#that it felt like some ppl have forgotten that I'm like

[syscultureis]

Hi I have a question, would it be valid to be willogenic as a way to cope with trauma? At first it was my way to cope with my past trauma, loneliness, and stressful things I face. Never was trying to be a system (kinda), uhh I forgotten what else I was gonna say.. but I think If not Vaild I'll complete stop and find a better coping mechanism. But I want to hear from people who have DID/OSDD , since it's a trauma focused disorder. Also maybe there are smiler stuff to this? I'M NOT TRYING TO WASTE YOUR TIME I JUST WANT TO NOW IF WHAT I'M DOING IS OKAY OR NOT 😭

So fun fact actually, when we were young we noticed our symptoms, we assumed we had "personas" for specific things, so sometimes we would make new ones that we would pretend to be when we needed to be, and a lot of those personas became alters, not all of them but a noticeable amount

This is actually a lot closer to having introjects of an OC than actually creating an alter and a system, because while I may have made "Chad to deal with bullies" our brain saw an already prepared person to take care of the stressor and need, and because the situations were causing stress they were causing splits, those splits had an identity premade for them to latch onto, we were never making the alters themselves though

Willogenic isn't a real thing, it's not something you can actually be, but because of how it's described I have seen a lot of systems who went through what we did assume they were willogenic

In general if you just want to "make" alters and say you're a system to cope with traumas, go for it I can't stop you and if it helps it helps, but that's just imaginary friends and it more likely to cause you worse dissociation and identity confusion if you're not careful

I would heavily advise looking into DID with a professional though, because what you're saying is something I've heard a lot of ppl say they felt (some of my own sys included) the way you're describing before discovering they are a system.

I would also look into BPD and disorders that can cause minor or start with minor psychosis as well, they're things that can cause symptoms similar to DID

You're not doing anything wrong, you're coping in a way that works for you and I'm glad you found something that works for now, but I again advise trying to look into things with a professional (and maybe on your own as well) because if you don't have DID, coping like that long term can cause more harm than good, and working with a professional and looking into disorders that cause your symptoms can help you find better ways to cope as well

[certifiedsexed]

Hi! Quick question

Sorry if this is invasive or weird, but sometimes I see you say that you can't reblog posts because the image isn't described and you can't see it. Do you use a screen reader?

I'm not sure how screen readers work or what kinds of them there are, but I've heard that sometimes they can have trouble reading certain things.

Are there anythings things that would be a problem for yours to read, like italics or colored text? Or does it understand those?

I just want to make sure I don't send asks that you won't be able to read!

Hello!

I don't find this weird or invasive at all, I think it's quite kind. I don't use a screenreader because my computer's kind of on the verge of dying and can barely handle me using it as is.

So, I make do without one, which generally means avoiding posts without descriptions because I often can't make out things or the effort I'd have to put into making them out would take awhile and put me in extreme pain.

Despite this, I occasionally try to figure out undescribed posts. Things that make that especially difficult or impossible are colored text, small text, lots of text, detailed images and super vibrant colors. (All of which are amazingly frequent on Tumblr. T_T)

(Actually, shout out to @mythicalcoolkid because he describes posts for me sometimes and I appreciate it so, so much.)

This doesn't mean that if you send me an ask containing any of those that I won't try to answer it, it just means it may take me forever.

But if you describe any images like that (or just any images in general), it guarantees I can at least read your message.

Thank you so much btw, this is a very considerate ask and I appreciate it. <33

[bluedeedeedoop]

My Thoughts on Tales of the Empire; mostly Barriss (spoilers ahead!)

Ah hello all, i have had some days or so to think since watching the show and to say it has completely wiped me of my life force would be... pretty accurate tbh. BUT I HAVE FINALLY DECIDED TO POST MY THOUGHTS. will this cover my entire though process that im sTill working through? PROBABLY NOT! my thoughts are very unorganized and very unstable! ANYWAAAAYS.

Now I just gotta say overall, the show itself definitely passed the test. To be completely honest, i wasn't really paying attention to the Morgan parts as i was the Barriss parts, since it was literally what I was looking forward to this entire time.

Though I will say that the first Morgan episode was pretty neat! it was crazy seeing that perspective of the Nightsisters again and god did they make Grievous fucking terrifying. Honestly, bravo to them, it was amazing. I diiiiid end up just.. kinda spacing out the rest of it tho unfortunately cuz i just wanted to see barriss..

Visuals 10000/10. stunning, amazing, phenomenal, gahdamn. the animation was so smooth and fluid and uGHH it was amazing throughout the entire show. Acting amazing as always. BUT GOD I CANT GET OVER HOW AMAZING THE ANIMATION WAS.

NOW.

In my opinion, they got her character pretty on the dot. I am SO glad they did. I was rlly rlly worried they were totally butcher her character and make her unrecognizable to all of us but oml they didn't completely disappoint us, she has her morals, SHES STILL A HEALER! Im so happy from that.

Now although i did enjoy it, i do have my own little complaints.

Now okay one i noticed since the trailer and has REALLY been bugging me; where are her hand tattoos??? idk i guess i just wasn't expecting them to just be gone?? they couldn't have just forgotten them.. right? I dunno, but unless someone has a genuine answer for that, imma just keep drawing them on her in the future.

??????

Alright another thing i've been seeing ppl post about is how come she looked so old at the end? I am also confused on that and i've seen multiple theories. She should only be like 30-35 max right?? Because i'm assuming the last episode took place a the time in Rebels where the inquisitors were after the force sensitive children, and Ahsoka was around that age a the time, so why is Barriss any different?

I suppose the one i think makes the most sense is the force healing? I guess it could take a toll on her over the years causing her to look more aged, but still, i'd really prefer an explanation. Also what happened to her hair coverings?? Is that not her culture?? I dunno, again, i really need an explanation. I suppose that maybe her perspective has changed since trying to come to terms with her new life, and her ditching the coverings is a way to free herself from her past? Honestly i have no clue but i just need a lot of things answered.

That's mostly my complaints on it! I just felt things weren't explained enough but to be fair, they only gave her like 3 15-ish min episodes?? I really think they got some explaining to do. Which brings me to my next points.

I'm like... 98% sure that the "old friend" is Ahsoka that she was talking about. Who else would it be?? Like cmon. And if it is Ahsoka, why did we not get to see anything about the moment of confrontation? or at least more of a mention? I guess they wouldn't rlly wanna rush that scene, and tbh, im glad they didn't. It's not some "we talk for 5 min and everything is fine" type of situation. it'll take time. time to rebuild that trust. time to discuss. YEAH. I've heard many people state how it would be more likely and realistic to see a novelization of that and i agree. I would want it to take time, showing the build of the relationship over time, going on further into the story as we watch their strong bond mend from the trauma it's faced. I'm not saying this as a crazed Barrissoka shipper, i mean it that I would genuinely want to see how that confrontation is handled, as do many others and not just as a ship!! It's been a decade! the fans wanna know!

And my last point.

I.believe.Barriss.is.alive.

The more i rewatch it, the more i believe it. the first time around i had my doubts, but something tells me they are NOT done with her character. At least before the stabbing scene anyway. There's too much stuff that's left unanswered for it to just end that way! I dunno man, but Lyn's "i'm going to get you out of here" sounded way too determined for a "im going to move your body out of here" type of thing yk? maybe she could sense she was still alive, just barely hanging in there? I don't think they are done with Barriss Offee, and I wont think so unless we see her corpse being fucking BURIED. Not to mention the UNGODLY amount of parallels of that scene along with them exiting the cave. I've already seen so many point it out. Post-Vader and Ahsoka fight on Malachor?? Back when we all thought Ahsoka may or may not be dead?? sounds familiar hello?? Also a parallel from earlier in the show itself when Barriss saves that unnamed jedi! she HEALS them when they were going to be left there. Something tells me the same fate may happen to Barriss. Idk call me crazy but i will say it again, i don't think they are done with her story.

Thank you for reading my very unorganized thoughts! this has taken me longer to write than expected because i did not predict this to make me have to step away from making SEVERAL times- but yeah! lmk what yall think! and yes you can be expecting some art here and there! i know i've been slacking- Also lmk if u want me to post my crazed Barrissoka thoughts! because aHa i have them. i have them a lot. send help.

ALSO KEVIN KINER I GOT MY EYE ON YOU. BRO NEEDS TO RELEASE THE SOUNDTRACK BEFORE I DIE.

[thecoolerliauditore]

Ngl, I hated pirates smp, it felt so rigid and boring, but even though im a bit wary, i m excited for rats 2. Rats 1 had this cozy and creative vibe, and such a fun setting, and i feel that type of smps is what pow is good at. We got so many fun moments, fun builds, and the lore was well used and while it was scripted, it was often carried by the players and didn´t feel as suffocating. The rats setting REALLY worked in its favour. Pirates on the other hand... Idk everything just felt so forced. There were some ccs that made it far better by focusing in interactions versus the plot (I remember Oli´s streams were a blast), or doing some very cool side projects (Martyn´s newspaper or Ros´ crazy castle for example. gosh i do hope Ros is in rats 2, she was the mvp of pirates), but the necessity for a story really pushed all of that stuff (the kind of stuff that made rats great) into the background, and I say that as someone who actually really likes lore, and doesn´t usually mind when it´s scripted. I also feel like dividing the players into factions really backfired, bc it killed the vibe of community rats had. The npcs were BORING. Finally, i m sorry, as a certified fan of stories featuring pirates, the set wasn´t being used correctly, there s so many cool ways of using that prompt and they just didn´t know how. Idk, I just hope rats 2 doesn´t follow that same pattern of thinking lore is everything that makes an smp good, when it´s only one of several (and not precisely the most important), and brings back the vibes. I am actually hopeful and excited, but we can only wait and see

At some point I need to join tumblr staff just to implement a feature where I can outsource asks to that megabuild guy specifically before I have to admit I actively dislike empires, rats and pirates. Good news about Ros though!

I think most ppl posting about rats 2 rn are in a similar boat in that they enjoyed rats 1 and feel uneasy about the second season cus of the nothingburger with a side of straight man represented as such that was pirates as well as POW being POW.

me being a hater (like. actually) below

I don't like posting about pirates because it breaks my blog rule for myself to not post about anything I full-on dislike and have no love for whatsoever but it really is kind of fascinating how they managed to mess up pretty much everything. the m in this smp stands for mid. You're so right about the pirates setting thing I could swear by like. the second day half the cast had completely forgotten they were supposed to be pirates (partially to blame I think is the fact that they really didn't have anything pirate-y to do).

Their conception of pirates seems to be more akin to a kids halloween costume than historical fantasy. I will always find it funny how scott once again sets up a character with very clear thematic relevance (classism and parental abuse, in this case) and didn't do anything with it and instead kept talking about his brother and expecting me to feel bad for him or whatever. I'm not surprised at all considering Scott has shown in the past he can't differentiate plot and themes it's just that a pirate story without the societal commentary or the moral greyness may as well be about any other group of motherfuckers on a boat. cruise ship smp. Fucking that squid was the most interesting thing Scott's character did and it wasn't even ""canon"".

I also watched a handful of Martyn's streams at the time and the newspaper thing was actually pretty cool but I also kinda?? felt bad for him?? He spends ages online talking to no one. There was this one stream where he spent the entire time doing parkour courses and trying to find where an npc disappeared to. I'm not saying that he was actively excluded or whatever it just felt really sad to watch him pretty much wander aimlessly for hours and discuss c!martyn headcanons with chat with no actual plot to go with those headcanons. I can't even say no one gaf about his oc cus people DID give a fuck about pirate martyn only for him to have nothing to do in the smp except be pansexual and lie. His vendetta against the urchin thing was funny but the start of it was during an event where there were way too many people in the same place all trying to make the loudest funniest quip and it felt like a mess to watch.

I think it's hilarious that scarian tops the ao3 tag for pirates considering grian isn't in it but also like. I kind of get it when Scar's character had the most sense of intrigue and actual pirate vibes to him (despite him only playing for like 2 streams LMAO). That plus the fact that the rest of the cast minus the two who were involved in horrors at the time had a fucking surburban hell homeowner association style list of lawn care expectations on what you could do with them in your fanart/fic like wtf else are people supposed to write about.

And that's not even getting into like. why this sucked in the first place i.e. like you mentioned the weird chatbot NPCs, the weird faction system that discouraged interaction, the "canon" and "non-canon" streams etc I don't really care about any of the other CCs involved if I'm totally honest (I don't count Cleo cus she didn't really. Do anything. May as well have not been on there) so I can't comment further but. yeah

Also this is very petty of me but the skins are sooooo ugly. Gone is the fun in each skin reflecting the players specific personality and taste aesthetics and all. Idk how they managed to make minecraft skins feel like they have same face syndrome but they did it. We're gonna take the thing that gives the players their own self-expression and usually makes your first impression of the character as the viewer and drench it all in sweet and sour sauce and an instagram filter until you can barely tell who's supposed to be who. At least they were smart enough to keep their hands off of Scar's smirk I would've rioted.

[hellobitchlet]

Here are some thoughts on Natlan, as of finishing act 1:

- this will mostly be negative, so let's start with the positives. First off, I'm happy to say that I have, in fact, found something I find interesting in Natlan! I am SO happy that the abyss has FINALLY been brought back into importance outside of hard-to-follow deep lore.

- while I still don't like that Natlan is hyper focused on sports, the idea that the pilgrimage is a glorified way to get ppl to go to war is amazing. That is such a good concept, even if it being in the archon quest means that it probably won't be acknowledged after act 5.

- one of my biggest complaints about Genshin has been that extremely few characters have been important, and connected to lore stuff. So of course, I also adore the abyss stuff for the sheer number of characters who have participated in the war. It's nice that their characters aren't entirely focused on their participation in the war either, as that's one of the big differences that makes Yoimiya better written than most Inazuma aq characters imo.

- I'm happy that the writers have finally remembered Traveler's purification abilities, even though it came out of nowhere after being forgotten about for literal years.

- I have likes and dislikes about Kachina's mini arc in part one, but it was handled slightly better than what I'd expect from Genshin. The main positives; we were actually shown that she cries in short bursts a lot instead of being told, Traveler wasn't automatically allowed to be involved and was told no for once, and her relationship to Mualani is great and accentuated both of their characters well.

- and now, let's start with the negatives. My main negatives of Kachina's act 1 arc; the fact that everyone saw her as weak bc she's lost a lot and not bc she's a fucking child was stupid, the teams portion being filled with brown skinned ppl being mean to her was gross, and the whole thing felt slightly rushed.

- considering that Traveler and Paimon usually act as the voice of 'reason' (as in, telling u what u should think), it's greatly concerning me that they don't seem to see the pilgrimage and a fucking child competing in it as a bad thing. Why were they as initially okay with Kachina dying as Mualani????

- I'm calling it now: the pale skinned npc's shitting on Kachina were pale bc they're Fatui, not bc the writers realized that brown skinned npc's doing that would look racist.

- I understand that the npc who almost died is probably important to the pyro archon, and we did end up with a decent intro to how the abyss acts in Natlan out of it, but I was so bored with the People of the Springs that the 5 minutes spent with the abyss didn't feel like it made up for how bored I was for the 20 minutes spent setting it up.

- absolutely everything about the People of the Springs makes no fucking sense. How the fuck are they a tourist destination AND regularly being attacked by the abyss at the same time?? It's so obvious that they just picked the first stereotype about Hawaii they could find and carelessly shaped their entire identity around it for the sake of it.

- I seriously want to care about Natlan's unique archon situation, but why should I when we haven't gotten an old archon who actually feels like an archon and isn't hopelessly clueless since Inazuma? Like I know that this isn't the same as Nahida and Furina lore wise, but writing wise, I'm not super optimistic about our third young archon in a row.

- seeing how Iansan acts... I definitely think that I'll be crossing off the "Iansan is an adult" part of the Natlan bingo. This point is kind of including the beginning of act 2 that I already did.

If anyone who has finished act 2 thinks that act 2 will change my opinions, don't bother 'politely' 'correcting' me. Not because I care about spoilers, but because I can decide for myself whether my opinion changes :)

[loveharlow]

i’m so sorry for these dumbass anons. unfortunately we live in a world where binging shows and overconsumption in general is the norm now. ppl expect everything to be instantaneous and have forgotten the amount of time and work that goes into making any form of media or literature. it genuinely pisses me off whenever i see ppl demanding things from creatives and complaining about waiting. ppl need to get their heads out of their asses and learn how to be patient and appreciative. whether it’s demanding a fic, a new season of a show, a new album, etc. it’s fkn ridiculous that this entitled attitude is so common now.

keep doing what you enjoy doing at whatever pace or priority you desire. and i’m so so glad you’re standing up for yourself even tho it’s a shame that you even have to in the first place. 🖤🖤🖤

thank you so much because i honestly stepped back for a second and had to look a my first reply and be like "did i say anything mean...?"

and not to mention, i understand that i put the pressure of being a writer onto myself but in what world does that warrant some rude ass mf to come at me for not writing chapters fast enough? like im a person with real hobbies and a very real future, not to mention...i don't get paid for this shit, i do it for fun because im a freaky ass bitch with a oddly vivid imagination and decent writing skills😭

and i've gotten asks similar to those before and ngl, i just delete them. no one is going to rush me on my own blog and i don't tolerate disrespect and i want my blog to be more positive than negative. but something about the attitude and insults just genuinely had me fucked up LMAO

and i already felt bad because i feel like sometimes, anons and some readers try to make things a competition when they're not😭 the persons fic that was sent was only sent in, i'm assuming, because the masterlist looked similar to seven (really only with the inbetween pieces) but i read the first chapter and for one, the story is sooo damn good, and two, the plot lines are not similar at ALL.

but i honestly appreciate this sm babe you're angel, that anon had me stressing last night

love you!

[hauntedwoman]

tagged by @youngestdaughtersyndrome and @glassangels (thank you <3333)

are you named after anyone ? yes i'm named after my nana !! (my full name is margaret hehe)

2. when was the last time you cried? a couple of weeks ago when i was saying goodbye to my cousin who moved out of state w her boyfriend so he can complete his residency for med school................. partly bc i miss her a lot but also bc i genuinely feel like i am never going to experience healthy romantic love i feel like it wasn't made for me HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

3. do you have kids? does my cat count bc i raised her from a little baby kitten she was so tiny she fit in the palm of my hand :3

4. what sports do you play/have played? i was on a swim team all throughout junior high and high school and sometimes i miss just mindlessly swimming laps and getting lost in the pure muscle memory of it but then i remember getting up at 5am on saturdays to go to meets and i realize i can live without it 5. do you use sarcasm? my favorite show is daria u tell me

6. what's the first thing you notice about someone? usually eyes or clothing. living in a place where it's rare to find other ppl my age that dress "alt" i'm always looking for ppl that have interesting personal style.

7. eye color? not to be some annoying white girl on main but they change depending on what i'm wearing. they're usually either blue or gray or a teal color.

8. scary movies or happy endings? considering nothing in my life has ever worked out the way i want it to i can't relate to happy endings. almost all of my favorite films have heavy horror or psychological thriller aspects

9. any talents? i'm a pretty decent singer. i was trained classically and sang in choirs for like seven years, so i also know how to read music. other than that i think i'm really good at interior decorating or just being able to make things "aesthetically pleasing". i also think i'm a pretty good writer and that i manipulate language in a really unique form that gives way to a really clear voice in my work.

10. where were you born? simferopol, ukraine

11. hobbies? journalling, staring into the void, photographing/exploring abandoned buildings, grieving, making playlists for every emotion i've ever felt, clinging onto a past that everyone else has forgotten about except me, reading books that make me feel like i need a lobotomy, antique shopping, blackberry picking, sunbathing, being a heinous bitch

12. any pets? i have two cats (phantasma and smokey), and then my mom and sister have four dogs between the both of them so i am constantly living in autistic hell (they never stop barking and chewing up my stuff)

13. height? 5'4" (162.5cm) i'm so sorry to expose myself as Tiny i know i give off Tall Energy

14. favorite school subject? overall i'd say english but i've also thoroughly enjoyed a bunch of different courses i've taken in college like stage makeup, medieval and modern theatre, and all of my creative writing courses

15. dream job? i simply do not dream of labor but since i can only get a serotonin rush from buying clothes i don't need it would be pretty swaggy if i could be a published author or if i could work in the music industry somehow, perhaps at a radio station with my own radio show or even making my own music. i also deeply miss my job at the used bookstore i had during the worst summer of my life. something about being surrounded by books all day is so comforting.

tagging: @arunima @symptomofloves @discoidal @diabolicjoy @severrance and anyone else that wants to do this <33

[inu-yasha]

I never understood how Kikyou could ask Inuyasha to become human. It just seemed out of character for her because Kikyou would know that's a selfish wish. The shikon jewel would've become corrupted right away. Besides, Kikyou loved inuyasha as a half-demon, she kissed him while he was half-demon. If she truly wanted him to change, wouldn't she have waited until after he became human? I think Kikyou telling Inuyasha that she was going to get rid of the Jewel (by wishing it out of existence but not telling him these details because she was rather cryptic at times) and wanting his support on the day would've made more sense. Then when her body burned she could've forgotten everything for some reason or other...you know...

I'm very happy about your question!!!

Key word: "asked" She just asked him to do it. He made the decision himself. She didn't force anything on him. She really couldn't ask anymore because it would make her not 'love' him? At that moment, Kikyou thought that if the shikon no tama grants wishes, maybe if used for good purposes, it will simply disappear and she will be able to live with Inuyasha in peace, without being attacked every day by demons who wanted this cursed jewel.

She loved Inuyasha as a hanyou. She was the only one who cared for him and talked to him and didn't want to kill because she felt that she and he were similar. Kikyou understood him as Hanyou better than anyone else

She herself felt that she was a human being, but she also couldn't behave like a human being. She felt like she didn't fit in anywhere. Literally like Inuyasha. This loneliness and speech to Inuyasha comes from Kikyou from the depths of her hurt, lonely and suffering soul and heart.

Inuyasha was the first person Kikyou came into contact with and honestly said what she thought. Her speech is truly full of sadness, suffering and loneliness, like her whole person.

Kikyou just wanted a normal life. There's nothing wrong with that. She found someone with whom she can share her pain and someone who understands her. It's good to share your pain with someone who understands you well because they are going through the same thing. Kikyou was second only to his mother who didn't treat him like dirt, but gave him respect and later developed feelings for him.

She meant well by asking him. She wanted them to live a normal life without any harassment from both the demon and human worlds. I don't think it would be a bad thing. Kikyou shows how much she loves him and cares about his well-being.

Kikyou also accepted him as he is. She loved him as a hanyou, so her feelings for him are true, and this request to him was the greatest and most beautiful proof of her love for him. He agreed because he felt the same.

She hadn't forgotten their promise after being brought back to life, but now the situation was different. She gave her life for Kohaku's life, pushed aside her revenge. This shows how great and wonderful a character Kikyou is, and even after death, when she came back to life, the goodness in her hasn't faded away, and she has undergone character development. After calming down, she still cared about Inuyasha and his feelings. Only she did it and no one else took his feelings into account, not even his so-called 'friends' Kikyou is a person who can think unconventionally.

She is willing to take risks, such as giving the jewel to Naraku, her method was bad for some ppl, but I see the good side that she wanted to finish him off faster so that the person responsible for her and Inuyasha's suffering would increase the punishment.

It's easy to say "You don't have to change for me" when you live in a free society and have a different worldview than people who have experienced the same burden. This is different. One looks for every solution to be happy, and Kikyou tried to be happy with Inuyasha and her sister.

Kikyou is a truly loving Inuyasha, her love is always present, even when she is angry with him. Her request was truly for the good of both of them and their happy life together. This is a sign of caring, true love, this is Inuyasha. Inuyasha also proved that Kikyou's death did not kill his feelings. He loves her more than anything in the world. These are two people separated by death, but death cannot kill the love in their hearts.

[admirange]

Mcl style contest outfit dump pt. 5

Devil's night

Looked it up if it means something specific. Found out there's a book (?) series with this title, saw some fanarts and every character was in black, kinda military like clothes. Also devil's night was a day on October the 30th or 31th where in some american towns ppl did mischief and vandalism and stuff. At least that's what I read, idk about these stuff. But I continued this thought process and thought the Purge movies would fit with this theme too? The vibe I was going for is a little extra, going to parties, doing whatever the hell she wants, killing, anything. Taki robbed a bank.

Got well ranked with top 20%

Devil's advocate

Took the theme quite literally. But also didn't want to do a normal formal outfit, this is the DEVIL's advocate after all. So sort of formal, but still extremely slack. Taki shows off how rich they are.

Got well ranked with top 15%

Hollow lantern

I used very extra, overly-decorated clothes to give that feeling of those beautifully decorated lanterns. A bronze color would've matched more, but white is what I have. A little over-dressed for my taste, I don't know how to feel about it. I don't expect great ranking with it.

Got well ranked with top 25%

Demonic entity

My first thought was the nun Valak! Did a test run but it's really hard to make a decent nun without cloaks. Give us cloaks pls!! I also thought about the Babadook so I went with that idea after the nun didn't really work out. It's still kind of a mix between those two. Gave her that sunshader because it felt really empty, to have her just stand there. I actually pondered a lot if I should give her that or stay without stuff but I don't know, somehow it felt more sinister with the shader. Maybe just for me.

Got low ranking with it. The podium is a disaster. But not surprising since every second outfit in this theme was a fairy sparkle butterfly princess. Are we familiar what a demon is?

Dragon slayer

Although I watched it like 10 years ago, my first thought was still Fairy Tail... then Lance also came into my mind since yk... he killed his lil bro. Who was a dragon. So he's a dragon slayer. No? Okay. Searched for a picture of Gajeel from the anime and used it for reference. Not a 100% but it wasn't my intention anyway.

Got well ranked with top 28%

Pirate

Harr! The theme song of Pirates of the Caribbean was the ringbell for the end of the class in my school for 3 years. Went for a classic pirate, I honestly don't have much to say about it. I like it!

Got well ranked with top 22%

Ghost

Not much to add, tried to do something a little bit different since it's getting a little repetitive. We had like 3 different ghost themes so far. The goal was to put the whole character in white and look kind of old. The lore is that this is a library lady ghost, I just had to come up with something because yeah. It's getting boring.

Got well ranked with top 22%

Dark rituals

Pretty messy and a lot is going on, but that was my intention. As I said I'm getting a little bored with the clothes I have so I just tried doing a little more chaotic look. She doesn't even have a lore :(

Got well ranked with top 28%

Vampire

NADJA FROM WHAT WE DO IN THE SHADOWS!!!! I can't even describe how much I love vampires. Both portrayed seriously and in a comedic way. I love playing with vampires in the sims and I love forgotten hollow. I love looking like a vampire. The scented wax I'm using rn is called vampire blood. The outfit is obviously referenced from Nadja, but only from my memory. Taki reminded me of Guillermo because of the vest and the glasses! I hope hope hope some ppl will recognize my vision 🥹 this may be my all time favorite outfit so far.

Got well ranked with top 12% (so much only for the basic looks to win again... I saw so many great cosplays, it's so disappointing but not surprising)*

Black widow

Looked up some inspos. I didn't want to do anything extra, an elegant but more tight fitting outfit. She's like the sims we make to marry the rich ones then kill them in the pool. Taki is enjoying their money. Idk about the background, it's something between a rich home and a funeral house? Like she's still at the husband's funeral lol. Spent an awful lot of time creating the outfit and it isn't even my best one.

Got well ranked with top 30%

*I don't wish to attack anyone with this, it just genuinely feels like I'm seeing the same outfits over and over again in different colors. Seems like a lot of people dress as the "color" of the theme rather than the theme itself... I promise a demon does not need butterflies and flowers, red or not it does not fit the idea.

Thanks for reading and/or looking through my creations! <3

[sarcophagid]

hi im back with.an edgar valden character analysis also my wording may be a little bit weird dont ask about that

ok so edgar technically has two lores (??), the canon one and the original one (ill prob only write the pre-manor lore tho). in the canon one, he has a little sister called Ella, and she was like one of the only ppl he cared about, but she died cuz their father didn't take care of his sister (his mother too but yeah) (A Message Behind A Portrait, "When I was 6, mother left green behind in the carriage. When I was 8, my younger sister left white behind in the painting room" and A Farewell Letter "And young Ella, only six, forgotten by you on a sweltering afternoon. You were preoccupied with my "birthday celebration," neglecting the game you had promised her. Her tiny body curled in the painting room, her face pale as an asphyxiated fish, waiting for you to open the door until her last breath"). at some point, they got him a tutor/teacher (Mr. Sarai), and edgar thought that he like actually cared about him, but then he realized that he did not actually care about him (A Message Behind A Portrait, "Later on, Mr. Sarai was the only person who understood me, but sadly, he started revealing his true colors—he was a filthy liar."), so he killed him with a letter opener, and then used Sarai's blood to paint cuz..red is pretty (and gentle)

in the original lore, Ella was replaced with Maple Valden, who didn't die and was instead the one that delivered the manor letter to Edgar, and Edgar instead used the letter opener to basically cut himself to get blood for paintings

also it was implied that edgar was SA'd by Sarai in one of his deduction quests ("Coloring: Sometimes the first stroke will determine the colors of the entire painting. /Diary 1: I had a weird dream. Master was holding my hand to paint on a canvas...") , but it was never confirmed

amd things in the manor... he knew that patty was going to kill him, but didn't do anything abt it (A Page from Edgar Valden's Experiment File, "Subject 5-?-1's rationality comes from his obsession with art, but in the end, it was art that led to his fall by making him give up all resistance and willingly sacrifice himself." and Patty's letter Eerie words written on a piece of cloth, "May you be surrounded by rivers of blood and sing your swan song in repent."), he also bullied Jose (put the blame on him cuz Kevin left) with Vera until Jose cried/had a mental breakdown. kevin also thought he was rude to patty (i dont remember why) but in edgar's letter it was said that he remained calm in most of his interactions in the manor

how obvious is it that i really like edgar valden

ohh okay i see thank you for the explanation 🤔 i'll answer in list format for ease of reading TOT

i forgot that edgar was a community made character TOT its neat that he has an original lore page from the creator, i should check some of the other ones (iirc aesop was also one of these types of characters :?)

also edgars artistic motivation is still a bit unclear to me but i haven't dug too deep lmao. from what i've gathered it seems like he sees it as elevated above material things and this isolated him (further than normal, considering the dead sister), but i dont know what he finds positive 🤔 lmk if you have any thoughts on that

i'd argue that the deduction about the dream is most likely edgars awareness on sarai's pursuit of the family's wealth rather than an indication of assault. it's probably referring to the fact that sarai was using edgar's work for money rather than genuine artistic expression, which is why edgar felt like sarai was the one directing him and not allowing him creative freedom - hence 'holding his hand' to paint. it also doesn't look like there's any other references to an event like this, and the related deductions just detail sarai's materialistic connection to art as a product. i'm disinclined to jump the gun on assuming sexual violence in an unclear plot point when there's a more reasonable explanation without it.

i have to review some of the other files again but the manor game files are known to have inconsistencies - they're written by another character rather than being an unbiased retelling, despite the fancy format (it's hard to call someone objectively 'arrogant' or 'aggressive' lol, and there's 100% some sort of profiling going on a lot of the time). iirc kevin was protective of patricia because she was a woman (more to this but for brevity this is the simplest explanation they have in the letter) and because she was perceived by the others as a 'foreigner' (esp if you consider that most of the other players were white, and that the letters stated there were cultural/class divides between the players).

[dream-does-games]

I put off writing my thoughts on the final Blades 2 chapter for so long, I'm pretty sure I have forgotten half of what I wanted to say. I also lost the screenshots so there's also that. Imma just work with my memory.

1) Honestly, this book lowkey gave me the realisation that I'm not very fond of villain redemptions. Sorry, I just never got on the Aerin and Valax trains. I didn't hate them, but I also didn't particularly care. The whole scene where Mc didn't want ppl to harm Valax and Valax going "You're my only friends" kinda made me groan.

2) I chose to merge the two worlds so I'd like to hear how the other choices affect the final extra scene. Also while I'm on this topic, I can't believe they really wrote that Mc was willing to just throw her life and LI away for the shadow realm. I get that the place sucks and she'd feel guilty but umm??

3) I also feel like the chapter (or the one before? I don't remember) tried to address some of the Mc's emotional issues and tbh I was actually surprised they bothered. Still it felt like too little for me (and some things got ignored), but hey, at least they tried.

Tbh if there was anything else I actually thought of for either chapter 17 or 18, it's probably lost to time or until I replay them. It been a blast reading Blades 2. I know I didn't always agree with some of the writing decisions, but honestly I enjoyed it (some chapters more than others). I liked the amount of new lore we got. Comparing the final fights of both books though, I think I enjoyed the one in book one better. Chapter 18 in book 2 just felt like it was trying to tie a lot up together (and maybe it's bc I'm salty there was no Tyril epilogue scene especially now that ik some of the others got one. T-T)

Anyway, I hope to see this fandom revive again when book 3 comes out (because with that ending there HAS to be a sequel, right?? ...right?????) Bye until I make an edit or follow up post after replaying. Might probably disappear until they release ID 2

[lovisarayne]

****Bnha manga spoiler rant****

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Honestly I'm angriest that all we got was literally a brief confirmation from Ochako that Toga died. Like, seriously?? Our main female antagonist and that's what she gets??

Wow.

These ending resolutions for LOV are all so fucked up dude.

The only part I kinda liked was that the old lady that ignored little Tenko on the street finally did the right thing this time and was taking personal accountability for how ignoring him was a mistake. I'm glad she felt guilty about it and wondered if he ever got help, and decided this time she wouldn't just "leave it for a hero". She went ahead and reached out for that lost boy herself. (I had a feeling everyone was just getting their hopes up about it being shiggy, but I guess they had semi the right idea, since it was supposed to reflect him from after he killed his family and was wandering around alone and in need of help).

Sure, I'm kinda glad Touya survived cuz that's babygirl, but at the same time I'm not. Partly because it's not what he wanted, and mainly the way it ended with him trapped and probably in even more pain than before just seems cruel. The way it ended things is really mixed between bittersweet (him and Shoto) and just irritating (Enji making it all about himself).

And I get that it's been a long road for Horikoshi, but trying to blame the US audience for just being "hard to please" is pretty insulting. The story itself was amazing and I personally appreciate the efforts put into it. It's been a long road and he hasn't had it easy. But these endings just seem thrown together and don't really seem to do what we thought the story had set out to do.

I mean ffs when ppl asked about if we were gonna get a deku 's dad reveal koshi outright admitted he had completely forgotten about izuku's Dad. That just makes it sound like the ending wasn't planned out very well, if at all. The story deserved a better ending than it seems to be getting at this point. We would have been fine taking more time to plan and waiting for them to flesh it out better. We have ONE CHAPTER LEFT. And I don't see that being enough to put a proper bow on this.

Maybe I am being selfish or picky or whatever, I just needed to vent some of this disappointment somewhere. I definitely can't to the husband, since he is strictly watching the anime and I don't want to spoil it for him 😔

[solongandgoodnightxoxo]

Hey it's me minus ("ITS MINUS" everyone screamed and cheered)

I run @notsoyoung-neil and that swirly agereg shit made me uncomfortable. I'm not super open about my systemhood because duh, but I have OSDD-1B/DID (still confused about my amnesia levels), CPTSD, and a alter who's almost always regressed. That *rubs ur tummy* and infantilization of Neil was INSANE. as someone who regresses, it isn't some teehee omg cuuutttee >w< head canon. It's a therapy method to 1, cope with childhood trauma by experiencing a happy (pseudo)childhood - 2, a method to recover forgotten or buried memories someone may have suppressed as a child due to the trauma. Babying people (especially neuro divergent ppl) is lowkey creepy and highkey fucking weird. Doing that shit without explicit consent and trying to coax someone into agereg is weird.

Treating a fucking TUMBLR BLOG like it's a dead person is insane and fucking insensitive, not sorry. My best friend's dead and I don't think someone naturally ending off a storyline is in any way comparable to how I felt at my friend's funeral, or seeing his grave, or hearing about him dying, or ANY of that shit. It's fucking weird and parasocial.

And, hey! The spamming was fucking annoying. I felt so bad flooding the sp tag with swirlys mediocre roleplays, and even having that shit come to my MAIN ACCOUNT. which is obviously my main if you fucking looked. The spamming was overwhelming and annoying and it pissed me off constantly. Your character forced their way in my own set story, and caused me to quit my fucking blog entirely because you made me loose any semblance of love I had for this character I had spent so much time and ACTUAL MONEY on. I fell out of love with Neil (especially my portrayal) of him so quickly because of your weird shit. Making me reveal things too soon, and play up the persona I gave him just to get you to stop pretending he's a fucking infant.

This is mostly dedicated to swirly but Oreo too for some of it. I'd make a post but I have swirly blocked, and so I'm using egg to speak my truth

Hi im egg and i approve you speaking your truth

[teddybeartoji]

i have a questionnnnn

do you like video games?

and do you know baldur's gate 3 and final fantasy 7?

i got into those during my last vacations and idk why it never occurred to me to ask you even tho i am obsessed with astarion and sephiroth (it's always the white haired guys my taste is so predictable) and cloud but that's another thing

the characterization in both of those games is soooo good especially if you watch almost everything ff7 related like i did (takes a while though)

anyways i felt you could do them justice if you were to write about them, especially astarion. ngl i was very disappointed when i went on socials, as usual, to consume content about the media i just watched and i was very shocked in a bad way

not by the quality, there's just tons of thirst edits for example and while i agree his character is pretty and everything, it kinda hurt cuz it just went against his WHOLE character arc ... i was very disappointed with the fandom haha

same with sephiroth, though i didnt resent as much cuz his story isn't about the fact of being sexualized against his will

UGH I LOVE BOTH OF THEM SO MUCH. SORRY FOR THE RAMBLING -

anyways yeah i love media in general, series/movies/games you name it as long as there's a story or just one character that i rlly like i'll love it

so i was wondering what games you liked... or media in general at this point, except the movies you posted about

also no pressure but is there a system with asks? are they removed from your inbox if you answer them? are they automatically deleted after some time? just to know cuz i haven't gotten an answer to mine and i'm scared i might've said something bad! esp since i read badly your rules and didn't see a negation and maybe said smth about looking forward to a next part :') smh

HELLOO NONNIEE:3333 I LOVE VIDEO GAMESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but i have only heard abt baldur's gate and final fantasy sadly!!!! i have nothing against them they just don't necessarily seem my type of games.. BALDUR'S GATE CHARACTER CREATION SEEMS SO FUCKING FUN THOUGH OMFGGG

and i've definitely seen and heard a lot of astarion!!!!!!!!!! i've also seen some stuff abt him being really overly sexualized right????? his character seems so cool i would love to get to know him better wahh i really do wanna try baldur's gate one day!!!!!!! and unfortunately i only know sephiroth by name too:((( i'm sorry to disappoint u nonnie baby:(((

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH VIDEO GAMES I LIKEEEE!!!!! my all time favourite is definitely the last of us part 2!!!!!!!!!!!! i am on my like... sixth playthrough on that lmao i'm doing it on grounded so yk wish me luck!!!!! anywayy i ofc like the first one too but man.. the second one hits harder for me tbh. then i really fucking love ghost of tsushima, i'm actually replaying it rn too hehe.

honorable mentions go to rdr2, until dawn, the newest dead space remake, god of war, disco elysium, the resident evil games, assassin's creed (i know a lot of ppl don't like these all that much but idk i think they're really fun!! esp black flag and odyssey)(ok i am biased bc these were like my first games ever lmao), days gone (this is another that most think is rather lame but again.. i think it's really fucking fun i have nothing against it) aaaand death stranding!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aaahh so many games damn i might've forgotten some but these are some that i really love!!!!!!!!!!!! i have played almost all of them multiple times too lmao that's crazy

for overall media i'd just give a lil shoutout to the 'mindhunter' series on netflix!!!!!!!!!!!!! i absolutely fucking looove that show!!!!!!!! i've seen that multiple times too i love the characters and just the way it's done overall!!!!!!!!! also 'manic' i think that's a netflix one too.. that's a really short one but idk it changed me okay i think it's fucking great

OMGG AND WAAAHHH TRUST THAT I STILL HAVE YOUR ASK!!! I AM JUST REALLY SLOW WITH ANSWERING THEM SO I AM VERY SORRY ABT THAT!!!!!!! and you definitely haven't crossed any lines either, so it's one hundred percent on me!!!!!!!!! the thing is that i get a bit overwhelmed when i have to answer things which sounds ridiculous bc I LOOOOVEEEE TALKING TO YOU GUYSSS my brain just sucks okay i'm sorry

[necroangelz]

HIA YOU SEEM SO NICE JAJAAHDHEJWV- I remember following you from one of my Tumblr accounts (I have like 4 and have forgotten about the passwords of most of them)- So you may know me from there ig!!

Actually I came back here because I wanted to ask something- What is "Needy Streamer Overload" about?? I keep finding the game pretty intriguing and since you had it on your layout I thought I could ask you- (I also felt that it was a perfect opportunity to try to socialize a bit and meet more people on Tumblr-) Sorry if I'm bothering you! ^^

@.mistysaur

AWWW THANKIEEE 🥹🥹 and yeah I'm pretty sure i know uu from there!!

oh boy. let me see if i can explain NSO without dropping 19 paragraphs LOL

also, don't worry, uur not bothering me at all!! i love when ppl send me asks bc i have a hard time talking to ppl first, so this is also a good time for me to socialize!

ramble under the cut >:3

anyway, at its core, NSO is a game about managing the streamer career of a very mentally ill girl. the player is p-chan, the manager of their ' girlfriend ' Ame or k-angel/omgkawaiiangel, and they basically tell Ame what to do throughout the day. they can hang out, spend time together, play games, go on the internet, go outside etc. doing certain actions gives Ame ideas fur streams. there are many types of streams uu can do, each streaming category has level 1 up to level 5 streams, streaming is what gets uu followers. certain streams can get uu more followers but they would also increase ame's stress...

the player also has to manager her stats, her affection, stress, follower count and mental darkness. there's not much story because the whole game is centered around the players actions if ya get what i mean. the endings center around the effects of ame's stats if that makes sense.

NSO is a very fun game (i guess it's obvious that i love it lmao) the gameplay could get a little repetitive bc it's all the same but the graphics and music are so so cool. the interface is like this little computer and stuff and uu see Ame through the webcam screen and uu select her daily activities through app icons. the music is so catchy and perfectly fits the vibe of the game.

NSO is also a good portrayal of the toxic side of the internet—during some of the worst endings, ame spirals in front of the camera during a stream, and instead of having sympathy for her, her fans are quick to turn on her and dogpile on her instead. laughing at her misery as if she wasn't a person at all. they spread rumors, talk about how they always hated her from the start, doxx her, and then move on to the next entertaining internet personality with no loyalty to ame at all. it shows how people online can become cruel to each other because, well, it's all online, so they believe nothing is important or significant. NSO also depicts parasocial relationships, internet addiction, and wanting to get attention, love, and gratification from the internet. in general i love how NSO portrays the internet because everything feels so... real. the stream chats, the comments under ame's tweets, even Ame's texts to the player, they all feel so natural. like they're all actually said by people who spend way too much time on the internet and hence use slang and ways of speech that are common online. i always felt really bothered that mainstream media, especially those made by adults, SUCKED at portraying the internet. NSO isn't like that

so ya that's nso :3 if one thinks that NSO is something one is interested in, and one is sure they won't be triggered by it (bc yeah this game is super heavy) please by all means check it out!! i don't have any playthroughs to recommend since i don't watch playthroughs, but there's def some fun ones on yt! or buy it!

[demonsfate]

oscar's relevance really went downhill after that nefarious ending of hers in tek 5 huh. jk i love asuka but the damn rivalry with lili sidelined her and it's not even present in that poll I'm sick!!!!!

i sometimes make jokes that that ending is the reason why she's not allowed to interact with jin anymore but i really don't know if it's to blame as to why her character is always sidelined. i do blame lili, though. asuka got reduced to yuri-bait. which like, i don't always mind when a character's whole shtick is their relationship. sometimes a story is about a relationship - therefore, that character's involvement in said relationship will be a big part of them lol. but the problem is, lili wasn't even created when asuka was - not until dark resurrection. lili was made for asuka, but asuka wasn't made for lili. asuka was clearly designed with more potential in mind. yes, her ending was a joke one. but it still showcased her having healing powers like jun did, and thus - maybe something that could've been brought up again and used. but no, like many other things in tek... it was forgotten.

but the BIGGER BIGGER PROBLEM is that, in a way, lili herself can move on from being asuka's rival but asuka can't - despite the fact that asuka was the one with far more plot potential. you know, lili is just a random rich girl, meanwhile asuka is literally related to the main character and she potentially has an ability that can be weaponized against the main antagonist, or help the main character if the devil within him goes too far. no shade to lili, but how the hell did LILI end up being the one who's more relevant? lili's ending was her on her own, lili is involved in both asuka's and azucena's endings, and lili definitely felt like she did / was seen more in the story. now some people are seeing azucena as lili's rival, and it's just ... ugh. lili is literally the reason why asuka got sidelined, and yet... now she's a bigger character.

i guess people just like lili more...?? i don't get why. she's quite generic to me, the same ol' spoiled blonde rich brat that's such an overused trope. asuka in t8's story was so cute and entertaining. she was just bursting with personality, which makes it even sadder that she doesn't get to be even slightly important. like ppl joke how many say asuka has the most wasted potential - but it's true. imo, she does have the most wasted potential out of the entire cast.

maybe that's also a kazama thing. you know, i joke that kazamas all love animals, have big tiddies, and are also all failures. but maybe a kazama thing is getting fucked over by the writers who seemingly hate them. like asuka getting sidelined when she had/has so much potential, jin's character getting ruined and losing his status as the good protagonist and mishima, jun taking 28 years to show up in another main game despite how much fans wanted her, and even then she was barely in the story. srsly. kazamas just keep getting fucked over and over again. :/ i think they should really start rising against this treatment!