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why-the-heck-not · 10 months ago

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feeling very Devil Wears Prada "florals? for spring? groundbreaking" seeing the "Taylor's album has emotional range!! No other artist could ever!!!"-posts as if that's not also what every other (good) artist is doing, as if conveying bunch of emotions isn't the whole main part of the job

(emotions? in music??? groundbreaking)

#!!! I'm not hating on Taylor !!! I'm hating on swifties (some of them at least; the delusional ones)#like are u sure no other artist could ever. are u _fully_ sure #anyways I listened to it and it was fine; felt like 31 versions of the same song but I can respect that as a stylistic choice #that's just not for me (like she obv knows what she's doing & is good at it))#(like Cigarettes After Sex does that too and no one's giving them shit abt it (probs bc ppl are pretty much only lukewarm towards them #and also the whole ''let's be unreasonably critical abt whatever a woman is doing''-thing))#maybe the range is in the lyrics but I'm more of a ''I want to hear the emotion'' rather than ''I'll look up the lyrics to see what the #emotion of this song is''-type (can't hear lyrics in songs for the life of me without seeing them written out idk why #and that's very much a me-issue; not a ''bad music''-issue)#ttpd #april 2024 #2024

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raayllum · 1 year ago

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I will say one of the funniest things ever is that I was figuring Callum to be less devotional than canon has actually made him in arc 2, purely because I always figured that if Rayla kept pulling her self sacrificial bullshit (see numerous instances in s4) Callum would eventually be like "I can't do/love you like this anymore" and leave out of self preservation, and then 4x09's "I know" came along and said no, he would never actually leave her over this, and that's fucking insane to me but I love that for him

#tag ramble #mine #pining!callum #rayllum #arc 2 #like i always figured that kind of turning point for him would happen #(see 'just wait for me to come home') but in a like #'i'll always care about you and will save you but won't necessarily want to be in ur life/date you #if you don't get this figured out'#BUT S4 CALLUM CAN'T EVEN DO THAT BRO #like obvs they're not fully back together in s5 or anything but like. they also 70% Are lmao #it really does prove that once u have his god tier Loyalty #aka the ezran tier #there are no limits. which is always what i figured in regards to how rayla loves him #even if she's willing/been willing to trash their lives and not Be There with him #but good to know they could both equally lead one another down self destructive paths #love that in a ship

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rosykims · 2 months ago

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ok can someone please clear up for me if the lighthouse is in the fade or the crossroads. she sent me her location where tf IS this place

#tay plays datv #datv #datv spoilers #a cursory google search tells me this place is the fade. which has fun implications for solavellan in the fade at the end of the game #obv in the lighthouse people are eating. food is staying fresh. their rooms are materializing over time. plants are growing. all fun !#but then im like ok well where is the black city if its in the fade.#and why does it look like the crossroads. JKFGJKFGJ #EVEN HARDING SAYS THEYRE IN THE FADE BUT LIKE TO BE FAIR WHAT DOES SHE KNOW... WHAT DO ANY OF THEM KNOW...#IS IT THE FADE. IS IT THE CROSSROADS. IS IT A SECRET THIRD OPTION.#man. it probably is the fade it just seems too good to be true #living physically in that place sounds fun as hell lol solas is not going to be atoning SHIT gdfjkgjdfkgjdfkg

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catkin-morgs-kookaburralover · 1 year ago

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"i mess up things and then i don't have the energy to fix them up" yes brain true sentence but no brain the appropriate response is NOT "therefore i should kill myself (and here's how)"

#tw suicide #i wish i was joking #i am just so so tired of keeping myself alive! can't someone else do it for a change? or better yet kill me??#said something to the emergency room psych #she queried it and i confirmed i had said precisely what i intended #she blinked and said 'i usually hear that from jaded forty year olds not twenty year olds'#i won't share what because it was a highly specific explanation of precisely how i might see myself suiciding or how/whether i thought i #could. she asked me and i answered. apparently she wasn't expecting that level of detail and confidence #is it funny to anyone else that i always struggle with confidence but i can confidently tell her specifics about suicide thoughts?#this is reminding me of the fifteen year old yesterday i was conversing with and he randomly started listing all the suicide methods he #could think of and i was internally like you missed a dozen i can think of. didn't say that obvs #i don't know i am. tired. of everything. and i had a long and good conversation with an older woman from church last night (mother of the #boy. i have confided in her before she's great)#she's hte only person irl who now knows about the second suicide attempt (tho she doesn't know it was the second) and she was encouraging m #to see the psych and escalate care #but all day ive been regretting telling the psych or bro or anyone honestly #it would be so much EASIER to have said nothing and gone through with my plan #i wouldn't trust myself not to rn if i had access #i mean. i know multiple ways in this room i could kill myself. but i won't #there's a couple of specific methods that are most of the thoughts usually so they're the specific ones i gotta watch out for more if that #makes sense #ooh gosh im rambling i should shut up xD #personal #puddleglum hours

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messytoplipkisses · 1 year ago

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i just came out to a real life person and i think im having a heart attack

#IT WAS SO UNPLANNED I HADN'T THOUGHT ABOUT IT AT ALL I DIDN'T EVWN THINK WE WERW FRIENDS??#she lives in the building next to mine and we go to tui together to divide the auto fare and we've been walking home 2-3 dino se #and she likes kpop and kdramas #but like there isn't that Spark yk like oh ny god i love u best friends forever its a little awkward and formal still #but we were talking about something and oh my god #when we reached home we were standing uski building ke neeche and she was like i want to introduce you to my childhood bestie i think you #two will like each other #and i was like kinda weirded out like um are we that close yet i thought we were just classmates 😭😭#so i asked ki oh why all of a sudden #and she's like 'i like you' and i look at her and laugh and she said STOP LAUGHING i don't meant it like that im straight ok #and idk something in me snapped i was like oh are u homophobic too?#but pls she didn't know what it meant 😭 so i explained ki do u hate gay people then #she said no no ofc not SO I JUST BLURTED OUT KI good cause im bisexual #THE SHOCK ON HER FACE OMG im saying this now in freaking out now but at that time i said it really coolly and proudly without fumbling #my voice didn't drop down to a low volume or waver or anything (which im so proud bc she's like the first irl person ive come out to face #to face??????? i mean obv childhood friends don't count they're all gay #but anyway she was like OH and then SHE FUMBLED she was like oh nice i respect u very much and it was so awkward i was like haan haan shut #up just don't tell anyone very few ppl know 😭and she wasn't done she was like so as i was saying #we're growing old and real good friendships are getting harder to find and i like you (stop laughing!!) and i hope we don't jinx it #and she literally touched a wooden table lying there and said touchwood???? 😭😭😭😭😭#now i am thinking why did i tell her she's so extroverted she talks to everyone we go to the same tui this town is tiny #she could tell everyone my parents could find out #but also a part of me is relieved cause im so sick of hiding something that is such a small yet imp part of me #and if she tells everyone then cool maybe there'll be more queer people i can't ve the only queer person in this town and we could be #friends and my parents eh they'd never believe something like that they'll ask me if it's true and ill say nah just rumors dumb kids #and they'll believe me because they'll want to believe me so bad #so no harm #i still don't feel very bestfriendy with her but maybe my standards are too high 😭 idk ig i can't see myself being friends with her #for a long time if we weren't forced by circumstances and i don't like her that much but im happy i got to say it #literally said it omg 'kyunki main hu. bisexual' FUCK THAT FELT GOOD

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tomboyyyaoi · 1 year ago

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o i wanted to make a post that im honestly not smart enough to actually sit down and think out but i like the way meryls trauma doesnt completely woobify her character but does still affect her, it just feels nice to see a female charcater not be completely reduced to a wet soggy mess bc of trauma but also not to (very unrealistically) just Get Over It i think trigun has a nice balance and its refreshing

#also not saying its a secret feminist masterpiece or anything (coz ive seen ppl say that and. come on) but i still think it does well-#enough to be given an appreciative nod #i mean its clear nightow didnt know what to do w milly n meryl after a certain point bc there was just. So much goin on w vash and knives #so he just has the girls do some nomad stuff offscreen until he was ready to bring them back in and yknow what i dont hate that #i think its important to note the women in trigun are fucking amazing tho like. rem meryl luida elendira even lina #and yeah millys underdeveloped but still shes so good #so im not gnna sit here and criticise nightow for being just as misogynistic as some other male mangaka bc i think he does very well #and thats not even to say the bar is on the floor like i truly believe that. i love meryl for a reason #but. ppl can we maybe stop w the 'trigun is so feminist' praise bc lets be real nightow probably just has a thing for strong women #98 anime is a little different tho i was pullin some faces while rewatching some clips.#im obvs talking abt the manga #and stampede is still not done so i wont comment too much on that besides the fact i like where its going (girlwise)#i dont usually like viewing manga thru this lense bc its not the same culture and feminism looks different in japan than it does over here #but i saw a chart. it made me twist up my face and go hrrrrnnnmmmmmnnnnmmnnm..... nnhhnnhhjnnn... mmmmmmmm #jesus i didnt mean to go off in these tags i just wanted to make another 'meryl good' post for the pile #ig im still thinkin abt that chart idk i guess it stuck w me (regretfully)#anyway point is i love meryl for a reason trigun women are great thanks nightow but im not gnna praise him for bein a feminist icon

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i-appear-misssing · 6 months ago

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I just had the horrible thought that I need to fall in love because having devastating crushes on beautiful, competent, authoritative women that I desperately want to please is exhausting and I need it to stop

#this one is straight so there's no room for delusion which is good #but my burning need to be her most favorite is eating me from the inside #it IS making me better at my job though #.......i mean i think so but what the fuck do i know #on friday night amongst the grueling psychosexual chaos that ensued a very smart guy that I LOVE said to me #i have no doubts you're gonna be a great psychiatrist actually #i traded a month with him to have another month with her #he's a phenomenologist she's a psychodynamic....ist? rival theories #I don't like most of psychodynamic theory.......so far #but i love the way she works and i can see how well it fits with her manymanyMANY patients and goddamnit i love personality dosorders #so i made the choice to go with her yes and im very torn casue i LOVE that guy and i wish i could become his friend like my bff from my year #also.......kind of dumb of me since I'd only soend two days a week woth her and the other three with very scary ladies #but I've been in scarier situation i can manage #and god when she praises me (silently obv she's only been forward about my merit ONCE and i almost pissed myself like an overexcited dog)#the endorphin rush is........man #but yes i need to work on this.......idk how to define it. closest i can get to explaining it is professional sub space #with strong aspects of praise kink #pathetic is what it is really #but hey if it makes me study harder who fucking cares right #I'm gonna be the smartest most intuitive fucking bitch amongst my peers so if I can't have her (them) carnally then goddamnit #I'LL HAVE THEIR PRAISE AND RESPECT AND ADMIRATION AT LEAST #........I'll be normal again in a week or two i just need to get over these next couple of days of....idk. inflammation i guess #yeah it's just like an infected wound right now #angry red throbbing hot pain #i know the drill it'll be better in a couple of days you just need to not freak out and let it do its thing #it's nice to be mature-r about emotional impulsivity and the shame that comes after an episode of deregulation #it really doesn't have to be a big deal even while it still feels like it #it still hurts but it's like......hour three of a tattoo. it's a bitch but you know it's gonna be over eventually and wriggling won't work #the only thing left to do is enjoying it all while it's happening or trying to #I don't think I'm doing a great job but what're you gonna do right

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digitaldiseas3 · 7 months ago

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extremely frustrating situation

#overly long winded explanation incoming #so i’m gonna be living with two friends starting this fall #my parents bought a little townhouse and we’re renting from them #so they’re getting all of the paperwork and contracts and leases figured out #and these two friends are just. awful with deadlines. horrific. just the worst.#my dad has been flexible but he’s had to keep nagging them again and again to get these forms signed and whatever #and one of them finally finished the whole process and she’s good to go #but the other one still just needs to get the lease signed/notarized with their dad. like. asap. like within a few days.#and i’m trying my best to be like heyyyy sorryyyy not trying to nag or anything but we do need that ASAP…. it should be quick and easy��#i know you’re working double shifts every single day and your dog just died im so sorry #but my parents say you should be able to just go to the bank during a lunch break to get it notarized…..#please don’t be mad at me or my parents for saying we need this Now…… i’m sorry i know you have a lot going on but we do Need that done #right away….#anyway i don’t want you to be mad at me or think i’m just nagging so here’s a topic change! oh you didn’t respond to the topic change.#fuck me then. god. i can’t tell if you’re mad at me or not but i have the suspicion you Are. and that’s making Me mad at You #like god man just come the fuck on already you’ve missed every other deadline up to this point too. can you please just FUCKING get #everything submitted so we can stop worrying about it and just get excited to live together!! because it’s gonna be fun!!#but it’s worrying me too bc like… if this is how they’re acting before we’re even living together #and they’re missing all of these deadlines #am i gonna have to nag them to pay their rent every month?#it’s just frustrating bc it feels like they’re taking advantage of the fact that it’s my parents and not some other landlord #so they don’t think the deadlines my parents set are like. actual deadlines #meanwhile if it WASNT my parents they’d literally be out of a place to live because the housing market is so fucked there #and if you don’t get everything submitted within The Day then you’re no longer a candidate to rent the place #if you can even get to that point in the first place #so like. my parents are being exceptionally flexible and obv i can’t really know what this friend’s thought process is #but it feels like they’re just kinda taking them for granted and taking advantage of their kindness #like fuck dude just please come on

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bisexualseraphim · 11 months ago

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I’m not like an expert on childcare or anything but I am a human person who has been around for over two decades and I have made a couple of interesting observations about kids during my time on this Earth:

If you scream at a small child, they are probably going to either scream back in defiance or start crying out of fear.

If you get rough with a small child and try to physically drag them around, they are probably going to feel trapped (because they are) and instinctively try to escape.

Doing either of these things will scare the child and make them significantly less likely to do as you ask and stay by your side because they don’t want to get screamed at or hit.

Now, this all might seem like common sense to you; and it absolutely is!

SO WHY THE FUCK DO MOTHERS OF TODDLERS AT THE SUPERMARKET KEEP BEHAVING THIS WAY

#Why is it legal for them to do this but it’d be illegal for me to give them a fuckin slap #(away from the child obvs so I don’t traumatise them further)#Like why the fuck are these people having kids when they clearly don’t even like them #You’re beefing with a 4 year old it’s so embarrassing for you #One time a little girl said she wanted a chocolate bar #And her mum went ‘yeah well I want loads of things but life isn’t fair like that’ ?????????????????????#Just say you have one at home or buy it and save it for when they’re really good or something Jesus it’s not hard #I hate how child abuse is so normalised #And people deny it because they don’t see this behaviour as abuse #These mfs act this way IN PUBLIC and most people don’t even blink #If they’re like this in public who knows what they do at home #Are you not ashamed of yourself are you not embarrazzed #child abuse #childcare #parenting #abuse #rant #vent #physical abuse #verbal abuse

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levil0vesyou · 1 year ago

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Having a post get popular enough to be independently reblogged by someone you follow but aren't mutuals with is. Wild

#yes it was the sex poll obvs #given the person is a minor i'm very glad they picked answer one lmao #like i do think minors in general are allowed to want and even have sex (with each other obvs) but when it's a minor i personally follow it #would just make me feel pretty weird lmao. like on a personal level ya feel? i mean when u reach an even closer level it becomes not weird #again like my dear friend ness (17yo) who afaik doesn't actually HAVE any sex but occasionally wants to and i support her hot girl summer.#but as stated this person barely knows i exist i just follow his blog (i used they earlier but this was incorrect but tumblr won't let me e #edit the tag 😔) and he's 16yo so seeing him talk about wanting and/or having sex would have been. uncomfortable. like obvs he'd be allowed #to because my personal discomfort is no indication of morality but you get it. like if my big little cousin (she's 15 now by god the years #don't stop coming) were to talk about sex and stuff to me or within earshot i would ummm. throw myself out the window? but like i'd still t #try to be supportive and if push comes to shove then yes i would give her condoms 😔 cuz like if a minor wants sex i will not be able to sto #stop them lmao but i can at least try and make it somewhat safe y'know #actually i remembered i have literally given a 15yo a condom before lmao she's prolly over 20 now but like as the adult dormmate it was alm #almost like a responsibility y'know like what do you want me to DO?? let her get pregnant?? anyway enough tangent lmao #btw all this is also why in the poll i included 'too young' but didn't specify an age cuz that's individual y'know. some people are p late #bloomers (i was one) while others choose to have consensual sex by 14 y'know. not something i like to think about but that doesn't mean it #won't happen ya feel. i mean what am i the american education system? lmao. so some ppl have interpreted being 17 as too young but there's #also folks like this who clearly consider 16 old enough and that's defo ppl's good right. and again i usually don't mind just the fact that #he in particular is someone i already knew made it uncomfy. but anyway yea back on topic it's very interesting in general when your post #gets big enough to independently make it to ur dash thru a non mutual lmao. love the hellsite honestly where else amirite #personal #mine #ok to rb ig #like the actual body of the post anyway. i'd be pretty uncomfy if said person saw my tags on this cuz y'know it's kind vagueing even if it'#not negative but anyway. anyway #*kinda

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autumnrory · 2 years ago

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sighhh looking at my bookmarks of present ideas for my mom and none of it sounds good rn

#gotta pick something soon tho #should've just gotten a gift card when i was getting them for all the june stuff but i wasn't thinking about it #idk why stuff always creeps up on me #i was using her calendar for figuring out my rheumatologist appointment since i obvs need her with me #and i saw she has notes when to buy cards for people and stuff she's SO organized my god #but yeah for mother's day i did a book and candle so i wanna do something else #she just bought some bath bombs while we were together so idk that she would want more of those rn #i have some perfume sample sets on here but i think some of them are out of stock bc they've been on there a while #she's easier to buy for than most people bc i generally know exactly what kind of stuff she likes #presents are just another thing i can't give much thought right now hence all the gift cards #(not that i think gift cards aren't a good gift i just like to pick something else if i can)#idk idk

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milflewis · 2 years ago

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sometimes i look at my sister and i see all the worst parts of me and it’s not terrible bc i don’t want that for her. which i don’t. but it’s terrible bc she’s doing it wrong

#like. she is showing it Wrong !#she is taking all this anger and rage at herself and shoving it at everyone around her and making her problem everyone’s problem and smth in #me physically recoils every time lol #like. visceral. smth deep inside me. just. says No <3 with teeth #but this isn’t wrong ! she is fifteen ! this is a child. this is a person. who is angry and in pain and messy and doesn’t know how to deal #with it and is being so v unkind to herself and is going through it by putting this on other ppl and picking fights so the anger can go #somewhere. and this isn’t healthy but holy fuck is it so much better than what i did and just internalised all of that until i couldn’t #speak about it for years lmao #it’s not wrong. it is not. but it feels like it is. my knee jerk reaction is what are you doing. stop. stop! keep that to yourself like the #rest of us. i don’t say this to her obv bc. ofc not. but jesus . yeah . yeah #and so i end up saying nothing to her or the diluted version of the right thing bc i’m so scared to tell her to do it like me which i do Not #want. like at all. she is not me and this is such a good thing #she also has a tendacy to bite the hands that fed her which. doesn’t help lmao #just. needed to get that out #delete later

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arovalentines · 17 days ago

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