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mushy comic about leafy and announcer running into eachother in bfdia
#thats a lotta words#the original text is turned into digital typed text because my handwriting is genuinely intelligible#but i kept it still kinda there bc i think my original handwriting of the dialogue portrays a lot of the emotion#also this exact interaction is actually canon in my mind. it happened until it’s explicitly proven otherwise that it didn’t happen#the type of thing that doesn’t add much but makes stuff just that little bit richer#battle for dream island#bfdi#bfdia#bfb#tpot#bfdi leafy#bfdia leafy#bfb leafy#tpot leafy#bfdi announcer#bfdia announcer#bfb announcer#tpot announcer#odieart
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https://www.tumblr.com/proshippers-against-censorship/753562079700680704/i-have-a-lot-of-things-to-say-but-i-dont-want-to
Some clarifications since I guess I wasn’t very clear about a few things:
Thought crimes aren’t real not because a person’s thoughts don’t make them a bad person, but because we don’t always base what is and isn’t a crime on being a bad person. Cheating on your partner makes you a bad person, but it doesn’t make you a criminal in most cases. I’m not comparing cheating and “thought crimes” like I saw a few people say, I’m using it as an example of how our legal system isn’t based on morality and whether something is a crime or not can’t be used to determine good and bad.
I also saw someone speculating about whether my personal experiences with my PTSD and my intrusive thoughts were real, accusing me of appropriating mental health language. Thanks for that by the way guys, I love having my experiences questioned when they aren’t like yours. I’ve been going to therapy for this for a while now, and the things I described are exactly what my therapist told me to do.
I’ve never hurt myself before, and I don’t want to. There is no desire to act on the thoughts I have. Almost like they’re intrusive thoughts I don’t want. Which is ironic considering I’ve seen these exact same people make fun of antis for saying shit like “if your therapist is seriously recommending that, get a new therapist.” It’s always, other people don’t know any better than actual mental health professionals someone is actually speaking to, everyone’s healing journey is different and you don’t get to dictate how other people heal or what their experience is or is not, until it’s someone whose mental illnesses aren’t like yours. Then you know better than mental health professionals and you get to dictate if they’re “appropriating” language those mental health professionals have applied to them.
I have to do my showers in many small steps because I have to put down my razor and do something else so many goddamn times. It takes me hours. I have to stop not because I want to actually hurt myself, but because I cannot function with the thoughts for very long. The only way to get rid of the anxiety is to stop what I’m doing, do something else, then come back to it later. But I get it done eventually, and my therapist told me to keep doing exactly what I’m doing. I ignore the thoughts. I don’t try to get rid of the anxiety, because the anxiety isn’t the problem, the thought is.
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#once more#thats a lotta words#too bad im not processing em#i did read em tho#brain just dead#proshippers against censorship#jackal barks#proship please interact#proshippers please interact#proship positivity#proship#proshipper safe#proshipping#proshipper#anti anti#ask#asks
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bruh i am almost at 100,000 words for my fic
that's crazy
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Cookie
It’s been exactly a year, and..I have so much to say to you, so many I love yous, so many praises, so many wishes. This year has been one of the best, and I want you to find what makes you happy, and have that all to yourself. You truly deserve to have what genuinely brings you joy. You could travel the world in a van, meet people and see things and be in nature, you’re free to do all of that and more. I know you can. I’m glad that we met, today a year ago, at 7:40pm. I’m glad we played that silly roblox obby, and that shooter game that lead me down a spiral to actually liking them, and liking you, I’m glad I got to be your player two, I'm glad we started talking on layers below the surface, I’m even grateful for trying to flirt with you once I had realized I liked you more than a friend would, only for you to be, well..you, your perfect oblivious self. I’m even grateful for the teases I had gotten at the time for not realizing it sooner. I'm glad I waited then, and fell even deeper in love, I'm glad I made my former blog, and then this one, and started writing things I could never tell you myself, I'm grateful that when I did let you in, you accepted me, and of course, I accepted you, I always will.
I’m grateful to have gone to get hotpot with you, and boba, and walked into a store only for us to speed walk out and act like it never happened, I got to lock arms with you, hold you, look into your eyes, see your smile and hear your laugh, meet your mom for a second even if I was nervous as all hell, I love thinking back to when we were in vrchat and you called me yours while we went around trolling people, how you still included me when someone you knew joined, I got to fall even deeper than I thought I could, memorizing your habits, your likes and dislikes, the sides of you not a lot if people get to see, your expressions and tendencies, trying to make you laugh just for the sake of hearing you belt out the cutest, hardiest laugh I’ve ever heard, or the ones where we were breathless at the mic and barely able to continue the joke, I got to tell my family about you and even if I was teased about being so smitten by someone, I always held a proud smile on my face, I'm grateful for the risks you took just to see me, the patience and care you gave me, and even grateful to meet one of your friends, or as you'd call him your “good buddy”, and be held so close to you in the void desert, and kissed so softly, held so carefully in the backseat afterwards, and gush to each other afterwards until we couldn’t think straight, even if I may still be held in shock from the very first time you said you loved me, and when you came to give me cookies, m&m, your favorite kind..
I’m happy I got to experience you even in your softest, "Weakest", most adorable moments. and even if a decade from now isn’t guaranteed, I at least hope next year is, August 5th, at 7:40pm sharp, I hope these still bring a handsome, goofy smile to your face, I hope you���ll still be in my life, I hope you’ll still let me cherish you and handle your heart and soul with care. I hope one day I can handwrite letters dripped with wax to write down lists and lists of why I love you, and see you in your moments of adorableness, that one day we can wear our bracelets together for the times when we may be apart, and keep our necklaces close without worry. I hope whatever happens in the future, we can go through it together. Until then, whether its next year or tomorrow, I love you, my tomato, my cookie, my yan, and one day, my man. Abwa.
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oh...
#Yer a Witch Gura#thats a lotta words#and pages#and its only like#4 chapters#i think#longest fic in shortest amount of chapters#even HPOS doesn't have this much#rn on AO3 they have roughly the same amount of words#but not on that#YWG clears HPOS by 2k words#and even more by the time i'm done with the new chapter#coming out Soon:tm:
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adam rejoining twt and then immediately dropping whatever the fuck this is. i hate everyone who works on this show so much
#inanimate insanity#you cant be SAYING that white baby#im sorry abt the lack of alt text on this btw#thats a lotta fuckin words and its almost 2 am
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always remember to take white ppls opinion on ur gender with 10000 grains of salt. they Do Not Know, even if they're tryna be nice
#nnstuff#rambling#when i was tryna find a gender label as a teen i wanted one coined by a black person#tho i didnt know why. i just didnt relate to a lotta the other gender labels. thats how i ennded up with maverique#but i do know why now!! i know why after reading other black trans peoples wriitngs!!#also: maverique is just infinitely better than most gender labels#a lot of them were weird. they didnt work in sentences the way that maverique does#you can say im a man/woman/maverique. you cant say i'm an aporagender#the issue i had with so many of them was that they ended with Gender and like. thats not how i wanna use a word for my gender#i wanna have 1 word that means the thing like man/woman. so maverique is pretty good. also its sounds best#and the flag colors are good i like them#what was my point? whatever
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me: opens twitter
someone on my art: you headcanoning ranma as a trans girl when he HATES being a girl is basically the exact same as purposely misgendering trans men because you see them as women
me: blocks them and closes twitter
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healers
#satsuhart#temecas#bgghkg their rship rly... nice#i think i struggle to portray it the way i fully want it to look but like i think theyre a better fit than people think#also they clearly care about and respect each other so much like#teme saying he'll start taking his paper plays more seriously after castti tells him he can change someones life hello??#castti is pretty much naturally nice to everyone but i like how their rship has like 2 sides to it lol like#theres her telling teme to take time to grieve and then the moment teme shows any kind of kindness in return shes like#uh ? youre being nice thats weird#but also like come on. temenos and hikari being the only ones to talk to castti during her ch3 is so AUAUGHH#also just consider. castti saying she likes vulnerable people (bad wording) and she must have seen a lotta that during teme's journey !#well anyway. thats all from me for now#octo2
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ooo fengs ask you wanna talk about the fengs so bad oo
yes tumblr user possessable anything for you tumblr user possessable
these are so scrambled my god
the fengs, the fengs, i love the fengs an unhealthy amount, you give me any kind of codependent relationship in media and i'll gobble it up but codependent siblings just hit different esp twins
nuwa, nuwa, nuwa, poor, fucked up nuwa, as a younger sibling myself i relate to the feeling of not wanting to let go of your older sibling in any circumstance but MAN does she take it all the way
you could say that keeping your brother’s corpse “alive” and animated is an unhealthy way to deal with grief but omg who cares omg who careeersss?? (nuwa does)
as long as he's still with her nothing else matters, after all, he's still moving, even if it's wrong and his body isn't holding itself up right, he's still talking, even if it's barely discernible or hard for others to hear it; with those two things in mind he's basically all well and healthy! right?
i desperately want to know more about their life and thoughts before the main plot, we can get glimpses of it–the whole theater and opera love they had, nuwa has her feet binded so she cant walk at all, either hovering on that seat she has or sitting on fuxi’s lap; maybe he carried her most of the time before she got the former
we can assume nuwa’s a spoiled person, comes with being rich as all fuck, but with her feet being Like That i don't think she wasn't a victim of the beauty standards that we know of and whenever we see her in both of their memories she's not doing much but sitting and enjoying any moment she has with her brother, not doing any clan duties apart from organizing banquets so maybe she wasn't planned to have a busy future at all
she relies on fuxi for most of her decisions, she looks up to him a big amount, and in turn fuxi coddles her maybe a bit TOO much, telling her to not mind the diseased civilians they encounter–it's not their fault that they got sick and it's certainly not nuwa’s or his fault that it happened, so she can look away and not think about it, he'll make sure her worries are as minimal as possible
but wow what happens when he becomes one of the diseased? will she look away from that too? fuxi was basically as good as gone by the time they arrived in New Kunlun, so what was left for nuwa then? i don't think she was well versed in politics, so how would she lead without her brother? luckily she won't have to think about that either–eigong’s here to save the day!!
so her brother’s all well and dandy now and they can go back to their usual dynamic, yippee!!
i wonder if fuxi could actually form words even in his state, it's said he grunted out sounds but nuwa seemed to understand him just fine; that is if his talking isn't just one of her many delusions she leans onto so she doesn't have to acknowledge that he's rotting
with that said i have a lot of fuxi thoughts even if his actual self isn't seen much, he was raised to be his clan’s leader and loved theater, his profile said he was frivolous but responsible and i'm dying thinking about if his frivolous side is the one he showed nuwa the most, if he could be as relaxed as possible whenever he was with her and dutiful and stern when it came to his duties
obviously he was the more aware one of the situation with the virus and all and he still chose to shield her from that instead of bringing her attention to it so they could work on it together; it's clear that their relationship wasn't built on equality even if they loved e/o deeply–i could even self-indulgently compare it to an overprotective parent and their child who they think isn't qualified to deal with or think too much about the horrors around them so they simply drive their attention away from those things to keep their innocence in tact
and yet i still don't think he was as codependent with her as she was with him, maybe because he was so sure of her safety and well-being that he didn't feel like he had to crowd her with his presence, she has everything she could ever want in life, right? as long as she doesn't focus on the problems surrounding them and instead on the pleasures then he can be at ease
i will def ramble more later but im tired rn
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gonna be real man idk if jerking off to a fictional rapist has any impact on the morality of your soul or whatever the fuck but as a victim of rape i think it absolutely makes you a hugely insensitive cunt. Donate to RAINN and post online less.
HUGE YAP INCOMING. i love yapping about this stuff. special interest pretty much sorry. also apologies if my text and talking is all over the place, unorganized, or repeating!! kinda a brain thing but i wanna get this out /gen hi ! as another victim ! if you are not comfortable with that sort of stuff nobody is going to force you to indulge in that ! the internet is yours to curate and nobody is obligated to do that for you . anyways! just because someone is into that stuff (personally, i'm not too into it but i like the assumption LOL) does not mean they automatically sexualize actual victims/rapists and completely erase real cases and victims. in fact, a lot of the people that are into that sort of stuff are victims as well! being into that sort of stuff is pretty common when it comes to that sort of trauma, although not everyone copes or (just straight up ends up that way. It doesn't have to be a coping mechanism, it can still just be an attraction) processes things like that. A lot of people are also completely disgusted and triggered by that kind of stuff (which i'm assuming you are) and that is A-OKAY! it's okay to have boundaries bro!!
it's okay to both be into that stuff (as long as you don't go out hurting real people) (no, triggering someone on accident via a post doesn't count because nobody is responsible for the ways other people react to something. you can't predict that) and it's okay to absolutely hate it!! i think people should just be more understanding because . liking something does not mean you support the actions happening to real people, and it does not mean you don't care about real cases.
(also i've heard rumors about RAINN being queerphobic and sexist so. iffy about that but i do support donating to organizations that help victims so long as they're, you know, actually supportive of people!!! /gen and . will start posting more to spite you /lhj)
but seriously thanks for the infodump invitation . ^_^
#woah! thats a lotta words!#sorry i get very very passionate about this stuff#coming from someone who's both mentally ill + yk. a victim themselves#tl;dr . liking something morally dubious (in fiction especially) shouldn't be considered dubious since.#most people can't control what they like#+ most people who like that stuff are victims themselves#+ indulging in that kind of media =/= ignoring real cases. gooning to them will sound very bad but i promise.#it doesn't mean you support that stuff happening to real people#i like some weird shit (which stems from trauma) and i'd rather jump off a bridge than have it actually happen to people yk?#and that's how most people are. there are some exceptions of course but that should not be a stereotype.#anyways#hope you're doin well anon#rambling woo
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syl’s thorne tattoo & the siblings are ready <3
#dragon’s dogma 2#dd2#arisen oc: sylvas#pawn oc: eidolyn#always wanted to try the archer & thief combo!!#so this isn’t Totally just because i want him to max archer#and that’s totally not bc i’m SICK OF HEARING ABOUT HOW THEY ONCE WERE AN ARCHER#it’s ok if he does start saying it bc he is starting as an archer. it was ok when winnie was saying bc she started as an archer#but thorne was just projecting winnie and it was annoying me#lyn is mostly gonna be a thief! but i’ll have mage to max it at some point then all pawn vocations are Got#syl showing him the ropes as a thief til he’s done with archer then it’s back warfarer for me#starting tomorrow if i play enough today 🫡#gave syl his two inches back bc he’s no longer channeling a short arisen. aser was tall as thorne (?)#damn thats a lotta words
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For the ask game thing! If they haven’t been asked yet I’m super curious about 8, 15, 20, 23 & 24 (you do NOT have to answer all of those I’m just like super nosey and also pester-y)
oh thank you, i love to yap and i am absolutely answering all of these kdbfjfbfn (answering most of the non-fandom-specific questions about dbda because. well yeah)
8: i hope more people will come to appreciate...
honestly there are a ton of people that appreciate crystal in this fandom, and i am very gratified by the amount of people and posts i see preaching that she needs more appreciation/understanding/love, but like. there will never be enough crystal appreciation in my opinion. and while a lot of people love her character just as much as i do, there are also people (mostly in fics) that treat her more as an afterthought/backdrop for the boys or don't seem to really like her for her actual canonical traits, so i absolutely want more people to appreciate the beautiful mess that is crystal palace. and hey theres a whole crystal appreciation week coming up so thats gonna rock!!
although on a non dbd note. SCOTT MCCALL. hes literally the main character of teen wolf and hes amazing please love him. also alan deaton, he rocks and he gets far too much hate
15: the character that always makes me smile
unless its something angsty, i smile so fucking stupid every time i see charles rowland and his stupid pretty face i swear. his smile and goofiness and HAPPINESS are utterly contagious and i love him so much
20: my very first fandom
it was probably my little pony jfbjfbfjf. i'm talking when i was like,, i dunno eight? i wrote a whole fanfic for it in the notes of my service-less basically-ipod-with-extra-features little phone and made cheesy nextgens and everything. and if it wasn't mlp then it was how to train your dragon for sure, i was obsessed with reading fics from the dragons' POVs where they found more night furies and stuff. also crossovers. i had a grand old time!
23: the fandom i'm curious about because of a mutual
i can't think of any i'm interested because of a MUTUAL SPECIFICALLY, but god the amount of people putting that gay firefighter show on my dash has gotten me INTRIGUED. i actually went and tried to watch it but i couldn't and the intrigue has faded with my failure but its still there a little bit. also bridgerton, i've been seeing lots of bridgerton on the dash and it is tempting me. OH ALSO! i almost forgot, but interview with a vampire! and i actually did give into temptation with that one and watch the first episode while eating dinner a couple nights ago, it was absolutely amazing.
24: how has fandom positively impacted my life?
i think the biggest positive impact i've gotten from fandom is the sheer volume of interactions ive had with other people, and the friends i've gotten from that. like, i still have you from when i was mainly posting about teen wolf, and i've made so many great connections in the dbd fandom, whether they're just people i've made an impression on with my art and writing or people i've formed full friendships with (shoutout to nimm @babyseraphim for being probably the best friend ive made in this fandom? i love how loving dbd enabled me to meet and connect with you over so much OTHER stuff we have in common).
i really just love being able to connect with so many people over common interests and opinions; i've gotten a lot more outgoing/confident lately, irl as well as online, and i feel like fandom is at least partially to thank for that. ❤️
#asks#ask games#thank you for asking and pls never hesitate to ask all the questions you want#i love to ramble about things and answer questions#added a readmore cuz thats a lotta words
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Someone used the word 'plump' to compliment me, brb going to go die in a hole 💀
#i get im curvy but im also beyond insecure about it#i know it doesnt make sense that i can post the pics i do while feeling like this about myself but its like if people dont draw attenion#to it im fine#also who the hell thinks that is a word someone wants to hear in the context 😭#i love the internet 🥴🥴🥴#if you follow me because youre into bigger woman or whatever its fine but dont tell me thats the reason ;-;#im just a pup that has a lotta the big T word revolving around weight 🙃
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debated sending this or not, b/c we don't rlly know each other and i didn't want it to sound objectifying? but please do not stop tgirl tummy tuesday. not only is it a wonderful way to boost your self confidence. it is a little treat for your followers
FAR FROM IT!!! this made me go AWWW and my eyes lit up. thank you so much.... i was so anxious agajsgsjsg this makes me feel so much better about it :-] i will continue to give my followers lil treats as long as i feel comfortable doin so and im havin fun with it! and i sure am havin fun with it
#callie.txt.exe#anon.zip.pif#YOURE SO SWEET FOR THIS#also. how do i put this#Please Objectify Me#no thats not quite what i mean#how bout this#i havent gotten an ask thats made me feel objectified in a bad way yet and people have sent me much spicier!!#what makes me wanna keep doin stuff like postin pics is (perhaps selfishly) the comments agajshsjsh#the confidence boost isnt just from intrinsically posting it its from people seein it and bein super sweet about it#which a handful of people have been which is so kind and wonderful#ill never know how u feel if u dont say somethin! if youre scared anon exists#but also i dont bite#ive BEEN bitten a lot by a lotta people#but i dont bite personally!#so even if we dont know each other super well u can always dm me or send me an ask or somethin#i like making friends on tumblr.#this goes for ANYONE who wants to be my friend: if u want to talk to me but dont know what to say or when to say it#just send me the word blaseball and ill take it from there >:-]
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its kinda funny how many of my interests happen to be like. "vintage" i guess so for an outsider death note kinda rly seems to stand out as like. fiction i enjoy an regularly reblog posts abt. like i like a lotta other anime an manga an dn is like an anime staple but its not even in the same catagory as any other anime like my brain puts all my interests in little folders and death note is in the same folder as columbo and red dragon. impossible for me to consider one without considering the other
#this is kind of a silly observation actually given that my url is named after a COMPLETELY unrelated interest#but yea 👍i contain multitudes#i feel rly good abt how i describe my blog an interests in the little abt me page i made but i wonder sometimes if anyone looks at it#thats the price u pay for making it desktop only...#also im not sure if im using the term vintage right ive never been clear on that word#sometimes i worry id sound kinda pretentious saying im into “vintage” things#cuz i feel like im not like. a connoisseur of classic media or anything i jus happen to like a lotta old stuff#and saying “old hollywood” is too specific (i also like old radio and old foreign films) so vintage is better than just like. old#idk. what am i talking abt#charlie words
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