#that is not the conversation they’re ever having in the comics it’s always abt how she’s irrational and needs to focus on school

[whitmore]

i’ve seen the “no one ever came looking for me. but you would have, courtney” panels before (out of context) and they still make me deranged to this day. i love when characterizations of courtney put her loyalty forefront i love when it’s recognized by other characters in text— something about issue 1 setting the audience up to believe that courtney doesn’t have her priorities straight and issue 2 sending an immediate reminder that her priorities are always her people above herself and that she would go to lengths that other people would not for her friends and loved ones. but you would have, courtney. she makes me self-liquify and implode

[minjoonapio]

🎐 Wind Breaker Chapter 159: Celebratory Toast

THOUGHTS 💭 [ ⚠️ SPOILERS ⚠️]

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We’re actually getting a victory party sooner than expected!

WE ALL DESERVE THIS!! 😭the sunny & bright pages are such a breath of fresh air 😮‍💨

It took almost a month for our boys and the town to recover. I can imagine the school must have suspended classes first for the boys to heal and help repair the damages.

Oh man, look at our Class 1-1 all up and about and just being teenagers. We miss this.

And we got Nirei wearing clips again!!! He looks so cute 🥰

Wow, there are seats both on the rooftop and on the school grounds. There's so many people! It’s almost like a school festival.

Pfft our typical Ume & Hiragi shenanigans 😅 Ume’s voice will always be loud dear Hiragi.

Our dear gang friends are here 🥹Aww, look at them all shy...and nervous! I mean, this doesn’t happen everyday y’know…celebrating and being friendly with another gang. All the more for the Gravel gang.

They’re really the best for going all the way to come and help; Especially after that scary hoard of “❌" in the Bofurin group chat (the traumaaaa). Our anxiety and stress spike ever since that happened.

I immediately remembered Umemiya’s bow to the grade captains & vice captains. And now he’s doing the same thing in thanking the other gangs who helped them. The panels even look exactly the same!🥹

To be honest, I don't know what I would call this party 😅 our leader is strong but not great at coming up with party names. Haha.

From “Sakura’s first conversation anniversary” to the simple “thank you” party. To think Hiragi suggested "Welcome party" the first time this kind of thing happened, and I believe Umemiya thought "Thank You Party" would be okay after that. 🤭

We’ve been waiting for their Summer BBQ party with Umemiya’s grown veggies and now it’s happening!! Let's go!!

Sakura and Nirei are in the BBQ station...and Sugishita is not having it. I understand him though. He helped and worked hard in growing those veggies and if most of them are burnt…heck no! Sakura is trying his best, Sugishita. Have patience for your fighting partner.

And look at their SUMMER UNIFORMS!! They’re all short sleeve and white! It’s so cuuute!!

The Class 1-1 boys are growing on me. I mean, look at them being all supportive (and showing off) to Sakura. I love their dynamic. I don't know, it warms my heart when they call Sakura “The Cap” 🥰 aww

"The Cap's gotta make his move" -- what do they mean though? Why does it sound like their Cap has a crush on someone and needs to take his chances 😆 Probably they meant he needs to go enjoy and socialize (knowing how he is) rather than be stuck grilling meat.

I'm not sure about their grilling skills though. If you’ve read the special comic, y’know what i mean.

Nii sensei…you really drew Sakura like this. 🤣I feel like Sakura was pacing to and fro in his room, itching to go see everyone outside Furin and thank them.

Oh, wait. Don't tell me he also looks like this when he went to thank Shishitoren; especially in facing Togame. 🫢 I can hear the Second-in-command be like "Sakuraaa~ is that you??" the same way Kanji reacted.

Same, Tsubaki, same. I am like truly happy and proud to see Sakura hanging out, caring and talking to his friends. Look how much he pouts and blushes. He's come such a long way *sniffs*

Their reactions though from giddy to embarrassment when they heard he still sucks in playing games. Please, Nii sensei. We need an extra or one-shot of Sakura finally winning one!

Oh what’s this? Why end here? Not gonna lie, it’s like Togame is abt to confess. (I mean, throughout the arc, he’s always been “thats our Sakura!”)

Fangirling aside 😅 It seems like they’re about to reveal something especially with those reactions…orrr we’re overthinking. Maybe they're just glad to see the leaders of Shishitoren. And it's just the beginning of a beautiful friendship between these four gangs (Bofurin, Shishitoren, Roppo Ichiza, and Gravel).

Side note: If you look at the food he's holding, Choji is finally trying out a fresh Red Bean bread of the town that Umemiya shared before (Shishitoren arc) 🥹

There’s really not much to analyze here. Just pure fun and good vibes! And when it’s too fun, it feels too short 🥲 (despite it being the usual 20 pages)

We didn't get to see Ren Kaji 🎧 though and his vice captains. Kaji had a mentally draining fight so I hope they're doing okay.

I'm curious as to what’s next for the boys other than “the talk”. I'm not only talking about Chika and Umemiya's talk, but Umemiya and Sakura's.

I feel like that's something we need to have where they talk and ask each other about their fights. I'm sure our Bofurin leader wants to know how was Sakura's fight with the legendary Endo. They did leave it up to him to defeat one of Bofurin's shadows. And his fight did leave a dent on Sakura's mental and emotional state.

And Sakura would want to be clear with Umemiya what Endo was talking about. It seems Endo did say those things about Umemiya to Sakura out of spite and jealousy, but I'm sure Sakura still has questions about it; especially when Endo noticed how distant Sakura looked.

I'm guessing we will see that conversation in a flashback. I really hope we do.

Other than that, Nii Satoru sensei had a Q & A with Thai fans about the future of Wind Breaker and if my memory serves me right, we will have more info about Kiryu and Suo in the future.

I also hope for Sakura's back story soon too. I have my guesses that someone from Sakura's old town, someone familiar, will appear and trigger it.

Obviously, we don't want it now. I hope our mangaka will ease us in to the next arc. We just experienced an intense and stress-filled 59 chapters after all. So let's enjoy these light panels while we can.😋💚🎐🍻🍖

Thank you for reading! See ya in the next chapter next week! 🎐

-melo x

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[yostresswritinggirl]

hi! ik sojourner's already ended but i have an(other?) idea in case u ever pick it up since i love ur albedo 😳😳 ok so

what abt a reader who is rlly excited abt alchemy, but they avoid talking abt it bc they start rambling and stuttering and stumbling over their words bc they're so excited? they get assigned/asked to go w/ albedo bc they're rlly good at alchemy too, but they end up fidgeting a lot, muttering and stopping just a few words in before their volume rises and giving short answers when w/ him bc they're afraid of rambling (since they do it to think better when alone, sometimes insulting and arguing w the objects when they don't get the expected result) & being seen as annoying or unprofessional?? i'd like to see how he reacts to these and what he'd think!! and how or when he discovers the reason reader is acting like that

it's kinda (a lot, rlly skowkskdk i always have ideas but never write them) specific, but i rlly like the idea!! i'd love to see what u do w/ it if u ever pick it up in the future :D hope you're staying hydrated and well🥺🥰 -🌌

What do you mean Sojourner's already ended, Sojourner is eternal, Sojourner is forever-

Kidding aside, this is too cute to pass up, even if it's quite a lot! Cute Albedo brainrot moments always please. It might be too much sometimes but I hope you enjoy my interpretation of it! Scenarios format! Starry night, oh I'm always hydrated, thank you and I hope you're well!

For the Record

Albedo working with a Reader that's highly enthusiastic about alchemy but insecure about rambling... (masterlist)

You dealt with Alchemy a year before the Kreideprinz entered Mondstadt, your attunement to the mystic arts baffling and intriguing you every time. During that period, you're not really sure of what art you're doing but in the end, you kept doing great that the people had acknowledged your talents.

Through your own effort and self-study even if unnamed, you managed to put your talent into this art of Alchemy and created discoveries regarding powders and mineral-focused ingredients. It was a shame there was no one to share it to, and when you talk to scholars/practitioners alike, you end up rambling so much to the point that on their end you barely make sense. Whether this was caused by your eaten words or lax and personalized vocabulary over the matter, you're not sure.

Their confused and judgmental stare haunts you, leaving you alone with your raging thoughts and overworking mind when you just want to learn and expand your discoveries to other people without driving them away. Your enthusiasm is great and all, but it's not enough to make others understand.

So when the Chalk Prince entered Mondstadt, blessing the city with his scholarly knowledge and boundless creations, he easily made a name for himself and in extension the city itself.

Before Sucrose and Timaeus, you were called upon by the Grand Master Varka to accompany Albedo and be his temporary assistant seeing as his field in the division is still quite new and you were the only other 'Alchemist' in town besides him. You're both giddy and nervous, like really, really nervous.

You've heard of Albedo and maybe a caught a glimpse or two, but you've never actually interacted enough to know exactly what he looks like or how he is as a person. All you know is that he's a very, very attractive person overall.

"Good-looking, carries this aura of wisdom around him, he's just really charming," were the words that rang through your mind as you pointedly watched your steps, following the carpets leading to Ordo Favonius' laboratory while Lisa's words rang through your head.

Is he really that kind of person? You've heard that he's quite stoic too, but if he's really that distracting, you're scared that it would be harder for you to focus and help out. Honestly how would you even deal with him when your fields of Alchemy are so different from each other?

You have no idea how long you've been thinking, standing in contemplation in front of the set of double doors that leads to the workshop with nothing but doubt in your mind. But upon realizing the teal gaze of another person silently waiting instead of wooden doors, you figured it was far too long.

"Ah, I'm sorry! I was in my head, I wasn't expecting you to-!" You flailed your hands around comically before abruptly stopping, noticing the now confused stare of Albedo of which are distracted by your hands. Clearing your throat, you extended a hand towards him to shake, trying to stare anywhere but his face. "I'm (Y/N), I'll be your assistant until you're well settled in the city. It's nice to meet you, Ma-"

His hand finds yours in a firm grip, a firm shake so sudden you bit your tongue back, "Albedo, Kreideprinz of the Art of Kemia, but just Albedo is fine, I'll be under your care."

Albedo finds it intriguing and surprisingly not that distracting whenever you talk to yourself or to the ingredients whenever you so much as feel the slightest frustration. "Ugh, this Zinc powder is so stubborn, clingy," you angrily mumbled under your breath as you washed off the blue powder that spilled at your hand, "So, so clingy." Since you're facing the sink, you couldn't see the way he was holding himself from laughing audibly at your amusing antics.

You seemed lively and open, is what Albedo thought when he first met you. But this observation soon shattered when he kept getting hanged upon your abrupt stops when delving into your field, something he was really irked about the first few times. Your art of Alchemy is much different from his and he's wishing that you'd clarify and expound all your learnings to him, but in the end, you somehow step back everytime your words became lengthy.

Are you hiding something? Did you not want him to learn the same arts as yours? If those were the case, he couldn't bring himself to ask a simple question such ad why. Every time it crosses his mind, it brings a purse of a pout to his lips and furrowed eyebrows.

Every response you gave always hints even tiny bits of trivias and tips he's never heard, Albedo always takes note of your spills that always cuts before reaching its climax. "-sorry, yes, this is activated charcoal Geo and Pyro slimes reaction." He lets out an audible sigh upon your retreat, your frustrated mind too occupied to notice.

"Please," his desperation drips in his word when he looks at you with eyes filled with raw emotion you'd never know he'd be able to pull off. Your tightly locked lips only pressed on further at his puppy eyes, "Please continue, I wish to know more about your Alchemy, if you would be so kind."

"It's not really- I'm not really the best at explaining it..." You're almost fidgeting, cheeks aching from tensing and warmth. But he regarded you with a blank stare, forcing you to fill the silence, "If I- If I start, my ramblings may not uhm they're not easy to comprehend... or something."

Albedo had been watching more than he'd like to admit, and he's come to relieved (yet still confused) realization that your treatment with him wasn't his alone. You always step back before things get lengthy, words then cutting short and concise with a steeled expression. Lips caught between teeth.

"I digress," his hand motions to yourself to emphasize his next clause. "As your field and sole practitioner of this art, like my own condition, your word of mouth is the best ground of knowledge."

If he was irritated, he's doing a very good job in hiding it. And even with the respectable yet close distance in between you still felt cornered. This is still your master and it's not professional to refuse a scholarly talk, "The electro crystals when charged... ionized? create sparks, while also producing the same result when smacking- mining!"

The scribbles of his pen against his clipboard as he nods in attention urges you on, realizing his focus and sincere interest on the topic, "So when you put the little tidbits or even powdered version in a beaker thingy, depending on the material, they interact with the spark. Honestly, I'm unsure yet how lethal it is but if you put the sparks under fire too, they make like those makeshift gunpowder as well as additional reactions such as-!"

The lilt and proceeding high pitch in your voice usually signifies the approach of your insecurity as well as the climax of your enthusiasm. At this point, you pull your hand up to shut your mouth forcefully, and when Albedo really detests the abrupt end of the conversation his hand would shoot forward to grasp your own.

He'd intertwine your fingers to distract, before urging you to continue with a challenging stare, as if daring you to use your other hand to pull that off again. This whole scene felt oddly scandalous, but oh boy does it send your mind into a bambling, overloaded mess. A heated head forces your lips open even if they sometimes come out in a jumbled string, he learns to decipher them.

The more you get used to or feel more comfortable, Albedo uses that fondness skillfully whenever he wants. "Can you tell me more about the scarlet chunks from Dragonspine?" He throws it so casually in the silence as you two work back to back in your stations, without a beat as your mind is partially preoccupied, you answered into a narrative of trivia. It almost feels like you're talking to the flames of the bunsen while you wait, but Albedo smiles at the now filled silence as he listens with divided attention.

He really likes your voice, and the word of wonders you bring along with you.

"For the record, I don't mind it at all," his breath hovers on your lips, cold and prickly, "Whatever comes out of these lips, I want to hear it all."

That last part eheh

Woah, this went long. Like reader babbling hahaha. I said I'm gonna speedrun, not freaking write this long smh

@zelos-simp @legionqueensav @snackgod @rxsalinee @cala-ran @wind-wheel @lilydewi22 @yellowflowre @traveler-lumine @nonniechan @creation-magician @hanniejji @gojos-baby @just-some-stars @volleybloop @tartuu @moaa @dandelion-dreams @witchsungie @lehra @albaedhoe @xiaophilia @heisenwurst @childe-simp-exe

[lunaastoir]

Heyhey! May I request a childe x reader where the reader simps for him but he doesn’t know? Like what if she was online best friends with the tsaritsa but the reader doesn’t know the tsaritsa is the tsaritsa so she constantly simps for childe to her. Like “OMG HE’S SO CUTE.” AND STUFF LIKE THAT. So since she’s like besties with the tsaritsa the cry archon decides to set her up? Thank you :>>>>

AAAAA NONNIE holds your hands gently this is so cute i love it :,) 

genshin doesn’t have internet/technology but for the sake of this ask shhhhhh we’re gonna pretend they do

i hope i interpreted your ask correctly, if i didn’t just lmk <3 

crack, fluFF- LOTS OF IT???

the tsaritsa’s meddling

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all you wanted were groceries. that was all you wanted. you were standing in line behind the stall as you counted the items you needed to get. salt, milk, sugar, fowl, what else? you were lost in thought as you prayed that you had enough mora to buy everything - god knows how hard eating is as an adventurer. which was why, when you dropped your precious mora, your mind immediately went into panic mode. not now, not now, please don’t let the line move, you begged internally. in hindsight maybe if your mora hadn’t dropped, maybe if you weren’t at your wits end as a broke adventurer, maybe if you had just bought those damn ingredients sooner, you wouldn’t be in this position. as you breathed a sigh of relief after collecting your money and returned your gaze back to the stall, the only thing you could do was stare. where...did everyone go? instead of simply turning around and fleeing which should’ve been your first instinct considering how deserted the place was, you stood there trying to process the information. that was, until you saw a head of auburn hair peak up out of the stall. startled, you almost dropped your mora again. as the tuft of hair gave way to a very tall, handsome, blue eyed man, your brain short circuited. 

oh god how you wished you had run when you had the chance. you imagined you must have looked quite comical; mouth hanging slightly open, the list of ingredients fisted in your hands while mora was hanging precariously from your fingers. after what seemed like an eternity, the man seemed to finally notice you. 

“oh hey, you must not have noticed but this stall is sold out for the fatui” 

the sentence accompanied with his signature smile practically brought you to your knees. that smile? aimed at you? you would be surprised if you weren’t drooling. 

determined to not look like an absolute idiot you flashed him a smile of your own before saying, “sorry my bad, i must not have been paying attention” while doing what little you can to get some semblance of balance. tuck the mora here, try to balance your list more gracefully, move that piece of hair from your face. 

his eyes surveyed your undoubtedly disheveled appearance, before making a quick decision. 

“what items do you want, i’m sure i can spare a few ingredients for someone as pretty as you” 

one blink. another blink. did he just call you pretty? oh my- 

“oh no, it’s really ok, i can just get these later - it’s not that important anyway” you lied through your teeth. you needed those ingredients or you were most likely going to starve on the road but he didn’t need to know that. 

“don’t worry about it, as a harbinger i’m sure my subordinates can overlook a few missing ingredients” he smoothly said before gesturing you towards him. 

“i’m childe by the way, if you didn’t know” his eyes flicked up to meet yours.

“y/n” you offered while handing him the list. 

as he looked over what you needed, you tried your best to keep your breathing steady while your mind raced. if you didn’t know? of course you knew who he was, who didn’t? you would know better than most considering how often you thirsted about him to your mutual. if anything, you should’ve been the one saying that line to him. as an adventurer, you tend to not spend much time in liyue harbor, chasing down ruin guards and running errands was how you would rather keep yourself busy. however, ever since you saw childe in liyue, sharing a pot of tea with zhongli of all people, you started swinging by the harbor more often. fascination was what kept you seeking him out wherever you went. you had heard about the infamous eleventh harbinger, supposedly the youngest of them, all while being quite easy on the eyes. you had brushed off all the talk you had heard to just that - talk. international affairs wasn’t something you cared for and if anything, seeing the fatui made you wary. however, your curiosity grew after seeing him whenever you were in town. you chalked up your eyes subconsciously seeking out his figure to the fact that he was just an interesting guy. nothing wrong with wondering about a peculiar fellow, right?  you went through excuses upon excuses until finally, you had concluded that perhaps, maybe, you had a little crush on him. tiny, you assured yourself. just a tiny crush on a very attractive man. 

that crush then trickled over to your time spent talking to your mutual. it started off with little hints of “oh there’s this guy i saw and i thought he was kinda cute” to full blown hysteria of “PLS SEND HELP HE LOOKED SO GOOD TODAY.” @cryogoddess definitely had a lot of patience putting up with your thirsts over a man she didn’t even have the name of. you felt horrible sometimes since more than half of your conversation was about the newest detail you had noticed about childe - however your protests on boring her were met with reassurances about how no, you weren’t boring her, and yes, this is the most lighthearted talk she’s had her entire day so please keep going. you weren’t exactly sure what this woman did, or even how old she was. all you knew was she was someone who was constantly stressed (maybe a fellow adventurer?) and she was quite honest (which you happened to appreciate). despite how busy she was, she seemed to always make time for your texts which made you feel like you could trust her with anything.

“is that all? do you need anything else?” childe’s voice interrupted your mental tirade as you owlishly looked at him. 

“oh! yes that’s fine thank you” you smiled before taking the bag from him. grabbing the mora, you rushed to hand out the correct amount before he stopped you. 

“don’t worry about it, it’s on the house” he laughed slightly before waving your mora away. 

it’s on the- excuse me? did he just give you all this for free? is this what fatui hospitality is like?  

rushing to close your mouth, you quickly recovered while slurring out a quick “thank you so much” before shouldering your bag. your brain was currently running on fumes and you were very sure that if you stayed there any longer you might just combust. 

“well, i’ll be off then, thank you again” you shot him another smile before quickly scurrying away. 

without turning back to look at his expression, you moved as fast as humanly possible while trying not to seem like you were about to jump out of your skin. you didn’t know what was more embarrassing, your thumping heart or the dopey smile on your face. there was no way you were ever going to get over this, not with the way he looked at you the entire time. sighing, you put your bag down near a bench and pulled out your phone. at least you had an update for your friend that consisted of something other than just mindless thirsts. 

your mind was still reeling over from what happened as you texted her with shaking hands. the reply was immediate: “wow, you finally got up the courage to talk to him huh.” you rolled your eyes playfully at her blunt message. “bY ACCIDENT- IT HAPPENED BY ACCIDENT,,, guess he couldn’t keep himself away from this sexiness 😩” another blunt reply: “right.” smiling softly, you responded: “thanks for hyping me up bestie i really appreciate it <3 ok but maybe childe and i belong together??? is this a sign from the archons???” you stared waiting for her reply, however you were met with a read 8:45 pm. you’re lucky i love you bestie, leaving me on read during my crisis you whispered to yourself as you shouldered your bag once again to head home. at least you won’t be starving tomorrow on your commissions. 

as soon as you entered your house, your phone lit up. “wait. as in childe, eleventh of the fatui harbingers, also known as tartaglia, feared by many on the battle field, currently stationed in liyue, major pain in the ass, and is currently ignoring some of his paperwork???” - @cryogoddess. your eyebrows furrowed as you read her message, “yes that’s him but why do you sound so freaked out and how do you know sm abt him?” another notification: “i can’t believe you’ve been thirsting to me abt CHILDE.” you: “KDJKSFJ YOU DIDNT ANSWER MY QUESTION - also??? i thought i told you his name did i not??? 😀” her: “no??? wow this definitely is...interesting” you: “BESTIE ANSWER MY QUESTION DO YOU KNOW HIM???” her: “i’ve gotta go, work is calling.” 

you sighed in frustration as you tossed your phone on your bed. why was she so freaked out? you weren’t dumb, you knew there was something she wasn’t telling you but you trusted her enough to know she’ll let you know if it was important. you wondered as you pulled the covers over your head, if you’ll meet childe in your dreams and if you do, hopefully, in a less embarrassing scenario. 

the next morning, you awoke to a barrage of texts from none other than @cryogoddess. they were all along the lines of you should go to bubu pharmacy and stock up on medication this evening (i heard they’re having a sale). you responded back with a maybe, if you had time today after your commissions and if xiangling didn’t stop by with some food. however, your mutual made you promise you would visit in the evening, even if it’s just for a few minutes. you gave in because a) you never could say no and b) she made it sound like it was urgent so maybe she was obsessed with medicine? hmmm you would have to figure out where she lived so you could send some to her. 

you walked toward bubu pharmacy while tiredly sheathing your weapon, loosely taking in your surroundings. kids playing near the pond, teenagers chatting at the steps, adults keeping a watchful eye over their kids while laughing about the day’s events. your eyes studied the sign outside of bubu pharmacy. sale? what sale? there doesn’t seem to be anything regarding a sale?

“y/n?” a mildly familiar voice called your name. you whipped around looking for whoever uttered those words before your eyes fell on none other than one blue eyed harbinger. he was holding a few silk flowers in his hand as he stared at you with a sheepish smile. 

“hi” you stuttered out. your mind was blank, what was happening? 

“oh sorry, these are for you. i don’t mean to make you uncomfortable but i heard that you might be interested in me? you caught my eye at the stall yesterday, so i was wondering if you would want to grab lunch from the third-round knockout and then go watch the sunset at mt. tianheng? there’s this really cool trick i can do with my hydro vision where i can make the sunlight dance across the waypoint.” 

you stared at him as you wordlessly took the silk flowers from his hands. the golden light of the setting sun cast his face in a beautiful sheen, softly showing off the gentle blush on his cheeks and the brilliant blue of his eyes. his auburn hair seemed to grow alive at the touch of the fiery light and all you could do was stare. 

childe’s confidence seemed to wane with every passing second that you gazed at him, open mouthed, so he decided to save himself the embarrassment before hesitantly opening his own mouth. 

“yes, i would love to” you quickly said. you smiled gently up at him. 

“i would love to watch the sunset with you” 

you felt your cheeks burning up as you looked at him with soft eyes. when he returned your expression with a dazzling smile of your own, you could feel yourself relax. yes, your heart rate was off the chart right now, but you were content. the sunset, childe, and the silk flowers was something you never knew you needed, but were glad you got. you had enough time later to worry about the oncoming mortification of how he found out you liked him. 

a single notification appeared in your phone as the two of you walked laughing towards the mountain. 

“you’re welcome <3″

BONUS: 

“i know i’m too sexy for you to not fall in love with me” childe sighed dramatically as he leaned against you for support as the two of you went up the stairs. 

you promptly rolled your eyes and pushed him down the steps as you walked ahead with his protests falling on deaf ears. 

[unproduciblesmackdown]

saw a tweet the other day abt someone disliking the term “infodump” like yeah i never love it either lol like, kind of flippant, and as they stated that it’s just like labelling what someone’s doing not for what it is in essence, like just Sharing An Interest / Conversing a certain way, it’s about “wow this is not the ordinary way & defined by Being A Lot” and when you know, this is just a way of talking and when it’s like “well it Is a lot for some people / might not always be what works in an exchange” like that goes for Any factors in a conversation....there they go again, knock it off with the eyecontactdump....and just that obvious interests can be tied to the thoroughness of info here / focusing on it extensively at once so it’s like, sharing The Interest can of course involve that [way of enjoying it] being an actual part of how info about it is conveyed, vs like idk, the pared down wikipedia summary? and for someone to hypothetically participate would involve engaging w/all the Info being shared, which they don’t have to, but it wouldn’t exactly be Sharing that interest then / talking about themself genuinely if it was like idk here’s a two sentence answer? 

anyways also the other day i saw some post like “s/o to girls who don’t know when to stop talking and go on for 50 min & 6 tangents, love that” like again the Linguistic Context like you love it but it’s framed as Too Much and that they Should’ve stopped talking sooner? meanwhile i also don’t like classic like “oh this person enjoys the Enthusiasm of the other party and it doesn’t matter what they’re actually saying” which i also obviously dislike b/c it’s generally about romance or something like again this is a way of Sharing Something Socially and for me it’s like it’s About the info, the hell if someone thinks the enthusiasm is cute or whatever. as ever the ultimate depiction is the “however flareon is the only fully evolved fire type that cannot learn solar beam / yeah i’ve been working on a medley of all 985 pokemon themes / Fweeee” “ohhh i can’t not fuck him” legs comic panels, the info is there, it’s humorously Not needing to seem actually particularly appealing or anything lmfao

[sunsetsover]

I can guarantee that at least 95% of all cast and crew on EE aren't distancing in their personal lives and also aren't distancing with colleagues when they're not on the clock though. The only reason EE and other shows are keeping SD is because of liability in the workplace tbh.

I'm not defending this that or the other, but that's the reality.

and? that doesn't give anyone the right to start making demands OR complaining about social distancing. my mum's workplace is also still social distancing even though individuals aren't. some places STILL require masks and social distancing. whether it's a liability thing or not, at the end of the day it's still keeping ppl safe and NO ONE has the right to demand ppl put their and other ppl's health at risk for what? so 2 characters can hold hands for a few seconds? come on

like we aren't just talking about individual on screen cast here we're talking about the crew too and all of their families and the people they live with or come into contact with regularly.... like personal choices are personal choices but say ee get rid of sd and you have one person who's acting like a dickhead and taking all these risks and not being sensible abt covid and they're forced to break social distancing w someone who IS being sensible and not taking risks and then god forbid they catch covid bc of that.... or even worse, they pass it on to a family member who's immune system is compromised or is over 60 and they end up seriously ill in hospital or even worse..... all bc what ?? ur tired of sd u want to see on screen affection again.... like would it be worth it ??? really ??? is it worth potentially putting ppls lives at risk so u can see ben and callum hold hands?? bc for me the answer is and will always be no.

and when you think beyond your own wants for 5 seconds and be sensible about the situation that is literally still life threatening you realize how disgusting and unbelievable it is that ppl are not only kicking up such a fuss abt sd, but actually demanding that its ended or an even worse thing that i saw w my own 2 eyeballs - that ee update the audience on the casts' vaccines (which lemme not get into bc that literally pissed me off for like 4 days straight i almost lost my mind). THAT is why i'm so angry at people over this. because it's the most selfish, disgusting complaint i've ever heard and it makes these people sound like entitled, spoilt brats. and the worst part is that they either don't realize or don't care, and that ppl r agreeing w them instead of telling them that they need to shut the fuck up and get a grip.

like i'm sorry we all wish it wasn't like this but if you're genuinely mad and complaining abt social distancing still being in place you're selfish and your priorities are so completely fucked up! and yes i'm judging these people bc their behaviour is telling me everything i need to know about what type of person they are. and im not getting into it but this is honestly just the latest thing on a list of ppl showing their asses bc of this fucking show and if it wasn't so alarming it'd be comical.

i'm not having a go at you specifically anon i hope it doesn't come across that way i'm just very tired of this argument bc it's like.... literally if ppl just use their common sense and a little bit of understanding and compassion then they'd understand that this shouldn't even be a conversation and if im being really honest it scares me a little bit that it is

[smalltragedy]

* justice smith, demi man + he/they | you know gabriel de leon, right? they’re twenty three, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, six years? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to 1984 (infinite jest) by the used like, a million times this year, which makes sense ‘cause they’ve got that whole waking up in a body as heavy as the dead, emotions always on the verge of spilling over - you laugh before the punch lands, the belief that every encounter you have will be the last thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is october 31st, so they’re a scorpio, which is unsurprising, all things considered. ( james, 21, est, they/them )

hi im just reposting gabe’s intro bc its been a very long time n im starting a little fresh hehe. yes i do regret the text color bt im not going back.

VIOLENCE TW

mini playlist.

ghosting ;; mother mother / roam the room ;; citizen / art of doubt ;; metric / thnks fr th mmrs ;; fall out boy / heart in a cage ;; the strokes / where is my mind? ;; the pixies / flowers grow out of my grave ;; dead man’s bones / 1984 (infinite jest) ;; the used / blister in the sun ;; the violent femmes.

statistics.

full name: gabriel de leon.

nickname(s): gabe.

birthday: october 31st, 1997.

zodiac: scorpio sun, scorpio moon, gemini ascending.

label: the icarian.

hometown: belleville, new jersey.

sexuality: bisexual (masc-leaning).

pinterest.

biography.

it’s only rly ever been gabe n his mom n the little new jersey suburbs that r always the same no matter where they go. they dn’t speak abt fathers or brothers or spain or anywhere other than the now, and how its constantly changing bt oddly the same.

his mom’s name is sonia n we love her. she worked a lot as a single mom n p much hs done everything on her own ever since leaving spain.

they dn’t talk abt spain bt we cn talk abt spain n hw sonia hd grown up partially there n partially in the states n hw she’d originally planned to live there forever bt the man she’d fallen in love with ws involved in some. high class dangerous shit n it ws safer fr them to part even if tht involved leaving everything she knew n loved <3

bt its like. ok. bc she hd gabe <3 n they dnt talk abt it so it practically nvr happened. n she tries her best as a mom n usually tht is enough.

they moved around a lot just bc sonia is a very. flighty person. anxious bt nvr seems tht way is just always. tense. gabe didnt think she ws capable of relaxing fr. a rly long time.

she wld commute 2 nyc every morning n after school gabe wld climb onto the train n by the time he got 2 her place of work she’d be just getting off n they’d get a slice of pizza n sometimes they’d go somewhere like central park or coney island (just fr the novelty) bt most of the time they just got back on the train home w/ gabe either doing homework or napping on her shoulder.

when gabe got a little older he’d sometimes skip school n take the train after sonia had already gone so he cld spend the day in nyc. he liked learning bt didnt rly like school. he nvr properly fit in bc of the amt of times they’d move so it felt like nowhere ws. right fr him.

got rly involved in. the punk scene as a young unsupervised teenager n tht led 2 a lot of like. shitty stick n pokes bt also a love of. very loud angry music n a sense of justice tht he held tightly in his fists. got mouthy towards bullies whether at school or in the scenes he involved himself in n started getting into a lot of fights bc of it.

during this, sonia ended up dating n marrying gabe’s stepdad who he calls craig sometimes bt i dnt think thats his name i wont lie to u guys. its partially a joke n partially purposeful disrespect bc gabriel does not trust a single man bt like. man. ‘craig’ is just an accountant. he’s fine he’s a good dude. they once bonded over like. the mets.

violence tw // anyways. when gabriel ws 16 he got into a super super bad fight tht ended rly. terribly n like listen. nobody died bt it ws just. it got blown up very out of proportion n gabe might’ve gotten expelled even tho he wsnt even the one who started it bt thts okay. ‘craig’, or paul, suggested tht maybe. a change of scenery wld b good fr gabe n b4 they knew it they were. moving to paul-robert’s hometown of irving, north carolina. violence end of tw //

he wld’ve complained more bt. fr sonia’s sake gabe kept it 2 himself. it made her happy 2 see them all get along anyways n like. idk he cld put forth tht little effort <3

bt honestly like. he didnt rly get into too many fights once they moved down here n even tho sometimes he ws like. ommgg. i hate this town .. its so washed up .. he still made friends n like. the only thing tht changed ws tht it ws a lil harder fr him 2 acquire illegal substances.

anyways. currently he hs a tattoo apprenticeship n is a professional piercer n like. he plays guitar n writes songs bt thts more of a hobby rn than anything else. mostly focused on paying his rent at port apartments bc as much as he. loves his mom he does not want 2 live with her forever <3 n thts okay!

personality & facts.

overall xtremely passionate person like god. feels emotions so intensely. every time he opens his mouth n talks abt an interest of theirs its just very like. u listen n ur like oh. gained 2 inspiration. thanks.

clings onto his friends p tightly bc he like. nvr rly stayed in one place fr super super long in new jersey so he nvr made very long term friends n now hes like. very clingy HLKDSHLKFSHLKDG also hates to b alone. subtle desperation behind interactions with ppl he rly wld like to be friends with.

like dnt get me wrong hes gotten into. sm fights bt thts mostly bc he cannot keep his mouth shut n he also cnt stand douchebags he like. always wants to tear them down prob bc he ws a victim of bullying. n u know what. we support him. otherwise he loves ppl bt esp if they hv similar interests 2 him.

like golden retriever who bites kind of. intensely loyal but at the same time is very skeptical. things tht good things do not last very long even though they’ve been doing already fr the last few years.

also bit of a nerd. they were nvr rly a big fan of school bt theres smth abt a good superhero comic tht draws their attention more than like. any english class evr. bt seven soldiers of victory? classic. big dc fan.

uh. very into like. hardcore music. hardcore rock. punk. if its loud n angry they r into it like so so much. hs sm tattoos is like. super covered in them its partially bc they work at a tattoo shop n partially bc they do not know hw to manage their money well.

ooohh u know what theyre. kinda moody i wont lie to u. very defensive like they dnt evr wna talk abt their past. has experienced Things n they do not wish to discuss them. will usually like. deflect frm conversations he doesnt wna hv.

in tune with nature. loves fkn taking walks. hangs out in the woods by abernathy creek n lilac ridge bc nobody rly goes there n its just. nice

tries not 2 take anything super seriously 2 the point where when he does take smth seriously its a little scary bc theyre super intense abt it. forcibly optimistic even tho on the inside he feels like a total pessimist. lots of. deep down insecurities tht he projects by attaching himself p firmly onto others. >.>

so so so energetic. can never stay still. always hs to be moving around. restless like tht. probably got it frm his mom. overly protective over the ppl he loves. probably got it frm his mom as well.

goes onto Tangents bt also divert frm those tangents n is generally all over the place.

always cold n always looks tired n like he hsnt slept in a thousand years n u know what. sometimes he just does not sleep.

oooohh theyre a vegan. totally into animal rights. devious little demi man beyond that .. loves horror n the paranormal n believes in like. every cryptic. will debate u on it.

erm not. the kindest 2 themself theyre a bit self destructive. impulsive. drives very fast n parties super hard. said i will hv my effy stonem moment. u dont hv to gabe.

bt ya! luvs oranges n reds n is maybe a short king. hs an eyebrow piercing n like. a lip ring i wont fk around here he IS living his best emo life in 2021. a little outdated on the trends bt thats okay. probably will tell u hes frm new jersey. its a personality trait. smokes the shittiest cigarettes ever.

wanted plots.

just ghosting along ,, dnt even exist 2 me ,, ;; god. firstly just the vast amt of ppl tht gabe hs like. spoken to romantically n then dropped suddenly. n then maybe like. one tht actually Hurt bt they cnt avoid each other bt theyre actively pretending each other doesnt exist n its. hurtful bc it ws like. actually smth nice bt <3 ykno FKLFSDHG

hey hey heyy c’maahn i’m just a little guy ;; n this is the vast amt of ppl tht gabe hs probably. pissed off n hs either fought or been on the verge of fighting just. unable 2 resist a good bicker-turned-duel.

just blistering in the sun ;; they cld b close friends bt also they cld also not b bt just ppl who. indulge in bad impulsive decisions with gabe. general bad influences on each other’s health n just. no good! party hard bt at what cost.

n also ;; like ... rly solid good friendships ... flings n maybe an exe or two tht either ended on good terms or just. horrendous, ppl they’ve distanced frm, ppl also frm up north, piercing customers, bt not tattoo customers bc im p sure they’d get fired if they were just tattoo’ing ppl willy nilly, etc.

[tofiveohfive]

✨ otps & notps tag ✨

@bring-back1d tagged me in this (THANKS! 💛 and, sorry, but apparently i cant tag you? 😔) and, yk, why not start 2021 by being controversial am i right? fdhsjkf

top OTPs (idk how many i can include so imma go wild)

steve & tony (in the mcu too, but, honestly, in every damn marvel universe. it's ridiculous. if you've never read "the confession" and "the oath" you're not ready to have this conversation)

tim & lyla (friday night lights) ("what do you want?" "you" "what else do you want?" "you" 😩 will always fuck me up)

harry & draco (harry potter) (the first ever “tongues fighting for dominance” was written for them and that should tell you all you need to know about this pairing)

neil & andrew (the foxhole court) (if you’ve never read these books idk what you’re doing with your life tbh)

jamie & dani (the haunting of bly manor) (the SOFTEST lesbians i stg they make my heart turn to goo)

clark & bellamy (the 100) (here's ur monthly FUCK YOU, jroth)

comics!clint & bucky (marvel) (one comics run & a thousand fics were enough to make me lose my mind at how perfect this pairing is)

isak & even (skam) (nothing will ever be as soft as their morning after scene. nothing.)

eric & happiness & acceptance (sex education) (tbh im still on the fence abt adam. we'll see how next season goes)

fleabag & the hot priest (fleabag) (fleabag's series finale was simultaneously the best & the worst thing that's ever happened to me. i cried. a lot. the soundtrack still haunts me)

bonus: neil & the protagonist (tenet) (i dont really understand whats going on there Just Yet, but i like it)

next part under the cut because lol

top NOTPs

steve & bucky (marvel) (just 404 error does not compute, never has. to me, they're brothers & i love their relationship as brothers. also keep ur “[louis voice] brothers?” joke to urself, i’m not amused lmao)

clark & lexa (the 100) (sorry, fam. another one that never did it for me. i’m all for bi clark. if jroth is gonna be a little bitch about bellarke, then give clarke a WIFE, but not lexa 🥴)

jon & daenerys (got) (it’s just weird as fuck in the series. maybe it could still work in the books, but in the series it played out like a wattpad fic)

harry & ginny (harry potter) (they got me yawning by the second book of the series. imagine how tired i am)

natasha & clint (alternatively natasha & bruce) (marvel) (just leave natasha the fuck alone. it annoys me to no end that they >have< to make her one of her male co-workers' love interest. give her a girlfriend, preferably okoye)

brooke & lucas (one tree hill) (this is an old bone to pick lmao)

michael & maria (roswell new mexico) (enough to make me yeet from the show i guess)

i think that’s it. i usually ignore pairings i don’t like, unless they/their fandom annoy me haha

i'm tagging @whatevertearsyou, @phoenixvinyl, @stardustony, @vilounelle, @ilouistomlinson, @prsephones, @behisbest, @onedirectoin, @stanwalls & honestly if u wanna do it, please do & say i tagged u lol

[gayregis]

who are your fave characters and why?

my favoritisms of characters tbh depend on how funny they are because i like comic characters and i like to laugh

dandelion - funny, bright, witty, arrogant, geralt’s best friend. not too stupid to be boring, but stupid enough to make stupid decisions which lead to comic dialogue and situations. scenes which demonstrate his arrogance, such as when he bursts into the spear blade in eternal flame and demands the landlord pays him honor and serves him beer even though he has a running, unpaid tab from the night before are great. 

i feel that he’s really essential to accompany geralt’s pov which is often pessimistic and lonely. because the reader reads mostly from geralt’s pov, it’s easy to really feel what his life is like for me when i read the books. when he’s alone and ruminating on the despair of life, i get depressed and lonely. but in the scenes where he’s with people he loves and trusts, i feel like i’m sharing the friendship and intimacy. and literally 80% of why i don’t enjoy tw3 base game as much as i used to when i entered the fandom is because i learned about dandelion and how close he and geralt are in canon, and suddenly when i played tw3, i longed to have a companion bantering and joking with me, strumming a lute, riding on the back of a fat little bay gelding. i appreciate the perspective dandelion always brings because he is so devoted to earthly pleasures and geralt has basically sworn off any pleasure in his life so he really helps keep the mood up. 

and he’s not overly comic or arrogant, in my opinion he’s serious and committed when he needs to be, such as in a little sacrifice when he and geralt argue in bed, or in time of contempt when he speaks to ciri or approaches brokilon. he has this inner bravery and loyalty that shines when the time is right.

regis - eccentic, weird funny, critical, #deep, goodwilled. i love how ... weird and random regis can be. they just, find this guy hiding in a cemetery. and he’s smiling with pursed lips at them, he engages them in a conversation, and suddenly they’re all chilling back at his cottage boozin’ it up. so many things about regis are just bizarrely funny to me, i’m not sure how much of his character was intended to be comic, but i find him funny anyways. i think it’s better to have a funny vampire than the dramatic or sexy vampires that you so often see in movies & other media. i love how he hides his identity early on and it’s suuuuper obvious that he’s a vampire (i mean, a cemetery? the chapter prelude of chapter 4 with passages about vampires? the peasants looking for a vampire, in the cemetery they found regis, who didn’t fear the place at all? “did you ever see a vampire, even a little one?” “... no. :)”) i also love his know-it-all-ness, one because i find it relatable, and two because it’s funny to see everyone else in the company get aggravated by it. i love how dandelion notes that the company did not have any issues with regis related to his vampiric nature, but rather that of his intellectual nature. i love how regis is prone to overthinking, analysis, philosophy, and contrasts to milva, who is action, strength, grabbing the bull by the horns.

and i love how regis reveals himself to the company just because he wanted to save the innocent girl’s life. of course i love the goodwilledness, the humanity of regis. i love how he’s a surgeon and i love how he heals people. i like his philosophizing, his monologues, they’re interesting and comforting... especially when peter kenny reads them lol.

i love how regis is a total bitch to geralt after he’s revealed. “guess what, i’m your problem, and i’m not leaving. deal with it.” because he knows that geralt cannot fight him, so his anger towards him is extremely useless. i love how regis exists outside geralt’s authority during a lot of times, and although he may answer to him as a member of the company, he certainly does what he wants. if he does something that geralt has asked him to do, it’s because he agrees with it or geralt convinced him. i like how regis’ arrogance balances itself and never shows up as arrogance towards all of humanity, but rather just the sense that he is right in advice, arguments, and little petty things like that. he’s very modest and humble when it comes to his outward self and strangers, but will give you unwarranted advice and explanations.

also i did a whole post abt why i love regis here that goes more in-depth

angouleme - funny, tragic, scrappy, one of the characters which didn’t get as much development as she should have. i suppose it is kind of generic and tropelike, but i enjoy how she is introduced as this feisty, argumentative, and troublemaking sort, and then it’s revealed through her backstory that she really has suffered and you reflect back upon the scene with fulko artevelde and think about why she acts the way she does. maybe it was refreshing for me after reading about the rats, who killed and pillaged just for fun and trinkets, to have angouleme introduced, who kills and pillages for plain survival. i like how angouleme is a parallel to ciri and it’s immediately apparent to the audience and geralt, but just how much she is like ciri is something for the reader to decide.

i love how angouleme arrives to the company just when they are about to tear each other apart. she helps them remember what they all are travelling together and fighting for - to save a girl. i like how she antagonizes and annoys everyone when she initially meets them, i feel that her presence adds something to the scenes and helps it feel more lively, less calm and subdued. 

i like how she is also a good character to fixate on if you like the “reluctant at first parent” trope, moreso than with geralt, yennefer, and ciri, because ciri is pretty darn lovable and even though she and her parents don’t get along immediately, they pretty much are bonded by familial love in a few days or less, i feel like it was a few hours in geralt’s regard (yennefer has trauma related to being a little girl so her initial uneasiness is understandable). angouleme is very difficult for the members of the hansa to love i feel, since love and being a family is different than being a company. you know, she has a very strong personality and isn’t too bothered about societal convention and morality, and also is used to relying upon herself only, she never has had people she can truly trust except maybe the other orphans from her hansa, and they all have died now.

sometimes i’m upset that sapkowski didn’t develop her character more, but a lot of the time, i’m thankful that he didn’t, because it allows her as a character to have a lot of potential and for me as a fan to have fun headcanoning and such. i have to draw connections between her and the others, for example, she struggles with addiction - aha! regis struggled with addiction heavily in his youth - she’s starved and went without food - aha! milva knows how to hunt and shot geralt a deer in the beginning of baptism of fire. i have become attached to the idea of regis and milva mentoring her, and also of her becoming siblings with cahir. i feel that she and cahir are really opposites in a lot of different ways, so that they can influence each other and pull each other in different directions (ie. angouleme getting cahir into trouble, lol).

[robinrequiems]

I'D LOVE TO HEAR MORE ABOUT COMIC CON!DAMIJON AU AND KIDNAPPED BY LOA!JON AU (POSSIBLE DAMIJON ALSO SOUNDS PRETTY NEAT FOR THAT AU) PLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEAS-

ALRIGHTY! HERES P1 OF KIDNAPPED: https://robinrequiems.tumblr.com/post/656471030683025408/ooo-jon-getting-kidnapped-by-the-league-caught-my

ILL ADD ONTO IT HERE DW:

comic con:

• damian was obviously robin, he had long since disappeared from his family to go and adventure off to go get some art from his favorite comic artists

• and plus he wanted to show off his own art

• he was so glad he wore a mask since like.. chaotic. a wayne? at comic con? that would stir drama up

• damian was walking around peacefully b4 he ended up running into jon

• jon was roughly 5’10-5’11, towering over damin’s 5’6

• they’re both like 15

• jon also ended up dumping his nachos onto damian

• damian wanted to stab him so bad

“This took me months to make, you asshole!”

“I’m sorry! I didn’t see you! I don’t exactly look d—“

“Excuse me?”

“That’s not what I meant— I’m so sorry— !”

“You’re such a prick!”

• damian ended up stomping off to find dick, dick luckily got all of it off his suit

• thank god, damian almost started screaming

• damian ended up running into the boy again, he doesn’t know how he got roped into taking a picture with the boy and another small kid

• all damian knew was that he was annoyed and mad and angry, which were synonyms, but

“I feel like you are mad at me..”

“You nearly ruined my costume!”

“I didn’t mean to!”

“Yet you did.”

• kon ended up running into them to, and laughed. the boy LAUGHED

“Oh god, it’s like walking into a comic book.”

“Konnie stoopp- you’ll make him even more mad than he is!”

• jon could feel the glare, even with Damian’s mask on.

• but.. somehow they kept ending up in the same spots

• jon bought damian a Robin themed sweatshirt, rhay was horrible quality. but he felt soo bad

• damian.. appreciated the gesture

• and they started talking abt the supersons and which comic was their favorite, damian liked the supersons of tomorrow arc while jon liked the whole challenge of the supersons series

• it was nice talking with someone who read the supersons comics, damian couldnt really talk to anyone about them since one; he didn’t have friends. kidding. he did, but they don’t read comics. two; he didn’t like admitting he liked reading those types of things

• they actually spent most of the day together, it was really fun, they took a lot of pictures together, damian got some for his private Instagram ( what? He’s a wayne. He needs a private insta. ) and jon got some for his main

• they ended up exchanged numbers at the end, but jon never learned his name, and all he knew him by was Robin and damian knew him as superboy

• but Damian liked having a secret identity, he didn’t have to worry about jon taking advantage of the fact he’s a wayne, but he could always just say his first name, but where’s the fun in that?

league: ( DONT QORRY ITS BUILDING UP TO DAMIJON ! )

• damian ended up getilting held prisoner

• not his finest moment..

• jon was his guard, ra’s would soon realize that was a mistake.

• damian doesn’t know how long he was in there, it felt like forever, but soon enough, he was able to get jon to talk to him

• but the conversations were small, it was like working with a blank canvas, but Damian could paint on that canvas ( god metaphors, I hate myself Jfc )

• pls wait: jon wears Jason’s league outfit from yj 🥵🥵🥵🥵🥺

• pls hes hot

• damian isn’t given much in his small cell, just a bed, and a few other essentials. he’s given the bare minimum to survive

• which is fine, but that didn’t stop him from complaining

• jon grew up pretty, damian soon realized ( but he grew up too fast )

• did damian grow up pretty? d wonders what j thinks of him

• damian tried to bring up Jon’s parents and how they missed him ( in truth, damian probably spoke to Clark and lois the most nowadays ), but jon got angry

• jon shot out a laser beam at Damian, damian was barely able to even dodge

• emotions. anger is an emotion. Damian saw a hint of green in rhose blue eyes. ( pit madness, fuck )

• damian remembers being dipped into the pit as a kid, he remembers the stinging pain of it

• god, damian feels sick.

• months for by, jon begins.. talking more, damian just grows more tired

• but Damian still hopes his family finds him

• ( who is he kidding? )

• damian tries to talk to him about those stupid baseball cards jon had ( the same cards damian just held onto when he was just losing himself )

• damian tries to do a lot of things

• jon becomes a good fighter, he begins filling out, and he gets a lot of muscle, unbeknownst to ra’s, Jon’s beginning to find himself again.

• ra’s should have known that the supersons would find each other ( they always would, even if one of them is currently a mindless slave )

• his mistake was thinking jon could ever kill him

• damian doesn’t know why ra’s thought that jon could kill him

• it was funny when they put jon and d into a pit, assuming they would fight, damian did put up a fight, he had too much pent up energy

• but jon was stronger, faster, and healthier

• so damian naturally lost, ra’s ordered a killing blow, damian server no purpose anyways

• but jon couldn’t

• he couldn’t kill his bestie

“D?”

[zecretsanta]

Happy holidays @deathdesu!

to: @deathdesu

from: @thefireinthewire

Here’s you gift! I really liked you prompt about Eric pulling Mira into nerdy hobbies, so here you go!

Ao3

Dice and Other Distractions

“So the thing is,” Eric says, running his hands through his hair as he addresses the table, “I’ve been trying to find something to keep Mira occupied since she can’t go out much anymore ever since I, uh, broke her out.” His voice tapers off, wavering at the last few words. “But then I found this article about how playing games like Dungeons and Dragons can help people work out their feelings in a, a non-violent manner.” He laughs nervously. “And I remember playing some games in high school, so I think it would be fun.”

“Okay, and?” Junpei said from across the table. Officially they were all there to work on preventing the destruction that Delta had predicted, but they had gotten off topic a while ago.

“Well, right now with me, Sean, and Mira, we don’t have enough people to play a game, so I was hoping that someone else would play with us.” Eric cast his eyes around the room. Akane and her brother, who always seemed to show up at these meetings, were speaking quietly in Japanese and seemed to have missed most of what he had been saying. Carlos was looking on with the serious concentration he always had when someone else was speaking, but he had yet to say anything. The rest were looking on with varying levels of boredom. Phi had her head nestled in her folded arms and looked to to be asleep.

“Yo, Phido,” Sigma nudged her with his elbow, “you play Dungeons and Dragons, right?”

Phi whipped her head up so fast that it turned into a white blur. “Who’s playing Dungeons and Dragons.”

“Uh, I am?”Eric raised his hand awkwardly. “I need another person so that I can play with Mira and Sean.”

“What edition are you using, sixth or fifth? Or are you using a totally different system? I’m not super fond of Fate, but I really like Blades in the Dark, and I’ve played some good games of The Sprawl, and Apocalypse World is always fun.”

“I- what?” Eric shook his head. “I don’t know what half of that means. I’ve only ever played Dungeons and Dragons, and I wanted to do a campaign for Mira.”

“Oh, okay.” She bounced up and down in her seat a little. “Do you have a campaign planned out? Because I have a couple of ideas for ones that I want to run, if you don’t already have something planned out.”

Eric shrugged. “Not really. Do you want to-? I mean, you don’t have to, it just seems like you want to.”

“Yeah, I’ll be the DM!” Phi said, a little too quickly. “Sorry, it’s just that I haven’t played a game since I graduated college and started saving the world full time.”

“I think we could all use a game like this as a break,” Diana pipes in. “I mean, I’ve never played before, but it seems like it could be fun.”

“As long as Mira can play, I guess people can join in,” Eric said. “Does anyone else want to play?”

“Sorry, I think I’m too busy,” Junpei says, turning to join Akane and Aoi in their conversation.

“I can try to see if I have time,” Carlos said, running his hand sheepishly through his hair. “I played once or twice when I was younger, but my life’s been a bit hectic since then.”

“Okay, anyone else?” Phi looked around the room, but the rest seemed uninterested. “Nope? Alright. I expect character sheets on my desk by Monday.”

“What character sheet?” Diana said at the same time as Eric said “You don’t have a desk.”

“I’ll send everybody links to stuff you can use,” Phi said, gathering up her things. “I gotta start planning.” Then she scurried out of the room too quickly for anyone to follow.

“I’m the one who drove her here,” Diana said as Phi disappeared from sight. “She can’t go home without me. I have no idea where she’s going”

  *

  “Hmm,” Mira said, flipping through the handbook. “So playing as certain races can give you an advantage in certain other classes. Interesting.”

“Yeah,” Eric leaned into her as she read. “Some people don’t really care about those connections, since they think that it makes characters too stereotypical, but most of them make sense to me.”

“That’s stupid of them.” Mira shook her head. “It makes perfect sense for me to play an orc fighter. An orc’s strength will give me the extra power that I need in combat.”

“Oh, really?” Eric laughed. “I thought you would have chosen something pretty, like, like an elf!”

“No, that wouldn’t work for what I want to do.” She turned to look at Sean, who was filling out his sheet sprawled across the living room floor. “What about you, Sean? What kind of character are you going to play?”

“A gnome!” He turned his head and smiled. Sigma had made him a temporary head while he worked on developing ABT, and while it was more realistic than a big sphere, there was a plastic quality to the skin that made it obvious that he wasn’t human. “They’re going to be a wizard. I’m working on making a backstory now.”

Eric shifted in his seat. “Are you sure you want to play a wizard? I’ve heard that it’s sometimes hard for beginners to play magical classes.”

“I’ve already downloaded the entire spellbook, players handbook, and several other supplementary materials to my hard drive.” Sean said. “I think that as long as we stick to the rules I should be okay.”

“Oh, right,” Eric said, “I forgot that you can do that.”

“What kind of character are you playing, Eric?” Sean chirped.

“Oh, I, uh. I got so excited about you guys making your characters that I forgot to think about mine.”

He picked up the handbook and flipped through it, although he already knew most of the basics. When he was younger he would usually play a fighter, but Mira already had that covered. He should play a character that could protect her, maybe one with healing powers, that would be nice.

“I think I’ll be a paladin.” He said, resolve hardening his voice.

“And for the race?” Mira asked.

“Human,” he said, then again with more certainty. “Human.”

  *

  “So, does everyone have their dice?” There was some fumbling and rattling. “Character sheets?” Papers rustled. “Wizard hats?”

“You never said-”

“It was a joke Carlos.”

“Oh. Right.”

They were crowded around the kitchen table in Eric and Mira’s house, almost elbow to elbow, excluding Phi, who was seated at the head of the table and hidden behind several propped-up binders. Mira and Eric had decided to host the gathering because it was risky for Mira to be seen in public after she had been broken out of jail, but this was more people than they were used to having over at once. Sean was sitting with his knees pulled up to his chest in an armchair that they had pulled in from the living room.

“Okay.” Phi clapped her hands together. “Let’s get this party started. First, I want everyone to introduce their characters. Eric, since all of this was your idea, you can start.”

“That’s not how that works!” Eric snipped.

“Yes it is. C’mon, you’re going to have to do it eventually.”

“Fine.” He took a deep breath. “My character is a human paladin named Alexander. He fights to protect his friends, and he isn’t afraid to die for a cause.”

“That wasn’t so hard, was it?” Phi smirked. “Okay. Mira, your turn.”

“My character is a fighter named Mab the Bloody.” Mira shrugged. “She’s an orc and she likes to punch stuff.”

“Cool. Sean?”

“My character is named Lenny Littlefoot!” Sean smiled and gestured with his character sheet. “They’re a wizard and a gnome, and they’re really excited to go on an adventure, even though they’re afraid of monsters.”

“Oh buddy am I going to use that against you.” Before Sean could respond, Phi turned again. “Diana! Your turn!”

“Oh!” Diana jumped a bit. “I’m playing an elf druid named Iris. She, uh, she likes birds? I don’t know what else to say.”

“That’s good enough. Last but not least.” Phi took a moment to pause dramatically. “Carlos!”

“I,” Carlos said, dropping his voice until it was comically low, “am playing Throckmorton, a dwarf, a rogue, and a general good-for-nothing.”

“If you establish that as your character voice, I will make you use it for the entire campaign.” Phi laughed.

“Challenge accepted,” Carlos rumbled.

“Alright.” Phi looked around the table. “Is everyone ready?”

The group nodded, expectant.

“Excellent.” She cracked her fingers louder than was necessary. “The five of you have been called to the town of Windport….”

  *

  “The fire giant roars as you approach, letting out a burst of flame. He knows that you’re here, and he is not happy. What do you do?”

They had been playing for what felt like years now, although in reality it was more like months, on and off as schedule conflicts delayed games. They were supposed to be saving the world, after all.

All of their hard work had come down to this. The evil king was deposed, and all that remained was the giant that he had summoned. If they won this fight, the kingdom would be free.

“I want to charge in and attack him.” Mira’s face was set, almost bored.

“Are you sure?” Phi asked. Mira nodded. “Alright then. Normally I would make you roll for initiative, but it’s pretty clear that you’re making the first move. Are you just hitting him with your sword, or-?”

“I’m just hitting him with my sword.”

“Alright then. Roll a d20 plus your strength modifier, which is,” she flipped through some papers, “five. Go ahead.”

The die clattered on the hard wood of the table, coming to rest nearly at the center. All around the table, the players leaned in to see what it said.

“Oh jeez,” Carlos winced. Diana bit her lip

“Well,” Phi said, “that’s a one. Okay, so you charge forward, sword raised high, but the thing is that your sword is just metal, and your armor is metal, and all the coins and jewelry that you’ve picked up is metal. And metal melts. The giant takes a deep breath, and you can see waves of heat rolling off of him. He rears back-”

“Wait!” Eric holds out a hand, desperate. “I want to jump in front of her and cast Shield of Faith.”

“Okay, but just so you know, if you fail, both of you are toast, and I mean that literally.” Phi sighed and ran a hand through her hair. “That’s another d20, plus your spellcasting modifier, which is four. Go for it.”

Eric rolled the die between his palms, trying to channel any bit of luck he had into the little piece of plastic. It bounced on the table and landed in front of Mira.

“It’s a 20.” A smile pulled at the corner of Mira’s lips

Phi shook her head. “There’s no way.”

“Come over here and look if you don’t believe me, but it’s true. Eric rolled a critical hit.”

“No, I believe you.” Phi took a deep breath. “So the spell radiates out from your holy symbol which, may I remind you, is a literal shield. It covers the whole part just in time to protect them from a burst of flame that sets the trees around you on fire. All of you are alive. I can’t believe that you managed to pull that off.”

“I did it!” Eric grasped Mira’s hand and grinned. “Mira, I saved you!”

“Technically you saved Mab the Bloody,” Mira smiled, “but yeah, you did. Thank you.”

“You guys know that you still have to get through the rest of the encounter, right?” Phi said.

“Yeah, but at least we got through this.” Eric squeezed Mira’s hand. “We got this far.”

[wingheadshellhead]

So I just read Jonathan Hickman's Avgers, Vol. 1: Avengers World which has that scene about how "it started with two men; one was life and one was death" in reference to Steve and Tony. What really confuses me and kind of makes me angry is why Tony is death? I don't really understand what it's referencing or what he's done to be Death. Like merchant of death and all that I get. But he's past his history now right? Even poetically in an avengers comic why is he still death? Wondering if you know?

i mean,,,,,,, i know fandom was briefly up in arms about this (not really but it was a Thing ppl were mildly salty about) but hickman never specifies who he’s referring to here. (the placement of the captions means nothing lmao, it’s literally just positioned in standard left-to-right reading order.) and actually, many ppl in fandom have taken that exact ambiguity and spun it on its head in edits and fics and especially re: mcu after ca: cw to cast steve as death, and tony as life as an interesting subversion of popular understanding of that quote where 616 tony = death, 616 steve = life. 

hickman’s writing style is very much about intense concept ideas and the big picture, he goes HARD on metaphors that make for great quotes and oneliners taken out of context but doesn’t often attempt to explain or further clarify what they mean. as someone who’s read most of his original comic east of west over at image, i can tell you it’s Classic Hickman to throw out that kind of dramatic ass statement and leave it up in the air as to who’s who just because it was memorable, it sounded fucking good, and it’s going to stick in people’s heads long after they’ve finished reading. and it definitely works bc this one ticks all three boxes.

personally, i don’t think hickman specifically intended one of them to be Life personified or Death personified; that’s hyperbolic even for hickman’s level of drama. and with steve and tony, at least, i think he knows full well that he’s dealing with Humans at the end of the day and not metaphorical embodiments of things. 

so what i think about the quote, specifically: 

1. it’s more useful as an axiomatic representation of tony and steve as polarising forces then as a literal statement where both correlate exactly to life or death; this is the unstoppable force meets immovable object facet of their relationship. 

hickman’s vol. 5 was very much about exploring and interrogating this part of steve and tony’s dynamic and driving it to its very limits. while i don’t know that i was totally satisfied with vol. 5 as an avengers comic bc i like seeing my kids get along and not constantly trying to murder each other, hickman definitely Gets steve and tony. he Gets their dynamic and the drama and tragedy that can come from such an important, intense and deeply profound relationship that’s grounded in so much history and personal stakes and emotions. tony and steve being best friends for over a decade and such important figures in each other’s lives will never negate the fact that they have very different ethical alignments and moral philosophies. and for two people who are absolutely compelled by those things in everything they do, going head to head with someone that happens to land at the polar opposite of them on the spectrum is always going to go down like… well… y’know. civil wars. universes dying. just bc that’s literally how much marvel has invested in them lol.

but i respect people / characters who respect themselves too much to bend just bc someone they love, or people they love, wants them to. i respect characters that will stand their ground and stick to their convictions even though it’d be easier not to, esp. when they’re risking someone they love. and conversely, just because steve and tony can’t agree on everything doesn’t mean their relationship suddenly becomes null and void. they’re too vastly similar but also different people who’d sooner die then stop fighting for the thing(s) they believe need to be fought for; this is something they know in their bones about each other, they know each other too well to expect anything less from the other person.

2. they can both be both. and this is Literal given that steve’s last act in the final moments of the 616 universe ‘as we knew it’ (bc there’s some debate – spoiler alert? – that the all-new all-different universe that marvel is currently set in is not 616 but a completely different universe and the 616 that existed before is legitimately just dead) was to take one of tony’s suits and try to murder him. granted, the ‘tony’ that was tony in the final moments of the 616 universe ‘as we knew it’ was also Not Really Tony, and i fully believe that the influences of Superior Tony were still lingering and tainting his overall Tonyness. in that instance, if you were going to be very simplistic and reductionist abt your interpretation of the quote, steve was definitely death. but Again, they are Both Both. tony spent (spends lbr) pretty much all his time in vol. 5 prophesizing death and destruction like 616′s very own cassandra; as Not Really Tony / still sorta superior iron man he pilots the godkiller to massacre an entire alien race from invading and destroying earth; building bombs, and being fully behind the plan to kill other planets to save earth-616.

you’re right that 616 doesn’t bring up his past as often as mcu does anymore because it’s considered literal ancient history (as in bronze age 60′s history that’s been written to death, although i’m of the opinion any good tony stark writer Can and Will find a way to write his past into modern relevance). tony’s narrative and the nature of his character, however, (sb driven by guilt and accountability and the knowledge that he’s alive bc of the sacrifice of a man who died to save him – i.e. yinsen) will always inevitably feature death, his history, and his subsequent transformation. talking about 616 and specfiically tony’s actions and choices in hickmanvengers doesn’t really help my point but to talk about tony + death in general, regardless of the universe, ‘death’ also doesn’t have to be the BadTM concept it’s usually thought of as. mcu tony canonically refers to himself as a phoenix, and the Afghanistan / Vietnamistan incident is metaphorically a ‘death’ for tony stark the charcter and his rebirth as Iron Man, the Golden Avenger. in any universe, tony’s hero narrative hinges on that rebirth and transformation as a symbol of his capacity for heroism and Goodness, of taking his ugly past and former ignorance and mistakes and transforming it into something wholly and purely driven by bravery and sacrifice. 

i mean, yes, sure, if ppl are going to sit there and only take the label at face-value: death = bad / awful / terrible / only referring to his past as a weapons manufacturer and merchant of death, then yes, that would be a shitty interpretation to swallow as a tony fan. but seeing as how comics is a medium that’s built on constantly evolving and changing characters / worlds / entire universes, death as ‘rebirth’ is a very justifiable and canonically valid reading of tony. 616 tony has died multiple times, literally and figuratively, and every time he’s rebuilt himself bigger and better and stronger. the connotations of death within hickman’s own narrative and world-building is heavily linked to metamorphosis and resurrection. the final act of his avengers run and the centrepiece of the secret war event ended with the revival of the 616 universe. not to get too philosophical and existential here but death isn’t even really an End in the comics medium bc nobody and nothing ever permanently ‘dies’; it’s not possible to associate the concept with a definitive ‘end’, which makes most of the negative imagery surrounding ‘one was death’ redundant. i’m all for intrepretations of ‘death’ that are closely interlinked, if not entirely hand-in-hand, with ideas of rebirth, rebuilding, evolution, etc.

anyway, avengers world is great and i fucking love it so even if i haven’t swayed your opinion, i wouldn’t let the quote override your enjoyment of the overall comic. which, i hope you do enjoy, bc the happiness doesn’t last in hickmanvengers. buckle in for the long haul my guy.

[smalltragedy]

* justice smith, demi man + he/they | you know gabriel de leon, right? they’re twenty three, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, six years? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to 1984 (infinite jest) by the used like, a million times this year, which makes sense ‘cause they’ve got that whole waking up in a body as heavy as the dead, emotions always on the verge of spilling over - you laugh before the punch lands, the belief that every encounter you have will be the last thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is october 31st, so they’re a scorpio, which is unsurprising, all things considered. ( james, 21, est, they/them ) 

hllo this is my second child i think theyre p grand n i love them a lot. as always pls like if u’d like to plot i’d lov to interact with everybody

VIOLENCE TW

mini playlist.

ghosting ;; mother mother / roam the room ;; citizen / art of doubt ;; metric / thnks fr th mmrs ;; fall out boy / heart in a cage ;; the strokes / where is my mind? ;; the pixies / flowers grow out of my grave ;; dead man’s bones / 1984 (infinite jest) ;; the used / blister in the sun ;; the violent femmes.

statistics.

full name: gabriel de leon.

nickname(s): gabe.

birthday: october 31st, 1997.

zodiac: scorpio sun, scorpio moon, gemini ascending.

mbti & temperament: esfp & improvisor / sanguine.

label: the icarian.

hometown: belleville, new jersey.

sexuality: homosexual.

pinterest.

biography.

it’s only rly ever been gabe n his mom n the little new jersey suburbs that r always the same no matter where they go. they dn’t speak abt fathers or brothers or spain or anywhere other than the now, and how its constantly changing bt oddly the same.

his mom’s name is sonia n we love her. she worked a lot as a single mom n p much hs done everything on her own ever since leaving spain.

they dn’t talk abt spain bt we cn talk abt spain n hw sonia hd grown up partially there n partially in the states n hw she’d originally planned to live there forever bt the man she’d fallen in love with ws involved in some. high class dangerous shit n it ws safer fr them to part even if tht involved leaving everything she knew n loved <3

bt its like. ok. bc she hd gabe <3 n they dnt talk abt it so it practically nvr happened. n she tries her best as a mom n usually tht is enough.

they moved around a lot just bc sonia is a very. flighty person. anxious bt nvr seems tht way is just always. tense. gabe didnt think she ws capable of relaxing fr. a rly long time.

she wld commute 2 nyc every morning n after school gabe wld climb onto the train n by the time he got 2 her place of work she’d be just getting off n they’d get a slice of pizza n sometimes they’d go somewhere like central park or coney island (just fr the novelty) bt most of the time they just got back on the train home w/ gabe either doing homework or napping on her shoulder.

when gabe got a little older he’d sometimes skip school n take the train after sonia had already gone so he cld spend the day in nyc. he liked learning bt didnt rly like school. he nvr properly fit in bc of the amt of times they’d move so it felt like nowhere ws. right fr him.

got rly involved in. the punk scene as a young unsupervised teenager n tht led 2 a lot of like. shitty stick n pokes bt also a love of. very loud angry music n a sense of justice tht he held tightly in his fists. got mouthy towards bullies whether at school or in the scenes he involved himself in n started getting into a lot of fights bc of it.

during this, sonia ended up dating n marrying gabe’s stepdad who he calls craig sometimes bt i dnt think thats his name i wont lie to u guys. its partially a joke n partially purposeful disrespect bc gabriel does not trust a single man bt like. man. ‘craig’ is just an accountant. he’s fine he’s a good dude. they once bonded over like. the mets.

violence tw // anyways. when gabriel ws 16 he got into a super super bad fight tht ended rly. terribly n like listen. nobody died bt it ws just. it got blown up very out of proportion n gabe might’ve gotten expelled even tho he wsnt even the one who started it bt thts okay. ‘craig’, or paul, suggested tht maybe. a change of scenery wld b good fr gabe n b4 they knew it they were. moving to paul-robert’s hometown of irving, north carolina. violence end of tw //

he wld’ve complained more bt. fr sonia’s sake gabe kept it 2 himself. it made her happy 2 see them all get along anyways n like. idk he cld put forth tht little effort <3

bt honestly like. he didnt rly get into too many fights once they moved down here n even tho sometimes he ws like. ommgg. i hate this town .. its so washed up .. he still made friends n like. the only thing tht changed ws tht it ws a lil harder fr him 2 acquire illegal substances. 

anyways. currently he hs a tattoo apprenticeship n is a professional piercer n like. he plays guitar n writes songs bt thts more of a hobby rn than anything else. mostly focused on paying his rent at port apartments bc as much as he. loves his mom he does not want 2 live with her forever <3 n thts okay! 

personality & facts.

overall xtremely passionate person like god. feels emotions so intensely. every time he opens his mouth n talks abt an interest of theirs its just very like. u listen n ur like oh. gained 2 inspiration. thanks.

clings onto his friends p tightly bc he like. nvr rly stayed in one place fr super super long in new jersey so he nvr made very long term friends n now hes like. very clingy HLKDSHLKFSHLKDG also hates to b alone. subtle desperation behind interactions with ppl he rly wld like to be friends with.

like dnt get me wrong hes gotten into. sm fights bt thts mostly bc he cannot keep his mouth shut n he also cnt stand douchebags he like. always wants to tear them down prob bc he ws a victim of bullying. n u know what. we support him. otherwise he loves ppl bt esp if they hv similar interests 2 him.

like golden retriever who bites kind of. intensely loyal but at the same time is very skeptical. things tht good things do not last very long even though they’ve been doing already fr the last few years. 

also bit of a nerd. they were nvr rly a big fan of school bt theres smth abt a good superhero comic tht draws their attention more than like. any english class evr. bt seven soldiers of victory? classic. big dc fan.

uh. very into like. hardcore music. hardcore rock. punk. if its loud n angry they r into it like so so much. hs sm tattoos is like. super covered in them its partially bc they work at a tattoo shop n partially bc they do not know hw to manage their money well.

ooohh u know what theyre. kinda moody i wont lie to u. very defensive like they dnt evr wna talk abt their past. has experienced Things n they do not wish to discuss them. will usually like. deflect frm conversations he doesnt wna hv.

in tune with nature. loves fkn taking walks. hangs out in the woods by abernathy creek n lilac ridge bc nobody rly goes there n its just. nice

tries not 2 take anything super seriously 2 the point where when he does take smth seriously its a little scary bc theyre super intense abt it. forcibly optimistic even tho on the inside he feels like a total pessimist. lots of. deep down insecurities tht he projects by attaching himself p firmly onto others. >.>

so so so energetic. can never stay still. always hs to be moving around. restless like tht. probably got it frm his mom. overly protective over the ppl he loves. probably got it frm his mom as well.

goes onto Tangents bt also divert frm those tangents n is generally all over the place.

always cold n always looks tired n like he hsnt slept in a thousand years n u know what. sometimes he just does not sleep.

oooohh theyre a vegan. totally into animal rights. devious little demi man beyond that .. loves horror n the paranormal n believes in like. every cryptic. will debate u on it.

erm not. the kindest 2 themself theyre a bit self destructive. impulsive. drives very fast n parties super hard. said i will hv my effy stonem moment. u dont hv to gabe. 

bt ya! luvs oranges n reds n is maybe a short king. hs an eyebrow piercing n like. a lip ring i wont fk around here he IS living his best emo life in 2021. a little outdated on the trends bt thats okay. probably will tell u hes frm new jersey. its a personality trait. smokes the shittiest cigarettes ever.

wanted plots.

just ghosting along ,, dnt even exist 2 me ,, ;; god. firstly just the vast amt of ppl tht gabe hs like. spoken to romantically n then dropped suddenly. n then maybe like. one tht actually Hurt bt they cnt avoid each other bt theyre actively pretending each other doesnt exist n its. hurtful bc it ws like. actually smth nice bt <3 ykno FKLFSDHG

hey hey heyy c’maahn i’m just a little guy ;; n this is the vast amt of ppl tht gabe hs probably. pissed off n hs either fought or been on the verge of fighting just. unable 2 resist a good bicker-turned-duel.

just blistering in the sun ;; they cld b close friends bt also they cld also not b bt just ppl who. indulge in bad impulsive decisions with gabe. general bad influences on each other’s health n just. no good! party hard bt at what cost. 

n also ;; like ... rly solid good friendships ... flings n maybe an exe or two tht either ended on good terms or just. horrendous, ppl they’ve distanced frm, ppl also frm up north, piercing customers, bt not tattoo customers bc im p sure they’d get fired if they were just tattoo’ing ppl willy nilly, etc. 

[carterhaughs]

hi so i know that you're a tulip/cassidy shipper and i was wondering on your thoughts on preacher #52 since in it cassidy was being very abusive towards tulip and she had a major breakdown on how he mistreated her.

I don’t consider the comic and show characters to be analytically congruent and really don’t see how it’s possible for them to do that storyline given their particular conception of the characters or why they’d want to do it. None of these characters is very much like their comics counterparts other than aesthetically and in the broad strokes of their narrative significance. Tulip, for example, is a far better character in every way than her comic counterpart - which I’ve discussed at length here.

I go into my feelings about Cassidy’s comic arc in-depth here and here, but long story short, I think the comics - while I do like and respect what they were trying to do thematically - demonize/downplay mental illness in both jesse and cassidy’s arcs, and along with being racist and homophobic, are very dated in their outlook. the show in most respects is doing a far better job handling such things and in order to do that, has taken the characters an entirely different direction. for example, it’s specifically connected cassidy’s bloodlust with being a vampire rather than just being an inherently violent and pathetic person (which he didn’t start out as in the comics but it’s where his arc ultimately went although Ennis has made it sound like this wasn’t always planned out) - he’s still flawed in many ways (his self-loathing and self-destructiveness and occasional spitefulness in particular) but he’s not an inherently murderous or chauvinistic person like he is in the comics, and never engages in posturing for the sake of maintaining his masculine cred like he does there. also he’s actually tulip’s friend and like her friendship with jesse, her friendship with cassidy is very solid. that was never the case in the comics where at best she was annoyed with him. so it’s not the same thing. it’s pretty clear that the only reason he’d ever accidentally get violent in the throes of passion, like he imagined in his crack dream, is because he’s lost control of his vampirism - not because he’s an abusive person. that’s also evident from the information in his file from season 1. and it’s not disrespectful to compare cassidy’s narrative on the tv show to the struggles of a recovering addict bc the showrunners and the actor himself have done that explicitly multiple times and joe himself is a recovering addict who has spoken extensively about his experiences. I think he’d know. and he has said that cassidy being with jesse and tulip is like “therapy” for him.

moreover, as I said in an earlier post, it was jesse’s violence that was focused on as particularly dangerous in its own way this season (I go in-depth abt his s1 & 2 character arcs here and here) in a way that was never explored in the comics - with tulip’s disturbance w/ the way he punched Reggie for example and nearly killed Viktor highlighted in her conversation w/ Featherstone where she says aloud, unprompted, “Jesse would never do that” in reference to domestic violence bc sometimes she’s wondered if he would (even though he wouldn’t…he’s just very unstable at times for manifold reasons to do with the abuse in his past). you can’t ignore that. none of these characters is presented as The Ultimate Evil - they’re all deeply flawed and morally complex but ultimately good. and in the finale, it was cassidy who suggested they tell jesse about the camera (comic cassidy never would’ve done that and in fact in a similar situation in the comics, keeps such information a secret) and he also immediately called jesse when tulip was in trouble instead of just turning her. he called the ambulance (which Herr Starr diverted), tried to help Jesse all he could and suggested he use the Word and when that didn’t work, finally tried to turn her - and stopped to try to convince Jesse bc he wanted him to understand how dire the situation was. there was nothing sinister in his motives in the least. and it was pretty clear, based on how long it took him to decide to turn denis and how he asked seamus for advice and tried to get Jesse to help him with the Word, that he’d never even done that before.

also, just for the record, I don’t expect tulip and cassidy to end up together, and also I love tulip/jesse. tulipcass just happens to be my favorite relationship, but not to the exclusion of everything else.

[sansaasnark]

chloe tell us abt ur ocs *eyes emoji*

Omfg seriously thank you so much for giving me an excuse to talk about these stupid kids that I’ve had in my brain for like 5 years now! I actually plan to make a comic about them sometime down the line once I get a full story mapped out.

Deanna (Dean) Gallagher- An asexual genderfluid mess. (They don’t really care what people call them but tends to prefer she/her, they/them pronouns) She fancies herself a Robin Hood esque thief, performing large-scale heists, going to galas and ‘stealing’ what the rich claim to give to charity, and then actually gives it to charity. She also has pretty severe emotional issues which is ironic because her powers are centered around emotions. She’s a really perceptive empath, who can also- I wouldn’t say full on control- but greatly influence or coerce people into doing things if she suggests it due to the pheromones she exudes. She was taken to a testing facility when she was a kid after her mom died before she could be cycled into the system. They experimented on her for a year and a half before she was able to escape and she spent most of her life on the streets, bumming around a large city until she could afford the next bus ticket out.  Often experiences hallucinations due to lack of sleep and nightmares when she is able to catch an hour or two- she has really bad PTSD and is learning to deal with her alcoholic tendencies but they’re trying!!

Valerie (Val) Gutierrez- The Actual Worst. Imagine the most obnoxious fratboy ever but as a raging lesbian with morally grey values when it comes to murder and severe anger issues. Her mom got pregnant pretty young, fresh out of high school, and separated from the biological father so she was pretty much on her own and had to find a way to support herself financially. She signed up for some government-funded experiment that was advertised in a newspaper that offered to pay the participants, but it was actually a really shady genetic altering ordeal that ended up messing with the pregnancy. Val was fine but she was born with some super abilities like advanced healing, endurance, heightened senses, and WINGS.

She’s very blunt and can come off as really apathetic, though truthfully she doesn’t really care about anybody else other than those she considers family. Val doesn’t get close to people often because she feels like they don’t understand her which is part of the reason why she really connects with Dean (other than the shared emotional trauma), Dean’s powers stem from understanding people and Val Really Likes that; and because of her stronger constitution, Dean’s pheromones don’t affect her like they do others and she can speak more liberally with Val than with anyone else.

Hidaya- She doesn’t really remember her last name and was separated from her parents at a very young age. The clearest memory she has of them is the night of the car accident when they were driving home from one of her Bollywood dance classes. She’s really sensitive and gets choked up a lot of the time when she’s in public, she was later diagnosed by the doctors as selectively mute. Val and Dean sort of unofficially adopt her after her powers manifested. 

Bonus facts! She loves animals and is really fascinated by Dean’s uncanny ability to tame any and all creatures in under 10 seconds; they have fun trying to convince Val to adopt every cat and dog they come across but she drew the line at five animal friends. Here’s a crappy picture of how that conversation probably went.

Alistair (Al) Gallagher- One of the only normies in this story along with Danny. A Ginger White Boy, Al is Dean’s half-brother, they share a mother but have different fathers. His biological dad is a con artist that had been childhood friends with his mom back in Ireland. They made big plans to travel to America and start a life but as soon as she got pregnant, he pretty much bailed only popping up every now and again to ask for money. At one point when Dean was very young, he came back and their parents got into some heavy drugs. Al was a really responsible kid and took care of Dean most of the time. He really hates his dad and has a lot of pent-up resentment towards his mom for allowing him to keep messing up their family. When his mom overdosed, he was thrown into the foster care system and was forcefully separated from his sister. He tried to find her and kept searching for 15 years but was never successful (because she was never in the foster care system in the first place). Since he had a tumultuous childhood, he missed a lot of important elementary school education so he really struggled in middle school and high school. He met Danny when he was assigned as his tutor and later becoming friends- he had a crush on him but it didn’t work out and felt really stunted due to how things ended between them.

 Later on in life, he goes to art school where he really Lets Loose but kind of loses his muse and motivation to create. He experimented a lot and came out as pansexual to his adoptive mom, who was supportive if not a bit awkward. Al drops out of art school and learns to deal with his shit better than he had been and really starts to take his art seriously again, coming to the conclusion that school is Not For Him. He co-creates a comic that actually takes off and saves up enough money to travel the world a bit and ends up meeting an old friend again in his late twenties…

Daniel (Danny) Alvarez- Sweet boy… Protect at all costs….. He was really close with his mom before she passed away because of health issues. His dad was in the wind and his mother had no other family, so he had to go live with his Aunt and Uncle on his father’s side. They were very shitty and verbally abusive so Danny really struggled with his self-esteem and sense of identity. He’s a devout Roman Catholic and had a hard time admitting to himself that he was gay- he always enjoyed how boys looked aesthetically but he never had a full-on crush on one until he met Al. People in school can be brutal but Al was so genuinely nice to everyone and made Danny feel good about himself which was really rare. Al at one point tries to make a move but Danny was really stuck in a toxic mindset and still coming to terms with the possibility that he likes boys so some things were said, and feelings were hurt, and ultimately they avoided each other for the rest of their school years (or more accurately Danny was super guilty and wanted to apologize and explain but Al was avoiding him). He gets a football scholarship and finishes high school early, getting his GED, and moves out of his Aunt and Uncle’s house. He spends a large amount of his college experience learning that it’s okay to be human and not do everything perfectly, finally getting to the point where he is able to reconcile his guilt with his faith. In summary; college really widens his horizons. Ten years after he graduates, one of Danny’s colleagues invites him to their wedding in Paris and while he’s there he encounters an old flame.

[curlyshepards]

tim headcanons: fucking long ass edition im so sorry

again this is under a read more so @ mobile users....im sorry

What does their bedroom look like?

he shares a room with curly, so it looks like a tornado ripped through the room and only destroyed curly's half. his is nice and neat

Do they have any daily rituals?

this isnt really daily, but if he wakes up really early or comes home super later (like early hours of the morning) he'll most likely see his mom in the kitchen and they'll sit at the table and talk until someone else comes in. its the only time she acts like herself & not hanging off their stepdad and tim cherishes those times!!! but he never tells anyone abt their conversations

Do they exercise, and if so, what do they do? How often?

i can see him going to a gym every now and then, but mostly bc his buddy works there. they'd lift weights and goof around so hes not rlly into working out, he knows to stay fit tho

What would they do if they needed to make dinner but the kitchen was busy?

it depends on who was in the kitchen. if it was his stepdad he'd just leave the house and go out for dinner because he avoids him as much as he can. if it was angie he'd get her to make him something, but if it was his mom then he'd ask if shes eaten anything and would probably end up making somethin for the both of them

Cleanliness habits (personal, workspace, etc.)

hes SUPER organized. like with everything. it drives him insane that curly's such a slob

Eating habits and sample daily menu

for breakfast he usually just has coffee. but he gets fast food a lot (no one knows how he stays in such good shape) but if he doesnt go out to eat he'll just get food from his friends houses

Favorite way to waste time and feelings surrounding wasting time

he loves to play pool and card games!! he tries to avoid wasting time though, he always feels like theres something he could be doing to give his gang more power & respect

Favorite indulgence and feelings surrounding indulging

again i dont know what this means but every now and then he will indulge in a big ass chocolate milkshake and no one can stop him

Makeup?

just like curly he is all for makeup sex

Neuroses? Do they recognize them as such?

nope none

Intellectual pursuits?

he's actually really smart, and if he wanted to then he could have gone off to college. he's always loved leading his gang tho so that is his main priority

Favorite book genre?

the only thing he ever reads is the newspaper (their stepdad usually steals it after he reads it and they never see it again, so tim always makes sure to take the comic section out and save it for curly)

Sexual Orientation? And, regardless of own orientation, thoughts on sexual orientation in general?

hes straight but he doesnt really care about people sexual orientations. ya like who ya like and it doesnt affect him

Physical abnormalities? (Both visible and not, including injuries/disabilities, long-term illnesses, food-intolerances, etc.)

he has that big ass scar on his face, so there's that. hes also SLIGHTLY allergic to cat fur

Biggest and smallest short term goal?

biggest: buy a new leather jacket that DOESNT have rips in the sleeves smallest: get their house cleaned up bc all the beer bottles and broken glass on the floor is starting to give him a headache

Biggest and smallest long term goal?

biggest: officially lead the toughest gang in tulsa

smallest: get curly and angela through high school

Preferred mode of dress and rituals surrounding dress

basically just t-shirts and jeans. he rolls the sleeves of his shirts up and he keeps a comb in his back left pocket. he might be wearing a leather jacket, but he'll probably just have it slung over his shoulder

Favorite beverage?

coke

What do they think about before falling asleep at night?

his gang and how to make it better. it literally consumes his mind. he probably thinks abt curly too & if he'll ever be tough enough to be his second in command. tim really wants him to but deep down he knows that curly just isn't like him

Childhood illnesses? Any interesting stories behind them?

tim got REALLY sick when his dad took him fishing when he was young. he puked all into the lake and they ended up not catching any fish the whole weekend (which tims dad jokingly blamed on him) it was embarrassing at the time but eventually they were able to laugh it off

Turn-ons? Turn-offs?

turn ons: hickeys, confidence, tight jeans

turn offs: he hates clingy and it will definitely end up driving him away if a girl tries to lock him down

Given a blank piece of paper, a pencil, and nothing to do, what would happen?

a mean game of tic tac toe that probably incorporated gambling

How organized are they? How does this organization/disorganization manifest in their everyday life?

very organized!! its how hes so successful in leading his gang. he knows how to keep things in order and he plans things out

Is there one subject of study that they excel at? Or do they even care about intellectual pursuits at all?

he was very dedicated to graduating high school (mostly out of spite that no one thought he would do it) but he never really cared about his classes. he did what he had to do and then got out of there

How do they see themselves 5 years from today?

still a gang leader, hopefully more respected. (can we talk abt how tim sees himself as still living and curly has just kinda accepted that he probably wont be.,,...no.,,,,.....ok)

Do they have any plans for the future? Any contingency plans if things don’t workout?

once again his life revolves around his gang. he doesnt see it not working out, so he doesnt plan for anything else

What is their biggest regret?

he has two ok: one is not going on that last fishing trip with his dad. he'd gives almost anything to spend that one weekend with him again. the other is not being hard enough on curly and not toughening him up as much as he could have. he knows his brother is tough, but hes also got a soft side and tim hates it bc he knows it'll ruin his brother

Who do they see as their best friend?

his second in command, danny!!! theyve been friends since elementary school and hes the one guy tim can always fall back on

Their worst enemy?

the leader of the river kings most likely. they're his gangs biggest threat

Reaction to sudden extrapersonal disaster (eg The house is on fire! What do they do?)

he'd definitely be the one to fix the problem, even tho he most likely didnt cause it. he'd be calm about it though and just kinda move on

Reaction to sudden intrapersonal disaster (eg close family member suddenly dies)

if it were angela, curly, or his mom dying he'd lose it in anger. i dont see him as sulking or mourning over their death, he'd just get super angry and destructive

Most prized possession?

his dads old fishing hat !! he keeps it tucked away in his closet, but he never wears it

Thoughts on material possessions in general?

he doesnt care about them since he never really had them growing up

Concept of home and family?

tim is very family oriented and would do almost anything to protect them (except his stepdad, but tim doesnt consider him family. and half the time hes protecting his siblings and mom from their stepdad anyway)

Thoughts on privacy? (Are they a private person, or are they prone to ‘TMI’?)

VERY private. he doesnt share anything too personal bc he doesnt wanna give someone the power of having something to hold against him

What activities do they enjoy, but consider to be a waste of time?

he loves movies and could watch them all day, but he'd end up feeling too unproductive

What makes them feel guilty?

nothing he literally has 0 feelings

Are they more analytical or more emotional in their decision-making?

analytical by far !!! he likes to think of the long term effects on a decision

Would they consider themselves a Type A or Type B personality?

type a

What recharges them when they’re feeling drained?

relaxing with his friends. while he loves leading a gang he still likes to just chill w the guys like they did in high school. it reminds him of better times

Would you say that they have a superiority-complex? Inferiority-complex? Neither?

superiority complex for sure. in his eyes he is The Best

How misanthropic are they?

its not that he doesnt like humankind, its just the rich people. they look down on him so he does the same. he could get along easily with other greasers as long as theyre not in a gang and threatening his streets

Hobbies?

cards, pool, drinking

How far did they get in formal education? What are their views on formal education vs self-education?

he graduated high school! he values self education more though bc he's taught himself everything he needs to know to be successful

Religion?

atheist i guess. i dont think he believes in god but he also just doesnt think about it

Superstitions or views on the occult?

not superstitious at all

Do they express their thoughts through words or deeds?

deeds. words are pointless to him bc he knows most people will think he's just bluffing

If they were to fall in love, who (or what) is their ideal?

he would never.,,,...but i guess if he did it'd be with someone who could calm him down. in his eyes the whole world revolves around the gang, so they'd have to make him see that theres more to life than that. i can see him falling for someone innocent and kind and non judgemental. opposites attract u know

How do they express love?

very weird and awkward ways.....like he doesnt really know what hes doing (because he doesnt) he'd give mumbled compliments and hold your hand only if you're in private and try to take you somewhere nice but hes dressed too poorly and so people look at him and he gets annoyed and yall end up leaving but hey its the thought that counts right

If this person were to get into a fist fight, what is their fighting style like?

he fights very smoothly. he moves quickly and thats always his advantage

Is this person afraid of dying? Why or why not?

nope. he thinks he's invincible