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#identity v#aesop carl#identity v embalmer#identity v the embalmer#identity v ask blog#unconcerned art#i cant believe this is the one that brings me back into the game. just to read the event like ten times. i refuse to play any matches#i wish watso.n could have interacted/ played a much bigger role than. he did#also i was being dumb n misunderstood Stuff so i scribbled down that hes still a bit sus#im gonna ramble about it here cos idk where else to talk about it im going insaneeeee. so spoiler warning for the event#my dumbass thought they were implying that laverne was the lost daughter which didnt make any sense to me#because the tree n the fact the fathers name is laverne doesnt add up#it took me like three reads to realize they were implying that yr was the lost girl. im so dumb. punches myself#the timeline sort of checks out? assuming laverne is 20ish n yr was 10+ when all That went down#the bevil guy was like 62. he had 30 years to Suddenly Change Heart#but also. did the guy just. purposely find laverne n have him be the butler just so he could Do That#it was half a year before his death too. what. what was going on there. if i were the maid i would have flipped my shit too#ok anyway. i still cant fucking believe watso.n didnt show up for like half the investigation. because he was. getting wick#wick. a police dog. that. idk. just ask le.strade???? they really needed an excuse to bring alice in instead of. dr fucking watso.n#i should seriously get around to actually reading sherlock holmes ive decided just cultural osmosis is not enough#on the list of classics i should also read: picture of dorian gray. for. reasons#okay i got all that out im sane again (lie) (laverne i have so many questions for youuuuuuu ughhhhhh)#alao for the record. drawing laverne did fix me. slides off the table
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I really didn't expect you to have only shifted for such a short amount of time... Idk, I always assumed you were a shifter who had spent years in your DRs. You give very solid advice and seem to be very experienced, that gave me the impression that you've shifted for long periods of time. Are you planning on permashifting soon? And how easy would you say shifting is for you now that you've shifted so many times—does it get easier? Do you wake up in your DR EVERY TIME you want to shift? Would you say you could shift tonight without anything holding you back like scripts, CR tasks, future plans etc...
Knowing that others like you who've shifted already also don't shift instantly/on command whenever makes me feel both a little disappointed that even knowing and having experienced it, shifters still struggle at times, and it is also a little relieving as we're all human and it'd feel a little out of reach that kind of level where you shift anytime you desire at any moment.
I'd be really happy if you could answer my previous questions, and also, have you ever shifted to an animated/2D? DR?
Haha thank you!!! Honestly I'm surprised too. Knowing so much already I still struggle sometimes. But it's that knowing that has helped me not to be desparate. I may not have shifted a lot but it's not like it's impossible for me. The reason for shifting so little is also the reason why I'm able to give good advice. Lots and lots of experience in my current reality. Like I mentioned I'm been going through so many spiritual awakenings. Even if I don't shift I feel the connection heavily to my DRs. I don't know if it's a blessing or a curse but I love it either way.
About permashifting, I'm still unsure. I'm working on my better CR script at the moment so let's see where my mind leads me.
Shifting is easy. I do know that. We contradict it ourselves. It was always easy. After shifting and 'not shifting' where I wanted to I'd say all you need is trust. Not in shifting itself but in yourself. That you can do it. No one else can instill that trust in you but you. That's the only thing that's keeping me going atleast.
I don't wake up in my DR everytime I want to shift. But I don't look at it the way people would expect me to. Because there's really nothing to look forward to when I go to sleep. I don't force or hope for my shifts. Whatever it is I'll go along and live in my truth. Because honestly we're already where we want to be. It's a matter of becoming what you want and not changing what you desire. Reality already is. It's you who's becoming it. I just take it as a sign to keep going.
I haven't yet. Also I wouldn't call it a animated DR but one time I did shift to a reality where an anime character looked like/was a real life human. It's the exact opposite of your question but that's as close as an experience I had to anything animated.
Hope this answers everything!!<3
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idk if it's mean to say and I don't mean it meanly at all. I think there's a weird culture of trauma dumping in this fandom though.
especially when any kind of discourse comes up, ppl seem to feel the need to 'prove' they can talk on a topic/have more authority than others on a topic by telling stories about how they've been through things the discourse is related to.
like when there was discourse around kevin/jean/riko and the cult thing or whatever. and there were ppl giving their opinions, but also a bunch of ppl chiming in to tell traumatic stories about them being in a cult. and it's not that I don't want ppl to speak about their experiences, but rather, I just think it's crazy that some ppl seen to think its relatively normal to jump into a conversation about fictional ppl with real stories about very triggering subjects with no warning whatsoever.
they also often assume by default that anyone who won't speak openly about going through traumatic shit hasn't been through it. which I don't think is good or fair.
I'm not trying to single ppl out either. it's not all the people who were in a cult or only them, its just the first example I could think of. it happens with basically everything though! from rape to homophobia to being abused by your parents, and so on.
I think the bigger problem which I briefly touched on is that it often comes with the assumption that those who don't speak openly about experiencing these things are assumed to not have experienced them. and ppl who do speak openly about it, will often explicitly make those assumptions.
bringing it back to the cult thing cuz it's the example I started with - I remember somebody would make a post (with admittedly a bad take), and then somebody would respond with their take + the fact that they'd been in a cult & add on a bit at the end being like "you wouldn't write a take like this [the original bad take] if you knew what it was like to be in a cult". and while I understand the frustration of ppl saying stupid or offensive or ignorant stuff, it's also stupid, offensive, and ignorant to make the automatic assumption that because someone's take/opinion on a tough subject differs from yours then that means they haven't been through similar experiences to you. because many ppl can experience the same thing and come out with differing opinions.
I just think it sets a bad precedent. it's also often completely unfair to the person they're saying this stuff to, even if they hadn't experienced that stuff themselves. because it also now means that the person hearing the trauma dumping has to respond with perfect civility, be perfectly calm and understanding, or else they'll be seen as not taking the person's experiences seriously. and while I obviously think you should handle somebody telling you their bad experiences with kindness, understanding, etc, this expectation is a little unfair sometimes because it often expects the listener to be perfectly nice, while the person doing the trauma dumping gets away with not being civil back. like they can throw stuff like "fuck you, you stupid bitch" or whatever into their post, essentially freely insult the other person, but the person hearing it can't do anything similar back without looking like The Asshole.
even if u are perfectly calm & understanding anyway, you can still look like The Bad Person if u continue to even respectfully disagree, becuz the trauma dumping person can just say something like "I experienced x and told you My Opinion and you still disagree 😡". and unless you want to openly admit you've also experienced x, you can't rlly defend urself.
all this to say. I don't think it's good to have this attitude of only being able to speak on things or having authority over others to speak on things if you've experienced said things. becuz on a platform like this, the only way to know if somebody has had those experiences is if they tell you. so it sets this expectation to talk about it. and I think it's normal not to want to talk about the bad shit you've been through with strangers on the Internet for brownie points. additionally. everybody's been through shit. it might not be the same shit as you, but it's important to remember that. we should all be trying to not make bold assumptions about people we don't know just because they think differently to us.
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#Agreed#aftg#aftg fandom#nora sakavic#the foxes#the foxhole court#aftg trilogy#aftg tsc#all for the game#aftg confessions#thea muldani
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graham gives an update on a football game during the show
#that's what i assume this is idk what else it could be#trying to find a record of this game somewhere but i can't somehow . so maybe he's referring to league wins like in a bracket or something#idk how sports works#csny
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messing around with techniques! I...like the foxman and the catboy a lot okay
also, a couple of quickies that honestly don't deserve any more effort than I've already given them:
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#stage in playful land#stage in playfulland#smoking#i mean i assume they evacuated everyone else in addition to the nrc boys#i ASSUME...#look my mind is just gonna be fellow and gidel central until we find out what's happening in december#me as i feverishly pin up red string on my corkboard: okay obviously the first thing will be rook's birthday but then...THEN...#this is twst so it could be anything from 'here is the rest of episode 7 all at once immediately and with 20 limited ssr pickups'#to 'uhhhhhh idk how about a (throws dart at dartboard) beans day rerun with no changes except now (fishes paper out of hat) trey has a card#tis the season for BEANS
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One of the weirder parts of being formally tested for autism as an adult—apart from the hellscape of hours of math hell—was that they kept asking me for my conclusions or opinions about things I had very little knowledge of. These weren't basic facts you'd expect someone to pick up in the course of a standard US education, and I kept repeating that I would have to do actual research to form opinions on subjects I had no significant information about.
Obviously, "not opinionated" isn't a major problem for me when I do have a reasonable amount of information, but my eventual diagnosis specifically mentioned that I kept repeating that I would have to do more research to acquire the necessary baseline of data for forming opinions on [whatever], and that the phrasing of my various refusals tended to be identical or very similar (I didn't see any need to alter my wording when I was simply repeating the same position over and over).
*cough*
Anyway this is also about Star Trek. (Surprise.) I knew Spock would be relatable before we started the grand TOS watch, but did not expect him to be the most relatable character on television ever, and his continual refusals to deliver opinions without enough data for informed theories was actually a big part of this.
#spock definitely thinks he's just being properly vulcan and sometimes tos also thinks so#but i feel like other vulcans aren't nearly as absolutist about it in general and it's how he is as a person#in addition i'm also continually annoyed by people assuming i don't feel as authentically as they do because i'm inexpressive#yes i find it humiliating and unpleasant to lose my composure and rarely do so in front of anyone else. there is nothing wrong with that!#sorry but my emotions aren't public property. nobody is entitled to see me break down or cry or raise my voice or whatever.#but it often seems that even if you /tell/ people what you feel if you don't perform Being Upset or whatever they won't believe it's real#so when he calmly remarks on how mccoy et al are always making assumptions about his heart 'yet how little room there seems to be in yours'#it's just so cathartic. goddamn.#anyway few characters have felt simultaneously more autistic coded and repressed-gay coded in a context where neither could be stated#idk. it hits in a way that few characters do. like not just a refusal to /express/ opinions without data but to /form/ them is... yeah#character of all time#anghraine babbles#deep blogging#rare breed of attack unicorn#autism#c: i object to intellect without discipline#star peace
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Does anyone else hc that Nightmare can like, absorb his tentacles back into his body sometimes? Like the way Stitch does with his extra arms?
#UTDR#UTMV#Nightmare Sans#I just realised earlier I've been just kinda assuming this as fact and I don't know where it came from#cause I don't think it's canon and I can't think of seeing it anywhere else#So maybe it's just me idk#Anyway it's something I wanted to be more prevalent when I was doing the truce au comic (which if I ever work on again I'll probably restar#cause I didn't really know what I was doing and there's stuff I wanna amend)#But the idea was that at the start of their attempted truce the tentacles made Dream uncomfortable#(Not only because Nightmare often used them against him in battle but also it's something different about his brother from his#childhood memories and it was jarring to see his one constant be changed)#He didn't say anything about it but obviously Nightmare could feel it#So whenever Dream was around I would make a point of drawing him with the tentacles sucked in#It was his little unspoken effort to make the truce work. because he wanted it very badly but would rather die than admit it#(or try to figure out why)#But over the course of the truce Dream would notice and start encouraging him to have them out and be himself#Showing Nightmare a little acceptence because despite the differences that's still his brother#You ever write six times more in the tags than the actual post lol#These are the DVD extras of the post you have to go looking for these#Director's commentary of my silly little thoughts :3#Anyway thoughts?
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I am once again going down the rabbit hole of trying to figure out the ages of the Gallifrey characters
#idk why my brain gets so caught up on this but it does#I’m also talking like start of gallifrey because I’m not getting into all that for them now#what bothers me the most is that we’ve got basically nothing on Narvin#I can’t remember for sure but I don’t even think we know what regeneration he’s on#I don’t think it would be hard to assume his first but also it could not be#like for brax we know he’s older than the doctor so that puts him at at least 1000#and romana is around 600 years younger than the doctor so she’d be around 400#and then I’m going with 50 ish for leela because we don’t know her actual age so I’m using Louise jamesons age plus the time she spent#married to andred#also with romana that’s assuming that her and the doctor experienced the same amount of time in between them traveling together and the#start of gallifrey#I guess that could also count for brax too but whatever#for narvin what we’ve got is that he was above the rank of a junior agent under vansell during the time of the fourth doctor#(at least probably)#so we can make the assumption that he wasn’t fresh out of the academy/cia training#which makes me inclined to say that he’s older than romana#but that’s really all I’ve got on him#doctor who#gallifrey#romana#irving braxiatel#narvin#leela#clearly this is a subject I am normal about#if anyone else makes it this far in my rant and has any insights I’d love to hear them
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"are people not into that?" i ask, after posting my weird niche shit to the internet, despite knowing it to be weird niche shit.
#jsyk sylkius or anything adjacent to it does not “Do Numbers” in any way and i observed this some time ago#i assume that's the “rival ships” element at work but who knows really#that sort of thing is like femslash in that everyone approves of it but nobody actually reads or writes it#but who would have thought sylvie beating loki with a stick would not bring in droves of readers???! shocking twist there!#& i don't consider sifki a rarepair but my rarepair standards are VERY strict like if there's >5 fics a pairing is basically mainstream#chasing popularity would annoy me though & i just don't have the mental spoons to try writing stuff i wouldn't personally read#yeah i *could* put my blorbos to work in a coffee shop but what cost to my own enjoyment levels? AT WHAT COST FANGELA???#you can't please everyone so you may as well just please yourself and if anyone else likes it you've found some fellow freaks so yay#i don't mean please yourself in a wanking sense. though feel free to do that too it probably counts as a cardio workout idk.#BUT ANYWAY#fic related#ps i am v glad there's the “warning: loki” tag because i think/hope it acts as a filter for 'he did nothing wrong in his life ever' types#who are Valid & etc obviously but i write my morally grey characters to be morally grey and the tag might help avoid conflict#though tbh i write almost every character to be morally grey in some way so i can't claim to have left my comfort zone here#(i'm not joking when i say the 1987-89 run of Dr Who shaped my entire future fannish life from a young and apparently v impressionable age)
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feel like knowing the difference between a show/movie that has been made for adult consumption but has been totally defanged and sanitised by removing all blood and colourful language to keep the rating down so it can have a wider and younger audience, and a piece of media that was Always made to be consumed by children/young adults and is therefore deliberately made to predominantly work for those age groups, is an important skill for media analysis that many in fandom lack.
#like lbr the world is Babying everybody so hard right now that i want to stand on a building and swear real loud#or just like... the hunger games movies#it's meant to be brutal and gory but they couldn't show fucking Blood#on screen#bc of media standards#even though strictly speaking thg is YA and they could easily have gone for a certificate 15#(which is one of the ages where i live. idk everybody else's but i assume you have Some kind of equivilent)#and made a far more true to the source material movie#But then you have things ACTUALLY made for children that were never meant to be ~adult~ in whatever form that takes#a kids show using allegory and not addressing the elephant that adults watching can work out from context is Not bad writing#it is GOOD writing bc it is For kids#an adult thing refusing to talk about the thing bc ~pearl Clutching~ is bad#y'all need to know what damn genre y'all watching#for purposes of this post Kids is a genre
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liberals when u say u dont like joe biden

#marcy moment#i assume thats what this is abt anyway idk what else it could be#i will still not b voting for genocide joe 👍
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"To put it bluntly, players running Slime Minion setups are generating far too many coins every day, through corrupted fragments. This sell price nerf only applies to corrupted fragments."
damn, goodbye my beautiful minions o7
#idk what else to do for money kjhfg everything i did kinda sucked#and frankly took way too long#''earn 50M an HOUR with this one simple mining trick!!!1!'' and in practice it earns maybe 20-30m at best#assuming optimal conditions and a nice lobby and no annoyances and you dont get kicked and-#well at least i already have basically everything i could ask for lol#divan drill and a hype and an ok fishing setup and full fermento and a giant sword (which is no longer good apparently but works fine)#im fine 👍 im never getting that space helmet KJFHG#chat#sb
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#oh my goD could my mother stop stealing all my fucking stuff for even 1 fucking week jfc#im gonna scream#she thinks that bc she's the one paying the majority of the rent and is technically my caregiver bc im too disabled to do certain chores etc#that she is simoly entitled to everything in the apartment and can do whatever she wants#steals my food steals my drinks steals my products steals my laundry card etc#now she's stealing my clothes and pyjamas#the fuck dude#i have severe skin allergies and have very selective clothing i can wear w/o a painful reaction#and now she's just. taking that too#the same way she takes the select few foods that don't set off my issues or allergies and steals the drinks that keep my blood sugar up#and steals the unscented hypoallergenic products i have to use#it never fuckin ends this woman is so self-absorbed and arrogant i rly cannot handle it sometimes (most times)#the irony is that she's a teacher and regularly works with kindergarteners who can understand 'don't touch what isn't yours'#and gives regular lectures to her students of all ages about respecting other ppl's belongings and never assuming u can take something#gives a big ol spiel about attentive listening and boundaries and respect on a daily fuckin basis from 8 am to 8 pm for her 2 teaching job#then comes home and immediately disregards that to take everything that isnt hers / disrespect my belongings and space#and yell at me when i tell her not to / get mad at her for doing it#ma'am.#ur 5 yr olds understand this. so do ur 8 yr olds. u r 60 MF YEARS OLD WHY CAN U NOT COMPREHEND THIS#nah actually the worst part is that she *does* understand it. she simply doesn't care#she would never do this to anyone else just me. bc im disabled and a burden and she hates having me depend on her for things.#idk if its vindictive or bc she feels like i owe her for basic care and decency or if she just enjoys lashing out like a petty bitch#i stopped trying to figure it out a long time ago#all i'm fucking asking is for her to STOP STEALING MY SHIT#is that so much to beg for. is it#ugHdjddjsk#someone find me a wall i need to bash my head against it#(or maybe hers. that might be better)#ask to tag#negative
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having kara zor-el thoughts today about her getting out of her ship, and she does not yet know what she is doing so years after she was supposed to. she is trying to focus not on what she's lost, but what she still has, and her first thought is "kal can't sleep without a lullaby, i need to find him and sing him to sleep, he must be so scared and alone" because she is scared, she is alone, she wants nothing more than for someone to sing her to sleep, but it will never happen again, and if she amounts to anything now that the future she was supposed to have is gone, she will do it for her little cousin, who will never even know krypton if not for her
but her cousin is not the little baby she used to babysit, he is a grown adult, older than kara is, and she wonders how the people who took care of him got him to sleep without knowing the kryptonian lullabies he was used to (how will she sleep now?), how quickly kal adapted to the lullabies of earth instead (did he forget the sound of his home entirely?), or who she would have to sing to sleep now that kal-el doesn't need her (who can she ever share with? will she forget, too?)
#yes i'm reposting this off my twt so what#anyway you can assume i am always internally screaming about kara zor-el. i have SO many thoughts about her#the fact that she was created as a joke and her creators (also as a joke) had clark put her in an orphanage-#is of course a moment of 'hehe haha look how ridiculous silver age comics were'#but it also unintentionally sets the mood for her entire character because the one person she knew leaving kryptop she could still have#is now forever lost to her and the version of him she meets is someone else. they are isolated from each other#there's of course a lot of exploration of clark's guilt and hope and disappointment and everything else about krypton#but i'm so much more interested in kara's. she left believing she had to keep her home alive on another planet and share it with others#and she arrives to a world completely different. she meets clark and loses her family all over again because he is her family but he isn't#and there have been attempts to explore this isolation but imo they always feel just so quick and kinda cheap#this is something that will always be a problem for them. this will always stand between them because they are essentially two foreigners#to e/o. but they are also family. and it's a sliding scale which side of the equation they fall to on any given day but it will persist#running circles around my room thinking about kara idk#superman#supergirl#supers#kara zor-el#ń txt
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rebirth is gonna destroy us i just know it
#as a zerith stan knowing aerith dies in zack's timeline is messing me up#like... they cannot meet unless they 'fix' the timelines or whatever#there's a chance the characters are not actually dead in zack's timeline but idk...#so yeah in the original timeline zack is dead of course#but in zack's timeline they are ALL dead. allegedly#so essentially it's like. if zack gets to live the others die instead??#what is zack's timeline gonna be like? i'm so curious and confused and lowkey scared aksjhkahlds#it's too soon to assume things but it doesn't look good for zack 🥴#he only has cloud atm and he's still in a bad condition apparently#he wasn't anywhere in that last scene in the DLC so either zack left him resting somewhere#or something else happened?#idk about y'all but i'm kinda going insane thinking about theories#the more i rewatch the trailer the more i realize how depressing it could potentially be...#also sephiroth might be travelling between the timelines#and i'm thinking... zackseph reunion maybe? 👀#he was also calling genesis but the trailer was from Ever Crisis right?#so what's going awn.......#i've seen ppl saying the tornado which potentially killed the party probably let weiss nero AND genesis out...#out of the deepground i mean#so does that mean zack will have to face the three of them at some point? that happened in HIS timeline#anyway i'm rambling ajskhakjs i HAVE TOO MANY QUESTIONS
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Ok so now im kinda scared for 8x08 bc there is so much Stuff to sort through and it's still 42 minutes and there's a big emergency and it's the fall finale
#like. it's not gonna fit#(title of my sex tape har har)#if we let the eddie/chris storyline continue into the back half of the season I will cry#but there's been very little buildup so what gives?#and then you got the probie (assuming the show tries to redeem him (bleh) or does smth else with him)#and brad and bobby#and buck's relationship issues which could wait till spring but idk#and on top of that we're hitting the tsunami on the list of greatest hits#like guys. please#911 spoilers#crow rambles while high on sleep deprivation
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