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roadkill-dreaming · 9 months ago

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#goodmorning😵‍💫#im sleeby #dreams were vague but there was a big building i got lost in #thats been happening a lot lately

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skunkes · 7 months ago

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#a doodley #i had to make this blue so tumblr would stop hiding it from the dash #anyway no caption this happened 2 hrs ago #im happy abt my surgery but it and other things this year keep beinging conversations like these up #and i cant handle it at all.#everything my dad tells me just makes me feel worse and not bc its anything bad but bc I Feel Bad #like the conversation then continued to him being like no dont cry im just saying i wpuld have wanted to #quit my job decades ago and set aside money so I wouldnt be struggling as much now but that didnt happen #and i just dont want that to happen to you guys :)#so we have to support u so that your life is what u want it to be #and i cried even more bc what do u mean. thats so sad. ur a person and u were a child and baby once and ur gonna die #and you always almost cry when u talk about your mom who passed away decades ago #and your brothers that passed away #recently and im going to be your age and still sobbing bc i miss my dad. just like i have been prematurely crying about since i was 7 #the other day my dad asked my mom if i cried a lot when i was a baby/kid and my mom said no and then my dad #said that when i Did cry it was so severe he thought i would ''drown in my own tears''#bc i could never stop. like. thats still true today. ive been crying on and off since then #i think i mentioned he's just been telling me stories about his life lately and it further fuels this. i get so sad. im sorry your life was #like this. i dont want to die i dont want you to die im sad im sorry im sorry #im scared. im never going to see you again. how horrible. how horrible #i cant enjoy my day today bc every day is a day closer and i get sad

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justgleekout · 11 months ago

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Sunday morning sleeping in <3

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slavhew · 8 months ago

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i like ms paint but i like mspaint-esque pressureless brushes more.

exclusive never before seen art process snapshot under cut.

this is what it actually looks like in the canvas. it was a warmup for a larger thing and took way too long so my frustration is justified i think

#homestuck #hom3stuck #home24uck #home2t4ck #dirk strider #jake english #dirkjake #decapitation cw #gddddiiii ialways forgett that one. fuck #admin draws #fanart #anywways uhh tags! context!#first one is post tussle. because i am living vicariously through them #i too want to laugh with a friend and have that soothe the sting from the scrapes and aggrevate the bruised ribs #second one. heat map. pieces of you that you left behind #its something ive been thinking about a lot lately as a framing for trauma. a part of you thats still back there.#the way these two step on each others toes in a more general way too. neither means to. it still happens #i saw art a while ago that speculates on dirk being reminded of the disappearifier whenevr jake is on his shoulders and that stuck with me #im in such a mood with these two again sorry. this is what joining a discord 4 the alpha kids does to your brain #drinking sparkling water straight out of a liter bottle and jamming out to verka serduchka rn what can u do.#guess what im drawing. smile :)

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lynn-tged-posting · 4 months ago

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tged webtoon ep 166 spoilers and thoughts that are late again sorry about that it's starting to get really cold and my hands are freezing but it's fine below cut

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ALICIA AT THE END OF THIS EP SHES SO. PRETTY SO SO PRETTY HELP OH MY GOD IM . HEL P . HELPPPP YUOR MAJESTY UR TOO GORGOEUS

committing to the fake dating / fake engagement bit is CRAZY HELP ?? ??? HJELP ???? ? ??? WHAT IS HAPPENING

back to the top of the insanity

genuinely i am so glad that we r getting snippets of javier and alicia interacting i know its really brief but this episode rlly cemented in my mind that they're besties . they talk shit and poke fun at lloyd but also they both rlly just want him to fucking live . the besties ever

they're gonna beat the SHIT out of lloyd with so much love and faith and care and genuine hope for him and they're both gonna team up for it and lloyd cannot escape. JAVIER AND ALICIA TEAM UP IS CRAZY. I LOVE IT

also speaking of lloyd HES GOING. THRU IT GOD FUCKING DAMMIT WAAAHHHHH

losing my mind at the untouched food bc i figure he's absolutely taking it just to ease the minds of his family/friends who are bringing the food to him but he cant even bring himself to actually eat it to sustain himself this fucking hruts to look at . even when he's at his lowest he doesnt want to worry people (which kind of failed but damn did he try) IM GONNA EAT MY HAND

it was really REALLY sweet to see his summons and the system message box trying to get him to get up, to live again,,, is today's ep the like tagteam episode or smth they keep teaming up on lloyd . good i need that mf to LIVE

also sorry saying again but gghghh this moment too where even when lloyd doesnt feel like eating or living, he'll do whatever he can to make those around him happy . he keeps doing that, the things he chooses to do always end up being for somebody else, not just him. it's never just for him. he doesn't really admit or realize that though god he's the most selfless bastard ive seen in my fucking life I WANT YOU TO WANT TO LIVE

AND THEN THE FUCKING. COUNT AND COUNTESS ADMITTING THAT THEY KNEW JAVIER WAS LYING GOD FUCKING DAMMIT I SHOULDVE KNOWN JAVIER REALLY IS A TERRIBLE LIAR OF COURSE THEYD FUCKING NOTICE

and at that we FINALLY see a panel of lloyd that shows at least one eye . now he knows that they know,,,,,,,

i really really like whenever the illustrator pulls stuff off like this, where we dont really See them until really hardhitting moments . for the entire time before this panel it was as if lloyd was just,,, shut down. barely even there. not being able to see his face cemented that, and then lloyd hearing the count and countess talk,,, it's like a flip of a switch, both for him and for the reader, and i really REALLY like that. god my HEARTTT GHHH

especially when the count n countess choose to believe in him anyway. to wait for the truth ghghalsdkjflahsdf their patience and their willingness to . listen for the truth my heart my heart i cant .

AND LLOYDS REACTION TO THAT I . GOD THERE HE GOES AGAIN LIVING FOR OTHERS JESUS CHRIST LLOYD GOD FUCK. EITHER WAY HE'S GOING TO LIVE HE'S GONNA LIVE HE WANTS TO LIVE HE WANTS TO LIVE AAAAAAAAAAH AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

i need u guys to understand i started fucking shaking when i saw this

the difference in lighting and framing in these panels compared two the other shots we've had of him i feel INSANEEE WWWHWHHHH

like the one on the left god it's so SO bright now . the fact that the count and countess are waiting for him, are being so patient with him, they want the truth from him so he needs to live to give them the truth and that's just like a window being open to let the stale air out and new fresh life fresh air inside im gonna . feel sick

and the panel on the right he still looks a bit worse for wear but theres that determined look in his eyes again, they're solid and bright and warm and they're not shaking or blank and i feel so so fucking happy HES GONNA LIVE EVERYBODY HES WANTS TO LIVE HE WANTS TO LIVE

taking things one step at a time, ,,,, even when its hard he's so fucking determined god ohhhhghhh my heart you can do it lloyd u can beat it!!! the summons are so sweet too they look just as determined to help him get to his feet again i feel so sick

OVERCOME!!! OVERCOME!!!! OVERCOME!!!! LLOYD!!!!!!

AND THEN WHEN. ALICIA ARRIVES. ALL OF THEIR REACTIONS HONESTLY ME FUCKING TOO I WAS SO FUCKING SHOCKED

im so so happy though im so glad things are looking up and the sillies are back lloyd lloyd lloyd you can do this alicia and javier will help you!!!! the count and countess will help you!!!!!!

step one lloyd back to himself, step two beat the shit out of fate, step three ??????, step four PROFIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IM SO EXCITED TO SEE WHERE THEY GO WITH THIS IM SO EXCITED javier what do u have to say for urself. alicia u too. whose idea was this

anyway that's all from me rn i think if i get more brainworms ill add onto this post lol, sorry its not a lot! ill see yall next week (aka tmrw) (this is late lol)

#tged #the greatest estate developer #tged spoilers #lynn misc #the greatest estate designer #tged lloyd #alicia magentano #lloyd frontera #my brains been running ragged so if i say smth repetitive / silly thats probably why #a LOT has happened this week!!! trying to keep cool about it!!!#i will continue posting abt tged episodes tho dw #even if theyre. like. a week late. sorry again #okays i think thats it

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pansyfemme · 4 months ago

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been shaking all the time lately

#just like. hard shaking #not able to stop. in both legs and arms #im not sure why #i have stopped caffine for a while and its not like it only happens when im hungry or tired it just. happens #i am thinking its the (heavily suspected) pots because thats been getting a lot worse lately and it often starts happening after i stand up

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hauntedwizardmoment · 8 months ago

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jace literally got shattered at the altar of cliffbreaker and you expect me to be normal about that??

#girl it's so dire i had a meeting with my boss today about a new project #and like she knows i write as a hobby so she asked me what ive been writing lately #and like. i'm not gonna bring up luxury sex object prison at work. i need this job.#so i just said 'oh yknow ive been busy with the move and everything so i havent had time to write'#and then she said that if i ever want to show her a finished piece i'm welcome to.#im so so sorry belinda youre a great manager but unless you get really cool about a lot of stuff thats not gonna happen

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theyreinsensibleshoes · 4 months ago

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im so scared. i'm so so so fucking scared.

#i havent been super active lately but im having very intense anxiety attacks about last night and i think the best course of action for me #rn is not engaging with anything political until i can calm down #so im signing off for awhile until the dust settles a bit #im trying to tell myself i have enough privilege that im gonna be ok because i feel like selfishness is the only thing thats gonna get me #thru this since i genuinely cannot save the lives of every gazan trans person pregnant woman latino immigrant etc #but unfortunately unlike the rest of this country i was born with care about other people disorder #im also trying to tell myself that social progress always prevails because it does in fact always do #so even if it takes lots of dirty work and it wont happen in my lifetime it will one day come thru #so yeah those are my thoughts.... see ya'll a bit later

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somethingsomethingcomic · 4 months ago

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sorry for the inactivity, ive been doing a lot of traditional art (and crafts and music) lately. here's some Ink Eli as an apology

#smth art #traditional art #i keep forgetting about my damb tablet. like. charging it.#but also ive just been very tired about doig digital art lately. sowwy!#my problem is i have 1000 hobbies and have been doing hands-on stuff a LOT bc hnnngggg seratonin hehehe #but its fine. it makes me happy so fuck it #just feel a lil bad for leaving this blog/comic soooo inactive for it :')#oh i forgot part of it is bc i have a new job position that has been keeping me VERY busy and tired. i forgot thats happened since last #time i updated here #but someday. mark my words. i wont have to work a normal job anymore #and then ill have time to pursue all the random different art avenues i want (which is most of them)#like i wanna make smth smth merch sometime. but also i should probably actually keep the comic up a little more first

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fernzwing · 9 months ago

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I feel like I just woke up from a coma sorry for not posting anything guys. 2024 is not a very happy year

#im not actually just awoke i just havent got the coolest mental state ever lately #fernie rambles #i'll post art soon.. its been really hard to get myself to draw lately #like i got this super cool idea to draw on and then when i do i get distracted by doomscrolling and watching yt videos #i just got super bummed out because i rlly wanna meet this one friend n then turns out i have to be atleast 20 for the place im going to #they mean to me a lot so i'm using that day to go to a library that has warriors books thats near me #mental state is still not okay so im doing this thing where i practice twice or three times a week to draw something by myself #just to get that same motivation i used to have when i posted a lot of doodles in this account #so much shit happened and it just genuinely really killed my motivation to draw #i promise i'll try again dw #euugh sorry for the yappering #vent rant

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good-beans · 1 year ago

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ITS DANCE TIME 🩰

#i havent been very active lately and keep meaning to get some sort of habit started now that im chillin a lot more #and ive been trying to tell myself to dance specifically!#i love it more than basic exercises and stretches/barre is a very non-intimidating place to start #and will get me back into the swing of more intense moves easily #i finished my ballet au art in the hopes it would inspire me and then i still kept putting it off #but for real this time!!! im doing it!!!#i dont think i brought my pointe shoes to the apartment but i have my slippers :3 #i dont know if id want to jump right into pointe to be fair asdfsdf #*transforms into a magical girl ballerina and blasts my depression away with a massive pink laser beam*#thats not whats going to happen but by god am i going to try rn 😂#rose rambles

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pearlpool · 11 months ago

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MAN! AHH!

#its so crazy to realize that like #you actually do have a life you can go back to after removing yourself from a space that was actively making you miserable #i fucking love my friends so much. been talking to them a lot more lately #i feel like ive been neglecting them because ive been spending so much time lamenting the relationships that havent worked out for me #and just not even thinking about the ones that HAVE and actively DO #and its like. why do i hesitate to dive headfirst into the friendships that i already have and already feel secure in???#i think part of me thinks i dont deserve relationships where i dont have to prove myself #but im realizing that i can draw a distinct line between friendships where i feel loved as i am vs ones where i have to earn approval #and the latter is not where i should be focusing my energy #idk! love my irls. rubyrainacharlie forever #feels like im coming back to who i was pre-all the horrible shit thats happened to me in the last year and a half #like even just after the last two days alone #diary

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coulson-is-an-avenger · 3 months ago

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sorry for going thru ur blog like the morning paper it is because i love you. hope this helps

#sorry if ive been in a lot of ppls notifs lately i accidentally extended my tumblr time the other day so ive been unrestrained winter fun #aka scrolling thru ppls blogs like the morning paper again #if u see me in ur notifs imagine a little fish just like seeing u out of the water and going ▪︎o▪︎#thats whats happening #mossy speaks #thank u this has been a psa

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thedeadthree · 6 months ago

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🥀💌🕯️💀 <33

*old person yells at cloud* THEORY TIME <3 but i was thinking of the skill trees screens we’ve seen so far and i am like…… super certain that ingellvar is the mourners surname and soo that calls for an update to irulannes pin interest board <33

(ill cry change it if it isn’t though but hehe anyway im stoked to at last have a surname for when i save her edits bc rn her folder says i.datv xixjjxhx *WHEEZE* 💀)

#leg.txt #it fits so well it fits so welllll irulanne ingellvar you’ll always be loved by MEEE #the icon looks suuuper like some of the dead in the necropolis in one of the concept arts so i am thinking its them??#thinking about her story a lot lately I NEED TO WRITE IT DOWN SOO BAD ��🤧#im thinking she was found by the sisters raised up right adopted a surname (mayb from a mentor or ‘mother’ of sorts??)#raised up as she was to be arcane advisor/mistress mother to a mage heir bc they want a mage on a throne one way or another or both etc etc #like i mean that could make sense for her i think?? its not TECHNICALLY her name yk iru didn’t actually have a first name either #its what they gave her? AT LEAST THATS WHAT SHE WAS TOLD bc hehe the blood magic in the ritual #did a wee more than just what’s happening now from what happened in the trailer hehe #it also lifted a wee little spell they did on her that wiped all of her memories from before she met the sisters 🥀👁️#there may be some vengeance from robbing her of her life she may drag her lovie l*ucanis on who’s to say HEHE #something something she had her own kingdom already as she was a sort of spymaster w/ the dead using deceased birds to watch for hot gossip #a prodigy at a young age she was <3 she may have been an advisor anyway even without the sisters influence yk #ughh i want to develop the sisters and irulannes pre v*eilguard lore soooo bad now EEEK.#i am getting my wisdom teeth out next week so i think it’ll be the prime time to do that i think 🥀💌#anyway time to finish those asks ughh they’re the funnest as always if you read all of this moots i am baking you cookies <3 #i think word is that thorne is the wardens and it does look like it i would say too?#i think for cassia she had to have got that from someone maybe to hide her identity or something #she’s either the result of a princess of the a*nderfels having a tryst with n*athaniel or l*oghain i haven’t decided 🥀👁️

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surreal-duck · 1 year ago

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been in kinda a weird spot regards to my own art lately where nothing seems good enough or i feel like ive been on a downhill streak that ive barely touched my tablet since the year started except when its school related..,...., probably burnout from an entire year interning for animation and concept work i feel a bit lacking and falling behind wjhdhfjehd

#its not a race im aware but ive always been generally unconfident in myself its just been. especially bad lately!#been doodling here and there in sketchbooks at the very least ive gotten worse at traditional than i used to be wjdhhdhesjdhd #theres a lot of things ive yet to/really want to draw but if you dont see anything from me for weeks at a time then thats probably why 👍#duck rants about something #ive considered deleting this acc several times to be honest. though after having gone through seeing a few of my favorite works and artists #/writers do the same i was pretty torn too while im sure they had a good reason #i doubt it but that small chance someone might feel the same if i went through with it did have me reconsider #well its not gonna happen anytime soon i dont think smhfjejdjd too attached to this acc #apologies if you read this far. normal 2am thoughts

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itsalwaysdark · 4 months ago

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its so embarassing likee. going to talk abt a feeling you have but you already know ppl will be like Oh that sounds like depression lol and its like. well yes . i know . trust me i am so aware i am depressed . but its still like a thing ive been thinking abt and wanting to talk abt but ik itll just be like Ok hun 👍. idk idk what response i would want tho ig FNFNFNF

#not anything serious i was just thinking how like. idk. this is gonna sound rly stupid #but for me personally like. sometimes. How do i phrase this without sounding rly evil #i think obv ppl can spend their money however they want but like. its kind of hard 4 me to grasp sometimes like. there r things that ppl #spend a lot of money on bc it makes them happy like umm. vacations or pets or hobbies or whathaveyou. and obviously thats fine but #i iust feel like its all so. temporary and like. idk. idt im ohrasing this right at all i just likee. the thought of working all year to #afford to take a vacation and then working again to afford another vacation just makes me feel like i want to die. like. idk... i like #vacations we dont need to go on them a lot but ig its just like. everything we do just feels like a waste of time. not in like a Ohh you #should be doing more work Obviously its just like. idk. maybe it is just me. but i feel like im just waiting until i die and can be done #with it i guess. and everything i do is just to fill time until that happens. yk ? which is silly bc of my whole. Thing i cant talk abt #but ppl talk abt like. going out and partying or going on vacation or whatever and i like. I like those things its nice when they happen #but they dont rly make me longterm any happier i guess. everything just feels like another thing im doing. idk. this rly isnt coming out the #way it is in my head. and Again i know this is just depression shit or whatever im just like. its all exhausting. it just makes me feel so #tired. to think abt working and working and working so i can pay to be alive and i can save to do one fun thing every so often to keep me #sane enough to keep working and working and working and i probably wont ever be able to retire itll just be. work. and then ill die. yk.#but i feel like the vacations and stuff dont like. refresh me very much. maybe its just bc ive only been on one 'vacation' as an adult and #it was just like. coming home to see my family. and realizing id have to move back home yk..#+ like. my mom nd my gran taking me out for a weekend when i lived up there #nd those things were nice and all but once its over its like. it doesnt fuel me to keep going it doesnt make me feel any better abt having #to work for the rest of my life #ik im being ridiculous bc im literally unemployed and i cant even get up off my ass to get my stupid fucking ged so i can get a job and be #Useful to my family its just like. idk.... i try so hard to be like Oh nothing mayters and thats why everything matters type thing like. Yes #all things end and the point is to just try to be happy until it does #but i feel like it just doesnt happen for me. i feel like any happiness i feel is so insanely like. it happens and then its gone. and its #back to just. the knowledge that im still fucking stuck here. and i will be until it happens. yk. i play video games tomoass the time until #i go back to sleep then i wake up and i make a spreadsheet to pass the time until i go back to sleep #and everyday just feels like passing the time until i go back to sleep and itll just keep going until it happens. and its nice to have nice #days but whats like. the point. yk. everything just ends #IDK. this is all very whiny im sry. ive just been feeling it a lot lately . i hope this doesnt feel like me being like Ohhh you ppl r so #dumb participating in hobbies and going out and having fun dont you know yr gonna DIE? thats not what im trying to be like #its just like. i feel like it doesnt make me as happy as it does other ppl like. none of it refreshes me or makes me want to keep going

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