do y'all ever think that like. We are pioneers. We're the first generation to really have queer media here, for us to see and connect with. idk just a thought
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hi loveliest ana, i'm not online much anymore but i miss sending you asks all the time! i've always had so much fun talking to you about shinee and skz that now whenever anything new in either of those worlds comes up i still think of you immediately :') i don't want to say too much but i wanted to tell you that before i found your blog i was in a very dark place. but after i found you and for the years that i have been mutuals with you i've improved so much, i've found solace and happiness in things that i used to love again (kpop especially!), i've even been inspired to finally get myself into a university and put effort into changing myself and my life for the better + understanding that it's not too late for me..! and although you don't know me past being an anon that sometimes sends silly little asks about grumpy cat boys (who are looking even more cat than usual somehow recently idk there must be something in the wATEr over there...) i do really owe so much of it to you. i want to thank you for being such a bright presence in my life and giving me strength, you are always so kind and encouraging to me even if it's not on purpose. it's refreshing and healing just to know you exist and i hope that in return the world is always as kind back to you. i wish nothing but happiness and comfort for you ♡ love you always!
oh my god i honestly don’t even know how to begin to reply to this im genuinely on the verge of tears? just making someone smile at my silly tags/posts on here is already fulfilling to me, and you’ve just absolutely floored me. i can’t begin to comprehend this, for me to have this kind of impact on someone is truly all i could ever want or ask for. now ik you’re on anon but regardless i feel your genuineness and i’m SO proud of you like beyond words. of course it’s never too late and i hope you keep doing well and enjoying life, thank you a MILLION times i honestly don’t know what to say i’m actually crying right now and i love you
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I still have the wheelchair my aunt gave me, so I'm not too upset about today, but also I'm just so confused about why my OT doesn't think I need a chair???
My standing tolerance is currently like, 2mins MAX. I understand that I'm working on increasing it so I can actually do things around the house, but how am I supposed to leave my house when there's shitty sidewalks and snow and my walker can't even handle rough pavement. Even now that we have a plan in place to work on my tolerance, I'm not supposed to be standing for more than 1min at a time, so again, how am I supposed to go anywhere or do anything.
My therapist and even the pain specialist I saw both seemed to be on board with me getting a wheelchair, and my Beautiful Wife is of the opinion that I should've had one years ago. My OT seemed really great at our initial appointment and aside from this one thing she was pretty good today, so hopefully this just takes time ._.
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making a new workout split and drinking nettle tea and queueing stuff... Normal girl. My gym changed the work time and its making me suicidal but its the only close-only women gym near me so i will have to suck it up before i think of another activity... i saw there is flying yoga near me but the classes are always full boooo they hate my ass but also i love being good at everything so its good to weight lift before trying to enroll again
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Yeah thing abt anxiety is you actually literally do have to grab your brain sometimes and go "Are you actually in danger?! Is this problem something we can actually fix now or is it a situation that is out of our control and therefore worrying about it actually does nothing?! Huh?!" And then force yourself to realize what situations your anxiety is ACTUALLY helpful and how to let go in situations where it isnt
Unfortunately this is not a skill that you get with a snap of your fingers, you literally have to TEACH yourself how to do it and it's painful.
Even more unfortunately rational people sitting outside of your anxiety are NOT AWARE that this is a literal skill you were basically born without and just tell you "calm down" without understanding YOU DON'T HAVE THE TOOLS TO BE ABLE TO DO THAT. If someone who was super good at weight lifting told me, a beginner at weights, to just "pick up a 50 pound dumbbell" I'D DIE, because I haven't trained to do that! I quite literally don't have the muscle or knowledge on proper techniques to do that without hurting myself, physically or emotionally!!!
So yes, sometimes you DO have to take the high road and just tell yourself "I do NOT need to worry about this" even though it feels stupid and useless because you still worry, but you also have to forgive yourself and understand you are learning! It won't be easy the first few times, and even when you get more used to self soothing and emotional regulation sometimes it's not linear and it's like your first day of lifting weights all over again!
I just think we as a society do need to understand that anxious disorders are both something we (anxious people) can NOT control without effort and therapy and that we (anxious people) need to realize sometimes we DO have to put in painful, uncomfortable work to manage it! It sucks but thats life, and it can get easier with the right support and whatever treatment looks like for you!
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my roommate has a girl he‘s started to date, and his room has a common wall with mine and i did hear them have sex on the first date they had at our place and now, tumblr fam, im gonna be honest im terrified of what the future will bring regarding sex noises 😭😭😭😭
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