#that or watch a movie. depends which one will tire me out faster lol

[keeps-ache]

thinking of fairies that look like ferret + mourning doves. uh huh yep :>

[umemiyan]

Happy Friday Robin!! ❤️ tell me, what does the weekend routine look like in the Aviary?

HELLO MY WONDERFUL PRECIOUS sorry i didn’t answer this last night i was so damn tired fjdndjskks

but omg okay so weekends are reserved for family fun time <3 aka all the little birdies are forced to get together and do activities because mother says so. also in my fantasy land i don’t work on weekends, so this is actually possible LMAO

on saturday we’ll usually go out and do something or maybe stay home and do like a movie marathon or game night or something like that. it depends on the activity but we usually end up leaving the house sometime in the early afternoon because it takes everyone a while to get ready, but i’ve devised a plan that somewhat moves everything along a little bit faster

belphie and nagi have to get their asses up. i usually employ the help of either tanjiro or suga for this because they’re good motivators while also being capable of gentleness to avoid irritation. hajime can also be good for tasks like these.

denki has to decide which jacket and cologne he wants to wear. hajime has to fix his hair. oikawa’s taking mirror selfies. i have to be kissy kissy with katsuki to keep him from blowing up because “all you damn extras are taking too long” etc. even tho i'm lowkey feeling the same way. it’s a whole process truly, like taking a huge family with lots of children out

some of my good boys like megumi are just sitting off to the side waiting because he in particular has been up since 6am. yuuta’s there with him because that bitch barely sleeps

i usually try to have everybody ready to go by a certain time, but depending on the progress that’s made we sometimes split up. hajime or someone will be like “you go ahead and take those guys and i’ll get everyone else rounded up. we’ll be right behind you.” so me and my little brigade of punctual/efficient babies are loading up in the van to go to the mall or whatever LOL

sundays are way more chill like everyone is just getting up whenever they want and tanjiro will probably try to make two or three different waves of breakfast because he feels bad if somebody misses it fkdjdkdjdn i’m like “tanjiro it’s okay they can just have cereal” but he’s literally already cracking eggs into the pan

everyone’s mostly just chilling around watching tv/movies or playing games with some designated chores mixed in. it’s not an organized family event but it may end up being a whole group thing depending on what we’re watching or doing. even katsuki’s competitive ass cannot resist a mario kart tournament or something djdjsksjje

anyways yeah we’re a big insane family but it’s so much fun <3 oh and we usually have a nice homemade dinner on sunday evening!!! most everyone ends up pitching in one way or another whether it be cooking or setting the table because they’re not allowed near the stove lmfao

[imaginesntingz]

Haikyuu Headcannons: When they’re obsessed with your 🍑 (Oikawa Tooru, Ukai Keishin, Kozume Kenma)

Warnings: Swearing, not super explicit/nsfw, but suggestive content so I’ll put it below the cut just in case

A/N: What’s good everyone? Here’s something that I’ve stayed up way too late working on. It’s 5 in the morning and I’ve forgotten my own name. Let me know if y’all want a continuation with other characters. They all ended up being setters in this one so I just went with it I guess. All characters are aged up and 18+. I hope you enjoy! Please don’t copy any of my writings. My content is originally written and I put a lot of time and effort into each piece. Ask me before reposting.

Oikawa Tooru:

Of course he’s respectful when you’re in public, but that doesn’t mean he hasn’t noticed the way that new skirt he bought you last week accentuates your ass in justtt the right way.

You’ve caught him staring a few times and he always plays innocent like the sly little shit that he is.

You called him out once, but you know your mans is dramatic

“You wound me, (y/n) chan! What kind of a man do you take me for? I’m a gentleman! Honestly it’s not all that impressive anyways”

“Sounds like someone’s projecting”

“(Y/N), YOU TAKE THAT BACK RIGHT NOW!”

“You blatantly asked for the smoke, so I kindly obliged~”

“I was just kidding, baby! Why’d you have to come for me like that? 😭😭😭😭”

You had one brattykawa on your hands after that one. Dats tough

Anywhooo

Once you two are alone OOF. This. Bitch. Is. SHAMELESS.

He can’t keep his hands off of you. Doesn’t matter the size or shape

Your ass = Tooru magnet

He could pick you out in a crowd of people based on that booty alone

You’ll be cuddling on the couch, you're on top with your head on his chest just watching a movie and enjoying each other’s presence. Then BAM he’s got both cheeks in each hand, squeezing and kneading firmly

“Neee, (y/n) chan~ You’re so soft, baby girl~ How is that even allowed? Damn you’re so gorgeous, princess”

You: Head Empty

You're bent over the kitchen island scrolling through your phone? This mans is playing patty cake on your buns. Those setter hands are dangerously powerful. Of course he knows how to restrain himself as to not hurt you but whew some of those spanks leave you deliciously breathless and your little gasps are like music to his ears… which usually leads to other tingzzzzz and Tooru teasing you for walking funny the next day

Could his ego get any bigger? I don’t know if we’d survive it

Wearing his favorite pair of leggings or those cute pajama shorts? It’s on sight. You’re trapped beneath this painfully beautiful brat of a man and you wouldn’t have it any other way

And lawwdd if you know how to twerk. He might just faint on the spot

RIP Oikawa it was for a good cause

Ukai Keishin:

Oh boy

Keishin gives me serious ass man vibes. Idk what it is

He worships you in every way possible, but that ass holds a special place in this cranky man’s heart

After a long day of working with crops, managing the store and volleyball practice, this man is tired and grumpy. Hinata somehow managed to almost meet his eternal rest when he was nearly hit by a TRUCK and a CAR and a BIKE and a STATIONARY POLE trying to outdo Kageyama while racing in the neighborhood. He swears those kids have taken at least ten years off his life span.

This man is v stressed

So when he comes home to find you reading in bed on your stomach in nothing but his t-shirt and those sexy panties that show off that beautiful bum… Honestly he could’ve cried he was so geeked.

He teared up a bit ngl (He’d never admit it tho)

This guy swan dived into bed, wrapping his arms around your waist, nuzzling his face into your glorious cakes

“Bad day, hon?”

“Mmmphh”

He took a fat nap right then and there

He was so bitchy and whiny when you woke him up to change sleeping positions (as long as you let him slip a hand on a cheek when you got comfortable, he’s a happy camper)

He just loves feeling the warmth and weight of it in his hands, it’s comforting to him and feels super grounding idk

But boy oh boy does this man love to give it a good smack or two or ten

Watch out bb 😈

He’ll spank you anywhere anytime, but he’s real sneaky about it in public….until he’s not LOL. It just depends on the environment and who is around

Like Oikawa, the strength in those setter hands will have you shOOk to the core especially a seasoned one like Kei

One time you were doing your morning stretches, slipping into downward dog and HO. NEY. Keishin was already pulling you flush against his pelvis and smacking that 🍑 like a djembe drum until tears pricked your eyes. Your whole body was vibrating with desire it was WILD

“Ohhhh, sweetheart. You are a work of fucking art, you know that? You’re not going anywhere today. That’s a promise.”

And that’s how you ended up with twins. Not sorry.

10/10 would recommend

Kozume Kenma:

Listen Linda

It took a while for you to notice

But Kenma is truly OBSESSED with the booty

It took him a while to even admit it to himself tbh

He would look away immediately when he caught himself staring

And he may have appeared chill on the surface but blondie was internally screaming as you literally sat on top of him while he was gaming

He was so hesitant poor bb was overthinking it so hard. He just didn’t want you to feel uncomfortable or think he was weird etc etc

It was confirmed to you when you started waking up in the middle of the night to a fully unconscious Kenma giving your ass subtle squeezes in his sleep

You’ll literally have to sit this man down and be super direct about it

Once you give him the go ahead chillle it’s on and poppin

Only when y’all are alone of course cuz as we know, Kenma is v shy and a very private person

He’s not the pda type in general

Again, he loves it when you sit on top of him when he’s playing video games. Especially when you straddle him. His hand does this smooth slide down your back that sends shivers down your spine before settling over the swell of your butt. He’ll give the occasional rub and caresses your thigh softly. Another muse of his. Kenma LIVES for your thighs. Would happily be suffocated by them. Whoops. Squeeze them around his waist or grind into his lap and you’ll be on your back faster than you can say yes please

When you’re cuddling, he’ll just start jiggling that cake in his hands. He finds it fascinating, soothing and unbelievably hot all at once. The perfect combination in his opinion.

“ . . . Kenma?”

“Hm?”

“Watcha doin back there?”

*continues in concentrated silence*

“Babe??”

“. . . You’re like a sexy human stress ball . . So soft . . So cute . . So squishy . .”

“Ummmkay?”

My mans is hypnotized. He would do that shit for hours if you let him let’s be real. That thang is thangin

He would buy you ALL of the jeans, leggings, shorts, dresses, hoodies, crops, shirts, skirts. Everything and anything that fits your body type in all the right places, Kenma is on it and good lord is he invested. He absolutely spoils you. Blondie bae is surprisingly good at keeping your style in mind while also pushing you to try new things that end up making you look stunning. Big ups

The only time Kenma has spanked you was in retaliation. You wanted to see his reaction to being spanked. So once when he was distracted by his switch, you slowly walked up behind him and SMACK

Kenma nearly dropped the damn switch 😤 You’ve never seen this boi whip his whole body around and bend you over so fast

Two swift yet heavy blows to your backside had you rethinking your whole life. Everything about that moment lives in your head rent free

[asmolemmeeatyouout]

The boys with Autistic! MC! part two ! SFW

(Bc I’m self indulgent and like 5 ppl wanted it so yesyesyes)

(Had my first proper spoonie day in a while today so imma finish this after what 4 months? Whoopsie. Sorry if any of the points overlap I’ve not re read my last post, please shoot me an ask if you want anything clarified/expanded on !)

Lucifer:

Has to stop his brothers from constantly bothering you when you’re overwhelmed (they’re just worried)

You very quickly learn his office is the safest place to be when overwhelmed due to the dim lighting and the brother deterring curse on his doorway

He has a record player and SO much classical music for when you need background noise

This leads to impromptu slow dancing when you insist he needs a break and there’s music playing

If you have your own records, the *smoother ones will end up mixed in with his

*smoother as in less staccato /distracting because he is most likely working

Very much enjoys spending time in silence with you, he finds it comfortng to just exist with someone without having anything needed of him

Especially if you’re both doing your own thing, like you just being in the room with him (playing a game or reading or smthn) while he does his paperwork is so soothing to him

Mammon:

Have you seen his horns? They’re so smooth and shinyyy, a+++ stimming material

He loves head pats so he’ll willingly put his head in your lap when you watch movies

he’s very proud of his demon form but also kind of shy so it’ll take some coaxing to get him to let you touch his horns but when he sees how content it makes you? It’s his new favourite hobby letting you play with his hair and horns during movies

(That said they’re very sensitive (like him) so be gentle)

He WILL adopt your love language and mannerisms:

if you bump people he will start knocking into you constantly, (wrists, hips, shoulders, head, any and all on random repeat)

if you like to collect and give things to people he will a. Hoard them in a little shrine (that he Denys. having) and b. Start looking for things he can give you back

If you rub textures you like you’ll find him stroking your arms/face/jumper right back (sometimes with his face, but only ever in private because he feels vulnerable using such a soft form of affection)

Levithian:

You cannot tell me this man isn’t autistic

Communication is SO! EASY!

Then even If you don’t understand you can just ask. You can just ask and he’ll tell you. None of this ‘figure it out yourself’ nt bullshit

Our baby has anxiety anyway so he’s probably ‘over’ explained it before you can say anything

(Over explained in the sense of nt, personally I love it when ppl get really detailed)

In that case he gets embarrassed about how much he’s talking so it’s your turn to reassure him that he’s not boring you

The solace you get in realising you like all of his autistic traits soothes your own insecurities

That being said your anxiety (if you have it) is matchy matchy so don’t expect him to talk to the cashier for you

He’s very chill with you being non verbal because either he’s absorbed in his own game/anime/show or it means there’s more room for him to talk about his interests

That being said if your special interests/ hyperfixations don’t line up on any given day? The bickering over who’s turn it is to infodump gets intense (this is the one source of all your arguments)

All the other brothers are kind of terrified/jealous of your relationship, especially when they see you talking about a shared special interest because you talk rapid fire and very in-depth. to them it’s almost like you’re talking in code or another language because they know all the individual words but what the everloving fuck are you on about

Asmodeus:

Has specific outfits he wears when he wants you to hug him (which is always). They’re made out of the softest material, or any clothing of his you’ve expressed a texture interest in.

Finds it so amusing when you come rushing over to rub your face against his chest bc mmmmm softsoftsoft

Likes to text you in the morning to see how you’re feeling (and how sensory sensitive you are because god forbid his outfit with chains and jangles stops him from seeing you)

Understands better than Anyone that affection and love can be shown in a whole barrage of ways not just physically

Figures out how you show affection faster than any of the other brothers

Immediately starts reciprocating it (partly bc he’s selfishly trying to make you love him most)

Satan:

Will learn about your special interests so he can engage you on the topic

Is the ONLY person in the house you can talk about any special interest with, no matter how niche because he loves learning (although he does prefer the *academic* side of them rather than pop culture but he will listen to both)

*academic* as in something involving learning about something or crafting or *how* to do something, not just like, maths

You’re pretty much the only person who can keep up with him in terms of knowledge and enthusiasm (even if it’s only for very specific things) and thus you become the person he talks to about his interests

Originally kind of annoyed by how absentminded you are (because you forget several dates) but once you get settled into a routine he starts to find it cute how habitual you are, and then realises it could work to his advantage.

He then schedules a date into your weekly routine (or biweekly depending on your energy levels) so you start to get upset if it’s missed bc it’s part of your routine. (Satan is ridiculously smart and is very much willing to manipulate your routine to his (and yours) advantage, he is a demon after all)

Beelzebub:

Gives the best squishes. He’s just so big he can literally envelope you (in other news he is terrified of hurting you so he’s very nervous at first, he’s used to huggin ppl very gently bc he is a muscle mountain)

Maybe don’t use chew stims around him (unless he’s eating) because seeing you use them will either make him hungry, or he’ll ask to see it and oops it’s been swallowed hope you didn’t want that back (he’s very apologetic he really didn’t mean to but it was in his mouth and chewed before he could think)

Literally the kindest man in the universe, if you have issues with shame or *guilt* (especially if it creeps outta nowhere or it relates to not being able to do something) he will a. Reassure you and give you cuddles until you feel okay (or one on one bonding time if you’re too touch sensitive) then b. Go help with whatever task was too much so you don’t have to worry

Belphagor:

Have I mentioned the stuffies? This boy definitely has a stash of soft toys that all have names and personalities. This originally stemmed from the fact he was locked alone in an attic for a year, he needed some form of company or he was gonna go crazy, and sleeping alone is meh in his opinion. But then he became attached and after you showed him yours? And you weren’t ashamed of your teddy bears or how much you loved them he confided in you about his. (And you had a tea party)

Problems sleeping ? (Me too bud it’s 3.44 am lol) nonononno baby boy has got you, just snuggle up to him and you’ll be snoozing in no time (I HC that being around belphagor just makes you a little sleepy and the longer you’re there the stronger the urge to sleep gets)

You’re at rad (or out in public and can’t leave) and get overstimmed? Belphie has got you! He keeps sunglasses on him so he can secretly sleep when he’s not supposed to. Also (imo) he’s the king of hoodies, both his main outfits have a hood (and you can’t convince me he doesn’t wear one of them over his uniform as soon as lucifer dips), my boy will slip his hoodie on you and wrap you in a hug to get you away from the noise/sights

(I am now too tired to write anymore, hope yall enjoyed!)

[neversatisfiedwithlife]

for the mostly likely to thing, i saw these questions on a glee page awhile ago, but if you want to answer them for cazzie that’d be great :p

1. Who spends almost all their money on the other?

2. Which one drives the car and which one gives them directions?

3. Which one gives the other a piggyback ride when they’re tired?

4. Who is the most affectionate?

5. Who falls asleep in the others lap and who carries them to bed?

6. Who wakes up first?

7. Who apologizes first after an argument?

8. Who is the nerd?

9. Who makes the other one laugh the most?

10. Who sleep talks?

11. Who hogs the blankets at night?

12. Who is the neat freak?

13. Who likes to surprise the other with random gifts?

14. Who buys the healthy food in the house?

15. Who has better music taste?

16. Who takes care of the spiders?

17. Who uses more nicknames

18. Who’s the little spoon?

19. Who suggests scary movies for film night?

20. Who gets jealous more often?

21. Who brings up kids first?

22. Who borrows who’s clothes more?

23. Who cries more during sad movies?

24. Who falls asleep on the other more?

25. Who says I love you more?

26. Who initiates kisses more?

27. Who initiates hugs more?

28. Who takes more pictures of the other?

29. Who leaves notes for the other one around the house?

30. Who gets drunk faster?

31. Who gets hit on more by strangers?

32. Who makes food for the house more often?

Most likely to:

(I love that you found it on a glee page! Anyways of course I want to do them!!!)

This is long so get comfortable besties😌 I didn't proof read so all mistakes are on purpose.

Spend their money on the other: Casey would spend a larger portion of her money on Izzie or just like on things they can do together. (I think Izzie would just be engrain to make her money go as fat as it can so she's more restrained or critiac about how/where she spends her money)

Which one drives the car: this one is simple, its Casey. Do we even know if Izzie drives? (Like ideally being the one who takes care of her siblings it'd help, but anyways. Yes Casey is the driver, I can see Casey love being the one behind the wheel. Also how she was with Sam I could see her as a back seat driver or like "why didn't you take this route" just asking stuff even if she tries not to. So in the end it's just easier to have her drive lol)

Which one gives the other a piggy back ride: we saw Casey lift Izzie up so I'm obligated to say Casey! (Okay so picture after a track practice Izzie is really exhausted; the work load of school and babysitting her siblings really hitting her that week. Casey offers her a piggy back ride, Izzie is skeptical at first, but Casey is so reassuring about it)

Who is the most affectionate: ooh this one is hard overall I think I'd say Izzie, Casey more initiates kissing, but Izzie just likes to be touching Casey. (While watching tv Izzie will have her hand resting on Casey's leg, or like sit close enough to where their shoulders touch, the way Izzie stretches out herself on top of Casey when they're in her bed. Izzie initiates hand holding)

Who falls asleep in the others lap: Izzie established cannot stay up for the life of her plus again we got the cazzie bridal style carrying scene!! (I think even more cuddled up to Casey she definitely can't stay awake, she'd just feel so safe and at ease. Lights out comes quickly lol)

Who wakes up first: Izzie is up first, again this is me seeing her as the caretaker of her siblings and not going on Casey's painful track running schedule. (Ik in that one episode Casey is up first, but casey was trying to avoid Izzie, anyways Izzie probably has to get her siblings up for school or just make sure they're fed and what not so I can see her generally being conditioned to wake up first.)

Who apologize first after an argument: I feel like this totally depends on the argument; who/what started it and what it's about. Generally both are good at apologizing and don't stretch out the argument (sorry if that's like a cop out and not a definitive answer)

Who is the nerd: Izzie without a doubt (i feel like she enjoys learning new things. Maybe she doesn't necessarily love studying school material all the time, but also I feel like maybe studying started as an escape or distraction from always being her siblings care taker and soon she just learned to love it. Or just loved knowledge)

Who makes the other one laugh the most: I say Casey, they both definitely make each other laugh but Casey takes it to another level. (Like when paige is at the door and Casey is like "do you think that's them here to kick us out in person". Casey uses humor to help Izzie unwind when she's too in her head about stuff.)

Who sleep talks: Casey, why do I feel like one of them actually slept tall? Am I hallucinating...what is happening. (Anyways I feel like Casey like if she had a nightmare or something she'd mumble in her sleep and like startle awake. Or of she's really stressed and overwhelmed she's in a more restless type sleeping state)

Who hogs the blankets: (I did answer this) But Casey hogs the covers, I'll add that Izzie is fine just curling up in a ball above the blankets and fall asleep. (Why did I have the thought they're doing laundry the blankets aren't dried yet but when they finally dry Casey finds Izzie sound asleep on the blanket less bed)

Who is the neat freak: I wouldn't say either of them are nec a neat freak, but I feel Izzie would want things in particular locations and Casey can just roll with it.

Who likes to surprise the other with random gifts: Izzie, though she doesn't spend large portions of her money she likes finding small things,knickknacks or like stuffed animals or just like a sweet, that will make Casey happy. (Having younger siblings that she actively has to care for has taught her that it doesn't matter the size of the gift or if it's sparkly)

Who buys the healthy food: Casey clearly didn't approve of Elsa's green stuff sticking out of the back so definitely Izzie. (Izzie enjoys her fare share of snacks but she knows the day has to be balanced with more than "empty" calories. She is patient though in finding the healthy stuff that Casey actually likes.)

Who has better music taste: I'd say Casey in that she would have a more diverse music taste, she'd expose herself to more genres and like eras of music (Izzie feels like a whatever is on the radio or popular on the music charts-this is not slander just vibes I get lol)

Who takes care of the spider: definitely Izzie (I can see her being the person who catches and releases it while Casey is just telling her to "squish it, squish it!")

Who uses more nicknames: probably Izzie, I feel like she uses a more diverse collections of nicknames for Casey. Just like whatever fits the moment. (Casey would just use Izz, dude and a choice pet name)

Who's the little spoon: IZZIE!!! Miss curl up into a ball and fall asleep, she'd definitely pull Casey's arms to wrap around herself.

Who suggest scary movies for film night: I think Izzie is the one to coax them into actually watching a movie, but Casey is actually the one who enjoys them more or is just less put off by them? (Casey totally teases her, never goes too far, about it before the movie.)

Who gets jealous more often: I feel like this belongs to Izzie, like she has more self doubt and insecurities about how much she deserves Casey.

Who brings up kids first: Izzie does, maybe they're studying and making useless conversations, they're on the topic of her siblings. (Maybe you'd thing dealing with kids all her life and an unsupportive mom would put her off; but I think it doesn't. I feel like Casey just genuinely never stopped to really think about kids. Or maybe she thinks she wouldn't be good with kids. Like yes shes amazing with Sam, but to her that's not the same. Izzie reassures her she'd make a great parent, if she wanted to be.)

Who borrows who's clothes more: I could see Izzie borrowing a shirt or hoodie to lounge in, but I dont see it regularly. (Also Casey I noticed wears like oversized shirts often so I dont think the fit of Izzie's clothes would satisfy her.)

Who cries more during sad movies: Casey does. It is something she will deny with her entire being, but it's her.

Who falls asleep on the other more: I'll choose a specific situation for this, not a general thing: when they're talking on the phone late at night I actually think Casey would be the one who ends up falling asleep. (Ik this probably meant literally but this is where my brain went)

Who says I love you more: I feel like Casey. (I feel like for Casey the environment she was raised in it just is easier for her to say it, or it comes more naturally. Izzie uses actions to show her love because sometimes the words I love you coming from her own mouth feel foreign).

Who initiates kisses more: Casey, I think she both initiates kisses and "steals" kisses more.

Who initiates hugs more: if I say Casey with no explanation you have to accept it!

Who takes more pictures of the other: Izzie takes more pictures of Casey (I can see Casey as the person who just loves to pull stupid(affectionate) poses that make Izzie laugh. Also idk I feel like Izzie would be less inclined to have her picture taken and Casey would respect that. They would definitely take pictures together inspite of that though because Izzie wants to capture every moment with her girl.)

Who leaves notes for the other around the house: this plays into the nicknames thing, I think Izzie would leave the most cute/ridiculous notes with like the most cute/ridiculous nicknames for Casey. (Ik Casey made the tarot deck but I can just visualize Izzie doing this lol, sue me.)

Who gets drunk faster: Casey. I see Izzie as the one who has more parties in her past, and ofc she drank so she has more tolerance. Especially being at clayton longer with the track gang and Nate 🤢 (Izzie having to take a drunk Casey home early because she can barely stand on her feet securely, this is when Izzie gets to drive 😌)

Who gets hit on more by strangers: I think Izzie, she gets hit on more by disrespectful men and Casey shuts that down right quick.

Who makes food for the house more often: Izzie, I think she totally loves cooking. She loves trying out new recipes and has a bunch of cookbooks.

[angelic-guardienne]

When You Get Kicked Out

so I have been going THROUGH it these past nine months, not pregnant or anything lol, just hoo boy a whole fucking LOT, which is way too much to unpack in just one tidy author’s note so i’ll just leave it at that. 

when I wrote this (literally just now, like this is straight from draft 1 to posting no editing because I’m really tired but I can’t sleep and it’s 6 am!), it was titled “relevant to my situation but not so specific that it feels like a callout post for me by me” so. And this is just!! a portion!! but i already wrote myself a therapeutic little vent piece which I probably won’t post bc it’s really really personal, but yeah. um. I’m so tired. and i’m big mad that I’ve been so absent.

tumblr formatting has me kinda mad but we’ll make do. um shit I gotta do the tag list huh. rip.

Tagging: UGH @blindedstarlight @magictactic200 @honey-your-bee-puns-sting @bestchocobois @glacian-apocalypse @jaysfandomcorner @tiniestofqueens @tales-of-a-fallen-star mmmmmmm i’m sorry i really can’t keep it up :(

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to start, this definitely 10000% takes place in an AU where the bros all live together to be able to afford the insane rent prices in the city of Insomnia (but still have a guest bedroom), and you’re their friend/polyamorous significant other/idk whatever, close enough that this scenario can happen

your parents kick you out. and you don’t have anywhere to go! and no money to get a place for yourself! so you’re kinda fucked!!

you didn’t wanna tell the bros initially bc you didn’t want to burden them with your issues but you accidentally let it slip to Prompto (who just has a way of coaxing out that shit, somehow) and he talked it over with the others and now they literally will not let you not move in with them bc they’d much rather that than you being on the streets

sweet boys

so you set up in the guest bedroom and they help you unpack everything even though you’re kinda on the fence about it bc you’re honestly thinking this is just gonna be a temporary thing (they are NOT on that wavelength)

because they’re there for you to help, unpacking goes a lot faster (though it is kind of stressful getting Noctis to respect the way you put your clothes in your drawers, there’s a system and he just doesn’t get it okay) 

(you and gladio butt heads a little bit as well but it doesn’t ever amount to anything -- you keep changing your mind about where you want that lamp and he’s really tired of moving it every few minutes) 

once everything is unpacked, ignis helps you get organized and helps you store all of your stuff in a space-efficient manner (they may or may not elevate the bed for that sweet sweet extra storage space) 

once that is done, prompto will help you decorate so it really feels more homey (it’s not home yet, and he knows that, but he wants you to be as comfortable as possible)

but all of that is really fucking exhausting, so if you call for a break or start generally falling out of it, the boys move the party to the couch for bigass blanket sharing and watching stupid videos and/or movies

once you’re all unpacked and at least a little more comfortable, they start trying to ease you into some normalcy through a routine. 

they want you to be a part of their day, so they’ll invite you to join them when they do stuff. if you’re like me and develop some temporary insomnia under extreme stress, your day starts with prompto and noctis. if you’re a ride or die early riser, your day starts with ignis and gladio

if your sleep schedule doesn’t fit either of those categories, you’re more likely to catch all four of them chillin round the house (in the absence of errands)

once you get settled into that and find your place in the home dynamic, they start trying to focus on addressing your stress levels and coping mechs/unpacking all of that trauma

whatever was the reason for you getting kicked out, they wanna know about it (on your terms, they won’t make you tell them before you’re ready)

Noctis probably has the least amount of tact when it comes to this -- maybe the most depending on what it was -- he’s definitely the most blunt about bringing it up. 

talking about it is hard -- they’ve been there for most of it already, but talking about everything as a whole and how it culminated at you losing your home is just. hard. and they understand that

ignis is at the ready with your favorite comfort foods and drinks and gladio is giving you a relaxing massage to help with the stress and tension

bro if affection is your thing then you will!! be given!!!! affection!!! hugs, kisses, cuddles, sex, whatever you need, there’s literally four of them so all of that is in pretty much endless supply

if you just want platonic shit!!! playing video games!! cards!! board games!! reading in the same room!! just sitting together and not really interacting except showing each other wack memes!!! they are here for that too!!!

if you just gotta be outside!! gladio will take you to his favorite spots!! 

if you just wanna nap!! cuddle up with noctis!!!

if you just want a good laugh!!! prompto is your guy!!!

if you just wanna vibe and bake and/or cook or just make fuckin drinks!!! ignis is right there!!!

basically what I’m saying is that if your parents kick you out, you’ll be moving in with your best bros and they will help you work through all that shit while being as supportive and caring as possible and making sure that you know that you are loved and that you always have a place with them!!

[trashyeggroll]

'storm' for ramvers:) also i loved your ramvers fic(s)! didn't know you wrote for then too. every ship ive soo much as looked at you've got it covered lol.

🤩 thanks anon!! so many good ships, not enough waking/not working hours in the day. ramvers is absolutely one of my favorites to write, the fluff potential is just as endless as the angst. also i am 90s kid so the references in the movie felt like a personal attack

#11 Storm: a too-long backstory sandbox 😅

For days, the meteorologists had watched and issued warnings about the tropical storm barreling across the southern Atlantic and along the Gulf of Mexico. On August 3, 1970, the upgraded Hurricane Celia it made landfall near Corpus Christi, Texas, wreaking havic on the coastal town, knocking down buildings like dominoes, washing away roads like sand, and roaring with winds that sounded like rocket shells to the families who had remained, huddled in shelters and basements and bathrooms.

One of them had been six-year-old Maria Rambeau, frozen with terror as she sat frozen with terror in her family’s dark basement. It sounded to her like the world was ending at the top of the stairs, and water had started leaking through the walls, puddling in the low spots in the floor. Maria clung to her older brother’s arm while they stared in silence at the rumbling ceiling, occasionally releasing a cloud of dust and dirt after a particularly loud bang. Maria felt like she couldn’t breathe, couldn’t blink for fear that her whole world would be ripped away.

When the storm passed, Maria emerged to find half of their house gone, smashed to splinters, and in the ensuing days, as the Rambeaus packed up to relocate with family in Louisiana, the death toll in Texas would top out at 15, and Celia would long hold the title of the costliest storm in the state’s history.

As the years passed, Maria learned to manage her fear of storms, of thunderclaps and dark skies at high noon. She might’ve enlisted in the Navy if not for the way trickling water still made her pulse tick faster, and the very thought of being surrounded on all sides in the belly of a metal ship for months on end… No, the skies were Maria’s home, and besides, nobody flew fighters in storms.

Much to her chagrin, Monica loved storms, a trait very likely learned from Carol, who after growing up in the land of tornadoes found hurricane season somewhat quaint… especially after gaining her powers. A bolt of natural lightning would be like an ant bite to Captain Marvel, and gale-force winds like a pleasant breeze.

That had been something of a problem in the years that Carol had been missing. Their daughter had lost her example of confidence and wonder, and too often, Maria had felt too nervous herself to properly comfort Monica through roaring storms that tore the limbs off trees and shingles from their roof. Monica was strong, though, and during storms or clear skies, she made Maria more and more proud of her with each passing day.

Still, Maria was tired of cowering before storms. She’d zipped through space in extraterrestrial crafts, held laser guns and battled movie monsters come to life. Storms seemed like a reasonable foe to conquer.

Carol had listened to her plan with widening eyes, and when those ran out of real estate, her eyebrows rose nearly to her hairline. “That is… dramatic.”

“Says twinkle fists,” Maria shot back, arms crossed over her chest.

“Are you sure?”

“Are you sure you can hold up your end?”

The mild challenge made Carol scoff, and Maria knew the conversation was over before the blonde added, “Pfft. Easy.”

And so, on July 18, 1997, almost three decades after the night in the family basement, Maria Rambeau instesd donned a lightweight spacesuit that Carol brought her from another world. Her wife still looked a bit worried as she fastened the last airtight cuff, her forehead adorably wrinkled when she stepped back.

“I want to do this,” Maria murmured into her helmet, which would transmit to Carol’s own suit. “And… I’ll have you there, with me.”

The blonde’s expression softened, and her lips quirked into a smile as Maria grasped her hand, giving it an extra squeeze for good measure. Usually, she could feel the heat from her supercharged wife’s skin, but the suit effectively blocked it, and she supposed that was good for what was about to happen.

“No pressure,” Carol stilled joked against her lips, and Maria gently thunked her helmet against the superhero’s forehead. It was a poor stand-in for a kiss, but Carol would probably make her refit the whole suit if she disengaged the face shield, and it got her signal of affection across.

The first drops of rain were starting to plink against the metal roof of Maria’s workshop, and she blinked reflexively at the drops spattering against the glass shielding her eyes when they stepped out from the shop’s refuge. Carol folded her arms around Maria’s chest, attaching a bungee cord between their suits for good measure, and after a quick 3-2-1 countdown, they jettisoned together into the darkening sky.

Hurricane Danny roared ahead, drenching the Louisiana delta, and Maria’s heart started thudding against her ribcage. It certainly looked different, from a few hundred feet in the air. Carol’s alien fire burned up the rain before it reached them, but Maria could feel the outer winds, and each flash of lightning turning the sky to daylight made her muscles tense. But Carol was right there, holding her firmly to her chest, giving her encouraging squeezes whenever she felt Maria go stiff.

The hurricane-force winds were at the eye of the beast, but Carol didn’t take her through them; the superhero turned and zoomed higher, until the rain broke over their heads, and it was just stars above. Maria would never tire of that view.

“Look,” Carol’s tinny voice chirped in her ear.

Maria tilted her chin down as they stopped to hover in place. She’d seen astronauts’ photos of hurricanes before, but they didn’t do an ounce of justice to the effect. The slow swirl of the clouds, the way lightning illuminated puffy sections in white-blue. The storm was still mostly over the ocean, tracking a strange, jagged path across the gulf states.

“It’s almost pretty,” Maria said, not entirely consciously. “From up here. But I’d hate to be on a boat down there, right now.”

Carol’s glow brightened. “I’ve seen better.”

Maria twisted a little in her arms, enough to see the cheesy grin her wife was flashing over her shoulder, nose wrinkled. “You stop.”

“What? I’m adjusting your associations with storms. And I meant it.” The blonde adjusted her hold as Maria turned back around, dropping one hand to grip Carol’s tightly. “Ready?”

“As I’ll ever be.” Maria had no sooner sighed the words before Carol took off, hurtling them back down, towards the massive eye of the hurricane. This time, Maria closed her eyes against the rush of panic, fighting off flashing memories from her childhood—the helplessness, the way her imagination turned breaking beams into skyfall.

“It’s just heat and water, that’s all,” Carol was saying as they dove through the clouds, purposefully dipping ito the place where the winds blew hardest, and the rain became a sheet. The sound, even through her suit, drowned out nearly every thought, all sound completely overtaken by endless water… and she could still feel Carol holding her tight. Her arms were sure and her flight steady. Maria opened her eyes.

Behind her face shield, it almost looked as though they were moving through a choppy ocean, except for the bubble of safety in Carol’s glow, and Maria imagined this might be how it felt to be in one of those ocean cages, where you could get “up close and personal” with sharks. Except, Maria’s foe was on all sides, and her metal cage was the strongest in the universe. Heat and water. Life or death, depending on the form. That, the engineer in her understood well.

Maria’s nerves seem to peak along with the winds, like a wave breaking on a rocky shore, and a final burst of adrenaline had her shouting into her helmet, a crowing victory call that no one but Carol and the hurricane could hear, and her wife’s musical laughter filled her earpiece.

Veering sharply to the right, Carol took them through the wall of the storm, and as suddenly as they’d dove into danger, they were floating in cool, calm air, high over an churning ocean. Water fell off them in a miniature falls, and Carol gingerly turned Maria in her arms.

“Better?”

“Better,” agreed Maria, reaching up to open her helmet, now that they’d returned to human-friendly heights. “Just heat and water.”

Carol nodded, smiling as Maria looked around the surreal column over the ocean, illuminated by the moon and Captain Marvel herself. When she turned back, Maria couldn’t help but capture her wife’s lips in a kiss, taking another small victory in the way they dipped in the air and Carol’s small noise of surprise.

[mskinkyafro]

At Last (Aubrey x MC) NSFW

A/N: This is my first NSFW fic. I’m actually embarrassed and scared. If this is trash I apologize in advance because I have no history with writing smut, but I felt like trying for once. This was inspired by this latest chapter, when it gets to the part where MC is talking with June that it introduces that MC can not only read thoughts but get the images a person thinks. Now I imagine/assume MC gets like clips or shots of images as if she can see it through her eyes or she was thinking off these things vividly herself. Which lead me to write this bad boy. I just wanted some action between these two so here’s my attempt at writing it lol.

Summary: Feeling down, Viola goes to Aubrey’s place to watch a movie where things heat up and their intimate relationship is taken to the next level.

Rating: NSFW 18+ Very smutty, if not into smut avoid this fic.

Note: Apparently Ellen can be either fired or suspended depending on the choice you choose with Alec. In my game she is suspended. Once again, this is my first time writing smut and posting it. I’m sorry if its trash, go easy on me lol.

*Thoughts of Viola are italicized and those of Aubrey’s are bold and italicized with parenthesis.

PB owns the rights to these characters, I’m just borrowing them.

Tagging : @cora-nova @rain18rain @lady-dianelewis @hellomynameisdevi

In the pitch-black dark bedroom except for the glowing red numbers on the alarm clock laid Viola wide awake in bed. Despite her pep talk with Jaime and cuddle session with her sassy kitten Fauna and precious puppy Underoos, she couldn’t help but still feel awful about what happened to Ellen. Apart of herself doesn’t feel remorse over Alec’s decision because that choice was partially sealed by Ellen’s unprofessional behavior earlier that day, but the other side of herself didn’t want her rise to lead anchor to be the result of Ellen’s suspension.

In addition, no matter how hard she tries to brush them aside, Ellen’s ominous parting words echoes in the back of her mind. She sighs to herself as she rubs her hand over her face through her curly blonde tresses in frustration. She turns her head to look at her alarm clock.

“Man it’s 11:00 pm but I cannot go to sleep. Ugh!” she says.

She fumbles through her sheets as she sits up and turns on her bed lamp and the room is flooded with light as she pulls the covers off her chest. After sifting through the sheets and grabbing her cell phone Viola unlocks it and begins to scroll. As she does she notices a missed text from Aubrey. She smiles immediately seeing his name pop up on her screen. Without even hesitating she dials and the line begins to ring. She presses the speaker and awaits for an answer. It rings and rings and begins to worry.

“This is a bad idea. He’s probably asleep already.”

Right as she moves her finger to end the call, a persistent beep cuts through and as she presses to answer the facetime icon. Soon she’s on her phone she’s met with the image of Aubrey standing few feet away from the phone screen with a small towel wrapped around his waist. With her view of him angled up she sees his built figure, her eyes fixated on his smooth lean chest and four pack abs. His skin is slightly damp besides the droplets that slide from his thighs down to his calves. She watches as he moves out of the frame for a moment and calls out.

“Just one second!”

 She feels her pulse quicken as she sees his towel once on his hips thrown back in view landing on his bed. Her cheeks tinge red realizing this man she’s crazy about is standing nude as day a few steps away from her prying eyes. As he walks back into frame again with pajama pants on to reach for his towel, she notices his hair clearly wet pressed against his forehead. His hand runs through it to push back his rogue curl before throwing the towel around his neck and picking up the phone so his torso and up shows.

“Hello? Viola?” he says softly, his voice breathless.

His voice seemed distant as her eyes were glued to his figure, her eyes followed each waterdrop that trailed his body.

“Sorry Viola. You caught me as I got out the shower. Viola...you okay?

She subconsciously bites her thick lips as these words fell out her mouth involuntarily.

“You’re so fine….I mean I am! I’m fine! I am fine.

She shakes her head and coughs lightly, her eyes avoid his due to her embarrassment. She glances up and notices Aubrey neck flush red as his hand scratches the back of his head.

“Hehe. Thank you by the way. You’re not so bad either. By the way eherm... you do noticed that you’re umm…” he speaks nervously.

Viola with a confused expression watches as his eyes leave her face and trail down her body.

“That I’m what…” Viola voice trails off as she looks down and realize her cleavage heavily showing as she sits in her lacy powder blue bra. She forgot she was too tired earlier to remove it.

“Oh shit! I didn’t but--”

“No! It’s my fault I didn’t mean to stare--”  both Aubrey and Viola speak at the same time. There words trampling on the other’s.

Then Viola raises her hand to stop him and speaks .

“It’s fine. I mean I guess it’s payback for me earlier ogling you.”

“Well no complaints from me.

“Is that so?” Viola smiles.

“Scouts honor. Aubrey smiles softly. The two let a comfortable silence fall between them as they shoot each other shy glances. Aubrey coughs lightly.

“Ahem. Anyway not that this isn’t a lovely surprise but what brings you to call me at this time at night?’

Viola toys with a part of her comforter, her eyes stray away from the phone as she speaks.

”I was unable to sleep and I noticed your text from earlier...I’m sorry. I know it’s late and--”

“Hey don’t apologize. I love talking to you. I wouldn’t mind even if it was 3:ooam. Your voice is something that I’ll never tire of.”

Viola feels her cheeks flush.

“You’re too sweet. How is it whenever I’m feeling down you make me smile?”

“I’d love to say but I can’t give all my secrets away.”

“I suppose you’re right.” she says between giggles.

“I have an idea. Since you’re up why don’t you swing by my place and we’ll watch a movie. Your choice.”

“I don’t want to impose. I’m already making enough trouble by keeping you awake.”

“It’s not a problem at all. I was already up. And Viola, you’re worth the trouble.”

“Aubrey…” she whispers softly. She watches as he smiles back shyly.

“Did I mention I have kettle corn?”

“ You had me hello...but I’ll even drive faster because you have kettle corn.”

“A woman after my heart, but don’t ever say I promoted reckless driving.”

“Promise. I’ll see you in 15 minutes.”

“I’ll be waiting.”

It isn’t long before Viola finds herself standing outside Aubrey’s door. She didn’t bother with her appearance since it was so late and a simple cozy night in so; she tossed on her ratted gray shorts and white over-sized sweater that hangs off her shoulders with her hair tied up in a messy bun. She pushes a few curled strands away from her eyes. She quickly types on the phone her arrival and a few seconds later Aubrey opens the door beckoning her to come.

As she enters and he closes the door behind her she notices he had a t-shirt on and his hair askew from a quick dry from a towel. She sits down on the couch and tucks her feet under her legs as he sits down beside her.

“I see you put a shirt on.” she says with a smirk on her face.

Aubrey smiles shyly as he reaches for the remote and turns on the popular streaming services, CinemaNet.

“So did you.”

“Only because I didn’t want to be arrested for public indecency and I really wanted kettle corn.”

His arms moves to wrap around her body and she leans into his touch, sitting closer.

“Is that the only reason you’re here? Just using me for my special popcorn” he teases.

Laying her head on his chest while her finger moves in a small circular patterns as she teases back.

“Of course not. How can I miss out on a movie of my choice....and also hanging with a very caring and handsome guy.”

“Good answer. So what do you want to watch?”

“Is Pretty Woman okay? It’s my favorite.”

Aubrey hits the remote and begins to play the movie pulling her even tighter in his arms. Viola feels all her anxious energy evaporate as she feels Aubrey’s taut muscles squeeze her in a comforting way.

“Pretty Woman for a pretty woman…” He says as he grins down at her before continuing.

“...Well now that I have you where I want you, want to tell me what’s bothering you?”

With her eyes still closed, basking in his warmth she slowly speaks.

“I don’t know if you heard but right now in your arms, you’re holding Northbridge’s newest leading anchor.”

Aubrey sits up at an angling which moves Viola as well.

“Oh my gosh! Viola that’s amazing! Isn’t this what you always wanted?”

“It was--is...it’s complicated.”

Viola removes herself from Aubrey’s arms and sits up. He follows suit and places his hand on her back and rubs soothingly.

“After Ellen and I’s fiasco on the air, she was suspended and I got promoted. I’m ecstatic but it still feels undeserving to elevate because her downfall. I mean just being junior reporter has been a dream come true. I expected in a few years time I’d be a leading anchor, but  I didn’t expect it so soon nor this way.”

Aubrey leans forward so that his hand reaches under her chin to move her face to look at him.

“Viola listen, you are the most kindest, funniest, wittiest, most intelligent woman, and beautiful woman I’ve ever known. Everything you’ve accomplished is because you worked so hard and so long for. It’s unfortunate what happened with Ellen, but her attitude was eventually going to circle back to bite her. That’s something Ellen will have to realize and be better about and nothing to do with you.

His hand drops from her chin and runs adoringly along her cheek.

“You deserve this. And just know I’m always on your side.”

Viola with her hand grabs Aubrey’s that’s resting on her cheek and leans forward to kiss him on the lips. Soon the kiss grows from soft to insistent before she breaks away.

“Thank you. I feel much better now.”

“Good. Now should we join Vivian & Edward?”

“We shall.”

Settling in their previous cuddle position and snacking on popcorn, they watch the film. Most of the movie passes before Viola props herself in Aubrey’s arms when her favorite scene begins.

“This my absolute favorite part of the movie.”

“Really? A sex scene? ” He questions.

Viola rolls her eyes and faces him.

“It’s more than just any sex scene. It’s the moment they made love for the first time. Ohhh, the passion and chemistry is just undeniable!  You can feel the nervousness Vivian had as she dared to press her lips to Edwards, to silently and secretly admit that she’s fallen in love. And for him we can feel his desire and longingness of wanting her fully. Not just her body, but having her complete trust intimately. Plus in this scene they’re finally able give their hearts and souls to each other, at least for a moment let one another have this love instead of reason why it wouldn’t work for both of them.The simplicity of their love was something I always admired.” She finishes saying as she stared back at the on-screen couple.

“I didn’t know you were such a romantic.”

“I’ve always dreamed of finding a love that was surreal, like it was magic.”

They haven’t taken their relationship to the next level yet, it’s been make-out sessions and some heavy petting here and there but never sex. Not that Viola didn’t want to and thanks to her abilities, she’s aware Aubrey feels the same. It just never seemed to be the right time, but she hopes sooner or later that would change.

Viola snuggles deeper into his chest and couldn’t help but feel slightly aroused as the love scene came to a close especially being pressed up against Aubrey. Just being surrounded by his sandalwood scent, the way his breath ghosted over her skin, and enjoying how his fingertips glided over her hands was enough to drive her wild.  Most of the night she didn’t receive any of his thoughts until this moment when a soft spoken voice almost inaudible is heard.

(“God I forgot how erotic that scene is, maybe it wasn’t a good idea to watch this. All I can think of is…”)

Before she could even prepare she was hit with what seem like a barrel of images. The first one was of him delicately biting on her neck as his hands massaged her breasts, his fingers pinching softly at her nipples.  She was mesmerized by the images that seemed to play like a movie in her head as she watched his mouth trail slowly over her dark skin, her head was thrown back and her face was etched with ecstasy. Then it quickly shifted to their figures only illuminated by the moonlight that flooded through his window rolling on top of the other, grinding slowly with their hands gnawing at the other’s skin in desperation, and the final one was her only wearing her bra from earlier. 

Viola could vividly see herself seductively kissing down his chest reaching his nether region, leaving him a stuttering mess with his hips bucking upward to where the imaginary Viola disappeared. Viola raises her hand to her chest to calm her heartbeat that seemed to thump erratically. As she does Aubrey voice rings clear in her mind.

(“Oh jeez I need to calm down...I need to think unsexy thoughts before Viola notices my urm my latest project. Okay think umm...Alec making out with an Emu! Okay, I don’t know why that immediately came to mind but it’s working.”)

Viola feels him maneuver around so that she’s no longer directly in between his legs but rest beside his thighs. Suddenly feeling daring, with her eyes trained on the screen Viola let’s her hand rub up and down Aubrey’s thigh. Everytime she reaches close to his lap she squeezes briefly before continuing the pattern.  

She can hear his breathing slow down and his breaths come out heavier. She smirks to herself knowing she has the affect on him. Next she lets her hand wander up under his shirt caressing his abs. Almost like a bullet his thoughts come at her.

(“Holy shit! This feels so...is she doing this on purpose? She is! I saw that smirk! If she continues at this rate I don’t know if I can hold back. I  really should say something.”)

Viola tears her eyes from the screen and throws a sultry look at Aubrey and asks him with feign innocence as she hears a small groan escape his lips.

“Is everything okay Aubrey?”

She notices his blue eyes darken with desire and the way he licks his lips as he stops her hand, trapping it between the crossroad of his abs and his bottom half.

“I think you already know the answer to that Viola.”

She grins deviously at him and positions herself  so her body is pressed against his, her lips reaching to whisper in his ears as she slips her hand out his grasp to sink lower beneath his pants to slowly palm his growing erection, stroking it painstakingly slow.

“So you don’t mind if we stop watching the movie? I found something much more interesting for us to do, that is if you want to.”

She pulls away to the side of him and bites down on her lips suggestively  as sits on her knees  and continues to stroke him through his pants, her eyes focused at her task at hand.  She stops stroking briefly and pulls his dick out of his pants. Viola lets her fingers trail alongside the thick base of his cock to the tip before lubing her hand with spit. She then delicately squeezes his pulsing shaft. Her hand goes up and down smoothly before letting it slide further to fondle his balls gently. Aubrey stares at her and nods weakly, unable to answer at the moment because of the pleasure and throws his head back into the couch. The only sounds that leave his mouth were muttered expletives and moans. More of this thoughts coming at her lightning fast.

(Holy fuck...I can’t believe she’s--That we’re about to--Fuck, this feels amazing! It’s better than I imagined...I feel so dizzy. Viola is just stunning...so incredibly sexy.)

Viola suddenly stops and pulls her hand away. Aubrey’s eyes open wide and he whips his head forward.

“That’s not answer, Mr. Watson. I need a verbal answer…” She  stands up from the couch to peel off her shorts then removes her sweater, leaving herself in her matching lacy powder blue lingerie set. She climbs onto his lap and drapes her arms around his neck.

“Do. you. want. More?”

Before she can register what happens next, Viola feels his arms instinctively wrap around her waist, his hands gripping her hips. He widens his legs so that she lands directly on his growing erection. His hands roam from her hips down to squeezing her ass, smacking each cheek lightly. He begins grinding his cock against Viola’s moist panties. He gruffly whispers as his deep blue eyes bore into Viola’s hazel-green ones, clouded with lust.

“Does this answer your question, Ms. Porchia?”

He reaches with one hand to move her panties to side so that the tip of his cock brushes against her increasing arousal, causing her to moan loudly.

“Seems like the tables have turned Viola. Do you like how I feel against you? Tell me how much you love it, or I will stop.”

Viola tries to gain more friction by moving her hips but Aubrey firmly holds her hips in place. In retaliation of her not answering he slips a single finger inside her, slowly moving it in and out. She tries to bite her tongue but a moan slips out.

“Ohhhhh...mhmmm...Aubrey please…”

She barely can concentrate on the thoughts that flew at her from his ministrations.

( Fuck...the way she moans my name almost sent me over the edge.)

“You’re on the right track, but I need to tell me how it feels. Do you want more? He throws her words spoke earlier back in her face, He inserts another finger inside her, both working even slower, trailing her sensitive nub.

“Mhmmm, Aubrey. God, yes it feels so good! You felt so good, baby. I need more!”

Without anymore prompting, Aubrey picks Viola easily from her thighs and carries her towards his bedroom.  He places her on his bed and steps out his pants leaving him fully exposed. He kneels in front of Viola.

“Let’s get these pesky panties out the way…” he kisses from her inner thighs all the way down her tone legs as he removes her undergarments.

As he travels lower his hands go the opposite direction up Viola’s body to her breasts and fondles them over her bra. Viola feels as if her body is on fire. She never imagined feeling this way with anyone before. She props herself on her elbows briefly so she could remove her bra leaving herself completely nude in front of him.

“You’re breathtaking.” he whispers.

He stands up and leans over to kiss her lips passionately yet softly as his hands knead her large breasts, his fingertips pinching at her nipples. Viola let’s her hands advance as well as one wanders through his blonde hair while the other pays attention to his hard cock that seems to grow every second. They continue to kiss, tongues meeting before Aubrey pulls away to leave tantalizing kisses that seemed to scorch her skin all the way down. From her neck he gently bites, enough to leave marks and pepper light kisses afterwards until her reaches her right breast. His mouth attaches to her nipple and he bites down as he sucks hard causing Viola to cry out. He then moves to her other breast, applying the same pressure. Her arms find themselves tracing his back, her nails digging into his skin. He lets his tongue swirl around her nipple before he travels south her navel where in a moment of clarity Viola says

“Aubrey please...I don’t think I can take much teasing. Just fuck me, I want to feel you.”

He pauses but continues to press kisses until he’s back at her inner thighs.

“Not yet. I want to savor making love to you Viola. I want to taste you.”

Instantly Viola feels her eyes roll in the back of her head and loud moans escape her lips as Aubrey’s tongue dives deep into her soaking pussy. She writhes in pleasure as she feels his mouth working her close to her release. Soon she feels familiar tension in her abdomen build as her fingers bury into his head. With her breath heavy she warns

“I’m so close…”

But he doesn’t stop but continues, his tongue working faster. It didn’t take long before Viola arches her back and feels her legs shake as she cums hard and rides out the wave of pleasure.

Aubrey extracts himself between her legs and presses a hard kiss to her plump lips.

“You taste amazing Viola. I love to make you cum baby, just watching you was the sexiest thing.”

Viola  smiles and feels herself grow even wetter at his words. Despite feeling slightly weak from her orgasm, she manages to flip their positions so that she’s on top. She smiles down and as she gazes at his surprised expression.

“Now it’s my turn to taste you.”

“Viola, you don’t have--”she places her fingers on his lips.

“This moment is about both of us. I want to do this. You know how long I wanted to do this? How many times I’ve imagined having your thick cock in my mouth and swallowing your load?

(I lied. Hearing her talk dirty is the most sexiest thing.)

“Jesus Viola.”

She grins mischievously at him and dives lower until she reaches his dick and presses small kiss on the tip.

“Ohhh fuck…”

She continues to steadily kiss along the base of the shaft the lick her way back to the head before she takes him fully in her mouth. She bobs up and down slowly as she moans. Her tongue swirls all around his dick as she feels his hips buck, forcing his cock down further. She feels the pressure of his hand tangled in her hair that makes her continue to engulf him in her mouth, motivated to go faster and faster.

“Mhhmm Viola, wait I’m close…”

She ignores him and continues to suck more and more in hopes to bring him to the same release he did moments ago. She removes her mouth to catch her breath and suddenly feels a rough tug  on her hair, forcing her away and back up.  She licks some drops of his pre-cum from her lips as she stares deep in his eyes..

His blue eyes are now dark as he heavily breathes

“It felt too good, I almost couldn’t contain myself. I need to feel you.”

He then flips them once more so he’s on top. His body laying on top of hers. His eyes asking her the silent question. She smiles and lovingly runs her hand on his cheek.

“I’m ready.” she says softly.

Aubrey kisses her on the lips sweetly as he spreads her legs open and inserts himself slowly into her. He waits to let her adjust to him and after a couple seconds he begins to enter in and out. Soon both find a rhythm as they make love. Aubrey strokes are deep and long driving Viola crazy. She claws at his bed sheets and writhes from how good it feels, desperate for more.

“You feel amazing. So tight and wet.”

“Good Aubrey, you’re killing me. Go faster baby. Please make love to me harder and faster, I can’t take it anymore.”

He picks up his pace and buries his cock deeper, harder, and faster into her pussy making her moan louder and louder. Viola leans up and bits into his shoulders causing Aubrey to groan and continue to push her to the edge. As she nears her release, he stops and pulls out. Before she can question him, he flips her own her stomach and sets her on her knees.

She feels his body press into her back as he kisses down her shoulder and enters her from behind continuing the same pace as before. His hands reach under to grasp her breasts tightly as he fucks her from behind, the room is filled with the sounds of slick skin slapping and their moans. It doesn’t take long until they both cry out each others name as the both reach the peak. They collapsed onto the bed and hold each other as they bask in the aftermath of their lovemaking.

Laying her head on his chest and feeling his fingers toy with her hair, Viola struggles to keep her eyes open. She speaks softly

“That was amazing.”

“It was. Hmm, get some rest, beautiful. We have work tomorrow.”

With her eyes closed she responds

“Okay. Good night.”

Viola feels him press a sweet kiss to her forehead.

“Goodnight Viola.”

Right before she loses consciousness she hears a final thought before sounds of soft breathing takes over.

(I’m falling for you.)

And in her mind she says

“I am too.”

*Any other Aubrey stans  or readers in general that enjoyed this fic and want a tag, just let me know!

[13-scoups]

about me tag

tagged by @binnie-binnie-bambam and @ilikeeverythingonmypizza again!! you guys make me so happy :)

The rules are:

Tag the person who tagged you.

Answer the questions.

Tag 10 people.

How tall are you?

5′0″ or 5′1″ depending on the time of day

What color and style is your hair?

Dark brown with blonde highlights! It’s about shoulder length cause I HATE having long hair it’s too heavy hahaha

What color are your eyes?

DARK brown, like almost black

Do you wear glasses?

Nope!

Do you wear braces?

Used to have em back in the middle school days, not anymore bless up

What is your fashion style?

I wear like variations of the same outfit every day lol I try to mix it up, but I’m not super involved with fashion. I refuse to wear skirts/dresses unless it’s a fancy occasion or if its above 90 degrees outside lmaoooo

Full name?

Stephanie! 

When were you born?

September 22, 1997

Where are you from and where do you live now?

I’ve lived in the San Francisco bay area my whole life!

What school do you go to?

Damn people really gonna be creepin on me,,, let’s just say I attend a university in the bay area :)

What kind of student are you?

I’m kind of a try hard haha I love taking challenging classes and getting to know my professors really well!

Do you like school?

Absolutely love it, never want to leave :)

Favorite subject?

I’m majoring in math and computer science, minoring in women’s and gender studies, so I’d say those are my favorite subjects? But honestly I love history and music as well

Favorite TV show?

I don’t really watch TV! I was super into Scooby Doo Mystery Inc. when it came out in like 2012?? Which is like super random but I loved it

Favorite movie?

I also don’t really watch movies, but Wreck it Ralph and She’s the Man are the only 2 movies I’d watch again and again

Favorite books?

Back in the day when I had time to read I was super into the Percy Jackson series!! My man Rick Riordan writes faster than I can read tho, so I haven’t caught up with his newest series :(

Favorite pastime?

Playing the piano, doing crossword puzzles, and playing video games!!

Do you have any regrets?

Maybe not dating my ex boyfriend for so long, I forgot how awesome it is to be single and I’m really loving life now!!!

Dream job?

Teacher!

Would you like to get married?

I’m afraid of commitment, so definitely not. I don’t see marriage as something that’s necessary to have fulfilling relationships with people

Would you like to have kids?

NOPE. Like I said, I’m afraid of commitment, and having kids is like the biggest commitment you could ever make. There’s thousands of more reasons why I don’t want kids but I won’t bore you all hahaha

How many?

0, a wonderful number

Do you like shopping?

Depends,,, I hate spending money and shopping makes me super tired but sometimes I’ll be in the mood

What countries have you visited?

I’ve been to Canada and Mexico!

Scariest nightmare you’ve ever had?

I’ve dreamt on multiple occasions that I’ve gotten pregnant, it’s literally my worst nightmare

Any enemies?

I’ve got tons hahah, but lots of them don’t know theyre my enemy ya feel

Any significant others?

I’ve got one ex, we ended on good terms but then he tried to get back together w me and I was like nah i’ll pass so now it’s awk

Do you believe in miracles?

I believe in insane luck hahah

How are you?

I’m chillin, procrastinating my homework, the usual :)

Tagging @seventeens-diamond, @twinrejects, @snakuchan, and @myleejooheon if you’re up for it!

[surveysonfleek]

1170.

Have you ever had a bonfire on the beach? no.

Are you skilled when it comes to working in the kitchen? haha i wish! i know a lot of basic skills, i wouldn’t say i’m great.

When was the last time you went to a campground? no idea. over 10 years probably.

Do you listen to music while driving? always. Is there a movie you currently want to see? crazy rich asians.

When was the last time you hung out with people younger than you? hmm... i don’t remember. What is the closest blue object to you? my blanket.

How much did you spend on your last shopping trip? $40ish.

Do you wish you had a better cellular plan? no, i have a great plan. 

Are you good at buying gifts for people? i’d like to think so but after awhile i run out of ideas haha. 

Would you consider yourself to be generous? sometimes. only to those that deserve it.

Have you ever received an autograph from a celebrity? yes.

When was the last time you laughed so hard you cried? haha it’s been awhile. maybe a month or two ago.

Are you currently studying for your driver’s license? nope.

Have you ever gone over your cellphone plan by accident? no.

Are you in a relationship with the last person you kissed? yes.

Ever done something that at the time didn’t bother you, but it did later? yes.

Can you honestly say you’ve been drunk before? oh yes.

Where did you get your last bruise from? i forgot.

Is there a certain color of eyeshadow you prefer, if you wear eyeshadow? i usually like browns, neutrals and muted pinks.

Have you ever been addicted to mints? no.

Are you a person that likes to take chances? hmm... probably not.

Would you consider your life to be great right now? no.

When a friend confides in you with their problems, do you listen? of course.

Do you have a piece of technology that should be dead, but it’s still going? not that i can think of.

When it rains, does it put the damper on your mood? only if i had plans outdoors... which is very unlikely lol.

What was the latest you stayed up in the past week? 4am.

Have you had an awkward situation with someone recently? kinda.

Do you always seem to be losing your bobbypins? yes. 

When was the last time you found something overwhelming? questions in this job application i read through.

Going anywhere next year for vacation? maybe! haven’t planned anything yet.

Ever sent drunk texts? yeah but nothing crazy. i’ve just texted while drunk lol.

Do you remember the dream you had last night? nope.

How many dresses do you own? too many to count.

Do any of your friends seem like a brother or sister to you? sure.

What bothers you more, cigarette smoke or cigar smoke? cigar smoke. it’s just stenchy and heavy.

What do you think of Leonardo DiCaprio? he’s cool i guess.

Have you ever seen a movie that messed with your mind? no.

Do you look good in hats? not always lol.

Can you see a noticeable difference between DVD and Blueray? it all depends on the tv you have.

Is there a song you’re currently listening to on repeat? no.

Are you going to make a mega wish at 11:11 on 11/11/11? long gone lol.

Speaking of numbers, do you have a lucky one? i always pick 7 or 5.

What do you think musical artists who use autotune? it’s whatever. no opinion.

Have you ever held hands with someone for no reason? no.

Has anything surprised you today? yes.

When was the last time you played a video game? just then lol.

Have you ever just watched flames from a fire & just thought about things? oh yes.

Are there any musical albums coming out soon that you can’t wait for? not that i know of. still waiting for rihanna’s supposed reggae album.

Have you talked to your significant other today? yes.

Have you ever sat down and eaten an entire cake by yourself? no.

Do you have perfect vision? no, i wish! i used to want glasses so much as a kid and it eventually happened. now i wish i had perfect vision again.

Is there something you want to buy right now? not really.

Do you know anyone who can speak Gaelic? no.

When it comes to eye color, do you have a preference? no.

What was the most unique pet you’ve owned? i’ve had birds, fish, a rabbit and a dog. nothing too unique.

Is your hair currently dyed? no.

Has something annoyed you recently? yes.

Do you like Doritos? only the original flavour.

When you buy clothes, do you always try them on first? if i’m out shopping in a mall, yeah sure. i obviously can’t do that online.

Have you used bugspray recently? no.

Do you enjoy swimming in the ocean? not really. it makes my hair really nice and wavy but i hate the stickiness of saltwater.

Have you ever bitten through your lip by accident? no. ouch.

Are you good at coming up with dares? nah.

Do you know someone with the last name Brown? yes.

Is there somewhere in the world you would never go? probably.

Have you ever tried to sew or knit anything? yes.

Has someone ever told you something that left you speechless? not sure.

Has something ever happened to you that seemed like it was from a movie? most likely.

Do you find yourself to be a believer in love at first sight? nope.

Or perhaps, do you believe that there’s that “someone” out there for you? i sure hope so.

Does money really matter to you? at the end of the day, yes. we need it to live.

Is there something you want to do, that you swear you will, no matter what? not that i know of.

Do you know anyone who is a germaphobe? meeeeee.

Have you ever just laid out and watched the stars? not in a long long time.

Is there a song that gets you pumped up no matter what? it depends on my mood.

How about a song that soothes your anger or sadness? not really.

Have you ever cheated at a card game? haha yes.

Tell me what colors you’re wearing right now? white and black.

Have you ever wandered around drunk with your friend? yes.

Are you longing for the day that you’ll be an adult? (If you’re not already) already an adult unfortunately.

Have you ever felt like your heart actually stopped? no.

Are you a fast runner? no hahaha.

What’s something you’ve vowed to never eat? idk. i think i’d try everything once.

What emotions do you associate with the color blue? sadness.

Do you have a “poker face”? haha no. i’m actually quite expressive.

Are you good at holding back your laughter if needed? it depends how funny something is.

Do any of your friends shamelessly burp or fart in public? my boyfriend. ugh.

When was the last time you had a good cry? last week.

Has anyone ever told you they wanted to marry you? yes.

Is there a soundtrack to a movie that you absolutely love? yes.

Do you have a place where you keep your keepsakes? different places in my room.

Have you ever had a “thumb war” with someone? yes.

What’s your favorite style of jeans? (Skinny, boot cut, flare, etc) skinny.

Have you ever owned a diary/journal with a lock and key? yes. i even had one of those password journals lmao.

Do you have trouble sleeping if you sleep anywhere else but home? yes!!! always! i’d have to be really tired for me to fall asleep anywhere that’s not my bed.

Have you ever been so unfortunate to suffer from a hangover? my hangovers actually aren’t that bad. i just need sleep. no headaches thankfully.

Do any of your friends have particularly annoying habits? sure..

Is there someone you know who can never mind their own business? yes.

If you need a job, will you take whatever you can get? definitely. but i don’t need a job because i currently have one.

When you were little, what movie did you watch over and over? disney. a lot of disney.

Do you rely on caffeine to keep you awake sometimes? nope.

When it comes to tests or exams, are you a crammer? yeah kinda.

Time goes by faster as you get older, don’t you find? oh yes.

Have you ever had a panic attack? no.

Do you own anything made of silk? yes.

Is there anyone you know who looks like their dog? haha no.

Are you deathly allergic to anything? no.

Have you ever had a mouse in your house? yes years and years ago. and recently we kept hearing one running through the walls but luckily they never got into the house. they’re gone now.

Has anyone you trusted ever backstabbed you? yep.

Do you recycle? yes.

[annies-hoodie]

sensei teach me how do you kick your depression in the ass (if youre comfortable sharing tricks and stuff) (or we can pm if you prefer & its not a bother). i try to channel my inner annie but i am Not Successful

hmm…without getting too deep into things, I’d suggest these tips:

1. Cooking. Cook literally anything; I cannot stress how therapeutic it is to prepare food. Don’t go for anything complicated if you’re not savvy in the kitchen; a messed up recipe could only add to the depression. Depending on what kind of state you are in, it could be as simple as buying some broccoli, peppers and mushrooms to stir fry or get as fancy as baking a batch of cookies. There’s something peaceful to the act of preparing raw ingredients and transforming them into something different. Plus, you get to enjoy the end product (which can aid in boosting your mood in the form of either healthy or comfort food). And, you get to say, “FUCK YOU CHEMICAL IMBALANCE IN MY BRAIN! I just created a fuckin dish!!! You didn’t stop me, bitch!!”

2. Doing something that will make the endorphins in your brain go nuts. When depression is dragging you down you have to have your army of endorphins to back you up. Summoning them might be hard if the depression has made you lose interest in things you used to love…but if you fight to hold onto just one thing, it will help you. For instance, I turn to certain musical artists and certain shows to comfort me. I can always, always count on them to keep me anchored and bring me back from the depths of depression. I can literally feel some of the dark vibes dissipate when I go for a drive and listen to some music, or watch something that I love. I mean, it doesn’t make the depression go away but it’s definitely a win over it for sure. Enjoying something is a nice big fuck you to the depression. I also like to play with or cuddle with my dog too. Pets have some weird sixth sense and they will comfort you when you are sad or hurt in their own way. RPG video games are also comforting; I only have an xbox 360 (aside from old nintendo consoles) so i always play Fallout 3. Sometimes it can be hard to access stuff that would make you happy if you don’t have a lot of money for like gas, or going to movies, or whatever, but small purchases like a latte, or mostly free stuff like visiting a library are pretty nice and comforting activities that may ease your mind a bit.

3. Don’t force yourself to do something, and when you don’t do something you planned on doing, don’t beat yourself up for it. The depression is using that moment of weakness as an opening to fuck you up, but you can’t let it. You literally have no control over good and bad days, and your mood can change at the drop of a hat sometimes for no reason. Try not to be a rigid scheduler and instead take little shortcuts to make things easier for yourself. For example, maybe tomorrow you planned on going to get gas in your car and visit your grandma. But if you wake up and feel like absolute shit and just want to veg out and watch tv, you are not a bad person for doing that. Because you can do the other shit tomorrow. There’s always a tomorrow as long as you keep fighting for it. And no one is going to blame you or shame you for taking time for yourself. (if they are they are trashbags). People aren’t allowed enough goddamn time for themselves to relax and get their mental states in order. So please, take as much time as you are able to charge up until you have to do some real shit like work or whatever.

It’s also a good idea to take shortcuts that will help you out in the long run - today i had a long grocery list that was for at least 5 days of food and got intimidated and anxious and sad just looking at it all. So you know what I did? I crossed a bunch of shit off and just shopped for two days worth of food instead. It was less stressful and faster for me; I turned what would have been an nightmare of a trip likely to murder my mental state for the remainder of the day and turned it into something easy and invigorating. If you can call grocery shopping invigorating LOL. I felt a lot better for doing that.

In the case of wanting to do tasks and not being able to follow through, like for example, me with writing fanfic, I truly really have every intention to sit down and write. But when I do, maybe that day my bones hurt and i feel tired and though i can visualize what i want to write, my hands won’t type it. I realize I’m going to have to put it aside for now, and at that point i might feel like a worthless sack of shit for not finishing a chapter. But then I’m like….am i really? Like…no, I’m not a worthless sack of shit just because i couldn’t write today. I pay my bills on time (kinda) i haven’t murdered anyone and i love my mom and annie leonhart. I’m NOT a terrible person. Why the fuck am i thinking that? oh wait that’s right, the d e pr e s s i on. It’s literally full of shit. Trying to make you feel bad for not being able to do something when it itself is the very reason you can’t do it. Hypocritical piece of shit. Omg, that’s another tip. call your depression on it’s shit!!!!!

4. Say “NOT TODAY, SATAN” whenever you overcome something or achieve a mental or emotional victory. Literally, sometimes I’ll get up out of bed and think NOT TODAY SATAN, YOU’RE NOT TAKING ME TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!! it’s like a little peptalk for yourself. it sounds dumb but it kinda helps. you are like your own cheerleader, lol. 

idk. Depression obviously is so exhausting but these are the things that usually help me. If you or anyone is going through a hard time as well always feel free to message me; I can’t promise I’ll have good advice but I will definitely listen to you and encourage you to keep going.

because this world really needs you guys so we can outnumber the fuckin asswipes that inhabit this planet. also annie needs you to see her return and preach her gospel for a long time after the manga ends ;)

[pennyfynotes]

8.7.17 // 1:30pm // making friends + mental health

this is for the anon who sent me an ask a few days ago, i'm sorry it's taken so long! i'm going to break this down into two parts: making friends + mental health, so i hope this is helpful. the most important thing to remember in these situations is you are not alone. i struggled (and probably will continue to struggle) with both these things.... xoxo, m

making friends:

1. leave your door open. i know, for us introverts/quiet people, we'd prefer to close the door and have our privacy whenever we're in the room/dorm. however, leaving your door open invites people to come in and say hi in the first week or 2 of school (especially o-week). if you're not terribly inclined to go introduce yourself to others, inviting them in with an open door is a great alternative. (obviously don't leave it open all the time, like when you really need privacy or whatever, just don't keep it closed)

2. hang out in public spaces. most college dorms (at least here in the us) have common spaces like kitchens or common rooms. it's a lot easier to meet people if you leave yourself more "accessible". when you spend time in these spaces, i wouldn't do anything that looks like you're concentrating really hard/don't want to be disturbed because that kinda defeats the purpose... maybe try just playing on your phone or doing some sort of hobby that might spark conversation.

3. attend events. generally, schools organize a bunch of events for the freshmen to meet each other. going to these will help you put yourself on people's "radar", so to speak. it's unlikely you'll form a really deep bond (or any bond at all) during these events, but if you put yourself out there, after following up with some people you really think are cool, you might just form a lasting friendship

>>>disclaimer: it's very often said that the friends you make during o-week (which is generally when these events occur) will not be your friends forever. and this is potentially true. a lot of times you only hang out because you know each other's names and are somewhat familiar, not because you have similar interests. don't stress if your o-week group starts to drift apart. it happens to a lot of us.

>>>but also: i met one of my closest friends now during o-week (through a mutual acquaintance). so don't write o-week off just because you think the friendships won't last. you might just find someone you really click with :)

4. don't isolate yourself/sit at the very back. again, this might be the move that most introverts (like myself) would go for, but it really doesn't help with making friends. you don't have to sit at the front if that isn't for you. a lot of studyblrs promote this, (no hate i promise i love you all) but sometimes the people who sit in the front are not the people you want to surround yourself with (cough competitive premeds cough). maybe try a seat in the middle of the room where you'll be able to sit next to someone and maybe strike up conversation. leave your options open.

5. approach other people in class. this is so hard for me. i don't usually like approaching people at all. depending on your personal opinion/comfort zone, you might try gently inserting yourself into a conversation among classmates (try for one that involves a bunch of people so you don't inject into something really private or anything). sometimes approaching people after lecture or even after exams is the best way to do it, because you might be able to start the conversation discussing the material you just went over. i hope this isn't as hard for you as it is for me, but if it is, you'll be ok :)

6. participate!!!! no i don't mean in class (though you can if you like). once you've gotten yourself some sort of group of friends, participate in the things they're doing! otherwise you'll find yourself slowly drifting out to the edge and eventually basically losing the group altogether. granted, this is especially hard when you're in 2 different groups (i speak from experience), but try to strike some sort of balance.

>>> to tie in with this, reply to people's texts/messages. ignoring them is a surefire way to lose potential friends. sometimes it's tempting if you're busy or tired, but try to avoid this (at least until you've established solid friendship lol)

mental health:

1. grades aren't everything. don't let them consume you. especially as someone (like you) who went into college with stellar grades, it was a little hard to let go. i've never been the type of person to constantly go for 100% (that's a little much for me), but my goal was to keep getting a's (even if they were a-'s) for as long as possible. i got a b+ my second semester. it definitely hurt and took a while to recover from, but don't let this be the end. get back up. it really doesn't matter. (maybe it kinda does if you're premed but still, you can recover)

>>>something i tell myself is that future employers are not going to look at the letter grade you got in every individual class. it will likely just be a glance at your overall gpa (if they even care about your grades. a lot of other things are more important). one bad grade will not ruin your gpa.

2. when your mind/body tells you to take some time, take it. i'm not saying to listen to your brain when it says to check your phone every five seconds, that would be terrible advice. what i mean is if you feel overwhelmed or on the verge of burn out, do something about it. don't "just keep swimming". there are times when you can push through, but when you're on the verge of taking a nosedive of the cliff of mental health, stop. people have different ways of self-care and restoring mental health, so do whatever works for you. maybe take a nap, eat your favorite snack, watch a good movie or whatever it is.

>>> if you need to cry, just cry. honestly it takes so much energy to trick yourself into thinking you're ok to stop the tears. i find crying almost expedites the emotional release/reset process so i can get back on track faster rather than moping for days

3. don't give in to pressure. this applies to everything. do things (extracurricular/nonacademic things, that is) because you want to. not because everyone else is doing it. you don't have to go out 9 nights a week just because your roommate does. you don't have to join 10 clubs to keep up with your new friend. do things for you. if you want to try something once or your friend just needs a friend in some situations, then you might have to step out of what you want to do. but don't let others/social norms dictate your life. you can be happy and successful and normal even if you don't do the things that everyone else does.

>>> sometimes it gets hard for me (in a college setting) because i don't drink and don't like going out. unlike (seemingly) every other student ever. but i'm still ok. i have my friends that understand and even share the same views. instead of going to parties we bake cakes or walk around town or get popsicles. you will find your people, just be patient.I

i hope this was helpful and please, please, please reach out to me if you have any more questions or just want to talk. xoxo, m

[rose-raindrop]

2017 thoughts

In the remaining time of 2017, I thought I should do some thinking on not only me as a person, but deal with the effects of actions that were taken (and watch it progressively get worse as more wine is consumed. Haha get it? more wine = more whine!)

This year was honestly a rollercoaster. But let’s try and start with the good things 

The memories made this year will definitely remain in my heart as special memories and bonds created during this time will definitely be hard to break. (I get close to people fast, so sue me.) Here’s to many more years with these odd collection of friends I have, because regardless of our differences, our bond is much stronger than anything else I’ve ever known so far. We’ve grown a lot and for a group that met and became friends in high school, that’s saying a lot considering there was a lot of drama, but we all managed to get through it. Sure, mistakes were made, but mistakes are usually the best teachers, are they not?

First, understanding. I have come to appreciate those who deal with customers over the phone because that’s some tough shit to not sound too rude or too condescending otherwise it will rub the customer the wrong way and get defensive with you. I also learned that as someone who’s normally....easy to change her stance to appease someone, there are times in which you have to be stern to avoid getting taken advantage of. Kindness is a weapon that can be utilized a different amount of ways depending on the intent behind it and how it is executed. 

The second lesson would be that self-care is honestly important. As someone who’s been bubbly and able to easily empathize with others, I didn’t really worry too much about myself as I should have been? I was worried about everyone’s happiness because that’s what made me happy. If anyone was upset, I wanted more than anything else to get them smiling and back on their feet again through distractions or even just to share happy memories or a small inside joke (depending on the person). I didn’t really have to worry about myself since I saw no reason for it, but much like anything else, it had to be learned one way or another.  In the months after the break up, it’s been....rather difficult to go back to being the bubbly person that I was before. I couldn’t be angry, nor could I cry about what happened. After seeing everyone worry about me, I had to fake my happiness to ensure that no one else was sad or pitying me. Because I was faking a good majority of the time, I was getting irritated a lot faster than usual at home, there were days in which I didn’t want to get out of bed. I became an even worse workaholic in hopes of keeping myself distracted. I couldn’t find joy in the things that would normally make me happy before (video games, movies, writing, etc). Mornings sucked even more than they did, but sleep wouldn’t come either. I would space out a lot more than usual and it was an absolute mess. From this experience, I learned that it’s okay to take time and focus on you, which is a rather difficult lesson for me.

Speaking of, first relationships! Well, it was...a surprise for sure. I get attached easily (lol, established since high school let’s be real here). After many rejections in high school, I’ve learned to keep my feelings to myself whenever they blossom to avoid being hurt. That was until him. When he asked, I was confused and unsure because what the ever loving fuck was in his drink to ask someone like me? What the hell was in mine to even imagine this? But then I realized that I had sobered up already and he could always hold his drink better than me anyways so we were both at this crossroads sober and aware of the situation. I was surprised at my own acceptance seeing as I was...put on the spot somewhat, but after some thinking, I realized that I have felt this way about him for several years now, but because of past hurts, I locked it up the minute I realized how I was feeling to avoid losing him as a friend but the signs were obvious and I’m surprised no one else noticed sooner. Anyways, things were going okay, he was sweet with me, but either to keep pretenses or for some other reason, he was different with the group. Granted, we agreed to not be too obvious to see who would be the first to figure it out, but it was....a ride at best, a confusing pile of emotions at worst. Because of paranoia (from previous rejections), I always questioned whether it was real and it didn’t do much for us. I am a fighter for my beliefs, but the one time I needed to defend and fight for what I believed in, I didn’t and I accepted defeat. When everyone else told me to talk to him, I insisted that I didn’t want to. Now I want nothing more than to talk to him when everyone is saying not to and to put it in the past. 

As much as I’d love to listen to them, I can’t find it in me to put it in the past. Maybe it’s because he was the first kiss. Maybe it was because it was my first relationship. Maybe it’s because I have faith it will work out if I speak to him. All these maybes and there is no definite solution. I want nothing more than to speak to him and ask him all the questions in my heart, but I just, can’t find the way to do so. Ignorance is bliss, right? But is it really? Because I’m anything but blissful right now. 

I must say though, those who stuck by me and dealt with my bullshit, you are the MVP of this year for me. I’ve been an emotional mess and the times that I’m not so coherent due to alcohol, you’ve been there to look out for me. When I whine about him, you’ve tolerated it and listened, even though I know you’re tired of hearing his name and my angst over this. I don’t know where I would be without these lovely people in my life to help me get a hold of my emotions. 

Well, anyways, I can barely make sense of what I’m saying now (a lot of alcohol and it’s not even midnight yet for the West Coast). Here’s to 2018 treating me better than 2017 did and here’s to taking part of many more adventures that life wants to toss at me!

[emjayn]

1-104 bitch

11. What do you drink in the morning? whiskey. jk it’s orange juice or water

12. Where did you sleep last night? at home

13. Do you think relationships are hard? they can be depending on who they’re with

14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you? hooo boy yes i would not have got in a relationship with any of the people i did lmao

15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems? absolutely not

16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy? i don’t care

17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you? my best pal

18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants? the skinniest of skinny jeans

19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now? if i’m not dead probably

20. Does anyone like you? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S? yuuup

22. Is the last person you kissed gay? i mean a bit gay yes

23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand? yep lmao most of my exes

24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo? i want one

25. In the past week have you cried? too much

26. What breed was the last dog you saw? cockapoo, it’s my archie’s birthday

27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower? out of the shower who even dries off in it wtf

28. Have you ever kissed a football player? yes

29. Do you think you’re old? compared to a lot of my friends yes, in general no

41. When did you last receive a text message? 3:32pm

42. What is wrong with you right now? what fucking isn’t

43. How well do you know the last female you texted? she’s my mam

44. Does anyone disgust you? me

45. Would you date someone right now if they asked? if the right person asked yes probably

46. Are you in a good mood right now? nope

47. Who was the last person you talked to in person? my mam

48. What color shirt are you wearing? green and white stripes

49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear? yes.

50. Anyone you’re giving up on? myself

51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for? no absolutely not

52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t? yes

53. Do you like rain? no not really

54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks? lol i’m a fucking alcoholic so no

55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them? yes

56. Do you like to cuddle? yes

57. Are you shy? nope

58. Do you get along with girls? most of the time

59. Have you dated the person you texted last? nope

60. What do you carry with you at all times? a glasses cloth

61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you? yeah lol kill me faster

62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months? i have done more than once

63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship? unfortunately

64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute? yes

65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week? nah fam

66. How old are the last three people you kissed? 23, 18 and 18

67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself? pay to get them done

68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print? i don’t like either

69. Do you have any stickers on your car? i don’t have a car

70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne? neither

71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone? iphone

72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut? fuck uh a year maybe?

73. Do you like diet soda? yep

74. What color are the walls in your room? blue and white

75. Are you 16 or older? i am a 19 year old lady

76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars? nope

77. Do you have a job? yep, i am an optical apprentice

78. What are your initials? EJN

79. Did you ever have braces? i had a retainer with a false tooth on it when i was 14

80. Are you from the south? nope i am almost as north as you can get in england

81. What does your last status on facebook say? “you can tell i’m tired because i just tried to check the time on my inhaler.. good goin em”

82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed? no

83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad? my dad

84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics? gymnastics yes

85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters? star wars: the force awakens

86. Do you smoke? nope

87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops? heels

88. Is your phone touch screen? yes

89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly? messy

90. Have you ever snuck out of your house? yes on multiple occasions

91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool? pool

92. Have you ever made out in a car? yup

93. …Had sex in a car? no

94. Are you single or in a relationship? single as a pringle m9

95. What were you doing last night at midnight? drunkenly watching the flash

96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks? bonfire night

97. Do you like the camera on your phone? yeah it’s great

98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

99. Have you ever passed out from drinking? yes too many times

100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate? no

101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare? when i was 15 yes

102. Name your favorite Kesha song: tik tok is the only one i know

103. Do you have any tan lines right now? no i’m paler than snow white man

104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts? i would never wear cowboy boots

1-10 and 30-40 done in a prev postdone it bitch ♥