#that’s where my issue lies

[sab-teraa]

[ignore]

[nenoname]

stan twins the canon cptsd brothers i will always think about all your unaddressed issues that would make perfect plot fuel for your spinoff

and also the whole 'stan getting that poem by bill via a website which contrasts with bill getting one from the axolotl via a website' foreshadowing thing

like idk i would love something like su future but like more optimistic, aka not an accumulated breakdown that has to be mostly resolved off screen at the end :/// but something thats being kinda addressed throughout? (although would love to see one of them turn into a monster thats always fun lol)

stan having severe issues from his dad and those years of being homeless that we keep on getting more info on but never really getting confronted on (the drifter catalogue and tijuana incident...), him being completely alone for like twenty years when running the shack before soos comes along to the point that 1998 is noted as his low point, and him not really learning about bill+what he did to ford until ages after he killed him if he ever did get the full context

while i think amnesia and everyone seeing him as a hero actually helped with stan's 'i'm a worse version of my brother' thing its still a lingering issue too and we now got him being insecure over his own hands

ford being immediately thrown from 'being tortured by bill' to 'being stuck in the multiverse and being chased by bounty hunters constantly', him fully expecting himself to die when destroying bill, and him only now being safe for the first time in 30 years ....relatively safe, he's still in constant danger because of course he is

idk in the end the series wants them to be happy and they deserve it, its why i wasn't too worried about the book being like 'ooh bill is back!! and the book is haunting ford' thing cos i knew they'll be ok

[nicnsmth1]

Schism Arc Thoughts (mostly of Karma and Nakamura)

these are mostly just random thoughts I had while looking through the manga cause I wanted screenshots of karma💀💀

I think it was obv from the start that despite it being divided to nagisa's team and karma's team, nagisa never led his team, it was isogai who did,, so the entire arc mostly focused on karma's thoughts bcs he was the one thinking everything through while nagisa worked at his own accord and relying on isogai to take charge of the others,, he's basically just a support for them if you really think about it, also bcs this is after the finals, I like how we get to see karma pointing out strengths and weaknesses of his classmates, shows how attentive he is to everyone around him, even small details from hazama's mobility, differences between chiba and hayami's sniping skills and mimura's eye for detail is smth the main series never really pointed out explicitly UNTIL he says it in his monologues

also nakamura talk but love how bestie they are in this arc, like karma's always busy watching the others but nakamura had him figured out all along,, he knew she was observant so he didn't question it, but that also explains why he placed her as the second in command, they mirror each other really well

[spotaus]

Thinking about Orchid and her connection to my take on Gender (because this was meant to be about her and the Crew but it just devolved into a character analysis kinda??? More trauma-dumping maybe???) This is very much an oc/personal rant so feel free to ignore it 🫡

So, Orchid started off as a character I didn't really think much of (hear me out this is going to be relevant) because I wanted to add a 'girl' character but didn't know what to *do* with her, y'know? She was always going to be the strongest one there, she had the odds stacked in her favor with her parents. She was always going to be the gloomy side-character to match Reset's energy. But I think she's gone through every stage of Generic Woman I could possibly find.

At first she was angry and abrasive (think Fell!Sans) where every other word was a curse and she was likely to throw the first punch then laugh as she kicks her enemy while they're down. This was when Reset was a cartoonishly self-centered villain whose goal was simply to prove others wrong. Then Orchid became a sort of sisterly figure. This was short-lived, but she was the one comforting people who Reset would torment, but would ultimately follow his orders, because at this point he was actually a danger and sadistic. And then there was the phase where the story mellowed out and she became the token Goth Girl who, yes she was strong, but was heavy on the 'whatever' energy. Then there was her Era of deep self-loathing and anxiety about her worth that held her back and made her a much more timid and meek character who would only lash out on occasion.

Now, Orchid is the best of those iterations I've written yet. She's calm, level-headed, and a natural leader. Her father raised those traits into her. But she's very reactive, and can be silly, and when she's comfortable it's likely that air of importance transforms into something more comfortable and familiar. She laughs loudly and grins wide, she likes loud video-games but loves to read in the quiet. She's extremely disciplined, and normally no one can get through her tough exterior besides her best friend, Reset. She does what she does for her own enjoyment, sure, but she's thought of every angle and makes her choice to help Reset and control the others with her whole chest. She still worries she won't live up to her invisible expectations, and that and her loyalty are her two driving forces.

I know that Orchid is important to me because she's the longest-running female oc I've had. I have a rough relationship with womanhood/girlhood and I know looking back that Orchid recieved every ounce of my distaste for being a woman that I could shovel into her. That never made her less of a character, she was actually always one of my favorites, and rarely was she a 'punching bag oc'. I just... projected onto her a lot. And she's a good sign of how I've learned who I am. I've decided that my own femininity is something I could live without. I'd rather not associate myself with it, and I'd like to leave it in my past, focusing on a future where I'm not tied down with any gender roles or expectations. That won't happen, but I've come to terms with it myself. Orchid though? I figured out through her that I don't have to hate women characters. My own distaste for my circumstances doesn't mean I have to push it onto my characters (on God I've never expressed anything rude to actual people, that'd be rude as hell and uncalled for, but I have a bad habit of disliking fictional women in media). So, Orchid is a well-roubded character finally. She has motivations abd goals and a *lot* more depth than I ever expected her to. She's happy with being a woman, she's content. She's not treated differently for it in unfair ways by those she cares about, so she doesn't mind it. She likes to wear pretty outfits and lets Reset add bows to her ribbons. She doesn't let being a woman hold her back in the slightest.

So, yeah. Orchid is one of my babies. If I ever leave this Fandom behind for good, she's one that's coming with (Ichor, Orchid, and Pretender all have human designs I can use elsewhere lol-) but in the meantime I'll just rotate her around in my brain for a while longer.

If I'm right, she's been with me for nearly 5-6 years and I went through a *lot* with her as an outlet. So, she's kinda just like an old stuffed animal. A lil ripped, matted fur, maybe a stain or two, but there's a story there and that makes it important beyond belief.

[talentforlying]

priest: i don't, ah, quite know what to say to you. if you are in such terrible danger, why are you taking it all so calmly? constantine: hmh! i dunno, father. i had a bloke beaten to a pulp earlier this evening. that sound calm to you? priest: you did what...? constantine: i must've been off me bleedin' rocker. i've never done anything like it before in me life, y'know?

constantine: but there's header gets his guts blown out, and george is stickin' his head in the noose, and helen gets ... jesus, then friggin' sarah bites me head off — ! everything's coming to bits in me hands and it's so easy to just see red and now, shit, they could've killed the tosser for all i know! and now i'm just like the bastards i've hated all me life! kill him! fire him! close them down! piss all over him! screw you, i can do whatever i want! i so much as blink and you're dead, pal! i'm in charge!! ...

constantine: 'scuse me, father. i'm always like this when i don't get me own way. — hellblazer #81, "rake at the gates of hell pt. 4"

babygirl you are just....so, sooooo offputting. (and grieving, and guilty, and terrified, but yeah: offputting.)

anyway, it's issues like this one that remind me why i kind of hesitate over some of the retcons in the recent spurrier runs, like the one with him now having opened dream's pouch of sand and stolen some before they even met. because like, it's easy enough to look at john constantine now — with 70 years of worst possible choices and unresolved trauma crystallizing underneath his skin to cover up all the soft, hopeful bits where he's used to getting hit — and assign him arbiter of ill intentions, magus of wasted potential, saint of shit choices, but man . . . he was new to this, once. he was still new to this 80 issues in.

80 issues in, and he's not used to losing friends yet; he even has time enough between catastrophes to grieve each individual one. still has enough left to live for at this stage to necessitate running and hiding, instead of bodily throwing himself at the problem like he learns to later, or sitting apathetically by to do nothing except smoke and watch the world fall apart when he finally gives up. fuck, he still apologizes.

and you're telling me this guy, this soppy wet cat motherfucker hiding from the devil in a church basement, so guilty over not knowing what happened to the guy that he paid people (paid chas, so chas could pay people) to attack that the bottle he's holding in this scene isn't even his second or third........this guy's past, more innocent self lied right to the face of DREAM OF THE ENDLESS and got away with it?

hm. i just don't know about all that.

[just-a-girl-with-a-pistol]

I played a thing.....

[todayisafridaynight]

everyday i constantly think of masato's wheelchair and if that's his only one/main one no wonder he's so pissed at everyone

[sonknuxadow]

Sonics real name is 'none of your business'

#StopTryingToDeadNameTheHedgehog

REAL

[moophinz]

I’ve made a short, tiny piece of criticism regarding fandom’s behavior of being super demanding and not engaging with the thing they demanded. But there’s something else that’s been bothering me for a while now…

This fandom feels very baby. In that way, I mean that it feels super young. So young, that certain popular people on Twitter who would have been called out for numerous counts of various flavors of poor behavior in other fandoms get strangely shared around a lot here. I don’t find much in the way of deeper analysis topics or video essays. Memes (that if I may be honest) have been used to death and beyond still get repeated— even when it’s completely unwarranted. The worse of the meme brain rot crossover with steep bigotry people tend to overwhelm and act incredibly disgusting in some corners of the fandom and on official posts.

Like with any thing or community or what have you, there’s people who seek engagement bait and spread negativity. I’m surprised at how successful it can be to do that in this fandom on Twitter. It creates such a rotten atmosphere. All in all, a lot of these things have been pushing me away from the community even though I only joined into this series in 2021. It feels like some kind of tide turned for the worse.

Yes, this fandom is in fact relatively new in a way. It’s existed for almost two decades but exploded some years ago with a continued high stream of sudden growth. But there are certain things that I’m still astonished by.

[beesorcery]

google how do i tell my dad that the reason i keep bringing up elon musk's transphobia isn't that i've got gen z political tunnel vision that makes me blind to his "innovation" in electric cars but because i am desperately crying out for you as the father of a trans child to feel just as outraged and angry as i am that that man has so much power

[dysphoresque]

Text ID: SURE YOU MOVED OUT YEARS AGO BUT THAT DOESN'T MATTER. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN YOUR MOTHER'S HOUSE.

SOMETIMES WHEN GOOD THINGS HAPPEN / YOU START TO WONDER / IF THINGS WERE EVER BAD. // MAYBE YOU JUST EXAGGERATED.// YOUR MOTHER ALWAYS SAY YOU EXAGGERATE THINGS.// SHE SAYS IT'S THE WRITER IN YOU.// YOUR MOTHER IS A VERY GOOD LIAR. // YOU LEARNED FROM THE BEST.

[cubot]

I get alone with my thoughts for one second and then my brain goes to the VN love interest route I beat yesterday and I go, "jesus fucking christ what the fuck."

[hannahhasafact]

One of my coworkers keeps telling me things about this job/company and I’m just feeling a real combination of

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[roobylavender]

do you believe Bruce is emotionally abusive? ik fans prioritise physical abuse and ultimately ignore emotional abuse tactics like parentification etc because it’s not “that bad”. I don’t believe Dick ever resents Bruce for letting him be robin (he’s grateful for it) , but in ntt he mostly resents him for being emotionally closed off, and rejecting him as a partner. Bruce worries for his kids safety so he pushes the whole “if you’re not perfect you’re dead” mentality onto Dick which ultimately is harmful to him. He’ll never regret being a hero but the rift between the two isn’t just a “we want different things” scenario but more that they’re incapable of giving the other what they want.

bruce being emotionally closed off from dick is what’s revisionist about that version of canon though. i think bruce can be bad at communicating sometimes esp when he’s deeply pained (like in knightfall, for example) but for the most part he and dick are shown to have great communication for decades before new teen titans and the adjacent post crisis starlin canon starts to rewrite that dynamic into something else entirely. per that version of canon i do believe he’s emotionally abusive but it’s not a version of canon i particularly appreciate bc it requires overriding the dynamic they had previously where they could certainly be prone to disagree at times but bruce was nonetheless willing to have an open and understanding conversation with dick about whatever the disagreement was. even the whole idea that bruce is responsible for dick believing that he has to be perfect or he has to be dead is one that new teen titans cements (or that issue of batman where bruce makes dick quit and jason is introduced thereafter)

i get that it’s easy to take new teen titans as gospel bc it is in essence the textbook source for dick but i think there should be some awareness too of how it twists that relationship between them and not necessarily for the better. i’m not opposed to bruce having faults he has to answer for. i absolutely agree he’s not cognizant enough of the complexes dick develops as a result of wanting to be seen as an equal, and thereby can’t realize the effect it has on dick for him to still be protective and fearful even if it’s ultimately out of goodwill and love. and there’s also the fact that even if he gives dick the space he desires to lead his own life it doesn’t mean he should be hesitant to reach out bc he’s afraid he’ll overstep by doing so, as a parent he should reaffirm his love for dick regularly regardless of knowing he might get some pushback bc dick is growing into his own (again, knightfall is a really superb example of this). but i also think those are tensions you can wholeheartedly explore without rendering bruce into a controlling and abusive figure, and i’m not sure who it benefits to write bruce as such in the long run

some of dick’s problems have to be his own, and he’ll never escape bruce’s shadow if the only source point of issues in his life is his relationship with bruce. that’s something i would actually apply to the robins at large. hardly any of them are allowed to explore problems entirely unique to themselves and i think that’s in large part bc writers simultaneously portray a mildly to explicitly abusive bruce at their leisure while refusing to ever actually address the elephant in the room that is literally of their own creation. a lot of people believe the bruce shouldn’t be an abuser argument is framed entirely as a resistance to bruce’s character assassination and for me i can admit that’s part of it, but a more pertinent part of it should also be the fact that bruce being written as an abuser is what truly chains his children to him forever to the point that they can never grow beyond that abuse bc writers refuse to allow them to. imagine the problems the robins could be addressing individually in their lives if not everything came down to them being fucked up bc that’s the way bruce raised them or failed to thereby. there’s a lot about the robins as individuals that’s deeply interesting and i think it’s not just a disservice to bruce but to them as well to write the relationships this way bc it obscures their own agency and ability to be explored for more than a haunted legacy narrative

[positivelybeastly]

Do you ever resent Scott Summers?

"Resent - ? What, no! Scott is, well, he's something of a martinet, to be certain, and he could definitely lighten up a tad, but what is there to resent? Anyone with so much as a hint of maturity can see that he's simply trying his best in an impossible situation. I sometimes think that the Professor puts a little too much pressure on him, to be frank. No, I do not resent Scott Summers one bit. If anything, I'm grateful for Scott Summers."

"Scottie? Pfft, not one bit. He may appear stiff and unapproachable, and - he is." Hank grins a little, like Fozzie Bear after a particularly awful joke. "But he's also a great friend. He tries his best, he really does. Does he fall short? Sure. But we all do, every now and then. The real important part is that he tries. That's all I can ever ask of him."

"Is it resentment? I'm not quite sure. On the one paw, he - he - " Oh, this answer is off to a brilliant start. Hank takes off his glasses and rubs at the bridge of his nose.

". . . He's gone too far. I look at him, and I don't see the same man I thought I knew all those years. I want to see that man. I want so badly to just, go back and apologise, and tell him that the water is firmly under the, X-Force, shaped, bridge. Because I understand why he did it. That's the thing I truly do resent him for, is that I can't even say I don't get it, because I do, now.

But mostly I resent everyone else. Because when I left, no-one came with me. They stood with Scott, and they stood with Logan, and they had the audacity to act as if I were the one betraying them, as if I was the one who turned their back on them, when those two were lining up shots and taking them. Is that not a betrayal? To look at the principles that we were taught, at the basic decency, at the common human covenant of 'thou shalt not kill', and deem them a luxury, and not our guide?

. . . Yes. Yes, I do resent him."

Hank's very, very quiet for a good long time, just seeming to stare into the distance. "I think, that . . ." He's quiet again, his thumbs drumming against one another.

"I think that Scott brings out the worst in me. I think that I resent him for being - for being the man that mutantkind needed, when I very much wasn't. I resent him for dying a hero. I resent him for running headlong past the limits I set for myself, for doing things I would consider reckless and irresponsible and ruinous for mutantkind, and being rewarded for it. I resent him for exposing that yes, it really is the petty, wounded little heart that actually drives this big blue brain, after I spent so much time cultivating an image of logic, of cool, of pretending that it didn't."

He swallows.

"I resent Scott Summers for exposing the fact that in the end, I'm simply not good enough. For validating what I've known all along. Clearly, it's all his fault."

His gaze is cold.

"What's to resent? It was embarrassing for a time, I suppose, to be caught so thoroughly off balance and waste so many years pretending that Cyclops' methods were anything other than absolutely necessary. But now, I possess perfect clarity.

Cyclops was right. His only flaw was that he lacked the stomach to follow through."

He starts, blinking, taking a moment to - process, think, to collect up his marbles in a little black bag. He sniffs.

"Resent him? No. No." Hank shakes his head. "Mostly, I just . . . I just miss him."

"Fuck that body condom wearing little twit. Resent? Please. What's to resent? An army of brats from a variety of increasingly more ridiculous futures, his lack of an ass, the way he simpers and sniffs and eats his soup like a little dweeb? Resent. Pffft."

[antimony-ore]

Starting to rewatch Gravity Falls helped get my creative juices flowing, I remembered my villain will seem darker if I keep the rest if the narative a little silly.