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You did this. Not me. Not Katie. Leave us both alone. (Part 2.1)
Robert asks Andy where Katie is and he throws his sleeping with Sadie back at him… it is all down to him Katie is gone. Chas clearly doesn’t have an issue with Robert over Katie. Robert wants nothing to do with Sadie’s advice giving. Cain continually pesters Robert this time using the sorry excuse over shoving Shadrach.
16-May-2005
#classic ED#classic ED robert’s story#20050516#episode 4051#first half of part two of the episode#classic ED 2005#200505#andy sugden#robert sugden#karl davies#shadrach dingle#cain dingle#chas dingle#sadie king#jimmy king#carl king#max king#you’re loving this aren’t ya?#getting one back on me#chas doesn’t come off bitter at all toward robert#that’s right everything’s my fault#cain pestering cain
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the thing is there's like, a point of oversaturation for everything, and it's why so many things get dropped after a few minutes. and we act like millennials or gen z kids "have short attention spans" but... that's not quite it. it's more like - we did like it. you just ruined it.
capitalism sees product A having moderate success, and then everything has to come out with their "own version" of product A (which is often exactly the same). and they dump extreme amounts of money and environmental waste into each horrible simulacrum they trot out each season.
now it's not just tiktokkers making videos; it's that instagram and even fucking tumblr both think you want live feeds and video-first programming. and it helps them, because videos are easier to sneak native ads into. the books coming out all have to have 78 buzzwords in them for SEO, or otherwise they don't get published. they are making a live-action remake of moana. i haven't googled it, but there's probably another marvel or starwars something coming out, no matter when you're reading this post.
and we are like "hi, this clone of project A completely misses the point of the original. it is soulless and colorless and miserable." and the company nods and says "yes totally. here is a different clone, but special." and we look at clone 2 and we say "nope, this one is still flat and bad, y'all" and they're like "no, totally, we hear you," and then they make another clone but this time it's, like, a joyless prequel. and by the time they've successfully rolled out "clone 89", the market is incredibly oversaturated, and the consumer is blamed because the company isn't turning a profit.
and like - take even something digital like the tumblr "live streaming" function i just mentioned. that has to take up server space and some amount of carbon footprint; just so this brokenass blue hellsite can roll out a feature that literally none of its userbase actually wants. the thing that's the kicker here: even something that doesn't have a physical production plant still impacts the environment.
and it all just feels like it's rolling out of control because like, you watch companies pour hundreds of thousands of dollars into a remake of a remake of something nobody wants anymore and you're like, not able to afford eggs anymore. and you tell the company that really what you want is a good story about survival and they say "okay so you mean a YA white protagonist has some kind of 'spicy' love triangle" and you're like - hey man i think you're misunderstanding the point of storytelling but they've already printed 76 versions of "city of blood and magic" and "queen of diamond rule" and spent literally millions of dollars on the movie "Candy Crush Killer: Coming to Eat You".
it's like being stuck in a room with a clown that keeps telling the same joke over and over but it's worse every time. and that would be fine but he keeps fucking charging you 6.99. and you keep being like "no, i know it made me laugh the first time, but that's because it was different and new" and the clown is just aggressively sitting there saying "well! plenty of people like my jokes! the reason you're bored of this is because maybe there's something wrong with you!"
#this was much longer i had to cut it down for legibility#but i do want to say i am aware this post doesnt touch on human rights violations as a result of fast fashion#that is because it deserves its own post with a completely different tone#i am an environmental educator#so that's what i know the most about. it wouldn't be appropriate of me to mention off-hand the real and legitimate suffering#that people are going through#without doing my research and providing real ways to help#this is a vent post about a thing i'm watching happen; not a call to action. it would be INCREDIBLY demeaning#to all those affected by the fast fashion industry to pretend that a post like this could speak to their suffering#unfortunately one of the horrible things about latestage capitalism as an activist is that SO many things are linked to this#and i WANT to talk about all of them but it would be a book in its own right. in fact there ARE books about each level of this#and i encourage you to seek them out and read them!!! i am not an expert on that i am just a person on tumblr doing my favorite activity#(complaining)#and it's like - this is the individual versus the industry problem again right because im blaming myself#for being an expert on environmental disaster (which is fucking important) but not knowing EVERYTHING about fast fashion#i'm blaming myself for not covering the many layers of this incredibly complicated problem im pointing out#rather than being like. yeah so actually the fault here lies with the billion dollar industries actually.#my failure to be able to condense an incredibly immense problem that is BOOK-LENGTH into a single text post that i post for free#is not in ANY fucking way the same amount of harm as. you know. the ACTUAL COMPANIES doing this ACTUAL THING for ACTUAL MONEY.#anyway im gonna go donate money while i'm thinking about it. maybe you can too. we can both just agree - well i fuckin tried didn't i#which is more than their CEOs can say
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a little something
#I dedicate it to each and every one of my mutuals by whose fault I saw that goddamn spongebob meme way too many times this week#maybe MAYBE I come back to it later to make proper animatic and just.. draw everything a bit longer so it looks a bit better yk...#but as of right now I can't keep it to myself because no one will remember which spongebob meme I'm talking about😔#sebaciel#kuroshitsuji#black butler#ciel phantomhive#sebastian michaelis#my art#sketch#animatic
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god he (dean) used to be so different my chest hurts
#early seasons dean was such a complex character who was ultimately good. seemingly careless bad boy who actually cared ! so much ! too much#he was perfect early seasons dean my everything <3#like this was such a healthy and good conversation im actually breaking out in hives#he used to be so good and sweet and thoughtful !!! he was willing to offer himself up for blame make to make sam see the truth !!#he couldn’t stand for sam being wrongfully sad or guilty he wouldn’t allow for it he needed for him to be okay#late seasons dean was an abusive shitbag#early seasons spn#early seasons spn my beloved#spn#samdean#sam winchester#dean winchester#but in all honesty it started right from s4-5#after he came back from hell. and he couldn’t deal with the trauma of it and he cried once and was absolved of every fault ever
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THIRTY-ONE DAYS OF GHOST ⛧ DAY ONE
first song you heard — Mary On A Cross
September 1969; Papa Nihil and the beginning of the Ghost Project take to the stage at the Whiskey a Go Go club in Los Angeles, under the watchful eye of Sister Imperator. Fifty-three years later, in Tampa, Florida, Papa Emeritus the Fourth performs Mary On A Cross, unaware that he is singing the story of his parents—and that of himself.
#note: i'm aware this song is about so much more than the fictional ghost story. just really enjoying that aspect of it rn#very nearly didn't do this series because some people are a bit silly about fans who heard moac as the first song. i'm owning it sdkjcksh#it wasn't the song that made me a fan as i will show in the next post but moac slaps so hard and#if you only like moac and nothing else you're still a ghestie to me <3#not my fault i was on instagram in autumn of 2022#i was going through some stuff then and listening to clips of this pretty song on random videos was something i enjoyed#didn't know the name of it or who sung it but kept hearing it at 4am when i couldn't sleep and everything was falling apart around me#when all i could do was try to escape it until the morning#i feel a bit stupid saying this but when i listen to it now and remember hearing it back then#it's like ghost was there for me even when i didn't know it#waiting for me to find them and everything their music would teach me#until the time was right#ghost31#papa emeritus iv#the band ghost#papa nihil#sister imperator#mary on a cross#user copia edits#user copia all tag#wait for the next tags i'm also tagging:#rite here rite now spoilers#i'm emotional about their messed up little family finding each other right at the very end. they never let each other go#flashing gif#<- ig
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When I see Jason and Bruce acting like the stereotypical "prodigal son and gruff but loving father" (in canon!) my blood boils.
Jason died. Bruce did not avenge him, not even "playing by the rules", so not even by arresting the Joker. He didn't do JACK SHIT after his boy was murdered. And once Jason came back, Bruce slit his throat in order to save the life of the man who murdered him, and then left him to die in a burning building.
They should be unable to coexist in the same room let alone speak let alone have a "difficult but ultimately loving relationship". I hate you DC I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE
#the enormous injustice of what happened to Jason is hard to even process#he's one of the most mistreated mainstream characters I've ever seen (as in mistreated by the writers and directors)#this boy died and his family didn't lift a finger and suddenly he comes back and everything is his fault#it's his fault for dying it's his fault for being traumatized it's his fault for suffering it's his fault for being angry it's HIS FAULT#while Bruce keeps being heroic and stoic and in the right even if he slits a boy's neck in order to save his murderer's life#because how dare Jason demand love and demand justice and demand his pain to be seen and heard and acknowledged#aaarghbgvnhgrghenvvfkj I know this is nothing new but I'm hella stressed so this is going to be my emotional outlet for today apparently#bruce wayne#jason todd#my meta
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Time will change you, We all outgrow our roots.
SURPRISE I've been thinking about Rip again, jk that's not surprising. anyways text is Rips inner thoughts from Time Masters #8. sort of.
#rip hunter#my art.png#anyways reminder daffodils represent rebirth and new beginnings which i feel like rip also represents within the meta.#but also i could go on a rant about how rip did the whole ''learn the past cant be changed without gravely hurting everything around-#-you can only move forward even when looking back and grow with the changes'' before booster did. and he did it alone (his own fault)#rips battles with mental health and violent self destruction and realizing that he isn't always right r important to me. SIGH.#also let me go ahead and post this at 2am my bad#idk if i like this but i havent finished art like this in months so we move on.
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thinking so hard and deep about that ec bit about kevin wanting to learn the piano. should we kill ourselves
#a tangent but it always annoys me when people say kevin Needs to have something outside of exy. famously he does#it’s not his fault he’s surrounded by cunts#but that’s not my point. Hes so cutieful……….#seriously my princess….. the Mental image of him playing piano just rlly gets me. isee#and hed be so Passionate about it….. aiye#and good too i think#everything kevin falls in love with falls in love with him right back…#:( pianist…. wife…#txt#kevin
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i’ve never been as angry on behalf of a character as i am for sam winchester
#currently thinking about season four and five. absolutely fuckibg mental#the world literally reshapes itself around him to prove him wrong#its all framed as God. Sam was so stupid and selfish and reckless for drinking demon blood. He just liked the power of it and he chose a#DEMON over DEAN.#but. that’s not the story they tell in s4.#like even aside from every single other complexity. Sam is literally right. he has ZERO WAY of knowing that killing lilith is the final seal#AND DEAN DOESNT KNOW TJAT EITHER. like sam is literally right he can kill lilith and he does kill lilith. dean wants lilith dead just as#much. sam’s cardinal sin is disobeying dean and then the world flips around on him and plot twist sam and dean were both wrong all along and#killing lilith is what will bring back lucifer :)#but. it’s not framed like that either. it’s framed like SAM BROUGHT BACK LUCIFER BY KILLING LILITH WHILE HIGH ON DEMON BLOOD#dean you wanted to kill lilith too?????????#but. doesn’t matter dean despite being mostly motivated by jealous anger is retroactively proven to be Right#and sam is retroactively proven to be Wrong. he is bad#i just. jesus. sam’s not evil ever. he’s hardly even that fucking morally grey#and he still thinks there’s something wrong with him that he’s a freak that he’s inherently evil and needs to be purified#why?? cause of something fucked up that happened to him when he was a baby#and because he’s disobeyed his father and his brother and been angry at awful things that have happened to him#makes me feel fucking insane actually#no wonder narrative frames sam as evil no wonder he’s inherently marked as Bad by the forces in supernatural like even on a meta level#in supernatural gods just another shitty father. embodiment of the familial patriarch. and from sam’s very first moment on the show he’s in#opposition to that he’s ran away from john and he argues with dean. therefore he is evil#i don’t think my words r really making sense right now but. fucking hell#and sam is so swamped in guilt all of season five and he just fucking accepts that everything bad is his fault#and he gets tortured in the cage to save the fucking world and it’s STILL not enough. not to appease his own guilt and not to appease deans#anger at him. dean is still throwing his perceived violations back at him in like season nine!!#and whenever he tries to get out it’s treated as yet another Sin. narrative acts like sam thinking dean was dead and having a life outside#of hunting is The Worst Thing He Ever Did#worst sin sam ever commits in the eyes of the show is disobedience. Absolutely awful actually#spn#sam winchester
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jaya....? (sike. its skybound bad end au. in which jay fails miserably but “nya” never dies. can you imagine?)
#jay walker#ninjago jay#ninjago nya#technically delara.#ninjago#jaya#lol..................#skybound#my art#im not that satisfied with this piece but man. the concept tho#CAN YOU IMAGINE? IT REALLY SAD. IT WOULD BE SO FUNNY.#imagine being the guy who fucked up so bad. everything was your fault. youre the cause of everything that went wrong#all your friends are dead. youre still trapped in a prison of your own making#and you cant fix anything anymore. its too late and you dug too deep into your own grave#but worst of all shes still in front of you#the reason why you made a whole mess of things#the girl you still havent gotten over#but shes also gone. shes right in front of you but thats not her. YOU did this to her#she stands before you as a symbol of mockery of all your failings and mistakes#like its really funny to her#like you couldnt be any more pathetic#:)!!!!!!!!!!!!!#normal about skybound??? nope!!!!!!!! im not!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Being a student did not prepare me for the tremendous stress and guilt I feel being the doctor responsible for the care of precious animals.
#am I doing enough?#am I doing it right?#is it my fault she didn’t get better?#did I misdiagnose this and mislead the owners?#did I cause them undue stress?#am I moving fast enough?#am I helping my coworkers?#why don’t I know how to do this?#I feel incompetent#but then I’m right about one thing#and everything feels okay for a while#vet med#I’m sorry this blog is dead#I’m working 7 days a week#I’m so tired
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Percy: I overachieved for what? All that work and it amounts to nothing!!! Almost killing myself taking every class all for it to crash and burn? I did everything right. I followed every rule!!! It’s not fair. I tried, I tried so fucking hard. Why wasn’t it enough?!?!?
Bill: I don’t know little brother.
Percy: I’m tired.
#percy weasley#harry potter#hp#middle child rights#overachieving children unite#he did everything he could#like I’m sorry my coworkers are incompetent#it’s not my fault there’s a fucking terrorist on the loose#Bill holds Percy’s hand until he doesn’t sound so sad anymore#older sibling problems#weasley siblings
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it’s the picture of diana in lawrence’s wallet with her arms wrapped around a dog, it’s the horse riding awards in her bedroom and and the snake toy she has draped over her headboard .. it’s adam who wanted so badly to be a vet, adam who loves cats and brings them saucers of milk despite there being barely anything in his fridge .. it’s them bonding over their love of animals, diana showing adam her amazing animal facts book and adam asking for one every time he sees her, it’s adam saving up his own money so he can surprise her with a trip to the zoo for their next adam-and-diana day when lawrence and alison are at work and need someone to watch her, it’s him taking his camera, getting pictures of her with her favorite animals and developing them, it’s diana telling adam she wants to be a vet when she grows up and him getting excited, grabbing lawrence’s stethoscope when diana says she wants to play vets and taking his job oh so seriously when diana says that he’s gotta be her assistant, it’s .. its ..
#sorry for getting a little sick in the head about adam being the best stepdad ever as if its my fault#ohhhhhhhhhhh. its all a little too much for me#starts sobbing in a terrible nd agonising sort of way right after pressing post#good god man. talking to self#get a grip#chainshipping#diana gordon#adam faulkner stanheight#📹#no way in hell lawrence dr gordon md has a dog they do not have pets. maybe hed be ok w a rabbit#uhoh motifs cant stop wont stop#that dog is definitely an uncles or an aunts i just dont see in any universe lawrence having a dog or even a cat unless adam is involved#unless in some sort of fun au lawence finds a cat nd takes it to vet adam for the plot but otherwise no#n e way !#amazing animal facts was published in 2003 so it checks out actually#i checked for the post nd everything i take this all very seriously you know
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Sorry, but I can’t stop think about this right here…
#boku no hero academia#my hero academia#league of villains#bnha#mha#lov#shigaraki tomura#tenko shimura#bnha shigaraki#mha shigaraki#bnha season 7#mha season 7#LIKE— it’s stronger than me… these words keep replaying in my brain#and they actually destroy me ngl because he is right. HE GOT A POINT.#before you are ‘broken’ everyone doesn’t even spare a glance at you… some even might just downplay your pain…#but as soon as you ‘get out of character’ or explode after years of swallowing everything… you just become a ‘crazy bitch’ or ‘the problem’#which i personally think is sick and twisted because as soon as you choose to stop endure and stand up for yourself…#not only peoples look at you… but they even have the guts to call you dramatic problematic and crazy when you’re just HURT#and you were driven to that point by THE SAME persone who call you dramatic and sensitive who lack accountability#because their egocentrism narcissism and arrogance doesn’t allow them to think of themselves to be at fault#hori manipulating and brainwashing everyone into thinking that the lov weren’t onto something right here makes me nauseous…#like— no. FUCK. NO. WHY ARE YOU INVALIDITATING ALL OF THE LOVs FEELINGS?????? STOP IT. USE YOUR BRAIN DAMMIT.
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I feel so angry and upset and like there's such a crushing weight on my shoulders.
#Theres a long standing delusion I struggle with#Everything in the world is my fault and my responsibility#And I should be able to fix it#It hits harder some days than others#And it's pretty fucking bad right now#Sorry everyone
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Reading loz/lu fics and it's just so interesting how wide the spectrum is of their personalities.
Sometimes it's got an in universe reason (different past (usually gender or species change), recent or ongoing traumatic events, a spectacularly bad first meeting), but sometimes (often) the characters are just... Weirdly angsty or peppy, there's no in between!
And I'm beginning to think less people have played more than one game than I thought XD.
Not that it's anyone's fault! One game is more than enough to be part of it all, and loz is exclusive to Nintendo consoles - and all the older stuff is frustratingly hard to get hold of. Heck, I'm still looking for wind waker, and that was really popular! And then you have to play it! They're not small games!!
But could people writing wild please ease off just a tiiiiiny bit so he can be a semi functional member of society pretty please XD? He's just as much a polite boy as any other member of the chain! He won't even run in shops! He can't attack npcs! He talks to every single person he's ever seen and remembers every single name. Yes, he's three quarters woodland creature with a hefty amount of trauma but he's also a fashionista who managed to avoid accidentally taking sides in a mayoral election and that's not easy!
#I have some actual gripes but that's just me being pedantic about something I know a lot about#loz#legend of zelda#tears of the kingdom#loz link#loz botw#loz totk#the legend of zelda#totk link#lu wild#Okay but please stop making his teleportation a point of interest to the chain they ALL can warp it's not even slightly special#And the slate/pad doesn't hold any items I'm begging you that's just fanon it's never been canon or been implied to be#Travelling across hyrule (on horseback) is about a week and a half following the paths at a walk. Rito to lurelin. It's not weeks on foot t#Hyrule Castle!!#This isn't a problem but like. Let link be petty brats to civilians occasionally. It's enrichment. They all have beef with some rando.#They're all extremely polite and let people get away with more than they maybe should but like. Adults starting smth with a 16yo.#Also wild has serious beef with ganon why does everyone write him so chill. Like botw sure but totk?? Absolutely not.#'wah my home is in ruins it's all my fault' it's been like that for yonks no one's even mad and hello?? Miles on miles on untouched#Landscapes?? Millenia of ruins indistinguishable from the recent stuff?? Link literally died he could not have done any more#How anyone can play botw/totk and not be BLISTERINGLY proud of hyrule I don't know#Okay but why does everyone (particularly legend omg) always bitterly blame hylia like loz has a dozen odd deities and hylia is the ONE who#Got cursed right alongside link. It's just... Idk but it seems like such a culturally Christian thing. All the focus on one who then gets#Blamed for everything in life going wrong. Not even Christian but specifically American Catholic. I don't know.#Hylia is the one deity we can pretty safely assume is neither omnipotent or omniscient lmao#In every time she has a voice (botk/ss) she pretty clearly mucks up or gets tricked and has regrets#In ss when she was zelda she hated every second of leading link around and even then it all hinged on link being completely willing!!#And then she got kidnapped anyway!#In totk (spoilers) she loses contact with one of her statues and asks link to check it out. Another statue gets POSESSED by ol triangle hea#And again link has to figure out the problem. Like even in her divine form she is so far from all knowing and all doing.#It's a lot of conflating with the concept of fate maybe?
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