#I love living in a country with a dysfunctional healthcare system on an island with maybe three doctors total #NEVER annoying ever (lying)#it's fine i dont really care about going to a neurologist anyway. i went to one a few years ago & there wasn't really a conclusion #ive had the symptoms and disorders pretty much as long as i can remember so i dont think its a major problem lmao #they also wanna give me an mri but idk if that's ever gonna happen either. tbh my brain is not my biggest issue rn #i have my special little pills and thats all that matters <3 #txt

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mayordea · 7 months

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some quick n dirty references for my oc kandy since i made a bunch of designs for her for the different scenarios.

these were made mainly for myself and perhaps in case i wanna commission someone to draw her (but idk if that’s happening anytime soon i’m broke 🤧). but i will share here anyway :)

edit: addressed some typos in some of the refs + added a ref for her staff as the great sage! :)

also idk if i need to say this but keep in mind she is 11 years old if that wasnt clear - hate to see someone get weird about her 😭

#mayor doidles #mayors ocs #havent used that tag in a while wowzers #kandy #ive probably mentioned before but i made her when i was young [probably 10 years old] but started using her again recently #in a more expanded role. she was a pretty boring op character and im fully embracing that specialness #idk maybe ill drop her lore here one day. but it’s still a little sloppy oop #digital art #simple/sketch #i need to make refs for my other main ocs… the ones id be more likely to commission art of….#but thats a lotta work innit

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delusionsofspace · 3 months

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MAN WHY DOES THE NEUTROIS FLAG GOTTA BE SO UGLY 😭😭😭😭 like thats SO DISAPPOINTING for a term I relate to so heavily

#satt speaks #like . I remade the neutrois flag FOREVER ago with my favorite colors #cause like why not. nobody can stop me???#but then I see the actual flag in the wild and get jumpscared #because it looks SO BAD I'M SORRY #anyways I could 100% post the flag I made but it's literally special to me specifically cause it has my favorite color on it #the specific hex code that all my friends know I am autistic about #(the hex code that is the highlight for this exact blog . actually.)#00c2c4 <- the BEST color ever actually #but yeah everyone makes flags that have meanings and I think thats so sick #but also I just go based off vibes alone man idk #I just enjoy pretty colors . that is all I need in life

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konfizry · 6 months

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Anyway speaking of the sun did I ever tell you about the tales of arise eclipses

#im thinking about it again xyhdfgdchdchjh #do you think they like. considered it #i MEAN ofc they did #they cided that sun disappearing behind rena but dO YOU THINK #that they initially planned to have that actually impact like. the WORLD #in a significant manner?#with the actual luminosity level being affected and all #because like for cyslodia iirc this means no sunlight in the morning #(or cyslodia that we get to explore cyslodia's pretty big after all)#but like i can see how this is a problem like #you liberate cyslodia that is the One Realm where its always nighttime except when you end the renans' grasp on the region there #it still doesnt get a full day of sunlight because of astronomical reasons that we cant do anything about yet #also probably the region of the Central Ocean is in perpetual darkness as well but for those same astronomical reasons #like it GERS CONFUSING it would confuse everything idk #but heres the solution: you ditch that cyslodia in endless nighttime idea bc it was stupid in the first place #like. in calaglia they harvest fire astral energy so its a fiery place. theres fire everywhere. in menancia theyre harvesting #earth astral energy so its super lush and green. and so on and so forth #and in cyslodia theyre harvesting light astral energy so theres. theres no light. its dark. because theyre stealing it!!!!!#well why usnt menancia a barren wasteland then. why isnt ganoth super dry. wha #i COULD accept it if like. maybe. if like the completely stealing the light thing us like. ganabelt specifically.#like hes just a Special Boy and found a way to pull all the stops #and something like that has never been done before in the history of the crown contest #but no this has been going since the great conquest apparently so???#like how arent the other lords doing something like that too?#is light astral energy like so fundamentally different that the harvesting process is the opposite of what happens in other realms?#and if thats the case why dont they ever explain it in the game. or just make a pasing comment about it. I'm not picky #aaaanyway. just get rid of that specific cyslodia plot point #and THEN you can focus on how living in the shade of rena influenced what parts of Dahna #like. to just kinda like. cement the world building a bit?

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orcelito · 5 months

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Oh tho. Despite being at a concert at a bar with easy opportunity to have drinks. I looked at the menu as if I was gonna order anything, then thought to myself, "You don't drink anymore, hon" and went "Oh, right" then just got water.

So???? Given how matter of fact that thought was, maybe I really am fully sober from alcohol now. Interesting thought.

#speculation nation #cant say im fully sober all the time completely bc i may or may not have done a weed or two in recent weeks #but that's neither here nor there #well ok it is in fact here. in this conversation. bc it's relevant.#i just dont want to drink alcohol anymore. period. even when i was having a breakdown i didnt want to drink.#and even when i was at a concert venue having the time of my life. i didnt want to drink.#the thought of alcohol just does not appeal to me anymore. not with the connotations it has now.#but in lieu of that. i gave a little edible or two a try. since i already knew i fucking hated smoking weed #still wont do that. but a little recreational dabbling in a social setting... yea ok ive done a little #not interested in doing this kind of thing alone tho. or even regularly.#but for special occasions. in a social setting. since i dont drink alcohol anymore. this is a Way To Go.#alcohol ment/#drugs ment/#i think ill b posting about the drinking thing less now. bc this felt pretty conclusive to me.#ive been wavering on it for 2 and a half months now. unsure whether it was just the trauma and grief of it all.#i mean. it is. that's precisely why i am so suddenly no longer drinking.#but time is going by and ive had several opportunities to drink. times i wouldve taken in the past.#but my heart solidly told me No. i didnt want that.#and ykno what even with 0 alcohol i had the time of my fucking life at that concert.#26 going on 27 and suddenly completely sober because my dad died from alcoholism.#one of those things where. well. drinking isnt good for you anyways.#so if i dont wanna do it. well thats actually better for me in the end. so might as well lean into it.#idk whether this will be an actual longterm thing. but i suppose i'll find out!#for now at least. i have no interest in drinking. and so it shall remain in the near future.

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5hrignold · 5 months

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nobody really mentions this when talking about the brazil ep but it’s like one of my favourite things about it The fact that it’s probably gonna be the only episode forever where the main 4 critters are together for the entire time without seperating to do their own thing its just made special to me because of how rare and special it is while being such a mundane thing that isn’t even at all spectacular outside of the shows view

#ive decided pretty much all im going to be doing until may 12th is just rewatching sf as many times as i can #which includes the 9 eps we already had AND s2e1 and all the official stuff we have of the rest of s2 as of rn #which im like certain we’re gonna get more of . maybe. maybe the episode 2 teaser will be the only one actually #also another one of my fav things about the brazil special is the way pim is voiced #i havent watched kinda any of his other things so i dont know How true this is but #in my eyes michael cusack is such a crazy good voice actor idk how to word it he just captures emotions so viscerally #and i just Love pim’s voice especially idk if it’s favouritism but iwloveeeee how he can go from sounding like an actual like kids show-#protagonist like a completely extraordinary whimsical excited voice to just a normal sorta deadpan speaking voice #Like thats my favourite thing. did you know i love pim so much #but yeah i particularly love his voice acting in that episode bc it captures that well and also how nervous and genuinely guilty he sounds #Purposely rambling bc im sad ok ay bye

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#ugh. im feeling chatty today. probably bc i feel kinda weirdly anxious. like when u can Imagine bad things happening in detail #and like it feels like ur wait for it even tho its in ur imagination? whatever. anyway. ive been watching a lotta #stuff on like professional artists and idk maybe im just in too deep on science academia but i dont. i dunno the culture #seems so weird to me? like what does one do in art school? i guess i took a lot of art in high school but my teacher was kinda trash #all we did was paint realisticly using a grid and i hated that. but i image ur supposed to exercise different styles and medias? how tf #does that get graded? i dunno. i haven't taken any uni level art classes. i should tho. id probably like it #its weird tho. anything that tries to give structure to art stuff seems so weird to me. like u go to school for science stuff to build up #ur background knowledge and i guess u can do that with art but it feels different. i guess bc ur training muscle memory. i dunno #i like to imagine an au where i go to art school but i legitimately cannot fathom doing that. cannot fathom a life outside of my toxic #relationship with academia. i dont even kno what i would want to specialize if i went down that path. maybe illustration #bc it makes me happy when ppl say my style looks like something out of a kids book. i dunno #i guess classes would help with things like forcibly learning shadows and anatomy and composition #maybe i just need to make art friends. like what is ur life like? im too much in a science bubble #i guess going to art school also just devotes all ur time to art. not just tiny pockets of time between all the things u have to get done #god. i can only imagine the panic of procrastinating an art project and physically not having enough time to finish it #thats how i felt with my masters thesis. there was just physically not enough time for me to fix my code in all the ways i needed and rew #rewrite things. but i finished it somehow #ugh. god. i have things i need to finish coloring. i will finish them today. i will #i hate coloring. but colors r so pretty ;_;#unrelated

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polaroidcats · 1 year

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my glasses broke today and I'm so sad because I've had them for 5 years now and while I've been wearing glasses for most of my life these were the ones I loved the most and felt the most like me

#feels like the end of an era :((#i'll take them to the store next week to see if they can be fixed but i don't have high hopes because the screw that holds togeth3r #the frame and the glass didnt just fall out the whole screw literally broke in half and crumbled? and parts are still left inside the hole #and then i looked at the other parts and the screws dont look much better and the metal is kind of wonky:(#but i loved them so much #they were golden and a round frame that kind of looked like pilot glasses idk if thats the right term #but they were at the same time very simple and sth special that not everyone has #i'm lucky i still have contact lenses and my backup glasses with a pretty accurate preacription so i can still see stuff #though when it happened it was as i was putting away my sunglasses on the subway #so when i took out my glasses and they were broken i had to put my sunglasses back on to see things lol #always a good look to wear sunglasses on the subway #esp combined with my ffp2 mask #i couldve been an incognito celebrity or sth #ramblings

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istherewifiinhell · 11 months

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so about your friend from back before you turned you body into a means of warfare, the one you just reunited with? yeah we used your image to kidnap him and torture him for infomation on your weaknesses. he didnt give much up... he didnt have much to give up, anyway. but we did brainwash him and implant a time bomb inside him to blow up you and your entire battle station. yeah you will have to shoot a civilian whose not in control of his own body. yeah no theres no saving him anyway. and you could let someone else do it but you feel it has to be you. yeah sorry.

#some shit #its not called cisformers #HEY GANG??? i do not say this lightly. but they let you put this into kids programing???#its. how say. its like the show has that emotional elasticity of a show were no one dies. but ppl Do Keep dying.#this one was pretty special tho. just. in. method.#they whipped him onscreen to but. idk.#the characters relevant to this ofc being. chromedome and..... Jack #-> thats not even a sub translation thing u can hear him say jack

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m00ngbin · 6 months

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I think that maybe I need to take a break because seeing Mob Psycho stuff makes me so happy that I get super nauseous🧍

#emetophobia #idk if thats necessary bc i just said i got nauseous but yk #WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO??#I MADE EVERYTHING ABOUT MOB PSYCHO #i need to chill out this is ridiculous #PLEASEEE ITS MY SPECIAL INTEREST WHY CANT I BE NORMAL ABOUT IT #autism is back to ruining my life i guess 😮‍💨#IM JK #IM JOKING ITS NOT #ITS A PRETTY NEUTRAL THING #BUT WHYYY CANT I BE NORMAL ABOUT THE THINGS I LIKE WHY DO I GET SO EXCITED I GET NAUSEOUS #or the day before yesterday when i got a serizawa keychain from my friend and i started giggling and jumping around so much #that i choked on my spit #this is a repeated assassination attempt #mob psycho is trying to kill me 😧

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scattered-winter · 1 year

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horrifying self recognition through the other aside this has been an actually not terrible start to The Family Gathering tbh

#my cousin who i havent really seen in a while came up to me and asked abt my pronouns because i came out to the fam a while ago #and he didnt really remember what id said (which. fair. its a big family w lots of things to remember)#and so he asked what my pronouns were and i told him and he promised that if he ever messed up i needed to make him #do like 5 or 10 pushups lmao #and ngl. its the sweetest thing anyone in this family has ever said to me abt that #everyone else has kinda just. moved on. and either forgotten that im not a girl or purposefully ignoring it.#and idk maybe i should stand up for myself a little more but ive been practically a doormat all my life #and idk. its hard using my voice and establishing boundaries when ive let ppl bulldoze over me for almost 20 years.#sigh. anyway.#im gonna be thinking about that all day tbh it was genuinely so sweet #and i am also being consumed by The Loneliness again <3 #just. i want someone to just talk to about all this??? someone who isnt in my family because they all have stakes in it too?????#we're all grieving. i aint special.#i just want to talk to someone about it in person so they can hold my hand while i cry myself to sleep because ngl #thats what it looks like we're doing tonight #im just. tired of feeling alone in this enormous family where it seems like im the only odd man out #and also ykw the Not Having Any Irl Friends loneliness too. thats also pretty significant.#not saying my internet friends arent great i love yall so so so much but it has just been .#a really really long time since ive had a good cry n hug session w someone.#sigh. im tired i need to go to bed #winter speaks #personal

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valentine-madness · 10 months

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i can feel my jjba special interest slipping away and im incredibly sad about it / in denial

^ how im feeling about it

determing what is or isn't a special interest has always been hard for me (i blame it on the combo autism/adhd making me bounce between interests / not having super longterm interests) but jjba has been such a major part of my lfie for the past few years and feeling my interest in it slipping away is disheartening.

#i still like jjba but it's no longer an all-encompassing / comforting obsession for me #just something im like 'oh thats neat'#makes me sad :( it's been a special interest pretty consistently for several years now #that + animals + madcom have dominated my interests for awhile #...and flight rising i think??#idk. like i said i struggle to determine what is/isn't a spin for me #but anyway. im just kinda sad about it #autism #adhd #audhd

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b1mbodoll · 11 months

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gabi QUICK your fav vaults from 1989 re-record?

i think my fave vault track is “is it over now?” idk there’s something about taylor’s sad lil heartbreak songs that really get to me </3 but my overall fave songs from 1989 are probably “you are in love” and “this love” <333 agh im such a lovergirl n a biiiiiggg sucker for romance :( and the lyrics to those songs are so lovely 🥺🥺

#my fave albums r folklore speak now and lover <33333 #those r Myyyy albums agh idk they have such a special place in my heart #evermore is really good too </3 oversharing a bit but the song marjorie really helped me thru one of the worst times of my life #2021 was rough :( the song makes me think of my own grandmother n really helped me accept that although she’s not physically with me she’s #still around me everyday <3 although we adore the physical forms of our loved ones i think its sweet to think that their love surrounds us #in the simplest ways #ill see a moth or sunflowers or rainbows or itll be a really pretty n sunny day and im like wow thats my abuelita :(#im rambling now sorry T_T im very lovey dovey #♡.signed. sealed. delivered.#beanysofa

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